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Title: 29 years old, dipping for 21 years.
Post by: klink on August 08, 2014, 03:24:00 AM
No unfortunately that is not a typo in the title. When I was 8 years old my step brothers who were a bit older than I was made me take my first dip. You see we weren't allowed to be dipping and they knew if they made me dip I couldn't tell on them for dipping or use it as leverage against them. Was I instantly addicted? No. For years I found ways to get some and even introduced it to all of my friends. I had decided that I was "immune" to nicotine addiction. At 12 years old is the first time I can remember knowing I was addicted. I had faked sick to stay home from school and went to grab my can. I even remember the brand and flavor, Kodiak Mint Longcut which was something "new" at the time and not what I'd normally dipped but when you are 12 you take what comes to you. The can though was empty and I found myself scraping that can and every can I could find just to get one dip which was not satisfying in the least. The withdrawal was terrible enough that I crushed enough cigarette butts to form a good pinch. Smoking tobacco does not taste good as I'm sure most people here have found out at some point. As I sat on the couch watching TV with my big dip of mint, natural, wintergreen, Marlboro, burnt things of questionable nature I realized I was addicted and I did not care. From then on certain family members just gave in to my habit and helped supply me. I can even remember being so proud when I turned 18 and bought my own can. But I'm here now so obviously I'm over it.

I've tried to quit several times over the years. Last year I quit for three months. Unfortunately my wife got pregnant around the same time I quit. Now it isn't an excuse but if a couple can survive pregnancy hormones and nicotine withdrawal at the same time then I bow to them and crown them my king and queen. My daughter will be one year old in December. I think if I had grown up with my parents not smoking or dipping I would have been more likely to not have tried it or stuck with it. Not to mention I want to be able to tell my daughter "This is bad for you, do not do it." and not be a hypocrite.

Today will be my first day of many of my various quit attempts but I'm hoping the ability to talk to people going through the same thing will be the game changer this time around. Thanks for having me.
Title: Re: 29 years old, dipping for 21 years.
Post by: Grizzlyhasclaws on August 08, 2014, 03:32:00 AM
Quote from: klink
No unfortunately that is not a typo in the title. When I was 8 years old my step brothers who were a bit older than I was made me take my first dip. You see we weren't allowed to be dipping and they knew if they made me dip I couldn't tell on them for dipping or use it as leverage against them. Was I instantly addicted? No. For years I found ways to get some and even introduced it to all of my friends. I had decided that I was "immune" to nicotine addiction. At 12 years old is the first time I can remember knowing I was addicted. I had faked sick to stay home from school and went to grab my can. I even remember the brand and flavor, Kodiak Mint Longcut which was something "new" at the time and not what I'd normally dipped but when you are 12 you take what comes to you. The can though was empty and I found myself scraping that can and every can I could find just to get one dip which was not satisfying in the least. The withdrawal was terrible enough that I crushed enough cigarette butts to form a good pinch. Smoking tobacco does not taste good as I'm sure most people here have found out at some point. As I sat on the couch watching TV with my big dip of mint, natural, wintergreen, Marlboro, burnt things of questionable nature I realized I was addicted and I did not care. From then on certain family members just gave in to my habit and helped supply me. I can even remember being so proud when I turned 18 and bought my own can. But I'm here now so obviously I'm over it.

I've tried to quit several times over the years. Last year I quit for three months. Unfortunately my wife got pregnant around the same time I quit. Now it isn't an excuse but if a couple can survive pregnancy hormones and nicotine withdrawal at the same time then I bow to them and crown them my king and queen. My daughter will be one year old in December. I think if I had grown up with my parents not smoking or dipping I would have been more likely to not have tried it or stuck with it. Not to mention I want to be able to tell my daughter "This is bad for you, do not do it." and not be a hypocrite.

Today will be my first day of many of my various quit attempts but I'm hoping the ability to talk to people going through the same thing will be the game changer this time around. Thanks for having me.
Trying does not work here. If this is just another one your many quit attempts then you are doomed for failure. Repeated failure.

The recipe for success is this: post roll  honor your word. Do it one day at a time. Can you please do this??

