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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: J2b on January 24, 2011, 12:12:00 PM
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I made the most important decision of my life last night, and today I am carrying out the plan. I am leaving the tobacco using community for good.
I have been a 1/2 to 1 can a day dipper (mainly cope or grizzly straight) for 10+ years. From the drive into work till just before bed, every 2 hours like clockwork. I would find myself watching the clock, just waiting for my 2 hour's to be up. I think I had convinced myself that if I waited the two hours I was in control. 'bang head'
Well, I want the control back. a cousin pointed me to this site, I did some reading and realized it was time.
Lets Do this!
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Congrats on making choice to kick the nic bitch. Sounds like you have already been reading up, which is a great thing. These guys (and gals) on here are great and can help you as long as you help yourself.
Welcome to the world of quitters
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I made the most important decision of my life last night, and today I am carrying out the plan. I am leaving the tobacco using community for good.
I have been a 1/2 to 1 can a day dipper (mainly cope or grizzly straight) for 10+ years. From the drive into work till just before bed, every 2 hours like clockwork. I would find myself watching the clock, just waiting for my 2 hour's to be up. I think I had convinced myself that if I waited the two hours I was in control. 'bang head'
Well, I want the control back. a cousin pointed me to this site, I did some reading and realized it was time.
Lets Do this!
Yep, I was always looking for the perfect time to quit. Amazingly, I never found it. No better time to quit than right-the-fuck-now. Glad to be quit with you.
I notice you say you are done with tobacco. You probably know this, but just to make sure, this site demands that you be nicotine free. When you post roll, you are promising not to use nicotine in any form that day.
Welcome.
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I made the most important decision of my life last night, and today I am carrying out the plan. I am leaving the tobacco using community for good.
I have been a 1/2 to 1 can a day dipper (mainly cope or grizzly straight) for 10+ years. From the drive into work till just before bed, every 2 hours like clockwork. I would find myself watching the clock, just waiting for my 2 hour's to be up. I think I had convinced myself that if I waited the two hours I was in control. 'bang head'
Well, I want the control back. a cousin pointed me to this site, I did some reading and realized it was time.Â
Lets Do this!
Yep, I was always looking for the perfect time to quit. Amazingly, I never found it. No better time to quit than right-the-fuck-now. Glad to be quit with you.
I notice you say you are done with tobacco. You probably know this, but just to make sure, this site demands that you be nicotine free. When you post roll, you are promising not to use nicotine in any form that day.
Welcome.
Yep, nicotine free. No gum, patches, smokes, etc.
poor choice of words on my part.
whew, triggers 1, 2, and 3 (drive to work, post coffee, and post lunch) are past me. cant say its been easy, but gotta start somewhere.
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I made the most important decision of my life last night, and today I am carrying out the plan. I am leaving the tobacco using community for good.
I have been a 1/2 to 1 can a day dipper (mainly cope or grizzly straight) for 10+ years. From the drive into work till just before bed, every 2 hours like clockwork. I would find myself watching the clock, just waiting for my 2 hour's to be up. I think I had convinced myself that if I waited the two hours I was in control.  'bang head'
Well, I want the control back. a cousin pointed me to this site, I did some reading and realized it was time.Â
Lets Do this!
Yep, I was always looking for the perfect time to quit. Amazingly, I never found it. No better time to quit than right-the-fuck-now. Glad to be quit with you.
I notice you say you are done with tobacco. You probably know this, but just to make sure, this site demands that you be nicotine free. When you post roll, you are promising not to use nicotine in any form that day.
Welcome.
Yep, nicotine free. No gum, patches, smokes, etc.
poor choice of words on my part.
whew, triggers 1, 2, and 3 (drive to work, post coffee, and post lunch) are past me. cant say its been easy, but gotta start somewhere.
Great Quit so far. Remember each of those milestone triggers that you overcome. They will give you strength in overcoming the next trigger. Proud to be quit with you!!
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I made the most important decision of my life last night, and today I am carrying out the plan. I am leaving the tobacco using community for good.
I have been a 1/2 to 1 can a day dipper (mainly cope or grizzly straight) for 10+ years. From the drive into work till just before bed, every 2 hours like clockwork. I would find myself watching the clock, just waiting for my 2 hour's to be up. I think I had convinced myself that if I waited the two hours I was in control.  'bang head'
Well, I want the control back. a cousin pointed me to this site, I did some reading and realized it was time.Â
Lets Do this!
Yep, I was always looking for the perfect time to quit. Amazingly, I never found it. No better time to quit than right-the-fuck-now. Glad to be quit with you.
I notice you say you are done with tobacco. You probably know this, but just to make sure, this site demands that you be nicotine free. When you post roll, you are promising not to use nicotine in any form that day.
Welcome.
Yep, nicotine free. No gum, patches, smokes, etc.
poor choice of words on my part.
whew, triggers 1, 2, and 3 (drive to work, post coffee, and post lunch) are past me. cant say its been easy, but gotta start somewhere.
Good job getting past triggers. I'm 18 days quit. I'm no expert, but for some reason this one day at a time thing works if you're committed. It's tough to tell the nic whore that you will never see her again, but it's a lot easier to tell her "not today." Then get up tomorrow and do the same thing.
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Day 1 in the books. Parts were tough, I think the worst is how off balance and kind of disconnected I felt all day. Good thing I had plenty of distractions, and found a nearby fake (no tobacco, no nicotine) chew place pretty close. Alos ordered my sample of smoky mountain tonight.
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yeah the fog is a real bitch :)
hang tough, and quit one day at a time.
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Good work jost, keep it up. Like gman said, fight the war one day at a time and you'll make it through just fine.
We'll fight along side of you.
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The first 10 days or so will be a blur. You can make it, and you will be better off on the other side. Stick with it. Don't even consider giving in, not even in your mind.
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Huzzah for jost2brown! Isn't Huzzah a fun word? I learned it this past year while touring the east coast. Huzzah Huzzah Huzzah (It's probably not as funny since you can't see the stupid expression I am making while saying it)
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Huzzah for jost2brown! Isn't Huzzah a fun word? I learned it this past year while touring the east coast. Huzzah Huzzah Huzzah (It's probably not as funny since you can't see the stupid expression I am making while saying it)
Nothing from either coast makes much sense to me. Is Huzzah east coast for hooray? :unsure:
if so, cool and thanks! 'boob'
if it is east coast for "you putz, shut the fuck up", well then not so cool. 'Finger'
(p.s. please note day 3 is being a real SOB right now. gettin through this day with my quit is going to happen, but there may be carnage in its wake.)
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Huzzah for jost2brown! Isn't Huzzah a fun word? I learned it this past year while touring the east coast. Huzzah Huzzah Huzzah (It's probably not as funny since you can't see the stupid expression I am making while saying it)
Nothing from either coast makes much sense to me. Is Huzzah east coast for hooray? :unsure:
if so, cool and thanks! 'boob'
if it is east coast for "you putz, shut the fuck up", well then not so cool. 'Finger'
(p.s. please note day 3 is being a real SOB right now. gettin through this day with my quit is going to happen, but there may be carnage in its wake.)
Its short for Hooray! LOL Dude that is funny "you putz, shut the fuck up" like I would say that on day 3. Maybe tomorrow. Hang in there buddy. We gonna do day 3 together. Sending you a PM
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Great job...keep it up.
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Congrats on your 70 hours Josh!
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You too hootie. Here's to the next 24!
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Have a good day my friend!
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Day 6. First Saturday dip free in god knows how long. First night since day 1 that I have slept well. Big thanks to my fellow may 11 3 balled quittin bastards, and a HUGE shoutout to ready and the other ktc vets who have been supporting, encouraging, and even belittling us to keep our word to ourselves and our feloow quitters.
You all make this work. I am proud to call myself a quitter. I am proud to be part of this site. I amproud that I had breakfast, coffee, and shit without thinking abou a dip.
I know it is going to get rough before it gets better, but I know I have the best support system to turn too when it gets rough. Hats off to you vets who are willing to help us roll bumping, foggy, quittards through this.
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Day 6. First Saturday dip free in god knows how long. First night since day 1 that I have slept well. Big thanks to my fellow may 11 3 balled quittin bastards, and a HUGE shoutout to ready and the other ktc vets who have been supporting, encouraging, and even belittling us to keep our word to ourselves and our feloow quitters.
You all make this work. I am proud to call myself a quitter. I am proud to be part of this site. I amproud that I had breakfast, coffee, and shit without thinking abou a dip.
I know it is going to get rough before it gets better, but I know I have the best support system to turn too when it gets rough. Hats off to you vets who are willing to help us roll bumping, foggy, quittards through this.
Damn proud of ya Josh. It will get better. You have no idea how great things will get.
You can do this.
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Day 6. First Saturday dip free in god knows how long. First night since day 1 that I have slept well. Big thanks to my fellow may 11 3 balled quittin bastards, and a HUGE shoutout to ready and the other ktc vets who have been supporting, encouraging, and even belittling us to keep our word to ourselves and our feloow quitters.
You all make this work. I am proud to call myself a quitter. I am proud to be part of this site. I amproud that I had breakfast, coffee, and shit without thinking abou a dip.
I know it is going to get rough before it gets better, but I know I have the best support system to turn too when it gets rough. Hats off to you vets who are willing to help us roll bumping, foggy, quittards through this.
Very nice...
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Day 51. My, how things have changed.
I know I have said this a lot lately, but its true - I would not be here if not for the 3 Balled Quittin Basterds in May 2011 and the KTC vets who have cared enough about my quit to bust my balls, send PM's, and call. You all are truly lifesavers.
Magnum likes to call me a forum whore because I am on all day. FWIW, I work behind a computer most the time (unless I am out doing audits or inspections), so I just leave the site up after posting roll and check throughout the day for attendance and tracking. It has become a part of my day, and has been partly instrumental to my quit.
For the most part, I would say I have been pretty lucky with the symptoms of quitting; fog has been at worst annoying, headaches have been minimal, and I have always been kind of a dick so no change there. So far, so good. Sig has kept warning me about an upcoming funk, so I have that to look forward to I guess.
I am really enjoying the time I get to spend with my (10 wks preggo) wife, my 16 month old son, my dogs, hell everyone in my life that I took time away from to stuff my face. I am also enjoying the extra pocket money, though I have developed a seed and chewing gum habit.
Habit. Its sad, but thats what I used to call my addiction to nicotine. 51 days later and I really understand the difference between a "habit" and an addiction. I can break a bad seed habit, but I will be an addict for life.
I read a post yesterday that really hit home: I am realizing that my penance for becoming an addict is posting roll every day
or something to that effect.
If posting roll every day, and keeping my word, is what it takes to keep enjoying the benefits of time with my family and friends, then it is well worth it. If the simple act of posting roll saves my life, I cannot think of a single reason that will ever be good enough NOT to post roll. Not even being abducted by aliens like TCope.
J2b - day 51 quit.
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You're the lowest paid cop/nanny/priest/accountant/leg-breaker that I can think of at the moment.
Ninereasons - 29 days worth of "glad you're here, josh", and counting.
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Magnum likes to call me a forum whore because I am on all day.
The 524 posts in 51 days called you a whore not me! 'na na'
All of May is lucky to have someone who gives a shit as much as you do.
Keep up the ball bustin' hard work!
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Magnum likes to call me a forum whore because I am on all day.
The 524 posts in 51 days called you a whore not me! 'na na'
All of May is lucky to have someone who gives a shit as much as you do.
Keep up the ball bustin' hard work!
I think magnum and josh are going to sneak off together for a little quit rendezvous. I little "alone" time, without the old ladies slowin them down...Brokeback style...
'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup'
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Magnum likes to call me a forum whore because I am on all day.
The 524 posts in 51 days called you a whore not me! 'na na'
All of May is lucky to have someone who gives a shit as much as you do.
Keep up the ball bustin' hard work!
I think magnum and josh are going to sneak off together for a little quit rendezvous. I little "alone" time, without the old ladies slowin them down...Brokeback style...
'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup'
dont be jealous ODAAT, I will share my quit with your wife anytime 'arse'
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Magnum likes to call me a forum whore because I am on all day.
The 524 posts in 51 days called you a whore not me! 'na na'
All of May is lucky to have someone who gives a shit as much as you do.
Keep up the ball bustin' hard work!
I think magnum and josh are going to sneak off together for a little quit rendezvous. I little "alone" time, without the old ladies slowin them down...Brokeback style...
'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup'
dont be jealous ODAAT, I will share my quit with your wife anytime 'arse'
Nah.....looks like magnum can take all you can dish out.....better save your quittin love for him.
:wub:
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Magnum likes to call me a forum whore because I am on all day.
The 524 posts in 51 days called you a whore not me! 'na na'
All of May is lucky to have someone who gives a shit as much as you do.
Keep up the ball bustin' hard work!
I think magnum and josh are going to sneak off together for a little quit rendezvous. I little "alone" time, without the old ladies slowin them down...Brokeback style...
'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup'
dont be jealous ODAAT, I will share my quit with your wife anytime 'arse'
Nah.....looks like magnum can take all you can dish out.....better save your quittin love for him.
:wub:
enough with the gay fantasy ODAAT, the real question is how bad is OSU gonna stomp UNC in the Elite Eight (if UNC makes it, that is)?
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Magnum likes to call me a forum whore because I am on all day.
The 524 posts in 51 days called you a whore not me! 'na na'
All of May is lucky to have someone who gives a shit as much as you do.
Keep up the ball bustin' hard work!
I think magnum and josh are going to sneak off together for a little quit rendezvous. I little "alone" time, without the old ladies slowin them down...Brokeback style...
'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup'
dont be jealous ODAAT, I will share my quit with your wife anytime 'arse'
Nah.....looks like magnum can take all you can dish out.....better save your quittin love for him.
:wub:
enough with the gay fantasy ODAAT, the real question is how bad is OSU gonna stomp UNC in the Elite Eight (if UNC makes it, that is)?
osu is a basketball school.
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Magnum likes to call me a forum whore because I am on all day.
The 524 posts in 51 days called you a whore not me! 'na na'
All of May is lucky to have someone who gives a shit as much as you do.
Keep up the ball bustin' hard work!
I think magnum and josh are going to sneak off together for a little quit rendezvous. I little "alone" time, without the old ladies slowin them down...Brokeback style...
'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup'
dont be jealous ODAAT, I will share my quit with your wife anytime 'arse'
Nah.....looks like magnum can take all you can dish out.....better save your quittin love for him.
:wub:
enough with the gay fantasy ODAAT, the real question is how bad is OSU gonna stomp UNC in the Elite Eight (if UNC makes it, that is)?
UNC exits at the sweet 16 this year. If they get lucky and make it to the Elite 8, they get blasted by whoever is waiting on them. The freshman/sophomore nerves take over I'm afraid. With the exception of Watts and Zeller, nobody else on the roster has been to the NCAA tournament.
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Magnum likes to call me a forum whore because I am on all day.
The 524 posts in 51 days called you a whore not me! 'na na'
All of May is lucky to have someone who gives a shit as much as you do.
Keep up the ball bustin' hard work!
I think magnum and josh are going to sneak off together for a little quit rendezvous. I little "alone" time, without the old ladies slowin them down...Brokeback style...
'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup'
dont be jealous ODAAT, I will share my quit with your wife anytime 'arse'
Nah.....looks like magnum can take all you can dish out.....better save your quittin love for him.
:wub:
enough with the gay fantasy ODAAT, the real question is how bad is OSU gonna stomp UNC in the Elite Eight (if UNC makes it, that is)?
UNC exits at the sweet 16 this year. If they get lucky and make it to the Elite 8, they get blasted by whoever is waiting on them. The freshman/sophomore nerves take over I'm afraid. With the exception of Watts and Zeller, nobody else on the roster has been to the NCAA tournament.
damn, didn't realize they were that young.
and yes gmann, OSU is both a basketball and football school.
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Its days like today...
1. Stupid Cat puked on the (white) carpet. I stepped in it. Before Coffee. Cats are lucky to have nine lives.
2. Dogs came in from outside with muddy paws. I wiped said paws; of course the big dumb one pissed on his front legs. Cant kill the dog, they dont have nine lives and I need them for #5.
3. Random DA testing on a Monday morning. When I have 2 days worth of shit piled on my desk already? ferfucksake. Monday? at month/quarter end? Really? Stupid HR...
4. Every time I start trying to get work done, the phone rings with another statement of human stupidity. "We cant get on the internet; can you remote in and take a look?" Uh, how the fuck am I supposed to do that again?
5. My brother is coming into town tonight from Seattle. That is cool. Unfortunately, he is bringing his annoying wife and 3 hell spawn. I probably wont move fast enough to stop my dogs from eating the kids this time.
6. Wife fucked up and did not save an editable copy of the guest list for a big family function this weekend (saved as pdf). somehow this is my fault.
(edit) 7. And Pandora is really sucking so far today. No fucker, I dont want to hear Hinder, Kris Allen, or any other homoerotic bullshit you feel like playing. Ferfucksake, how does this nonsense even remotely link to the artists or liked songs on this station?
And its just now noon? Fuck me running.
Before anyone worries though, I posted roll so there is no chance of me caving today. Just needed a place to vent 'fore I kill something besides the cat.
Monday 'tough' J2b
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Its days like today...
1. Stupid Cat puked on the (white) carpet. I stepped in it. Before Coffee. Cats are lucky to have nine lives.
2. Dogs came in from outside with muddy paws. I wiped said paws; of course the big dumb one pissed on his front legs. Cant kill the dog, they dont have nine lives and I need them for #5.
3. Random DA testing on a Monday morning. When I have 2 days worth of shit piled on my desk already? ferfucksake. Monday? at month/quarter end? Really? Stupid HR...
4. Every time I start trying to get work done, the phone rings with another statement of human stupidity. "We cant get on the internet; can you remote in and take a look?" Uh, how the fuck am I supposed to do that again?
5. My brother is coming into town tonight from Seattle. That is cool. Unfortunately, he is bringing his annoying wife and 3 hell spawn. I probably wont move fast enough to stop my dogs from eating the kids this time.
6. Wife fucked up and did not save an editable copy of the guest list for a big family function this weekend (saved as pdf). somehow this is my fault.
(edit) 7. And Pandora is really sucking so far today. No fucker, I dont want to hear Hinder, Kris Allen, or any other homoerotic bullshit you feel like playing. Ferfucksake, how does this nonsense even remotely link to the artists or liked songs on this station?
And its just now noon? Fuck me running.
Before anyone worries though, I posted roll so there is no chance of me caving today. Just needed a place to vent 'fore I kill something besides the cat.
Monday 'tough' J2b
Classic !!
Monday sucks anyway... !!
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Being on vacation for the first time quit was not as much of a struggle as I thought it would be. Today, with its absolutely perfect weather, showed me how awesome being quit can be. Took my wife and son to the park, where there were 3 other kids his age to play with and their dads. Instead of hanging back cause I had a fat lip of cat shit in my mouth, I actually bullshitted with the other dads. Amazing what a difference being quit makes in not only our lives, but the lives of our loved ones. Now my son has 3 new playmates in our area that he would not have if was still a slave.
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Being on vacation for the first time quit was not as much of a struggle as I thought it would be. Today, with its absolutely perfect weather, showed me how awesome being quit can be. Took my wife and son to the park, where there were 3 other kids his age to play with and their dads. Instead of hanging back cause I had a fat lip of cat shit in my mouth, I actually bullshitted with the other dads. Amazing what a difference being quit makes in not only our lives, but the lives of our loved ones. Now my son has 3 new playmates in our area that he would not have if was still a slave.
:)
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Being on vacation for the first time quit was not as much of a struggle as I thought it would be. Today, with its absolutely perfect weather, showed me how awesome being quit can be. Took my wife and son to the park, where there were 3 other kids his age to play with and their dads. Instead of hanging back cause I had a fat lip of cat shit in my mouth, I actually bullshitted with the other dads. Amazing what a difference being quit makes in not only our lives, but the lives of our loved ones. Now my son has 3 new playmates in our area that he would not have if was still a slave.
Right on j2b, Here's to being quit 'Cheers'
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Being on vacation for the first time quit was not as much of a struggle as I thought it would be. Today, with its absolutely perfect weather, showed me how awesome being quit can be. Took my wife and son to the park, where there were 3 other kids his age to play with and their dads. Instead of hanging back cause I had a fat lip of cat shit in my mouth, I actually bullshitted with the other dads. Amazing what a difference being quit makes in not only our lives, but the lives of our loved ones. Now my son has 3 new playmates in our area that he would not have if was still a slave.
Right on j2b, Here's to being quit 'Cheers'
I have always tried to show that there are not only health benefits to quiting but "QUALITY OF LIFE" benefits as well.
Enjoy your freedom brudda.
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Being on vacation for the first time quit was not as much of a struggle as I thought it would be. Today, with its absolutely perfect weather, showed me how awesome being quit can be. Took my wife and son to the park, where there were 3 other kids his age to play with and their dads. Instead of hanging back cause I had a fat lip of cat shit in my mouth, I actually bullshitted with the other dads. Amazing what a difference being quit makes in not only our lives, but the lives of our loved ones. Now my son has 3 new playmates in our area that he would not have if was still a slave.
Right on j2b, Here's to being quit 'Cheers'
I have always tried to show that there are not only health benefits to quiting but "QUALITY OF LIFE" benefits as well.
Enjoy your freedom brudda.
Life really is much better without Nic. It will continue to improve as you go....
Great work !
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Day 99. 1 day away from the mythical Hall of Fame. I got lots to be thankful for, that I would rather not have lost in the shuffle, so I will save those for the speech.
Today, I was reflecting back on the last 99 days and was caught offguard by a massive crave. It was a stark reminder that day 100, tomorrow, hell the Hall of Fame, doesn't change things. Its just another day. An awesome milestone, but not a resting spot nor a chance to let down my guard. Tomorrow is to far away to think about. Best just honor my word, stay quit for today, and worry about tomorrow tomorrow.
Its worked for 99 days, and if it ain't broke don't fix it.
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Congrats Josh. You are a bad ass quitter. I have seen you help others as well.
Well done.
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Congratulations, captain. The fame looks good on you.
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Day 137
Read this in Sept:
Go to the pink welcome center link above and read about why we post roll on this site and how to post roll. If you follow the rules here, you will be quit. Get up, post roll, keep your word and repeat. Doesn't matter if it's been six months or sixteen years, if you follow this system, you will never go back to being a slave to the can. Good to be quit with you.
the line "If you follow the rules here, you will be quit got me to thinking about my quit. Is it really just that? Is that all it takes? The answer I come up with is yes and no.
