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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: PatrickC on March 20, 2009, 04:09:00 PM
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I need everyone's help...
I've been poking around the site for a few days now with the plan to quit saturday when my girlfriend got back from a trip - like I needed a chaperone or something.
Well, after continuing to read the stories, I just flushed the rest of my "last tin" away. Why not start now.
I'm not a lifer dipper like some of the guys on the site. I'm just three years in, but the K-bear got me good. Funny thing is that I dipped a few times in high school and college but puked everytime, so I just figured it wasn't for me. But, about 3 years ago, my wife took off and I was drinking a ton. Ironically, I started dipping just to keep the booze out of my mouth for a half hour at a time. Well, wouldn't you know it, after a few weeks, I was on a steady tin-a-day diet.
Once it got bad, I tried to hide it. People thought I had gastro-intestinal issues I was going to the bathroom so much to sneak a dip. I've driven way out of the way just to grab a tin. I've created unnecessary errands just to get away and grab a lipper. People talk about how much money they wasted... I'd like to calculate how much time I've wasted. Overall, it just controls you like nothing else.
And I've had it. It's not like I catch a buzz anymore, so why am I doing it. My car smells like shit, my lip is rippled up, my breath stinks.
So I quit... I tell myself I've tried to quit before, but I really havent. I made myself not bring a tin on a trip to Costa Rica last summer because I knew it would be hard to get down there. So, I went 8 days. I was jonesing for it the whole time, but my hands were tied. It's not like they sold it at the hotel convenience store. But, of course, as soon as I got back I went to play a round of golf and when we hit the 5th tee, I saw a convenience store up the road so I told the guys I was with I'd meet them on the 6th fairway, and I grabbed a tin.
This time has to be different because I need to stop, but I finally WANT to stop. I never wanted to before, I just thought it would be a good idea. But I need to get rid of it for good.
The tough part for me is going to be that I associate a lot of things with packing a lipper - golf, hunting, fishing, driving, football games, drinking, crapping.... things I will continue to do alot of. When I get in the car, it's shut door... turn key... pack a dip... pull onto road. Would love some suggestions to help get me through the urges.
So, I'm joining the June '09 group. I promise if you guys can help me get through this, I'll return the favor for you guys now, and for other guys in the future.
Sorry for the long post, but writing it helped confirm to myself why I needed to quit.
Thanks, and stay on my case about it for a while. I'll be on role call tomorrow.
-Patrick
Also, a special thanks to iuchewie. When I registered, the email he sent me through the site was enough to bring me back to the site to read more stories... And the stories helped me find the balls to face my problem. Thanks.
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Welcome Patrick, you've made a great choice. Head over to June 09, post up and get involved. Don't be afraid to shout out if you need anything.
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Welcome Patrick!!
Hang in there and know you're doing the right thing. One of the biggest things for me staying quit so far on day 24 is to have this website accessible during craves. Start reading as much as possible when the crave hits and read more when you're feeling good to further strengthen your resolve.
I'm sure everyone here can relate to where you're coming from. Isn't it pretty sad when you need a chew while crapping. Been there brother. PM me if you need anything. See you at roll call.
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Welcome. Great decision.
You can do this.
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The tough part for me is going to be that I associate a lot of things with packing a lipper - golf, hunting, fishing, driving, football games, drinking, crapping.... things I will continue to do alot of. When I get in the car, it's shut door... turn key... pack a dip... pull onto road. Would love some suggestions to help get me through the urges.
Patrick --
Nice work jumping on board. Glad to have you.
Regarding your triggers, I can't help but notice you're just like me and everyone else here for the most part. EVERYTHING is a trigger for us. Being awake is a trigger. Every inch of daylight that nic bitch saw she took the chance to dig in the claws deeper.
My point is we can't avoid them. There are clearly some that are tougher than others that I still am avoiding...golf, long car rides (alone), poker or whatever with buddies. At some point in the near future, I'll face all these again. I am at the point where I know I can handle them.
My advice to you would be get a couple days under your belt. Decide now NO MATTER WHAT - you are not going to chew - do it day by day, hour by hour and battle through. The 1st couple suck, but you'll make it. Then use that as confidence building material. You'll one day realize - that's the first time I've mowed the lawn in 3 years w/o dipping, or whatever it may be. Each little victory will reinforce that you can beat this shit. It doesn't matter if you chewed 30 years, 3 years or 3 months - you obviously know that you don't do well with it and need it the hell out of your life.
Good luck Bro.
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PatrickC,
Welcome to the site and congratulations on your decision to quit dipping. While you may or may not have had an easy time deciding on quitting, actually doing so will present new challenges to you. This wonÂ’t be easy, but you will gain far more by quitting than you ever would if you continued to dip.
From what IÂ’ve read about your story, youÂ’re very similar to what most of us have gone through.The tough part for me is going to be that I associate a lot of things with packing a lipper - golf, hunting, fishing, driving, football games, drinking, crapping.... things I will continue to do alot of. When I get in the car, it's shut door... turn key... pack a dip... pull onto road.
We all had our triggers, we dipped to alleviate a lot of different factors and to calm ourselves. Now that nicotine has been removed from our arsenal, we must learn to live without it. It is not, nor will not be an easy fix, there is no “magic bullet”, however, given this site and the tools that have been made available to us, failure isn’t an option.
There will be trying days, days where you’ll feel like giving up or “cave”, that is where this site is a life saver. If you are having difficulties coping, come here and let someone know what’s going on, we are all here to help one another. Take your frustrations out on us, don’t keep those feelings bottled up inside, that is what we’re here for. Stay true to yourself and remind yourself that you can do this-because you can!
Dipping sucks and being a slave to the nic bitch just really isnÂ’t what itÂ’s cracked up to be. The nic bitch has been in control long enough, itÂ’s time for you to take control again! You can do this!
Stay Strong-Stay Quit!
MF
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Welcome Patrick!!
Hang in there and know you're doing the right thing. One of the biggest things for me staying quit so far on day 24 is to have this website accessible during craves. Start reading as much as possible when the crave hits and read more when you're feeling good to further strengthen your resolve.
I'm sure everyone here can relate to where you're coming from. Isn't it pretty sad when you need a chew while crapping. Been there brother. PM me if you need anything. See you at roll call.
Dam dan I just realized I haven't had a dipshit in 22 days,,,,, holy fuck....
Btw fuck you wintergreen
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haha dip shits were the best. After a while i felt like i only shit cause i dipped
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Hey everybody. Thanks for the support. First day down. I had my cravings, and for some reason, my whole body is tingling, but I'm sticking to it.
Fuck you K-Bear...
No dip today.... or ever again.
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PatrickC, welcome to the June 2009 group. I'm just a few days ahead of you. I just finished my first 7 days. One week - no dip. It's the 3rd 7 day mark I've hit in about a month so getting through tomorrow will be a big acheivment for me. I can do it, you can do it, we can kick this habit in the nuts. Hang with me to the 100 day mark, my friend.
Oh yeah, fuck you Skoal Long Cut Straight.