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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Derk40 on June 23, 2013, 11:53:00 PM
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Hey now... I've wanted to quit for a long time but have not been able to do it alone. Been dipping cope for 23 years and can't seem to kick it. I have made promises to myself and just couldn't or wouldn't do it. I want to live and see my kids grow up. Funny thing is that no one really knows I dip... Except my wife. Reading the site a few days ago and found the term "ninja dipper" and that described me to a T. Some people probably know but for the most part I have kept it hidden. Feel like I am living an alternate life sometimes. I am done wasting my money and killing myself. Looking forward to the quit and being nic free!
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Hey now... I've wanted to quit for a long time but have not been able to do it alone. Been dipping cope for 23 years and can't seem to kick it. I have made promises to myself and just couldn't or wouldn't do it. I want to live and see my kids grow up. Funny thing is that no one really knows I dip... Except my wife. Reading the site a few days ago and found the term "ninja dipper" and that described me to a T. Some people probably know but for the most part I have kept it hidden. Feel like I am living an alternate life sometimes. I am done wasting my money and killing myself. Looking forward to the quit and being nic free!
Couldn't and wouldn't are words of your past. We just quit here. No trying or wishing. Just quitting.
You said that you read a bunch, read more. Especially the How to Post Roll (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50) part since you messed it up a bit your first time.
Welcome to KTC!
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Hey now... I've wanted to quit for a long time but have not been able to do it alone.  Been dipping cope for 23 years and can't seem to kick it.  I have made promises to myself and just couldn't or wouldn't do it. I want to live and see my kids grow up. Funny thing is that no one really knows I dip... Except my wife. Reading the site a few days ago and found the term "ninja dipper" and that described me to a T. Some people probably know but for the most part I have kept it hidden. Feel like I am living an alternate life sometimes. I am done wasting my money and killing myself. Looking forward to the quit and being nic free!
Couldn't and wouldn't are words of your past. We just quit here. No trying or wishing. Just quitting.
You said that you read a bunch, read more. Especially the How to Post Roll (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50) part since you messed it up a bit your first time.
Welcome to KTC!
Ninja dipper here too! Quit 225 days now. Drink the kool-aid here and you will do it. Go to the Welcome Center link at the top and read what this site is about. We don't try here, we do! Post your quit everyday, keep your promise, repeat daily. Not complicated right? Just keep your word. You a man of your word?
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Hey now... I've wanted to quit for a long time but have not been able to do it alone.  Been dipping cope for 23 years and can't seem to kick it.  I have made promises to myself and just couldn't or wouldn't do it. I want to live and see my kids grow up. Funny thing is that no one really knows I dip... Except my wife. Reading the site a few days ago and found the term "ninja dipper" and that described me to a T. Some people probably know but for the most part I have kept it hidden. Feel like I am living an alternate life sometimes. I am done wasting my money and killing myself. Looking forward to the quit and being nic free!
Couldn't and wouldn't are words of your past. We just quit here. No trying or wishing. Just quitting.
You said that you read a bunch, read more. Especially the How to Post Roll (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50) part since you messed it up a bit your first time.
Welcome to KTC!
Ninja dipper here too! Quit 225 days now. Drink the kool-aid here and you will do it. Go to the Welcome Center link at the top and read what this site is about. We don't try here, we do! Post your quit everyday, keep your promise, repeat daily. Not complicated right? Just keep your word. You a man of your word?
Just x 2 what these guys said.
69 days ago... I was where you are at. Dipped for 25 years myself. You CAN do this! Welcome bro. If you need anything please pm me. Quit on m'man...
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Hey now... I've wanted to quit for a long time but have not been able to do it alone.  Been dipping cope for 23 years and can't seem to kick it.  I have made promises to myself and just couldn't or wouldn't do it. I want to live and see my kids grow up. Funny thing is that no one really knows I dip... Except my wife. Reading the site a few days ago and found the term "ninja dipper" and that described me to a T. Some people probably know but for the most part I have kept it hidden. Feel like I am living an alternate life sometimes. I am done wasting my money and killing myself. Looking forward to the quit and being nic free!
Couldn't and wouldn't are words of your past. We just quit here. No trying or wishing. Just quitting.
You said that you read a bunch, read more. Especially the How to Post Roll (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50) part since you messed it up a bit your first time.
Welcome to KTC!
Ninja dipper here too! Quit 225 days now. Drink the kool-aid here and you will do it. Go to the Welcome Center link at the top and read what this site is about. We don't try here, we do! Post your quit everyday, keep your promise, repeat daily. Not complicated right? Just keep your word. You a man of your word?
Just x 2 what these guys said.
69 days ago... I was where you are at. Dipped for 25 years myself. You CAN do this! Welcome bro. If you need anything please pm me. Quit on m'man...
Derk,
One thing about ninja dipping is that for the most part the only one the ninja is fooling is himself.
Post roll listen learn and read read read there are no special butterflies here we all have a common theme in about every HOF speech you read the only differance between us is where we live.
Welcome aboard lets go get your life back. PM me if you need anything.
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Hey now... I've wanted to quit for a long time but have not been able to do it alone.  Been dipping cope for 23 years and can't seem to kick it.  I have made promises to myself and just couldn't or wouldn't do it. I want to live and see my kids grow up. Funny thing is that no one really knows I dip... Except my wife. Reading the site a few days ago and found the term "ninja dipper" and that described me to a T. Some people probably know but for the most part I have kept it hidden. Feel like I am living an alternate life sometimes. I am done wasting my money and killing myself. Looking forward to the quit and being nic free!
Couldn't and wouldn't are words of your past. We just quit here. No trying or wishing. Just quitting.
You said that you read a bunch, read more. Especially the How to Post Roll (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50) part since you messed it up a bit your first time.
Welcome to KTC!
Ninja dipper here too! Quit 225 days now. Drink the kool-aid here and you will do it. Go to the Welcome Center link at the top and read what this site is about. We don't try here, we do! Post your quit everyday, keep your promise, repeat daily. Not complicated right? Just keep your word. You a man of your word?
Just x 2 what these guys said.
69 days ago... I was where you are at. Dipped for 25 years myself. You CAN do this! Welcome bro. If you need anything please pm me. Quit on m'man...
Derk,
One thing about ninja dipping is that for the most part the only one the ninja is fooling is himself.
Post roll listen learn and read read read there are no special butterflies here we all have a common theme in about every HOF speech you read the only differance between us is where we live.
Welcome aboard lets go get your life back. PM me if you need anything.
Thanks for the words. Today I realized I have never really tried to quit. Never committed like i did yesterday. Today was rough and I could not get dip out of my head. Kept going back to thinking old daily patterns and ways to sneak a dip. I was basically luggage at work. I am holding strong and this is going to happen. Was cleaning garage this evening. My wife came out and asked what i was doing. She then asked... are you hiding ur tobacco. It was great to say ... no I quit and mean it. I have quit. I am done with this crap. I will stay quit.
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Hey now... I've wanted to quit for a long time but have not been able to do it alone.  Been dipping cope for 23 years and can't seem to kick it.  I have made promises to myself and just couldn't or wouldn't do it. I want to live and see my kids grow up. Funny thing is that no one really knows I dip... Except my wife. Reading the site a few days ago and found the term "ninja dipper" and that described me to a T. Some people probably know but for the most part I have kept it hidden. Feel like I am living an alternate life sometimes. I am done wasting my money and killing myself. Looking forward to the quit and being nic free!
Couldn't and wouldn't are words of your past. We just quit here. No trying or wishing. Just quitting.
You said that you read a bunch, read more. Especially the How to Post Roll (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50) part since you messed it up a bit your first time.
Welcome to KTC!
Ninja dipper here too! Quit 225 days now. Drink the kool-aid here and you will do it. Go to the Welcome Center link at the top and read what this site is about. We don't try here, we do! Post your quit everyday, keep your promise, repeat daily. Not complicated right? Just keep your word. You a man of your word?
Just x 2 what these guys said.
69 days ago... I was where you are at. Dipped for 25 years myself. You CAN do this! Welcome bro. If you need anything please pm me. Quit on m'man...
Derk,
One thing about ninja dipping is that for the most part the only one the ninja is fooling is himself.
Post roll listen learn and read read read there are no special butterflies here we all have a common theme in about every HOF speech you read the only differance between us is where we live.
Welcome aboard lets go get your life back. PM me if you need anything.
Thanks for the words. Today I realized I have never really tried to quit. Never committed like i did yesterday. Today was rough and I could not get dip out of my head. Kept going back to thinking old daily patterns and ways to sneak a dip. I was basically luggage at work. I am holding strong and this is going to happen. Was cleaning garage this evening. My wife came out and asked what i was doing. She then asked... are you hiding ur tobacco. It was great to say ... no I quit and mean it. I have quit. I am done with this crap. I will stay quit.
Good Man! Way to step up. Most of us (probably all) thought we could never quit but you know what -we did. Take this one day at a time.
Welcome- you got this!
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Hey now... I've wanted to quit for a long time but have not been able to do it alone.  Been dipping cope for 23 years and can't seem to kick it.  I have made promises to myself and just couldn't or wouldn't do it. I want to live and see my kids grow up. Funny thing is that no one really knows I dip... Except my wife. Reading the site a few days ago and found the term "ninja dipper" and that described me to a T. Some people probably know but for the most part I have kept it hidden. Feel like I am living an alternate life sometimes. I am done wasting my money and killing myself. Looking forward to the quit and being nic free!
Couldn't and wouldn't are words of your past. We just quit here. No trying or wishing. Just quitting.
You said that you read a bunch, read more. Especially the How to Post Roll (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50) part since you messed it up a bit your first time.
Welcome to KTC!
Ninja dipper here too! Quit 225 days now. Drink the kool-aid here and you will do it. Go to the Welcome Center link at the top and read what this site is about. We don't try here, we do! Post your quit everyday, keep your promise, repeat daily. Not complicated right? Just keep your word. You a man of your word?
Just x 2 what these guys said.
69 days ago... I was where you are at. Dipped for 25 years myself. You CAN do this! Welcome bro. If you need anything please pm me. Quit on m'man...
Derk,
One thing about ninja dipping is that for the most part the only one the ninja is fooling is himself.
Post roll listen learn and read read read there are no special butterflies here we all have a common theme in about every HOF speech you read the only differance between us is where we live.
Welcome aboard lets go get your life back. PM me if you need anything.
Thanks for the words. Today I realized I have never really tried to quit. Never committed like i did yesterday. Today was rough and I could not get dip out of my head. Kept going back to thinking old daily patterns and ways to sneak a dip. I was basically luggage at work. I am holding strong and this is going to happen. Was cleaning garage this evening. My wife came out and asked what i was doing. She then asked... are you hiding ur tobacco. It was great to say ... no I quit and mean it. I have quit. I am done with this crap. I will stay quit.
Good Man! Way to step up. Most of us (probably all) thought we could never quit but you know what -we did. Take this one day at a time.
Welcome- you got this!
Just remember keep your word. In time it gets easier, but for now embrace the suck!
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Day 3 blows ... Throat hurting and can't get out of my head. Been wanting a dip bad or just can't stop thinking about it. Don't friggin know. feel like that fucking cartoon with a devil on one shoulder in my ear telling me... you can do this alone, you dont need group, 1 dip is fine and an angel in the other ear telling me to hold strong and power the F thru u mother fucker. I am assuming this is the cravings and nic talking and everyone goes thru this. Trying to relax, embrace the suck... But it's suckin. Ain't gonna dip either. 'bang head'
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Day 3 blows ... Throat hurting and can't get out of my head. Been wanting a dip bad or just can't stop thinking about it. Don't friggin know. feel like that fucking cartoon with a devil on one shoulder in my ear telling me... you can do this alone, you dont need group, 1 dip is fine and an angel in the other ear telling me to hold strong and power the F thru u mother fucker. I am assuming this is the cravings and nic talking and everyone goes thru this. Trying to relax, embrace the suck... But it's suckin. Ain't gonna dip either. 'bang head'
Listen to the angel Mr. Diggler. Listen to the angel
Now drop and give LOOT 20.
Actually doing push-ups at the onset of a crave is a great way to destroy them...and help you sleep.
You can do this Diggler...you can do this.
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Aye aye... 20 done. Maybe I just need to get off my a$$, quit bitching, and get the blood flowing here. Thanks LOOT.
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Day 3 blows ... Throat hurting and can't get out of my head. Been wanting a dip bad or just can't stop thinking about it. Don't friggin know. feel like that fucking cartoon with a devil on one shoulder in my ear telling me... you can do this alone, you dont need group, 1 dip is fine and an angel in the other ear telling me to hold strong and power the F thru u mother fucker. I am assuming this is the cravings and nic talking and everyone goes thru this. Trying to relax, embrace the suck... But it's suckin. Ain't gonna dip either. 'bang head'
You are stronger than the weed my friend. Remember, craves typically only last 3-5 minutes. You can wait out a crave! I quit with you today.
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Day 3 blows ... Throat hurting and can't get out of my head. Been wanting a dip bad or just can't stop thinking about it. Don't friggin know.  feel like that fucking cartoon with a devil on one shoulder in my ear telling me... you can do this alone, you dont need group, 1 dip is fine and an angel in the other ear telling me to hold strong and power the F thru u mother fucker. I am assuming this is the cravings and nic talking and everyone goes thru this. Trying to relax, embrace the suck... But it's suckin. Ain't gonna dip either. 'bang head'
You are stronger than the weed my friend. Remember, craves typically only last 3-5 minutes. You can wait out a crave! I quit with you today.
Dipweez is right, you are stronger than a cancerous plant. Keep going man. Read everything this site has to offer. Just remember you are an addict, your brain is trying to trick you. You don't need dip to function, it was all lies. Just your addicted brain. Post early tomorrow. Keep your word. ODAAT.
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Day 3 blows ... Throat hurting and can't get out of my head. Been wanting a dip bad or just can't stop thinking about it. Don't friggin know.  feel like that fucking cartoon with a devil on one shoulder in my ear telling me... you can do this alone, you dont need group, 1 dip is fine and an angel in the other ear telling me to hold strong and power the F thru u mother fucker. I am assuming this is the cravings and nic talking and everyone goes thru this.  Trying to relax, embrace the suck... But it's suckin. Ain't gonna dip either.  'bang head'
You are stronger than the weed my friend. Remember, craves typically only last 3-5 minutes. You can wait out a crave! I quit with you today.
Dipweez is right, you are stronger than a cancerous plant. Keep going man. Read everything this site has to offer. Just remember you are an addict, your brain is trying to trick you. You don't need dip to function, it was all lies. Just your addicted brain. Post early tomorrow. Keep your word. ODAAT.
Great advice from the quit Sherpas!
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Thanks everybody. Last night I think it hit me... as I sat there bitching on the site, shaking, frustrated, wanting a dip... with sore throat... I realized that I am a drug addict. I have been embarrassed to say that, but I am. I am an addict. You all were telling me to relax... I was not - I want this done. I want it kicked now. I want to be free of this nic B now. In my fog last night read a post that hit me square in the junk... "Don't worry about tomoorow. Tomorrow isn't here yet. All you have to do now is whatever the fuck you have to to stay clean today. Then wake up and post roll again." I need to put in the work. This ain't gonna be handed to me. Gotta earn! This morning I am relaxed... focused and more committed. I will focus on today's quit! 1 day at a time. I am proud of having logged 3 days quit. Feels good. I will be quit today!
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One day at a time. Do it, you can do this. it's SACK UP TIME!!!
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Thanks everybody. Last night I think it hit me... as I sat there bitching on the site, shaking, frustrated, wanting a dip... with sore throat... I realized that I am a drug addict. I have been embarrassed to say that, but I am. I am an addict. You all were telling me to relax... I was not - I want this done. I want it kicked now. I want to be free of this nic B now. In my fog last night read a post that hit me square in the junk... "Don't worry about tomoorow. Tomorrow isn't here yet. All you have to do now is whatever the fuck you have to to stay clean today. Then wake up and post roll again." I need to put in the work. This ain't gonna be handed to me. Gotta earn! This morning I am relaxed... focused and more committed. I will focus on today's quit! 1 day at a time. I am proud of having logged 3 days quit. Feels good. I will be quit today!
That's 3 days of freedom brother. 3 days you haven't went down to the corner store, spent your hard earned money on something that does absolutely nothing for you except take. It takes your money, freedom, health and integrity while slowly killing you.
FREEDOM BROTHER!! Taste it, feel it, smell it. Read my signature line right now man. Join me in the hate brother. I hated it all day yesterday. I hated it so much I woke up today hating it. Stay the course my friend. I quit with you.
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Thanks everybody. Last night I think it hit me... as I sat there bitching on the site, shaking, frustrated, wanting a dip... with sore throat... I realized that I am a drug addict. I have been embarrassed to say that, but I am. I am an addict. You all were telling me to relax... I was not - I want this done. I want it kicked now. I want to be free of this nic B now. In my fog last night read a post that hit me square in the junk... "Don't worry about tomoorow. Tomorrow isn't here yet. All you have to do now is whatever the fuck you have to to stay clean today. Then wake up and post roll again." I need to put in the work. This ain't gonna be handed to me. Gotta earn! This morning I am relaxed... focused and more committed. I will focus on today's quit! 1 day at a time. I am proud of having logged 3 days quit. Feels good. I will be quit today!
That's 3 days of freedom brother. 3 days you haven't went down to the corner store, spent your hard earned money on something that does absolutely nothing for you except take. It takes your money, freedom, health and integrity while slowly killing you.
FREEDOM BROTHER!! Taste it, feel it, smell it. Read my signature line right now man. Join me in the hate brother. I hated it all day yesterday. I hated it so much I woke up today hating it. Stay the course my friend. I quit with you.
I gotta embrace that HATE. That bitch wants me dead! It is on, bros.
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Thanks everybody. Last night I think it hit me... as I sat there bitching on the site, shaking, frustrated, wanting a dip... with sore throat... I realized that I am a drug addict. I have been embarrassed to say that, but I am. I am an addict. You all were telling me to relax... I was not - I want this done. I want it kicked now. I want to be free of this nic B now. In my fog last night read a post that hit me square in the junk... "Don't worry about tomoorow. Tomorrow isn't here yet. All you have to do now is whatever the fuck you have to to stay clean today. Then wake up and post roll again." I need to put in the work. This ain't gonna be handed to me. Gotta earn! This morning I am relaxed... focused and more committed. I will focus on today's quit! 1 day at a time. I am proud of having logged 3 days quit. Feels good. I will be quit today!
The day I admitted I was a drug addict was the day I controlled nicotine instead of nicotine controlling me. It did not make quitting easy, but it did mean I now call the shots.
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Thanks everybody. Last night I think it hit me... as I sat there bitching on the site, shaking, frustrated, wanting a dip... with sore throat... I realized that I am a drug addict. I have been embarrassed to say that, but I am. I am an addict. You all were telling me to relax... I was not - I want this done. I want it kicked now. I want to be free of this nic B now. In my fog last night read a post that hit me square in the junk... "Don't worry about tomoorow. Tomorrow isn't here yet. All you have to do now is whatever the fuck you have to to stay clean today. Then wake up and post roll again." I need to put in the work. This ain't gonna be handed to me. Gotta earn! This morning I am relaxed... focused and more committed. I will focus on today's quit! 1 day at a time. I am proud of having logged 3 days quit. Feels good. I will be quit today!
The day I admitted I was a drug addict was the day I controlled nicotine instead of nicotine controlling me. It did not make quitting easy, but it did mean I now called the shots.
What Mr. Scowick said X 100 'bang head'
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Feel like I got hit in face with 2X4 this am. Posted roll, but cravings are hitting me heavy and hard. Actually pulled out my contract out of my wallet this morning. Yesterday went to bed feeling good. Today I have doubts and need to resort to my wallet to refocus? Is this impossible? Do I love dipping more than I love myself? Do I love dipping more than I love my family? F no... so why do I keep trying to think of ways to throw in the towel and do just one to keep me even keeled. Holding strong here, but it aint ez. Need to go sit in a meeting. Should be fun. No dip allowed zone, so I am good. I am quit!
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Feel like I got hit in face with 2X4 this am. Posted roll, but cravings are hitting me heavy and hard. Actually pulled out my contract out of my wallet this morning. WTF. Yesterday went to bed feeling good. Today I have doubts and need to resort to my wallet to refocus? Is this impossible? Do I love dipping more than I love myself? Do I love dipping more than I love my family? F no... so why do I keep trying to think of ways to throw in the towel and do just one to keep me even keeled. Fuck!!!!!!!!!!! Holding strong here, but it aint ez. Need to go sit in a F-in meeting. Should be fun. No dip allowed zone, so I am good. I am quit dammit!
fight on man, you can do this, get yourself busy (work, exercise, hobby) to get your mind off it.
make the promise today and then the option is off the table. And enjoy the rollercoaster ride (ok maybe not enjoy but remember this so you never want to do it again)
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Feel like I got hit in face with 2X4 this am. Posted roll, but cravings are hitting me heavy and hard. Actually pulled out my contract out of my wallet this morning. WTF. Yesterday went to bed feeling good. Today I have doubts and need to resort to my wallet to refocus? Is this impossible? Do I love dipping more than I love myself? Do I love dipping more than I love my family? F no... so why do I keep trying to think of ways to throw in the towel and do just one to keep me even keeled. Fuck!!!!!!!!!!! Holding strong here, but it aint ez. Need to go sit in a F-in meeting. Should be fun. No dip allowed zone, so I am good. I am quit dammit!
There's two important things here:
1) You've recognized that you're an addict
2) You're using logic and facts to fight your cravings
I like seeing both of those. You are an addict. So am I. So is anyone else using this site. We are all addicts. And you're fighting the emotions of craving by making it a matter of priority, a matter of choice by asking "Do I love dipping more than I love myself or my family?". We all hit tough patches in our quit. When going through those patches, it's important to remember why we initially quit and to choose to remain faithful to our quit even when it's inconvenient or we don't want to.
You got this. Stay committed to your quit. Choose to quit. I choose to quit with you.
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Feel like I got hit in face with 2X4 this am. Posted roll, but cravings are hitting me heavy and hard. Actually pulled out my contract out of my wallet this morning. WTF. Yesterday went to bed feeling good. Today I have doubts and need to resort to my wallet to refocus? Is this impossible? Do I love dipping more than I love myself? Do I love dipping more than I love my family? F no... so why do I keep trying to think of ways to throw in the towel and do just one to keep me even keeled. Fuck!!!!!!!!!!! Holding strong here, but it aint ez. Need to go sit in a F-in meeting. Should be fun. No dip allowed zone, so I am good. I am quit dammit!
There's two important things here:
1) You've recognized that you're an addict
2) You're using logic and facts to fight your cravings
I like seeing both of those. You are an addict. So am I. So is anyone else using this site. We are all addicts. And you're fighting the emotions of craving by making it a matter of priority, a matter of choice by asking "Do I love dipping more than I love myself or my family?". We all hit tough patches in our quit. When going through those patches, it's important to remember why we initially quit and to choose to remain faithful to our quit even when it's inconvenient or we don't want to.
You got this. Stay committed to your quit. Choose to quit. I choose to quit with you.
Derk, right now is when you find out your abilities. Your life is on the line are you going to fight for it, or are you going to lay down like a bitch?
Fight, I promise you it's worth it. I promise, that 100 day mark feels fanfuckingtastic! do it!!
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Meeting over. Lucky I am just a paper pusher these days and no ones life is in danger, ship aint getting ready to run aground, etc... since I was not paying attention to anything anyone was telling me. I am literally shaking and ready to start throwing haymakers... JRIZZ, KKLJINC and SIRDerek... thanks for the guidance and comment. So basically what ur telling me is that I am at the point right now where it is either put up or shut up. It is time to find out what I am I made of! Either all in or get out. Lay down like a bitch or f-in fight for this quit.
Here is where I am. I am major addict and I got to get out from the grips of this evil m-f-er. Part of me wants to think - whoa is me... how did I get to this point? That is weakness speaking cuz it don't matter - I am in the fight now. Who gives a crap how I got here. This is not a pause or a temp shut down for ME. I have done that for too many years and it was not this hard cuz I was just putting my toe in the pool. I am all in here. I got to fight this nic B today like I have never fought for anything before. My life is on the F-in line. I am not going down here! I am gonna fight the fight! This is mine for the taking and I will have my life back! I am quit! I will stay quit! Not laying down!
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Meeting over. Lucky I am just a paper pusher these days and no ones life is in danger, ship aint getting ready to run aground, etc... since I was not paying attention to anything anyone was telling me. I am literally shaking and ready to start throwing haymakers... JRIZZ, KKLJINC and SIRDerek... thanks for the guidance and comment. So basically what ur telling me is that I am at the point right now where it is either put up or shut up. It is time to find out what I am I made of! Either all in or get out. Lay down like a bitch or f-in fight for this quit.
Here is where I am. I am major addict and I got to get out from the grips of this evil m-f-er. Part of me wants to think - whoa is me... how did I get to this point? That is weakness speaking cuz it don't matter - I am in the fight now. Who gives a crap how I got here. This is not a pause or a temp shut down for ME. I have done that for too many years and it was not this hard cuz I was just putting my toe in the pool. I am all in here. I got to fight this nic B today like I have never fought for anything before. My life is on the F-in line. I am not going down here! I am gonna fight the fight! This is mine for the taking and I will have my life back! I am quit! I will stay quit! Not laying down!
Now you are getting it you keep swinging for the fences one minute, one hour, one day at a time. You are getting through the suck its the physical addiction that you are fighting right now. YOu can do this you are not alone we are all here. Keep fight Derk for you are in the fight of your life...it is for your life. Your days of playing a slow game of Russion roulette are over.
What helped me early in my quit other than this site and everything it brings, is playing in my heard over and over in my head NEVER AGAIN FOR ANY REASON!!!!
Remember what it you feel like the 2x4 cracking through your skull embrace it...keep quit and no more 2x4s crashing through your skull...no more sweats...then after that comes the head games...
You dont have to work through the head games alone...start filling your tool bag to help you combat the Nic WHore well at least hold her off til we get there to help you.
By now you should have numbers in your phone and you should be reaching for that way before you reach for that contract. I am not bull shitting you that contract is not to be used first. your tools first then that.
PM me if you need anything.
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Meeting over. Lucky I am just a paper pusher these days and no ones life is in danger, ship aint getting ready to run aground, etc... since I was not paying attention to anything anyone was telling me. I am literally shaking and ready to start throwing haymakers... JRIZZ, KKLJINC and SIRDerek... thanks for the guidance and comment. So basically what ur telling me is that I am at the point right now where it is either put up or shut up. It is time to find out what I am I made of! Either all in or get out. Lay down like a bitch or f-in fight for this quit.Â
Here is where I am. I am major addict and I got to get out from the grips of this evil m-f-er. Part of me wants to think - whoa is me... how did I get to this point? That is weakness speaking cuz it don't matter - I am in the fight now. Who gives a crap how I got here. This is not a pause or a temp shut down for ME. I have done that for too many years and it was not this hard cuz I was just putting my toe in the pool. I am all in here. I got to fight this nic B today like I have never fought for anything before. My life is on the F-in line. I am not going down here! I am gonna fight the fight! This is mine for the taking and I will have my life back! I am quit! I will stay quit! Not laying down!
Now you are getting it you keep swinging for the fences one minute, one hour, one day at a time. You are getting through the suck its the physical addiction that you are fighting right now. YOu can do this you are not alone we are all here. Keep fight Derk for you are in the fight of your life...it is for your life. Your days of playing a slow game of Russion roulette are over.
What helped me early in my quit other than this site and everything it brings, is playing in my heard over and over in my head NEVER AGAIN FOR ANY REASON!!!!
Remember what it you feel like the 2x4 cracking through your skull embrace it...keep quit and no more 2x4s crashing through your skull...no more sweats...then after that comes the head games...
You dont have to work through the head games alone...start filling your tool bag to help you combat the Nic WHore well at least hold her off til we get there to help you.
By now you should have numbers in your phone and you should be reaching for that way before you reach for that contract. I am not bull shitting you that contract is not to be used first. your tools first then that.
PM me if you need anything.
Trauma, thanks for the advice. Need a few numbers for reach out, so I will work on that. Did not have a lifeline this am so went straight to guns.. That contract. It worked because everything on there is totally fucked. Who the hell would sign that fuckin contract? I ain't gonna sign it. She was working on me this morning and thought she had me going her way... but i hate her. Cant stand her. I hate dip and what it has done for me which is not a damn thing. I am working day by day here to build back my rep. It is gonna be a roller coaster for a while, but I'm ready to hold the ground I've taken. Retreat is not an option...as Patton said..."don't like paying for the same real estate twice." This is gonna be the last first 5 days for Derk. I quit with y'all today! Feels pretty damn good.
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Meeting over. Lucky I am just a paper pusher these days and no ones life is in danger, ship aint getting ready to run aground, etc... since I was not paying attention to anything anyone was telling me. I am literally shaking and ready to start throwing haymakers... JRIZZ, KKLJINC and SIRDerek... thanks for the guidance and comment. So basically what ur telling me is that I am at the point right now where it is either put up or shut up. It is time to find out what I am I made of! Either all in or get out. Lay down like a bitch or f-in fight for this quit.Â
Here is where I am. I am major addict and I got to get out from the grips of this evil m-f-er. Part of me wants to think - whoa is me... how did I get to this point? That is weakness speaking cuz it don't matter - I am in the fight now. Who gives a crap how I got here. This is not a pause or a temp shut down for ME. I have done that for too many years and it was not this hard cuz I was just putting my toe in the pool. I am all in here. I got to fight this nic B today like I have never fought for anything before. My life is on the F-in line. I am not going down here! I am gonna fight the fight! This is mine for the taking and I will have my life back! I am quit! I will stay quit! Not laying down!
Now you are getting it you keep swinging for the fences one minute, one hour, one day at a time. You are getting through the suck its the physical addiction that you are fighting right now. YOu can do this you are not alone we are all here. Keep fight Derk for you are in the fight of your life...it is for your life. Your days of playing a slow game of Russion roulette are over.
What helped me early in my quit other than this site and everything it brings, is playing in my heard over and over in my head NEVER AGAIN FOR ANY REASON!!!!
Remember what it you feel like the 2x4 cracking through your skull embrace it...keep quit and no more 2x4s crashing through your skull...no more sweats...then after that comes the head games...
You dont have to work through the head games alone...start filling your tool bag to help you combat the Nic WHore well at least hold her off til we get there to help you.
By now you should have numbers in your phone and you should be reaching for that way before you reach for that contract. I am not bull shitting you that contract is not to be used first. your tools first then that.
PM me if you need anything.
Trauma, thanks for the advice. Need a few numbers for reach out, so I will work on that. Did not have a lifeline this am so went straight to guns.. That contract. It worked because everything on there is totally fucked. Who the hell would sign that fuckin contract? I ain't gonna sign it. She was working on me this morning and thought she had me going her way... but i hate her. Cant stand her. I hate dip and what it has done for me which is not a damn thing. I am working day by day here to build back my rep. It is gonna be a roller coaster for a while, but I'm ready to hold the ground I've taken. Retreat is not an option...as Patton said..."don't like paying for the same real estate twice." This is gonna be the last first 5 days for Derk. I quit with y'all today! Feels pretty damn good.
some fucks have signed it I texted you my number use it...proud of you in the thick of it all you were using tools to save your ass. now you have a number get more just about anyone here will pm you a number in a heart beat if they don't you don't need them there are plenty more.
keep the fite going
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Meeting over. Lucky I am just a paper pusher these days and no ones life is in danger, ship aint getting ready to run aground, etc... since I was not paying attention to anything anyone was telling me. I am literally shaking and ready to start throwing haymakers... JRIZZ, KKLJINC and SIRDerek... thanks for the guidance and comment. So basically what ur telling me is that I am at the point right now where it is either put up or shut up. It is time to find out what I am I made of! Either all in or get out. Lay down like a bitch or f-in fight for this quit.Â
Here is where I am. I am major addict and I got to get out from the grips of this evil m-f-er. Part of me wants to think - whoa is me... how did I get to this point? That is weakness speaking cuz it don't matter - I am in the fight now. Who gives a crap how I got here. This is not a pause or a temp shut down for ME. I have done that for too many years and it was not this hard cuz I was just putting my toe in the pool. I am all in here. I got to fight this nic B today like I have never fought for anything before. My life is on the F-in line. I am not going down here! I am gonna fight the fight! This is mine for the taking and I will have my life back! I am quit! I will stay quit! Not laying down!
Now you are getting it you keep swinging for the fences one minute, one hour, one day at a time. You are getting through the suck its the physical addiction that you are fighting right now. YOu can do this you are not alone we are all here. Keep fight Derk for you are in the fight of your life...it is for your life. Your days of playing a slow game of Russion roulette are over.
What helped me early in my quit other than this site and everything it brings, is playing in my heard over and over in my head NEVER AGAIN FOR ANY REASON!!!!
Remember what it you feel like the 2x4 cracking through your skull embrace it...keep quit and no more 2x4s crashing through your skull...no more sweats...then after that comes the head games...
You dont have to work through the head games alone...start filling your tool bag to help you combat the Nic WHore well at least hold her off til we get there to help you.
By now you should have numbers in your phone and you should be reaching for that way before you reach for that contract. I am not bull shitting you that contract is not to be used first. your tools first then that.
PM me if you need anything.
Trauma, thanks for the advice. Need a few numbers for reach out, so I will work on that. Did not have a lifeline this am so went straight to guns.. That contract. It worked because everything on there is totally fucked. Who the hell would sign that fuckin contract? I ain't gonna sign it. She was working on me this morning and thought she had me going her way... but i hate her. Cant stand her. I hate dip and what it has done for me which is not a damn thing. I am working day by day here to build back my rep. It is gonna be a roller coaster for a while, but I'm ready to hold the ground I've taken. Retreat is not an option...as Patton said..."don't like paying for the same real estate twice." This is gonna be the last first 5 days for Derk. I quit with y'all today! Feels pretty damn good.
some fucks have signed it I texted you my number use it...proud of you in the thick of it all you were using tools to save your ass. now you have a number get more just about anyone here will pm you a number in a heart beat if they don't you don't need them there are plenty more.
keep the fite going
Thanks Trauma. Quit on!
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Hey derk, welcome,
Read this, I think it will help you with the mental aspect of your quit
What Price to Save Ourselves?
by Spongebob
For over 2 decades, my best quit efforts lasted maybe 10 or so days. Finally, asking myself the right question changed my attitude and made it possible to quit. This quit is not easy, but it is finally in MY CONTROL and (I firmly believe) FINAL.
Previously, I always asked "how can I find the strength to break this addiction? In particular, how can I get through the crushing brain fog that always leads to my demise. I can't stay quit or start quitting right now because I get too brain-stupid to get any work done." THAT QUESTION ALWAYS LED ME TO FAIL because (a) it gave me the choice to fail, and (B) it said I had other priorities that I would allow to interfere with quitting.
This time, I asked myself a different question. "IS THERE ANYTHING I WILL NOT DO IN ORDER TO QUIT? IS ANY COST TOO HIGH?" Since nobody was asking me to give up my family, I decided the answer was "NO." I therefore decided that I WILL INCUR ANY COST WHATSOEVER TO QUIT. If I must, I will use up all my vacation time to get away from the office until the fog lifts. If I have no vacation time left, I'll call in sick (and I consider addiction withdrawal to be honestly sick). If I run out of vacation/sick time, I'll ask for unpaid leave until my head clears up and while I practice handling fewer stresses without opening a tin. If I can't get unpaid leave, I'll let that job go (and go find a new job AFTER I SAVED MY LIFE). If I can't afford being on unpaid leave or unemployment, I will swallow my pride and ask for help from family friends, and I will sell my stupid car/house/stereo while I SAVE MY LIFE.
WOW, once I decided that NO COST WAS TOO HIGH TO SAVE MY LIFE, and that I would GLADLY INCUR THOSE COSTS, my whole mental attitude changed. No longer were there any impediments to quitting. Once that was my attitude, quitting was easier than I had experienced in prior efforts. I did have to cut back on my office time (and incur some temporary pay reduction), but nothing drastic. And in the long run, who gives a damn?
See, the real barrier wasn't quitting tobacco -- the real barrier had been what I had not CONSIDERED doing, or had not been WILLING to do, in order to make quitting the absolute #1 priority.
Another example: does quitting make being around the house unbearable? Negotiate leaving for 2 weeks!!! "Honey, I need these 2 weeks in order to give you the rest of my life. This isn't a vacation, this is the old 'stick with me in sickness and in health thing.' It's unfair to leave you with the kids, but I will make it up to you, and you will like the new me much better, and I won't go and get cancer on you.")
I came to this "At What Price" attitude after my wife died. She had been given a terminal diagnosis from hell with no hope whatsoever (Lou Gehrig's Disease). We had wished there was something/anything we could do, but there was not. And she had done nothing to deserve it (no smokes, barely drank, exercised regularly, young).
Now here I was, 14 months after she passed away, giving myself my own terminal sentence. But this was a sentence I had the power to stop. My wife had been denied any such power. So, every time I CHOSE to fill my lip, I insulted the memory of my wife. My wife and I would have paid ANY PRICE to save her: sacrificing job, house, friends, etc.
Once I asked "What Price" to save myself, the answers became rather obvious and easy. This quit is not easy, but now it is only a question of time. The fog still lingers some, but now I just ride it out rather than fight it or let it scare me back to the can.
Hey guys, don't fill the boards with condolences. It's been 15 months and I've come to terms with my loss. But I wanted to share this story to prompt you to ask yourselves, "Is Any Price Too High?" Are you putting artificial barriers (like the job, or conserving vacation days and sick leave, or keeping secrets from your wife) in the way of accomplishing THE MOST IMPORTANT GOAL in your life right now?
Would you quit your job, sell your house and move to a desolate place where you have no friends, all in order to save the life of your child, wife, or father? Of course you would. Now, do whatever you have to do, at whatever cost, to save your own life.
-
Hey derk, welcome,
Read this, I think it will help you with the mental aspect of your quit
What Price to Save Ourselves?
by Spongebob
For over 2 decades, my best quit efforts lasted maybe 10 or so days. Finally, asking myself the right question changed my attitude and made it possible to quit. This quit is not easy, but it is finally in MY CONTROL and (I firmly believe) FINAL.
Previously, I always asked "how can I find the strength to break this addiction? In particular, how can I get through the crushing brain fog that always leads to my demise. I can't stay quit or start quitting right now because I get too brain-stupid to get any work done." THAT QUESTION ALWAYS LED ME TO FAIL because (a) it gave me the choice to fail, and (B) it said I had other priorities that I would allow to interfere with quitting.
This time, I asked myself a different question. "IS THERE ANYTHING I WILL NOT DO IN ORDER TO QUIT? IS ANY COST TOO HIGH?" Since nobody was asking me to give up my family, I decided the answer was "NO." I therefore decided that I WILL INCUR ANY COST WHATSOEVER TO QUIT. If I must, I will use up all my vacation time to get away from the office until the fog lifts. If I have no vacation time left, I'll call in sick (and I consider addiction withdrawal to be honestly sick). If I run out of vacation/sick time, I'll ask for unpaid leave until my head clears up and while I practice handling fewer stresses without opening a tin. If I can't get unpaid leave, I'll let that job go (and go find a new job AFTER I SAVED MY LIFE). If I can't afford being on unpaid leave or unemployment, I will swallow my pride and ask for help from family friends, and I will sell my stupid car/house/stereo while I SAVE MY LIFE.
WOW, once I decided that NO COST WAS TOO HIGH TO SAVE MY LIFE, and that I would GLADLY INCUR THOSE COSTS, my whole mental attitude changed. No longer were there any impediments to quitting. Once that was my attitude, quitting was easier than I had experienced in prior efforts. I did have to cut back on my office time (and incur some temporary pay reduction), but nothing drastic. And in the long run, who gives a damn?
See, the real barrier wasn't quitting tobacco -- the real barrier had been what I had not CONSIDERED doing, or had not been WILLING to do, in order to make quitting the absolute #1 priority.
Another example: does quitting make being around the house unbearable? Negotiate leaving for 2 weeks!!! "Honey, I need these 2 weeks in order to give you the rest of my life. This isn't a vacation, this is the old 'stick with me in sickness and in health thing.' It's unfair to leave you with the kids, but I will make it up to you, and you will like the new me much better, and I won't go and get cancer on you.")
I came to this "At What Price" attitude after my wife died. She had been given a terminal diagnosis from hell with no hope whatsoever (Lou Gehrig's Disease). We had wished there was something/anything we could do, but there was not. And she had done nothing to deserve it (no smokes, barely drank, exercised regularly, young).
Now here I was, 14 months after she passed away, giving myself my own terminal sentence. But this was a sentence I had the power to stop. My wife had been denied any such power. So, every time I CHOSE to fill my lip, I insulted the memory of my wife. My wife and I would have paid ANY PRICE to save her: sacrificing job, house, friends, etc.
Once I asked "What Price" to save myself, the answers became rather obvious and easy. This quit is not easy, but now it is only a question of time. The fog still lingers some, but now I just ride it out rather than fight it or let it scare me back to the can.
Hey guys, don't fill the boards with condolences. It's been 15 months and I've come to terms with my loss. But I wanted to share this story to prompt you to ask yourselves, "Is Any Price Too High?" Are you putting artificial barriers (like the job, or conserving vacation days and sick leave, or keeping secrets from your wife) in the way of accomplishing THE MOST IMPORTANT GOAL in your life right now?
Would you quit your job, sell your house and move to a desolate place where you have no friends, all in order to save the life of your child, wife, or father? Of course you would. Now, do whatever you have to do, at whatever cost, to save your own life.
Omg. So powerful.
Thank you for sharing sM.
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Hey derk, welcome,
Read this, I think it will help you with the mental aspect of your quit
What Price to Save Ourselves?
by Spongebob
For over 2 decades, my best quit efforts lasted maybe 10 or so days. Finally, asking myself the right question changed my attitude and made it possible to quit. This quit is not easy, but it is finally in MY CONTROL and (I firmly believe) FINAL.
Previously, I always asked "how can I find the strength to break this addiction? In particular, how can I get through the crushing brain fog that always leads to my demise. I can't stay quit or start quitting right now because I get too brain-stupid to get any work done." THAT QUESTION ALWAYS LED ME TO FAIL because (a) it gave me the choice to fail, and (B) it said I had other priorities that I would allow to interfere with quitting.
This time, I asked myself a different question. "IS THERE ANYTHING I WILL NOT DO IN ORDER TO QUIT? IS ANY COST TOO HIGH?" Since nobody was asking me to give up my family, I decided the answer was "NO." I therefore decided that I WILL INCUR ANY COST WHATSOEVER TO QUIT. If I must, I will use up all my vacation time to get away from the office until the fog lifts. If I have no vacation time left, I'll call in sick (and I consider addiction withdrawal to be honestly sick). If I run out of vacation/sick time, I'll ask for unpaid leave until my head clears up and while I practice handling fewer stresses without opening a tin. If I can't get unpaid leave, I'll let that job go (and go find a new job AFTER I SAVED MY LIFE). If I can't afford being on unpaid leave or unemployment, I will swallow my pride and ask for help from family friends, and I will sell my stupid car/house/stereo while I SAVE MY LIFE.
WOW, once I decided that NO COST WAS TOO HIGH TO SAVE MY LIFE, and that I would GLADLY INCUR THOSE COSTS, my whole mental attitude changed. No longer were there any impediments to quitting. Once that was my attitude, quitting was easier than I had experienced in prior efforts. I did have to cut back on my office time (and incur some temporary pay reduction), but nothing drastic. And in the long run, who gives a damn?
See, the real barrier wasn't quitting tobacco -- the real barrier had been what I had not CONSIDERED doing, or had not been WILLING to do, in order to make quitting the absolute #1 priority.
Another example: does quitting make being around the house unbearable? Negotiate leaving for 2 weeks!!! "Honey, I need these 2 weeks in order to give you the rest of my life. This isn't a vacation, this is the old 'stick with me in sickness and in health thing.' It's unfair to leave you with the kids, but I will make it up to you, and you will like the new me much better, and I won't go and get cancer on you.")
I came to this "At What Price" attitude after my wife died. She had been given a terminal diagnosis from hell with no hope whatsoever (Lou Gehrig's Disease). We had wished there was something/anything we could do, but there was not. And she had done nothing to deserve it (no smokes, barely drank, exercised regularly, young).
Now here I was, 14 months after she passed away, giving myself my own terminal sentence. But this was a sentence I had the power to stop. My wife had been denied any such power. So, every time I CHOSE to fill my lip, I insulted the memory of my wife. My wife and I would have paid ANY PRICE to save her: sacrificing job, house, friends, etc.
Once I asked "What Price" to save myself, the answers became rather obvious and easy. This quit is not easy, but now it is only a question of time. The fog still lingers some, but now I just ride it out rather than fight it or let it scare me back to the can.
Hey guys, don't fill the boards with condolences. It's been 15 months and I've come to terms with my loss. But I wanted to share this story to prompt you to ask yourselves, "Is Any Price Too High?" Are you putting artificial barriers (like the job, or conserving vacation days and sick leave, or keeping secrets from your wife) in the way of accomplishing THE MOST IMPORTANT GOAL in your life right now?
Would you quit your job, sell your house and move to a desolate place where you have no friends, all in order to save the life of your child, wife, or father? Of course you would. Now, do whatever you have to do, at whatever cost, to save your own life.
Omg. So powerful.
Thank you for sharing sM.
This place is full of posts like that. I used to read until I found something to hold onto for the day. I saved a lot of them in my intro if you need something to keep you busy
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Hey derk, welcome,
Read this, I think it will help you with the mental aspect of your quit
What Price to Save Ourselves?
by Spongebob
For over 2 decades, my best quit efforts lasted maybe 10 or so days. Finally, asking myself the right question changed my attitude and made it possible to quit. This quit is not easy, but it is finally in MY CONTROL and (I firmly believe) FINAL.
Previously, I always asked "how can I find the strength to break this addiction? In particular, how can I get through the crushing brain fog that always leads to my demise. I can't stay quit or start quitting right now because I get too brain-stupid to get any work done." THAT QUESTION ALWAYS LED ME TO FAIL because (a) it gave me the choice to fail, and (B) it said I had other priorities that I would allow to interfere with quitting.
This time, I asked myself a different question. "IS THERE ANYTHING I WILL NOT DO IN ORDER TO QUIT? IS ANY COST TOO HIGH?" Since nobody was asking me to give up my family, I decided the answer was "NO." I therefore decided that I WILL INCUR ANY COST WHATSOEVER TO QUIT. If I must, I will use up all my vacation time to get away from the office until the fog lifts. If I have no vacation time left, I'll call in sick (and I consider addiction withdrawal to be honestly sick). If I run out of vacation/sick time, I'll ask for unpaid leave until my head clears up and while I practice handling fewer stresses without opening a tin. If I can't get unpaid leave, I'll let that job go (and go find a new job AFTER I SAVED MY LIFE). If I can't afford being on unpaid leave or unemployment, I will swallow my pride and ask for help from family friends, and I will sell my stupid car/house/stereo while I SAVE MY LIFE.
WOW, once I decided that NO COST WAS TOO HIGH TO SAVE MY LIFE, and that I would GLADLY INCUR THOSE COSTS, my whole mental attitude changed. No longer were there any impediments to quitting. Once that was my attitude, quitting was easier than I had experienced in prior efforts. I did have to cut back on my office time (and incur some temporary pay reduction), but nothing drastic. And in the long run, who gives a damn?
See, the real barrier wasn't quitting tobacco -- the real barrier had been what I had not CONSIDERED doing, or had not been WILLING to do, in order to make quitting the absolute #1 priority.
Another example: does quitting make being around the house unbearable? Negotiate leaving for 2 weeks!!! "Honey, I need these 2 weeks in order to give you the rest of my life. This isn't a vacation, this is the old 'stick with me in sickness and in health thing.' It's unfair to leave you with the kids, but I will make it up to you, and you will like the new me much better, and I won't go and get cancer on you.")
I came to this "At What Price" attitude after my wife died. She had been given a terminal diagnosis from hell with no hope whatsoever (Lou Gehrig's Disease). We had wished there was something/anything we could do, but there was not. And she had done nothing to deserve it (no smokes, barely drank, exercised regularly, young).
Now here I was, 14 months after she passed away, giving myself my own terminal sentence. But this was a sentence I had the power to stop. My wife had been denied any such power. So, every time I CHOSE to fill my lip, I insulted the memory of my wife. My wife and I would have paid ANY PRICE to save her: sacrificing job, house, friends, etc.
Once I asked "What Price" to save myself, the answers became rather obvious and easy. This quit is not easy, but now it is only a question of time. The fog still lingers some, but now I just ride it out rather than fight it or let it scare me back to the can.
Hey guys, don't fill the boards with condolences. It's been 15 months and I've come to terms with my loss. But I wanted to share this story to prompt you to ask yourselves, "Is Any Price Too High?" Are you putting artificial barriers (like the job, or conserving vacation days and sick leave, or keeping secrets from your wife) in the way of accomplishing THE MOST IMPORTANT GOAL in your life right now?
Would you quit your job, sell your house and move to a desolate place where you have no friends, all in order to save the life of your child, wife, or father? Of course you would. Now, do whatever you have to do, at whatever cost, to save your own life.
Omg. So powerful.
Thank you for sharing sM.
This place is full of posts like that. I used to read until I found something to hold onto for the day. I saved a lot of them in my intro if you need something to keep you busy
Someone needs to put this in Words Of Wisdom. This will be on my mind all day now, and thank you for that. This really is something we all need to think about? What cost is too high for life?
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Hey derk, welcome,
Read this, I think it will help you with the mental aspect of your quit
What Price to Save Ourselves?
by Spongebob
For over 2 decades, my best quit efforts lasted maybe 10 or so days. Finally, asking myself the right question changed my attitude and made it possible to quit. This quit is not easy, but it is finally in MY CONTROL and (I firmly believe) FINAL.
Previously, I always asked "how can I find the strength to break this addiction? In particular, how can I get through the crushing brain fog that always leads to my demise. I can't stay quit or start quitting right now because I get too brain-stupid to get any work done." THAT QUESTION ALWAYS LED ME TO FAIL because (a) it gave me the choice to fail, and (B) it said I had other priorities that I would allow to interfere with quitting.
This time, I asked myself a different question. "IS THERE ANYTHING I WILL NOT DO IN ORDER TO QUIT? IS ANY COST TOO HIGH?" Since nobody was asking me to give up my family, I decided the answer was "NO." I therefore decided that I WILL INCUR ANY COST WHATSOEVER TO QUIT. If I must, I will use up all my vacation time to get away from the office until the fog lifts. If I have no vacation time left, I'll call in sick (and I consider addiction withdrawal to be honestly sick). If I run out of vacation/sick time, I'll ask for unpaid leave until my head clears up and while I practice handling fewer stresses without opening a tin. If I can't get unpaid leave, I'll let that job go (and go find a new job AFTER I SAVED MY LIFE). If I can't afford being on unpaid leave or unemployment, I will swallow my pride and ask for help from family friends, and I will sell my stupid car/house/stereo while I SAVE MY LIFE.
WOW, once I decided that NO COST WAS TOO HIGH TO SAVE MY LIFE, and that I would GLADLY INCUR THOSE COSTS, my whole mental attitude changed. No longer were there any impediments to quitting. Once that was my attitude, quitting was easier than I had experienced in prior efforts. I did have to cut back on my office time (and incur some temporary pay reduction), but nothing drastic. And in the long run, who gives a damn?
See, the real barrier wasn't quitting tobacco -- the real barrier had been what I had not CONSIDERED doing, or had not been WILLING to do, in order to make quitting the absolute #1 priority.
Another example: does quitting make being around the house unbearable? Negotiate leaving for 2 weeks!!! "Honey, I need these 2 weeks in order to give you the rest of my life. This isn't a vacation, this is the old 'stick with me in sickness and in health thing.' It's unfair to leave you with the kids, but I will make it up to you, and you will like the new me much better, and I won't go and get cancer on you.")
I came to this "At What Price" attitude after my wife died. She had been given a terminal diagnosis from hell with no hope whatsoever (Lou Gehrig's Disease). We had wished there was something/anything we could do, but there was not. And she had done nothing to deserve it (no smokes, barely drank, exercised regularly, young).
Now here I was, 14 months after she passed away, giving myself my own terminal sentence. But this was a sentence I had the power to stop. My wife had been denied any such power. So, every time I CHOSE to fill my lip, I insulted the memory of my wife. My wife and I would have paid ANY PRICE to save her: sacrificing job, house, friends, etc.
Once I asked "What Price" to save myself, the answers became rather obvious and easy. This quit is not easy, but now it is only a question of time. The fog still lingers some, but now I just ride it out rather than fight it or let it scare me back to the can.
Hey guys, don't fill the boards with condolences. It's been 15 months and I've come to terms with my loss. But I wanted to share this story to prompt you to ask yourselves, "Is Any Price Too High?" Are you putting artificial barriers (like the job, or conserving vacation days and sick leave, or keeping secrets from your wife) in the way of accomplishing THE MOST IMPORTANT GOAL in your life right now?
Would you quit your job, sell your house and move to a desolate place where you have no friends, all in order to save the life of your child, wife, or father? Of course you would. Now, do whatever you have to do, at whatever cost, to save your own life.
Omg. So powerful.
Thank you for sharing sM.
This place is full of posts like that. I used to read until I found something to hold onto for the day. I saved a lot of them in my intro if you need something to keep you busy
Someone needs to put this in Words Of Wisdom. This will be on my mind all day now, and thank you for that. This really is something we all need to think about? What cost is too high for life?
Darn, and to think i was coming to this intro to put something that would help derk for the day. I'll save mine for another day. If that don't keep you quit, well then, I got nothing for you.
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sM,
Thanks for that post. It means a lot. Before 6 days ago I thought I knew one thing... I would do anything for my family. I was fucking lying to myself... I was full of crap. I was a weak ass poser. How do I know that -- I continued to throw dangerous shit in my lip with no regard for me. I can't do anything for my family if I am not here. The mental aspect of this has been whipping my a$$ the first 6 days. I read your post last night and wanted to respond immediately. But I got to thinkin and I waited. I read your entire Intro and was up until 230am. I am not sleeping anyhow, so I mind as well learn. Good stuff in there, bros. The Kern girls letters to their father brought me to tears and made me sick at the same time. For me there is no other option than to quit and I don't know why it took me 20 some odd years to figure that out. I am an addict but I am quit. As I have ready from many these first 6 days... This is going to suck until it doesnt, then it won't. I'm ready, willing and able for this fight.
I pulled something off your intro cuz it made me think about my priorities for today. I am quit with you and the rest of the KTC brotha/sista hood today and it feels damn good! Thanks for shedding some light on the road!
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QUOTE (Skoal Monster @ Oct 30, 2012, 12:57 pm)
Spongebob Mantra
There is only one thing that I must accomplish today, and that is to not chew.
If I get other things done today, great.
But everything else has second priority for now.
Soon I'll be able to focus on those other things too.
But for right now, for today, this is the only thing that matters.
I won't demand more of myself, and I won't get down on myself for not doing anything else if I don't get to it.
This is damn damn damn hard work, and it's the most important work that I have right now.
I'll be truly and sincerely proud if I meet no goals today other than keeping that crap out of my mouth
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sM,
Thanks for that post. It means a lot. Before 6 days ago I thought I knew one thing... I would do anything for my family. I was fucking lying to myself... I was full of crap. I was a weak ass poser. How do I know that -- I continued to throw dangerous shit in my lip with no regard for me. I can't do anything for my family if I am not here. The mental aspect of this has been whipping my a$$ the first 6 days. I read your post last night and wanted to respond immediately. But I got to thinkin and I waited. I read your entire Intro and was up until 230am. I am not sleeping anyhow, so I mind as well learn. Good stuff in there, bros. The Kern girls letters to their father brought me to tears and made me sick at the same time. For me there is no other option than to quit and I don't know why it took me 20 some odd years to figure that out. I am an addict but I am quit. As I have ready from many these first 6 days... This is going to suck until it doesnt, then it won't. I'm ready, willing and able for this fight.
I pulled something off your intro cuz it made me think about my priorities for today. I am quit with you and the rest of the KTC brotha/sista hood today and it feels damn good! Thanks for shedding some light on the road!
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QUOTE (Skoal Monster @ Oct 30, 2012, 12:57 pm)
Spongebob Mantra
There is only one thing that I must accomplish today, and that is to not chew.
If I get other things done today, great.
But everything else has second priority for now.
Soon I'll be able to focus on those other things too.
But for right now, for today, this is the only thing that matters.
I won't demand more of myself, and I won't get down on myself for not doing anything else if I don't get to it.
This is damn damn damn hard work, and it's the most important work that I have right now.
I'll be truly and sincerely proud if I meet no goals today other than keeping that crap out of my mouth
I am getting some quit wood here!!! keep it up man begin to hate tobacco and nicotine...its a slave ship.
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sM,
Thanks for that post. It means a lot. Before 6 days ago I thought I knew one thing... I would do anything for my family. I was fucking lying to myself... I was full of crap. I was a weak ass poser. How do I know that -- I continued to throw dangerous shit in my lip with no regard for me. I can't do anything for my family if I am not here. The mental aspect of this has been whipping my a$$ the first 6 days. I read your post last night and wanted to respond immediately. But I got to thinkin and I waited. I read your entire Intro and was up until 230am. I am not sleeping anyhow, so I mind as well learn. Good stuff in there, bros. The Kern girls letters to their father brought me to tears and made me sick at the same time. For me there is no other option than to quit and I don't know why it took me 20 some odd years to figure that out. I am an addict but I am quit. As I have ready from many these first 6 days... This is going to suck until it doesnt, then it won't. I'm ready, willing and able for this fight.
I pulled something off your intro cuz it made me think about my priorities for today. I am quit with you and the rest of the KTC brotha/sista hood today and it feels damn good! Thanks for shedding some light on the road!Â
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QUOTE (Skoal Monster @ Oct 30, 2012, 12:57 pm)
Spongebob Mantra
There is only one thing that I must accomplish today, and that is to not chew.
If I get other things done today, great.
But everything else has second priority for now.
Soon I'll be able to focus on those other things too.
But for right now, for today, this is the only thing that matters.
I won't demand more of myself, and I won't get down on myself for not doing anything else if I don't get to it.
This is damn damn damn hard work, and it's the most important work that I have right now.
I'll be truly and sincerely proud if I meet no goals today other than keeping that crap out of my mouth
Now your sounding like a quitter bro. Quitting comes from deep. As you read stuff like what sm wrote and start uncovering all the lies of the poison your quit will become stronger and stronger. Read my hof speech when you get time. Its in my signature line. It will also help you I believe.
One thing I always recommend is research nicotine. Learn your enemy. Learning your enemy can be half the battle. There is enough information on this sight that you will learn why and what you will go through. I quit with you today. Use those numbers you got if you need to. I'm quit with you all day.
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Hey derk, welcome,
Read this, I think it will help you with the mental aspect of your quit
What Price to Save Ourselves?
by Spongebob
For over 2 decades, my best quit efforts lasted maybe 10 or so days. Finally, asking myself the right question changed my attitude and made it possible to quit. This quit is not easy, but it is finally in MY CONTROL and (I firmly believe) FINAL.
Previously, I always asked "how can I find the strength to break this addiction? In particular, how can I get through the crushing brain fog that always leads to my demise. I can't stay quit or start quitting right now because I get too brain-stupid to get any work done." THAT QUESTION ALWAYS LED ME TO FAIL because (a) it gave me the choice to fail, and (B) it said I had other priorities that I would allow to interfere with quitting.
This time, I asked myself a different question. "IS THERE ANYTHING I WILL NOT DO IN ORDER TO QUIT? IS ANY COST TOO HIGH?" Since nobody was asking me to give up my family, I decided the answer was "NO." I therefore decided that I WILL INCUR ANY COST WHATSOEVER TO QUIT. If I must, I will use up all my vacation time to get away from the office until the fog lifts. If I have no vacation time left, I'll call in sick (and I consider addiction withdrawal to be honestly sick). If I run out of vacation/sick time, I'll ask for unpaid leave until my head clears up and while I practice handling fewer stresses without opening a tin. If I can't get unpaid leave, I'll let that job go (and go find a new job AFTER I SAVED MY LIFE). If I can't afford being on unpaid leave or unemployment, I will swallow my pride and ask for help from family friends, and I will sell my stupid car/house/stereo while I SAVE MY LIFE.
WOW, once I decided that NO COST WAS TOO HIGH TO SAVE MY LIFE, and that I would GLADLY INCUR THOSE COSTS, my whole mental attitude changed. No longer were there any impediments to quitting. Once that was my attitude, quitting was easier than I had experienced in prior efforts. I did have to cut back on my office time (and incur some temporary pay reduction), but nothing drastic. And in the long run, who gives a damn?
See, the real barrier wasn't quitting tobacco -- the real barrier had been what I had not CONSIDERED doing, or had not been WILLING to do, in order to make quitting the absolute #1 priority.
Another example: does quitting make being around the house unbearable? Negotiate leaving for 2 weeks!!! "Honey, I need these 2 weeks in order to give you the rest of my life. This isn't a vacation, this is the old 'stick with me in sickness and in health thing.' It's unfair to leave you with the kids, but I will make it up to you, and you will like the new me much better, and I won't go and get cancer on you.")
I came to this "At What Price" attitude after my wife died. She had been given a terminal diagnosis from hell with no hope whatsoever (Lou Gehrig's Disease). We had wished there was something/anything we could do, but there was not. And she had done nothing to deserve it (no smokes, barely drank, exercised regularly, young).
Now here I was, 14 months after she passed away, giving myself my own terminal sentence. But this was a sentence I had the power to stop. My wife had been denied any such power. So, every time I CHOSE to fill my lip, I insulted the memory of my wife. My wife and I would have paid ANY PRICE to save her: sacrificing job, house, friends, etc.
Once I asked "What Price" to save myself, the answers became rather obvious and easy. This quit is not easy, but now it is only a question of time. The fog still lingers some, but now I just ride it out rather than fight it or let it scare me back to the can.
Hey guys, don't fill the boards with condolences. It's been 15 months and I've come to terms with my loss. But I wanted to share this story to prompt you to ask yourselves, "Is Any Price Too High?" Are you putting artificial barriers (like the job, or conserving vacation days and sick leave, or keeping secrets from your wife) in the way of accomplishing THE MOST IMPORTANT GOAL in your life right now?
Would you quit your job, sell your house and move to a desolate place where you have no friends, all in order to save the life of your child, wife, or father? Of course you would. Now, do whatever you have to do, at whatever cost, to save your own life.
Omg. So powerful.
Thank you for sharing sM.
This place is full of posts like that. I used to read until I found something to hold onto for the day. I saved a lot of them in my intro if you need something to keep you busy
Someone needs to put this in Words Of Wisdom. This will be on my mind all day now, and thank you for that. This really is something we all need to think about? What cost is too high for life?
Darn, and to think i was coming to this intro to put something that would help derk for the day. I'll save mine for another day. If that don't keep you quit, well then, I got nothing for you.
That is absolutely amazing. Good to be quit with all of you today
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sM,
Thanks for that post. It means a lot. Before 6 days ago I thought I knew one thing... I would do anything for my family. I was fucking lying to myself... I was full of crap. I was a weak ass poser. How do I know that -- I continued to throw dangerous shit in my lip with no regard for me. I can't do anything for my family if I am not here. The mental aspect of this has been whipping my a$$ the first 6 days. I read your post last night and wanted to respond immediately. But I got to thinkin and I waited. I read your entire Intro and was up until 230am. I am not sleeping anyhow, so I mind as well learn. Good stuff in there, bros. The Kern girls letters to their father brought me to tears and made me sick at the same time. For me there is no other option than to quit and I don't know why it took me 20 some odd years to figure that out. I am an addict but I am quit. As I have ready from many these first 6 days... This is going to suck until it doesnt, then it won't. I'm ready, willing and able for this fight.
I pulled something off your intro cuz it made me think about my priorities for today. I am quit with you and the rest of the KTC brotha/sista hood today and it feels damn good! Thanks for shedding some light on the road!Â
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QUOTE (Skoal Monster @ Oct 30, 2012, 12:57 pm)
Spongebob Mantra
There is only one thing that I must accomplish today, and that is to not chew.
If I get other things done today, great.
But everything else has second priority for now.
Soon I'll be able to focus on those other things too.
But for right now, for today, this is the only thing that matters.
I won't demand more of myself, and I won't get down on myself for not doing anything else if I don't get to it.
This is damn damn damn hard work, and it's the most important work that I have right now.
I'll be truly and sincerely proud if I meet no goals today other than keeping that crap out of my mouth
Now your sounding like a quitter bro. Quitting comes from deep. As you read stuff like what sm wrote and start uncovering all the lies of the poison your quit will become stronger and stronger. Read my hof speech when you get time. Its in my signature line. It will also help you I believe.
One thing I always recommend is research nicotine. Learn your enemy. Learning your enemy can be half the battle. There is enough information on this sight that you will learn why and what you will go through. I quit with you today. Use those numbers you got if you need to. I'm quit with you all day.
First full work week logged quit. Closing shop and headin home. Today was my first productive day at work all week. Thanks to Spongbob... I had one priority today at work... not chewing. Did not worry about anything else and did not care. Funny thing is... I was actually able to get a few things done... it just flowed and it felt damn good. I think the website, texts, lifesavers, fireballs and water had a bunch to do with it. Getting ready to head home and focus on my first weekend quit. It will happen. I will never put that shit in my mouth again. Glad to be quittin witcha. Rock on!
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Good deal derk. This will be the first of many poison free weekends. Take it one day at a time. You don't need the poison never did. Quit with you.
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7 days in... Saturday and mind games running me ragged. Urges still bad, but batting them the F back. Been a ninja dipper for so long and having the wife not understand my addiction has now put me in a position where I am now hiding my quit. I don't want to hide it, but I think part of me does. She has heard the promises over the years and will likely think i am full of shit again or wonder what else am I hiding. Part of me wants her in on it now, but the other part doesn't want to deal with the hassle. Sounds bad when I read that, but i don't know what her reaction will be and I am kind of worried about dealing with it. But I find myself sneaking online to read and chat. Same shit I did all these years only dipping. WTF. This ain't gonna work like this ,I don't think. Feeling like a major asshole. Any advice?
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7 days in... Saturday and mind games running me ragged. Urges still bad, but batting them the F back. Been a ninja dipper for so long and having the wife not understand my addiction has now put me in a position where I am now hiding my quit. I don't want to hide it, but I think part of me does. She has heard the promises over the years and will likely think i am full of shit again or wonder what else am I hiding. Part of me wants her in on it now, but the other part doesn't want to deal with the hassle. Sounds bad when I read that, but i don't know what her reaction will be and I am kind of worried about dealing with it. But I find myself sneaking online to read and chat. Same shit I did all these years only dipping. WTF. This ain't gonna work like this ,I don't think. Feeling like a major asshole. Any advice?
Stop sneaking around... Let her in on the fact you are a week quit. It will explain some of your behavior lately. But most of all it will add an extra layer of accountability. Be proud of the fact you have been quit for 7 days. that is badass, but the battle has just begun. There are more rough spots and ups and downs yet to come in your quit. The mind games have just begun and you need all the ammo in your corner you can get right now. If you work it right you might even get some 'do it' . It is great to feel proud of what you are accomplishing, but it is even better for your other half to be proud of you.
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7 days in... Saturday and mind games running me ragged. Urges still bad, but batting them the F back. Been a ninja dipper for so long and having the wife not understand my addiction has now put me in a position where I am now hiding my quit. I don't want to hide it, but I think part of me does. She has heard the promises over the years and will likely think i am full of shit again or wonder what else am I hiding.  Part of me wants her in on it now, but the other part doesn't want to deal with the hassle. Sounds bad when I read that, but i don't know what her reaction will be and I am kind of worried about dealing with it. But I find myself sneaking online to read and chat. Same shit I did all these years only dipping. WTF. This ain't gonna work like this ,I don't think. Feeling like a major asshole. Any advice?
Stop sneaking around... Let her in on the fact you are a week quit. It will explain some of your behavior lately. But most of all it will add an extra layer of accountability. Be proud of the fact you have been quit for 7 days. that is badass, but the battle has just begun. There are more rough spots and ups and downs yet to come in your quit. The mind games have just begun and you need all the ammo in your corner you can get right now. If you work it right you might even get some 'do it' . It is great to feel proud of what you are accomplishing, but it is even better for your other half to be proud of you.
There's a bunch of stuff for spouses to read... Start there. You have to get over the hangups you've been nurturing for years. I thought my wife, well, I honestly didn't know what my wife was gonna do. I didn't want to deal with it BUT... Turns out she's my biggest supporter. She won't ever get it but she supports me and realizes how important this site is to my quit. Stop worrying so much bro... Just do it! 7 days is badass man... That speaks for itself right there!
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7 days in... Saturday and mind games running me ragged. Urges still bad, but batting them the F back. Been a ninja dipper for so long and having the wife not understand my addiction has now put me in a position where I am now hiding my quit. I don't want to hide it, but I think part of me does. She has heard the promises over the years and will likely think i am full of shit again or wonder what else am I hiding.  Part of me wants her in on it now, but the other part doesn't want to deal with the hassle. Sounds bad when I read that, but i don't know what her reaction will be and I am kind of worried about dealing with it. But I find myself sneaking online to read and chat. Same shit I did all these years only dipping. WTF. This ain't gonna work like this ,I don't think. Feeling like a major asshole. Any advice?
Stop sneaking around... Let her in on the fact you are a week quit. It will explain some of your behavior lately. But most of all it will add an extra layer of accountability. Be proud of the fact you have been quit for 7 days. that is badass, but the battle has just begun. There are more rough spots and ups and downs yet to come in your quit. The mind games have just begun and you need all the ammo in your corner you can get right now. If you work it right you might even get some 'do it' . It is great to feel proud of what you are accomplishing, but it is even better for your other half to be proud of you.
There's a bunch of stuff for spouses to read... Start there. You have to get over the hangups you've been nurturing for years. I thought my wife, well, I honestly didn't know what my wife was gonna do. I didn't want to deal with it BUT... Turns out she's my biggest supporter. She won't ever get it but she supports me and realizes how important this site is to my quit. Stop worrying so much bro... Just do it! 7 days is badass man... That speaks for itself right there!
Agreed...Best thing I ever did was include my wife and kids in my quit. They know what day I am on as good as I do. Tuesday, I made 1 year and they had me a card, candy and took me to dinner. Tell her, and watch your Quit flourish.....QLAFM
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7 days in... Saturday and mind games running me ragged. Urges still bad, but batting them the F back. Been a ninja dipper for so long and having the wife not understand my addiction has now put me in a position where I am now hiding my quit. I don't want to hide it, but I think part of me does. She has heard the promises over the years and will likely think i am full of shit again or wonder what else am I hiding.  Part of me wants her in on it now, but the other part doesn't want to deal with the hassle. Sounds bad when I read that, but i don't know what her reaction will be and I am kind of worried about dealing with it. But I find myself sneaking online to read and chat. Same shit I did all these years only dipping. WTF. This ain't gonna work like this ,I don't think. Feeling like a major asshole. Any advice?
Stop sneaking around... Let her in on the fact you are a week quit. It will explain some of your behavior lately. But most of all it will add an extra layer of accountability. Be proud of the fact you have been quit for 7 days. that is badass, but the battle has just begun. There are more rough spots and ups and downs yet to come in your quit. The mind games have just begun and you need all the ammo in your corner you can get right now. If you work it right you might even get some 'do it' . It is great to feel proud of what you are accomplishing, but it is even better for your other half to be proud of you.
There's a bunch of stuff for spouses to read... Start there. You have to get over the hangups you've been nurturing for years. I thought my wife, well, I honestly didn't know what my wife was gonna do. I didn't want to deal with it BUT... Turns out she's my biggest supporter. She won't ever get it but she supports me and realizes how important this site is to my quit. Stop worrying so much bro... Just do it! 7 days is badass man... That speaks for itself right there!
Agreed...Best thing I ever did was include my wife and kids in my quit. They know what day I am on as good as I do. Tuesday, I made 1 year and they had me a card, candy and took me to dinner. Tell her, and watch your Quit flourish.....QLAFM
I am going to have to agree with all the above knowledge. Yea She may be harsh, but once she realizes your for real she will be very supportive. , she probably knows more than you think anyway.
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7 days in... Saturday and mind games running me ragged. Urges still bad, but batting them the F back. Been a ninja dipper for so long and having the wife not understand my addiction has now put me in a position where I am now hiding my quit. I don't want to hide it, but I think part of me does. She has heard the promises over the years and will likely think i am full of shit again or wonder what else am I hiding.  Part of me wants her in on it now, but the other part doesn't want to deal with the hassle. Sounds bad when I read that, but i don't know what her reaction will be and I am kind of worried about dealing with it. But I find myself sneaking online to read and chat. Same shit I did all these years only dipping. WTF. This ain't gonna work like this ,I don't think. Feeling like a major asshole. Any advice?
Stop sneaking around... Let her in on the fact you are a week quit. It will explain some of your behavior lately. But most of all it will add an extra layer of accountability. Be proud of the fact you have been quit for 7 days. that is badass, but the battle has just begun. There are more rough spots and ups and downs yet to come in your quit. The mind games have just begun and you need all the ammo in your corner you can get right now. If you work it right you might even get some 'do it' . It is great to feel proud of what you are accomplishing, but it is even better for your other half to be proud of you.
There's a bunch of stuff for spouses to read... Start there. You have to get over the hangups you've been nurturing for years. I thought my wife, well, I honestly didn't know what my wife was gonna do. I didn't want to deal with it BUT... Turns out she's my biggest supporter. She won't ever get it but she supports me and realizes how important this site is to my quit. Stop worrying so much bro... Just do it! 7 days is badass man... That speaks for itself right there!
Agreed...Best thing I ever did was include my wife and kids in my quit. They know what day I am on as good as I do. Tuesday, I made 1 year and they had me a card, candy and took me to dinner. Tell her, and watch your Quit flourish.....QLAFM
I am going to have to agree with all the above knowledge. Yea She may be harsh, but once she realizes your for real she will be very supportive. , she probably knows more than you think anyway.
Spill it Diggler. Tell her what going on and how this time will be different. Show her the site and let her know that not only do you need KTC's support...you need hers. But, be prepared. You've likely lied to her countless times, we all did. She's prolly gonna roll her eyes at you but at least she'll understand why you're being such an ass.
Mrs. Diggler...if you read this, try your best to cut the guy some slack. He is going through hell. Ab..so...LOOT hell. If you are not an addict, you have no clue. Fortunately for him, he has us. We get it. When he's being a prick...don't do what LOOT's ex did...throw $5 at him tell him you "like him better dipping, go get a can" (true story...or close). Politely send him to KTC and tell him to take his shit out on the board. We kinda like it. It's why we are here. It's why we created this place. He's going to be OK, but it will take time. It's not something he can control like a light switch. He's going to go through periods of anxiety, rage, depression and a whole host of other bad shit too. IT's going to be the hardest damned thing he's ever done and likely, one of his proudest accomplishments. Don't feel sorry for him though, he did it to himself. However, unlike starting this addiction, he can't quit by himself. He needs us, and dammit all to hell, we need him. We need him clean just like you do. He'll be a better man for it. That's a promise.