Yes, because posting my promise daily does help reinforce my quit, and reminds me of WHY i quit and WHAT this addiction has done to me.
Yes, because I am a man of my word and there is no way I am letting my brothers down. There is NO chance that I will cave if have posted my promise.
Yes, because it has worked for 137 days in a row.
No, because its more than that.
The decision to post roll for me is the answer to a series of questions that I run through every morning (subconsciously):
Do I value my life and my family more than nicotine? If yes, post roll.
Do I want to go back to being a slave? If no, post roll.
Is all this freedom now, and the years of extra time to watch my children have children later, worth the 5-10 minutes I will spend "actively" posting roll, bullshitting, posting support, etc.? If yes, post roll.
Is a fat lip worth throwing away the friendships I have formed with my quit brothers (and sisters)? If no, post roll.
(this one changes from time to time) How can I leave maineguy, who has limited means to post his promise and guard his quit, who I promised I would post his promise daily via text, how can I leave him hanging out to dry? I cant, so I will quit today too.
So while following the "rules" (post roll, keep your word, repeat) is an important part of being quit, it is not what makes one quit. It is a function of BEING quit. What makes me quit is NOT the act of posting roll, it is the DECISION that I am quit. I make that decision EVERY day, and then I post roll and hold myself accountable to my brothers.
So if newbies are reading this, dont think simply posting roll is some miracle cure. Its not. You have to want it. You have to decide to be quit today, and then post roll.
As some put it, the hardest easy thing you can do.
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Day 137
Read this in Sept:
Go to the pink welcome center link above and read about why we post roll on this site and how to post roll. If you follow the rules here, you will be quit. Get up, post roll, keep your word and repeat. Doesn't matter if it's been six months or sixteen years, if you follow this system, you will never go back to being a slave to the can. Good to be quit with you.
the line "If you follow the rules here, you will be quit got me to thinking about my quit. Is it really just that? Is that all it takes? The answer I come up with is yes and no.
Yes, because posting my promise daily does help reinforce my quit, and reminds me of WHY i quit and WHAT this addiction has done to me.
Yes, because I am a man of my word and there is no way I am letting my brothers down. There is NO chance that I will cave if have posted my promise.
Yes, because it has worked for 137 days in a row.
No, because its more than that.
The decision to post roll for me is the answer to a series of questions that I run through every morning (subconsciously):
Do I value my life and my family more than nicotine? If yes, post roll.
Do I want to go back to being a slave? If no, post roll.
Is all this freedom now, and the years of extra time to watch my children have children later, worth the 5-10 minutes I will spend "actively" posting roll, bullshitting, posting support, etc.? If yes, post roll.
Is a fat lip worth throwing away the friendships I have formed with my quit brothers (and sisters)? If no, post roll.
(this one changes from time to time) How can I leave maineguy, who has limited means to post his promise and guard his quit, who I promised I would post his promise daily via text, how can I leave him hanging out to dry? I cant, so I will quit today too.
So while following the "rules" (post roll, keep your word, repeat) is an important part of being quit, it is not what makes one quit. It is a function of BEING quit. What makes me quit is NOT the act of posting roll, it is the DECISION that I am quit. I make that decision EVERY day, and then I post roll and hold myself accountable to my brothers.
So if newbies are reading this, dont think simply posting roll is some miracle cure. Its not. You have to want it. You have to decide to be quit today, and then post roll.
As some put it, the hardest easy thing you can do.
What? No citation to your source?
Point taken. However, there will be times when you need to just poll roll without thinking about it at all, in my opinion. Once you've posted roll, nothing else matters if you're a man of your word, so the ANSWERS to your questions are irrelevant at that point. I mean, what if one day a fatty WAS more important to you than gay sex? If you've posted roll, you'll still be having gay sex, but you WILL NOT be ingesting nicotine because you've given your word. And the gay sex is what you really wanted anyway, right?
We will always WANT to be nicotine free, it's just a matter of doing what it takes to REMAIN nicotine free. Posting roll, for me, is making the decision without thinking about it all.
I can foresee a time when I think I'm doing so well that I don't need to be here anymore. But what I can gather from those who have come back after a cave is that once you get away from the site, you start thinking that you must not be the same as all of the old timers that still post well after their comma. In other words, you start thinking "I'm still quit without the site, so I must be different from those guys. Maybe I can have just one." In that regard, my point is that if you post roll everyday and are a man/woman of your word, everything else is irrelevant.
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Day 137
Read this in Sept:
Go to the pink welcome center link above and read about why we post roll on this site and how to post roll. If you follow the rules here, you will be quit. Get up, post roll, keep your word and repeat. Doesn't matter if it's been six months or sixteen years, if you follow this system, you will never go back to being a slave to the can. Good to be quit with you.
the line "If you follow the rules here, you will be quit got me to thinking about my quit. Is it really just that? Is that all it takes? The answer I come up with is yes and no.
Yes, because posting my promise daily does help reinforce my quit, and reminds me of WHY i quit and WHAT this addiction has done to me.
Yes, because I am a man of my word and there is no way I am letting my brothers down. There is NO chance that I will cave if have posted my promise.
Yes, because it has worked for 137 days in a row.
No, because its more than that.
The decision to post roll for me is the answer to a series of questions that I run through every morning (subconsciously):
Do I value my life and my family more than nicotine? If yes, post roll.
Do I want to go back to being a slave? If no, post roll.
Is all this freedom now, and the years of extra time to watch my children have children later, worth the 5-10 minutes I will spend "actively" posting roll, bullshitting, posting support, etc.? If yes, post roll.
Is a fat lip worth throwing away the friendships I have formed with my quit brothers (and sisters)? If no, post roll.
(this one changes from time to time) How can I leave maineguy, who has limited means to post his promise and guard his quit, who I promised I would post his promise daily via text, how can I leave him hanging out to dry? I cant, so I will quit today too.
So while following the "rules" (post roll, keep your word, repeat) is an important part of being quit, it is not what makes one quit. It is a function of BEING quit. What makes me quit is NOT the act of posting roll, it is the DECISION that I am quit. I make that decision EVERY day, and then I post roll and hold myself accountable to my brothers.
So if newbies are reading this, dont think simply posting roll is some miracle cure. Its not. You have to want it. You have to decide to be quit today, and then post roll.
As some put it, the hardest easy thing you can do.
What? No citation to your source?
Point taken. However, there will be times when you need to just poll roll without thinking about it at all, in my opinion. Once you've posted roll, nothing else matters if you're a man of your word, so the ANSWERS to your questions are irrelevant at that point. I mean, what if one day a fatty WAS more important to you than gay sex? If you've posted roll, you'll still be having gay sex, but you WILL NOT be ingesting nicotine because you've given your word. And the gay sex is what you really wanted anyway, right?
We will always WANT to be nicotine free, it's just a matter of doing what it takes to REMAIN nicotine free. Posting roll, for me, is making the decision without thinking about it all.
I can foresee a time when I think I'm doing so well that I don't need to be here anymore. But what I can gather from those who have come back after a cave is that once you get away from the site, you start thinking that you must not be the same as all of the old timers that still post well after their comma. In other words, you start thinking "I'm still quit without the site, so I must be different from those guys. Maybe I can have just one." In that regard, my point is that if you post roll everyday and are a man/woman of your word, everything else is irrelevant.
While gay sex may interest you enough that you could be tempted to take fatty in the mouth and in the rear, its just does not have that appeal to me. And stop sending me pics of your junk - for the last time I AM NOT INTERESTED! 'na na'
You do make some good points, so let me get serious for a second. In case you didn't pick up on this, the questions are rhetorical. But the day I was finally honest enough with my self to be able to ask them is the day I decided enough was enough.
I DO value my life more than nicotine;
I DO NOT like being a slave;
I DO enjoy freedom and want to see my kids grown;
I HAVE made some great friends on this forum.
While the questions drone on in my head, the answers WILL NOT change.
Just like you cannot wake up one day and decide you are no longer gay, I will not wake up tomorrow and decide that I would love to go back to being a slave.
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Day 137
Read this in Sept:
Go to the pink welcome center link above and read about why we post roll on this site and how to post roll. If you follow the rules here, you will be quit. Get up, post roll, keep your word and repeat. Doesn't matter if it's been six months or sixteen years, if you follow this system, you will never go back to being a slave to the can. Good to be quit with you.
the line "If you follow the rules here, you will be quit got me to thinking about my quit. Is it really just that? Is that all it takes? The answer I come up with is yes and no.
Yes, because posting my promise daily does help reinforce my quit, and reminds me of WHY i quit and WHAT this addiction has done to me.
Yes, because I am a man of my word and there is no way I am letting my brothers down. There is NO chance that I will cave if have posted my promise.
Yes, because it has worked for 137 days in a row.
No, because its more than that.
The decision to post roll for me is the answer to a series of questions that I run through every morning (subconsciously):
Do I value my life and my family more than nicotine? If yes, post roll.
Do I want to go back to being a slave? If no, post roll.
Is all this freedom now, and the years of extra time to watch my children have children later, worth the 5-10 minutes I will spend "actively" posting roll, bullshitting, posting support, etc.? If yes, post roll.
Is a fat lip worth throwing away the friendships I have formed with my quit brothers (and sisters)? If no, post roll.
(this one changes from time to time) How can I leave maineguy, who has limited means to post his promise and guard his quit, who I promised I would post his promise daily via text, how can I leave him hanging out to dry? I cant, so I will quit today too.
So while following the "rules" (post roll, keep your word, repeat) is an important part of being quit, it is not what makes one quit. It is a function of BEING quit. What makes me quit is NOT the act of posting roll, it is the DECISION that I am quit. I make that decision EVERY day, and then I post roll and hold myself accountable to my brothers.
So if newbies are reading this, dont think simply posting roll is some miracle cure. Its not. You have to want it. You have to decide to be quit today, and then post roll.
As some put it, the hardest easy thing you can do.
What? No citation to your source?
Point taken. However, there will be times when you need to just poll roll without thinking about it at all, in my opinion. Once you've posted roll, nothing else matters if you're a man of your word, so the ANSWERS to your questions are irrelevant at that point. I mean, what if one day a fatty WAS more important to you than gay sex? If you've posted roll, you'll still be having gay sex, but you WILL NOT be ingesting nicotine because you've given your word. And the gay sex is what you really wanted anyway, right?
We will always WANT to be nicotine free, it's just a matter of doing what it takes to REMAIN nicotine free. Posting roll, for me, is making the decision without thinking about it all.
I can foresee a time when I think I'm doing so well that I don't need to be here anymore. But what I can gather from those who have come back after a cave is that once you get away from the site, you start thinking that you must not be the same as all of the old timers that still post well after their comma. In other words, you start thinking "I'm still quit without the site, so I must be different from those guys. Maybe I can have just one." In that regard, my point is that if you post roll everyday and are a man/woman of your word, everything else is irrelevant.
While gay sex may interest you enough that you could be tempted to take fatty in the mouth and in the rear, its just does not have that appeal to me. And stop sending me pics of your junk - for the last time I AM NOT INTERESTED! 'na na'
You do make some good points, so let me get serious for a second. In case you didn't pick up on this, the questions are rhetorical. But the day I was finally honest enough with my self to be able to ask them is the day I decided enough was enough.
I DO value my life more than nicotine;
I DO NOT like being a slave;
I DO enjoy freedom and want to see my kids grown;
I HAVE made some great friends on this forum.
While the questions drone on in my head, the answers WILL NOT change.
Just like you cannot wake up one day and decide you are no longer gay, I will not wake up tomorrow and decide that I would love to go back to being a slave.
The answers to those questions are presumably the same for all nicotine addicts, whether they are currently using or not. I'm sure you valued your life more than nicotine back when you were using, right? But you weren't quit. And from what you're saying, you never really asked those questions of yourself. Okay, fair enough.
This is really just a chicken or the egg discussion anyway, so I'm not disagreeing with you at all. I'm just saying that there were plenty of times when I sat around listing all the things that were (in theory) more important to me than nicotine. But I wasn't quit.
As you know, I quit the first seven days on my own and then realized I needed this place. Things were actually easier once roll was posted each day. Once roll is posted, it doesn't matter whether your question is rhetorical or not.
In any event, you're a lousy fucking softball player, j2b.
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This is PINK you asshat!
This is SALMON you fag!
Ferfucksake
Get your shit together.
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PS. Nice discussion. Thanks.
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 This is PINK you asshat!
 This is SALMON you fag!
Ferfucksake
Get your shit together.
Does this make you hot LooT?
And your welcome.
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 This is PINK you asshat!
 This is SALMON you fag!
Ferfucksake
Get your shit together.
Does this make you hot LooT?
And your welcome.
Goldenrod ROCKS! Not quite as much as Salmon...but it's up there.
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Day 137
Read this in Sept:
Go to the pink welcome center link above and read about why we post roll on this site and how to post roll. If you follow the rules here, you will be quit. Get up, post roll, keep your word and repeat. Doesn't matter if it's been six months or sixteen years, if you follow this system, you will never go back to being a slave to the can. Good to be quit with you.
the line "If you follow the rules here, you will be quit got me to thinking about my quit. Is it really just that? Is that all it takes? The answer I come up with is yes and no.
Yes, because posting my promise daily does help reinforce my quit, and reminds me of WHY i quit and WHAT this addiction has done to me.
Yes, because I am a man of my word and there is no way I am letting my brothers down. There is NO chance that I will cave if have posted my promise.
Yes, because it has worked for 137 days in a row.
No, because its more than that.
The decision to post roll for me is the answer to a series of questions that I run through every morning (subconsciously):
Do I value my life and my family more than nicotine? If yes, post roll.
Do I want to go back to being a slave? If no, post roll.
Is all this freedom now, and the years of extra time to watch my children have children later, worth the 5-10 minutes I will spend "actively" posting roll, bullshitting, posting support, etc.? If yes, post roll.
Is a fat lip worth throwing away the friendships I have formed with my quit brothers (and sisters)? If no, post roll.
(this one changes from time to time) How can I leave maineguy, who has limited means to post his promise and guard his quit, who I promised I would post his promise daily via text, how can I leave him hanging out to dry? I cant, so I will quit today too.
So while following the "rules" (post roll, keep your word, repeat) is an important part of being quit, it is not what makes one quit. It is a function of BEING quit. What makes me quit is NOT the act of posting roll, it is the DECISION that I am quit. I make that decision EVERY day, and then I post roll and hold myself accountable to my brothers.
So if newbies are reading this, dont think simply posting roll is some miracle cure. Its not. You have to want it. You have to decide to be quit today, and then post roll.
As some put it, the hardest easy thing you can do.
Nice post j2b. As you figured out very early on, the more you get involved with the folks here, the more skin that is in the game (no homo).
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Nothing to see here, move along
just in case (https://spreadsheets.google.com/spreadsheet/ccc?key=0AuS_SLcaxu8DdDFOZ0FKc3Y0N2lub25JSUpBaWc4dGc&hl=en_US)
Just one of those better things to do I keep rambling about.
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cool, you work out at home or a gym? I'm trying to do my own version of crossfit....kinda working....
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cool, you work out at home or a gym? I'm trying to do my own version of crossfit....kinda working....
A home for now, just trying to get back into the swing of it. check out the Exercise Forum (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=755).
I have a total of 2 dumbells w/ 40#s of weight, and a doorway pullup bar.
Really trying to get my body to acknowledge it CAN work out in the morning, but it does not agree. :rolleyes:
Figure I need about 30-45 minutes each morning, then a big workout on weekends to get back where I wanna be.
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- Day 200 -
201 days ago, it would be unthinkable. To think how far I have come since then, all without the nicotine crutch.
I have recently resumed working out (after a 3-4 year hiatus) to try and get rid of the extra pounds that built up during the quit and prior. I forgot how much of a trigger it was. On my way to the gym I would have a fatty, and then post workout I would practically beeline to the car for a post workout fatty.
The first day I worked out, I felt that crave coming up big time post workout. Then I brushed it away with some water and seeds. Since then, not even a hint of a crave pre or post workout. Trigger number 1,896 - terminated.
Next up is raking leaves, carving pumpkins, and football season. The best part is my son will be doing these things with me this year, and I wont have to worry about him seeing me spit or worry about having a spitter, etc. Last 2 years, I had to juggle holding my son and a spitter or choose (and honestly, my addiction won that battle more times than it lost). How fucking disgusting.
New baby (Bryce Joshua, due Oct 22) will NEVER see me with a can or spitter, and I will NEVER have to make a choice between my addiction and my child.
Thank you May 2011 and KTC. Without you, I would still be a disgusting fucking junkie that chooses my fix over my kids. Now I am an addict that promises to remain quit every morning. My kids thank you as well.
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- Day 200 -
201 days ago, it would be unthinkable. To think how far I have come since then, all without the nicotine crutch.
I have recently resumed working out (after a 3-4 year hiatus) to try and get rid of the extra pounds that built up during the quit and prior. I forgot how much of a trigger it was. On my way to the gym I would have a fatty, and then post workout I would practically beeline to the car for a post workout fatty.
The first day I worked out, I felt that crave coming up big time post workout. Then I brushed it away with some water and seeds. Since then, not even a hint of a crave pre or post workout. Trigger number 1,896 - terminated.
Next up is raking leaves, carving pumpkins, and football season. The best part is my son will be doing these things with me this year, and I wont have to worry about him seeing me spit or worry about having a spitter, etc. Last 2 years, I had to juggle holding my son and a spitter or choose (and honestly, my addiction won that battle more times than it lost). How fucking disgusting.
New baby (Bryce Joshua, due Oct 22) will NEVER see me with a can or spitter, and I will NEVER have to make a choice between my addiction and my child.
Thank you May 2011 and KTC. Without you, I would still be a disgusting fucking junkie that chooses my fix over my kids. Now I am an addict that promises to remain quit every morning. My kids thank you as well.
Nice, Josher. I couldn't even begin to think about losing quit weight until a year+. Food was the only fucking thing that made me feel any better, so I often indulged. Kudos to you for making progress.
Today, I am down 25+ pounds from where I was in the first year of my quit.
Hope the kids are doing good, brother. Congrats on HOF x2.
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Nice job on the quit and the new baby.
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Congrats on the new life and baby! This is what this site is all about.
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Its been a while since I wrote in here, but there has been a whole lot of shit going on. Lets see...
On Halloween, my 2nd son was born. healthy, fat, and happy.
On November 1st, one of my closest comrades on this journey gave in to his addiction despite my best efforts to try and keep him here.
On November 19th, I hit 300 days quit.
Now, on the eve of Christmas eve, I sit at 334 days. almost exactly 1 month until the 1 year of anniversary of me saying "enough, time to take back my life." time for some reflections...
on bondage(no homo)
As I reflect back on the past 11 months, I see that while some chains will never be broken (freedom isnt free), those bonds no longer restrain me or force me to choose between life and death, addiction or family, food or poison. Those bonds serve as a constant reminder that the price of freedom is vigilance, accountability, and integrity. Many others share those same bonds, and thanks to KTC and the awesome community here we are able to wear those bonds like a badge of honor. While we may not overcome our addiction, we can beat it back everyday. We control today.
On Hooties cave:
I had just got home from the hospital with the family, still basking in the glow that comes with becoming a parent (I dont think that feeling would ever get old) and holding your child when Hootie caved. Hootie had sent some flowers for my wife, and I shot him a text to tell him thanks. His response felt "off", so I hopped on the site to see if he had posted. He had not, and I sent out a text I never thought I would have to send, and received the response I thought I would never have to read.
The weird part about it was the way it affected me. It did not even scratch my quit. It pissed me off, it hurt a little bit, and it made me sad, but it was that moment when I realized how strong my quit is. I own this. I make the decision. I am 100% responsible for my quit, and I will be damned if anything or anyone is going to get between me and it. I worked too hard for it.
I had the scariest moment of being a parent today. I was playing with my 2 year old, and had picked him up. He leaned back suddenly (like he has done a million times before), but this time I didnt have enough leverage, or a good enough grip, or whatever and he flopped straight out of my arms and fell 2-3 feet onto his back and head. In the stunned eternity that really lasted a couple of seconds before he made a sound or moved, a million terrible thoughts went through my mind - is he dead? is he brain damaged? paralyzed? worse? once he started crying and moving, a sense of relief came over me, but this was definitely more than the normal kiss it and make it better fall. He was drowsy, screaming, dazed - essentially, all the things the Browns somehow missed when evaluating Colt. we took him to the ER, and thankfully all seems ok. In and out in under 2 hours, no CT/Xray. It wasnt until he took his nap that it hit me - despite everything, not once did a dip seem like a good idea.
Things like this make me thankful that I found this community. I will forever be eternally grateful.
For you quitters who have recently decided to take back your life - it will get better. On day one, 10, or even 50 it may seem impossible that it will ever get better, or that forever (hell, even tomorrow) is a pipe dream. The beauty of it is you dont have to worry about that. Quit today, this minute. focus on that. worry about later later. I promise you, once you have broken those bonds and experienced the freedom I have experienced this last couple of months you will look back and wonder how you ever lived like a slave for so long.
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Hey man good sitrep and congrats on bringing your son into the world
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Hope you all dont mind, but lately my head has been putting my quit to a soundtrack. feel free to add to it -
Good Song (http://youtu.be/oMBMgxUw6YQ) that puts what we say about why there is no better day to quit than today (at least the chorus and the first verse)
This song (http://youtu.be/62-4kRMyhk8) is what it sometimes feels like when quitting.
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Muzzle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8bfBKVVv0Q) - This is the song I related to my quit.
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Hope you all dont mind, but lately my head has been putting my quit to a soundtrack. feel free to add to it -
Good Song (http://youtu.be/oMBMgxUw6YQ) that puts what we say about why there is no better day to quit than today (at least the chorus and the first verse)
This song (http://youtu.be/62-4kRMyhk8) is what it sometimes feels like when quitting.
Muzzle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8bfBKVVv0Q) - This is the song I related to my quit.
Artist in the Ambulance (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ton0a230_s)
Bro Hymn (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXoxpiegMPM)
Feeding the addiction (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKUZDpZYioQ)
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Hope you all dont mind, but lately my head has been putting my quit to a soundtrack. feel free to add to it -
Good Song (http://youtu.be/oMBMgxUw6YQ) that puts what we say about why there is no better day to quit than today (at least the chorus and the first verse)
This song (http://youtu.be/62-4kRMyhk8) is what it sometimes feels like when quitting.
Muzzle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8bfBKVVv0Q) - This is the song I related to my quit.
