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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: LLCope on June 08, 2011, 06:59:00 AM
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Today marks my 42nd day off cope pouches (quit day April 28th)--it has been hell as most of you know, but getting better every day! No nicotine for 42 days!
I smoked cigarettes for 16 years and then transitioned to dipping for the last two years-- big mistake--I think while dipping I became more addicted since I had a dip in my mouth 75% of the time! I should have just quit cigarettes and stayed away from dip--but here I am.
I just found this site yesterday, i wish I had this site from the beggining but at least I am here now. I registered at another smoking cessation site shortly after my quit and that has helped a lot, but smoking and dipping are sometimes very different. After finding this site, I would like to join and make that 100 days. I have a wife and three young sons and I am doing this for me and them.
Please point me in the right direction. How do I do roll call and what group can I join?
LLCOPE
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Today marks my 42nd day off cope pouches (quit day April 28th)--it has been hell as most of you know, but getting better every day! No nicotine for 42 days!Â
I smoked cigarettes for 16 years and then transitioned to dipping for the last two years-- big mistake--I think while dipping I became more addicted since I had a dip in my mouth 75% of the time! I should have just quit cigarettes and stayed away from dip--but here I am. Â
I just found this site yesterday, i wish I had this site from the beggining but at least I am here now. I registered at another smoking cessation site shortly after my quit and that has helped a lot, but smoking and dipping are sometimes very different. After finding this site, I would like to join and make that 100 days. I have a wife and three young sons and I am doing this for me and them.
Please point me in the right direction. How do I do roll call and what group can I join?
LLCOPE
click rite up there on the left where it says WELCOME CENTER (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=13) or man i made it eezy and you can click on mine. theres tons a help round here and it begins there.
loot sez its salmon. i say pink. he'll call me a fag. i say any guy what tells the diffrince atween pink salmon and corel is the fag.
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Today marks my 42nd day off cope pouches (quit day April 28th)--it has been hell as most of you know, but getting better every day! No nicotine for 42 days!Â
I smoked cigarettes for 16 years and then transitioned to dipping for the last two years-- big mistake--I think while dipping I became more addicted since I had a dip in my mouth 75% of the time! I should have just quit cigarettes and stayed away from dip--but here I am.Â
I just found this site yesterday, i wish I had this site from the beggining but at least I am here now. I registered at another smoking cessation site shortly after my quit and that has helped a lot, but smoking and dipping are sometimes very different. After finding this site, I would like to join and make that 100 days. I have a wife and three young sons and I am doing this for me and them.
Please point me in the right direction. How do I do roll call and what group can I join?
LLCOPE
Welcome LLCope. Great job on reaching 42 days on your own. I was a late addition to August 2011, I think you will post there as well.
August is full of badass quitters. I was welcomed with open arms, and so I do the same for you. We only ask this of you:
1) Post Roll daily
2) Keep your word (integrity is paramount around here) to remain nicotine free for the day
3) Get through today
4) Worry about tomorrow when it comes.
Glad to be quit with you...PM me if you need anything.
-Dante
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Today marks my 42nd day off cope pouches (quit day April 28th)--it has been hell as most of you know, but getting better every day! No nicotine for 42 days!Â
I smoked cigarettes for 16 years and then transitioned to dipping for the last two years-- big mistake--I think while dipping I became more addicted since I had a dip in my mouth 75% of the time! I should have just quit cigarettes and stayed away from dip--but here I am. Â
I just found this site yesterday, i wish I had this site from the beggining but at least I am here now. I registered at another smoking cessation site shortly after my quit and that has helped a lot, but smoking and dipping are sometimes very different. After finding this site, I would like to join and make that 100 days. I have a wife and three young sons and I am doing this for me and them.
Please point me in the right direction. How do I do roll call and what group can I join?
LLCOPE
click rite up there on the left where it says WELCOME CENTER (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=13) or man i made it eezy and you can click on mine. theres tons a help round here and it begins there.
loot sez its salmon. i say pink. he'll call me a fag. i say any guy what tells the diffrince atween pink salmon and corel is the fag.
Welcome... about the hundred days, lets just make 43 first, then 44...then 100, then 101.
This pink/salmon thing reminds me of Half Baked
"Oh Janitor."
"That's custodian, dick."
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This is pink
This is SALMON
And yes Cindrone...yous a fag
Welcome LLC
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Welcome, quitter. Like you, I didn't find this place until I was several weeks into my quit. Had it not been for KTC, I would have gave up and continued to kill myself with every pinch or chew. I owe my life to this place and the crazies that post here every day. I also have a wife and 3 kids. There are a lot of folks here that say you have to quit for YOU, or it won't stick. I agree with that, but having the little ones in the back of mind does help to keep me honest. 267 days ago, one of my 2-year-olds walked across the front yard, stopped, spit on the grass, smiled and me and my wife, and said "Like daddy!". I have never felt worse in my life, ever. Glad to be quit with you. Let me know if I can help any way.
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LLC I know that story. Welcome to the quit brother. You're 42 days in! Outstanding brother. I applaud you for doing this for your family. I'd also add that you gotta want this for yourself even more.
Don't let all the gay pride colors fool you...this is the place to be. Some serious quitting be done up in here.
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WELCOME ABOARD BROTHER, Just keep the quit going one day at a time!! Youre 42 days into your quit already, you should be able to do this! Nico
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Yea, I think I was on day 23. I was scrambling on the internet to try to keep my quit. This site really makes it easier. Just drink the kool-aid. Let me know if I can help you quit. I understand.
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Thanks for the advice and support. I am ready to make my pledge day by day. One day at a time!
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Glad you found KTC.
The support, friendship and comradarie here has been priceless.
Post roll and let's get this party started.
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To All,
Day 41 of my quit was a very bad day where I almost caved--but did not!. I was on my own for the first 41 days of my quit--hanging on by a wing and a prayer! However, I need to thank my AWESOME wife for being my main support during this time. Luckily, I was looking around the internet for chewing tobacco cessation on day 42. I found KTC--- I thank God that I found KTC. This site has saved and strengthened my quit. It has saved my life.
