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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: agirlsickofgrizz on October 28, 2015, 09:29:00 AM
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I've been back and forth with quitting for so long, not even actually attempting, just thinking about it. I did quit once years ago, then started again on pouches because I thought they were "healthier". I've now been starting long cut again because the pouches aren't cutting it anymore. I am so, so sick of this, but so, so addicted. After one hour I feel the intense need for nicotine. Haven't gone longer than that except when sleeping in a long time.
I am scared for a couple reasons, gaining weight that I worked so hard to lose, (only 10 pounds from goal) and scared about being irritable beyond control with my 3 children. And I'm scared of missing it. It's there for everything in my life.
What complicates things even more (but I guess helpful in this case) is that I have severe health anxiety/paranoia and every day I think about having cancer and check my mouth/teeth/gums obsessively.
When I get anywhere near past that one hour mark I feel like I turn into a monster! I can't imagine putting my family through my rage, and crazy irritability, anxiety, etc.
How do I control that? How do I control the weight gain?
Are there some tricks I should know about?
Dread. That's the word I have to describe quitting. But I am SICK of it. Blowing money I don't have on cans. $5.39 several times a week really does not fit into our meager budget and that's SO frickin selfish of me!
Having the inside of my mouth all wrinkly and sore and running my tongue over it panicking all day.
My teeth are turning YELLOW.
Hiding it from everyone outside of my house.
Cancer cancer cancer.
That's why I want to be done.
But gosh darn it I am petrified.
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I've been back and forth with quitting for so long, not even actually attempting, just thinking about it. I did quit once years ago, then started again on pouches because I thought they were "healthier". I've now been starting long cut again because the pouches aren't cutting it anymore. I am so, so sick of this, but so, so addicted. After one hour I feel the intense need for nicotine. Haven't gone longer than that except when sleeping in a long time.
I am scared for a couple reasons, gaining weight that I worked so hard to lose, (only 10 pounds from goal) and scared about being irritable beyond control with my 3 children. And I'm scared of missing it. It's there for everything in my life.
What complicates things even more (but I guess helpful in this case) is that I have severe health anxiety/paranoia and every day I think about having cancer and check my mouth/teeth/gums obsessively.
When I get anywhere near past that one hour mark I feel like I turn into a monster! I can't imagine putting my family through my rage, and crazy irritability, anxiety, etc.
How do I control that? How do I control the weight gain?
Are there some tricks I should know about?
Dread. That's the word I have to describe quitting. But I am SICK of it. Blowing money I don't have on cans. $5.39 several times a week really does not fit into our meager budget and that's SO frickin selfish of me!
Having the inside of my mouth all wrinkly and sore and running my tongue over it panicking all day.
My teeth are turning YELLOW.
Hiding it from everyone outside of my house.
Cancer cancer cancer.
That's why I want to be done.
But gosh darn it I am petrified.
Look here, we were all scared! That's the addict in you at work! Go to Feb 16 group post roll and let us help you. We're all addicts just like you and I promise you, we can do this together with the rest of my brothers and sister's on here. First step post roll and the support will come pouring in. I quit with you today! Pm me for my number if you want to. Much more advice to follow but we want you on roll , that's the most important key to success here!
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I've been back and forth with quitting for so long, not even actually attempting, just thinking about it. I did quit once years ago, then started again on pouches because I thought they were "healthier". I've now been starting long cut again because the pouches aren't cutting it anymore. I am so, so sick of this, but so, so addicted. After one hour I feel the intense need for nicotine. Haven't gone longer than that except when sleeping in a long time.
I am scared for a couple reasons, gaining weight that I worked so hard to lose, (only 10 pounds from goal) and scared about being irritable beyond control with my 3 children. And I'm scared of missing it. It's there for everything in my life.
What complicates things even more (but I guess helpful in this case) is that I have severe health anxiety/paranoia and every day I think about having cancer and check my mouth/teeth/gums obsessively.
When I get anywhere near past that one hour mark I feel like I turn into a monster! I can't imagine putting my family through my rage, and crazy irritability, anxiety, etc.
How do I control that? How do I control the weight gain?
Are there some tricks I should know about?
Dread. That's the word I have to describe quitting. But I am SICK of it. Blowing money I don't have on cans. $5.39 several times a week really does not fit into our meager budget and that's SO frickin selfish of me!
Having the inside of my mouth all wrinkly and sore and running my tongue over it panicking all day.
My teeth are turning YELLOW.
Hiding it from everyone outside of my house.
Cancer cancer cancer.
That's why I want to be done.
But gosh darn it I am petrified.
Look here, we were all scared! That's the addict in you at work! Go to Feb 16 group post roll and let us help you. We're all addicts just like you and I promise you, we can do this together with the rest of my brothers and sister's on here. First step post roll and the support will come pouring in. I quit with you today! Pm me for my number if you want to. Much more advice to follow but we want you on roll , that's the most important key to success here!
Hi, glad you are here and reaching out. That will be key to you staying quit. The fight will be real. You will give up things to stay alive and not get cancer.
The weight gain that you may or may not experience is secondary. Id rather gain weight than lose my health or life, which you can lose both.
The rage should be shown on this site or in texts to supporters, not your family.
That's why you need to be here.
Go into the Live Chat for instant help and support. Also do what pab said and post roll in your quit group. Its your promise not to use nic in any form.
I'm with you. -Chick
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You've made the best decision by coming to KTC. There is a ton of help available to you and you only have to make a promise not to use nicotine for 24 hours at a time. The freedom you'll gain is worth the short term pain. You deserve to be quit. If you need anything, just reach out.
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I've been back and forth with quitting for so long, not even actually attempting, just thinking about it. I did quit once years ago, then started again on pouches because I thought they were "healthier". I've now been starting long cut again because the pouches aren't cutting it anymore. I am so, so sick of this, but so, so addicted. After one hour I feel the intense need for nicotine. Haven't gone longer than that except when sleeping in a long time.
I am scared for a couple reasons, gaining weight that I worked so hard to lose, (only 10 pounds from goal) and scared about being irritable beyond control with my 3 children. And I'm scared of missing it. It's there for everything in my life.
What complicates things even more (but I guess helpful in this case) is that I have severe health anxiety/paranoia and every day I think about having cancer and check my mouth/teeth/gums obsessively.
When I get anywhere near past that one hour mark I feel like I turn into a monster! I can't imagine putting my family through my rage, and crazy irritability, anxiety, etc.
How do I control that? How do I control the weight gain?
Are there some tricks I should know about?
Dread. That's the word I have to describe quitting. But I am SICK of it. Blowing money I don't have on cans. $5.39 several times a week really does not fit into our meager budget and that's SO frickin selfish of me!
Having the inside of my mouth all wrinkly and sore and running my tongue over it panicking all day.
My teeth are turning YELLOW.
Hiding it from everyone outside of my house.
Cancer cancer cancer.
That's why I want to be done.
But gosh darn it I am petrified.
Look here, we were all scared! That's the addict in you at work! Go to Feb 16 group post roll and let us help you. We're all addicts just like you and I promise you, we can do this together with the rest of my brothers and sister's on here. First step post roll and the support will come pouring in. I quit with you today! Pm me for my number if you want to. Much more advice to follow but we want you on roll , that's the most important key to success here!
Hi, glad you are here and reaching out. That will be key to you staying quit. The fight will be real. You will give up things to stay alive and not get cancer.
The weight gain that you may or may not experience is secondary. Id rather gain weight than lose my health or life, which you can lose both.
The rage should be shown on this site or in texts to supporters, not your family.
That's why you need to be here.
Go into the Live Chat for instant help and support. Also do what pab said and post roll in your quit group. Its your promise not to use nic in any form.
I'm with you. -Chick
first, head on over to the wellcome center here (http://forum.killthecan.org/forum/55560/) and under stand roll call.
seckind, head over to the feb 16 groop you will find in quit groops on the bottom haff here (http://forum.killthecan.org/forum/55566/)
now lets see if we can add some other help.
wait gain - you will see we reckamend drinkin lots a water here any ways. that helps when your loosin wait to.
tricks - the oral fixashun is a big thing. folks use seeds or fake dips or gum or my faverite - atomick fire balls. quittin any a those is eezy. fitin thru the fog and suck is the battel you need to fite. and we are here to help. also stay out a places ware you buy dip for the next week.
all that other stuff - thats why you wnat to quit. use it to power your quit. speshully these next few days.
swap digits with quiterers. most are happy to share. use chat. use this page. use your quit groop page. rage here. we can take it. hell we love it.
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I've been back and forth with quitting for so long, not even actually attempting, just thinking about it. I did quit once years ago, then started again on pouches because I thought they were "healthier". I've now been starting long cut again because the pouches aren't cutting it anymore. I am so, so sick of this, but so, so addicted. After one hour I feel the intense need for nicotine. Haven't gone longer than that except when sleeping in a long time.
I am scared for a couple reasons, gaining weight that I worked so hard to lose, (only 10 pounds from goal) and scared about being irritable beyond control with my 3 children. And I'm scared of missing it. It's there for everything in my life.
What complicates things even more (but I guess helpful in this case) is that I have severe health anxiety/paranoia and every day I think about having cancer and check my mouth/teeth/gums obsessively.
When I get anywhere near past that one hour mark I feel like I turn into a monster! I can't imagine putting my family through my rage, and crazy irritability, anxiety, etc.
How do I control that? How do I control the weight gain?
Are there some tricks I should know about?
Dread. That's the word I have to describe quitting. But I am SICK of it. Blowing money I don't have on cans. $5.39 several times a week really does not fit into our meager budget and that's SO frickin selfish of me!
Having the inside of my mouth all wrinkly and sore and running my tongue over it panicking all day.
My teeth are turning YELLOW.
Hiding it from everyone outside of my house.
Cancer cancer cancer.
That's why I want to be done.
But gosh darn it I am petrified.
Wow.
I think I actually wrote that a few years ago. Not even kidding. This addiction becomes so intertwined with life that you associate all the good with it. Man, that's just evil and wrong. We get the scary... truly. Sis, I chewed for 25 years and knocked out 2 cans a day. Towards the end, because of a job loss, it was literally taking food off my family table so I could feed my beast. We get selfish. We get anxiety. We get all that crap that got screwed around because of nicotine.