Artist in the Ambulance (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ton0a230_s)
Bro Hymn (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXoxpiegMPM)
Feeding the addiction (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKUZDpZYioQ)
Anthem for the Underdog (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-H8GoqFhyTI)
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The first 2 years of my quit was this way. I think I spent most of that time posting in the music thread with QuittinTime. Good times and a lot of music.
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Hope you all dont mind, but lately my head has been putting my quit to a soundtrack. feel free to add to it -
Good Song (http://youtu.be/oMBMgxUw6YQ) that puts what we say about why there is no better day to quit than today (at least the chorus and the first verse)
This song (http://youtu.be/62-4kRMyhk8) is what it sometimes feels like when quitting.
Muzzle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8bfBKVVv0Q) - This is the song I related to my quit.
Artist in the Ambulance (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ton0a230_s)
Bro Hymn (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXoxpiegMPM)
Feeding the addiction (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKUZDpZYioQ)
Anthem for the Underdog (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-H8GoqFhyTI)
It's not me it's you (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6C1IfwnRIlI)
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Hope you all dont mind, but lately my head has been putting my quit to a soundtrack. feel free to add to it -
Good Song (http://youtu.be/oMBMgxUw6YQ) that puts what we say about why there is no better day to quit than today (at least the chorus and the first verse)Â
This song (http://youtu.be/62-4kRMyhk8) is what it sometimes feels like when quitting.
Muzzle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8bfBKVVv0Q)Â - This is the song I related to my quit.
Artist in the Ambulance (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ton0a230_s)
Bro Hymn (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXoxpiegMPM)
Feeding the addiction (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKUZDpZYioQ)
Anthem for the Underdog (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-H8GoqFhyTI)
It's not me it's you (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6C1IfwnRIlI)
Helps if listened to on volume level 11.
Pantera Walk- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IE0WYB8bZxA (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IE0WYB8bZxA)
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Hope you all dont mind, but lately my head has been putting my quit to a soundtrack. feel free to add to it -
Good Song (http://youtu.be/oMBMgxUw6YQ) that puts what we say about why there is no better day to quit than today (at least the chorus and the first verse)
This song (http://youtu.be/62-4kRMyhk8) is what it sometimes feels like when quitting.
Muzzle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8bfBKVVv0Q) - This is the song I related to my quit.
Artist in the Ambulance (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ton0a230_s)
Bro Hymn (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXoxpiegMPM)
Feeding the addiction (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKUZDpZYioQ)
Anthem for the Underdog (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-H8GoqFhyTI)
It's not me it's you (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6C1IfwnRIlI)
Pantera's Walk, bitches (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IE0WYB8bZxA)
The Cave (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KkUeRPjc-Y)
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Hope you all dont mind, but lately my head has been putting my quit to a soundtrack. feel free to add to it - -
edited in: anyone use spotify? thinking about a switch from Pandora, looking for something with a little more control. Any thoughts?
Good Song (http://youtu.be/oMBMgxUw6YQ) that puts what we say about why there is no better day to quit than today (at least the chorus and the first verse)
This song (http://youtu.be/62-4kRMyhk8) is what it sometimes feels like when quitting.
Muzzle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8bfBKVVv0Q) - This is the song I related to my quit.
Artist in the Ambulance (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ton0a230_s)
Bro Hymn (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXoxpiegMPM)
Feeding the addiction (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKUZDpZYioQ)
Anthem for the Underdog (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-H8GoqFhyTI)
It's not me it's you (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6C1IfwnRIlI)
Pantera's Walk, bitches (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IE0WYB8bZxA)
The Cave (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KkUeRPjc-Y)
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I use spotify. I really like it.
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I use spotify. I really like it.
thanks; my wife is using the free version now, and so far it seems cool but I hate the ads. Do you use the freebie or the paid?
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Hope you all dont mind, but lately my head has been putting my quit to a soundtrack. feel free to add to it - -
edited in: anyone use spotify? thinking about a switch from Pandora, looking for something with a little more control. Any thoughts?
Good Song (http://youtu.be/oMBMgxUw6YQ) that puts what we say about why there is no better day to quit than today (at least the chorus and the first verse)
This song (http://youtu.be/62-4kRMyhk8) is what it sometimes feels like when quitting.
Muzzle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8bfBKVVv0Q) - This is the song I related to my quit.
Artist in the Ambulance (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ton0a230_s)
Bro Hymn (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXoxpiegMPM)
Feeding the addiction (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKUZDpZYioQ)
Anthem for the Underdog (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-H8GoqFhyTI)
It's not me it's you (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6C1IfwnRIlI)
Pantera's Walk, bitches (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IE0WYB8bZxA)
The Cave (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KkUeRPjc-Y)
I wont back down (http://youtu.be/PeKonj9Rg3c) the Johnny Cash version. Cool collage video too.
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I use spotify. I really like it.
thanks; my wife is using the free version now, and so far it seems cool but I hate the ads. Do you use the freebie or the paid?
freebie, but I don't notice the ads
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I use spotify. I really like it.
thanks; my wife is using the free version now, and so far it seems cool but I hate the ads. Do you use the freebie or the paid?
freebie, but I don't notice the ads
Can't vouch for it either way, but have you tried lastfm?
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Hope you all dont mind, but lately my head has been putting my quit to a soundtrack. feel free to add to it - -
edited in: anyone use spotify? thinking about a switch from Pandora, looking for something with a little more control. Any thoughts?
Good Song (http://youtu.be/oMBMgxUw6YQ) that puts what we say about why there is no better day to quit than today (at least the chorus and the first verse)
This song (http://youtu.be/62-4kRMyhk8) is what it sometimes feels like when quitting.
Muzzle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8bfBKVVv0Q) - This is the song I related to my quit.
Artist in the Ambulance (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ton0a230_s)
Bro Hymn (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXoxpiegMPM)
Feeding the addiction (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKUZDpZYioQ)
Anthem for the Underdog (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-H8GoqFhyTI)
It's not me it's you (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6C1IfwnRIlI)
Pantera's Walk, bitches (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IE0WYB8bZxA)
The Cave (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KkUeRPjc-Y)
I wont back down (http://youtu.be/PeKonj9Rg3c) the Johnny Cash version. Cool collage video too.
OAR - War Song (http://youtu.be/CZDHZnvJZFc) Lyrics (http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/o/oar/war_song.html)
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Um....did you just make us a mix tape, j2b?
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Um....did you just make us a mix tape, j2b?
:wub: :wub: :wub: :wub: :wub: :wub: :wub: :wub:
JFYRTYSOB
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Um....did you just make us a mix tape, j2b?
:wub:Â :wub:Â :wub:Â :wub:Â :wub:Â :wub:Â :wub:Â :wub:
JFYRTYSOB
Just For You RT You Sexy Ole Beast?
'crackup'
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Um....did you just make us a mix tape, j2b?
:wub:Â :wub:Â :wub:Â :wub:Â :wub:Â :wub:Â :wub:Â :wub:
JFYRTYSOB
Just For You RT You Sexy Ole Beast?
'crackup'
'arse' close enough...
SOB 'crackup'
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Um....did you just make us a mix tape, j2b?
:wub:Â :wub:Â :wub:Â :wub:Â :wub:Â :wub:Â :wub:Â :wub:
JFYRTYSOB
Just For You RT You Sexy Ole Beast?
'crackup'
'arse' close enough...
SOB 'crackup'
Edit...wrong spot.
'embarrassed'
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Commitment
The Chicken and the Pig
A son is complaining one day to his father over breakfast about sports practice, and how hard it is, and while he loves the sport it seems like a lot to ask.
The father looks at the son and asks "Son, are you a pig or a chicken?" The son looks on quizzically, and asks his father what he means. The father explains:
Father: "Son, look at your breakfast plate. What do you see?"
Son: "Eggs, bacon, hash browns. Whats that got to do with it?"
Father: "well, see son it goes to commitment. What it takes. The eggs come from a chicken. The bacon comes from a pig. The chicken and the pig both have a stake in your breakfast, but their is a difference. The chicken is involved in breakfast and gives eggs every day.
The pig though, see the pig is committed to breakfast. The pig dies to ensure breakfast every day.
You see the difference son?"
Apply this to your quit. Are you involved, i.e. you post roll but never get overly involved with your group or the site, and when things get tough you would consider using again because you can come back and try again later OR are you committed - are you willing to go whatever lengths necessary, because this IS life and death; you are quit, doors shut and boats burned.
That is the difference between a chicken quit and a pig quit.
Which are you?
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Hope you all dont mind, but lately my head has been putting my quit to a soundtrack. feel free to add to it - -
edited in: anyone use spotify? thinking about a switch from Pandora, looking for something with a little more control. Any thoughts?
Good Song (http://youtu.be/oMBMgxUw6YQ) that puts what we say about why there is no better day to quit than today (at least the chorus and the first verse)
This song (http://youtu.be/62-4kRMyhk8) is what it sometimes feels like when quitting.
Muzzle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8bfBKVVv0Q) - This is the song I related to my quit.
Artist in the Ambulance (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ton0a230_s)
Bro Hymn (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXoxpiegMPM)
Feeding the addiction (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKUZDpZYioQ)
Anthem for the Underdog (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-H8GoqFhyTI)
It's not me it's you (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6C1IfwnRIlI)
Pantera's Walk, bitches (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IE0WYB8bZxA)
The Cave (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KkUeRPjc-Y)
I wont back down (http://youtu.be/PeKonj9Rg3c) the Johnny Cash version. Cool collage video too.
OAR - War Song (http://youtu.be/CZDHZnvJZFc) Lyrics (http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/o/oar/war_song.html)
Bombtrack (http://youtu.be/Lp3kcHchD1Y) - nothing really to do with quitting. just that kinda day. I guess Rage fits though
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I absolutely love the responses to this. No attacks that I can see, just KTC guidance. There is no "good" excuse for caving.
Note that the "caver" in this discussion asked why we are harsh on cavers just before posting this:Hey everyone. I had a cigeratte today. Just thought I should let everyone know. I messed up, and it won't happen again. If that means I can't be in the group, then I guess I'm out. But despite having messed up, I am committed to staying quit. I learned from this setback, and will not put myself in another situation like I did today. That's all
response 1:Why did you not post roll call today?
Why will this not happen again?
Why should we believe you?
caver response:I did post roll today.
It won't happen again because I won't let it. I won't put myself in a situation where it can happen again.
I'm being honest. Everyone messes up. All you can do when you mess up and own up to it and learn from it, which is what I'm doing
One more thing, Caving does not mean I'm a failure. My addiction to nicotine never defined me, so why would I let my failure define me?
responses to the above addict speak:You posted roll call. Do you understand what roll call is? You promised that you would not use nicotine today. You lied to everyone here.
What was the situation you put yourself in today (which you plan on not putting yourself in again)?
Why didn't you reach out to any of your quit brothers before caving so easily?
Not how this works, Linda. Why did you smoke? Why did you smoke after you supposedly gave a promise you would not use nicotine? Are you such a louse of a human your word means nothing? Wow. I guess that hold nic has on you has stripped you of dignity and honor. Sucks, don't it?
How bout you tell us your new plan to make sure this doesn't happen again? Cuz nobody gonna take your word for it, dat fo sho.
choices.... 'bang head' not mistakes, you made a choice.Â
You wont let it? why should we believe you? You posted roll - do you know what that means?Â
Why we post roll. (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=120)
Youse needs a MUCH better plan than "I wont let it."
What did you learn from this? Why did you smoke a cigarette? What will you do next time that happens and you want one?Â
Do you have numbers from within your group yet? Have you read up on this site yet?Â
Choices cupcake. What is your choice going to be next - stick around and save your life or complain that we are being to harsh and run back to the cancer sticks and dirt?
You define you. And you have defined yourself as someone that cannot keep their word. Ergo...you have defined yourself as a failure.
wrong answer butterfly - we all are/were defined by our addiction. It was part of every fucking choice we made. best you realize that or you are fucked.
I feel tired . . . (separate resposne) Should I not be slightly offended? Should I say, "aw shit man! It's tough, I really didn't expect you to keep a promise you gave to me (I'll look up the time later) just hours earliner. If you promise me again, especially if you really mean it this time, all is good." I told you that I wouldn't have nicotine today . . . period. That's the promise I'm making. The promise you gave was akin to the promises I gave myself on many a failed attempts, "attempts" where I know I wasn't accountable. My post does not look like this:
Zam - day 14. I quit today*
Of course, mcgillisj has not responded to this with a plan, nor has he (surprise surprise) posted roll today.
Folks, it aint rocket science. Make the choice - quit or do not. but please stop wasting all of our time. Either all in or fold and move on.
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Hope you all dont mind, but lately my head has been putting my quit to a soundtrack. feel free to add to it - -
edited in: anyone use spotify? thinking about a switch from Pandora, looking for something with a little more control. Any thoughts?
Good Song (http://youtu.be/oMBMgxUw6YQ) that puts what we say about why there is no better day to quit than today (at least the chorus and the first verse)
This song (http://youtu.be/62-4kRMyhk8) is what it sometimes feels like when quitting.
Muzzle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8bfBKVVv0Q) - This is the song I related to my quit.
Artist in the Ambulance (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ton0a230_s)
Bro Hymn (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXoxpiegMPM)
Feeding the addiction (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKUZDpZYioQ)
Anthem for the Underdog (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-H8GoqFhyTI)
It's not me it's you (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6C1IfwnRIlI)
Pantera's Walk, bitches (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IE0WYB8bZxA)
The Cave (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KkUeRPjc-Y)
I wont back down (http://youtu.be/PeKonj9Rg3c) the Johnny Cash version. Cool collage video too.
OAR - War Song (http://youtu.be/CZDHZnvJZFc) Lyrics (http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/o/oar/war_song.html)
Bombtrack (http://youtu.be/Lp3kcHchD1Y) - nothing really to do with quitting. just that kinda day. I guess Rage fits though
Rolling (http://music.bowthayer.com/track/rolling) - not a whole lot of relevance to the quit, just a good song. Ok, i guess the chorus goes with the quit - bah, decide for yourself. I just like the fookin song - sue me.
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Hope you all dont mind, but lately my head has been putting my quit to a soundtrack. feel free to add to it - -
edited in: anyone use spotify? thinking about a switch from Pandora, looking for something with a little more control. Any thoughts?
Good Song (http://youtu.be/oMBMgxUw6YQ) that puts what we say about why there is no better day to quit than today (at least the chorus and the first verse)
This song (http://youtu.be/62-4kRMyhk8) is what it sometimes feels like when quitting.
Muzzle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8bfBKVVv0Q) - This is the song I related to my quit.
Artist in the Ambulance (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ton0a230_s)
Bro Hymn (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXoxpiegMPM)
Feeding the addiction (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKUZDpZYioQ)
Anthem for the Underdog (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-H8GoqFhyTI)
It's not me it's you (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6C1IfwnRIlI)
Pantera's Walk, bitches (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IE0WYB8bZxA)
The Cave (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KkUeRPjc-Y)
I wont back down (http://youtu.be/PeKonj9Rg3c) the Johnny Cash version. Cool collage video too.
OAR - War Song (http://youtu.be/CZDHZnvJZFc) Lyrics (http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/o/oar/war_song.html)
Bombtrack (http://youtu.be/Lp3kcHchD1Y) - nothing really to do with quitting. just that kinda day. I guess Rage fits though
Rolling (http://music.bowthayer.com/track/rolling) - not a whole lot of relevance to the quit, just a good song. Ok, i guess the chorus goes with the quit - bah, decide for yourself. I just like the fookin song - sue me.
Godsmack - Keep Away (http://youtu.be/1uvwGmRf5M8) - for the days when the Nic rage is really in high gear
Wrong (http://youtu.be/S_bcdl24Oyw) - One of my favorite Alice in chains songs, and damn does the line "Somethings gotta turn out right" seem appropriate right now.
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Hope you all dont mind, but lately my head has been putting my quit to a soundtrack. feel free to add to it - -
edited in: anyone use spotify? thinking about a switch from Pandora, looking for something with a little more control. Any thoughts?
Good Song (http://youtu.be/oMBMgxUw6YQ) that puts what we say about why there is no better day to quit than today (at least the chorus and the first verse)
This song (http://youtu.be/62-4kRMyhk8) is what it sometimes feels like when quitting.
Muzzle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8bfBKVVv0Q) - This is the song I related to my quit.
Artist in the Ambulance (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ton0a230_s)
Bro Hymn (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXoxpiegMPM)
Feeding the addiction (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKUZDpZYioQ)
Anthem for the Underdog (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-H8GoqFhyTI)
It's not me it's you (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6C1IfwnRIlI)
Pantera's Walk, bitches (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IE0WYB8bZxA)
The Cave (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KkUeRPjc-Y)
I wont back down (http://youtu.be/PeKonj9Rg3c) the Johnny Cash version. Cool collage video too.
OAR - War Song (http://youtu.be/CZDHZnvJZFc) Lyrics (http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/o/oar/war_song.html)
Bombtrack (http://youtu.be/Lp3kcHchD1Y) - nothing really to do with quitting. just that kinda day. I guess Rage fits though
Rolling (http://music.bowthayer.com/track/rolling) - not a whole lot of relevance to the quit, just a good song. Ok, i guess the chorus goes with the quit - bah, decide for yourself. I just like the fookin song - sue me.
Godsmack - Keep Away (http://youtu.be/1uvwGmRf5M8) - for the days when the Nic rage is really in high gear
Wrong (http://youtu.be/S_bcdl24Oyw) - One of my favorite Alice in chains songs, and damn does the line "Somethings gotta turn out right" seem appropriate right now.
I have listened to the Beasties for as long as I can remember, but I never realized how many awesome songs they had until trying to put together a top 3 in honor of the passing of MCA today. Here are 5 of my favorites:
Time to Get ill (http://youtu.be/77D7DF4Gpo0)
No Sleep till Brooklyn (http://youtu.be/XtztvaGN92A)
You gotta fight (http://youtu.be/svTuSRiFPoc)
Brass Monkey (http://youtu.be/nBbQyXZvkbA)
Sabotage (http://youtu.be/z5rRZdiu1UE)
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Hope you all dont mind, but lately my head has been putting my quit to a soundtrack. feel free to add to it - -
edited in: anyone use spotify? thinking about a switch from Pandora, looking for something with a little more control. Any thoughts?
Good Song (http://youtu.be/oMBMgxUw6YQ) that puts what we say about why there is no better day to quit than today (at least the chorus and the first verse)Â
This song (http://youtu.be/62-4kRMyhk8) is what it sometimes feels like when quitting.
Muzzle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8bfBKVVv0Q)Â - This is the song I related to my quit.
Artist in the Ambulance (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ton0a230_s)
Bro Hymn (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXoxpiegMPM)
Feeding the addiction (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKUZDpZYioQ)
Anthem for the Underdog (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-H8GoqFhyTI)
It's not me it's you (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6C1IfwnRIlI)
Pantera's Walk, bitches (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IE0WYB8bZxA)
The Cave (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KkUeRPjc-Y)
I wont back down (http://youtu.be/PeKonj9Rg3c) the Johnny Cash version. Cool collage video too.
OAR - War Song (http://youtu.be/CZDHZnvJZFc) Lyrics (http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/o/oar/war_song.html)
Bombtrack (http://youtu.be/Lp3kcHchD1Y) - nothing really to do with quitting. just that kinda day. I guess Rage fits though
Rolling (http://music.bowthayer.com/track/rolling) - not a whole lot of relevance to the quit, just a good song. Ok, i guess the chorus goes with the quit - bah, decide for yourself. I just like the fookin song - sue me.
Godsmack - Keep Away (http://youtu.be/1uvwGmRf5M8) - for the days when the Nic rage is really in high gear
Wrong (http://youtu.be/S_bcdl24Oyw) - One of my favorite Alice in chains songs, and damn does the line "Somethings gotta turn out right" seem appropriate right now.
I have listened to the Beasties for as long as I can remember, but I never realized how many awesome songs they had until trying to put together a top 3 in honor of the passing of MCA today. Here are 5 of my favorites:
Time to Get ill (http://youtu.be/77D7DF4Gpo0)
No Sleep till Brooklyn (http://youtu.be/XtztvaGN92A)
You gotta fight (http://youtu.be/svTuSRiFPoc)
Brass Monkey (http://youtu.be/nBbQyXZvkbA)
Sabotage (http://youtu.be/z5rRZdiu1UE)
First off, spotify is straight brilliance.
Dear X (You Don't Own Me) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CaqCQAgVdIM&feature=related) Hell yeah. "I was yours, I'm not yours any more. You don't own me"
It's Worth the Pain (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IRLXLbAgbxA) I love this band. I've pulled a lot of songs from them in this quit but this one is EXCELLENT.
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Hope you all dont mind, but lately my head has been putting my quit to a soundtrack. feel free to add to it - -
edited in: anyone use spotify? thinking about a switch from Pandora, looking for something with a little more control. Any thoughts?
Good Song (http://youtu.be/oMBMgxUw6YQ) that puts what we say about why there is no better day to quit than today (at least the chorus and the first verse)
This song (http://youtu.be/62-4kRMyhk8) is what it sometimes feels like when quitting.
Muzzle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8bfBKVVv0Q) - This is the song I related to my quit.
Artist in the Ambulance (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ton0a230_s)
Bro Hymn (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXoxpiegMPM)
Feeding the addiction (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKUZDpZYioQ)
Anthem for the Underdog (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-H8GoqFhyTI)
It's not me it's you (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6C1IfwnRIlI)
Pantera's Walk, bitches (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IE0WYB8bZxA)
The Cave (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KkUeRPjc-Y)
I wont back down (http://youtu.be/PeKonj9Rg3c) the Johnny Cash version. Cool collage video too.
OAR - War Song (http://youtu.be/CZDHZnvJZFc) Lyrics (http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/o/oar/war_song.html)
Bombtrack (http://youtu.be/Lp3kcHchD1Y) - nothing really to do with quitting. just that kinda day. I guess Rage fits though
Rolling (http://music.bowthayer.com/track/rolling) - not a whole lot of relevance to the quit, just a good song. Ok, i guess the chorus goes with the quit - bah, decide for yourself. I just like the fookin song - sue me.
Godsmack - Keep Away (http://youtu.be/1uvwGmRf5M8) - for the days when the Nic rage is really in high gear
Wrong (http://youtu.be/S_bcdl24Oyw) - One of my favorite Alice in chains songs, and damn does the line "Somethings gotta turn out right" seem appropriate right now.
