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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Hanko on February 16, 2011, 10:51:00 PM
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Hello,
I was told about this site by a friend, and I think its what I need to do this. I have been dipping since I was 12, I'm 29 now. I have attempted to quit numerous times, but I always start again. My day starts with a chew and ends with a chew. Roughly four years ago I started a second job that won't allow me to chew, so in order to be stealh I started swallowing. I just find myself swallowing without even thinking about it even when I dont have to. Latley I have become a bit of a hypochondriac. I have a wife and a 4 year old boy, I dont want my boy picking up my habit. Also I don't want to die. I recently had a friend pass from throat cancer and I think that is what has made me realize even more its time. I have a doctors appointment tommorow 9 a.m, A buddy of mine quit chewing and smoking with chantix. I'm hoping it will help me also. Anyway, just wanted to tell my story and say hello.
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Hello,
I was told about this site by a friend, and I think its what I need to do this. I have been dipping since I was 12, I'm 29 now. I have attempted to quit numerous times, but I always start again. My day starts with a chew and ends with a chew. Roughly four years ago I started a second job that won't allow me to chew, so in order to be stealh I started swallowing. I just find myself swallowing without even thinking about it even when I dont have to. Latley I have become a bit of a hypochondriac. I have a wife and a 4 year old boy, I dont want my boy picking up my habit. Also I don't want to die. I recently had a friend pass from throat cancer and I think that is what has made me realize even more its time. I have a doctors appointment tommorow 9 a.m, A buddy of mine quit chewing and smoking with chantix. I'm hoping it will help me also. Anyway, just wanted to tell my story and say hello.
Hanko,
the simple word attempt allows the possibility of failure. You don't need to attempt, you need to just stop. There is no possibility of failure. No one puts that shit in your mouth but you, You choose to fail or succeed.
Do it
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The time to quit is right now. Throw all that shit away.
Bullshit, I know you have a stash somewhere, or that you're holding on to that last pinch before bedtime, or the next time you buy gas that fat bitch behind the counter will have a can waiting for you. Just stop. Don't peel that bandaid off slowly; rip the fucker off! EMBRACE THE SUCK!
You can't go into this lightly, Broseph; go hard or go home. This community will support you but only if you man the fuck up and sound off to yourself and the rest of the world "HEY, I'M FUCKIN' HANK AND I FUCKIN' QUIT! JOIN ME!"
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Wise words! I WILL quit! From now on the word "attempt" isn't a part of my vocabulary, and "Man up" is my motivation. Thank you.
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Wise words! I WILL quit! From now on the word "attempt" isn't a part of my vocabulary, and "Man up" is my motivation. Thank you.
So? Are you quit today?
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To be honest, I don't know. I'm waiting in the lobby at the doctors office. While waiting, I read your replies. I had a dip in at the time. You guys motivated me so I went outside and spit it out. I'm still waiting, and now I'm wanting another chew. I'm hoping to get something from the doc to help quitting. I never have been this serious about quitting, but I still am having second thoughts. It's like I have that angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other.so to answer you question with a confident "yes" would be a lie. It's been about 45min since my last chew, which is an eternity!
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To be honest, I don't know. I'm waiting in the lobby at the doctors office. While waiting, I read your replies. I had a dip in at the time. You guys motivated me so I went outside and spit it out. I'm still waiting, and now I'm wanting another chew. I'm hoping to get something from the doc to help quitting. I never have been this serious about quitting, but I still am having second thoughts. It's like I have that angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other.so to answer you question with a confident "yes" would be a lie. It's been about 45min since my last chew, which is an eternity!
Your doc can't prescribe willpower or big nuts, which is really all you need to successfully quit.
Don't get hooked on another drug to stop this one.
Nut up.
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To be honest, I don't know. I'm waiting in the lobby at the doctors office. While waiting, I read your replies. I had a dip in at the time. You guys motivated me so I went outside and spit it out. I'm still waiting, and now I'm wanting another chew. I'm hoping to get something from the doc to help quitting. I never have been this serious about quitting, but I still am having second thoughts. It's like I have that angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other.so to answer you question with a confident "yes" would be a lie. It's been about 45min since my last chew, which is an eternity!
