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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: jbradley on October 13, 2012, 05:55:00 PM
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So my story is much like any other on here, just wanted to get started by introducing myself and maybe a little back story along the way.
I am on day 15 of my quit and there are certainly ups and downs but thanks to this site I have tools to help with the lows. I started chewing when I was 13 because it was the cool thing to do in a small rural town and of course all the other kids were doing it. Boy that was stupid. I have, as just about every person on here has, to try and quit multiple times. I have tried cold turkey, quitting with a friend, slowing down, etc., etc.
Until recently I did not consider myself an addict. I never hid the fact that I was chewing, not from my wife, kids, family, scouts (I am heavily involved in Boy Scouts), nobody. If I was awake and not eating I had a chew in, period. What opened my eyes was after a recent camp out a parent approached me and he laid it out that he did not appreciate the fact that I was a role model for his son and I always had a dip in. I pretty much agreed with what he was saying and let him know I would try to be better. On the 2 hour drive home one of my first thoughts was, how do I hide this so I can keep getting my fix, but nobody knows. That was my aha moment and realized then I was a true addict. The night I came home from that camp out I found this site. I can not tell you I quit that night, but that was the start of the end for me. I was not totally committed to the site and to my quit at first so I did not post roll. I was afraid of not being able to keep my word, I can do that now and hope you all can appreciate my honesty.
Monday I will celebrate two milestones in my life, it happens to be my birthday and I will be on day 17 of my quit.
Thank you to all of the members here that put their stories up to help us newbies along the way.
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Great brother! Keep up the good fight.
I have 23 days so I'm right there with you bud.
It's funny, it was insane for the first week. Then it got much better. Then just the other night I was deep in a nic fit! I was like WOW.....I couldn't believe that what I was feeling was nic cravings! I'm talking headache, dizzy, foggy and nausea. How can I feel better then have these symptoms, I thought I was going crazy but no, it was the nic bitch. So, I say this to let you know that you will probably go throught that, but don't worry, it's just the crave. What I did was I took aspirin and benadril, then fell asleep. I feel much better now, just the feeling that something's missing a few times a day but prayer and distraction get me through it.
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Somewhere between day 14 and day 25 seems to be a clusterfuck of weakness, confusion, lack of resolve, and general sense of dissatisfaction. Pride and accomplishment carry you up until that point, but the "wall" as others call it is very real. At least it was for me. You men stay strong and quit, proud to be with you. It's not easy, but it's worth it.
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Also active in Boy Scouts and have taken the opportunity several times over the past 196 days of quit to educate the impressionable scouts the danger of just one dip. I will never be that poor example again! If you need someone to talk to in this battle pm me I'm always here to listen. This scout master and eagle scout will always be prepared to face the challenges and will always keep my promise! That is why I can not miss posting roll, if I make that promise I will stay quit! On my honor!
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As an assistant scoutmaster here too, I can also understand the impression I had been making. How could I be so hypocritical saying that oath each week with "Clean" when I knew I wasn't.
But guess what, follow here one day at a time and it will be something great. I am 104 days and have a good weekend camping experience where waking up at the crack of dawn when all is nice and quiet and not having to spit that crap in the woods.
I quit with you today my friend.
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So I am getting ready to go on a business trip next week and going through my mental checklist. Clothes, toothbrush, yada, yada, yada, then 3 cans of Cope comes wandering through my mind. The nic bitch is sneaking in and I can now say FUCK YOU! I know today is all I need to worry about and so I will continue to take it one day at a time and not worry about tomorrow
I will be in Illinois next week so posting roll should be earlier if I can get the whole time difference down.
Since I am here, I would like to thank the vets that still hang around and give us newbs some inspiration even when there are cavers are all around.
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Since I am here, I would like to thank the vets that still hang around and give us newbs some inspiration even when there are cavers are all around.
I'm no vet, but cavers serve a purpose. They're a reminder of what happens when you're weak. They remind us that we're addicts, we can't have "just one" and we don't ever want to have to go through the suck again.
Amazingly, I've never seen a single caver come back and announce that it was worth it. I'll be here quittin again tomorrow.
Proud to be quit with you, JB. Yell if you need anything.
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Since I am here, I would like to thank the vets that still hang around and give us newbs some inspiration even when there are cavers are all around.
I'm no vet, but cavers serve a purpose. They're a reminder of what happens when you're weak. They remind us that we're addicts, we can't have "just one" and we don't ever want to have to go through the suck again.
Amazingly, I've never seen a single caver come back and announce that it was worth it. I'll be here quittin again tomorrow.
Proud to be quit with you, JB. Yell if you need anything.
What Gmann said. It pisses me off every time someone caves, but it does serve as a wake up to protect and foster my quit. And sometimes cavers become much better quitters and supporters the second time around...
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Guess the fog is starting to lift, I figured out today that I somehow lost a day when posting roll! Glad it is lifting and I can think again.
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Getting through that fog (and, frankly, constant headaches) is incentive enough to never have another dip. That freaking sucks a giant gorilla nut. Who the hell wants to go through that again? Not me.
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So something really surprised me today about my quit. I actually did fairly well with craves on the airplane. Had some gum and everything chilled right out. However as soon as I hit the hotel room I did the exact routine I have done literally thousands of times. I put my bag down and went searching for the cups in the room. As soon as I realized what I was doing (looking for a spitter) the crave reared it's head and was in full force before I knew it. This was probably the most intense crave I have experienced since quitting!
I just wanted to pass it on that the nic bitch is everywhere! I choose to say FUCK YOU for today. 'Finger'
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So something really surprised me today about my quit. I actually did fairly well with craves on the airplane. Had some gum and everything chilled right out. However as soon as I hit the hotel room I did the exact routine I have done literally thousands of times. I put my bag down and went searching for the cups in the room. As soon as I realized what I was doing (looking for a spitter) the crave reared it's head and was in full force before I knew it. This was probably the most intense crave I have experienced since quitting!
I just wanted to pass it on that the nic bitch is everywhere! I choose to say FUCK YOU for today. 'Finger'
Keep your gaurd up, shes around every corner but put a chain around her neck, tie her hands and feet, kick her, whip her, and make her YOUR slave. Stay Q.U.I.T.!! Kudos to you for getting out here and sharing. Thats a big part of overcoming in the early stages.
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So today makes day 31, and I have learned a few things about myself along the way.
Probably the most important thing I have learned so far is that the human mind is the most formidable opponent we will ever face. From the nagging craves to the "dip dreams" makes the mental aspect of quitting the hardest challenge of all. To say it is a total mindfuck is an understatement. If you can be stronger than your own mind then you can be successful today.
I have learned that the following things are possible without that shit in my life;
I can deal with TSA and catch a flight without a dip
It was very, very hard for the first 2-3 days however I can stay in a hotel room by myself without a dip
I can weld just as good/bad without a dip
I can play video games without it
I can teach scouts new skills (even better I might say)
I can live my life everyday.
Today I say 'Finger' to the nic bitch.
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Holy Shit, how have I missed reading this for so long?? (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=2573&st=135) Why don't we tell the newbs to read the Welcome link first then go read this whole intro? Yes all 10 pages of it, somewhere around page 8 I laughed so hard I almost pissed myself several times and was moved deeply several times by not only his stories but the experiences that he felt were important. For all of this I say thank you SkoalMonster, you definitely reaffirmed my quit.
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So here I am at 50 days and wanted to add to my little journal.
I know now that I really don't need the bitch to function in life anymore. Work, Home, Scouts, camping, doesn't really matter I can do anything I need (or want) without shoving a weed in my mouth and killing myself. I would like to thank everyone on the site, without your support I am not sure where I would be. I can imagine but lets not.
I had another dip dream the other night. I happened to see myself in a mirror (in the dream) and I looked like one of those African guys that puts a plate in their lip. I swear that dip stuck out at least 4-5 inches! I remember for some reason I was walking the halls of a school and every kid in the place was staring at me. Then poof I am at home and realize that I fucked up real bad and had given my word for the day to not use. Then the lies start rolling through, I will keep posting, no one needs to know, etc.... I consider myself to be an honest person so I have no reasoning why every dream ends like that. 'Crazy' I know for sure I do not want to have to answer the three questions.
Quit for today, fuck tomorrow!
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Day 80 and little has changed, except now some people are noticing and bringing the subject up. I had a scout parent yesterday ask if I had quit while we were handing out food boxes. We talked for a while and found out that she and her husband had quit smoking years ago. It really is amazing that almost everyone I work with is a smoking quitter. It is kind of scary when you talk to them and they say that they had cravings for a couple of years after quitting. I guess if you feed your addiction for year after year there are going to be some side effects.
So it came up yesterday also about my Assistant Scoutmaster that smokes. Now this dude is the biggest ninja smoker in the world! I have only seen him smoke once because I went looking for him and happened to catch him do it. He will not smoke around any of the kids, his wife (doubt she knows he smokes), he even mentioned he won't smoke in his truck. But he says that it is because the kids shouldn't be exposed to it, but while I agree they shouldn't he is in full fledged denial that he is hiding it because he is ashamed of his actions. I didn't let him get away unscathed and made sure that he knew while I had no room to talk about nicotine addiction and the stupid things we do, I made sure he knew I felt that he was in full denial and now he knows I think he is the biggest ninja I know.
The pre-hof funk has come but the good news is that it is slowing down a bit and becoming more manageable every day. The craves are getting better, they still hit several times everyday, but only last for a few seconds. Thanks to the guys that gave me advice, it really does help. Get back to the basics of quit, quit for today, fuck tomorrow, and if need be quit minute by minute.
Quit with you today!
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Holy Shit, day 103! Seems like the last several days have snuck up on me. I am slowly working on my HOF speech but there is way too much going on right now!
For the first time in 10 years I have just applied for a new job, I think I am more scared about leaving my current job than I was about quitting! I hate change!
I am about 1 1/2 weeks away from starting Woodbadge training as an instructor. For those of you that don't know Woodbadge is adult leader training, it takes 6 days and for the participants it is like drinking out of a fire hose. I am really excited but also very nervous about the whole thing. I hope that the post HOF funk doesn't hit during this time!
I know that this website is all about quitting, but sometimes all this other shit piles up and makes life suck as well.