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7 days in... Saturday and mind games running me ragged. Urges still bad, but batting them the F back. Been a ninja dipper for so long and having the wife not understand my addiction has now put me in a position where I am now hiding my quit. I don't want to hide it, but I think part of me does. She has heard the promises over the years and will likely think i am full of shit again or wonder what else am I hiding.  Part of me wants her in on it now, but the other part doesn't want to deal with the hassle. Sounds bad when I read that, but i don't know what her reaction will be and I am kind of worried about dealing with it. But I find myself sneaking online to read and chat. Same shit I did all these years only dipping. WTF. This ain't gonna work like this ,I don't think. Feeling like a major asshole. Any advice?
Stop sneaking around... Let her in on the fact you are a week quit. It will explain some of your behavior lately. But most of all it will add an extra layer of accountability. Be proud of the fact you have been quit for 7 days. that is badass, but the battle has just begun. There are more rough spots and ups and downs yet to come in your quit. The mind games have just begun and you need all the ammo in your corner you can get right now. If you work it right you might even get some 'do it' . It is great to feel proud of what you are accomplishing, but it is even better for your other half to be proud of you.
There's a bunch of stuff for spouses to read... Start there. You have to get over the hangups you've been nurturing for years. I thought my wife, well, I honestly didn't know what my wife was gonna do. I didn't want to deal with it BUT... Turns out she's my biggest supporter. She won't ever get it but she supports me and realizes how important this site is to my quit. Stop worrying so much bro... Just do it! 7 days is badass man... That speaks for itself right there!
Agreed...Best thing I ever did was include my wife and kids in my quit. They know what day I am on as good as I do. Tuesday, I made 1 year and they had me a card, candy and took me to dinner. Tell her, and watch your Quit flourish.....QLAFM
I am going to have to agree with all the above knowledge. Yea She may be harsh, but once she realizes your for real she will be very supportive. , she probably knows more than you think anyway.
Spill it Diggler. Tell her what going on and how this time will be different. Show her the site and let her know that not only do you need KTC's support...you need hers. But, be prepared. You've likely lied to her countless times, we all did. She's prolly gonna roll her eyes at you but at least she'll understand why you're being such an ass.
Mrs. Diggler...if you read this, try your best to cut the guy some slack. He is going through hell. Ab..so...LOOT hell. If you are not an addict, you have no clue. Fortunately for him, he has us. We get it. When he's being a prick...don't do what LOOT's ex did...throw $5 at him tell him you "like him better dipping, go get a can" (true story...or close). Politely send him to KTC and tell him to take his shit out on the board. We kinda like it. It's why we are here. It's why we created this place. He's going to be OK, but it will take time. It's not something he can control like a light switch. He's going to go through periods of anxiety, rage, depression and a whole host of other bad shit too. IT's going to be the hardest damned thing he's ever done and likely, one of his proudest accomplishments. Don't feel sorry for him though, he did it to himself. However, unlike starting this addiction, he can't quit by himself. He needs us, and dammit all to hell, we need him. We need him clean just like you do. He'll be a better man for it. That's a promise.
I lied to my wife for 11 years about dipping. She was relieved to hear I was serious.
It's a good thing, but it may hurt for a while.
Bottom line, it's WORTH IT!
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7 days in... Saturday and mind games running me ragged. Urges still bad, but batting them the F back. Been a ninja dipper for so long and having the wife not understand my addiction has now put me in a position where I am now hiding my quit. I don't want to hide it, but I think part of me does. She has heard the promises over the years and will likely think i am full of shit again or wonder what else am I hiding.  Part of me wants her in on it now, but the other part doesn't want to deal with the hassle. Sounds bad when I read that, but i don't know what her reaction will be and I am kind of worried about dealing with it. But I find myself sneaking online to read and chat. Same shit I did all these years only dipping. WTF. This ain't gonna work like this ,I don't think. Feeling like a major asshole. Any advice?
Stop sneaking around... Let her in on the fact you are a week quit. It will explain some of your behavior lately. But most of all it will add an extra layer of accountability. Be proud of the fact you have been quit for 7 days. that is badass, but the battle has just begun. There are more rough spots and ups and downs yet to come in your quit. The mind games have just begun and you need all the ammo in your corner you can get right now. If you work it right you might even get some 'do it' . It is great to feel proud of what you are accomplishing, but it is even better for your other half to be proud of you.
There's a bunch of stuff for spouses to read... Start there. You have to get over the hangups you've been nurturing for years. I thought my wife, well, I honestly didn't know what my wife was gonna do. I didn't want to deal with it BUT... Turns out she's my biggest supporter. She won't ever get it but she supports me and realizes how important this site is to my quit. Stop worrying so much bro... Just do it! 7 days is badass man... That speaks for itself right there!
Agreed...Best thing I ever did was include my wife and kids in my quit. They know what day I am on as good as I do. Tuesday, I made 1 year and they had me a card, candy and took me to dinner. Tell her, and watch your Quit flourish.....QLAFM
I am going to have to agree with all the above knowledge. Yea She may be harsh, but once she realizes your for real she will be very supportive. , she probably knows more than you think anyway.
Spill it Diggler. Tell her what going on and how this time will be different. Show her the site and let her know that not only do you need KTC's support...you need hers. But, be prepared. You've likely lied to her countless times, we all did. She's prolly gonna roll her eyes at you but at least she'll understand why you're being such an ass.
Mrs. Diggler...if you read this, try your best to cut the guy some slack. He is going through hell. Ab..so...LOOT hell. If you are not an addict, you have no clue. Fortunately for him, he has us. We get it. When he's being a prick...don't do what LOOT's ex did...throw $5 at him tell him you "like him better dipping, go get a can" (true story...or close). Politely send him to KTC and tell him to take his shit out on the board. We kinda like it. It's why we are here. It's why we created this place. He's going to be OK, but it will take time. It's not something he can control like a light switch. He's going to go through periods of anxiety, rage, depression and a whole host of other bad shit too. IT's going to be the hardest damned thing he's ever done and likely, one of his proudest accomplishments. Don't feel sorry for him though, he did it to himself. However, unlike starting this addiction, he can't quit by himself. He needs us, and dammit all to hell, we need him. We need him clean just like you do. He'll be a better man for it. That's a promise.
I lied to my wife for 11 years about dipping. She was relieved to hear I was serious.
It's a good thing, but it may hurt for a while.
Bottom line, it's WORTH IT!
Earned success and your reputation are priceless. We should know, this band of addicts had none and earned it all. Join us. Damn it is worth it. I am blessed for it.
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7 days in... Saturday and mind games running me ragged. Urges still bad, but batting them the F back. Been a ninja dipper for so long and having the wife not understand my addiction has now put me in a position where I am now hiding my quit. I don't want to hide it, but I think part of me does. She has heard the promises over the years and will likely think i am full of shit again or wonder what else am I hiding.  Part of me wants her in on it now, but the other part doesn't want to deal with the hassle. Sounds bad when I read that, but i don't know what her reaction will be and I am kind of worried about dealing with it. But I find myself sneaking online to read and chat. Same shit I did all these years only dipping. WTF. This ain't gonna work like this ,I don't think. Feeling like a major asshole. Any advice?
Stop sneaking around... Let her in on the fact you are a week quit. It will explain some of your behavior lately. But most of all it will add an extra layer of accountability. Be proud of the fact you have been quit for 7 days. that is badass, but the battle has just begun. There are more rough spots and ups and downs yet to come in your quit. The mind games have just begun and you need all the ammo in your corner you can get right now. If you work it right you might even get some 'do it' . It is great to feel proud of what you are accomplishing, but it is even better for your other half to be proud of you.
There's a bunch of stuff for spouses to read... Start there. You have to get over the hangups you've been nurturing for years. I thought my wife, well, I honestly didn't know what my wife was gonna do. I didn't want to deal with it BUT... Turns out she's my biggest supporter. She won't ever get it but she supports me and realizes how important this site is to my quit. Stop worrying so much bro... Just do it! 7 days is badass man... That speaks for itself right there!
Agreed...Best thing I ever did was include my wife and kids in my quit. They know what day I am on as good as I do. Tuesday, I made 1 year and they had me a card, candy and took me to dinner. Tell her, and watch your Quit flourish.....QLAFM
I am going to have to agree with all the above knowledge. Yea She may be harsh, but once she realizes your for real she will be very supportive. , she probably knows more than you think anyway.
Spill it Diggler. Tell her what going on and how this time will be different. Show her the site and let her know that not only do you need KTC's support...you need hers. But, be prepared. You've likely lied to her countless times, we all did. She's prolly gonna roll her eyes at you but at least she'll understand why you're being such an ass.
Mrs. Diggler...if you read this, try your best to cut the guy some slack. He is going through hell. Ab..so...LOOT hell. If you are not an addict, you have no clue. Fortunately for him, he has us. We get it. When he's being a prick...don't do what LOOT's ex did...throw $5 at him tell him you "like him better dipping, go get a can" (true story...or close). Politely send him to KTC and tell him to take his shit out on the board. We kinda like it. It's why we are here. It's why we created this place. He's going to be OK, but it will take time. It's not something he can control like a light switch. He's going to go through periods of anxiety, rage, depression and a whole host of other bad shit too. IT's going to be the hardest damned thing he's ever done and likely, one of his proudest accomplishments. Don't feel sorry for him though, he did it to himself. However, unlike starting this addiction, he can't quit by himself. He needs us, and dammit all to hell, we need him. We need him clean just like you do. He'll be a better man for it. That's a promise.
I lied to my wife for 11 years about dipping. She was relieved to hear I was serious.
It's a good thing, but it may hurt for a while.
Bottom line, it's WORTH IT!
Earned success and your reputation are priceless. We should know, this band of addicts had none and earned it all. Join us. Damn it is worth it. I am blessed for it.
Great advice. It is pretty clear what I have to do. I want this quit so bad and I want my family along for the ride. No more sneaking around. I need to have a meeting with the wife to lay all the chips on the table. She loves me so we will get thru this. I am proud to be quit with you all. Thanks for sharing your experiences!
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7 days in... Saturday and mind games running me ragged. Urges still bad, but batting them the F back. Been a ninja dipper for so long and having the wife not understand my addiction has now put me in a position where I am now hiding my quit. I don't want to hide it, but I think part of me does. She has heard the promises over the years and will likely think i am full of shit again or wonder what else am I hiding.  Part of me wants her in on it now, but the other part doesn't want to deal with the hassle. Sounds bad when I read that, but i don't know what her reaction will be and I am kind of worried about dealing with it. But I find myself sneaking online to read and chat. Same shit I did all these years only dipping. WTF. This ain't gonna work like this ,I don't think. Feeling like a major asshole. Any advice?
Stop sneaking around... Let her in on the fact you are a week quit. It will explain some of your behavior lately. But most of all it will add an extra layer of accountability. Be proud of the fact you have been quit for 7 days. that is badass, but the battle has just begun. There are more rough spots and ups and downs yet to come in your quit. The mind games have just begun and you need all the ammo in your corner you can get right now. If you work it right you might even get some 'do it' . It is great to feel proud of what you are accomplishing, but it is even better for your other half to be proud of you.
There's a bunch of stuff for spouses to read... Start there. You have to get over the hangups you've been nurturing for years. I thought my wife, well, I honestly didn't know what my wife was gonna do. I didn't want to deal with it BUT... Turns out she's my biggest supporter. She won't ever get it but she supports me and realizes how important this site is to my quit. Stop worrying so much bro... Just do it! 7 days is badass man... That speaks for itself right there!
Agreed...Best thing I ever did was include my wife and kids in my quit. They know what day I am on as good as I do. Tuesday, I made 1 year and they had me a card, candy and took me to dinner. Tell her, and watch your Quit flourish.....QLAFM
I am going to have to agree with all the above knowledge. Yea She may be harsh, but once she realizes your for real she will be very supportive. , she probably knows more than you think anyway.
Spill it Diggler. Tell her what going on and how this time will be different. Show her the site and let her know that not only do you need KTC's support...you need hers. But, be prepared. You've likely lied to her countless times, we all did. She's prolly gonna roll her eyes at you but at least she'll understand why you're being such an ass.
Mrs. Diggler...if you read this, try your best to cut the guy some slack. He is going through hell. Ab..so...LOOT hell. If you are not an addict, you have no clue. Fortunately for him, he has us. We get it. When he's being a prick...don't do what LOOT's ex did...throw $5 at him tell him you "like him better dipping, go get a can" (true story...or close). Politely send him to KTC and tell him to take his shit out on the board. We kinda like it. It's why we are here. It's why we created this place. He's going to be OK, but it will take time. It's not something he can control like a light switch. He's going to go through periods of anxiety, rage, depression and a whole host of other bad shit too. IT's going to be the hardest damned thing he's ever done and likely, one of his proudest accomplishments. Don't feel sorry for him though, he did it to himself. However, unlike starting this addiction, he can't quit by himself. He needs us, and dammit all to hell, we need him. We need him clean just like you do. He'll be a better man for it. That's a promise.
I lied to my wife for 11 years about dipping. She was relieved to hear I was serious.
It's a good thing, but it may hurt for a while.
Bottom line, it's WORTH IT!
Earned success and your reputation are priceless. We should know, this band of addicts had none and earned it all. Join us. Damn it is worth it. I am blessed for it.
Great advice. It is pretty clear what I have to do. I want this quit so bad and I want my family along for the ride. No more sneaking around. I need to have a meeting with the wife to lay all the chips on the table. She loves me so we will get thru this. I am proud to be quit with you all. Thanks for sharing your experiences!
My number one supporter is mrs tarp. Dude, you can't keep your quit from your wife, just aint right.
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7 days in... Saturday and mind games running me ragged. Urges still bad, but batting them the F back. Been a ninja dipper for so long and having the wife not understand my addiction has now put me in a position where I am now hiding my quit. I don't want to hide it, but I think part of me does. She has heard the promises over the years and will likely think i am full of shit again or wonder what else am I hiding.  Part of me wants her in on it now, but the other part doesn't want to deal with the hassle. Sounds bad when I read that, but i don't know what her reaction will be and I am kind of worried about dealing with it. But I find myself sneaking online to read and chat. Same shit I did all these years only dipping. WTF. This ain't gonna work like this ,I don't think. Feeling like a major asshole. Any advice?
Stop sneaking around... Let her in on the fact you are a week quit. It will explain some of your behavior lately. But most of all it will add an extra layer of accountability. Be proud of the fact you have been quit for 7 days. that is badass, but the battle has just begun. There are more rough spots and ups and downs yet to come in your quit. The mind games have just begun and you need all the ammo in your corner you can get right now. If you work it right you might even get some 'do it' . It is great to feel proud of what you are accomplishing, but it is even better for your other half to be proud of you.
There's a bunch of stuff for spouses to read... Start there. You have to get over the hangups you've been nurturing for years. I thought my wife, well, I honestly didn't know what my wife was gonna do. I didn't want to deal with it BUT... Turns out she's my biggest supporter. She won't ever get it but she supports me and realizes how important this site is to my quit. Stop worrying so much bro... Just do it! 7 days is badass man... That speaks for itself right there!
Agreed...Best thing I ever did was include my wife and kids in my quit. They know what day I am on as good as I do. Tuesday, I made 1 year and they had me a card, candy and took me to dinner. Tell her, and watch your Quit flourish.....QLAFM
I am going to have to agree with all the above knowledge. Yea She may be harsh, but once she realizes your for real she will be very supportive. , she probably knows more than you think anyway.
Spill it Diggler. Tell her what going on and how this time will be different. Show her the site and let her know that not only do you need KTC's support...you need hers. But, be prepared. You've likely lied to her countless times, we all did. She's prolly gonna roll her eyes at you but at least she'll understand why you're being such an ass.
Mrs. Diggler...if you read this, try your best to cut the guy some slack. He is going through hell. Ab..so...LOOT hell. If you are not an addict, you have no clue. Fortunately for him, he has us. We get it. When he's being a prick...don't do what LOOT's ex did...throw $5 at him tell him you "like him better dipping, go get a can" (true story...or close). Politely send him to KTC and tell him to take his shit out on the board. We kinda like it. It's why we are here. It's why we created this place. He's going to be OK, but it will take time. It's not something he can control like a light switch. He's going to go through periods of anxiety, rage, depression and a whole host of other bad shit too. IT's going to be the hardest damned thing he's ever done and likely, one of his proudest accomplishments. Don't feel sorry for him though, he did it to himself. However, unlike starting this addiction, he can't quit by himself. He needs us, and dammit all to hell, we need him. We need him clean just like you do. He'll be a better man for it. That's a promise.
I lied to my wife for 11 years about dipping. She was relieved to hear I was serious.
It's a good thing, but it may hurt for a while.
Bottom line, it's WORTH IT!
Earned success and your reputation are priceless. We should know, this band of addicts had none and earned it all. Join us. Damn it is worth it. I am blessed for it.
Great advice. It is pretty clear what I have to do. I want this quit so bad and I want my family along for the ride. No more sneaking around. I need to have a meeting with the wife to lay all the chips on the table. She loves me so we will get thru this. I am proud to be quit with you all. Thanks for sharing your experiences!
My number one supporter is mrs tarp. Dude, you can't keep your quit from your wife, just aint right.
Let us know how it goes - even if she's pissed I bet she doesn't end up on that show "snapped" (it scares the shit out of me when my wife watches that show). Funny how quitting can branch out to affect every aspect of life, including home life - like the quit some days are good and not so much for others - over time the vast majority should be good days -
I guess I could have just said - hope it goes well man!
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7 days in... Saturday and mind games running me ragged. Urges still bad, but batting them the F back. Been a ninja dipper for so long and having the wife not understand my addiction has now put me in a position where I am now hiding my quit. I don't want to hide it, but I think part of me does. She has heard the promises over the years and will likely think i am full of shit again or wonder what else am I hiding.  Part of me wants her in on it now, but the other part doesn't want to deal with the hassle. Sounds bad when I read that, but i don't know what her reaction will be and I am kind of worried about dealing with it. But I find myself sneaking online to read and chat. Same shit I did all these years only dipping. WTF. This ain't gonna work like this ,I don't think. Feeling like a major asshole. Any advice?
Stop sneaking around... Let her in on the fact you are a week quit. It will explain some of your behavior lately. But most of all it will add an extra layer of accountability. Be proud of the fact you have been quit for 7 days. that is badass, but the battle has just begun. There are more rough spots and ups and downs yet to come in your quit. The mind games have just begun and you need all the ammo in your corner you can get right now. If you work it right you might even get some 'do it' . It is great to feel proud of what you are accomplishing, but it is even better for your other half to be proud of you.
There's a bunch of stuff for spouses to read... Start there. You have to get over the hangups you've been nurturing for years. I thought my wife, well, I honestly didn't know what my wife was gonna do. I didn't want to deal with it BUT... Turns out she's my biggest supporter. She won't ever get it but she supports me and realizes how important this site is to my quit. Stop worrying so much bro... Just do it! 7 days is badass man... That speaks for itself right there!
Agreed...Best thing I ever did was include my wife and kids in my quit. They know what day I am on as good as I do. Tuesday, I made 1 year and they had me a card, candy and took me to dinner. Tell her, and watch your Quit flourish.....QLAFM
I am going to have to agree with all the above knowledge. Yea She may be harsh, but once she realizes your for real she will be very supportive. , she probably knows more than you think anyway.
Spill it Diggler. Tell her what going on and how this time will be different. Show her the site and let her know that not only do you need KTC's support...you need hers. But, be prepared. You've likely lied to her countless times, we all did. She's prolly gonna roll her eyes at you but at least she'll understand why you're being such an ass.
Mrs. Diggler...if you read this, try your best to cut the guy some slack. He is going through hell. Ab..so...LOOT hell. If you are not an addict, you have no clue. Fortunately for him, he has us. We get it. When he's being a prick...don't do what LOOT's ex did...throw $5 at him tell him you "like him better dipping, go get a can" (true story...or close). Politely send him to KTC and tell him to take his shit out on the board. We kinda like it. It's why we are here. It's why we created this place. He's going to be OK, but it will take time. It's not something he can control like a light switch. He's going to go through periods of anxiety, rage, depression and a whole host of other bad shit too. IT's going to be the hardest damned thing he's ever done and likely, one of his proudest accomplishments. Don't feel sorry for him though, he did it to himself. However, unlike starting this addiction, he can't quit by himself. He needs us, and dammit all to hell, we need him. We need him clean just like you do. He'll be a better man for it. That's a promise.
I lied to my wife for 11 years about dipping. She was relieved to hear I was serious.
It's a good thing, but it may hurt for a while.
Bottom line, it's WORTH IT!
Earned success and your reputation are priceless. We should know, this band of addicts had none and earned it all. Join us. Damn it is worth it. I am blessed for it.
Great advice. It is pretty clear what I have to do. I want this quit so bad and I want my family along for the ride. No more sneaking around. I need to have a meeting with the wife to lay all the chips on the table. She loves me so we will get thru this. I am proud to be quit with you all. Thanks for sharing your experiences!
My number one supporter is mrs tarp. Dude, you can't keep your quit from your wife, just aint right.
Let us know how it goes - even if she's pissed I bet she doesn't end up on that show "snapped" (it scares the shit out of me when my wife watches that show). Funny how quitting can branch out to affect every aspect of life, including home life - like the quit some days are good and not so much for others - over time the vast majority should be good days -
I guess I could have just said - hope it goes well man!
Tarp, Mich... thanks. It aint right and Mrs Derk needs to be on the train here. This f-ing thing is moving fast. I can feel the FREEDOM in each of your posts. I will provide a SITREP as soon as the deed is done. Thought H-Hour was going to be this afternoon, but Mrs. Derk decided to go to a movie with some friends in a few hours. I want her to enjoy the movie and her friends, so it will either happen this evening or I may be at H minus 1. Meaning operation commences tomorrow... stay quit. Fight the good fight quitters!
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Day 8 is coming to a close. First weekend clean in the books. Had some great moments today felt some clean, nicotine free blood pumpin thru my veins. Damn it felt good. This afternoon had planned on waiting until tomorrow to talk to Mrs. Derk because I wanted to figure out the "right way to do it" (WTF is that?). That was the plan all the way up until after dinner a quick mow of the front yard. I just could not wait 1 minute longer. This discussion had to take place immediately. Not going to bed holding this quit secret. I had General Patton running thru my head..."A good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan executed next week." What the hell was I waiting for... Walked into the house and asked my wife to step into the garage. This was definitely just a "good" plan because a perfect plan does not entail telling ur wife ur an addict next to a trash can in ur garage. But that is how it had to be. Told her I was an addict, told he I quit, told her I was using my brothers/sisters at KTC to get er done. She was 100% onboard. No judgement, just support. Damn I am lucky to have this women in my life. No more lies, no more BS...!! I feel like a 1000# weight was taken off my shoulders. Of course, being a ninja dipper she knew I was doing it and full of shit all along. She told me so. Old me would have lied and made up some BS that tried to make me look better than I was. I am who I am... I am an addict and I am quit.
I stand strong with you all today. Proud to be 8 days into my quit. The quit road is far from over... in fact it is a never ending road. It is a tough road.. But it is MY road I own it. Really grateful proud to be quit with you. Feeling great right now. I wish I could bottle this feeling up and sell it. Thanks for all the words and support to date. We got this thing! Failure is not an option. Stay strong stay quit!!!
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Day 8 is coming to a close. First weekend clean in the books. Had some great moments today felt some clean, nicotine free blood pumpin thru my veins. Damn it felt good. This afternoon had planned on waiting until tomorrow to talk to Mrs. Derk because I wanted to figure out the "right way to do it" (WTF is that?). That was the plan all the way up until after dinner a quick mow of the front yard. I just could not wait 1 minute longer. This discussion had to take place immediately. Not going to bed holding this quit secret. I had General Patton running thru my head..."A good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan executed next week." What the hell was I waiting for... Walked into the house and asked my wife to step into the garage. This was definitely just a "good" plan because a perfect plan does not entail telling ur wife ur an addict next to a trash can in ur garage. But that is how it had to be. Told her I was an addict, told he I quit, told her I was using my brothers/sisters at KTC to get er done. She was 100% onboard. No judgement, just support. Damn I am lucky to have this women in my life. No more lies, no more BS...!! I feel like a 1000# weight was taken off my shoulders. Of course, being a ninja dipper she knew I was doing it and full of shit all along. She told me so. Old me would have lied and made up some BS that tried to make me look better than I was. I am who I am... I am an addict and I am quit.
I stand strong with you all today. Proud to be 8 days into my quit. The quit road is far from over... in fact it is a never ending road. It is a tough road.. But it is MY road I own it. Really grateful proud to be quit with you. Feeling great right now. I wish I could bottle this feeling up and sell it. Thanks for all the words and support to date. We got this thing! Failure is not an option. Stay strong stay quit!!!
They know. They always fucking know...
Great job opening up. Your quit will be stronger for it because as great as Ktc is, their are going to be some times when you need to open up to someone face to face and discuss things in the moment and get real time answers with visible emotion.
This is a great thing. Well done.
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Day 8 is coming to a close. First weekend clean in the books. Had some great moments today felt some clean, nicotine free blood pumpin thru my veins. Damn it felt good. This afternoon had planned on waiting until tomorrow to talk to Mrs. Derk because I wanted to figure out the "right way to do it" (WTF is that?). That was the plan all the way up until after dinner a quick mow of the front yard. I just could not wait 1 minute longer. This discussion had to take place immediately. Not going to bed holding this quit secret. I had General Patton running thru my head..."A good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan executed next week." What the hell was I waiting for... Walked into the house and asked my wife to step into the garage. This was definitely just a "good" plan because a perfect plan does not entail telling ur wife ur an addict next to a trash can in ur garage. But that is how it had to be. Told her I was an addict, told he I quit, told her I was using my brothers/sisters at KTC to get er done. She was 100% onboard. No judgement, just support. Damn I am lucky to have this women in my life. No more lies, no more BS...!! I feel like a 1000# weight was taken off my shoulders. Of course, being a ninja dipper she knew I was doing it and full of shit all along. She told me so. Old me would have lied and made up some BS that tried to make me look better than I was. I am who I am... I am an addict and I am quit.
I stand strong with you all today. Proud to be 8 days into my quit. The quit road is far from over... in fact it is a never ending road. It is a tough road.. But it is MY road I own it. Really grateful proud to be quit with you. Feeling great right now. I wish I could bottle this feeling up and sell it. Thanks for all the words and support to date. We got this thing! Failure is not an option. Stay strong stay quit!!!
They know. They always fucking know...
Great job opening up. Your quit will be stronger for it because as great as Ktc is, their are going to be some times when you need to open up to someone face to face and discuss things in the moment and get real time answers with visible emotion.
This is a great thing. Well done.
You just put this thing in high gear bro. Nicely done. Freedom is so damn cool...
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Day 8 is coming to a close. First weekend clean in the books. Had some great moments today felt some clean, nicotine free blood pumpin thru my veins. Damn it felt good. This afternoon had planned on waiting until tomorrow to talk to Mrs. Derk because I wanted to figure out the "right way to do it" (WTF is that?). That was the plan all the way up until after dinner a quick mow of the front yard. I just could not wait 1 minute longer. This discussion had to take place immediately. Not going to bed holding this quit secret. I had General Patton running thru my head..."A good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan executed next week." What the hell was I waiting for... Walked into the house and asked my wife to step into the garage. This was definitely just a "good" plan because a perfect plan does not entail telling ur wife ur an addict next to a trash can in ur garage. But that is how it had to be. Told her I was an addict, told he I quit, told her I was using my brothers/sisters at KTC to get er done. She was 100% onboard. No judgement, just support. Damn I am lucky to have this women in my life. No more lies, no more BS...!! I feel like a 1000# weight was taken off my shoulders. Of course, being a ninja dipper she knew I was doing it and full of shit all along. She told me so. Old me would have lied and made up some BS that tried to make me look better than I was. I am who I am... I am an addict and I am quit.
I stand strong with you all today. Proud to be 8 days into my quit. The quit road is far from over... in fact it is a never ending road. It is a tough road.. But it is MY road I own it. Really grateful proud to be quit with you. Feeling great right now. I wish I could bottle this feeling up and sell it. Thanks for all the words and support to date. We got this thing! Failure is not an option. Stay strong stay quit!!!
They know. They always fucking know...
Great job opening up. Your quit will be stronger for it because as great as Ktc is, their are going to be some times when you need to open up to someone face to face and discuss things in the moment and get real time answers with visible emotion.
This is a great thing. Well done.
You just put this thing in high gear bro. Nicely done. Freedom is so damn cool...
Your QUIT is about to take off and flourish in ways you could not imagine. Excellent job Brother, now keep her on board and grow together. Your entire relationship will be different! Congrats on the new step forward.....Like a Fucking Madman!
Check your box....
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Day 8 is coming to a close. First weekend clean in the books. Had some great moments today felt some clean, nicotine free blood pumpin thru my veins. Damn it felt good. This afternoon had planned on waiting until tomorrow to talk to Mrs. Derk because I wanted to figure out the "right way to do it" (WTF is that?). That was the plan all the way up until after dinner a quick mow of the front yard. I just could not wait 1 minute longer. This discussion had to take place immediately. Not going to bed holding this quit secret. I had General Patton running thru my head..."A good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan executed next week." What the hell was I waiting for... Walked into the house and asked my wife to step into the garage. This was definitely just a "good" plan because a perfect plan does not entail telling ur wife ur an addict next to a trash can in ur garage. But that is how it had to be. Told her I was an addict, told he I quit, told her I was using my brothers/sisters at KTC to get er done. She was 100% onboard. No judgement, just support. Damn I am lucky to have this women in my life. No more lies, no more BS...!! I feel like a 1000# weight was taken off my shoulders. Of course, being a ninja dipper she knew I was doing it and full of shit all along. She told me so. Old me would have lied and made up some BS that tried to make me look better than I was. I am who I am... I am an addict and I am quit.
I stand strong with you all today. Proud to be 8 days into my quit. The quit road is far from over... in fact it is a never ending road. It is a tough road.. But it is MY road I own it. Really grateful proud to be quit with you. Feeling great right now. I wish I could bottle this feeling up and sell it. Thanks for all the words and support to date. We got this thing! Failure is not an option. Stay strong stay quit!!!
They know. They always fucking know...
Great job opening up. Your quit will be stronger for it because as great as Ktc is, their are going to be some times when you need to open up to someone face to face and discuss things in the moment and get real time answers with visible emotion.
This is a great thing. Well done.
You just put this thing in high gear bro. Nicely done. Freedom is so damn cool...
Your QUIT is about to take off and flourish in ways you could not imagine. Excellent job Brother, now keep her on board and grow together. Your entire relationship will be different! Congrats on the new step forward.....Like a Fucking Madman!
Check your box....
Good for you bro. Good for you.
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Day 8 is coming to a close. First weekend clean in the books. Had some great moments today felt some clean, nicotine free blood pumpin thru my veins. Damn it felt good. This afternoon had planned on waiting until tomorrow to talk to Mrs. Derk because I wanted to figure out the "right way to do it" (WTF is that?). That was the plan all the way up until after dinner a quick mow of the front yard. I just could not wait 1 minute longer. This discussion had to take place immediately. Not going to bed holding this quit secret. I had General Patton running thru my head..."A good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan executed next week." What the hell was I waiting for... Walked into the house and asked my wife to step into the garage. This was definitely just a "good" plan because a perfect plan does not entail telling ur wife ur an addict next to a trash can in ur garage. But that is how it had to be. Told her I was an addict, told he I quit, told her I was using my brothers/sisters at KTC to get er done. She was 100% onboard. No judgement, just support. Damn I am lucky to have this women in my life. No more lies, no more BS...!! I feel like a 1000# weight was taken off my shoulders. Of course, being a ninja dipper she knew I was doing it and full of shit all along. She told me so. Old me would have lied and made up some BS that tried to make me look better than I was. I am who I am... I am an addict and I am quit.
I stand strong with you all today. Proud to be 8 days into my quit. The quit road is far from over... in fact it is a never ending road. It is a tough road.. But it is MY road I own it. Really grateful proud to be quit with you. Feeling great right now. I wish I could bottle this feeling up and sell it. Thanks for all the words and support to date. We got this thing! Failure is not an option. Stay strong stay quit!!!
They know. They always fucking know...
Great job opening up. Your quit will be stronger for it because as great as Ktc is, their are going to be some times when you need to open up to someone face to face and discuss things in the moment and get real time answers with visible emotion.
This is a great thing. Well done.
You just put this thing in high gear bro. Nicely done. Freedom is so damn cool...
Your QUIT is about to take off and flourish in ways you could not imagine. Excellent job Brother, now keep her on board and grow together. Your entire relationship will be different! Congrats on the new step forward.....Like a Fucking Madman!
Check your box....
Good for you bro. Good for you.
now thats accountability.
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Day 8 is coming to a close. First weekend clean in the books. Had some great moments today felt some clean, nicotine free blood pumpin thru my veins. Damn it felt good. This afternoon had planned on waiting until tomorrow to talk to Mrs. Derk because I wanted to figure out the "right way to do it" (WTF is that?). That was the plan all the way up until after dinner a quick mow of the front yard. I just could not wait 1 minute longer. This discussion had to take place immediately. Not going to bed holding this quit secret. I had General Patton running thru my head..."A good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan executed next week." What the hell was I waiting for... Walked into the house and asked my wife to step into the garage. This was definitely just a "good" plan because a perfect plan does not entail telling ur wife ur an addict next to a trash can in ur garage. But that is how it had to be. Told her I was an addict, told he I quit, told her I was using my brothers/sisters at KTC to get er done. She was 100% onboard. No judgement, just support. Damn I am lucky to have this women in my life. No more lies, no more BS...!! I feel like a 1000# weight was taken off my shoulders. Of course, being a ninja dipper she knew I was doing it and full of shit all along. She told me so. Old me would have lied and made up some BS that tried to make me look better than I was. I am who I am... I am an addict and I am quit.
I stand strong with you all today. Proud to be 8 days into my quit. The quit road is far from over... in fact it is a never ending road. It is a tough road.. But it is MY road I own it. Really grateful proud to be quit with you. Feeling great right now. I wish I could bottle this feeling up and sell it. Thanks for all the words and support to date. We got this thing! Failure is not an option. Stay strong stay quit!!!
They know. They always fucking know...
Great job opening up. Your quit will be stronger for it because as great as Ktc is, their are going to be some times when you need to open up to someone face to face and discuss things in the moment and get real time answers with visible emotion.
This is a great thing. Well done.
You just put this thing in high gear bro. Nicely done. Freedom is so damn cool...
Your QUIT is about to take off and flourish in ways you could not imagine. Excellent job Brother, now keep her on board and grow together. Your entire relationship will be different! Congrats on the new step forward.....Like a Fucking Madman!
Check your box....
Good for you bro. Good for you.
now thats accountability.
'clap'
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Day 8 is coming to a close. First weekend clean in the books. Had some great moments today felt some clean, nicotine free blood pumpin thru my veins. Damn it felt good. This afternoon had planned on waiting until tomorrow to talk to Mrs. Derk because I wanted to figure out the "right way to do it" (WTF is that?). That was the plan all the way up until after dinner a quick mow of the front yard. I just could not wait 1 minute longer. This discussion had to take place immediately. Not going to bed holding this quit secret. I had General Patton running thru my head..."A good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan executed next week." What the hell was I waiting for... Walked into the house and asked my wife to step into the garage. This was definitely just a "good" plan because a perfect plan does not entail telling ur wife ur an addict next to a trash can in ur garage. But that is how it had to be. Told her I was an addict, told he I quit, told her I was using my brothers/sisters at KTC to get er done. She was 100% onboard. No judgement, just support. Damn I am lucky to have this women in my life. No more lies, no more BS...!! I feel like a 1000# weight was taken off my shoulders. Of course, being a ninja dipper she knew I was doing it and full of shit all along. She told me so. Old me would have lied and made up some BS that tried to make me look better than I was. I am who I am... I am an addict and I am quit.
I stand strong with you all today. Proud to be 8 days into my quit. The quit road is far from over... in fact it is a never ending road. It is a tough road.. But it is MY road I own it. Really grateful proud to be quit with you. Feeling great right now. I wish I could bottle this feeling up and sell it. Thanks for all the words and support to date. We got this thing! Failure is not an option. Stay strong stay quit!!!
They know. They always fucking know...
Great job opening up. Your quit will be stronger for it because as great as Ktc is, their are going to be some times when you need to open up to someone face to face and discuss things in the moment and get real time answers with visible emotion.
This is a great thing. Well done.
You just put this thing in high gear bro. Nicely done. Freedom is so damn cool...
Your QUIT is about to take off and flourish in ways you could not imagine. Excellent job Brother, now keep her on board and grow together. Your entire relationship will be different! Congrats on the new step forward.....Like a Fucking Madman!
Check your box....
Good for you bro. Good for you.
now thats accountability.
'clap'
Your wife is a lucky woman. I know you feel like the lucky one and you probably are but I'm here to tell you, women desire openness and vulnerability. I was married to a man who would have NEVER done what you just did. May you have many years of openness now.
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Day 8 is coming to a close. First weekend clean in the books. Had some great moments today felt some clean, nicotine free blood pumpin thru my veins. Damn it felt good. This afternoon had planned on waiting until tomorrow to talk to Mrs. Derk because I wanted to figure out the "right way to do it" (WTF is that?). That was the plan all the way up until after dinner a quick mow of the front yard. I just could not wait 1 minute longer. This discussion had to take place immediately. Not going to bed holding this quit secret. I had General Patton running thru my head..."A good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan executed next week." What the hell was I waiting for... Walked into the house and asked my wife to step into the garage. This was definitely just a "good" plan because a perfect plan does not entail telling ur wife ur an addict next to a trash can in ur garage. But that is how it had to be. Told her I was an addict, told he I quit, told her I was using my brothers/sisters at KTC to get er done. She was 100% onboard. No judgement, just support. Damn I am lucky to have this women in my life. No more lies, no more BS...!! I feel like a 1000# weight was taken off my shoulders. Of course, being a ninja dipper she knew I was doing it and full of shit all along. She told me so. Old me would have lied and made up some BS that tried to make me look better than I was. I am who I am... I am an addict and I am quit.
I stand strong with you all today. Proud to be 8 days into my quit. The quit road is far from over... in fact it is a never ending road. It is a tough road.. But it is MY road I own it. Really grateful proud to be quit with you. Feeling great right now. I wish I could bottle this feeling up and sell it. Thanks for all the words and support to date. We got this thing! Failure is not an option. Stay strong stay quit!!!
They know. They always fucking know...
Great job opening up. Your quit will be stronger for it because as great as Ktc is, their are going to be some times when you need to open up to someone face to face and discuss things in the moment and get real time answers with visible emotion.
This is a great thing. Well done.
You just put this thing in high gear bro. Nicely done. Freedom is so damn cool...
Your QUIT is about to take off and flourish in ways you could not imagine. Excellent job Brother, now keep her on board and grow together. Your entire relationship will be different! Congrats on the new step forward.....Like a Fucking Madman!
Check your box....
Good for you bro. Good for you.
now thats accountability.
'clap'
Your wife is a lucky woman. I know you feel like the lucky one and you probably are but I'm here to tell you, women desire openness and vulnerability. I was married to a man who would have NEVER done what you just did. May you have many years of openness now.
I love a redemtion story. This post makes me :)
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Day 8 is coming to a close. First weekend clean in the books. Had some great moments today felt some clean, nicotine free blood pumpin thru my veins. Damn it felt good. This afternoon had planned on waiting until tomorrow to talk to Mrs. Derk because I wanted to figure out the "right way to do it" (WTF is that?). That was the plan all the way up until after dinner a quick mow of the front yard. I just could not wait 1 minute longer. This discussion had to take place immediately. Not going to bed holding this quit secret. I had General Patton running thru my head..."A good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan executed next week." What the hell was I waiting for... Walked into the house and asked my wife to step into the garage. This was definitely just a "good" plan because a perfect plan does not entail telling ur wife ur an addict next to a trash can in ur garage. But that is how it had to be. Told her I was an addict, told he I quit, told her I was using my brothers/sisters at KTC to get er done. She was 100% onboard. No judgement, just support. Damn I am lucky to have this women in my life. No more lies, no more BS...!! I feel like a 1000# weight was taken off my shoulders. Of course, being a ninja dipper she knew I was doing it and full of shit all along. She told me so. Old me would have lied and made up some BS that tried to make me look better than I was. I am who I am... I am an addict and I am quit.
I stand strong with you all today. Proud to be 8 days into my quit. The quit road is far from over... in fact it is a never ending road. It is a tough road.. But it is MY road I own it. Really grateful proud to be quit with you. Feeling great right now. I wish I could bottle this feeling up and sell it. Thanks for all the words and support to date. We got this thing! Failure is not an option. Stay strong stay quit!!!
They know. They always fucking know...
Great job opening up. Your quit will be stronger for it because as great as Ktc is, their are going to be some times when you need to open up to someone face to face and discuss things in the moment and get real time answers with visible emotion.
This is a great thing. Well done.
You just put this thing in high gear bro. Nicely done. Freedom is so damn cool...
Your QUIT is about to take off and flourish in ways you could not imagine. Excellent job Brother, now keep her on board and grow together. Your entire relationship will be different! Congrats on the new step forward.....Like a Fucking Madman!
Check your box....
Good for you bro. Good for you.
now thats accountability.
'clap'
Your wife is a lucky woman. I know you feel like the lucky one and you probably are but I'm here to tell you, women desire openness and vulnerability. I was married to a man who would have NEVER done what you just did. May you have many years of openness now.
Sounds like "Zero" Derk 40 handled the situation deftly, like a Navy seal descending from a Blackhawk Helicopter. Now he's gonna tell the world - "CIA"in't kidding! He'll prove he's a "big"elow man by Cha"stain" quit. He just needs to Paki"stan" tall and "Osama Bin La"drink the kool-aid.
9:30 show is completely different from the 7:30 show. Try the veal.
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Day 8 is coming to a close. First weekend clean in the books. Had some great moments today felt some clean, nicotine free blood pumpin thru my veins. Damn it felt good. This afternoon had planned on waiting until tomorrow to talk to Mrs. Derk because I wanted to figure out the "right way to do it" (WTF is that?). That was the plan all the way up until after dinner a quick mow of the front yard. I just could not wait 1 minute longer. This discussion had to take place immediately. Not going to bed holding this quit secret. I had General Patton running thru my head..."A good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan executed next week." What the hell was I waiting for... Walked into the house and asked my wife to step into the garage. This was definitely just a "good" plan because a perfect plan does not entail telling ur wife ur an addict next to a trash can in ur garage. But that is how it had to be. Told her I was an addict, told he I quit, told her I was using my brothers/sisters at KTC to get er done. She was 100% onboard. No judgement, just support. Damn I am lucky to have this women in my life. No more lies, no more BS...!! I feel like a 1000# weight was taken off my shoulders. Of course, being a ninja dipper she knew I was doing it and full of shit all along. She told me so. Old me would have lied and made up some BS that tried to make me look better than I was. I am who I am... I am an addict and I am quit.
I stand strong with you all today. Proud to be 8 days into my quit. The quit road is far from over... in fact it is a never ending road. It is a tough road.. But it is MY road I own it. Really grateful proud to be quit with you. Feeling great right now. I wish I could bottle this feeling up and sell it. Thanks for all the words and support to date. We got this thing! Failure is not an option. Stay strong stay quit!!!
They know. They always fucking know...
Great job opening up. Your quit will be stronger for it because as great as Ktc is, their are going to be some times when you need to open up to someone face to face and discuss things in the moment and get real time answers with visible emotion.
This is a great thing. Well done.
You just put this thing in high gear bro. Nicely done. Freedom is so damn cool...
Your QUIT is about to take off and flourish in ways you could not imagine. Excellent job Brother, now keep her on board and grow together. Your entire relationship will be different! Congrats on the new step forward.....Like a Fucking Madman!
Check your box....
Good for you bro. Good for you.
now thats accountability.
'clap'
Your wife is a lucky woman. I know you feel like the lucky one and you probably are but I'm here to tell you, women desire openness and vulnerability. I was married to a man who would have NEVER done what you just did. May you have many years of openness now.
Sounds like "Zero" Derk 40 handled the situation deftly, like a Navy seal descending from a Blackhawk Helicopter. Now he's gonna tell the world - "CIA"in't kidding! He'll prove he's a "big"elow man by Cha"stain" quit. He just needs to Paki"stan" tall and "Osama Bin La"drink the kool-aid.
9:30 show is completely different from the 7:30 show. Try the veal.
dig it :ph43r:
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You are winning my brother! Post roll, rinse and repeat! ODAAT and NAFAR.
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Day 8 is coming to a close. First weekend clean in the books. Had some great moments today felt some clean, nicotine free blood pumpin thru my veins. Damn it felt good. This afternoon had planned on waiting until tomorrow to talk to Mrs. Derk because I wanted to figure out the "right way to do it" (WTF is that?). That was the plan all the way up until after dinner a quick mow of the front yard. I just could not wait 1 minute longer. This discussion had to take place immediately. Not going to bed holding this quit secret. I had General Patton running thru my head..."A good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan executed next week." What the hell was I waiting for... Walked into the house and asked my wife to step into the garage. This was definitely just a "good" plan because a perfect plan does not entail telling ur wife ur an addict next to a trash can in ur garage. But that is how it had to be. Told her I was an addict, told he I quit, told her I was using my brothers/sisters at KTC to get er done. She was 100% onboard. No judgement, just support. Damn I am lucky to have this women in my life. No more lies, no more BS...!! I feel like a 1000# weight was taken off my shoulders. Of course, being a ninja dipper she knew I was doing it and full of shit all along. She told me so. Old me would have lied and made up some BS that tried to make me look better than I was. I am who I am... I am an addict and I am quit.
I stand strong with you all today. Proud to be 8 days into my quit. The quit road is far from over... in fact it is a never ending road. It is a tough road.. But it is MY road I own it. Really grateful proud to be quit with you. Feeling great right now. I wish I could bottle this feeling up and sell it. Thanks for all the words and support to date. We got this thing! Failure is not an option. Stay strong stay quit!!!
They know. They always fucking know...
Great job opening up. Your quit will be stronger for it because as great as Ktc is, their are going to be some times when you need to open up to someone face to face and discuss things in the moment and get real time answers with visible emotion.
This is a great thing. Well done.
You just put this thing in high gear bro. Nicely done. Freedom is so damn cool...
Your QUIT is about to take off and flourish in ways you could not imagine. Excellent job Brother, now keep her on board and grow together. Your entire relationship will be different! Congrats on the new step forward.....Like a Fucking Madman!
Check your box....
Good for you bro. Good for you.
now thats accountability.
'clap'
Your wife is a lucky woman. I know you feel like the lucky one and you probably are but I'm here to tell you, women desire openness and vulnerability. I was married to a man who would have NEVER done what you just did. May you have many years of openness now.
Sounds like "Zero" Derk 40 handled the situation deftly, like a Navy seal descending from a Blackhawk Helicopter. Now he's gonna tell the world - "CIA"in't kidding! He'll prove he's a "big"elow man by Cha"stain" quit. He just needs to Paki"stan" tall and "Osama Bin La"drink the kool-aid.
9:30 show is completely different from the 7:30 show. Try the veal.
dig it :ph43r:
:) good stuff.
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Day 8 is coming to a close. First weekend clean in the books. Had some great moments today felt some clean, nicotine free blood pumpin thru my veins. Damn it felt good. This afternoon had planned on waiting until tomorrow to talk to Mrs. Derk because I wanted to figure out the "right way to do it" (WTF is that?). That was the plan all the way up until after dinner a quick mow of the front yard. I just could not wait 1 minute longer. This discussion had to take place immediately. Not going to bed holding this quit secret. I had General Patton running thru my head..."A good plan violently executed now is better than a perfect plan executed next week." What the hell was I waiting for... Walked into the house and asked my wife to step into the garage. This was definitely just a "good" plan because a perfect plan does not entail telling ur wife ur an addict next to a trash can in ur garage. But that is how it had to be. Told her I was an addict, told he I quit, told her I was using my brothers/sisters at KTC to get er done. She was 100% onboard. No judgement, just support. Damn I am lucky to have this women in my life. No more lies, no more BS...!! I feel like a 1000# weight was taken off my shoulders. Of course, being a ninja dipper she knew I was doing it and full of shit all along. She told me so. Old me would have lied and made up some BS that tried to make me look better than I was. I am who I am... I am an addict and I am quit.
I stand strong with you all today. Proud to be 8 days into my quit. The quit road is far from over... in fact it is a never ending road. It is a tough road.. But it is MY road I own it. Really grateful proud to be quit with you. Feeling great right now. I wish I could bottle this feeling up and sell it. Thanks for all the words and support to date. We got this thing! Failure is not an option. Stay strong stay quit!!!
They know. They always fucking know...
Great job opening up. Your quit will be stronger for it because as great as Ktc is, their are going to be some times when you need to open up to someone face to face and discuss things in the moment and get real time answers with visible emotion.
This is a great thing. Well done.
You just put this thing in high gear bro. Nicely done. Freedom is so damn cool...
Your QUIT is about to take off and flourish in ways you could not imagine. Excellent job Brother, now keep her on board and grow together. Your entire relationship will be different! Congrats on the new step forward.....Like a Fucking Madman!
Check your box....
Good for you bro. Good for you.
now thats accountability.
'clap'
Your wife is a lucky woman. I know you feel like the lucky one and you probably are but I'm here to tell you, women desire openness and vulnerability. I was married to a man who would have NEVER done what you just did. May you have many years of openness now.
Sounds like "Zero" Derk 40 handled the situation deftly, like a Navy seal descending from a Blackhawk Helicopter. Now he's gonna tell the world - "CIA"in't kidding! He'll prove he's a "big"elow man by Cha"stain" quit. He just needs to Paki"stan" tall and "Osama Bin La"drink the kool-aid.
9:30 show is completely different from the 7:30 show. Try the veal.
dig it :ph43r:
:) good stuff.
from one military man to another bro I am proud of you, you are emerging as a leader of your group...drink the quit
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Day 10... My "want dip meeter" just fuckin pegged. Out for lunch... Focused on quit all good, right. Phone rings and it is Mrs Derk. Our daughter got ripped off buying something at a store... Other daughter got bit by some fuckin bug... Derk, you need to caulk the windows... U need to get the house power washed ... U need to ... Blah the fucking blah blah. I went dark and blank. I immediately wanted to go buy a round fucking tin. Round fucking tin... Need it bad. All the sudden I had a quick thought and said. No... U quit asshole. I told mrs Derk I had to go. She said why... I said got to go. She said why.... The next thing coming out of my mouth was not going to help anyone. I just hung up. Started to breath. Still panicked. Here I am now typing this down. Breathing back... No dip in sight and not on my fucking radar. Tried to call mrs Derk back but I received a text saying I was rude. Agreed. I was and it prob wont be the last time. At least now she hopefully know why I am an asshole today. Ok... I am regrouped. I got this. KMA dip. I am stronger than your weak ass. I am quit all day, everyday. I am quit with all u today. Derk, out.
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Day 10... My "want dip meeter" just fuckin pegged. Out for lunch... Focused on quit all good, right. Phone rings and it is Mrs Derk. Our daughter got ripped off buying something at a store... Other daughter got bit by some fuckin bug... Derk, you need to caulk the windows... U need to get the house power washed ... U need to ... Blah the fucking blah blah. I went dark and blank. I immediately wanted to go buy a round fucking tin. Round fucking tin... Need it bad. All the sudden I had a quick thought and said. No... U quit asshole. I told mrs Derk I had to go. She said why... I said got to go. She said why.... The next thing coming out of my mouth was not going to help anyone. I just hung up. Started to breath. Still panicked. Here I am now typing this down. Breathing back... No dip in sight and not on my fucking radar. Tried to call mrs Derk back but I received a text saying I was rude. Agreed. I was and it prob wont be the last time. At least now she hopefully know why I am an asshole today. Ok... I am regrouped. I got this. KMA dip. I am stronger than your weak ass. I am quit all day, everyday. I am quit with all u today. Derk, out.
Yesterday I said she is lucky. Today I feel sorry for her. Both those are true.
It WILL get better. It will get better for you and it will get better for her.
You didn't ask but here's my advice: Promise her that you will REMEMBER this. Promise her that as awful as it is you are EMBRACING it. Promise that it will get better and you will NEVER put her through this again.
Acknowledgment and hope for the future will be powerful for her right now. You have to go through it. It's the only way. But don't ever forget it.
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Day 10... My "want dip meeter" just fuckin pegged. Out for lunch... Focused on quit all good, right. Phone rings and it is Mrs Derk. Our daughter got ripped off buying something at a store... Other daughter got bit by some fuckin bug... Derk, you need to caulk the windows... U need to get the house power washed ... U need to ... Blah the fucking blah blah. I went dark and blank. I immediately wanted to go buy a round fucking tin. Round fucking tin... Need it bad. All the sudden I had a quick thought and said. No... U quit asshole. I told mrs Derk I had to go. She said why... I said got to go. She said why.... The next thing coming out of my mouth was not going to help anyone. I just hung up. Started to breath. Still panicked. Here I am now typing this down. Breathing back... No dip in sight and not on my fucking radar. Tried to call mrs Derk back but I received a text saying I was rude. Agreed. I was and it prob wont be the last time. At least now she hopefully know why I am an asshole today. Ok... I am regrouped. I got this. KMA dip. I am stronger than your weak ass. I am quit all day, everyday. I am quit with all u today. Derk, out.
Yesterday I said she is lucky. Today I feel sorry for her. Both those are true.
It WILL get better. It will get better for you and it will get better for her.
You didn't ask but here's my advice: Promise her that you will REMEMBER this. Promise her that as awful as it is you are EMBRACING it. Promise that it will get better and you will NEVER put her through this again.
Acknowledgment and hope for the future will be powerful for her right now. You have to go through it. It's the only way. But don't ever forget it.
I had the same moment the first week or so of my quit- sudden rage- when you are calmed down try to have an adult conversation with her about the changes you are going through- I told my wife that I will let her know when she is allowed to nag me about silly shit- (hopefully that day will never come 'winker' )
Stay strong and own your quit- remember that she didnt do this to you, you did it to yourself and you are going to undo this to yourself.
PM incoming-
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Day 10... My "want dip meeter" just fuckin pegged. Out for lunch... Focused on quit all good, right. Phone rings and it is Mrs Derk. Our daughter got ripped off buying something at a store... Other daughter got bit by some fuckin bug... Derk, you need to caulk the windows... U need to get the house power washed ... U need to ... Blah the fucking blah blah. I went dark and blank. I immediately wanted to go buy a round fucking tin. Round fucking tin... Need it bad. All the sudden I had a quick thought and said. No... U quit asshole. I told mrs Derk I had to go. She said why... I said got to go. She said why.... The next thing coming out of my mouth was not going to help anyone. I just hung up. Started to breath. Still panicked. Here I am now typing this down. Breathing back... No dip in sight and not on my fucking radar. Tried to call mrs Derk back but I received a text saying I was rude. Agreed. I was and it prob wont be the last time. At least now she hopefully know why I am an asshole today. Ok... I am regrouped. I got this. KMA dip. I am stronger than your weak ass. I am quit all day, everyday. I am quit with all u today. Derk, out.
Yesterday I said she is lucky. Today I feel sorry for her. Both those are true.
It WILL get better. It will get better for you and it will get better for her.
You didn't ask but here's my advice: Promise her that you will REMEMBER this. Promise her that as awful as it is you are EMBRACING it. Promise that it will get better and you will NEVER put her through this again.
Acknowledgment and hope for the future will be powerful for her right now. You have to go through it. It's the only way. But don't ever forget it.
Here is where the quit gets real brother. When everything is going good it's easy. This is when you realize you've been dealing with life's problems desensitized by a drug.
Now you have to learn to deal without it. Guess what? You'll do fine, millions do it everyday.
Me and my wife had a couple good arguments during the first 100. These are where i lost it and it took a couple days to get my bearings. Breathe and remember it's not you're wife and kids who put you here.
Everything gets better. Next bad moment will be easier, then the next and so forth. Say it with me brother,,,, screw you poison!!
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Day 10... My "want dip meeter" just fuckin pegged. Out for lunch... Focused on quit all good, right. Phone rings and it is Mrs Derk. Our daughter got ripped off buying something at a store... Other daughter got bit by some fuckin bug... Derk, you need to caulk the windows... U need to get the house power washed ... U need to ... Blah the fucking blah blah. I went dark and blank. I immediately wanted to go buy a round fucking tin. Round fucking tin... Need it bad. All the sudden I had a quick thought and said. No... U quit asshole. I told mrs Derk I had to go. She said why... I said got to go. She said why.... The next thing coming out of my mouth was not going to help anyone. I just hung up. Started to breath. Still panicked. Here I am now typing this down. Breathing back... No dip in sight and not on my fucking radar. Tried to call mrs Derk back but I received a text saying I was rude. Agreed. I was and it prob wont be the last time. At least now she hopefully know why I am an asshole today.  Ok... I am regrouped. I got this. KMA dip. I am stronger than your weak ass. I am quit all day, everyday. I am quit with all u today. Derk, out.
Yesterday I said she is lucky. Today I feel sorry for her. Both those are true.
It WILL get better. It will get better for you and it will get better for her.
You didn't ask but here's my advice: Promise her that you will REMEMBER this. Promise her that as awful as it is you are EMBRACING it. Promise that it will get better and you will NEVER put her through this again.
Acknowledgment and hope for the future will be powerful for her right now. You have to go through it. It's the only way. But don't ever forget it.
Here is where the quit gets real brother. When everything is going good it's easy. This is when you realize you've been dealing with life's problems desensitized by a drug.
Now you have to learn to deal without it. Guess what? You'll do fine, millions do it everyday.
Me and my wife had a couple good arguments during the first 100. These are where i lost it and it took a couple days to get my bearings. Breathe and remember it's not you're wife and kids who put you here.
Everything gets better. Next bad moment will be easier, then the next and so forth. Say it with me brother,,,, screw you poison!!
LionHeartedGirl, thanks for that advice. I have done this for 25yrs solo, so throw feedback/advice at me if you got it. You are right on. I agree with u.
srans, SCREW the POISON! Ur right, that poison has been my go to problem fixer for years. Felt different to not to run to 7/11 and drop $5 on a can of copenhagen, then throw in a dip after a stressful situation. Before 6/23/13... that would have been the case no doubt.
I am doing better this minute, but I am still trying to bring the emotions under control. I know what to do, but my mind/body are still fighting me. I guess this was a panic attack. I was able to head it off thanks for my committment to this quit! 10 days is not somethiing to throw away. Having you KTC brothers and sisters in my corner makes me pretty damn powerful. Heading out for a run. Quit on!
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I immediately wanted to go buy a round fucking tin
Follow this logic
As a chewer
A stressful event causes the body to release various chemicals like adrenaline. Think fight or flight chemicals. These fight or flight chemicals actually reduce the level of nicotine in the blood very rapidly. This results in withdrawal symptoms. Anxious, restless, craving etc. The withdrawal symptoms and discomfort associated with them are relieved when you have a dip.
YOU MISTAKENLY START TO BELIEVE THAT NICOTINE RELIEVES STRESS
The relief from withdrawal is all you felt. The original problem still exists.
Nicotine isn't good for anything but keeping you addicted to nicotine. An anchor, not a crutch. Having a dip doesn't cure bug bites or cancer, it won't fix the car, or heal a broken heart. It's just a weed.
Don't look over your shoulder derk40 there is nothing back there for you.
You got this
sM
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Don't know about the rest of you people in relationships, but I had arguments with my wife when I was dipping... I was short and rude at times with a fatty lip turd in, and I have been short and rude at times since my first day quit. My wife was sometimes in a bitch mood when I dipped, and she is still a bitch sometimes now that I am quit. Found that the nic bitch lost a lot of volume whispering in my ear once I realized that people who have never smoked or dipped or chewed etc. still have good days and bad.
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I immediately wanted to go buy a round fucking tin
Follow this logic
As a chewer
A stressful event causes the body to release various chemicals like adrenaline. Think fight or flight chemicals. These fight or flight chemicals actually reduce the level of nicotine in the blood very rapidly. This results in withdrawal symptoms. Anxious, restless, craving etc. The withdrawal symptoms and discomfort associated with them are relieved when you have a dip.
YOU MISTAKENLY START TO BELIEVE THAT NICOTINE RELIEVES STRESS
The relief from withdrawal is all you felt. The original problem still exists.
Nicotine isn't good for anything but keeping you addicted to nicotine. An anchor, not a crutch. Having a dip doesn't cure bug bites or cancer, it won't fix the car, or heal a broken heart. It's just a weed.
Don't look over your shoulder derk40 there is nothing back there for you.
You got this
sM
Good stuff in this. Sm knows how to spell things out.
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Day 10... My "want dip meeter" just fuckin pegged. Out for lunch... Focused on quit all good, right. Phone rings and it is Mrs Derk. Our daughter got ripped off buying something at a store... Other daughter got bit by some fuckin bug... Derk, you need to caulk the windows... U need to get the house power washed ... U need to ... Blah the fucking blah blah. I went dark and blank. I immediately wanted to go buy a round fucking tin. Round fucking tin... Need it bad. All the sudden I had a quick thought and said. No... U quit asshole. I told mrs Derk I had to go. She said why... I said got to go. She said why.... The next thing coming out of my mouth was not going to help anyone. I just hung up. Started to breath. Still panicked. Here I am now typing this down. Breathing back... No dip in sight and not on my fucking radar. Tried to call mrs Derk back but I received a text saying I was rude. Agreed. I was and it prob wont be the last time. At least now she hopefully know why I am an asshole today.  Ok... I am regrouped. I got this. KMA dip. I am stronger than your weak ass. I am quit all day, everyday. I am quit with all u today. Derk, out.
Yesterday I said she is lucky. Today I feel sorry for her. Both those are true.
It WILL get better. It will get better for you and it will get better for her.
You didn't ask but here's my advice: Promise her that you will REMEMBER this. Promise her that as awful as it is you are EMBRACING it. Promise that it will get better and you will NEVER put her through this again.
Acknowledgment and hope for the future will be powerful for her right now. You have to go through it. It's the only way. But don't ever forget it.
Here is where the quit gets real brother. When everything is going good it's easy. This is when you realize you've been dealing with life's problems desensitized by a drug.
Now you have to learn to deal without it. Guess what? You'll do fine, millions do it everyday.
Me and my wife had a couple good arguments during the first 100. These are where i lost it and it took a couple days to get my bearings. Breathe and remember it's not you're wife and kids who put you here.
Everything gets better. Next bad moment will be easier, then the next and so forth. Say it with me brother,,,, screw you poison!!
LionHeartedGirl, thanks for that advice. I have done this for 25yrs solo, so throw feedback/advice at me if you got it. You are right on. I agree with u.
srans, SCREW the POISON! Ur right, that poison has been my go to problem fixer for years. Felt different to not to run to 7/11 and drop $5 on a can of copenhagen, then throw in a dip after a stressful situation. Before 6/23/13... that would have been the case no doubt.
I am doing better this minute, but I am still trying to bring the emotions under control. I know what to do, but my mind/body are still fighting me. I guess this was a panic attack. I was able to head it off thanks for my committment to this quit! 10 days is not somethiing to throw away. Having you KTC brothers and sisters in my corner makes me pretty damn powerful. Heading out for a run. Quit on!
you are badass derk
keep it up and doin great!
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I'm day 12 with you, Derk. Keep goin', man.
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Day 10... My "want dip meeter" just fuckin pegged. Out for lunch... Focused on quit all good, right. Phone rings and it is Mrs Derk. Our daughter got ripped off buying something at a store... Other daughter got bit by some fuckin bug... Derk, you need to caulk the windows... U need to get the house power washed ... U need to ... Blah the fucking blah blah. I went dark and blank. I immediately wanted to go buy a round fucking tin. Round fucking tin... Need it bad. All the sudden I had a quick thought and said. No... U quit asshole. I told mrs Derk I had to go. She said why... I said got to go. She said why.... The next thing coming out of my mouth was not going to help anyone. I just hung up. Started to breath. Still panicked. Here I am now typing this down. Breathing back... No dip in sight and not on my fucking radar. Tried to call mrs Derk back but I received a text saying I was rude. Agreed. I was and it prob wont be the last time. At least now she hopefully know why I am an asshole today.  Ok... I am regrouped. I got this. KMA dip. I am stronger than your weak ass. I am quit all day, everyday. I am quit with all u today. Derk, out.
Yesterday I said she is lucky. Today I feel sorry for her. Both those are true.
It WILL get better. It will get better for you and it will get better for her.
You didn't ask but here's my advice: Promise her that you will REMEMBER this. Promise her that as awful as it is you are EMBRACING it. Promise that it will get better and you will NEVER put her through this again.
Acknowledgment and hope for the future will be powerful for her right now. You have to go through it. It's the only way. But don't ever forget it.
Here is where the quit gets real brother. When everything is going good it's easy. This is when you realize you've been dealing with life's problems desensitized by a drug.
Now you have to learn to deal without it. Guess what? You'll do fine, millions do it everyday.
Me and my wife had a couple good arguments during the first 100. These are where i lost it and it took a couple days to get my bearings. Breathe and remember it's not you're wife and kids who put you here.
Everything gets better. Next bad moment will be easier, then the next and so forth. Say it with me brother,,,, screw you poison!!
LionHeartedGirl, thanks for that advice. I have done this for 25yrs solo, so throw feedback/advice at me if you got it. You are right on. I agree with u.
srans, SCREW the POISON! Ur right, that poison has been my go to problem fixer for years. Felt different to not to run to 7/11 and drop $5 on a can of copenhagen, then throw in a dip after a stressful situation. Before 6/23/13... that would have been the case no doubt.
I am doing better this minute, but I am still trying to bring the emotions under control. I know what to do, but my mind/body are still fighting me. I guess this was a panic attack. I was able to head it off thanks for my committment to this quit! 10 days is not somethiing to throw away. Having you KTC brothers and sisters in my corner makes me pretty damn powerful. Heading out for a run. Quit on!
you are badass derk
keep it up and doin great!
Have your safety plan in place ahead of time. have your phone fully charged with numbers packed into it. have your quit kit ready seeds fireballs gum bag of assholes whatever it takes to keep quit. Oh ya go caulk the windows before Mrs Derk inserts it into your nicotine free ass. have a good 4th
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Day 12... Independence Day Not Dependent Day. One of my favorite days of the year. Funny that it is a day that I have always previously paused/"tried to quit" (whatever lame word u want to use) using the evil weed. All past attempts ended in me quickly resuming the addiction that plagued me. Day 10 was a difficult day for me, but quite honestly the last 2 days have been a breeze. Day 10 got me thinking though. What about this quit makes it so final... it boils down to 2 things for me and they are in rank order.
#1: I have never wanted anything so bad in my life. Something has just clicked in my head. I can't explain it, I just know it. I will never throw that shit in my mouth again. Don't get me wrong, this battle is not over. But I have never been more ready, willing and able.
#2: I have the tools to quit. Previously, I did not know what the flip I was doing. I was fighting a tank with my bare hands and getting my ass whipped every time. Now, I got my emergency response kit. The most important piece of this kit is MY brothers and sisters at KTC.
Sure, on day 10, I sort of muddled thru my response to the stress trigger but my head immediately knew what had to be done. I used my tools and you all had my back. That nic trigger was whipped before it even hit me. The next time I get attacked, I will be that much more ready... and you know what - that next nic trigger is already whipped. That is just how it will be.
Like it or not, WE are at war. WE are at war with one tough SOB. Know this... WE have the right weapons to fight this SOB, but most importantly WE have the men women that are bad ass enough to slay this SOB. Ladies Gentlemen, caving is not an option!
I am sitting here on Independence Day and I am stoked to be 12 days quit. I am stoked to be quit with MY brothers and sisters at KTC. Fight the good fight! Never give up and stay quit!
"Wars may be fought with weapons, but they are won by men/women." (General George Patton Jr.)
- Derk
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Day 12... Independence Day Not Dependent Day. One of my favorite days of the year. Funny that it is a day that I have always previously paused/"tried to quit" (whatever lame word u want to use) using the evil weed. All past attempts ended in me quickly resuming the addiction that plagued me. Day 10 was a difficult day for me, but quite honestly the last 2 days have been a breeze. Day 10 got me thinking though. What about this quit makes it so final... it boils down to 2 things for me and they are in rank order.
#1: I have never wanted anything so bad in my life. Something has just clicked in my head. I can't explain it, I just know it. I will never throw that shit in my mouth again. Don't get me wrong, this battle is not over. But I have never been more ready, willing and able.
#2: I have the tools to quit. Previously, I did not know what the flip I was doing. I was fighting a tank with my bare hands and getting my ass whipped every time. Now, I got my emergency response kit. The most important piece of this kit is MY brothers and sisters at KTC.
Sure, on day 10, I sort of muddled thru my response to the stress trigger but my head immediately knew what had to be done. I used my tools and you all had my back. That nic trigger was whipped before it even hit me. The next time I get attacked, I will be that much more ready... and you know what - that next nic trigger is already whipped. That is just how it will be.
Like it or not, WE are at war. WE are at war with one tough SOB. Know this... WE have the right weapons to fight this SOB, but most importantly WE have the men women that are bad ass enough to slay this SOB. Ladies Gentlemen, caving is not an option!
I am sitting here on Independence Day and I am stoked to be 12 days quit. I am stoked to be quit with MY brothers and sisters at KTC. Fight the good fight! Never give up and stay quit!
"Wars may be fought with weapons, but they are won by men/women." (General George Patton Jr.)
- Derk
Derk, you're bad ass. Quit on, brother.
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Day 12... Independence Day Not Dependent Day. One of my favorite days of the year. Funny that it is a day that I have always previously paused/"tried to quit" (whatever lame word u want to use) using the evil weed. All past attempts ended in me quickly resuming the addiction that plagued me. Day 10 was a difficult day for me, but quite honestly the last 2 days have been a breeze. Day 10 got me thinking though. What about this quit makes it so final... it boils down to 2 things for me and they are in rank order.
#1: I have never wanted anything so bad in my life. Something has just clicked in my head. I can't explain it, I just know it. I will never throw that shit in my mouth again. Don't get me wrong, this battle is not over. But I have never been more ready, willing and able.Â
#2: I have the tools to quit. Previously, I did not know what the flip I was doing. I was fighting a tank with my bare hands and getting my ass whipped every time. Now, I got my emergency response kit. The most important piece of this kit is MY brothers and sisters at KTC.Â
Sure, on day 10, I sort of muddled thru my response to the stress trigger but my head immediately knew what had to be done. I used my tools and you all had my back. That nic trigger was whipped before it even hit me. The next time I get attacked, I will be that much more ready... and you know what - that next nic trigger is already whipped. That is just how it will be.Â
Like it or not, WE are at war. WE are at war with one tough SOB. Know this... WE have the right weapons to fight this SOB, but most importantly WE have the men women that are bad ass enough to slay this SOB. Ladies Gentlemen, caving is not an option!
I am sitting here on Independence Day and I am stoked to be 12 days quit. I am stoked to be quit with MY brothers and sisters at KTC. Fight the good fight! Never give up and stay quit!
"Wars may be fought with weapons, but they are won by men/women." (General George Patton Jr.)Â
- Derk
Derk, you're bad ass. Quit on, brother.
Derk,, you got me fired up with that. Your sounding like a lean mean quitting machine. Proud to be quit with you...
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Day 12... Independence Day Not Dependent Day. One of my favorite days of the year. Funny that it is a day that I have always previously paused/"tried to quit" (whatever lame word u want to use) using the evil weed. All past attempts ended in me quickly resuming the addiction that plagued me. Day 10 was a difficult day for me, but quite honestly the last 2 days have been a breeze. Day 10 got me thinking though. What about this quit makes it so final... it boils down to 2 things for me and they are in rank order.
#1: I have never wanted anything so bad in my life. Something has just clicked in my head. I can't explain it, I just know it. I will never throw that shit in my mouth again. Don't get me wrong, this battle is not over. But I have never been more ready, willing and able.Â
#2: I have the tools to quit. Previously, I did not know what the flip I was doing. I was fighting a tank with my bare hands and getting my ass whipped every time. Now, I got my emergency response kit. The most important piece of this kit is MY brothers and sisters at KTC.Â
Sure, on day 10, I sort of muddled thru my response to the stress trigger but my head immediately knew what had to be done. I used my tools and you all had my back. That nic trigger was whipped before it even hit me. The next time I get attacked, I will be that much more ready... and you know what - that next nic trigger is already whipped. That is just how it will be. Â
Like it or not, WE are at war. WE are at war with one tough SOB. Know this... WE have the right weapons to fight this SOB, but most importantly WE have the men women that are bad ass enough to slay this SOB. Ladies Gentlemen, caving is not an option!
I am sitting here on Independence Day and I am stoked to be 12 days quit. I am stoked to be quit with MY brothers and sisters at KTC. Fight the good fight! Never give up and stay quit!
"Wars may be fought with weapons, but they are won by men/women." (General George Patton Jr.)Â
- Derk
Derk, you're bad ass. Quit on, brother.
Derk,, you got me fired up with that. Your sounding like a lean mean quitting machine. Proud to be quit with you...
Derk you are winning! I Like the angry at the nic bitch school of quit, but I am also a big fan of talking so much quit that your reputation is on the line if you cave school. I hear you with the 'right time for you' thing, but just remember if the nic bitch gets to you that 'right time' may not come around again for some time. I know 'cause this is at least my third 'right time', but I never had KTC b4, and that makes all the difference! Quit on you badass; I'll be quittin' with you!
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Day 12... Independence Day Not Dependent Day. One of my favorite days of the year. Funny that it is a day that I have always previously paused/"tried to quit" (whatever lame word u want to use) using the evil weed. All past attempts ended in me quickly resuming the addiction that plagued me. Day 10 was a difficult day for me, but quite honestly the last 2 days have been a breeze. Day 10 got me thinking though. What about this quit makes it so final... it boils down to 2 things for me and they are in rank order.
#1: I have never wanted anything so bad in my life. Something has just clicked in my head. I can't explain it, I just know it. I will never throw that shit in my mouth again. Don't get me wrong, this battle is not over. But I have never been more ready, willing and able.Â
#2: I have the tools to quit. Previously, I did not know what the flip I was doing. I was fighting a tank with my bare hands and getting my ass whipped every time. Now, I got my emergency response kit. The most important piece of this kit is MY brothers and sisters at KTC.Â
Sure, on day 10, I sort of muddled thru my response to the stress trigger but my head immediately knew what had to be done. I used my tools and you all had my back. That nic trigger was whipped before it even hit me. The next time I get attacked, I will be that much more ready... and you know what - that next nic trigger is already whipped. That is just how it will be. Â
Like it or not, WE are at war. WE are at war with one tough SOB. Know this... WE have the right weapons to fight this SOB, but most importantly WE have the men women that are bad ass enough to slay this SOB. Ladies Gentlemen, caving is not an option!
I am sitting here on Independence Day and I am stoked to be 12 days quit. I am stoked to be quit with MY brothers and sisters at KTC. Fight the good fight! Never give up and stay quit!
"Wars may be fought with weapons, but they are won by men/women." (General George Patton Jr.)Â
- Derk
Derk, you're bad ass. Quit on, brother.
Derk,, you got me fired up with that. Your sounding like a lean mean quitting machine. Proud to be quit with you...
Derk you are winning! I Like the angry at the nic bitch school of quit, but I am also a big fan of talking so much quit that your reputation is on the line if you cave school. I hear you with the 'right time for you' thing, but just remember if the nic bitch gets to you that 'right time' may not come around again for some time. I know 'cause this is at least my third 'right time', but I never had KTC b4, and that makes all the difference! Quit on you badass; I'll be quittin' with you!
