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Title: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Elpollodiablo01 on August 06, 2014, 04:07:00 PM
Where to start? Quick bio: I was born and raised in Las Vegas. Not the best place for those with low or non existent willpower. I am currently living in the midwest.

Ive been chewing, dipping, or smoking since i joined the Army when i was 18 (40 now). There was times where i was really bad... Id have a fistful of redman in AND smoke a cig at the same time. Thankfully, i have quit smoking cold turkey (been 8 years) when i realized that i was getting winded walking up a flight of stairs! That shit wasnt for me, but i was still dipping... Get rid of one bad but keep the other.

I have quit once a few years ago... Was bed ridden with the flu for days, and when i was better, i just didnt have the urge anymore. I was straight for 2 years until i caved... I was in a new job, and 90% of my co workers were dipping... My willpower wasnt as strong as i thought. Let that sink in for a moment: i was good for 2 FRIGGING YEARS and i STILL CAVED!!! A lesson for all to remain ever vigilant against the tobacco bitch.

My quit date has been set for 8-7... Tomorrow. Im down to my last 2 pouches. What caused me to want to quit was while over this past weekend (i go overboard on weekends) i was watching some tv, and just didnt feel too good. A little voice in my head said "man, you gotta stop this shit, now"... It was the same voice that told me i should stop drinking 12 years ago, and ive been clean on that front ever since. Must be important...

Im ready to quit. I look at it as a challenge, and i never back down from those. I have support with my wife (she pointed me to this site), and kids. Its awesome to meet people that have, or are going thru the stages of quitting.
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Elpollodiablo01 on August 06, 2014, 04:13:00 PM
Screw it, after much thought over the past 5 minutes, my quit date is today. Just tossed the can. Im ready.
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Wt57 on August 06, 2014, 04:14:00 PM
The ting your doing that you've never done before is; quitting nicotine. Sure you stopped for a time but we quit everyday. Post roll and join in the suck!
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Thumblewort on August 06, 2014, 04:17:00 PM
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Screw it, after much thought over the past 5 minutes, my quit date is today. Just tossed the can. Im ready.
Right on. Post your day one in the November quit group, make some friends, get some digits, use Chat, drink gallons of water, and get quit.
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Tuco on August 06, 2014, 04:20:00 PM
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Screw it, after much thought over the past 5 minutes, my quit date is today. Just tossed the can. Im ready.
Best decision you've made all day. Welcome aboard, and don't forget to post roll every day first thing - it's your promise to us and our promise to you. PM me if you need digits. You're gonna need the support a lot more than you realize.
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Elpollodiablo01 on August 06, 2014, 04:31:00 PM
Quote from: Thumblewort
Quote from: Elpollodiablo01
Screw it, after much thought over the past 5 minutes, my quit date is today. Just tossed the can. Im ready.
Right on. Post your day one in the November quit group, make some friends, get some digits, use Chat, drink gallons of water, and get quit.
Already done. I am ready to do this.
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Elpollodiablo01 on August 07, 2014, 12:49:00 AM
Hunkering down for the night. I feel a little funky lol. Caught myself looking for my can earlier before i realized i tossed it.

Hopefully i remember to post roll in the morning... Usually first thing i do is shit, shower, shave, get dressed and out the door... I dont hit the skoal till after breakfast. Ill make myself a reminder that goes off with my alarm to post roll.

Night everyone, hope tomorrow is as semi smooth as today is lol, i can handle this.
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Grizzlyhasclaws on August 07, 2014, 05:52:00 AM
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Hopefully i remember to post roll in the morning...
Huh???
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: slug.go on August 07, 2014, 10:06:00 AM
Quote from: grizzlyhasclaws
Quote from: Elpollodiablo01
Hopefully i remember to post roll in the morning...
Huh???
Hell, yeah...he remembered!!!!
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Elpollodiablo01 on August 07, 2014, 12:03:00 PM
Quote from: grizzlyhasclaws
Quote from: Elpollodiablo01
Hopefully i remember to post roll in the morning...
Huh???
Morning is not my time lol. I start work at 8, so i set my alarm for 720 and just jump up shower and all that and rush out the door.