Thanks for listening.....
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Holy Shit, day 103! Seems like the last several days have snuck up on me. I am slowly working on my HOF speech but there is way too much going on right now!Â
For the first time in 10 years I have just applied for a new job, I think I am more scared about leaving my current job than I was about quitting! I hate change!
I am about 1 1/2 weeks away from starting Woodbadge training as an instructor. For those of you that don't know Woodbadge is adult leader training, it takes 6 days and for the participants it is like drinking out of a fire hose. I am really excited but also very nervous about the whole thing. I hope that the post HOF funk doesn't hit during this time!
I know that this website is all about quitting, but sometimes all this other shit piles up and makes life suck as well.
Thanks for listening.....
Work that ticket JBrad (yes a Woodbadge trainee here too) Well done my friend, enjoy the time out to nature during it.
And isn't it so good knowing we can now stand there and not be a hypocrite when we say " A Scout is Trustworthy......CLEAN, and Reverent."
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Holy Shit, day 103! Seems like the last several days have snuck up on me. I am slowly working on my HOF speech but there is way too much going on right now!Â
For the first time in 10 years I have just applied for a new job, I think I am more scared about leaving my current job than I was about quitting! I hate change!
I am about 1 1/2 weeks away from starting Woodbadge training as an instructor. For those of you that don't know Woodbadge is adult leader training, it takes 6 days and for the participants it is like drinking out of a fire hose. I am really excited but also very nervous about the whole thing. I hope that the post HOF funk doesn't hit during this time!
I know that this website is all about quitting, but sometimes all this other shit piles up and makes life suck as well.
Thanks for listening.....
Work that ticket JBrad (yes a Woodbadge trainee here too) Well done my friend, enjoy the time out to nature during it.
And isn't it so good knowing we can now stand there and not be a hypocrite when we say " A Scout is Trustworthy......CLEAN, and Reverent."
nice to meet you in chat J. Sir D always a pleasure.. I personally hate change as well, but I also think change is good, and necessary. It was actually my first tattoo. an asian symbol for common change. otherwise people get to complacent. Good luck with the new job. I read in one of your past posts about your non smoker friends having craves after 2 years. at 159 days I don't have any physical cravings anymore, just mental. but now I know how to squash those craves. besides they go away quickly. when I see tobacco, or hear someone talk about it, doesn't really phase me anymore. I just don't care about it anymore. you will feel the same way my friend... B)
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Holy Shit, day 103! Seems like the last several days have snuck up on me. I am slowly working on my HOF speech but there is way too much going on right now!Â
For the first time in 10 years I have just applied for a new job, I think I am more scared about leaving my current job than I was about quitting! I hate change!
I am about 1 1/2 weeks away from starting Woodbadge training as an instructor. For those of you that don't know Woodbadge is adult leader training, it takes 6 days and for the participants it is like drinking out of a fire hose. I am really excited but also very nervous about the whole thing. I hope that the post HOF funk doesn't hit during this time!
I know that this website is all about quitting, but sometimes all this other shit piles up and makes life suck as well.
Thanks for listening.....
Work that ticket JBrad (yes a Woodbadge trainee here too) Well done my friend, enjoy the time out to nature during it.
And isn't it so good knowing we can now stand there and not be a hypocrite when we say " A Scout is Trustworthy......CLEAN, and Reverent."
nice to meet you in chat J. Sir D always a pleasure.. I personally hate change as well, but I also think change is good, and necessary. It was actually my first tattoo. an asian symbol for common change. otherwise people get to complacent. Good luck with the new job. I read in one of your past posts about your non smoker friends having craves after 2 years. at 159 days I don't have any physical cravings anymore, just mental. but now I know how to squash those craves. besides they go away quickly. when I see tobacco, or hear someone talk about it, doesn't really phase me anymore. I just don't care about it anymore. you will feel the same way my friend... B)
I'm with ya on the job thing jb. Exploring new career paths myself and it is just plain gut wrentching. Glad to know I am not on an island...
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Holy Shit, day 103! Seems like the last several days have snuck up on me. I am slowly working on my HOF speech but there is way too much going on right now!Â
For the first time in 10 years I have just applied for a new job, I think I am more scared about leaving my current job than I was about quitting! I hate change!
I am about 1 1/2 weeks away from starting Woodbadge training as an instructor. For those of you that don't know Woodbadge is adult leader training, it takes 6 days and for the participants it is like drinking out of a fire hose. I am really excited but also very nervous about the whole thing. I hope that the post HOF funk doesn't hit during this time!
I know that this website is all about quitting, but sometimes all this other shit piles up and makes life suck as well.
Thanks for listening.....
Work that ticket JBrad (yes a Woodbadge trainee here too) Well done my friend, enjoy the time out to nature during it.
And isn't it so good knowing we can now stand there and not be a hypocrite when we say " A Scout is Trustworthy......CLEAN, and Reverent."
nice to meet you in chat J. Sir D always a pleasure.. I personally hate change as well, but I also think change is good, and necessary. It was actually my first tattoo. an asian symbol for common change. otherwise people get to complacent. Good luck with the new job. I read in one of your past posts about your non smoker friends having craves after 2 years. at 159 days I don't have any physical cravings anymore, just mental. but now I know how to squash those craves. besides they go away quickly. when I see tobacco, or hear someone talk about it, doesn't really phase me anymore. I just don't care about it anymore. you will feel the same way my friend... B)
I'm with ya on the job thing jb. Exploring new career paths myself and it is just plain gut wrentching. Glad to know I am not on an island...
"Embrace the Suck"
I think "Embrace Change" It's uncomfortable but you can't stop progress or destruction. Change is self evident in all our lives. At least you are exploring by choice and it isn't a forced change.
Embrace it and focus on what is good about it. I'm guessing you are discovering now that you are quit, you are tired of holding yourself back. You have a taste of victory in quit and it is bleeding into the desire to have more victories in life.
Great Change with a grin and courage! Embrace it.
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Holy Shit, day 103! Seems like the last several days have snuck up on me. I am slowly working on my HOF speech but there is way too much going on right now!Â
For the first time in 10 years I have just applied for a new job, I think I am more scared about leaving my current job than I was about quitting! I hate change!
I am about 1 1/2 weeks away from starting Woodbadge training as an instructor. For those of you that don't know Woodbadge is adult leader training, it takes 6 days and for the participants it is like drinking out of a fire hose. I am really excited but also very nervous about the whole thing. I hope that the post HOF funk doesn't hit during this time!
I know that this website is all about quitting, but sometimes all this other shit piles up and makes life suck as well.
Thanks for listening.....
Work that ticket JBrad (yes a Woodbadge trainee here too) Well done my friend, enjoy the time out to nature during it.
And isn't it so good knowing we can now stand there and not be a hypocrite when we say " A Scout is Trustworthy......CLEAN, and Reverent."
nice to meet you in chat J. Sir D always a pleasure.. I personally hate change as well, but I also think change is good, and necessary. It was actually my first tattoo. an asian symbol for common change. otherwise people get to complacent. Good luck with the new job. I read in one of your past posts about your non smoker friends having craves after 2 years. at 159 days I don't have any physical cravings anymore, just mental. but now I know how to squash those craves. besides they go away quickly. when I see tobacco, or hear someone talk about it, doesn't really phase me anymore. I just don't care about it anymore. you will feel the same way my friend... B)
I'm with ya on the job thing jb. Exploring new career paths myself and it is just plain gut wrentching. Glad to know I am not on an island...
"Embrace the Suck"
I think "Embrace Change" It's uncomfortable but you can't stop progress or destruction. Change is self evident in all our lives. At least you are exploring by choice and it isn't a forced change.
Embrace it and focus on what is good about it. I'm guessing you are discovering now that you are quit, you are tired of holding yourself back. You have a taste of victory in quit and it is bleeding into the desire to have more victories in life.
Great Change with a grin and courage! Embrace it.
Thank you guys for the support!
MT I know change is good my training tells me so! Doesn't change the fact that it is scary as all get out!
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Day 121- I had another dip dream last night. The scariest part was there was no emotion attached whatsoever. No remorse for putting it in my lip, no disappointment when I thought of the site, no regrets when I threw it on the ground because it had been in all day. I was hoping this Shit was going to get better, but it makes me reflect on the fact that I am an addict and I will be for the rest of my life.
Proud to be quit with everyone here. No more not for any reason.
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126- So my HOF speech was posted up yesterday, and true to form I forgot to thank some people that deserved recognition! I would like to thank everyone that hangs out in chat, love you guys! (Yes, full Homo!)
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126- So my HOF speech was posted up yesterday, and true to form I forgot to thank some people that deserved recognition! I would like to thank everyone that hangs out in chat, love you guys! (Yes, full Homo!)
shocker
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126- So my HOF speech was posted up yesterday, and true to form I forgot to thank some people that deserved recognition! I would like to thank everyone that hangs out in chat, love you guys! (Yes, full Homo!)
shocker
Great stuff in Your HOF jbradley!!! 'worship'
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So I found out today that I have been awarded Scouter of the Year for my district in Scouting! I certainly didn't win because I quit dipping, but it is still an honor and wanted to share with my brother's.
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Watching House of Cards and wanted to put this quote in here for reflection.
I have to be ruthless because failure is not an option, the same goes for my sobriety. I have to be ruthless with myself, I have to use my fear. It makes me stronger. Like everyone in this room, I can't control who I am, but I can control the zero. Fuck the zero.
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Watching House of Cards and wanted to put this quote in here for reflection.
I have to be ruthless because failure is not an option, the same goes for my sobriety. I have to be ruthless with myself, I have to use my fear. It makes me stronger. Like everyone in this room, I can't control who I am, but I can control the zero. Fuck the zero.
I like the quote and might end up loving it if I understood the "zero" metaphor. I don't get that part. Care to explain it for the idiots among us (like me.)
Also, not sure why I or nobody else replied to your last post, but congrats on the Scouter of the Year award. My bro-in-law is a scout master and former Eagle Scout, so I definitely understand the pride behind such an award.
On second thought, maybe nobody replied because nobody likes a braggart. Just kidding. :)
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Watching House of Cards and wanted to put this quote in here for reflection.