Great post. I've been thinking very similar thoughts...Over my 26 years of dipping I've tried to quit 40 times. That will make my record against nicotine 0-40-1. (I'm taking a draw for my last 9 days) This is David vs Goliath, only we are David. Keep fighting brutha! October 2013!
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Day 12... Independence Day Not Dependent Day. One of my favorite days of the year. Funny that it is a day that I have always previously paused/"tried to quit" (whatever lame word u want to use) using the evil weed. All past attempts ended in me quickly resuming the addiction that plagued me. Day 10 was a difficult day for me, but quite honestly the last 2 days have been a breeze. Day 10 got me thinking though. What about this quit makes it so final... it boils down to 2 things for me and they are in rank order.
#1: I have never wanted anything so bad in my life. Something has just clicked in my head. I can't explain it, I just know it. I will never throw that shit in my mouth again. Don't get me wrong, this battle is not over. But I have never been more ready, willing and able.Â
#2: I have the tools to quit. Previously, I did not know what the flip I was doing. I was fighting a tank with my bare hands and getting my ass whipped every time. Now, I got my emergency response kit. The most important piece of this kit is MY brothers and sisters at KTC.Â
Sure, on day 10, I sort of muddled thru my response to the stress trigger but my head immediately knew what had to be done. I used my tools and you all had my back. That nic trigger was whipped before it even hit me. The next time I get attacked, I will be that much more ready... and you know what - that next nic trigger is already whipped. That is just how it will be. Â
Like it or not, WE are at war. WE are at war with one tough SOB. Know this... WE have the right weapons to fight this SOB, but most importantly WE have the men women that are bad ass enough to slay this SOB. Ladies Gentlemen, caving is not an option!
I am sitting here on Independence Day and I am stoked to be 12 days quit. I am stoked to be quit with MY brothers and sisters at KTC. Fight the good fight! Never give up and stay quit!
"Wars may be fought with weapons, but they are won by men/women." (General George Patton Jr.)Â
- Derk
Derk, you're bad ass. Quit on, brother.
Derk,, you got me fired up with that. Your sounding like a lean mean quitting machine. Proud to be quit with you...
Derk you are winning! I Like the angry at the nic bitch school of quit, but I am also a big fan of talking so much quit that your reputation is on the line if you cave school. I hear you with the 'right time for you' thing, but just remember if the nic bitch gets to you that 'right time' may not come around again for some time. I know 'cause this is at least my third 'right time', but I never had KTC b4, and that makes all the difference! Quit on you badass; I'll be quittin' with you!
Great post. I've been thinking very similar thoughts...Over my 26 years of dipping I've tried to quit 40 times. That will make my record against nicotine 0-40-1. (I'm taking a draw for my last 9 days) This is David vs Goliath, only we are David. Keep fighting brutha! October 2013!
Dagranger... 2 things. (1) remember that David whipped Goliath's a$$. A historic victory. One for the ages. That story is telling you that no challenge or fight is impossible. Be David. (2) The last 9 days for you have been a tie? A tie? Are u kidding me? This is a new season and the way i see it you are 10-0 this morning. 10 and fuckin 0. Who gives a shit about last season. The last 10 might have been tough but to pull a quote from the Fast and the Furious... "Ask any racer, any real racer. It doesn't matter if you win by an inch or a mile; winning's winning." We are winning. Stay strong and quit bros. I am quit with u today.
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Day 12... Independence Day Not Dependent Day. One of my favorite days of the year. Funny that it is a day that I have always previously paused/"tried to quit" (whatever lame word u want to use) using the evil weed. All past attempts ended in me quickly resuming the addiction that plagued me. Day 10 was a difficult day for me, but quite honestly the last 2 days have been a breeze. Day 10 got me thinking though. What about this quit makes it so final... it boils down to 2 things for me and they are in rank order.
#1: I have never wanted anything so bad in my life. Something has just clicked in my head. I can't explain it, I just know it. I will never throw that shit in my mouth again. Don't get me wrong, this battle is not over. But I have never been more ready, willing and able.Â
#2: I have the tools to quit. Previously, I did not know what the flip I was doing. I was fighting a tank with my bare hands and getting my ass whipped every time. Now, I got my emergency response kit. The most important piece of this kit is MY brothers and sisters at KTC.Â
Sure, on day 10, I sort of muddled thru my response to the stress trigger but my head immediately knew what had to be done. I used my tools and you all had my back. That nic trigger was whipped before it even hit me. The next time I get attacked, I will be that much more ready... and you know what - that next nic trigger is already whipped. That is just how it will be. Â
Like it or not, WE are at war. WE are at war with one tough SOB. Know this... WE have the right weapons to fight this SOB, but most importantly WE have the men women that are bad ass enough to slay this SOB. Ladies Gentlemen, caving is not an option!
I am sitting here on Independence Day and I am stoked to be 12 days quit. I am stoked to be quit with MY brothers and sisters at KTC. Fight the good fight! Never give up and stay quit!
"Wars may be fought with weapons, but they are won by men/women." (General George Patton Jr.)Â
- Derk
Derk, you're bad ass. Quit on, brother.
Derk,, you got me fired up with that. Your sounding like a lean mean quitting machine. Proud to be quit with you...
Derk you are winning! I Like the angry at the nic bitch school of quit, but I am also a big fan of talking so much quit that your reputation is on the line if you cave school. I hear you with the 'right time for you' thing, but just remember if the nic bitch gets to you that 'right time' may not come around again for some time. I know 'cause this is at least my third 'right time', but I never had KTC b4, and that makes all the difference! Quit on you badass; I'll be quittin' with you!
Great post. I've been thinking very similar thoughts...Over my 26 years of dipping I've tried to quit 40 times. That will make my record against nicotine 0-40-1. (I'm taking a draw for my last 9 days) This is David vs Goliath, only we are David. Keep fighting brutha! October 2013!
Dagranger... 2 things. (1) remember that David whipped Goliath's a$$. A historic victory. One for the ages. That story is telling you that no challenge or fight is impossible. Be David. (2) The last 9 days for you have been a tie? A tie? Are u kidding me? This is a new season and the way i see it you are 10-0 this morning. 10 and fuckin 0. Who gives a shit about last season. The last 10 might have been tough but to pull a quote from the Fast and the Furious... "Ask any racer, any real racer. It doesn't matter if you win by an inch or a mile; winning's winning." We are winning. Stay strong and quit bros. I am quit with u today.
Darn right derk. I see dagranger as a winner also. Not any tie going on here. The poison has had it's day in the sun. Dagranger,, hold that head high. Your a quitter bro,, 1, 10, 20, 100, 200,it don't matter. Glad to be quit with both yall today.
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Day 12... Independence Day Not Dependent Day. One of my favorite days of the year. Funny that it is a day that I have always previously paused/"tried to quit" (whatever lame word u want to use) using the evil weed. All past attempts ended in me quickly resuming the addiction that plagued me. Day 10 was a difficult day for me, but quite honestly the last 2 days have been a breeze. Day 10 got me thinking though. What about this quit makes it so final... it boils down to 2 things for me and they are in rank order.
#1: I have never wanted anything so bad in my life. Something has just clicked in my head. I can't explain it, I just know it. I will never throw that shit in my mouth again. Don't get me wrong, this battle is not over. But I have never been more ready, willing and able.Â
#2: I have the tools to quit. Previously, I did not know what the flip I was doing. I was fighting a tank with my bare hands and getting my ass whipped every time. Now, I got my emergency response kit. The most important piece of this kit is MY brothers and sisters at KTC.Â
Sure, on day 10, I sort of muddled thru my response to the stress trigger but my head immediately knew what had to be done. I used my tools and you all had my back. That nic trigger was whipped before it even hit me. The next time I get attacked, I will be that much more ready... and you know what - that next nic trigger is already whipped. That is just how it will be. Â
Like it or not, WE are at war. WE are at war with one tough SOB. Know this... WE have the right weapons to fight this SOB, but most importantly WE have the men women that are bad ass enough to slay this SOB. Ladies Gentlemen, caving is not an option!
I am sitting here on Independence Day and I am stoked to be 12 days quit. I am stoked to be quit with MY brothers and sisters at KTC. Fight the good fight! Never give up and stay quit!
"Wars may be fought with weapons, but they are won by men/women." (General George Patton Jr.)Â
- Derk
Derk, you're bad ass. Quit on, brother.
Derk,, you got me fired up with that. Your sounding like a lean mean quitting machine. Proud to be quit with you...
Derk you are winning! I Like the angry at the nic bitch school of quit, but I am also a big fan of talking so much quit that your reputation is on the line if you cave school. I hear you with the 'right time for you' thing, but just remember if the nic bitch gets to you that 'right time' may not come around again for some time. I know 'cause this is at least my third 'right time', but I never had KTC b4, and that makes all the difference! Quit on you badass; I'll be quittin' with you!
Great post. I've been thinking very similar thoughts...Over my 26 years of dipping I've tried to quit 40 times. That will make my record against nicotine 0-40-1. (I'm taking a draw for my last 9 days) This is David vs Goliath, only we are David. Keep fighting brutha! October 2013!
Dagranger... 2 things. (1) remember that David whipped Goliath's a$$. A historic victory. One for the ages. That story is telling you that no challenge or fight is impossible. Be David. (2) The last 9 days for you have been a tie? A tie? Are u kidding me? This is a new season and the way i see it you are 10-0 this morning. 10 and fuckin 0. Who gives a shit about last season. The last 10 might have been tough but to pull a quote from the Fast and the Furious... "Ask any racer, any real racer. It doesn't matter if you win by an inch or a mile; winning's winning." We are winning. Stay strong and quit bros. I am quit with u today.
Darn right derk. I see dagranger as a winner also. Not any tie going on here. The poison has had it's day in the sun. Dagranger,, hold that head high. Your a quitter bro,, 1, 10, 20, 100, 200,it don't matter. Glad to be quit with both yall today.
Wow all these posts give me quit wood that is lasting longer than 4 hours wonder if I should seek medical attention. I quit w you all today. It rocks to see hofers n newbs sharing the quit action.
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Day 12... Independence Day Not Dependent Day. One of my favorite days of the year. Funny that it is a day that I have always previously paused/"tried to quit" (whatever lame word u want to use) using the evil weed. All past attempts ended in me quickly resuming the addiction that plagued me. Day 10 was a difficult day for me, but quite honestly the last 2 days have been a breeze. Day 10 got me thinking though. What about this quit makes it so final... it boils down to 2 things for me and they are in rank order.
#1: I have never wanted anything so bad in my life. Something has just clicked in my head. I can't explain it, I just know it. I will never throw that shit in my mouth again. Don't get me wrong, this battle is not over. But I have never been more ready, willing and able.Â
#2: I have the tools to quit. Previously, I did not know what the flip I was doing. I was fighting a tank with my bare hands and getting my ass whipped every time. Now, I got my emergency response kit. The most important piece of this kit is MY brothers and sisters at KTC.Â
Sure, on day 10, I sort of muddled thru my response to the stress trigger but my head immediately knew what had to be done. I used my tools and you all had my back. That nic trigger was whipped before it even hit me. The next time I get attacked, I will be that much more ready... and you know what - that next nic trigger is already whipped. That is just how it will be. Â
Like it or not, WE are at war. WE are at war with one tough SOB. Know this... WE have the right weapons to fight this SOB, but most importantly WE have the men women that are bad ass enough to slay this SOB. Ladies Gentlemen, caving is not an option!
I am sitting here on Independence Day and I am stoked to be 12 days quit. I am stoked to be quit with MY brothers and sisters at KTC. Fight the good fight! Never give up and stay quit!
"Wars may be fought with weapons, but they are won by men/women." (General George Patton Jr.)Â
- Derk
Derk, you're bad ass. Quit on, brother.
Derk,, you got me fired up with that. Your sounding like a lean mean quitting machine. Proud to be quit with you...
Derk you are winning! I Like the angry at the nic bitch school of quit, but I am also a big fan of talking so much quit that your reputation is on the line if you cave school. I hear you with the 'right time for you' thing, but just remember if the nic bitch gets to you that 'right time' may not come around again for some time. I know 'cause this is at least my third 'right time', but I never had KTC b4, and that makes all the difference! Quit on you badass; I'll be quittin' with you!
Great post. I've been thinking very similar thoughts...Over my 26 years of dipping I've tried to quit 40 times. That will make my record against nicotine 0-40-1. (I'm taking a draw for my last 9 days) This is David vs Goliath, only we are David. Keep fighting brutha! October 2013!
Dagranger... 2 things. (1) remember that David whipped Goliath's a$$. A historic victory. One for the ages. That story is telling you that no challenge or fight is impossible. Be David. (2) The last 9 days for you have been a tie? A tie? Are u kidding me? This is a new season and the way i see it you are 10-0 this morning. 10 and fuckin 0. Who gives a shit about last season. The last 10 might have been tough but to pull a quote from the Fast and the Furious... "Ask any racer, any real racer. It doesn't matter if you win by an inch or a mile; winning's winning." We are winning. Stay strong and quit bros. I am quit with u today.
Darn right derk. I see dagranger as a winner also. Not any tie going on here. The poison has had it's day in the sun. Dagranger,, hold that head high. Your a quitter bro,, 1, 10, 20, 100, 200,it don't matter. Glad to be quit with both yall today.
Wow all these posts give me quit wood that is lasting longer than 4 hours wonder if I should seek medical attention. I quit w you all today. It rocks to see hofers n newbs sharing the quit action.
Agreeing with trauma and Srans. You guys are strengthening everyone's quit with these post, not just your own, thus, keep rockin!!!
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Saturday morning with 14 days quit. Feeling good but very, very intense cravings today. Been boiling up for a few days and felt it happening in the back of my mind this week... Monday will be my first work trip since my quit. Traveling for work was a dipping oasis for me. Ridiculous, copious amounts of dipping... would blow thru a log in a couple days. And sometimes have to go buy more. Dip, reload, dip, reload. Could not get enough. Crazy, but it was me. I would sit in my hotel room just dipping and drinking. So this morning, my Ninja dipping mind keeps having the thoughts on how to go get my stash, hide it and roll out to solitude. My KTC mind is holding this quit tight and telling myself to get ur quit kit ready because this work trip will be your first real trip away from home where you dont act like a DB. Maybe you will even get out and enjoy some of the local sites - it is Puerto Rico for cripes sake. Gonna be a fight the next couple days. But I am in this fight. Stay quit my friends.
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Saturday morning with 14 days quit. Feeling good but very, very intense cravings today. Been boiling up for a few days and felt it happening in the back of my mind this week... Monday will be my first work trip since my quit. Traveling for work was a dipping oasis for me. Ridiculous, copious amounts of dipping... would blow thru a log in a couple days. And sometimes have to go buy more. Dip, reload, dip, reload. Could not get enough. Crazy, but it was me. I would sit in my hotel room just dipping and drinking. So this morning, my Ninja dipping mind keeps having the thoughts on how to go get my stash, hide it and roll out to solitude. My KTC mind is holding this quit tight and telling myself to get ur quit kit ready because this work trip will be your first real trip away from home where you dont act like a DB. Maybe you will even get out and enjoy some of the local sites - it is Puerto Rico for cripes sake. Gonna be a fight the next couple days. But I am in this fight. Stay quit my friends.
Be carefull with that line of thinking. You have done an awesome job so far. The mind games that the nic bitch plays on you can only hurt you if you act on them. I quit with you today. pm me if you need an extra number to help beat that bitch back.
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Saturday morning with 14 days quit. Feeling good but very, very intense cravings today. Been boiling up for a few days and felt it happening in the back of my mind this week... Monday will be my first work trip since my quit. Traveling for work was a dipping oasis for me. Ridiculous, copious amounts of dipping... would blow thru a log in a couple days. And sometimes have to go buy more. Dip, reload, dip, reload. Could not get enough. Crazy, but it was me. I would sit in my hotel room just dipping and drinking. So this morning, my Ninja dipping mind keeps having the thoughts on how to go get my stash, hide it and roll out to solitude. My KTC mind is holding this quit tight and telling myself to get ur quit kit ready because this work trip will be your first real trip away from home where you dont act like a DB. Maybe you will even get out and enjoy some of the local sites - it is Puerto Rico for cripes sake. Gonna be a fight the next couple days. But I am in this fight. Stay quit my friends.
Be carefull with that line of thinking. You have done an awesome job so far. The mind games that the nic bitch plays on you can only hurt you if you act on them. I quit with you today. pm me if you need an extra number to help beat that bitch back.
Do what you have to to get that mind in other places derk. Don't sit still to long. Exercice,, (push ups, running, burpies) whatever. The longer you sit there giving the thoughts time they don't deserve the harder it will be.
Enjoy the trip. You don't need the poison to enjoy a trip. You never needed it. When the trip gets here and you start going through the motions you will be surprised at how you handle everything. Start believing in yourself bro.
Your mind is going through a lot of changes, i've been there. You will go through a lot before this gets easier, trust me, but know that it does get easier. I make you one promise bro. Stay the course and everything gets easier.
Anytime your mind starts playing the tricks,, say it with me now. ((((((I hate the poison)))))....
To me,, day 1,2,3 were easy compared to where your at right now. The 2 to 3 or even 4 week mark was the hardest time by far. Meaning it lasted the longest. I've had other rough times, but nowhere near the length of that. Get to the next door bro. Quit with you.
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Saturday morning with 14 days quit. Feeling good but very, very intense cravings today. Been boiling up for a few days and felt it happening in the back of my mind this week... Monday will be my first work trip since my quit. Traveling for work was a dipping oasis for me. Ridiculous, copious amounts of dipping... would blow thru a log in a couple days. And sometimes have to go buy more. Dip, reload, dip, reload. Could not get enough. Crazy, but it was me. I would sit in my hotel room just dipping and drinking.  So this morning, my Ninja dipping mind keeps having the thoughts on how to go get my stash, hide it and roll out to solitude. My KTC mind is holding this quit tight and telling myself to get ur quit kit ready because this work trip will be your first real trip away from home where you dont act like a DB. Maybe you will even get out and enjoy some of the local sites - it is Puerto Rico for cripes sake. Gonna be a fight the next couple days. But I am in this fight. Stay quit my friends.
Be carefull with that line of thinking. You have done an awesome job so far. The mind games that the nic bitch plays on you can only hurt you if you act on them. I quit with you today. pm me if you need an extra number to help beat that bitch back.
Do what you have to to get that mind in other places derk. Don't sit still to long. Exercice,, (push ups, running, burpies) whatever. The longer you sit there giving the thoughts time they don't deserve the harder it will be.
Enjoy the trip. You don't need the poison to enjoy a trip. You never needed it. When the trip gets here and you start going through the motions you will be surprised at how you handle everything. Start believing in yourself bro.
Your mind is going through a lot of changes, i've been there. You will go through a lot before this gets easier, trust me, but know that it does get easier. I make you one promise bro. Stay the course and everything gets easier.
Anytime your mind starts playing the tricks,, say it with me now. ((((((I hate the poison)))))....
To me,, day 1,2,3 were easy compared to where your at right now. The 2 to 3 or even 4 week mark was the hardest time by far. Meaning it lasted the longest. I've had other rough times, but nowhere near the length of that. Get to the next door bro. Quit with you.
This is where you need to step back and focus on the task at hand. Get through 1 day. That's it.. srans is right about the exercise. It will help you big time. It will release your mind from the negative thoughts. Put on some good music, go for a walk, run, swim, anything. Exercise was at the core of my quit.
If it makes you feel better, I used to think like you.. Now I'm free, POSTING everyday focusing on one day at a time got me here. Remember no matter how bad it get's, it WILL get better.. you have my word on that.. peace :D
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Saturday morning with 14 days quit. Feeling good but very, very intense cravings today. Been boiling up for a few days and felt it happening in the back of my mind this week... Monday will be my first work trip since my quit. Traveling for work was a dipping oasis for me. Ridiculous, copious amounts of dipping... would blow thru a log in a couple days. And sometimes have to go buy more. Dip, reload, dip, reload. Could not get enough. Crazy, but it was me. I would sit in my hotel room just dipping and drinking.  So this morning, my Ninja dipping mind keeps having the thoughts on how to go get my stash, hide it and roll out to solitude. My KTC mind is holding this quit tight and telling myself to get ur quit kit ready because this work trip will be your first real trip away from home where you dont act like a DB. Maybe you will even get out and enjoy some of the local sites - it is Puerto Rico for cripes sake. Gonna be a fight the next couple days. But I am in this fight. Stay quit my friends.
Be carefull with that line of thinking. You have done an awesome job so far. The mind games that the nic bitch plays on you can only hurt you if you act on them. I quit with you today. pm me if you need an extra number to help beat that bitch back.
Do what you have to to get that mind in other places derk. Don't sit still to long. Exercice,, (push ups, running, burpies) whatever. The longer you sit there giving the thoughts time they don't deserve the harder it will be.
Enjoy the trip. You don't need the poison to enjoy a trip. You never needed it. When the trip gets here and you start going through the motions you will be surprised at how you handle everything. Start believing in yourself bro.
Your mind is going through a lot of changes, i've been there. You will go through a lot before this gets easier, trust me, but know that it does get easier. I make you one promise bro. Stay the course and everything gets easier.
Anytime your mind starts playing the tricks,, say it with me now. ((((((I hate the poison)))))....
To me,, day 1,2,3 were easy compared to where your at right now. The 2 to 3 or even 4 week mark was the hardest time by far. Meaning it lasted the longest. I've had other rough times, but nowhere near the length of that. Get to the next door bro. Quit with you.
This is where you need to step back and focus on the task at hand. Get through 1 day. That's it.. srans is right about the exercise. It will help you big time. It will release your mind from the negative thoughts. Put on some good music, go for a walk, run, swim, anything. Exercise was at the core of my quit.
If it makes you feel better, I used to think like you.. Now I'm free, POSTING everyday focusing on one day at a time got me here. Remember no matter how bad it get's, it WILL get better.. you have my word on that.. peace :D
Thanks for that advice cd, srans and kana. I am getting too far ahead of myself and not focusing on this day. Difficult since I need to prep/plan for the trip, but I need to get back today. I need to be quit today. I do hate that fuckin poison. Also, great advice on the working out. No better way to burn off nervous energy than that. Quit on!
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Saturday morning with 14 days quit. Feeling good but very, very intense cravings today. Been boiling up for a few days and felt it happening in the back of my mind this week... Monday will be my first work trip since my quit. Traveling for work was a dipping oasis for me. Ridiculous, copious amounts of dipping... would blow thru a log in a couple days. And sometimes have to go buy more. Dip, reload, dip, reload. Could not get enough. Crazy, but it was me. I would sit in my hotel room just dipping and drinking.  So this morning, my Ninja dipping mind keeps having the thoughts on how to go get my stash, hide it and roll out to solitude. My KTC mind is holding this quit tight and telling myself to get ur quit kit ready because this work trip will be your first real trip away from home where you dont act like a DB. Maybe you will even get out and enjoy some of the local sites - it is Puerto Rico for cripes sake. Gonna be a fight the next couple days. But I am in this fight. Stay quit my friends.
Be carefull with that line of thinking. You have done an awesome job so far. The mind games that the nic bitch plays on you can only hurt you if you act on them. I quit with you today. pm me if you need an extra number to help beat that bitch back.
Do what you have to to get that mind in other places derk. Don't sit still to long. Exercice,, (push ups, running, burpies) whatever. The longer you sit there giving the thoughts time they don't deserve the harder it will be.
Enjoy the trip. You don't need the poison to enjoy a trip. You never needed it. When the trip gets here and you start going through the motions you will be surprised at how you handle everything. Start believing in yourself bro.
Your mind is going through a lot of changes, i've been there. You will go through a lot before this gets easier, trust me, but know that it does get easier. I make you one promise bro. Stay the course and everything gets easier.
Anytime your mind starts playing the tricks,, say it with me now. ((((((I hate the poison)))))....
To me,, day 1,2,3 were easy compared to where your at right now. The 2 to 3 or even 4 week mark was the hardest time by far. Meaning it lasted the longest. I've had other rough times, but nowhere near the length of that. Get to the next door bro. Quit with you.
This is where you need to step back and focus on the task at hand. Get through 1 day. That's it.. srans is right about the exercise. It will help you big time. It will release your mind from the negative thoughts. Put on some good music, go for a walk, run, swim, anything. Exercise was at the core of my quit.
If it makes you feel better, I used to think like you.. Now I'm free, POSTING everyday focusing on one day at a time got me here. Remember no matter how bad it get's, it WILL get better.. you have my word on that.. peace :D
Thanks for that advice cd, srans and kana. I am getting too far ahead of myself and not focusing on this day. Difficult since I need to prep/plan for the trip, but I need to get back today. I need to be quit today. I do hate that fuckin poison. Also, great advice on the working out. No better way to burn off nervous energy than that. Quit on!
Yep. Been there. Done that. Used to order room service at the San Juan Marriott rather than walk down the beach... Didn't want to dip on the beach, so I stayed in the room. Or the el conquistador - which my company spent $500 a night to stay in... Never left the room except for meetings. Dip city those days. What a goddamn shame man. Get out, enjoy Puerto Rico and the rest if your life. I slap myself every time I think about those 25 wasted years. You need another contact you let me know. Ill be living vicariously through you while you do something I didn't...
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Saturday morning with 14 days quit. Feeling good but very, very intense cravings today. Been boiling up for a few days and felt it happening in the back of my mind this week... Monday will be my first work trip since my quit. Traveling for work was a dipping oasis for me. Ridiculous, copious amounts of dipping... would blow thru a log in a couple days. And sometimes have to go buy more. Dip, reload, dip, reload. Could not get enough. Crazy, but it was me. I would sit in my hotel room just dipping and drinking.  So this morning, my Ninja dipping mind keeps having the thoughts on how to go get my stash, hide it and roll out to solitude. My KTC mind is holding this quit tight and telling myself to get ur quit kit ready because this work trip will be your first real trip away from home where you dont act like a DB. Maybe you will even get out and enjoy some of the local sites - it is Puerto Rico for cripes sake. Gonna be a fight the next couple days. But I am in this fight. Stay quit my friends.
Be carefull with that line of thinking. You have done an awesome job so far. The mind games that the nic bitch plays on you can only hurt you if you act on them. I quit with you today. pm me if you need an extra number to help beat that bitch back.
Do what you have to to get that mind in other places derk. Don't sit still to long. Exercice,, (push ups, running, burpies) whatever. The longer you sit there giving the thoughts time they don't deserve the harder it will be.
Enjoy the trip. You don't need the poison to enjoy a trip. You never needed it. When the trip gets here and you start going through the motions you will be surprised at how you handle everything. Start believing in yourself bro.
Your mind is going through a lot of changes, i've been there. You will go through a lot before this gets easier, trust me, but know that it does get easier. I make you one promise bro. Stay the course and everything gets easier.
Anytime your mind starts playing the tricks,, say it with me now. ((((((I hate the poison)))))....
To me,, day 1,2,3 were easy compared to where your at right now. The 2 to 3 or even 4 week mark was the hardest time by far. Meaning it lasted the longest. I've had other rough times, but nowhere near the length of that. Get to the next door bro. Quit with you.
This is where you need to step back and focus on the task at hand. Get through 1 day. That's it.. srans is right about the exercise. It will help you big time. It will release your mind from the negative thoughts. Put on some good music, go for a walk, run, swim, anything. Exercise was at the core of my quit.
If it makes you feel better, I used to think like you.. Now I'm free, POSTING everyday focusing on one day at a time got me here. Remember no matter how bad it get's, it WILL get better.. you have my word on that.. peace :D
Thanks for that advice cd, srans and kana. I am getting too far ahead of myself and not focusing on this day. Difficult since I need to prep/plan for the trip, but I need to get back today. I need to be quit today. I do hate that fuckin poison. Also, great advice on the working out. No better way to burn off nervous energy than that. Quit on!
Yep. Been there. Done that. Used to order room service at the San Juan Marriott rather than walk down the beach... Didn't want to dip on the beach, so I stayed in the room. Or the el conquistador - which my company spent $500 a night to stay in... Never left the room except for meetings. Dip city those days. What a goddamn shame man. Get out, enjoy Puerto Rico and the rest if your life. I slap myself every time I think about those 25 wasted years. You need another contact you let me know. Ill be living vicariously through you while you do something I didn't...
BOOM, what he said Derk ^^^^^^^
Nice meeting you in chat bud. Keep killing it, you are on the only road that I know. One day at a time is the only way out. It is the simple but difficult. Make a promise, keep it, do it again tomorrow. I quit with you. You need help you have my number. Call anytime.
Ryan
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Underway enroute PR and working the GoGo wif-fi right now at 35k. TS Chantel churned up in the Caribbean. .... Should get some rain but looking like this thing will be south of my destination. Holding tight with my quit, working my plan while smashed into a window seat. Already noted some folks ninja dipping... Poor bastards. I am way quit today. Bring it on nic biatch... I own u today!
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Underway enroute PR and working the GoGo wif-fi right now at 35k. TS Chantel churned up in the Caribbean. .... Should get some rain but looking like this thing will be south of my destination. Holding tight with my quit, working my plan while smashed into a window seat. Already noted some folks ninja dipping... Poor bastards. I am way quit today. Bring it on nic biatch... I own u today!
This is the type of resolve that it takes to whip the nic bitch!
We are all quit with you today brother!
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Underway enroute PR and working the GoGo wif-fi right now at 35k. TS Chantel churned up in the Caribbean. .... Should get some rain but looking like this thing will be south of my destination.  Holding tight with my quit, working my plan while smashed into a window seat. Already noted some folks ninja dipping... Poor bastards. I am way quit today. Bring it on nic biatch... I own u today!
This is the type of resolve that it takes to whip the nic bitch!
We are all quit with you today brother!
Totally agree!
Good for u Derk40. I didn't post on my vacation. I am sorry for that. Thanks for the convictions and the motivation. I have never really been a forum guy before. However, I am becoming more convinced how important it is in this change.
Quitting with you bro!
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Day 2 on the ground in Aguadilla, PR. Nic biatch does not have a chance today. I am enjoying the views and scene in PR. Not being a slave and jonesin for a fix is making this work trip very different. Pretty weird feeling actually, but a good weird. I am thinking more clearly and quite honestly feel proud of myself. I am 17 days quit and I feel pretty damn good. You all are a big part of this and although you cant be here physically... u r all here in spirit and making my quit stronger. Posting roll, committing to the quit, and working the plan. Committing to today and only today... it is that simple. Wi-fi is in and out, may lose power to the TS Chantal, but don't matter. We got a quit goin on here.
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Day 2 on the ground in Aguadilla, PR. Nic biatch does not have a chance today.  I am enjoying the views and scene in PR. Not being a slave and jonesin for a fix is making this work trip very different. Pretty weird feeling actually, but a good weird. I am thinking more clearly and quite honestly feel proud of myself. I am 17 days quit and I feel pretty damn good. You all are a big part of this and although you cant be here physically... u r all here in spirit and making my quit stronger. Posting roll, committing to the quit, and working the plan. Committing to today and only today... it is that simple. Wi-fi is in and out, may lose power to the TS Chantal, but don't matter. We got a quit goin on here.
Fantastic. I understand, I feel proud of my quit so far as well. It isn't that often that we get the chance to face demons face to face and beat them down. Glad to be quit with you.
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Day 2 on the ground in Aguadilla, PR. Nic biatch does not have a chance today.  I am enjoying the views and scene in PR. Not being a slave and jonesin for a fix is making this work trip very different. Pretty weird feeling actually, but a good weird.  I am thinking more clearly and quite honestly feel proud of myself.  I am 17 days quit and I feel pretty damn good. You all are a big part of this and although you cant be here physically... u r all here in spirit and making my quit stronger. Posting roll, committing to the quit, and working the plan. Committing to today and only today... it is that simple. Wi-fi is in and out, may lose power to the TS Chantal, but don't matter. We got a quit goin on here.
Fantastic. I understand, I feel proud of my quit so far as well. It isn't that often that we get the chance to face demons face to face and beat them down. Glad to be quit with you.
Hell yeah! Have a great trip man! There are beautiful parts of the island and I hope you enjoy the beaches before the storm hits. 17 days is kick ass. One day at a time will get you there, and it sounds like you are enjoying the tropics at the same time you are enjoying being quit. Just don't forget your sunscreen!
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Day 2 on the ground in Aguadilla, PR. Nic biatch does not have a chance today.  I am enjoying the views and scene in PR. Not being a slave and jonesin for a fix is making this work trip very different. Pretty weird feeling actually, but a good weird.  I am thinking more clearly and quite honestly feel proud of myself.  I am 17 days quit and I feel pretty damn good. You all are a big part of this and although you cant be here physically... u r all here in spirit and making my quit stronger. Posting roll, committing to the quit, and working the plan. Committing to today and only today... it is that simple. Wi-fi is in and out, may lose power to the TS Chantal, but don't matter. We got a quit goin on here.
Fantastic. I understand, I feel proud of my quit so far as well. It isn't that often that we get the chance to face demons face to face and beat them down. Glad to be quit with you.
Hell yeah! Have a great trip man! There are beautiful parts of the island and I hope you enjoy the beaches before the storm hits. 17 days is kick ass. One day at a time will get you there, and it sounds like you are enjoying the tropics at the same time you are enjoying being quit. Just don't forget your sunscreen!
You should feel proud Derk40. The decision to take your life back is something that should make anyone proud. 17 days is a great accomplishment. Keep it up man. And remember, we are quit on the "good" day and on the bad days. There will be bad days my friend, be prepared, use the tools.
Ryan
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Day 20... Head on a swivel today! Back home after a 4 day work trip away from home w/o dip. A little bit of a good wave, so I am paying close attention to this quit today. I got to. The last 20 have been a battle won, but this a lifetime war. Need to remain vigilant. Learned a couple things over the last 4 days.
(1) Don't really enjoy spitting in a cup. Had some fake chew for the road and noticed that when I used it I was not getting what I used to get from Copenhagen. I used to get a relief from a nic withdrawal as I was keeping my poison levels up. Without that poison injection, sitting around with black crap in my lip and spitting into a cup was not all that great. In fact, almost zero pleasure gained. I don't want that poison in me ever again damnit.
(2) On day 2 away, Mrs. Derk asked me how my quit was going. Sort of shocked me, I shot back I was at Day 18 and she was pumped about that. She has quit using Diet Coke for her addiction and we were comparing days. She was on day 8 and I congratulated her. Another person to be accountable to in this quit along with KTC. Feeling a different vibe from her. A good vibe and I think my quit has much to do with it. Still a lot of trust to earn back there, but with todays +1 it will be better. Thanks for ya'll pushing me to tell her asap. Early here, but for me that was an absolute necessity for this quit. Need to lay it all on the table and move forward with the quit. No more lies or BS.
(3) Last night was stuck in an airport and noticed that the addicted folks really stand out to me now. I noticed a guy in the Nascar Cafe sitting at his table with a fatty in and spitting into a styrofoam cup, another guy walking by and lobbing a tobacco enhanced spit bomb into the trash can as he passed by, and another guy entering the plane with a 1/2 full coke bottle he was using to conceal his spitting. Those are just a few, but I'm pretty fucking glad that is not me anymore. I am quit today.
(4) Still have urges daily and I am thinking about the quit constantly, but the plan is holding tight. I need to keep thinking about this quit everyday in order stay quit. One day focus is key to this quit. Still roll into a store and my first look is to the tobacco section to see if they have copenhagen snuff. That is fine, but my focus remains on my quit.
(5) Feel like I built up some credibility the past 20 days. This credibility is mainly with myself. I am beating out some demons and I know I'm heading down the right path.
So, I am quit and I will stay quit today. Head on swivel since I know I am in her sights. She is waiting to pounce on me, but will be ready today. Quit on!
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Day 20... Head on a swivel today! Back home after a 4 day work trip away from home w/o dip. A little bit of a good wave, so I am paying close attention to this quit today. I got to. The last 20 have been a battle won, but this a lifetime war. Need to remain vigilant. Learned a couple things over the last 4 days.
(1) Don't really enjoy spitting in a cup. Had some fake chew for the road and noticed that when I used it I was not getting what I used to get from Copenhagen. I used to get a relief from a nic withdrawal as I was keeping my poison levels up. Without that poison injection, sitting around with black crap in my lip and spitting into a cup was not all that great. In fact, almost zero pleasure gained. I don't want that poison in me ever again damnit.
(2) On day 2 away, Mrs. Derk asked me how my quit was going. Sort of shocked me, I shot back I was at Day 18 and she was pumped about that. She has quit using Diet Coke for her addiction and we were comparing days. She was on day 8 and I congratulated her. Another person to be accountable to in this quit along with KTC. Feeling a different vibe from her. A good vibe and I think my quit has much to do with it. Still a lot of trust to earn back there, but with todays +1 it will be better. Thanks for ya'll pushing me to tell her asap. Early here, but for me that was an absolute necessity for this quit. Need to lay it all on the table and move forward with the quit. No more lies or BS.
(3) Last night was stuck in an airport and noticed that the addicted folks really stand out to me now. I noticed a guy in the Nascar Cafe sitting at his table with a fatty in and spitting into a styrofoam cup, another guy walking by and lobbing a tobacco enhanced spit bomb into the trash can as he passed by, and another guy entering the plane with a 1/2 full coke bottle he was using to conceal his spitting. Those are just a few, but I'm pretty fucking glad that is not me anymore. I am quit today.
(4) Still have urges daily and I am thinking about the quit constantly, but the plan is holding tight. I need to keep thinking about this quit everyday in order stay quit. One day focus is key to this quit. Still roll into a store and my first look is to the tobacco section to see if they have copenhagen snuff. That is fine, but my focus remains on my quit.
(5) Feel like I built up some credibility the past 20 days. This credibility is mainly with myself. I am beating out some demons and I know I'm heading down the right path.
So, I am quit and I will stay quit today. Head on swivel since I know I am in her sights. She is waiting to pounce on me, but will be ready today. Quit on!
Good post Derk. You got this! I'll quit with you today and any day that ends with y....
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Day 20... Head on a swivel today! Back home after a 4 day work trip away from home w/o dip. A little bit of a good wave, so I am paying close attention to this quit today. I got to. The last 20 have been a battle won, but this a lifetime war. Need to remain vigilant. Learned a couple things over the last 4 days.
(1) Don't really enjoy spitting in a cup. Had some fake chew for the road and noticed that when I used it I was not getting what I used to get from Copenhagen. I used to get a relief from a nic withdrawal as I was keeping my poison levels up. Without that poison injection, sitting around with black crap in my lip and spitting into a cup was not all that great. In fact, almost zero pleasure gained. I don't want that poison in me ever again damnit.
(2) On day 2 away, Mrs. Derk asked me how my quit was going. Sort of shocked me, I shot back I was at Day 18 and she was pumped about that. She has quit using Diet Coke for her addiction and we were comparing days. She was on day 8 and I congratulated her. Another person to be accountable to in this quit along with KTC. Feeling a different vibe from her. A good vibe and I think my quit has much to do with it. Still a lot of trust to earn back there, but with todays +1 it will be better. Thanks for ya'll pushing me to tell her asap. Early here, but for me that was an absolute necessity for this quit. Need to lay it all on the table and move forward with the quit. No more lies or BS.
(3) Last night was stuck in an airport and noticed that the addicted folks really stand out to me now. I noticed a guy in the Nascar Cafe sitting at his table with a fatty in and spitting into a styrofoam cup, another guy walking by and lobbing a tobacco enhanced spit bomb into the trash can as he passed by, and another guy entering the plane with a 1/2 full coke bottle he was using to conceal his spitting. Those are just a few, but I'm pretty fucking glad that is not me anymore. I am quit today.
(4) Still have urges daily and I am thinking about the quit constantly, but the plan is holding tight. I need to keep thinking about this quit everyday in order stay quit. One day focus is key to this quit. Still roll into a store and my first look is to the tobacco section to see if they have copenhagen snuff. That is fine, but my focus remains on my quit.
(5) Feel like I built up some credibility the past 20 days. This credibility is mainly with myself. I am beating out some demons and I know I'm heading down the right path.
So, I am quit and I will stay quit today. Head on swivel since I know I am in her sights. She is waiting to pounce on me, but will be ready today. Quit on!
Dude, you are well on your way. From here out, it is mind-games for you. And your mind is in the right place.
Here is a story I shared with a few guys on here. A couple of weeks back, wife and I were on plane to Denver. She likes aisle. I like window. Since we were in the back of the plane, that meant there was a seat between us. Well, this nice young guy gets on and sits between us. Probably 25. Clean cut, a bit overweight, glasses, nice clothes, iPad, iPhone. I'm thinking... hmmm... this guy could be me if I were not 42! We chat for a little bit. Turn off the electronic devices, and then - as discreetly as he could, he reaches down into a bag and gets something out and puts it in his mouth.
Now, most people wouldn't have noticed. Or they wouldn't have cared. I'm not most people.
It was a pouch of tobacco! And it didn't slip by me. I've done it a thousand times on planes. Always scared someone would notice or I'd get caught, but I always made sure I had my cans in my carry-on. If United lost my underwear - who cares? But if my cans were lost and I was going international.... HOLY HELL! How screwed up were my priorities?
Well, I couldn't let that this chance to tell my 25 year old former self what I thought. Here was my chance!
So we take off. And I start talking. "What do you do?" "Law student." "Where are you from?" Build up the rapport. Jake Frawley probably does this before he goes in for the kill on the credit life insurance, right?
Pretty soon, I move on... "so I notice you dip, I did that for 25 years." "Uh, well, uh." "I quit 178 days ago, best thing I ever did." "Uh, that's great." "It is so nice to not have to worry about that white patch on my lip being cancer every day - you have that white patch I bet, right?" "Uh, yeah, I uh..." "I can't belive I spit out a Lexus over 25 years. 25 years I was a slave. How long have you been using?" "Uh, I uh, I started when I was 16."
And every time I took a breath - the lovely Mrs. would take my place. "Yeah, he used to hide it from me. Can you believe that. It is such a filthy addiction. Gross. Women find it to be a big turn-off. You have a girlfriend? I bet you hide it from her."
You get the idea. Let me tell you something, Derk... You've never seen a fat young legal eagle get an ass off of a 727 faster in your life than when we landed in Denver.
Welcome home. One day at a time. And you won't ever have to worry about sitting next to me on a flight. Or my wife.
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Day 20... Head on a swivel today! Back home after a 4 day work trip away from home w/o dip. A little bit of a good wave, so I am paying close attention to this quit today. I got to. The last 20 have been a battle won, but this a lifetime war. Need to remain vigilant. Learned a couple things over the last 4 days.
(1) Don't really enjoy spitting in a cup. Had some fake chew for the road and noticed that when I used it I was not getting what I used to get from Copenhagen. I used to get a relief from a nic withdrawal as I was keeping my poison levels up. Without that poison injection, sitting around with black crap in my lip and spitting into a cup was not all that great. In fact, almost zero pleasure gained. I don't want that poison in me ever again damnit.
(2) On day 2 away, Mrs. Derk asked me how my quit was going. Sort of shocked me, I shot back I was at Day 18 and she was pumped about that. She has quit using Diet Coke for her addiction and we were comparing days. She was on day 8 and I congratulated her. Another person to be accountable to in this quit along with KTC. Feeling a different vibe from her. A good vibe and I think my quit has much to do with it. Still a lot of trust to earn back there, but with todays +1 it will be better. Thanks for ya'll pushing me to tell her asap. Early here, but for me that was an absolute necessity for this quit. Need to lay it all on the table and move forward with the quit. No more lies or BS.
(3) Last night was stuck in an airport and noticed that the addicted folks really stand out to me now. I noticed a guy in the Nascar Cafe sitting at his table with a fatty in and spitting into a styrofoam cup, another guy walking by and lobbing a tobacco enhanced spit bomb into the trash can as he passed by, and another guy entering the plane with a 1/2 full coke bottle he was using to conceal his spitting. Those are just a few, but I'm pretty fucking glad that is not me anymore. I am quit today.
(4) Still have urges daily and I am thinking about the quit constantly, but the plan is holding tight. I need to keep thinking about this quit everyday in order stay quit. One day focus is key to this quit. Still roll into a store and my first look is to the tobacco section to see if they have copenhagen snuff. That is fine, but my focus remains on my quit.
(5) Feel like I built up some credibility the past 20 days. This credibility is mainly with myself. I am beating out some demons and I know I'm heading down the right path.
So, I am quit and I will stay quit today. Head on swivel since I know I am in her sights. She is waiting to pounce on me, but will be ready today. Quit on!
Nice nice nice...keep up the good work way to incorporate Ms Derk... Some of the guys here and myself were kicking some ideas around the other day how we can take our teachings from KTC and apply them to other areas of our lives exercise decreasing booze how its all accountability n brother/sisterhood...proud of you, you have come along way from 13 days ago.
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Day 20... Head on a swivel today! Back home after a 4 day work trip away from home w/o dip. A little bit of a good wave, so I am paying close attention to this quit today. I got to. The last 20 have been a battle won, but this a lifetime war. Need to remain vigilant. Learned a couple things over the last 4 days.Â
(1) Don't really enjoy spitting in a cup. Had some fake chew for the road and noticed that when I used it I was not getting what I used to get from Copenhagen. I used to get a relief from a nic withdrawal as I was keeping my poison levels up. Without that poison injection, sitting around with black crap in my lip and spitting into a cup was not all that great. In fact, almost zero pleasure gained. I don't want that poison in me ever again damnit.
(2) On day 2 away, Mrs. Derk asked me how my quit was going. Sort of shocked me, I shot back I was at Day 18 and she was pumped about that. She has quit using Diet Coke for her addiction and we were comparing days. She was on day 8 and I congratulated her. Another person to be accountable to in this quit along with KTC. Feeling a different vibe from her. A good vibe and I think my quit has much to do with it. Still a lot of trust to earn back there, but with todays +1 it will be better. Thanks for ya'll pushing me to tell her asap. Early here, but for me that was an absolute necessity for this quit. Need to lay it all on the table and move forward with the quit. No more lies or BS.Â
(3) Last night was stuck in an airport and noticed that the addicted folks really stand out to me now. I noticed a guy in the Nascar Cafe sitting at his table with a fatty in and spitting into a styrofoam cup, another guy walking by and lobbing a tobacco enhanced spit bomb into the trash can as he passed by, and another guy entering the plane with a 1/2 full coke bottle he was using to conceal his spitting. Those are just a few, but I'm pretty fucking glad that is not me anymore. I am quit today.Â
(4) Still have urges daily and I am thinking about the quit constantly, but the plan is holding tight. I need to keep thinking about this quit everyday in order stay quit. One day focus is key to this quit. Still roll into a store and my first look is to the tobacco section to see if they have copenhagen snuff. That is fine, but my focus remains on my quit.Â
(5) Feel like I built up some credibility the past 20 days. This credibility is mainly with myself. I am beating out some demons and I know I'm heading down the right path.Â
So, I am quit and I will stay quit today. Head on swivel since I know I am in her sights. She is waiting to pounce on me, but will be ready today. Quit on!
Dude, you are well on your way. From here out, it is mind-games for you. And your mind is in the right place.
Here is a story I shared with a few guys on here. A couple of weeks back, wife and I were on plane to Denver. She likes aisle. I like window. Since we were in the back of the plane, that meant there was a seat between us. Well, this nice young guy gets on and sits between us. Probably 25. Clean cut, a bit overweight, glasses, nice clothes, iPad, iPhone. I'm thinking... hmmm... this guy could be me if I were not 42! We chat for a little bit. Turn off the electronic devices, and then - as discreetly as he could, he reaches down into a bag and gets something out and puts it in his mouth.
Now, most people wouldn't have noticed. Or they wouldn't have cared. I'm not most people.
It was a pouch of tobacco! And it didn't slip by me. I've done it a thousand times on planes. Always scared someone would notice or I'd get caught, but I always made sure I had my cans in my carry-on. If United lost my underwear - who cares? But if my cans were lost and I was going international.... HOLY HELL! How screwed up were my priorities?
Well, I couldn't let that this chance to tell my 25 year old former self what I thought. Here was my chance!
So we take off. And I start talking. "What do you do?" "Law student." "Where are you from?" Build up the rapport. Jake Frawley probably does this before he goes in for the kill on the credit life insurance, right?
Pretty soon, I move on... "so I notice you dip, I did that for 25 years." "Uh, well, uh." "I quit 178 days ago, best thing I ever did." "Uh, that's great." "It is so nice to not have to worry about that white patch on my lip being cancer every day - you have that white patch I bet, right?" "Uh, yeah, I uh..." "I can't belive I spit out a Lexus over 25 years. 25 years I was a slave. How long have you been using?" "Uh, I uh, I started when I was 16."
And every time I took a breath - the lovely Mrs. would take my place. "Yeah, he used to hide it from me. Can you believe that. It is such a filthy addiction. Gross. Women find it to be a big turn-off. You have a girlfriend? I bet you hide it from her."
You get the idea. Let me tell you something, Derk... You've never seen a fat young legal eagle get an ass off of a 727 faster in your life than when we landed in Denver.
Welcome home. One day at a time. And you won't ever have to worry about sitting next to me on a flight. Or my wife.
Ooo. I would have dreaded the middle seat! 'puking'
Derk- You kickin but dude. Keep it up! 20 days are awesome. My cravings haven't been bad. However today I am jonesin like a heroin addict siting with a cap and syringe in front of them but their hands tied behind their back. 'aqua'
I am dealin with it though. No way I am caving this time.
Quit with you today! 'bang head'
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Very good! Alot of change in 20 days! It's good to see just how well you understand your addiction and see where the Nic Bitch may try to trip you up. Keep your head up and keep spreading your accountability!
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Thanks for the comments srans, traumagnet, worktowin, jake, fightin_ignorance.
worktowin - glad I was not on that flight bro... a drubbing for that poor bastard
srans - everyday bro!
trauma - u were critical keeping my eye on the prize - a +1 quit day... it was goin sideways there and could again. Thanks for having my back - I got urs bro.
jake - wilco on the pay forward
I can say that I don't have all the answers after 20 days. In fact, I don't know crap. So, I continue to read and gather any nugget to keep me on this quit. I do know one thing - I can stay quit today.
The KTC kool aid is tasting good. Wake up, post roll, committ to the quit for that day only with my brothers and sisters. That committment is a big deal to me because I don't want to disappoint you all. In the end, I don't want to disappoint myself. We have great strength together. Next... If it goes sideways and it inevitably will. Then, launch chaff. Use all tools in the kit... fake, seeds, candy, bag of a-holes, or whatever - use the website - text a friend - call a friend. Whatever it takes for today. I mean whatever. In the end our word means a lot and these quit days mean a lot. A +1 ain't nothing to dismiss or take lightly. It is a big F-in deal. This quit will save our lives! Stay on this quit! Embrace the suck. I hate that poison and I am quit today!
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Thanks for the comments srans, traumagnet, worktowin, jake, fightin_ignorance.
worktowin - glad I was not on that flight bro... a drubbing for that poor bastard
srans - everyday bro!
trauma - u were critical keeping my eye on the prize - a +1 quit day... it was goin sideways there and could again. Thanks for having my back - I got urs bro.
jake - wilco on the pay forward
I can say that I don't have all the answers after 20 days. In fact, I don't know crap. So, I continue to read and gather any nugget to keep me on this quit. I do know one thing - I can stay quit today.
The KTC kool aid is tasting good. Wake up, post roll, committ to the quit for that day only with my brothers and sisters. That committment is a big deal to me because I don't want to disappoint you all. In the end, I don't want to disappoint myself. We have great strength together. Next... If it goes sideways and it inevitably will. Then, launch chaff. Use all tools in the kit... fake, seeds, candy, bag of a-holes, or whatever - use the website - text a friend - call a friend. Whatever it takes for today. I mean whatever. In the end our word means a lot and these quit days mean a lot. A +1 ain't nothing to dismiss or take lightly. It is a big F-in deal. This quit will save our lives! Stay on this quit! Embrace the suck. I hate that poison and I am quit today!
Damn bro. You are only 20 days deep but I could swear you are a quit champion. You are kickin that nic bitch's ass. Keep it up my brother. You da man. The +1's add up quick. Keep doing your thing. I gotta say I am very impressed.
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Thanks for the comments srans, traumagnet, worktowin, jake, fightin_ignorance.
worktowin - glad I was not on that flight bro... a drubbing for that poor bastard
srans - everyday bro!
trauma - u were critical keeping my eye on the prize - a +1 quit day... it was goin sideways there and could again. Thanks for having my back - I got urs bro.
jake - wilco on the pay forward
I can say that I don't have all the answers after 20 days. In fact, I don't know crap. So, I continue to read and gather any nugget to keep me on this quit. I do know one thing - I can stay quit today.
The KTC kool aid is tasting good. Wake up, post roll, committ to the quit for that day only with my brothers and sisters. That committment is a big deal to me because I don't want to disappoint you all. In the end, I don't want to disappoint myself. We have great strength together. Next... If it goes sideways and it inevitably will. Then, launch chaff. Use all tools in the kit... fake, seeds, candy, bag of a-holes, or whatever - use the website - text a friend - call a friend. Whatever it takes for today. I mean whatever. In the end our word means a lot and these quit days mean a lot. A +1 ain't nothing to dismiss or take lightly. It is a big F-in deal. This quit will save our lives! Stay on this quit! Embrace the suck. I hate that poison and I am quit today!
Damn bro. You are only 20 days deep but I could swear you are a quit champion. You are kickin that nic bitch's ass. Keep it up my brother. You da man. The +1's add up quick. Keep doing your thing. I gotta say I am very impressed.
For the record, you helped me tonight. 20 days in for you, 200 for me , but the commitment to you helped me through a potential cave. It would have been sooo easy. But It wouldn't have meant jack if my word wasn't given. Lesson learned! Post roll every day!
Thanks derk !!!
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Thanks for the comments srans, traumagnet, worktowin, jake, fightin_ignorance.
worktowin - glad I was not on that flight bro... a drubbing for that poor bastard
srans - everyday bro!
trauma - u were critical keeping my eye on the prize - a +1 quit day... it was goin sideways there and could again. Thanks for having my back - I got urs bro.
jake - wilco on the pay forward
I can say that I don't have all the answers after 20 days. In fact, I don't know crap. So, I continue to read and gather any nugget to keep me on this quit. I do know one thing - I can stay quit today.
The KTC kool aid is tasting good. Wake up, post roll, committ to the quit for that day only with my brothers and sisters. That committment is a big deal to me because I don't want to disappoint you all. In the end, I don't want to disappoint myself. We have great strength together. Next... If it goes sideways and it inevitably will. Then, launch chaff. Use all tools in the kit... fake, seeds, candy, bag of a-holes, or whatever - use the website - text a friend - call a friend. Whatever it takes for today. I mean whatever. In the end our word means a lot and these quit days mean a lot. A +1 ain't nothing to dismiss or take lightly. It is a big F-in deal. This quit will save our lives! Stay on this quit! Embrace the suck. I hate that poison and I am quit today!
Damn bro. You are only 20 days deep but I could swear you are a quit champion. You are kickin that nic bitch's ass. Keep it up my brother. You da man. The +1's add up quick. Keep doing your thing. I gotta say I am very impressed.
For the record, you helped me tonight. 20 days in for you, 200 for me , but the commitment to you helped me through a potential cave. It would have been sooo easy. But It wouldn't have meant jack if my word wasn't given. Lesson learned! Post roll every day!
Thanks derk !!!
worktowin - glad you held ur quit. u worked hard for that 201 days and are one bad man sir. I am quit with u today.
KC Guy - I am far from that, but thanks. Just spewing the koolaid that you all have tought me over 21 days and following the path you all have blazed. It was hard to find for me at first, but I can see it now. Stay quit bro! You are a bad man!
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Thanks for the comments srans, traumagnet, worktowin, jake, fightin_ignorance.
worktowin - glad I was not on that flight bro... a drubbing for that poor bastard
srans - everyday bro!
trauma - u were critical keeping my eye on the prize - a +1 quit day... it was goin sideways there and could again. Thanks for having my back - I got urs bro.
jake - wilco on the pay forward
I can say that I don't have all the answers after 20 days. In fact, I don't know crap. So, I continue to read and gather any nugget to keep me on this quit. I do know one thing - I can stay quit today.
The KTC kool aid is tasting good. Wake up, post roll, committ to the quit for that day only with my brothers and sisters. That committment is a big deal to me because I don't want to disappoint you all. In the end, I don't want to disappoint myself. We have great strength together. Next... If it goes sideways and it inevitably will. Then, launch chaff. Use all tools in the kit... fake, seeds, candy, bag of a-holes, or whatever - use the website - text a friend - call a friend. Whatever it takes for today. I mean whatever. In the end our word means a lot and these quit days mean a lot. A +1 ain't nothing to dismiss or take lightly. It is a big F-in deal. This quit will save our lives! Stay on this quit! Embrace the suck. I hate that poison and I am quit today!
Damn bro. You are only 20 days deep but I could swear you are a quit champion. You are kickin that nic bitch's ass. Keep it up my brother. You da man. The +1's add up quick. Keep doing your thing. I gotta say I am very impressed.
For the record, you helped me tonight. 20 days in for you, 200 for me , but the commitment to you helped me through a potential cave. It would have been sooo easy. But It wouldn't have meant jack if my word wasn't given. Lesson learned! Post roll every day!
Thanks derk !!!
worktowin - glad you held ur quit. u worked hard for that 201 days and are one bad ass sir. I am quit with u today.
KC Guy - I am far from that, but thanks. Just spewing the koolaid that you all have tought me over 21 days and following the path you all have blazed. It was hard to find for me at first, but I can see it now. Stay quit bro! You are a bad ass!
Your a lean mean qutting machine. Your listening, paying attention, and learning. You have admitted that you are an addict and are using the brotherhood, accountability and knowledge that ktc has to quit one of the most addictive drugs known to man. You are 20 days in and the way you are talking and acting shows determination perseverance. I would say you are a lean mean quitting machine,,, plain and simple. Quit with you anyday.
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Thanks for the comments srans, traumagnet, worktowin, jake, fightin_ignorance.
worktowin - glad I was not on that flight bro... a drubbing for that poor bastard
srans - everyday bro!
trauma - u were critical keeping my eye on the prize - a +1 quit day... it was goin sideways there and could again. Thanks for having my back - I got urs bro.
jake - wilco on the pay forward
I can say that I don't have all the answers after 20 days. In fact, I don't know crap. So, I continue to read and gather any nugget to keep me on this quit. I do know one thing - I can stay quit today.
The KTC kool aid is tasting good. Wake up, post roll, committ to the quit for that day only with my brothers and sisters. That committment is a big deal to me because I don't want to disappoint you all. In the end, I don't want to disappoint myself. We have great strength together. Next... If it goes sideways and it inevitably will. Then, launch chaff. Use all tools in the kit... fake, seeds, candy, bag of a-holes, or whatever - use the website - text a friend - call a friend. Whatever it takes for today. I mean whatever. In the end our word means a lot and these quit days mean a lot. A +1 ain't nothing to dismiss or take lightly. It is a big F-in deal. This quit will save our lives! Stay on this quit! Embrace the suck. I hate that poison and I am quit today!
Damn bro. You are only 20 days deep but I could swear you are a quit champion. You are kickin that nic bitch's ass. Keep it up my brother. You da man. The +1's add up quick. Keep doing your thing. I gotta say I am very impressed.
For the record, you helped me tonight. 20 days in for you, 200 for me , but the commitment to you helped me through a potential cave. It would have been sooo easy. But It wouldn't have meant jack if my word wasn't given. Lesson learned! Post roll every day!
Thanks derk !!!
worktowin - glad you held ur quit. u worked hard for that 201 days and are one bad ass sir. I am quit with u today.
KC Guy - I am far from that, but thanks. Just spewing the koolaid that you all have tought me over 21 days and following the path you all have blazed. It was hard to find for me at first, but I can see it now. Stay quit bro! You are a bad ass!
Your a lean mean qutting machine. Your listening, paying attention, and learning. You have admitted that you are an addict and are using the brotherhood, accountability and knowledge that ktc has to quit one of the most addictive drugs known to man. You are 20 days in and the way you are talking and acting shows determination perseverance. I would say you are a lean mean quitting machine,,, plain and simple. Quit with you anyday.
Derk you get it brother! You are takin' nic behind the wood shed EDD for the last 3 weeks! Now get ready for the next challenge. Read some intro threads and see what happens to a lot of us somewhere in the 20-40 day range. srans will tell you about the next door... Be ready to push through to a better place. In the meantime quit on you bad ass!
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Day 25 - Lot of big issues on the site and a lot of caves. Disappointed in all the caves. Reaffirms the fact that there is no way I am caving. I own this quit. Watching Erussel stand strong in the face of a horrible family situation in incredibly inspiring. Puts everything into perspective for me. Life will not always be easy, but that is normal. Ups downs are a natural life occurance. Running to stupid can of death is not going to make your "up" better nor will it make your "down" better. It only decreases your life expectency.
Been down at the beach in NC so I have been busy since Saturday. Had a blowout in the car with the family where I was a total jerk cursing about something pretty stupid on Day 1 of the trip. Apologized and have committed to working on my temper while I go thru this. I don't have a license to be a jerk because I am quit. Spoke with Mrs. Derk about the whole deal. She asked me if I was acting like that because of the quit... I said I did not know. Sometimes I am a jerk anyhow, but it prob had something to do with it. She said she had read my Intro and she said I cursed a lot on the site and it was likely spilling into the house. I was caught off guard by that, but after thinking about it I am glad she can see what I am going thru and gave me some decent feedback. Maybe she is right.
Lot of dippers in NC... one guy was swinging his 1 yr old daughter in the ocean and spitting off to the side right where his other 2 kids were swimming. He was hitting the can the entire time we were there. Made me feel glad to be quit.
All I can say is 25 days of freedom feels great. I am no longer a slave to a can of death. I am a non tobacco user that is nicotine free. I am "all in" on this quit with you all. Reading a lot about the uncoming funks and I will be ready. For now I am just focused on staying quit and getting thru each day clean. Quit on people!
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Day 25 - Lot of big issues on the site and a lot of caves. Disappointed in all the caves. Reaffirms the fact that there is no way I am caving. I own this quit. Watching Erussel stand strong in the face of a horrible family situation in incredibly inspiring. Puts everything into perspective for me. Life will not always be easy, but that is normal. Ups downs are a natural life occurance. Running to stupid can of death is not going to make your "up" better nor will it make your "down" better. It only decreases your life expectency.
Been down at the beach in NC so I have been busy since Saturday. Had a blowout in the car with the family where I was a total jerk cursing about something pretty stupid on Day 1 of the trip. Apologized and have committed to working on my temper while I go thru this. I don't have a license to be a jerk because I am quit. Spoke with Mrs. Derk about the whole deal. She asked me if I was acting like that because of the quit... I said I did not know. Sometimes I am a jerk anyhow, but it prob had something to do with it. She said she had read my Intro and she said I cursed a lot on the site and it was likely spilling into the house. I was caught off guard by that, but after thinking about it I am glad she can see what I am going thru and gave me some decent feedback. Maybe she is right.
Lot of dippers in NC... one guy was swinging his 1 yr old daughter in the ocean and spitting off to the side right where his other 2 kids were swimming. He was hitting the can the entire time we were there. Made me feel glad to be quit.
All I can say is 25 days of freedom feels great. I am no longer a slave to a can of death. I am a non tobacco user that is nicotine free. I am "all in" on this quit with you all. Reading a lot about the uncoming funks and I will be ready. For now I am just focused on staying quit and getting thru each day clean. Quit on people!
short fuse is totally normal. Very proud of you Derk 25 days nice. The important thing is that you have awareness that you are doing it. Read Worktowins thread today. In the past he would have screamed but now he just laughed it off...you will get there sounds like Ms Derk is very aware of what is going on...give her a hug.
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Dude... Be AWARE of the funks but... don't take too much time worrying about it. It's like any other day bro, we have our ups and downs. This is no different. You have the tools you need and you're already using them to strengthen your foundation. Chat, texting, studying this site... You got this. You have a new freedom to enjoy! Don't spend it worrying about a funk you may, or may NOT have! Quit on brother...
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Day 25 - Lot of big issues on the site and a lot of caves. Disappointed in all the caves. Reaffirms the fact that there is no way I am caving. I own this quit. Watching Erussel stand strong in the face of a horrible family situation in incredibly inspiring. Puts everything into perspective for me. Life will not always be easy, but that is normal. Ups downs are a natural life occurance. Running to stupid can of death is not going to make your "up" better nor will it make your "down" better. It only decreases your life expectency.
Been down at the beach in NC so I have been busy since Saturday. Had a blowout in the car with the family where I was a total jerk cursing about something pretty stupid on Day 1 of the trip. Apologized and have committed to working on my temper while I go thru this. I don't have a license to be a jerk because I am quit. Spoke with Mrs. Derk about the whole deal. She asked me if I was acting like that because of the quit... I said I did not know. Sometimes I am a jerk anyhow, but it prob had something to do with it. She said she had read my Intro and she said I cursed a lot on the site and it was likely spilling into the house. I was caught off guard by that, but after thinking about it I am glad she can see what I am going thru and gave me some decent feedback. Maybe she is right.
Lot of dippers in NC... one guy was swinging his 1 yr old daughter in the ocean and spitting off to the side right where his other 2 kids were swimming. He was hitting the can the entire time we were there. Made me feel glad to be quit.  Â
All I can say is 25 days of freedom feels great. I am no longer a slave to a can of death. I am a non tobacco user that is nicotine free. I am "all in" on this quit with you all. Reading a lot about the uncoming funks and I will be ready. For now I am just focused on staying quit and getting thru each day clean. Quit on people!
short fuse is totally normal. Very proud of you Derk 25 days nice. The important thing is that you have awareness that you are doing it. Read Worktowins thread today. In the past he would have screamed but now he just laughed it off...you will get there sounds like Ms Derk is very aware of what is going on...give her a hug.
I forget who I read it from first but it is the one phrase that kept me coming back even before I put down the can.
A dip + problem = 2 problems
That just kept whirring around in my head.
Quit on!
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Day 25 - Lot of big issues on the site and a lot of caves. Disappointed in all the caves. Reaffirms the fact that there is no way I am caving. I own this quit. Watching Erussel stand strong in the face of a horrible family situation in incredibly inspiring. Puts everything into perspective for me. Life will not always be easy, but that is normal. Ups downs are a natural life occurance. Running to stupid can of death is not going to make your "up" better nor will it make your "down" better. It only decreases your life expectency.
Been down at the beach in NC so I have been busy since Saturday. Had a blowout in the car with the family where I was a total jerk cursing about something pretty stupid on Day 1 of the trip. Apologized and have committed to working on my temper while I go thru this. I don't have a license to be a jerk because I am quit. Spoke with Mrs. Derk about the whole deal. She asked me if I was acting like that because of the quit... I said I did not know. Sometimes I am a jerk anyhow, but it prob had something to do with it. She said she had read my Intro and she said I cursed a lot on the site and it was likely spilling into the house. I was caught off guard by that, but after thinking about it I am glad she can see what I am going thru and gave me some decent feedback. Maybe she is right.
Lot of dippers in NC... one guy was swinging his 1 yr old daughter in the ocean and spitting off to the side right where his other 2 kids were swimming. He was hitting the can the entire time we were there. Made me feel glad to be quit.  Â
All I can say is 25 days of freedom feels great. I am no longer a slave to a can of death. I am a non tobacco user that is nicotine free. I am "all in" on this quit with you all. Reading a lot about the uncoming funks and I will be ready. For now I am just focused on staying quit and getting thru each day clean. Quit on people!
short fuse is totally normal. Very proud of you Derk 25 days nice. The important thing is that you have awareness that you are doing it. Read Worktowins thread today. In the past he would have screamed but now he just laughed it off...you will get there sounds like Ms Derk is very aware of what is going on...give her a hug.
I forget who I read it from first but it is the one phrase that kept me coming back even before I put down the can.
A dip + problem = 2 problems
That just kept whirring around in my head.
Quit on!
Wanted to give my 3 cents on your short fuse. I'm finding that this short fuse problem lasts a while derk. As a matter of fact I'm wondering if its the new me. I hope not. I don't want to be a jerk to my wife and kids. Its not fair to them or myself. I also don't want my kids thinking their dad is an ass.
it's early in your quit so my advice may be premature but its something you may have to address.
I've been doing a lot better, but i have to wait a few seconds or even minutes before i react to situations. When something is said that i don't agree with i have to think about my reaction for a few seconds. Give myself time to gather my thoughts and not just start reacting with the first thought that pops into my head.
That few second changes everything my friend. Ask yourself if the way I'm about to react going to help the situation or make it worse.
Its something I've really been working at. Its another part of becoming normal. We really screwed ourselves up with this addiction. Not easy to fix. Takes work in several areas. I quit with you brother.
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Day 25 - Lot of big issues on the site and a lot of caves. Disappointed in all the caves. Reaffirms the fact that there is no way I am caving. I own this quit. Watching Erussel stand strong in the face of a horrible family situation in incredibly inspiring. Puts everything into perspective for me. Life will not always be easy, but that is normal. Ups downs are a natural life occurance. Running to stupid can of death is not going to make your "up" better nor will it make your "down" better. It only decreases your life expectency.
Been down at the beach in NC so I have been busy since Saturday. Had a blowout in the car with the family where I was a total jerk cursing about something pretty stupid on Day 1 of the trip. Apologized and have committed to working on my temper while I go thru this. I don't have a license to be a jerk because I am quit. Spoke with Mrs. Derk about the whole deal. She asked me if I was acting like that because of the quit... I said I did not know. Sometimes I am a jerk anyhow, but it prob had something to do with it. She said she had read my Intro and she said I cursed a lot on the site and it was likely spilling into the house. I was caught off guard by that, but after thinking about it I am glad she can see what I am going thru and gave me some decent feedback. Maybe she is right.
Lot of dippers in NC... one guy was swinging his 1 yr old daughter in the ocean and spitting off to the side right where his other 2 kids were swimming. He was hitting the can the entire time we were there. Made me feel glad to be quit.  Â
All I can say is 25 days of freedom feels great. I am no longer a slave to a can of death. I am a non tobacco user that is nicotine free. I am "all in" on this quit with you all. Reading a lot about the uncoming funks and I will be ready. For now I am just focused on staying quit and getting thru each day clean. Quit on people!
short fuse is totally normal. Very proud of you Derk 25 days nice. The important thing is that you have awareness that you are doing it. Read Worktowins thread today. In the past he would have screamed but now he just laughed it off...you will get there sounds like Ms Derk is very aware of what is going on...give her a hug.
I forget who I read it from first but it is the one phrase that kept me coming back even before I put down the can.
A dip + problem = 2 problems
That just kept whirring around in my head.
Quit on!
Wanted to give my 3 cents on your short fuse. I'm finding that this short fuse problem lasts a while derk. As a matter of fact I'm wondering if its the new me. I hope not. I don't want to be a jerk to my wife and kids. Its not fair to them or myself. I also don't want my kids thinking their dad is an ass.
it's early in your quit so my advice may be premature but its something you may have to address.
I've been doing a lot better, but i have to wait a few seconds or even minutes before i react to situations. When something is said that i don't agree with i have to think about my reaction for a few seconds. Give myself time to gather my thoughts and not just start reacting with the first thought that pops into my head.
That few second changes everything my friend. Ask yourself if the way I'm about to react going to help the situation or make it worse.
Its something I've really been working at. Its another part of becoming normal. We really screwed ourselves up with this addiction. Not easy to fix. Takes work in several areas. I quit with you brother.
I am right there with you Derk. Irritable a hell and needing to take a step back before lighting into someone. Yet another freaking opportunity for growth. Grumble grumble. Proud to be quit with you. If it gets rough, you have my digits.
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Day 25 - Lot of big issues on the site and a lot of caves. Disappointed in all the caves. Reaffirms the fact that there is no way I am caving. I own this quit. Watching Erussel stand strong in the face of a horrible family situation in incredibly inspiring. Puts everything into perspective for me. Life will not always be easy, but that is normal. Ups downs are a natural life occurance. Running to stupid can of death is not going to make your "up" better nor will it make your "down" better. It only decreases your life expectency.
Been down at the beach in NC so I have been busy since Saturday. Had a blowout in the car with the family where I was a total jerk cursing about something pretty stupid on Day 1 of the trip. Apologized and have committed to working on my temper while I go thru this. I don't have a license to be a jerk because I am quit. Spoke with Mrs. Derk about the whole deal. She asked me if I was acting like that because of the quit... I said I did not know. Sometimes I am a jerk anyhow, but it prob had something to do with it. She said she had read my Intro and she said I cursed a lot on the site and it was likely spilling into the house. I was caught off guard by that, but after thinking about it I am glad she can see what I am going thru and gave me some decent feedback. Maybe she is right.
Lot of dippers in NC... one guy was swinging his 1 yr old daughter in the ocean and spitting off to the side right where his other 2 kids were swimming. He was hitting the can the entire time we were there. Made me feel glad to be quit.  Â
All I can say is 25 days of freedom feels great. I am no longer a slave to a can of death. I am a non tobacco user that is nicotine free. I am "all in" on this quit with you all. Reading a lot about the uncoming funks and I will be ready. For now I am just focused on staying quit and getting thru each day clean. Quit on people!
short fuse is totally normal. Very proud of you Derk 25 days nice. The important thing is that you have awareness that you are doing it. Read Worktowins thread today. In the past he would have screamed but now he just laughed it off...you will get there sounds like Ms Derk is very aware of what is going on...give her a hug.
I forget who I read it from first but it is the one phrase that kept me coming back even before I put down the can.
A dip + problem = 2 problems
That just kept whirring around in my head.
Quit on!
Wanted to give my 3 cents on your short fuse. I'm finding that this short fuse problem lasts a while derk. As a matter of fact I'm wondering if its the new me. I hope not. I don't want to be a jerk to my wife and kids. Its not fair to them or myself. I also don't want my kids thinking their dad is an ass.
it's early in your quit so my advice may be premature but its something you may have to address.
I've been doing a lot better, but i have to wait a few seconds or even minutes before i react to situations. When something is said that i don't agree with i have to think about my reaction for a few seconds. Give myself time to gather my thoughts and not just start reacting with the first thought that pops into my head.
That few second changes everything my friend. Ask yourself if the way I'm about to react going to help the situation or make it worse.
Its something I've really been working at. Its another part of becoming normal. We really screwed ourselves up with this addiction. Not easy to fix. Takes work in several areas. I quit with you brother.
I am right there with you Derk. Irritable a hell and needing to take a step back before lighting into someone. Yet another freaking opportunity for growth. Grumble grumble. Proud to be quit with you. If it gets rough, you have my digits.
Guys the 20's are notorious around here for being one of the worst "funk" times. I put funk in quotation marks 'cus I am not sure if I'd call it that, but trust me I am at 734 today and I will never forget the 20's, I felt like a raving lunatic most of the time, it was brutal. In a day or two it will pass and you will feel better than you ever have. You are doing awesome, proud to quit with you.
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Day 25 - Lot of big issues on the site and a lot of caves. Disappointed in all the caves. Reaffirms the fact that there is no way I am caving. I own this quit. Watching Erussel stand strong in the face of a horrible family situation in incredibly inspiring. Puts everything into perspective for me. Life will not always be easy, but that is normal. Ups downs are a natural life occurance. Running to stupid can of death is not going to make your "up" better nor will it make your "down" better. It only decreases your life expectency.