Im so used to that routine, that i was afraid id miss role this morning. I set a not so friendly reminder to myself on my phone lol. It worked, and i made roll before my feet even hit the floor.
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Dagranger on August 07, 2014, 12:18:00 PM
Quote from: Elpollodiablo01
Quote from: grizzlyhasclaws
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Hopefully i remember to post roll in the morning...
Huh???
Morning is not my time lol. I start work at 8, so i set my alarm for 720 and just jump up shower and all that and rush out the door.

Im so used to that routine, that i was afraid id miss role this morning. I set a not so friendly reminder to myself on my phone lol. It worked, and i made roll before my feet even hit the floor.
Pollo,
I think one thing new guys don't realize is that in quitting there is no grey areas. You are either quit...or you are not. And on this site, posting roll is the most important thing...no exceptions. So when you write "hopefully I'll remember to post roll in the morning" It sounds weak, and defeatist. My guess is it's not what you meant, and you obviously posted today. But, I know I am quit today, and I know I will post tomorrow morning. There is no hope involved. Good luck on your quit.
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Air Force ADDICT on August 07, 2014, 12:20:00 PM
Way to go Elpollodiablo01. First day of the rest of your life!
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Elpollodiablo01 on August 07, 2014, 03:56:00 PM
Quote from: Dagranger
Quote from: Elpollodiablo01
Quote from: grizzlyhasclaws
Quote from: Elpollodiablo01
Hopefully i remember to post roll in the morning...
Huh???
Morning is not my time lol. I start work at 8, so i set my alarm for 720 and just jump up shower and all that and rush out the door.

Im so used to that routine, that i was afraid id miss role this morning. I set a not so friendly reminder to myself on my phone lol. It worked, and i made roll before my feet even hit the floor.
Pollo,
I think one thing new guys don't realize is that in quitting there is no grey areas. You are either quit...or you are not. And on this site, posting roll is the most important thing...no exceptions. So when you write "hopefully I'll remember to post roll in the morning" It sounds weak, and defeatist. My guess is it's not what you meant, and you obviously posted today. But, I know I am quit today, and I know I will post tomorrow morning. There is no hope involved. Good luck on your quit.
I had a nice long retort to post, but figured its not worth the time or energy to get pissed and explain myself again.

Tl;dr i dont care what you think i sound like.

@air force: thanks man. Im dead set on beating this shit. Ill see you all at roll tomorrow.
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Shorthorn on August 07, 2014, 05:01:00 PM
Quote from: Elpollodiablo01
Quote from: Dagranger
Quote from: Elpollodiablo01
Quote from: grizzlyhasclaws
Quote from: Elpollodiablo01
Hopefully i remember to post roll in the morning...
Huh???
Morning is not my time lol. I start work at 8, so i set my alarm for 720 and just jump up shower and all that and rush out the door.

Im so used to that routine, that i was afraid id miss role this morning. I set a not so friendly reminder to myself on my phone lol. It worked, and i made roll before my feet even hit the floor.
Pollo,
I think one thing new guys don't realize is that in quitting there is no grey areas. You are either quit...or you are not. And on this site, posting roll is the most important thing...no exceptions. So when you write "hopefully I'll remember to post roll in the morning" It sounds weak, and defeatist. My guess is it's not what you meant, and you obviously posted today. But, I know I am quit today, and I know I will post tomorrow morning. There is no hope involved. Good luck on your quit.
I had a nice long retort to post, but figured its not worth the time or energy to get pissed and explain myself again.

Tl;dr i dont care what you think i sound like.

@air force: thanks man. Im dead set on beating this shit. Ill see you all at roll tomorrow.
In the end all that matters is you post roll every day, first thing in the morning...

You and every other quitter on this site has to rearrange their morning routine... Wake, Post Roll, Shit, Shower, Shave... Every damn Day.

Thats how we win.
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Thumblewort on August 07, 2014, 05:19:00 PM
Devil chicken, do you have phone numbers? Check your PM, you now have mine. Get some others from your November crew, a text can save your life.
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Elpollodiablo01 on August 07, 2014, 05:46:00 PM
Quote from: shorthorn
Quote from: Elpollodiablo01
Quote from: Dagranger
Quote from: Elpollodiablo01
Quote from: grizzlyhasclaws
Quote from: Elpollodiablo01
Hopefully i remember to post roll in the morning...
Huh???
Morning is not my time lol. I start work at 8, so i set my alarm for 720 and just jump up shower and all that and rush out the door.