I have to be ruthless because failure is not an option, the same goes for my sobriety. I have to be ruthless with myself, I have to use my fear. It makes me stronger. Like everyone in this room, I can't control who I am, but I can control the zero. Fuck the zero.
I like the quote and might end up loving it if I understood the "zero" metaphor. I don't get that part. Care to explain it for the idiots among us (like me.)
Also, not sure why I or nobody else replied to your last post, but congrats on the Scouter of the Year award. My bro-in-law is a scout master and former Eagle Scout, so I definitely understand the pride behind such an award.
On second thought, maybe nobody replied because nobody likes a braggart. Just kidding. :)
So to explain the zero- The guy that said the quote is in an AA meeting he goes on to talk about how he has over 5000 days into being sober and that can all be undone by one drink. I am not in AA nor is that an issue for me, however I can see some pretty clear lines from one addiction to another. Basically he is talking about the choice we have everyday to stay quit. I can add a +1 or I can go to zero and start all over. I don't know about you but I don't ever want to go through the suck again.
Thank you for the congrats, I wasn't trying to be a braggart, just had to put it somewhere, I was actually on a training course for Adult Scouters- I couldn't make any phone calls at the time but I happened to get some cell service and post it up, just another one of those milestones I wanted to track. Someone had to know otherwise I would have exploded!
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That is kickass JB, congrats. I have 2 sons in cub scouts. I volunteer a little bit but have not been involved with leadership at the pack level. Growing boys into leaders is damn important work. Maybe now that my mouth is not stuffed with tobacco I can get more involved. Always felt shitty about dipping in front of the boys. Went to great lengths to hide it.
And on the other point, stacking up +1s, that is my game plan. There was nothing so great about being a user. We can never go back to that. Fuck the zero.
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180 days, 6 months, 1/2 a year....
Unbelievable, 181 days ago if you would have told me I could quit for this long I would have told you that you were crazy. To put this in perspective, the last time I could tell you I was 6 months clean would have been when I was about 14. The biggest surprise for me is how I got here, ONE DAY AT A TIME!
Tonight I came clean with everyone in my Boy Scout Troop. Some knew, some didn't. I gave my Scoutmasters minute and talked about the dangers of nicotine, alcohol, and drugs. This would be the first time I have had this talk with Scouts without a ninja dip in, sometimes even a fatty. BTW, the theme was regrets, I have very few regrets in my life and am pretty happy with what I am and who I am. My biggest regret in life was putting that shit in my lip. I have certainly made some bad decisions in my life but regrets in my opinion are in a whole different class.
The only way this could happen is obviously my decision to start this quit. A profound thing has happened over the last 180 days, I have gone from thinking of this site as a silly place where you can drop an f bomb without everyone getting in a tizzy, to a site where there is a brotherhood, there are real people on the other side of the keyboard. They have feelings, but you know what, they care about how I am doing! They check in with me if I haven't posted for the day, they ask how my day is, they tell me about their day too, and you know what? I give a shit too! I ask them about their day, I find out why they haven't posted, sometimes just say hi how are you!
Proud to be a Jackwagin! (I thought that shit was crazy/stupid/embarrassing too when I first started, now I wouldn't change it for anything.)
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180 days, 6 months, 1/2 a year....
Unbelievable, 181 days ago if you would have told me I could quit for this long I would have told you that you were crazy. To put this in perspective, the last time I could tell you I was 6 months clean would have been when I was about 14. The biggest surprise for me is how I got here, ONE DAY AT A TIME!
Tonight I came clean with everyone in my Boy Scout Troop. Some knew, some didn't. I gave my Scoutmasters minute and talked about the dangers of nicotine, alcohol, and drugs. This would be the first time I have had this talk with Scouts without a ninja dip in, sometimes even a fatty. BTW, the theme was regrets, I have very few regrets in my life and am pretty happy with what I am and who I am. My biggest regret in life was putting that shit in my lip. I have certainly made some bad decisions in my life but regrets in my opinion are in a whole different class.
The only way this could happen is obviously my decision to start this quit. A profound thing has happened over the last 180 days, I have gone from thinking of this site as a silly place where you can drop an f bomb without everyone getting in a tizzy, to a site where there is a brotherhood, there are real people on the other side of the keyboard. They have feelings, but you know what, they care about how I am doing! They check in with me if I haven't posted for the day, they ask how my day is, they tell me about their day too, and you know what? I give a shit too! I ask them about their day, I find out why they haven't posted, sometimes just say hi how are you!
Proud to be a Jackwagin! (I thought that shit was crazy/stupid/embarrassing too when I first started, now I wouldn't change it for anything.)
Very nice, proud to quit with you. Keep it up as a positive role model for those kids,
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day 183- pretty sure another funk is on its way......
Posted roll today so its off the table, but fuck me this shit sucks.......
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day 183- pretty sure another funk is on its way......
Posted roll today so its off the table, but fuck me this shit sucks.......
Well it would be a little unfair for me to compare as my 180ish was around the Christmas Holiday, but you can take a look at my intro and see I also had a hard time around that number,
use what you learned here my friend and you will get through it. Heads High and Smile.
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day 183- pretty sure another funk is on its way......
Posted roll today so its off the table, but fuck me this shit sucks.......
Well it would be a little unfair for me to compare as my 180ish was around the Christmas Holiday, but you can take a look at my intro and see I also had a hard time around that number,
use what you learned here my friend and you will get through it. Heads High and Smile.
Remember the other funky periods you went through?
They went away didn't they?
This one will too.
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day 183- pretty sure another funk is on its way......
Posted roll today so its off the table, but fuck me this shit sucks.......
Well it would be a little unfair for me to compare as my 180ish was around the Christmas Holiday, but you can take a look at my intro and see I also had a hard time around that number,
use what you learned here my friend and you will get through it. Heads High and Smile.
Remember the other funky periods you went through?
They went away didn't they?
This one will too.
I'm keeping strong today because you are telling it like it is for you now. At 94 days, I need to know that its not all in the bag for tomorrow. Or the day or month after. Being quit is for today. Had a haunting encounter with cigarettes in my dream last night. How strong the nicotine allure seemed in that night time phantasy. Ho glad it was just a dream, cause I was bumming cigarettes off my pre adolescent children and their friends in the dream. Weird, but the smell of burning tobacco was a big trigger in the dream. Anyhow. Thank you for a peek at your experiences in the 180's, you make my day 94 stronger cause I know the battle will continue.
iquitchewing
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day 183- pretty sure another funk is on its way......
Posted roll today so its off the table, but fuck me this shit sucks.......
Well it would be a little unfair for me to compare as my 180ish was around the Christmas Holiday, but you can take a look at my intro and see I also had a hard time around that number,
use what you learned here my friend and you will get through it. Heads High and Smile.
Remember the other funky periods you went through?
They went away didn't they?
This one will too.
I'm keeping strong today because you are telling it like it is for you now. At 94 days, I need to know that its not all in the bag for tomorrow. Or the day or month after. Being quit is for today. Had a haunting encounter with cigarettes in my dream last night. How strong the nicotine allure seemed in that night time phantasy. Ho glad it was just a dream, cause I was bumming cigarettes off my pre adolescent children and their friends in the dream. Weird, but the smell of burning tobacco was a big trigger in the dream. Anyhow. Thank you for a peek at your experiences in the 180's, you make my day 94 stronger cause I know the battle will continue.
iquitchewing
just an update- I jumped into chat later that day and found my usual group of chatters.... It didn't take long and they had me straightened out. The next day I finally ordered my HOF coin to not only support the site but to reaffirm my quit. Once I did these couple of things life got much better.
Use chat, use your numbers, we are here to help you.
This roller coaster ride is not over by any means but as long as I take it one day at a time I can handle it.
Thank you to those that sent pm's, left messages here, and thank you to the chat crew! You guys saved my life, again!
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Been a while since I updated.....
Day 254- I had one of the most amazing things happen tonight. I went to a small quitter get together, Sage, ToeTag, and Blazer1975 were there. The amazing part was that there was no awkward moments, no weird uncomfortable silence moments. Just 4 quitters that happened to get together for some dinner and great company. I have to encourage you to join one of these get togethers when they happen in your area. These are real people that are or have gone through the same things you are. I want to thank those that came, and invite those that could not come to make the next one.
This week I took 11 Scouts to summer camp for 8 days. I can honestly say I did not miss nic at all this week. It does help that I was too busy to stop and think for 5 minutes at a time. It really was awesome and I got to see some new areas of camp, and outside of camp as well. The 11 boys that I took to camp have made memories that they will never forget, but I am the lucky one because I was there to share with them these life moments.
Thank you to those that checked in with me through the week. I did manage to post roll everyday, but had minimal cell service to get texts and emails. I had to hike a ways to get to the camp wifi spot, and then hike back to camp usually with a time crunch. But I took the time to get it done everyday. My quit is still very important to me and I am willing to fight blisters on both feet to make my promise to each and every one of you. You have saved my life, it is the least I can do.
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Been a while since I updated.....
Day 254- I had one of the most amazing things happen tonight. I went to a small quitter get together, Sage, ToeTag, and Blazer1975 were there. The amazing part was that there was no awkward moments, no weird uncomfortable silence moments. Just 4 quitters that happened to get together for some dinner and great company. I have to encourage you to join one of these get togethers when they happen in your area. These are real people that are or have gone through the same things you are. I want to thank those that came, and invite those that could not come to make the next one.
This week I took 11 Scouts to summer camp for 8 days. I can honestly say I did not miss nic at all this week. It does help that I was too busy to stop and think for 5 minutes at a time. It really was awesome and I got to see some new areas of camp, and outside of camp as well. The 11 boys that I took to camp have made memories that they will never forget, but I am the lucky one because I was there to share with them these life moments.
Thank you to those that checked in with me through the week. I did manage to post roll everyday, but had minimal cell service to get texts and emails. I had to hike a ways to get to the camp wifi spot, and then hike back to camp usually with a time crunch. But I took the time to get it done everyday. My quit is still very important to me and I am willing to fight blisters on both feet to make my promise to each and every one of you. You have saved my life, it is the least I can do.
Good stuff buddy. I quit with you again today.