I have listened to the Beasties for as long as I can remember, but I never realized how many awesome songs they had until trying to put together a top 3 in honor of the passing of MCA today. Here are 5 of my favorites:
Time to Get ill (http://youtu.be/77D7DF4Gpo0)
No Sleep till Brooklyn (http://youtu.be/XtztvaGN92A)
You gotta fight (http://youtu.be/svTuSRiFPoc)
Brass Monkey (http://youtu.be/nBbQyXZvkbA)
Sabotage (http://youtu.be/z5rRZdiu1UE)
Another one bites the dust. (http://youtu.be/rNQRfBAzSzo) too many fallen brothers.
First off, spotify is straight brilliance.
Dear X (You Don't Own Me) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CaqCQAgVdIM&feature=related) Hell yeah. "I was yours, I'm not yours any more. You don't own me"
It's Worth the Pain (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IRLXLbAgbxA) I love this band. I've pulled a lot of songs from them in this quit but this one is EXCELLENT.
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Spotify is awesome. Pandora is great for discovering bands you might not have heard about.
I pay for spotify premium, mostly because I can save my playlists offline onto my phone since I use it to stream via bluetooth to my car stereo. It's great for keeping the data usage down and also when the cell phone tower has a hiccup.
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Hope you all dont mind, but lately my head has been putting my quit to a soundtrack. feel free to add to it - -
edited in: anyone use spotify? thinking about a switch from Pandora, looking for something with a little more control. Any thoughts?
Good Song (http://youtu.be/oMBMgxUw6YQ) that puts what we say about why there is no better day to quit than today (at least the chorus and the first verse)
This song (http://youtu.be/62-4kRMyhk8) is what it sometimes feels like when quitting.
Muzzle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8bfBKVVv0Q) - This is the song I related to my quit.
Artist in the Ambulance (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ton0a230_s)
Bro Hymn (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXoxpiegMPM)
Feeding the addiction (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKUZDpZYioQ)
Anthem for the Underdog (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-H8GoqFhyTI)
It's not me it's you (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6C1IfwnRIlI)
Pantera's Walk, bitches (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IE0WYB8bZxA)
The Cave (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KkUeRPjc-Y)
I wont back down (http://youtu.be/PeKonj9Rg3c) the Johnny Cash version. Cool collage video too.
OAR - War Song (http://youtu.be/CZDHZnvJZFc) Lyrics (http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/o/oar/war_song.html)
Bombtrack (http://youtu.be/Lp3kcHchD1Y) - nothing really to do with quitting. just that kinda day. I guess Rage fits though
Rolling (http://music.bowthayer.com/track/rolling) - not a whole lot of relevance to the quit, just a good song. Ok, i guess the chorus goes with the quit - bah, decide for yourself. I just like the fookin song - sue me.
Godsmack - Keep Away (http://youtu.be/1uvwGmRf5M8) - for the days when the Nic rage is really in high gear
Wrong (http://youtu.be/S_bcdl24Oyw) - One of my favorite Alice in chains songs, and damn does the line "Somethings gotta turn out right" seem appropriate right now.
I have listened to the Beasties for as long as I can remember, but I never realized how many awesome songs they had until trying to put together a top 3 in honor of the passing of MCA today. Here are 5 of my favorites:
Time to Get ill (http://youtu.be/77D7DF4Gpo0)
No Sleep till Brooklyn (http://youtu.be/XtztvaGN92A)
You gotta fight (http://youtu.be/svTuSRiFPoc)
Brass Monkey (http://youtu.be/nBbQyXZvkbA)
Sabotage (http://youtu.be/z5rRZdiu1UE)
Another one bites the dust. (http://youtu.be/rNQRfBAzSzo) too many fallen brothers.
Dear X (You Don't Own Me) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CaqCQAgVdIM&feature=related) Hell yeah. "I was yours, I'm not yours any more. You don't own me"
It's Worth the Pain (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IRLXLbAgbxA) I love this band. I've pulled a lot of songs from them in this quit but this one is EXCELLENT.
White Blank Page (http://youtu.be/Sw-ko6aINI4) love mumford sons. Awesome song. one of many on rotation, but probably my favorite right now.
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Hope you all dont mind, but lately my head has been putting my quit to a soundtrack. feel free to add to it - -
edited in: anyone use spotify? thinking about a switch from Pandora, looking for something with a little more control. Any thoughts?
Good Song (http://youtu.be/oMBMgxUw6YQ) that puts what we say about why there is no better day to quit than today (at least the chorus and the first verse)
This song (http://youtu.be/62-4kRMyhk8) is what it sometimes feels like when quitting.
Muzzle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8bfBKVVv0Q) - This is the song I related to my quit.
Artist in the Ambulance (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ton0a230_s)
Bro Hymn (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXoxpiegMPM)
Feeding the addiction (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKUZDpZYioQ)
Anthem for the Underdog (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-H8GoqFhyTI)
It's not me it's you (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6C1IfwnRIlI)
Pantera's Walk, bitches (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IE0WYB8bZxA)
The Cave (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KkUeRPjc-Y)
I wont back down (http://youtu.be/PeKonj9Rg3c) the Johnny Cash version. Cool collage video too.
OAR - War Song (http://youtu.be/CZDHZnvJZFc) Lyrics (http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/o/oar/war_song.html)
Bombtrack (http://youtu.be/Lp3kcHchD1Y) - nothing really to do with quitting. just that kinda day. I guess Rage fits though
Rolling (http://music.bowthayer.com/track/rolling) - not a whole lot of relevance to the quit, just a good song. Ok, i guess the chorus goes with the quit - bah, decide for yourself. I just like the fookin song - sue me.
Godsmack - Keep Away (http://youtu.be/1uvwGmRf5M8) - for the days when the Nic rage is really in high gear
Wrong (http://youtu.be/S_bcdl24Oyw) - One of my favorite Alice in chains songs, and damn does the line "Somethings gotta turn out right" seem appropriate right now.
I have listened to the Beasties for as long as I can remember, but I never realized how many awesome songs they had until trying to put together a top 3 in honor of the passing of MCA today. Here are 5 of my favorites:
Time to Get ill (http://youtu.be/77D7DF4Gpo0)
No Sleep till Brooklyn (http://youtu.be/XtztvaGN92A)
You gotta fight (http://youtu.be/svTuSRiFPoc)
Brass Monkey (http://youtu.be/nBbQyXZvkbA)
Sabotage (http://youtu.be/z5rRZdiu1UE)
Another one bites the dust. (http://youtu.be/rNQRfBAzSzo) too many fallen brothers.
Dear X (You Don't Own Me) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CaqCQAgVdIM&feature=related) Hell yeah. "I was yours, I'm not yours any more. You don't own me"
It's Worth the Pain (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IRLXLbAgbxA) I love this band. I've pulled a lot of songs from them in this quit but this one is EXCELLENT.
White Blank Page (http://youtu.be/Sw-ko6aINI4) love mumford sons. Awesome song. one of many on rotation, but probably my favorite right now.
You figure it out... (http://youtu.be/04fQTmvFfGo)
More mumford... (http://youtu.be/QaxrANJnU2E)
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Hope you all dont mind, but lately my head has been putting my quit to a soundtrack. feel free to add to it - -
edited in: anyone use spotify? thinking about a switch from Pandora, looking for something with a little more control. Any thoughts?
Good Song (http://youtu.be/oMBMgxUw6YQ) that puts what we say about why there is no better day to quit than today (at least the chorus and the first verse)
This song (http://youtu.be/62-4kRMyhk8) is what it sometimes feels like when quitting.
Muzzle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8bfBKVVv0Q) - This is the song I related to my quit.
Artist in the Ambulance (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ton0a230_s)
Bro Hymn (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXoxpiegMPM)
Feeding the addiction (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKUZDpZYioQ)
Anthem for the Underdog (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-H8GoqFhyTI)
It's not me it's you (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6C1IfwnRIlI)
Pantera's Walk, bitches (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IE0WYB8bZxA)
The Cave (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KkUeRPjc-Y)
I wont back down (http://youtu.be/PeKonj9Rg3c) the Johnny Cash version. Cool collage video too.
OAR - War Song (http://youtu.be/CZDHZnvJZFc) Lyrics (http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/o/oar/war_song.html)
Bombtrack (http://youtu.be/Lp3kcHchD1Y) - nothing really to do with quitting. just that kinda day. I guess Rage fits though
Rolling (http://music.bowthayer.com/track/rolling) - not a whole lot of relevance to the quit, just a good song. Ok, i guess the chorus goes with the quit - bah, decide for yourself. I just like the fookin song - sue me.
Godsmack - Keep Away (http://youtu.be/1uvwGmRf5M8) - for the days when the Nic rage is really in high gear
Wrong (http://youtu.be/S_bcdl24Oyw) - One of my favorite Alice in chains songs, and damn does the line "Somethings gotta turn out right" seem appropriate right now.
I have listened to the Beasties for as long as I can remember, but I never realized how many awesome songs they had until trying to put together a top 3 in honor of the passing of MCA today. Here are 5 of my favorites:
Time to Get ill (http://youtu.be/77D7DF4Gpo0)
No Sleep till Brooklyn (http://youtu.be/XtztvaGN92A)
You gotta fight (http://youtu.be/svTuSRiFPoc)
Brass Monkey (http://youtu.be/nBbQyXZvkbA)
Sabotage (http://youtu.be/z5rRZdiu1UE)
Another one bites the dust. (http://youtu.be/rNQRfBAzSzo) too many fallen brothers.
Dear X (You Don't Own Me) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CaqCQAgVdIM&feature=related) Hell yeah. "I was yours, I'm not yours any more. You don't own me"
It's Worth the Pain (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IRLXLbAgbxA) I love this band. I've pulled a lot of songs from them in this quit but this one is EXCELLENT.
White Blank Page (http://youtu.be/Sw-ko6aINI4) love mumford sons. Awesome song. one of many on rotation, but probably my favorite right now.
You figure it out... (http://youtu.be/04fQTmvFfGo)
More mumford... (http://youtu.be/QaxrANJnU2E)
Ballad of Fuck All (http://youtu.be/M-O069DL6Kc)
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Hope you all dont mind, but lately my head has been putting my quit to a soundtrack. feel free to add to it - -
Good Song (http://youtu.be/oMBMgxUw6YQ) that puts what we say about why there is no better day to quit than today (at least the chorus and the first verse)
This song (http://youtu.be/62-4kRMyhk8) is what it sometimes feels like when quitting.
Muzzle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8bfBKVVv0Q) - This is the song I related to my quit.
Artist in the Ambulance (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ton0a230_s)
Bro Hymn (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXoxpiegMPM)
Feeding the addiction (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKUZDpZYioQ)
Anthem for the Underdog (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-H8GoqFhyTI)
It's not me it's you (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6C1IfwnRIlI)
Pantera's Walk, bitches (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IE0WYB8bZxA)
The Cave (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KkUeRPjc-Y)
I wont back down (http://youtu.be/PeKonj9Rg3c) the Johnny Cash version. Cool collage video too.
OAR - War Song (http://youtu.be/CZDHZnvJZFc) Lyrics (http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/o/oar/war_song.html)
Bombtrack (http://youtu.be/Lp3kcHchD1Y) - nothing really to do with quitting. just that kinda day. I guess Rage fits though
Rolling (http://music.bowthayer.com/track/rolling) - not a whole lot of relevance to the quit, just a good song. Ok, i guess the chorus goes with the quit - bah, decide for yourself. I just like the fookin song - sue me.
Godsmack - Keep Away (http://youtu.be/1uvwGmRf5M8) - for the days when the Nic rage is really in high gear
Wrong (http://youtu.be/S_bcdl24Oyw) - One of my favorite Alice in chains songs, and damn does the line "Somethings gotta turn out right" seem appropriate right now.
I have listened to the Beasties for as long as I can remember, but I never realized how many awesome songs they had until trying to put together a top 3 in honor of the passing of MCA today. Here are 5 of my favorites:
Time to Get ill (http://youtu.be/77D7DF4Gpo0)
No Sleep till Brooklyn (http://youtu.be/XtztvaGN92A)
You gotta fight (http://youtu.be/svTuSRiFPoc)
Brass Monkey (http://youtu.be/nBbQyXZvkbA)
Sabotage (http://youtu.be/z5rRZdiu1UE)
Another one bites the dust. (http://youtu.be/rNQRfBAzSzo) too many fallen brothers.
Dear X (You Don't Own Me) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CaqCQAgVdIM&feature=related) Hell yeah. "I was yours, I'm not yours any more. You don't own me"
It's Worth the Pain (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IRLXLbAgbxA) I love this band. I've pulled a lot of songs from them in this quit but this one is EXCELLENT.
White Blank Page (http://youtu.be/Sw-ko6aINI4) love mumford sons. Awesome song. one of many on rotation, but probably my favorite right now.
You figure it out... (http://youtu.be/04fQTmvFfGo)
More mumford... (http://youtu.be/QaxrANJnU2E)
Ballad of Fuck All (http://youtu.be/M-O069DL6Kc)
Avett Brothers (http://youtu.be/lIvP_AW58So) - Head full of doubt/Road Full of Promises - look to see more from them on here. Awesome.
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Dad's Obituary (http://www.coylefuneralhome.com/obituaries/Thomas-Brown24/#/Obituary)
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Dad's Obituary (http://www.coylefuneralhome.com/obituaries/Thomas-Brown24/#/Obituary)
thoughts and prayers my brother.
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Dad's Obituary (http://www.coylefuneralhome.com/obituaries/Thomas-Brown24/#/Obituary)
thoughts and prayers my brother.
Sorry for you lose. Prayers for you and your family
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Dad's Obituary (http://www.coylefuneralhome.com/obituaries/Thomas-Brown24/#/Obituary)
thoughts and prayers my brother.
Sorry for you lose. Prayers for you and your family
Very sorry for your loss brother prayers from my family to yours.
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Dad's Obituary (http://www.coylefuneralhome.com/obituaries/Thomas-Brown24/#/Obituary)
thoughts and prayers my brother.
Sorry for you lose. Prayers for you and your family
Sorry jost2brown to hear of your dads passing. I know it hurts. I lost mine a few months ago too. One day at a time brother. Remember the good and let the bad fall aside. Be the best man you can be today. Prayers up.
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Dad's Obituary (http://www.coylefuneralhome.com/obituaries/Thomas-Brown24/#/Obituary)
thoughts and prayers my brother.
Sorry for you lose. Prayers for you and your family
Sorry jost2brown to hear of your dads passing. I know it hurts. I lost mine a few months ago too. One day at a time brother. Remember the good and let the bad fall aside. Be the best man you can be today. Prayers up.
Sorry to hear that from both of you. My dad passed 9 years ago. It gets better, but you never get over it.
Hang in there and use the support tools offered. I made the mistake of ignoring any offers of counseling and I think things would have gotten better sooner if I would have dealt with those feelings a lot sooner than I did.
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Dad's Obituary (http://www.coylefuneralhome.com/obituaries/Thomas-Brown24/#/Obituary)
thoughts and prayers my brother.
Sorry for you lose. Prayers for you and your family
Sorry jost2brown to hear of your dads passing. I know it hurts. I lost mine a few months ago too. One day at a time brother. Remember the good and let the bad fall aside. Be the best man you can be today. Prayers up.
Sorry to hear that from both of you. My dad passed 9 years ago. It gets better, but you never get over it.
Hang in there and use the support tools offered. I made the mistake of ignoring any offers of counseling and I think things would have gotten better sooner if I would have dealt with those feelings a lot sooner than I did.
Thoughts and Prayers my Brother!! Keep your head up J2B!!!
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Dad's Obituary (http://www.coylefuneralhome.com/obituaries/Thomas-Brown24/#/Obituary)
thoughts and prayers my brother.
Sorry for you lose. Prayers for you and your family
Sorry jost2brown to hear of your dads passing. I know it hurts. I lost mine a few months ago too. One day at a time brother. Remember the good and let the bad fall aside. Be the best man you can be today. Prayers up.
Sorry to hear that from both of you. My dad passed 9 years ago. It gets better, but you never get over it.
Hang in there and use the support tools offered. I made the mistake of ignoring any offers of counseling and I think things would have gotten better sooner if I would have dealt with those feelings a lot sooner than I did.
Thoughts and Prayers my Brother!! Keep your head up J2B!!!
My condolences...30 Years as a carpenter WOW.
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Dad's Obituary (http://www.coylefuneralhome.com/obituaries/Thomas-Brown24/#/Obituary)
thoughts and prayers my brother.
Sorry for you lose. Prayers for you and your family
Sorry jost2brown to hear of your dads passing. I know it hurts. I lost mine a few months ago too. One day at a time brother. Remember the good and let the bad fall aside. Be the best man you can be today. Prayers up.
Sorry to hear that from both of you. My dad passed 9 years ago. It gets better, but you never get over it.
Hang in there and use the support tools offered. I made the mistake of ignoring any offers of counseling and I think things would have gotten better sooner if I would have dealt with those feelings a lot sooner than I did.
Thoughts and Prayers my Brother!! Keep your head up J2B!!!
My condolences...30 Years as a carpenter WOW.
I am sorry for your loss J2B, 58 years old. Much too young, much too young.
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Dad's Obituary (http://www.coylefuneralhome.com/obituaries/Thomas-Brown24/#/Obituary)
thoughts and prayers my brother.
Sorry for you lose. Prayers for you and your family
Sorry jost2brown to hear of your dads passing. I know it hurts. I lost mine a few months ago too. One day at a time brother. Remember the good and let the bad fall aside. Be the best man you can be today. Prayers up.
Sorry to hear that from both of you. My dad passed 9 years ago. It gets better, but you never get over it.
Hang in there and use the support tools offered. I made the mistake of ignoring any offers of counseling and I think things would have gotten better sooner if I would have dealt with those feelings a lot sooner than I did.
Thoughts and Prayers my Brother!! Keep your head up J2B!!!
My condolences...30 Years as a carpenter WOW.
I am sorry for your loss J2B, 58 years old. Much too young, much too young.
prayers and condolences to you and your family. Sorry for your loss.
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Dad's Obituary (http://www.coylefuneralhome.com/obituaries/Thomas-Brown24/#/Obituary)
thoughts and prayers my brother.
Sorry for you lose. Prayers for you and your family
Sorry jost2brown to hear of your dads passing. I know it hurts. I lost mine a few months ago too. One day at a time brother. Remember the good and let the bad fall aside. Be the best man you can be today. Prayers up.
Sorry to hear that from both of you. My dad passed 9 years ago. It gets better, but you never get over it.
Hang in there and use the support tools offered. I made the mistake of ignoring any offers of counseling and I think things would have gotten better sooner if I would have dealt with those feelings a lot sooner than I did.
Thoughts and Prayers my Brother!! Keep your head up J2B!!!
My condolences...30 Years as a carpenter WOW.
I am sorry for your loss J2B, 58 years old. Much too young, much too young.
prayers and condolences to you and your family. Sorry for your loss.
Brother I'm real sorry. My heart is with you man.
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Dad's Obituary (http://www.coylefuneralhome.com/obituaries/Thomas-Brown24/#/Obituary)
thoughts and prayers my brother.
Sorry for you lose. Prayers for you and your family
Sorry jost2brown to hear of your dads passing. I know it hurts. I lost mine a few months ago too. One day at a time brother. Remember the good and let the bad fall aside. Be the best man you can be today. Prayers up.
Sorry to hear that from both of you. My dad passed 9 years ago. It gets better, but you never get over it.
Hang in there and use the support tools offered. I made the mistake of ignoring any offers of counseling and I think things would have gotten better sooner if I would have dealt with those feelings a lot sooner than I did.
Thoughts and Prayers my Brother!! Keep your head up J2B!!!
My condolences...30 Years as a carpenter WOW.
I am sorry for your loss J2B, 58 years old. Much too young, much too young.
prayers and condolences to you and your family. Sorry for your loss.
Brother I'm real sorry. My heart is with you man.
Much too young. Very sorry for you loss, brother.
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I really cannot express how much the texts, pm's, facebook messages, and phone calls of sympathy and support this past week have meant to me. It has been hard to get through this, but I know He is in a better place, more comfortable, and not struggling. Lots of loved one waiting for him.
I also know deep down that I have more people in my corner than I ever imagined. Not a single message even mentioned quit. they were all about sympathy and condolences. That to me is a powerful message about the bonds formed here. My name is on the line, of course I am quit.
Anyway, you all give me the strength to fight this addiction and the strength to get through this very tough loss. I only hope that someday I am able to repay you the the kindness you have shown me. You are all amazing friends and brothers, and I am damn glad to have you side by side not just in this fight, but in life.
Thank you.
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Hope you all dont mind, but lately my head has been putting my quit to a soundtrack. feel free to add to it - -
Good Song (http://youtu.be/oMBMgxUw6YQ) that puts what we say about why there is no better day to quit than today (at least the chorus and the first verse)
This song (http://youtu.be/62-4kRMyhk8) is what it sometimes feels like when quitting.
Muzzle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8bfBKVVv0Q) - This is the song I related to my quit.
Artist in the Ambulance (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ton0a230_s)
Bro Hymn (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXoxpiegMPM)
Feeding the addiction (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKUZDpZYioQ)
Anthem for the Underdog (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-H8GoqFhyTI)
It's not me it's you (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6C1IfwnRIlI)
Pantera's Walk, bitches (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IE0WYB8bZxA)
The Cave (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KkUeRPjc-Y)
I wont back down (http://youtu.be/PeKonj9Rg3c) the Johnny Cash version. Cool collage video too.
OAR - War Song (http://youtu.be/CZDHZnvJZFc) Lyrics (http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/o/oar/war_song.html)
Bombtrack (http://youtu.be/Lp3kcHchD1Y) - nothing really to do with quitting. just that kinda day. I guess Rage fits though
Rolling (http://music.bowthayer.com/track/rolling) - not a whole lot of relevance to the quit, just a good song. Ok, i guess the chorus goes with the quit - bah, decide for yourself. I just like the fookin song - sue me.
Godsmack - Keep Away (http://youtu.be/1uvwGmRf5M8) - for the days when the Nic rage is really in high gear
Wrong (http://youtu.be/S_bcdl24Oyw) - One of my favorite Alice in chains songs, and damn does the line "Somethings gotta turn out right" seem appropriate right now.