Your doc can't prescribe willpower or big nuts, which is really all you need to successfully quit.
Don't get hooked on another drug to stop this one.
Nut up.
Right on yota....right on brother!
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To be honest, I don't know. I'm waiting in the lobby at the doctors office. While waiting, I read your replies. I had a dip in at the time. You guys motivated me so I went outside and spit it out. I'm still waiting, and now I'm wanting another chew. I'm hoping to get something from the doc to help quitting. I never have been this serious about quitting, but I still am having second thoughts. It's like I have that angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other.so to answer you question with a confident "yes" would be a lie. It's been about 45min since my last chew, which is an eternity!
Your doc can't prescribe willpower or big nuts, which is really all you need to successfully quit.
Don't get hooked on another drug to stop this one.
Nut up.
Couldn't have said it better myself. It's this simple, Hank: If you want to quit, you can. Cold turkey. No drugs. No patch. No nothing. Just steely balls and resolve. Day after day.
No excuse is ever going to fly at this website, just so you know. Either you're ready, or you're not. Either you're weak, or you're strong. Either you're a slave, or you're free. Either you're a pussy, or a badass son of a bitch.
WHAT ARE YOU, Hank?
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Oh, and by the way, Hank: You have four-year-old son? Well, you're an asshole if you don't quit.
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I'm listening
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I'm listening
There's nothing else hank, its time to decide. Once you make the decision, we can help.
What's it gonna be?
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I'm listening
Good.
Take out the dip, toss the stash, and come post you roll call, which is a promise not to dip all day.
Keep you word.
Repeat tomorrow.
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Good. You're listening. Hear this, then: You can quit. That's a fact. There are literally thousands of pricks just like me who have joined this site, engaged with others in the same boat, and beaten their habits.
Hear this, too: It is going to be the most difficult thing you have ever done. Not just for three days or three weeks or three months. For a long, long time. You ready for that?
If you think you aren't ready for that, ask yourself this: Are you ready to do battle with cancer and lose? You ready to die? You ready to be lying in a hospital bed alone crying, knowing that you are going to leave your wife and son? Because you will. You will die, Hank.
Also hear this: Nicotine does nothing except feed itself. It's the most lowly of drugs. It hooks you, and that's that. It gives nothing. You don't even get a buzz anymore, do you? You just NEED it.
Break that shit. Get to a point where that need is gone. You can. Trust me.
Make friendships here. That will be THE key to your success. Just trust me, for now. Post roll, keep your word, talk to people.
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I just looked at all of the quitters that made a commitment today to not dip. Well Hank, I hate to break this to you, you are not a special and unique butterfly. You are just like the rest of us. The only difference is we decided to quit and you have no balls. Man up.
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I'm listening
There are 5 of us on here that are quitting from Baghdad, another guy is quitting while in Afghanistan. What's your excuse again? Waaaaaa, I wanna dip, Waaaaa.... No shit, that's what addiction is, it is an inner battle we all fight every day, for the rest of our lives.
Sack Up, Post Roll, and Repeat. It gets better, it takes time, but it gets better. One day at a time, and never let your guard down. The decision is yours and yours alone. No one can make you quit, they can only make you a secret dipper.
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Hank I came to the realization this time that quitting is the easiest thing I've done in a long time. Trying to quit is impossible though. My mind f'd with me and still does that we are still just trying and that it ain't real. My mind is my enemy still so I don't listen to it.
The most miserable time in my life was 5 or 10 minutes into a "trying" to quit phase because I knew it was just a game I was playing before I caved and quit trying. When I quit my mind was scared and my heart broken but the physical demands weren't as tough as I feared. Embrace your quit today!
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Enter into this quit with the mindset that this is THE QUIT. Not that you will "try", not that you "hope I can". DO IT. Grab this beast by the neck and fight. That is really what a quit is, it is a fight every second of every day. Here is the thing, and there really is no getting around this, only the strong can fight. The weak? They sit there and continue to be a slave to nicotine. Like you said, 45 minutes is an eternity = slavery. You are a slave, an addict. So, will you fight for your freedom? Are you strong enough to face the beast and fight, or will you cower back to the corner and remain in bondage?
