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Title: im done!
Post by: a11drewp on September 21, 2012, 12:50:00 AM
been chewing for about 3 years, smoked for 12. im done, i want out! im 31 have a wonderful wife and a great 3 year old son. looking forward to the support!
Title: Re: im done!
Post by: Wt57 on September 21, 2012, 01:37:00 AM
Welcome aboard! The brotherhood depends upon you reaching out and getting acquainted, get numbers. We all are fighting the same fight, pm me if I can help.
Title: Re: im done!
Post by: DiplessinJax on September 21, 2012, 06:46:00 AM
Welcome to the December Wrecking Crew Quit Group, Drew. And congrats on your decision to quit today. We all quit with you today. Post Roll tomorrow and we'll do it again. The support you'll find here is unbelievable. Look around the site and get comfortable. It took me a few days of wading through the fog to get it all but it's worth it. If you need to reach out and vent about the Nic bitch sweet talking in your ear, don't hesitate. The first three days are the worse. You'll make it and feel so much better for it.

PM me if you want digits. I'll check back with you tomorrow.

Jax
Title: Re: im done!
Post by: a11drewp on September 21, 2012, 02:51:00 PM
thank you both! im sure ill need some help and will definitely reach out to anyone that i can.
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Post by: magnum9 on September 21, 2012, 03:34:00 PM
Great decision!

I can tell you that I don't regret one thing about the last 584 days quit. I regret EVERY day that I spent money and risked my life on the lip turd. You can do this if you put your mind to it.

Get addicted to this web site. It WILL help more than anything to save your life. Use it.
Title: Re: im done!
Post by: a11drewp on October 16, 2012, 03:04:00 PM
thought i would update if anyone wants to read. I'm on day 26 of being quit. it hasn't been easy but it also hasn't been too hard. the first week was ridiculous for me. I felt like i was living in a video game. nothing seemed to be actual. with the help of a Boelker62 and a couple others they talked me through the fog a bit. I live with my wife and my 3 year old son. They are the world to me and it is tough to not be a raging a dick when i'm fiending for a dip. Shes pissed at me as i write this because i was an asshole last night. she will forgive me, but she just doesn't quite understand what us ex dippers are realy going through. anyway, 26 days later, the nic bitch is still there trying to sweet talk me back. The fog is long gone and i'm just rewiring my brain to do everything without dip. now if i can just stop eating everything in site!
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Post by: lcwb96 on October 16, 2012, 03:19:00 PM
That's good shit quit brother. Glad to hear you are on the right path. Proud to be quit with you today. You are correct in saying that the wife doesn't understand. What is even more maddening is a wife that smokes and doesn't understand. It's not their fault. In your case, she has no idea what it is like to be an addict and can't udnerstand why stopping is making you such an ass. Everything was supposed to be "better", right? In my case, she denies she is an addict and has no interest in stopping as the nic bitch is firmly in control.

In either case... walk away. I have found it best to simply take a break, don't be an ass, and come back after your desire to flit smart-ass comments has subsided. These usually go hand-in-hand with craves.

Keep it up and PM me if you need anything.

Randy
Title: Re: im done!
Post by: SirDerek on October 16, 2012, 03:21:00 PM
Quote from: a11drewp
thought i would update if anyone wants to read. I'm on day 26 of being quit. it hasn't been easy but it also hasn't been too hard. the first week was ridiculous for me. I felt like i was living in a video game. nothing seemed to be actual. with the help of a Boelker62 and a couple others they talked me through the fog a bit. I live with my wife and my 3 year old son. They are the world to me and it is tough to not be a raging a dick when i'm fiending for a dip. Shes pissed at me as i write this because i was an asshole last night. she will forgive me, but she just doesn't quite understand what us ex dippers are realy going through. anyway, 26 days later, the nic bitch is still there trying to sweet talk me back. The fog is long gone and i'm just rewiring my brain to do everything without dip. now if i can just stop eating everything in site!
A11 - I was such a jerk at home my first couple of weeks too, and my wife has not experienced any type of withdrawal with her or within her family, so this site was my support.

Stay close to the site when you need, even at times you don;t but just want to. Things do get much better with all aspects.

And yes I ate to, close to 20 pounds for the 100 days as it all tastes so good, but that is my own personal goal is to lose it inthe next 100, cause we can lose weight but not lose cancer.
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Post by: hudsonp on October 16, 2012, 03:41:00 PM
keep up the good work! stay quit today, and we'll get to tomorrow when it comes around.
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Post by: Tanawei on October 16, 2012, 04:25:00 PM
How weird is that. After reading your post, I looked back at my daily log. Day 26 - Butt Chewing. The day my sweet wife had enough and laid down the law. I was a dick.

I took a deep breath, admitted I was a dick. Apologized and said I would try to better. I put my sneakers on and went running until I had burned all of the rage away.

At day 58 it is better. I have learned to apologize faster and vent my anger into exercise. It does get better, but we cant forget that we are addicts. We can't relax our quit.

Quitting with you each day!
Title: Re: im done!
Post by: a11drewp on October 17, 2012, 06:16:00 PM
Quote from: Tanawei
How weird is that. After reading your post, I looked back at my daily log. Day 26 - Butt Chewing. The day my sweet wife had enough and laid down the law. I was a dick.

I took a deep breath, admitted I was a dick. Apologized and said I would try to better. I put my sneakers on and went running until I had burned all of the rage away.

At day 58 it is better. I have learned to apologize faster and vent my anger into exercise. It does get better, but we cant forget that we are addicts. We can't relax our quit.

Quitting with you each day!
i feel great, work is retarded though. i wanted to kill these people when i chewed, now every morning i walk in at 6am, i just wish i could pop them right in their mouth! men and women!! hahah! The site def helps, i keep trying to get my brother to quit dipping and tell him to check out the site but its useless as of now. I like being quit and am amazed at how things are way better without a chew in my mouth all the time!