I have listened to the Beasties for as long as I can remember, but I never realized how many awesome songs they had until trying to put together a top 3 in honor of the passing of MCA today. Here are 5 of my favorites:
Time to Get ill (http://youtu.be/77D7DF4Gpo0)
No Sleep till Brooklyn (http://youtu.be/XtztvaGN92A)
You gotta fight (http://youtu.be/svTuSRiFPoc)
Brass Monkey (http://youtu.be/nBbQyXZvkbA)
Sabotage (http://youtu.be/z5rRZdiu1UE)
Another one bites the dust. (http://youtu.be/rNQRfBAzSzo) too many fallen brothers.
Dear X (You Don't Own Me) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CaqCQAgVdIM&feature=related) Hell yeah. "I was yours, I'm not yours any more. You don't own me"
It's Worth the Pain (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IRLXLbAgbxA) I love this band. I've pulled a lot of songs from them in this quit but this one is EXCELLENT.
White Blank Page (http://youtu.be/Sw-ko6aINI4) love mumford sons. Awesome song. one of many on rotation, but probably my favorite right now.
You figure it out... (http://youtu.be/04fQTmvFfGo)
More mumford... (http://youtu.be/QaxrANJnU2E)
Ballad of Fuck All (http://youtu.be/M-O069DL6Kc)
Avett Brothers (http://youtu.be/lIvP_AW58So) - Head full of doubt/Road Full of Promises - look to see more from them on here. Awesome.
Good ol Johnny (http://youtu.be/eJlN9jdQFSc)
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920.
This too shall pass. Until then, Fetch wood, carry water, walk the Earth.
When things are bad, remember: It wont always be this way. Take one day at a time.
When things are good, remember: It wont always be this way. Enjoy every great moment.
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And wisdom to know the difference.
God, give me grace to accept with serenity
the things that cannot be changed,
Courage to change the things
which should be changed,
and the Wisdom to distinguish
the one from the other.
Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
Taking, as Jesus did,
This sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it,
Trusting that You will make all things right,
If I surrender to Your will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with You forever in the next.
Amen.
Just one of those days.
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Bingo - all of you throwing mud and demanding action and responses from anyone except the caver/liar need to refocus on what the real problem is here.
They lied to us. They cheated real quitters that may have needed it out of support. They mocked the site for well over 100 days.Â
Those of you that "advised" him to be quiet and weather the storm did him no favors. This process of forcing cavers and liars to be honest is designed with KTC as a mirror. A mirror that can see every lie for what it is, and force you to be honest with yourself. You all are shielding Paddy from being honest with himself. Every caver posts some heartfelt apology. No one gives a shit - my 4 year old apologized to his little brother all the time, usually with a hug and about 5 minutes of nice playing after.Â
Then he steals his toys, snacks, and generally torments him again.Â
My 4 year old does not know how to look at how his actions are impacting his brother and ultimately himself. Most of us dont, and when we lie it either goes undiscovered or no one calls us on it, nor do they have the depth of understanding of the lies.Â
KTC is about one thing - fighting a nasty addiction every damn day and winning. KTC members know the lies we have told ourselves to justify or rationalize our continued use of a product that will kill us. We all told them. We see the addict speak - we can spot planned caves from miles away.Â
When you "protect" a quitter by trying to insulate him from the process, you are stopping him from the painful mental healing that is necessary to self recognize his addict behavior and thoughts that lead down the path to a cave. Are you going to be there with him 24/7, 365? Hell, are you with him right now? If not, you have played more of a part in his next cave than anything these other quitters may post.Â
This is a nasty addiction. Nicotine fights dirty and fights hard and never stops. you think being "nice" and not mean has any benefit in that fight you are wrong. Any barrier you put between the caver and the mirror that is KTC is doing him the biggest disservice, more so than some faceless anonymous poster calling him a pussy or a liar. We all were pussies and liars. We let a toxic plant control our daily lives so much our only escape is to give our word everyday and then violently cling to it.Â
Refocus the attention where it belongs - cavers must walk through the fire that is his own addict reflection. This is NOT about you, me, or any other solid quitter who gave their word and kept it. KTC is the mirror. It is up to the caver alone to decide if they want to turn on the bright lights and see the ugly truth or if they want to stay in the dark.Â
I know which path leads to truly being quit and which one will lead to more lies and "tries."
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One year ago today my father passed from this world. I still have more days than not where I catch myself thinking about calling and checking in with him or having one of those father/son conversations where you just empty your head and heart. My father and I, while we had our disagreements, were very close. Not a day goes by that I don't think about or miss him. I can only hope to be as good a father to my sons as my father was to me.
Cherish your loved ones, especially your parents. No matter how long you have with them its NEVER enough and you cant replace them.
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One year ago today my father passed from this world. I still have more days than not where I catch myself thinking about calling and checking in with him or having one of those father/son conversations where you just empty your head and heart. My father and I, while we had our disagreements, were very close. Not a day goes by that I don't think about or miss him. I can only hope to be as good a father to my sons as my father was to me.
Cherish your loved ones, especially your parents. No matter how long you have with them its NEVER enough and you cant replace them.
You are honoring your father, and letting us witness it. Respect.
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One year ago today my father passed from this world. I still have more days than not where I catch myself thinking about calling and checking in with him or having one of those father/son conversations where you just empty your head and heart. My father and I, while we had our disagreements, were very close. Not a day goes by that I don't think about or miss him. I can only hope to be as good a father to my sons as my father was to me.Â
Cherish your loved ones, especially your parents. No matter how long you have with them its NEVER enough and you cant replace them.
You are honoring your father, and letting us witness it. Respect.
My father died when I was 28. I know what you went through. Honor your mother and other loved ones.
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One year ago today my father passed from this world. I still have more days than not where I catch myself thinking about calling and checking in with him or having one of those father/son conversations where you just empty your head and heart. My father and I, while we had our disagreements, were very close. Not a day goes by that I don't think about or miss him. I can only hope to be as good a father to my sons as my father was to me.Â
Cherish your loved ones, especially your parents. No matter how long you have with them its NEVER enough and you cant replace them.
You are honoring your father, and letting us witness it. Respect.
My father died when I was 28. I know what you went through. Honor your mother and other loved ones.
In a couple of weeks, it will be 3 years since I lost my dad, as well as 3 years since my wife lost her mom (2 days apart)...I too think about my dad daily and still have so many things to talk about and questions to ask.
Wishing you strength. The memories are good, unfortunately so is the pain from the loss.
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Happy Birthday!
'party2'
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Bump for awesomeness...
'Grats on 1200.
Badass!
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Josh was the first one to PM me on March 4th saying "nic free site" bro, lose the patch. He did it respectfully and kind, but also firm. He was right, and I was scared. Thank you for being the rock that day Josh, and gratz on 1200, I quit with you today.
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Just so everyone remembers:
:j2b:
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Just so everyone remembers:
:j2b:
I didn't forget
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Just so everyone remembers:
:j2b:
I didn't forget
Never.
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http://youtu.be/PPtSKimbjOU (http://youtu.be/PPtSKimbjOU)
http://youtu.be/YS4fXhiVEQM (http://youtu.be/YS4fXhiVEQM)
Original and remix. Both should be listened to at high volume, preferably in a residential neighborhood.
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http://youtu.be/PPtSKimbjOU (http://youtu.be/PPtSKimbjOU)
http://youtu.be/YS4fXhiVEQM (http://youtu.be/YS4fXhiVEQM)
Original and remix. Both should be listened to at high volume, preferably in a residential neighborhood.
This beat gets me so fired up. Thanks for posting J2B
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j2b #3 due late January/Early Feb. Selfishly, I hope #3 is born on 1/23/15. My 4 year anniversary from telling big tobacco and nicotine to go get fucked.
#1 is really hoping its a girl, but he has a back up plan - he is planning on selling #2 if #3 is a boy. 'no'
#2 is just excited, but doesnt really no why. He does like helping out with babies at the daycare. 'help'
Mom really wants a girl, but lets just say my gene pool churns out way more dudes then chicks. We shall see.
I am perfectly happy with fat and healthy baby.
We are pretty sure its not twins, though they run strong in both families and its way to early to be certain.
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j2b #3 due late January/Early Feb. Selfishly, I hope #3 is born on 1/23/15. My 4 year anniversary from telling big tobacco and nicotine to go get fucked.
#1 is really hoping its a girl, but he has a back up plan - he is planning on selling #2 if #3 is a boy. 'no'
#2 is just excited, but doesnt really no why. He does like helping out with babies at the daycare. 'help'
Mom really wants a girl, but lets just say my gene pool churns out way more dudes then chicks. We shall see.
I am perfectly happy with fat and healthy baby.
We are pretty sure its not twins, though they run strong in both families and its way to early to be certain.
Awesome brother! Gratz to you and your family!
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j2b #3 due late January/Early Feb. Selfishly, I hope #3 is born on 1/23/15. My 4 year anniversary from telling big tobacco and nicotine to go get fucked.
#1 is really hoping its a girl, but he has a back up plan - he is planning on selling #2 if #3 is a boy. 'no'
#2 is just excited, but doesnt really no why. He does like helping out with babies at the daycare. 'help'
Mom really wants a girl, but lets just say my gene pool churns out way more dudes then chicks. We shall see.
I am perfectly happy with fat and healthy baby.
We are pretty sure its not twins, though they run strong in both families and its way to early to be certain.
Awesome brother! Gratz to you and your family!
Congrats bro! Three kids tells me you have a mental deficiency, but happy for you anyway!
QLF with you today and thanks for everything you do for the noobs on this site.
J2thaZ
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j2b #3 due late January/Early Feb. Selfishly, I hope #3 is born on 1/23/15. My 4 year anniversary from telling big tobacco and nicotine to go get fucked.
#1 is really hoping its a girl, but he has a back up plan - he is planning on selling #2 if #3 is a boy. 'no'
#2 is just excited, but doesnt really no why. He does like helping out with babies at the daycare. 'help'
Mom really wants a girl, but lets just say my gene pool churns out way more dudes then chicks. We shall see.
I am perfectly happy with fat and healthy baby.
We are pretty sure its not twins, though they run strong in both families and its way to early to be certain.
Awesome brother! Gratz to you and your family!
Congrats bro! Three kids tells me you have a mental deficiency, but happy for you anyway!
QLF with you today and thanks for everything you do for the noobs on this site.
J2thaZ
grats Mr 3 baller
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Day 1249.
I came here to quit.
I was taught very early that being quit required 2 things: brotherhood (helping others quit, be it by saying really important and prudent stuff, texting, etc) and accountability (being on roll call everyday, looking out for my brothers, keeping my word, etc).
Accountability - I have NEVER missed a single day of roll call in those 1249. Feel free to check. I have and will continue to argue the importance of daily roll call to anyone - ANYONE. I will continue to freely give out my number to anyone who wants to continue increasing my web of accountability.
Brotherhood - I am not looking to add names to my rolodex, I am looking to build brotherhood. These folks that share this webspace with me, most of whom I have never and will never meet in person, have had more impact on my life than people I see for hours on end every day. I had to go to an unlimited text plan way back when because some of us found that we have a lot of common interests and text like crazy. I laugh my ass of most days at the funny shit people text randomly.
You know what? I came here to quit, and I am. I am not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but I strive to do what I can here to help, and will continue to do so until I cannot do it anymore.
I will continue to pass on the lessons taught to me by all those who learned them first and passed them on. Ready, Skoal Monster, Show, Nolaq, the original 7, and countless others - either by direct contact or by reading words you have posted on these here forums - you have given me a path to freedom and I promise to continue to walk it with my head held high and show others to the best of my ability. I owe this site my very life, and I will treat it as such.
Roll call is not a responsibility, it is a privilege and an honor. It is something more than an anon screen name on some forum. It is a solemn promise to brothers that must be honored if you have any pride or guts. I give my promise freely everyday. I expect nothing in return except your promise to do the same.
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Day 1249.
I came here to quit.
I was taught very early that being quit required 2 things: brotherhood (helping others quit, be it by saying really important and prudent stuff, texting, etc) and accountability (being on roll call everyday, looking out for my brothers, keeping my word, etc).
Accountability - I have NEVER missed a single day of roll call in those 1249. Feel free to check. I have and will continue to argue the importance of daily roll call to anyone - ANYONE. I will continue to freely give out my number to anyone who wants to continue increasing my web of accountability.
Brotherhood - I am not looking to add names to my rolodex, I am looking to build brotherhood. These folks that share this webspace with me, most of whom I have never and will never meet in person, have had more impact on my life than people I see for hours on end every day. I had to go to an unlimited text plan way back when because some of us found that we have a lot of common interests and text like crazy. I laugh my ass of most days at the funny shit people text randomly.
You know what? I came here to quit, and I am. I am not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but I strive to do what I can here to help, and will continue to do so until I cannot do it anymore.
I will continue to pass on the lessons taught to me by all those who learned them first and passed them on. Ready, Skoal Monster, Show, Nolaq, the original 7, and countless others - either by direct contact or by reading words you have posted on these here forums - you have given me a path to freedom and I promise to continue to walk it with my head held high and show others to the best of my ability. I owe this site my very life, and I will treat it as such.
Roll call is not a responsibility, it is a privilege and an honor. It is something more than an anon screen name on some forum. It is a solemn promise to brothers that must be honored if you have any pride or guts. I give my promise freely everyday. I expect nothing in return except your promise to do the same.
One of the best things Ive read recently. No bullshit, Just quitting. Rock on J2B!!!
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Day 1249.
I came here to quit.
I was taught very early that being quit required 2 things: brotherhood (helping others quit, be it by saying really important and prudent stuff, texting, etc) and accountability (being on roll call everyday, looking out for my brothers, keeping my word, etc).
Accountability - I have NEVER missed a single day of roll call in those 1249. Feel free to check. I have and will continue to argue the importance of daily roll call to anyone - ANYONE. I will continue to freely give out my number to anyone who wants to continue increasing my web of accountability.
Brotherhood - I am not looking to add names to my rolodex, I am looking to build brotherhood. These folks that share this webspace with me, most of whom I have never and will never meet in person, have had more impact on my life than people I see for hours on end every day. I had to go to an unlimited text plan way back when because some of us found that we have a lot of common interests and text like crazy. I laugh my ass of most days at the funny shit people text randomly.
You know what? I came here to quit, and I am. I am not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but I strive to do what I can here to help, and will continue to do so until I cannot do it anymore.
I will continue to pass on the lessons taught to me by all those who learned them first and passed them on. Ready, Skoal Monster, Show, Nolaq, the original 7, and countless others - either by direct contact or by reading words you have posted on these here forums - you have given me a path to freedom and I promise to continue to walk it with my head held high and show others to the best of my ability. I owe this site my very life, and I will treat it as such.
Roll call is not a responsibility, it is a privilege and an honor. It is something more than an anon screen name on some forum. It is a solemn promise to brothers that must be honored if you have any pride or guts. I give my promise freely everyday. I expect nothing in return except your promise to do the same.
One of the best things Ive read recently. No bullshit, Just quitting. Rock on J2B!!!
Josh was the first to support my weak ass when I finally decided to quit like fuck versus wear a band-aid. This post has my 100% support, and I will QLF with Josh every damn day.
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Day 1249.
I came here to quit.
I was taught very early that being quit required 2 things: brotherhood (helping others quit, be it by saying really important and prudent stuff, texting, etc) and accountability (being on roll call everyday, looking out for my brothers, keeping my word, etc).
Accountability - I have NEVER missed a single day of roll call in those 1249. Feel free to check. I have and will continue to argue the importance of daily roll call to anyone - ANYONE. I will continue to freely give out my number to anyone who wants to continue increasing my web of accountability.
Brotherhood - I am not looking to add names to my rolodex, I am looking to build brotherhood. These folks that share this webspace with me, most of whom I have never and will never meet in person, have had more impact on my life than people I see for hours on end every day. I had to go to an unlimited text plan way back when because some of us found that we have a lot of common interests and text like crazy. I laugh my ass of most days at the funny shit people text randomly.
You know what? I came here to quit, and I am. I am not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but I strive to do what I can here to help, and will continue to do so until I cannot do it anymore.
I will continue to pass on the lessons taught to me by all those who learned them first and passed them on. Ready, Skoal Monster, Show, Nolaq, the original 7, and countless others - either by direct contact or by reading words you have posted on these here forums - you have given me a path to freedom and I promise to continue to walk it with my head held high and show others to the best of my ability. I owe this site my very life, and I will treat it as such.
Roll call is not a responsibility, it is a privilege and an honor. It is something more than an anon screen name on some forum. It is a solemn promise to brothers that must be honored if you have any pride or guts. I give my promise freely everyday. I expect nothing in return except your promise to do the same.
One of the best things Ive read recently. No bullshit, Just quitting. Rock on J2B!!!
Josh was the first to support my weak ass when I finally decided to quit like fuck versus wear a band-aid. This post has my 100% support, and I will QLF with Josh every damn day.
J2B spoken like a true leader. This is the ticket.....post roll engage in brotherhood and QLF.
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Day 1249.
I came here to quit.
I was taught very early that being quit required 2 things: brotherhood (helping others quit, be it by saying really important and prudent stuff, texting, etc) and accountability (being on roll call everyday, looking out for my brothers, keeping my word, etc).
Accountability - I have NEVER missed a single day of roll call in those 1249. Feel free to check. I have and will continue to argue the importance of daily roll call to anyone - ANYONE. I will continue to freely give out my number to anyone who wants to continue increasing my web of accountability.
Brotherhood - I am not looking to add names to my rolodex, I am looking to build brotherhood. These folks that share this webspace with me, most of whom I have never and will never meet in person, have had more impact on my life than people I see for hours on end every day. I had to go to an unlimited text plan way back when because some of us found that we have a lot of common interests and text like crazy. I laugh my ass of most days at the funny shit people text randomly.
You know what? I came here to quit, and I am. I am not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but I strive to do what I can here to help, and will continue to do so until I cannot do it anymore.
I will continue to pass on the lessons taught to me by all those who learned them first and passed them on. Ready, Skoal Monster, Show, Nolaq, the original 7, and countless others - either by direct contact or by reading words you have posted on these here forums - you have given me a path to freedom and I promise to continue to walk it with my head held high and show others to the best of my ability. I owe this site my very life, and I will treat it as such.
Roll call is not a responsibility, it is a privilege and an honor. It is something more than an anon screen name on some forum. It is a solemn promise to brothers that must be honored if you have any pride or guts. I give my promise freely everyday. I expect nothing in return except your promise to do the same.
One of the best things Ive read recently. No bullshit, Just quitting. Rock on J2B!!!
Josh was the first to support my weak ass when I finally decided to quit like fuck versus wear a band-aid. This post has my 100% support, and I will QLF with Josh every damn day.
J2B spoken like a true leader. This is the ticket.....post roll engage in brotherhood and QLF.
Werd.
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Day 1249.
I came here to quit.
I was taught very early that being quit required 2 things: brotherhood (helping others quit, be it by saying really important and prudent stuff, texting, etc) and accountability (being on roll call everyday, looking out for my brothers, keeping my word, etc).
Accountability - I have NEVER missed a single day of roll call in those 1249. Feel free to check. I have and will continue to argue the importance of daily roll call to anyone - ANYONE. I will continue to freely give out my number to anyone who wants to continue increasing my web of accountability.
Brotherhood - I am not looking to add names to my rolodex, I am looking to build brotherhood. These folks that share this webspace with me, most of whom I have never and will never meet in person, have had more impact on my life than people I see for hours on end every day. I had to go to an unlimited text plan way back when because some of us found that we have a lot of common interests and text like crazy. I laugh my ass of most days at the funny shit people text randomly.
You know what? I came here to quit, and I am. I am not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but I strive to do what I can here to help, and will continue to do so until I cannot do it anymore.
I will continue to pass on the lessons taught to me by all those who learned them first and passed them on. Ready, Skoal Monster, Show, Nolaq, the original 7, and countless others - either by direct contact or by reading words you have posted on these here forums - you have given me a path to freedom and I promise to continue to walk it with my head held high and show others to the best of my ability. I owe this site my very life, and I will treat it as such.
Roll call is not a responsibility, it is a privilege and an honor. It is something more than an anon screen name on some forum. It is a solemn promise to brothers that must be honored if you have any pride or guts. I give my promise freely everyday. I expect nothing in return except your promise to do the same.
One of the best things Ive read recently. No bullshit, Just quitting. Rock on J2B!!!
Josh was the first to support my weak ass when I finally decided to quit like fuck versus wear a band-aid. This post has my 100% support, and I will QLF with Josh every damn day.
J2B spoken like a true leader. This is the ticket.....post roll engage in brotherhood and QLF.
Werd.
*standing ovation*
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Day 1249.
I came here to quit.
I was taught very early that being quit required 2 things: brotherhood (helping others quit, be it by saying really important and prudent stuff, texting, etc) and accountability (being on roll call everyday, looking out for my brothers, keeping my word, etc).
Accountability - I have NEVER missed a single day of roll call in those 1249. Feel free to check. I have and will continue to argue the importance of daily roll call to anyone - ANYONE. I will continue to freely give out my number to anyone who wants to continue increasing my web of accountability.
Brotherhood - I am not looking to add names to my rolodex, I am looking to build brotherhood. These folks that share this webspace with me, most of whom I have never and will never meet in person, have had more impact on my life than people I see for hours on end every day. I had to go to an unlimited text plan way back when because some of us found that we have a lot of common interests and text like crazy. I laugh my ass of most days at the funny shit people text randomly.
You know what? I came here to quit, and I am. I am not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but I strive to do what I can here to help, and will continue to do so until I cannot do it anymore.
I will continue to pass on the lessons taught to me by all those who learned them first and passed them on. Ready, Skoal Monster, Show, Nolaq, the original 7, and countless others - either by direct contact or by reading words you have posted on these here forums - you have given me a path to freedom and I promise to continue to walk it with my head held high and show others to the best of my ability. I owe this site my very life, and I will treat it as such.
Roll call is not a responsibility, it is a privilege and an honor. It is something more than an anon screen name on some forum. It is a solemn promise to brothers that must be honored if you have any pride or guts. I give my promise freely everyday. I expect nothing in return except your promise to do the same.
One of the best things Ive read recently. No bullshit, Just quitting. Rock on J2B!!!
Josh was the first to support my weak ass when I finally decided to quit like fuck versus wear a band-aid. This post has my 100% support, and I will QLF with Josh every damn day.
J2B spoken like a true leader. This is the ticket.....post roll engage in brotherhood and QLF.
Werd.
*standing ovation*
^^^^^^ *slow clap*
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Day 1249.
I came here to quit.