Here's the thing... you CAN do this. We are proof. Get involved here and stay involved. You need to heal and you need to rewire. It's gonna take some time. No way around it. In order to accomplish this... you need to concentrate on it, and it alone. Don't worry about the weight... you CAN lose it again. Don't worry about your moods... bring it to us because we can handle it. Anxiety?... well, that's an individual journey with many different answers. I dealt with it big time too. I don't know if this helps but, there's something about winning daily against your addiction that can ease the anxiety. The realization that in quitting... you're being a total badass and you CAN handle anything. Granted... that's just a small slice of advice. There are threads on this site dealing specifically with anxiety and depression. There are some awesome guys with awesome insight to take advantage of. It's all yours for the using IF... you get, and stay, involved. Its the price of admission here... it's the price for real freedom... it's VERY worth it.
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... fear is an emotional response induced by a perceived threat, which causes a change in brain and organ function, as well as in behavior. Fear can lead us to hide, to run away, or to freeze in our shoes. Fear may arise from a confrontation or from avoiding a threat, or it may come in the form of a discovery.
At some point, the fear of a shortened life span, motherless children and financial hardship need to outweigh your fear of being without the can. When that happens, we can help. We can help because we've all been there. I think I described it as feeling like I was on the edge of a cliff, blind folded with voices from below telling me to jump.
Now, I'm one of those voices. When you turn that corner, you'll jump in and post roll. You wont let anything get in the way of making your promise and you wont go back on your word. The first few days are tough but clearly not impossible.
Time to jump 'jj'
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Buckle down and do it. There's lots of good information in the above posts. It sucks. Sucks real bad those first few days. Then, it'll get better. Annnnd, it might suck again. But, it DOES get better. Freedom is waiting! Nice job on that first roll post. Don't worry about tomorrow or even 1 hour from now. One second, one hour, one day at a time, if that's what it takes.
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http://www.killthecan.org/heres-how-you ... court-now/ (http://www.killthecan.org/heres-how-you-quit-ball-is-in-your-court-now/)
good spot to start if you haven't flushed it down the toilet yet!
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Commit to this and start posting roll. It will change your life, and from personal experience, I can tell you it will change your relationship with your kids. You do not want to be lying in a hospital bed three or four years from now with tears in your eyes saying goodbye to those kids for the last time. You want to see them grow up into responsible men and/or women. You probably want to see them go to college, get jobs, get married, have their own kids. If you continue down the dark path that we all once trod, you a flirting with the very real possibility you will not be there for them.
You may or may not know this, but cancer is not the #1 killer of women. Heart disease is. Did you know that dip raises your blood pressure and greatly increases your chance of heart disease?
Put the big girl pants on today and do this for YOU. Do this so you can prove to yourself you a stronger than a can of poison. When you start to believe in yourself and rid yourself of this addiction, your family will reap the benefits.
Quit today. It's not always going to be easy, but it will be worth it, I promise you that.
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Check you PM again. Keep up the convo. Check out the links and get started on your quit. You can do it!
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Exercise and drinking lots of water will help with weight gain and the nic rage. I quit today, that's it, nothing more. Just decide and DO. We will help once you jump in. Post roll!!!
Read my signature line below my post - PLEASE.
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Your introduction describes every last one of us. But let's get to it.
Rage and the family: immediately come here and rant, call us assholes, whatever, it's temporary
Crazy irritability and anxiety: EXERCISE!!!! It can be done, just commit to some routine
Weight gain/control: Don't replace dip with food. Use gum, seeds, fake dip, whatever you need to get past the irritability and wanting to eat.
Your life will be different. Bathroom habits change, sleeping changes (for me several times). Recognize these changes and adapt.
bottom line is right now the nicotine has control of you and your life. If you want to regain control follow the above instructions. Anyone here will tell you the same thing.
PS, my Aunt had mouth cancer from cigarettes, that shit is real, you should worry about it as long as you dip/smoke.
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Wow. Thanks everyone. Those are some intense replies. I know it's not the way people recommend here, but I am planning my quit for this coming Tuesday. Excuses, excuses, I know. But I want to get through all this Halloween stuff with the kids NOT being an angry, irritable witch. On Tuesday all my children will be in school and I can deal with the first awful day alone. I told my husband my plan and he is planning to quit too, wants to be quit a couple days ahead of me so at least one of us is a bit more out of the woods before the other starts. Oh boy. Oh boy, oh boy. Not looking forward to it, but I am too.
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Wow. Thanks everyone. Those are some intense replies. I know it's not the way people recommend here, but I am planning my quit for this coming Tuesday. Excuses, excuses, I know. But I want to get through all this Halloween stuff with the kids NOT being an angry, irritable witch. On Tuesday all my children will be in school and I can deal with the first awful day alone. I told my husband my plan and he is planning to quit too, wants to be quit a couple days ahead of me so at least one of us is a bit more out of the woods before the other starts. Oh boy. Oh boy, oh boy. Not looking forward to it, but I am too.
Tuesday?
Tuesday never comes.
Quit now. There is so much power in NOW! Take your life NOW! Fuck Halloween! You dipping is not going to make Hallow-fucking-ween ANY fucking easier!
What a bunch of shit!
Your husband wants to Quit with you? Is he signed up here? Sounds like he's ready to go, and you're dragging your addicted heels for no real fucking reason.
You Quit NOW, you will be on Day 6 on Tuesday! The Nic will be out of your system completely by Tuesday, but you gotta flush your shit NOW!
...not that I have an opinion on it or anything...
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Wow. Thanks everyone. Those are some intense replies. I know it's not the way people recommend here, but I am planning my quit for this coming Tuesday. Excuses, excuses, I know. But I want to get through all this Halloween stuff with the kids NOT being an angry, irritable witch. On Tuesday all my children will be in school and I can deal with the first awful day alone. I told my husband my plan and he is planning to quit too, wants to be quit a couple days ahead of me so at least one of us is a bit more out of the woods before the other starts. Oh boy. Oh boy, oh boy. Not looking forward to it, but I am too.
Tuesday?
Tuesday never comes.
Quit now. There is so much power in NOW! Take your life NOW! Fuck Halloween! You dipping is not going to make Hallow-fucking-ween ANY fucking easier!
What a bunch of shit!
Your husband wants to Quit with you? Is he signed up here? Sounds like he's ready to go, and you're dragging your addicted heels for no real fucking reason.
You Quit NOW, you will be on Day 6 on Tuesday! The Nic will be out of your system completely by Tuesday, but you gotta flush your shit NOW!
...not that I have an opinion on it or anything...
Nolaq speaks the truth, and I was doing the same thing as you 1762 days ago - I wanted to keep with nicotine lozenges instead of pouches, but I had a plan to keep doing that for a few days and then quitting.
The reality is you are still feeding your addiction, and if you don't take control of it RIGHT NOW, you may never get around to it.
You have the tools you need.
You have support pouring in for you here.
You CAN DO THIS.
The time is now.
No matter how hard it gets, you will have people rallying around you on this site. We've seen this done countless times, and we have helped countless people. Let us help you as well.
Let's roll...
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I was scared and I'm still scared. Hell I will probably always be that way. Just know that we are all here for you and your husband if he decides to join.
I quit with you and I'm here if I can be of any assistance............................
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Wow. Thanks everyone. Those are some intense replies. I know it's not the way people recommend here, but I am planning my quit for this coming Tuesday. Excuses, excuses, I know. But I want to get through all this Halloween stuff with the kids NOT being an angry, irritable witch. On Tuesday all my children will be in school and I can deal with the first awful day alone. I told my husband my plan and he is planning to quit too, wants to be quit a couple days ahead of me so at least one of us is a bit more out of the woods before the other starts. Oh boy. Oh boy, oh boy. Not looking forward to it, but I am too.
Tuesday?
Tuesday never comes.
Quit now. There is so much power in NOW! Take your life NOW! Fuck Halloween! You dipping is not going to make Hallow-fucking-ween ANY fucking easier!
What a bunch of shit!
Your husband wants to Quit with you? Is he signed up here? Sounds like he's ready to go, and you're dragging your addicted heels for no real fucking reason.
You Quit NOW, you will be on Day 6 on Tuesday! The Nic will be out of your system completely by Tuesday, but you gotta flush your shit NOW!
...not that I have an opinion on it or anything...
yeah, what he said^^^^ (I'd listen to that if i were you)
and :deadhorse:
http://www.killthecan.org/heres-how-you ... court-now/ (http://www.killthecan.org/heres-how-you-quit-ball-is-in-your-court-now/)
good spot to start if you haven't flushed it down the toilet yet!
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poof
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Wow. Thanks everyone. Those are some intense replies. I know it's not the way people recommend here, but I am planning my quit for this coming Tuesday. Excuses, excuses, I know. But I want to get through all this Halloween stuff with the kids NOT being an angry, irritable witch. On Tuesday all my children will be in school and I can deal with the first awful day alone. I told my husband my plan and he is planning to quit too, wants to be quit a couple days ahead of me so at least one of us is a bit more out of the woods before the other starts. Oh boy. Oh boy, oh boy. Not looking forward to it, but I am too.
Tuesday?
Tuesday never comes.
Quit now. There is so much power in NOW! Take your life NOW! Fuck Halloween! You dipping is not going to make Hallow-fucking-ween ANY fucking easier!
What a bunch of shit!
Your husband wants to Quit with you? Is he signed up here? Sounds like he's ready to go, and you're dragging your addicted heels for no real fucking reason.
You Quit NOW, you will be on Day 6 on Tuesday! The Nic will be out of your system completely by Tuesday, but you gotta flush your shit NOW!
...not that I have an opinion on it or anything...
yeah, what he said^^^^ (I'd listen to that if i were you)
and :deadhorse:
http://www.killthecan.org/heres-how-you ... court-now/ (http://www.killthecan.org/heres-how-you-quit-ball-is-in-your-court-now/)
good spot to start if you haven't flushed it down the toilet yet!
You can do this. Your kids won't remember the rage after a couple weeks. They want you to quit. Even if they don't get it quite yet, 10 years from now they will gladly trade a couple days of irritability for a mom that is still around for them.
We've all had quit dates in the future that have come and gone without even taking a break. Dig deep and pull this one out today. Right now as you read this make that commitment to yourself. There is never a better moment to be quit than this one. Flush it and let's get started.
