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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Andre the Grande on June 15, 2015, 06:21:00 PM
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i am two weeks into my quit and need some others to rage with at times. Help a brother out
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I just want to know where to post roll. I have quit before, for up to 6 months once. I am no different than a 1000 different people here. I am 30, two boys, beutiful wife. Everything is great except I am an addict to a plant. Well not anymore!
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Hey Brother check out this link. It explains how to post roll even with a phone.
topic/1003072/1/#new (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/1003072/1/#new)
It's a hard road but you can do it. The accountability here is awesome and has kept me straight so far.
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Good to have you Andre. Read all the shit you can on here and post roll every day. You are further in your quit than me. I'm jealous....lol
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Andre, welcome! Nice job going 15 on your own. I just sent you a private message with my digits so you can PM me, text me, etc when you need to rage. Check your inbox (upper right corner of this page).
Proud to quit with you brother.
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You didn't quit before, but merely stopped for 6 months. As addicts we need to rewire our brains to know the difference. 17 day of QUIT is bad ass!
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The last time I stopped I started to feel that same old " I can have one" thoughts that is talked about here so much. And then the season changed from winter to spring and I caved so hard. It took me 4 years to work up the balls to stand up to Nicky again. And here I am, feeling good. Knowing full and well that "one" is no option anymore. And summer is half over. I quit in the summer and my first season change is coming..... I am not complacent and have all these people on my side now. So I think I will go into the fall excited for football and not afraid of Nicky.
On a side note: still having a hard time wrapping my head around forever. It's kinda like when I was a kid in Sunday school trying to figure out eternity. But forever is the deal here, and today my name is on roll. So that's one more day towards forever.
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The last time I stopped I started to feel that same old " I can have one" thoughts that is talked about here so much. And then the season changed from winter to spring and I caved so hard. It took me 4 years to work up the balls to stand up to Nicky again. And here I am, feeling good. Knowing full and well that "one" is no option anymore. And summer is half over. I quit in the summer and my first season change is coming..... I am not complacent and have all these people on my side now. So I think I will go into the fall excited for football and not afraid of Nicky.
On a side note: still having a hard time wrapping my head around forever. It's kinda like when I was a kid in Sunday school trying to figure out eternity. But forever is the deal here, and today my name is on roll. So that's one more day towards forever.
Forever is almost like a foreign language for me. I have to slow it down to ODAAT or forever is unattainable. Thanks for inspiring us newbies Andre, I quit with you today, and just today. See you back here tomorrow when we'll make another choice.
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The last time I stopped I started to feel that same old " I can have one" thoughts that is talked about here so much. And then the season changed from winter to spring and I caved so hard. It took me 4 years to work up the balls to stand up to Nicky again. And here I am, feeling good. Knowing full and well that "one" is no option anymore. And summer is half over. I quit in the summer and my first season change is coming..... I am not complacent and have all these people on my side now. So I think I will go into the fall excited for football and not afraid of Nicky.
On a side note: still having a hard time wrapping my head around forever. It's kinda like when I was a kid in Sunday school trying to figure out eternity. But forever is the deal here, and today my name is on roll. So that's one more day towards forever.
Forever is almost like a foreign language for me. I have to slow it down to ODAAT or forever is unattainable. Thanks for inspiring us newbies Andre, I quit with you today, and just today. See you back here tomorrow when we'll make another choice.
Look my friends forever is definitely the goal but strive to get through today. Some people get complacent looking to far ahead! Congratulate yourself for every plus 1 it's a helluva accomplishment from where we came from! Damn proud to be quit with you brothers!
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The last time I stopped I started to feel that same old " I can have one" thoughts that is talked about here so much. And then the season changed from winter to spring and I caved so hard. It took me 4 years to work up the balls to stand up to Nicky again. And here I am, feeling good. Knowing full and well that "one" is no option anymore. And summer is half over. I quit in the summer and my first season change is coming..... I am not complacent and have all these people on my side now. So I think I will go into the fall excited for football and not afraid of Nicky.
On a side note: still having a hard time wrapping my head around forever. It's kinda like when I was a kid in Sunday school trying to figure out eternity. But forever is the deal here, and today my name is on roll. So that's one more day towards forever.
Forever is almost like a foreign language for me. I have to slow it down to ODAAT or forever is unattainable. Thanks for inspiring us newbies Andre, I quit with you today, and just today. See you back here tomorrow when we'll make another choice.