This site is full of quitters who finally had enough and decided to fight. Yes, it is EXTREMELY hard. Yes, it will suck. But when you win, when you win the battle each day, that victory is life, and man, let me tell ya, it is sweet.
I am an addict. I will never finish this war. That is ok, because I am learning to win the battle day by day. Jump in, join this war, this brotherhood. YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
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Hanko,
These bad ass quitters have layed it out for you. It ain't pretty but it is possible.
The question has already been asked but I have not seen the answer. Are you going to nut up, grab this bitch by the throat and fight for your freedom ? Or will you end up one of the 438,000 of our brother and sister addicts who lose their life this year.
Choice is yours...
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Come on Hank. You can do this bro. Put your foot down and take back your life. I'm not sure where I read it here or what sage said it first but its one day at a time. Start with one day and grab that nic bitch by the couchie. Wear her like a puppet. Everyone here is ready to pull you through bud. Reach out before reaching in to that can again.
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I see you out there. Take the plunge. It is worth it.
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Thank you everyone for your words. I have taken the day to think. I am ready. Thank you Souliman, Greg5280, jcook, jaygib, rhester03, Scowick65, DeanTheCoot, redyota, RagingJew, Skoal Monster, and redtrain14. Your words have made me sit back and realize that I can do this. I flushed what was left in the can and I'm off to bed. Tommorow is the day!
Now, roll call, I can't seem to find this thread.....I'll check back first thing in the A.M for it.
Again, Thank you.
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Lets get this done.
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Thank you everyone for your words. I have taken the day to think. I am ready. Thank you Souliman, Greg5280, jcook, jaygib, rhester03, Scowick65, DeanTheCoot, redyota, RagingJew, Skoal Monster, and redtrain14. Your words have made me sit back and realize that I can do this. I flushed what was left in the can and I'm off to bed. Tommorow is the day!
Now, roll call, I can't seem to find this thread.....I'll check back first thing in the A.M for it.
Again, Thank you.
Hanko,
These guys you mentioned wouldn't know you if you bumped into them at wal-mart, but they care for your helath. They care for your quit! I do to Hanko..I'm in May group and I'm looking for your promise to quit today. Promise yourself, me and all these quitters that are quitting today with you, that your putting down the can today.
WAKE UP AND POST ROLL!!
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Hanko,
I'm only 36 days into my quit but everything said on this site is helpfull to someone and all the people on this site have a goal to help you quit. I know you can do it. It is a long road and not easy but your quit each day post roll and get some numbers. I also read you first post and I have turned into a hypochondriac as well. I managed to quit at the same time I started to feel like crap for my health. I have found out I have a thyroid issue (Not to common for men but it does happen) and your thyroid can cause alot of symptoms but not usually to bad of an issue as long as you take care of it with your doctor. I should be able to live life with not issues once they get my thyroid meds adjusted. That said the symptoms of quiting the Nic combined with the health issue sucks but there is no way I'm going back to being a slave to the can (This site and the people on it has been a key to my quit and always will). To tell you how much Nic can get ahold of you I still crave it even when I thinking (hypochondraic) I have some bad health issue.
I'm a little long winded sorry about that. over all post roll and get some numbers and we are all here to help you free your self from the can.
KTM640
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I've picked up on the sincere concern people have here. I didnt get my Chantex prescription filled. I think this forum is what I need not medication. I will feel more like I quit if I do it without medication. Days quit is what I need, day one is painful!
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I've picked up on the sincere concern people have here. I didnt get my Chantex prescription filled. I think this forum is what I need not medication. I will feel more like I quit if I do it without medication. Numbers is what I need, day one is painful!
Feel the pain, embrace the suck and most importantly, remember how you feel right now. Never go back.
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I've picked up on the sincere concern people have here. I didnt get my Chantex prescription filled. I think this forum is what I need not medication. I will feel more like I quit if I do it without medication. Numbers is what I need, day one is painful!
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Day one ending. I spent 90% of my day thinking about a chew. I feel strong for not giving in. I even stopped for gas today!
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Congrats Hanko!!! That's we way it is done...one day at a time. Now is the time to sure up your quit plan. What are you gonna do to beat the Nic Bitch's calls?
Get numbers, send IM's or whatever you have to. Posting roll is a given, but what else? Make a plan so you're not caught unprepared.
