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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Dea on June 14, 2015, 02:20:00 PM
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Hi all- my name is Dee. Today is the first day! I am 12 hours into my quit. I suppose I'll tell a little about myself...
I am a 30 year old wife and mother to two beautiful boys. I always hesitate when or if I decide to tell someone I chew... being a woman who chews ins't very "ladylike"! I smoked for 2 years in my late teens. When I got pregnant with my first son, I quit smoking and haven't gone back. However, my husband (bf at the time) smoked as well and switched to chew so after giving birth I thought why not? That was 9 1/2 years ago. I can't believe I spent a DECADE of my life putting that crap in my mouth. So many times I would hate doing it WHILE I was doing it but would still finish the dip. I feel like I am lazy and chained to where I can have a dip. I'm done. I want to be a better wife and mother and be more active. I am doing it today. I have quit before... longest I made it was 3 weeks- I don't remember much of that time because I was in the middle of a move, away from my husband with my 2 kids, and doing a new job. I was so distracted and upset from missing my husband I barely made it through that part. Then when he was finally able to move up to us (bc of work), he brought the chew with and BAM. That was 2 years ago. For quite awhile I have been doing a tin a day. No more. He still chews, and I know it will be hard with him doing it here but I told him why I'm doing it and recommended he come to this site.
Everyone here has been such an inspiration! I will certainly come as often as I can. I find myself wanting to reach for my chew because that's what I would be doing. It is very weird to me that my whole "plan of action" is altered. My husband is working 16 hour shifts for the next 3 days. I thought this would be the best time to quite to maximize the amount of time he is gone so I don't see it. I am REFUSING to get in my car and go to the gas station lol
I am not feeling edgy or irritated yet but from past experience I know it will come. I worry about snapping at my boys. They are 9 1/2 and 3. But I know they are proud of me for doing this too. I feel dizzy. I also notice that I have the need to be moving... tapping fingers-bouncing my legs- pacing. I feel restless. No matter...I can do this!!! BRING ON THE CHOCOLATE!!! ;-)
Dee
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Dee! Welcome! Good story. Can't tell you how many of us felt like you do when we got started. I have 2 children and they are my inspiration for quitting.
I just sent you a private message with info about the site and next steps. Check your KTC mailbox (look in upper right corner for Inbox and click on it).
In the meantime, here are a few basics.
The September Samurai Quit Group will be your home. Go post roll there now. You can learn how to post roll from the instructions on that page.
Your job is to honor your quit one day at a time. Just get thru today my friend...Do not cave in to the cravings. And then tomorrow morning, post roll again and repeat that every damn day.
As you know, the first few days suck, but by Day 10+, things start to get a lot easier. Drink lots of water and/or cranberry juice. Exercise and sweat out the toxins. Stay away from alcohol for the next couple weeks so it doesn't weaken your resolve. It'll take 3 days for the nicotine to physically get out of your system, and then the real mental battle starts fighting the cravings your brain's nicotine receptors so badly want. You can do this. Many of us old dogs are 30+ year dippers and are now proud to be free.
Proud to quit with you. PM me anytime that you need help. Also, people here share their cell numbers, especially during the first few weeks because I promise you that you are going to want to text or call someone when you start having a craving. Really, really helps to have someone in your corner at that moment.
Congrats on the best decision of your life. Now go post roll and check ur mailbox.
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You can definitely do this! I'm on day 3. I'll be watching for you in roll call!
I'll say this growing up I never real saw any females dipping. Then one day in the Marine Corps I got this female Marine assigned to me and as she was walking down a pier we were working she pulled out a can of cope and started packing it. Was different that's for sure. She's still a good friend of mine and quit some years ago.
You got this day by day and we are all here for ya.
Semper Fi
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Good to see you here. Don't feel bad just because you are a woman. we have a few woman who are here at KTC on a regular basis. PM Sage, she will be glad to talk to you and help you through the tough times. Samcat is another. Both of these girls are badass quitters and I know they will gladly offer you their support. And you have a ton of guys here to help you as well. Male or Female we all have the one thing in common. We are all addicts and we are here to but the nicotine witch out to pasture. I was a 36 year/2 can per day, sometimes 3 cans per day, user. With the support of a bunch of these guys I was able to quit and i've kept it going for 933 days. You can do the same if you put your mind to it.
Read everything on this site. Find your group and post roll every day as early as possible. Keep your word and come back and do it again the next day. We quit one day at a time. The fog will set in in a couple of days. The SUCK is a bad time but there is light and freedom at the end of the tunnel. Fill your phone with numbers of people here and don't hesitate to call them if you need to.
Welcome to KTC, Get into chat and start talking to people. It will be a huge help. I know it seems wierd but I've been to some of the get togethers and I can honestly say that KTC are some of my most treasured friends.