Today I am on day 73 and this is what KTC has done for me:
#1 I realized that I am truly an Addict. In the first 41 days, i thought I was just kicking a bad habit.
#2 I realized that I must make a choice to quit every day. In the first 41 days, I was fighting with the concept of "forever". The concept of forever really does not matter now--the only way I can live life is one day at a time---and that's the only way I can quit too.
#3 I finally realized that for 18 years I surrender my freedom to a drug and that it was up to me to free myself from this drug daily and gain my health back that it was stealing from me.
#4 I realized that I have blood brothers in this fight. I have a real community of support of brothers/sisters who are going through (or who have gone through) what I am going through.
#5 I realized that it is my responsiblity, as I win each day and as I pass each milestone, to pay it forward. I feel as if I have a mission to help others free themselves as I am doing every day. I WILL PAY IT FORWARD!!!!!! Helping others makes me stronger.
I AM SO HAPPY TO BE FREE TODAY--I WILL NEVER FORGET THE PAIN THIS ADDICTION HAS CAUSED ME---NEVER!!! For all you Newbies reading this---It will get better---I promise. The only thing you need to do, is to not use TODAY and everything else will come into balance. Your body will heal and so will your emotions/mind. I still struggle---but I see the vast improvement daily.
LLCope---peace out
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Well said LLC. #3 is my favorite. And it is also probably the hardest thing to get through to those who are stuck in the suck. A little bit of faith though, and like you said, before you know it you are witnessing improvement on a daily basis.
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LL, proud to be quit with you today!
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LL, proud to be quit with you today!
Ditto.
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Good for you LLC. I'm real happy you got this. Way to bring the quit.
You kick NB ass brother. I'm a big fan. Stay quit.
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From one latecomer to another...glad you are here! You are doing great!
Glad to have you for a quit brother!
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goo stuff brother.
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This is a great post. Gave me chills. Proud to be a Quithead with you, LL.
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I have been wanting to post this topic to see how CRAVES feel for different people. If you answer this post, please put your days quit and then describe how a crave felt to you in the first month and then now(of course newbies are in the first month). If you are a vet and have not craved in a while please share that too. Also, I am talking about post physical withdrawl craves after day 3--the ones brought on by the psychological triggers.
I will start.
Day-92- A crave to me in the first few weeks was an anixious nervousness that I felt in my gut as a physical sensation accompanied by a lost depressed emotional state or anger. Now the physical sensation is much less and so are the emotional feelings of anxiety/depression/anger. It is much less intense and is weakening every day.
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Having quit for 6 years in the past, I have some experience with both. Initial cravings for me are something I feel my body needs to continue through the day. More of a physical need. It makes it feel like everything will be OK, your mind will clear and you are ready to meet anything head on if you just take that hit of nicotine.
The cravings later on are much less physical and more psychological. You also start throwing in the ole "I quit once for this long, I can do it again" lie. Those cravings hit mainly by triggers.... driving on long road trips, going fishing, basically anything where I would sit for long periods of time with not much to do.
For me they never completely went away. I would go months without ever thinking about nicotine and then something would trigger the need.... sometimes that need was intense but most of the time it wasnt.
I caved at 6 years because my wife had just had our son... he had severe reflux the first year of his life and sleep was very rare for us. I was under a ton of stress. Read up on how safe snus was and like an idiot bought into it.
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I think I agree with CodeMan...for me it's something to do, not necessarily a need to relax or de-stress. I find that the craves hit the hardest when I'm bored. It's this feeling that "I should be doing something right now...think I'll throw a dip in." I think it's similar to people eating when they're bored.
Physically speaking, the only thing that I've felt differently is my left ear. I keep getting these sensations of something crawling into my ear. And before you think it, no...there's nothing actually there. I had a full physical 30 days into my quit and my doctor looked; she didn't see anything in the ears. But, I still get the sensations...really weird.
I still have the feelings that I should have something between my cheek and gum...don't know if that's a crave or just a random feeling because I usually had something there for 30+ years. I do find it strange that when I get those feelings, a wad of jerky or mint chew takes care of the feeling. Am I addicted to those things now? 'archer'
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J2b - 186
I was a "timing" chewer, so every 2 hours I had a chew in. If something broke that up, I got real agitated and kept clock watching. Essentially, my first month was like that. Agitated, watching the clock, waiting for my next fix.
Now, craves (just had one yesterday) are worse in some ways. I was driving to the store with my little one, when out of the blue a massive crave dumped on me. Bitch was whispering the "just one" mantra, and I was white knuckling the wheel, grinding my teeth. I almost pulled over. Then I almost decided to skip the store altogether. It was quite literally the worst physical crave I have had since day 30 or so. But it was also very short lived (5 minutes). By the time I got to the store and got my son in the cart, it was gone.
Most of my craves are the "slow and low" type, where I get this tickling in the back of my head that I am "forgetting something." Those are easy to get by, but the sudden strong ones are a motherfucker.
They are getting further apart though.
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Day 50
My craves are subtle, and it's more that I just start "reminiscing" about various flavors I've tried (I always liked sampling new shit). Then I snap out of it and remember how much more healthy I am now not dipping.
When I go to a gas station I'm not going to lie...I do give a quick eyeball to the tin racks behind Apu as he's ringing me up. So many cans! So many flavors! So much absolute shit. I hate that fucking shit. Fuck that shit.
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Day 68. Now the crave is very subtle. I think I am past the real temptation and it will hit when I am low. Yesterday I was at the golf course and the guy I was supposed to play with called in late. Immediate thought, "Forget it, I need a dip." Passed. Most helpful fact for me is my realization I am an addict. I can't control it, so zero tolerance is my motto. My wife asked me the other day, if I had quit for good or for a while. Good reminder to stay off it.
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Day 134
My craves are intense. I feel it in my gums and bottom teeth like something is missing. A n intense tingling sensation that last anywhere from a minuter to a half a day. Day 80 - 85. Half day craves that drove me nuts. My craves make no sense. I was golfing yesterday with 3 dippers didn't have a crave. Had one about an hour ago for about 10 mins. They are definetly less than in the beginning. I will go a week or so without one now. I always have to have my guard up.
