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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: eastmarion on October 20, 2012, 12:58:00 PM
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Posted day one roll this morning. Can't believe how anxious I am already. Brutal.
Eastmarion
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Well that right there is the first step to taking back control brother. Welcome aboard. This is the place man. You won't find the support you get here anywhere else. And its all free! Hot damn!
Get involved and lean on folks when you need to. We're all addicts here. Might be good to hear little about your story man. Set a context for folks.
Welcome.
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Souliman
Thanks for the reply. I am a 43 year old 27 year dipper of Kodiak. I am ready to be done with the shit for so many reasons. 4 kids and a wife to take care of. I'm not much different than most here I suspect. Thanks again for the reply.
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Souliman
Thanks for the reply. I am a 43 year old 27 year dipper of Kodiak. I am ready to be done with the shit for so many reasons. 4 kids and a wife to take care of. I'm not much different than most here I suspect. Thanks again for the reply.
Welcome aboard. We are all one in the same......Addicts.
Settle in, get a large glass of the kool-Aid and try not to lick the windows.
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I do not ever remember having a tougher day. Feels like I am going crazy.
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I do not ever remember having a tougher day. Feels like I am going crazy.
You stuffed poison in your body for almost 30 years. Your body did not approve of that shit.
Fight through this. This shitty period is your body unfucking itself. Drink water. Get some exercise. Get some seeds or gum to help with the oral. You may have some anger boiling over. If you need folks to yell at, this is the place. Not sure you noticed but I just love a good cuss session.
You can do this. I know that as truth. I did it. A whole bunch of men and women just like you and me have done it as well. You got this. Focus and fight.
You only go through withdrawal once.
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Thanks Souliman. Made it through the day and postin roll in the morning.
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Thanks Souliman. Made it through the day and postin roll in the morning.
Well done! Same thing tomorrow...
You can do this! The suck is no fun, but you only have to do it once if you stay quit.
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You made a great decision. Remember, 1 day at a time and it does get better. I quit with you today.
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Thanks Souliman. Made it through the day and postin roll in the morning.
Awesome job eastmarion! Enjoy 'the suck'. Never ever forget it. Because I know you don't want to go through it again. Drink a shit ton a water and I'll quit with you!
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Remember how bad quitting sucks, it will help in keeping you quit!!
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Remember how bad quitting sucks, it will help in keeping you quit!!
Hang in there. one day at a time.. Absolutely embrace the suq.. It's the sand in your cement, in your foundation.. When your feeling really bad exercise will kick it to the curb, and drink plenty of water...Everyday get's better.. It really does.. quit with you!
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I do not ever remember having a tougher day. Feels like I am going crazy.
You got this brotha! Stay the course, listen to the vets, and quit one minute at a time if needs be. I quit with ya today!
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Thanks all. Feeling better today.
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Souliman
Thanks for the reply. I am a 43 year old 27 year dipper of Kodiak.
I think I just looked in the mirror! I just hit 5 weeks clean- hang tuff- you got this!
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Souliman
Thanks for the reply. I am a 43 year old 27 year dipper of Kodiak.
I think I just looked in the mirror! I just hit 5 weeks clean- hang tuff- you got this!
nice east......
your odds are less than 30%.......over 125 started in my quit group......35 finished......but i am quit with you if you make day 4.....u game??????
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Souliman
Thanks for the reply. I am a 43 year old 27 year dipper of Kodiak.
I think I just looked in the mirror! I just hit 5 weeks clean- hang tuff- you got this!
nice east......
your odds are less than 30%.......over 125 started in my quit group......35 finished......but i am quit with you if you make day 4.....u game??????
His odds are 100%. He is quit. There is no other option. He is quit.
You've got this East. You can see the path. Lean into this and hold your ground against this enemy.
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Clean - Quit with me. I will make day 4. I think my odds are better.
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Clean - Quit with me. I will make day 4. I think my odds are better.