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Day 271- Plan right now is to leave for San Diego on Friday early afternoon. Hopefully as soon as I get there I will be meeting Cmark for dinner. The plan after that is to hop on an overnight fishing boat and go fishing the net day. I have some major concerns about this as this will be a huge trigger for me. I know that nic can't make me catch more fish, or bigger fish, or have a good time. Just one of those things that I will have to face and conquer one minute at a time.
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Day 271- Plan right now is to leave for San Diego on Friday early afternoon. Hopefully as soon as I get there I will be meeting Cmark for dinner. The plan after that is to hop on an overnight fishing boat and go fishing the net day. I have some major concerns about this as this will be a huge trigger for me. I know that nic can't make me catch more fish, or bigger fish, or have a good time. Just one of those things that I will have to face and conquer one minute at a time.
JB you got this have fun you always got my number to call
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Just got back from fishing and let me tell you guys, it was awesome not having to worry about my next fix. I was worried that it would be a huge trigger for me. It wasn't a problem.
There were a couple of users on the boat, one guy had cigs, chew, and dip going at different times through the day. I wouldn't be surprised if he had a patch on at the same time. But instead of being jealous of them, I felt pity for them. I felt bad for them still shackled and chained to their master. Still blindfolded to the truth that you do not need any of it to live a fulfilling life.
Thank you to all of you here, you have saved my life. I am proud to be quit with each and everyone of you.
Thank you Cmark for meeting up to have dinner and talk fishing.
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Just got back from fishing and let me tell you guys, it was awesome not having to worry about my next fix. I was worried that it would be a huge trigger for me. It wasn't a problem.
There were a couple of users on the boat, one guy had cigs, chew, and dip going at different times through the day. I wouldn't be surprised if he had a patch on at the same time. But instead of being jealous of them, I felt pity for them. I felt bad for them still shackled and chained to their master. Still blindfolded to the truth that you do not need any of it to live a fulfilling life.
Thank you to all of you here, you have saved my life. I am proud to be quit with each and everyone of you.
Thank you Cmark for meeting up to have dinner and talk fishing.
Good deal jbrad. Wagin' stlye! Making us proud.
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Just got back from fishing and let me tell you guys, it was awesome not having to worry about my next fix. I was worried that it would be a huge trigger for me. It wasn't a problem.
There were a couple of users on the boat, one guy had cigs, chew, and dip going at different times through the day. I wouldn't be surprised if he had a patch on at the same time. But instead of being jealous of them, I felt pity for them. I felt bad for them still shackled and chained to their master. Still blindfolded to the truth that you do not need any of it to live a fulfilling life.
Thank you to all of you here, you have saved my life. I am proud to be quit with each and everyone of you.
Thank you Cmark for meeting up to have dinner and talk fishing.
Good deal jbrad. Wagin' stlye! Making us proud.
Totally awesome! And this place is part of what saved you, but you saved yourself as well, you went thru the hell of the suck and it is you every time you get a crave that choses higher ground by being a man of your word and keeping the promise of your roll post for over a hundred days. And guys like me are proud to be behind you following you to the path of freedom! Yep jbradley your a bad ass bro!
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Day 290- a few thought from my head.....
I learned last night that a quitter that I have not only been in chat with, posted support with, texted with, and met in person, caved Friday night. Thankfully this does not affect my quit and I will continue to stay the course of being free, but it does hurt on a personal level. I didn't get a phone call or a text asking for help or even just to talk. I did know something was going on but certainly did not think it would end this way. If you believe that the site works then you need to use the tools that we give you. The sooner you can admit that you are an addict the quicker life goes on.
Friday night in chat Allen Carr's EASYWAY (http://www.google.com/url?sa=t&rct=j&q=&esrc=s&source=web&cd=1&cad=rja&ved=0CC8QFjAA&url=http%3A%2F%2Fmedia.wix.com%2Fugd%2F74fa87_2010cc5496521431188f905b7234a829.pdf&ei=2-fiUeelFIm9iwK9hYHADw&usg=AFQjCNFWpJ0VUWdKLJ95NYEElXSNUfvV-A&sig2=c3ee1Q5WvfOWqTOGWwoo3w&bvm=bv.48705608,d.cGE) book came up. It has been recommended around the forum several times and I have always blown it off. Well I started reading it on Friday night and read almost all day on Saturday. There is some good information in that book. I wish that I had read that 290 days earlier. It certainly helped cement my resolve that I am doing the right things and helped explain why things happen the way they happen.
That is all for now.....
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10 pages back.... guess I should blow the dust off of this thing.....
Day 364- Hard to believe that one year ago I was a complete mess. I had come to the realization that I am an addict. I could not believe that I had the ability to quit, nobody knew what it was like, chewing was different than smoking, I was different, I was special. I now know that all of that was bullshit, all of it was addict speak. I am an addict just like the next guy. I had found KTC at this point but was still weary of the methods and while I am normally a truthful person, I could not believe that I would keep my word to a bunch of strangers. What the fuck is a jackwagin? On the 28th I would throw out the last of my chew and proceed with my quit. I quit for the first 10 or 11 days by myself, only reading here. I would get on here and read and read and read for hours on end. When I finally posted roll it was like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders and I knew I could keep my word. It was not all roses for sure, but I made the choice everyday to not poison myself.
I would like to thank everyone that helped me through my quit, you probably have even if you don't realize it. The vets with their words of wisdom and to all of the newbs that remind me of where I do not ever want to go again. Embrace the suck, but damn I do not want to go back. Proud to be quit with all of you, Proud to be a Jackwagin!
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10 pages back.... guess I should blow the dust off of this thing.....
Day 364- Hard to believe that one year ago I was a complete mess. I had come to the realization that I am an addict. I could not believe that I had the ability to quit, nobody knew what it was like, chewing was different than smoking, I was different, I was special. I now know that all of that was bullshit, all of it was addict speak. I am an addict just like the next guy. I had found KTC at this point but was still weary of the methods and while I am normally a truthful person, I could not believe that I would keep my word to a bunch of strangers. What the fuck is a jackwagin? On the 28th I would throw out the last of my chew and proceed with my quit. I quit for the first 10 or 11 days by myself, only reading here. I would get on here and read and read and read for hours on end. When I finally posted roll it was like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders and I knew I could keep my word. It was not all roses for sure, but I made the choice everyday to not poison myself.
I would like to thank everyone that helped me through my quit, you probably have even if you don't realize it. The vets with their words of wisdom and to all of the newbs that remind me of where I do not ever want to go again. Embrace the suck, but damn I do not want to go back. Proud to be quit with all of you, Proud to be a Jackwagin!
Some fine quitting j.... Damn glad to be quit with you....
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10 pages back.... guess I should blow the dust off of this thing.....
Day 364- Hard to believe that one year ago I was a complete mess. I had come to the realization that I am an addict. I could not believe that I had the ability to quit, nobody knew what it was like, chewing was different than smoking, I was different, I was special. I now know that all of that was bullshit, all of it was addict speak. I am an addict just like the next guy. I had found KTC at this point but was still weary of the methods and while I am normally a truthful person, I could not believe that I would keep my word to a bunch of strangers. What the fuck is a jackwagin? On the 28th I would throw out the last of my chew and proceed with my quit. I quit for the first 10 or 11 days by myself, only reading here. I would get on here and read and read and read for hours on end. When I finally posted roll it was like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders and I knew I could keep my word. It was not all roses for sure, but I made the choice everyday to not poison myself.
I would like to thank everyone that helped me through my quit, you probably have even if you don't realize it. The vets with their words of wisdom and to all of the newbs that remind me of where I do not ever want to go again. Embrace the suck, but damn I do not want to go back. Proud to be quit with all of you, Proud to be a Jackwagin!
Some fine quitting j.... Damn glad to be quit with you....
proud to be a jackwagin with you. this past year has changed a lot of our lives one of mine is becoming friends with you.
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10 pages back.... guess I should blow the dust off of this thing.....
Day 364- Hard to believe that one year ago I was a complete mess. I had come to the realization that I am an addict. I could not believe that I had the ability to quit, nobody knew what it was like, chewing was different than smoking, I was different, I was special. I now know that all of that was bullshit, all of it was addict speak. I am an addict just like the next guy. I had found KTC at this point but was still weary of the methods and while I am normally a truthful person, I could not believe that I would keep my word to a bunch of strangers. What the fuck is a jackwagin? On the 28th I would throw out the last of my chew and proceed with my quit. I quit for the first 10 or 11 days by myself, only reading here. I would get on here and read and read and read for hours on end. When I finally posted roll it was like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders and I knew I could keep my word. It was not all roses for sure, but I made the choice everyday to not poison myself.
I would like to thank everyone that helped me through my quit, you probably have even if you don't realize it. The vets with their words of wisdom and to all of the newbs that remind me of where I do not ever want to go again. Embrace the suck, but damn I do not want to go back. Proud to be quit with all of you, Proud to be a Jackwagin!
Some fine quitting j.... Damn glad to be quit with you....
proud to be a jackwagin with you. this past year has changed a lot of our lives one of mine is becoming friends with you.
I was in a fog 50 weeks ago, jb, and had forgotten that your first roll post was anything other than a 1. We're all a lot better off thanks to the fact that you decided to join the party. (Although it sure didn't feel like a party for the first couple months). Thank YOU for helping me over the past year.
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10 pages back.... guess I should blow the dust off of this thing.....
Day 364- Hard to believe that one year ago I was a complete mess. I had come to the realization that I am an addict. I could not believe that I had the ability to quit, nobody knew what it was like, chewing was different than smoking, I was different, I was special. I now know that all of that was bullshit, all of it was addict speak. I am an addict just like the next guy. I had found KTC at this point but was still weary of the methods and while I am normally a truthful person, I could not believe that I would keep my word to a bunch of strangers. What the fuck is a jackwagin? On the 28th I would throw out the last of my chew and proceed with my quit. I quit for the first 10 or 11 days by myself, only reading here. I would get on here and read and read and read for hours on end. When I finally posted roll it was like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders and I knew I could keep my word. It was not all roses for sure, but I made the choice everyday to not poison myself.
I would like to thank everyone that helped me through my quit, you probably have even if you don't realize it. The vets with their words of wisdom and to all of the newbs that remind me of where I do not ever want to go again. Embrace the suck, but damn I do not want to go back. Proud to be quit with all of you, Proud to be a Jackwagin!