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Day 173--This hard to explain but I'll try. Quitting is still difficult for me. I wish it wasn't but the fact remains that there has not been one day that at some point I haven't thought about dipping. I dipped for 30 years so I understand that the temptation to chew is not going to go away in 6 months. It pisses me off that I know how important it is to be quit, yet the temptation is still so strong. I have to remind myself that if I am going into a convenience store I am not buying chew. If I see someone else chewing I know I should feel bad for them but honestly I kind of feel sorry for myself. Now I know I have made the right decision to quit and I am glad that I am quit. I post every day so I will stay quit. God knows it is 100 times easier at day 173 than it was at day 10 but I am still tempted and remind myself every night that I was stronger than the nic bitch one more day. I can't really write about craves because it still seems like my addiction is always working on me.
My quit is strong thanks to my May 2011 brothers. It helps sometimes to put your thoughts out there.
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Teamgreen - 499
I have experienced every kind of crave you guys are talking about more or less. It's different for everyone, but we all have craves. Early on they were crippling, but I knew they had to be, so I embraced the suck. Later on (say, 50 days), they were still intense, but not quite as long or quite as often. 50-100 days, they were kind of depressing (i.e. "why do I still crave/feel shitty/funked out?"). 100+ They came and went more randomly (minor, easily dismissed ones when triggered by something; occasional cripplers when I was stressed out or down about something). Lately, almost nothing. I might wave away the tiniest glimmer if I smell it or something, but I don't know if I would even call them craves, just familiar recognition that I used to do it. I've been in funks and stressed out and all kinds of nonsense, but honestly, I don't really associate any of my emotions/stress/joy/fun/etc. with nicotine anymore. It's largely something really stupid I used to do.
Bottom line, if you keep quitting every day, it will eventually get better. I still sign roll every single day, because I know, even though I haven't had one for a long time, I could be hit with a crippling crave at any minute. I want my promise on the table when it comes.
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Maac and I talked about this on the phone the other day.
Early in my quit, the physical cravings were incredible, but they were no where near the worst part. With physical cravings and the major fog I felt like it was easy to stop what I was doing, take a minute and just calm down.
Then there were the ritualistic cravings where you had to have one because it was after eating, time to play a video game, doing school work, working on the car, etc...
Those cravings were so difficult because they just pop up and make you reconsider the decision to even do any of the above activities. At times I would not even have a snack because I didn't want to deal with the after food dip ritual. I didn't even study some times because I knew I would crave.
About day 30ish, when I knew my mind was clear and the fog was pretty much clear, I began to look for every one of those situations and started to tackle them one by one. I knew I would crave when working on my car, so I would look for any reason to work on my car. I wanted to battle with the nic bitch because I was the one in control, I was challenging her to a fight under my conditions. That was one of the biggest helpers for me.
At 163 my cravings are like a fly landing on my arm, I just shoo them away with hardly any effort needed. I still keep my guard up though and remember with every detail the earliest days.
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In the begginning days (and weeks) the craves were debilitating. Crippling. Seemed like it wormed its way in to nearly every thought and action. I felt hollow, unsatisfied, frustrated, fidgetty and constantly irrritated/angry without my chew.
I read a lot, knowledge is power. One of the best bits of advice I got early on was to "Embrace the Suck". Feel every miserable moment and dont ever forget how it feels, so you wont ever want to go through it again.
At over 100 days now I can honestly say I have ZERO desire for nicotine. I don't even think about it anymore. What I am still struggling with is the PHYSICAL addiction, and so Im still using fake chew pretty much non stop, same way I chewed Skoal the last 20 years.
I had no idea how deep the claws of this physical/oral fixation part of my addiction were sunk in. Look out for that, and be ready.
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The first week or so I had trouble focusing because I never did anything without the friggin chew in my cheek, the cravings hit and things would get "fuzzy" and I could feel the urge coming up my throat and in my mouth which would start to water and I would actually reach for the top drawer of my tool box where I kept that shit I found it hard to focus on what people were telling me and would occasionally get bad headaches (I also quit caffeine around the same time)
Now at 110 days I still get a strong crave maybe once or twice a day but it's more like a thought than anything physical and they are much easier to push away and ignore them.
I recently moved out into the country and still see faded Mail Pouch ads painted on old barns and I just shake my head and think about all the money a wasted on that shit.
On a funny side note I still play Red Dead Redemption and I won't even use the chewing tobacco in the game 'no'
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Day 95.
In the beginning, there was light. Ah shit. Wrong story.
In the beginning, the craves were aggressive. And they lasted a LOT longer. I was convinced that I couldn't possibly keep my quit going. I thought the cravings would take me down. I always had to find something else to do - walk around, get near people, find a hot chick to stand near so I wouldn't want to disgust her.
Now the cravings don't last very long at all. And they rarely come out of nowhere. They always come as a result of a trigger. Long road trip. Hour long teleconference. Watching the Mets game... but they really do come a go quickly.
When're they're not from a trigger... when they come out of nowhere, well... There have been a couple of really significant FUCK YOU craves... and those, later in my quit, have been stronger than the ones early in my quit.
Those are the ones you gotta look out for. I fear I'll be having those for the rest of my life.
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DAY 101
Not ready yet to do a HOF speech. I want to get further away from the first 100 days before writing a speech--not sure why...
I am still coming to terms with my addiction. I am still having a hard time with the concept of never being able to move on from this addiction. No pot at the end of the rainbow--no destination---NO FUCKING END! When I started using Nicotine back in college (at age 20!), I was not informed of this bullshit! I was fooled by big tobacco! And because of the dumb choice of a green college student, I must battle with this shit forever? Every day?
It's hard climbing a mountain with no summit---no peak!
Anyway, I Quit Today. My quit is strong--I just wanted to vent! FUCK!!!!!
Ok, I feel better NOW--Bring on the BITCH
Peace Out
LL
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Congratulations...I'm proud of you LL. Glad you joined us, I'm looking forward to your HoF Speech!