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Wow. Thanks everyone. Those are some intense replies. I know it's not the way people recommend here, but I am planning my quit for this coming Tuesday. Excuses, excuses, I know. But I want to get through all this Halloween stuff with the kids NOT being an angry, irritable witch. On Tuesday all my children will be in school and I can deal with the first awful day alone. I told my husband my plan and he is planning to quit too, wants to be quit a couple days ahead of me so at least one of us is a bit more out of the woods before the other starts. Oh boy. Oh boy, oh boy. Not looking forward to it, but I am too.
Tuesday?
Tuesday never comes.
Quit now. There is so much power in NOW! Take your life NOW! Fuck Halloween! You dipping is not going to make Hallow-fucking-ween ANY fucking easier!
What a bunch of shit!
Your husband wants to Quit with you? Is he signed up here? Sounds like he's ready to go, and you're dragging your addicted heels for no real fucking reason.
You Quit NOW, you will be on Day 6 on Tuesday! The Nic will be out of your system completely by Tuesday, but you gotta flush your shit NOW!
...not that I have an opinion on it or anything...
yeah, what he said^^^^ (I'd listen to that if i were you)
and :deadhorse:
http://www.killthecan.org/heres-how-you ... court-now/ (http://www.killthecan.org/heres-how-you-quit-ball-is-in-your-court-now/)
good spot to start if you haven't flushed it down the toilet yet!
You can do this. Your kids won't remember the rage after a couple weeks. They want you to quit. Even if they don't get it quite yet, 10 years from now they will gladly trade a couple days of irritability for a mom that is still around for them.
We've all had quit dates in the future that have come and gone without even taking a break. Dig deep and pull this one out today. Right now as you read this make that commitment to yourself. There is never a better moment to be quit than this one. Flush it and let's get started.
With your attitude, I don't see you making it, may not even see you back! Prove me wrong!
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Tuesday will never come. Toss that shit, crush that can and post roll. Promise you are nicotine free.
There will always be something else the nic bitch tells you in your ear that you need to get through before you
quit. You are an adult and parent of three, own your quit and rage here and on chat and on texts. This swill bee the best decision
of your life.s
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you no if you quit now by tuesday the nickateen will be out of your system? its true.
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Hoping you'll be back.
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I'm not sure what time zone you are in agirlsickofgrizz, but Halloween on the east coast of the USA is over. I hope that you did not hand out candy to little kids while packing a dip in your lip. I really think that is bad form. :P
Rather than waiting until Tuesday like Wimpy, how about dumping that can right now and quitting for real? This can be done and there is a website full of people who are waiting to help you.
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I'm not sure what time zone you are in agirlsickofgrizz, but Halloween on the east coast of the USA is over. I hope that you did not hand out candy to little kids while packing a dip in your lip. I really think that is bad form. :P
Rather than waiting until Tuesday like Wimpy, how about dumping that can right now and quitting for real? This can be done and there is a website full of people who are waiting to help you.
Dear A girl SICK of Grizzly,
I see you were in here this morning, hopefully reading some of these guys posts. They all make sense. So, you sticking to your planned quit? And if you are, are you ready? Because planning means you know what you are going to do to stay quit.
Cold Turkey, flush it all, rinse that tin down the drain, do the same to all your hidden stashes. BallUp... Put you big girl panties on...... Quit like a bad ass girl!
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On Tuesday all my children will be in school and I can deal with the first awful day alone.
Whaaaaaat?! No, no, no! Alone? You won't have to deal with ANY day alone. That is what we're here for! Look at the banner at the top of this page. You'll have a team of 25,000 people on your side.
When you quit, you can message me, or anyone else on this website whenever you want to talk. If you're anything like me, you might actually be shocked at how willing and eager people are to help. You can also post in your quit group, or in this intro thread, or come to the chatroom. Hell, you can even text people if you want. Every single one of us have been through what you will be going through. There is always a multitude of people around at any given time who are more than willing to help you in any way they can.
You...WILL be quitting, right? 'tease'
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Ok guys,I moved my quit date to today. WE did it, husband and I flushed our last can down the toilet last night. My last chew was 9pm last night. I posted roll this morning.
I am feeling very, very uncomfortable right now and feel like I might cry.
I keep getting cravings every few minutes since I woke up. It's like a rising panic, kind of like the dream where you look down and don't have any clothes on. Like a "OH NO, I forgot something really important!!" and then the realization.
Just trying not to get really pissed off at my 4 year old son today, fucking a he knows how to push my buttons.
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Ok guys,I moved my quit date to today. WE did it, husband and I flushed our last can down the toilet last night. My last chew was 9pm last night. I posted roll this morning.
I am feeling very, very uncomfortable right now and feel like I might cry.
I keep getting cravings every few minutes since I woke up. It's like a rising panic, kind of like the dream where you look down and don't have any clothes on. Like a "OH NO, I forgot something really important!!" and then the realization.
Just trying not to get really pissed off at my 4 year old son today, fucking a he knows how to push my buttons.
when you get pisst jump on chat. and get your husbinds ass on here to. frazz and mrs frazz are here together. there solid quiterers.
there was a nuther cuppel but mr sereal caver wasnt in to postin. took his wife to mexaco and they both caved. and dissapeered.
i rememember tryin to quit in collige with a buddy. we got bout 3 days afore agreein to cave. no buddy else to anser to. make him anserabel to the hole ktc clan.
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Nice job of getting on roll. Way to step up. Be accountable to your group and yourself. Rant in here
the first few days of the "Suck" literally one day at a time (ODAAT). There are some serious bad ass
quitters in here. Lean on them for help .
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Ok guys,I moved my quit date to today. WE did it, husband and I flushed our last can down the toilet last night. My last chew was 9pm last night. I posted roll this morning.
I am feeling very, very uncomfortable right now and feel like I might cry.
I keep getting cravings every few minutes since I woke up. It's like a rising panic, kind of like the dream where you look down and don't have any clothes on. Like a "OH NO, I forgot something really important!!" and then the realization.
Just trying not to get really pissed off at my 4 year old son today, fucking a he knows how to push my buttons.
GOOD JOB!!!! The next few days are the hardest and trust me they too shall pass. For the time being just focus on the now. This crave shall pass as well. Also please do not take it out on your children. They didnt make you start this addiction. When you feel yourself getting ready to explode or the start of a panic attack just sit down and concentrate on your breathing. Look up on Google or Youtube "belly breathing" for panic attacks.
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Just keep it out of your face today. That's all you need to do. Just for today. We'll work on tomorrow when it gets here. You've got this and we're right here to walk the walk with you.
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I KNEW it was gonna be like this. That's why my intro post is called "Im so scared" IT's exactly as shitty as I thought it would be. only 12.5 hours in and i am going nuts. I read about people saying they are tired. Not me, I am wired and I am pissed off and I am ready to snap. I am so angry. I am so moody. And it is taking EVERY SINGLE OUNCE OF STRENGTH in my body to not scream at my child when he is climbing on me and kneeing, and clawing and asking questions that don't make sense in a loud screamy voice and getting up in my FACE and YELLING and I am going TO LOSE IT.
SO I scream into my pillow and I want to cry this sucks.
On top of it all he has this loud hacky fucking awful cough that is persistent and on a pattern of exactly 10 hacky coughs every 5 minutes.
Yeah, I know this addiction is not my kids' fault. No I'm not taking out my anger on my kid. It's very tempting for this withdrawal rage to come out on the only target around but that just can't happen.
I am venting.
I feel like a monster, I don't feel like myself.
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Ha. I am not normally a violent person, but I feel like I could have potential right now. If one of those sassy ghetto bitches got in my face right now, OH hell yes! I could so take her on right now.
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You MUST start exercising. You and hubby can walk or something together. I can't explain enough how much it helps. Increase your water intake. A lot is going to change: sleep patterns, moods, among other things. Exercise will help will this. Trust me!
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What Macamania said ^^^^^^^ Get up and move! Also look into the breathing techniques. It really works to lower you stress and combat panic attacks. Give it a shot..........what do you have to lose.
Also in a few days you will look back and realize your kid wasn't being that bad. Your on edge in an all out battle against the bitch we call Nic. Don't let that hoe win! Im going to keep my eye on this thread and you today. We quit together!
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Ok guys,I moved my quit date to today. WE did it, husband and I flushed our last can down the toilet last night. My last chew was 9pm last night. I posted roll this morning.
I am feeling very, very uncomfortable right now and feel like I might cry.
I keep getting cravings every few minutes since I woke up. It's like a rising panic, kind of like the dream where you look down and don't have any clothes on. Like a "OH NO, I forgot something really important!!" and then the realization.
Just trying not to get really pissed off at my 4 year old son today, fucking a he knows how to push my buttons.
GOOD JOB!!!! The next few days are the hardest and trust me they too shall pass. For the time being just focus on the now. This crave shall pass as well. Also please do not take it out on your children. They didnt make you start this addiction. When you feel yourself getting ready to explode or the start of a panic attack just sit down and concentrate on your breathing. Look up on Google or Youtube "belly breathing" for panic attacks.
You and your husband are badasses! This will be the best thing you have ever done for yourselves and your family. I promise that it will get better, and soon. While it is different for everyone, generally the first week blows. My peak was at about day 4-5. Then it has been an accelerating downhill since.
There is now no looking back. Y'all are quit. Now move forward. Hit the store today, if possible grab a bottle of water and walk there. Once you get there grab gum (lots) and several bags and flavors of sunflower seeds. Probably another bottle of water for the walk home. Spend lots of time here. That are thousands of threads and stories, which will all help keep y'all motivated.
You promised us all you are quit for today, now don't break that trust. We will worry about tomorrow when we all get up. You got this!
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Oh yeah baby, sugar. Sugar is making me feel better. I religiously count calories, but not this day. Giving myself a day off. Just had 3 graham crackers with some homemade icing and my anger is considerably numbed.
Yes, exercise is amazing, I use it for endorphin's regularly, I am getting on my treadclimber soon.
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Oh yeah baby, sugar. Sugar is making me feel better. I religiously count calories, but not this day. Giving myself a day off. Just had 3 graham crackers with some homemade icing and my anger is considerably numbed.
Yes, exercise is amazing, I use it for endorphin's regularly, I am getting on my treadclimber soon.
Glad you made the decision to quit today! and it's going to be rough. That rage is uncontrollable and every LITTLE thing pisses you off.