Look my friends forever is definitely the goal but strive to get through today. Some people get complacent looking to far ahead! Congratulate yourself for every plus 1 it's a helluva accomplishment from where we came from! Damn proud to be quit with you brothers!
for ever dont exist for me man. i under stand today. i mostly get tomorow. i can rap my head round next year. after that i dont no. i cant promiss i wont disside to dip tomorow. but i can worry bout that when its tomorow. today i just worry bout today.
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Son of a bitch!!!!!!!!!! I was half way through a marathon intro, that told the story of me. I the mother fucking power went out!!!!! when it came back on and I got the computer running again. GONE!!!! all GONE!!!!! 'bang head' 'bang head' 'bang head' 'bang head' I just got bumped by GOD!!!!
I will try again tomorrow 'Crazy'
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Andrews Intro (Not as good as the one God took from me)
Days QUIT = 100
I have been a chewer since 2000. I had my first chew while on a bicycle ride out in the country, during the summer between my 8th grade and freshman year. It was Copenhagen Black, and I was so sick after chewing it that I thought I was going to die. I knew it was bad, it was tobacco, and tobacco made my grandmother a shriveled, weak, and unhealthy woman many years to early. But I "tried" it. And that was that.
I started by having older kids buy my cans for me. And at some point I started smoking as well. I donÂ’t remember my first cigarette, but I combo used until I was a freshman in college. The entire time I was living with my parents I was a ninja chew/smoker. My dad busted me once and had me use the patch my junior year in high school. The minute my patches ran out at the end of the month I was buying a can to feed my addiction.
The real heavy use started in college. I was open with my use back then and had a can a day problem. I never even thought about slowing down tell I graduated. And then I graduated, and I never slowed down.
After I graduated college, I moved home and somehow met my wife. She is incredibly out of my league. She is smarter, harder working, and better looking. I have no freaking idea what she saw in me (starting to question the smarter part of that last sentence). After 6 months we were engaged. I stopped the first time, and longest stoppage, in the fall of 2009. I caved in early June 2010, at my bachelor party; a nasty ass cigar got me. FUCK....
Want to know exactly the wrong way to start a marriage, Lying to your new wife about chewing while hiding it behind her back. She had an idea that I was hiding something; I was being even grouchier than normal and was sneaking around. Also, I was holding resent towards her, because my addict brain was telling me "That bitch wont let you kill yourself, how dare she?". It was a powder keg, and when she found my can stashed in my car. BOOM. But guess what, there was more BOOMS to come. Over the next 4 years I "tried" to quit, but each time I caved and hid it, and lied. Each time, I got caught, and ripped my wifeÂ’s trust in me to nada. The final time, after she took the kids for a few days too her folks, she came back and told me... "Kill yourself, with that plant. But don't you ever fucking lie to me again.". All, my dumbass addict brain could think at the time was ALL RIGHT!!! I get my wife and my chew. Yippee!!!
Everything seemed to be going fine for about a year. She seriously put up a front that she didnÂ’t care I was killing myself and I wasnÂ’t lying anymore about chewing. My mouth was turning into hamburger though, and my dentist said that some of the spots made her nervous. WHAT??? What does nervous mean? Well dumb ass that means she thinks you could seriously develop cancer in those areas soon. That appointment was in May and I quit June 1. I am still working on my lying and slipped up early in my quit and lied about drinking alcohol one day. BOOM!!! But since then the waters have been pretty smooth. I try hard to dump my crazy ass thoughts, on you poor assholes as much as I can, to save the people I love, no offense. All of my prior transgressions are in the past; I can only make promises for today.
As of June 1rst. 2015, I am quit for good, now.
P.S. It took me this long to do an intro, don't hold your breathe on a HOF speech.
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Bad ass bro bad ass.
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The last time I stopped I started to feel that same old " I can have one" thoughts that is talked about here so much. And then the season changed from winter to spring and I caved so hard. It took me 4 years to work up the balls to stand up to Nicky again. And here I am, feeling good. Knowing full and well that "one" is no option anymore. And summer is half over. I quit in the summer and my first season change is coming..... I am not complacent and have all these people on my side now. So I think I will go into the fall excited for football and not afraid of Nicky.
On a side note: still having a hard time wrapping my head around forever. It's kinda like when I was a kid in Sunday school trying to figure out eternity. But forever is the deal here, and today my name is on roll. So that's one more day towards forever.
Forever is almost like a foreign language for me. I have to slow it down to ODAAT or forever is unattainable. Thanks for inspiring us newbies Andre, I quit with you today, and just today. See you back here tomorrow when we'll make another choice.