I can relate to your frustration...I've been channeling the anger towards big tobacco by trying to steal their customers away and convert them to KTC users instead.
Stay Strong...as always, I'm quit with you!
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#2 I realized that I must make a choice to quit every day. In the first 41 days, I was fighting with the concept of "forever". The concept of forever really does not matter now--the only way I can live life is one day at a time---and that's the only way I can quit too.
"Forever" Man, I needed to read this one this morning. This is what is constantly going through my mind.
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DAY 110
The story of the two wolves is listed somewhere in the words of wisdom section. On day 110 I wanted to share this as part of my journey. When craves come I am calling them lies and I focus on the good in my life. The craves are getting weaker every day and my goodness and freedom grows stronger every day I Quit.
The Two Wolves
A Grandfather from the Cherokee Nation was talking with his grandson.
"A fight is going on inside me," he said to the boy.
"It is a terrible fight between two wolves."
The young grandson listened intently.
"One wolf is evil, unhappy, and ugly: He is anger, envy, war, greed, selfishness, sorrow, regret, guilt, resentment, inferiority/superiority, false pride, coarseness, and arrogance. He spreads lies, deceit, fear, hatred, blame, scarcity, poverty, and divisiveness."
"The other wolf is beautiful and good: He is friendly, joyful, loving, worthy, serene, humble, kind, benevolent, just, fair, empathetic, generous, honest, compassionate, grateful, brave, and inspiring resting wholeheartedly in deep vision beyond ordinary wisdom."
The grandson paused in deep reflection of what his grandfather had just said. Then he exclaimed; "Oyee! (in recognition).
Grandfather continued; "This same fight is going on inside you, and inside all human beings as well."
The grandson paused in deep reflection and recognition of what his grandfather had just said. Then he finally cried out deeply; "Oyee! Grandfather, which wolf will win this horrific war?"
The elder Cherokee replied, "The wolf that you feed. That wolf will surely win!"
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Day 112
Newbies
Listen Up
I have felt almost 100% normal (pre-quit me) over the past few days. I know I have funks in front of me, but damn, I am getting my swagger back.
My job when I am feeling really good is to remember the law---NOT ONE!
For those of you thinking about quitting, NOW is the time--IT can be done ---believe me!
Man up before it's too late! Tomorrow is not guaranteed!
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Day 112
Newbies
Listen Up
I have felt almost 100% normal (pre-quit me) over the past few days. I know I have funks in front of me, but damn, I am getting my swagger back.
My job when I am feeling really good is to remember the law---NOT ONE!
For those of you thinking about quitting, NOW is the time--IT can be done ---believe me!
Man up before it's too late! Tomorrow is not guaranteed!
Freedom is the shit. Pat yourself on the back friend. Good job.
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Day 115
Still going well-- no funk. I keep swatting away craves like flies at a picnic.
I wanted to share part of my journey today and it may or may not be helpful to folks--here it goes.
Around day 30 of my quit (before I found KTC), I was having a lot of depression and anxiety. This really worried me because prior to the quit I was a very happy, confident and optimistic person. I knew depression and anxiety were listed as symptoms, but it seemed really bad. Then I started wondering if dipping was just covering up issues that I did not know about.
Anyway, I decided to go to the doctor (GP) to see what he recommended. He said I could try Wellbutrin (depression) to help me get through. He said that the depression and anxiety was most likley from quitting and should be temporary, but Wellbutrin might help a little bit. I could tell that he really thought it was not needed, but he prescribed it anyway.
I started taking it and soon learned that it takes about 6 -weeks to kick in. However, during the next few weeks I saw improvement in my depression and anxiety--vast improvements. Was it the Wellbutrin or was it naturally improving because it was temporary to begin with? Well there was only one way to find out---I called my doctor and told him I would stop taking it and he agreed (he did not like the idea in the first place).
Well I stopped taking it around day 60 or so and here I am at day 115 and I have virtually no depression and no anxiety--almost back to my old happy, confident and optimistic self! I tell this story so to encourage others who are stuggling with depression/anxiety---in most cases it will get better--it is only temporary. I do understand that some have to deal with long term depression/anxiety and it is not just temporary. Also, work with your doctor on all these issues--they have seen it all before and usually have good advice. For me, I am glad I stopped taking wellbutrin when I did. If I would have continued, I would have credited that for my improvements.
I hope this helps someone.
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Day 121
Still going OK. I am in a small funk (not as bad as before) and having some decent sized craves. I keep kicking the bitch to the curb and moving on. All you newbs listen up---wow does it get better---stay the course--JUST TODAY.
Whenever, I have a crave or am in a funk, I start to dwell on everything positive in my life. There are a lot. I always start with my family----I have an awesome wife (smoking hot!! and smart too...). She fucking rocks my quit with support. I have three wonderful sons. The first wants to be a scientist ---he already knows this in 4th grade. My second son already has movement on his fastball--had a MLB scout driving by my house the other day!!!. My third son is my shadow--never leaves my side---my lil bud! These thoughts of my family always make craves and funks look really, really, really small and insignificant.
Let's see--am I going to choose my wonderful family or the cancerous turd....hmmm.....?
LL (Louisiana Lance)
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LouLance,
You are awesome and truly an inspiration to me.
I am proud to quit with you today.
whsii - Day 14
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Day 127
I want to take this opportunity to plead with the 2011 August quit group to continue to post roll. Do not leave this acountability and this resource.
My quit is going great! This is the time that I need this place the most. This morning, the thought crept in my head that soon I won't need this place--"All is Smooth".
I think that was the addiction talking. I said: 'finger point' and then I said: 'Finger'
Peace Out
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Day 136
Last night I had a long dip dream. However, it wasn't really a dip dream--it was a cigarette dream (I smoked for 16 years and only dipped for the last two years before quitting).
This dream seemed to last all night and it covered the whole process of caving.