Im so used to that routine, that i was afraid id miss role this morning. I set a not so friendly reminder to myself on my phone lol. It worked, and i made roll before my feet even hit the floor.
Pollo,
I think one thing new guys don't realize is that in quitting there is no grey areas. You are either quit...or you are not. And on this site, posting roll is the most important thing...no exceptions. So when you write "hopefully I'll remember to post roll in the morning" It sounds weak, and defeatist. My guess is it's not what you meant, and you obviously posted today. But, I know I am quit today, and I know I will post tomorrow morning. There is no hope involved. Good luck on your quit.
I had a nice long retort to post, but figured its not worth the time or energy to get pissed and explain myself again.

Tl;dr i dont care what you think i sound like.

@air force: thanks man. Im dead set on beating this shit. Ill see you all at roll tomorrow.
In the end all that matters is you post roll every day, first thing in the morning...

You and every other quitter on this site has to rearrange their morning routine... Wake, Post Roll, Shit, Shower, Shave... Every damn Day.

Thats how we win.
I agree 100%, and have made the change. My alarm now screams at me to post roll before even getting out of bed.
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Dagranger on August 07, 2014, 08:12:00 PM
Quote from: Elpollodiablo01
Quote from: shorthorn
Quote from: Elpollodiablo01
Quote from: Dagranger
Quote from: Elpollodiablo01
Quote from: grizzlyhasclaws
Quote from: Elpollodiablo01
Hopefully i remember to post roll in the morning...
Huh???
Morning is not my time lol. I start work at 8, so i set my alarm for 720 and just jump up shower and all that and rush out the door.

Im so used to that routine, that i was afraid id miss role this morning. I set a not so friendly reminder to myself on my phone lol. It worked, and i made roll before my feet even hit the floor.
Pollo,
I think one thing new guys don't realize is that in quitting there is no grey areas. You are either quit...or you are not. And on this site, posting roll is the most important thing...no exceptions. So when you write "hopefully I'll remember to post roll in the morning" It sounds weak, and defeatist. My guess is it's not what you meant, and you obviously posted today. But, I know I am quit today, and I know I will post tomorrow morning. There is no hope involved. Good luck on your quit.
I had a nice long retort to post, but figured its not worth the time or energy to get pissed and explain myself again.

Tl;dr i dont care what you think i sound like.

@air force: thanks man. Im dead set on beating this shit. Ill see you all at roll tomorrow.
In the end all that matters is you post roll every day, first thing in the morning...

You and every other quitter on this site has to rearrange their morning routine... Wake, Post Roll, Shit, Shower, Shave... Every damn Day.

Thats how we win.
I agree 100%, and have made the change. My alarm now screams at me to post roll before even getting out of bed.
Nice. I like the attitude and the fire....keep bringing it.
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Elpollodiablo01 on August 08, 2014, 04:51:00 PM
And i will. First tobacco free weekend in years coming up, and i cant wait to kick its ass. Next weekend will be interesting, but i will kick its ass when i get there. One bridge at a time.

Im only on day 3, but i feel... Nothing. I had the sweats the first nite, and i have worse than normal gas lol, but i just feel meh. Caught myself looking for a can last night in my bag and stuffed some trident cinnamon gum in my lip lol.

Staying strong fellas, one day at a time.
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Scowick65 on August 08, 2014, 04:54:00 PM
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And i will. First tobacco free weekend in years coming up, and i cant wait to kick its ass. Next weekend will be interesting, but i will kick its ass when i get there. One bridge at a time.

Im only on day 3, but i feel... Nothing. I had the sweats the first nite, and i have worse than normal gas lol, but i just feel meh. Caught myself looking for a can last night in my bag and stuffed some trident cinnamon gum in my lip lol.

Staying strong fellas, one day at a time.
Good job brother! Lean on me if you need some help. Glad you are here.
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Elpollodiablo01 on August 27, 2014, 03:24:00 PM
Ok, im putting this here instead of blowing up the november boards with my rants lol. I have a different outlook on things than most... To me, the only acceptable excuse is act of god related. Everything else can be managed. So i look at people who caved, and most just give an "excuse" answer for their big 3... Horseshit.