Lets get to quitting.
Mike
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I don't know most male from female in here, only assume. But I know some females that use tobacco. To be honest, I think we as men are all hypocrites. We think of a woman dipping and it's gross. We don't see that a woman would think it's gross on us. Maybe we are not hypocrites, but just stupid. Either way, the girls I know and have known that dip are very attractive. Somehow got handed the shit like the rest of us and now hooked. I'm sure it would be harder to dip as a female because of us hypocrites.
But it really doesn't matter anymore, because we no longer dip. This group will hold you accountable. Starting back is not an option. I'm on day 5, it still sucks, but it's better than day 1. Posting roll is a must. You must promise us all that you will not dip each day, we all make that same promise to you. You see there are some names on the shit list. Don't be those people.
Welcome to the Samurai and message me if you need someone to contact for emergencies.
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Thanks for all the encouragement! This isn't the first time I have ever tried to quit, but it is the first time I have decided to ask others for help. This is also the first time I am willing to say I need help and that its hard! I can do this and I love that there are others here who can help hold me accountable. Right now I'm wanting one... but my boys want to play a game. Good distraction and good reminder why I'm doing this!!!
D
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Thanks for all the encouragement! This isn't the first time I have ever tried to quit, but it is the first time I have decided to ask others for help. This is also the first time I am willing to say I need help and that its hard! I can do this and I love that there are others here who can help hold me accountable. Right now I'm wanting one... but my boys want to play a game. Good distraction and good reminder why I'm doing this!!!
D
Some of the most bad ass quitters on this site are women. Sage, chick dip, and ginet are the first ones that come to mind. Nicotine in a can = nicotine in 3 packs of smokes. This plan is foolproof. Post your promise as soon as your eyeballs open, then keep your word. Some people are not honorable people. They fail. But you clearly keep your word. You can do this, and the support that you will receive here is unlike anything you've ever experienced. Done the right way, this will be one of the best experiences of your life.
By the way, you'll never have to relive the hell of today. Tomorrow is +1, and one day at a time you will be free. Welcome aboard.
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Thanks for all the encouragement! This isn't the first time I have ever tried to quit, but it is the first time I have decided to ask others for help. This is also the first time I am willing to say I need help and that its hard! I can do this and I love that there are others here who can help hold me accountable. Right now I'm wanting one... but my boys want to play a game. Good distraction and good reminder why I'm doing this!!!
D
Some of the most bad ass quitters on this site are women. Sage, chick dip, and ginet are the first ones that come to mind. Nicotine in a can = nicotine in 3 packs of smokes. This plan is foolproof. Post your promise as soon as your eyeballs open, then keep your word. Some people are not honorable people. They fail. But you clearly keep your word. You can do this, and the support that you will receive here is unlike anything you've ever experienced. Done the right way, this will be one of the best experiences of your life.
By the way, you'll never have to relive the hell of today. Tomorrow is +1, and one day at a time you will be free. Welcome aboard.
The support is thick around here. This is doable. I dipped for longer than you, and was a skeptic after a few failed "quits." I logged in here on Dec 27 and haven't missed a day. I'm done, and whit with you today. I'm typically hang in live chat, look us up if you are inclined.
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Thanks for all the encouragement! This isn't the first time I have ever tried to quit, but it is the first time I have decided to ask others for help. This is also the first time I am willing to say I need help and that its hard! I can do this and I love that there are others here who can help hold me accountable. Right now I'm wanting one... but my boys want to play a game. Good distraction and good reminder why I'm doing this!!!
D
Some of the most bad ass quitters on this site are women. Sage, chick dip, and ginet are the first ones that come to mind. Nicotine in a can = nicotine in 3 packs of smokes. This plan is foolproof. Post your promise as soon as your eyeballs open, then keep your word. Some people are not honorable people. They fail. But you clearly keep your word. You can do this, and the support that you will receive here is unlike anything you've ever experienced. Done the right way, this will be one of the best experiences of your life.
By the way, you'll never have to relive the hell of today. Tomorrow is +1, and one day at a time you will be free. Welcome aboard.
The support is thick around here. This is doable. I dipped for longer than you, and was a skeptic after a few failed "quits." I logged in here on Dec 27 and haven't missed a day. I'm done, and whit with you today. I'm typically hang in live chat, look us up if you are inclined.
Welcome! Best thing you can do for yourself. Make connections on here..it helped saved my quit and my life. Check out live chat for sure. Quit on girl!
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Welcome to day 2, fellow Samurai!
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Woohoo Dee! It's day 2 and you got this!!