Here is how the dream went--the setting was an all day birthday party for my wife with all our family and friends there:
# 1---I made the conscious choice to smoke just one since it was offered to me.
# 2--- I remember saying to myself--that one would not hurt
# 3--- I kept smoking an occassional cigarette as the dream progressed
# 4-- By the end of the dream I was telling my wife that I was hooked again and could not quit---she was pisssed! I had to go and buy a pack at the store.
#5 -- I thought of coming in here to explain my cave--I knew Souliman would give me HELL. I knew my August quit brothers would be ashamed.
The thing that really struck me about the dream, however, Is the feeling of helplessness once I became hooked again. I remember that feeling well when I smoked and then dipped. I wanted to quit, but felt helpless to take action.
This dream has made my quit stronger. We need to be constantly reminded (especially as it gets easier) about the prison we once occupied. I am on day 136 and the quit is very easy right now. It is when the quit is easy, that we need to help Newbs and be involved on this site to remind us of the two most important laws---- #1 The Law of Addiction---NOT ONCE! #2 Loot's Law --Remember day 1 (remember the prison).
Peace Out
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I would have got up, gone down to the barber shop and got my high and tight and a clean shave. Had a nice breakfast of eggs, sausage and toast, had my coffee. Then I would have put my Sunday best on and pulled that old Bible of Quit out of the night stand (the old testament version...the BIG book) tucked that thing under my arm and marched down to the center of town to the steps of the church and unleashed a sermon of pain on your ass like never before seen. Children would age years as my words hit their ears. Old folks would rally together and take over Canada. Dogs and cats exploding instantaneously in the streets. The tongue lashing would actually inspire the Mets to make the playoffs. Newt would ask Hillary for political advice. All this chaos has been averted thankfully because it was just a dream and in fact, you are a world class quitter and someone we admire.
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Old folks would rally together and take over Canada.
Stop the Canadians!!! (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jKB95TwiysE&feature=related) 'archer'
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Day 140
Sunday morning me and the family went hiking at a nearby state park. I craved from the time we left until we returned.
Monday--craved in the morning, but then shook it off for the rest of the day
Yesterday, I craved from around 10 am to 2pm --right out of nowhere.
WTF!
Pisses me off--things were going well and then this funk out of nowhere. I keep kicking the bitch to the street!
'finger point'
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LL,
I feel your pain. I've been really busy at work and home is getting more and more anxious (wating on a baby). I've been really craving too! Hang in there bro...we will get through this together! Quitheads for life!
Dante
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Day 140
Sunday morning me and the family went hiking at a nearby state park. I craved from the time we left until we returned.
Monday--craved in the morning, but then shook it off for the rest of the day
Yesterday, I craved from around 10 am to 2pm --right out of nowhere.
WTF!
Pisses me off--things were going well and then this funk out of nowhere. I keep kicking the bitch to the street!
'finger point'
Ha, keep on being pissed off.
I had a tobacco dream two nights ago, after more than two years Quit. This looked like a cigarette, no filter, the size of a cigar, with the paper all tattered and chew spilling out of it (I know, seriously convoluted). In my dream I took it and stuck it in my mouth, then did a Clinton and didn't inhale.
I remember having chew stuck on my lips though, and trying frantically to spit it out, wondering if any crossed the membrane, where I would have to go back to day 1. I dreamed that I woke up, and couldn't quite tell if it was a dream or not. Then I really did wake up, relieved.
You don't control the craves, or the dreams. But you control your actions.
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Thanks Gump and Dante! I appreciate the words of encouragement. This funk is discouraging, but it is nothing like pre-HOF funks in intensity. The healing process continues and I fully embrace it!
Dante--congrats on the expected baby--that is awesome. Quitheads for Life.
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Thanks Gump and Dante! I appreciate the words of encouragement. This funk is discouraging, but it is nothing like pre-HOF funks in intensity. The healing process continues and I fully embrace it!
Dante--congrats on the expected baby--that is awesome. Quitheads for Life.
I have had some funks lately myself. Day 280. I think she just likes to check in every so often. A booty call of sorts. I told her to get the fuck out of my life again. I am in a happily committed relationship with freedom.
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Day 140
Sunday morning me and the family went hiking at a nearby state park. I craved from the time we left until we returned.
Monday--craved in the morning, but then shook it off for the rest of the day
Yesterday, I craved from around 10 am to 2pm --right out of nowhere.
WTF!
Pisses me off--things were going well and then this funk out of nowhere. I keep kicking the bitch to the street!
'finger point'
Cope I have craves that just comes out of the blue and hits me with the same intensity that I experienced in preHOF, about the 1-30 day quit period! These suckers come in at just about any given time, and if your not strong, caving could be possible! Thats why I have got to post roll and give my word daily or I will cave!! Stay strong brother! Proud to be quit with you today. nico
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Day 154-- 5 whole months
Just wanted to record this day in my thread. Five months ago I made a great choice. I became a free man. This has been the most rewarding accomplishment of my life outside my wife and three kids.
This journey was not easy, but I am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I can't tell the distance from me to the light, but I can see the light.
I am still having a few craves daily, but nothing major. I am no longer fearing craves or funks--bring it on! I know I can't get around them and that I must go THROUGH.
Today is a good day---feeling great---my Quit is EPIC. Let's fight the beast. The more we fight the weaker the beast becomes...
Louisiana Lance!
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Day 154-- 5 whole months
Just wanted to record this day in my thread. Five months ago I made a great choice. I became a free man. This has been the most rewarding accomplishment of my life outside my wife and three kids.
This journey was not easy, but I am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I can't tell the distance from me to the light, but I can see the light.
I am still having a few craves daily, but nothing major. I am no longer fearing craves or funks--bring it on! I know I can't get around them and that I must go THROUGH.
Today is a good day---feeling great---my Quit is EPIC. Let's fight the beast. The more we fight the weaker the beast becomes...
Louisiana Lance!
:)
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Day 170
Doing well. I have slept good for well over 60 days now. I am still having rough patches--extended craves occassionally and funky days (some times several in a row), but for the most part I have good days. The good "normal" days are exceeding the bad!