Been down at the beach in NC so I have been busy since Saturday. Had a blowout in the car with the family where I was a total jerk cursing about something pretty stupid on Day 1 of the trip. Apologized and have committed to working on my temper while I go thru this. I don't have a license to be a jerk because I am quit. Spoke with Mrs. Derk about the whole deal. She asked me if I was acting like that because of the quit... I said I did not know. Sometimes I am a jerk anyhow, but it prob had something to do with it. She said she had read my Intro and she said I cursed a lot on the site and it was likely spilling into the house. I was caught off guard by that, but after thinking about it I am glad she can see what I am going thru and gave me some decent feedback. Maybe she is right.
Lot of dippers in NC... one guy was swinging his 1 yr old daughter in the ocean and spitting off to the side right where his other 2 kids were swimming. He was hitting the can the entire time we were there. Made me feel glad to be quit.  Â
All I can say is 25 days of freedom feels great. I am no longer a slave to a can of death. I am a non tobacco user that is nicotine free. I am "all in" on this quit with you all. Reading a lot about the uncoming funks and I will be ready. For now I am just focused on staying quit and getting thru each day clean. Quit on people!
short fuse is totally normal. Very proud of you Derk 25 days nice. The important thing is that you have awareness that you are doing it. Read Worktowins thread today. In the past he would have screamed but now he just laughed it off...you will get there sounds like Ms Derk is very aware of what is going on...give her a hug.
I forget who I read it from first but it is the one phrase that kept me coming back even before I put down the can.
A dip + problem = 2 problems
That just kept whirring around in my head.
Quit on!
Wanted to give my 3 cents on your short fuse. I'm finding that this short fuse problem lasts a while derk. As a matter of fact I'm wondering if its the new me. I hope not. I don't want to be a jerk to my wife and kids. Its not fair to them or myself. I also don't want my kids thinking their dad is an ass.
it's early in your quit so my advice may be premature but its something you may have to address.
I've been doing a lot better, but i have to wait a few seconds or even minutes before i react to situations. When something is said that i don't agree with i have to think about my reaction for a few seconds. Give myself time to gather my thoughts and not just start reacting with the first thought that pops into my head.
That few second changes everything my friend. Ask yourself if the way I'm about to react going to help the situation or make it worse.
Its something I've really been working at. Its another part of becoming normal. We really screwed ourselves up with this addiction. Not easy to fix. Takes work in several areas. I quit with you brother.
I am right there with you Derk. Irritable a hell and needing to take a step back before lighting into someone. Yet another freaking opportunity for growth. Grumble grumble. Proud to be quit with you. If it gets rough, you have my digits.
Guys the 20's are notorious around here for being one of the worst "funk" times. I put funk in quotation marks 'cus I am not sure if I'd call it that, but trust me I am at 734 today and I will never forget the 20's, I felt like a raving lunatic most of the time, it was brutal. In a day or two it will pass and you will feel better than you ever have. You are doing awesome, proud to quit with you.
Derk, first off, I am proud as hell of you! You are rocking this like a champ. Luby is spot on about it being normal, what you are going through. Keep pushing through it. Keep doing what you are doing. Yeah, there are going to be those around us that cave. That's when I always remember what an old-head told me: "The best thing I can do for others and their Quit, is worry about mine first". And that's exactly what you are doing.
As for your family, been there, done that. My kids hated my guts (more than normal) the first 30 days. What made mine worse was it was the middle of wrestling season, and I was taking most of it out on my 16 year old during practice.... You got this. And you know EXACTLY where to turn when it gets tough.
See you in chat. Damn proud to quit with you EDD.
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Day 25 - Lot of big issues on the site and a lot of caves. Disappointed in all the caves. Reaffirms the fact that there is no way I am caving. I own this quit. Watching Erussel stand strong in the face of a horrible family situation in incredibly inspiring. Puts everything into perspective for me. Life will not always be easy, but that is normal. Ups downs are a natural life occurance. Running to stupid can of death is not going to make your "up" better nor will it make your "down" better. It only decreases your life expectency.
Been down at the beach in NC so I have been busy since Saturday. Had a blowout in the car with the family where I was a total jerk cursing about something pretty stupid on Day 1 of the trip. Apologized and have committed to working on my temper while I go thru this. I don't have a license to be a jerk because I am quit. Spoke with Mrs. Derk about the whole deal. She asked me if I was acting like that because of the quit... I said I did not know. Sometimes I am a jerk anyhow, but it prob had something to do with it. She said she had read my Intro and she said I cursed a lot on the site and it was likely spilling into the house. I was caught off guard by that, but after thinking about it I am glad she can see what I am going thru and gave me some decent feedback. Maybe she is right.
Lot of dippers in NC... one guy was swinging his 1 yr old daughter in the ocean and spitting off to the side right where his other 2 kids were swimming. He was hitting the can the entire time we were there. Made me feel glad to be quit.  Â
All I can say is 25 days of freedom feels great. I am no longer a slave to a can of death. I am a non tobacco user that is nicotine free. I am "all in" on this quit with you all. Reading a lot about the uncoming funks and I will be ready. For now I am just focused on staying quit and getting thru each day clean. Quit on people!
short fuse is totally normal. Very proud of you Derk 25 days nice. The important thing is that you have awareness that you are doing it. Read Worktowins thread today. In the past he would have screamed but now he just laughed it off...you will get there sounds like Ms Derk is very aware of what is going on...give her a hug.
I forget who I read it from first but it is the one phrase that kept me coming back even before I put down the can.
A dip + problem = 2 problems
That just kept whirring around in my head.
Quit on!
Wanted to give my 3 cents on your short fuse. I'm finding that this short fuse problem lasts a while derk. As a matter of fact I'm wondering if its the new me. I hope not. I don't want to be a jerk to my wife and kids. Its not fair to them or myself. I also don't want my kids thinking their dad is an ass.
it's early in your quit so my advice may be premature but its something you may have to address.
I've been doing a lot better, but i have to wait a few seconds or even minutes before i react to situations. When something is said that i don't agree with i have to think about my reaction for a few seconds. Give myself time to gather my thoughts and not just start reacting with the first thought that pops into my head.
That few second changes everything my friend. Ask yourself if the way I'm about to react going to help the situation or make it worse.
Its something I've really been working at. Its another part of becoming normal. We really screwed ourselves up with this addiction. Not easy to fix. Takes work in several areas. I quit with you brother.
I am right there with you Derk. Irritable a hell and needing to take a step back before lighting into someone. Yet another freaking opportunity for growth. Grumble grumble. Proud to be quit with you. If it gets rough, you have my digits.
Guys the 20's are notorious around here for being one of the worst "funk" times. I put funk in quotation marks 'cus I am not sure if I'd call it that, but trust me I am at 734 today and I will never forget the 20's, I felt like a raving lunatic most of the time, it was brutal. In a day or two it will pass and you will feel better than you ever have. You are doing awesome, proud to quit with you.
Derk, first off, I am proud as hell of you! You are rocking this like a champ. Luby is spot on about it being normal, what you are going through. Keep pushing through it. Keep doing what you are doing. Yeah, there are going to be those around us that cave. That's when I always remember what an old-head told me: "The best thing I can do for others and their Quit, is worry about mine first". And that's exactly what you are doing.
As for your family, been there, done that. My kids hated my guts (more than normal) the first 30 days. What made mine worse was it was the middle of wrestling season, and I was taking most of it out on my 16 year old during practice.... You got this. And you know EXACTLY where to turn when it gets tough.
See you in chat. Damn proud to quit with you EDD.
Thanks for having my back fellas. This is definitely something i plan to work on and maybe it will just take time. Most people don't realize they are being a jerk... At least we know it and all want to fix it. Proud to be quit with you guys. Embrace the Freedom! Quit on!
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Day 25 - Lot of big issues on the site and a lot of caves. Disappointed in all the caves. Reaffirms the fact that there is no way I am caving. I own this quit. Watching Erussel stand strong in the face of a horrible family situation in incredibly inspiring. Puts everything into perspective for me. Life will not always be easy, but that is normal. Ups downs are a natural life occurance. Running to stupid can of death is not going to make your "up" better nor will it make your "down" better. It only decreases your life expectency.
Been down at the beach in NC so I have been busy since Saturday. Had a blowout in the car with the family where I was a total jerk cursing about something pretty stupid on Day 1 of the trip. Apologized and have committed to working on my temper while I go thru this. I don't have a license to be a jerk because I am quit. Spoke with Mrs. Derk about the whole deal. She asked me if I was acting like that because of the quit... I said I did not know. Sometimes I am a jerk anyhow, but it prob had something to do with it. She said she had read my Intro and she said I cursed a lot on the site and it was likely spilling into the house. I was caught off guard by that, but after thinking about it I am glad she can see what I am going thru and gave me some decent feedback. Maybe she is right.
Lot of dippers in NC... one guy was swinging his 1 yr old daughter in the ocean and spitting off to the side right where his other 2 kids were swimming. He was hitting the can the entire time we were there. Made me feel glad to be quit.  Â
All I can say is 25 days of freedom feels great. I am no longer a slave to a can of death. I am a non tobacco user that is nicotine free. I am "all in" on this quit with you all. Reading a lot about the uncoming funks and I will be ready. For now I am just focused on staying quit and getting thru each day clean. Quit on people!
short fuse is totally normal. Very proud of you Derk 25 days nice. The important thing is that you have awareness that you are doing it. Read Worktowins thread today. In the past he would have screamed but now he just laughed it off...you will get there sounds like Ms Derk is very aware of what is going on...give her a hug.
I forget who I read it from first but it is the one phrase that kept me coming back even before I put down the can.
A dip + problem = 2 problems
That just kept whirring around in my head.
Quit on!
Wanted to give my 3 cents on your short fuse. I'm finding that this short fuse problem lasts a while derk. As a matter of fact I'm wondering if its the new me. I hope not. I don't want to be a jerk to my wife and kids. Its not fair to them or myself. I also don't want my kids thinking their dad is an ass.
it's early in your quit so my advice may be premature but its something you may have to address.
I've been doing a lot better, but i have to wait a few seconds or even minutes before i react to situations. When something is said that i don't agree with i have to think about my reaction for a few seconds. Give myself time to gather my thoughts and not just start reacting with the first thought that pops into my head.
That few second changes everything my friend. Ask yourself if the way I'm about to react going to help the situation or make it worse.
Its something I've really been working at. Its another part of becoming normal. We really screwed ourselves up with this addiction. Not easy to fix. Takes work in several areas. I quit with you brother.
I am right there with you Derk. Irritable a hell and needing to take a step back before lighting into someone. Yet another freaking opportunity for growth. Grumble grumble. Proud to be quit with you. If it gets rough, you have my digits.
Guys the 20's are notorious around here for being one of the worst "funk" times. I put funk in quotation marks 'cus I am not sure if I'd call it that, but trust me I am at 734 today and I will never forget the 20's, I felt like a raving lunatic most of the time, it was brutal. In a day or two it will pass and you will feel better than you ever have. You are doing awesome, proud to quit with you.
Derk, first off, I am proud as hell of you! You are rocking this like a champ. Luby is spot on about it being normal, what you are going through. Keep pushing through it. Keep doing what you are doing. Yeah, there are going to be those around us that cave. That's when I always remember what an old-head told me: "The best thing I can do for others and their Quit, is worry about mine first". And that's exactly what you are doing.
As for your family, been there, done that. My kids hated my guts (more than normal) the first 30 days. What made mine worse was it was the middle of wrestling season, and I was taking most of it out on my 16 year old during practice.... You got this. And you know EXACTLY where to turn when it gets tough.
See you in chat. Damn proud to quit with you EDD.
Thanks for having my back fellas. This is definitely something i plan to work on and maybe it will just take time. Most people don't realize they are being a jerk... At least we know it and all want to fix it. Proud to be quit with you guys. Embrace the Freedom! Quit on!
Derk I just hit day 60 and I still have those moments. I wont even be thinking about dip and something very small will just set me off. I usually walk out in my yard and just yell. I dont take it out on the family. My neighbors prolly think I am crazy. Ha. Not sure when this will fully pass. But it will. We all know what you are going through bro. Keep killin your quit.
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Woke up at 0615 this morning and we were checking out of our rental down in Outer Banks, NC. 2 whining dogs woke me that needed to be let out. Rolled out of bed, let out the dogs, then I was running hard immediately to pack up 2 cars. Plan was for me to take the 2 dogs home in 1 car and Mrs. Derk was going to go shopping while on the way home with the kids. No problem. After about 2 hrs of packing, it was time for me to leave. Still had not posted ROLL for day 28. Computer packed and car ready so I made a decision to drive home and post ROLL when I got home which would be at aroud 1030 am. After all, it was going to be too difficult to get out my computer and do it prior to my departure,,, right? Got underway from the cottage with 2 dogs heading North on Route 12. Got about 1 mile down the road and said to myself... Derk!!! You have not done the most important thing you had to do today. You have the means, you want to, so why are you waiting. I NEEDED to post ROLL to get this day and drive started. Immediately, pulled over into a parking lock off of Route 12 and got out my computer. Luckily this work computer has a card in it that allows me to connect to the internet. Logged on... posted ROLL. Immediate sense of relief,,, NOW day can begin.
After 28 days,,, I am starting to get back control of my life. I own this quit, but the most important thing I can do today is post ROLL,,, then roll out the door and begin my day QUIT. Best 90 minute drive I have had in a long time -- quit and loving every minute of it. Music sounded better, coffee tasted better, cars were moving out of my way! Post ROLL early. Committ to the quit for this day ASAP. The absolute most important thing you will do today. I am quit with you today!
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Woke up at 0615 this morning and we were checking out of our rental down in Outer Banks, NC. 2 whining dogs woke me that needed to be let out. Rolled out of bed, let out the dogs, then I was running hard immediately to pack up 2 cars. Plan was for me to take the 2 dogs home in 1 car and Mrs. Derk was going to go shopping while on the way home with the kids. No problem. After about 2 hrs of packing, it was time for me to leave. Still had not posted ROLL for day 28. Computer packed and car ready so I made a decision to drive home and post ROLL when I got home which would be at aroud 1030 am. After all, it was going to be too difficult to get out my computer and do it prior to my departure,,, right? Got underway from the cottage with 2 dogs heading North on Route 12. Got about 1 mile down the road and said to myself... Derk!!! You have not done the most important thing you had to do today. You have the means, you want to, so why are you waiting. I NEEDED to post ROLL to get this day and drive started. Immediately, pulled over into a parking lock off of Route 12 and got out my computer. Luckily this work computer has a card in it that allows me to connect to the internet. Logged on... posted ROLL. Immediate sense of relief,,, NOW day can begin.
After 28 days,,, I am starting to get back control of my life. I own this quit, but the most important thing I can do today is post ROLL,,, then roll out the door and begin my day QUIT. Best 90 minute drive I have had in a long time -- quit and loving every minute of it. Music sounded better, coffee tasted better, cars were moving out of my way! Post ROLL early. Committ to the quit for this day ASAP. The absolute most important thing you will do today. I am quit with you today!
Damn proud to be quit with you Derk. Keep up the good work.
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Woke up at 0615 this morning and we were checking out of our rental down in Outer Banks, NC. 2 whining dogs woke me that needed to be let out. Rolled out of bed, let out the dogs, then I was running hard immediately to pack up 2 cars. Plan was for me to take the 2 dogs home in 1 car and Mrs. Derk was going to go shopping while on the way home with the kids. No problem. After about 2 hrs of packing, it was time for me to leave. Still had not posted ROLL for day 28. Computer packed and car ready so I made a decision to drive home and post ROLL when I got home which would be at aroud 1030 am. After all, it was going to be too difficult to get out my computer and do it prior to my departure,,, right? Got underway from the cottage with 2 dogs heading North on Route 12. Got about 1 mile down the road and said to myself... Derk!!! You have not done the most important thing you had to do today. You have the means, you want to, so why are you waiting. I NEEDED to post ROLL to get this day and drive started. Immediately, pulled over into a parking lock off of Route 12 and got out my computer. Luckily this work computer has a card in it that allows me to connect to the internet. Logged on... posted ROLL. Immediate sense of relief,,, NOW day can begin.
After 28 days,,, I am starting to get back control of my life. I own this quit, but the most important thing I can do today is post ROLL,,, then roll out the door and begin my day QUIT. Best 90 minute drive I have had in a long time -- quit and loving every minute of it. Music sounded better, coffee tasted better, cars were moving out of my way! Post ROLL early. Committ to the quit for this day ASAP. The absolute most important thing you will do today. I am quit with you today!
Head on a swivel!!! Head on a swivel!!!
You've got your priorities straight. Nice job!
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Woke up at 0615 this morning and we were checking out of our rental down in Outer Banks, NC. 2 whining dogs woke me that needed to be let out. Rolled out of bed, let out the dogs, then I was running hard immediately to pack up 2 cars. Plan was for me to take the 2 dogs home in 1 car and Mrs. Derk was going to go shopping while on the way home with the kids. No problem. After about 2 hrs of packing, it was time for me to leave. Still had not posted ROLL for day 28. Computer packed and car ready so I made a decision to drive home and post ROLL when I got home which would be at aroud 1030 am. After all, it was going to be too difficult to get out my computer and do it prior to my departure,,, right? Got underway from the cottage with 2 dogs heading North on Route 12. Got about 1 mile down the road and said to myself... Derk!!! You have not done the most important thing you had to do today. You have the means, you want to, so why are you waiting. I NEEDED to post ROLL to get this day and drive started. Immediately, pulled over into a parking lock off of Route 12 and got out my computer. Luckily this work computer has a card in it that allows me to connect to the internet. Logged on... posted ROLL. Immediate sense of relief,,, NOW day can begin.
After 28 days,,, I am starting to get back control of my life. I own this quit, but the most important thing I can do today is post ROLL,,, then roll out the door and begin my day QUIT. Best 90 minute drive I have had in a long time -- quit and loving every minute of it. Music sounded better, coffee tasted better, cars were moving out of my way! Post ROLL early. Committ to the quit for this day ASAP. The absolute most important thing you will do today. I am quit with you today!
This dude has his quit well underway nice Derk you should have had a big quit stiffy on that trip with you this AM. Yep I have been gone almost every weekend of the summer and I pack my pc w me everywhere. I wont stay at a hotel that does not have wifi. I bring my pc for the sole reason is to post roll I have even turned around just to get it when I have forgotten it. I lack the skills to post from fone. I have others post for me when I have no wifi.
YES DERK!!! very proud of you doing the biggest step to save your life daily. It wasn't too difficult for you like some dude named BOBO who thinks that this whole roll posting is just too difficult. You had a packed car flying down the road and you made the effort to promise yourself and us that you will not use for today. You have worked quit into your plan. nice work
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Woke up at 0615 this morning and we were checking out of our rental down in Outer Banks, NC. 2 whining dogs woke me that needed to be let out. Rolled out of bed, let out the dogs, then I was running hard immediately to pack up 2 cars. Plan was for me to take the 2 dogs home in 1 car and Mrs. Derk was going to go shopping while on the way home with the kids. No problem. After about 2 hrs of packing, it was time for me to leave. Still had not posted ROLL for day 28. Computer packed and car ready so I made a decision to drive home and post ROLL when I got home which would be at aroud 1030 am. After all, it was going to be too difficult to get out my computer and do it prior to my departure,,, right? Got underway from the cottage with 2 dogs heading North on Route 12. Got about 1 mile down the road and said to myself... Derk!!! You have not done the most important thing you had to do today. You have the means, you want to, so why are you waiting. I NEEDED to post ROLL to get this day and drive started. Immediately, pulled over into a parking lock off of Route 12 and got out my computer. Luckily this work computer has a card in it that allows me to connect to the internet. Logged on... posted ROLL. Immediate sense of relief,,, NOW day can begin.
After 28 days,,, I am starting to get back control of my life. I own this quit, but the most important thing I can do today is post ROLL,,, then roll out the door and begin my day QUIT. Best 90 minute drive I have had in a long time -- quit and loving every minute of it. Music sounded better, coffee tasted better, cars were moving out of my way! Post ROLL early. Committ to the quit for this day ASAP. The absolute most important thing you will do today. I am quit with you today!
Head on a swivel!!! Head on a swivel!!!
You've got your priorities straight. Nice job!
I'm the same way after day 155. Post roll first and the day can begin. Proud of you bro.
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Woke up at 0615 this morning and we were checking out of our rental down in Outer Banks, NC. 2 whining dogs woke me that needed to be let out. Rolled out of bed, let out the dogs, then I was running hard immediately to pack up 2 cars. Plan was for me to take the 2 dogs home in 1 car and Mrs. Derk was going to go shopping while on the way home with the kids. No problem. After about 2 hrs of packing, it was time for me to leave. Still had not posted ROLL for day 28. Computer packed and car ready so I made a decision to drive home and post ROLL when I got home which would be at aroud 1030 am. After all, it was going to be too difficult to get out my computer and do it prior to my departure,,, right? Got underway from the cottage with 2 dogs heading North on Route 12. Got about 1 mile down the road and said to myself... Derk!!! You have not done the most important thing you had to do today. You have the means, you want to, so why are you waiting. I NEEDED to post ROLL to get this day and drive started. Immediately, pulled over into a parking lock off of Route 12 and got out my computer. Luckily this work computer has a card in it that allows me to connect to the internet. Logged on... posted ROLL. Immediate sense of relief,,, NOW day can begin.
After 28 days,,, I am starting to get back control of my life. I own this quit, but the most important thing I can do today is post ROLL,,, then roll out the door and begin my day QUIT. Best 90 minute drive I have had in a long time -- quit and loving every minute of it. Music sounded better, coffee tasted better, cars were moving out of my way!  Post ROLL early. Committ to the quit for this day ASAP. The absolute most important thing you will do today. I am quit with you today!
Head on a swivel!!! Head on a swivel!!!
You've got your priorities straight. Nice job!
I'm the same way after day 155. Post roll first and the day can begin. Proud of you bro.
That's funny because my computer took a dump today and instead of being mad and having a nice fat dip.....I was pissed because I had to wait to get to work to post roll. I am looking into a new laptop for me though so that will be good.
Two quit thumbs up today for us!
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Woke up at 0615 this morning and we were checking out of our rental down in Outer Banks, NC. 2 whining dogs woke me that needed to be let out. Rolled out of bed, let out the dogs, then I was running hard immediately to pack up 2 cars. Plan was for me to take the 2 dogs home in 1 car and Mrs. Derk was going to go shopping while on the way home with the kids. No problem. After about 2 hrs of packing, it was time for me to leave. Still had not posted ROLL for day 28. Computer packed and car ready so I made a decision to drive home and post ROLL when I got home which would be at aroud 1030 am. After all, it was going to be too difficult to get out my computer and do it prior to my departure,,, right? Got underway from the cottage with 2 dogs heading North on Route 12. Got about 1 mile down the road and said to myself... Derk!!! You have not done the most important thing you had to do today. You have the means, you want to, so why are you waiting. I NEEDED to post ROLL to get this day and drive started. Immediately, pulled over into a parking lock off of Route 12 and got out my computer. Luckily this work computer has a card in it that allows me to connect to the internet. Logged on... posted ROLL. Immediate sense of relief,,, NOW day can begin.
After 28 days,,, I am starting to get back control of my life. I own this quit, but the most important thing I can do today is post ROLL,,, then roll out the door and begin my day QUIT. Best 90 minute drive I have had in a long time -- quit and loving every minute of it. Music sounded better, coffee tasted better, cars were moving out of my way!  Post ROLL early. Committ to the quit for this day ASAP. The absolute most important thing you will do today. I am quit with you today!
Head on a swivel!!! Head on a swivel!!!
You've got your priorities straight. Nice job!
I'm the same way after day 155. Post roll first and the day can begin. Proud of you bro.
That's funny because my computer took a dump today and instead of being mad and having a nice fat dip.....I was pissed because I had to wait to get to work to post roll. I am looking into a new laptop for me though so that will be good.
Two quit thumbs up today for us!
Nice Derk. This is exactly what I like to see in new quits. Ownership is the key. Look at some of these other threads....guys posting reasons they CAN'T post up. Guys whining about how hard it is. Guys pissed that they can't have a dip. You on the other hand were pissed you hadn't posted roll yet. This is one of the signs of a quit that is going to be successful. You are engaged and in control. You are the aggressor. Nic doesn't stand a chance with an attitude like yours man. I love it. Quit with you bro. Reach out if you need anything.
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Woke up at 0615 this morning and we were checking out of our rental down in Outer Banks, NC. 2 whining dogs woke me that needed to be let out. Rolled out of bed, let out the dogs, then I was running hard immediately to pack up 2 cars. Plan was for me to take the 2 dogs home in 1 car and Mrs. Derk was going to go shopping while on the way home with the kids. No problem. After about 2 hrs of packing, it was time for me to leave. Still had not posted ROLL for day 28. Computer packed and car ready so I made a decision to drive home and post ROLL when I got home which would be at aroud 1030 am. After all, it was going to be too difficult to get out my computer and do it prior to my departure,,, right? Got underway from the cottage with 2 dogs heading North on Route 12. Got about 1 mile down the road and said to myself... Derk!!! You have not done the most important thing you had to do today. You have the means, you want to, so why are you waiting. I NEEDED to post ROLL to get this day and drive started. Immediately, pulled over into a parking lock off of Route 12 and got out my computer. Luckily this work computer has a card in it that allows me to connect to the internet. Logged on... posted ROLL. Immediate sense of relief,,, NOW day can begin.
After 28 days,,, I am starting to get back control of my life. I own this quit, but the most important thing I can do today is post ROLL,,, then roll out the door and begin my day QUIT. Best 90 minute drive I have had in a long time -- quit and loving every minute of it. Music sounded better, coffee tasted better, cars were moving out of my way!  Post ROLL early. Committ to the quit for this day ASAP. The absolute most important thing you will do today. I am quit with you today!
Head on a swivel!!! Head on a swivel!!!
You've got your priorities straight. Nice job!
I'm the same way after day 155. Post roll first and the day can begin. Proud of you bro.
That's funny because my computer took a dump today and instead of being mad and having a nice fat dip.....I was pissed because I had to wait to get to work to post roll. I am looking into a new laptop for me though so that will be good.
Two quit thumbs up today for us!
Nice Derk. This is exactly what I like to see in new quits. Ownership is the key. Look at some of these other threads....guys posting reasons they CAN'T post up. Guys whining about how hard it is. Guys pissed that they can't have a dip. You on the other hand were pissed you hadn't posted roll yet. This is one of the signs of a quit that is going to be successful. You are engaged and in control. You are the aggressor. Nic doesn't stand a chance with an attitude like yours man. I love it. Quit with you bro. Reach out if you need anything.
Well played sir, well played!
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Woke up today excited to post roll for day 30. Went to the computer immediately and Mrs. Derk asked me what I was doing - "posting roll" I said. She just said "Oh". Not much enthusiasm at 0630, but no matter. Just a short time ago, day 30 seemed like an impossible task. The fog was trying to suck me in, but I was able to hold strong follow the advice of those that have already blazed the path of quit. A tough group of people that I know have my back. Day 30 feels great, but this quit lives on. I am still an addict... 30 days did not change that no amount of days ever will. Need to continue to work this quit today. I decided to get a lotto ticket on my way home from work. Prob a waste of money, but I am convinced I will win one day. Anyhow, a newbie was running the register at 7/11. Told her I wanted a quick pick and she went to get the ticket. She could not figure out how to run that machine for the life of her her trainer was not on scene to assist. So I sat there staring behind the counter. I sort of got the feeling that the rack of death was staring at me. Not one to back down, I stared right back. The rack of death was not going to make me look away. I posted roll this morning committed to this quit - no cave on my agenda today. Took that lady about 5 minutes to get me that winning ticket and I stared down the rack of death for all 5 minutes. Not sure she backed down, but she knew I meant business. After a struggle, the newbie brought me the ticket, I paid my dollar and left the store. Really felt great about my 30 day quit at that moment. Got in the car and decided that the first thing I need to do was close out day 30 strong. Got a quit goin on here!
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Woke up today excited to post roll for day 30. Went to the computer immediately and Mrs. Derk asked me what I was doing - "posting roll" I said. She just said "Oh". Not much enthusiasm at 0630, but no matter. Just a short time ago, day 30 seemed like an impossible task. The fog was trying to suck me in, but I was able to hold strong follow the advice of those that have already blazed the path of quit. A tough group of people that I know have my back. Day 30 feels great, but this quit lives on. I am still an addict... 30 days did not change that no amount of days ever will. Need to continue to work this quit today. I decided to get a lotto ticket on my way home from work. Prob a waste of money, but I am convinced I will win one day. Anyhow, a newbie was running the register at 7/11. Told her I wanted a quick pick and she went to get the ticket. She could not figure out how to run that machine for the life of her her trainer was not on scene to assist. So I sat there staring behind the counter. I sort of got the feeling that the rack of death was staring at me. Not one to back down, I stared right back. The rack of death was not going to make me look away. I posted roll this morning committed to this quit - no cave on my agenda today. Took that lady about 5 minutes to get me that winning ticket and I stared down the rack of death for all 5 minutes. Not sure she backed down, but she knew I meant business. After a struggle, the newbie brought me the ticket, I paid my dollar and left the store. Really felt great about my 30 day quit at that moment. Got in the car and decided that the first thing I need to do was close out day 30 strong. Got a quit goin on here!
Oh hell yeah Derk. Quittin like a BOSS.
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Woke up today excited to post roll for day 30. Went to the computer immediately and Mrs. Derk asked me what I was doing - "posting roll" I said. She just said "Oh". Not much enthusiasm at 0630, but no matter. Just a short time ago, day 30 seemed like an impossible task. The fog was trying to suck me in, but I was able to hold strong follow the advice of those that have already blazed the path of quit. A tough group of people that I know have my back. Day 30 feels great, but this quit lives on. I am still an addict... 30 days did not change that no amount of days ever will. Need to continue to work this quit today. I decided to get a lotto ticket on my way home from work. Prob a waste of money, but I am convinced I will win one day. Anyhow, a newbie was running the register at 7/11. Told her I wanted a quick pick and she went to get the ticket. She could not figure out how to run that machine for the life of her her trainer was not on scene to assist. So I sat there staring behind the counter. I sort of got the feeling that the rack of death was staring at me. Not one to back down, I stared right back. The rack of death was not going to make me look away. I posted roll this morning committed to this quit - no cave on my agenda today. Took that lady about 5 minutes to get me that winning ticket and I stared down the rack of death for all 5 minutes. Not sure she backed down, but she knew I meant business. After a struggle, the newbie brought me the ticket, I paid my dollar and left the store. Really felt great about my 30 day quit at that moment. Got in the car and decided that the first thing I need to do was close out day 30 strong. Got a quit goin on here!
BOOOOM!!! The quit is strong in this one. 'jedisith' 'jedisith' 'jedisith'
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Woke up today excited to post roll for day 30. Went to the computer immediately and Mrs. Derk asked me what I was doing - "posting roll" I said. She just said "Oh". Not much enthusiasm at 0630, but no matter. Just a short time ago, day 30 seemed like an impossible task. The fog was trying to suck me in, but I was able to hold strong follow the advice of those that have already blazed the path of quit. A tough group of people that I know have my back. Day 30 feels great, but this quit lives on. I am still an addict... 30 days did not change that no amount of days ever will. Need to continue to work this quit today. I decided to get a lotto ticket on my way home from work. Prob a waste of money, but I am convinced I will win one day. Anyhow, a newbie was running the register at 7/11. Told her I wanted a quick pick and she went to get the ticket. She could not figure out how to run that machine for the life of her her trainer was not on scene to assist. So I sat there staring behind the counter. I sort of got the feeling that the rack of death was staring at me. Not one to back down, I stared right back. The rack of death was not going to make me look away. I posted roll this morning committed to this quit - no cave on my agenda today. Took that lady about 5 minutes to get me that winning ticket and I stared down the rack of death for all 5 minutes. Not sure she backed down, but she knew I meant business. After a struggle, the newbie brought me the ticket, I paid my dollar and left the store. Really felt great about my 30 day quit at that moment. Got in the car and decided that the first thing I need to do was close out day 30 strong. Got a quit goin on here!
BOOOOM!!! The quit is strong in this one. 'jedisith' 'jedisith' 'jedisith'
That is awesome!! F U bitch. Love it brother. Man I want to kick some ass after reading that
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Woke up today excited to post roll for day 30. Went to the computer immediately and Mrs. Derk asked me what I was doing - "posting roll" I said. She just said "Oh". Not much enthusiasm at 0630, but no matter. Just a short time ago, day 30 seemed like an impossible task. The fog was trying to suck me in, but I was able to hold strong follow the advice of those that have already blazed the path of quit. A tough group of people that I know have my back. Day 30 feels great, but this quit lives on. I am still an addict... 30 days did not change that no amount of days ever will. Need to continue to work this quit today. I decided to get a lotto ticket on my way home from work. Prob a waste of money, but I am convinced I will win one day. Anyhow, a newbie was running the register at 7/11. Told her I wanted a quick pick and she went to get the ticket. She could not figure out how to run that machine for the life of her her trainer was not on scene to assist. So I sat there staring behind the counter. I sort of got the feeling that the rack of death was staring at me. Not one to back down, I stared right back. The rack of death was not going to make me look away. I posted roll this morning committed to this quit - no cave on my agenda today. Took that lady about 5 minutes to get me that winning ticket and I stared down the rack of death for all 5 minutes. Not sure she backed down, but she knew I meant business. After a struggle, the newbie brought me the ticket, I paid my dollar and left the store. Really felt great about my 30 day quit at that moment. Got in the car and decided that the first thing I need to do was close out day 30 strong. Got a quit goin on here!
BOOOOM!!! The quit is strong in this one. 'jedisith' 'jedisith' 'jedisith'
That is awesome!! F U bitch. Love it brother. Man I want to kick some ass after reading that
F' yeah Derk! That is some bad assed quit power! 'Finger' nic I can stare back just as hard biotch... You sure as shit are an inspiration to me brother! Quit on!
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Woke up today excited to post roll for day 30. Went to the computer immediately and Mrs. Derk asked me what I was doing - "posting roll" I said. She just said "Oh". Not much enthusiasm at 0630, but no matter. Just a short time ago, day 30 seemed like an impossible task. The fog was trying to suck me in, but I was able to hold strong follow the advice of those that have already blazed the path of quit. A tough group of people that I know have my back. Day 30 feels great, but this quit lives on. I am still an addict... 30 days did not change that no amount of days ever will. Need to continue to work this quit today. I decided to get a lotto ticket on my way home from work. Prob a waste of money, but I am convinced I will win one day. Anyhow, a newbie was running the register at 7/11. Told her I wanted a quick pick and she went to get the ticket. She could not figure out how to run that machine for the life of her her trainer was not on scene to assist. So I sat there staring behind the counter. I sort of got the feeling that the rack of death was staring at me. Not one to back down, I stared right back. The rack of death was not going to make me look away. I posted roll this morning committed to this quit - no cave on my agenda today. Took that lady about 5 minutes to get me that winning ticket and I stared down the rack of death for all 5 minutes. Not sure she backed down, but she knew I meant business. After a struggle, the newbie brought me the ticket, I paid my dollar and left the store. Really felt great about my 30 day quit at that moment. Got in the car and decided that the first thing I need to do was close out day 30 strong. Got a quit goin on here!
BOOOOM!!! The quit is strong in this one. 'jedisith' 'jedisith' 'jedisith'
That is awesome!! F U bitch. Love it brother. Man I want to kick some ass after reading that
F' yeah Derk! That is some bad assed quit power! 'Finger' nic I can stare back just as hard biotch... You sure as shit are an inspiration to me brother! Quit on!
Hell Yeah! That's some nic ass kick in' inspiration.
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Woke up today excited to post roll for day 30. Went to the computer immediately and Mrs. Derk asked me what I was doing - "posting roll" I said. She just said "Oh". Not much enthusiasm at 0630, but no matter. Just a short time ago, day 30 seemed like an impossible task. The fog was trying to suck me in, but I was able to hold strong follow the advice of those that have already blazed the path of quit. A tough group of people that I know have my back. Day 30 feels great, but this quit lives on. I am still an addict... 30 days did not change that no amount of days ever will. Need to continue to work this quit today. I decided to get a lotto ticket on my way home from work. Prob a waste of money, but I am convinced I will win one day. Anyhow, a newbie was running the register at 7/11. Told her I wanted a quick pick and she went to get the ticket. She could not figure out how to run that machine for the life of her her trainer was not on scene to assist. So I sat there staring behind the counter. I sort of got the feeling that the rack of death was staring at me. Not one to back down, I stared right back. The rack of death was not going to make me look away. I posted roll this morning committed to this quit - no cave on my agenda today. Took that lady about 5 minutes to get me that winning ticket and I stared down the rack of death for all 5 minutes. Not sure she backed down, but she knew I meant business. After a struggle, the newbie brought me the ticket, I paid my dollar and left the store. Really felt great about my 30 day quit at that moment. Got in the car and decided that the first thing I need to do was close out day 30 strong. Got a quit goin on here!
BOOOOM!!! The quit is strong in this one. 'jedisith' 'jedisith' 'jedisith'
That is awesome!! F U bitch. Love it brother. Man I want to kick some ass after reading that
F' yeah Derk! That is some bad assed quit power! 'Finger' nic I can stare back just as hard biotch... You sure as shit are an inspiration to me brother! Quit on!
Proud to be quit with tip his guy!!! No its even more tham that, I'm fucking ecstatic to be quit with this guy!
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Woke up today excited to post roll for day 30. Went to the computer immediately and Mrs. Derk asked me what I was doing - "posting roll" I said. She just said "Oh". Not much enthusiasm at 0630, but no matter. Just a short time ago, day 30 seemed like an impossible task. The fog was trying to suck me in, but I was able to hold strong follow the advice of those that have already blazed the path of quit. A tough group of people that I know have my back. Day 30 feels great, but this quit lives on. I am still an addict... 30 days did not change that no amount of days ever will. Need to continue to work this quit today. I decided to get a lotto ticket on my way home from work. Prob a waste of money, but I am convinced I will win one day. Anyhow, a newbie was running the register at 7/11. Told her I wanted a quick pick and she went to get the ticket. She could not figure out how to run that machine for the life of her her trainer was not on scene to assist. So I sat there staring behind the counter. I sort of got the feeling that the rack of death was staring at me. Not one to back down, I stared right back. The rack of death was not going to make me look away. I posted roll this morning committed to this quit - no cave on my agenda today. Took that lady about 5 minutes to get me that winning ticket and I stared down the rack of death for all 5 minutes. Not sure she backed down, but she knew I meant business. After a struggle, the newbie brought me the ticket, I paid my dollar and left the store. Really felt great about my 30 day quit at that moment. Got in the car and decided that the first thing I need to do was close out day 30 strong. Got a quit goin on here!
BOOOOM!!! The quit is strong in this one. 'jedisith' 'jedisith' 'jedisith'
That is awesome!! F U bitch. Love it brother. Man I want to kick some ass after reading that
F' yeah Derk! That is some bad assed quit power! 'Finger' nic I can stare back just as hard biotch... You sure as shit are an inspiration to me brother! Quit on!
Proud to be quit with tip his guy!!! No its even more tham that, I'm fucking ecstatic to be quit with this guy!
Great stuff Derk. I draw a ton of strength from your quit. Quit on, brother.
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Woke up today excited to post roll for day 30. Went to the computer immediately and Mrs. Derk asked me what I was doing - "posting roll" I said. She just said "Oh". Not much enthusiasm at 0630, but no matter. Just a short time ago, day 30 seemed like an impossible task. The fog was trying to suck me in, but I was able to hold strong follow the advice of those that have already blazed the path of quit. A tough group of people that I know have my back. Day 30 feels great, but this quit lives on. I am still an addict... 30 days did not change that no amount of days ever will. Need to continue to work this quit today. I decided to get a lotto ticket on my way home from work. Prob a waste of money, but I am convinced I will win one day. Anyhow, a newbie was running the register at 7/11. Told her I wanted a quick pick and she went to get the ticket. She could not figure out how to run that machine for the life of her her trainer was not on scene to assist. So I sat there staring behind the counter. I sort of got the feeling that the rack of death was staring at me. Not one to back down, I stared right back. The rack of death was not going to make me look away. I posted roll this morning committed to this quit - no cave on my agenda today. Took that lady about 5 minutes to get me that winning ticket and I stared down the rack of death for all 5 minutes. Not sure she backed down, but she knew I meant business. After a struggle, the newbie brought me the ticket, I paid my dollar and left the store. Really felt great about my 30 day quit at that moment. Got in the car and decided that the first thing I need to do was close out day 30 strong. Got a quit goin on here!
BOOOOM!!! The quit is strong in this one. 'jedisith' 'jedisith' 'jedisith'
That is awesome!! F U bitch. Love it brother. Man I want to kick some ass after reading that
F' yeah Derk! That is some bad assed quit power! 'Finger' nic I can stare back just as hard biotch... You sure as shit are an inspiration to me brother! Quit on!
Proud to be quit with tip his guy!!! No its even more tham that, I'm fucking ecstatic to be quit with this guy!
Great stuff Derk. I draw a ton of strength from your quit. Quit on, brother.
What can I say derk? When you were staring at those cans... Did you think back to walking down the beach in Puerto Rico? Something you probably wouldn't have spent any time enjoying just a few weeks ago because you would have been busy getting your fix on? Or how the withdrawal made you yell and curse in front of your family? Or how you hid this from your family in shame but just couldn't quit for all those years?
Every one of these points I can relate to, so dont take this as a slam. The best way to overcome that feeling is straight up rage. When in doubt, get angry.
Today i stopped and bought the actual winning tocket at my local Phillips station. One day not that long ago i stopped to buy my typical 3 cans and who was there but the kodiak rep?!? And she saw me buying the cans and happily offered me 10 free ones!!!! Did I mention free? And she was so hot... Long legs... Blonde... Tall... Big b... (I better stop now!). That day seemed like I win the lottery! I thought of her today and thought of the story of Eve.... And it made me angry. I mean really... What on earth is a sex goddess like that pushing chew for? Goddamn tobacco companies!
Thanks for contributing to the powerball jackpot. Ill do a lot of good (for me) with that money! Great job on the quit - keep it up!
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day 34... quit today with all yous... I have been thinkin alot about one issue and needed to move forward with that this week. Need to hit the Dr and Dentist for the annual visits. I have a Dr visit sked in 2 weeks and waiting on Dentist to call me back. I hit these visits annually, but have played dumb on the "do you use tobacco" in the past. Never hit is head on.
Been reading about asking for a "cancer screening" from the dentist. I think they do that every year anyhow, but it is more cursory if you don't say you use. I want a good look this time.
Any recommendations on what sort of things I should say or ask for when I go to these visits? Need to establish my baseline post trash in mouth.
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day 34... quit today with all yous... I have been thinkin alot about one issue and needed to move forward with that this week. Need to hit the Dr and Dentist for the annual visits. I have a Dr visit sked in 2 weeks and waiting on Dentist to call me back. I hit these visits annually, but have played dumb on the "do you use tobacco" in the past. Never hit is head on.
Been reading about asking for a "cancer screening" from the dentist. I think they do that every year anyhow, but it is more cursory if you don't say you use. I want a good look this time.
Any recommendations on what sort of things I should say or ask for when I go to these visits? Need to establish my baseline post trash in mouth.
I think what you just stated here would work for your dentist visit derk. Be up front and real with the dentist. Tell him about your new life. They are very supportive and will probably be more thorough with their eval. They were for me anyhow. I bet they see a lot of people that haven't quit yet, and they know what it can eventually do. Quit with you anyday bro.
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day 34... quit today with all yous... I have been thinkin alot about one issue and needed to move forward with that this week. Need to hit the Dr and Dentist for the annual visits. I have a Dr visit sked in 2 weeks and waiting on Dentist to call me back. I hit these visits annually, but have played dumb on the "do you use tobacco" in the past. Never hit is head on.
Been reading about asking for a "cancer screening" from the dentist. I think they do that every year anyhow, but it is more cursory if you don't say you use. I want a good look this time.Â
Any recommendations on what sort of things I should say or ask for when I go to these visits? Need to establish my baseline post trash in mouth.
I think what you just stated here would work for your dentist visit derk. Be up front and real with the dentist. Tell him about your new life. They are very supportive and will probably be more thorough with their eval. They were for me anyhow. I bet they see a lot of people that haven't quit yet, and they know what it can eventually do. Quit with you anyday bro.
Derk - run in there and tell then your story! That you were an addict and now you've quit! You know how you've hated going to the dentist? Those days are over. They will check you out and likely be proud. And you might get an extra free toothbrush out if it.
By the way, my dentist laughed when I told him I had chewed for 25 years and quit. I told him how I hadn't told anyone about the extent of my addiction. His exact reply was "I knew all along. You might be able to hide that from everyone else, but I knew." Then he showed me the note in his computer record "estimate uses a several cans of chewing tobacco a week based on tooth and gum health, patient denies using."
It feels so good to be honest. Ill quit with you again today.
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day 34... quit today with all yous... I have been thinkin alot about one issue and needed to move forward with that this week. Need to hit the Dr and Dentist for the annual visits. I have a Dr visit sked in 2 weeks and waiting on Dentist to call me back. I hit these visits annually, but have played dumb on the "do you use tobacco" in the past. Never hit is head on.
Been reading about asking for a "cancer screening" from the dentist. I think they do that every year anyhow, but it is more cursory if you don't say you use. I want a good look this time.Â
Any recommendations on what sort of things I should say or ask for when I go to these visits? Need to establish my baseline post trash in mouth.
I think what you just stated here would work for your dentist visit derk. Be up front and real with the dentist. Tell him about your new life. They are very supportive and will probably be more thorough with their eval. They were for me anyhow. I bet they see a lot of people that haven't quit yet, and they know what it can eventually do. Quit with you anyday bro.
Derk - run in there and tell then your story! That you were an addict and now you've quit! You know how you've hated going to the dentist? Those days are over. They will check you out and likely be proud. And you might get an extra free toothbrush out if it.
By the way, my dentist laughed when I told him I had chewed for 25 years and quit. I told him how I hadn't told anyone about the extent of my addiction. His exact reply was "I knew all along. You might be able to hide that from everyone else, but I knew." Then he showed me the note in his computer record "estimate uses a several cans of chewing tobacco a week based on tooth and gum health, patient denies using."
It feels so good to be honest. Ill quit with you again today.
Roger that. Weird how it seems like everyone knew and I thought no one knew. Talk about being blind and lost. Great to be thinking and seeing clearly now that we have kicked the poison to the curb. I appreciate the advice. I will let you know how it goes. Stay quit.
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Day 40... QLF ODAAT and that remains my focus today. It has to be my focus today as my day revolves around staying quit. I am still working on figuring out how to live quit. Part of me is a little foggy still I guess. Goin 2 bed late and wakin up late. On the computer smartphone all the time reading and doing all things related to KTC. My job is off just a bit... stacks of stuff on my desk, getting to things in time and not plowing thru it as I used to. I am good with that. I know this is how this is how it has to be for me now. I know because you told me so. I have to stay quit today and in time it will get better. Saying that, even though everything is a bit off -- it has never been better. No poison in my life anymore. That feels damn good. So each day needs to be like this -- I need to wake up, post roll, stay quit, and support my KTC brothers/sisters. Very simple plan. Hard work to execute - but I am on it.
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Day 40... QLF ODAAT and that remains my focus today. It has to be my focus today as my day revolves around staying quit. I am still working on figuring out how to live quit. Part of me is a little foggy still I guess. Goin 2 bed late and wakin up late. On the computer smartphone all the time reading and doing all things related to KTC. My job is off just a bit... stacks of stuff on my desk, getting to things in time and not plowing thru it as I used to. I am good with that. I know this is how this is how it has to be for me now. I know because you told me so. I have to stay quit today and in time it will get better. Saying that, even though everything is a bit off -- it has never been better. No poison in my life anymore. That feels damn good. So each day needs to be like this -- I need to wake up, post roll, stay quit, and support my KTC brothers/sisters. Very simple plan. Hard work to execute - but I am on it.
Bro,, its almost weekend time. Here's what you need to do. I'm sure you have a favorite place to Get steak. Go there as soon as you can. Get the biggest nastiest steak they have.
Now if this is a reputable steak joint your Mully grubs will begin disappearing with the first bite. All worries and concerns will not sit with you at the dinner table for Very long. When you leave the only thought you should have is where the nearest latrine is located.
Now if your a vegetarian or something of that nature I'm sorry. Maybe there is some kind of great salad joint you know of. I can't think of a magical salad to help with the mully grubs though. I believe vegetarians are a sad bunch. Not much i can do about that. Quit with you bro.
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Day 40... QLF ODAAT and that remains my focus today. It has to be my focus today as my day revolves around staying quit. I am still working on figuring out how to live quit. Part of me is a little foggy still I guess. Goin 2 bed late and wakin up late. On the computer smartphone all the time reading and doing all things related to KTC. My job is off just a bit... stacks of stuff on my desk, getting to things in time and not plowing thru it as I used to. I am good with that. I know this is how this is how it has to be for me now. I know because you told me so. I have to stay quit today and in time it will get better. Saying that, even though everything is a bit off -- it has never been better. No poison in my life anymore. That feels damn good. So each day needs to be like this -- I need to wake up, post roll, stay quit, and support my KTC brothers/sisters. Very simple plan. Hard work to execute - but I am on it.
Bro,, its almost weekend time. Here's what you need to do. I'm sure you have a favorite place to Get steak. Go there as soon as you can. Get the biggest nastiest steak they have.
Now if this is a reputable steak joint your Mully grubs will begin disappearing with the first bite. All worries and concerns will not sit with you at the dinner table for Very long. When you leave the only thought you should have is where the nearest latrine is located.
Now if your a vegetarian or something of that nature I'm sorry. Maybe there is some kind of great salad joint you know of. I can't think of a magical salad to help with the mully grubs though. I believe vegetarians are a sad bunch. Not much i can do about that. Quit with you bro.
I am all sorts of befuddled by that post, Srans.
WTF is Molly Grubs and why does one need to find the nearest latrine? Is there such a beast as a nasty steak?
'Crazy'
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Day 40... QLF ODAAT and that remains my focus today. It has to be my focus today as my day revolves around staying quit. I am still working on figuring out how to live quit. Part of me is a little foggy still I guess. Goin 2 bed late and wakin up late. On the computer smartphone all the time reading and doing all things related to KTC. My job is off just a bit... stacks of stuff on my desk, getting to things in time and not plowing thru it as I used to. I am good with that. I know this is how this is how it has to be for me now. I know because you told me so. I have to stay quit today and in time it will get better. Saying that, even though everything is a bit off -- it has never been better. No poison in my life anymore. That feels damn good. So each day needs to be like this -- I need to wake up, post roll, stay quit, and support my KTC brothers/sisters. Very simple plan. Hard work to execute - but I am on it.
Bro,, its almost weekend time. Here's what you need to do. I'm sure you have a favorite place to Get steak. Go there as soon as you can. Get the biggest nastiest steak they have.
Now if this is a reputable steak joint your Mully grubs will begin disappearing with the first bite. All worries and concerns will not sit with you at the dinner table for Very long. When you leave the only thought you should have is where the nearest latrine is located.
Now if your a vegetarian or something of that nature I'm sorry. Maybe there is some kind of great salad joint you know of. I can't think of a magical salad to help with the mully grubs though. I believe vegetarians are a sad bunch. Not much i can do about that. Quit with you bro.
I am all sorts of befuddled by that post, Srans.
WTF is Molly Grubs and why does one need to find the nearest latrine? Is there such a beast as a nasty steak?
'Crazy'
That might go along with the Cold Stone creamery story. Maybe its a food thing.
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Day 40... QLF ODAAT and that remains my focus today. It has to be my focus today as my day revolves around staying quit. I am still working on figuring out how to live quit. Part of me is a little foggy still I guess. Goin 2 bed late and wakin up late. On the computer smartphone all the time reading and doing all things related to KTC. My job is off just a bit... stacks of stuff on my desk, getting to things in time and not plowing thru it as I used to. I am good with that. I know this is how this is how it has to be for me now. I know because you told me so. I have to stay quit today and in time it will get better. Saying that, even though everything is a bit off -- it has never been better. No poison in my life anymore. That feels damn good. So each day needs to be like this -- I need to wake up, post roll, stay quit, and support my KTC brothers/sisters. Very simple plan. Hard work to execute - but I am on it.
Bro,, its almost weekend time. Here's what you need to do. I'm sure you have a favorite place to Get steak. Go there as soon as you can. Get the biggest nastiest steak they have.
Now if this is a reputable steak joint your Mully grubs will begin disappearing with the first bite. All worries and concerns will not sit with you at the dinner table for Very long. When you leave the only thought you should have is where the nearest latrine is located.
Now if your a vegetarian or something of that nature I'm sorry. Maybe there is some kind of great salad joint you know of. I can't think of a magical salad to help with the mully grubs though. I believe vegetarians are a sad bunch. Not much i can do about that. Quit with you bro.
I am all sorts of befuddled by that post, Srans.
WTF is Molly Grubs and why does one need to find the nearest latrine? Is there such a beast as a nasty steak?
'Crazy'
That might go along with the Cold Stone creamery story. Maybe its a food thing.
Oh! Yes, I forgot about the strawberry and (forgot) from Cold Stone- I dont like ice cream so I usually just wait in the car while the wife and kids go in to get their stuff.
Told ya' I was an asshole! Who doesn't like Ice Cream?? Commies and/or assholes that's who!
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Day 40... QLF ODAAT and that remains my focus today. It has to be my focus today as my day revolves around staying quit. I am still working on figuring out how to live quit. Part of me is a little foggy still I guess. Goin 2 bed late and wakin up late. On the computer smartphone all the time reading and doing all things related to KTC. My job is off just a bit... stacks of stuff on my desk, getting to things in time and not plowing thru it as I used to. I am good with that. I know this is how this is how it has to be for me now. I know because you told me so. I have to stay quit today and in time it will get better. Saying that, even though everything is a bit off -- it has never been better. No poison in my life anymore. That feels damn good. So each day needs to be like this -- I need to wake up, post roll, stay quit, and support my KTC brothers/sisters. Very simple plan. Hard work to execute - but I am on it.
Bro,, its almost weekend time. Here's what you need to do. I'm sure you have a favorite place to Get steak. Go there as soon as you can. Get the biggest nastiest steak they have.
Now if this is a reputable steak joint your Mully grubs will begin disappearing with the first bite. All worries and concerns will not sit with you at the dinner table for Very long. When you leave the only thought you should have is where the nearest latrine is located.
Now if your a vegetarian or something of that nature I'm sorry. Maybe there is some kind of great salad joint you know of. I can't think of a magical salad to help with the mully grubs though. I believe vegetarians are a sad bunch. Not much i can do about that. Quit with you bro.
I am all sorts of befuddled by that post, Srans.
WTF is Molly Grubs and why does one need to find the nearest latrine? Is there such a beast as a nasty steak?
'Crazy'
Mully grubs - sad not feeling great.
Biggest nastiest streak - half redneck for great steak.
Your not one of them vegetarians are you Dougie. 'crackup'
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Day 40... QLF ODAAT and that remains my focus today. It has to be my focus today as my day revolves around staying quit. I am still working on figuring out how to live quit. Part of me is a little foggy still I guess. Goin 2 bed late and wakin up late. On the computer smartphone all the time reading and doing all things related to KTC. My job is off just a bit... stacks of stuff on my desk, getting to things in time and not plowing thru it as I used to. I am good with that. I know this is how this is how it has to be for me now. I know because you told me so. I have to stay quit today and in time it will get better. Saying that, even though everything is a bit off -- it has never been better. No poison in my life anymore. That feels damn good. So each day needs to be like this -- I need to wake up, post roll, stay quit, and support my KTC brothers/sisters. Very simple plan. Hard work to execute - but I am on it.
Bro,, its almost weekend time. Here's what you need to do. I'm sure you have a favorite place to Get steak. Go there as soon as you can. Get the biggest nastiest steak they have.
Now if this is a reputable steak joint your Mully grubs will begin disappearing with the first bite. All worries and concerns will not sit with you at the dinner table for Very long. When you leave the only thought you should have is where the nearest latrine is located.
Now if your a vegetarian or something of that nature I'm sorry. Maybe there is some kind of great salad joint you know of. I can't think of a magical salad to help with the mully grubs though. I believe vegetarians are a sad bunch. Not much i can do about that. Quit with you bro.
I am all sorts of befuddled by that post, Srans.
WTF is Molly Grubs and why does one need to find the nearest latrine? Is there such a beast as a nasty steak?
'Crazy'
That might go along with the Cold Stone creamery story. Maybe its a food thing.
Oh! Yes, I forgot about the strawberry and (forgot) from Cold Stone- I dont like ice cream so I usually just wait in the car while the wife and kids go in to get their stuff.
Told ya' I was an asshole! Who doesn't like Ice Cream?? Commies and/or assholes that's who!
As long as you'd enjoy some grilled beef... You get a pass on ice cream bro.
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Day 40... QLF ODAAT and that remains my focus today. It has to be my focus today as my day revolves around staying quit. I am still working on figuring out how to live quit. Part of me is a little foggy still I guess. Goin 2 bed late and wakin up late. On the computer smartphone all the time reading and doing all things related to KTC. My job is off just a bit... stacks of stuff on my desk, getting to things in time and not plowing thru it as I used to. I am good with that. I know this is how this is how it has to be for me now. I know because you told me so. I have to stay quit today and in time it will get better. Saying that, even though everything is a bit off -- it has never been better. No poison in my life anymore. That feels damn good. So each day needs to be like this -- I need to wake up, post roll, stay quit, and support my KTC brothers/sisters. Very simple plan. Hard work to execute - but I am on it.
Bro,, its almost weekend time. Here's what you need to do. I'm sure you have a favorite place to Get steak. Go there as soon as you can. Get the biggest nastiest steak they have.
Now if this is a reputable steak joint your Mully grubs will begin disappearing with the first bite. All worries and concerns will not sit with you at the dinner table for Very long. When you leave the only thought you should have is where the nearest latrine is located.
Now if your a vegetarian or something of that nature I'm sorry. Maybe there is some kind of great salad joint you know of. I can't think of a magical salad to help with the mully grubs though. I believe vegetarians are a sad bunch. Not much i can do about that. Quit with you bro.
I am all sorts of befuddled by that post, Srans.
WTF is Molly Grubs and why does one need to find the nearest latrine? Is there such a beast as a nasty steak?
'Crazy'
That might go along with the Cold Stone creamery story. Maybe its a food thing.
I looked up Mully Grubs. The whole thing makes sense if you look that up. A little sense anyway.
Derk, you are a badass. 40 days is awesome. You've been a huge inspiration to me throughout your 40oz. to freedom. Stay strong, I'm here if you need me, and good luck beating those Mully Grubs.
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Day 40... QLF ODAAT and that remains my focus today. It has to be my focus today as my day revolves around staying quit. I am still working on figuring out how to live quit. Part of me is a little foggy still I guess. Goin 2 bed late and wakin up late. On the computer smartphone all the time reading and doing all things related to KTC. My job is off just a bit... stacks of stuff on my desk, getting to things in time and not plowing thru it as I used to. I am good with that. I know this is how this is how it has to be for me now. I know because you told me so. I have to stay quit today and in time it will get better. Saying that, even though everything is a bit off -- it has never been better. No poison in my life anymore. That feels damn good. So each day needs to be like this -- I need to wake up, post roll, stay quit, and support my KTC brothers/sisters. Very simple plan. Hard work to execute - but I am on it.
Bro,, its almost weekend time. Here's what you need to do. I'm sure you have a favorite place to Get steak. Go there as soon as you can. Get the biggest nastiest steak they have.
Now if this is a reputable steak joint your Mully grubs will begin disappearing with the first bite. All worries and concerns will not sit with you at the dinner table for Very long. When you leave the only thought you should have is where the nearest latrine is located.
Now if your a vegetarian or something of that nature I'm sorry. Maybe there is some kind of great salad joint you know of. I can't think of a magical salad to help with the mully grubs though. I believe vegetarians are a sad bunch. Not much i can do about that. Quit with you bro.
I am all sorts of befuddled by that post, Srans.
WTF is Molly Grubs and why does one need to find the nearest latrine? Is there such a beast as a nasty steak?
'Crazy'
That might go along with the Cold Stone creamery story. Maybe its a food thing.
I looked up Mully Grubs. The whole thing makes sense if you look that up. A little sense anyway.
Derk, you are a badass. 40 days is awesome. You've been a huge inspiration to me throughout your 40oz. to freedom. Stay strong, I'm here if you need me, and good luck beating those Mully Grubs.
hey derk40,
You're doing it right. Nothing worth doing in this life is ever easy.
Through hard work and perserverance we live the quitter life.
It does get much easier and more beautiful. I know this for a fact.
Just thought to let you know that you are on the real road of 'being quit'.
There are no shortcuts or easy ways out. There is only ODAAT and NAFAR for us dumbass former poison sucking people.
Cheers brother.
Enjoy your freedom.
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Day 40... QLF ODAAT and that remains my focus today. It has to be my focus today as my day revolves around staying quit. I am still working on figuring out how to live quit. Part of me is a little foggy still I guess. Goin 2 bed late and wakin up late. On the computer smartphone all the time reading and doing all things related to KTC. My job is off just a bit... stacks of stuff on my desk, getting to things in time and not plowing thru it as I used to. I am good with that. I know this is how this is how it has to be for me now. I know because you told me so. I have to stay quit today and in time it will get better. Saying that, even though everything is a bit off -- it has never been better. No poison in my life anymore. That feels damn good. So each day needs to be like this -- I need to wake up, post roll, stay quit, and support my KTC brothers/sisters. Very simple plan. Hard work to execute - but I am on it.
Bro,, its almost weekend time. Here's what you need to do. I'm sure you have a favorite place to Get steak. Go there as soon as you can. Get the biggest nastiest steak they have.
Now if this is a reputable steak joint your Mully grubs will begin disappearing with the first bite. All worries and concerns will not sit with you at the dinner table for Very long. When you leave the only thought you should have is where the nearest latrine is located.
Now if your a vegetarian or something of that nature I'm sorry. Maybe there is some kind of great salad joint you know of. I can't think of a magical salad to help with the mully grubs though. I believe vegetarians are a sad bunch. Not much i can do about that. Quit with you bro.
I am all sorts of befuddled by that post, Srans.
WTF is Molly Grubs and why does one need to find the nearest latrine? Is there such a beast as a nasty steak?
'Crazy'
That might go along with the Cold Stone creamery story. Maybe its a food thing.
I looked up Mully Grubs. The whole thing makes sense if you look that up. A little sense anyway.
Derk, you are a badass. 40 days is awesome. You've been a huge inspiration to me throughout your 40oz. to freedom. Stay strong, I'm here if you need me, and good luck beating those Mully Grubs.
hey derk40,
You're doing it right. Nothing worth doing in this life is ever easy.
Through hard work and perserverance we live the quitter life.
It does get much easier and more beautiful. I know this for a fact.
Just thought to let you know that you are on the real road of 'being quit'.
There are no shortcuts or easy ways out. There is only ODAAT and NAFAR for us dumbass former poison sucking people.
Cheers brother.
Enjoy your freedom.
Derk I felt rough at 40. In fact I have had rough patches all the way thru, and I'm confident more are to come. You've got it strait in your head, just like you said post roll keep your word it gets better. You are smart bird bro! your also a man I am damn proud to quitting with you! Erussell
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Day 40... QLF ODAAT and that remains my focus today. It has to be my focus today as my day revolves around staying quit. I am still working on figuring out how to live quit. Part of me is a little foggy still I guess. Goin 2 bed late and wakin up late. On the computer smartphone all the time reading and doing all things related to KTC. My job is off just a bit... stacks of stuff on my desk, getting to things in time and not plowing thru it as I used to. I am good with that. I know this is how this is how it has to be for me now. I know because you told me so. I have to stay quit today and in time it will get better. Saying that, even though everything is a bit off -- it has never been better. No poison in my life anymore. That feels damn good. So each day needs to be like this -- I need to wake up, post roll, stay quit, and support my KTC brothers/sisters. Very simple plan. Hard work to execute - but I am on it.
Bro,, its almost weekend time. Here's what you need to do. I'm sure you have a favorite place to Get steak. Go there as soon as you can. Get the biggest nastiest steak they have.
Now if this is a reputable steak joint your Mully grubs will begin disappearing with the first bite. All worries and concerns will not sit with you at the dinner table for Very long. When you leave the only thought you should have is where the nearest latrine is located.
Now if your a vegetarian or something of that nature I'm sorry. Maybe there is some kind of great salad joint you know of. I can't think of a magical salad to help with the mully grubs though. I believe vegetarians are a sad bunch. Not much i can do about that. Quit with you bro.
I am all sorts of befuddled by that post, Srans.
WTF is Molly Grubs and why does one need to find the nearest latrine? Is there such a beast as a nasty steak?
'Crazy'
That might go along with the Cold Stone creamery story. Maybe its a food thing.
I looked up Mully Grubs. The whole thing makes sense if you look that up. A little sense anyway.
Derk, you are a badass. 40 days is awesome. You've been a huge inspiration to me throughout your 40oz. to freedom. Stay strong, I'm here if you need me, and good luck beating those Mully Grubs.
hey derk40,
You're doing it right. Nothing worth doing in this life is ever easy.
Through hard work and perserverance we live the quitter life.
It does get much easier and more beautiful. I know this for a fact.
Just thought to let you know that you are on the real road of 'being quit'.
There are no shortcuts or easy ways out. There is only ODAAT and NAFAR for us dumbass former poison sucking people.
Cheers brother.
Enjoy your freedom.
Derk I felt rough at 40. In fact I have had rough patches all the way thru, and I'm confident more are to come. You've got it strait in your head, just like you said post roll keep your word it gets better. You are smart bird bro! your also a man I am damn proud to quitting with you! Erussell
Yes I use food sometimes as a way to try and make people feel better. I know Ice cream and steak are two of my favorite foods and they make me feel better. Especially when I have the mully grubs (sad,, feeling down). I think my half redneck grammer gets the best of me sometimes. Did I just hear dougie say he didn't like ice cream,, well, alby darn (redneck grammer once again) ...
Stay quit dirk and hope you get to feeling better. Whether it be a steak, movie, ice cream, fishing, surfing, playing music and anything other then thinking about the suck of quitting. I'm glad to be quit with you bro.
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Day 40... QLF ODAAT and that remains my focus today. It has to be my focus today as my day revolves around staying quit. I am still working on figuring out how to live quit. Part of me is a little foggy still I guess. Goin 2 bed late and wakin up late. On the computer smartphone all the time reading and doing all things related to KTC. My job is off just a bit... stacks of stuff on my desk, getting to things in time and not plowing thru it as I used to. I am good with that. I know this is how this is how it has to be for me now. I know because you told me so. I have to stay quit today and in time it will get better. Saying that, even though everything is a bit off -- it has never been better. No poison in my life anymore. That feels damn good. So each day needs to be like this -- I need to wake up, post roll, stay quit, and support my KTC brothers/sisters. Very simple plan. Hard work to execute - but I am on it.
Bro,, its almost weekend time. Here's what you need to do. I'm sure you have a favorite place to Get steak. Go there as soon as you can. Get the biggest nastiest steak they have.
Now if this is a reputable steak joint your Mully grubs will begin disappearing with the first bite. All worries and concerns will not sit with you at the dinner table for Very long. When you leave the only thought you should have is where the nearest latrine is located.
Now if your a vegetarian or something of that nature I'm sorry. Maybe there is some kind of great salad joint you know of. I can't think of a magical salad to help with the mully grubs though. I believe vegetarians are a sad bunch. Not much i can do about that. Quit with you bro.
I am all sorts of befuddled by that post, Srans.
WTF is Molly Grubs and why does one need to find the nearest latrine? Is there such a beast as a nasty steak?
'Crazy'
That might go along with the Cold Stone creamery story. Maybe its a food thing.
I looked up Mully Grubs. The whole thing makes sense if you look that up. A little sense anyway.
Derk, you are a badass. 40 days is awesome. You've been a huge inspiration to me throughout your 40oz. to freedom. Stay strong, I'm here if you need me, and good luck beating those Mully Grubs.
hey derk40,
You're doing it right. Nothing worth doing in this life is ever easy.
Through hard work and perserverance we live the quitter life.
It does get much easier and more beautiful. I know this for a fact.
Just thought to let you know that you are on the real road of 'being quit'.
There are no shortcuts or easy ways out. There is only ODAAT and NAFAR for us dumbass former poison sucking people.
Cheers brother.
Enjoy your freedom.
Derk I felt rough at 40. In fact I have had rough patches all the way thru, and I'm confident more are to come. You've got it strait in your head, just like you said post roll keep your word it gets better. You are smart bird bro! your also a man I am damn proud to quitting with you! Erussell
Yes I use food sometimes as a way to try and make people feel better. I know Ice cream and steak are two of my favorite foods and they make me feel better. Especially when I have the mully grubs (sad,, feeling down). I think my half redneck grammer gets the best of me sometimes. Did I just hear dougie say he didn't like ice cream,, well, alby darn (redneck grammer once again) ...
Stay quit dirk and hope you get to feeling better. Whether it be a steak, movie, ice cream, fishing, surfing, playing music and anything other then thinking about the suck of quitting. I'm glad to be quit with you bro.
A new normal is on the horizon. ODAAT
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Day 40... QLF ODAAT and that remains my focus today. It has to be my focus today as my day revolves around staying quit. I am still working on figuring out how to live quit. Part of me is a little foggy still I guess. Goin 2 bed late and wakin up late. On the computer smartphone all the time reading and doing all things related to KTC. My job is off just a bit... stacks of stuff on my desk, getting to things in time and not plowing thru it as I used to. I am good with that. I know this is how this is how it has to be for me now. I know because you told me so. I have to stay quit today and in time it will get better. Saying that, even though everything is a bit off -- it has never been better. No poison in my life anymore. That feels damn good. So each day needs to be like this -- I need to wake up, post roll, stay quit, and support my KTC brothers/sisters. Very simple plan. Hard work to execute - but I am on it.
Bro,, its almost weekend time. Here's what you need to do. I'm sure you have a favorite place to Get steak. Go there as soon as you can. Get the biggest nastiest steak they have.
Now if this is a reputable steak joint your Mully grubs will begin disappearing with the first bite. All worries and concerns will not sit with you at the dinner table for Very long. When you leave the only thought you should have is where the nearest latrine is located.
Now if your a vegetarian or something of that nature I'm sorry. Maybe there is some kind of great salad joint you know of. I can't think of a magical salad to help with the mully grubs though. I believe vegetarians are a sad bunch. Not much i can do about that. Quit with you bro.
I am all sorts of befuddled by that post, Srans.
WTF is Molly Grubs and why does one need to find the nearest latrine? Is there such a beast as a nasty steak?
'Crazy'
That might go along with the Cold Stone creamery story. Maybe its a food thing.
I looked up Mully Grubs. The whole thing makes sense if you look that up. A little sense anyway.
Derk, you are a badass. 40 days is awesome. You've been a huge inspiration to me throughout your 40oz. to freedom. Stay strong, I'm here if you need me, and good luck beating those Mully Grubs.
hey derk40,
You're doing it right. Nothing worth doing in this life is ever easy.
Through hard work and perserverance we live the quitter life.
It does get much easier and more beautiful. I know this for a fact.
Just thought to let you know that you are on the real road of 'being quit'.
There are no shortcuts or easy ways out. There is only ODAAT and NAFAR for us dumbass former poison sucking people.
Cheers brother.
Enjoy your freedom.
Derk I felt rough at 40. In fact I have had rough patches all the way thru, and I'm confident more are to come. You've got it strait in your head, just like you said post roll keep your word it gets better. You are smart bird bro! your also a man I am damn proud to quitting with you! Erussell
Yes I use food sometimes as a way to try and make people feel better. I know Ice cream and steak are two of my favorite foods and they make me feel better. Especially when I have the mully grubs (sad,, feeling down). I think my half redneck grammer gets the best of me sometimes. Did I just hear dougie say he didn't like ice cream,, well, alby darn (redneck grammer once again) ...
Stay quit dirk and hope you get to feeling better. Whether it be a steak, movie, ice cream, fishing, surfing, playing music and anything other then thinking about the suck of quitting. I'm glad to be quit with you bro.
A new normal is on the horizon. ODAAT
You can bet that I am gonna get my mullygrub on this weekend! Steak and ice cream baby! To think that I was isolated and on my own 41 days ago. Thank God for google! All I can is that I am exactly in the place I need to be. Running with the best of the best! Clean free -- Lovin being QLF EDD. I owe ya'll (little redneck for srans) quitters. I got ur backs!
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Sunday night, 43 days about in the books. It was a Sunday night 6 weeks ago on 23 June 2013 that I finally found the path to Freedom. Freedom from the poison that had tormented me for so long.
The old Derk would have said - I can't believe this, I never thought I could quit for 43 days. Well not today, today I know that this line of thinking is wrong. Because I know I can stay quit today. I woke up, posted roll, and committed to all you today. I own this quit and I refuse to be owned. Believe that!
That Sunday night 6 weeks ago feels so far away. But, I know I can never forget that day. I never want to see day 1 again. I am damn proud to be quit for 43 days. I am damn proud to be quit with you today! NAFAR and ODAAT! I love this quit!
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Sunday night, 43 days about in the books. It was a Sunday night 6 weeks ago on 23 June 2013 that I finally found the path to Freedom. Freedom from the poison that had tormented me for so long.
The old Derk would have said - I can't believe this, I never thought I could quit for 43 days. Well not today, today I know that this line of thinking is wrong. Because I know I can stay quit today. I woke up, posted roll, and committed to all you today. I own this quit and I refuse to be owned. Believe that!
That Sunday night 6 weeks ago feels so far away. But, I know I can never forget that day. I never want to see day 1 again. I am damn proud to be quit for 43 days. I am damn proud to be quit with you today! NAFAR and ODAAT! I love this quit!
I am thinking this is a journal entry but I would like to chime in n say derk you have come so far and watching your quit grows gives me strength... quit on bro
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Sunday night, 43 days about in the books. It was a Sunday night 6 weeks ago on 23 June 2013 that I finally found the path to Freedom. Freedom from the poison that had tormented me for so long.
The old Derk would have said - I can't believe this, I never thought I could quit for 43 days. Well not today, today I know that this line of thinking is wrong. Because I know I can stay quit today. I woke up, posted roll, and committed to all you today. I own this quit and I refuse to be owned. Believe that!Â
That Sunday night 6 weeks ago feels so far away. But, I know I can never forget that day. I never want to see day 1 again. I am damn proud to be quit for 43 days. I am damn proud to be quit with you today! NAFAR and ODAAT! I love this quit!
I am thinking this is a journal entry but I would like to chime in n say derk you have come so far and watching your quit grows gives me strength... quit on bro
Your quit it giving us all quit wood Derk. I quit with you and like Trauma said p it's fun to witness your quit progress, your a bad ass.
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Sunday night, 43 days about in the books. It was a Sunday night 6 weeks ago on 23 June 2013 that I finally found the path to Freedom. Freedom from the poison that had tormented me for so long.
The old Derk would have said - I can't believe this, I never thought I could quit for 43 days. Well not today, today I know that this line of thinking is wrong. Because I know I can stay quit today. I woke up, posted roll, and committed to all you today. I own this quit and I refuse to be owned. Believe that!Â
That Sunday night 6 weeks ago feels so far away. But, I know I can never forget that day.  I never want to see day 1 again.  I am damn proud to be quit for 43 days. I am damn proud to be quit with you today!  NAFAR and ODAAT! I love this quit!