TAke it to that pillow or go in the garage and scream.
Exercise , sweat, drink a lot of water and cranberry juice, don't walk by a bathroom without having to use it. Flush it out quicker.
That energy will get sapped eventually, and fatigue will set in, but sleep when you can , it's like a "free pass" from nic time.
I quit with you today!
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Hey girl welcome to a little bit of hell! Hang in there , put them big girl panties on and smile at your kid every chance you can! Remember how you are feeling right now, you never want to go through this shit again, so everytime you get a crave you can say 'Finger' off nic! Thanks for proving me wrong. You came back, now get some numbers, use this site every second you can and if you have to chew on the coffee table to help curb the craves then by God do it! Damn proud of you! Quit on!
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Just took a killer bike ride and I feel the best I've felt all day. Though strangely enough I had two very strong cravings while riding, I think it's because my mind associates a "reward" after I get back to the house. Worried about sleeping tonight, but have some sleeping stuff in case. Can't wait for tonight at 9pm! 24 hours!
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Just took a killer bike ride and I feel the best I've felt all day. Though strangely enough I had two very strong cravings while riding, I think it's because my mind associates a "reward" after I get back to the house. Worried about sleeping tonight, but have some sleeping stuff in case. Can't wait for tonight at 9pm! 24 hours!
that right there is a huge victory!
I still get the flash in the head when I find something lost or do something that should get a reward... (oh, i'll get a dip)
But now, i will never, but that is still popping up in my mind. I welcome it though, cuz i am addicted to that crap and i want a reminder so i don't become complacent and slide away.
Keep it up girl.. second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day.
"What one man can do, another can do." (or chick)
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Just took a killer bike ride and I feel the best I've felt all day. Though strangely enough I had two very strong cravings while riding, I think it's because my mind associates a "reward" after I get back to the house. Worried about sleeping tonight, but have some sleeping stuff in case. Can't wait for tonight at 9pm! 24 hours!
that right there is a huge victory!
I still get the flash in the head when I find something lost or do something that should get a reward... (oh, i'll get a dip)
But now, i will never, but that is still popping up in my mind. I welcome it though, cuz i am addicted to that crap and i want a reminder so i don't become complacent and slide away.
Keep it up girl.. second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day.
"What one man can do, another can do." (or chick)
Awesome work so far. Yes your brain will keep fucking with you looking for a "reward". Keep set in your head that the reward is life or the extra $ in your bank account. Physical activity helps tremendously as you have learned, do nto be afraid to drop into pushups or jumping jacks when a craving comes on. Anger may always be a side affect, I still have a hair trigger temper at certain times; deal with it or just keep yourself out of those circumstances; and remember that the best way to not let little things bother you is to say FUCK IT. You may soon start to feel sluggish or "foggy" that shit really sucks because you will feel braindead or just mentally numb. This is like an out of body experience.
On a side note cinnamon candies worked really well for me as a replacement. Taking the weight off later is easy so focus on the quit first, then build on that positive outcome. OK so the weight loss may not be EASY, but really one issue at a time. Having the bike to ride will help with that as well (duh).
This quitting stuff is not easy, but it is totally worth it. Choose life!
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The first week is the hardest part....get past it and you are well on your way.
A few things to think about and/or do. Exercise as much as you can and drink alot of water. This will help you burn off alot of stress and get your mind on something else. It will also help you keep you from gaining weight. I worked out every day for an hour when I quit and it really helped.
Try to find something to tame the oral fixation monster. Everyone finds something different. Some use toothpicks, fireballs, mint candy, fake snuff. I found that beef jerky bites worked great for me. They are little chunks of compressed jerky that are about the size of a big dip. You can keep them in your cheek for quite a while and curb the urge.
As for the anger, you just have to try to keep calm and walk away. Exercise will help this too. Remember, if you dont quit there is a good chance you wont be around to bitch out anyone cause your face might fall off.
Make an appointment with your dentist that is about 30 days out. At that point you will want to have someone do a complete check of your mouth and it will relieve alot of anxiety that you will probably have. We all get torn up worrying and getting this done helps out more than you can know at this point. It also gives you a short goal to reach. As stated above you will have days where you are in the "fog" and days of anxiety and depression for no reason at all. It will come and go and is just your brain resetting itself.
Prepare for all kinds of weird things to happen to your mouth. Some get sores, sore throats, bleeding gums, etc. I was lucky and only got a few sores, but did have tongue issues. After about 1 week, my tongue felt like I burned it on hot coffee making it tingle and feel numb at times. I am on day 138 right now and it still comes and goes. It just goes to show you that it takes a long time for your body to get used to not being bathed in poison every day.
When you get the urge, turn it into something else.... Go for a run, drink a glass of water, eat some candy, turn on the radio and sing to yourself.....anything to get past the urge. After a week or so you will find yourself actually forgetting about getting that after dinner dip. It's hard to believe, but it will happen. I have days that I dont think about it at all and I dipped for 25 years.
QUIT ON and be strong!! AND POST EVERY DAY!!!!!
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AHH! You did it!
'welcome'
Don't worry, as awful and crappy as you might feel now, there are a few things you should know:
1.) The anger and restlessness WILL go away. It's temporary. Keep fighting!
2.) Just take it one day at a time. If that's too much, take it one hour at a time. If that's too much, take it one minute at a time. You can do it!
3.) You are going to be so happy you did this. It may not seem like it now...but you'll see.
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I'll be looking for you on roll today.
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Last night/evening was not so bad, and I even slept just fine with no meds or anything. But this morning is a sonofabitch again. At least I am alone in my house with noone to be crabby with but myself.
My husband kind of annoyed me though. He tries to be so tough. We are in this together, and he chewed way more than me and for longer and he is trying to write off the suckiness. He came home from work allll crabby and exhausted and temperamental and I didn't say anything but right away he made sure to start blaming his cold and how it is making him sooo miserable. OK yes he has a cold but a cold has never made him that bad. Then later we talk about our quit and I say "boy, I must've craved 50 times today" and he said "Oh I had like one craving"
I call B. S !!!
Quit being a tough guy honey, it doesn't help anyone. Grrrrrrr...
Makes me feel like I'm overreacting, but then again not because I'm almost certain he is just really really minimizing it.
Oh and we will not come on here, he doesn't do technology at all, he would never in a million years join an internet group.
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Everybody has a different experience. I too had one crave my first couple days... it just lasted for three days is all. Hang in there, it will get easier overtime.
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Whaaaaat? A guy would never pretend to be alright when he really isn't! If there's anything we men do, it's come clean and admit when we're having a hard time! Sarcasm
Don't worry, though. We guys know we're not fooling anyone when we do that. :P
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Whaaaaat? A guy would never pretend to be alright when he really isn't! If there's anything we men do, it's come clean and admit when we're having a hard time! Sarcasm
Don't worry, though. We guys know we're not fooling anyone when we do that. :P
Ha! That made me laugh, true enough :)
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Whaaaaat? A guy would never pretend to be alright when he really isn't! If there's anything we men do, it's come clean and admit when we're having a hard time! Sarcasm
Don't worry, though. We guys know we're not fooling anyone when we do that. :P
Ha! That made me laugh, true enough :)
Y'all are still badasses. We will help both of you through you if necessary, but get him to read some of the HOF speeches and other stories on here if he needs the motivation. It is really cool y'all are quitting together. But if he starts to waver, get his ass logged in and posting roll. I was skeptical at first, but these folks on here care and have been a huge motivator for me.
Take care, I quit with both of you today!
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Kick ass all day every day
wake up every day and say 'Finger' nic 'oh yeah'
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Whaaaaat? A guy would never pretend to be alright when he really isn't! If there's anything we men do, it's come clean and admit when we're having a hard time! Sarcasm
Don't worry, though. We guys know we're not fooling anyone when we do that. :P
Ha! That made me laugh, true enough :)
Y'all are still badasses. We will help both of you through you if necessary, but get him to read some of the HOF speeches and other stories on here if he needs the motivation. It is really cool y'all are quitting together. But if he starts to waver, get his ass logged in and posting roll. I was skeptical at first, but these folks on here care and have been a huge motivator for me.
Take care, I quit with both of you today!
Just like a man, he's trying to be strong for his wife! 'winker'
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Whaaaaat? A guy would never pretend to be alright when he really isn't! If there's anything we men do, it's come clean and admit when we're having a hard time! Sarcasm
Don't worry, though. We guys know we're not fooling anyone when we do that. :P
Ha! That made me laugh, true enough :)
Y'all are still badasses. We will help both of you through you if necessary, but get him to read some of the HOF speeches and other stories on here if he needs the motivation. It is really cool y'all are quitting together. But if he starts to waver, get his ass logged in and posting roll. I was skeptical at first, but these folks on here care and have been a huge motivator for me.
Take care, I quit with both of you today!
Just like a man, he's trying to be strong for his wife! 'winker'
You might have to have a hubbs and wife WWF match in the near future with that nic rage. Or somethin... :blink:
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Girl, come into live chat.
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Girl, come into live chat.
Im there for just a little longer. But I'll catch up with you soon. You have my digits. Text me if you need to.
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I've been back and forth with quitting for so long, not even actually attempting, just thinking about it. I did quit once years ago, then started again on pouches because I thought they were "healthier". I've now been starting long cut again because the pouches aren't cutting it anymore. I am so, so sick of this, but so, so addicted. After one hour I feel the intense need for nicotine. Haven't gone longer than that except when sleeping in a long time.
I am scared for a couple reasons, gaining weight that I worked so hard to lose, (only 10 pounds from goal) and scared about being irritable beyond control with my 3 children. And I'm scared of missing it. It's there for everything in my life.
What complicates things even more (but I guess helpful in this case) is that I have severe health anxiety/paranoia and every day I think about having cancer and check my mouth/teeth/gums obsessively.
When I get anywhere near past that one hour mark I feel like I turn into a monster! I can't imagine putting my family through my rage, and crazy irritability, anxiety, etc.
How do I control that? How do I control the weight gain?
Are there some tricks I should know about?
Dread. That's the word I have to describe quitting. But I am SICK of it. Blowing money I don't have on cans. $5.39 several times a week really does not fit into our meager budget and that's SO frickin selfish of me!
Having the inside of my mouth all wrinkly and sore and running my tongue over it panicking all day.
My teeth are turning YELLOW.