They dont take the time to sit and actually think about their answer, which is the whole point of the big 3. I'm only 22 days quit, but even I understand that the big 3 are for MY benefit. This weaksauce horseshit that some post is just that: weaksauce and horseshit. They think theyre making us happy by posting BS answers... They dont realize we see thru that shit... They use "excuses" to why they caved instead of finding the reason, and it pisses me off to no end.

Now, like i said before here, i was quit for about 2 years before i caved. It wasnt even a voluntary quit. I had the flu... Not the 24 hr stuff, but the knock your dick in the dirt kind. I was down about 4 days? Lol i needed help going to the bathroom. When i was recovered, the last thing on my mind was tobacco, and i stayed that way for 2 years.

I was at a new job, my swing shift relief guy came in and popped open a can of Kodiak and the smell hit me, and that was all she wrote... Just like that i fell off the wagon AND got ran over by it. Been tobacco from then till 22 days ago. Everyone needs to be constantly vigilant! I shit on 2 years of quit just like that. I was fucking weak willed and gave in to my base urge to chew wormdirt... I didnt care that i was 2 years quit, i didnt care that i was a single father, all i cared about was that tin of wormshit.

And it would stay that way... Then, like i said earlier, i got that little voice that told me i better quit NOW... I listen to that voice; it was the same one that told me to stop drinking and i havent touched a drop in 12 years.

Now to the present: i am reaffirming my quit to my brothers.

Last week was brutal for me. I had every excuse to cave: my son, who i have raised by myself since he was 2, has shipped off to basic training. The little boy i knew is gone forever. When i see him again, he will have changed. The same boy who was my golf partner, my game partner, my son, will be different. After 16 years, i grew attached and now hes gone... He will be different. He's also infantry, so i know theres a STRONG chance he will see combat... And that will definitely change him... It did me, even though i never noticed... Everyone else did.

Knowing and realizing all of this has hurt me to my core, but i Will. Not. Cave.

I run security for 2 state buildings and im surrounded by idiots because my company gives me no authority... I cant hire or fire anyone, im literally a middleman that has no balls... Stress is the watchword of the day when dealing with these momos, but i Will. Not. Cave.

My family (new family lol ive been re-married 2 years in Oct) lives below the poverty level and we literally live from paycheck to paycheck. We're job hunting for better paying jobs, but right now we suck it up and drive on. I Will. Not. Cave.

I quit each and every day with each and every one of you.
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Grizzlyhasclaws on August 27, 2014, 03:36:00 PM
Quote from: Elpollodiablo01
Ok, im putting this here instead of blowing up the november boards with my rants lol. I have a different outlook on things than most... To me, the only acceptable excuse is act of god related. Everything else can be managed. So i look at people who caved, and most just give an "excuse" answer for their big 3... Horseshit.

They dont take the time to sit and actually think about their answer, which is the whole point of the big 3. I'm only 22 days quit, but even I understand that the big 3 are for MY benefit. This weaksauce horseshit that some post is just that: weaksauce and horseshit. They think theyre making us happy by posting BS answers... They dont realize we see thru that shit... They use "excuses" to why they caved instead of finding the reason, and it pisses me off to no end.

Now, like i said before here, i was quit for about 2 years before i caved. It wasnt even a voluntary quit. I had the flu... Not the 24 hr stuff, but the knock your dick in the dirt kind. I was down about 4 days? Lol i needed help going to the bathroom. When i was recovered, the last thing on my mind was tobacco, and i stayed that way for 2 years.

I was at a new job, my swing shift relief guy came in and popped open a can of Kodiak and the smell hit me, and that was all she wrote... Just like that i fell off the wagon AND got ran over by it. Been tobacco from then till 22 days ago. Everyone needs to be constantly vigilant! I shit on 2 years of quit just like that. I was fucking weak willed and gave in to my base urge to chew wormdirt... I didnt care that i was 2 years quit, i didnt care that i was a single father, all i cared about was that tin of wormshit.