I am thinking this is a journal entry but I would like to chime in n say derk you have come so far and watching your quit grows gives me strength... quit on bro
Your quit it giving us all quit wood Derk. I quit with you and like Trauma said p it's fun to witness your quit progress, your a bad ass.
Gonna piggyback on my boys here...
You're killin' it bro. You wrapped your head around some key stuff pretty damn quick. Keep it right beside you at all times brother. Quit with you any day!
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Sunday night, 43 days about in the books. It was a Sunday night 6 weeks ago on 23 June 2013 that I finally found the path to Freedom. Freedom from the poison that had tormented me for so long.
The old Derk would have said - I can't believe this, I never thought I could quit for 43 days. Well not today, today I know that this line of thinking is wrong. Because I know I can stay quit today. I woke up, posted roll, and committed to all you today. I own this quit and I refuse to be owned. Believe that!Â
That Sunday night 6 weeks ago feels so far away. But, I know I can never forget that day.  I never want to see day 1 again.  I am damn proud to be quit for 43 days. I am damn proud to be quit with you today!  NAFAR and ODAAT! I love this quit!
I am thinking this is a journal entry but I would like to chime in n say derk you have come so far and watching your quit grows gives me strength... quit on bro
Your quit it giving us all quit wood Derk. I quit with you and like Trauma said p it's fun to witness your quit progress, your a bad ass.
Gonna piggyback on my boys here...
You're killin' it bro. You wrapped your head around some key stuff pretty damn quick. Keep it right beside you at all times brother. Quit with you any day!
Proud of you. A quitting machine. Came here, new what you wanted. The poison never even had a chance. It had its day in the Sun. Its derk 40 time now. Odaat and nafar. Glad to be quit with you.
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Congratulations on 50 days today!
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Congratulations on 50 days today!
Holy smokes 1/2 HOF damn Derk you r kicking this quit...nice work man keep it up any weird stuff comes up reach out...
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Congratulations on 50 days today!
Holy smokes 1/2 HOF damn Derk you r kicking this quit...nice work man keep it up any weird stuff comes up reach out...
Thanks fellas! Got up this am and went straight to the computer to post roll. I made a commitment to quit today and I have done the same thing for the past 50 days. Spent the day working in the yard and hanging out with the family. The nic B never entered the picture for one moment and that is how it should be. Nothing for her here. She knows that if she rears her ugly head then the gloves will come off immediately -- and I am not having it. I have the will... I have the tools... and I am holding my quit! Looking forward to closing out this day strong, waking up tomorrow, posting roll and going after another +1. I am honored to be quit with you today! QLF ODAAT!
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Congratulations on 50 days today!
Holy smokes 1/2 HOF damn Derk you r kicking this quit...nice work man keep it up any weird stuff comes up reach out...
Thanks fellas! Got up this am and went straight to the computer to post roll. I made a commitment to quit today and I have done the same thing for the past 50 days. Spent the day working in the yard and hanging out with the family. The nic B never entered the picture for one moment and that is how it should be. Nothing for her here. She knows that if she rears her ugly head then the gloves will come off immediately -- and I am not having it. I have the will... I have the tools... and I am holding my quit! Looking forward to closing out this day strong, waking up tomorrow, posting roll and going after another +1. I am honored to be quit with you today! QLF ODAAT!
What is this guy eating for breakfast????? Oh....I know,,,, I bet this quitter eats KTC for breakfast. You go Derk. Proud to be quit with you too bro. Erussell.
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Congratulations on 50 days today!
Holy smokes 1/2 HOF damn Derk you r kicking this quit...nice work man keep it up any weird stuff comes up reach out...
Thanks fellas! Got up this am and went straight to the computer to post roll. I made a commitment to quit today and I have done the same thing for the past 50 days. Spent the day working in the yard and hanging out with the family. The nic B never entered the picture for one moment and that is how it should be. Nothing for her here. She knows that if she rears her ugly head then the gloves will come off immediately -- and I am not having it. I have the will... I have the tools... and I am holding my quit! Looking forward to closing out this day strong, waking up tomorrow, posting roll and going after another +1. I am honored to be quit with you today! QLF ODAAT!
What is this guy eating for breakfast????? Oh....I know,,,, I bet this quitter eats KTC for breakfast. You go Derk. Proud to be quit with you too bro. Erussell.
that's a damn fine attitude there derk. That makes all the difference in the world. Congrats on 50. A damn fine accomplishment that many are incapable of achieving.
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Congratulations on 50 days today!
Holy smokes 1/2 HOF damn Derk you r kicking this quit...nice work man keep it up any weird stuff comes up reach out...
Thanks fellas! Got up this am and went straight to the computer to post roll. I made a commitment to quit today and I have done the same thing for the past 50 days. Spent the day working in the yard and hanging out with the family. The nic B never entered the picture for one moment and that is how it should be. Nothing for her here. She knows that if she rears her ugly head then the gloves will come off immediately -- and I am not having it. I have the will... I have the tools... and I am holding my quit! Looking forward to closing out this day strong, waking up tomorrow, posting roll and going after another +1. I am honored to be quit with you today! QLF ODAAT!
What is this guy eating for breakfast????? Oh....I know,,,, I bet this quitter eats KTC for breakfast. You go Derk. Proud to be quit with you too bro. Erussell.
that's a damn fine attitude there derk. That makes all the difference in the world. Congrats on 50. A damn fine accomplishment that many are incapable of achieving.
Congrats Derk!
Nice job, proud to have you in my corner. I'll stay quit with you today!
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Congratulations on 50 days today!
Holy smokes 1/2 HOF damn Derk you r kicking this quit...nice work man keep it up any weird stuff comes up reach out...
Thanks fellas! Got up this am and went straight to the computer to post roll. I made a commitment to quit today and I have done the same thing for the past 50 days. Spent the day working in the yard and hanging out with the family. The nic B never entered the picture for one moment and that is how it should be. Nothing for her here. She knows that if she rears her ugly head then the gloves will come off immediately -- and I am not having it. I have the will... I have the tools... and I am holding my quit! Looking forward to closing out this day strong, waking up tomorrow, posting roll and going after another +1. I am honored to be quit with you today! QLF ODAAT!
What is this guy eating for breakfast????? Oh....I know,,,, I bet this quitter eats KTC for breakfast. You go Derk. Proud to be quit with you too bro. Erussell.
that's a damn fine attitude there derk. That makes all the difference in the world. Congrats on 50. A damn fine accomplishment that many are incapable of achieving.
Congrats Derk!
Nice job, proud to have you in my corner. I'll stay quit with you today!
Nice work brother. You have one hell of a quit going on. Glad to have you in my corner, and glad to be quit with you.
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Congratulations on 50 days today!
Holy smokes 1/2 HOF damn Derk you r kicking this quit...nice work man keep it up any weird stuff comes up reach out...
Thanks fellas! Got up this am and went straight to the computer to post roll. I made a commitment to quit today and I have done the same thing for the past 50 days. Spent the day working in the yard and hanging out with the family. The nic B never entered the picture for one moment and that is how it should be. Nothing for her here. She knows that if she rears her ugly head then the gloves will come off immediately -- and I am not having it. I have the will... I have the tools... and I am holding my quit! Looking forward to closing out this day strong, waking up tomorrow, posting roll and going after another +1. I am honored to be quit with you today! QLF ODAAT!
What is this guy eating for breakfast????? Oh....I know,,,, I bet this quitter eats KTC for breakfast. You go Derk. Proud to be quit with you too bro. Erussell.
that's a damn fine attitude there derk. That makes all the difference in the world. Congrats on 50. A damn fine accomplishment that many are incapable of achieving.
Congrats Derk!
Nice job, proud to have you in my corner. I'll stay quit with you today!
Nice work brother. You have one hell of a quit going on. Glad to have you in my corner, and glad to be quit with you.
You are WINNING!
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Congratulations on 50 days today!
Holy smokes 1/2 HOF damn Derk you r kicking this quit...nice work man keep it up any weird stuff comes up reach out...
Thanks fellas! Got up this am and went straight to the computer to post roll. I made a commitment to quit today and I have done the same thing for the past 50 days. Spent the day working in the yard and hanging out with the family. The nic B never entered the picture for one moment and that is how it should be. Nothing for her here. She knows that if she rears her ugly head then the gloves will come off immediately -- and I am not having it. I have the will... I have the tools... and I am holding my quit! Looking forward to closing out this day strong, waking up tomorrow, posting roll and going after another +1. I am honored to be quit with you today! QLF ODAAT!
What is this guy eating for breakfast????? Oh....I know,,,, I bet this quitter eats KTC for breakfast. You go Derk. Proud to be quit with you too bro. Erussell.
that's a damn fine attitude there derk. That makes all the difference in the world. Congrats on 50. A damn fine accomplishment that many are incapable of achieving.
Congrats Derk!
Nice job, proud to have you in my corner. I'll stay quit with you today!
Nice work brother. You have one hell of a quit going on. Glad to have you in my corner, and glad to be quit with you.
You are WINNING!
Proud to be quit with you today Derk!
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Derk, you are good enough, you are smart enough and Damnit I like you.
My diary entries may inspire you but you do me as well. Keep up the QUIT and I will be right here with you.
If you ever need a boot to help motivate you, I am here
If you ever need a reason to not cave, I am here
If you ever need a plan, I am here
If you ever need a pal, I am here
If you ever need to be slapped, I am here
If you ever need a hug, well I will help find you a momma; but I will offer a fist bump
Quack Fooking Quack Quitter
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Derk, you are good enough, you are smart enough and Damnit I like you.
My diary entries may inspire you but you do me as well. Keep up the QUIT and I will be right here with you.
If you ever need a boot to help motivate you, I am here
If you ever need a reason to not cave, I am here
If you ever need a plan, I am here
If you ever need a pal, I am here
If you ever need to be slapped, I am here
If you ever need a hug, well I will help find you a momma; but I will offer a fist bump
Quack Fooking Quack Quitter
awe.....come on pinched.
man hug, where you do the big pats on the back, no grabbing and hands up high by the shoulders.... 'crackup'
I may not be in the 'quacker patrol', but damn I am here standing right beside you all too.
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Derk, you are good enough, you are smart enough and Damnit I like you.
My diary entries may inspire you but you do me as well. Keep up the QUIT and I will be right here with you.
If you ever need a boot to help motivate you, I am here
If you ever need a reason to not cave, I am here
If you ever need a plan, I am here
If you ever need a pal, I am here
If you ever need to be slapped, I am here
If you ever need a hug, well I will help find you a momma; but I will offer a fist bump
Quack Fooking Quack Quitter
awe.....come on pinched.
man hug, where you do the big pats on the back, no grabbing and hands up high by the shoulders.... 'crackup'
I may not be in the 'quacker patrol', but damn I am here standing right beside you all too.
'getaroom'
God I've waited a long time to post this on someone's thread. It always gets on mine. Good to see the brotherhood guys.
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Derk, you are good enough, you are smart enough and Damnit I like you.
My diary entries may inspire you but you do me as well. Keep up the QUIT and I will be right here with you.
If you ever need a boot to help motivate you, I am here
If you ever need a reason to not cave, I am here
If you ever need a plan, I am here
If you ever need a pal, I am here
If you ever need to be slapped, I am here
If you ever need a hug, well I will help find you a momma; but I will offer a fist bump
Quack Fooking Quack Quitter
awe.....come on pinched.
man hug, where you do the big pats on the back, no grabbing and hands up high by the shoulders.... 'crackup'
I may not be in the 'quacker patrol', but damn I am here standing right beside you all too.
'getaroom'
God I've waited a long time to post this on someone's thread. It always gets on mine. Good to see the brotherhood guys.
'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup'
Good stuff you gheys! This is the kind of brotherhood that makes KTC work!
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Derk, you are good enough, you are smart enough and Damnit I like you.
My diary entries may inspire you but you do me as well. Keep up the QUIT and I will be right here with you.
If you ever need a boot to help motivate you, I am here
If you ever need a reason to not cave, I am here
If you ever need a plan, I am here
If you ever need a pal, I am here
If you ever need to be slapped, I am here
If you ever need a hug, well I will help find you a momma; but I will offer a fist bump
Quack Fooking Quack Quitter
awe.....come on pinched.
man hug, where you do the big pats on the back, no grabbing and hands up high by the shoulders.... 'crackup'
I may not be in the 'quacker patrol', but damn I am here standing right beside you all too.
'getaroom'
God I've waited a long time to post this on someone's thread. It always gets on mine. Good to see the brotherhood guys.
'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup'
Good stuff you gheys! This is the kind of brotherhood that makes KTC work!
:wub: getting a quit woody with all this ghey porn in this thread
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Derk, you are good enough, you are smart enough and Damnit I like you.
My diary entries may inspire you but you do me as well. Keep up the QUIT and I will be right here with you.
If you ever need a boot to help motivate you, I am here
If you ever need a reason to not cave, I am here
If you ever need a plan, I am here
If you ever need a pal, I am here
If you ever need to be slapped, I am here
If you ever need a hug, well I will help find you a momma; but I will offer a fist bump
Quack Fooking Quack Quitter
awe.....come on pinched.
man hug, where you do the big pats on the back, no grabbing and hands up high by the shoulders.... 'crackup'
I may not be in the 'quacker patrol', but damn I am here standing right beside you all too.
'getaroom'
God I've waited a long time to post this on someone's thread. It always gets on mine. Good to see the brotherhood guys.
'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup'
Good stuff you gheys! This is the kind of brotherhood that makes KTC work!
:wub: getting a quit woody with all this ghey porn in this thread
Now I know why derk text me so much lmao. I not that handsome don't waste your time bro. All this time I though he was supporting my quit? You never know a guys motivation these days lmao!
All jokes aside this is what will keep you quitters quit! Proud to see you guys bonding and forming accountability that can't be bought.
Erussell 108
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Derk, you are good enough, you are smart enough and Damnit I like you.
My diary entries may inspire you but you do me as well. Keep up the QUIT and I will be right here with you.
If you ever need a boot to help motivate you, I am here
If you ever need a reason to not cave, I am here
If you ever need a plan, I am here
If you ever need a pal, I am here
If you ever need to be slapped, I am here
If you ever need a hug, well I will help find you a momma; but I will offer a fist bump
Quack Fooking Quack Quitter
awe.....come on pinched.
man hug, where you do the big pats on the back, no grabbing and hands up high by the shoulders.... 'crackup'
I may not be in the 'quacker patrol', but damn I am here standing right beside you all too.
'getaroom'
God I've waited a long time to post this on someone's thread. It always gets on mine. Good to see the brotherhood guys.
'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup'
Good stuff you gheys! This is the kind of brotherhood that makes KTC work!
:wub: getting a quit woody with all this ghey porn in this thread
Now I know why derk text me so much lmao. I not that handsome don't waste your time bro. All this time I though he was supporting my quit? You never know a guys motivation these days lmao!
All jokes aside this is what will keep you quitters quit! Proud to see you guys bonding and forming accountability that can't be bought.
Erussell 108
Any of you homos touch my QUIT and I will kill you!
'army'
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Got a guy at work that found a lump in his neck a month ago and it came back cancer. He has started treatment. He is a smoker and I was talking to him the other day. He still has not quit smoking. I asked him why the hell not... He says he has wanted to quit every single time he has lit a smoke for the last umpteen yrs but he just can't do it. Even now as he fights for his life - he continues to light up the very thing that is killin him. He has no control over it and is unable to put the smokes down. I gave him a few ideas but he continues to wean himself off the addiction. But he is not quit.
My point for writing this is to point out that quitting is not an easy thing to do. It takes a true bada$$ to do it. This guy is a smoker but we all were addicted to the same evil weed. So, know this... We are doing something not many people have the fortitude to accomplish. People can't do it even in the most dire of circumstances. This truly is life or death. I am choosing life and gonna stay quit with your bada$$ today! NAFAR ODAAT!
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Got a guy at work that found a lump in his neck a month ago and it came back cancer. He has started treatment. He is a smoker and I was talking to him the other day. He still has not quit smoking. I asked him why the hell not... He says he has wanted to quit every single time he has lit a smoke for the last umpteen yrs but he just can't do it. Even now as he fights for his life - he continues to light up the very thing that is killin him. He has no control over it and is unable to put the smokes down. I gave him a few ideas but he continues to wean himself off the addiction. But he is not quit.
My point for writing this is to point out that quitting is not an easy thing to do. It takes a true bada$$ to do it. This guy is a smoker but we all were addicted to the same evil weed. So, know this... We are doing something not many people have the fortitude to accomplish. People can't do it even in the most dire of circumstances. This truly is life or death. I am choosing life and gonna stay quit with your bada$$ today! NAFAR ODAAT!
Good stuff derk. I see this everyday. This addiction is no joke! After 180 days i can't believe what I use to think and feel. Until you get this addiction under control it controls you.
I had my first real eye opener my first week of quit. I was sitting on my living room sofa trying to get my mind off of what i wanted. I wanted the poison so bad that tears started rolling down my cheek. That was when I really realized that if I didn't beat this addiction this time it would never happen. I wept and used my wife for her support and made it through that night. I will never forget that feeling though. I was shedding tears because of a filthy disgusting addiction to a can of poisonous dirt.
I love one of cbirds lines. Own it or it will own you. I was owned!!!!!!!!
We are owned no more brother. We own it!!!!!! Great to be quit with you friend,, love reading your posts.
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Got a guy at work that found a lump in his neck a month ago and it came back cancer. He has started treatment. He is a smoker and I was talking to him the other day. He still has not quit smoking. I asked him why the hell not... He says he has wanted to quit every single time he has lit a smoke for the last umpteen yrs but he just can't do it. Even now as he fights for his life - he continues to light up the very thing that is killin him. He has no control over it and is unable to put the smokes down. I gave him a few ideas but he continues to wean himself off the addiction. But he is not quit.
My point for writing this is to point out that quitting is not an easy thing to do. It takes a true bada$$ to do it. This guy is a smoker but we all were addicted to the same evil weed. So, know this... We are doing something not many people have the fortitude to accomplish. People can't do it even in the most dire of circumstances. This truly is life or death. I am choosing life and gonna stay quit with your bada$$ today! NAFAR ODAAT!
Good stuff derk. I see this everyday. This addiction is no joke! After 180 days i can't believe what I use to think and feel. Until you get this addiction under control it controls you.
I had my first real eye opener my first week of quit. I was sitting on my living room sofa trying to get my mind off of what i wanted. I wanted the poison so bad that tears started rolling down my cheek. That was when I really realized that if I didn't beat this addiction this time it would never happen. I wept and used my wife for her support and made it through that night. I will never forget that feeling though. I was shedding tears because of a filthy disgusting addiction to a can of poisonous dirt.
I love one of cbirds lines. Own it or it will own you. I was owned!!!!!!!!
We are owned no more brother. We own it!!!!!! Great to be quit with you friend,, love reading your posts.
Well said brother, great story to round out a week. Un fortunately we can't save the whole world. Remember eat the elephants "one bite at a time".
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Got a guy at work that found a lump in his neck a month ago and it came back cancer. He has started treatment. He is a smoker and I was talking to him the other day. He still has not quit smoking. I asked him why the hell not... He says he has wanted to quit every single time he has lit a smoke for the last umpteen yrs but he just can't do it. Even now as he fights for his life - he continues to light up the very thing that is killin him. He has no control over it and is unable to put the smokes down. I gave him a few ideas but he continues to wean himself off the addiction. But he is not quit.
My point for writing this is to point out that quitting is not an easy thing to do. It takes a true bada$$ to do it. This guy is a smoker but we all were addicted to the same evil weed. So, know this... We are doing something not many people have the fortitude to accomplish. People can't do it even in the most dire of circumstances. This truly is life or death. I am choosing life and gonna stay quit with your bada$$ today! NAFAR ODAAT!
Good stuff derk. I see this everyday. This addiction is no joke! After 180 days i can't believe what I use to think and feel. Until you get this addiction under control it controls you.
I had my first real eye opener my first week of quit. I was sitting on my living room sofa trying to get my mind off of what i wanted. I wanted the poison so bad that tears started rolling down my cheek. That was when I really realized that if I didn't beat this addiction this time it would never happen. I wept and used my wife for her support and made it through that night. I will never forget that feeling though. I was shedding tears because of a filthy disgusting addiction to a can of poisonous dirt.
I love one of cbirds lines. Own it or it will own you. I was owned!!!!!!!!
We are owned no more brother. We own it!!!!!! Great to be quit with you friend,, love reading your posts.
Well said brother, great story to round out a week. Un fortunately we can't save the whole world. Remember eat the elephants "one bite at a time".
yep Derk you have come so far so fast keep up your view on this. I remember back at the end of JUN when you were struggling I remember watching the light bulb blast on. You made a decision that day you will no longer be a slave to that bitch in the can and pinned your ears down and haven't looked back since. You are here EDD payin it forward and back proud to be quit w you brother
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Got a guy at work that found a lump in his neck a month ago and it came back cancer. He has started treatment. He is a smoker and I was talking to him the other day. He still has not quit smoking. I asked him why the hell not... He says he has wanted to quit every single time he has lit a smoke for the last umpteen yrs but he just can't do it. Even now as he fights for his life - he continues to light up the very thing that is killin him. He has no control over it and is unable to put the smokes down. I gave him a few ideas but he continues to wean himself off the addiction. But he is not quit.
My point for writing this is to point out that quitting is not an easy thing to do. It takes a true bada$$ to do it. This guy is a smoker but we all were addicted to the same evil weed. So, know this... We are doing something not many people have the fortitude to accomplish. People can't do it even in the most dire of circumstances. This truly is life or death. I am choosing life and gonna stay quit with your bada$$ today! NAFAR ODAAT!
Good stuff derk. I see this everyday. This addiction is no joke! After 180 days i can't believe what I use to think and feel. Until you get this addiction under control it controls you.
I had my first real eye opener my first week of quit. I was sitting on my living room sofa trying to get my mind off of what i wanted. I wanted the poison so bad that tears started rolling down my cheek. That was when I really realized that if I didn't beat this addiction this time it would never happen. I wept and used my wife for her support and made it through that night. I will never forget that feeling though. I was shedding tears because of a filthy disgusting addiction to a can of poisonous dirt.
I love one of cbirds lines. Own it or it will own you. I was owned!!!!!!!!
We are owned no more brother. We own it!!!!!! Great to be quit with you friend,, love reading your posts.
Well said brother, great story to round out a week. Un fortunately we can't save the whole world. Remember eat the elephants "one bite at a time".
yep Derk you have come so far so fast keep up your view on this. I remember back at the end of JUN when you were struggling I remember watching the light bulb blast on. You made a decision that day you will no longer be a slave to that bitch in the can and pinned your ears down and haven't looked back since. You are here EDD payin it forward and back proud to be quit w you brother
This derk dude is definitely a badass. Keep on quittin bro. Quittin like a BOSS.
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Got a guy at work that found a lump in his neck a month ago and it came back cancer. He has started treatment. He is a smoker and I was talking to him the other day. He still has not quit smoking. I asked him why the hell not... He says he has wanted to quit every single time he has lit a smoke for the last umpteen yrs but he just can't do it. Even now as he fights for his life - he continues to light up the very thing that is killin him. He has no control over it and is unable to put the smokes down. I gave him a few ideas but he continues to wean himself off the addiction. But he is not quit.
My point for writing this is to point out that quitting is not an easy thing to do. It takes a true bada$$ to do it. This guy is a smoker but we all were addicted to the same evil weed. So, know this... We are doing something not many people have the fortitude to accomplish. People can't do it even in the most dire of circumstances. This truly is life or death. I am choosing life and gonna stay quit with your bada$$ today! NAFAR ODAAT!
Good stuff derk. I see this everyday. This addiction is no joke! After 180 days i can't believe what I use to think and feel. Until you get this addiction under control it controls you.
I had my first real eye opener my first week of quit. I was sitting on my living room sofa trying to get my mind off of what i wanted. I wanted the poison so bad that tears started rolling down my cheek. That was when I really realized that if I didn't beat this addiction this time it would never happen. I wept and used my wife for her support and made it through that night. I will never forget that feeling though. I was shedding tears because of a filthy disgusting addiction to a can of poisonous dirt.
I love one of cbirds lines. Own it or it will own you. I was owned!!!!!!!!
We are owned no more brother. We own it!!!!!! Great to be quit with you friend,, love reading your posts.
Well said brother, great story to round out a week. Un fortunately we can't save the whole world. Remember eat the elephants "one bite at a time".
yep Derk you have come so far so fast keep up your view on this. I remember back at the end of JUN when you were struggling I remember watching the light bulb blast on. You made a decision that day you will no longer be a slave to that bitch in the can and pinned your ears down and haven't looked back since. You are here EDD payin it forward and back proud to be quit w you brother
This derk dude is definitely a badass. Keep on quittin bro. Quittin like a BOSS.
Hell yes Bad Asses! Even the biggest pussy quitters are Bad Asses. We know kickin the nic bitch to the curb is one of the toughest things to do, and that's why we are here. Proud to quit with you all EDD.
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Day 62... Couple things to note
1. Cleaning out my closet at work. Found an old tin of Copenhagen in my jacket. EZ decision to take it to the restroom and flush contents. FU ... I am QLF today.
2. Got home from work and was in a bad mood. Took it out on the family a bit. I apologized, but was mad at myself for how I acted. They went to the store for a few minutes just after I apologized. The old derk would have sulked and prob found a way to find a fix. Today, I hopped into my car ran up to the store. Bought my wife her favorite cannoli's and my daughters their favorite Ben Jerry's ice cream up at the grocery store. When they got home I surprised them they loved it. I am QLF today!
3. Rough week at work. Extremely busy it has been very stressful. A couple of weeks ago I would have blamed the nicB for trying to get at me. My mindset is shifting a bit. This week I just blamed the stressful job I have chosen powered thru each day using my tools. I am QLF today!
Quit is feeling strong. But I am an addict I need to work my quit every day. If not, I am susceptible to going back to day 1. I hate day 1 - so that is not happening. FU Nic! So I will stay quit for the rest of today, then wake up post roll. Posting roll is the most important part of my day and I love doing it. I wake up each morning I can't wait to get to my computer post roll. May sound weird, but it feels great to log on to the site, figure out my # of days then post to Sept 2013. At that moment, I am committing to myself to you quitters. I am owning it this quit! QLF with you today!
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Day 62... Couple things to note
1. Cleaning out my closet at work. Found an old tin of Copenhagen in my jacket. EZ decision to take it to the restroom and flush contents. FU ... I am QLF today.
2. Got home from work and was in a bad mood. Took it out on the family a bit. I apologized, but was mad at myself for how I acted. They went to the store for a few minutes just after I apologized. The old derk would have sulked and prob found a way to find a fix. Today, I hopped into my car ran up to the store. Bought my wife her favorite cannoli's and my daughters their favorite Ben Jerry's ice cream up at the grocery store. When they got home I surprised them they loved it. I am QLF today!
3. Rough week at work. Extremely busy it has been very stressful. A couple of weeks ago I would have blamed the nicB for trying to get at me. My mindset is shifting a bit. This week I just blamed the stressful job I have chosen powered thru each day using my tools. I am QLF today!
Quit is feeling strong. But I am an addict I need to work my quit every day. If not, I am susceptible to going back to day 1. I hate day 1 - so that is not happening. FU Nic! So I will stay quit for the rest of today, then wake up post roll. Posting roll is the most important part of my day and I love doing it. I wake up each morning I can't wait to get to my computer post roll. May sound weird, but it feels great to log on to the site, figure out my # of days then post to Sept 2013. At that moment, I am committing to myself to you quitters. I am owning it this quit! QLF with you today!
Great stuff brother, that is a mighty fine quit.
You are kicking nic to the curb, and even owning the stress as your own.
Damn Derk, proud to be quit with you today.
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Day 62... Couple things to note
1. Cleaning out my closet at work. Found an old tin of Copenhagen in my jacket. EZ decision to take it to the restroom and flush contents. FU ... I am QLF today.
2. Got home from work and was in a bad mood. Took it out on the family a bit. I apologized, but was mad at myself for how I acted. They went to the store for a few minutes just after I apologized. The old derk would have sulked and prob found a way to find a fix. Today, I hopped into my car ran up to the store. Bought my wife her favorite cannoli's and my daughters their favorite Ben Jerry's ice cream up at the grocery store. When they got home I surprised them they loved it. I am QLF today!
3. Rough week at work. Extremely busy it has been very stressful. A couple of weeks ago I would have blamed the nicB for trying to get at me. My mindset is shifting a bit. This week I just blamed the stressful job I have chosen powered thru each day using my tools. I am QLF today!
Quit is feeling strong. But I am an addict I need to work my quit every day. If not, I am susceptible to going back to day 1. I hate day 1 - so that is not happening. FU Nic! So I will stay quit for the rest of today, then wake up post roll. Posting roll is the most important part of my day and I love doing it. I wake up each morning I can't wait to get to my computer post roll. May sound weird, but it feels great to log on to the site, figure out my # of days then post to Sept 2013. At that moment, I am committing to myself to you quitters. I am owning it this quit! QLF with you today!
Great stuff brother, that is a mighty fine quit.
You are kicking nic to the curb, and even owning the stress as your own.
Damn Derk, proud to be quit with you today.
Derk you are a model quitter. You never fail to write a story to share knowing that you are leaving something to reflect upon later. I Quit with u everyday because of your attitude and you commitment to yourself and KTCers.
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Day 62... Couple things to note
1. Cleaning out my closet at work. Found an old tin of Copenhagen in my jacket. EZ decision to take it to the restroom and flush contents.  FU ... I am QLF today.
2. Got home from work and was in a bad mood. Took it out on the family a bit. I apologized, but was mad at myself for how I acted. They went to the store for a few minutes just after I apologized. The old derk would have sulked and prob found a way to find a fix. Today, I hopped into my car ran up to the store. Bought my wife her favorite cannoli's and my daughters their favorite Ben Jerry's ice cream up at the grocery store. When they got home I surprised them they loved it. I am QLF today!
3. Rough week at work. Extremely busy it has been very stressful. A couple of weeks ago I would have blamed the nicB for trying to get at me. My mindset is shifting a bit. This week I just blamed the stressful job I have chosen powered thru each day using my tools.  I am QLF today!
Quit is feeling strong. But I am an addict I need to work my quit every day. If not, I am susceptible to going back to day 1. I hate day 1 - so that is not happening. FU Nic! So I will stay quit for the rest of today, then wake up post roll. Posting roll is the most important part of my day and I love doing it. I wake up each morning I can't wait to get to my computer post roll. May sound weird, but it feels great to log on to the site, figure out my # of days then post to Sept 2013. At that moment, I am committing to myself to you quitters. I am owning it this quit! QLF with you today!
Great stuff brother, that is a mighty fine quit.
You are kicking nic to the curb, and even owning the stress as your own.
Damn Derk, proud to be quit with you today.
Derk you are a model quitter. You never fail to write a story to share knowing that you are leaving something to reflect upon later. I Quit with u everyday because of your attitude and you commitment to yourself and KTCers.
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Glad to be on this road with you brother. You are doing a kick ass job.
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Day 62... Couple things to note
1. Cleaning out my closet at work. Found an old tin of Copenhagen in my jacket. EZ decision to take it to the restroom and flush contents.  FU ... I am QLF today.
2. Got home from work and was in a bad mood. Took it out on the family a bit. I apologized, but was mad at myself for how I acted. They went to the store for a few minutes just after I apologized. The old derk would have sulked and prob found a way to find a fix. Today, I hopped into my car ran up to the store. Bought my wife her favorite cannoli's and my daughters their favorite Ben Jerry's ice cream up at the grocery store. When they got home I surprised them they loved it. I am QLF today!
3. Rough week at work. Extremely busy it has been very stressful. A couple of weeks ago I would have blamed the nicB for trying to get at me. My mindset is shifting a bit. This week I just blamed the stressful job I have chosen powered thru each day using my tools.  I am QLF today!
Quit is feeling strong. But I am an addict I need to work my quit every day. If not, I am susceptible to going back to day 1. I hate day 1 - so that is not happening. FU Nic! So I will stay quit for the rest of today, then wake up post roll. Posting roll is the most important part of my day and I love doing it. I wake up each morning I can't wait to get to my computer post roll. May sound weird, but it feels great to log on to the site, figure out my # of days then post to Sept 2013. At that moment, I am committing to myself to you quitters. I am owning it this quit! QLF with you today!
Great stuff brother, that is a mighty fine quit.
You are kicking nic to the curb, and even owning the stress as your own.
Damn Derk, proud to be quit with you today.
Derk you are a model quitter. You never fail to write a story to share knowing that you are leaving something to reflect upon later. I Quit with u everyday because of your attitude and you commitment to yourself and KTCers.
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Glad to be on this road with you brother. You are doing a kick ass job.
This is the good stuff right here bro..
You've uncovered all the lies but remain diligent enought to realize that your guard must be kept up. Like I've said before... this doesn't mean living in fear of the next funk or crave! Life is ups and downs, nothing new there... you're just having to deal with it all without a security blanket now. Attack your quit and own it like you have been. Proud of you dude!
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Day 71... It is September that is the month I will hit the HOF. On Day 1, I thought about this my ultimate goal was to get to 30 Sep 2013. That is the day I would hit the HOF. Nice right??
Funny thing happened along the way these past 71 days. I realized 1 thing... the only thing that matters is TODAY. Posting ROLL today staying quit today. The key to me staying quit is not worrying about what will happen tomorrow, on 30 September, at Christmas, next February, next year or 5 years from now... none of that matters. Qutting is not a long term strategy. I don't need to think about the future because I don't control the future. I control the here and now. What matters is posting ROLL which is my word, holding my quit today being engaged in this brother/sisterhood.
On Day 71, my goals for my quit are simple. Post ROLL today - done. Now, I must stay true to my word today stay quit on September 1st, 2013. I know I can do this! I will do this! I am QLF today!
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Day 71... It is September that is the month I will hit the HOF. On Day 1, I thought about this my ultimate goal was to get to 30 Sep 2013. That is the day I would hit the HOF. Nice right??
Funny thing happened along the way these past 71 days. I realized 1 thing... the only thing that matters is TODAY. Posting ROLL today staying quit today. The key to me staying quit is not worrying about what will happen tomorrow, on 30 September, at Christmas, next February, next year or 5 years from now... none of that matters. Qutting is not a long term strategy. I don't need to think about the future because I don't control the future. I control the here and now. What matters is posting ROLL which is my word, holding my quit today being engaged in this brother/sisterhood.
On Day 71, my goals for my quit are simple. Post ROLL today - done. Now, I must stay true to my word today stay quit on September 1st, 2013. I know I can do this! I will do this! I am QLF today!
Wow Derk have you been to an ancient Shaolin Monastery gaining quit knowledge from the monks? Man that post gave me goose bumps I remember back to the day when you were mad upset f'ing around with a moldy spaghetti sauce can, now look at you an awakening giant of quit. Nice bro keep posting this Monk stuff you are spitting.
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Day 71... It is September that is the month I will hit the HOF. On Day 1, I thought about this my ultimate goal was to get to 30 Sep 2013. That is the day I would hit the HOF. Nice right??
Funny thing happened along the way these past 71 days. I realized 1 thing... the only thing that matters is TODAY. Posting ROLL today staying quit today. The key to me staying quit is not worrying about what will happen tomorrow, on 30 September, at Christmas, next February, next year or 5 years from now... none of that matters. Qutting is not a long term strategy. I don't need to think about the future because I don't control the future. I control the here and now. What matters is posting ROLL which is my word, holding my quit today being engaged in this brother/sisterhood.
On Day 71, my goals for my quit are simple. Post ROLL today - done. Now, I must stay true to my word today stay quit on September 1st, 2013. I know I can do this! I will do this! I am QLF today!
Wow Derk have you been to an ancient Shaolin Monastery gaining quit knowledge from the monks? Man that post gave me goose bumps I remember back to the day when you were mad upset f'ing around with a moldy spaghetti sauce can, now look at you an awakening giant of quit. Nice bro keep posting this Monk stuff you are spitting.
As always enjoyed your post. 71 days. It seems like yesterday you got my digits. Time flies when your having fun. I know the first 100 moves Rrreeeeaaaaaaallllll slow, but the second 100 seem to fly by. Keep on keepen on bro. Proud of you derk.....
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Day 71... It is September that is the month I will hit the HOF. On Day 1, I thought about this my ultimate goal was to get to 30 Sep 2013. That is the day I would hit the HOF. Nice right??
Funny thing happened along the way these past 71 days. I realized 1 thing... the only thing that matters is TODAY. Posting ROLL today staying quit today. The key to me staying quit is not worrying about what will happen tomorrow, on 30 September, at Christmas, next February, next year or 5 years from now... none of that matters. Qutting is not a long term strategy. I don't need to think about the future because I don't control the future. I control the here and now. What matters is posting ROLL which is my word, holding my quit today being engaged in this brother/sisterhood.
On Day 71, my goals for my quit are simple. Post ROLL today - done. Now, I must stay true to my word today stay quit on September 1st, 2013. I know I can do this! I will do this! I am QLF today!
Wow Derk have you been to an ancient Shaolin Monastery gaining quit knowledge from the monks? Man that post gave me goose bumps I remember back to the day when you were mad upset f'ing around with a moldy spaghetti sauce can, now look at you an awakening giant of quit. Nice bro keep posting this Monk stuff you are spitting.
As always enjoyed your post. 71 days. It seems like yesterday you got my digits. Time flies when your having fun. I know the first 100 moves Rrreeeeaaaaaaallllll slow, but the second 100 seem to fly by. Keep on keepen on bro. Proud of you derk.....
I am very proud of you and your quit derk. Thank you for posting here and thank you for your text messages. I quit with you anyday bro. Keep killin it like a boss.
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Day 71... It is September that is the month I will hit the HOF. On Day 1, I thought about this my ultimate goal was to get to 30 Sep 2013. That is the day I would hit the HOF. Nice right??
Funny thing happened along the way these past 71 days. I realized 1 thing... the only thing that matters is TODAY. Posting ROLL today staying quit today. The key to me staying quit is not worrying about what will happen tomorrow, on 30 September, at Christmas, next February, next year or 5 years from now... none of that matters. Qutting is not a long term strategy. I don't need to think about the future because I don't control the future. I control the here and now. What matters is posting ROLL which is my word, holding my quit today being engaged in this brother/sisterhood.
On Day 71, my goals for my quit are simple. Post ROLL today - done. Now, I must stay true to my word today stay quit on September 1st, 2013. I know I can do this! I will do this! I am QLF today!
Congrats on adding another +1! I've discovered this is all I can do, if I start to worry too much about what the future holds it gets to be too overwhelming, but I can control today keep to my word in the roll call. Great job doing that 71 times!
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Day 71... It is September that is the month I will hit the HOF. On Day 1, I thought about this my ultimate goal was to get to 30 Sep 2013. That is the day I would hit the HOF. Nice right??
Funny thing happened along the way these past 71 days. I realized 1 thing... the only thing that matters is TODAY. Posting ROLL today staying quit today. The key to me staying quit is not worrying about what will happen tomorrow, on 30 September, at Christmas, next February, next year or 5 years from now... none of that matters. Qutting is not a long term strategy. I don't need to think about the future because I don't control the future. I control the here and now. What matters is posting ROLL which is my word, holding my quit today being engaged in this brother/sisterhood.
On Day 71, my goals for my quit are simple. Post ROLL today - done. Now, I must stay true to my word today stay quit on September 1st, 2013. I know I can do this! I will do this! I am QLF today!
Congrats on adding another +1! I've discovered this is all I can do, if I start to worry too much about what the future holds it gets to be too overwhelming, but I can control today keep to my word in the roll call. Great job doing that 71 times!
Thank you sensei.
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Day 80... QLF and not turning back. Life here is a lot different than before quitting. I can now actually drive in my car and not be worrying about getting my next fix of poison. I can have an evening with the family not be worrying about when I will next stuff my face full of poison. I can drive to work and not need to make a pit stop for the evil weed. I can go into a store and not be eying the rack of death looking for Copenhagen. Feels absolutely great. But I have a deep anger for what this addiction has taken from me. Money, time with family and friends, possible health issues,,, basically 20 yrs of my life being owned by a senseless addiction. I want to pass on a heartfelt FU to big T. I will beat this addiction today and EDD from here on out. That is just how it will be.
Glad to be amongst a group of quitters that want this quit as bad as I do. I am winning. We are winning. The accountability here is critical and I am proud to be quit with y'all today. QLF ODAAT!!
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Congrats on 80 days Derk!
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Day 80... QLF and not turning back. Life here is a lot different than before quitting. I can now actually drive in my car and not be worrying about getting my next fix of poison. I can have an evening with the family not be worrying about when I will next stuff my face full of poison. I can drive to work and not need to make a pit stop for the evil weed. I can go into a store and not be eying the rack of death looking for Copenhagen. Feels absolutely great. But I have a deep anger for what this addiction has taken from me. Money, time with family and friends, possible health issues,,, basically 20 yrs of my life being owned by a senseless addiction. I want to pass on a heartfelt FU to big T. I will beat this addiction today and EDD from here on out. That is just how it will be.
Glad to be amongst a group of quitters that want this quit as bad as I do. I am winning. We are winning. The accountability here is critical and I am proud to be quit with y'all today. QLF ODAAT!!
Great job on the 80 derk. Your help on the intros is great brother. Your advice sound and encouragement inspires. It's great to see people paying it forward. I went back through your intro,, just to get a look at the difference. Wow brother!! You went from a losing addict to a winning quitter. Damn glad to be quit with you friend.
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Day 80... QLF and not turning back. Life here is a lot different than before quitting. I can now actually drive in my car and not be worrying about getting my next fix of poison. I can have an evening with the family not be worrying about when I will next stuff my face full of poison. I can drive to work and not need to make a pit stop for the evil weed. I can go into a store and not be eying the rack of death looking for Copenhagen. Feels absolutely great. But I have a deep anger for what this addiction has taken from me. Money, time with family and friends, possible health issues,,, basically 20 yrs of my life being owned by a senseless addiction. I want to pass on a heartfelt FU to big T. I will beat this addiction today and EDD from here on out. That is just how it will be.Â
Glad to be amongst a group of quitters that want this quit as bad as I do. I am winning. We are winning. The accountability here is critical and I am proud to be quit with y'all today. QLF ODAAT!!
Great job on the 80 derk. Your help on the intros is great brother. Your advice sound and encouragement inspires. It's great to see people paying it forward. I went back through your intro,, just to get a look at the difference. Wow brother!! You went from a losing addict to a winning quitter. Damn glad to be quit with you friend.
Excellent. I agree with everything SRANS said (I often do) you are a real quitter, an inspiration. Proud to be quit with you.
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88 days in and the quit is strong. Watching fellow September quitters hit the HOF is a huge motivator today.
Had a dip dream last night. First one and it was a weird dream. I was on a work trip and found myself going from store to store looking for something. I was not sure what for, but I was anxious and moving frantically. The next thing I knew I was walking into my hotel room throwing some sort of herbal chew on the bed. It looked like hooch but it had a different name. I went to sit down on the bed and then all of the sudden the door to my hotel room was kicked open. A guy that works for me in real life was standing at the door. He walked in and asked if I was looking for the copenhagen I had left behind several weeks ago in the conference room. Being a ninja dipper, I asked how he knew it was mine. He said that everyone in the office knew that I was a dipper and everyone knew I was lying about it all along. This made me feel like a total jerk and a liar. I told him that I was quit and he could have the dip if he wanted it. He said thanks and left the room.
Woke up from the dream and it actually took me a minute to get my bearings and realize that I was not on a work trip and this did not happen.
Felt good after I thought about this all morning because I was ready to hack down some herbal, turned down a couple cans of dip without hesitation and told the guy in the dream that I was quit. I wanted no part of the dip. That is how it is done in real life and in dreams!
This was also a great reminder how I had only been fooling myself about my addiction. I tried to hide the addiction from everyone for 20 years... but I was only lying to myself. Each day I am earning back some of that honor respect that I had trampled on for so long.
Today, I am a free man. Free of nicotine not turning back. Today I R quit! And will stay quit ADD. QLF folks!
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88 days in and the quit is strong. Watching fellow September quitters hit the HOF is a huge motivator today.
Had a dip dream last night. First one and it was a weird dream. I was on a work trip and found myself going from store to store looking for something. I was not sure what for, but I was anxious and moving frantically. The next thing I knew I was walking into my hotel room throwing some sort of herbal chew on the bed. It looked like hooch but it had a different name. I went to sit down on the bed and then all of the sudden the door to my hotel room was kicked open. A guy that works for me in real life was standing at the door. He walked in and asked if I was looking for the copenhagen I had left behind several weeks ago in the conference room. Being a ninja dipper, I asked how he knew it was mine. He said that everyone in the office knew that I was a dipper and everyone knew I was lying about it all along. This made me feel like a total jerk and a liar. I told him that I was quit and he could have the dip if he wanted it. He said thanks and left the room.
Woke up from the dream and it actually took me a minute to get my bearings and realize that I was not on a work trip and this did not happen.
Felt good after I thought about this all morning because I was ready to hack down some herbal, turned down a couple cans of dip without hesitation and told the guy in the dream that I was quit. I wanted no part of the dip. That is how it is done in real life and in dreams!
This was also a great reminder how I had only been fooling myself about my addiction. I tried to hide the addiction from everyone for 20 years... but I was only lying to myself. Each day I am earning back some of that honor respect that I had trampled on for so long.
Today, I am a free man. Free of nicotine not turning back. Today I R quit! And will stay quit ADD. QLF folks!
M R Ducks...O S M R!
Derk, you dreaming Som Bits, you inspire the hell out of me!
I am proud to quit with you every day! Keep on quitting on!
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Man that's strong. Keep on keeping on.
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88 days in and the quit is strong. Watching fellow September quitters hit the HOF is a huge motivator today.
Had a dip dream last night. First one and it was a weird dream. I was on a work trip and found myself going from store to store looking for something. I was not sure what for, but I was anxious and moving frantically. The next thing I knew I was walking into my hotel room throwing some sort of herbal chew on the bed. It looked like hooch but it had a different name. I went to sit down on the bed and then all of the sudden the door to my hotel room was kicked open. A guy that works for me in real life was standing at the door. He walked in and asked if I was looking for the copenhagen I had left behind several weeks ago in the conference room. Being a ninja dipper, I asked how he knew it was mine. He said that everyone in the office knew that I was a dipper and everyone knew I was lying about it all along. This made me feel like a total jerk and a liar. I told him that I was quit and he could have the dip if he wanted it. He said thanks and left the room.
Woke up from the dream and it actually took me a minute to get my bearings and realize that I was not on a work trip and this did not happen.Â
Felt good after I thought about this all morning because I was ready to hack down some herbal, turned down a couple cans of dip without hesitation and told the guy in the dream that I was quit. I wanted no part of the dip. That is how it is done in real life and in dreams!
This was also a great reminder how I had only been fooling myself about my addiction. I tried to hide the addiction from everyone for 20 years... but I was only lying to myself. Each day I am earning back some of that honor respect that I had trampled on for so long.Â
Today, I am a free man. Free of nicotine not turning back. Today I R quit! And will stay quit ADD. QLF folks!
M R Ducks...O S M R!
Derk, you dreaming Som Bits, you inspire the hell out of me!
I am proud to quit with you every day! Keep on quitting on!
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Good stuff Derk. Knockin' em down, even in your sleep.
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88 days in and the quit is strong. Watching fellow September quitters hit the HOF is a huge motivator today.
Had a dip dream last night. First one and it was a weird dream. I was on a work trip and found myself going from store to store looking for something. I was not sure what for, but I was anxious and moving frantically. The next thing I knew I was walking into my hotel room throwing some sort of herbal chew on the bed. It looked like hooch but it had a different name. I went to sit down on the bed and then all of the sudden the door to my hotel room was kicked open. A guy that works for me in real life was standing at the door. He walked in and asked if I was looking for the copenhagen I had left behind several weeks ago in the conference room. Being a ninja dipper, I asked how he knew it was mine. He said that everyone in the office knew that I was a dipper and everyone knew I was lying about it all along. This made me feel like a total jerk and a liar. I told him that I was quit and he could have the dip if he wanted it. He said thanks and left the room.
Woke up from the dream and it actually took me a minute to get my bearings and realize that I was not on a work trip and this did not happen.Â
Felt good after I thought about this all morning because I was ready to hack down some herbal, turned down a couple cans of dip without hesitation and told the guy in the dream that I was quit. I wanted no part of the dip. That is how it is done in real life and in dreams!
This was also a great reminder how I had only been fooling myself about my addiction. I tried to hide the addiction from everyone for 20 years... but I was only lying to myself. Each day I am earning back some of that honor respect that I had trampled on for so long.Â
Today, I am a free man. Free of nicotine not turning back. Today I R quit! And will stay quit ADD. QLF folks!
M R Ducks...O S M R!
Derk, you dreaming Som Bits, you inspire the hell out of me!
I am proud to quit with you every day! Keep on quitting on!
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Good stuff Derk. Knockin' em down, even in your sleep.
Keep up the great work derk. The train is coming my friend. Quit with you all day bro.
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Wow, you're quit strong even in your dream! I haven't had a dip dream yet, but have been having more bizarre dreams so I know one's due up soon.
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Dude... you're killin' it!
Look at how far you've come bro. It's amazing isn't it? Don't change a thing ~ keep doing exactly what you're doing. See you tomorrow...!
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Those dreams can seem sooo real....powerful stuff!!
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88 days in and the quit is strong. Watching fellow September quitters hit the HOF is a huge motivator today.
Had a dip dream last night. First one and it was a weird dream. I was on a work trip and found myself going from store to store looking for something. I was not sure what for, but I was anxious and moving frantically. The next thing I knew I was walking into my hotel room throwing some sort of herbal chew on the bed. It looked like hooch but it had a different name. I went to sit down on the bed and then all of the sudden the door to my hotel room was kicked open. A guy that works for me in real life was standing at the door. He walked in and asked if I was looking for the copenhagen I had left behind several weeks ago in the conference room. Being a ninja dipper, I asked how he knew it was mine. He said that everyone in the office knew that I was a dipper and everyone knew I was lying about it all along. This made me feel like a total jerk and a liar. I told him that I was quit and he could have the dip if he wanted it. He said thanks and left the room.
Woke up from the dream and it actually took me a minute to get my bearings and realize that I was not on a work trip and this did not happen.Â
Felt good after I thought about this all morning because I was ready to hack down some herbal, turned down a couple cans of dip without hesitation and told the guy in the dream that I was quit. I wanted no part of the dip. That is how it is done in real life and in dreams!
This was also a great reminder how I had only been fooling myself about my addiction. I tried to hide the addiction from everyone for 20 years... but I was only lying to myself. Each day I am earning back some of that honor respect that I had trampled on for so long.Â
Today, I am a free man. Free of nicotine not turning back. Today I R quit! And will stay quit ADD. QLF folks!
M R Ducks...O S M R!
Derk, you dreaming Som Bits, you inspire the hell out of me!
I am proud to quit with you every day! Keep on quitting on!
Pinched
Good stuff Derk. Knockin' em down, even in your sleep.
Keep up the great work derk. The train is coming my friend. Quit with you all day bro.
Nice Derk! I was quit in my first dip dream, but I have had a few since, where the first thing I remember I already have a dip in. Do not freak out if this happens to you. I had several dip dreams days 80-100. See you on that train in 2 weeks.
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Day 92... wow, 13 weeks ago I made a great decision. I joined this site have not looked back. I am 92-0 in my quit and it feels great. I have had a dip dream every night since day 88 and I love it. I call them dreams but they are nightmares and they are keeping me focused. I wake up each morning, get my bearings and immediately post roll. You know what... bring it on! I own you!
I read my intro from start to finish today. I do this from time to time and it does a couple things for me. First, it allows me to relive this journey never forget where I was on 23 June 2013. I was a disaster. Today, I am no longer that disaster. I am a free man... free of nicotine living life. The second thing it does for me... I get to see the outpouring of support from all of you to help me stay quit. I am so glad I used my intro to vent and talk through my issues. That is not how I normally do things. I took a page out of the George Costanza playbook -- just do the exact opposite of what you normally would do. I am not a blog guy, website guy, text guy, phone guy. That is not how I roll. But for 92 days I have done it the KTC way... I drank that koolaid I am very thankful I did.
I will never say... I never thought I could get to 92 days quit. That is an old mindset. Today, I know that all I have to do is stay quit today. That is all. If I do that... good things will come. I don't need to worry about the future or how many days quit I have... just need to worry about today. I need to do whatever it takes to stay quit today. If I do that, then all is good.
I owe you all so much! I am so proud to be quit with you today! Thanks for all the support! Know that I am here if you need me. Quit it up!
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Day 92... wow, 13 weeks ago I made a great decision. I joined this site have not looked back. I am 92-0 in my quit and it feels great. I have had a dip dream every night since day 88 and I love it. I call them dreams but they are nightmares and they are keeping me focused. I wake up each morning, get my bearings and immediately post roll. You know what... bring it on! I own you!
I read my intro from start to finish today. I do this from time to time and it does a couple things for me. First, it allows me to relive this journey never forget where I was on 23 June 2013. I was a disaster. Today, I am no longer that disaster. I am a free man... free of nicotine living life. The second thing it does for me... I get to see the outpouring of support from all of you to help me stay quit. I am so glad I used my intro to vent and talk through my issues. That is not how I normally do things. I took a page out of the George Costanza playbook -- just do the exact opposite of what you normally would do. I am not a blog guy, website guy, text guy, phone guy. That is not how I roll. But for 92 days I have done it the KTC way... I drank that koolaid I am very thankful I did.
I will never say... I never thought I could get to 92 days quit. That is an old mindset. Today, I know that all I have to do is stay quit today. That is all. If I do that... good things will come. I don't need to worry about the future or how many days quit I have... just need to worry about today. I need to do whatever it takes to stay quit today. If I do that, then all is good.
I owe you all so much! I am so proud to be quit with you today! Thanks for all the support! Know that I am here if you need me. Quit it up!
Brother, you inspire me. Thanks for posting that.
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Day 92... wow, 13 weeks ago I made a great decision. I joined this site have not looked back. I am 92-0 in my quit and it feels great. I have had a dip dream every night since day 88 and I love it. I call them dreams but they are nightmares and they are keeping me focused. I wake up each morning, get my bearings and immediately post roll. You know what... bring it on! I own you!
I read my intro from start to finish today. I do this from time to time and it does a couple things for me. First, it allows me to relive this journey never forget where I was on 23 June 2013. I was a disaster. Today, I am no longer that disaster. I am a free man... free of nicotine living life. The second thing it does for me... I get to see the outpouring of support from all of you to help me stay quit. I am so glad I used my intro to vent and talk through my issues. That is not how I normally do things. I took a page out of the George Costanza playbook -- just do the exact opposite of what you normally would do. I am not a blog guy, website guy, text guy, phone guy. That is not how I roll. But for 92 days I have done it the KTC way... I drank that koolaid I am very thankful I did.
I will never say... I never thought I could get to 92 days quit. That is an old mindset. Today, I know that all I have to do is stay quit today. That is all. If I do that... good things will come. I don't need to worry about the future or how many days quit I have... just need to worry about today. I need to do whatever it takes to stay quit today. If I do that, then all is good.
I owe you all so much! I am so proud to be quit with you today! Thanks for all the support! Know that I am here if you need me. Quit it up!
You have inspired and touched no telling how many members, whether veterans or newbies. Thanks for the support you have tossed my way. Thanks for the update.
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Day 10... My "want dip meeter" just fuckin pegged. Out for lunch... Focused on quit all good, right. Phone rings and it is Mrs Derk. Our daughter got ripped off buying something at a store... Other daughter got bit by some fuckin bug... Derk, you need to caulk the windows... U need to get the house power washed ... U need to ... Blah the fucking blah blah. I went dark and blank. I immediately wanted to go buy a round fucking tin. Round fucking tin... Need it bad. All the sudden I had a quick thought and said. No... U quit asshole. I told mrs Derk I had to go. She said why... I said got to go. She said why.... The next thing coming out of my mouth was not going to help anyone. I just hung up. Started to breath. Still panicked. Here I am now typing this down. Breathing back... No dip in sight and not on my fucking radar. Tried to call mrs Derk back but I received a text saying I was rude. Agreed. I was and it prob wont be the last time. At least now she hopefully know why I am an asshole today. Ok... I am regrouped. I got this. KMA dip. I am stronger than your weak ass. I am quit all day, everyday. I am quit with all u today. Derk, out.
Derk - read through your intro this morning. Saw that you said you life was a disaster. Thought I'd bump this post from. 82 days ago to the top. This is where you were.
It is a world away from where you are.
In those early days, when the fog, the rage, and the fear embraced us, vets reached out and offered promises of bright days ahead. Quotes like "you won't believe how good you will feel." We both thought... Bullshit! I just need to quit so I don't kill myself!
Well, it isn't bullshit. This process can change your whole life. Thank you for sharing and documenting your journey for us. Your story has strengthened my resolve on many an occasion.
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Day 10... My "want dip meeter" just fuckin pegged. Out for lunch... Focused on quit all good, right. Phone rings and it is Mrs Derk. Our daughter got ripped off buying something at a store... Other daughter got bit by some fuckin bug... Derk, you need to caulk the windows... U need to get the house power washed ... U need to ... Blah the fucking blah blah. I went dark and blank. I immediately wanted to go buy a round fucking tin. Round fucking tin... Need it bad. All the sudden I had a quick thought and said. No... U quit asshole. I told mrs Derk I had to go. She said why... I said got to go. She said why.... The next thing coming out of my mouth was not going to help anyone. I just hung up. Started to breath. Still panicked. Here I am now typing this down. Breathing back... No dip in sight and not on my fucking radar. Tried to call mrs Derk back but I received a text saying I was rude. Agreed. I was and it prob wont be the last time. At least now she hopefully know why I am an asshole today.  Ok... I am regrouped. I got this. KMA dip. I am stronger than your weak ass. I am quit all day, everyday. I am quit with all u today. Derk, out.
Derk - read through your intro this morning. Saw that you said you life was a disaster. Thought I'd bump this post from. 82 days ago to the top. This is where you were.
It is a world away from where you are.
In those early days, when the fog, the rage, and the fear embraced us, vets reached out and offered promises of bright days ahead. Quotes like "you won't believe how good you will feel." We both thought... Bullshit! I just need to quit so I don't kill myself!
Well, it isn't bullshit. This process can change your whole life. Thank you for sharing and documenting your journey for us. Your story has strengthened my resolve on many an occasion.
Quitting at its finest. Damn glad to be quit with you my friend. :)
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Day 92... wow, 13 weeks ago I made a great decision. I joined this site have not looked back. I am 92-0 in my quit and it feels great. I have had a dip dream every night since day 88 and I love it. I call them dreams but they are nightmares and they are keeping me focused. I wake up each morning, get my bearings and immediately post roll. You know what... bring it on! I own you!
I read my intro from start to finish today. I do this from time to time and it does a couple things for me. First, it allows me to relive this journey never forget where I was on 23 June 2013. I was a disaster. Today, I am no longer that disaster. I am a free man... free of nicotine living life. The second thing it does for me... I get to see the outpouring of support from all of you to help me stay quit. I am so glad I used my intro to vent and talk through my issues. That is not how I normally do things. I took a page out of the George Costanza playbook -- just do the exact opposite of what you normally would do. I am not a blog guy, website guy, text guy, phone guy. That is not how I roll. But for 92 days I have done it the KTC way... I drank that koolaid I am very thankful I did.
I will never say... I never thought I could get to 92 days quit. That is an old mindset. Today, I know that all I have to do is stay quit today. That is all. If I do that... good things will come. I don't need to worry about the future or how many days quit I have... just need to worry about today. I need to do whatever it takes to stay quit today. If I do that, then all is good.
I owe you all so much! I am so proud to be quit with you today! Thanks for all the support! Know that I am here if you need me. Quit it up!
You have inspired and touched no telling how many members, whether veterans or newbies. Thanks for the support you have tossed my way. Thanks for the update.
^^^^ I couldn't have said it better.
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Day 92... wow, 13 weeks ago I made a great decision. I joined this site have not looked back. I am 92-0 in my quit and it feels great. I have had a dip dream every night since day 88 and I love it. I call them dreams but they are nightmares and they are keeping me focused. I wake up each morning, get my bearings and immediately post roll. You know what... bring it on! I own you!
I read my intro from start to finish today. I do this from time to time and it does a couple things for me. First, it allows me to relive this journey never forget where I was on 23 June 2013. I was a disaster. Today, I am no longer that disaster. I am a free man... free of nicotine living life. The second thing it does for me... I get to see the outpouring of support from all of you to help me stay quit. I am so glad I used my intro to vent and talk through my issues. That is not how I normally do things. I took a page out of the George Costanza playbook -- just do the exact opposite of what you normally would do. I am not a blog guy, website guy, text guy, phone guy. That is not how I roll. But for 92 days I have done it the KTC way... I drank that koolaid I am very thankful I did.
I will never say... I never thought I could get to 92 days quit. That is an old mindset. Today, I know that all I have to do is stay quit today. That is all. If I do that... good things will come. I don't need to worry about the future or how many days quit I have... just need to worry about today. I need to do whatever it takes to stay quit today. If I do that, then all is good.
I owe you all so much! I am so proud to be quit with you today! Thanks for all the support! Know that I am here if you need me. Quit it up!
Congrats on 92 days bro! Proud to be quit with you today.
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Day 92... wow, 13 weeks ago I made a great decision. I joined this site have not looked back. I am 92-0 in my quit and it feels great.  I have had a dip dream every night since day 88 and I love it. I call them dreams but they are nightmares and they are keeping me focused. I wake up each morning, get my bearings and immediately post roll. You know what... bring it on! I own you!
I read my intro from start to finish today. I do this from time to time and it does a couple things for me. First, it allows me to relive this journey never forget where I was on 23 June 2013. I was a disaster. Today, I am no longer that disaster. I am a free man... free of nicotine living life. The second thing it does for me... I get to see the outpouring of support from all of you to help me stay quit. I am so glad I used my intro to vent and talk through my issues. That is not how I normally do things. I took a page out of the George Costanza playbook -- just do the exact opposite of what you normally would do. I am not a blog guy, website guy, text guy, phone guy. That is not how I roll. But for 92 days I have done it the KTC way... I drank that koolaid I am very thankful I did.
I will never say... I never thought I could get to 92 days quit. That is an old mindset. Today, I know that all I have to do is stay quit today. That is all. If I do that... good things will come. I don't need to worry about the future or how many days quit I have... just need to worry about today. I need to do whatever it takes to stay quit today. If I do that, then all is good.
I owe you all so much! I am so proud to be quit with you today! Thanks for all the support! Know that I am here if you need me. Quit it up!
You have inspired and touched no telling how many members, whether veterans or newbies. Thanks for the support you have tossed my way. Thanks for the update.
^^^^ I couldn't have said it better.
Well done brother!
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OK DERK I THOUGHT YOU NEEDED TO BE ABLE TO SAVE THIS IN YOUR INTRO SO YOU CAN LOOK BACK ON IT IN THE FUTURE. YOU ARE A BAD ASS WHO HAS ACHIEVED WHAT FEW CAN CAN BRAG ABOUT. TRUE FREEDOM! WELL DONE. WELCOME TO THE HALL OF FAME! - JAKE FRAWLEY - 135
DERK40'S H.O.F. INTRO 09.30.13
Hello from Worktowin (KTC HOF Class of April 2013!) Here it is, the last day of September, and Eddie and Jake pulled the train into Kansas City after leaving San Fran yesterday. They asked if I would be a guest conductor and help to welcome one fired up quitter on board (thanks for the invite!) but I think they also wanted me to stop by work (alcohol biz) and bring some of the goods on board. Well, Derk, today you’re in luck, I’ve got a truckload of Sam Adams Octoberfest I snagged out of the warehouse with your name on it! You all might want to hang on as I’m used to driving a Hyundai – this trains' got a little more giddy-up than I’m used to! Hop on board, Derk, this we're getting ready to be on 2 wheels while we finish up September with one hell of a pickup!
Derk started this journey like many of us. After first being introduced to Kodiak in a bar at 18 (inappropriate behavior???) he moved on to dippin’ Copenhagen for the next 25 years. The bar story is one of legend – he and a friend in HS snuck in for some suds, and that night someone offered up the dip. The Kodiak burned his lip like a mofo, but he saw a girl across the way that he had a big crush on. Went over to hit on her with that big fat introductory dip in…. well, she told him that he looked like a total loser! Although defeated, Derk liked that first buzz a lot and moved on to be a professional Ninja for the next two and a half decades.
This bad ass military dude lives in SE VA, but is originally from Cleveland. He has a “smoking hot wife” and 2 great kids. Derk is a positive influence on many on these boards, and proclaims to be “a lucky SOB.” In the event of an accident, he thinks his wife would probably want to know. Probably. Remember, Worktowin with a bunch of Sam Adams and no train experience is driving this rig right now – so keep her number close! The Derk family loves going to the beach (we have no beaches in Kansas) and loves cheering on Ohio State! O-H!!! I-O!!!! In his spare time, he loves to exercise, but mostly spend time with his family. I’ll provide the beer for today’s ride, but Derk has loaded up his SR5 4-Runner with some killer wings to share.
Inappropriate behavior is in this dude’s nature. But in Ninja style, his answer to inappropriate behavior he enjoys… “depends on the definition of “inappropriate.” Enough said. Anyone who quotes Animal House "My advice to you is to start drinking heavily" is familiar with inappropriate behavior, right? Derk did once walk 20+ blocks through the Bronx to see a Cleveland Indians game at the old Yankee Stadium – after getting off at the wrong train stop! He was all decked out in an Indians jersey and feels lucky to still be alive. He offers some sage wisdom to all of us… if you get off at the wrong stop – get back on the train and go to the correct one. Well, Derk, today you are on the right train for damn sure!
Tonight, in celebration of a huge milestone in his life, he is gonna get his “mullygrub on” (quote courtesy of Srans) and enjoy a serious piece of steak and some ice cream. And more than one Sam Adams I suspect. And probably some inappropriate behavior – though we don’t need the details on that. Derk will be sticking around long term, to 200 and beyond, as this milestone is ODAAT and the accountability here works! I couldn’t have said it better myself!
DerkÂ’s Words of Wisdom are below, and they are appropriate to all of us, whether we are quit 1 day, 100 days, or 10,000 days:
“Do not get ahead of yourself... quit ODAAT! Don't worry about tomorrow, next week, next year, the HOF, 1 year. Forget about all that!!! All you control is today. You can control today stay quit today. Own it, or be owned! You have 2 options: you can choose to take your life back, or you can choose to be a slave to a poison can. Choose to quit! Be positive at all times! Negative thinking will be your downfall make you question yourself. KNOW you can do this... do not sit around sulking complaining about how hard this quit is... It is hard. So what! You ever wonder why the guy with the positive attitude gets ahead in life and the people with crappy attitudes get nowhere. Positive, can-do people get things done while negative nay-sayers don't. Quitters QLF! Cavers f-in cave fail. Drink the KTC kool-aid, honor your word, get involved, and stay quit ODAAT. I promise that you can get your life back!”
When asked about support inspiration, Derk mentioned reading a letter from Tom Jenny Kern's daughter. It was after Tom had passed away his daughter wrote a letter to him talking about how she missed him about his addiction that killed him. This was the reality that Derk faced if he chose not to quit – and it totally changed his perspective. He provided a lengthy list of people that helped him get to 100 days:
“The list of people that have helped me this 100 is long and distinguished. First, the 2 guys that saved my foggy ass early without a doubt... srans and trauma. Without these 2 so heavily engaged early... I would have been lost. You guys showed me that this could be done! The other guy that helped me think about things in a different way helped me get my mind right was Skoal Monster. It was not a day to day contact with him, but he really helped shine a light towards the path of quit. Lastly, worktowin was also huge... I just relate to you brother! It is impossible to name everyone but some more prominent supporters- AppleJack (I love u man!), jrod, minny Californiaslim (we have battled thru this together brothers!), KC (1 positive SOB... thanks bro!), ERussel (Man, you are a badass quitter!), Duathman BillyBill (my kik bros... man u guys are cool badass quitters... I have learned from u big time), Pinched (my Jarhead brother... you inspire me daily), Evil_Won (you were the first person to respond to me you scared the piss out of me for some reason.), sportsfan (bro, you can get some quitters fired up supporting the wagins), Mr. Mrs. Daniels (anyone that that is in KTC chat in the hospital having a baby is badass in my book), 224 (ur just so kool!), Cmark (ur the first guy to reach out to me in KTC chat and send me a phone number... meant a lot to me really was a quit changer), Sage (your texts are always timely your chat is always raw... you are cool!), iizphilister (my chat brother that I thought I offended my first day in chat.... it took me that day to realize that is just how it has to be. If ur not offending, then ur not chatting. Your a badass bro!), jlud007 (Glad ur back quit bro!), B-lo (you are a badass!), FIGHTIN_IGNORANCE (My Ohio bro! I have quit with you every day for some time now... Having the I next to U has made me write FU on more than one occasion), kandalk and gorilla (kik bros!!! Lol... Hehe... I mean HaHa). This list does not constitute everyone that has impacted my quit. Reading, learning daily has kept me grounded quit. It is the lot of ya that has kept me here! Man, I love being quit!”
And so, it is with great honor that I get to welcome you to the train today. You have inspired many of us on this site. Not just newbies; not just the September group; many of us on KTC have grown through your experience and struggles. Today, as you board the train and celebrate, believe me (and the other people that are a few or many days ahead) when I promise that every day gets brighter. 100 is just the beginning, and I look forward to you hitting many more milestones ahead. Freedom is such a great gift, and today this ride is in DerkÂ’s honor! Proud to be quit with you again today, brother! ODAAT!
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CONGRATS DERK ON THE HOF. ENJOY THE DAY BROTHER
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Congrats Derk! Keep the quit rolling and I'm right there with you.
Peace.
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Congrats Derk on 100 days of freedom from Nicotine. 'Cheers' this is just the first milestone i see That Ktc members will get to enjoy with you.. sir you are a asset to ktc please keep paying it forward back. proud to quit with you.
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Wow that is awesome! I can't wait to join you in January! Congrats!!!!!
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Hell yeah Derk! I knew you was a bad assed mofo! The quit was strong from early on with you man.
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Well done, you are the example of how each and everyone of is supposed to be on this site. Newbies you want a person to model your quit after take a lesson from ole Derk here.
just a FYI copy all the peeps that post roll today and paste it to your intro so you have it with you always.
Trauma out
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Congrats, Derk! +1 with you every damn day, bro. Thank you for all of your support. I'll see you at roll call tomorrow.
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Congrats on the 100 days! Thanks for all you have done.
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Congrats Derk, us newbs appreciate everything you do!
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Congrats Derk, us newbs appreciate everything you do!
Good job bro. Proud of u.
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Congratulations on 100 days Derk!
Proud to be quit with you brother!
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Congratulations on 100 days Derk!
Proud to be quit with you brother!
Hell yeah brother, now sign up for 200 because I need your continued support brother! All Day Every Day and Quack Fooking Quack Quitter!
I am proud to quit with you every blessed day!
Great quitters breed great quitters!
Pinched
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I am lucky to have such a great quitter in my group and in our Kik group!! Our football teams might meet up at the NCG but when it's over we will still be quit together. You have done a lot more than I have in terms of paying it forward in the intro's and such, I am proud to quit with you today!!!!
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Derk my brother. CONGRATS ON THE HOF. Dudes like you are what makes this site great. Well done bro. I will quit with you any day.
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I am lucky to have such a great quitter in my group and in our Kik group!! Our football teams might meet up at the NCG but when it's over we will still be quit together. You have done a lot more than I have in terms of paying it forward in the intro's and such, I am proud to quit with you today!!!!
X2 except the teams meeting up thing. Proud to have you in September and you quit on the last day to be a slut. Way to finish up our month. Nicely done and you know where to find me. Hehe
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What a day! I really appreciate all the PMs, texts, posts on my intro -- this is why this site works. We quit together. Thank you all so much!!!!
100 is not my destination, nor should it be yours. This is a milestone in my quit. A milestone that I will celebrate am damn proud to achieve. I worked my butt off the past 100 days so I need to reflect now.
Believe me... today nothing could get me down... it was like a reverse fog. Total clarity, focus and enjoyment. Frickin Killer! Quit Xanadu!
I equate a quit milestone to a birthday. I will celebrate ALL quit milestones the same way that I celebrate my birthday. This is not my destination. When I celebrate my birthday... it ain't over. "Was it over when the Germans bombed Pearl Harbor?" "HELL NO!" I want to live the day of my birth. And God willing... I will wake up the next morning and celebrate another day. Same goes for my quit... I will celebrate this milestone, but need to remain vigilant and live this day quit. And I will enjoy the day not worry about anything else. And the God willing, I will wake up tomorrow do it again. ODAAT!
I am not going anywhere. I love this site. I love being quit. Let's keep this thing rolling! See you in the morning! QLF!!! Derk, out!
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Great job Derk. You've been a kick ass quitter since day one!! Keep rolling man. 101 tomorrow.
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What a day! I really appreciate all the PMs, texts, posts on my intro -- this is why this site works. We quit together. Thank you all so much!!!!
100 is not my destination, nor should it be yours. This is a milestone in my quit. A milestone that I will celebrate am damn proud to achieve. I worked my butt off the past 100 days so I need to reflect now.
Believe me... today nothing could get me down... it was like a reverse fog. Total clarity, focus and enjoyment. Frickin Killer! Quit Xanadu!
I equate a quit milestone to a birthday. I will celebrate ALL quit milestones the same way that I celebrate my birthday. This is not my destination. When I celebrate my birthday... it ain't over. "Was it over when the Germans bombed Pearl Harbor?" "HELL NO!" I want to live the day of my birth. And God willing... I will wake up the next morning and celebrate another day. Same goes for my quit... I will celebrate this milestone, but need to remain vigilant and live this day quit. And I will enjoy the day not worry about anything else. And the God willing, I will wake up tomorrow do it again. ODAAT!
I am not going anywhere. I love this site. I love being quit. Let's keep this thing rolling! See you in the morning! QLF!!! Derk, out!
Awesome work Derk congrats on reaching 100 days! That's some milestone worth celebrating.
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Day 107 and I am QLF today. The last 4 days I have felt some intense craves. Not sure what I am craving because I posted roll each of those days and there was no way I was gonna put that poison in my lip. Not yesterday and not today. Don't want anything to do with that! But the craves have been intense... Almost the same way I felt back in the first month of this quit. Must be the so-called post HOF funk. I have the tools so I am ready to do battle when the time comes. So I did just that .. I battled. Whatever it takes.
I went out and bought a couple of real big steaks and got the grill going last night. Had a good meal and that got me feeling pretty good. I went to bed last night and promised myself I was going to fight harder today. Still battling a bit today. The problem is I am not interested in being in a funk today. So... FU funk! And FU BT!
Anyhow... I posted roll and I am committed to staying quit today. I will honor my word. ODAAT. QLF people!
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Day 107 and I am QLF today. The last 4 days I have felt some intense craves. Not sure what I am craving because I posted roll each of those days and there was no way I was gonna put that poison in my lip. Not yesterday and not today. Don't want anything to do with that! But the craves have been intense... Almost the same way I felt back in the first month of this quit. Must be the so-called post HOF funk. I have the tools so I am ready to do battle when the time comes. So I did just that .. I battled. Whatever it takes.