I just wanted to share some thoughts today. To me there are two parts to this nicotine withdrawal process.
The first part is the realization that we are addicts. We must realize and accept this. When it comes to nicotine we will always be addicts. That, however, is not a bad realization---all it means is that we can never just have one. It does not mean that we will always be thinking or craving nicotine, it just means we can never use again. The Law: Never ONCE!
The second part is recovery. Recovery (to me) is a process not an event. The vets on this site have finished and shut the door on recovery;however, the rest of us are still wading through this process. Recovey is different for every person, but we all share certain parts (maybe at different times) of the process.
LOOT's LAW--Don't forget the worst part of recovery--DAY ONE
Recovery:
If you are anxious and depressed--that is normal and for most it will be temporary (probably for 99%)
If you can't sleep--that is normal---for most sleep will be resolved and be restored--some have sleep issues early--some later in the recovery.
If you crave--that is normal--craving will become less and less
If you are angry--that is normal-- anger will subside as you move further from the bitch
If your mouth hurts --that is normal--- your mouth is healing itself
If you can't concentrate--that is normal-- it will return.
ETC ETC
For all you newbies--RECOVERY is a process that you will eventually be able to shut the door on. You need two things---change of mind and faith in the process that the body/mind will bring itself back into balance. It will bring BALANCE. You just need TIME!
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Day 170
Doing well. I have slept good for well over 60 days now. I am still having rough patches--extended craves occassionally and funky days (some times several in a row), but for the most part I have good days. The good "normal" days are exceeding the bad!
I just wanted to share some thoughts today. To me there are two parts to this nicotine withdrawal process.
The first part is the realization that we are addicts. We must realize and accept this. When it comes to nicotine we will always be addicts. That, however, is not a bad realization---all it means is that we can never just have one. It does not mean that we will always be thinking or craving nicotine, it just means we can never use again. The Law: Never ONCE!
The second part is recovery. Recovery (to me) is a process not an event. The vets on this site have finished and shut the door on recovery;however, the rest of us are still wading through this process. Recovey is different for every person, but we all share certain parts (maybe at different times) of the process.
LOOT's LAW--Don't forget the worst part of recovery--DAY ONE
Recovery:
If you are anxious and depressed--that is normal and for most it will be temporary (probably for 99%)
If you can't sleep--that is normal---for most sleep will be resolved and be restored--some have sleep issues early--some later in the recovery.
If you crave--that is normal--craving will become less and less
If you are angry--that is normal-- anger will subside as you move further from the bitch
If your mouth hurts --that is normal--- your mouth is healing itself
If you can't concentrate--that is normal-- it will return.
ETC ETC
For all you newbies--RECOVERY is a process that you will eventually be able to shut the door on. You need two things---change of mind and faith in the process that the body/mind will bring itself back into balance. It will bring BALANCE. You just need TIME!
The jury is out and the verdict is that you are a bad ass quitter and supporter of other quitters...well done! And great comments right there. So true. My sleep issues were driving me insane but like you said, it got better. My inability to concentrate was putting me way behind at work but like you said, it got better. Good points and advice for new quitters you have there.
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Day 184 --That's six months free after 18years of nicotine addiction!!!!
I want to tell the newbs that this is very possible and each day gets way better.
Here's the key, YOUR QUIT has to be your number one priority. Nothing comes before YOUR QUIT------nothing. The correct attitude:------I will Quit no matter what happens!!!!
Adopt this attitude TODAY and you will make it TODAY. Each TODAY builds a better tomorrow.
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Day 200!
Today I will spend time reflecting on my journey and be proud of myself. I am proud of my 200 days of freedom--this is a great milestone.
Although 200 days is great, I am more proud of my 800 posts on this site! One of the keys to staying quit and keeping a strong quit is to stay involved and pay it forward. That is what I intend to do!
I would like to challenge post HOF quitters with a few questions:
What is your days quit/ number of posts ratio?
Have you given a HOF speech?
Have you helped others?
Get involved--the newbs need you just like you needed someone...
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Day 200!
Today I will spend time reflecting on my journey and be proud of myself. I am proud of my 200 days of freedom--this is a great milestone.
Although 200 days is great, I am more proud of my 800 posts on this site! One of the keys to staying quit and keeping a strong quit is to stay involved and pay it forward. That is what I intend to do!
I would like to challenge post HOF quitters with a few questions:
What is your days quit/ number of posts ratio?
Have you given a HOF speech?
Have you helped others?
Get involved--the newbs need you just like you needed someone...
Congrats on the second floor!
To answer your questions...
145/760...that works out to something like 5.24 posts per day.
Yes, I've given an HOF speech...it was inspirational. B)
I don't know if I've helped others, but there are quite a few who I bother on a regular basis.
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Day 224
"First say to yourself what you would be; and then do what you have to do."
Epictetus
"Freedom is not procured by a full enjoyment of what is desired, but by controlling the desire."
Epictetus
I choose freedom today! :D
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Day 224
"First say to yourself what you would be; and then do what you have to do."
Epictetus
"Freedom is not procured by a full enjoyment of what is desired, but by controlling the desire."
Epictetus
I choose freedom today! :D
Right on bro. That's it. That's how simple it IS done.
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DAY 245 (8 months)
My quit is going great--actually had some craves yesterday for the first time in a long while.
I just wanted to post up and share my thoughts about my life journey and my QUIT. 2011 was a BIG year for me. This year I ran my first marathon, finished losing 65 lbs (actually that took two years), discarded bad ideas and quit the NIC demon. I have learned that if you want to accomplish anything (ANYTHING!) --you just DO IT. You just do it and you do it one day at a time! Take that step each day and don't make any excuses to fail. Man UP!
Of course I consider being QUIT my best acheivement in life and always will be. These last 245 days have been tough and have also been the most rewarding days of my life. I have found strength and wisdom that I did not know existed.
If you are lurking on this site and thinking about quitting---Just Do It! It is possible to be QUIT and I am living proof.
LL
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Triple hunnies for my friend here. Well done bro.
Thanks for kicking ass every day.
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Nicely done. Thanks for clearing the way!