Look my friends forever is definitely the goal but strive to get through today. Some people get complacent looking to far ahead! Congratulate yourself for every plus 1 it's a helluva accomplishment from where we came from! Damn proud to be quit with you brothers!
I try not to look at it as forever. I am an addict. I always will be. It is one quit day at a time. What matters is today. I will deal with tomorrow, tomorrow. Right now I choose not to cave.
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All of my prior transgressions are in the past; I can only make promises for today.
This is what it's all about. Awesome share Andre and congrats again on HOF! You're the man!
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You go andre! 100 day's is badass! I quit with you every day!
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Congratulations Brother!!!!
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I want to address something that has been talked about a lot and I mean A LOT. Posting roll.
I love posting roll and doing immediately after I wake up.
Posting roll:
- Reminds me that I am an addict
- Let's other quiters know that I am promising to not use today.
- let's me avoid being verbally beat down by my friends and fellow quitters.
- Allows me to verbally beat down lazy and complacent screw ups.
- Is the one "free" thing I get to do for myself, almost like a pat on my own back.
- Takes me one step further from being controlled by a substance.
The very best part of posting roll is that I will get to do it again tomorrow. I will see you on roll.
*i am sure i missed a few great reasons to post roll, so feel free to add to my list.
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I want to address something that has been talked about a lot and I mean A LOT. Posting roll.
I love posting roll and doing immediately after I wake up.
Posting roll:
- Reminds me that I am an addict
- Let's other quiters know that I am promising to not use today.
- let's me avoid being verbally beat down by my friends and fellow quitters.
- Allows me to verbally beat down lazy and complacent screw ups.
- Is the one "free" thing I get to do for myself, almost like a pat on my own back.
- Takes me one step further from being controlled by a substance.
The very best part of posting roll is that I will get to do it again tomorrow. I will see you on roll.
*i am sure i missed a few great reasons to post roll, so feel free to add to my list.
I've got one:
- Shows that I am stronger than a weed in a can
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@Arianna Grande!
Congrats on your day 200!
I quit with you today.
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Andre....day 200!!! Awesome milestone brother. I am proud to post a +1 with you each and every day.
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Andre....day 200!!! Awesome milestone brother. I am proud to post a +1 with you each and every day.
Congratulations my friend! 200 is badass!
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Andre....day 200!!! Awesome milestone brother. I am proud to post a +1 with you each and every day.
Congratulations my friend! 200 is badass!
Congrats on the 2nd floor! B)B
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Andre....day 200!!! Awesome milestone brother. I am proud to post a +1 with you each and every day.
Congratulations my friend! 200 is badass!
Congrats on the 2nd floor! B)B
Congrats man. Well done!
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Andre....day 200!!! Awesome milestone brother. I am proud to post a +1 with you each and every day.
Congratulations my friend! 200 is badass!
Congrats on the 2nd floor! B)B
Congrats man. Well done!
I just got in my intro for the first time in months.... And see all these nice words for me on my 200. Sorry it's been delayed, but thank you. This place and people have shown me how to truly grab life by the balls.
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Has anyone here dealt with "Oral Lichan Planus" before. Went to the dentist and she saw "White Striations" on my gums. Some where were chewed, but most of it wasn't. i read up online about it, but I would like to here some first hand accounts if anyone has to deal with this. Also, the fact that I will have to deal with it forever is a big bummer.
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Has anyone here dealt with "Oral Lichan Planus" before. Went to the dentist and she saw "White Striations" on my gums. Some where were chewed, but most of it wasn't. i read up online about it, but I would like to here some first hand accounts if anyone has to deal with this. Also, the fact that I will have to deal with it forever is a big bummer.
I have not had that, but maybe someone will check this out and comment on it @AriannaGrande
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Has anyone here dealt with "Oral Lichan Planus" before. Went to the dentist and she saw "White Striations" on my gums. Some where were chewed, but most of it wasn't. i read up online about it, but I would like to here some first hand accounts if anyone has to deal with this. Also, the fact that I will have to deal with it forever is a big bummer.
I have not had that, but maybe someone will check this out and comment on it @AriannaGrande
Bumping this for good luck
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@AriannaGrande,
Congrats on your 1 year buddy!!
:D
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Congrats on that one year!
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This place absolutely works. Just go all in and drink the whole damn jug of Koolaid. It works, and I feel so much better at day 600 than at day 1/10/100. I can see that it will keep getting better forever. Just as long as I am quit. Thank you to all the new guys. The shit you are going through, helps us old bastards that happen to read your crazy Fog and Suck stories, keeps us strong.
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Congrats on your comma Andre!!