I went out and bought a couple of real big steaks and got the grill going last night. Had a good meal and that got me feeling pretty good. I went to bed last night and promised myself I was going to fight harder today. Still battling a bit today. The problem is I am not interested in being in a funk today. So... FU funk! And FU BT!
Anyhow... I posted roll and I am committed to staying quit today. I will honor my word. ODAAT. QLF people!
You are a quitting beast! The nic-bitch can ask you to play but as long as you are nicotine free, you make all the rules. You are doing great, Derk40. Hang in there, man!
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Day 107 and I am QLF today. The last 4 days I have felt some intense craves. Not sure what I am craving because I posted roll each of those days and there was no way I was gonna put that poison in my lip. Not yesterday and not today. Don't want anything to do with that! But the craves have been intense... Almost the same way I felt back in the first month of this quit. Must be the so-called post HOF funk. I have the tools so I am ready to do battle when the time comes. So I did just that .. I battled. Whatever it takes.
I went out and bought a couple of real big steaks and got the grill going last night. Had a good meal and that got me feeling pretty good. I went to bed last night and promised myself I was going to fight harder today. Still battling a bit today. The problem is I am not interested in being in a funk today. So... FU funk! And FU BT!
Anyhow... I posted roll and I am committed to staying quit today. I will honor my word. ODAAT. QLF people!
Nothing like grilling some nice big steaks to help put a guy in a good mood! 'drool'
Thanks for the warning that no matter how many day's you've accumulated, each day is still earned fighting ODAAT. Proud to be quit with you today for sure for another +1!
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Day 107 and I am QLF today. The last 4 days I have felt some intense craves. Not sure what I am craving because I posted roll each of those days and there was no way I was gonna put that poison in my lip. Not yesterday and not today. Don't want anything to do with that! But the craves have been intense... Almost the same way I felt back in the first month of this quit. Must be the so-called post HOF funk. I have the tools so I am ready to do battle when the time comes. So I did just that .. I battled. Whatever it takes.
I went out and bought a couple of real big steaks and got the grill going last night. Had a good meal and that got me feeling pretty good. I went to bed last night and promised myself I was going to fight harder today. Still battling a bit today. The problem is I am not interested in being in a funk today. So... FU funk! And FU BT!
Anyhow... I posted roll and I am committed to staying quit today. I will honor my word. ODAAT. QLF people!
Great job derk. I had a few bad days after hof. Nothing like the early funks though. You'll hit a couple more probably, but your quit is solid and your tools stay sharp. The difference in 100 and 200 is amazing.
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Day 107 and I am QLF today. The last 4 days I have felt some intense craves. Not sure what I am craving because I posted roll each of those days and there was no way I was gonna put that poison in my lip. Not yesterday and not today. Don't want anything to do with that! But the craves have been intense... Almost the same way I felt back in the first month of this quit. Must be the so-called post HOF funk. I have the tools so I am ready to do battle when the time comes. So I did just that .. I battled. Whatever it takes.
I went out and bought a couple of real big steaks and got the grill going last night. Had a good meal and that got me feeling pretty good. I went to bed last night and promised myself I was going to fight harder today. Still battling a bit today. The problem is I am not interested in being in a funk today. So... FU funk! And FU BT!Â
Anyhow... I posted roll and I am committed to staying quit today. I will honor my word. ODAAT. QLF people!
Great job derk. I had a few bad days after hof. Nothing like the early funks though. You'll hit a couple more probably, but your quit is solid and your tools stay sharp. The difference in 100 and 200 is amazing.
Great job Derk. Nic-bitch thinks she gonna catch you with a few craves. I don't think so. YOu have a full toolbag and a ton of accountability on here. I see your name posted, I don't worry.
I am always glad to be quit with you.
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Day 107 and I am QLF today. The last 4 days I have felt some intense craves. Not sure what I am craving because I posted roll each of those days and there was no way I was gonna put that poison in my lip. Not yesterday and not today. Don't want anything to do with that! But the craves have been intense... Almost the same way I felt back in the first month of this quit. Must be the so-called post HOF funk. I have the tools so I am ready to do battle when the time comes. So I did just that .. I battled. Whatever it takes.
I went out and bought a couple of real big steaks and got the grill going last night. Had a good meal and that got me feeling pretty good. I went to bed last night and promised myself I was going to fight harder today. Still battling a bit today.  The problem is I am not interested in being in a funk today. So... FU funk! And FU BT!Â
Anyhow... I posted roll and I am committed to staying quit today.  I will honor my word. ODAAT. QLF people!
Great job derk. I had a few bad days after hof. Nothing like the early funks though. You'll hit a couple more probably, but your quit is solid and your tools stay sharp. The difference in 100 and 200 is amazing.
Great job Derk. Nic-bitch thinks she gonna catch you with a few craves. I don't think so. YOu have a full toolbag and a ton of accountability on here. I see your name posted, I don't worry.
I am always glad to be quit with you.
Full steam ahead Derk. You da man. We all hit speed bumps. The key is to keep pushing through it. I quit all day any day with you brother.
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Great job Derk. Way to hang tough bud. QLF !!!
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Day 107 and I am QLF today. The last 4 days I have felt some intense craves. Not sure what I am craving because I posted roll each of those days and there was no way I was gonna put that poison in my lip. Not yesterday and not today. Don't want anything to do with that! But the craves have been intense... Almost the same way I felt back in the first month of this quit. Must be the so-called post HOF funk. I have the tools so I am ready to do battle when the time comes. So I did just that .. I battled. Whatever it takes.
I went out and bought a couple of real big steaks and got the grill going last night. Had a good meal and that got me feeling pretty good. I went to bed last night and promised myself I was going to fight harder today. Still battling a bit today.  The problem is I am not interested in being in a funk today. So... FU funk! And FU BT!Â
Anyhow... I posted roll and I am committed to staying quit today.  I will honor my word. ODAAT. QLF people!
Great job derk. I had a few bad days after hof. Nothing like the early funks though. You'll hit a couple more probably, but your quit is solid and your tools stay sharp. The difference in 100 and 200 is amazing.
Great job Derk. Nic-bitch thinks she gonna catch you with a few craves. I don't think so. YOu have a full toolbag and a ton of accountability on here. I see your name posted, I don't worry.
I am always glad to be quit with you.
Full steam ahead Derk. You da man. We all hit speed bumps. The key is to keep pushing through it. I quit all day any day with you brother.
Well you've had a few days and I see your name posted on roll. These tools work huh? Your a Bad Ass Derk!
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131 days of freedom and all is well today.
As a ninja dipper I was living life as a lie... with zero credibility. On 23June2013, I took back my life when I quit tobacco. From that day forward I was accountable to myself and you all. That was the day I began to build back my integrity credibilty. That was a big day in my life.
Two days ago I had a bit of a blowout with Mrs. Derk. Not to get into details, but the sense of the argument centered around my WORD and my credibility. I can tell you all that today, on 31 October 2013, I am a man of my word. The lies and BS are in my rear view. During the discussions with Mrs. Derk I was able to use my 120+ days quit as a measuring stick it gave some weight to what I was saying. Having a number to hang my hat on went a long way it showed that I am no longer "that guy". I have made mistakes before, but that is no longer me.
I remember the vets telling me early on that I was building something here. That my accountability and word mattered. That I could change be a better man. Well I am here to tell you that all that is true!
I had no inkling of a crave or thought of cave throughout all this turnmoil. In fact, this has only shown me the critical importance of what I (and we) are doing here. We are taking back our lives ODAAT!
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131 days of freedom and all is well today.
As a ninja dipper I was living life as a lie... with zero credibility. On 23June2013, I took back my life when I quit tobacco. From that day forward I was accountable to myself and you all. That was the day I began to build back my integrity credibilty. That was a big day in my life.
Two days ago I had a bit of a blowout with Mrs. Derk. Not to get into details, but the sense of the argument centered around my WORD and my credibility. I can tell you all that today, on 31 October 2013, I am a man of my word. The lies and BS are in my rear view. During the discussions with Mrs. Derk I was able to use my 120+ days quit as a measuring stick it gave some weight to what I was saying. Having a number to hang my hat on went a long way it showed that I am no longer "that guy". I have made mistakes before, but that is no longer me.
I remember the vets telling me early on that I was building something here. That my accountability and word mattered. That I could change be a better man. Well I am here to tell you that all that is true!
I had no inkling of a crave or thought of cave throughout all this turnmoil. In fact, this has only shown me the critical importance of what I (and we) are doing here. We are taking back our lives ODAAT!
Hell yes brother! Keep on building but dont forget to look back occasionally.
I was a ninja too and my wife likes to remind me occasionally of my lying douche-bag ways. I know that I eroded a lot of trust between us by lying about nicotine and I have a long road ahead to rebuild that trust. At the time it didnt seem to be a big lie but I know that if the situation was reversed I would be one furious mofo.
Now that I am not under the lie of nicotine I see that it was a big ass lie; I was using something that could KILL me, that fact that I marked non-nicotine user on my life insurance policy would void that shit and she and our kids would be pretty well fucked.
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131 days of freedom and all is well today.
As a ninja dipper I was living life as a lie... with zero credibility. On 23June2013, I took back my life when I quit tobacco. From that day forward I was accountable to myself and you all. That was the day I began to build back my integrity credibilty. That was a big day in my life.
Two days ago I had a bit of a blowout with Mrs. Derk. Not to get into details, but the sense of the argument centered around my WORD and my credibility. I can tell you all that today, on 31 October 2013, I am a man of my word. The lies and BS are in my rear view. During the discussions with Mrs. Derk I was able to use my 120+ days quit as a measuring stick it gave some weight to what I was saying. Having a number to hang my hat on went a long way it showed that I am no longer "that guy". I have made mistakes before, but that is no longer me.
I remember the vets telling me early on that I was building something here. That my accountability and word mattered. That I could change be a better man. Well I am here to tell you that all that is true!
I had no inkling of a crave or thought of cave throughout all this turnmoil. In fact, this has only shown me the critical importance of what I (and we) are doing here. We are taking back our lives ODAAT!
Hell yeah derk. Thank you for sharing your story. You are a man of your word. I will follow you and your quit anywhere. Keep it going brother. I am rollin with ya.
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131 days of freedom and all is well today.
As a ninja dipper I was living life as a lie... with zero credibility. On 23June2013, I took back my life when I quit tobacco. From that day forward I was accountable to myself and you all. That was the day I began to build back my integrity credibilty. That was a big day in my life.
Two days ago I had a bit of a blowout with Mrs. Derk. Not to get into details, but the sense of the argument centered around my WORD and my credibility. I can tell you all that today, on 31 October 2013, I am a man of my word. The lies and BS are in my rear view. During the discussions with Mrs. Derk I was able to use my 120+ days quit as a measuring stick it gave some weight to what I was saying. Having a number to hang my hat on went a long way it showed that I am no longer "that guy". I have made mistakes before, but that is no longer me.
I remember the vets telling me early on that I was building something here. That my accountability and word mattered. That I could change be a better man. Well I am here to tell you that all that is true!
I had no inkling of a crave or thought of cave throughout all this turnmoil. In fact, this has only shown me the critical importance of what I (and we) are doing here. We are taking back our lives ODAAT!
Hell yeah derk. Thank you for sharing your story. You are a man of your word. I will follow you and your quit anywhere. Keep it going brother. I am rollin with ya.
Nice Derk. It is true what you say. Quitting the nicotine was the goal, but the rewards in terms of pride and being a stand up person are an incredible bonus.
As always, I am glad to be quit with you.
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131 days of freedom and all is well today.
As a ninja dipper I was living life as a lie... with zero credibility. On 23June2013, I took back my life when I quit tobacco. From that day forward I was accountable to myself and you all. That was the day I began to build back my integrity credibilty. That was a big day in my life.
Two days ago I had a bit of a blowout with Mrs. Derk. Not to get into details, but the sense of the argument centered around my WORD and my credibility. I can tell you all that today, on 31 October 2013, I am a man of my word. The lies and BS are in my rear view. During the discussions with Mrs. Derk I was able to use my 120+ days quit as a measuring stick it gave some weight to what I was saying. Having a number to hang my hat on went a long way it showed that I am no longer "that guy". I have made mistakes before, but that is no longer me.
I remember the vets telling me early on that I was building something here. That my accountability and word mattered. That I could change be a better man. Well I am here to tell you that all that is true!
I had no inkling of a crave or thought of cave throughout all this turnmoil. In fact, this has only shown me the critical importance of what I (and we) are doing here. We are taking back our lives ODAAT!
Hell yeah derk. Thank you for sharing your story. You are a man of your word. I will follow you and your quit anywhere. Keep it going brother. I am rollin with ya.
Nice Derk. It is true what you say. Quitting the nicotine was the goal, but the rewards in terms of pride and being a stand up person are an incredible bonus.
As always, I am glad to be quit with you.
This was exactly what I needed to read today. Thanks for posting. There are some immeasurable benefits to quitting.
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War Eagle brother! Good win for the Tigers. Buckeyes had a good win. Gonna be interesting as the season closes out.
QLF people! Day 134 this morning!
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War Eagle brother! Good win for the Tigers. Buckeyes had a good win. Gonna be interesting as the season closes out.
QLF people! Day 134 this morning!
My Wolverines looked pretty good. 'tough'
MY GOD THEY SUCKED.
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Ok... Watching the WSOP and an e-cig commercial came on. Anyone see it? Dip and e-cig.... Related ... I say yes because it is the nic B and BIG T attacking you. How many newbs report for duty in their quit and think nicotine weaning is a reasonable quitting technique. Been here 136 days and can say there have been more than a few. It is not a rational way to quit.... You gots to cut the cord and walk away.
Final quote from commercial.... "We're all adults here, now let's take our freedom back"
Truly a ridiculous commercial.... So now staying in the clutches of the nic B is freedom and puffing on an e-cig will set u free. What a pile of garbage. Really sickening. That is why we quit cold turkey folks. Freedom is pushing the the evil poison aside. An alternate delivery method does not set u free! This is the big lie from BIG T.... They want u to remain a slave.
Today I am free... And I say FU nic B!!! Don't fall for this BS.
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Ok... Watching the WSOP and an e-cig commercial came on. Anyone see it? Dip and e-cig.... Related ... I say yes because it is the nic B and BIG T attacking you. How many newbs report for duty in their quit and think nicotine weaning is a reasonable quitting technique. Been here 136 days and can say there have been more than a few. It is not a rational way to quit.... You gots to cut the cord and walk away.
Final quote from commercial.... "We're all adults here, now let's take our freedom back"
Truly a ridiculous commercial.... So now staying in the clutches of the nic B is freedom and puffing on an e-cig will set u free. What a pile of garbage. Really sickening. That is why we quit cold turkey folks. Freedom is pushing the the evil poison aside. An alternate delivery method does not set u free! This is the big lie from BIG T.... They want u to remain a slave.
Today I am free... And I say FU nic B!!! Don't fall for this BS.
That commercial pisses me off on so many levels I just don't have words! Not only that... I just read today that one of those li'l e-cig dildos exploded and burned a families home to the ground. They were charging it up, it overheated, it exploded... No more home. How do you like your "freedom" now!? Evil shit.
Ecstatic to be quit and FREE!!
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Ok... Watching the WSOP and an e-cig commercial came on. Anyone see it? Dip and e-cig.... Related ... I say yes because it is the nic B and BIG T attacking you. How many newbs report for duty in their quit and think nicotine weaning is a reasonable quitting technique. Been here 136 days and can say there have been more than a few. It is not a rational way to quit.... You gots to cut the cord and walk away.
Final quote from commercial.... "We're all adults here, now let's take our freedom back"
Truly a ridiculous commercial.... So now staying in the clutches of the nic B is freedom and puffing on an e-cig will set u free. What a pile of garbage. Really sickening. That is why we quit cold turkey folks. Freedom is pushing the the evil poison aside. An alternate delivery method does not set u free! This is the big lie from BIG T.... They want u to remain a slave.
Today I am free... And I say FU nic B!!! Don't fall for this BS.
That commercial pisses me off on so many levels I just don't have words! Not only that... I just read today that one of those li'l e-cig dildos exploded and burned a families home to the ground. They were charging it up, it overheated, it exploded... No more home. How do you like your "freedom" now!? Evil shit.
Ecstatic to be quit and FREE!!
Well hell Derk you have seen it we have all seen it there is just a misconception about nicotine not even gonna use the word tobacco but nicotine. Shit we got full grown adults that are well educated showing up here with patches on(one of my favorite guys here), nictacs and E cigs going oh I am quit. WTF is what we say now and jump in with both feet up to our knees in their ass but prior to being here most of us would have gone ya you are quit. Nice I need to quit someday.... Its a mindset until it changes its just a stoppage.
And WTF you plug that damn things in so shit you need a car charger a house charger an extra plug adapter and more shit to plug in at night. WOW ridiculous one thing I will say about the can it was analog didn't need power.
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Ok... Watching the WSOP and an e-cig commercial came on. Anyone see it? Dip and e-cig.... Related ... I say yes because it is the nic B and BIG T attacking you. How many newbs report for duty in their quit and think nicotine weaning is a reasonable quitting technique. Been here 136 days and can say there have been more than a few. It is not a rational way to quit.... You gots to cut the cord and walk away.
Final quote from commercial.... "We're all adults here, now let's take our freedom back"
Truly a ridiculous commercial.... So now staying in the clutches of the nic B is freedom and puffing on an e-cig will set u free.  What a pile of garbage. Really sickening.  That is why we quit cold turkey folks.  Freedom is pushing the the evil poison aside. An alternate delivery method does not set u free! This is the big lie from BIG T.... They want u to remain a slave.
Today I am free... And I say FU nic B!!! Don't fall for this BS.
That commercial pisses me off on so many levels I just don't have words! Not only that... I just read today that one of those li'l e-cig dildos exploded and burned a families home to the ground. They were charging it up, it overheated, it exploded... No more home. How do you like your "freedom" now!? Evil shit.
Ecstatic to be quit and FREE!!
Well hell Derk you have seen it we have all seen it there is just a misconception about nicotine not even gonna use the word tobacco but nicotine. Shit we got full grown adults that are well educated showing up here with patches on(one of my favorite guys here), nictacs and E cigs going oh I am quit. WTF is what we say now and jump in with both feet up to our knees in their ass but prior to being here most of us would have gone ya you are quit. Nice I need to quit someday.... Its a mindset until it changes its just a stoppage.
And WTF you plug that damn things in so shit you need a car charger a house charger an extra plug adapter and more shit to plug in at night. WOW ridiculous one thing I will say about the can it was analog didn't need power.
And a few more things I didn't make any of these connections until they were pointed out to me by the vets. Like when I opened up with I quit once and then I quit again...those weren't quits they were stoppages. The I am gonna wean off of dip...after being here I see how that is one of the dumbest things you can do. Fucking with your body for days weeks months versus cold turkey. Hell I chewed nictacs for a year once because it wasn't dipping...$17.00 a box and then when beer is mixed in a box wont last long I never once said I was a genius.
So the Ecig mixed with some high power marketing taking the Egeneration to the grave. this has been my 10 cents.
Trauma out.
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Ok... Watching the WSOP and an e-cig commercial came on. Anyone see it? Dip and e-cig.... Related ... I say yes because it is the nic B and BIG T attacking you. How many newbs report for duty in their quit and think nicotine weaning is a reasonable quitting technique. Been here 136 days and can say there have been more than a few. It is not a rational way to quit.... You gots to cut the cord and walk away.
Final quote from commercial.... "We're all adults here, now let's take our freedom back"
Truly a ridiculous commercial.... So now staying in the clutches of the nic B is freedom and puffing on an e-cig will set u free.  What a pile of garbage. Really sickening.  That is why we quit cold turkey folks.  Freedom is pushing the the evil poison aside. An alternate delivery method does not set u free! This is the big lie from BIG T.... They want u to remain a slave.
Today I am free... And I say FU nic B!!! Don't fall for this BS.
That commercial pisses me off on so many levels I just don't have words! Not only that... I just read today that one of those li'l e-cig dildos exploded and burned a families home to the ground. They were charging it up, it overheated, it exploded... No more home. How do you like your "freedom" now!? Evil shit.
Ecstatic to be quit and FREE!!
Well hell Derk you have seen it we have all seen it there is just a misconception about nicotine not even gonna use the word tobacco but nicotine. Shit we got full grown adults that are well educated showing up here with patches on(one of my favorite guys here), nictacs and E cigs going oh I am quit. WTF is what we say now and jump in with both feet up to our knees in their ass but prior to being here most of us would have gone ya you are quit. Nice I need to quit someday.... Its a mindset until it changes its just a stoppage.
And WTF you plug that damn things in so shit you need a car charger a house charger an extra plug adapter and more shit to plug in at night. WOW ridiculous one thing I will say about the can it was analog didn't need power.
And a few more things I didn't make any of these connections until they were pointed out to me by the vets. Like when I opened up with I quit once and then I quit again...those weren't quits they were stoppages. The I am gonna wean off of dip...after being here I see how that is one of the dumbest things you can do. Fucking with your body for days weeks months versus cold turkey. Hell I chewed nictacs for a year once because it wasn't dipping...$17.00 a box and then when beer is mixed in a box wont last long I never once said I was a genius.
So the Ecig mixed with some high power marketing taking the Egeneration to the grave. this has been my 10 cents.
Trauma out.
Big tobacco does not want the masses to understand and it is the reason there are so many misconceptions out there about quitting. IMO this e-cig fad won't last long b/c it makes its users look like the biggest junkies on the face of the earth. So glad that I found KTC and the knowledge within.
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Ok... Watching the WSOP and an e-cig commercial came on. Anyone see it? Dip and e-cig.... Related ... I say yes because it is the nic B and BIG T attacking you. How many newbs report for duty in their quit and think nicotine weaning is a reasonable quitting technique. Been here 136 days and can say there have been more than a few. It is not a rational way to quit.... You gots to cut the cord and walk away.
Final quote from commercial.... "We're all adults here, now let's take our freedom back"
Truly a ridiculous commercial.... So now staying in the clutches of the nic B is freedom and puffing on an e-cig will set u free.  What a pile of garbage. Really sickening.  That is why we quit cold turkey folks.  Freedom is pushing the the evil poison aside. An alternate delivery method does not set u free! This is the big lie from BIG T.... They want u to remain a slave.
Today I am free... And I say FU nic B!!! Don't fall for this BS.
That commercial pisses me off on so many levels I just don't have words! Not only that... I just read today that one of those li'l e-cig dildos exploded and burned a families home to the ground. They were charging it up, it overheated, it exploded... No more home. How do you like your "freedom" now!? Evil shit.
Ecstatic to be quit and FREE!!
Well hell Derk you have seen it we have all seen it there is just a misconception about nicotine not even gonna use the word tobacco but nicotine. Shit we got full grown adults that are well educated showing up here with patches on(one of my favorite guys here), nictacs and E cigs going oh I am quit. WTF is what we say now and jump in with both feet up to our knees in their ass but prior to being here most of us would have gone ya you are quit. Nice I need to quit someday.... Its a mindset until it changes its just a stoppage.
And WTF you plug that damn things in so shit you need a car charger a house charger an extra plug adapter and more shit to plug in at night. WOW ridiculous one thing I will say about the can it was analog didn't need power.
And a few more things I didn't make any of these connections until they were pointed out to me by the vets. Like when I opened up with I quit once and then I quit again...those weren't quits they were stoppages. The I am gonna wean off of dip...after being here I see how that is one of the dumbest things you can do. Fucking with your body for days weeks months versus cold turkey. Hell I chewed nictacs for a year once because it wasn't dipping...$17.00 a box and then when beer is mixed in a box wont last long I never once said I was a genius.
So the Ecig mixed with some high power marketing taking the Egeneration to the grave. this has been my 10 cents.
Trauma out.
Big tobacco does not want the masses to understand and it is the reason there are so many misconceptions out there about quitting. IMO this e-cig fad won't last long b/c it makes its users look like the biggest junkies on the face of the earth. So glad that I found KTC and the knowledge within.
'Finger' BIG TOBACCO
Sincerely,
Pinched
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Ok... Watching the WSOP and an e-cig commercial came on. Anyone see it? Dip and e-cig.... Related ... I say yes because it is the nic B and BIG T attacking you. How many newbs report for duty in their quit and think nicotine weaning is a reasonable quitting technique. Been here 136 days and can say there have been more than a few. It is not a rational way to quit.... You gots to cut the cord and walk away.
Final quote from commercial.... "We're all adults here, now let's take our freedom back"
Truly a ridiculous commercial.... So now staying in the clutches of the nic B is freedom and puffing on an e-cig will set u free.  What a pile of garbage. Really sickening.  That is why we quit cold turkey folks.  Freedom is pushing the the evil poison aside. An alternate delivery method does not set u free! This is the big lie from BIG T.... They want u to remain a slave.
Today I am free... And I say FU nic B!!! Don't fall for this BS.
That commercial pisses me off on so many levels I just don't have words! Not only that... I just read today that one of those li'l e-cig dildos exploded and burned a families home to the ground. They were charging it up, it overheated, it exploded... No more home. How do you like your "freedom" now!? Evil shit.
Ecstatic to be quit and FREE!!
Well hell Derk you have seen it we have all seen it there is just a misconception about nicotine not even gonna use the word tobacco but nicotine. Shit we got full grown adults that are well educated showing up here with patches on(one of my favorite guys here), nictacs and E cigs going oh I am quit. WTF is what we say now and jump in with both feet up to our knees in their ass but prior to being here most of us would have gone ya you are quit. Nice I need to quit someday.... Its a mindset until it changes its just a stoppage.
And WTF you plug that damn things in so shit you need a car charger a house charger an extra plug adapter and more shit to plug in at night. WOW ridiculous one thing I will say about the can it was analog didn't need power.
And a few more things I didn't make any of these connections until they were pointed out to me by the vets. Like when I opened up with I quit once and then I quit again...those weren't quits they were stoppages. The I am gonna wean off of dip...after being here I see how that is one of the dumbest things you can do. Fucking with your body for days weeks months versus cold turkey. Hell I chewed nictacs for a year once because it wasn't dipping...$17.00 a box and then when beer is mixed in a box wont last long I never once said I was a genius.
So the Ecig mixed with some high power marketing taking the Egeneration to the grave. this has been my 10 cents.
Trauma out.
Big tobacco does not want the masses to understand and it is the reason there are so many misconceptions out there about quitting. IMO this e-cig fad won't last long b/c it makes its users look like the biggest junkies on the face of the earth. So glad that I found KTC and the knowledge within.
'Finger' BIG TOBACCO
Sincerely,
Pinched
Big Pharma doing the nicotine replacement therapy. I helped develop the process to bind the nicotine to an acrylic resin. I think there is some irony in there... btw you have a wear a saranex suit with supplied air respirators to work with raw nicotine so you know its gotta be good for ya!
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150 NICE WORK man keep going keep working the intros people need to keep hearing from a bad ass quitter.
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150 NICE WORK man keep going keep working the intros people need to keep hearing from a bad ass quitter.
I agree Trauma. Derk is one of the best bad ass quitters in here. I personally enjoy his positive approach to quitting and helping. Rock on Derk.
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Dear KTC,
I have thought about this for some time now. This has been weighing heavily on my mind. I want to be totally honest with all of you because you all mean so much to me. I mean you have supported me for 171 days and I just need to make sure everything is on the table. I can't live without getting this off my chest.
So, here it goes. I am QLF today. I know that waking up in the morning to post roll takes me 60 seconds. 1 minute of my day to save my life. Anyone who says they don't have time is just full of it. I also want to pound my chest as I tell you that this daily promise to myself and to you means something. I will not go back on my word today. I expect the same from you. For 171 days I have have stayed quit following a simple plan that works. It is tried and true. You don't like it... then that is your issue. There are many quit programs out there but this one is mine. I am not going anywhere.
If you have a problem with that then you can pound sand. I mean it... Get out of my face. I'm not gonna discuss this issue ever again.
Signed, derk
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Dear KTC,
I have thought about this for some time now. This has been weighing heavily on my mind. I want to be totally honest with all of you because you all mean so much to me. I mean you have supported me for 171 days and I just need to make sure everything is on the table. I can't live without getting this off my chest.
So, here it goes. I am QLF today. I know that waking up in the morning to post roll takes me 60 seconds. 1 minute of my day to save my life. Anyone who says they don't have time is just full of it. I also want to pound my chest as I tell you that this daily promise to myself and to you means something. I will not go back on my word today. I expect the same from you. For 171 days I have have stayed quit following a simple plan that works. It is tried and true. You don't like it... then that is your issue. There are many quit programs out there but this one is mine. I am not going anywhere.
If you have a problem with that then you can pound sand. I mean it... Get out of my face. I'm not gonna discuss this issue ever again.
Signed, derk
I have seen a thousand quitters come through here. You are just like the rest, posting roll each day and getting it done. Blah, blah, blah. No excuses, just working the system.
The nic bitch must hate you. ;)
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Dear KTC,
I have thought about this for some time now. This has been weighing heavily on my mind. I want to be totally honest with all of you because you all mean so much to me. I mean you have supported me for 171 days and I just need to make sure everything is on the table. I can't live without getting this off my chest.
So, here it goes. I am QLF today. I know that waking up in the morning to post roll takes me 60 seconds. 1 minute of my day to save my life. Anyone who says they don't have time is just full of it. I also want to pound my chest as I tell you that this daily promise to myself and to you means something. I will not go back on my word today. I expect the same from you. For 171 days I have have stayed quit following a simple plan that works. It is tried and true. You don't like it... then that is your issue. There are many quit programs out there but this one is mine. I am not going anywhere.
If you have a problem with that then you can pound sand. I mean it... Get out of my face. I'm not gonna discuss this issue ever again.Â
Signed, derk
I have seen a thousand quitters come through here. You are just like the rest, posting roll each day and getting it done. Blah, blah, blah. No excuses, just working the system.
The nic bitch must hate you. ;)
'worship'
now this is the way it should be.....
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Dear KTC,
I have thought about this for some time now. This has been weighing heavily on my mind. I want to be totally honest with all of you because you all mean so much to me. I mean you have supported me for 171 days and I just need to make sure everything is on the table. I can't live without getting this off my chest.
So, here it goes.  I am QLF today. I know that waking up in the morning to post roll takes me 60 seconds. 1 minute of my day to save my life.  Anyone who says they don't have time is just full of it. I also want to pound my chest as I tell you that this daily promise to myself and to you means something. I will not go back on my word today. I expect the same from you. For 171 days I have have stayed quit following a simple plan that works. It is tried and true. You don't like it... then that is your issue. There are many quit programs out there but this one is mine. I am not going anywhere.
If you have a problem with that then you can pound sand. I mean it... Get out of my face.  I'm not gonna discuss this issue ever again.Â
Signed, derk
I have seen a thousand quitters come through here. You are just like the rest, posting roll each day and getting it done. Blah, blah, blah. No excuses, just working the system.
The nic bitch must hate you. ;)
'worship'
now this is the way it should be.....
Very nice Matt, I used to use the phrase "put out to get out" and hell it works here too, just intended a different way.
You can lead a horse to water but you can't make a jackass drink.
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Dear KTC,
I have thought about this for some time now. This has been weighing heavily on my mind. I want to be totally honest with all of you because you all mean so much to me. I mean you have supported me for 171 days and I just need to make sure everything is on the table. I can't live without getting this off my chest.
So, here it goes.  I am QLF today. I know that waking up in the morning to post roll takes me 60 seconds. 1 minute of my day to save my life.  Anyone who says they don't have time is just full of it. I also want to pound my chest as I tell you that this daily promise to myself and to you means something. I will not go back on my word today. I expect the same from you. For 171 days I have have stayed quit following a simple plan that works. It is tried and true. You don't like it... then that is your issue. There are many quit programs out there but this one is mine. I am not going anywhere.
If you have a problem with that then you can pound sand. I mean it... Get out of my face.  I'm not gonna discuss this issue ever again.Â
Signed, derk
I have seen a thousand quitters come through here. You are just like the rest, posting roll each day and getting it done. Blah, blah, blah. No excuses, just working the system.
The nic bitch must hate you. ;)
'worship'
now this is the way it should be.....
Very nice Matt, I used to use the phrase "put out to get out" and hell it works here too, just intended a different way.
You can lead a horse to water but you can't make a jackass drink.
Stop lovin all over my slut. You see we are bound together by this site and it works. Derk just figured it out a little sooner than me. Nice quit wood there bro.
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Dear KTC,
I have thought about this for some time now. This has been weighing heavily on my mind. I want to be totally honest with all of you because you all mean so much to me. I mean you have supported me for 171 days and I just need to make sure everything is on the table. I can't live without getting this off my chest.
So, here it goes.  I am QLF today. I know that waking up in the morning to post roll takes me 60 seconds. 1 minute of my day to save my life.  Anyone who says they don't have time is just full of it. I also want to pound my chest as I tell you that this daily promise to myself and to you means something. I will not go back on my word today. I expect the same from you. For 171 days I have have stayed quit following a simple plan that works. It is tried and true. You don't like it... then that is your issue. There are many quit programs out there but this one is mine. I am not going anywhere.
If you have a problem with that then you can pound sand. I mean it... Get out of my face.  I'm not gonna discuss this issue ever again.Â
Signed, derk
I have seen a thousand quitters come through here. You are just like the rest, posting roll each day and getting it done. Blah, blah, blah. No excuses, just working the system.
The nic bitch must hate you. ;)
'worship'
now this is the way it should be.....
Very nice Matt, I used to use the phrase "put out to get out" and hell it works here too, just intended a different way.
You can lead a horse to water but you can't make a jackass drink.
Stop lovin all over my slut. You see we are bound together by this site and it works. Derk just figured it out a little sooner than me. Nice quit wood there bro.
http://www.picgifs.com/smileys/s (http://www.picgifs.com/smileys/s) Rock on Derk and that mile of quit cock!
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Dear KTC,
I have thought about this for some time now. This has been weighing heavily on my mind. I want to be totally honest with all of you because you all mean so much to me. I mean you have supported me for 171 days and I just need to make sure everything is on the table. I can't live without getting this off my chest.
So, here it goes.  I am QLF today. I know that waking up in the morning to post roll takes me 60 seconds. 1 minute of my day to save my life.  Anyone who says they don't have time is just full of it. I also want to pound my chest as I tell you that this daily promise to myself and to you means something. I will not go back on my word today. I expect the same from you. For 171 days I have have stayed quit following a simple plan that works. It is tried and true. You don't like it... then that is your issue. There are many quit programs out there but this one is mine. I am not going anywhere.
If you have a problem with that then you can pound sand. I mean it... Get out of my face.  I'm not gonna discuss this issue ever again.Â
Signed, derk
I have seen a thousand quitters come through here. You are just like the rest, posting roll each day and getting it done. Blah, blah, blah. No excuses, just working the system.
The nic bitch must hate you. ;)
'worship'
now this is the way it should be.....
Very nice Matt, I used to use the phrase "put out to get out" and hell it works here too, just intended a different way.
You can lead a horse to water but you can't make a jackass drink.
Stop lovin all over my slut. You see we are bound together by this site and it works. Derk just figured it out a little sooner than me. Nice quit wood there bro.
http://www.picgifs.com/smileys/s (http://www.picgifs.com/smileys/s) Rock on Derk and that mile of quit cock!
Is there room for one more in this Turkish bath house full of ghey quitters today...? 'sos'
Quit with all you crazy bastards today!
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Dear KTC,
I have thought about this for some time now. This has been weighing heavily on my mind. I want to be totally honest with all of you because you all mean so much to me. I mean you have supported me for 171 days and I just need to make sure everything is on the table. I can't live without getting this off my chest.
So, here it goes.  I am QLF today. I know that waking up in the morning to post roll takes me 60 seconds. 1 minute of my day to save my life.  Anyone who says they don't have time is just full of it. I also want to pound my chest as I tell you that this daily promise to myself and to you means something. I will not go back on my word today. I expect the same from you. For 171 days I have have stayed quit following a simple plan that works. It is tried and true. You don't like it... then that is your issue. There are many quit programs out there but this one is mine. I am not going anywhere.
If you have a problem with that then you can pound sand. I mean it... Get out of my face.  I'm not gonna discuss this issue ever again.Â
Signed, derk
I have seen a thousand quitters come through here. You are just like the rest, posting roll each day and getting it done. Blah, blah, blah. No excuses, just working the system.
The nic bitch must hate you. ;)
'worship'
now this is the way it should be.....
Very nice Matt, I used to use the phrase "put out to get out" and hell it works here too, just intended a different way.
You can lead a horse to water but you can't make a jackass drink.
Stop lovin all over my slut. You see we are bound together by this site and it works. Derk just figured it out a little sooner than me. Nice quit wood there bro.
http://www.picgifs.com/smileys/s (http://www.picgifs.com/smileys/s) Rock on Derk and that mile of quit cock!
Is there room for one more in this Turkish bath house full of ghey quitters today...? 'sos'
Quit with all you crazy bastards today!
That might be the most disturbing emoticon I've ever seen. Otherwise, good stuff Derk.
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Dear KTC,
I have thought about this for some time now. This has been weighing heavily on my mind. I want to be totally honest with all of you because you all mean so much to me. I mean you have supported me for 171 days and I just need to make sure everything is on the table. I can't live without getting this off my chest.
So, here it goes.  I am QLF today. I know that waking up in the morning to post roll takes me 60 seconds. 1 minute of my day to save my life.  Anyone who says they don't have time is just full of it. I also want to pound my chest as I tell you that this daily promise to myself and to you means something. I will not go back on my word today. I expect the same from you. For 171 days I have have stayed quit following a simple plan that works. It is tried and true. You don't like it... then that is your issue. There are many quit programs out there but this one is mine. I am not going anywhere.
If you have a problem with that then you can pound sand. I mean it... Get out of my face.  I'm not gonna discuss this issue ever again.Â
Signed, derk
I have seen a thousand quitters come through here. You are just like the rest, posting roll each day and getting it done. Blah, blah, blah. No excuses, just working the system.
The nic bitch must hate you. ;)
'worship'
now this is the way it should be.....
Very nice Matt, I used to use the phrase "put out to get out" and hell it works here too, just intended a different way.
You can lead a horse to water but you can't make a jackass drink.
Stop lovin all over my slut. You see we are bound together by this site and it works. Derk just figured it out a little sooner than me. Nice quit wood there bro.
http://www.picgifs.com/smileys/s (http://www.picgifs.com/smileys/s) Rock on Derk and that mile of quit cock!
Is there room for one more in this Turkish bath house full of ghey quitters today...? 'sos'
Quit with all you crazy bastards today!
That might be the most disturbing emoticon I've ever seen. Otherwise, good stuff Derk.
Good stuff here as usual. http://www.picgifs.com/smileys/s (http://www.picgifs.com/smileys/s)
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Day 195 posted roll this morning. I am quit all day long.
Yesterday I took a bit of time read thru my entire intro thread. Man, it was like re-living my quit all over again.
I remember vividly the situations battles I went thru the past 195 days. I remember the time of day, weather, how I felt, what was going thru my head... really weird. These trials are hammered into my memory. It is like one of those childhood memories that you just never forget, or a life changing event that is forever locked in.
I never want to forget day 1! I don't want to forget why I quit... never! As time rolls on, memories fade -- I am glad I used my Intro to document my quit because I can reflect on what I was vs. what I now am. I really like the person I have become. I will never go back!
The best part of yesterday was the memories of the KTC brotherhood coming to my aid during the most difficult times. I wanted to take a moment thank all of you for having my back the last 195 days. I really appreciate it! Know that I have yours as well. Quit on!
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Day 195 posted roll this morning. I am quit all day long.
Yesterday I took a bit of time read thru my entire intro thread. Man, it was like re-living my quit all over again.
I remember vividly the situations battles I went thru the past 195 days. I remember the time of day, weather, how I felt, what was going thru my head... really weird. These trials are hammered into my memory. It is like one of those childhood memories that you just never forget, or a life changing event that is forever locked in.
I never want to forget day 1! I don't want to forget why I quit... never! As time rolls on, memories fade -- I am glad I used my Intro to document my quit because I can reflect on what I was vs. what I now am. I really like the person I have become. I will never go back!
The best part of yesterday was the memories of the KTC brotherhood coming to my aid during the most difficult times. I wanted to take a moment thank all of you for having my back the last 195 days. I really appreciate it! Know that I have yours as well. Quit on!
I also just breezed through your into. That's quitting at it's finest brother. I've been proud to walk this walk with you. I pulled this from early in your quit. I remember reading it and it helping me. I thought it would be good for some newbies to read so i'm putting it here. Thanks for the memories,, which weren't to long ago.
QUOTE (Skoal Monster @ Oct 30, 2012, 12:57 pm)
Spongebob Mantra
There is only one thing that I must accomplish today, and that is to not chew.
If I get other things done today, great.
But everything else has second priority for now.
Soon I'll be able to focus on those other things too.
But for right now, for today, this is the only thing that matters.
I won't demand more of myself, and I won't get down on myself for not doing anything else if I don't get to it.
This is damn damn damn hard work, and it's the most important work that I have right now.
I'll be truly and sincerely proud if I meet no goals today other than keeping that crap out of my mouth
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Day 195 posted roll this morning. I am quit all day long.
Yesterday I took a bit of time read thru my entire intro thread. Man, it was like re-living my quit all over again.Â
I remember vividly the situations battles I went thru the past 195 days. I remember the time of day, weather, how I felt, what was going thru my head... really weird. These trials are hammered into my memory. It is like one of those childhood memories that you just never forget, or a life changing event that is forever locked in.
I never want to forget day 1! I don't want to forget why I quit... never! As time rolls on, memories fade -- I am glad I used my Intro to document my quit because I can reflect on what I was vs. what I now am. I really like the person I have become. I will never go back!
The best part of yesterday was the memories of the KTC brotherhood coming to my aid during the most difficult times. I wanted to take a moment thank all of you for having my back the last 195 days. I really appreciate it! Know that I have yours as well. Quit on!
I also just breezed through your into. That's quitting at it's finest brother. I've been proud to walk this walk with you. I pulled this from early in your quit. I remember reading it and it helping me. I thought it would be good for some newbies to read so i'm putting it here. Thanks for the memories,, which weren't to long ago.
QUOTE (Skoal Monster @ Oct 30, 2012, 12:57 pm)
Spongebob Mantra
There is only one thing that I must accomplish today, and that is to not chew.
If I get other things done today, great.
But everything else has second priority for now.
Soon I'll be able to focus on those other things too.
But for right now, for today, this is the only thing that matters.
I won't demand more of myself, and I won't get down on myself for not doing anything else if I don't get to it.
This is damn damn damn hard work, and it's the most important work that I have right now.
I'll be truly and sincerely proud if I meet no goals today other than keeping that crap out of my mouth
Rock on bro...
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Day 195 posted roll this morning. I am quit all day long.
Yesterday I took a bit of time read thru my entire intro thread. Man, it was like re-living my quit all over again.Â
I remember vividly the situations battles I went thru the past 195 days. I remember the time of day, weather, how I felt, what was going thru my head... really weird. These trials are hammered into my memory. It is like one of those childhood memories that you just never forget, or a life changing event that is forever locked in.
I never want to forget day 1! I don't want to forget why I quit... never! As time rolls on, memories fade -- I am glad I used my Intro to document my quit because I can reflect on what I was vs. what I now am. I really like the person I have become. I will never go back!
The best part of yesterday was the memories of the KTC brotherhood coming to my aid during the most difficult times. I wanted to take a moment thank all of you for having my back the last 195 days. I really appreciate it! Know that I have yours as well. Quit on!
I also just breezed through your into. That's quitting at it's finest brother. I've been proud to walk this walk with you. I pulled this from early in your quit. I remember reading it and it helping me. I thought it would be good for some newbies to read so i'm putting it here. Thanks for the memories,, which weren't to long ago.
QUOTE (Skoal Monster @ Oct 30, 2012, 12:57 pm)
Spongebob Mantra
There is only one thing that I must accomplish today, and that is to not chew.
If I get other things done today, great.
But everything else has second priority for now.
Soon I'll be able to focus on those other things too.
But for right now, for today, this is the only thing that matters.
I won't demand more of myself, and I won't get down on myself for not doing anything else if I don't get to it.
This is damn damn damn hard work, and it's the most important work that I have right now.
I'll be truly and sincerely proud if I meet no goals today other than keeping that crap out of my mouth
Rock on bro...
What AJ says X2
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2 - friggin' - hundred!
Well done my brutha! Super proud of you man.
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2 - friggin' - hundred!
Well done my brutha! Super proud of you man.
X2 ^^^...
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2 - friggin' - hundred!
Well done my brutha! Super proud of you man.
X2 ^^^...
200 days ago you decided to make a decision. Easy to make, but not so easy to execute. Congratulations on hitting a big number today. The first 100 seems impossible, but so worth it... And each new 100 is a learning experience. Take a minute today to look back at where you were. You should be proud.
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2 - friggin' - hundred!
Well done my brutha! Super proud of you man.
X2 ^^^...
200 days ago you decided to make a decision. Easy to make, but not so easy to execute. Congratulations on hitting a big number today. The first 100 seems impossible, but so worth it... And each new 100 is a learning experience. Take a minute today to look back at where you were. You should be proud.
I couldn't be happier for you Derk. You are what QUIT is all about. Congrats on 200 days brother. You earned it.
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2 - friggin' - hundred!
Well done my brutha! Super proud of you man.
X2 ^^^...
200 days ago you decided to make a decision. Easy to make, but not so easy to execute. Congratulations on hitting a big number today. The first 100 seems impossible, but so worth it... And each new 100 is a learning experience. Take a minute today to look back at where you were. You should be proud.
I couldn't be happier for you Derk. You are what QUIT is all about. Congrats on 200 days brother. You earned it.
Way to go bro this is a nice milestone. Keep up the good, strong work on your quit and support/guidance for others, you're changing lives for the better!
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There is honor amongst quitters. If there is no honor ... then why are we here?
Think about that. Do you have what it takes?
I hit 200 days back on Jan 8th. I fell asleep on the couch on the 7th, woke up at around 0130... Decided to post roll for day 200 before I went to sleep. I closed my eyes feeling pretty good about myself. Little did I know that I would sleep thru the worst dip nightmare imaginable. You see in this dip dream I had caved and I was sitting with my laptop and began to write out the answers to the 3 questions. At that point in the dream I picked up my laptop and threw it across the room. I remember being really pissed, not knowing what to say to all of you and I just couldn't believe I was back at square 1. I remember breaking down and sobbing ... and at that moment I woke up.
For the entire day on the 8th of January I was a mess. I was walking around mad at the world. I just hit the 2nd floor but felt light total garbage because of this nightmare. At some point during the day I finally regrouped and recognized that it was a dream. I remembered being a kid and having weird dreams that would throw me off a bit... They usually happened when I was sick. Got me thinking about what a sickness that this addiction is and then realized my brain is still rewiring from the years of abuse. It was clear to me at that point that the fight is not over. In fact, this is probably where I actually really learn what I am made off. The days feel better than when I first quit but any moment of weakness could bring my quit and me to my knees.
There is no caving on this my agenda today. Over my dead body. I posted roll this morning and that means something. My word means something.
Another thing happened to me that I need to remember.
I was out of town in NYC on 1/13/2014... Just over a week ago. I woke up in a mad rush, ran out of the hotel to get to my meeting. At around noon I got a text from Californiaslim asking me if I was ok. I couldn't believe it... For the first time since I quit I actually forgot to post roll first thing in the am. I am thankful to have a guy like that in my corner... I thanked him for looking out for me and went ahead and posted roll. I have to say that weirded me out for the rest of the day. I did not know whether I should be happy that for a few hours I had not thought about this addiction and was living my life or should I be ticked off that I was late posting roll on this day. At home... I have a routine and it works. So maybe since I was out of town and my routine was broken it is ok to be late for roll.
I've reflected on this for over a week and I am flat out pissed off at myself for letting my guard down that morning. That is how it starts. One day you decide you can post later in the day. Then maybe you decide that it is ok to skip a day. Then maybe you decide that a week of no posting is ok. Next thing you know your emptying your wallet out at 7-11 and stuffing your face. Well, screw that!
KTC has given me back my life and it is all about establishing a routine. As an addict we have to work our quit Every Day. That means every damn day! Your work and routine starts with posting roll. Posting roll is on par with brushing your teeth. You wake up and you just flat out do it. And you do it first thing. If you ain't gonna do it then why are you here?
So I had a bad dream and was 4 hrs late posting roll. Maybe not a big deal to many of you but they both got my blood boiling. You see... I'm a race car and I'm in the red. You don't mess with a race car in the red. These 2 post 2nd floor events have me running a little hot these days. They are fueling my quit. I have more resolve for my quit right now and there is no way I will go against my word today.
I am here today to quit. How bout you?
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There is honor amongst quitters. If there is no honor ... then why are we here?
Think about that. Do you have what it takes?
I hit 200 days back on Jan 8th. I fell asleep on the couch on the 7th, woke up at around 0130... Decided to post roll for day 200 before I went to sleep. I closed my eyes feeling pretty good about myself. Little did I know that I would sleep thru the worst dip nightmare imaginable. You see in this dip dream I had caved and I was sitting with my laptop and began to write out the answers to the 3 questions. At that point in the dream I picked up my laptop and threw it across the room. I remember being really pissed, not knowing what to say to all of you and I just couldn't believe I was back at square 1. I remember breaking down and sobbing ... and at that moment I woke up.
For the entire day on the 8th of January I was a mess. I was walking around mad at the world. I just hit the 2nd floor but felt light total garbage because of this nightmare. At some point during the day I finally regrouped and recognized that it was a dream. I remembered being a kid and having weird dreams that would throw me off a bit... They usually happened when I was sick. Got me thinking about what a sickness that this addiction is and then realized my brain is still rewiring from the years of abuse. It was clear to me at that point that the fight is not over. In fact, this is probably where I actually really learn what I am made off. The days feel better than when I first quit but any moment of weakness could bring my quit and me to my knees.
There is no caving on this my agenda today. Over my dead body. I posted roll this morning and that means something. My word means something.
Another thing happened to me that I need to remember.
I was out of town in NYC on 1/13/2014... Just over a week ago. I woke up in a mad rush, ran out of the hotel to get to my meeting. At around noon I got a text from Californiaslim asking me if I was ok. I couldn't believe it... For the first time since I quit I actually forgot to post roll first thing in the am. I am thankful to have a guy like that in my corner... I thanked him for looking out for me and went ahead and posted roll. I have to say that weirded me out for the rest of the day. I did not know whether I should be happy that for a few hours I had not thought about this addiction and was living my life or should I be ticked off that I was late posting roll on this day. At home... I have a routine and it works. So maybe since I was out of town and my routine was broken it is ok to be late for roll.
I've reflected on this for over a week and I am flat out pissed off at myself for letting my guard down that morning. That is how it starts. One day you decide you can post later in the day. Then maybe you decide that it is ok to skip a day. Then maybe you decide that a week of no posting is ok. Next thing you know your emptying your wallet out at 7-11 and stuffing your face. Well, screw that!
KTC has given me back my life and it is all about establishing a routine. As an addict we have to work our quit Every Day. That means every damn day! Your work and routine starts with posting roll. Posting roll is on par with brushing your teeth. You wake up and you just flat out do it. And you do it first thing. If you ain't gonna do it then why are you here?
So I had a bad dream and was 4 hrs late posting roll. Maybe not a big deal to many of you but they both got my blood boiling. You see... I'm a race car and I'm in the red. You don't mess with a race car in the red. These 2 post 2nd floor events have me running a little hot these days. They are fueling my quit. I have more resolve for my quit right now and there is no way I will go against my word today.
I am here today to quit. How bout you?
Great post. I'll go post my roll now.
-
There is honor amongst quitters. If there is no honor ... then why are we here?
Think about that. Do you have what it takes?Â
I hit 200 days back on Jan 8th. I fell asleep on the couch on the 7th, woke up at around 0130... Decided to post roll for day 200 before I went to sleep. I closed my eyes feeling pretty good about myself. Little did I know that I would sleep thru the worst dip nightmare imaginable. You see in this dip dream I had caved and I was sitting with my laptop and began to write out the answers to the 3 questions. At that point in the dream I picked up my laptop and threw it across the room. I remember being really pissed, not knowing what to say to all of you and I just couldn't believe I was back at square 1. I remember breaking down and sobbing ... and at that moment I woke up.Â
For the entire day on the 8th of January I was a mess. I was walking around mad at the world. I just hit the 2nd floor but felt light total garbage because of this nightmare. At some point during the day I finally regrouped and recognized that it was a dream. I remembered being a kid and having weird dreams that would throw me off a bit... They usually happened when I was sick. Got me thinking about what a sickness that this addiction is and then realized my brain is still rewiring from the years of abuse. It was clear to me at that point that the fight is not over. In fact, this is probably where I actually really learn what I am made off. The days feel better than when I first quit but any moment of weakness could bring my quit and me to my knees.
There is no caving on this my agenda today. Over my dead body.  I posted roll this morning and that means something. My word means something.Â
Another thing happened to me that I need to remember.Â
I was out of town in NYC on 1/13/2014... Just over a week ago. I woke up in a mad rush, ran out of the hotel to get to my meeting. At around noon I got a text from Californiaslim asking me if I was ok. I couldn't believe it... For the first time since I quit I actually forgot to post roll first thing in the am. I am thankful to have a guy like that in my corner... I thanked him for looking out for me and went ahead and posted roll. I have to say that weirded me out for the rest of the day. I did not know whether I should be happy that for a few hours I had not thought about this addiction and was living my life or should I be ticked off that I was late posting roll on this day. At home... I have a routine and it works. So maybe since I was out of town and my routine was broken it is ok to be late for roll.
I've reflected on this for over a week and I am flat out pissed off at myself for letting my guard down that morning. That is how it starts. One day you decide you can post later in the day. Then maybe you decide that it is ok to skip a day. Then maybe you decide that a week of no posting is ok. Next thing you know your emptying your wallet out at 7-11 and stuffing your face. Well, screw that!
KTC has given me back my life and it is all about establishing a routine. As an addict we have to work our quit Every Day. That means every damn day! Your work and routine starts with posting roll. Posting roll is on par with brushing your teeth. You wake up and you just flat out do it. And you do it first thing. If you ain't gonna do it then why are you here?
So I had a bad dream and was 4 hrs late posting roll. Maybe not a big deal to many of you but they both got my blood boiling. You see... I'm a race car and I'm in the red. You don't mess with a race car in the red. These 2 post 2nd floor events have me running a little hot these days. They are fueling my quit. I have more resolve for my quit right now and there is no way I will go against my word today.Â
I am here today to quit. How bout you?
Great post. I'll go post my roll now.
you my friend have honor in your blood, Even after 574 days if I don't post by noon, I get a strange feeling that I am missing something. I am not sure that is it the actual posting that brings about that feeling or if it is knowing that I have not given my word to the others.
head held high as you absolutely can be proud of what you have accomplished.
'clap'
-
There is honor amongst quitters.  If there is no honor ... then why are we here?
Think about that. Do you have what it takes? Â
I hit 200 days back on Jan 8th. I fell asleep on the couch on the 7th, woke up at around 0130... Decided to post roll for day 200 before I went to sleep. I closed my eyes feeling pretty good about myself. Little did I know that I would sleep thru the worst dip nightmare imaginable. You see in this dip dream I had caved and I was sitting with my laptop and began to write out the answers to the 3 questions.  At that point in the dream I picked up my laptop and threw it across the room. I remember being really pissed, not knowing what to say to all of you and I just couldn't believe I was back at square 1. I remember breaking down and sobbing ... and at that moment I woke up.Â
For the entire day on the 8th of January I was a mess. I was walking around mad at the world.  I just hit the 2nd floor but felt light total garbage because of this nightmare. At some point during the day I finally regrouped and recognized that it was a dream. I remembered being a kid and having weird dreams that would throw me off a bit... They usually happened when I was sick. Got me thinking about what a sickness that this addiction is and then realized my brain is still rewiring from the years of abuse. It was clear to me at that point that the fight is not over. In fact, this is probably where I actually really learn what I am made off. The days feel better than when I first quit but any moment of weakness could bring my quit and me to my knees.
There is no caving on this my agenda today. Over my dead body.  I posted roll this morning and that means something. My word means something.Â
Another thing happened to me that I need to remember.Â
I was out of town in NYC on 1/13/2014... Just over a week ago.  I woke up in a mad rush, ran out of the hotel to get to my meeting.  At around noon I got a text from Californiaslim asking me if I was ok.  I couldn't believe it... For the first time since I quit I actually forgot to post roll first thing in the am. I am thankful to have a guy like that in my corner... I thanked him for looking out for me and went ahead and posted roll. I have to say that weirded me out for the rest of the day. I did not know whether I should be happy that for a few hours I had not thought about this addiction and was living my life or should I be ticked off that I was late posting roll on this day. At home... I have a routine and it works. So maybe since I was out of town and my routine was broken it is ok to be late for roll.
I've reflected on this for over a week and I am flat out pissed off at myself for letting my guard down that morning. That is how it starts.  One day you decide you can post later in the day.  Then maybe you decide that it is ok to skip a day.  Then maybe you decide that a week of no posting is ok.  Next thing you know your emptying your wallet out at 7-11 and stuffing your face. Well, screw that!
KTC has given me back my life and it is all about establishing a routine. As an addict we have to work our quit Every Day. That means every damn day! Your work and routine starts with posting roll. Posting roll is on par with brushing your teeth. You wake up and you just flat out do it. And you do it first thing. If you ain't gonna do it then why are you here?
So I had a bad dream and was 4 hrs late posting roll. Maybe not a big deal to many of you but they both got my blood boiling.  You see... I'm a race car and I'm in the red.  You don't mess with a race car in the red.  These 2 post 2nd floor events have me running a little hot these days.  They are fueling my quit. I have more resolve for my quit right now and there is no way I will go against my word today.Â
I am here today to quit. How bout you?
Great post. I'll go post my roll now.
you my friend have honor in your blood, Even after 574 days if I don't post by noon, I get a strange feeling that I am missing something. I am not sure that is it the actual posting that brings about that feeling or if it is knowing that I have not given my word to the others.
head held high as you absolutely can be proud of what you have accomplished.
'clap'
Damn glad to have you as a friend.
-
All I have to say is AWESOME POST QLF w you today and everyday Derk!
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There is honor amongst quitters.  If there is no honor ... then why are we here?
Think about that. Do you have what it takes? Â
I hit 200 days back on Jan 8th. I fell asleep on the couch on the 7th, woke up at around 0130... Decided to post roll for day 200 before I went to sleep. I closed my eyes feeling pretty good about myself. Little did I know that I would sleep thru the worst dip nightmare imaginable. You see in this dip dream I had caved and I was sitting with my laptop and began to write out the answers to the 3 questions.  At that point in the dream I picked up my laptop and threw it across the room. I remember being really pissed, not knowing what to say to all of you and I just couldn't believe I was back at square 1. I remember breaking down and sobbing ... and at that moment I woke up.Â
For the entire day on the 8th of January I was a mess. I was walking around mad at the world.  I just hit the 2nd floor but felt light total garbage because of this nightmare. At some point during the day I finally regrouped and recognized that it was a dream. I remembered being a kid and having weird dreams that would throw me off a bit... They usually happened when I was sick. Got me thinking about what a sickness that this addiction is and then realized my brain is still rewiring from the years of abuse. It was clear to me at that point that the fight is not over. In fact, this is probably where I actually really learn what I am made off. The days feel better than when I first quit but any moment of weakness could bring my quit and me to my knees.
There is no caving on this my agenda today. Over my dead body.  I posted roll this morning and that means something. My word means something.Â
Another thing happened to me that I need to remember.Â
I was out of town in NYC on 1/13/2014... Just over a week ago.  I woke up in a mad rush, ran out of the hotel to get to my meeting.  At around noon I got a text from Californiaslim asking me if I was ok.  I couldn't believe it... For the first time since I quit I actually forgot to post roll first thing in the am. I am thankful to have a guy like that in my corner... I thanked him for looking out for me and went ahead and posted roll. I have to say that weirded me out for the rest of the day. I did not know whether I should be happy that for a few hours I had not thought about this addiction and was living my life or should I be ticked off that I was late posting roll on this day. At home... I have a routine and it works. So maybe since I was out of town and my routine was broken it is ok to be late for roll.
I've reflected on this for over a week and I am flat out pissed off at myself for letting my guard down that morning. That is how it starts.  One day you decide you can post later in the day.  Then maybe you decide that it is ok to skip a day.  Then maybe you decide that a week of no posting is ok.  Next thing you know your emptying your wallet out at 7-11 and stuffing your face. Well, screw that!
KTC has given me back my life and it is all about establishing a routine. As an addict we have to work our quit Every Day. That means every damn day! Your work and routine starts with posting roll. Posting roll is on par with brushing your teeth. You wake up and you just flat out do it. And you do it first thing. If you ain't gonna do it then why are you here?
So I had a bad dream and was 4 hrs late posting roll. Maybe not a big deal to many of you but they both got my blood boiling.  You see... I'm a race car and I'm in the red.  You don't mess with a race car in the red.  These 2 post 2nd floor events have me running a little hot these days.  They are fueling my quit. I have more resolve for my quit right now and there is no way I will go against my word today.Â
I am here today to quit. How bout you?
Great post. I'll go post my roll now.
you my friend have honor in your blood, Even after 574 days if I don't post by noon, I get a strange feeling that I am missing something. I am not sure that is it the actual posting that brings about that feeling or if it is knowing that I have not given my word to the others.
head held high as you absolutely can be proud of what you have accomplished.
'clap'
Damn glad to have you as a friend.
This is as bad ass as it gets. I am proud to be quit with you Derk. Damn proud.
-
There is honor amongst quitters.  If there is no honor ... then why are we here?
Think about that. Do you have what it takes? Â
I hit 200 days back on Jan 8th. I fell asleep on the couch on the 7th, woke up at around 0130... Decided to post roll for day 200 before I went to sleep. I closed my eyes feeling pretty good about myself. Little did I know that I would sleep thru the worst dip nightmare imaginable. You see in this dip dream I had caved and I was sitting with my laptop and began to write out the answers to the 3 questions.  At that point in the dream I picked up my laptop and threw it across the room. I remember being really pissed, not knowing what to say to all of you and I just couldn't believe I was back at square 1. I remember breaking down and sobbing ... and at that moment I woke up.Â
For the entire day on the 8th of January I was a mess. I was walking around mad at the world.  I just hit the 2nd floor but felt light total garbage because of this nightmare. At some point during the day I finally regrouped and recognized that it was a dream. I remembered being a kid and having weird dreams that would throw me off a bit... They usually happened when I was sick. Got me thinking about what a sickness that this addiction is and then realized my brain is still rewiring from the years of abuse. It was clear to me at that point that the fight is not over. In fact, this is probably where I actually really learn what I am made off. The days feel better than when I first quit but any moment of weakness could bring my quit and me to my knees.
There is no caving on this my agenda today. Over my dead body.  I posted roll this morning and that means something. My word means something.Â
Another thing happened to me that I need to remember.Â
I was out of town in NYC on 1/13/2014... Just over a week ago.  I woke up in a mad rush, ran out of the hotel to get to my meeting.  At around noon I got a text from Californiaslim asking me if I was ok.  I couldn't believe it... For the first time since I quit I actually forgot to post roll first thing in the am. I am thankful to have a guy like that in my corner... I thanked him for looking out for me and went ahead and posted roll. I have to say that weirded me out for the rest of the day. I did not know whether I should be happy that for a few hours I had not thought about this addiction and was living my life or should I be ticked off that I was late posting roll on this day. At home... I have a routine and it works. So maybe since I was out of town and my routine was broken it is ok to be late for roll.
I've reflected on this for over a week and I am flat out pissed off at myself for letting my guard down that morning. That is how it starts.  One day you decide you can post later in the day.  Then maybe you decide that it is ok to skip a day.  Then maybe you decide that a week of no posting is ok.  Next thing you know your emptying your wallet out at 7-11 and stuffing your face. Well, screw that!
KTC has given me back my life and it is all about establishing a routine. As an addict we have to work our quit Every Day. That means every damn day! Your work and routine starts with posting roll. Posting roll is on par with brushing your teeth. You wake up and you just flat out do it. And you do it first thing. If you ain't gonna do it then why are you here?
So I had a bad dream and was 4 hrs late posting roll. Maybe not a big deal to many of you but they both got my blood boiling.  You see... I'm a race car and I'm in the red.  You don't mess with a race car in the red.  These 2 post 2nd floor events have me running a little hot these days.  They are fueling my quit. I have more resolve for my quit right now and there is no way I will go against my word today.Â
I am here today to quit. How bout you?
Great post. I'll go post my roll now.
you my friend have honor in your blood, Even after 574 days if I don't post by noon, I get a strange feeling that I am missing something. I am not sure that is it the actual posting that brings about that feeling or if it is knowing that I have not given my word to the others.
head held high as you absolutely can be proud of what you have accomplished.
'clap'
Damn glad to have you as a friend.
This is as bad ass as it gets. I am proud to be quit with you Derk. Damn proud.
Derk you are one bad assed, kool-aide chugging, swimming in the water, thank you brother may I have another, quit machine! Love it. 100%ers are quit. I will quit with you all day. Those dip dreams are a Godsend; they let us know that caving will make things worse not better, and conversely our worst days quit are truly better than our best as slaves. It is good to know that sometimes when we are quit we can completely forget about the poison though...
-
There is honor amongst quitters.  If there is no honor ... then why are we here?
Think about that. Do you have what it takes? Â
I hit 200 days back on Jan 8th. I fell asleep on the couch on the 7th, woke up at around 0130... Decided to post roll for day 200 before I went to sleep. I closed my eyes feeling pretty good about myself. Little did I know that I would sleep thru the worst dip nightmare imaginable. You see in this dip dream I had caved and I was sitting with my laptop and began to write out the answers to the 3 questions.  At that point in the dream I picked up my laptop and threw it across the room. I remember being really pissed, not knowing what to say to all of you and I just couldn't believe I was back at square 1. I remember breaking down and sobbing ... and at that moment I woke up.Â
For the entire day on the 8th of January I was a mess. I was walking around mad at the world.  I just hit the 2nd floor but felt light total garbage because of this nightmare. At some point during the day I finally regrouped and recognized that it was a dream. I remembered being a kid and having weird dreams that would throw me off a bit... They usually happened when I was sick. Got me thinking about what a sickness that this addiction is and then realized my brain is still rewiring from the years of abuse. It was clear to me at that point that the fight is not over. In fact, this is probably where I actually really learn what I am made off. The days feel better than when I first quit but any moment of weakness could bring my quit and me to my knees.
There is no caving on this my agenda today. Over my dead body.  I posted roll this morning and that means something. My word means something.Â
Another thing happened to me that I need to remember.Â
I was out of town in NYC on 1/13/2014... Just over a week ago.  I woke up in a mad rush, ran out of the hotel to get to my meeting.  At around noon I got a text from Californiaslim asking me if I was ok.  I couldn't believe it... For the first time since I quit I actually forgot to post roll first thing in the am. I am thankful to have a guy like that in my corner... I thanked him for looking out for me and went ahead and posted roll. I have to say that weirded me out for the rest of the day. I did not know whether I should be happy that for a few hours I had not thought about this addiction and was living my life or should I be ticked off that I was late posting roll on this day. At home... I have a routine and it works. So maybe since I was out of town and my routine was broken it is ok to be late for roll.
I've reflected on this for over a week and I am flat out pissed off at myself for letting my guard down that morning. That is how it starts.  One day you decide you can post later in the day.  Then maybe you decide that it is ok to skip a day.  Then maybe you decide that a week of no posting is ok.  Next thing you know your emptying your wallet out at 7-11 and stuffing your face. Well, screw that!
KTC has given me back my life and it is all about establishing a routine. As an addict we have to work our quit Every Day. That means every damn day! Your work and routine starts with posting roll. Posting roll is on par with brushing your teeth. You wake up and you just flat out do it. And you do it first thing. If you ain't gonna do it then why are you here?
So I had a bad dream and was 4 hrs late posting roll. Maybe not a big deal to many of you but they both got my blood boiling.  You see... I'm a race car and I'm in the red.  You don't mess with a race car in the red.  These 2 post 2nd floor events have me running a little hot these days.  They are fueling my quit. I have more resolve for my quit right now and there is no way I will go against my word today.Â
I am here today to quit. How bout you?
Great post. I'll go post my roll now.
you my friend have honor in your blood, Even after 574 days if I don't post by noon, I get a strange feeling that I am missing something. I am not sure that is it the actual posting that brings about that feeling or if it is knowing that I have not given my word to the others.
head held high as you absolutely can be proud of what you have accomplished.
'clap'
Damn glad to have you as a friend.
This is as bad ass as it gets. I am proud to be quit with you Derk. Damn proud.
Derk you are one bad assed, kool-aide chugging, swimming in the water, thank you brother may I have another, quit machine! Love it. 100%ers are quit. I will quit with you all day. Those dip dreams are a Godsend; they let us know that caving will make things worse not better, and conversely our worst days quit are truly better than our best as slaves. It is good to know that sometimes when we are quit we can completely forget about the poison though...
Well done you inspiration quitch. I continue to quit along side you every day. You embody what honor is.
-
There is honor amongst quitters.  If there is no honor ... then why are we here?
Think about that. Do you have what it takes? Â
I hit 200 days back on Jan 8th. I fell asleep on the couch on the 7th, woke up at around 0130... Decided to post roll for day 200 before I went to sleep. I closed my eyes feeling pretty good about myself. Little did I know that I would sleep thru the worst dip nightmare imaginable. You see in this dip dream I had caved and I was sitting with my laptop and began to write out the answers to the 3 questions.  At that point in the dream I picked up my laptop and threw it across the room. I remember being really pissed, not knowing what to say to all of you and I just couldn't believe I was back at square 1. I remember breaking down and sobbing ... and at that moment I woke up.Â
For the entire day on the 8th of January I was a mess. I was walking around mad at the world.  I just hit the 2nd floor but felt light total garbage because of this nightmare. At some point during the day I finally regrouped and recognized that it was a dream. I remembered being a kid and having weird dreams that would throw me off a bit... They usually happened when I was sick. Got me thinking about what a sickness that this addiction is and then realized my brain is still rewiring from the years of abuse. It was clear to me at that point that the fight is not over. In fact, this is probably where I actually really learn what I am made off. The days feel better than when I first quit but any moment of weakness could bring my quit and me to my knees.
There is no caving on this my agenda today. Over my dead body.  I posted roll this morning and that means something. My word means something.Â
Another thing happened to me that I need to remember.Â
I was out of town in NYC on 1/13/2014... Just over a week ago.  I woke up in a mad rush, ran out of the hotel to get to my meeting.  At around noon I got a text from Californiaslim asking me if I was ok.  I couldn't believe it... For the first time since I quit I actually forgot to post roll first thing in the am. I am thankful to have a guy like that in my corner... I thanked him for looking out for me and went ahead and posted roll. I have to say that weirded me out for the rest of the day. I did not know whether I should be happy that for a few hours I had not thought about this addiction and was living my life or should I be ticked off that I was late posting roll on this day. At home... I have a routine and it works. So maybe since I was out of town and my routine was broken it is ok to be late for roll.
I've reflected on this for over a week and I am flat out pissed off at myself for letting my guard down that morning. That is how it starts.  One day you decide you can post later in the day.  Then maybe you decide that it is ok to skip a day.  Then maybe you decide that a week of no posting is ok.  Next thing you know your emptying your wallet out at 7-11 and stuffing your face. Well, screw that!
KTC has given me back my life and it is all about establishing a routine. As an addict we have to work our quit Every Day. That means every damn day! Your work and routine starts with posting roll. Posting roll is on par with brushing your teeth. You wake up and you just flat out do it. And you do it first thing. If you ain't gonna do it then why are you here?
So I had a bad dream and was 4 hrs late posting roll. Maybe not a big deal to many of you but they both got my blood boiling.  You see... I'm a race car and I'm in the red.  You don't mess with a race car in the red.  These 2 post 2nd floor events have me running a little hot these days.  They are fueling my quit. I have more resolve for my quit right now and there is no way I will go against my word today.Â
I am here today to quit. How bout you?
Great post. I'll go post my roll now.
you my friend have honor in your blood, Even after 574 days if I don't post by noon, I get a strange feeling that I am missing something. I am not sure that is it the actual posting that brings about that feeling or if it is knowing that I have not given my word to the others.
head held high as you absolutely can be proud of what you have accomplished.
'clap'
Damn glad to have you as a friend.
This is as bad ass as it gets. I am proud to be quit with you Derk. Damn proud.
Derk you are one bad assed, kool-aide chugging, swimming in the water, thank you brother may I have another, quit machine! Love it. 100%ers are quit. I will quit with you all day. Those dip dreams are a Godsend; they let us know that caving will make things worse not better, and conversely our worst days quit are truly better than our best as slaves. It is good to know that sometimes when we are quit we can completely forget about the poison though...
Well done you inspiration quitch. I continue to quit along side you every day. You embody what honor is.
Gold on this thread. Just pure gold. Quit with you everyday bro.
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Quarter Comma today! Way to go!
With lots of new quitters around, it sure wont hurt to have this treasure trove moved up a little, in addition to a little celebration of a milestone.
Keep quitting on!
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Good job derk, thanks for your level headed support and its an honor to quit with you today.
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Good job derk, thanks for your level headed support and its an honor to quit with you today.
^^^^^^......yup, I remember the good ol' days! Congrats, good to be quit with you! Get yourself some 'boob' today!!!
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Good job derk, thanks for your level headed support and its an honor to quit with you today.
^^^^^^......yup, I remember the good ol' days! Congrats, good to be quit with you! Get yourself some 'boob' today!!!
Derk, you're a steadfast warrior of Quit.
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Good job derk, thanks for your level headed support and its an honor to quit with you today.
^^^^^^......yup, I remember the good ol' days! Congrats, good to be quit with you! Get yourself some 'boob' today!!!
Derk, you're a steadfast warrior of Quit.
Derk puts the I in QUIT!
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Good job derk, thanks for your level headed support and its an honor to quit with you today.
^^^^^^......yup, I remember the good ol' days! Congrats, good to be quit with you! Get yourself some 'boob' today!!!
Derk, you're a steadfast warrior of Quit.
Derk puts the I in QUIT!
Nice 250 Derk. Keep it up!
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Good job derk, thanks for your level headed support and its an honor to quit with you today.
^^^^^^......yup, I remember the good ol' days! Congrats, good to be quit with you! Get yourself some 'boob' today!!!
Derk, you're a steadfast warrior of Quit.
Derk puts the I in QUIT!
Nice 250 Derk. Keep it up!
Two fiddy, quit Master!
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Good job derk, thanks for your level headed support and its an honor to quit with you today.
^^^^^^......yup, I remember the good ol' days! Congrats, good to be quit with you! Get yourself some 'boob' today!!!
Derk, you're a steadfast warrior of Quit.
Derk puts the I in QUIT!
Nice 250 Derk. Keep it up!
Two fiddy, quit Master!
Congrats!!!! Got a great quit going!!
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Great job Sir Derk it has been an honor to have been and still able to be involved in your rock solid quit. Keep up the great work you are a true example of what it is to drink the Kool-Aid! rock on enjoy the day
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Great job Sir Derk it has been an honor to have been and still able to be involved in your rock solid quit. Keep up the great work you are a true example of what it is to drink the Kool-Aid! rock on enjoy the day
Dudes like Derk and Trauma are part of why I am on day 284. True bad ass quitters. Thank you both for quitting with all of us. Congrats on 250 Derk.
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Congrats Derk! Great milestone and it's been a pleasure quitting with you. Looking forward to seeing you get to 251.