I was taught very early that being quit required 2 things: brotherhood (helping others quit, be it by saying really important and prudent stuff, texting, etc) and accountability (being on roll call everyday, looking out for my brothers, keeping my word, etc).
Accountability - I have NEVER missed a single day of roll call in those 1249. Feel free to check. I have and will continue to argue the importance of daily roll call to anyone - ANYONE. I will continue to freely give out my number to anyone who wants to continue increasing my web of accountability.
Brotherhood - I am not looking to add names to my rolodex, I am looking to build brotherhood. These folks that share this webspace with me, most of whom I have never and will never meet in person, have had more impact on my life than people I see for hours on end every day. I had to go to an unlimited text plan way back when because some of us found that we have a lot of common interests and text like crazy. I laugh my ass of most days at the funny shit people text randomly.
You know what? I came here to quit, and I am. I am not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but I strive to do what I can here to help, and will continue to do so until I cannot do it anymore.
I will continue to pass on the lessons taught to me by all those who learned them first and passed them on. Ready, Skoal Monster, Show, Nolaq, the original 7, and countless others - either by direct contact or by reading words you have posted on these here forums - you have given me a path to freedom and I promise to continue to walk it with my head held high and show others to the best of my ability. I owe this site my very life, and I will treat it as such.
Roll call is not a responsibility, it is a privilege and an honor. It is something more than an anon screen name on some forum. It is a solemn promise to brothers that must be honored if you have any pride or guts. I give my promise freely everyday. I expect nothing in return except your promise to do the same.
One of the best things Ive read recently. No bullshit, Just quitting. Rock on J2B!!!
Josh was the first to support my weak ass when I finally decided to quit like fuck versus wear a band-aid. This post has my 100% support, and I will QLF with Josh every damn day.
J2B spoken like a true leader. This is the ticket.....post roll engage in brotherhood and QLF.
Werd.
*standing ovation*
^^^^^^ *slow clap*
^^^^^^ *mouth hug*
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Day 1249.
I came here to quit.
I was taught very early that being quit required 2 things: brotherhood (helping others quit, be it by saying really important and prudent stuff, texting, etc) and accountability (being on roll call everyday, looking out for my brothers, keeping my word, etc).
Accountability - I have NEVER missed a single day of roll call in those 1249. Feel free to check. I have and will continue to argue the importance of daily roll call to anyone - ANYONE. I will continue to freely give out my number to anyone who wants to continue increasing my web of accountability.
Brotherhood - I am not looking to add names to my rolodex, I am looking to build brotherhood. These folks that share this webspace with me, most of whom I have never and will never meet in person, have had more impact on my life than people I see for hours on end every day. I had to go to an unlimited text plan way back when because some of us found that we have a lot of common interests and text like crazy. I laugh my ass of most days at the funny shit people text randomly.
You know what? I came here to quit, and I am. I am not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but I strive to do what I can here to help, and will continue to do so until I cannot do it anymore.
I will continue to pass on the lessons taught to me by all those who learned them first and passed them on. Ready, Skoal Monster, Show, Nolaq, the original 7, and countless others - either by direct contact or by reading words you have posted on these here forums - you have given me a path to freedom and I promise to continue to walk it with my head held high and show others to the best of my ability. I owe this site my very life, and I will treat it as such.
Roll call is not a responsibility, it is a privilege and an honor. It is something more than an anon screen name on some forum. It is a solemn promise to brothers that must be honored if you have any pride or guts. I give my promise freely everyday. I expect nothing in return except your promise to do the same.
One of the best things Ive read recently. No bullshit, Just quitting. Rock on J2B!!!
Josh was the first to support my weak ass when I finally decided to quit like fuck versus wear a band-aid. This post has my 100% support, and I will QLF with Josh every damn day.
J2B spoken like a true leader. This is the ticket.....post roll engage in brotherhood and QLF.
Werd.
*standing ovation*
^^^^^^ *slow clap*
^^^^^^ *mouth hug*
Nice post my quit brother.
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Day 1249.
I came here to quit.
I was taught very early that being quit required 2 things: brotherhood (helping others quit, be it by saying really important and prudent stuff, texting, etc) and accountability (being on roll call everyday, looking out for my brothers, keeping my word, etc).
Accountability - I have NEVER missed a single day of roll call in those 1249. Feel free to check. I have and will continue to argue the importance of daily roll call to anyone - ANYONE. I will continue to freely give out my number to anyone who wants to continue increasing my web of accountability.
Brotherhood - I am not looking to add names to my rolodex, I am looking to build brotherhood. These folks that share this webspace with me, most of whom I have never and will never meet in person, have had more impact on my life than people I see for hours on end every day. I had to go to an unlimited text plan way back when because some of us found that we have a lot of common interests and text like crazy. I laugh my ass of most days at the funny shit people text randomly.
You know what? I came here to quit, and I am. I am not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but I strive to do what I can here to help, and will continue to do so until I cannot do it anymore.
I will continue to pass on the lessons taught to me by all those who learned them first and passed them on. Ready, Skoal Monster, Show, Nolaq, the original 7, and countless others - either by direct contact or by reading words you have posted on these here forums - you have given me a path to freedom and I promise to continue to walk it with my head held high and show others to the best of my ability. I owe this site my very life, and I will treat it as such.
Roll call is not a responsibility, it is a privilege and an honor. It is something more than an anon screen name on some forum. It is a solemn promise to brothers that must be honored if you have any pride or guts. I give my promise freely everyday. I expect nothing in return except your promise to do the same.
One of the best things Ive read recently. No bullshit, Just quitting. Rock on J2B!!!
Josh was the first to support my weak ass when I finally decided to quit like fuck versus wear a band-aid. This post has my 100% support, and I will QLF with Josh every damn day.
J2B spoken like a true leader. This is the ticket.....post roll engage in brotherhood and QLF.
Werd.
*standing ovation*
^^^^^^ *slow clap*
^^^^^^ *mouth hug*
Nice post my quit brother.
^^^Mouth hug? WTF. That's stirring some pretty funny visuals in me noggin.
J2B, you've been a great friend, teacher and leader for our text group. Thanks.
I love this:Roll call is not a responsibility, it is a privilege and an honor. It is something more than an anon screen name on some forum. It is a solemn promise to brothers that must be honored if you have any pride or guts. I give my promise freely everyday. I expect nothing in return except your promise to do the same.
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Roll call is not a responsibility, it is a privilege and an honor.
I disagree with this on every level.
You don't really get it do you?
Posting roll is not a privilege... It is not a reward or benefit.
It. Is. A. Responsibility.
You don't GET to post roll... You NEED to post roll.
You dig?
It's not an honor to post roll... Posting roll is something you must honor.
Throw as many words around as you want but you still have it backwards and therein lies the problem. Stop patting yourself on the back for doing nothing special...
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Roll call is not a responsibility, it is a privilege and an honor.
I disagree with this on every level.
You don't really get it do you?
Posting roll is not a privilege... It is not a reward or benefit.
It. Is. A. Responsibility.
You don't GET to post roll... You NEED to post roll.
You dig?
It's not an honor to post roll... Posting roll is something you must honor.
Throw as many words around as you want but you still have it backwards and therein lies the problem. Stop patting yourself on the back for doing nothing special...
Excuse me here.
I believe posting roll IS a privilige. It is not a burden, or a cross I bear.
I am Quit today. I am Quit because of this place and it's brotherhood and accountability.
I do not honor this place as a burden. I honor this place with my daily pledge.
And I honor it daily.
I'm sorry bro, I disagree with you on this, but not on every level.
I Quit today. You Quit today.
We may be looking through different colored glasses, but we are seeing the same image.
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Roll call is not a responsibility, it is a privilege and an honor.
I disagree with this on every level.
You don't really get it do you?
Posting roll is not a privilege... It is not a reward or benefit.
It. Is. A. Responsibility.
You don't GET to post roll... You NEED to post roll.
You dig?
It's not an honor to post roll... Posting roll is something you must honor.
Throw as many words around as you want but you still have it backwards and therein lies the problem. Stop patting yourself on the back for doing nothing special...
Excuse me here.
I believe posting roll IS a privilige. It is not a burden, or a cross I bear.
I am Quit today. I am Quit because of this place and it's brotherhood and accountability.
I do not honor this place as a burden. I honor this place with my daily pledge.
And I honor it daily.
I'm sorry bro, I disagree with you on this, but not on every level.
I Quit today. You Quit today.
We may be looking through different colored glasses, but we are seeing the same image.
Fuck I'm tired of this shit.
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Roll call is not a responsibility, it is a privilege and an honor.
I disagree with this on every level.
You don't really get it do you?
Posting roll is not a privilege... It is not a reward or benefit.
It. Is. A. Responsibility.
You don't GET to post roll... You NEED to post roll.
You dig?
It's not an honor to post roll... Posting roll is something you must honor.
Throw as many words around as you want but you still have it backwards and therein lies the problem. Stop patting yourself on the back for doing nothing special...
Excuse me here.
I believe posting roll IS a privilige. It is not a burden, or a cross I bear.
I am Quit today. I am Quit because of this place and it's brotherhood and accountability.
I do not honor this place as a burden. I honor this place with my daily pledge.
And I honor it daily.
I'm sorry bro, I disagree with you on this, but not on every level.
I Quit today. You Quit today.
We may be looking through different colored glasses, but we are seeing the same image.
Fuck I'm tired of this shit.
I am not. What roll means to each of us and how we look at it is entirely up to you. So long as you give your word and honor it every day, it can be an honor, a privilege, a burden, a reminder, a responsibility - whatever you need it to be so long as you understand what it means and why you are doing it.
I posted in my intro what it means to me and how I think of it. As a reminder to me. You don't have to agree and I don't expect everyone to agree.
Quit on.
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Roll call is not a responsibility, it is a privilege and an honor.
I disagree with this on every level.
You don't really get it do you?
Posting roll is not a privilege... It is not a reward or benefit.
It. Is. A. Responsibility.
You don't GET to post roll... You NEED to post roll.
You dig?
It's not an honor to post roll... Posting roll is something you must honor.
Throw as many words around as you want but you still have it backwards and therein lies the problem. Stop patting yourself on the back for doing nothing special...
Excuse me here.
I believe posting roll IS a privilige. It is not a burden, or a cross I bear.
I am Quit today. I am Quit because of this place and it's brotherhood and accountability.
I do not honor this place as a burden. I honor this place with my daily pledge.
And I honor it daily.
I'm sorry bro, I disagree with you on this, but not on every level.
I Quit today. You Quit today.
We may be looking through different colored glasses, but we are seeing the same image.
Respect bro.
I'm not gonna argue with you... You see my point right?
I see yours.
Movin' on...
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Roll call is not a responsibility, it is a privilege and an honor.
I disagree with this on every level.
You don't really get it do you?
Posting roll is not a privilege... It is not a reward or benefit.
It. Is. A. Responsibility.
You don't GET to post roll... You NEED to post roll.
You dig?
It's not an honor to post roll... Posting roll is something you must honor.
Throw as many words around as you want but you still have it backwards and therein lies the problem. Stop patting yourself on the back for doing nothing special...
Excuse me here.
I believe posting roll IS a privilige. It is not a burden, or a cross I bear.
I am Quit today. I am Quit because of this place and it's brotherhood and accountability.
I do not honor this place as a burden. I honor this place with my daily pledge.
And I honor it daily.
I'm sorry bro, I disagree with you on this, but not on every level.
I Quit today. You Quit today.
We may be looking through different colored glasses, but we are seeing the same image.
Fuck I'm tired of this shit.
I am not. What roll means to each of us and how we look at it is entirely up to you. So long as you give your word and honor it every day, it can be an honor, a privilege, a burden, a reminder, a responsibility - whatever you need it to be so long as you understand what it means and why you are doing it.
I posted in my intro what it means to me and how I think of it. As a reminder to me. You don't have to agree and I don't expect everyone to agree.
Quit on.
You, however, I still have issue with.
But... It does no good to argue against a viewpoint that bends every which way.
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Roll call is not a responsibility, it is a privilege and an honor.
I disagree with this on every level.
You don't really get it do you?
Posting roll is not a privilege... It is not a reward or benefit.
It. Is. A. Responsibility.
You don't GET to post roll... You NEED to post roll.
You dig?
It's not an honor to post roll... Posting roll is something you must honor.
Throw as many words around as you want but you still have it backwards and therein lies the problem. Stop patting yourself on the back for doing nothing special...
Excuse me here.
I believe posting roll IS a privilige. It is not a burden, or a cross I bear.
I am Quit today. I am Quit because of this place and it's brotherhood and accountability.
I do not honor this place as a burden. I honor this place with my daily pledge.
And I honor it daily.
I'm sorry bro, I disagree with you on this, but not on every level.
I Quit today. You Quit today.
We may be looking through different colored glasses, but we are seeing the same image.
Fuck I'm tired of this shit.
I am not. What roll means to each of us and how we look at it is entirely up to you. So long as you give your word and honor it every day, it can be an honor, a privilege, a burden, a reminder, a responsibility - whatever you need it to be so long as you understand what it means and why you are doing it.
I posted in my intro what it means to me and how I think of it. As a reminder to me. You don't have to agree and I don't expect everyone to agree.
Quit on.
You, however, I still have issue with.
But... It does no good to argue against a viewpoint that bends every which way.
OK then.
I have started my viewpoint quite clearly. You have stated yours. Not sure how mine is bending every which way. I don't know why you have a problem with my view point.
Posting roll is not my responsibility - raising my kids, going to work, and paying taxes are my responsibilities. Posting roll every morning with the 3ballers is an honor and a privilege. It is an honor to be a member of this site. It is a privilege to put my name on the line with some of the baddest fucking people on the planet every day.
You are right that i need to post roll; I am an addict. But I don't have to post roll. No one is putting a gun to my head. I do it because I know that before KTC quitting was an impossible dream best put off until tomorrow. Since KTC I have kept that shit out of my lip for over 3 years. I have used the tools to weave a web of accountability so thick it would be epic if I failed (thanks waste).
Does that clear it up for you? Or is there some other issue you would like me to address? Would you be more comfortable pm'Ing, texting, calling, or posting here?
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Roll call is not a responsibility, it is a privilege and an honor.
I disagree with this on every level.
You don't really get it do you?
Posting roll is not a privilege... It is not a reward or benefit.
It. Is. A. Responsibility.
You don't GET to post roll... You NEED to post roll.
You dig?
It's not an honor to post roll... Posting roll is something you must honor.
Throw as many words around as you want but you still have it backwards and therein lies the problem. Stop patting yourself on the back for doing nothing special...
Excuse me here.
I believe posting roll IS a privilige. It is not a burden, or a cross I bear.
I am Quit today. I am Quit because of this place and it's brotherhood and accountability.
I do not honor this place as a burden. I honor this place with my daily pledge.
And I honor it daily.
I'm sorry bro, I disagree with you on this, but not on every level.
I Quit today. You Quit today.
We may be looking through different colored glasses, but we are seeing the same image.
Fuck I'm tired of this shit.
I am not. What roll means to each of us and how we look at it is entirely up to you. So long as you give your word and honor it every day, it can be an honor, a privilege, a burden, a reminder, a responsibility - whatever you need it to be so long as you understand what it means and why you are doing it.
I posted in my intro what it means to me and how I think of it. As a reminder to me. You don't have to agree and I don't expect everyone to agree.
Quit on.
You, however, I still have issue with.
But... It does no good to argue against a viewpoint that bends every which way.
OK then.
I have started my viewpoint quite clearly. You have stated yours. Not sure how mine is bending every which way. I don't know why you have a problem with my view point.
Posting roll is not my responsibility - raising my kids, going to work, and paying taxes are my responsibilities. Posting roll every morning with the 3ballers is an honor and a privilege. It is an honor to be a member of this site. It is a privilege to put my name on the line with some of the baddest fucking people on the planet every day.
You are right that i need to post roll; I am an addict. But I don't have to post roll. No one is putting a gun to my head. I do it because I know that before KTC quitting was an impossible dream best put off until tomorrow. Since KTC I have kept that shit out of my lip for over 3 years. I have used the tools to weave a web of accountability so thick it would be epic if I failed (thanks waste).
Does that clear it up for you? Or is there some other issue you would like me to address? Would you be more comfortable pm'Ing, texting, calling, or posting here?
For me a "member" of KTC posting roll is a privilege. For me as a quit addict and member of the BOQ posting roll is a responsibility if I'm going to live up to the brotherhood of my fellow BOQ. Posting roll is a reminder of the promise I made to myself and my wife (that's more personal). I find a lot in this discussion that I agree with and some I don't. As a member of KTC I look at those with colored names as examples of what works and what is expected. Right or wrong that's my view point. That's where I disagree with you J2B, since your name has color I see you have a responsibility to set the example for those of us that are just plain 'black'. All of this discussion has stirred a very sore subject matter up for me that I struggled with early in my quit. I now see it differently than I did then and I also see a possible solution that I didn't then. When someone with a colored name retires or God forbid "caves" why not take the color away and have their status show as "member". You can go ahead and have a location where they can be credited for their past service if praise is important. Looking at retired "leaders" you'll see that some haven't posted for months or years. If the post tomorrow why should their names show up in color? It appears that they are better than the average Joe.
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Roll call is not a responsibility, it is a privilege and an honor.
I disagree with this on every level.
You don't really get it do you?
Posting roll is not a privilege... It is not a reward or benefit.
It. Is. A. Responsibility.
You don't GET to post roll... You NEED to post roll.
You dig?
It's not an honor to post roll... Posting roll is something you must honor.
Throw as many words around as you want but you still have it backwards and therein lies the problem. Stop patting yourself on the back for doing nothing special...
Excuse me here.
I believe posting roll IS a privilige. It is not a burden, or a cross I bear.
I am Quit today. I am Quit because of this place and it's brotherhood and accountability.
I do not honor this place as a burden. I honor this place with my daily pledge.
And I honor it daily.
I'm sorry bro, I disagree with you on this, but not on every level.
I Quit today. You Quit today.
We may be looking through different colored glasses, but we are seeing the same image.
Fuck I'm tired of this shit.
I am not. What roll means to each of us and how we look at it is entirely up to you. So long as you give your word and honor it every day, it can be an honor, a privilege, a burden, a reminder, a responsibility - whatever you need it to be so long as you understand what it means and why you are doing it.
I posted in my intro what it means to me and how I think of it. As a reminder to me. You don't have to agree and I don't expect everyone to agree.
Quit on.
You, however, I still have issue with.
But... It does no good to argue against a viewpoint that bends every which way.
OK then.
I have started my viewpoint quite clearly. You have stated yours. Not sure how mine is bending every which way. I don't know why you have a problem with my view point.
Posting roll is not my responsibility - raising my kids, going to work, and paying taxes are my responsibilities. Posting roll every morning with the 3ballers is an honor and a privilege. It is an honor to be a member of this site. It is a privilege to put my name on the line with some of the baddest fucking people on the planet every day.
You are right that i need to post roll; I am an addict. But I don't have to post roll. No one is putting a gun to my head. I do it because I know that before KTC quitting was an impossible dream best put off until tomorrow. Since KTC I have kept that shit out of my lip for over 3 years. I have used the tools to weave a web of accountability so thick it would be epic if I failed (thanks waste).
Does that clear it up for you? Or is there some other issue you would like me to address? Would you be more comfortable pm'Ing, texting, calling, or posting here?
For me a "member" of KTC posting roll is a privilege. For me as a quit addict and member of the BOQ posting roll is a responsibility if I'm going to live up to the brotherhood of my fellow BOQ. Posting roll is a reminder of the promise I made to myself and my wife (that's more personal). I find a lot in this discussion that I agree with and some I don't. As a member of KTC I look at those with colored names as examples of what works and what is expected. Right or wrong that's my view point. That's where I disagree with you J2B, since your name has color I see you have a responsibility to set the example for those of us that are just plain 'black'. All of this discussion has stirred a very sore subject matter up for me that I struggled with early in my quit. I now see it differently than I did then and I also see a possible solution that I didn't then. When someone with a colored name retires or God forbid "caves" why not take the color away and have their status show as "member". You can go ahead and have a location where they can be credited for their past service if praise is important. Looking at retired "leaders" you'll see that some haven't posted for months or years. If the post tomorrow why should their names show up in color? It appears that they are better than the average Joe.
The color in my name does give me responsibility - but first and foremost I am a quitter, and taking on the responsibility of beinga mod or Admin won't change how I view roll call or the standard I should be held to. I have posted roll every day for 1,249 days. I have been a mod or Admin for less than half of those (I think).
I believe in roll call and why we do it. Color has no bearing on that. I expect every quitter to post roll every day. Period.
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Roll call is not a responsibility, it is a privilege and an honor.
I disagree with this on every level.
You don't really get it do you?
Posting roll is not a privilege... It is not a reward or benefit.
It. Is. A. Responsibility.
You don't GET to post roll... You NEED to post roll.
You dig?
It's not an honor to post roll... Posting roll is something you must honor.
Throw as many words around as you want but you still have it backwards and therein lies the problem. Stop patting yourself on the back for doing nothing special...
Excuse me here.
I believe posting roll IS a privilige. It is not a burden, or a cross I bear.
I am Quit today. I am Quit because of this place and it's brotherhood and accountability.
I do not honor this place as a burden. I honor this place with my daily pledge.
And I honor it daily.
I'm sorry bro, I disagree with you on this, but not on every level.
I Quit today. You Quit today.
We may be looking through different colored glasses, but we are seeing the same image.
Fuck I'm tired of this shit.
I am not. What roll means to each of us and how we look at it is entirely up to you. So long as you give your word and honor it every day, it can be an honor, a privilege, a burden, a reminder, a responsibility - whatever you need it to be so long as you understand what it means and why you are doing it.
I posted in my intro what it means to me and how I think of it. As a reminder to me. You don't have to agree and I don't expect everyone to agree.
Quit on.
You, however, I still have issue with.
But... It does no good to argue against a viewpoint that bends every which way.
OK then.
I have started my viewpoint quite clearly. You have stated yours. Not sure how mine is bending every which way. I don't know why you have a problem with my view point.
Posting roll is not my responsibility - raising my kids, going to work, and paying taxes are my responsibilities. Posting roll every morning with the 3ballers is an honor and a privilege. It is an honor to be a member of this site. It is a privilege to put my name on the line with some of the baddest fucking people on the planet every day.
You are right that i need to post roll; I am an addict. But I don't have to post roll. No one is putting a gun to my head. I do it because I know that before KTC quitting was an impossible dream best put off until tomorrow. Since KTC I have kept that shit out of my lip for over 3 years. I have used the tools to weave a web of accountability so thick it would be epic if I failed (thanks waste).