I'm totally with you on Chantix. I didn't want anything to dull the pain. I wanted to feel it and develop a hatred for nic. Best way to do this is what you're doing....cold turkey! Congrats, bro!!!
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Hanko - I'm going to sleep and heading into day 3 of my quit. What does day three mean to me? A milestone. Because the last two days have been a non stop hell full of cravings...flashes of chew in my mouth after taking a sip of soda...or a post lunch fullness satisified by a fresh dip. If only I could have a chew. I would feel so much better. Fuck that man. No more NICOTINE. It's not the chew we're quitting. I'm here with you and let's quit together.
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Love to see so much quit going on!!! Great job Hanko and Beerbottle...just white-knuckle it if you have to and stay glued to this site. Just post your word and get through today. Don't think about tomorrow...just today. Anybody can quit for one day, right?
You can do it! We're in this together. Stay strong.
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I'm with you BeerBottleSpittoon. Beef jerky and chew go together like peanut butter and jelly, at least it used too. Every hour is a challenge, but I feel good even though I feel like crap!
Thanks Bean! I going to look into a quit plan on my lunch break...Your right, when that point of weakness comes, I'mgoing to need a plan. I got the no Chantex tip from this site, I feel better/stronger doing this completly free of medication.
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I'm with you BeerBottleSpittoon. Beef jerky and chew go together like peanut butter and jelly, at least it used too. Every hour is a challenge, but I feel good even though I feel like crap!
Thanks Bean! I going to look into a quit plan on my lunch break...Your right, when that point of weakness comes, I'mgoing to need a plan. I got the no Chantex tip from this site, I feel better/stronger doing this completly free of medication.
I noticed after a couple of days, althought i was still having cravings, Physically, I felt alot better.
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Get past 72 hours and you will have completed phase 1 of the quit. Still many tough times ahead, but...you will have gotten all nicotine out of the system.
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Hellz yeah Hank! Give that nic whore a swick kick in the ass! I'll quit with ya!
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I do feel better! Day 2 coming to a end, cannot say I dont want a chew. I believe its you guys that gave the push I needed to get this far. Today I did kick some nic ass! thats for sure.
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Every hour is a challenge, but I feel good even though I feel like crap!
You mean that ache that wraps around your head like it's sucking on your brain. Your super-powers are coming on!
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Hanko,
Wake up each morning, tell yourself you hate that shit, you hate the people that make it, you hate what they did to you all these years and no matter what you will NEVER give them one cent of your money again.
Your quit can be as difficult or as easy as you want it to be. Your mind is a powerful weapon. How you choose to use it during your quit is up to you. If you wake up each day and convince yourself you like it, miss it, want it then your journey will be very difficult.
If however you wake up each morning and tell yourself I hate that shit, I am better off without it, I will NEVER use it again. I thik you will find the road a little smoother to travel.... this is as much a mental battle as it is a physical one.
STAY QUIT
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I do feel better! Day 2 coming to a end, cannot say I dont want a chew. I believe its you guys that gave the push I needed to get this far. Today I did kick some nic ass! thats for sure.
attaboy Hank!
The good thing about having the desire there is that it can't sneak up on you--you're less likely to stumble and fall while walking slowly and paying full attention to your footing. Just endure the first few days man, you're winning
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Good Job Hank. Keep up the good fight. Go outside and keep yourself busy. That's my plan.
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Good advice fellas... Hell yeah!!! 71 hours grizz free! So in a hour I should'nt have any more cravings, I can't wait! I wish... But I am doing much better. I feel more like a quiter with each hour of the day.
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Good advice fellas... Hell yeah!!! 73 hours grizz free! So in a hour I should'nt have any more cravings, I can't wait! I wish... But I am doing much better. I feel more like a quiter with each hour of the day.
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Nice job hanko,
your through the fire, bring on the head games. You should feel like a quitter because you ARE A QUITTER. The hardest part is deciding to quit, all you gotta do now is stay that way. Stick to your guns, you got this.
sM
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I'm quitting with you Hanko.
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Good ninereasons, keep it up! Right now I'm fighting urges right and left, literally! Every party store, gas station, and smoke shop I pass is like a magnet pulling me in.