And it would stay that way... Then, like i said earlier, i got that little voice that told me i better quit NOW... I listen to that voice; it was the same one that told me to stop drinking and i havent touched a drop in 12 years.

Now to the present: i am reaffirming my quit to my brothers.

Last week was brutal for me. I had every excuse to cave: my son, who i have raised by myself since he was 2, has shipped off to basic training. The little boy i knew is gone forever. When i see him again, he will have changed. The same boy who was my golf partner, my game partner, my son, will be different. After 16 years, i grew attached and now hes gone... He will be different. He's also infantry, so i know theres a STRONG chance he will see combat... And that will definitely change him... It did me, even though i never noticed... Everyone else did.

Knowing and realizing all of this has hurt me to my core, but i Will. Not. Cave.

I run security for 2 state buildings and im surrounded by idiots because my company gives me no authority... I cant hire or fire anyone, im literally a middleman that has no balls... Stress is the watchword of the day when dealing with these momos, but i Will. Not. Cave.

My family (new family lol ive been re-married 2 years in Oct) lives below the poverty level and we literally live from paycheck to paycheck. We're job hunting for better paying jobs, but right now we suck it up and drive on. I Will. Not. Cave.

I quit each and every day with each and every one of you.
You. Are. Quit.
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Thumblewort on August 27, 2014, 03:41:00 PM
Quote from: grizzlyhasclaws
Quote from: Elpollodiablo01
Ok, im putting this here instead of blowing up the november boards with my rants lol. I have a different outlook on things than most... To me, the only acceptable excuse is act of god related. Everything else can be managed. So i look at people who caved, and most just give an "excuse" answer for their big 3... Horseshit.

They dont take the time to sit and actually think about their answer, which is the whole point of the big 3. I'm only 22 days quit, but even I understand that the big 3 are for MY benefit. This weaksauce horseshit that some post is just that: weaksauce and horseshit. They think theyre making us happy by posting BS answers... They dont realize we see thru that shit... They use "excuses" to why they caved instead of finding the reason, and it pisses me off to no end.

Now, like i said before here, i was quit for about 2 years before i caved. It wasnt even a voluntary quit. I had the flu... Not the 24 hr stuff, but the knock your dick in the dirt kind. I was down about 4 days? Lol i needed help going to the bathroom. When i was recovered, the last thing on my mind was tobacco, and i stayed that way for 2 years.

I was at a new job, my swing shift relief guy came in and popped open a can of Kodiak and the smell hit me, and that was all she wrote... Just like that i fell off the wagon AND got ran over by it. Been tobacco from then till 22 days ago. Everyone needs to be constantly vigilant! I shit on 2 years of quit just like that. I was fucking weak willed and gave in to my base urge to chew wormdirt... I didnt care that i was 2 years quit, i didnt care that i was a single father, all i cared about was that tin of wormshit.

And it would stay that way... Then, like i said earlier, i got that little voice that told me i better quit NOW... I listen to that voice; it was the same one that told me to stop drinking and i havent touched a drop in 12 years.

Now to the present: i am reaffirming my quit to my brothers.

Last week was brutal for me. I had every excuse to cave: my son, who i have raised by myself since he was 2, has shipped off to basic training. The little boy i knew is gone forever. When i see him again, he will have changed. The same boy who was my golf partner, my game partner, my son, will be different. After 16 years, i grew attached and now hes gone... He will be different. He's also infantry, so i know theres a STRONG chance he will see combat... And that will definitely change him... It did me, even though i never noticed... Everyone else did.

Knowing and realizing all of this has hurt me to my core, but i Will. Not. Cave.

I run security for 2 state buildings and im surrounded by idiots because my company gives me no authority... I cant hire or fire anyone, im literally a middleman that has no balls... Stress is the watchword of the day when dealing with these momos, but i Will. Not. Cave.

My family (new family lol ive been re-married 2 years in Oct) lives below the poverty level and we literally live from paycheck to paycheck. We're job hunting for better paying jobs, but right now we suck it up and drive on. I Will. Not. Cave.