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Congratulations Derk !!!
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250 days quit. I really appreciate all the kind words from everybody. It really means a lot.
The other day I was talking with Mrs. Derk about someone we know that is dealing with their husband that is addicted to drugs and booze. This guys driving kids while loaded and doing all sorts of unsafe stuff. She did not understand why this guy could not quit. I let her talk then at the end of the talk I looked her in the eye and told her that I totally get it. That was me... I am an addict and I get it. I then went on to tell her that if I had not found KTC I would still be using Copenhagen like a dumba$$. I was sure of it. She said she just has a hard time understanding the addict mind.
I would not be quit today if it was not for KTC and all the bada$$ quitters putting it on the line today to stay quit. Without all you, I would still be one of those helpless slaves dying for my next fix. No f-in thanks! This place works because we understand each other and we support each other.
I am proud to be quit with you today. QLF ODAAT! See you tomorrow at roll.
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250 days quit. I really appreciate all the kind words from everybody. It really means a lot.
The other day I was talking with Mrs. Derk about someone we know that is dealing with their husband that is addicted to drugs and booze. This guys driving kids while loaded and doing all sorts of unsafe stuff. She did not understand why this guy could not quit. I let her talk then at the end of the talk I looked her in the eye and told her that I totally get it. That was me... I am an addict and I get it. I then went on to tell her that if I had not found KTC I would still be using Copenhagen like a dumba$$. I was sure of it. She said she just has a hard time understanding the addict mind.
I would not be quit today if it was not for KTC and all the bada$$ quitters putting it on the line today to stay quit. Without all you, I would still be one of those helpless slaves dying for my next fix. No f-in thanks! This place works because we understand each other and we support each other.
I am proud to be quit with you today. QLF ODAAT! See you tomorrow at roll.
This is one of the best and most insightful posts ive read on here in a long time Derk. Well done on 250 - it's been quite a ride, but so worth it.
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250 days quit. I really appreciate all the kind words from everybody. It really means a lot.
The other day I was talking with Mrs. Derk about someone we know that is dealing with their husband that is addicted to drugs and booze. This guys driving kids while loaded and doing all sorts of unsafe stuff. She did not understand why this guy could not quit. I let her talk then at the end of the talk I looked her in the eye and told her that I totally get it. That was me... I am an addict and I get it. I then went on to tell her that if I had not found KTC I would still be using Copenhagen like a dumba$$. I was sure of it. She said she just has a hard time understanding the addict mind.
I would not be quit today if it was not for KTC and all the bada$$ quitters putting it on the line today to stay quit. Without all you, I would still be one of those helpless slaves dying for my next fix. No f-in thanks! This place works because we understand each other and we support each other.Â
I am proud to be quit with you today. QLF ODAAT! See you tomorrow at roll.
This is one of the best and most insightful posts ive read on here in a long time Derk. Well done on 250 - it's been quite a ride, but so worth it.
Nice Derk! You should know that there's alot of us quitters that feel the same about you. You are an outstanding asset to this community!
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250 days quit. I really appreciate all the kind words from everybody. It really means a lot.
The other day I was talking with Mrs. Derk about someone we know that is dealing with their husband that is addicted to drugs and booze. This guys driving kids while loaded and doing all sorts of unsafe stuff. She did not understand why this guy could not quit. I let her talk then at the end of the talk I looked her in the eye and told her that I totally get it. That was me... I am an addict and I get it. I then went on to tell her that if I had not found KTC I would still be using Copenhagen like a dumba$$. I was sure of it. She said she just has a hard time understanding the addict mind.
I would not be quit today if it was not for KTC and all the bada$$ quitters putting it on the line today to stay quit. Without all you, I would still be one of those helpless slaves dying for my next fix.  No f-in thanks! This place works because we understand each other and we support each other.Â
I am proud to be quit with you today. QLF ODAAT! See you tomorrow at roll.
This is one of the best and most insightful posts ive read on here in a long time Derk. Well done on 250 - it's been quite a ride, but so worth it.
Nice Derk! You should know that there's alot of us quitters that feel the same about you. You are an outstanding asset to this community!
'clap' Nice job brother. It's funny what a clean mind can process through! What's not so funny is that some of us have waited so long to realize that. Nicotine sucks IN EVERY WAY!
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
Great job Derk! Way to be an inspiration in the way you kick nic's ass daily.
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
Nice work Derk. Welcome to the 3rd floor. Thank you for inspiring others to stay quit.
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
Nice work Derk. Welcome to the 3rd floor. Thank you for inspiring others to stay quit.
Niiice work! Proud of you my friend.
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
Nice work Derk. Welcome to the 3rd floor. Thank you for inspiring others to stay quit.
Niiice work! Proud of you my friend.
Nice job brutha! Proud of you!
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
Nice work Derk. Welcome to the 3rd floor. Thank you for inspiring others to stay quit.
Niiice work! Proud of you my friend.
Nice job brutha! Proud of you!
Awesome 300 bro. Quit with you everyday
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
Nice work Derk. Welcome to the 3rd floor. Thank you for inspiring others to stay quit.
Niiice work! Proud of you my friend.
Nice job brutha! Proud of you!
Awesome 300 bro. Quit with you everyday
Nicely done sir! Another milestone along this new and exciting way of life.
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
Nice work Derk. Welcome to the 3rd floor. Thank you for inspiring others to stay quit.
Niiice work! Proud of you my friend.
Nice job brutha! Proud of you!
Awesome 300 bro. Quit with you everyday
Nicely done sir! Another milestone along this new and exciting way of life.
congrats my friend keep setting the example! Hope you get 'boob' for your 300!
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
Nice work Derk. Welcome to the 3rd floor. Thank you for inspiring others to stay quit.
Niiice work! Proud of you my friend.
Nice job brutha! Proud of you!
Awesome 300 bro. Quit with you everyday
Nicely done sir! Another milestone along this new and exciting way of life.
congrats my friend keep setting the example! Hope you get 'boob' for your 300!
Congrats and thanks for setting such a solid example!
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
Nice work Derk. Welcome to the 3rd floor. Thank you for inspiring others to stay quit.
Niiice work! Proud of you my friend.
Nice job brutha! Proud of you!
Awesome 300 bro. Quit with you everyday
Nicely done sir! Another milestone along this new and exciting way of life.
congrats my friend keep setting the example! Hope you get 'boob' for your 300!
Congrats and thanks for setting such a solid example!
Awesome Brother! Great being quit with you!
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
Nice work Derk. Welcome to the 3rd floor. Thank you for inspiring others to stay quit.
Niiice work! Proud of you my friend.
Nice job brutha! Proud of you!
Awesome 300 bro. Quit with you everyday
Nicely done sir! Another milestone along this new and exciting way of life.
congrats my friend keep setting the example! Hope you get 'boob' for your 300!
Congrats and thanks for setting such a solid example!
Awesome Brother! Great being quit with you!
Out-freaking-standing Derk! You have been a great quitter and path guide.
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
Nice work Derk. Welcome to the 3rd floor. Thank you for inspiring others to stay quit.
Niiice work! Proud of you my friend.
Nice job brutha! Proud of you!
Awesome 300 bro. Quit with you everyday
Nicely done sir! Another milestone along this new and exciting way of life.
congrats my friend keep setting the example! Hope you get 'boob' for your 300!
Congrats and thanks for setting such a solid example!
Awesome Brother! Great being quit with you!
Out-freaking-standing Derk! You have been a great quitter and path guide.
Wow, Derk, Congrats!
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
Nice work Derk. Welcome to the 3rd floor. Thank you for inspiring others to stay quit.
Niiice work! Proud of you my friend.
Nice job brutha! Proud of you!
Awesome 300 bro. Quit with you everyday
Nicely done sir! Another milestone along this new and exciting way of life.
congrats my friend keep setting the example! Hope you get 'boob' for your 300!
Congrats and thanks for setting such a solid example!
Awesome Brother! Great being quit with you!
Out-freaking-standing Derk! You have been a great quitter and path guide.
Way to go Reggie! Thanks for everything so far.
"They brought their fucking toys with em!"
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
Nice work Derk. Welcome to the 3rd floor. Thank you for inspiring others to stay quit.
Niiice work! Proud of you my friend.
Nice job brutha! Proud of you!
Awesome 300 bro. Quit with you everyday
Nicely done sir! Another milestone along this new and exciting way of life.
congrats my friend keep setting the example! Hope you get 'boob' for your 300!
Congrats and thanks for setting such a solid example!
Awesome Brother! Great being quit with you!
Out-freaking-standing Derk! You have been a great quitter and path guide.
Wow, Derk, Congrats!
Way to go Reggie!
"Those guys are retards, They brought their fucking toys with em!"
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
Nice work Derk. Welcome to the 3rd floor. Thank you for inspiring others to stay quit.
Niiice work! Proud of you my friend.
Nice job brutha! Proud of you!
Awesome 300 bro. Quit with you everyday
Nicely done sir! Another milestone along this new and exciting way of life.
congrats my friend keep setting the example! Hope you get 'boob' for your 300!
Congrats and thanks for setting such a solid example!
Awesome Brother! Great being quit with you!
Out-freaking-standing Derk! You have been a great quitter and path guide.
Wow, Derk, Congrats!
Way to go Reggie!
"Those guys are retards, They brought their fucking toys with em!"
Congrats brother! Feels great doesn't it?
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
Nice work Derk. Welcome to the 3rd floor. Thank you for inspiring others to stay quit.
Niiice work! Proud of you my friend.
Nice job brutha! Proud of you!
Awesome 300 bro. Quit with you everyday
Nicely done sir! Another milestone along this new and exciting way of life.
congrats my friend keep setting the example! Hope you get 'boob' for your 300!
Congrats and thanks for setting such a solid example!
Awesome Brother! Great being quit with you!
Out-freaking-standing Derk! You have been a great quitter and path guide.
Wow, Derk, Congrats!
Way to go Reggie!
"Those guys are retards, They brought their fucking toys with em!"
Congrats brother! Feels great doesn't it?
'BanDog'
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
Nice work Derk. Welcome to the 3rd floor. Thank you for inspiring others to stay quit.
Niiice work! Proud of you my friend.
Nice job brutha! Proud of you!
Awesome 300 bro. Quit with you everyday
Nicely done sir! Another milestone along this new and exciting way of life.
congrats my friend keep setting the example! Hope you get 'boob' for your 300!
Congrats and thanks for setting such a solid example!
Awesome Brother! Great being quit with you!
Out-freaking-standing Derk! You have been a great quitter and path guide.
Wow, Derk, Congrats!
Way to go Reggie!
"Those guys are retards, They brought their fucking toys with em!"
Congrats brother! Feels great doesn't it?
'BanDog'
Thanks for all the kind words. I would not be here today if it was not for you all and KTC. 300 days quit... Feels pretty damn good. See you all tomorrow at roll!
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
Nice work Derk. Welcome to the 3rd floor. Thank you for inspiring others to stay quit.
Niiice work! Proud of you my friend.
Nice job brutha! Proud of you!
Awesome 300 bro. Quit with you everyday
Nicely done sir! Another milestone along this new and exciting way of life.
congrats my friend keep setting the example! Hope you get 'boob' for your 300!
Congrats and thanks for setting such a solid example!
Awesome Brother! Great being quit with you!
Out-freaking-standing Derk! You have been a great quitter and path guide.
Wow, Derk, Congrats!
Way to go Reggie!
"Those guys are retards, They brought their fucking toys with em!"
Congrats brother! Feels great doesn't it?
'BanDog'
Thanks for all the kind words. I would not be here today if it was not for you all and KTC. 300 days quit... Feels pretty damn good. See you all tomorrow at roll!
300 is awesome, congrats on the milestone. See you on 301 for sure.
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
Nice work Derk. Welcome to the 3rd floor. Thank you for inspiring others to stay quit.
Niiice work! Proud of you my friend.
Nice job brutha! Proud of you!
Awesome 300 bro. Quit with you everyday
Nicely done sir! Another milestone along this new and exciting way of life.
congrats my friend keep setting the example! Hope you get 'boob' for your 300!
Congrats and thanks for setting such a solid example!
Awesome Brother! Great being quit with you!
Out-freaking-standing Derk! You have been a great quitter and path guide.
Way to go Reggie! Thanks for everything so far.
"They brought their fucking toys with em!"
Congratulations Brother Derk !!! 300 Bad Ass Days of Quit !!!
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
Nice work Derk. Welcome to the 3rd floor. Thank you for inspiring others to stay quit.
Niiice work! Proud of you my friend.
Nice job brutha! Proud of you!
Awesome 300 bro. Quit with you everyday
Nicely done sir! Another milestone along this new and exciting way of life.
congrats my friend keep setting the example! Hope you get 'boob' for your 300!
Congrats and thanks for setting such a solid example!
Awesome Brother! Great being quit with you!
Out-freaking-standing Derk! You have been a great quitter and path guide.
Way to go Reggie! Thanks for everything so far.
"They brought their fucking toys with em!"
Congratulations Brother Derk !!! 300 Bad Ass Days of Quit !!!
Congrats!!!! Keep up the good work!!!
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
Nice work Derk. Welcome to the 3rd floor. Thank you for inspiring others to stay quit.
Niiice work! Proud of you my friend.
Nice job brutha! Proud of you!
Awesome 300 bro. Quit with you everyday
Nicely done sir! Another milestone along this new and exciting way of life.
congrats my friend keep setting the example! Hope you get 'boob' for your 300!
Congrats and thanks for setting such a solid example!
Awesome Brother! Great being quit with you!
Out-freaking-standing Derk! You have been a great quitter and path guide.
Way to go Reggie! Thanks for everything so far.
"They brought their fucking toys with em!"
Congratulations Brother Derk !!! 300 Bad Ass Days of Quit !!!
Congrats!!!! Keep up the good work!!!
Congrats brother....sorry so late to hit you up but congrats anyway on another milestone!!! Quitting with you as always!!!
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
Nice work Derk. Welcome to the 3rd floor. Thank you for inspiring others to stay quit.
Niiice work! Proud of you my friend.
Nice job brutha! Proud of you!
Awesome 300 bro. Quit with you everyday
Nicely done sir! Another milestone along this new and exciting way of life.
congrats my friend keep setting the example! Hope you get 'boob' for your 300!
Congrats and thanks for setting such a solid example!
Awesome Brother! Great being quit with you!
Out-freaking-standing Derk! You have been a great quitter and path guide.
Way to go Reggie! Thanks for everything so far.
"They brought their fucking toys with em!"
Congratulations Brother Derk !!! 300 Bad Ass Days of Quit !!!
Congrats!!!! Keep up the good work!!!
Congrats brother....sorry so late to hit you up but congrats anyway on another milestone!!! Quitting with you as always!!!
Can't believe I am late to congratulate you. Your a bad ass, glad ass hell I have you as a supporter. Congrats to you my friend well done. Erussell day 356 and I quit with you today
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Big congrats to Derk for reaching the 3rd floor. He's 2 floors above me but we quit together the same no matter what the view.
300 days of freedom. 300 days of honor. You pay it forward and backward every day, one day at a time. Thanks for all of the encouragement you have given to me and many others. You are a bad ass, and today you should be damn proud.
Nice work Derk. Welcome to the 3rd floor. Thank you for inspiring others to stay quit.
Niiice work! Proud of you my friend.
Nice job brutha! Proud of you!
Awesome 300 bro. Quit with you everyday
Nicely done sir! Another milestone along this new and exciting way of life.
congrats my friend keep setting the example! Hope you get 'boob' for your 300!
Congrats and thanks for setting such a solid example!
Awesome Brother! Great being quit with you!
Out-freaking-standing Derk! You have been a great quitter and path guide.
Way to go Reggie! Thanks for everything so far.
"They brought their fucking toys with em!"
Congratulations Brother Derk !!! 300 Bad Ass Days of Quit !!!
Congrats!!!! Keep up the good work!!!
Congrats brother....sorry so late to hit you up but congrats anyway on another milestone!!! Quitting with you as always!!!
Can't believe I am late to congratulate you. Your a bad ass, glad ass hell I have you as a supporter. Congrats to you my friend well done. Erussell day 356 and I quit with you today
Congratulations! Awesome accomplishment!
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Day 304... When I hit the 3rd floor the other day I felt obligated to make an insightful post. I went to the keyboard that day and came up empty. No big deal. I was just happy to be quit.
After watching some of the action in the intros lately, it was really clear to me why I remain a 100% roll poster, why I am all-in with KTC and why I am committed to quit with you today. It comes down to one word... Relationships. The KTC plan is simple ... Post roll and keep your word. Any idiot can do that. But there is a little more to it if you want this to work... The glue that makes that simple plan work is the relationships built in this process. After all, what good is my word if I am committed to no one but myself. I have made some good friends in this process.
Quite honestly, I would just assume chop off my right hand before I grabbed a tin of Copenhagen and crapped on 304 days of quit while letting myself and all you down. That may sound extreme but that is where I'm at with this quit.
Relationships matter at KTC. When I started this journey on 23JUN2014 I think this is a place I HAD to be. Over time it has evolved into a place I WANT to be. I have no exit strategy. I am quit with you all today. Thanks for having my back and holding me accountable.
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Day 304... When I hit the 3rd floor the other day I felt obligated to make an insightful post. I went to the keyboard that day and came up empty. No big deal. I was just happy to be quit.
After watching some of the action in the intros lately, it was really clear to me why I remain a 100% roll poster, why I am all-in with KTC and why I am committed to quit with you today. It comes down to one word... Relationships. The KTC plan is simple ... Post roll and keep your word. Any idiot can do that. But there is a little more to it if you want this to work... The glue that makes that simple plan work is the relationships built in this process. After all, what good is my word if I am committed to no one but myself. I have made some good friends in this process.
Quite honestly, I would just assume chop off my right hand before I grabbed a tin of Copenhagen and crapped on 304 days of quit while letting myself and all you down. That may sound extreme but that is where I'm at with this quit.
Relationships matter at KTC. When I started this journey on 23JUN2014 I think this is a place I HAD to be. Over time it has evolved into a place I WANT to be. I have no exit strategy. I am quit with you all today. Thanks for having my back and holding me accountable.
When I compare whats been going on this week on some of the threads and compare them to you and your journey it makes me laugh. Derk you are one solid quitter and give a lot of strength to all of us. As for some of screwed up "quitters" lately I have to ask "What did the old man trade for these assholes, a used puck bag?"
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Day 304... When I hit the 3rd floor the other day I felt obligated to make an insightful post. I went to the keyboard that day and came up empty. No big deal. I was just happy to be quit.
After watching some of the action in the intros lately, it was really clear to me why I remain a 100% roll poster, why I am all-in with KTC and why I am committed to quit with you today. It comes down to one word... Relationships. The KTC plan is simple ... Post roll and keep your word. Any idiot can do that. But there is a little more to it if you want this to work... The glue that makes that simple plan work is the relationships built in this process. After all, what good is my word if I am committed to no one but myself. I have made some good friends in this process.
Quite honestly, I would just assume chop off my right hand before I grabbed a tin of Copenhagen and crapped on 304 days of quit while letting myself and all you down. That may sound extreme but that is where I'm at with this quit.
Relationships matter at KTC. When I started this journey on 23JUN2014 I think this is a place I HAD to be. Over time it has evolved into a place I WANT to be. I have no exit strategy. I am quit with you all today. Thanks for having my back and holding me accountable.
When I compare whats been going on this week on some of the threads and compare them to you and your journey it makes me laugh. Derk you are one solid quitter and give a lot of strength to all of us. As for some of screwed up "quitters" lately I have to ask "What did the old man trade for these assholes, a used puck bag?"
Ha! We are all screwed up and that is why we are here. We unscrew ourselves daily and get back a little bit more of ourself that was lost to the nic B. Quit on!
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Day 304... When I hit the 3rd floor the other day I felt obligated to make an insightful post. I went to the keyboard that day and came up empty. No big deal. I was just happy to be quit.
After watching some of the action in the intros lately, it was really clear to me why I remain a 100% roll poster, why I am all-in with KTC and why I am committed to quit with you today. It comes down to one word... Relationships. The KTC plan is simple ... Post roll and keep your word. Any idiot can do that. But there is a little more to it if you want this to work... The glue that makes that simple plan work is the relationships built in this process. After all, what good is my word if I am committed to no one but myself. I have made some good friends in this process.
Quite honestly, I would just assume chop off my right hand before I grabbed a tin of Copenhagen and crapped on 304 days of quit while letting myself and all you down. That may sound extreme but that is where I'm at with this quit.
Relationships matter at KTC. When I started this journey on 23JUN2014 I think this is a place I HAD to be. Over time it has evolved into a place I WANT to be. I have no exit strategy. I am quit with you all today. Thanks for having my back and holding me accountable.
When I compare whats been going on this week on some of the threads and compare them to you and your journey it makes me laugh. Derk you are one solid quitter and give a lot of strength to all of us. As for some of screwed up "quitters" lately I have to ask "What did the old man trade for these assholes, a used puck bag?"
Ha! We are all screwed up and that is why we are here. We unscrew ourselves daily and get back a little bit more of ourself that was lost to the nic B. Quit on!
Congrats on the 3rd floor. This site does work because of the relationships and accountability. If I don't post roll, I want someone to bust my balls. That's why I am on here every day as well. If someone feels like they can do it all on their own, then maybe, just maybe this is not the place to be. We hold each other accountable. I see someone not posting roll, I attempt to reach out and I would expect the same if I am absent. It has been an eventful week, one that if hope we all can learn from. Glad to be quit with ya.
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Day 304... When I hit the 3rd floor the other day I felt obligated to make an insightful post. I went to the keyboard that day and came up empty. No big deal. I was just happy to be quit.
After watching some of the action in the intros lately, it was really clear to me why I remain a 100% roll poster, why I am all-in with KTC and why I am committed to quit with you today. It comes down to one word... Relationships. The KTC plan is simple ... Post roll and keep your word. Any idiot can do that. But there is a little more to it if you want this to work... The glue that makes that simple plan work is the relationships built in this process. After all, what good is my word if I am committed to no one but myself. I have made some good friends in this process.
Quite honestly, I would just assume chop off my right hand before I grabbed a tin of Copenhagen and crapped on 304 days of quit while letting myself and all you down. That may sound extreme but that is where I'm at with this quit.
Relationships matter at KTC. When I started this journey on 23JUN2014 I think this is a place I HAD to be. Over time it has evolved into a place I WANT to be. I have no exit strategy. I am quit with you all today. Thanks for having my back and holding me accountable.
When I compare whats been going on this week on some of the threads and compare them to you and your journey it makes me laugh. Derk you are one solid quitter and give a lot of strength to all of us. As for some of screwed up "quitters" lately I have to ask "What did the old man trade for these assholes, a used puck bag?"
Ha! We are all screwed up and that is why we are here. We unscrew ourselves daily and get back a little bit more of ourself that was lost to the nic B. Quit on!
Congrats on the 3rd floor. This site does work because of the relationships and accountability. If I don't post roll, I want someone to bust my balls. That's why I am on here every day as well. If someone feels like they can do it all on their own, then maybe, just maybe this is not the place to be. We hold each other accountable. I see someone not posting roll, I attempt to reach out and I would expect the same if I am absent. It has been an eventful week, one that if hope we all can learn from. Glad to be quit with ya.
Derk is a true badass. Thanks for being a great example.
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Day 304... When I hit the 3rd floor the other day I felt obligated to make an insightful post. I went to the keyboard that day and came up empty. No big deal. I was just happy to be quit.
After watching some of the action in the intros lately, it was really clear to me why I remain a 100% roll poster, why I am all-in with KTC and why I am committed to quit with you today. It comes down to one word... Relationships. The KTC plan is simple ... Post roll and keep your word. Any idiot can do that. But there is a little more to it if you want this to work... The glue that makes that simple plan work is the relationships built in this process. After all, what good is my word if I am committed to no one but myself. I have made some good friends in this process.
Quite honestly, I would just assume chop off my right hand before I grabbed a tin of Copenhagen and crapped on 304 days of quit while letting myself and all you down. That may sound extreme but that is where I'm at with this quit.
Relationships matter at KTC. When I started this journey on 23JUN2014 I think this is a place I HAD to be. Over time it has evolved into a place I WANT to be. I have no exit strategy. I am quit with you all today. Thanks for having my back and holding me accountable.
When I compare whats been going on this week on some of the threads and compare them to you and your journey it makes me laugh. Derk you are one solid quitter and give a lot of strength to all of us. As for some of screwed up "quitters" lately I have to ask "What did the old man trade for these assholes, a used puck bag?"
Ha! We are all screwed up and that is why we are here. We unscrew ourselves daily and get back a little bit more of ourself that was lost to the nic B. Quit on!
Congrats on the 3rd floor. This site does work because of the relationships and accountability. If I don't post roll, I want someone to bust my balls. That's why I am on here every day as well. If someone feels like they can do it all on their own, then maybe, just maybe this is not the place to be. We hold each other accountable. I see someone not posting roll, I attempt to reach out and I would expect the same if I am absent. It has been an eventful week, one that if hope we all can learn from. Glad to be quit with ya.
Derk is a true badass. Thanks for being a great example.
I wish there was a word to describe the most badass of the badasses. That is the word I would use to describe Derk40 as it relates to quitting. You're words have helped me a lot in my quit and I appreciate your willingness to pour yourself into our quits!!
Congrats and keep kicking ass!
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Day 325... Well, I was hanging with a good buddy of mine this evening. He is a major Copenhagen dipper and has been trying to quit for a while and just can't. We were at his house and his wife mentioned something about ... "I thought you were quitting.... And that you were using the fake stuff." I started throwing out words like Smokey Mt and Hooch! He dipped the entire evening... My old brand.... was I tempted?? .. Not a fucking chance!!!! Because I made a promise this morning to all you. My arse is quit.
I don't think it is my place to preach to those that aren't ready, but we sort of naturally went into a discussion about how I quit, I talked about KTC a bit and let him read my HOF speech. I have not had this sort of discussion with anyone but Mrs Derk. I'm sure he never knew I dipped as much as I did... But I felt I needed to tell him. It felt a bit uncomfortable at times but maybe it will help him. I am shooting him an email with the KTC website and I hope to see him post a day 1.
As an aside... I was on a plane today sitting next to a guy that had his Coke bottle spitter stashed in the seat pocket in front of him... I have never been so thankful to NOT be that guy. Felt great to be quit. Saw a few other guys with tins stashed in their pockets while hanging with their families. I used to be that poor SOB.
I am glad I found you people. Quit with you all day long.
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Day 325... Well, I was hanging with a good buddy of mine this evening. He is a major Copenhagen dipper and has been trying to quit for a while and just can't. We were at his house and his wife mentioned something about ... "I thought you were quitting.... And that you were using the fake stuff." I started throwing out words like Smokey Mt and Hooch! He dipped the entire evening... My old brand.... was I tempted?? .. Not a fucking chance!!!! Because I made a promise this morning to all you. My arse is quit.
I don't think it is my place to preach to those that aren't ready, but we sort of naturally went into a discussion about how I quit, I talked about KTC a bit and let him read my HOF speech. I have not had this sort of discussion with anyone but Mrs Derk. I'm sure he never knew I dipped as much as I did... But I felt I needed to tell him. It felt a bit uncomfortable at times but maybe it will help him. I am shooting him an email with the KTC website and I hope to see him post a day 1.
As an aside... I was on a plane today sitting next to a guy that had his Coke bottle spitter stashed in the seat pocket in front of him... I have never been so thankful to NOT be that guy. Felt great to be quit. Saw a few other guys with tins stashed in their pockets while hanging with their families. I used to be that poor SOB.
I am glad I found you people. Quit with you all day long.
You are one of the pillars of accountability in my quit. So much more comfortable to talk to your friend now than wishing you did when you are sitting next to his hospital bed wishing him farewell. The ability to help each other through good times and bad, and have "real" conversations is ultimately what makes a friend a friend and not just an acquaintance. I am glad you shared this. I am heading on a trip later this week with some guys I only see a couple of times a year (riding group I travel with). There is one dipper in that group. I will be wearing my new KTC T-shirt when I roll in Thursday night to hook up with the group. QLFEDD!!! Thanks.
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Day 325... Well, I was hanging with a good buddy of mine this evening. He is a major Copenhagen dipper and has been trying to quit for a while and just can't. We were at his house and his wife mentioned something about ... "I thought you were quitting.... And that you were using the fake stuff." I started throwing out words like Smokey Mt and Hooch! He dipped the entire evening... My old brand.... was I tempted?? .. Not a fucking chance!!!! Because I made a promise this morning to all you. My arse is quit.
I don't think it is my place to preach to those that aren't ready, but we sort of naturally went into a discussion about how I quit, I talked about KTC a bit and let him read my HOF speech. I have not had this sort of discussion with anyone but Mrs Derk. I'm sure he never knew I dipped as much as I did... But I felt I needed to tell him. It felt a bit uncomfortable at times but maybe it will help him. I am shooting him an email with the KTC website and I hope to see him post a day 1.
As an aside... I was on a plane today sitting next to a guy that had his Coke bottle spitter stashed in the seat pocket in front of him... I have never been so thankful to NOT be that guy. Felt great to be quit. Saw a few other guys with tins stashed in their pockets while hanging with their families. I used to be that poor SOB.
I am glad I found you people. Quit with you all day long.
You are one of the pillars of accountability in my quit. So much more comfortable to talk to your friend now than wishing you did when you are sitting next to his hospital bed wishing him farewell. The ability to help each other through good times and bad, and have "real" conversations is ultimately what makes a friend a friend and not just an acquaintance. I am glad you shared this. I am heading on a trip later this week with some guys I only see a couple of times a year (riding group I travel with). There is one dipper in that group. I will be wearing my new KTC T-shirt when I roll in Thursday night to hook up with the group. QLFEDD!!! Thanks.
Good stuff Derk. Letting our friends who dip know how we quit is all we can do; they must make the choice to quit when they are ready. The fact is that KTC offers the accountability, information, and support needed to help us quit cold turkey, but only when we are ready to make it work. Funny how the perspective changes to the point where we feel sorry for guys with tin rings... Quit with you every day!
Also, Sam rock that KTC shirt with pride!
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Day 304... When I hit the 3rd floor the other day I felt obligated to make an insightful post. I went to the keyboard that day and came up empty. No big deal. I was just happy to be quit.
After watching some of the action in the intros lately, it was really clear to me why I remain a 100% roll poster, why I am all-in with KTC and why I am committed to quit with you today. It comes down to one word... Relationships. The KTC plan is simple ... Post roll and keep your word. Any idiot can do that. But there is a little more to it if you want this to work... The glue that makes that simple plan work is the relationships built in this process. After all, what good is my word if I am committed to no one but myself. I have made some good friends in this process.
Quite honestly, I would just assume chop off my right hand before I grabbed a tin of Copenhagen and crapped on 304 days of quit while letting myself and all you down. That may sound extreme but that is where I'm at with this quit.
Relationships matter at KTC. When I started this journey on 23JUN2014 I think this is a place I HAD to be. Over time it has evolved into a place I WANT to be. I have no exit strategy. I am quit with you all today. Thanks for having my back and holding me accountable.
When I compare whats been going on this week on some of the threads and compare them to you and your journey it makes me laugh. Derk you are one solid quitter and give a lot of strength to all of us. As for some of screwed up "quitters" lately I have to ask "What did the old man trade for these assholes, a used puck bag?"
Ha! We are all screwed up and that is why we are here. We unscrew ourselves daily and get back a little bit more of ourself that was lost to the nic B. Quit on!
Congrats on the 3rd floor. This site does work because of the relationships and accountability. If I don't post roll, I want someone to bust my balls. That's why I am on here every day as well. If someone feels like they can do it all on their own, then maybe, just maybe this is not the place to be. We hold each other accountable. I see someone not posting roll, I attempt to reach out and I would expect the same if I am absent. It has been an eventful week, one that if hope we all can learn from. Glad to be quit with ya.
Derk is a true badass. Thanks for being a great example.
Congrats my friend!! This site is what it is because of people like you! I am glad to be quit with you every damn day!!
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Day 325... Well, I was hanging with a good buddy of mine this evening. He is a major Copenhagen dipper and has been trying to quit for a while and just can't. We were at his house and his wife mentioned something about ... "I thought you were quitting.... And that you were using the fake stuff." I started throwing out words like Smokey Mt and Hooch! He dipped the entire evening... My old brand.... was I tempted?? .. Not a fucking chance!!!! Because I made a promise this morning to all you. My arse is quit.
I don't think it is my place to preach to those that aren't ready, but we sort of naturally went into a discussion about how I quit, I talked about KTC a bit and let him read my HOF speech. I have not had this sort of discussion with anyone but Mrs Derk. I'm sure he never knew I dipped as much as I did... But I felt I needed to tell him. It felt a bit uncomfortable at times but maybe it will help him. I am shooting him an email with the KTC website and I hope to see him post a day 1.
As an aside... I was on a plane today sitting next to a guy that had his Coke bottle spitter stashed in the seat pocket in front of him... I have never been so thankful to NOT be that guy. Felt great to be quit. Saw a few other guys with tins stashed in their pockets while hanging with their families. I used to be that poor SOB.
I am glad I found you people. Quit with you all day long.
You are one of the pillars of accountability in my quit. So much more comfortable to talk to your friend now than wishing you did when you are sitting next to his hospital bed wishing him farewell. The ability to help each other through good times and bad, and have "real" conversations is ultimately what makes a friend a friend and not just an acquaintance. I am glad you shared this. I am heading on a trip later this week with some guys I only see a couple of times a year (riding group I travel with). There is one dipper in that group. I will be wearing my new KTC T-shirt when I roll in Thursday night to hook up with the group. QLFEDD!!! Thanks.
Good stuff Derk. Letting our friends who dip know how we quit is all we can do; they must make the choice to quit when they are ready. The fact is that KTC offers the accountability, information, and support needed to help us quit cold turkey, but only when we are ready to make it work. Funny how the perspective changes to the point where we feel sorry for guys with tin rings... Quit with you every day!
Also, Sam rock that KTC shirt with pride!
Saw my friend again today. No dice on quittin yet. He is still locked down by the B. Man, it is a lot easier to give advice on this website! Face to face comms with someone not quite ready requires more of a conservative approach.
He is a great guy. I hope he sees the light soon. The seed has been planted. If he does I will be here to support him and I know you all will be here as well. Freedom is a beautiful thing.
Proud to be quit today with all you quitters today.
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Day 325... Well, I was hanging with a good buddy of mine this evening. He is a major Copenhagen dipper and has been trying to quit for a while and just can't. We were at his house and his wife mentioned something about ... "I thought you were quitting.... And that you were using the fake stuff." I started throwing out words like Smokey Mt and Hooch! He dipped the entire evening... My old brand.... was I tempted?? .. Not a fucking chance!!!! Because I made a promise this morning to all you. My arse is quit.
I don't think it is my place to preach to those that aren't ready, but we sort of naturally went into a discussion about how I quit, I talked about KTC a bit and let him read my HOF speech. I have not had this sort of discussion with anyone but Mrs Derk. I'm sure he never knew I dipped as much as I did... But I felt I needed to tell him. It felt a bit uncomfortable at times but maybe it will help him. I am shooting him an email with the KTC website and I hope to see him post a day 1.
As an aside... I was on a plane today sitting next to a guy that had his Coke bottle spitter stashed in the seat pocket in front of him... I have never been so thankful to NOT be that guy. Felt great to be quit. Saw a few other guys with tins stashed in their pockets while hanging with their families. I used to be that poor SOB.
I am glad I found you people. Quit with you all day long.
You are one of the pillars of accountability in my quit. So much more comfortable to talk to your friend now than wishing you did when you are sitting next to his hospital bed wishing him farewell. The ability to help each other through good times and bad, and have "real" conversations is ultimately what makes a friend a friend and not just an acquaintance. I am glad you shared this. I am heading on a trip later this week with some guys I only see a couple of times a year (riding group I travel with). There is one dipper in that group. I will be wearing my new KTC T-shirt when I roll in Thursday night to hook up with the group. QLFEDD!!! Thanks.
Good stuff Derk. Letting our friends who dip know how we quit is all we can do; they must make the choice to quit when they are ready. The fact is that KTC offers the accountability, information, and support needed to help us quit cold turkey, but only when we are ready to make it work. Funny how the perspective changes to the point where we feel sorry for guys with tin rings... Quit with you every day!
Also, Sam rock that KTC shirt with pride!
Saw my friend again today. No dice on quittin yet. He is still locked down by the B. Man, it is a lot easier to give advice on this website! Face to face comms with someone not quite ready requires more of a conservative approach.
He is a great guy. I hope he sees the light soon. The seed has been planted. If he does I will be here to support him and I know you all will be here as well. Freedom is a beautiful thing.
Proud to be quit today with all you quitters today.
There w ya D40. A buddy of of 17yrs knows I quit at his New Years Eve party 2+ yrs ago. We have lunch once a month and somewhere during lunch the topic of Copenhagen always comes up. I usually let him bring it up but sometimes I ramble about the awesomeness of this site. I stand by..... waiting for him to be "ready".
Think during our next conversation I will simply ask "What are you waiting for"
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I got 2 brother in-laws that dip, I am waiting for the day they want to be quit. I spoke to one regarding this site as he asked on how my quit was going, so maybe some interest there. I hope your friend decides to be quit soon derk40, and damn proud to be quit with you today!
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I got 2 brother in-laws that dip, I am waiting for the day they want to be quit. I spoke to one regarding this site as he asked on how my quit was going, so maybe some interest there. I hope your friend decides to be quit soon derk40, and damn proud to be quit with you today!
I also finding myself wanting to preach the gospel to others that I know and even those I don't about KTC and the fact that quitting is not really as hard as everyone makes it seem. I have really started to notice Ninja Dippers everywhere. I have thought about making up some business cards with the web address to this site to share with them. The advertisements for smokeless on the gas pumps really get my goose I wish I had some KTC bumper stickers to slap on top of those ads. I came across this site looking for an painless way to quit dip 4 or 5 years before I was ready to actually quit ( I remember not making it much past a couple of intro's of those in the suck before I high tailed it out of here). Point is we need to keep having the conversations with are friends and family so they know the resource is here and when and if they are ready they will come! Proud to be a member of this army of bad asses.
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I got 2 brother in-laws that dip, I am waiting for the day they want to be quit. I spoke to one regarding this site as he asked on how my quit was going, so maybe some interest there. I hope your friend decides to be quit soon derk40, and damn proud to be quit with you today!
I also finding myself wanting to preach the gospel to others that I know and even those I don't about KTC and the fact that quitting is not really as hard as everyone makes it seem. I have really started to notice Ninja Dippers everywhere. I have thought about making up some business cards with the web address to this site to share with them. The advertisements for smokeless on the gas pumps really get my goose I wish I had some KTC bumper stickers to slap on top of those ads. I came across this site looking for an painless way to quit dip 4 or 5 years before I was ready to actually quit ( I remember not making it much past a couple of intro's of those in the suck before I high tailed it out of here). Point is we need to keep having the conversations with are friends and family so they know the resource is here and when and if they are ready they will come! Proud to be a member of this army of bad asses.
Here you go my man! Printable business cards.
http://www.killthecan.org/how-can-you-help/ (http://www.killthecan.org/how-can-you-help/)
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I got 2 brother in-laws that dip, I am waiting for the day they want to be quit. I spoke to one regarding this site as he asked on how my quit was going, so maybe some interest there. I hope your friend decides to be quit soon derk40, and damn proud to be quit with you today!
I also finding myself wanting to preach the gospel to others that I know and even those I don't about KTC and the fact that quitting is not really as hard as everyone makes it seem. I have really started to notice Ninja Dippers everywhere. I have thought about making up some business cards with the web address to this site to share with them. The advertisements for smokeless on the gas pumps really get my goose I wish I had some KTC bumper stickers to slap on top of those ads. I came across this site looking for an painless way to quit dip 4 or 5 years before I was ready to actually quit ( I remember not making it much past a couple of intro's of those in the suck before I high tailed it out of here). Point is we need to keep having the conversations with are friends and family so they know the resource is here and when and if they are ready they will come! Proud to be a member of this army of bad asses.
Here you go my man! Printable business cards.
http://www.killthecan.org/how-can-you-help/ (http://www.killthecan.org/how-can-you-help/)
These are great! I wish I had some with me yesterday; the internet installation guy had a dip in for all three hours he was at my house. I steered him toward KTC and he wrote down the website but he was going on and on about chantix and nicorette. As Derk says, it requires a more conservative approach when it's a stranger and it's in person.
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I got 2 brother in-laws that dip, I am waiting for the day they want to be quit. I spoke to one regarding this site as he asked on how my quit was going, so maybe some interest there. I hope your friend decides to be quit soon derk40, and damn proud to be quit with you today!
I also finding myself wanting to preach the gospel to others that I know and even those I don't about KTC and the fact that quitting is not really as hard as everyone makes it seem. I have really started to notice Ninja Dippers everywhere. I have thought about making up some business cards with the web address to this site to share with them. The advertisements for smokeless on the gas pumps really get my goose I wish I had some KTC bumper stickers to slap on top of those ads. I came across this site looking for an painless way to quit dip 4 or 5 years before I was ready to actually quit ( I remember not making it much past a couple of intro's of those in the suck before I high tailed it out of here). Point is we need to keep having the conversations with are friends and family so they know the resource is here and when and if they are ready they will come! Proud to be a member of this army of bad asses.
Here you go my man! Printable business cards.
http://www.killthecan.org/how-can-you-help/ (http://www.killthecan.org/how-can-you-help/)
These are great! I wish I had some with me yesterday; the internet installation guy had a dip in for all three hours he was at my house. I steered him toward KTC and he wrote down the website but he was going on and on about chantix and nicorette. As Derk says, it requires a more conservative approach when it's a stranger and it's in person.
Chewie- Thanks for the link, I will definitely have those in my wallet from now on.
I lost a friend to Chantix, it works for some but kills others. I wish people would read the warnings on that stuff and take precautions.
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I got 2 brother in-laws that dip, I am waiting for the day they want to be quit. I spoke to one regarding this site as he asked on how my quit was going, so maybe some interest there. I hope your friend decides to be quit soon derk40, and damn proud to be quit with you today!
I also finding myself wanting to preach the gospel to others that I know and even those I don't about KTC and the fact that quitting is not really as hard as everyone makes it seem. I have really started to notice Ninja Dippers everywhere. I have thought about making up some business cards with the web address to this site to share with them. The advertisements for smokeless on the gas pumps really get my goose I wish I had some KTC bumper stickers to slap on top of those ads. I came across this site looking for an painless way to quit dip 4 or 5 years before I was ready to actually quit ( I remember not making it much past a couple of intro's of those in the suck before I high tailed it out of here). Point is we need to keep having the conversations with are friends and family so they know the resource is here and when and if they are ready they will come! Proud to be a member of this army of bad asses.
Here you go my man! Printable business cards.
http://www.killthecan.org/how-can-you-help/ (http://www.killthecan.org/how-can-you-help/)
These are great! I wish I had some with me yesterday; the internet installation guy had a dip in for all three hours he was at my house. I steered him toward KTC and he wrote down the website but he was going on and on about chantix and nicorette. As Derk says, it requires a more conservative approach when it's a stranger and it's in person.
My brother still dips and my knucklehead 18 year old son as well, both of whom I will see in a couple weeks in Michigan for the latter's high school graduation. I have planted the seeds of my quit in their head, but we all know that the dipper has to want to be a quitter, you can't do it for them. I too am proud to be part of this army with all of you!
Ducks QLF!
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I got 2 brother in-laws that dip, I am waiting for the day they want to be quit. I spoke to one regarding this site as he asked on how my quit was going, so maybe some interest there. I hope your friend decides to be quit soon derk40, and damn proud to be quit with you today!
I also finding myself wanting to preach the gospel to others that I know and even those I don't about KTC and the fact that quitting is not really as hard as everyone makes it seem. I have really started to notice Ninja Dippers everywhere. I have thought about making up some business cards with the web address to this site to share with them. The advertisements for smokeless on the gas pumps really get my goose I wish I had some KTC bumper stickers to slap on top of those ads. I came across this site looking for an painless way to quit dip 4 or 5 years before I was ready to actually quit ( I remember not making it much past a couple of intro's of those in the suck before I high tailed it out of here). Point is we need to keep having the conversations with are friends and family so they know the resource is here and when and if they are ready they will come! Proud to be a member of this army of bad asses.
Here you go my man! Printable business cards.
http://www.killthecan.org/how-can-you-help/ (http://www.killthecan.org/how-can-you-help/)
These are great! I wish I had some with me yesterday; the internet installation guy had a dip in for all three hours he was at my house. I steered him toward KTC and he wrote down the website but he was going on and on about chantix and nicorette. As Derk says, it requires a more conservative approach when it's a stranger and it's in person.
My brother still dips and my knucklehead 18 year old son as well, both of whom I will see in a couple weeks in Michigan for the latter's high school graduation. I have planted the seeds of my quit in their head, but we all know that the dipper has to want to be a quitter, you can't do it for them. I too am proud to be part of this army with all of you!
Ducks QLF!
This is quite old at this point, but here's a warning about Chantix that was posted in the New York Times.
http://blog.killthecan.org/2009/07/the- ... and-zyban/ (http://blog.killthecan.org/2009/07/the-latest-on-quit-nic-drugs-chantix-and-zyban/)
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One year.
Bro... That's kicks some ass! Proud as hell to quit with you each day.
Rock on...
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One year.
Bro... That's kicks some ass! Proud as hell to quit with you each day.
Rock on...
What AJ says!! 1 year seems like a great milestone!
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One year.
Bro... That's kicks some ass! Proud as hell to quit with you each day.
Rock on...
What AJ says!! 1 year seems like a great milestone!
Proud to be quit with you Derk my brother! Nice 1 year!
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One year.
Bro... That's kicks some ass! Proud as hell to quit with you each day.
Rock on...
What AJ says!! 1 year seems like a great milestone!
Proud to be quit with you Derk my brother! Nice 1 year!
A year! Just went back and read your first few days. Wow... What a difference a year makes!
Congratulations Matt! A year ago you were a mess. Today you are free. Our quits are chains built of strong links - and you are one of those links in my chain. Enjoy and celebrate today - you've earned it!
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One year.
Bro... That's kicks some ass! Proud as hell to quit with you each day.
Rock on...
What AJ says!! 1 year seems like a great milestone!
Proud to be quit with you Derk my brother! Nice 1 year!
A year! Just went back and read your first few days. Wow... What a difference a year makes!
Congratulations Matt! A year ago you were a mess. Today you are free. Our quits are chains built of strong links - and you are one of those links in my chain. Enjoy and celebrate today - you've earned it!
Major ass kickage! Keep up the awesome quit brother.
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One year.
Bro... That's kicks some ass! Proud as hell to quit with you each day.
Rock on...
What AJ says!! 1 year seems like a great milestone!
Proud to be quit with you Derk my brother! Nice 1 year!
A year! Just went back and read your first few days. Wow... What a difference a year makes!
Congratulations Matt! A year ago you were a mess. Today you are free. Our quits are chains built of strong links - and you are one of those links in my chain. Enjoy and celebrate today - you've earned it!
Major ass kickage! Keep up the awesome quit brother.
You are a Bad-assed quit machine!
'BanDog'
Keep winning.
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One year.
Bro... That's kicks some ass! Proud as hell to quit with you each day.
Rock on...
What AJ says!! 1 year seems like a great milestone!
Proud to be quit with you Derk my brother! Nice 1 year!
A year! Just went back and read your first few days. Wow... What a difference a year makes!
Congratulations Matt! A year ago you were a mess. Today you are free. Our quits are chains built of strong links - and you are one of those links in my chain. Enjoy and celebrate today - you've earned it!
Major ass kickage! Keep up the awesome quit brother.
You are a Bad-assed quit machine!
'BanDog'
Keep winning.
Great job my friend.
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One year.
Bro... That's kicks some ass! Proud as hell to quit with you each day.
Rock on...
What AJ says!! 1 year seems like a great milestone!
Proud to be quit with you Derk my brother! Nice 1 year!
A year! Just went back and read your first few days. Wow... What a difference a year makes!
Congratulations Matt! A year ago you were a mess. Today you are free. Our quits are chains built of strong links - and you are one of those links in my chain. Enjoy and celebrate today - you've earned it!
Major ass kickage! Keep up the awesome quit brother.
You are a Bad-assed quit machine!
'BanDog'
Keep winning.
Great job my friend.
One year is no joke. Congrats. I'll quit with you today. And every other day from here.
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One year.
Bro... That's kicks some ass! Proud as hell to quit with you each day.
Rock on...
What AJ says!! 1 year seems like a great milestone!
Proud to be quit with you Derk my brother! Nice 1 year!
A year! Just went back and read your first few days. Wow... What a difference a year makes!
Congratulations Matt! A year ago you were a mess. Today you are free. Our quits are chains built of strong links - and you are one of those links in my chain. Enjoy and celebrate today - you've earned it!
Major ass kickage! Keep up the awesome quit brother.
You are a Bad-assed quit machine!
'BanDog'
Keep winning.
Great job my friend.
One year is no joke. Congrats. I'll quit with you today. And every other day from here.
Fan-#$%^#$%-tastic!!!! Congrats brother!!! One year is a signicant milestone!!!
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One year.
Bro... That's kicks some ass! Proud as hell to quit with you each day.
Rock on...
What AJ says!! 1 year seems like a great milestone!
Proud to be quit with you Derk my brother! Nice 1 year!
A year! Just went back and read your first few days. Wow... What a difference a year makes!
Congratulations Matt! A year ago you were a mess. Today you are free. Our quits are chains built of strong links - and you are one of those links in my chain. Enjoy and celebrate today - you've earned it!
Major ass kickage! Keep up the awesome quit brother.
You are a Bad-assed quit machine!
'BanDog'
Keep winning.
Great job my friend.
One year is no joke. Congrats. I'll quit with you today. And every other day from here.
Fan-#$%^#$%-tastic!!!! Congrats brother!!! One year is a signicant milestone!!!
Way to go man. Thank you for helping me and others on this site. Today is your day to celebrate. 1 year nicotine free. That's good stuff right there brother. Congratulations.
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One year.
Bro... That's kicks some ass! Proud as hell to quit with you each day.
Rock on...
What AJ says!! 1 year seems like a great milestone!
Proud to be quit with you Derk my brother! Nice 1 year!
A year! Just went back and read your first few days. Wow... What a difference a year makes!
Congratulations Matt! A year ago you were a mess. Today you are free. Our quits are chains built of strong links - and you are one of those links in my chain. Enjoy and celebrate today - you've earned it!
Major ass kickage! Keep up the awesome quit brother.
You are a Bad-assed quit machine!
'BanDog'
Keep winning.
Great job my friend.
One year is no joke. Congrats. I'll quit with you today. And every other day from here.
Fan-#$%^#$%-tastic!!!! Congrats brother!!! One year is a signicant milestone!!!
Way to go man. Thank you for helping me and others on this site. Today is your day to celebrate. 1 year nicotine free. That's good stuff right there brother. Congratulations.
You're a model quitter, one I'll follow and quit with any day. Congrats on achieving 1 year of freedom
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One year.
Bro... That's kicks some ass! Proud as hell to quit with you each day.
Rock on...
What AJ says!! 1 year seems like a great milestone!
Proud to be quit with you Derk my brother! Nice 1 year!
A year! Just went back and read your first few days. Wow... What a difference a year makes!
Congratulations Matt! A year ago you were a mess. Today you are free. Our quits are chains built of strong links - and you are one of those links in my chain. Enjoy and celebrate today - you've earned it!
Major ass kickage! Keep up the awesome quit brother.
You are a Bad-assed quit machine!
'BanDog'
Keep winning.
Great job my friend.
One year is no joke. Congrats. I'll quit with you today. And every other day from here.
Fan-#$%^#$%-tastic!!!! Congrats brother!!! One year is a signicant milestone!!!
Way to go man. Thank you for helping me and others on this site. Today is your day to celebrate. 1 year nicotine free. That's good stuff right there brother. Congratulations.
You're a model quitter, one I'll follow and quit with any day. Congrats on achieving 1 year of freedom
1 year is awesome, proud to quit with you!
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One year.
Bro... That's kicks some ass! Proud as hell to quit with you each day.
Rock on...
What AJ says!! 1 year seems like a great milestone!
Proud to be quit with you Derk my brother! Nice 1 year!
A year! Just went back and read your first few days. Wow... What a difference a year makes!
Congratulations Matt! A year ago you were a mess. Today you are free. Our quits are chains built of strong links - and you are one of those links in my chain. Enjoy and celebrate today - you've earned it!
Major ass kickage! Keep up the awesome quit brother.
You are a Bad-assed quit machine!
'BanDog'
Keep winning.
Great job my friend.
One year is no joke. Congrats. I'll quit with you today. And every other day from here.
Fan-#$%^#$%-tastic!!!! Congrats brother!!! One year is a signicant milestone!!!
Way to go man. Thank you for helping me and others on this site. Today is your day to celebrate. 1 year nicotine free. That's good stuff right there brother. Congratulations.
You're a model quitter, one I'll follow and quit with any day. Congrats on achieving 1 year of freedom
1 year is awesome, proud to quit with you!
Congrats dude. Thanks for all the noob advice. Guys like you keep us connected and working EDD.
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One year.
Bro... That's kicks some ass! Proud as hell to quit with you each day.
Rock on...
What AJ says!! 1 year seems like a great milestone!
Proud to be quit with you Derk my brother! Nice 1 year!
A year! Just went back and read your first few days. Wow... What a difference a year makes!
Congratulations Matt! A year ago you were a mess. Today you are free. Our quits are chains built of strong links - and you are one of those links in my chain. Enjoy and celebrate today - you've earned it!
Major ass kickage! Keep up the awesome quit brother.
You are a Bad-assed quit machine!
'BanDog'
Keep winning.
Great job my friend.
One year is no joke. Congrats. I'll quit with you today. And every other day from here.
Fan-#$%^#$%-tastic!!!! Congrats brother!!! One year is a signicant milestone!!!
Way to go man. Thank you for helping me and others on this site. Today is your day to celebrate. 1 year nicotine free. That's good stuff right there brother. Congratulations.
You're a model quitter, one I'll follow and quit with any day. Congrats on achieving 1 year of freedom
1 year is awesome, proud to quit with you!
Congrats dude. Thanks for all the noob advice. Guys like you keep us connected and working EDD.
All day everyday with you Derk. Congrats brother!!!!
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One year.
Bro... That's kicks some ass! Proud as hell to quit with you each day.
Rock on...
What AJ says!! 1 year seems like a great milestone!
Proud to be quit with you Derk my brother! Nice 1 year!
A year! Just went back and read your first few days. Wow... What a difference a year makes!
Congratulations Matt! A year ago you were a mess. Today you are free. Our quits are chains built of strong links - and you are one of those links in my chain. Enjoy and celebrate today - you've earned it!
Major ass kickage! Keep up the awesome quit brother.
You are a Bad-assed quit machine!
'BanDog'
Keep winning.
Great job my friend.
One year is no joke. Congrats. I'll quit with you today. And every other day from here.
Fan-#$%^#$%-tastic!!!! Congrats brother!!! One year is a signicant milestone!!!
Way to go man. Thank you for helping me and others on this site. Today is your day to celebrate. 1 year nicotine free. That's good stuff right there brother. Congratulations.
You're a model quitter, one I'll follow and quit with any day. Congrats on achieving 1 year of freedom
1 year is awesome, proud to quit with you!
Congrats dude. Thanks for all the noob advice. Guys like you keep us connected and working EDD.
All day everyday with you Derk. Congrats brother!!!!
That's awesome, Congrats!
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One year.
Bro... That's kicks some ass! Proud as hell to quit with you each day.
Rock on...
What AJ says!! 1 year seems like a great milestone!
Proud to be quit with you Derk my brother! Nice 1 year!
A year! Just went back and read your first few days. Wow... What a difference a year makes!
Congratulations Matt! A year ago you were a mess. Today you are free. Our quits are chains built of strong links - and you are one of those links in my chain. Enjoy and celebrate today - you've earned it!
Major ass kickage! Keep up the awesome quit brother.
You are a Bad-assed quit machine!
'BanDog'
Keep winning.
Great job my friend.
One year is no joke. Congrats. I'll quit with you today. And every other day from here.
Fan-#$%^#$%-tastic!!!! Congrats brother!!! One year is a signicant milestone!!!
Way to go man. Thank you for helping me and others on this site. Today is your day to celebrate. 1 year nicotine free. That's good stuff right there brother. Congratulations.
You're a model quitter, one I'll follow and quit with any day. Congrats on achieving 1 year of freedom
1 year is awesome, proud to quit with you!
Congrats dude. Thanks for all the noob advice. Guys like you keep us connected and working EDD.
All day everyday with you Derk. Congrats brother!!!!
That's awesome, Congrats!
Thank you for helping me in my quit and congratulations on the milestone, buddy.
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One year.
Bro... That's kicks some ass! Proud as hell to quit with you each day.
Rock on...
What AJ says!! 1 year seems like a great milestone!
Proud to be quit with you Derk my brother! Nice 1 year!
A year! Just went back and read your first few days. Wow... What a difference a year makes!
Congratulations Matt! A year ago you were a mess. Today you are free. Our quits are chains built of strong links - and you are one of those links in my chain. Enjoy and celebrate today - you've earned it!
Major ass kickage! Keep up the awesome quit brother.
You are a Bad-assed quit machine!
'BanDog'
Keep winning.
Great job my friend.
One year is no joke. Congrats. I'll quit with you today. And every other day from here.
Fan-#$%^#$%-tastic!!!! Congrats brother!!! One year is a signicant milestone!!!
Way to go man. Thank you for helping me and others on this site. Today is your day to celebrate. 1 year nicotine free. That's good stuff right there brother. Congratulations.
You're a model quitter, one I'll follow and quit with any day. Congrats on achieving 1 year of freedom
1 year is awesome, proud to quit with you!
Congrats dude. Thanks for all the noob advice. Guys like you keep us connected and working EDD.
All day everyday with you Derk. Congrats brother!!!!
That's awesome, Congrats!
Thank you for helping me in my quit and congratulations on the milestone, buddy.
That's some great quitting Reggie! You just might make it to Florida yet!
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One year.
Bro... That's kicks some ass! Proud as hell to quit with you each day.
Rock on...
What AJ says!! 1 year seems like a great milestone!
Proud to be quit with you Derk my brother! Nice 1 year!
A year! Just went back and read your first few days. Wow... What a difference a year makes!
Congratulations Matt! A year ago you were a mess. Today you are free. Our quits are chains built of strong links - and you are one of those links in my chain. Enjoy and celebrate today - you've earned it!
Major ass kickage! Keep up the awesome quit brother.
You are a Bad-assed quit machine!
'BanDog'
Keep winning.
Great job my friend.
One year is no joke. Congrats. I'll quit with you today. And every other day from here.
Fan-#$%^#$%-tastic!!!! Congrats brother!!! One year is a signicant milestone!!!
Way to go man. Thank you for helping me and others on this site. Today is your day to celebrate. 1 year nicotine free. That's good stuff right there brother. Congratulations.
You're a model quitter, one I'll follow and quit with any day. Congrats on achieving 1 year of freedom
1 year is awesome, proud to quit with you!
Congrats dude. Thanks for all the noob advice. Guys like you keep us connected and working EDD.
All day everyday with you Derk. Congrats brother!!!!
That's awesome, Congrats!
Thank you for helping me in my quit and congratulations on the milestone, buddy.
That's some great quitting Reggie! You just might make it to Florida yet!
Thanks for all the kind words today. I appreciate all the posts, the texts, the PMs... you all are the best. I could not have done this without your support. That is why this place works.
Weird week leading up with the death of Tony Gwynn... I wondered what I would have been thinking if I had not been quit. I hope that his early death will be a reminder to all of us that this is truly life or death. Maybe this week drove some more quitters to take back their lives.
A year ago, I remember promises of a better life. That is not BS. Life continues to get better EDD. At some point during this year, I was able to stop watching the clock counting days... and I just started living life. Not sure when it happened... it just happened. Made me think back to what someone told me early on... it is going to suck, until it doesn't, then it won't. How true.
Today, my life is totally different. I am no longer a slave with my every waking moment revolving around the poison weed. Today I am a free man! I am a free man that woke up, posted roll and kept my word to all you today. I plan on doing the same thing tomorrow... see you all at roll!
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One year.
Bro... That's kicks some ass! Proud as hell to quit with you each day.
Rock on...
What AJ says!! 1 year seems like a great milestone!
Proud to be quit with you Derk my brother! Nice 1 year!
A year! Just went back and read your first few days. Wow... What a difference a year makes!
Congratulations Matt! A year ago you were a mess. Today you are free. Our quits are chains built of strong links - and you are one of those links in my chain. Enjoy and celebrate today - you've earned it!
Major ass kickage! Keep up the awesome quit brother.
You are a Bad-assed quit machine!
'BanDog'
Keep winning.
Great job my friend.
One year is no joke. Congrats. I'll quit with you today. And every other day from here.
Fan-#$%^#$%-tastic!!!! Congrats brother!!! One year is a signicant milestone!!!
Way to go man. Thank you for helping me and others on this site. Today is your day to celebrate. 1 year nicotine free. That's good stuff right there brother. Congratulations.
You're a model quitter, one I'll follow and quit with any day. Congrats on achieving 1 year of freedom
1 year is awesome, proud to quit with you!
Congrats dude. Thanks for all the noob advice. Guys like you keep us connected and working EDD.
All day everyday with you Derk. Congrats brother!!!!
That's awesome, Congrats!
Thank you for helping me in my quit and congratulations on the milestone, buddy.
That's some great quitting Reggie! You just might make it to Florida yet!
Thanks for all the kind words today. I appreciate all the posts, the texts, the PMs... you all are the best. I could not have done this without your support. That is why this place works.
Weird week leading up with the death of Tony Gwynn... I wondered what I would have been thinking if I had not been quit. I hope that his early death will be a reminder to all of us that this is truly life or death. Maybe this week drove some more quitters to take back their lives.
A year ago, I remember promises of a better life. That is not BS. Life continues to get better EDD. At some point during this year, I was able to stop watching the clock counting days... and I just started living life. Not sure when it happened... it just happened. Made me think back to what someone told me early on... it is going to suck, until it doesn't, then it won't. How true.
Today, my life is totally different. I am no longer a slave with my every waking moment revolving around the poison weed. Today I am a free man! I am a free man that woke up, posted roll and kept my word to all you today. I plan on doing the same thing tomorrow... see you all at roll!
^^^^ That's what it all about, congrats brother. Proud to be quit with you today!
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One year.
Bro... That's kicks some ass! Proud as hell to quit with you each day.
Rock on...
What AJ says!! 1 year seems like a great milestone!
Proud to be quit with you Derk my brother! Nice 1 year!
A year! Just went back and read your first few days. Wow... What a difference a year makes!
Congratulations Matt! A year ago you were a mess. Today you are free. Our quits are chains built of strong links - and you are one of those links in my chain. Enjoy and celebrate today - you've earned it!
Major ass kickage! Keep up the awesome quit brother.
You are a Bad-assed quit machine!
'BanDog'
Keep winning.
Great job my friend.
One year is no joke. Congrats. I'll quit with you today. And every other day from here.
Fan-#$%^#$%-tastic!!!! Congrats brother!!! One year is a signicant milestone!!!
Way to go man. Thank you for helping me and others on this site. Today is your day to celebrate. 1 year nicotine free. That's good stuff right there brother. Congratulations.
You're a model quitter, one I'll follow and quit with any day. Congrats on achieving 1 year of freedom
1 year is awesome, proud to quit with you!
Congrats dude. Thanks for all the noob advice. Guys like you keep us connected and working EDD.
All day everyday with you Derk. Congrats brother!!!!
That's awesome, Congrats!
Thank you for helping me in my quit and congratulations on the milestone, buddy.
That's some great quitting Reggie! You just might make it to Florida yet!
Thanks for all the kind words today. I appreciate all the posts, the texts, the PMs... you all are the best. I could not have done this without your support. That is why this place works.
Weird week leading up with the death of Tony Gwynn... I wondered what I would have been thinking if I had not been quit. I hope that his early death will be a reminder to all of us that this is truly life or death. Maybe this week drove some more quitters to take back their lives.
A year ago, I remember promises of a better life. That is not BS. Life continues to get better EDD. At some point during this year, I was able to stop watching the clock counting days... and I just started living life. Not sure when it happened... it just happened. Made me think back to what someone told me early on... it is going to suck, until it doesn't, then it won't. How true.
Today, my life is totally different. I am no longer a slave with my every waking moment revolving around the poison weed. Today I am a free man! I am a free man that woke up, posted roll and kept my word to all you today. I plan on doing the same thing tomorrow... see you all at roll!
^^^^ That's what it all about, congrats brother. Proud to be quit with you today!
Congrats brother
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One year.
Bro... That's kicks some ass! Proud as hell to quit with you each day.
Rock on...
What AJ says!! 1 year seems like a great milestone!
Proud to be quit with you Derk my brother! Nice 1 year!
A year! Just went back and read your first few days. Wow... What a difference a year makes!
Congratulations Matt! A year ago you were a mess. Today you are free. Our quits are chains built of strong links - and you are one of those links in my chain. Enjoy and celebrate today - you've earned it!
Major ass kickage! Keep up the awesome quit brother.
You are a Bad-assed quit machine!
'BanDog'
Keep winning.
Great job my friend.
One year is no joke. Congrats. I'll quit with you today. And every other day from here.
Fan-#$%^#$%-tastic!!!! Congrats brother!!! One year is a signicant milestone!!!
Way to go man. Thank you for helping me and others on this site. Today is your day to celebrate. 1 year nicotine free. That's good stuff right there brother. Congratulations.
You're a model quitter, one I'll follow and quit with any day. Congrats on achieving 1 year of freedom
1 year is awesome, proud to quit with you!
Congrats dude. Thanks for all the noob advice. Guys like you keep us connected and working EDD.
All day everyday with you Derk. Congrats brother!!!!
That's awesome, Congrats!
Thank you for helping me in my quit and congratulations on the milestone, buddy.
That's some great quitting Reggie! You just might make it to Florida yet!
Thanks for all the kind words today. I appreciate all the posts, the texts, the PMs... you all are the best. I could not have done this without your support. That is why this place works.
Weird week leading up with the death of Tony Gwynn... I wondered what I would have been thinking if I had not been quit. I hope that his early death will be a reminder to all of us that this is truly life or death. Maybe this week drove some more quitters to take back their lives.
A year ago, I remember promises of a better life. That is not BS. Life continues to get better EDD. At some point during this year, I was able to stop watching the clock counting days... and I just started living life. Not sure when it happened... it just happened. Made me think back to what someone told me early on... it is going to suck, until it doesn't, then it won't. How true.
Today, my life is totally different. I am no longer a slave with my every waking moment revolving around the poison weed. Today I am a free man! I am a free man that woke up, posted roll and kept my word to all you today. I plan on doing the same thing tomorrow... see you all at roll!
^^^^ That's what it all about, congrats brother. Proud to be quit with you today!
Congrats brother
Gratz to you Derk 40! A year is awesome!
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KTC is a simple system... Post roll, keep your word and wake up do the same thing tomorrow.
370 days ago I was lost and then I found KTC. You taught me how to live a nicotine free life. You taught me the simple system, how to focus my quit ODAAT and how to pay it forward. brotherhood + accountability = success. Who would have thought that a daily commitment to a bunch of strangers would be so powerful.
So that brings me to this week.... Placing all the blame on the mods/admins of KTC is not the answer. If you are waiting for them to lead the way, then you have got this place all wrong. The leaders at KTC are not the mods/admins. WE are the leaders on the site. That's right --- WE are. The power of KTC lies within all of us. Every last one of us that posted roll and made that commitment to be quit today.
The challenges of this week are not insurmountable. In fact, I would argue that they are a good thing. KTC is not perfect. But I can tell you that this imperfect place saved my life.
I would like to leave you with this. Aside from keeping our daily promise... Bringing new folks to the light and helping them find freedom from nictoine is the most important thing we can do today. My goal is to find the next ME. The person that was struggling to find a way out... the person dying to get away from nicotine live a better life. I want to help that person today. Some of you were that person for me. I need to pay that forward. I challenge you to do the same.
Thanks for all that you have done and will continue to do. I am proud to be quit with you today.
derk40 - Day 370
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KTC is a simple system... Post roll, keep your word and wake up do the same thing tomorrow.
370 days ago I was lost and then I found KTC. You taught me how to live a nicotine free life. You taught me the simple system, how to focus my quit ODAAT and how to pay it forward. brotherhood + accountability = success. Who would have thought that a daily commitment to a bunch of strangers would be so powerful.
So that brings me to this week.... Placing all the blame on the mods/admins of KTC is not the answer. If you are waiting for them to lead the way, then you have got this place all wrong. The leaders at KTC are not the mods/admins. WE are the leaders on the site. That's right --- WE are. The power of KTC lies within all of us. Every last one of us that posted roll and made that commitment to be quit today.
The challenges of this week are not insurmountable. In fact, I would argue that they are a good thing. KTC is not perfect. But I can tell you that this imperfect place saved my life.
I would like to leave you with this. Aside from keeping our daily promise... Bringing new folks to the light and helping them find freedom from nictoine is the most important thing we can do today. My goal is to find the next ME. The person that was struggling to find a way out... the person dying to get away from nicotine live a better life. I want to help that person today. Some of you were that person for me. I need to pay that forward. I challenge you to do the same.
Thanks for all that you have done and will continue to do. I am proud to be quit with you today.
derk40 - Day 370
where in the hell is the LIKE button.
very nice post Derk, thank you
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KTC is a simple system... Post roll, keep your word and wake up do the same thing tomorrow.
370 days ago I was lost and then I found KTC. You taught me how to live a nicotine free life. You taught me the simple system, how to focus my quit ODAAT and how to pay it forward. brotherhood + accountability = success. Who would have thought that a daily commitment to a bunch of strangers would be so powerful.
So that brings me to this week.... Placing all the blame on the mods/admins of KTC is not the answer. If you are waiting for them to lead the way, then you have got this place all wrong. The leaders at KTC are not the mods/admins. WE are the leaders on the site. That's right --- WE are. The power of KTC lies within all of us. Every last one of us that posted roll and made that commitment to be quit today.
The challenges of this week are not insurmountable. In fact, I would argue that they are a good thing. KTC is not perfect. But I can tell you that this imperfect place saved my life.
I would like to leave you with this. Aside from keeping our daily promise... Bringing new folks to the light and helping them find freedom from nictoine is the most important thing we can do today. My goal is to find the next ME. The person that was struggling to find a way out... the person dying to get away from nicotine live a better life. I want to help that person today. Some of you were that person for me. I need to pay that forward. I challenge you to do the same.
Thanks for all that you have done and will continue to do. I am proud to be quit with you today.
derk40 - Day 370
where in the hell is the LIKE button.
very nice post Derk, thank you
Great post Derk. Makes perfect sense.
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KTC is a simple system... Post roll, keep your word and wake up do the same thing tomorrow.
370 days ago I was lost and then I found KTC. You taught me how to live a nicotine free life. You taught me the simple system, how to focus my quit ODAAT and how to pay it forward. brotherhood + accountability = success. Who would have thought that a daily commitment to a bunch of strangers would be so powerful.
So that brings me to this week.... Placing all the blame on the mods/admins of KTC is not the answer. If you are waiting for them to lead the way, then you have got this place all wrong. The leaders at KTC are not the mods/admins. WE are the leaders on the site. That's right --- WE are. The power of KTC lies within all of us. Every last one of us that posted roll and made that commitment to be quit today.
The challenges of this week are not insurmountable. In fact, I would argue that they are a good thing. KTC is not perfect. But I can tell you that this imperfect place saved my life.
I would like to leave you with this. Aside from keeping our daily promise... Bringing new folks to the light and helping them find freedom from nictoine is the most important thing we can do today. My goal is to find the next ME. The person that was struggling to find a way out... the person dying to get away from nicotine live a better life. I want to help that person today. Some of you were that person for me. I need to pay that forward. I challenge you to do the same.
Thanks for all that you have done and will continue to do. I am proud to be quit with you today.
derk40 - Day 370
where in the hell is the LIKE button.
very nice post Derk, thank you
Great post Derk. Makes perfect sense.
This is exactly right. This is my favorite post on this weeks actions so far.
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KTC is a simple system... Post roll, keep your word and wake up do the same thing tomorrow.
370 days ago I was lost and then I found KTC. You taught me how to live a nicotine free life. You taught me the simple system, how to focus my quit ODAAT and how to pay it forward. brotherhood + accountability = success. Who would have thought that a daily commitment to a bunch of strangers would be so powerful.
So that brings me to this week.... Placing all the blame on the mods/admins of KTC is not the answer. If you are waiting for them to lead the way, then you have got this place all wrong. The leaders at KTC are not the mods/admins. WE are the leaders on the site. That's right --- WE are. The power of KTC lies within all of us. Every last one of us that posted roll and made that commitment to be quit today.
The challenges of this week are not insurmountable. In fact, I would argue that they are a good thing. KTC is not perfect. But I can tell you that this imperfect place saved my life.
I would like to leave you with this. Aside from keeping our daily promise... Bringing new folks to the light and helping them find freedom from nictoine is the most important thing we can do today. My goal is to find the next ME. The person that was struggling to find a way out... the person dying to get away from nicotine live a better life. I want to help that person today. Some of you were that person for me. I need to pay that forward. I challenge you to do the same.
Thanks for all that you have done and will continue to do. I am proud to be quit with you today.
derk40 - Day 370
where in the hell is the LIKE button.
very nice post Derk, thank you
Great post Derk. Makes perfect sense.
This is exactly right. This is my favorite post on this weeks actions so far.
You have been and are one of those people for me. Your comments here mirror my own thoughts. Thank you for this post and for the time you have taken to encourage me on this journey. You are one of my pillars of accountability; you are my friend. Thank you.
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KTC is a simple system... Post roll, keep your word and wake up do the same thing tomorrow.
370 days ago I was lost and then I found KTC. You taught me how to live a nicotine free life. You taught me the simple system, how to focus my quit ODAAT and how to pay it forward. brotherhood + accountability = success. Who would have thought that a daily commitment to a bunch of strangers would be so powerful.
So that brings me to this week.... Placing all the blame on the mods/admins of KTC is not the answer. If you are waiting for them to lead the way, then you have got this place all wrong. The leaders at KTC are not the mods/admins. WE are the leaders on the site. That's right --- WE are. The power of KTC lies within all of us. Every last one of us that posted roll and made that commitment to be quit today.
The challenges of this week are not insurmountable. In fact, I would argue that they are a good thing. KTC is not perfect. But I can tell you that this imperfect place saved my life.
I would like to leave you with this. Aside from keeping our daily promise... Bringing new folks to the light and helping them find freedom from nictoine is the most important thing we can do today. My goal is to find the next ME. The person that was struggling to find a way out... the person dying to get away from nicotine live a better life. I want to help that person today. Some of you were that person for me. I need to pay that forward. I challenge you to do the same.
Thanks for all that you have done and will continue to do. I am proud to be quit with you today.
derk40 - Day 370
where in the hell is the LIKE button.
very nice post Derk, thank you
Great post Derk. Makes perfect sense.
This is exactly right. This is my favorite post on this weeks actions so far.
You have been and are one of those people for me. Your comments here mirror my own thoughts. Thank you for this post and for the time you have taken to encourage me on this journey. You are one of my pillars of accountability; you are my friend. Thank you.
Great post derk.