Does that clear it up for you? Or is there some other issue you would like me to address? Would you be more comfortable pm'Ing, texting, calling, or posting here?
sigh
"Posting roll is not my responsibility"
You're an Admin of this site and... you actually said that!?
I'm done here, bro. You just do NOT get where I'm coming from. Look up responsibility.
You don't need me cluttering up your thread and I don't need a Charlie Brown leader.
Rock your quit... I'll rock mine.
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Roll call is not a responsibility, it is a privilege and an honor.
I disagree with this on every level.
You don't really get it do you?
Posting roll is not a privilege... It is not a reward or benefit.
It. Is. A. Responsibility.
You don't GET to post roll... You NEED to post roll.
You dig?
It's not an honor to post roll... Posting roll is something you must honor.
Throw as many words around as you want but you still have it backwards and therein lies the problem. Stop patting yourself on the back for doing nothing special...
Excuse me here.
I believe posting roll IS a privilige. It is not a burden, or a cross I bear.
I am Quit today. I am Quit because of this place and it's brotherhood and accountability.
I do not honor this place as a burden. I honor this place with my daily pledge.
And I honor it daily.
I'm sorry bro, I disagree with you on this, but not on every level.
I Quit today. You Quit today.
We may be looking through different colored glasses, but we are seeing the same image.
Fuck I'm tired of this shit.
I am not. What roll means to each of us and how we look at it is entirely up to you. So long as you give your word and honor it every day, it can be an honor, a privilege, a burden, a reminder, a responsibility - whatever you need it to be so long as you understand what it means and why you are doing it.
I posted in my intro what it means to me and how I think of it. As a reminder to me. You don't have to agree and I don't expect everyone to agree.
Quit on.
You, however, I still have issue with.
But... It does no good to argue against a viewpoint that bends every which way.
OK then.
I have started my viewpoint quite clearly. You have stated yours. Not sure how mine is bending every which way. I don't know why you have a problem with my view point.
Posting roll is not my responsibility - raising my kids, going to work, and paying taxes are my responsibilities. Posting roll every morning with the 3ballers is an honor and a privilege. It is an honor to be a member of this site. It is a privilege to put my name on the line with some of the baddest fucking people on the planet every day.
You are right that i need to post roll; I am an addict. But I don't have to post roll. No one is putting a gun to my head. I do it because I know that before KTC quitting was an impossible dream best put off until tomorrow. Since KTC I have kept that shit out of my lip for over 3 years. I have used the tools to weave a web of accountability so thick it would be epic if I failed (thanks waste).
Does that clear it up for you? Or is there some other issue you would like me to address? Would you be more comfortable pm'Ing, texting, calling, or posting here?
sigh
"Posting roll is not my responsibility"
You're an Admin of this site and... you actually said that!?
I'm done here, bro. You just do NOT get where I'm coming from. Look up responsibility.
You don't need me cluttering up your thread and I don't need a Charlie Brown leader.
Rock your quit... I'll rock mine.
The color in my name does give me responsibility - but first and foremost I am a quitter, and taking on the responsibility of beinga mod or Admin won't change how I view roll call or the standard I should be held to. I have posted roll every day for 1,249 days. I have been a mod or Admin for less than half of those (I think).
I believe in roll call and why we do it. Color has no bearing on that. I expect every quitter to post roll every day. Period.
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What. A. Fucking. Summer....
Found out baby #3 was on the way early on. About a week or two later, wife was given a choice to quit or be fired over some pretty flimsy BS despite a pretty outstanding performance history. Pretty stressful as she brought in about 1/3 of the household income. Top it off with a vacation that was already essentially paid for and non-refundable. Whole family really needed a week away, but would have preferred to do it a bit cheaper. This past weekend, the city went on water lockdown when testing on the water revealed above permissible levels of toxins. No consumption for anyone, no contact for kids and those with weakened immune systems (sick, old, pregnant, etc). City did well other than the initial craziness of buying water by the truckload. Sunday, my older son asked for bug medicine for a bite. He always has a reaction to mosquito and spider bites; they just look bad and occasionally blister. I looked at this one and saw red tracks running from his wrist to above his elbow. At first it just looked like a dog scratch, but it felt warm and had no noticeable claw mark. Maybe juice? No bueno - baby wipe didnt do shit.
Took him to the ER, and he was basically admitted immediately. Cellulitis/infection. IV antibiotics for 24 hours. We were nervous as hell, since there have been two confirmed mosquito samples with West Nile in the city. Luckily this was just an infection, and he was out yesterday. Of course giving a 4 year old 11ml 3x a day for 10 days of some pretty vile shit is gonna present some challenges, but it could be much worse.
Needless to say, this has been one hell of a summer. Nobody died and nobody has been seriously injured, but some of these blows are the long term, pressing kind of shit. I have felt every bit of it, that is for damn sure. I realized that stupid thoughts of just one were creeping in. "Just one will make it all better." Fuck that. 1200+ days, I know that this shit would have happened using or not and it certainly wasnt going to go away if I picked up some death; usually throwing cancer on top of other problems is not the best idea.
In addition to posting roll, I have relied on the tools here (texting groups, posting, using fake/seeds/etc) and they have been a huge help. Most importantly, leaning on KTC brothers has been a godsend. My original 3balled brothers to the newer quitters that I trade jabs with have all helped me get through some shitty times. Everyday I am thankful I found this place, and that there are so many willing souls to keep this fight going and help each other out.
My quit is mine - I own it. But there is no way I would be here if not for the men of KTC. Thank you all for helping this dumbass addict save his life, over and over again.
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What. A. Fucking. Summer....
Found out baby #3 was on the way early on. About a week or two later, wife was given a choice to quit or be fired over some pretty flimsy BS despite a pretty outstanding performance history. Pretty stressful as she brought in about 1/3 of the household income. Top it off with a vacation that was already essentially paid for and non-refundable. Whole family really needed a week away, but would have preferred to do it a bit cheaper. This past weekend, the city went on water lockdown when testing on the water revealed above permissible levels of toxins. No consumption for anyone, no contact for kids and those with weakened immune systems (sick, old, pregnant, etc). City did well other than the initial craziness of buying water by the truckload. Sunday, my older son asked for bug medicine for a bite. He always has a reaction to mosquito and spider bites; they just look bad and occasionally blister. I looked at this one and saw red tracks running from his wrist to above his elbow. At first it just looked like a dog scratch, but it felt warm and had no noticeable claw mark. Maybe juice? No bueno - baby wipe didnt do shit.
Took him to the ER, and he was basically admitted immediately. Cellulitis/infection. IV antibiotics for 24 hours. We were nervous as hell, since there have been two confirmed mosquito samples with West Nile in the city. Luckily this was just an infection, and he was out yesterday. Of course giving a 4 year old 11ml 3x a day for 10 days of some pretty vile shit is gonna present some challenges, but it could be much worse.
Needless to say, this has been one hell of a summer. Nobody died and nobody has been seriously injured, but some of these blows are the long term, pressing kind of shit. I have felt every bit of it, that is for damn sure. I realized that stupid thoughts of just one were creeping in. "Just one will make it all better." Fuck that. 1200+ days, I know that this shit would have happened using or not and it certainly wasnt going to go away if I picked up some death; usually throwing cancer on top of other problems is not the best idea.
In addition to posting roll, I have relied on the tools here (texting groups, posting, using fake/seeds/etc) and they have been a huge help. Most importantly, leaning on KTC brothers has been a godsend. My original 3balled brothers to the newer quitters that I trade jabs with have all helped me get through some shitty times. Everyday I am thankful I found this place, and that there are so many willing souls to keep this fight going and help each other out.
My quit is mine - I own it. But there is no way I would be here if not for the men of KTC. Thank you all for helping this dumbass addict save his life, over and over again.
You were drinking the Kool-Aid long before you convinced me to join you in a glass, and you walked the walk brother. A great example here of one of our leaders using the same tools we all were taught to use. Proud to be quit with you today.
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What. A. Fucking. Summer....
Found out baby #3 was on the way early on. About a week or two later, wife was given a choice to quit or be fired over some pretty flimsy BS despite a pretty outstanding performance history. Pretty stressful as she brought in about 1/3 of the household income. Top it off with a vacation that was already essentially paid for and non-refundable. Whole family really needed a week away, but would have preferred to do it a bit cheaper. This past weekend, the city went on water lockdown when testing on the water revealed above permissible levels of toxins. No consumption for anyone, no contact for kids and those with weakened immune systems (sick, old, pregnant, etc). City did well other than the initial craziness of buying water by the truckload. Sunday, my older son asked for bug medicine for a bite. He always has a reaction to mosquito and spider bites; they just look bad and occasionally blister. I looked at this one and saw red tracks running from his wrist to above his elbow. At first it just looked like a dog scratch, but it felt warm and had no noticeable claw mark. Maybe juice? No bueno - baby wipe didnt do shit.
Took him to the ER, and he was basically admitted immediately. Cellulitis/infection. IV antibiotics for 24 hours. We were nervous as hell, since there have been two confirmed mosquito samples with West Nile in the city. Luckily this was just an infection, and he was out yesterday. Of course giving a 4 year old 11ml 3x a day for 10 days of some pretty vile shit is gonna present some challenges, but it could be much worse.
Needless to say, this has been one hell of a summer. Nobody died and nobody has been seriously injured, but some of these blows are the long term, pressing kind of shit. I have felt every bit of it, that is for damn sure. I realized that stupid thoughts of just one were creeping in. "Just one will make it all better." Fuck that. 1200+ days, I know that this shit would have happened using or not and it certainly wasnt going to go away if I picked up some death; usually throwing cancer on top of other problems is not the best idea.
In addition to posting roll, I have relied on the tools here (texting groups, posting, using fake/seeds/etc) and they have been a huge help. Most importantly, leaning on KTC brothers has been a godsend. My original 3balled brothers to the newer quitters that I trade jabs with have all helped me get through some shitty times. Everyday I am thankful I found this place, and that there are so many willing souls to keep this fight going and help each other out.
My quit is mine - I own it. But there is no way I would be here if not for the men of KTC. Thank you all for helping this dumbass addict save his life, over and over again.
You were drinking the Kool-Aid long before you convinced me to join you in a glass, and you walked the walk brother. A great example here of one of our leaders using the same tools we all were taught to use. Proud to be quit with you today.
That's crazy bro. Thanks for sharing. And I echo what Thumblewort said too. And last, congratulations on baby #3.
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Seems like you've been getting a steady stream of curveballs lately. The thing about having a 1200+ day quit under your belt is that any passing thoughts of dip/nic are now nice, slow, hanging curves - just waiting to be crushed. Swing for the fences on those.
Soon enough the hit parade of craptastrophes will begin to subside. That's just the ebb and flow of things, but you already know that. You've got an army of quitters at your back, too, ready to be leaned on.
Congrats on Baby #3!
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13th floor. Congrats j2b. Watch your 6 up (down?) there.
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13th floor. Congrats j2b. Watch your 6 up (down?) there.
Yep, congrats on 1300. Don't take the elevator.
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13th floor. Congrats j2b. Watch your 6 up (down?) there.
Yep, congrats on 1300. Don't take the elevator.
Gratz on the 13th floor brother!
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Today my father would have turned 60. COPD and Emphysema from years of smoking and construction work took him away from us February 17, 2013.
Fuck you Nic bitch. As god as my witness the cycle died with him. I helped kill it 1353 days ago.
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Today my father would have turned 60. COPD and Emphysema from years of smoking and construction work took him away from us February 17, 2013.
Fuck you Nic bitch. As god as my witness the cycle died with him. I helped kill it 1353 days ago.
BAD. ASS.
Congrats.
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Today my father would have turned 60. COPD and Emphysema from years of smoking and construction work took him away from us February 17, 2013.
Fuck you Nic bitch. As god as my witness the cycle died with him. I helped kill it 1353 days ago.
BAD. ASS.
Congrats.
Sweet freedom! Way to break the cycle. Tobacco has claimed many in my families history as well. Congrats on what you have accomplished.
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Today my father would have turned 60. COPD and Emphysema from years of smoking and construction work took him away from us February 17, 2013.
Fuck you Nic bitch. As god as my witness the cycle died with him. I helped kill it 1353 days ago.
BAD. ASS.
Congrats.
Sweet freedom! Way to break the cycle. Tobacco has claimed many in my families history as well. Congrats on what you have accomplished.
The truth will set you free!
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Today my father would have turned 60. COPD and Emphysema from years of smoking and construction work took him away from us February 17, 2013.
Fuck you Nic bitch. As god as my witness the cycle died with him. I helped kill it 1353 days ago.
BAD. ASS.
Congrats.
Sweet freedom! Way to break the cycle. Tobacco has claimed many in my families history as well. Congrats on what you have accomplished.
The truth will set you free!
Nice job, J2B!
I'll hold the bitch while you continue to beat her.
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Today my father would have turned 60. COPD and Emphysema from years of smoking and construction work took him away from us February 17, 2013.
Fuck you Nic bitch. As god as my witness the cycle died with him. I helped kill it 1353 days ago.
BAD. ASS.
Congrats.
Sweet freedom! Way to break the cycle. Tobacco has claimed many in my families history as well. Congrats on what you have accomplished.
The truth will set you free!
Nice job, J2B!
I'll hold the bitch while you continue to beat her.
Hate to still Keddy's line but way to break the chains! Reading about your dad reminded me of a story about mine that also died due to tobacco use. He was in a wheelchair in a nursing home the last few years and continued to smoke. He'd wheel himself to a patio in the back and light a smoke. If he got interrupted and had to go back in, he'd put it out and save the half a cig to finish later. Came to visit him one day and he had a big scab behind his ear. Asked him what the heck and he says, "didn't put it out good enough".
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Today my father would have turned 60. COPD and Emphysema from years of smoking and construction work took him away from us February 17, 2013.
Fuck you Nic bitch. As god as my witness the cycle died with him. I helped kill it 1353 days ago.
BAD. ASS.
Congrats.
Sweet freedom! Way to break the cycle. Tobacco has claimed many in my families history as well. Congrats on what you have accomplished.
The truth will set you free!
Nice job, J2B!
I'll hold the bitch while you continue to beat her.
Hate to still Keddy's line but way to break the chains! Reading about your dad reminded me of a story about mine that also died due to tobacco use. He was in a wheelchair in a nursing home the last few years and continued to smoke. He'd wheel himself to a patio in the back and light a smoke. If he got interrupted and had to go back in, he'd put it out and save the half a cig to finish later. Came to visit him one day and he had a big scab behind his ear. Asked him what the heck and he says, "didn't put it out good enough".
Breaking the cycle is a very good thing. Proud to quit with you today J2B.
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http://youtu.be/d8oL-XCH43I (http://youtu.be/d8oL-XCH43I)
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http://youtu.be/d8oL-XCH43I (http://youtu.be/d8oL-XCH43I)
Great cover of one of the greatest songs ever!
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Especially with the trouble the site has been having, the level of brotherhood and accountability this site brings is evident more and more.
Forum down? Post on the blog (or fb, twitter, etc), and then text your brothers and let them know. So many texts today from so many brothers in quit, all promising the same thing.
Love this place. Love knowing that it's more than just a forum. It's a family.
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Especially with the trouble the site has been having, the level of brotherhood and accountability this site brings is evident more and more.
Forum down? Post on the blog (or fb, twitter, etc), and then text your brothers and let them know. So many texts today from so many brothers in quit, all promising the same thing.
Love this place. Love knowing that it's more than just a forum. It's a family.
^^^^ homie posted roll for me after a text I sent early afternoon. Brotherhood at it's best.
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Ramblings and maybe some ranting.
on 1/23/11, I posted roll for the first time. Never in a million years did I thing I would be repeating that action almost 4 years later. Now, as the 4 year anniversary of that life saving action approaches, I have so much to be thankful for. First, there is an outside chance baby boy #3 could be born on my quit date. Doc has the due date at 1/25, but man. I cant think of a better symbol of my quit and the great things that have come from it then holding my newborn infant on my 4 year anniversary. Anyway, taking this one day at a time has worked for 1447 days so I wont start the long view just yet, but damn that would be something special.
As I look around the site day to day, I see so much quitting and brotherhood growing and building it makes me so damn glad I found this place. I love my May 11 3balled brothers, and while random chance through us together a common addiction and desire to break those chains is what bonded us. There are not as many of us left posting daily as I would have liked, but the 10 of us who are here (30yr, Larry Drummer, Mitchel10, retreadmajor, HKS, ninereasons, magnum9, ODAAT, Junkman) - man thats a lot of quit. We all appreciate the daily support from all the honorary 3ballers and love paying it forward with 3BiTs. Hard to explain how much satisfaction comes from seeing another person fight there way to freedom and knowing you had even a small hand in it. 'Finger' nic bitch, from all of us on the shortbus.
Like any family (brothers especially, I have 2 and man...) there are fights, arguments, storming out, punches, etc. It happens. Hell, my 5 and 3 year old get into it daily and then are playing hot wheels and lego's 5 minutes later. I fully expect #3 to be in the mix as soon as he can make a fist. The key here is remembering that above all else, the enemy is nicotine. At all cost, we must protect the brotherhood and accountability methods that have helped so many get past day 1, day 3, day 100, and day 1000. Even if it means an unpopular decision, action, or whatever else. KTC is not for everybody, and its not the only quitting site on the net. It is the only thing that has ever helped me quit. I owe it my life, and will do whatever I must to repay that debt.
Anyway, anybody got any tips for managing 3 kids with 2 hands? 'help'
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Ramblings and maybe some ranting.
on 1/23/11, I posted roll for the first time. Never in a million years did I thing I would be repeating that action almost 4 years later. Now, as the 4 year anniversary of that life saving action approaches, I have so much to be thankful for. First, there is an outside chance baby boy #3 could be born on my quit date. Doc has the due date at 1/25, but man. I cant think of a better symbol of my quit and the great things that have come from it then holding my newborn infant on my 4 year anniversary. Anyway, taking this one day at a time has worked for 1447 days so I wont start the long view just yet, but damn that would be something special.
As I look around the site day to day, I see so much quitting and brotherhood growing and building it makes me so damn glad I found this place. I love my May 11 3balled brothers, and while random chance through us together a common addiction and desire to break those chains is what bonded us. There are not as many of us left posting daily as I would have liked, but the 10 of us who are here (30yr, Larry Drummer, Mitchel10, retreadmajor, HKS, ninereasons, magnum9, ODAAT, Junkman) - man thats a lot of quit. We all appreciate the daily support from all the honorary 3ballers and love paying it forward with 3BiTs. Hard to explain how much satisfaction comes from seeing another person fight there way to freedom and knowing you had even a small hand in it. 'Finger' nic bitch, from all of us on the shortbus.
Like any family (brothers especially, I have 2 and man...) there are fights, arguments, storming out, punches, etc. It happens. Hell, my 5 and 3 year old get into it daily and then are playing hot wheels and lego's 5 minutes later. I fully expect #3 to be in the mix as soon as he can make a fist. The key here is remembering that above all else, the enemy is nicotine. At all cost, we must protect the brotherhood and accountability methods that have helped so many get past day 1, day 3, day 100, and day 1000. Even if it means an unpopular decision, action, or whatever else. KTC is not for everybody, and its not the only quitting site on the net. It is the only thing that has ever helped me quit. I owe it my life, and will do whatever I must to repay that debt.
Anyway, anybody got any tips for managing 3 kids with 2 hands? 'help'
Option 1 (http://www.octanecreative.com/ducttape/walltapings/images/principal_hooks.jpg)
^^^ might work????
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Ramblings and maybe some ranting.
on 1/23/11, I posted roll for the first time. Never in a million years did I thing I would be repeating that action almost 4 years later. Now, as the 4 year anniversary of that life saving action approaches, I have so much to be thankful for. First, there is an outside chance baby boy #3 could be born on my quit date. Doc has the due date at 1/25, but man. I cant think of a better symbol of my quit and the great things that have come from it then holding my newborn infant on my 4 year anniversary. Anyway, taking this one day at a time has worked for 1447 days so I wont start the long view just yet, but damn that would be something special.
As I look around the site day to day, I see so much quitting and brotherhood growing and building it makes me so damn glad I found this place. I love my May 11 3balled brothers, and while random chance through us together a common addiction and desire to break those chains is what bonded us. There are not as many of us left posting daily as I would have liked, but the 10 of us who are here (30yr, Larry Drummer, Mitchel10, retreadmajor, HKS, ninereasons, magnum9, ODAAT, Junkman) - man thats a lot of quit. We all appreciate the daily support from all the honorary 3ballers and love paying it forward with 3BiTs. Hard to explain how much satisfaction comes from seeing another person fight there way to freedom and knowing you had even a small hand in it. 'Finger' nic bitch, from all of us on the shortbus.
Like any family (brothers especially, I have 2 and man...) there are fights, arguments, storming out, punches, etc. It happens. Hell, my 5 and 3 year old get into it daily and then are playing hot wheels and lego's 5 minutes later. I fully expect #3 to be in the mix as soon as he can make a fist. The key here is remembering that above all else, the enemy is nicotine. At all cost, we must protect the brotherhood and accountability methods that have helped so many get past day 1, day 3, day 100, and day 1000. Even if it means an unpopular decision, action, or whatever else. KTC is not for everybody, and its not the only quitting site on the net. It is the only thing that has ever helped me quit. I owe it my life, and will do whatever I must to repay that debt.
Anyway, anybody got any tips for managing 3 kids with 2 hands? 'help'
Option 1 (http://www.octanecreative.com/ducttape/walltapings/images/principal_hooks.jpg)
^^^ might work????
Thanks for all of your help over the years.
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Ramblings and maybe some ranting.
on 1/23/11, I posted roll for the first time. Never in a million years did I thing I would be repeating that action almost 4 years later. Now, as the 4 year anniversary of that life saving action approaches, I have so much to be thankful for. First, there is an outside chance baby boy #3 could be born on my quit date. Doc has the due date at 1/25, but man. I cant think of a better symbol of my quit and the great things that have come from it then holding my newborn infant on my 4 year anniversary. Anyway, taking this one day at a time has worked for 1447 days so I wont start the long view just yet, but damn that would be something special.