Here's the little secret East...
Nobody can tell you what the odds of you staying quit are because you are the only person in this world that controls that. I can't. Clean can't. Just you.
Do everything in your power to stay quit. Want to be quit. Put up safeguards when your drive may be weak.
I guarantee that you can do this.
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Thanks Wastepanel. I am focused.
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Is depression common at first? I am four days in and totally bummed out. I know I should be happy that I am quitting but I just can't get over the hump. I rationally know that quitting is better than the alternative but....
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Check this link out.
http://www.killthecan.org/yourquit/what.asp (http://www.killthecan.org/yourquit/what.asp)
It will get better. I promise.
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It will get better. I promise.
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Thanks guys. I'm steady and looking forward to day 5!!
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Thanks guys. I'm steady and looking forward to day 5!!
Just checking in. Today is day 14 for me. I have a long (rest of my life) way to go and many more difficult days ahead. However, today was a very good day. So for you guys just starting out, hang in and spend a ton of time on this site. Better days are not that far away!
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Thanks guys. I'm steady and looking forward to day 5!!
Just checking in. Today is day 14 for me. I have a long (rest of my life) way to go and many more difficult days ahead. However, today was a very good day. So for you guys just starting out, hang in and spend a ton of time on this site. Better days are not that far away!
When times are good, practice for the bad.
Post roll. Contact your friends and solidify your contacts. Grab a new quitter and help him get through the first few days. You are a vet to that day 2 guy, and you've earned that title.
When times are bad, lean on your tools you've learned here.
Post roll. Contact your friends and tell them you're struggling. Don't let these guys with less days catch you. Prove your commitment.
I wrote this a while back, and feel that it is absolutely necessary knowledge to somebody "feeling good in the teens":
There is a major funk that is coming up shortly. It starts usually in the late teens. It does not make you crave nicotine. It's the opposite. It makes you think you are invincible and completely quit.
Take a look at the other months' spreadsheets. We lose many a fine quitter in the 20s. In fact, we lose more quitters in the 20s than any other time (except for the first week). I myself was almost a victim.
My thoughts on the funk are this:
The first week is complete hell. We all agree there. But, upon completion of the first week, we start to feel more comfortable with being quit. We get a sense of accomplishment for breaking that physical addiction, and our quits are fueled by adreneline.
Around day 20 (maybe later, maybe sooner), the adreneline starts to run out. Our brains want to tell us that we are quit, and we don't need to think about being quit all the time. We want normalcy, rather than having to feel committed to a website and anonymous strangers. We don't want to think that we used to stick cat turds in our mouths all the time, let alone that we are addicts. Even if we've embraced the label "addict" early in the quit, we wonder if we truly are at this time. We start to think that this roll call posting is silly business, because we are quit already. We begin hating all the bullshit on this site, and start thinking that the site is more drama than what it is worth.
This is the start to the planned cave.
Your addicted brain is letting the nic bitch have the microphone in your head and she is the one talking. She will tell you that she is gone, and that you don't need to post roll anymore. She'll tell you every lie under the sun to get you to stop giving your word everyday.
Some of you will decide she is right. You will leave. And you might not even cave right away, but you will. The nic bitch is a tricky whore, and she can sleep until you are the weakest.
Be very careful here. There is a lot of bullshit on this site, and it's meant to be a distraction for you. If it becomes too much, simply post roll and ignore it. Lean on your brothers. They are having these same thoughts, and the best thing you can do is to make sure that everybody keeps posting.
I stopped posting roll after 150 days in 2006. I caved in 2009 because I forgot I was an addict. The nic bitch had taken that time to break down every tool I learned here, and made me forget. She dug her claws in, and I manned up again 493 days ago today. I should be around 2400 days quit, and instead all I can claim is that I stopped for like 1,000 days and then again for 493.
EVERYDAY
Post roll.
Stay quit.
Repeat.