Congrats on a year JBradley, that's some impressive work!!
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10 pages back.... guess I should blow the dust off of this thing.....
Day 364- Hard to believe that one year ago I was a complete mess. I had come to the realization that I am an addict. I could not believe that I had the ability to quit, nobody knew what it was like, chewing was different than smoking, I was different, I was special. I now know that all of that was bullshit, all of it was addict speak. I am an addict just like the next guy. I had found KTC at this point but was still weary of the methods and while I am normally a truthful person, I could not believe that I would keep my word to a bunch of strangers. What the fuck is a jackwagin? On the 28th I would throw out the last of my chew and proceed with my quit. I quit for the first 10 or 11 days by myself, only reading here. I would get on here and read and read and read for hours on end. When I finally posted roll it was like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders and I knew I could keep my word. It was not all roses for sure, but I made the choice everyday to not poison myself.
I would like to thank everyone that helped me through my quit, you probably have even if you don't realize it. The vets with their words of wisdom and to all of the newbs that remind me of where I do not ever want to go again. Embrace the suck, but damn I do not want to go back. Proud to be quit with all of you, Proud to be a Jackwagin!
Congrats on a year JBradley, that's some impressive work!!
Awesome job on hitting a year my friend... Damn proud to quit with you every single day!!!
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10 pages back.... guess I should blow the dust off of this thing.....
Day 364- Hard to believe that one year ago I was a complete mess. I had come to the realization that I am an addict. I could not believe that I had the ability to quit, nobody knew what it was like, chewing was different than smoking, I was different, I was special. I now know that all of that was bullshit, all of it was addict speak. I am an addict just like the next guy. I had found KTC at this point but was still weary of the methods and while I am normally a truthful person, I could not believe that I would keep my word to a bunch of strangers. What the fuck is a jackwagin? On the 28th I would throw out the last of my chew and proceed with my quit. I quit for the first 10 or 11 days by myself, only reading here. I would get on here and read and read and read for hours on end. When I finally posted roll it was like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders and I knew I could keep my word. It was not all roses for sure, but I made the choice everyday to not poison myself.
I would like to thank everyone that helped me through my quit, you probably have even if you don't realize it. The vets with their words of wisdom and to all of the newbs that remind me of where I do not ever want to go again. Embrace the suck, but damn I do not want to go back. Proud to be quit with all of you, Proud to be a Jackwagin!
Congrats on a year JBradley, that's some impressive work!!
Awesome job on hitting a year my friend... Damn proud to quit with you every single day!!!
+1 with you again today JBrad....'Grats on 365. Keep on keepin' quit my friend......
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10 pages back.... guess I should blow the dust off of this thing.....
Day 364- Hard to believe that one year ago I was a complete mess. I had come to the realization that I am an addict. I could not believe that I had the ability to quit, nobody knew what it was like, chewing was different than smoking, I was different, I was special. I now know that all of that was bullshit, all of it was addict speak. I am an addict just like the next guy. I had found KTC at this point but was still weary of the methods and while I am normally a truthful person, I could not believe that I would keep my word to a bunch of strangers. What the fuck is a jackwagin? On the 28th I would throw out the last of my chew and proceed with my quit. I quit for the first 10 or 11 days by myself, only reading here. I would get on here and read and read and read for hours on end. When I finally posted roll it was like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders and I knew I could keep my word. It was not all roses for sure, but I made the choice everyday to not poison myself.
I would like to thank everyone that helped me through my quit, you probably have even if you don't realize it. The vets with their words of wisdom and to all of the newbs that remind me of where I do not ever want to go again. Embrace the suck, but damn I do not want to go back. Proud to be quit with all of you, Proud to be a Jackwagin!
Congrats on a year JBradley, that's some impressive work!!
Awesome job on hitting a year my friend... Damn proud to quit with you every single day!!!
+1 with you again today JBrad....'Grats on 365. Keep on keepin' quit my friend......
Congrats my man!! See you Tomorrow!! 'jj'
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10 pages back.... guess I should blow the dust off of this thing.....
Day 364- Hard to believe that one year ago I was a complete mess. I had come to the realization that I am an addict. I could not believe that I had the ability to quit, nobody knew what it was like, chewing was different than smoking, I was different, I was special. I now know that all of that was bullshit, all of it was addict speak. I am an addict just like the next guy. I had found KTC at this point but was still weary of the methods and while I am normally a truthful person, I could not believe that I would keep my word to a bunch of strangers. What the fuck is a jackwagin? On the 28th I would throw out the last of my chew and proceed with my quit. I quit for the first 10 or 11 days by myself, only reading here. I would get on here and read and read and read for hours on end. When I finally posted roll it was like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders and I knew I could keep my word. It was not all roses for sure, but I made the choice everyday to not poison myself.
I would like to thank everyone that helped me through my quit, you probably have even if you don't realize it. The vets with their words of wisdom and to all of the newbs that remind me of where I do not ever want to go again. Embrace the suck, but damn I do not want to go back. Proud to be quit with all of you, Proud to be a Jackwagin!
Congrats on a year JBradley, that's some impressive work!!
Awesome job on hitting a year my friend... Damn proud to quit with you every single day!!!
+1 with you again today JBrad....'Grats on 365. Keep on keepin' quit my friend......
Congrats my man!! See you Tomorrow!! 'jj'
Awesome JB! I aspire to get to the magical 365 someday and with guys like you showing us the way, we can all make it. I quit with you today brother.
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10 pages back.... guess I should blow the dust off of this thing.....
Day 364- Hard to believe that one year ago I was a complete mess. I had come to the realization that I am an addict. I could not believe that I had the ability to quit, nobody knew what it was like, chewing was different than smoking, I was different, I was special. I now know that all of that was bullshit, all of it was addict speak. I am an addict just like the next guy. I had found KTC at this point but was still weary of the methods and while I am normally a truthful person, I could not believe that I would keep my word to a bunch of strangers. What the fuck is a jackwagin? On the 28th I would throw out the last of my chew and proceed with my quit. I quit for the first 10 or 11 days by myself, only reading here. I would get on here and read and read and read for hours on end. When I finally posted roll it was like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders and I knew I could keep my word. It was not all roses for sure, but I made the choice everyday to not poison myself.
I would like to thank everyone that helped me through my quit, you probably have even if you don't realize it. The vets with their words of wisdom and to all of the newbs that remind me of where I do not ever want to go again. Embrace the suck, but damn I do not want to go back. Proud to be quit with all of you, Proud to be a Jackwagin!
Congrats on a year JBradley, that's some impressive work!!
Awesome job on hitting a year my friend... Damn proud to quit with you every single day!!!
+1 with you again today JBrad....'Grats on 365. Keep on keepin' quit my friend......
Congrats my man!! See you Tomorrow!! 'jj'
Awesome JB! I aspire to get to the magical 365 someday and with guys like you showing us the way, we can all make it. I quit with you today brother.
Hey brother, well done, congratulations, and every other word of praise for making it that 1 year.
'oh yeah'
and is always so much better to be Clean and mean it.
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10 pages back.... guess I should blow the dust off of this thing.....
Day 364- Hard to believe that one year ago I was a complete mess. I had come to the realization that I am an addict. I could not believe that I had the ability to quit, nobody knew what it was like, chewing was different than smoking, I was different, I was special. I now know that all of that was bullshit, all of it was addict speak. I am an addict just like the next guy. I had found KTC at this point but was still weary of the methods and while I am normally a truthful person, I could not believe that I would keep my word to a bunch of strangers. What the fuck is a jackwagin? On the 28th I would throw out the last of my chew and proceed with my quit. I quit for the first 10 or 11 days by myself, only reading here. I would get on here and read and read and read for hours on end. When I finally posted roll it was like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders and I knew I could keep my word. It was not all roses for sure, but I made the choice everyday to not poison myself.
I would like to thank everyone that helped me through my quit, you probably have even if you don't realize it. The vets with their words of wisdom and to all of the newbs that remind me of where I do not ever want to go again. Embrace the suck, but damn I do not want to go back. Proud to be quit with all of you, Proud to be a Jackwagin!
Congrats on a year JBradley, that's some impressive work!!
Awesome job on hitting a year my friend... Damn proud to quit with you every single day!!!
+1 with you again today JBrad....'Grats on 365. Keep on keepin' quit my friend......
Congrats my man!! See you Tomorrow!! 'jj'
Awesome JB! I aspire to get to the magical 365 someday and with guys like you showing us the way, we can all make it. I quit with you today brother.
Hey brother, well done, congratulations, and every other word of praise for making it that 1 year.
'oh yeah'
and is always so much better to be Clean and mean it.
Congrats JB! You frigging Jackwagins are a great group of people.
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10 pages back.... guess I should blow the dust off of this thing.....
Day 364- Hard to believe that one year ago I was a complete mess. I had come to the realization that I am an addict. I could not believe that I had the ability to quit, nobody knew what it was like, chewing was different than smoking, I was different, I was special. I now know that all of that was bullshit, all of it was addict speak. I am an addict just like the next guy. I had found KTC at this point but was still weary of the methods and while I am normally a truthful person, I could not believe that I would keep my word to a bunch of strangers. What the fuck is a jackwagin? On the 28th I would throw out the last of my chew and proceed with my quit. I quit for the first 10 or 11 days by myself, only reading here. I would get on here and read and read and read for hours on end. When I finally posted roll it was like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders and I knew I could keep my word. It was not all roses for sure, but I made the choice everyday to not poison myself.
I would like to thank everyone that helped me through my quit, you probably have even if you don't realize it. The vets with their words of wisdom and to all of the newbs that remind me of where I do not ever want to go again. Embrace the suck, but damn I do not want to go back. Proud to be quit with all of you, Proud to be a Jackwagin!
Congrats on a year JBradley, that's some impressive work!!
Awesome job on hitting a year my friend... Damn proud to quit with you every single day!!!
+1 with you again today JBrad....'Grats on 365. Keep on keepin' quit my friend......
Congrats my man!! See you Tomorrow!! 'jj'
Awesome JB! I aspire to get to the magical 365 someday and with guys like you showing us the way, we can all make it. I quit with you today brother.