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Triple hunnies for my friend here. Well done bro.
Thanks for kicking ass every day.
Thanks Soul and Thanks Ag!
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Day 301
Quit= Freedom
:D
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Day 301
Quit= Freedom
:D
Freedom = good.
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Say that shit out loud. "I'm one year quit"
Congrats my brother.
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Say that shit out loud. "I'm one year quit"
Congrats my brother.
B)
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Congrats! Well done!
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'Cheers'
One Year Free bitches!
Thanks Guys! I am going to post something tomorrow to mark this milestone. One Year is great, but I am looking forward to just quitting today--that is what I am most proud of--today.
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'Cheers'
One Year Free bitches!
Thanks Guys! I am going to post something tomorrow to mark this milestone. One Year is great, but I am looking forward to just quitting today--that is what I am most proud of--today.
Nice orbit around the big fire ball in the sky. Well done.
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'Cheers'
One Year Free bitches!
Thanks Guys! I am going to post something tomorrow to mark this milestone. One Year is great, but I am looking forward to just quitting today--that is what I am most proud of--today.
'clap' 'clap' 'clap' OUTSTANDING!!!!!!!! 'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
Very inspirational!!!!
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'Cheers'
One Year Free bitches!
Thanks Guys! I am going to post something tomorrow to mark this milestone. One Year is great, but I am looking forward to just quitting today--that is what I am most proud of--today.
'clap' 'clap' 'clap' OUTSTANDING!!!!!!!! 'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
Very inspirational!!!!
Very cool!
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Day 301
Quit= Freedom
:D
Hell Yes!!!
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'Cheers'
One Year Free bitches!
Thanks Guys! I am going to post something tomorrow to mark this milestone. One Year is great, but I am looking forward to just quitting today--that is what I am most proud of--today.
'clap' 'clap' 'clap' OUTSTANDING!!!!!!!! 'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
Very inspirational!!!!
Very cool!
Hell Yes!!!
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DAY 367
I quit one year ago today on April 28th, 2011. This is the greatest accomplishment of my life. I want to thank the vets here at KTC--Chewie, Loot, TCope and all the rest---Thank you for what you do and thank you for this site! Also, I want to thank some friends who are on this journey with me--I have never met these guys, but maybe one day we will meet---Souliman, Scowick, March 2011, Dante, KTK, DC Hogs, Ag Lawyer, Per, Nicofiend and the rest of August 2011.
Now for you NEWBS--Listen Up
Here is what I did to be QUIT:
#1
I posted roll every day for the last year--I did not miss one day. I made my promise to KTC and to my quit brothers---no excuses! You Quit ONE DAY AT A TIME!
#2
I exchanged numbers with about 7 quit brothers and one veteran. Around day 60 I called TCope and he helped me through. At other times, I got on chat with KTK or exchanged texts others. I reached out when I needed a boost.
#3
I educated myself by reading everything on this site and other sites on the internet. I became an informed quitter. I understood what was happening as my body/mind were recovering.
#4
I made myself accountable to my wife, kids and friends. Make sure you have outside support.
#5
I read Souliman's words of wisdom which made me feel super-human.
I am proud of myself-----not for this one year milestone, but for being Quit TODAY!
Lance 'archer'
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'clap'
Well Done !
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Congrats - Inspiorational
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DAY 367
I quit one year ago today on April 28th, 2011. This is the greatest accomplishment of my life. I want to thank the vets here at KTC--Chewie, Loot, TCope and all the rest---Thank you for what you do and thank you for this site! Also, I want to thank some friends who are on this journey with me--I have never met these guys, but maybe one day we will meet---Souliman, Scowick, March 2011, Dante, KTK, DC Hogs, Ag Lawyer, Per, Nicofiend and the rest of August 2011.
Now for you NEWBS--Listen Up
Here is what I did to be QUIT:
#1
I posted roll every day for the last year--I did not miss one day. I made my promise to KTC and to my quit brothers---no excuses! You Quit ONE DAY AT A TIME!
#2
I exchanged numbers with about 7 quit brothers and one veteran. Around day 60 I called TCope and he helped me through. At other times, I got on chat with KTK or exchanged texts others. I reached out when I needed a boost.
#3
I educated myself by reading everything on this site and other sites on the internet. I became an informed quitter. I understood what was happening as my body/mind were recovering.
#4
I made myself accountable to my wife, kids and friends. Make sure you have outside support.
#5
I read Souliman's words of wisdom which made me feel super-human.
I am proud of myself-----not for this one year milestone, but for being Quit TODAY!
Lance 'archer'
Congrats Man, Truly an inspiration
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DAY 401
Hey Newbs--- You must post roll everyday. You must make a choice today. The only thing you have to do to quit is to not put the cancer in your mouth TODAY. One day at a time--BEING QUIT is doable!!
BEING QUIT- This means I have accepted a life today without nicotine. It is being quit NOW.
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DAY 451
I have gone 200 days without a significant crave.
I have gone months without a dip thought crossing my mind.
I do not go one day without posting roll!!!
ONE DAY AT A TIME!
Louisiana Lance
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DAY 451
I have gone 200 days without a significant crave.
I have gone months without a dip thought crossing my mind.
I do not go one day without posting roll!!!
ONE DAY AT A TIME!
Louisiana Lance
Fucking titan of quit right there.
Glad you're here LLC. I dig walking this path with you.
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DAY 451
I have gone 200 days without a significant crave.Â
I have gone months without a dip thought crossing my mind.
I do not go one day without posting roll!!!
ONE DAY AT A TIME!
Louisiana Lance
Fucking titan of quit right there.
Glad you're here LLC. I dig walking this path with you.
Thank you for this post! Just what I needed this morning. At 113 I've been wondering what to expect. My craving the past 2 days has been equal to the 1st week!! Intense and constant, I even started getting sucked into the i'll never make it long term thinking. One day at a time I can do!
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DAY 451
I have gone 200 days without a significant crave.Â
I have gone months without a dip thought crossing my mind.
I do not go one day without posting roll!!!
ONE DAY AT A TIME!