Hiding it from everyone outside of my house.
Cancer cancer cancer.
That's why I want to be done.
But gosh darn it I am petrified.
Hi there.
Fellow female addict here.
So let's look at this okay.
Thinking about quitting just isn't going to cut it. You actually have to not put the shit in your mouth. It is simple, but no, it is not easy to quit. One day, you will look back at your intro and realize that your addict brain just filled this in for you. I love it because it helps fuel my quit and hatred for nicotine. I remember feeling these same things and now, having more clarity and understanding about my addiction, I know I can help you.
Yes, you are addicted. This place works though if you let it. Don't think about "quitting for the rest of your life" That is just too damn overwhelming....for anyone with any addiction. Just focus on today. That is all that matters. If you don't quit and you do die, then tomorrow doesn't even matter anyway. You have control of today....only. Oh yeah, sorry, I'm rather direct sometimes.....oops....
Gaining weight. That can be emotionally and physically draining on us. I am going to tell you that it will be easier to lose weight than it would be to lose your jaw from mouth cancer. A few pounds is nothing. Dead people don't gain weight so that is the other option. Sounds crappy to me.
Irritability can't be avoided. It's going to happen as you detox, however, it is not to be taken out on your kiddos. It is not their fault you put yourself in this position. Find a solution.....can Grandma or someone take them for a few days....to let you battle the tough days? Regardless, life happens and we have to learn how to deal with it without Nicotine.....truth. I did everything with a dip in too. I get it. Guess what? Now you just have to do everything without it. No worries....for today, you can do it! Worry about tomorrow when it gets here.
You know you are paranoid and anxious because you damn well know you CAN get cancer and CAN die from crap right? It's not a mind game. It is fact and it screaming at you girl!!!! I understand your concern for how you act around your family but I guarantee your worst day is better than their worst day of burying you. Quit.
You say you seem to make it only one hour at a time. Okay, so let's just work on dealing with your addiction and quitting for just minutes at a time. You can chew gum, clean, work out, do laundry, play with your kids, walk the dog, go into chat, and then when your cravings are peaking, get some smokey mountain. It is completely tobacco and nicotine free. It will help with your oral fixation and take that craving from a 10 filled with rage and crazy down to a 3 where you can manage it......I swear it was the key for me to keep going thru the day.
Tricks? The first one is posting roll. If you make your promise early, first thing in the morning, then that so called LIFE that creeps in won't be able to get to you because you have already promised. Smokey mountain or "fake" is also helpful. Keep things handy to help with your oral fixation. Getting over that can be done down the line once you stop poisoning yourself. It's more than the money....we hate what we have spent on nicotine but the hatred for it goes much deeper than money. Keep your focus on your anger because of what you are putting yourself thru and what Big Tobacco does to people. Read. Read. Read. Go to chat....talk live with real people that CAN HELP SAVE YOUR LIFE. I've lost teeth. Yellow teeth can be fixed.
It's scary because you don't think you can do it. That is your addiction speaking. You can do it. This place works. Trust us.
Now, you just have to pick any single one hand that is held out for you.........
Chicks rule.
Lady G day 676
Quit like Fuck!
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Ha. I am not normally a violent person, but I feel like I could have potential right now. If one of those sassy ghetto bitches got in my face right now, OH hell yes! I could so take her on right now.
I almost punched a Barista on day 5. It was classic. This is normal. Keep fighting. Go to the gym and punch the heavy bag. Holy shit that is so fun and rewarding! Oh, by the way.....my husband still uses. Copenhagen is within my reach at any time. Remember....nothing gets in the way of your quit.....be strong. FU Nicotine!
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Ha. I am not normally a violent person, but I feel like I could have potential right now. If one of those sassy ghetto bitches got in my face right now, OH hell yes! I could so take her on right now.
I almost punched a Barista on day 5. It was classic. This is normal. Keep fighting. Go to the gym and punch the heavy bag. Holy shit that is so fun and rewarding! Oh, by the way.....my husband still uses. Copenhagen is within my reach at any time. Remember....nothing gets in the way of your quit.....be strong. FU Nicotine!
Preach on G I love it! Damn need to print and frame your post it was dead on from all angles! X Grizzgirl when your having bad times come in here and read this! Damn proud to be quit with you ladies! Quit on!
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I've been back and forth with quitting for so long, not even actually attempting, just thinking about it. I did quit once years ago, then started again on pouches because I thought they were "healthier". I've now been starting long cut again because the pouches aren't cutting it anymore. I am so, so sick of this, but so, so addicted. After one hour I feel the intense need for nicotine. Haven't gone longer than that except when sleeping in a long time.
I am scared for a couple reasons, gaining weight that I worked so hard to lose, (only 10 pounds from goal) and scared about being irritable beyond control with my 3 children. And I'm scared of missing it. It's there for everything in my life.
What complicates things even more (but I guess helpful in this case) is that I have severe health anxiety/paranoia and every day I think about having cancer and check my mouth/teeth/gums obsessively.
When I get anywhere near past that one hour mark I feel like I turn into a monster! I can't imagine putting my family through my rage, and crazy irritability, anxiety, etc.
How do I control that? How do I control the weight gain?
Are there some tricks I should know about?
Dread. That's the word I have to describe quitting. But I am SICK of it. Blowing money I don't have on cans. $5.39 several times a week really does not fit into our meager budget and that's SO frickin selfish of me!
Having the inside of my mouth all wrinkly and sore and running my tongue over it panicking all day.
My teeth are turning YELLOW.
Hiding it from everyone outside of my house.
Cancer cancer cancer.
That's why I want to be done.
But gosh darn it I am petrified.
Hi there.
Fellow female addict here.
So let's look at this okay.
Thinking about quitting just isn't going to cut it. You actually have to not put the shit in your mouth. It is simple, but no, it is not easy to quit. One day, you will look back at your intro and realize that your addict brain just filled this in for you. I love it because it helps fuel my quit and hatred for nicotine. I remember feeling these same things and now, having more clarity and understanding about my addiction, I know I can help you.
Yes, you are addicted. This place works though if you let it. Don't think about "quitting for the rest of your life" That is just too damn overwhelming....for anyone with any addiction. Just focus on today. That is all that matters. If you don't quit and you do die, then tomorrow doesn't even matter anyway. You have control of today....only. Oh yeah, sorry, I'm rather direct sometimes.....oops....
Gaining weight. That can be emotionally and physically draining on us. I am going to tell you that it will be easier to lose weight than it would be to lose your jaw from mouth cancer. A few pounds is nothing. Dead people don't gain weight so that is the other option. Sounds crappy to me.
Irritability can't be avoided. It's going to happen as you detox, however, it is not to be taken out on your kiddos. It is not their fault you put yourself in this position. Find a solution.....can Grandma or someone take them for a few days....to let you battle the tough days? Regardless, life happens and we have to learn how to deal with it without Nicotine.....truth. I did everything with a dip in too. I get it. Guess what? Now you just have to do everything without it. No worries....for today, you can do it! Worry about tomorrow when it gets here.
You know you are paranoid and anxious because you damn well know you CAN get cancer and CAN die from this crap right? It's not a mind game. It is fact and it is screaming at you girl!!!! I understand your concern for how you act around your family but I guarantee your worst day is better than their worst day of burying you. Quit.
You say you seem to make it only one hour at a time. Okay, so let's just work on dealing with your addiction and quitting for just minutes at a time. You can chew gum, clean, work out, do laundry, play with your kids, walk the dog, go into chat, and then when your cravings are peaking, get some smokey mountain. It is completely tobacco and nicotine free. It will help with your oral fixation and take that craving from a 10 filled with rage and crazy down to a 3 where you can manage it......I swear it was the key for me to keep going thru the day.
Tricks? The first one is posting roll. If you make your promise early, first thing in the morning, then that so called LIFE that creeps in won't be able to get to you because you have already promised. Smokey mountain or "fake" is also helpful. Keep things handy to help with your oral fixation. Getting over that can be done down the line once you stop poisoning yourself. It's more than the money....we hate what we have spent on nicotine but the hatred for it goes much deeper than money. Keep your focus on your anger because of what you are putting yourself thru and what Big Tobacco does to people. Read. Read. Read. Go to chat....talk live with real people that CAN HELP SAVE YOUR LIFE. I've lost teeth. Yellow teeth can be fixed.
It's scary because you don't think you can do it. That is your addiction speaking. You can do it. This place works. Trust us.
Now, you just have to pick any single one hand that is held out for you.........
Chicks rule.
Lady G day 676
Quit like Fuck!
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glad you are here. I worry a little about your quit if you can't get your husband to make the same commitment that you are by coming here. Making the commitment here every day and posting roll is very powerful--and you feel obligated to live up to your word.
Stay strong, lean on folks here.
The bonus is being able to ask anything and getting feedback on your experience so you know you aren't alone. You can read the same all over this site. So many people have shared their experiences and when you see that you really begin to believe you can do it.
Proud to quit with you today!
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I've been back and forth with quitting for so long, not even actually attempting, just thinking about it. I did quit once years ago, then started again on pouches because I thought they were "healthier". I've now been starting long cut again because the pouches aren't cutting it anymore. I am so, so sick of this, but so, so addicted. After one hour I feel the intense need for nicotine. Haven't gone longer than that except when sleeping in a long time.
I am scared for a couple reasons, gaining weight that I worked so hard to lose, (only 10 pounds from goal) and scared about being irritable beyond control with my 3 children. And I'm scared of missing it. It's there for everything in my life.
What complicates things even more (but I guess helpful in this case) is that I have severe health anxiety/paranoia and every day I think about having cancer and check my mouth/teeth/gums obsessively.
When I get anywhere near past that one hour mark I feel like I turn into a monster! I can't imagine putting my family through my rage, and crazy irritability, anxiety, etc.
How do I control that? How do I control the weight gain?
Are there some tricks I should know about?
Dread. That's the word I have to describe quitting. But I am SICK of it. Blowing money I don't have on cans. $5.39 several times a week really does not fit into our meager budget and that's SO frickin selfish of me!
Having the inside of my mouth all wrinkly and sore and running my tongue over it panicking all day.
My teeth are turning YELLOW.
Hiding it from everyone outside of my house.
Cancer cancer cancer.
That's why I want to be done.
But gosh darn it I am petrified.