Hey brother, well done, congratulations, and every other word of praise for making it that 1 year.
'oh yeah'
and is always so much better to be Clean and mean it.
Congrats JB! You frigging Jackwagins are a great group of people.
Congrats jbrad! You put a rise in my Levis.
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400 days! Well done, jbrad, well done.
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400 days! Well done, jbrad, well done.
I'm with Evil, well done Jb! You are truly an encouraging presence on this site and in my Quit.
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I hate dip dreams.
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I hate dip dreams.
She lurks JB. She lurks.
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I hate dip dreams.
Never had a dip dream.. what do they entail?
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I hate dip dreams.
Never had a dip dream.. what do they entail?
This one happened to encompass something that I am looking forward to next month. The plan is that ERVDM is going to come out to AZ and myself and hopefully a bunch of AZ quitters are going to meet up for dinner....
So we are at dinner, laughing, joking, just having a great time. After dinner I whip out a can of cope and pack one in. Yes, right there in front of about 10 quitters from here. they ask WTF was that and I responded that it was ok because it was only one every couple of months. Then they asked if I posted roll, in the dream I said yes but nobody would mind, it's ok. I woke up at that point and had to convince myself that it was only a dream. I was sweating, shaking, and really confused for a while about whether it was real or not.
Fuck UST, fuck nic.
Use the tools available to you, keep them sharpened, and even things like this will only deepen your resolve to quit today. Once I figured out it was a dream and what it was, I posted roll and I know that above everything else I will stay quit today.
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I hate dip dreams.
Never had a dip dream.. what do they entail?
This one happened to encompass something that I am looking forward to next month. The plan is that ERVDM is going to come out to AZ and myself and hopefully a bunch of AZ quitters are going to meet up for dinner....
So we are at dinner, laughing, joking, just having a great time. After dinner I whip out a can of cope and pack one in. Yes, right there in front of about 10 quitters from here. they ask WTF was that and I responded that it was ok because it was only one every couple of months. Then they asked if I posted roll, in the dream I said yes but nobody would mind, it's ok. I woke up at that point and had to convince myself that it was only a dream. I was sweating, shaking, and really confused for a while about whether it was real or not.
Fuck UST, fuck nic.
Use the tools available to you, keep them sharpened, and even things like this will only deepen your resolve to quit today. Once I figured out it was a dream and what it was, I posted roll and I know that above everything else I will stay quit today.
I think you just have butterflies in your stomach just thinking about meeting Vadge. Stick with the program. 'Y'
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10 pages back.... guess I should blow the dust off of this thing.....
Day 364- Hard to believe that one year ago I was a complete mess. I had come to the realization that I am an addict. I could not believe that I had the ability to quit, nobody knew what it was like, chewing was different than smoking, I was different, I was special. I now know that all of that was bullshit, all of it was addict speak. I am an addict just like the next guy. I had found KTC at this point but was still weary of the methods and while I am normally a truthful person, I could not believe that I would keep my word to a bunch of strangers. What the fuck is a jackwagin? On the 28th I would throw out the last of my chew and proceed with my quit. I quit for the first 10 or 11 days by myself, only reading here. I would get on here and read and read and read for hours on end. When I finally posted roll it was like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders and I knew I could keep my word. It was not all roses for sure, but I made the choice everyday to not poison myself.
I would like to thank everyone that helped me through my quit, you probably have even if you don't realize it. The vets with their words of wisdom and to all of the newbs that remind me of where I do not ever want to go again. Embrace the suck, but damn I do not want to go back. Proud to be quit with all of you, Proud to be a Jackwagin!
Where is this guy?
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So today makes day 31, and I have learned a few things about myself along the way.
Probably the most important thing I have learned so far is that the human mind is the most formidable opponent we will ever face. From the nagging craves to the "dip dreams" makes the mental aspect of quitting the hardest challenge of all. To say it is a total mindfuck is an understatement. If you can be stronger than your own mind then you can be successful today.
I have learned that the following things are possible without that shit in my life;
I can deal with TSA and catch a flight without a dip
It was very, very hard for the first 2-3 days however I can stay in a hotel room by myself without a dip
I can weld just as good/bad without a dip
I can play video games without it
I can teach scouts new skills (even better I might say)
I can live my life everyday.
Today I say 'Finger' to the nic bitch.
And you can post when others lie.
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So today makes day 31, and I have learned a few things about myself along the way.Â
Probably the most important thing I have learned so far is that the human mind is the most formidable opponent we will ever face. From the nagging craves to the "dip dreams" makes the mental aspect of quitting the hardest challenge of all. To say it is a total mindfuck is an understatement. If you can be stronger than your own mind then you can be successful today.
I have learned that the following things are possible without that shit in my life;
I can deal with TSA and catch a flight without a dip
It was very, very hard for the first 2-3 days however I can stay in a hotel room by myself without a dip
I can weld just as good/bad without a dip
I can play video games without it
I can teach scouts new skills (even better I might say)
I can live my life everyday.
Today I say 'Finger' to the nic bitch.
And you can post when others lie.
so when you are not so 'arse' hurt start posting like a true Jackwagin. "take what you need leave the rest" never forget we :wub:
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Congrats on the 1/2 comma
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Congrats on the 1/2 comma
+1 on the half stiffy. Big plans this weekend in the desert. :ph43r:
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Congrats on the 1/2 comma
+1 on the half stiffy. Big plans this weekend in the desert. :ph43r:
Congrats on 500.
NICK
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Congrats on the 1/2 comma
+1 on the half stiffy. Big plans this weekend in the desert. :ph43r:
Congrats on 500.
NICK
Thank you guys! One of the most important lessons I have learned is that today is the most important day of my quit. I can choose to be free by simply posting roll and living up to my word. The other "choice" is not an option anymore. I am quit and I don't do that anymore.
Everyone here contributes to my quit in different ways. Most don't even know that they affect me at all. To all the day 1'ers out there, thank you for reminding me about how much day 1 sucked. As you start posting up your days and they grow there is a definite transition that takes place and it sucks less. Complacency is your enemy. So to all the day 30'ers out there that stop posting roll and giving back to this community, I will actually thank you for making sure that I keep my guard up and know that today is the most important day of my quit. And for those that continue to post through this time, thank you for reminding me that it was not easy sailing through this time either. For all my brothers (and sisters)that continue to post well after 100 days, thank you for becoming brothers and sisters to me. For the real vets who have been here longer than me and continue to spout knowledge that is wiser beyond their years, thank you for being there and reminding me that there is success, today is that success, and that even through hardships of unfathomable proportions being quit is still a high priority to them.
So to anyone that read this, Thank you. You have helped me today.
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Just got back from the wave pool (yes we can go swimming here already!). Opening day today was awesome. Only swam for 4 hours or so but the kids had a blast and I had a lot fun as well. Had a picnic at the park afterwards, nothing fancy sandwiches and chips but the kids loved that as well. Both boys fell asleep for the ride home, but I stopped and bought them ice cream anyways.
Just wanted to post this up and tell you guys thank you. Today was an awesome day on it's own but it is even better because I did it clean. Being here made that happen. This is why I still come here and post my +1.
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Just got back from the wave pool (yes we can go swimming here already!). Opening day today was awesome. Only swam for 4 hours or so but the kids had a blast and I had a lot fun as well. Had a picnic at the park afterwards, nothing fancy sandwiches and chips but the kids loved that as well. Both boys fell asleep for the ride home, but I stopped and bought them ice cream anyways.
Just wanted to post this up and tell you guys thank you. Today was an awesome day on it's own but it is even better because I did it clean. Being here made that happen. This is why I still come here and post my +1.
'clap' 'clap' 'clap' nice! THAT is what we are doing this for!
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Just got back from the wave pool (yes we can go swimming here already!). Opening day today was awesome. Only swam for 4 hours or so but the kids had a blast and I had a lot fun as well. Had a picnic at the park afterwards, nothing fancy sandwiches and chips but the kids loved that as well. Both boys fell asleep for the ride home, but I stopped and bought them ice cream anyways.
Just wanted to post this up and tell you guys thank you. Today was an awesome day on it's own but it is even better because I did it clean. Being here made that happen. This is why I still come here and post my +1.
'clap' 'clap' 'clap' nice! THAT is what we are doing this for!
Thanks for the post, jbrad. I needed this tonight.
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Just got back from the wave pool (yes we can go swimming here already!). Opening day today was awesome. Only swam for 4 hours or so but the kids had a blast and I had a lot fun as well. Had a picnic at the park afterwards, nothing fancy sandwiches and chips but the kids loved that as well. Both boys fell asleep for the ride home, but I stopped and bought them ice cream anyways.
Just wanted to post this up and tell you guys thank you. Today was an awesome day on it's own but it is even better because I did it clean. Being here made that happen. This is why I still come here and post my +1.
Great post, jbrad -- shines yet another welcome light on the direct and indirect beneficiaries of our daily promise to ourselves, our quit groups, and others in the KTC community. Thanks for reaching out today -- appreciate you checking in and hope the rest of your wknd is as good as it was today.
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Just got back from the wave pool (yes we can go swimming here already!). Opening day today was awesome. Only swam for 4 hours or so but the kids had a blast and I had a lot fun as well. Had a picnic at the park afterwards, nothing fancy sandwiches and chips but the kids loved that as well. Both boys fell asleep for the ride home, but I stopped and bought them ice cream anyways.
Just wanted to post this up and tell you guys thank you. Today was an awesome day on it's own but it is even better because I did it clean. Being here made that happen. This is why I still come here and post my +1.
Great post, jbrad -- shines yet another welcome light on the direct and indirect beneficiaries of our daily promise to ourselves, our quit groups, and others in the KTC community. Thanks for reaching out today -- appreciate you checking in and hope the rest of your wknd is as good as it was today.
WTF- I don't remember getting the call and is f*cking freezing in KY. I see how it is......... Don't dip, WE got this, We got your back... but what no invite to the wave pool, you know I have kids too...... I thought we had something special Jb, we could have invited Ginet......... Hope you know im joking... It is good to hear that all is good, away out yonder.....Robbie
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Just got back from the wave pool (yes we can go swimming here already!). Opening day today was awesome. Only swam for 4 hours or so but the kids had a blast and I had a lot fun as well. Had a picnic at the park afterwards, nothing fancy sandwiches and chips but the kids loved that as well. Both boys fell asleep for the ride home, but I stopped and bought them ice cream anyways.