Louisiana Lance
Fucking titan of quit right there.
Glad you're here LLC. I dig walking this path with you.
Thank you for this post! Just what I needed this morning. At 113 I've been wondering what to expect. My craving the past 2 days has been equal to the 1st week!! Intense and constant, I even started getting sucked into the i'll never make it long term thinking. One day at a time I can do!
Great for new HOFamers to read. I have talked to and experienced real craves again. So good to be reminded and know that this is only a temporary phase in quit.
No nic today.
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Day 500 :)
I had a very tough Quit. There were days I thought I was going crazy and that nothing would ever be normal again. I was wrong. I am here to tell you that if you promise every day to QUIT, your brain will re-wire itself and you will recover. I am here to tell you that it is better o the other side of nicotine. I can't put it into words.
Four things that helped me through the hardest days:
1. Make your promise daily --here at KTC and offline support---visit this site 50 times per day if necessary.
2. Educate yourself on quitting---read everything on this site and other good sources of quit information throughout the internet.
3. Be grateful for everything in your life.
4. Be a badass and be proud of your QUIT!
LLCope
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Day 500 :)
I had a very tough Quit. There were days I thought I was going crazy and that nothing would ever be normal again. I was wrong. I am here to tell you that if you promise every day to QUIT, your brain will re-wire itself and you will recover. I am here to tell you that it is better o the other side of nicotine. I can't put it into words.
Four things that helped me through the hardest days:
1. Make your promise daily --here at KTC and offline support---visit this site 50 times per day if necessary.
2. Educate yourself on quitting---read everything on this site and other good sources of quit information throughout the internet.
3. Be grateful for everything in your life.
4. Be a badass and be proud of your QUIT!
LLCope
Awesome, inspirational, strengthened my quit reading that, thank you.
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Day 500Â :)
I had a very tough Quit. There were days I thought I was going crazy and that nothing would ever be normal again. I was wrong. I am here to tell you that if you promise every day to QUIT, your brain will re-wire itself and you will recover. I am here to tell you that it is better o the other side of nicotine. I can't put it into words.Â
Four things that helped me through the hardest days:
1. Make your promise daily --here at KTC and offline support---visit this site 50 times per day if necessary.
2. Educate yourself on quitting---read everything on this site and other good sources of quit information throughout the internet.
3. Be grateful for everything in your life.
4. Be a badass and be proud of your QUIT!
LLCope
Awesome, inspirational, strengthened my quit reading that, thank you.
congrats on 500.. one day I'll be on the other side. not sure when.. don't care, but I WILL get to the other side. When I'm struggling most.. someone on here posts exactly what I need to here.. Thanks for posting that...
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Thank you for that, it helped me today.
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Day 600
Today I remembered day 1 and celebrated the promise I made on that day. The promise on day 1 was the exact same promise I made today. I promised myself that I would be free today.
Be Badass------choose freedom---pat yourself on the back for today.
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Day 600
Today I remembered day 1 and celebrated the promise I made on that day. The promise on day 1 was the exact same promise I made today. I promised myself that I would be free today.
Be Badass------choose freedom---pat yourself on the back for today.
6 bills. Awesome LL! I quit with you today!
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Day 600
Today I remembered day 1 and celebrated the promise I made on that day. The promise on day 1 was the exact same promise I made today. I promised myself that I would be free today.
Be Badass------choose freedom---pat yourself on the back for today.
6 bills. Awesome LL! I quit with you today!
Congrats LL, well done!
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Day 600
Today I remembered day 1 and celebrated the promise I made on that day. The promise on day 1 was the exact same promise I made today. I promised myself that I would be free today.
Be Badass------choose freedom---pat yourself on the back for today.
6 bills. Awesome LL! I quit with you today!
Congrats LL, well done!
Just awesome, LL.
Congrats.
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Day 600
Today I remembered day 1 and celebrated the promise I made on that day. The promise on day 1 was the exact same promise I made today. I promised myself that I would be free today.
Be Badass------choose freedom---pat yourself on the back for today.
6 bills. Awesome LL! I quit with you today!
Congrats LL, well done!
Just awesome, LL.
Congrats.
perfect!
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Day 729
It will be two years quit this Sunday. April 28th is my new birthday. Two years ago, I made the same choice I made this morning----No nicotine today. It is that simple!
Be Badass my friend!
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Day 729
It will be two years quit this Sunday. April 28th is my new birthday. Two years ago, I made the same choice I made this morning----No nicotine today. It is that simple!
Be Badass my friend!
I'm keeping it simple with Mr. LL Today and everyday that ends with a y.
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Day 729
It will be two years quit this Sunday. April 28th is my new birthday. Two years ago, I made the same choice I made this morning----No nicotine today. It is that simple!
Be Badass my friend!
I'm keeping it simple with Mr. LL Today and everyday that ends with a y.
I'm with 30isEnuff...sometimes it is just that.. Keep it simple stupid.
Wake up
Post roll
Stay quit
We all should come up with a new acronym for this......Oh Yea NAFAR!!!
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Day 744
In the earlier days of my quit I was working through my triggers. A trigger is an event that causes a crave---some big, some small. Finding out what causes a crave is important to your quit, but finding WHY that event is a trigger is much more important.
I have found that my addiction was wrapped up in fear and anxiety and my addiction was its cover. It was my way to hide from my fears and anxiety.
The real truth is that the fear and anxiety is myth in the first place. I know this now, but in the early days this was not clear.
Your job is simple but painful. #1 Make your promise and Focus on your quit by embracing this program 100% #2 Find out WHY each trigger is causing a crave.
Here is the hope---once you go through physical withdrawal (which takes an amazingly short time--4 days) then you must face each demon individually--each fear ---each anxiety. It will be very hard at first, but then you begin to realize that it is all smoke and mirrors! The fears and anxiety are myth when the nicotine is removed. Then you find out something about yourself----you are WORTH something!
Keep THE QUIT
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Day 900
Wake up and make your promise---it is that simple!
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Wow, 900 days?!? That's awesome, keep up the great work!!