HOly moly girl. Everyone had different quit stories? Nope... YOu and I are right on point. Its like looking in a mirror. I'm sorry I haven't been here to guide you but I'm gonna send you a pm as soon as I get done writing this. I cried reading your story. Because, its my story. The kids, not wanting to be a mean nasty person to them. The husband, dipping still (Mine has since quit also...yay!). Worried about gaining weight... me too. Cancer... I know a lot of people that are scared of that. But I wanted to let you know that I'm on day 159 now. And I never thought I would make it past day 4. I had grizzly in my mouth every day all day unless I was eating for 10 years. If I can quit, you can quit. I worried about my anger, being a bad mom, being moody. But its temporary. Once you get out of that fog, you will see that it gets so much better. You will have days that you have a tough time and you crave a dip. And that's where we come in... we will be here. And we will understand what your going through. Also, my husband quit and acted like nothing happened. No rage, no cravings that he mentioned... tough guy. But we all know guys are trained to act that way and they are big babies inside. Hehe. YOu just gotta quit for you. And you have to want it so bad that there is no way you would ever go back! I'm here for ya girl. I get you... I really do! Check yo pm's. XOXO- BadAsh
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I've been back and forth with quitting for so long, not even actually attempting, just thinking about it. I did quit once years ago, then started again on pouches because I thought they were "healthier". I've now been starting long cut again because the pouches aren't cutting it anymore. I am so, so sick of this, but so, so addicted. After one hour I feel the intense need for nicotine. Haven't gone longer than that except when sleeping in a long time.
I am scared for a couple reasons, gaining weight that I worked so hard to lose, (only 10 pounds from goal) and scared about being irritable beyond control with my 3 children. And I'm scared of missing it. It's there for everything in my life.
What complicates things even more (but I guess helpful in this case) is that I have severe health anxiety/paranoia and every day I think about having cancer and check my mouth/teeth/gums obsessively.
When I get anywhere near past that one hour mark I feel like I turn into a monster! I can't imagine putting my family through my rage, and crazy irritability, anxiety, etc.
How do I control that? How do I control the weight gain?
Are there some tricks I should know about?
Dread. That's the word I have to describe quitting. But I am SICK of it. Blowing money I don't have on cans. $5.39 several times a week really does not fit into our meager budget and that's SO frickin selfish of me!
Having the inside of my mouth all wrinkly and sore and running my tongue over it panicking all day.
My teeth are turning YELLOW.
Hiding it from everyone outside of my house.
Cancer cancer cancer.
That's why I want to be done.
But gosh darn it I am petrified.
HOly moly girl. Everyone had different quit stories? Nope... YOu and I are right on point. Its like looking in a mirror. I'm sorry I haven't been here to guide you but I'm gonna send you a pm as soon as I get done writing this. I cried reading your story. Because, its my story. The kids, not wanting to be a mean nasty person to them. The husband, dipping still (Mine has since quit also...yay!). Worried about gaining weight... me too. Cancer... I know a lot of people that are scared of that. But I wanted to let you know that I'm on day 159 now. And I never thought I would make it past day 4. I had grizzly in my mouth every day all day unless I was eating for 10 years. If I can quit, you can quit. I worried about my anger, being a bad mom, being moody. But its temporary. Once you get out of that fog, you will see that it gets so much better. You will have days that you have a tough time and you crave a dip. And that's where we come in... we will be here. And we will understand what your going through. Also, my husband quit and acted like nothing happened. No rage, no cravings that he mentioned... tough guy. But we all know guys are trained to act that way and they are big babies inside. Hehe. YOu just gotta quit for you. And you have to want it so bad that there is no way you would ever go back! I'm here for ya girl. I get you... I really do! Check yo pm's. XOXO- BadAsh
I agree with that lady up there! You two really do have similar stories. And you both have really strong motivation to keep quit. Ash, ChickDip, and the other ladies on this site are all very admirable quitters. As a guy, I had no idea the amount of women who used smokeless tobacco, but I'm really glad you all are here! It helps to remind us that tobacco does not discriminate whose lives it tries to ruin. Fortunately, we are all here making the good choice to refrain from using it, one day at a time.
Also, it was great seeing you in chat! Hopefully we will see you again soon. It really is a great place. You can talk about any struggles you're having, or just go somewhere to goof around and take your mind off of it for a while. Anymore, I just go there because that's where my friends are.
Quit with you today,
Invader
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Oh, oh! Also...we're watching you...muahahaha!
For example, I watched you go to your quit group tonight and share with them that you had a close call today, but the accountability on this site saved your quit. AGSOG, not only did this make ME very happy to see, but you also have MANY people who were proud of you. I think pretty much everyone who saw what you posted gave it the ol' thumbs up. And, you now know that this site works. That's huge.
You may not realize it, but things like what you did tonight makes the quits of those reading it stronger. Even those who have been around here for a while.
Keep up the good work. It WILL get better. I promise. Keep using the resources available to you, and punch Hubs on the arm if he wants to give up! You guys already have come too far.
- Invader
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Wow.....wanta know what QUIT smells like??
Stick you nose right here into this intro.
You rock Girl 'dance'
You cant control other peoples quit.
You can control yours.
Let that old you die.
Great start on a new life.
You were not created to need poison.
You never needed nicotine.... It was a lie the first time it touched you.
Dont let it ever touch you again.
I quit with you today.
Rawls 354
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hay girl i saw roll call from last nite. you mite not see this barryed in there so im puttin it here to (and i cleened it up some to make reedin eezyer.)
girl i want you to reed the tom and jenny story (http://caringbridgeclassic.org/mn/tomkern/history.htm) from bottom to top.
you could have a nuther week of suckyness. may be more. may be less. you disside if you want your family writin that blog.
i dont no how many friend i made here. i no each and evry one wood talk me down from the ledge. i no that afore i get that far i will here one a my kids writin kenzis words or my wife writin jennys.
thats what signin chewys contract means to me.
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Well she didn't make it.
She and her hubbs must have made the decision to continue to kill themselves together. Don't think your kids dint notice you dipping. "When i get older, in going to use mommy and daddy's 'gum'".
When you come to yours senses and really WANT to quit. Find your way back.
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I'm not sure you'll ever even read this, but if you do, let me tell you something from the perspective of someone whose parents use tobacco. If it sounds sappy or overly dramatic, I don't care. If it sounds too long winded, I don't care. I love my parents to death, and while I'd never blame them for my nicotine addiction, the fact they both smoke sure as hell didn't send me a good message.
I have a mother who has been through two quadruple bypasses, a stroke, and wears an oxygen mask. The entirety of my life I've heard her say "I'll quit when..." Well, guess what she still starts every morning of her life with after all her health problems? A cigarette. Gotta have that nicotine. But she only smokes once a day, you see. She uses those disgusting nicotine lozenges because she thinks "they're safer." Well, we just got word a few days ago that her neurologist discovered lesions on her brain from high blood pressure, caused by...guess what? Nicotine. In other words, she has irreparable brain damage from using nicotine lozenges, i.e. smokeless tobacco, and it's becoming more apparent by the day.
I have a father who lost both of his parents to lung cancer caused by tobacco within 6 months of each other. Do you know what he starts his morning with? A nice smoke. It defies any and all logic, but just gotta have that nicotine. And you know what he tells me when I beg him to quit? "Ah, come on, Cody. People have got to die of something." He isn't a bad man, he's just an addict. He's having a cat scan done in a few days, and I find myself literally shaking and breaking into a sweat thinking about it. I pray to God he isn't sick.
And do you know why neither one of them will quit? Because for reasons I'll never understand, they just can't bear a week or two of discomfort for a lifetime of peace of mind. And to see them continue to do this to themselves hurts me in ways I can't explain.
I'm not doing this for the sake of being dramatic. I'm not fishing for people to thumbs-up my post. I'm telling you this because I care, and the reality is this is not an uncommon story. And it's so easy to adapt it to two dipping parents. It might be your kid who is one day pacing around his or her apartment praying mom's dentist doesn't find a spot on her tongue. It might be your kid whose dad essentially says "I know this will kill me and I'm choosing it as my way to die - even though I know you worry."
Ash said you and her have similar stories. She fell off the wagon early on, but the thing is, she hopped right back on. I hope you do, too. You and your family deserve better than weekend tobacco binges. If you feel you need medication, I will understand that you know yourself better than me. But please do not put this off. Quit the day you get whatever pills you think you need. One way or another it's going to suck for a while. Nicotine withdrawal won't kill you, but continuing to use it will.
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I'm not sure you'll ever even read this, but if you do, let me tell you something from the perspective of someone whose parents use tobacco. If it sounds sappy or overly dramatic, I don't care. If it sounds too long winded, I don't care. I love my parents to death, and while I'd never blame them for my nicotine addiction, the fact they both smoke sure as hell didn't send me a good message.
I have a mother who has been through two quadruple bypasses, a stroke, and wears an oxygen mask. The entirety of my life I've heard her say "I'll quit when..." Well, guess what she still starts every morning of her life with after all her health problems? A cigarette. Gotta have that nicotine. But she only smokes once a day, you see. She uses those disgusting nicotine lozenges because she thinks "they're safer." Well, we just got word a few days ago that her neurologist discovered lesions on her brain from high blood pressure, caused by...guess what? Nicotine. In other words, she has irreparable brain damage from using nicotine lozenges, i.e. smokeless tobacco, and it's becoming more apparent by the day.
I have a father who lost both of his parents to lung cancer caused by tobacco within 6 months of each other. Do you know what he starts his morning with? A nice smoke. It defies any and all logic, but just gotta have that nicotine. And you know what he tells me when I beg him to quit? "Ah, come on, Cody. People have got to die of something." He isn't a bad man, he's just an addict. He's having a cat scan done in a few days, and I find myself literally shaking and breaking into a sweat thinking about it. I pray to God he isn't sick.
And do you know why neither one of them will quit? Because for reasons I'll never understand, they just can't bear a week or two of discomfort for a lifetime of peace of mind. And to see them continue to do this to themselves hurts me in ways I can't explain.
I'm not doing this for the sake of being dramatic. I'm not fishing for people to thumbs-up my post. I'm telling you this because I care, and the reality is this is not an uncommon story. And it's so easy to adapt it to two dipping parents. It might be your kid who is one day pacing around his or her apartment praying mom's dentist doesn't find a spot on her tongue. It might be your kid whose dad essentially says "I know this will kill me and I'm choosing it as my way to die - even though I know you worry."