Just wanted to post this up and tell you guys thank you. Today was an awesome day on it's own but it is even better because I did it clean. Being here made that happen. This is why I still come here and post my +1.
Great post, jbrad -- shines yet another welcome light on the direct and indirect beneficiaries of our daily promise to ourselves, our quit groups, and others in the KTC community. Thanks for reaching out today -- appreciate you checking in and hope the rest of your wknd is as good as it was today.
WTF- I don't remember getting the call and is f*cking freezing in KY. I see how it is......... Don't dip, WE got this, We got your back... but what no invite to the wave pool, you know I have kids too...... I thought we had something special Jb, we could have invited Ginet......... Hope you know im joking... It is good to hear that all is good, away out yonder.....Robbie
He was going to post you an invite EM, but he thought you were only going to post every five days so he did not think you see the invite...LMAO... 'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup'
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Just got back from the wave pool (yes we can go swimming here already!). Opening day today was awesome. Only swam for 4 hours or so but the kids had a blast and I had a lot fun as well. Had a picnic at the park afterwards, nothing fancy sandwiches and chips but the kids loved that as well. Both boys fell asleep for the ride home, but I stopped and bought them ice cream anyways.
Just wanted to post this up and tell you guys thank you. Today was an awesome day on it's own but it is even better because I did it clean. Being here made that happen. This is why I still come here and post my +1.
Great post, jbrad -- shines yet another welcome light on the direct and indirect beneficiaries of our daily promise to ourselves, our quit groups, and others in the KTC community. Thanks for reaching out today -- appreciate you checking in and hope the rest of your wknd is as good as it was today.
WTF- I don't remember getting the call and is f*cking freezing in KY. I see how it is......... Don't dip, WE got this, We got your back... but what no invite to the wave pool, you know I have kids too...... I thought we had something special Jb, we could have invited Ginet......... Hope you know im joking... It is good to hear that all is good, away out yonder.....Robbie
He was going to post you an invite EM, but he thought you were only going to post every five days so he did not think you see the invite...LMAO... 'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup'
.....G loves the wave pool........
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Just got back from the wave pool (yes we can go swimming here already!). Opening day today was awesome. Only swam for 4 hours or so but the kids had a blast and I had a lot fun as well. Had a picnic at the park afterwards, nothing fancy sandwiches and chips but the kids loved that as well. Both boys fell asleep for the ride home, but I stopped and bought them ice cream anyways.
Just wanted to post this up and tell you guys thank you. Today was an awesome day on it's own but it is even better because I did it clean. Being here made that happen. This is why I still come here and post my +1.
Great post, jbrad -- shines yet another welcome light on the direct and indirect beneficiaries of our daily promise to ourselves, our quit groups, and others in the KTC community. Thanks for reaching out today -- appreciate you checking in and hope the rest of your wknd is as good as it was today.
WTF- I don't remember getting the call and is f*cking freezing in KY. I see how it is......... Don't dip, WE got this, We got your back... but what no invite to the wave pool, you know I have kids too...... I thought we had something special Jb, we could have invited Ginet......... Hope you know im joking... It is good to hear that all is good, away out yonder.....Robbie
He was going to post you an invite EM, but he thought you were only going to post every five days so he did not think you see the invite...LMAO... 'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup'
.....G loves the wave pool........
Yes isn't it nice to have freedom and the ability to enjoy life without a chain on your leg. Sounds like your an amazing dad, my already high respect of you grows again!!! I quit with this bad ass!!!
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Just got back from the wave pool (yes we can go swimming here already!). Opening day today was awesome. Only swam for 4 hours or so but the kids had a blast and I had a lot fun as well. Had a picnic at the park afterwards, nothing fancy sandwiches and chips but the kids loved that as well. Both boys fell asleep for the ride home, but I stopped and bought them ice cream anyways.
Just wanted to post this up and tell you guys thank you. Today was an awesome day on it's own but it is even better because I did it clean. Being here made that happen. This is why I still come here and post my +1.
Great post, jbrad -- shines yet another welcome light on the direct and indirect beneficiaries of our daily promise to ourselves, our quit groups, and others in the KTC community. Thanks for reaching out today -- appreciate you checking in and hope the rest of your wknd is as good as it was today.
WTF- I don't remember getting the call and is f*cking freezing in KY. I see how it is......... Don't dip, WE got this, We got your back... but what no invite to the wave pool, you know I have kids too...... I thought we had something special Jb, we could have invited Ginet......... Hope you know im joking... It is good to hear that all is good, away out yonder.....Robbie
He was going to post you an invite EM, but he thought you were only going to post every five days so he did not think you see the invite...LMAO... 'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup'
.....G loves the wave pool........
Yes isn't it nice to have freedom and the ability to enjoy life without a chain on your leg. Sounds like your an amazing dad, my already high respect of you grows again!!! I quit with this bad ass!!!
Rock on!!!! Every day clean is a victory and well-earned
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Day 600-
No real words of wisdom here, just wanted to update.
Been a hell of a ride (many more to come, ODAAT)
Complacency has been my biggest foe. The wagins have lost more brothers, most likely due to complacency.
I am sorry to those that I have posted support for in the past and those that post with me, yet for a while I have not posted with anyone but the Wagins. Still post every day and plan on doing so into the future as well. Hopefully I will get back on track to reciprocate the support.
Once again I would like to thank the vets and all of the new quitters. Each one of you deepen my resolve to stay quit.
Thank you for saving my life again today. See you in the morning.
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Day 600-
No real words of wisdom here, just wanted to update.
Been a hell of a ride (many more to come, ODAAT)
Complacency has been my biggest foe. The wagins have lost more brothers, most likely due to complacency.
I am sorry to those that I have posted support for in the past and those that post with me, yet for a while I have not posted with anyone but the Wagins. Still post every day and plan on doing so into the future as well. Hopefully I will get back on track to reciprocate the support.
Once again I would like to thank the vets and all of the new quitters. Each one of you deepen my resolve to stay quit.
Thank you for saving my life again today. See you in the morning.
600 days is so great! Congrats. There were a lot of hidden words of wisdom in that post. Thank You.
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Day 600-
No real words of wisdom here, just wanted to update.
Been a hell of a ride (many more to come, ODAAT)
Complacency has been my biggest foe. The wagins have lost more brothers, most likely due to complacency.
I am sorry to those that I have posted support for in the past and those that post with me, yet for a while I have not posted with anyone but the Wagins. Still post every day and plan on doing so into the future as well. Hopefully I will get back on track to reciprocate the support.
Once again I would like to thank the vets and all of the new quitters. Each one of you deepen my resolve to stay quit.
Thank you for saving my life again today. See you in the morning.
600 days is so great! Congrats. There were a lot of hidden words of wisdom in that post. Thank You.
^^^^....congrats JB
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Day 600-
No real words of wisdom here, just wanted to update.
Been a hell of a ride (many more to come, ODAAT)
Complacency has been my biggest foe. The wagins have lost more brothers, most likely due to complacency.
I am sorry to those that I have posted support for in the past and those that post with me, yet for a while I have not posted with anyone but the Wagins. Still post every day and plan on doing so into the future as well. Hopefully I will get back on track to reciprocate the support.
Once again I would like to thank the vets and all of the new quitters. Each one of you deepen my resolve to stay quit.
Thank you for saving my life again today. See you in the morning.
600 days is so great! Congrats. There were a lot of hidden words of wisdom in that post. Thank You.
^^^^....congrats JB
Thanks for being such a steady badass. Congrats on 600. That's serious shit.
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Day 600-
No real words of wisdom here, just wanted to update.
Been a hell of a ride (many more to come, ODAAT)
Complacency has been my biggest foe. The wagins have lost more brothers, most likely due to complacency.
I am sorry to those that I have posted support for in the past and those that post with me, yet for a while I have not posted with anyone but the Wagins. Still post every day and plan on doing so into the future as well. Hopefully I will get back on track to reciprocate the support.
Once again I would like to thank the vets and all of the new quitters. Each one of you deepen my resolve to stay quit.
Thank you for saving my life again today. See you in the morning.
600 days is so great! Congrats. There were a lot of hidden words of wisdom in that post. Thank You.
^^^^....congrats JB
Thanks for being such a steady badass. Congrats on 600. That's serious shit.
600 is awesome. Thanks for sticking around. Helps us and you at the same time. The view has got to be nice from the 6th floor.
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Day 600-
No real words of wisdom here, just wanted to update.
Been a hell of a ride (many more to come, ODAAT)
Complacency has been my biggest foe. The wagins have lost more brothers, most likely due to complacency.
I am sorry to those that I have posted support for in the past and those that post with me, yet for a while I have not posted with anyone but the Wagins. Still post every day and plan on doing so into the future as well. Hopefully I will get back on track to reciprocate the support.
Once again I would like to thank the vets and all of the new quitters. Each one of you deepen my resolve to stay quit.
Thank you for saving my life again today. See you in the morning.
600 days is so great! Congrats. There were a lot of hidden words of wisdom in that post. Thank You.
^^^^....congrats JB
Thanks for being such a steady badass. Congrats on 600. That's serious shit.
600 is awesome. Thanks for sticking around. Helps us and you at the same time. The view has got to be nice from the 6th floor.
' 'BanDog' hommie
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Day 600-
No real words of wisdom here, just wanted to update.
Been a hell of a ride (many more to come, ODAAT)
Complacency has been my biggest foe. The wagins have lost more brothers, most likely due to complacency.
I am sorry to those that I have posted support for in the past and those that post with me, yet for a while I have not posted with anyone but the Wagins. Still post every day and plan on doing so into the future as well. Hopefully I will get back on track to reciprocate the support.
Once again I would like to thank the vets and all of the new quitters. Each one of you deepen my resolve to stay quit.
Thank you for saving my life again today. See you in the morning.
600 days is so great! Congrats. There were a lot of hidden words of wisdom in that post. Thank You.
^^^^....congrats JB
Thanks for being such a steady badass. Congrats on 600. That's serious shit.