As I look around the site day to day, I see so much quitting and brotherhood growing and building it makes me so damn glad I found this place. I love my May 11 3balled brothers, and while random chance through us together a common addiction and desire to break those chains is what bonded us. There are not as many of us left posting daily as I would have liked, but the 10 of us who are here (30yr, Larry Drummer, Mitchel10, retreadmajor, HKS, ninereasons, magnum9, ODAAT, Junkman) - man thats a lot of quit. We all appreciate the daily support from all the honorary 3ballers and love paying it forward with 3BiTs. Hard to explain how much satisfaction comes from seeing another person fight there way to freedom and knowing you had even a small hand in it. 'Finger' nic bitch, from all of us on the shortbus.
Like any family (brothers especially, I have 2 and man...) there are fights, arguments, storming out, punches, etc. It happens. Hell, my 5 and 3 year old get into it daily and then are playing hot wheels and lego's 5 minutes later. I fully expect #3 to be in the mix as soon as he can make a fist. The key here is remembering that above all else, the enemy is nicotine. At all cost, we must protect the brotherhood and accountability methods that have helped so many get past day 1, day 3, day 100, and day 1000. Even if it means an unpopular decision, action, or whatever else. KTC is not for everybody, and its not the only quitting site on the net. It is the only thing that has ever helped me quit. I owe it my life, and will do whatever I must to repay that debt.
Anyway, anybody got any tips for managing 3 kids with 2 hands? 'help'
Option 1 (http://www.octanecreative.com/ducttape/walltapings/images/principal_hooks.jpg)
^^^ might work????
Thanks for all of your help over the years.
Congratulations on an exciting time in your life. And thank you for everything.
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Ramblings and maybe some ranting.
on 1/23/11, I posted roll for the first time. Never in a million years did I thing I would be repeating that action almost 4 years later. Now, as the 4 year anniversary of that life saving action approaches, I have so much to be thankful for. First, there is an outside chance baby boy #3 could be born on my quit date. Doc has the due date at 1/25, but man. I cant think of a better symbol of my quit and the great things that have come from it then holding my newborn infant on my 4 year anniversary. Anyway, taking this one day at a time has worked for 1447 days so I wont start the long view just yet, but damn that would be something special.
As I look around the site day to day, I see so much quitting and brotherhood growing and building it makes me so damn glad I found this place. I love my May 11 3balled brothers, and while random chance through us together a common addiction and desire to break those chains is what bonded us. There are not as many of us left posting daily as I would have liked, but the 10 of us who are here (30yr, Larry Drummer, Mitchel10, retreadmajor, HKS, ninereasons, magnum9, ODAAT, Junkman) - man thats a lot of quit. We all appreciate the daily support from all the honorary 3ballers and love paying it forward with 3BiTs. Hard to explain how much satisfaction comes from seeing another person fight there way to freedom and knowing you had even a small hand in it. 'Finger' nic bitch, from all of us on the shortbus.
Like any family (brothers especially, I have 2 and man...) there are fights, arguments, storming out, punches, etc. It happens. Hell, my 5 and 3 year old get into it daily and then are playing hot wheels and lego's 5 minutes later. I fully expect #3 to be in the mix as soon as he can make a fist. The key here is remembering that above all else, the enemy is nicotine. At all cost, we must protect the brotherhood and accountability methods that have helped so many get past day 1, day 3, day 100, and day 1000. Even if it means an unpopular decision, action, or whatever else. KTC is not for everybody, and its not the only quitting site on the net. It is the only thing that has ever helped me quit. I owe it my life, and will do whatever I must to repay that debt.
Anyway, anybody got any tips for managing 3 kids with 2 hands? 'help'
Option 1 (http://www.octanecreative.com/ducttape/walltapings/images/principal_hooks.jpg)
^^^ might work????
Thanks for all of your help over the years.
Congratulations on an exciting time in your life. And thank you for everything.
Benadryl slows em down....... Great for long road trips........
So I've heard......
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Ramblings and maybe some ranting.
on 1/23/11, I posted roll for the first time. Never in a million years did I thing I would be repeating that action almost 4 years later. Now, as the 4 year anniversary of that life saving action approaches, I have so much to be thankful for. First, there is an outside chance baby boy #3 could be born on my quit date. Doc has the due date at 1/25, but man. I cant think of a better symbol of my quit and the great things that have come from it then holding my newborn infant on my 4 year anniversary. Anyway, taking this one day at a time has worked for 1447 days so I wont start the long view just yet, but damn that would be something special.
As I look around the site day to day, I see so much quitting and brotherhood growing and building it makes me so damn glad I found this place. I love my May 11 3balled brothers, and while random chance through us together a common addiction and desire to break those chains is what bonded us. There are not as many of us left posting daily as I would have liked, but the 10 of us who are here (30yr, Larry Drummer, Mitchel10, retreadmajor, HKS, ninereasons, magnum9, ODAAT, Junkman) - man thats a lot of quit. We all appreciate the daily support from all the honorary 3ballers and love paying it forward with 3BiTs. Hard to explain how much satisfaction comes from seeing another person fight there way to freedom and knowing you had even a small hand in it. 'Finger' nic bitch, from all of us on the shortbus.
Like any family (brothers especially, I have 2 and man...) there are fights, arguments, storming out, punches, etc. It happens. Hell, my 5 and 3 year old get into it daily and then are playing hot wheels and lego's 5 minutes later. I fully expect #3 to be in the mix as soon as he can make a fist. The key here is remembering that above all else, the enemy is nicotine. At all cost, we must protect the brotherhood and accountability methods that have helped so many get past day 1, day 3, day 100, and day 1000. Even if it means an unpopular decision, action, or whatever else. KTC is not for everybody, and its not the only quitting site on the net. It is the only thing that has ever helped me quit. I owe it my life, and will do whatever I must to repay that debt.
Anyway, anybody got any tips for managing 3 kids with 2 hands? 'help'
Option 1 (http://www.octanecreative.com/ducttape/walltapings/images/principal_hooks.jpg)
^^^ might work????
Paging Dr. Snippi D'Pini
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Sitting here waiting on #3. Eviction is being served, here is hoping it's quicker then the other two.
Can't wait to meet this little stubborn ball of joy.
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Sitting here waiting on #3. Eviction is being served, here is hoping it's quicker then the other two.
Can't wait to meet this little stubborn ball of joy.
Good luck, man. I'll say a prayer for momma and baby.
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Sitting here waiting on #3. Eviction is being served, here is hoping it's quicker then the other two.
Can't wait to meet this little stubborn ball of joy.
Good luck, man. I'll say a prayer for momma and baby.
What G said, plus dad. Look forward to an update!
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Sitting here waiting on #3. Eviction is being served, here is hoping it's quicker then the other two.
Can't wait to meet this little stubborn ball of joy.
Good luck, man. I'll say a prayer for momma and baby.
What G said, plus dad. Look forward to an update!
He is here!
9lbs 6oz, 20.5", born at 9:34.
Healthy.
Both are doing great!
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Sitting here waiting on #3. Eviction is being served, here is hoping it's quicker then the other two.
Can't wait to meet this little stubborn ball of joy.
Good luck, man. I'll say a prayer for momma and baby.
What G said, plus dad. Look forward to an update!
He is here!
9lbs 6oz, 20.5", born at 9:34.
Healthy.
Both are doing great!
Congrats on the new addition
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Sitting here waiting on #3. Eviction is being served, here is hoping it's quicker then the other two.
Can't wait to meet this little stubborn ball of joy.
Good luck, man. I'll say a prayer for momma and baby.
What G said, plus dad. Look forward to an update!
He is here!
9lbs 6oz, 20.5", born at 9:34.
Healthy.
Both are doing great!
Congrats on the new addition
Congratulations j2b!
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Sitting here waiting on #3. Eviction is being served, here is hoping it's quicker then the other two.
Can't wait to meet this little stubborn ball of joy.
Good luck, man. I'll say a prayer for momma and baby.
What G said, plus dad. Look forward to an update!
He is here!
9lbs 6oz, 20.5", born at 9:34.
Healthy.
Both are doing great!
Congrats on the new addition
Congratulations j2b!
Congrats J2!
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Sitting here waiting on #3. Eviction is being served, here is hoping it's quicker then the other two.
Can't wait to meet this little stubborn ball of joy.
Good luck, man. I'll say a prayer for momma and baby.
What G said, plus dad. Look forward to an update!
He is here!
9lbs 6oz, 20.5", born at 9:34.
Healthy.
Both are doing great!
Congrats on the new addition
Congratulations j2b!
Congrats J2!
Wonderful news! Enjoy these awesome days!
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Sitting here waiting on #3. Eviction is being served, here is hoping it's quicker then the other two.
Can't wait to meet this little stubborn ball of joy.
Good luck, man. I'll say a prayer for momma and baby.
What G said, plus dad. Look forward to an update!
He is here!
9lbs 6oz, 20.5", born at 9:34.
Healthy.
Both are doing great!
Congrats on the new addition
Congratulations j2b!
Congrats J2!
Wonderful news! Enjoy these awesome days!
Congrats Josh!
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Been a crazy week having a newborn in the house again - everybody's routine is whacked out, the older boys are trying to balance being infatuated with the baby and being, well, 5 and 3 years old. Wife and I are trying to figure out zone defense vs man, sleep (or lack thereof) schedules, etc.
I go back to work next week, wife is off for six weeks (at least), and we are keeping the boys in daycare for 3 days to try and keep them in routine which will make mornings real interesting.
So far, mom and baby are doing great. Nolan eats like a champ, sleeps hard, and repeats. I haven't been able to get in here as much as normal, but my promise is made daily none the less and I do make it a point to read and try and keep up. Gotta say, this place is running like a champ right now. Love seeing the brotherhood growing in the new groups, reading the discussions, and seeing so many take back the freedom.
It is so worth it. I am sitting here holding my infant while he sleeps with no spitter, no need to hand him off to the wife to go pack a lip, just me and him.
My older boys will also have no memory of me being a slave. That to me is worth more then any other benefit quitting has provided. I quit for me, to have more time with them, and to end the chain of nicotine addiction that has poisoned my family for far to long.
Anyone on the fence about quitting, do it. Do it now. Give whatever it takes, embrace every bit of the suck, and take back your life. The benefits of quitting are not just better health and more money - it goes so far beyond that. I can't explain it any better than that, you will just have to join me.
J2b - 1,482 days of glorious freedom. See you all on roll tomorrow.
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Been a crazy week having a newborn in the house again - everybody's routine is whacked out, the older boys are trying to balance being infatuated with the baby and being, well, 5 and 3 years old. Wife and I are trying to figure out zone defense vs man, sleep (or lack thereof) schedules, etc.
I go back to work next week, wife is off for six weeks (at least), and we are keeping the boys in daycare for 3 days to try and keep them in routine which will make mornings real interesting.
So far, mom and baby are doing great. Nolan eats like a champ, sleeps hard, and repeats. I haven't been able to get in here as much as normal, but my promise is made daily none the less and I do make it a point to read and try and keep up. Gotta say, this place is running like a champ right now. Love seeing the brotherhood growing in the new groups, reading the discussions, and seeing so many take back the freedom.
It is so worth it. I am sitting here holding my infant while he sleeps with no spitter, no need to hand him off to the wife to go pack a lip, just me and him.
My older boys will also have no memory of me being a slave. That to me is worth more then any other benefit quitting has provided. I quit for me, to have more time with them, and to end the chain of nicotine addiction that has poisoned my family for far to long.
Anyone on the fence about quitting, do it. Do it now. Give whatever it takes, embrace every bit of the suck, and take back your life. The benefits of quitting are not just better health and more money - it goes so far beyond that. I can't explain it any better than that, you will just have to join me.
J2b - 1,482 days of glorious freedom. See you all on roll tomorrow.
'worship' thanks for all you do here josh!
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Been a crazy week having a newborn in the house again - everybody's routine is whacked out, the older boys are trying to balance being infatuated with the baby and being, well, 5 and 3 years old. Wife and I are trying to figure out zone defense vs man, sleep (or lack thereof) schedules, etc.
I go back to work next week, wife is off for six weeks (at least), and we are keeping the boys in daycare for 3 days to try and keep them in routine which will make mornings real interesting.
So far, mom and baby are doing great. Nolan eats like a champ, sleeps hard, and repeats. I haven't been able to get in here as much as normal, but my promise is made daily none the less and I do make it a point to read and try and keep up. Gotta say, this place is running like a champ right now. Love seeing the brotherhood growing in the new groups, reading the discussions, and seeing so many take back the freedom.
It is so worth it. I am sitting here holding my infant while he sleeps with no spitter, no need to hand him off to the wife to go pack a lip, just me and him.
My older boys will also have no memory of me being a slave. That to me is worth more then any other benefit quitting has provided. I quit for me, to have more time with them, and to end the chain of nicotine addiction that has poisoned my family for far to long.
Anyone on the fence about quitting, do it. Do it now. Give whatever it takes, embrace every bit of the suck, and take back your life. The benefits of quitting are not just better health and more money - it goes so far beyond that. I can't explain it any better than that, you will just have to join me.
J2b - 1,482 days of glorious freedom. See you all on roll tomorrow.
'worship' thanks for all you do here josh!
Good stuff J2B. Congrats on the new addition.
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Been a crazy week having a newborn in the house again - everybody's routine is whacked out, the older boys are trying to balance being infatuated with the baby and being, well, 5 and 3 years old. Wife and I are trying to figure out zone defense vs man, sleep (or lack thereof) schedules, etc.
I go back to work next week, wife is off for six weeks (at least), and we are keeping the boys in daycare for 3 days to try and keep them in routine which will make mornings real interesting.
So far, mom and baby are doing great. Nolan eats like a champ, sleeps hard, and repeats. I haven't been able to get in here as much as normal, but my promise is made daily none the less and I do make it a point to read and try and keep up. Gotta say, this place is running like a champ right now. Love seeing the brotherhood growing in the new groups, reading the discussions, and seeing so many take back the freedom.
It is so worth it. I am sitting here holding my infant while he sleeps with no spitter, no need to hand him off to the wife to go pack a lip, just me and him.
My older boys will also have no memory of me being a slave. That to me is worth more then any other benefit quitting has provided. I quit for me, to have more time with them, and to end the chain of nicotine addiction that has poisoned my family for far to long.
Anyone on the fence about quitting, do it. Do it now. Give whatever it takes, embrace every bit of the suck, and take back your life. The benefits of quitting are not just better health and more money - it goes so far beyond that. I can't explain it any better than that, you will just have to join me.
J2b - 1,482 days of glorious freedom. See you all on roll tomorrow.
'worship' thanks for all you do here josh!
Good stuff J2B. Congrats on the new addition.
congrats.
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You were right j2b! I see a lot of what went on in my mind in your introduction and HOF speech. Also, your journal is like reading a blog of my life for the last 65 days.
My wife will be having our second child in October, so I'll be coming to you for some advice on dealing with craves in that stress!
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You were right j2b! I see a lot of what went on in my mind in your introduction and HOF speech. Also, your journal is like reading a blog of my life for the last 65 days.
My wife will be having our second child in October, so I'll be coming to you for some advice on dealing with craves in that stress!
Congrats on the new addition, and by all means hit me up. Also, congrats on 65 - that is huge!
Like I said, the biggest surprise to me on KTC was how many folks were just like me - and were able to do this. It's why excuses about how you can't do it or how hard it is don't fly around here.
All you have to do take this shit seriously, reach out, and invest in your quit. It's so worth it.
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http://www.mattynice.com/open-letters/2 ... and-browns (http://www.mattynice.com/open-letters/2015/9/28/an-open-letter-to-the-cleveland-browns)
Fucking nailed it. See you next Sunday. 'bang head'
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http://www.mattynice.com/open-letters/2 ... and-browns (http://www.mattynice.com/open-letters/2015/9/28/an-open-letter-to-the-cleveland-browns)
Fucking nailed it. See you next Sunday. 'bang head'
Change Browns to Lions and yup......... 'bang head'
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Seeing folks who supposedly "get it" cave is a real kick in the nuts. For those who know what it takes to get quit, its hard to fathom why you would throw it away. For those who proactively protect their quit, its hard to understand why you would even entertain the thought. For those who still deal with craves, dip dreams, survivors remorse, etc - its hard to even imagine why you would want to invite that back into your life.
The key thing to remember is that quit is not just an action, its a lifestyle choice. stopping is like a diet, you fall off the diet, gain a few pounds, get back on it. Quitting is changing your eating habits and exercise habits so you NEVER have to diet again. Its a full shift in mentality from "well, I cant have that because I quit" to "I dont want, need, or desire that. It does NOTHING good for me." Its knowing you could go back at anytime, and CHOOSING not to.
So when someone caves - its ALWAYS a conscious choice, but its one that started long before the actual act of caving. Long ago they did not embrace quit, they forgot what it takes to quit, they stopped protecting their quit, and they forgot that their is not a damn thing nicotine does to make life better.
Nearly every cave story starts off with "just 1" be it chew, cigar, smoke, etc. The ones we read here end with another day 1 after "just 1" becomes "back to where I was or worse."
New guys - protect your quit by posting roll and getting involved in every way possible. Embrace the suck and let it burn into your soul. Make quit your lifestyle instead of just another "diet." There is NO force on earth that would stop me from doing everything I can to prolong my life here with my family and friends. Is there temptation? Of course, we are only human. But there is also temptation for cheating on my wife, stealing, being black out drunk or high, gorging on unhealthy foods constantly, stopping workouts, etc. Sometimes its easy to say no, sometimes its hard to say no - but the answer is ALWAYS no.
There is no fucking way I am making a "conscious decision" to do anything remotely related to ingesting nicotine. I cannot think of a single reason why anyone who has invested any time into their quit would.
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Who caved?
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Halloween 15 (https://www.dropbox.com/sh/xyy5wlpui9eqclo/AADPDOa1QTYXPmseA8ywPBl9a?dl=0)
Sometimes when life kicks you, it helps to have Ultron, Hulk, and a Lion on your side to kick back.
Happy Halloween!
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There's nothing magical about learning a skill or earning a degree. What matters most is the same stuff thatÂ’s always mattered. A willingness to work hard, to master a skill that's in demand, and to go where the demand is. Work is not about the color of collars, or the relative size of the paycheck. ItÂ’s about pursuing opportunities where they exist, and creating them where they don't.
Must strive to teach this to every young impressionable mind I encounter, especially the three being molded in my home.
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There's nothing magical about learning a skill or earning a degree. What matters most is the same stuff thatÂ’s always mattered. A willingness to work hard, to master a skill that's in demand, and to go where the demand is. Work is not about the color of collars, or the relative size of the paycheck. ItÂ’s about pursuing opportunities where they exist, and creating them where they don't.
Must strive to teach this to every young impressionable mind I encounter, especially the three being molded in my home.
If I had it to do over with my kids, I would definitely spend more time with them, go to Church more, set better examples to them by not dipping in front of them, but luckily for me they turned out to be good adults. So teach them right from wrong and respect, love one another and I promise you they will do just fine. Quit on my friend!
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There's nothing magical about learning a skill or earning a degree. What matters most is the same stuff thatÂ’s always mattered. A willingness to work hard, to master a skill that's in demand, and to go where the demand is. Work is not about the color of collars, or the relative size of the paycheck. ItÂ’s about pursuing opportunities where they exist, and creating them where they don't.
Must strive to teach this to every young impressionable mind I encounter, especially the three being molded in my home.
If I had it to do over with my kids, I would definitely spend more time with them, go to Church more, set better examples to them by not dipping in front of them, but luckily for me they turned out to be good adults. So teach them right from wrong and respect, love one another and I promise you they will do just fine. Quit on my friend!
Ironically enough, had to lay down the simple rules tonight for my two oldest:
1) Be respectful, always.
2) always give your best effort - you may not win, and that's OK. Learn to follow rule 1 even when it sucks.
3) always strive to be better. Never settle on good enough. If you aren't moving forward, you are moving backward.
At 4 and 6, they may not get it yet. But I ain't gonna stop drilling it into them. To many kids are content with getting by and have no respect for anything, including themselves.
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SEVEN YEARS......and still here, posting, putting up support, and dishing out truth. Sincere congratulations, sir.
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SEVEN YEARS......and still here, posting, putting up support, and dishing out truth. Sincere congratulations, sir.
Thank you my brother. Keep them new guys rolling along!
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SEVEN YEARS......and still here, posting, putting up support, and dishing out truth. Sincere congratulations, sir.
Thank you my brother. Keep them new guys rolling along!
Congrats on 7 years quit.
And thank you for watching the KTC halls!
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SEVEN YEARS......and still here, posting, putting up support, and dishing out truth. Sincere congratulations, sir.
Thank you my brother. Keep them new guys rolling along!
Congrats on 7 years quit.
And thank you for watching the KTC halls!
Congrats man!!! Seven...I can barely count that high! Proud to follow your lead!
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SEVEN YEARS......and still here, posting, putting up support, and dishing out truth. Sincere congratulations, sir.
Thank you my brother. Keep them new guys rolling along!
Congrats on 7 years quit.
And thank you for watching the KTC halls!
Congrats man!!! Seven...I can barely count that high! Proud to follow your lead!
Awesome
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Thanks for all the support - 7 years clean and feeling pretty damn good.
If you got a minute, swing by Run, Ranger Run (https://secure.e2rm.com/registrant/FundraisingPage.aspx?registrationID=4046761#.WnKdkW-r-2k.email) website - awesome cause, proud to be participating in it.
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30 years ago, my mother passed away. 9, 7, 4, and 1 - that is how old us kids were. Brain aneurysm at 31. Not necessarily tobacco related, but she was a smoker.
Every one of her children has now outlived her, and my younger brothers have little to no memories of her. Hell, I barely have any memories of her.
Point being - life is too damn short, fragile, and can change in an instant. Dont waste what little time you have here with loved ones, including sneaking off to have a chew or staying on the toilet or going on unnecessary drives to the "store", etc. Enjoy and embrace that freedom.
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I dont post in here as often as I once did or should, but damn - , , , (triple comma, 3k, 30th floor, etc) feels good to be free. Not a damn day of it would be possible without this place and these brothers (and a few sisters). Thank you.
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I dont post in here as often as I once did or should, but damn - , , , (triple comma, 3k, 30th floor, etc) feels good to be free. Not a damn day of it would be possible without this place and these brothers (and a few sisters). Thank you.
HUGE CONGRATS on that Triple Dangle J2b. That is total badassery right there brother.
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I dont post in here as often as I once did or should, but damn - , , , (triple comma, 3k, 30th floor, etc) feels good to be free. Not a damn day of it would be possible without this place and these brothers (and a few sisters). Thank you.
HUGE CONGRATS on that Triple Dangle J2b. That is total badassery right there brother.
Bad. Ass.
Kudos brother!