KillTheCan.org Accountability Forum
Community => Introductions => Topic started by: trireb31 on July 10, 2014, 11:28:00 PM
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I'm on Day 13. The first few days were brutal, but I was out of the country for work in a place that did not sell dip, so I had no option but to battle through (in retrospect, that was a great thing). Monster headaches and fog were the order of the day.
More importantly, I know that the triggers and the desire NEVER go away. I know because I dipped for 9 years, quit for 11 years, and then blew it and started back 3+ years ago. It is amazing how easily I justified starting up after being free for so long. Slavery disguises herself quite nicely, and she NEVER lets you go. And even though I can't stand to do it anymore (in the end, I didn't even enjoy but one of every 20 dips I took), I still crave it.
It stops here.
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I'm on Day 13. The first few days were brutal, but I was out of the country for work in a place that did not sell dip, so I had no option but to battle through (in retrospect, that was a great thing). Monster headaches and fog were the order of the day.
More importantly, I know that the triggers and the desire NEVER go away. I know because I dipped for 9 years, quit for 11 years, and then blew it and started back 3+ years ago. It is amazing how easily I justified starting up after being free for so long. Slavery disguises herself quite nicely, and she NEVER lets you go. And even though I can't stand to do it anymore (in the end, I didn't even enjoy but one of every 20 dips I took), I still crave it.
It stops here.
Welcome. This place and its accountability works every time, every day. Take heart to the words and advice here and this time you'll be quit. Not just an 11 year attempt.
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Welcome aboard Tri, I think they call that the law of addiction. Kinda a tough pill to swallow but vital to long term success. Know thy enemy and read everything you can here. An iron clad plan starts with your daily promise, adds a few layers of accountability and is held together with intestinal fortitude. Taste the freedom!
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Welcome Tribe. 13 days on your own is bad ass, glad you are here to get some brotherhood now! Quit with you today!
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Thanks, all. I appreciate the good words. The quit is brutal; addiction never lets go of you. Or at least, it didn't let go of me.
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Thanks, all. I appreciate the good words. The quit is brutal; addiction never lets go of you. Or at least, it didn't let go of me.
It never will and that is why you take it one day a time friend....Quit with you today!
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There's a guy here who blew a 15 year quit with "just one."
Welcome to the site. It's good to have you here. Reading your story serves up a reminder of why we must stay vigilant daily. No breaks. Just quit each day. One at a time.
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Like all of you. "One dip is too many and a thousand dips is not enough".
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Thanks, all. I appreciate the good words. The quit is brutal; addiction never lets go of you. Or at least, it didn't let go of me.
That's a huge message to everyone here. 11 years free and then dragged right back down. That is brutal. Good luck on your next quit. You obviously have the stones to do this. So get after it one day at a time. I quit with you today.
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Congrats on a year quit man!
Read thru your intro. Damn NB never gives up on us does she.
With you ODAAT!
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Congratulations on a year nic free. I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for the support you have given me. You made a difference in my life and I truly appreciate it.