I quit each and every day with each and every one of you.
You. Are. Quit.
I think he gets it......and I am damn proud to be quit with Elpollo today!
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Tuco on August 27, 2014, 03:44:00 PM
Quote from: Elpollodiablo01
Ok, im putting this here instead of blowing up the november boards with my rants lol. I have a different outlook on things than most... To me, the only acceptable excuse is act of god related. Everything else can be managed. So i look at people who caved, and most just give an "excuse" answer for their big 3... Horseshit.

They dont take the time to sit and actually think about their answer, which is the whole point of the big 3. I'm only 22 days quit, but even I understand that the big 3 are for MY benefit. This weaksauce horseshit that some post is just that: weaksauce and horseshit. They think theyre making us happy by posting BS answers... They dont realize we see thru that shit... They use "excuses" to why they caved instead of finding the reason, and it pisses me off to no end.

Now, like i said before here, i was quit for about 2 years before i caved. It wasnt even a voluntary quit. I had the flu... Not the 24 hr stuff, but the knock your dick in the dirt kind. I was down about 4 days? Lol i needed help going to the bathroom. When i was recovered, the last thing on my mind was tobacco, and i stayed that way for 2 years.

I was at a new job, my swing shift relief guy came in and popped open a can of Kodiak and the smell hit me, and that was all she wrote... Just like that i fell off the wagon AND got ran over by it. Been tobacco from then till 22 days ago. Everyone needs to be constantly vigilant! I shit on 2 years of quit just like that. I was fucking weak willed and gave in to my base urge to chew wormdirt... I didnt care that i was 2 years quit, i didnt care that i was a single father, all i cared about was that tin of wormshit.

And it would stay that way... Then, like i said earlier, i got that little voice that told me i better quit NOW... I listen to that voice; it was the same one that told me to stop drinking and i havent touched a drop in 12 years.

Now to the present: i am reaffirming my quit to my brothers.

Last week was brutal for me. I had every excuse to cave: my son, who i have raised by myself since he was 2, has shipped off to basic training. The little boy i knew is gone forever. When i see him again, he will have changed. The same boy who was my golf partner, my game partner, my son, will be different. After 16 years, i grew attached and now hes gone... He will be different. He's also infantry, so i know theres a STRONG chance he will see combat... And that will definitely change him... It did me, even though i never noticed... Everyone else did.

Knowing and realizing all of this has hurt me to my core, but i Will. Not. Cave.

I run security for 2 state buildings and im surrounded by idiots because my company gives me no authority... I cant hire or fire anyone, im literally a middleman that has no balls... Stress is the watchword of the day when dealing with these momos, but i Will. Not. Cave.

My family (new family lol ive been re-married 2 years in Oct) lives below the poverty level and we literally live from paycheck to paycheck. We're job hunting for better paying jobs, but right now we suck it up and drive on. I Will. Not. Cave.

I quit each and every day with each and every one of you.
The Chicken Devil gets it.

I'm glad you posted this here, and not in the November thread. This is not something that should get lost in the wash.

The sooner cavers realize that the 3 answers aren't for us, but for them, the sooner they can get back to the business of quitting good and proper.

Just like the rest of us, you've had your share of stresses. Yet, nicotine is not an option for you today. You made that very clear.

Your son is doing a great service to his country and when he returns he will be a man. He is being trained by the most powerful and sophisticated military in modern history. For his sake and for yours, I hope he never has to put that training to use. No matter what, he's lucky to have a dip-free Dad in his corner.

Keep on rolling with the QLF, ElPollo. You're killing it!
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: Roy on August 27, 2014, 03:45:00 PM
Quote from: Tuco's
Quote from: Elpollodiablo01
Ok, im putting this here instead of blowing up the november boards with my rants lol. I have a different outlook on things than most... To me, the only acceptable excuse is act of god related. Everything else can be managed. So i look at people who caved, and most just give an "excuse" answer for their big 3... Horseshit.

They dont take the time to sit and actually think about their answer, which is the whole point of the big 3. I'm only 22 days quit, but even I understand that the big 3 are for MY benefit. This weaksauce horseshit that some post is just that: weaksauce and horseshit. They think theyre making us happy by posting BS answers... They dont realize we see thru that shit... They use "excuses" to why they caved instead of finding the reason, and it pisses me off to no end.