ODAAT  NAFAR (never again for any reason)

If you post roll every day and are a man if your word, you will have undying support here. We need your commitment. Join us. Be a man of your word. Be a quitter.
Title: Re: 29 years old, dipping for 21 years.
Post by: klink on August 08, 2014, 03:36:00 AM
I will quit. That is a promise!

Where do I post roll? I was a bit confused by where my support group was or what I was supposed to do.
Title: Re: 29 years old, dipping for 21 years.
Post by: Grizzlyhasclaws on August 08, 2014, 03:50:00 AM
Quote from: klink
I will quit. That is a promise!

Where do I post roll? I was a bit confused by where my support group was or what I was supposed to do.
I see you posted roll! Great job. Your word is your bond. We take this very seriously. It is your oath. Now do whatever it takes to keep from putting any nicotine in your system today. No excuses, you gave your word. Wake up tomorrow and do it again.

I quit with you today brother. Welcome aboard!
Title: Re: 29 years old, dipping for 21 years.
Post by: 30isEnuff on August 08, 2014, 06:43:00 AM
Quote from: grizzlyhasclaws
Quote from: klink
I will quit. That is a promise!

Where do I post roll? I was a bit confused by where my support group was or what I was supposed to do.
I see you posted roll! Great job. Your word is your bond. We take this very seriously. It is your oath. Now do whatever it takes to keep from putting any nicotine in your system today. No excuses, you gave your word. Wake up tomorrow and do it again.

I quit with you today brother. Welcome aboard!
Welcome Klink 'bang head'
Title: Re: 29 years old, dipping for 21 years.
Post by: Steakbomb18 on August 08, 2014, 07:38:00 AM
Quote from: klink
Today will be my first day of many of my various quit attempts but I'm hoping the ability to talk to people going through the same thing will be the game changer this time around. Thanks for having me.
Ummm,...yea. Glad your here, but...you best take that attitude and swap it for one that is ready to quit once and for all. If this is just going to be another "attempt" then you might as well stop wasting your time and ours.

That's a subtle response to the section I quoted. Griz laid it down already and you're on roll. Great first steps and I think (I hope) you get where we are coming from. You need to commit from the get go. There is no try. You want to talk about life lessons to teach your kids...wouldn't it be nice to tell them that you took your 21 year addiction and quit rather than tell them that you tried quitting and failed?

QLF EDD brother.
Title: Re: 29 years old, dipping for 21 years.
Post by: B-loMatt on August 08, 2014, 09:01:00 AM
Read, read, and read... Read everything here. Start with the welcome center, and then keep going, and then read it all again. All the knowledge you need is here. You have the power to choose. Own your quit. Learn how we quit at KTC, and then live it. The KTC quit plan works. You can do this.
Title: Re: 29 years old, dipping for 21 years.
Post by: Done4Me on August 08, 2014, 10:03:00 AM
Klink - If you are a man of your word you will be successful. I see you posted a day 1. That commits you to not using today. 3 days, 72 hours it's out of your system. You make it until then and it's all head games after that. Not gonna lie, the first three days is tough, that's why it is called the suck. Start small. I quit on a Sunday night and went to bed. The next day was a workday and I watched the clock, can I make it to 10, then 11. Do whatever you have to to stay quit. We'll be looking for you on roll. You can do this.
Title: Re: 29 years old, dipping for 21 years.
Post by: basshaug on August 08, 2014, 10:22:00 AM
Congrats on your decision to quit and what all of these guys said is true so I won't repeat it (does that count as repeating, whatever).

Post roll early. Honor your word, and if you wake up the next morning repeat. Drink a shit load of water, get some fake, seeds, gum, fireballs, or Bobbi C's favorite cinammon life savers. Go easy or take a haitus on booze. Reach out if you need a number.
Title: Re: 29 years old, dipping for 21 years.
Post by: 30isEnuff on August 08, 2014, 11:06:00 AM
Quote from: basshaug
Congrats on your decision to quit and what all of these guys said is true so I won't repeat it (does that count as repeating, whatever).