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KTC is a simple system... Post roll, keep your word and wake up do the same thing tomorrow.
370 days ago I was lost and then I found KTC. You taught me how to live a nicotine free life. You taught me the simple system, how to focus my quit ODAAT and how to pay it forward. brotherhood + accountability = success. Who would have thought that a daily commitment to a bunch of strangers would be so powerful.
So that brings me to this week.... Placing all the blame on the mods/admins of KTC is not the answer. If you are waiting for them to lead the way, then you have got this place all wrong. The leaders at KTC are not the mods/admins. WE are the leaders on the site. That's right --- WE are. The power of KTC lies within all of us. Every last one of us that posted roll and made that commitment to be quit today.
The challenges of this week are not insurmountable. In fact, I would argue that they are a good thing. KTC is not perfect. But I can tell you that this imperfect place saved my life.
I would like to leave you with this. Aside from keeping our daily promise... Bringing new folks to the light and helping them find freedom from nictoine is the most important thing we can do today. My goal is to find the next ME. The person that was struggling to find a way out... the person dying to get away from nicotine live a better life. I want to help that person today. Some of you were that person for me. I need to pay that forward. I challenge you to do the same.
Thanks for all that you have done and will continue to do. I am proud to be quit with you today.
derk40 - Day 370
where in the hell is the LIKE button.
very nice post Derk, thank you
Great post Derk. Makes perfect sense.
This is exactly right. This is my favorite post on this weeks actions so far.
You have been and are one of those people for me. Your comments here mirror my own thoughts. Thank you for this post and for the time you have taken to encourage me on this journey. You are one of my pillars of accountability; you are my friend. Thank you.
Great post derk.
what no banana yet???? Coach Slacker !
'BanDog'
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Congrats on 400 days Matt. I appreciate the accountability but most of all I appreciate your friendship.
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Congrats on 400 days Matt. I appreciate the accountability but most of all I appreciate your friendship.
I echo eddies words. You are a bad ass quitter who has helped a hell of a lot of people save their lives, including me. The milestones get better one day at a time! Congratulations!
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Congrats on 400 days Matt. I appreciate the accountability but most of all I appreciate your friendship.
I echo eddies words. You are a bad ass quitter who has helped a hell of a lot of people save their lives, including me. The milestones get better one day at a time! Congratulations!
400 days of climbing, and pulling others up with you. Congrats!
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Congrats on 400 days Matt. I appreciate the accountability but most of all I appreciate your friendship.
I echo eddies words. You are a bad ass quitter who has helped a hell of a lot of people save their lives, including me. The milestones get better one day at a time! Congratulations!
400 days of climbing, and pulling others up with you. Congrats!
Grats on 400 D40 and for owning it daily and paying it forward !!!!
'oh yeah'
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Congrats on 400 days Matt. I appreciate the accountability but most of all I appreciate your friendship.
I echo eddies words. You are a bad ass quitter who has helped a hell of a lot of people save their lives, including me. The milestones get better one day at a time! Congratulations!
400 days of climbing, and pulling others up with you. Congrats!
Grats on 400 D40 and for owning it daily and paying it forward !!!!
'oh yeah'
Congrats, derk.
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Congrats on 400 days Matt. I appreciate the accountability but most of all I appreciate your friendship.
I echo eddies words. You are a bad ass quitter who has helped a hell of a lot of people save their lives, including me. The milestones get better one day at a time! Congratulations!
400 days of climbing, and pulling others up with you. Congrats!
Grats on 400 D40 and for owning it daily and paying it forward !!!!
'oh yeah'
Congrats, derk.
Keep doing what you do Slut brother! Hell of a quit!
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Congrats on 400 days Matt. I appreciate the accountability but most of all I appreciate your friendship.
I echo eddies words. You are a bad ass quitter who has helped a hell of a lot of people save their lives, including me. The milestones get better one day at a time! Congratulations!
400 days of climbing, and pulling others up with you. Congrats!
Grats on 400 D40 and for owning it daily and paying it forward !!!!
'oh yeah'
Congrats, derk.
Keep doing what you do Slut brother! Hell of a quit!
Congrats on the Fo' Hundo!
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Congrats on 400 days Matt. I appreciate the accountability but most of all I appreciate your friendship.
I echo eddies words. You are a bad ass quitter who has helped a hell of a lot of people save their lives, including me. The milestones get better one day at a time! Congratulations!
400 days of climbing, and pulling others up with you. Congrats!
Grats on 400 D40 and for owning it daily and paying it forward !!!!
'oh yeah'
Congrats, derk.
Keep doing what you do Slut brother! Hell of a quit!
Congrats on the Fo' Hundo!
Awesome. Congrats and enjoy. See you tomorrow.
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Congrats on 400 days Matt. I appreciate the accountability but most of all I appreciate your friendship.
I echo eddies words. You are a bad ass quitter who has helped a hell of a lot of people save their lives, including me. The milestones get better one day at a time! Congratulations!
400 days of climbing, and pulling others up with you. Congrats!
Grats on 400 D40 and for owning it daily and paying it forward !!!!
'oh yeah'
Congrats, derk.
Keep doing what you do Slut brother! Hell of a quit!
Congrats on the Fo' Hundo!
Awesome. Congrats and enjoy. See you tomorrow.
Derk it's guys like you that make this site work. Thank you for helping me in my quit as well as helping so many others. Congrats on 4 hundy bro. I will quit with you any day of the week.
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Congrats on 400 days Matt. I appreciate the accountability but most of all I appreciate your friendship.
I echo eddies words. You are a bad ass quitter who has helped a hell of a lot of people save their lives, including me. The milestones get better one day at a time! Congratulations!
400 days of climbing, and pulling others up with you. Congrats!
Grats on 400 D40 and for owning it daily and paying it forward !!!!
'oh yeah'
Congrats, derk.
Keep doing what you do Slut brother! Hell of a quit!
Congrats on the Fo' Hundo!
Awesome. Congrats and enjoy. See you tomorrow.
Derk it's guys like you that make this site work. Thank you for helping me in my quit as well as helping so many others. Congrats on 4 hundy bro. I will quit with you any day of the week.
Best of the best. congrats Matt!
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Congrats on 400 days Matt. I appreciate the accountability but most of all I appreciate your friendship.
I echo eddies words. You are a bad ass quitter who has helped a hell of a lot of people save their lives, including me. The milestones get better one day at a time! Congratulations!
400 days of climbing, and pulling others up with you. Congrats!
Grats on 400 D40 and for owning it daily and paying it forward !!!!
'oh yeah'
Congrats, derk.
Keep doing what you do Slut brother! Hell of a quit!
Congrats on the Fo' Hundo!
Awesome. Congrats and enjoy. See you tomorrow.
Derk it's guys like you that make this site work. Thank you for helping me in my quit as well as helping so many others. Congrats on 4 hundy bro. I will quit with you any day of the week.
Best of the best. congrats Matt!
I still remember your first few days/weeks in chat!
You've come a long way brother and I know you will go even further. 'Grats on this milestone m'man!
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Congrats on 400 days Matt. I appreciate the accountability but most of all I appreciate your friendship.
I echo eddies words. You are a bad ass quitter who has helped a hell of a lot of people save their lives, including me. The milestones get better one day at a time! Congratulations!
400 days of climbing, and pulling others up with you. Congrats!
Grats on 400 D40 and for owning it daily and paying it forward !!!!
'oh yeah'
Congrats, derk.
Keep doing what you do Slut brother! Hell of a quit!
Congrats on the Fo' Hundo!
Awesome. Congrats and enjoy. See you tomorrow.
Derk it's guys like you that make this site work. Thank you for helping me in my quit as well as helping so many others. Congrats on 4 hundy bro. I will quit with you any day of the week.
Best of the best. congrats Matt!
I still remember your first few days/weeks in chat!
You've come a long way brother and I know you will go even further. 'Grats on this milestone m'man!
That's pretty damn cool Reggie! You are NOT a retard, and I would not trade you for any amount of used puck bags! Thanks for all your support. You are a big reason I am still here and still free! Way to be!
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Congrats on 400 days Matt. I appreciate the accountability but most of all I appreciate your friendship.
I echo eddies words. You are a bad ass quitter who has helped a hell of a lot of people save their lives, including me. The milestones get better one day at a time! Congratulations!
400 days of climbing, and pulling others up with you. Congrats!
Grats on 400 D40 and for owning it daily and paying it forward !!!!
'oh yeah'
Congrats, derk.
Keep doing what you do Slut brother! Hell of a quit!
Congrats on the Fo' Hundo!
Awesome. Congrats and enjoy. See you tomorrow.
Derk it's guys like you that make this site work. Thank you for helping me in my quit as well as helping so many others. Congrats on 4 hundy bro. I will quit with you any day of the week.
Best of the best. congrats Matt!
I still remember your first few days/weeks in chat!
You've come a long way brother and I know you will go even further. 'Grats on this milestone m'man!
That's pretty damn cool Reggie! You are NOT a retard, and I would not trade you for any amount of used puck bags! Thanks for all your support. You are a big reason I am still here and still free! Way to be!
Niiiice! Thanks for quitting With me every day.
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Congrats on 400 days Matt. I appreciate the accountability but most of all I appreciate your friendship.
I echo eddies words. You are a bad ass quitter who has helped a hell of a lot of people save their lives, including me. The milestones get better one day at a time! Congratulations!
400 days of climbing, and pulling others up with you. Congrats!
Grats on 400 D40 and for owning it daily and paying it forward !!!!
'oh yeah'
Congrats, derk.
Keep doing what you do Slut brother! Hell of a quit!
Congrats on the Fo' Hundo!
Awesome. Congrats and enjoy. See you tomorrow.
Derk it's guys like you that make this site work. Thank you for helping me in my quit as well as helping so many others. Congrats on 4 hundy bro. I will quit with you any day of the week.
Best of the best. congrats Matt!
I still remember your first few days/weeks in chat!
You've come a long way brother and I know you will go even further. 'Grats on this milestone m'man!
That's pretty damn cool Reggie! You are NOT a retard, and I would not trade you for any amount of used puck bags! Thanks for all your support. You are a big reason I am still here and still free! Way to be!
Niiiice! Thanks for quitting With me every day.
Thanks for all the comments everyone. Feels pretty good to hit the 4th floor today. I could not do this without your support. Proud to be a quitter today!
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Congrats on 400!
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400 is Awesome. Congrats
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Our word is our bond. Our word is all we have. This is how we roll.
Stepped on the scale 4 days ago and it rang up 228 lbs... This is about what I weighed in college. Deep in the fog and suck I was tipping the scales at 270. I was eating everything I had to because all that mattered was staying quit. 2 pints of ice cream was not off the table. Today I pay attention to what I eat because I can.
Somewhere along this process I started to exercise some personal discipline. I have quit dipping for 410 days! Along the way, I also made another decision and it was a personal decision... I also quit drinking. I never counted days but this quit meant a lot to me because I am a bad drinker.
I sit here today at a weird point ... 4 days ago I drank. I went against my word. Nothing bad happened but I got hammered. I went against a promise I made to myself. Quite honestly... I feel awful. If I was at AA I guess I'd have to answer the 3 questions. But this is KTC, so it is not required.
Bottom line... My word means a lot. I am a different guy than I was back on 23 June 2012. Without our word we are nothing. Own it today.
I plan to keep my word today. I am quit all day long.
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Our word is our bond. Our word is all we have. This is how we roll.
Stepped on the scale 4 days ago and it rang up 228 lbs... This is about what I weighed in college. Deep in the fog and suck I was tipping the scales at 270. I was eating everything I had to because all that mattered was staying quit. 2 pints of ice cream was not off the table. Today I pay attention to what I eat because I can.
Somewhere along this process I started to exercise some personal discipline. I have quit dipping for 410 days! Along the way, I also made another decision and it was a personal decision... I also quit drinking. I never counted days but this quit meant a lot to me because I am a bad drinker.
I sit here today at a weird point ... 4 days ago I drank. I went against my word. Nothing bad happened but I got hammered. I went against a promise I made to myself. Quite honestly... I feel awful. If I was at AA I guess I'd have to answer the 3 questions. But this is KTC, so it is not required.
Bottom line... My word means a lot. I am a different guy than I was back on 23 June 2012. Without our word we are nothing. Own it today.
I plan to keep my word today. I am quit all day long.
This is an awesome post. Awesome. Especially to new quitters.
Some of the best, most honorable, hard working men and women I know are from this site. In their professions, they are machines. Work hard, play hard. To the extreme. When we eat, we tend to eat to the extreme. Drink... Same. We are addicts. When we chewed, we chewed to the extreme. We are are addicts not just of nicotine - we are ALL IN on everything we do.
Now you have harnessed how to deal with your addiction and carry the greatness over to other parts of your life. How many of us have done this... Almost everyone that keeps posting every day! Hall of fame was a moment of pride, but more than that it was just the start if a good place. What we learn here will change our lives... If we let it.
I'm proud to quit with you today.
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Our word is our bond. Our word is all we have. This is how we roll.
Stepped on the scale 4 days ago and it rang up 228 lbs... This is about what I weighed in college. Deep in the fog and suck I was tipping the scales at 270. I was eating everything I had to because all that mattered was staying quit. 2 pints of ice cream was not off the table. Today I pay attention to what I eat because I can.
Somewhere along this process I started to exercise some personal discipline. I have quit dipping for 410 days! Along the way, I also made another decision and it was a personal decision... I also quit drinking. I never counted days but this quit meant a lot to me because I am a bad drinker.
I sit here today at a weird point ... 4 days ago I drank. I went against my word. Nothing bad happened but I got hammered. I went against a promise I made to myself. Quite honestly... I feel awful. If I was at AA I guess I'd have to answer the 3 questions. But this is KTC, so it is not required.
Bottom line... My word means a lot. I am a different guy than I was back on 23 June 2012. Without our word we are nothing. Own it today.
I plan to keep my word today. I am quit all day long.
This is an awesome post. Awesome. Especially to new quitters.
Some of the best, most honorable, hard working men and women I know are from this site. In their professions, they are machines. Work hard, play hard. To the extreme. When we eat, we tend to eat to the extreme. Drink... Same. We are addicts. When we chewed, we chewed to the extreme. We are are addicts not just of nicotine - we are ALL IN on everything we do.
Now you have harnessed how to deal with your addiction and carry the greatness over to other parts of your life. How many of us have done this... Almost everyone that keeps posting every day! Hall of fame was a moment of pride, but more than that it was just the start if a good place. What we learn here will change our lives... If we let it.
I'm proud to quit with you today.
Just over 1 year and we have a total life turn-around. Healthy, happy, and a whole crew of friends that 410 days ago never existed. All because you post roll everyday and build accountability and brotherhood. You're a model quitter Derk, one of the baddest assed on KTC.
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Our word is our bond. Our word is all we have. This is how we roll.
Stepped on the scale 4 days ago and it rang up 228 lbs... This is about what I weighed in college. Deep in the fog and suck I was tipping the scales at 270. I was eating everything I had to because all that mattered was staying quit. 2 pints of ice cream was not off the table. Today I pay attention to what I eat because I can.
Somewhere along this process I started to exercise some personal discipline. I have quit dipping for 410 days! Along the way, I also made another decision and it was a personal decision... I also quit drinking. I never counted days but this quit meant a lot to me because I am a bad drinker.
I sit here today at a weird point ... 4 days ago I drank. I went against my word. Nothing bad happened but I got hammered. I went against a promise I made to myself. Quite honestly... I feel awful. If I was at AA I guess I'd have to answer the 3 questions. But this is KTC, so it is not required.
Bottom line... My word means a lot. I am a different guy than I was back on 23 June 2012. Without our word we are nothing. Own it today.
I plan to keep my word today. I am quit all day long.
This is an awesome post. Awesome. Especially to new quitters.
Some of the best, most honorable, hard working men and women I know are from this site. In their professions, they are machines. Work hard, play hard. To the extreme. When we eat, we tend to eat to the extreme. Drink... Same. We are addicts. When we chewed, we chewed to the extreme. We are are addicts not just of nicotine - we are ALL IN on everything we do.
Now you have harnessed how to deal with your addiction and carry the greatness over to other parts of your life. How many of us have done this... Almost everyone that keeps posting every day! Hall of fame was a moment of pride, but more than that it was just the start if a good place. What we learn here will change our lives... If we let it.
I'm proud to quit with you today.
Just over 1 year and we have a total life turn-around. Healthy, happy, and a whole crew of friends that 410 days ago never existed. All because you post roll everyday and build accountability and brotherhood. You're a model quitter Derk, one of the baddest assed on KTC.
^^^^^^agreed.
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Our word is our bond. Our word is all we have. This is how we roll.
Stepped on the scale 4 days ago and it rang up 228 lbs... This is about what I weighed in college. Deep in the fog and suck I was tipping the scales at 270. I was eating everything I had to because all that mattered was staying quit. 2 pints of ice cream was not off the table. Today I pay attention to what I eat because I can.
Somewhere along this process I started to exercise some personal discipline. I have quit dipping for 410 days! Along the way, I also made another decision and it was a personal decision... I also quit drinking. I never counted days but this quit meant a lot to me because I am a bad drinker.
I sit here today at a weird point ... 4 days ago I drank. I went against my word. Nothing bad happened but I got hammered. I went against a promise I made to myself. Quite honestly... I feel awful. If I was at AA I guess I'd have to answer the 3 questions. But this is KTC, so it is not required.
Bottom line... My word means a lot. I am a different guy than I was back on 23 June 2012. Without our word we are nothing. Own it today.
I plan to keep my word today. I am quit all day long.
This is an awesome post. Awesome. Especially to new quitters.
Some of the best, most honorable, hard working men and women I know are from this site. In their professions, they are machines. Work hard, play hard. To the extreme. When we eat, we tend to eat to the extreme. Drink... Same. We are addicts. When we chewed, we chewed to the extreme. We are are addicts not just of nicotine - we are ALL IN on everything we do.
Now you have harnessed how to deal with your addiction and carry the greatness over to other parts of your life. How many of us have done this... Almost everyone that keeps posting every day! Hall of fame was a moment of pride, but more than that it was just the start if a good place. What we learn here will change our lives... If we let it.
I'm proud to quit with you today.
Just over 1 year and we have a total life turn-around. Healthy, happy, and a whole crew of friends that 410 days ago never existed. All because you post roll everyday and build accountability and brotherhood. You're a model quitter Derk, one of the baddest assed on KTC.
^^^^^^agreed.
Indeed. Thanks for all of the encouragement, derk.
opening my book and putting your name in the rockstar's column.
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Our word is our bond. Our word is all we have. This is how we roll.
Stepped on the scale 4 days ago and it rang up 228 lbs... This is about what I weighed in college. Deep in the fog and suck I was tipping the scales at 270. I was eating everything I had to because all that mattered was staying quit. 2 pints of ice cream was not off the table. Today I pay attention to what I eat because I can.
Somewhere along this process I started to exercise some personal discipline. I have quit dipping for 410 days! Along the way, I also made another decision and it was a personal decision... I also quit drinking. I never counted days but this quit meant a lot to me because I am a bad drinker.
I sit here today at a weird point ... 4 days ago I drank. I went against my word. Nothing bad happened but I got hammered. I went against a promise I made to myself. Quite honestly... I feel awful. If I was at AA I guess I'd have to answer the 3 questions. But this is KTC, so it is not required.
Bottom line... My word means a lot. I am a different guy than I was back on 23 June 2012. Without our word we are nothing. Own it today.
I plan to keep my word today. I am quit all day long.
This is an awesome post. Awesome. Especially to new quitters.
Some of the best, most honorable, hard working men and women I know are from this site. In their professions, they are machines. Work hard, play hard. To the extreme. When we eat, we tend to eat to the extreme. Drink... Same. We are addicts. When we chewed, we chewed to the extreme. We are are addicts not just of nicotine - we are ALL IN on everything we do.
Now you have harnessed how to deal with your addiction and carry the greatness over to other parts of your life. How many of us have done this... Almost everyone that keeps posting every day! Hall of fame was a moment of pride, but more than that it was just the start if a good place. What we learn here will change our lives... If we let it.
I'm proud to quit with you today.
Just over 1 year and we have a total life turn-around. Healthy, happy, and a whole crew of friends that 410 days ago never existed. All because you post roll everyday and build accountability and brotherhood. You're a model quitter Derk, one of the baddest assed on KTC.
^^^^^^agreed.
Indeed. Thanks for all of the encouragement, derk.
opening my book and putting your name in the rockstar's column.
Derk not sure if you are just reflecting or reaching out for advice. I'm pretty sure everyone who has spent any time on this site realizes you are a model quitter...So why not join the alchohol quitter group here at Kill the Can and quit drinking the same way you quit dipping? Making a daily promise to a group of quiters and keeping the promise. Add some accountability to your quit.
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Our word is our bond. Our word is all we have. This is how we roll.
Stepped on the scale 4 days ago and it rang up 228 lbs... This is about what I weighed in college. Deep in the fog and suck I was tipping the scales at 270. I was eating everything I had to because all that mattered was staying quit. 2 pints of ice cream was not off the table. Today I pay attention to what I eat because I can.
Somewhere along this process I started to exercise some personal discipline. I have quit dipping for 410 days! Along the way, I also made another decision and it was a personal decision... I also quit drinking. I never counted days but this quit meant a lot to me because I am a bad drinker.
I sit here today at a weird point ... 4 days ago I drank. I went against my word. Nothing bad happened but I got hammered. I went against a promise I made to myself. Quite honestly... I feel awful. If I was at AA I guess I'd have to answer the 3 questions. But this is KTC, so it is not required.
Bottom line... My word means a lot. I am a different guy than I was back on 23 June 2012. Without our word we are nothing. Own it today.
I plan to keep my word today. I am quit all day long.
This is an awesome post. Awesome. Especially to new quitters.
Some of the best, most honorable, hard working men and women I know are from this site. In their professions, they are machines. Work hard, play hard. To the extreme. When we eat, we tend to eat to the extreme. Drink... Same. We are addicts. When we chewed, we chewed to the extreme. We are are addicts not just of nicotine - we are ALL IN on everything we do.
Now you have harnessed how to deal with your addiction and carry the greatness over to other parts of your life. How many of us have done this... Almost everyone that keeps posting every day! Hall of fame was a moment of pride, but more than that it was just the start if a good place. What we learn here will change our lives... If we let it.
I'm proud to quit with you today.
Just over 1 year and we have a total life turn-around. Healthy, happy, and a whole crew of friends that 410 days ago never existed. All because you post roll everyday and build accountability and brotherhood. You're a model quitter Derk, one of the baddest assed on KTC.
^^^^^^agreed.
Indeed. Thanks for all of the encouragement, derk.
opening my book and putting your name in the rockstar's column.
Derk not sure if you are just reflecting or reaching out for advice. I'm pretty sure everyone who has spent any time on this site realizes you are a model quitter...So why not join the alchohol quitter group here at Kill the Can and quit drinking the same way you quit dipping? Making a daily promise to a group of quiters and keeping the promise. Add some accountability to your quit.
Derk, I have a lot of respect for you and consider you a man of honor. You have been a constant in my quit. I am supportive in whatever you decide is right for you.
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Our word is our bond. Our word is all we have. This is how we roll.
Stepped on the scale 4 days ago and it rang up 228 lbs... This is about what I weighed in college. Deep in the fog and suck I was tipping the scales at 270. I was eating everything I had to because all that mattered was staying quit. 2 pints of ice cream was not off the table. Today I pay attention to what I eat because I can.
Somewhere along this process I started to exercise some personal discipline. I have quit dipping for 410 days! Along the way, I also made another decision and it was a personal decision... I also quit drinking. I never counted days but this quit meant a lot to me because I am a bad drinker.
I sit here today at a weird point ... 4 days ago I drank. I went against my word. Nothing bad happened but I got hammered. I went against a promise I made to myself. Quite honestly... I feel awful. If I was at AA I guess I'd have to answer the 3 questions. But this is KTC, so it is not required.
Bottom line... My word means a lot. I am a different guy than I was back on 23 June 2012. Without our word we are nothing. Own it today.
I plan to keep my word today. I am quit all day long.
This is an awesome post. Awesome. Especially to new quitters.
Some of the best, most honorable, hard working men and women I know are from this site. In their professions, they are machines. Work hard, play hard. To the extreme. When we eat, we tend to eat to the extreme. Drink... Same. We are addicts. When we chewed, we chewed to the extreme. We are are addicts not just of nicotine - we are ALL IN on everything we do.
Now you have harnessed how to deal with your addiction and carry the greatness over to other parts of your life. How many of us have done this... Almost everyone that keeps posting every day! Hall of fame was a moment of pride, but more than that it was just the start if a good place. What we learn here will change our lives... If we let it.
I'm proud to quit with you today.
Just over 1 year and we have a total life turn-around. Healthy, happy, and a whole crew of friends that 410 days ago never existed. All because you post roll everyday and build accountability and brotherhood. You're a model quitter Derk, one of the baddest assed on KTC.
^^^^^^agreed.
Indeed. Thanks for all of the encouragement, derk.
opening my book and putting your name in the rockstar's column.
Derk not sure if you are just reflecting or reaching out for advice. I'm pretty sure everyone who has spent any time on this site realizes you are a model quitter...So why not join the alchohol quitter group here at Kill the Can and quit drinking the same way you quit dipping? Making a daily promise to a group of quiters and keeping the promise. Add some accountability to your quit.
Derk, I have a lot of respect for you and consider you a man of honor. You have been a constant in my quit. I am supportive in whatever you decide is right for you.
Nicotine is a motherfucker. Alcohol is a motherfucker. Derk you can quit both motherfuckers...ODAAT to daily Freedom Brother.
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Our word is our bond. Our word is all we have. This is how we roll.
Stepped on the scale 4 days ago and it rang up 228 lbs... This is about what I weighed in college. Deep in the fog and suck I was tipping the scales at 270. I was eating everything I had to because all that mattered was staying quit. 2 pints of ice cream was not off the table. Today I pay attention to what I eat because I can.
Somewhere along this process I started to exercise some personal discipline. I have quit dipping for 410 days! Along the way, I also made another decision and it was a personal decision... I also quit drinking. I never counted days but this quit meant a lot to me because I am a bad drinker.
I sit here today at a weird point ... 4 days ago I drank. I went against my word. Nothing bad happened but I got hammered. I went against a promise I made to myself. Quite honestly... I feel awful. If I was at AA I guess I'd have to answer the 3 questions. But this is KTC, so it is not required.
Bottom line... My word means a lot. I am a different guy than I was back on 23 June 2012. Without our word we are nothing. Own it today.
I plan to keep my word today. I am quit all day long.
This is an awesome post. Awesome. Especially to new quitters.
Some of the best, most honorable, hard working men and women I know are from this site. In their professions, they are machines. Work hard, play hard. To the extreme. When we eat, we tend to eat to the extreme. Drink... Same. We are addicts. When we chewed, we chewed to the extreme. We are are addicts not just of nicotine - we are ALL IN on everything we do.
Now you have harnessed how to deal with your addiction and carry the greatness over to other parts of your life. How many of us have done this... Almost everyone that keeps posting every day! Hall of fame was a moment of pride, but more than that it was just the start if a good place. What we learn here will change our lives... If we let it.
I'm proud to quit with you today.
Just over 1 year and we have a total life turn-around. Healthy, happy, and a whole crew of friends that 410 days ago never existed. All because you post roll everyday and build accountability and brotherhood. You're a model quitter Derk, one of the baddest assed on KTC.
^^^^^^agreed.
Indeed. Thanks for all of the encouragement, derk.
opening my book and putting your name in the rockstar's column.
Derk not sure if you are just reflecting or reaching out for advice. I'm pretty sure everyone who has spent any time on this site realizes you are a model quitter...So why not join the alchohol quitter group here at Kill the Can and quit drinking the same way you quit dipping? Making a daily promise to a group of quiters and keeping the promise. Add some accountability to your quit.
Derk, I have a lot of respect for you and consider you a man of honor. You have been a constant in my quit. I am supportive in whatever you decide is right for you.
Nicotine is a motherfucker. Alcohol is a motherfucker. Derk you can quit both motherfuckers...ODAAT to daily Freedom Brother.
Get back on the horse learn from it and move on. You have attacked 3 fronts in a year all of which at any one time could be tough to quit you slid on one but not the one that site is about. Many people would not have been able to attempt just one. If the booze is an item you want to take off the table post in Alcohol quit group...kinda like in the beginning of stopping chew never wanted to tell anyone so that if you started again you didn't have to hear it....apply the learning to booze and you can beat it too. I am an awful drinker too and I had to let it go...76 days ago I said good bye to my second mistress booze... it was very weird at first I don't remember doing a damn thing without booze...but like with other things that have been let go a trip around the sun you will have firsts.
I have watched you grow for over 400 days here and there is nothing you cant do when you get your mind right...you got this Derk
Trauma
480
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Our word is our bond. Our word is all we have. This is how we roll.
Stepped on the scale 4 days ago and it rang up 228 lbs... This is about what I weighed in college. Deep in the fog and suck I was tipping the scales at 270. I was eating everything I had to because all that mattered was staying quit. 2 pints of ice cream was not off the table. Today I pay attention to what I eat because I can.
Somewhere along this process I started to exercise some personal discipline. I have quit dipping for 410 days! Along the way, I also made another decision and it was a personal decision... I also quit drinking. I never counted days but this quit meant a lot to me because I am a bad drinker.
I sit here today at a weird point ... 4 days ago I drank. I went against my word. Nothing bad happened but I got hammered. I went against a promise I made to myself. Quite honestly... I feel awful. If I was at AA I guess I'd have to answer the 3 questions. But this is KTC, so it is not required.
Bottom line... My word means a lot. I am a different guy than I was back on 23 June 2012. Without our word we are nothing. Own it today.
I plan to keep my word today. I am quit all day long.
This is an awesome post. Awesome. Especially to new quitters.
Some of the best, most honorable, hard working men and women I know are from this site. In their professions, they are machines. Work hard, play hard. To the extreme. When we eat, we tend to eat to the extreme. Drink... Same. We are addicts. When we chewed, we chewed to the extreme. We are are addicts not just of nicotine - we are ALL IN on everything we do.
Now you have harnessed how to deal with your addiction and carry the greatness over to other parts of your life. How many of us have done this... Almost everyone that keeps posting every day! Hall of fame was a moment of pride, but more than that it was just the start if a good place. What we learn here will change our lives... If we let it.
I'm proud to quit with you today.
Just over 1 year and we have a total life turn-around. Healthy, happy, and a whole crew of friends that 410 days ago never existed. All because you post roll everyday and build accountability and brotherhood. You're a model quitter Derk, one of the baddest assed on KTC.
^^^^^^agreed.
Indeed. Thanks for all of the encouragement, derk.
opening my book and putting your name in the rockstar's column.
Derk not sure if you are just reflecting or reaching out for advice. I'm pretty sure everyone who has spent any time on this site realizes you are a model quitter...So why not join the alchohol quitter group here at Kill the Can and quit drinking the same way you quit dipping? Making a daily promise to a group of quiters and keeping the promise. Add some accountability to your quit.
Derk, I have a lot of respect for you and consider you a man of honor. You have been a constant in my quit. I am supportive in whatever you decide is right for you.
Nicotine is a motherfucker. Alcohol is a motherfucker. Derk you can quit both motherfuckers...ODAAT to daily Freedom Brother.
Get back on the horse learn from it and move on. You have attacked 3 fronts in a year all of which at any one time could be tough to quit you slid on one but not the one that site is about. Many people would not have been able to attempt just one. If the booze is an item you want to take off the table post in Alcohol quit group...kinda like in the beginning of stopping chew never wanted to tell anyone so that if you started again you didn't have to hear it....apply the learning to booze and you can beat it too. I am an awful drinker too and I had to let it go...76 days ago I said good bye to my second mistress booze... it was very weird at first I don't remember doing a damn thing without booze...but like with other things that have been let go a trip around the sun you will have firsts.
I have watched you grow for over 400 days here and there is nothing you cant do when you get your mind right...you got this Derk
Trauma
480
Thank you for all you do. Thank you for posting each and every day. You the man.
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Our word is our bond. Our word is all we have. This is how we roll.
Stepped on the scale 4 days ago and it rang up 228 lbs... This is about what I weighed in college. Deep in the fog and suck I was tipping the scales at 270. I was eating everything I had to because all that mattered was staying quit. 2 pints of ice cream was not off the table. Today I pay attention to what I eat because I can.
Somewhere along this process I started to exercise some personal discipline. I have quit dipping for 410 days! Along the way, I also made another decision and it was a personal decision... I also quit drinking. I never counted days but this quit meant a lot to me because I am a bad drinker.
I sit here today at a weird point ... 4 days ago I drank. I went against my word. Nothing bad happened but I got hammered. I went against a promise I made to myself. Quite honestly... I feel awful. If I was at AA I guess I'd have to answer the 3 questions. But this is KTC, so it is not required.
Bottom line... My word means a lot. I am a different guy than I was back on 23 June 2012. Without our word we are nothing. Own it today.
I plan to keep my word today. I am quit all day long.
This is an awesome post. Awesome. Especially to new quitters.
Some of the best, most honorable, hard working men and women I know are from this site. In their professions, they are machines. Work hard, play hard. To the extreme. When we eat, we tend to eat to the extreme. Drink... Same. We are addicts. When we chewed, we chewed to the extreme. We are are addicts not just of nicotine - we are ALL IN on everything we do.
Now you have harnessed how to deal with your addiction and carry the greatness over to other parts of your life. How many of us have done this... Almost everyone that keeps posting every day! Hall of fame was a moment of pride, but more than that it was just the start if a good place. What we learn here will change our lives... If we let it.
I'm proud to quit with you today.
Just over 1 year and we have a total life turn-around. Healthy, happy, and a whole crew of friends that 410 days ago never existed. All because you post roll everyday and build accountability and brotherhood. You're a model quitter Derk, one of the baddest assed on KTC.
^^^^^^agreed.
Indeed. Thanks for all of the encouragement, derk.
opening my book and putting your name in the rockstar's column.
Derk not sure if you are just reflecting or reaching out for advice. I'm pretty sure everyone who has spent any time on this site realizes you are a model quitter...So why not join the alchohol quitter group here at Kill the Can and quit drinking the same way you quit dipping? Making a daily promise to a group of quiters and keeping the promise. Add some accountability to your quit.
Derk, I have a lot of respect for you and consider you a man of honor. You have been a constant in my quit. I am supportive in whatever you decide is right for you.
Nicotine is a motherfucker. Alcohol is a motherfucker. Derk you can quit both motherfuckers...ODAAT to daily Freedom Brother.
Get back on the horse learn from it and move on. You have attacked 3 fronts in a year all of which at any one time could be tough to quit you slid on one but not the one that site is about. Many people would not have been able to attempt just one. If the booze is an item you want to take off the table post in Alcohol quit group...kinda like in the beginning of stopping chew never wanted to tell anyone so that if you started again you didn't have to hear it....apply the learning to booze and you can beat it too. I am an awful drinker too and I had to let it go...76 days ago I said good bye to my second mistress booze... it was very weird at first I don't remember doing a damn thing without booze...but like with other things that have been let go a trip around the sun you will have firsts.
I have watched you grow for over 400 days here and there is nothing you cant do when you get your mind right...you got this Derk
Trauma
480
Thank you for all you do. Thank you for posting each and every day. You the man.
Yep,Reggie is our enforcer on this quit team. Good stuff brother!
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Driving into work today and was reflecting on the past. I suddenly had these vivid images and feelings of how I felt on day 1. Man... I am lucky to have found this site and you all.
447 days quit and none better than today!
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Driving into work today and was reflecting on the past. I suddenly had these vivid images and feelings of how I felt on day 1. Man... I am lucky to have found this site and you all.
447 days quit and none better than today!
You define what it means to be quit brother. Thank you for doing what you do. Proud to be quit with you.
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Driving into work today and was reflecting on the past. I suddenly had these vivid images and feelings of how I felt on day 1. Man... I am lucky to have found this site and you all.
447 days quit and none better than today!
You define what it means to be quit brother. Thank you for doing what you do. Proud to be quit with you.
Derk: You are an OFFICIAL BADD A$$. I am quit with you today my brother.
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Driving into work today and was reflecting on the past. I suddenly had these vivid images and feelings of how I felt on day 1. Man... I am lucky to have found this site and you all.
447 days quit and none better than today!
You define what it means to be quit brother. Thank you for doing what you do. Proud to be quit with you.
Derk: You are an OFFICIAL BADD A$$. I am quit with you today my brother.
All I can do is agree ^^^^^ Have a great weekend Brother!
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Driving into work today and was reflecting on the past. I suddenly had these vivid images and feelings of how I felt on day 1. Man... I am lucky to have found this site and you all.
447 days quit and none better than today!
You define what it means to be quit brother. Thank you for doing what you do. Proud to be quit with you.
Derk: You are an OFFICIAL BADD A$$. I am quit with you today my brother.
All I can do is agree ^^^^^ Have a great weekend Brother!
Just keep doing what you do!
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Driving into work today and was reflecting on the past. I suddenly had these vivid images and feelings of how I felt on day 1. Man... I am lucky to have found this site and you all.
447 days quit and none better than today!
You define what it means to be quit brother. Thank you for doing what you do. Proud to be quit with you.
Derk: You are an OFFICIAL BADD A$$. I am quit with you today my brother.
All I can do is agree ^^^^^ Have a great weekend Brother!
Just keep doing what you do!
Solid quit from Derk. No wavering.
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Driving into work today and was reflecting on the past. I suddenly had these vivid images and feelings of how I felt on day 1. Man... I am lucky to have found this site and you all.
447 days quit and none better than today!
You define what it means to be quit brother. Thank you for doing what you do. Proud to be quit with you.
Derk: You are an OFFICIAL BADD A$$. I am quit with you today my brother.
All I can do is agree ^^^^^ Have a great weekend Brother!
Just keep doing what you do!
Solid quit from Derk. No wavering.
I hear you brutha! Quit with you all day, any day
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Driving into work today and was reflecting on the past. I suddenly had these vivid images and feelings of how I felt on day 1. Man... I am lucky to have found this site and you all.
447 days quit and none better than today!
You define what it means to be quit brother. Thank you for doing what you do. Proud to be quit with you.
Derk: You are an OFFICIAL BADD A$$. I am quit with you today my brother.
All I can do is agree ^^^^^ Have a great weekend Brother!
Just keep doing what you do!
Solid quit from Derk. No wavering.
I hear you brutha! Quit with you all day, any day
Derk, you BadAss, you can keep the dog and the van!
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Driving into work today and was reflecting on the past. I suddenly had these vivid images and feelings of how I felt on day 1. Man... I am lucky to have found this site and you all.
447 days quit and none better than today!
You define what it means to be quit brother. Thank you for doing what you do. Proud to be quit with you.
Derk: You are an OFFICIAL BADD A$$. I am quit with you today my brother.
All I can do is agree ^^^^^ Have a great weekend Brother!
Just keep doing what you do!
Solid quit from Derk. No wavering.
I hear you brutha! Quit with you all day, any day
Derk, you BadAss, you can keep the dog and the van!
I absolutely admire this quitter.
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Driving into work today and was reflecting on the past. I suddenly had these vivid images and feelings of how I felt on day 1. Man... I am lucky to have found this site and you all.
447 days quit and none better than today!
You define what it means to be quit brother. Thank you for doing what you do. Proud to be quit with you.
Derk: You are an OFFICIAL BADD A$$. I am quit with you today my brother.
All I can do is agree ^^^^^ Have a great weekend Brother!
Just keep doing what you do!
Solid quit from Derk. No wavering.
I hear you brutha! Quit with you all day, any day
Derk, you BadAss, you can keep the dog and the van!
I absolutely admire this quitter.
Yep, a rock among a lot of sand. Thank you for what you do Derk.
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Driving into work today and was reflecting on the past. I suddenly had these vivid images and feelings of how I felt on day 1. Man... I am lucky to have found this site and you all.
447 days quit and none better than today!
You define what it means to be quit brother. Thank you for doing what you do. Proud to be quit with you.
Derk: You are an OFFICIAL BADD A$$. I am quit with you today my brother.
All I can do is agree ^^^^^ Have a great weekend Brother!
Just keep doing what you do!
Solid quit from Derk. No wavering.
I hear you brutha! Quit with you all day, any day
Derk, you BadAss, you can keep the dog and the van!
I absolutely admire this quitter.
Yep, a rock among a lot of sand. Thank you for what you do Derk.
Derk knows ^^^^ truth.
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Driving into work today and was reflecting on the past. I suddenly had these vivid images and feelings of how I felt on day 1. Man... I am lucky to have found this site and you all.
447 days quit and none better than today!
You define what it means to be quit brother. Thank you for doing what you do. Proud to be quit with you.
Derk: You are an OFFICIAL BADD A$$. I am quit with you today my brother.
All I can do is agree ^^^^^ Have a great weekend Brother!
Just keep doing what you do!
Solid quit from Derk. No wavering.
I hear you brutha! Quit with you all day, any day
Derk, you BadAss, you can keep the dog and the van!
I absolutely admire this quitter.
Yep, a rock among a lot of sand. Thank you for what you do Derk.
Derk knows ^^^^ truth.
You have me at anytime....no brokeback shit like that....but me and you are drilling it at 100% in September 2013. You, billybill, blo, slim (and a few others) I have on speed dial. Thats a bond I never want to break. Hope you feel the same.
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Driving into work today and was reflecting on the past. I suddenly had these vivid images and feelings of how I felt on day 1. Man... I am lucky to have found this site and you all.
447 days quit and none better than today!
You define what it means to be quit brother. Thank you for doing what you do. Proud to be quit with you.
Derk: You are an OFFICIAL BADD A$$. I am quit with you today my brother.
All I can do is agree ^^^^^ Have a great weekend Brother!
Just keep doing what you do!
Solid quit from Derk. No wavering.
I hear you brutha! Quit with you all day, any day
Derk, you BadAss, you can keep the dog and the van!
I absolutely admire this quitter.
Yep, a rock among a lot of sand. Thank you for what you do Derk.
Derk knows ^^^^ truth.
You have me at anytime....no brokeback shit like that....but me and you are drilling it at 100% in September 2013. You, billybill, blo, slim (and a few others) I have on speed dial. Thats a bond I never want to break. Hope you feel the same.
Dang, I don't know how to follow duathman but I appreciate you too, Derk! You are an awesome quitter!
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Driving into work today and was reflecting on the past. I suddenly had these vivid images and feelings of how I felt on day 1. Man... I am lucky to have found this site and you all.
447 days quit and none better than today!
You define what it means to be quit brother. Thank you for doing what you do. Proud to be quit with you.
Derk: You are an OFFICIAL BADD A$$. I am quit with you today my brother.
All I can do is agree ^^^^^ Have a great weekend Brother!
Just keep doing what you do!
Solid quit from Derk. No wavering.
I hear you brutha! Quit with you all day, any day
Derk, you BadAss, you can keep the dog and the van!
I absolutely admire this quitter.
Yep, a rock among a lot of sand. Thank you for what you do Derk.
Derk knows ^^^^ truth.
You have me at anytime....no brokeback shit like that....but me and you are drilling it at 100% in September 2013. You, billybill, blo, slim (and a few others) I have on speed dial. Thats a bond I never want to break. Hope you feel the same.
Dang, I don't know how to follow duathman but I appreciate you too, Derk! You are an awesome quitter!
It is amazing how our quits evolve over time. I'm thankful to have you in my corner. Keep crushing this quit and blazing a trail for me to follow!!
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Dipping is for losers.
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I repeat. Dipping is for losers.
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I repeat. Dipping is for losers.
Werd.
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I repeat. Dipping is for losers.
Werd.
You know it
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I repeat. Dipping is for losers.
Werd.
You know it
Losers Dip!
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I repeat. Dipping is for losers.
Werd.
You know it
Losers Dip!
and Dippers lose!
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I repeat. Dipping is for losers.
Werd.
You know it
Losers Dip!
and Dippers lose!
Uh huh. (http://youtu.be/9zeAiAx1_Uo)
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I repeat. Dipping is for losers.
Werd.
You know it
Losers Dip!
and Dippers lose!
Uh huh. (http://youtu.be/9zeAiAx1_Uo)
Losers are always talking about winning... (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qD5GtohtRYU)
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Here's a quitter you can learn from!
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Here's a quitter you can learn from!
In fact it is AJ. I have learned a lot from this bad ass!!!
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Here's a quitter you can learn from!
In fact it is AJ. I have learned a lot from this bad ass!!!
Agreed never afraid to give his support either. Thanks Derk!
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Proud as heck to quit daily with you Derk!
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Proud as heck to quit daily with you Derk!
If AJ endorsed, so do I.
Quit and beat Tobacco!
Screw the Government, Screw US tobacco! Legalize it and profit from killing 3million each year. Damn terrorist! Chew and fund them. Quit and fight them. I would love and I fight to see them die. Not by law but by education!
In my 954 days quit. I paid less in taxes and gained 5k in cash. You should see the handguns that I have bought from the cash I saved in quit.
Screw US tobacco and the Government that accepts sin taxes!
I am free from the tax and addiction so go fuck off!!!!
I will fight to the death to win. If I die before the tobacco industry...fine. At least I don't have the blood of the uneducated addicts on my hands. I will die a fighter.
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Bumping Sir Derk to the top on an early congratulations on hitting 500! Well done dude - you've helped a lot of others hit milestones on your way to this one to - the community celebrates with you on an achievement that 50 days ago seemed impossible.... Keep on winning!
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Bumping Sir Derk to the top on an early congratulations on hitting 500! Well done dude - you've helped a lot of others hit milestones on your way to this one to - the community celebrates with you on an achievement that 50 days ago seemed impossible.... Keep on winning!
Awesome quitter! Thank you Derk for providing a great example of quit.
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Bumping Sir Derk to the top on an early congratulations on hitting 500! Well done dude - you've helped a lot of others hit milestones on your way to this one to - the community celebrates with you on an achievement that 50 days ago seemed impossible.... Keep on winning!
Awesome quitter! Thank you Derk for providing a great example of quit.
I couldn't be more blessed to have such a solid stone in my foundation of quit. Congrats brother on the big half comma
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Bumping Sir Derk to the top on an early congratulations on hitting 500! Well done dude - you've helped a lot of others hit milestones on your way to this one to - the community celebrates with you on an achievement that 50 days ago seemed impossible.... Keep on winning!
Awesome quitter! Thank you Derk for providing a great example of quit.
I couldn't be more blessed to have such a solid stone in my foundation of quit. Congrats brother on the big half comma
Congrats brother! You were instrumental to my quit early on and I thank you for forcing the KTC kool-aide onto me.
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Bumping Sir Derk to the top on an early congratulations on hitting 500! Well done dude - you've helped a lot of others hit milestones on your way to this one to - the community celebrates with you on an achievement that 50 days ago seemed impossible.... Keep on winning!
Awesome quitter! Thank you Derk for providing a great example of quit.
I couldn't be more blessed to have such a solid stone in my foundation of quit. Congrats brother on the big half comma
Congrats brother! You were instrumental to my quit early on and I thank you for forcing the KTC kool-aide onto me.
Proud as hell to call you a brother! Well done m'man!
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Bumping Sir Derk to the top on an early congratulations on hitting 500! Well done dude - you've helped a lot of others hit milestones on your way to this one to - the community celebrates with you on an achievement that 50 days ago seemed impossible.... Keep on winning!
Awesome quitter! Thank you Derk for providing a great example of quit.
I couldn't be more blessed to have such a solid stone in my foundation of quit. Congrats brother on the big half comma
Congrats brother! You were instrumental to my quit early on and I thank you for forcing the KTC kool-aide onto me.
Proud as hell to call you a brother! Well done m'man!
Congrats Derk!
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Bumping Sir Derk to the top on an early congratulations on hitting 500! Well done dude - you've helped a lot of others hit milestones on your way to this one to - the community celebrates with you on an achievement that 50 days ago seemed impossible.... Keep on winning!
Awesome quitter! Thank you Derk for providing a great example of quit.
I couldn't be more blessed to have such a solid stone in my foundation of quit. Congrats brother on the big half comma
Congrats brother! You were instrumental to my quit early on and I thank you for forcing the KTC kool-aide onto me.
Proud as hell to call you a brother! Well done m'man!
Congrats Derk!
Congratulations on a half comma Derk!!! You are an inspiration to a lot of Quitters! Thank you for all you have done that has made me successful everyday!
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Bumping Sir Derk to the top on an early congratulations on hitting 500! Well done dude - you've helped a lot of others hit milestones on your way to this one to - the community celebrates with you on an achievement that 50 days ago seemed impossible.... Keep on winning!
Awesome quitter! Thank you Derk for providing a great example of quit.
I couldn't be more blessed to have such a solid stone in my foundation of quit. Congrats brother on the big half comma
Congrats brother! You were instrumental to my quit early on and I thank you for forcing the KTC kool-aide onto me.
Proud as hell to call you a brother! Well done m'man!
Congrats Derk!
Congratulations on a half comma Derk!!! You are an inspiration to a lot of Quitters! Thank you for all you have done that has made me successful everyday!
Great job Derk! Always proud to quit with you
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Bumping Sir Derk to the top on an early congratulations on hitting 500! Well done dude - you've helped a lot of others hit milestones on your way to this one to - the community celebrates with you on an achievement that 50 days ago seemed impossible.... Keep on winning!
Awesome quitter! Thank you Derk for providing a great example of quit.
I couldn't be more blessed to have such a solid stone in my foundation of quit. Congrats brother on the big half comma
Congrats brother! You were instrumental to my quit early on and I thank you for forcing the KTC kool-aide onto me.
Proud as hell to call you a brother! Well done m'man!
Congrats Derk!
Congratulations on a half comma Derk!!! You are an inspiration to a lot of Quitters! Thank you for all you have done that has made me successful everyday!
Great job Derk! Always proud to quit with you
getting some quit on !
'oh yeah'
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Bumping Sir Derk to the top on an early congratulations on hitting 500! Well done dude - you've helped a lot of others hit milestones on your way to this one to - the community celebrates with you on an achievement that 50 days ago seemed impossible.... Keep on winning!
Awesome quitter! Thank you Derk for providing a great example of quit.
I couldn't be more blessed to have such a solid stone in my foundation of quit. Congrats brother on the big half comma
Congrats brother! You were instrumental to my quit early on and I thank you for forcing the KTC kool-aide onto me.
Proud as hell to call you a brother! Well done m'man!
Congrats Derk!
Congratulations on a half comma Derk!!! You are an inspiration to a lot of Quitters! Thank you for all you have done that has made me successful everyday!
Great job Derk! Always proud to quit with you
getting some quit on !
'oh yeah'
Way to go Derk. 500 is a big time accomplishment Brother. Proud to be quit with you.
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Bumping Sir Derk to the top on an early congratulations on hitting 500! Well done dude - you've helped a lot of others hit milestones on your way to this one to - the community celebrates with you on an achievement that 50 days ago seemed impossible.... Keep on winning!
Awesome quitter! Thank you Derk for providing a great example of quit.
I couldn't be more blessed to have such a solid stone in my foundation of quit. Congrats brother on the big half comma
Congrats brother! You were instrumental to my quit early on and I thank you for forcing the KTC kool-aide onto me.
Proud as hell to call you a brother! Well done m'man!
Congrats Derk!
Congratulations on a half comma Derk!!! You are an inspiration to a lot of Quitters! Thank you for all you have done that has made me successful everyday!
Great job Derk! Always proud to quit with you
getting some quit on !
'oh yeah'
Way to go Derk. 500 is a big time accomplishment Brother. Proud to be quit with you.
Derk, You are the poster boy for KTC! Keep doing what got you here. Proud to QLF with you these last 500 days!
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Bumping Sir Derk to the top on an early congratulations on hitting 500! Well done dude - you've helped a lot of others hit milestones on your way to this one to - the community celebrates with you on an achievement that 50 days ago seemed impossible.... Keep on winning!
Awesome quitter! Thank you Derk for providing a great example of quit.
I couldn't be more blessed to have such a solid stone in my foundation of quit. Congrats brother on the big half comma
Congrats brother! You were instrumental to my quit early on and I thank you for forcing the KTC kool-aide onto me.
Proud as hell to call you a brother! Well done m'man!
Congrats Derk!
Congratulations on a half comma Derk!!! You are an inspiration to a lot of Quitters! Thank you for all you have done that has made me successful everyday!
Great job Derk! Always proud to quit with you
getting some quit on !
'oh yeah'
Way to go Derk. 500 is a big time accomplishment Brother. Proud to be quit with you.
Derk, You are the poster boy for KTC! Keep doing what got you here. Proud to QLF with you these last 500 days!
Wow, a half comma, awesome job dude.
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Bumping Sir Derk to the top on an early congratulations on hitting 500! Well done dude - you've helped a lot of others hit milestones on your way to this one to - the community celebrates with you on an achievement that 50 days ago seemed impossible.... Keep on winning!
Awesome quitter! Thank you Derk for providing a great example of quit.
I couldn't be more blessed to have such a solid stone in my foundation of quit. Congrats brother on the big half comma
Congrats brother! You were instrumental to my quit early on and I thank you for forcing the KTC kool-aide onto me.
Proud as hell to call you a brother! Well done m'man!
Congrats Derk!
Congratulations on a half comma Derk!!! You are an inspiration to a lot of Quitters! Thank you for all you have done that has made me successful everyday!
Great job Derk! Always proud to quit with you
getting some quit on !
'oh yeah'
Way to go Derk. 500 is a big time accomplishment Brother. Proud to be quit with you.
Derk, You are the poster boy for KTC! Keep doing what got you here. Proud to QLF with you these last 500 days!
Wow, a half comma, awesome job dude.
Congrats Derk, nicely done brother!
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Bumping Sir Derk to the top on an early congratulations on hitting 500! Well done dude - you've helped a lot of others hit milestones on your way to this one to - the community celebrates with you on an achievement that 50 days ago seemed impossible.... Keep on winning!
Awesome quitter! Thank you Derk for providing a great example of quit.
I couldn't be more blessed to have such a solid stone in my foundation of quit. Congrats brother on the big half comma
Congrats brother! You were instrumental to my quit early on and I thank you for forcing the KTC kool-aide onto me.
Proud as hell to call you a brother! Well done m'man!
Congrats Derk!
Congratulations on a half comma Derk!!! You are an inspiration to a lot of Quitters! Thank you for all you have done that has made me successful everyday!
Great job Derk! Always proud to quit with you
getting some quit on !
'oh yeah'
Way to go Derk. 500 is a big time accomplishment Brother. Proud to be quit with you.
Derk, You are the poster boy for KTC! Keep doing what got you here. Proud to QLF with you these last 500 days!
Wow, a half comma, awesome job dude.
Congrats Derk, nicely done brother!
NICE job Derk! Looking forward to another 500 days of being quit with you my friend. What a way to influence other quitters because it rubs off and you can tell by all that are posting here. Quitting with you EDD brother!
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Bumping Sir Derk to the top on an early congratulations on hitting 500! Well done dude - you've helped a lot of others hit milestones on your way to this one to - the community celebrates with you on an achievement that 50 days ago seemed impossible.... Keep on winning!
Awesome quitter! Thank you Derk for providing a great example of quit.
I couldn't be more blessed to have such a solid stone in my foundation of quit. Congrats brother on the big half comma
Congrats brother! You were instrumental to my quit early on and I thank you for forcing the KTC kool-aide onto me.
Proud as hell to call you a brother! Well done m'man!
Congrats Derk!
Congratulations on a half comma Derk!!! You are an inspiration to a lot of Quitters! Thank you for all you have done that has made me successful everyday!
Great job Derk! Always proud to quit with you
getting some quit on !
'oh yeah'
Way to go Derk. 500 is a big time accomplishment Brother. Proud to be quit with you.
Derk, You are the poster boy for KTC! Keep doing what got you here. Proud to QLF with you these last 500 days!
Wow, a half comma, awesome job dude.
Congrats Derk, nicely done brother!
NICE job Derk! Looking forward to another 500 days of being quit with you my friend. What a way to influence other quitters because it rubs off and you can tell by all that are posting here. Quitting with you EDD brother!
Man talk about a stalwart and solid quit-support for so many people! Keep bringing what you bring!
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Bumping Sir Derk to the top on an early congratulations on hitting 500! Well done dude - you've helped a lot of others hit milestones on your way to this one to - the community celebrates with you on an achievement that 50 days ago seemed impossible.... Keep on winning!
Awesome quitter! Thank you Derk for providing a great example of quit.
I couldn't be more blessed to have such a solid stone in my foundation of quit. Congrats brother on the big half comma
Congrats brother! You were instrumental to my quit early on and I thank you for forcing the KTC kool-aide onto me.
Proud as hell to call you a brother! Well done m'man!
Congrats Derk!
Congratulations on a half comma Derk!!! You are an inspiration to a lot of Quitters! Thank you for all you have done that has made me successful everyday!
Great job Derk! Always proud to quit with you
getting some quit on !
'oh yeah'
Way to go Derk. 500 is a big time accomplishment Brother. Proud to be quit with you.
Derk, You are the poster boy for KTC! Keep doing what got you here. Proud to QLF with you these last 500 days!
Wow, a half comma, awesome job dude.
Congrats Derk, nicely done brother!
NICE job Derk! Looking forward to another 500 days of being quit with you my friend. What a way to influence other quitters because it rubs off and you can tell by all that are posting here. Quitting with you EDD brother!
Man talk about a stalwart and solid quit-support for so many people! Keep bringing what you bring!
Nicely done.
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Bumping Sir Derk to the top on an early congratulations on hitting 500! Well done dude - you've helped a lot of others hit milestones on your way to this one to - the community celebrates with you on an achievement that 50 days ago seemed impossible.... Keep on winning!
Awesome quitter! Thank you Derk for providing a great example of quit.
I couldn't be more blessed to have such a solid stone in my foundation of quit. Congrats brother on the big half comma
Congrats brother! You were instrumental to my quit early on and I thank you for forcing the KTC kool-aide onto me.
Proud as hell to call you a brother! Well done m'man!
Congrats Derk!
Congratulations on a half comma Derk!!! You are an inspiration to a lot of Quitters! Thank you for all you have done that has made me successful everyday!
Great job Derk! Always proud to quit with you
getting some quit on !
'oh yeah'
Way to go Derk. 500 is a big time accomplishment Brother. Proud to be quit with you.
Derk, You are the poster boy for KTC! Keep doing what got you here. Proud to QLF with you these last 500 days!
Wow, a half comma, awesome job dude.
Congrats Derk, nicely done brother!
NICE job Derk! Looking forward to another 500 days of being quit with you my friend. What a way to influence other quitters because it rubs off and you can tell by all that are posting here. Quitting with you EDD brother!
Man talk about a stalwart and solid quit-support for so many people! Keep bringing what you bring!
Nicely done.
Way to be Reggie! You is a badass.
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Bumping Sir Derk to the top on an early congratulations on hitting 500! Well done dude - you've helped a lot of others hit milestones on your way to this one to - the community celebrates with you on an achievement that 50 days ago seemed impossible.... Keep on winning!
Awesome quitter! Thank you Derk for providing a great example of quit.
I couldn't be more blessed to have such a solid stone in my foundation of quit. Congrats brother on the big half comma
Congrats brother! You were instrumental to my quit early on and I thank you for forcing the KTC kool-aide onto me.
Proud as hell to call you a brother! Well done m'man!
Congrats Derk!
Congratulations on a half comma Derk!!! You are an inspiration to a lot of Quitters! Thank you for all you have done that has made me successful everyday!
Great job Derk! Always proud to quit with you
getting some quit on !
'oh yeah'
Way to go Derk. 500 is a big time accomplishment Brother. Proud to be quit with you.
Derk, You are the poster boy for KTC! Keep doing what got you here. Proud to QLF with you these last 500 days!
Wow, a half comma, awesome job dude.
Congrats Derk, nicely done brother!
NICE job Derk! Looking forward to another 500 days of being quit with you my friend. What a way to influence other quitters because it rubs off and you can tell by all that are posting here. Quitting with you EDD brother!
Man talk about a stalwart and solid quit-support for so many people! Keep bringing what you bring!
Nicely done.
Way to be Reggie! You is a badass.
Well done! 5 bills, 5th floor, half comma...whatever you call it, you've done it.
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Thanks for all the well wishes. I really do appreciate it. It is amazing to be surrounding by such a supportive group. I remember the day I quit 500 days ago like it was yesterday. Posting the day 1 is one of the best decisions I have ever made. The men and women of KTC dragged me thru the suck and got me thinking right. Accountability + brotherhood = success. It is hard to believe how lost I truly was... Life is so much better today. It is almost indescribable. I am a free man today. This quit today is so worth it! Thanks again to all of you. I am quit you today!
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Bumping Sir Derk to the top on an early congratulations on hitting 500! Well done dude - you've helped a lot of others hit milestones on your way to this one to - the community celebrates with you on an achievement that 50 days ago seemed impossible.... Keep on winning!
Awesome quitter! Thank you Derk for providing a great example of quit.
I couldn't be more blessed to have such a solid stone in my foundation of quit. Congrats brother on the big half comma
Congrats brother! You were instrumental to my quit early on and I thank you for forcing the KTC kool-aide onto me.
Proud as hell to call you a brother! Well done m'man!
Congrats Derk!
Congratulations on a half comma Derk!!! You are an inspiration to a lot of Quitters! Thank you for all you have done that has made me successful everyday!
Great job Derk! Always proud to quit with you
getting some quit on !
'oh yeah'
Way to go Derk. 500 is a big time accomplishment Brother. Proud to be quit with you.
Derk, You are the poster boy for KTC! Keep doing what got you here. Proud to QLF with you these last 500 days!
Wow, a half comma, awesome job dude.
Congrats Derk, nicely done brother!
NICE job Derk! Looking forward to another 500 days of being quit with you my friend. What a way to influence other quitters because it rubs off and you can tell by all that are posting here. Quitting with you EDD brother!
Man talk about a stalwart and solid quit-support for so many people! Keep bringing what you bring!
Nicely done.
Way to be Reggie! You is a badass.
Well done! 5 bills, 5th floor, half comma...whatever you call it, you've done it.
Well done my friend rock solid!
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Spoke to my brother in law tonight. He is an addict and he said he is ready to quit. He is on a ship and gets off watch at midnight. He has a stash of nic patches ... he said he is gonna dump them and then he is gonna post roll.
I told him how good we all have it today. No f-in dip! Today is pretty good folks! I'm ready for him to join us!!
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Spoke to my brother in law tonight. He is an addict and he said he is ready to quit. He is on a ship and gets off watch at midnight. He has a stash of nic patches ... he said he is gonna dump them and then he is gonna post roll.
I told him how good we all have it today. No f-in dip! Today is pretty good folks! I'm ready for him to join us!!
Nice.
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Spoke to my brother in law tonight. He is an addict and he said he is ready to quit. He is on a ship and gets off watch at midnight. He has a stash of nic patches ... he said he is gonna dump them and then he is gonna post roll.
I told him how good we all have it today. No f-in dip! Today is pretty good folks! I'm ready for him to join us!!
Let's rally the troops and reel this one in. A brother of uours is a brother of mine.
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Spoke to my brother in law tonight. He is an addict and he said he is ready to quit. He is on a ship and gets off watch at midnight. He has a stash of nic patches ... he said he is gonna dump them and then he is gonna post roll.
I told him how good we all have it today. No f-in dip! Today is pretty good folks! I'm ready for him to join us!!
Let's rally the troops and reel this one in. A brother of uours is a brother of mine.
He said he will call me at midnight.... Let's see if Cinderella has what it takes!!
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Spoke to my brother in law tonight. He is an addict and he said he is ready to quit. He is on a ship and gets off watch at midnight. He has a stash of nic patches ... he said he is gonna dump them and then he is gonna post roll.
I told him how good we all have it today. No f-in dip! Today is pretty good folks! I'm ready for him to join us!!
Let's rally the troops and reel this one in. A brother of uours is a brother of mine.
He said he will call me at midnight.... Let's see if Cinderella has what it takes!!
Grizzley Sailor. Let's quit. Now!
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Spoke to my brother in law tonight. He is an addict and he said he is ready to quit. He is on a ship and gets off watch at midnight. He has a stash of nic patches ... he said he is gonna dump them and then he is gonna post roll.
I told him how good we all have it today. No f-in dip! Today is pretty good folks! I'm ready for him to join us!!
Let's rally the troops and reel this one in. A brother of uours is a brother of mine.
He said he will call me at midnight.... Let's see if Cinderella has what it takes!!
Grizzley Sailor. Let's quit. Now!
Come and get your freedom!
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Spoke to my brother in law tonight. He is an addict and he said he is ready to quit. He is on a ship and gets off watch at midnight. He has a stash of nic patches ... he said he is gonna dump them and then he is gonna post roll.
I told him how good we all have it today. No f-in dip! Today is pretty good folks! I'm ready for him to join us!!
Let's rally the troops and reel this one in. A brother of uours is a brother of mine.
He said he will call me at midnight.... Let's see if Cinderella has what it takes!!
Grizzley Sailor. Let's quit. Now!
Come and get your freedom!
The admission charge is "your word".
You can do this ODAAT and NAFAR.
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Spoke to my brother in law tonight. He is an addict and he said he is ready to quit. He is on a ship and gets off watch at midnight. He has a stash of nic patches ... he said he is gonna dump them and then he is gonna post roll.
I told him how good we all have it today. No f-in dip! Today is pretty good folks! I'm ready for him to join us!!
Let's rally the troops and reel this one in. A brother of uours is a brother of mine.
He said he will call me at midnight.... Let's see if Cinderella has what it takes!!
Grizzley Sailor. Let's quit. Now!
Come and get your freedom!
The admission charge is "your word".
You can do this ODAAT and NAFAR.
Post up and start an intro Grizzly Sailor!! You got a great resource and especially in Derk!
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Spoke to my brother in law tonight. He is an addict and he said he is ready to quit. He is on a ship and gets off watch at midnight. He has a stash of nic patches ... he said he is gonna dump them and then he is gonna post roll.
I told him how good we all have it today. No f-in dip! Today is pretty good folks! I'm ready for him to join us!!
Let's rally the troops and reel this one in. A brother of uours is a brother of mine.
He said he will call me at midnight.... Let's see if Cinderella has what it takes!!
Grizzley Sailor. Let's quit. Now!
Come and get your freedom!
The admission charge is "your word".
You can do this ODAAT and NAFAR.
Post up and start an intro Grizzly Sailor!! You got a great resource and especially in Derk!
I'd rather have Derk on the ice with me than the Hanson Brothers. ;)
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Spoke to my brother in law tonight. He is an addict and he said he is ready to quit. He is on a ship and gets off watch at midnight. He has a stash of nic patches ... he said he is gonna dump them and then he is gonna post roll.
I told him how good we all have it today. No f-in dip! Today is pretty good folks! I'm ready for him to join us!!
Let's rally the troops and reel this one in. A brother of uours is a brother of mine.
He said he will call me at midnight.... Let's see if Cinderella has what it takes!!
Grizzley Sailor. Let's quit. Now!
Come and get your freedom!
The admission charge is "your word".
You can do this ODAAT and NAFAR.
Post up and start an intro Grizzly Sailor!! You got a great resource and especially in Derk!
I'd rather have Derk on the ice with me than the Hanson Brothers. ;)
Old time hockey! Eddie Shore!
Derk, I hope to see him in these hall real soon.
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Spoke to my brother in law tonight. He is an addict and he said he is ready to quit. He is on a ship and gets off watch at midnight. He has a stash of nic patches ... he said he is gonna dump them and then he is gonna post roll.
I told him how good we all have it today. No f-in dip! Today is pretty good folks! I'm ready for him to join us!!
Let's rally the troops and reel this one in. A brother of uours is a brother of mine.
He said he will call me at midnight.... Let's see if Cinderella has what it takes!!
Grizzley Sailor. Let's quit. Now!
Come and get your freedom!
The admission charge is "your word".
You can do this ODAAT and NAFAR.
Post up and start an intro Grizzly Sailor!! You got a great resource and especially in Derk!
I'd rather have Derk on the ice with me than the Hanson Brothers. ;)
Old time hockey! Eddie Shore!
Derk, I hope to see him in these hall real soon.
He managed to post last night about 12 hours ago. Its a start
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Derk let me be one of the first to congratulate you on 600. New quitters if you want to read a motivational thread, go through this one.
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Derk let me be one of the first to congratulate you on 600. New quitters if you want to read a motivational thread, go through this one.
Congratulations Quitter!
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Derk let me be one of the first to congratulate you on 600. New quitters if you want to read a motivational thread, go through this one.
Congratulations Quitter!
Nice 6-bagger Derk. You're a rock, my friend.
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Derk let me be one of the first to congratulate you on 600. New quitters if you want to read a motivational thread, go through this one.
Congratulations Quitter!
Nice 6-bagger Derk. You're a rock, my friend.
'Grats to you bro! With you every damn day!
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Derk let me be one of the first to congratulate you on 600. New quitters if you want to read a motivational thread, go through this one.
Congratulations Quitter!
Nice 6-bagger Derk. You're a rock, my friend.
'Grats to you bro! With you every damn day!
Awesome job Derk!!!! Congrats
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Derk let me be one of the first to congratulate you on 600. New quitters if you want to read a motivational thread, go through this one.
Congratulations Quitter!
Nice 6-bagger Derk. You're a rock, my friend.
'Grats to you bro! With you every damn day!
Awesome job Derk!!!! Congrats
Back to back hat tricks. Way to be you goon! Fantastic!
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Derk let me be one of the first to congratulate you on 600. New quitters if you want to read a motivational thread, go through this one.
Congratulations Quitter!
Nice 6-bagger Derk. You're a rock, my friend.
'Grats to you bro! With you every damn day!
Awesome job Derk!!!! Congrats
Back to back hat tricks. Way to be you goon! Fantastic!
Nice to finally see you on the 6th floor brother. Congrats and as always, thank you for your support!
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Derk let me be one of the first to congratulate you on 600. New quitters if you want to read a motivational thread, go through this one.
Congratulations Quitter!
Nice 6-bagger Derk. You're a rock, my friend.
'Grats to you bro! With you every damn day!
Awesome job Derk!!!! Congrats
Back to back hat tricks. Way to be you goon! Fantastic!
Nice to finally see you on the 6th floor brother. Congrats and as always, thank you for your support!
Great job bro!!! With you EDD
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Derk let me be one of the first to congratulate you on 600. New quitters if you want to read a motivational thread, go through this one.
Congratulations Quitter!
Nice 6-bagger Derk. You're a rock, my friend.
'Grats to you bro! With you every damn day!
Awesome job Derk!!!! Congrats
Back to back hat tricks. Way to be you goon! Fantastic!
Nice to finally see you on the 6th floor brother. Congrats and as always, thank you for your support!
Great job bro!!! With you EDD
Awesome job on 600!
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Derk let me be one of the first to congratulate you on 600. New quitters if you want to read a motivational thread, go through this one.
Congratulations Quitter!
Nice 6-bagger Derk. You're a rock, my friend.
'Grats to you bro! With you every damn day!
Awesome job Derk!!!! Congrats
Back to back hat tricks. Way to be you goon! Fantastic!
Nice to finally see you on the 6th floor brother. Congrats and as always, thank you for your support!
Great job bro!!! With you EDD
Awesome job on 600!
Congrats, sir.
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Derk let me be one of the first to congratulate you on 600. New quitters if you want to read a motivational thread, go through this one.
Congratulations Quitter!
Nice 6-bagger Derk. You're a rock, my friend.
'Grats to you bro! With you every damn day!
Awesome job Derk!!!! Congrats
Back to back hat tricks. Way to be you goon! Fantastic!
Nice to finally see you on the 6th floor brother. Congrats and as always, thank you for your support!
Great job bro!!! With you EDD
Awesome job on 600!
Congrats, sir.
600 units of quit. Badass.
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Derk let me be one of the first to congratulate you on 600. New quitters if you want to read a motivational thread, go through this one.
Congratulations Quitter!
Nice 6-bagger Derk. You're a rock, my friend.
'Grats to you bro! With you every damn day!
Awesome job Derk!!!! Congrats
Back to back hat tricks. Way to be you goon! Fantastic!
Nice to finally see you on the 6th floor brother. Congrats and as always, thank you for your support!
Great job bro!!! With you EDD
Awesome job on 600!
Congrats, sir.
600 units of quit. Badass.
Awesome Derk. Keep it up. Thanks for being here every day.
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Derk let me be one of the first to congratulate you on 600. New quitters if you want to read a motivational thread, go through this one.
Congratulations Quitter!
Nice 6-bagger Derk. You're a rock, my friend.
'Grats to you bro! With you every damn day!
Awesome job Derk!!!! Congrats
Back to back hat tricks. Way to be you goon! Fantastic!
Nice to finally see you on the 6th floor brother. Congrats and as always, thank you for your support!
Great job bro!!! With you EDD
Awesome job on 600!
Congrats, sir.
600 units of quit. Badass.
Awesome Derk. Keep it up. Thanks for being here every day.
'BanDog' You got to have the bananas I know they are your favorite bad ass Derky baby keep on kickin ass.
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Derk let me be one of the first to congratulate you on 600. New quitters if you want to read a motivational thread, go through this one.
Congratulations Quitter!
Nice 6-bagger Derk. You're a rock, my friend.
'Grats to you bro! With you every damn day!
Awesome job Derk!!!! Congrats
Back to back hat tricks. Way to be you goon! Fantastic!
Nice to finally see you on the 6th floor brother. Congrats and as always, thank you for your support!
Great job bro!!! With you EDD
Awesome job on 600!
Congrats, sir.
600 units of quit. Badass.
Awesome Derk. Keep it up. Thanks for being here every day.
'BanDog' You got to have the bananas I know they are your favorite bad ass Derky baby keep on kickin ass.
Thanks for the congrats today! 600 days feels pretty darn good! I would not be in this place without all your support. Thanks all! See you tomorrow at roll!
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Derk let me be one of the first to congratulate you on 600. New quitters if you want to read a motivational thread, go through this one.
Congratulations Quitter!
Nice 6-bagger Derk. You're a rock, my friend.
'Grats to you bro! With you every damn day!
Awesome job Derk!!!! Congrats
Back to back hat tricks. Way to be you goon! Fantastic!
Nice to finally see you on the 6th floor brother. Congrats and as always, thank you for your support!
Great job bro!!! With you EDD
Awesome job on 600!
Congrats, sir.
600 units of quit. Badass.
Awesome Derk. Keep it up. Thanks for being here every day.
'BanDog' You got to have the bananas I know they are your favorite bad ass Derky baby keep on kickin ass.
Thanks for the congrats today! 600 days feels pretty darn good! I would not be in this place without all your support. Thanks all! See you tomorrow at roll!
Big Congrats my friend. Rock Solid quit and Leadership by example. Nicely Done!
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Congrats on 2 years buddy, and thanks for all the Support early on in my quit... You, my friend, are a BADASS and role model here at KTC.
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Congrats on 2 years buddy, and thanks for all the Support early on in my quit... You, my friend, are a BADASS and role model here at KTC.
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Congrats on 2 years buddy, and thanks for all the Support early on in my quit... You, my friend, are a BADASS and role model here at KTC.
Two years is awesome and you make it look easy! Congrats brother #killingit
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Congrats on 2 years buddy, and thanks for all the Support early on in my quit... You, my friend, are a BADASS and role model here at KTC.
Two years is awesome and you make it look easy! Congrats brother #killingit
Yeah. Glad he is still quit. Solid quitter. No BS type guy. Disappointing that he hasn't posted since 4/30 and gone it on his own.