Now, like i said before here, i was quit for about 2 years before i caved. It wasnt even a voluntary quit. I had the flu... Not the 24 hr stuff, but the knock your dick in the dirt kind. I was down about 4 days? Lol i needed help going to the bathroom. When i was recovered, the last thing on my mind was tobacco, and i stayed that way for 2 years.

I was at a new job, my swing shift relief guy came in and popped open a can of Kodiak and the smell hit me, and that was all she wrote... Just like that i fell off the wagon AND got ran over by it. Been tobacco from then till 22 days ago. Everyone needs to be constantly vigilant! I shit on 2 years of quit just like that. I was fucking weak willed and gave in to my base urge to chew wormdirt... I didnt care that i was 2 years quit, i didnt care that i was a single father, all i cared about was that tin of wormshit.

And it would stay that way... Then, like i said earlier, i got that little voice that told me i better quit NOW... I listen to that voice; it was the same one that told me to stop drinking and i havent touched a drop in 12 years.

Now to the present: i am reaffirming my quit to my brothers.

Last week was brutal for me. I had every excuse to cave: my son, who i have raised by myself since he was 2, has shipped off to basic training. The little boy i knew is gone forever. When i see him again, he will have changed. The same boy who was my golf partner, my game partner, my son, will be different. After 16 years, i grew attached and now hes gone... He will be different. He's also infantry, so i know theres a STRONG chance he will see combat... And that will definitely change him... It did me, even though i never noticed... Everyone else did.

Knowing and realizing all of this has hurt me to my core, but i Will. Not. Cave.

I run security for 2 state buildings and im surrounded by idiots because my company gives me no authority... I cant hire or fire anyone, im literally a middleman that has no balls... Stress is the watchword of the day when dealing with these momos, but i Will. Not. Cave.

My family (new family lol ive been re-married 2 years in Oct) lives below the poverty level and we literally live from paycheck to paycheck. We're job hunting for better paying jobs, but right now we suck it up and drive on. I Will. Not. Cave.

I quit each and every day with each and every one of you.
The Chicken Devil gets it.

I'm glad you posted this here, and not in the November thread. This is not something that should get lost in the wash.

The sooner cavers realize that the 3 answers aren't for us, but for them, the sooner they can get back to the business of quitting good and proper.

Just like the rest of us, you've had your share of stresses. Yet, nicotine is not an option for you today. You made that very clear.

Your son is doing a great service to his country and when he returns he will be a man. He is being trained by the most powerful and sophisticated military in modern history. For his sake and for yours, I hope he never has to put that training to use. No matter what, he's lucky to have a dip-free Dad in his corner.

Keep on rolling with the QLF, ElPollo. You're killing it!
Pollo... I can definitely relate to many of the items in your rant, and I'm quit with you! Spent years in the military (Marines for me), on my second marriage, raised 3 kids myself, and my eldest just left for college.

Check your PMs for more digits, November brother!
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Post by: ChristopherJ on February 21, 2015, 08:50:00 AM
Congrats on 200 el pollo! I appreciate the support you have given me throughout my quit. Sappers lead the way!

CJ
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Post by: trigerhapy on February 21, 2015, 09:00:00 AM
Quote from: ChristopherJ
Congrats on 200 el pollo! I appreciate the support you have given me throughout my quit. Sappers lead the way!

CJ
2nd floor, congratulations!
Thanks for all you do, especially for us April Apes.
Title: Re: Elpollodiablo01 intro
Post by: BazookaJoe on February 21, 2015, 09:02:00 AM
Quote from: trigerhapy
Quote from: ChristopherJ
Congrats on 200 el pollo! I appreciate the support you have given me throughout my quit. Sappers lead the way!

CJ
2nd floor, congratulations!
Thanks for all you do, especially for us April Apes.
Congrats Polloito welcome to the second floor m'man.
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Post by: trigerhapy on June 01, 2015, 12:35:00 PM
3rd floor, congratulations man!
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Post by: ChristopherJ on June 02, 2015, 07:02:00 AM
Congrats on the 3rd floor Elpollo!
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Post by: Tuco on June 02, 2015, 07:04:00 PM
Quote from: ChristopherJ
Congrats on the 3rd floor Elpollo!
Third floor, buddy!