Post roll early. Honor your word, and if you wake up the next morning repeat. Drink a shit load of water, get some fake, seeds, gum, fireballs, or Bobbi C's favorite cinammon life savers. Go easy or take a haitus on booze. Reach out if you need a number.
That ^^^^basshaug is a helluva quitter!
Title: Re: 29 years old, dipping for 21 years.
Post by: simonsj on August 08, 2014, 01:45:00 PM
all of the guys say "take it one day at a time" and I'll back that up whole heartidly. When I was early in my quit I started to let thoughts of what quitting dip forever really meant and I damn near went into a panic attack. When I flipped my mindset into just get through the rest of the day it made it so much better. I crammed my lip with seeds, fake stuff, and tea bags for the first month to get through the urge, but I promise you it gets so much easier. Hang in there man!
Title: Re: 29 years old, dipping for 21 years.
Post by: Thumblewort on August 08, 2014, 02:03:00 PM
It's been said already, but you need to change your "trying" attitude to an attitude of "holy shit I am poisoining myself everyday, and if I don't quit today, and every other day for the rest of my life, I may never get to see my daughter ride a bike, dance in a play, get married, or become a mom herself".

Do you see the difference?
Title: Re: 29 years old, dipping for 21 years.
Post by: Scowick65 on August 08, 2014, 06:25:00 PM
Quote from: Thumblewort
It's been said already, but you need to change your "trying" attitude to an attitude of "holy shit I am poisoining myself everyday, and if I don't quit today, and every other day for the rest of my life, I may never get to see my daughter ride a bike, dance in a play, get married, or become a mom herself".

Do you see the difference?
You have a lot of bad ass quitters in your corner. Listen and follow their lead. The quit Sherpas will lead you to the mountain top. They know the way there. They have already been there.
Title: Re: 29 years old, dipping for 21 years.
Post by: klink on August 09, 2014, 04:21:00 PM
I appreciate the support. So far so so good guys. But then again day 1 hasn't been the hard part for me ever. Day 3-4 is where I'm usually at my weakest and then day 30 for whatever reason is insanely hard too. But I will do this and again I appreciate all the support!
Title: Re: 29 years old, dipping for 21 years.
Post by: Grizzlyhasclaws on August 09, 2014, 04:43:00 PM
Quote from: klink
I appreciate the support. So far so so good guys. But then again day 1 hasn't been the hard part for me ever. Day 3-4 is where I'm usually at my weakest and then day 30 for whatever reason is insanely hard too. But I will do this and again I appreciate all the support!
Hey if you post roll and honor your word each day this quit won't be very difficult. It won't be very easy either, but it will be simple. A lot of people add strength to their own quits by encouraging others as well. We recommend you follow the system and pay it forward. Build your accountability and you will find that your momentum and strength will increase rapidly.

I quit with you today.
Title: Re: 29 years old, dipping for 21 years.
Post by: Gdubya on August 10, 2014, 12:17:00 PM
Quote from: klink
I appreciate the support. So far so so good guys. But then again day 1 hasn't been the hard part for me ever. Day 3-4 is where I'm usually at my weakest and then day 30 for whatever reason is insanely hard too. But I will do this and again I appreciate all the support!
You make it through day 30, and every day, by building a network of friends here. Take every phone number offered. Give yours to others. Text folks. Call folks. Build friendships on the battlefield of Quit. It's a Brotherhood. You get to a place where you know that your failure will cause others to fail so you stand strong. You can do it because your not alone. We all go through day 1, week 1, month1, etc. we quit together.
Title: Re: 29 years old, dipping for 21 years.
Post by: UH60Chief107 on August 12, 2014, 06:49:00 AM
Klink, where are you at?

Don't let this be another "attempt". Now is your chance to live again! Get back on roll call and get with the program. This system works and it will help YOU. In your introduction, I saw a lot of the blame game. You are blaming others and your situations for making you use nicotine. Well guess what broseph, YOU are the reason because YOU are an addict.

Hopefully it is not too late and you aren't packing your mouth with a lip turd again. You obviously want to quit because you came here looking for help. We can't help if you don't come around.....