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Good ninereasons, keep it up! Right now I'm fighting urges right and left, literally! Every party store, gas station, and smoke shop I pass is like a magnet pulling me in.
Come on Hanko, let's do this together! Turn that magnet around and it will repel from those gas stations!
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Good ninereasons, keep it up! Right now I'm fighting urges right and left, literally! Every party store, gas station, and smoke shop I pass is like a magnet pulling me in.
Suck it up Hanko. Pay at the pump and don't go into those other stores. It will soon start to get better. Last week, when I was around the 15 day mark I was in the PX in Balad and the checkout was ringed in Nicotine. I didn't even pay attention to it, and didn't even realize it was there until after I had already left.
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Be careful of the situtions you put yourself in early in your quit. The C stores are a bad idea. Pay at the pump, get your drinks at the grocery store. Trust me there will be days in your future when you can walk throught the checkout lines and just shake your head in disgust, For me that was somewhere around day 250ish. Until then stay away from temptation, build your toolbox.
STAY QUIT
Greg
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Find a nice isolated turnoff on a country road. Roll up the windows. Turn the radio up on some headbanger music, and rip a vocalchord shouting at that nic-daemon to leave you alone, Hanko.
It's completely senseless, but it makes me smile afterward - and you're at what, Day 6. 7 or so? Silliness feels pretty good around that time.
In fact, let me be frank, you're struggling partly because some of your feelings are coming back that nic made you forget about. It's like you've been sitting on your hand, and now it tingles like crazy - but only after the blood starts returning.
Your feelings are more intense, jumbled up. You might just THINK you want a chew. What you really want might be ... well, you're married ... you're no longer sucking saltpeter ... certain interests start to re-awaken. Redirect.
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Find a nice isolated turnoff on a country road. Roll up the windows. Turn the radio up on some headbanger music, and rip a vocalchord shouting at that nic-daemon to leave you alone, Hanko.
It's completely senseless, but it makes me smile afterward - and you're at what, Day 6. 7 or so? Silliness feels pretty good around that time.
In fact, let me be frank, you're struggling partly because some of your feelings are coming back that nic made you forget about. It's like you've been sitting on your hand, and now it tingles like crazy - but only after the blood starts returning.
Your feelings are more intense, jumbled up. You might just THINK you want a chew. What you really want might be ... well, you're married ... you're no longer sucking saltpeter ... certain interests start to re-awaken. Redirect.
I'm heading into day 2 myself. day 1....not so bad for me, its day 2 that always fucts me up. get some gum, seeds, fakesnuff. all I have right now is the gum, and seeds and it has helped a lot. also, this site too I just read good luck. Imma quit with you
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Find a nice isolated turnoff on a country road. Roll up the windows. Turn the radio up on some headbanger music, and rip a vocalchord shouting at that nic-daemon to leave you alone, Hanko.
It's completely senseless, but it makes me smile afterward - and you're at what, Day 6. 7 or so? Silliness feels pretty good around that time.
In fact, let me be frank, you're struggling partly because some of your feelings are coming back that nic made you forget about. It's like you've been sitting on your hand, and now it tingles like crazy - but only after the blood starts returning.
Your feelings are more intense, jumbled up. You might just THINK you want a chew. What you really want might be ... well, you're married ... you're no longer sucking saltpeter ... certain interests start to re-awaken. Redirect.
I think what my fellow quit-whore is saying is to take that lovely woman by the hand, lay her down by the fire, and hit that LIKE A CAVEMAN. A good romp with the old lady will do wonders for your quit. Seriously.
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This is good stuff! I feel much more energetic. Tonight I will test out my new found energy! Good advice everyone, got me thru, yesterday was tough.
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This is good stuff! I feel much more energetic. Tonight I will test out my new found energy! Good advice everyone, got me thru, yesterday was tough.
uh oh hide the sheep hankos feelin frisky
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This is good stuff! I feel much more energetic. Tonight I will test out my new found energy! Good advice everyone, got me thru, yesterday was tough.
uh oh hide the sheep hankos feelin frisky
Remember kids: "baaaaa" means "no".
Please note that "Honey, would you take the trash out please? Thank you." means "I want you to do dirty shit to me later so we need to decide on a safe word now."
It's all in the interpretation.