600 is awesome. Thanks for sticking around. Helps us and you at the same time. The view has got to be nice from the 6th floor.
' 'BanDog' hommie
what he said^^^ 'boob' 'boob' 'boob'
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Day 600-
No real words of wisdom here, just wanted to update.
Been a hell of a ride (many more to come, ODAAT)
Complacency has been my biggest foe. The wagins have lost more brothers, most likely due to complacency.
I am sorry to those that I have posted support for in the past and those that post with me, yet for a while I have not posted with anyone but the Wagins. Still post every day and plan on doing so into the future as well. Hopefully I will get back on track to reciprocate the support.
Once again I would like to thank the vets and all of the new quitters. Each one of you deepen my resolve to stay quit.
Thank you for saving my life again today. See you in the morning.
600 days is so great! Congrats. There were a lot of hidden words of wisdom in that post. Thank You.
^^^^....congrats JB
Thanks for being such a steady badass. Congrats on 600. That's serious shit.
600 is awesome. Thanks for sticking around. Helps us and you at the same time. The view has got to be nice from the 6th floor.
' 'BanDog' hommie
what he said^^^ 'boob' 'boob' 'boob'
Great Job and inspiring
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Day 600-
No real words of wisdom here, just wanted to update.
Been a hell of a ride (many more to come, ODAAT)
Complacency has been my biggest foe. The wagins have lost more brothers, most likely due to complacency.
I am sorry to those that I have posted support for in the past and those that post with me, yet for a while I have not posted with anyone but the Wagins. Still post every day and plan on doing so into the future as well. Hopefully I will get back on track to reciprocate the support.
Once again I would like to thank the vets and all of the new quitters. Each one of you deepen my resolve to stay quit.
Thank you for saving my life again today. See you in the morning.
600 days is so great! Congrats. There were a lot of hidden words of wisdom in that post. Thank You.
^^^^....congrats JB
Thanks for being such a steady badass. Congrats on 600. That's serious shit.
600 is awesome. Thanks for sticking around. Helps us and you at the same time. The view has got to be nice from the 6th floor.
' 'BanDog' hommie
what he said^^^ 'boob' 'boob' 'boob'
Great Job and inspiring
Nice Strong work bro.... 'boob' 'oh yeah'
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Day 600-
No real words of wisdom here, just wanted to update.
Been a hell of a ride (many more to come, ODAAT)
Complacency has been my biggest foe. The wagins have lost more brothers, most likely due to complacency.
I am sorry to those that I have posted support for in the past and those that post with me, yet for a while I have not posted with anyone but the Wagins. Still post every day and plan on doing so into the future as well. Hopefully I will get back on track to reciprocate the support.
Once again I would like to thank the vets and all of the new quitters. Each one of you deepen my resolve to stay quit.
Thank you for saving my life again today. See you in the morning.
600 days is so great! Congrats. There were a lot of hidden words of wisdom in that post. Thank You.
^^^^....congrats JB
Thanks for being such a steady badass. Congrats on 600. That's serious shit.
600 is awesome. Thanks for sticking around. Helps us and you at the same time. The view has got to be nice from the 6th floor.
' 'BanDog' hommie
what he said^^^ 'boob' 'boob' 'boob'
Great Job and inspiring
Nice Strong work bro.... 'boob' 'oh yeah'
Way to be-- thanks for hanging in there!
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Day 600-
No real words of wisdom here, just wanted to update.
Been a hell of a ride (many more to come, ODAAT)
Complacency has been my biggest foe. The wagins have lost more brothers, most likely due to complacency.
I am sorry to those that I have posted support for in the past and those that post with me, yet for a while I have not posted with anyone but the Wagins. Still post every day and plan on doing so into the future as well. Hopefully I will get back on track to reciprocate the support.
Once again I would like to thank the vets and all of the new quitters. Each one of you deepen my resolve to stay quit.
Thank you for saving my life again today. See you in the morning.
600 days is so great! Congrats. There were a lot of hidden words of wisdom in that post. Thank You.
^^^^....congrats JB
Thanks for being such a steady badass. Congrats on 600. That's serious shit.
600 is awesome. Thanks for sticking around. Helps us and you at the same time. The view has got to be nice from the 6th floor.
' 'BanDog' hommie
what he said^^^ 'boob' 'boob' 'boob'
Great Job and inspiring
Nice Strong work bro.... 'boob' 'oh yeah'
Way to be-- thanks for hanging in there!
Awesome!!!
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Day 600-
No real words of wisdom here, just wanted to update.
Been a hell of a ride (many more to come, ODAAT)
Complacency has been my biggest foe. The wagins have lost more brothers, most likely due to complacency.
I am sorry to those that I have posted support for in the past and those that post with me, yet for a while I have not posted with anyone but the Wagins. Still post every day and plan on doing so into the future as well. Hopefully I will get back on track to reciprocate the support.
Once again I would like to thank the vets and all of the new quitters. Each one of you deepen my resolve to stay quit.
Thank you for saving my life again today. See you in the morning.
600 days is so great! Congrats. There were a lot of hidden words of wisdom in that post. Thank You.
^^^^....congrats JB
Thanks for being such a steady badass. Congrats on 600. That's serious shit.
600 is awesome. Thanks for sticking around. Helps us and you at the same time. The view has got to be nice from the 6th floor.
' 'BanDog' hommie
what he said^^^ 'boob' 'boob' 'boob'
Great Job and inspiring
Nice Strong work bro.... 'boob' 'oh yeah'
Way to be-- thanks for hanging in there!
Hell YES! Watch out for JO, he's your biggest enemy. (just one)
Congrats!
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Day 600-
No real words of wisdom here, just wanted to update.
Been a hell of a ride (many more to come, ODAAT)
Complacency has been my biggest foe. The wagins have lost more brothers, most likely due to complacency.
I am sorry to those that I have posted support for in the past and those that post with me, yet for a while I have not posted with anyone but the Wagins. Still post every day and plan on doing so into the future as well. Hopefully I will get back on track to reciprocate the support.
Once again I would like to thank the vets and all of the new quitters. Each one of you deepen my resolve to stay quit.
Thank you for saving my life again today. See you in the morning.
600 days is so great! Congrats. There were a lot of hidden words of wisdom in that post. Thank You.
^^^^....congrats JB
Thanks for being such a steady badass. Congrats on 600. That's serious shit.
600 is awesome. Thanks for sticking around. Helps us and you at the same time. The view has got to be nice from the 6th floor.
' 'BanDog' hommie
what he said^^^ 'boob' 'boob' 'boob'
Great Job and inspiring
Nice Strong work bro.... 'boob' 'oh yeah'
Way to be-- thanks for hanging in there!
Hell YES! Watch out for JO, he's your biggest enemy. (just one)
Congrats!
Much love! Congrats! Thank you!
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Day 600-
No real words of wisdom here, just wanted to update.
Been a hell of a ride (many more to come, ODAAT)
Complacency has been my biggest foe. The wagins have lost more brothers, most likely due to complacency.
I am sorry to those that I have posted support for in the past and those that post with me, yet for a while I have not posted with anyone but the Wagins. Still post every day and plan on doing so into the future as well. Hopefully I will get back on track to reciprocate the support.
Once again I would like to thank the vets and all of the new quitters. Each one of you deepen my resolve to stay quit.
Thank you for saving my life again today. See you in the morning.
600 days is so great! Congrats. There were a lot of hidden words of wisdom in that post. Thank You.
^^^^....congrats JB
Thanks for being such a steady badass. Congrats on 600. That's serious shit.
600 is awesome. Thanks for sticking around. Helps us and you at the same time. The view has got to be nice from the 6th floor.
' 'BanDog' hommie
what he said^^^ 'boob' 'boob' 'boob'
Great Job and inspiring
Nice Strong work bro.... 'boob' 'oh yeah'
Way to be-- thanks for hanging in there!
Hell YES! Watch out for JO, he's your biggest enemy. (just one)
Congrats!
Much love! Congrats! Thank you!
JB..... Thank you for all you have done to help me quit and stay quit. I quit with you today. YOU sir are a lifesaver as well my friend..... Thanks Robbie
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Day 600-
No real words of wisdom here, just wanted to update.
Been a hell of a ride (many more to come, ODAAT)
Complacency has been my biggest foe. The wagins have lost more brothers, most likely due to complacency.
I am sorry to those that I have posted support for in the past and those that post with me, yet for a while I have not posted with anyone but the Wagins. Still post every day and plan on doing so into the future as well. Hopefully I will get back on track to reciprocate the support.
Once again I would like to thank the vets and all of the new quitters. Each one of you deepen my resolve to stay quit.
Thank you for saving my life again today. See you in the morning.
600 days is so great! Congrats. There were a lot of hidden words of wisdom in that post. Thank You.
^^^^....congrats JB
Thanks for being such a steady badass. Congrats on 600. That's serious shit.
600 is awesome. Thanks for sticking around. Helps us and you at the same time. The view has got to be nice from the 6th floor.
' 'BanDog' hommie
what he said^^^ 'boob' 'boob' 'boob'
Great Job and inspiring
Nice Strong work bro.... 'boob' 'oh yeah'
Way to be-- thanks for hanging in there!
Hell YES! Watch out for JO, he's your biggest enemy. (just one)
Congrats!
Much love! Congrats! Thank you!
JB..... Thank you for all you have done to help me quit and stay quit. I quit with you today. YOU sir are a lifesaver as well my friend..... Thanks Robbie
Atta boy J!
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Pretty sure this will be locked soon. Haven't figured out why yet, because all I have done is post roll.
I hope that those of you that I have helped along the way continue the path.
Thank you to all that have helped me along the way. I love you like brothers, you really have saved my life.
I have done nothing wrong. You have no reason to block my PM's. You have no reason to lock my intro.
Pretty sure mod preview is next. Once again I have done nothing wrong.
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Pretty sure this will be locked soon. Haven't figured out why yet, because all I have done is post roll.
I hope that those of you that I have helped along the way continue the path.
Thank you to all that have helped me along the way. I love you like brothers, you really have saved my life.
I have done nothing wrong. You have no reason to block my PM's. You have no reason to lock my intro.
Pretty sure mod preview is next. Once again I have done nothing wrong.
'Crazy'