Ash said you and her have similar stories. She fell off the wagon early on, but the thing is, she hopped right back on. I hope you do, too. You and your family deserve better than weekend tobacco binges. If you feel you need medication, I will understand that you know yourself better than me. But please do not put this off. Quit the day you get whatever pills you think you need. One way or another it's going to suck for a while. Nicotine withdrawal won't kill you, but continuing to use it will.
Damn....just.....Damn! Come to your senses! Don't let your kids see you die a horrific death, because you are selfish! Listen to what my man invader said , he's a grown ass man having to watch his parents kill themselves. You have little one's , please don't put there little souls through the torture of watching there parents die a slow death. Besides that it's f$$king disgusting!
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I'm not sure you'll ever even read this, but if you do, let me tell you something from the perspective of someone whose parents use tobacco. If it sounds sappy or overly dramatic, I don't care. If it sounds too long winded, I don't care. I love my parents to death, and while I'd never blame them for my nicotine addiction, the fact they both smoke sure as hell didn't send me a good message.
I have a mother who has been through two quadruple bypasses, a stroke, and wears an oxygen mask. The entirety of my life I've heard her say "I'll quit when..." Well, guess what she still starts every morning of her life with after all her health problems? A cigarette. Gotta have that nicotine. But she only smokes once a day, you see. She uses those disgusting nicotine lozenges because she thinks "they're safer." Well, we just got word a few days ago that her neurologist discovered lesions on her brain from high blood pressure, caused by...guess what? Nicotine. In other words, she has irreparable brain damage from using nicotine lozenges, i.e. smokeless tobacco, and it's becoming more apparent by the day.
I have a father who lost both of his parents to lung cancer caused by tobacco within 6 months of each other. Do you know what he starts his morning with? A nice smoke. It defies any and all logic, but just gotta have that nicotine. And you know what he tells me when I beg him to quit? "Ah, come on, Cody. People have got to die of something." He isn't a bad man, he's just an addict. He's having a cat scan done in a few days, and I find myself literally shaking and breaking into a sweat thinking about it. I pray to God he isn't sick.
And do you know why neither one of them will quit? Because for reasons I'll never understand, they just can't bear a week or two of discomfort for a lifetime of peace of mind. And to see them continue to do this to themselves hurts me in ways I can't explain.
I'm not doing this for the sake of being dramatic. I'm not fishing for people to thumbs-up my post. I'm telling you this because I care, and the reality is this is not an uncommon story. And it's so easy to adapt it to two dipping parents. It might be your kid who is one day pacing around his or her apartment praying mom's dentist doesn't find a spot on her tongue. It might be your kid whose dad essentially says "I know this will kill me and I'm choosing it as my way to die - even though I know you worry."
Ash said you and her have similar stories. She fell off the wagon early on, but the thing is, she hopped right back on. I hope you do, too. You and your family deserve better than weekend tobacco binges. If you feel you need medication, I will understand that you know yourself better than me. But please do not put this off. Quit the day you get whatever pills you think you need. One way or another it's going to suck for a while. Nicotine withdrawal won't kill you, but continuing to use it will.
Damn....just.....Damn! Come to your senses! Don't let your kids see you die a horrific death, because you are selfish! Listen to what my man invader said , he's a grown ass man having to watch his parents kill themselves. You have little one's , please don't put there little souls through the torture of watching there parents die a slow death. Besides that it's f$$king disgusting!
I buried my dad several weeks after my first daughter was born. In fact he was in the ICU down the hall from the maternity wing. His addictions killed him. He was a severe closet alcoholic and chain smoker. I was 23. The first time he was hospitalized was after he finally went unconcious from 5 days of throwing up blood, with myself and my younger brother cleaning up after him. We were 12 and 14. I still occasionally have nightmares that are rooted in my middle school and high school years. ( this is probably the most sharing I have ever done on this topic)
I may be quittng for me and my own health, but I Damn sure will not put my kids through hell because of my selfish behavior. Unfortunately my brother is on a different path, and doesn't appreciate when I draw comparisons. Fortunately we can talk about it, even if he won't change his behavior. Thankfully he doesn't have kids, but someday my girls may have to help deal with their uncle.
I am very disappointed to see the decision you and your husband have made. I hope someday you find your way back here. We will be waiting to help. Are you ready to let us?
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TO AGSOG: PLEASE READ THIS
Can you take the time to read 2 paragraphs.
Excerpt from Tom and Jenny Kern Story:
"...On June 3 he spiked a fever, and I took him to the hospital. They ambulanced him to Minneapolis. They found lesions in most of his internal organs. After 5 days of testing, they found that it was all squamous cell carcinoma. We brought our children to the hospital on June 10 to tell them that their dad was going to die. That has been one of the most painful times of my life. To see my children (ages 16, 12, 9, 7) touch their once robust, jolly father who lay lifeless in his hospital bed and know he was dying just killed me. Two days later, we were all around him as he took his last breath. Our oldest child threw herself on his legs and cried, “Don’t go, Dad!"
Stage 1 cancer, 1.3 centimeters in size – and he was dead in less than seven months from the day he was diagnosed. He never thought it would happen to him. Someone once asked me what the chances of getting cancer from chewing tobacco was, and I replied that it didn’t matter what the chances are if you are the one who gets it. You never know if it will be you...."
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I guess she wasn't sick enough of it to care.... Noone will ever be able to quit this shit until they learn to hate it. Can't just be sick of it. I can't count the times when I was killing myself with dip... that I said to myself I was sick of this shit...as I was packing another disgusting dip in... People you can walk away from this crap!!! It takes a lot of hate of your addiction and of big tobacco though... Again I say. The only thing that nicotine is good for is keeping you addicted to it and filling the pockets of assholes at big tobacco companies... Never go back!!! Save your life!!!
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I find this. It's very common to feel the way you felt, you are not different from other people who quit or try to quit. The typical person/addict will go to these for protection of their poison.
single/?p=825509t=1005775 (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=825509&t=1005775)
Read that, you'll find it interesting.
Each time you go back to the leaf, its pulls you in closer, been there done that, until i came to the ktc and fought for my freedom, health and life along side
quitters that wanted it as much as I did.
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Figured I'd come back to this post and let you all know I did it! DONE. Been quit for a week now and I'll never, ever start again. I'm doner than I've ever been. The first 4 days were hell on earth but I never wavered like last time. It's different this time, like someone said on this post "You can't just be sick of it, you have to hate it" I hate it. DONE. Forever.
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Figured I'd come back to this post and let you all know I did it! DONE. Been quit for a week now and I'll never, ever start again. I'm doner than I've ever been. The first 4 days were hell on earth but I never wavered like last time. It's different this time, like someone said on this post "You can't just be sick of it, you have to hate it" I hate it. DONE. Forever.
So what's next? Are you going to join July 16? Are you going to own up to caving and answer the three questions? In case you forgot, here they are:
1). What happened?
2). Why did it happen?
3). What are you going to do differently?
Be honest with yourself. Dig deep or get called out.
Accountability + Brother/Sisterhood = Success.
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Figured I'd come back to this post and let you all know I did it! DONE. Been quit for a week now and I'll never, ever start again. I'm doner than I've ever been. The first 4 days were hell on earth but I never wavered like last time. It's different this time, like someone said on this post "You can't just be sick of it, you have to hate it" I hate it. DONE. Forever.
So what's next? Are you going to join July 16? Are you going to own up to caving and answer the three questions? In case you forgot, here they are:
1). What happened?
2). Why did it happen?
3). What are you going to do differently?
Be honest with yourself. Dig deep or get called out.
Accountability + Brother/Sisterhood = Success.
Sounds like you're serious, now prove it and post roll daily, that's what this site is for, its the way it works, you know that.
Do what Raider says.
1 week is great, but you're not done forever, you are quit each day, every day, one day at a time.
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I'm not posting roll, so I guess I can't be part of this site. I just wanted to let you all know I quit. 100%. Done forever. Getting on to the internet every single day is not possible for me. I mean I guess I could do it until the weather warms up, but after that I am gone almost every weekend with NO internet. No, not even on my cheapo flip phone, it doesn't work.
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I'm not posting roll, so I guess I can't be part of this site. I just wanted to let you all know I quit. 100%. Done forever. Getting on to the internet every single day is not possible for me. I mean I guess I could do it until the weather warms up, but after that I am gone almost every weekend with NO internet. No, not even on my cheapo flip phone, it doesn't work.
Um.
OK?
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I'm not posting roll, so I guess I can't be part of this site. I just wanted to let you all know I quit. 100%. Done forever. Getting on to the internet every single day is not possible for me. I mean I guess I could do it until the weather warms up, but after that I am gone almost every weekend with NO internet. No, not even on my cheapo flip phone, it doesn't work.
You can text someone that you are quit, and they can post roll for you. I've done it many times, works like a champ..........
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I'm not posting roll, so I guess I can't be part of this site. I just wanted to let you all know I quit. 100%. Done forever. Getting on to the internet every single day is not possible for me. I mean I guess I could do it until the weather warms up, but after that I am gone almost every weekend with NO internet. No, not even on my cheapo flip phone, it doesn't work.
Um.
OK?
Nevermind, forget it.
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I'm not posting roll, so I guess I can't be part of this site. I just wanted to let you all know I quit. 100%. Done forever. Getting on to the internet every single day is not possible for me. I mean I guess I could do it until the weather warms up, but after that I am gone almost every weekend with NO internet. No, not even on my cheapo flip phone, it doesn't work.
You can text someone that you are quit, and they can post roll for you. I've done it many times, works like a champ..........
LAST time she was here, i gave her my digits. She doesn't want to post roll daily.
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I'm not posting roll, so I guess I can't be part of this site. I just wanted to let you all know I quit. 100%. Done forever. Getting on to the internet every single day is not possible for me. I mean I guess I could do it until the weather warms up, but after that I am gone almost every weekend with NO internet. No, not even on my cheapo flip phone, it doesn't work.
You can text someone that you are quit, and they can post roll for you. I've done it many times, works like a champ..........
LAST time she was here, i gave her my digits. She doesn't want to post roll daily.
Email works as well - public libraries offer internet access. I really hope this quit sticks this time but I am not holding my breath. :P
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I'm not posting roll, so I guess I can't be part of this site. I just wanted to let you all know I quit. 100%. Done forever. Getting on to the internet every single day is not possible for me. I mean I guess I could do it until the weather warms up, but after that I am gone almost every weekend with NO internet. No, not even on my cheapo flip phone, it doesn't work.
You can text someone that you are quit, and they can post roll for you. I've done it many times, works like a champ..........
LAST time she was here, i gave her my digits. She doesn't want to post roll daily.
Ha! She will have caved before the month is out with that attitude. She thinks she's gonna be praised for bailing on her quit and coming back 6 months later talking about being quit a week.
Agirlsickofgrizz, lady, get real. Either be a part of our community or don't, but you won't be hearing praise from me if you've only got your dainty little toes in the water.
You are supposed to be quit and should've reached the Hall of Fame in February 2016, but you decided to go it alone and look where that got you.
I can tell you now where this will end if you don't sack up and commit to being accountable.
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I'm not posting roll, so I guess I can't be part of this site. I just wanted to let you all know I quit. 100%. Done forever. Getting on to the internet every single day is not possible for me. I mean I guess I could do it until the weather warms up, but after that I am gone almost every weekend with NO internet. No, not even on my cheapo flip phone, it doesn't work.
You can text someone that you are quit, and they can post roll for you. I've done it many times, works like a champ..........
LAST time she was here, i gave her my digits. She doesn't want to post roll daily.
Ha! She will have caved before the month is out with that attitude. She thinks she's gonna be praised for bailing on her quit and coming back 6 months later talking about being quit a week.
Agirlsickofgrizz, lady, get real. Either be a part of our community or don't, but you won't be hearing praise from me if you've only got your dainty little toes in the water.
You are supposed to be quit and should've reached the Hall of Fame in February 2016, but you decided to go it alone and look where that got you.
I can tell you now where this will end if you don't sack up and commit to being accountable.
Actually I didn't give up last time because I "decided to go it alone" I was posting roll every day and chatting in here all the time, I gave up because I was weak and not really into it 100%.
It's different this time, never last time was I OK with saying "never again, ever forever" this time yeah, music to my ears, never again!
I guarantee you I won't be caved in a month, you'll see.
I still love coming in here and reading all the different stuff, stories and speeches and forums. Very interesting and motivating and inspiring to this Fellow Quitter.
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I'm not posting roll, so I guess I can't be part of this site. I just wanted to let you all know I quit. 100%. Done forever. Getting on to the internet every single day is not possible for me. I mean I guess I could do it until the weather warms up, but after that I am gone almost every weekend with NO internet. No, not even on my cheapo flip phone, it doesn't work.
You can text someone that you are quit, and they can post roll for you. I've done it many times, works like a champ..........
LAST time she was here, i gave her my digits. She doesn't want to post roll daily.
Ha! She will have caved before the month is out with that attitude. She thinks she's gonna be praised for bailing on her quit and coming back 6 months later talking about being quit a week.
Agirlsickofgrizz, lady, get real. Either be a part of our community or don't, but you won't be hearing praise from me if you've only got your dainty little toes in the water.
You are supposed to be quit and should've reached the Hall of Fame in February 2016, but you decided to go it alone and look where that got you.
I can tell you now where this will end if you don't sack up and commit to being accountable.
Actually I didn't give up last time because I "decided to go it alone" I was posting roll every day and chatting in here all the time, I gave up because I was weak and not really into it 100%.
It's different this time, never last time was I OK with saying "never again, ever forever" this time yeah, music to my ears, never again!
I guarantee you I won't be caved in a month, you'll see.
I still love coming in here and reading all the different stuff, stories and speeches and forums. Very interesting and motivating and inspiring to this Fellow Quitter.
If you're in, go all in. Prove us all wrong.
I will tell you VERY FEW people are successful by just dropping by and reading, without the daily commitment to posting roll, and holding another brother accountable. If you're just going to troll this site, than just troll, but don't pop up every now and then to 'check in with us'. Not how this works.
And I've heard every excuse why you can't. The world if full of can'ts. But success comes in cans.
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I'm not posting roll, so I guess I can't be part of this site. I just wanted to let you all know I quit. 100%. Done forever. Getting on to the internet every single day is not possible for me. I mean I guess I could do it until the weather warms up, but after that I am gone almost every weekend with NO internet. No, not even on my cheapo flip phone, it doesn't work.
You can text someone that you are quit, and they can post roll for you. I've done it many times, works like a champ..........
LAST time she was here, i gave her my digits. She doesn't want to post roll daily.
Ha! She will have caved before the month is out with that attitude. She thinks she's gonna be praised for bailing on her quit and coming back 6 months later talking about being quit a week.
Agirlsickofgrizz, lady, get real. Either be a part of our community or don't, but you won't be hearing praise from me if you've only got your dainty little toes in the water.
You are supposed to be quit and should've reached the Hall of Fame in February 2016, but you decided to go it alone and look where that got you.
I can tell you now where this will end if you don't sack up and commit to being accountable.
Actually I didn't give up last time because I "decided to go it alone" I was posting roll every day and chatting in here all the time, I gave up because I was weak and not really into it 100%.
It's different this time, never last time was I OK with saying "never again, ever forever" this time yeah, music to my ears, never again!
I guarantee you I won't be caved in a month, you'll see.
I still love coming in here and reading all the different stuff, stories and speeches and forums. Very interesting and motivating and inspiring to this Fellow Quitter.
If you're in, go all in. Prove us all wrong.
I will tell you VERY FEW people are successful by just dropping by and reading, without the daily commitment to posting roll, and holding another brother accountable. If you're just going to troll this site, than just troll, but don't pop up every now and then to 'check in with us'. Not how this works.
And I've heard every excuse why you can't. The world if full of can'ts. But success comes in cans.
I pmed you a little while ago sickofgrizz.... I want to point out to anybody looking around that this is a classic example of someone thinking they aren't an addict like everyone else who posts roll daily on this site. It is easier for these type of people to view their addiction as some bad habit they are trying to kick. From time to time I look over all of the members who aren't here anymore and ask myself why did they leave here and what are they doing now. Statistics beat the crap out of the notion that someone can do this on their own. Because any of you feel "real good" now about your quit doesn't mean you will next week or tomorrow. We have to stay quit today and that is the end of it. There is no damn way I could have ever thought about still being quit 954 days after I came here if I hadn't come back in here every damn day since September 18th, 2013! If you are on the fence come on over and take your life back! They are folks here that can help you if you let them! Hell, you'll help yourself just by being here every damn day!!!
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891 Days Quit today and the only REASON is because of this damn thing called ROLL and my fellow quitters in FFFoQ who I only know as keyboard warriors! But I'm friggin quit yet because of this frivolous trivial thing called ROLL! Get on the train or get off but your wishy washy attitude hurts other folks who come here to quit, by making them think they can do this half assed..........
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Really? You're no different than the rest of us, you will fail alone just like you did before you found ktc. I hope I'm wrong but the odds are stacked against you! Goodluck on your journey alone, I hope you make it, I truly hate to see anyone find something that works only to quit and fail. Quit on!
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I'm not posting roll, so I guess I can't be part of this site. I just wanted to let you all know I quit. 100%. Done forever. Getting on to the internet every single day is not possible for me. I mean I guess I could do it until the weather warms up, but after that I am gone almost every weekend with NO internet. No, not even on my cheapo flip phone, it doesn't work.
You can text someone that you are quit, and they can post roll for you. I've done it many times, works like a champ..........
LAST time she was here, i gave her my digits. She doesn't want to post roll daily.
Ha! She will have caved before the month is out with that attitude. She thinks she's gonna be praised for bailing on her quit and coming back 6 months later talking about being quit a week.
Agirlsickofgrizz, lady, get real. Either be a part of our community or don't, but you won't be hearing praise from me if you've only got your dainty little toes in the water.
You are supposed to be quit and should've reached the Hall of Fame in February 2016, but you decided to go it alone and look where that got you.
I can tell you now where this will end if you don't sack up and commit to being accountable.
Actually I didn't give up last time because I "decided to go it alone" I was posting roll every day and chatting in here all the time, I gave up because I was weak and not really into it 100%.
It's different this time, never last time was I OK with saying "never again, ever forever" this time yeah, music to my ears, never again!
I guarantee you I won't be caved in a month, you'll see.
I still love coming in here and reading all the different stuff, stories and speeches and forums. Very interesting and motivating and inspiring to this Fellow Quitter.
If you're in, go all in. Prove us all wrong.
I will tell you VERY FEW people are successful by just dropping by and reading, without the daily commitment to posting roll, and holding another brother accountable. If you're just going to troll this site, than just troll, but don't pop up every now and then to 'check in with us'. Not how this works.
And I've heard every excuse why you can't. The world if full of can'ts. But success comes in cans.
I pmed you a little while ago sickofgrizz.... I want to point out to anybody looking around that this is a classic example of someone thinking they aren't an addict like everyone else who posts roll daily on this site. It is easier for these type of people to view their addiction as some bad habit they are trying to kick. From time to time I look over all of the members who aren't here anymore and ask myself why did they leave here and what are they doing now. Statistics beat the crap out of the notion that someone can do this on their own. Because any of you feel "real good" now about your quit doesn't mean you will next week or tomorrow. We have to stay quit today and that is the end of it. There is no damn way I could have ever thought about still being quit 954 days after I came here if I hadn't come back in here every damn day since September 18th, 2013! If you are on the fence come on over and take your life back! They are folks here that can help you if you let them! Hell, you'll help yourself just by being here every damn day!!!
Worded perfectly. Its a pile of dog shit for anyone to think that they can handle this alone. Its the same reason that there are AA groups out there, or NA groups out there. We need support because we are all addicts just the same. I can guarantee you, without KTC and the support of my brothers/sisters I wouldn't have lasted a week.
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success comes in cans.
...is this a test? roflmao
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You have found yourself here for a reason, because this method WORKS. Through the pain, haze, rage, depression, everything these BAQ's will stick it out with you and keep you from falling.
I had a member from my group post me his daily promise after he was kicked out for a temporary span of time. Why? Just that single line to this place is stronger than you quitting by yourself. Why not shake the pride and use this place you anchored yourself to instead of being a special butterfly in the wind?
Either way, best wishes to you and Your Quit.