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I never realized how much nicotine I was putting in me... no wonder its so damn hard!! I faced down a major temptation last night and came out on TOP. Damn proud of that!!! I am reminded by all of you and the wonderful support that my husband needs to do this. To have so many people back you up and believe in you truly is a blessing. I am disappointed it took me so long and so many wasted years of health to finally get my shit together. Today I haven't faced much in the way of craving... I have just been super tired. Slept in super late- luckily my little guy snuggled with me and watched cartoons. I felt a little bad for konking out but I am getting my life back- that is an immeasurable gain!!!
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I never realized how much nicotine I was putting in me... no wonder its so damn hard!! I faced down a major temptation last night and came out on TOP. Damn proud of that!!! I am reminded by all of you and the wonderful support that my husband needs to do this. To have so many people back you up and believe in you truly is a blessing. I am disappointed it took me so long and so many wasted years of health to finally get my shit together. Today I haven't faced much in the way of craving... I have just been super tired. Slept in super late- luckily my little guy snuggled with me and watched cartoons. I felt a little bad for konking out but I am getting my life back- that is an immeasurable gain!!!
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I was disappointed for a long time that it took me so long to get my head out of my ass and quit. I thought about all the boys whose lives I impacted through scouting and coaching and would just sit in sorrow realizing the wrong impression that I "may" have left. Now today I am damn glad that I turned the corner and only regret being an addict, the way I see it is those combined years of addiction will only help fuel my fire of hatred for nicotine and tobacco.
Now in lieu of looking for a discreet place to spit I can just spend my time mocking those addicts using their e-cigs to help themselves quit. I don't know about everyone but when I was a baby my mother weaned me from the tit and apparently that method didn't work because I am still very much addicted to those; so cold turkey is how I quit tobacco. As for the other vices...one step at a time.
Power through those cravings and remember to drink lots of water and if possible do some sort of exercise when a craving hits...even a brisk walk can help.
P
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Power through the next couple of days. Then it gets better and you'll wonder why you never did this before.
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During my first 4 days, I was extremely tired. I've slept all I could. We just have to detox!
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Power through the next couple of days. Then it gets better and you'll wonder why you never did this before.
^^ listen to him
The fatigue is heavy and was for me for a while . Not sleeping well isn't fun either, but when you start sleeping well again, you will think you were in Heaven!
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You can make it! Today was real rough for me but luckily for me when I started to feel my worse this afternoon something came up at work to keep me quite busy. You got this!
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The house is quiet... my oldest has been at my sister's house for 2 weeks (6 more days- oh how I miss him!!!) and the hubs and little guy are sleeping. I'm alone with my thoughts and find myself so stressed and frustrated. I figured I can just shoot my thoughts out on here even if no one ever reads it!
I'm on day 35 and proud to be quit. My thoughts aren't about caving or wanting to cave- but I do think how my situation would be different if I hadn't quit. Since I quit I think I have gained about 15 pounds. I'm so upset about that. All I did was get rid of one addiction to feed another. I've always had issues with weight... but saying that is a cop out isn't it?? "issues" no... an addiction. I have an addictive personality and food is the next one. I graduated from college 4 years ago and finished an internship about 7 months ago. Still job searching... I have gone on interviews but no bites yet. I interviewed for an amazing job last week and have to wait til the middle of next week to find out if I get a call for the second interview. I am so stressed and lonely (bc son is gone and hubs working a lot of overtime to try and make ends meet) that the only thing I feel I can control is food. Yes feeding emotions doesn't help but I will NOT start cancer shit again. How do I push down these addictions?? Why has quitting been "easy" (not exactly but has been such a focus that not being quit isn't even an option anymore...) and yet I find myself eating my stress and boredom?? Find something else to do... okay like what? Go for a walk.... okay heat index has been over a 100 for a few days. Read a book... I have a 3 year old... kind of hard. I tried the fake stuff... its ok but not what I'm looking for. I get what I'm doing... I'm coming up with "answers" for everything which doesn't help address the issue.
I'm not expecting anyone to make sense of this turmoil- like I said I just needed to vent. I don't know how to take action in a world where everything is out of my control. Quitting was a goal and was something I controlled. But this is so different... I can't control money or jobs or food.
Is this normal? I know I am stressed but these overwhelming feelings are swallowing me. Is there some 35 day fog or hump I have hit and tomorrow I will wake with a better metabolism? haha! We need a forum like this for eating... lol Has anyone else had an eating issue after quitting? What have you done to combat it?????
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The house is quiet... my oldest has been at my sister's house for 2 weeks (6 more days- oh how I miss him!!!) and the hubs and little guy are sleeping. I'm alone with my thoughts and find myself so stressed and frustrated. I figured I can just shoot my thoughts out on here even if no one ever reads it!
I'm on day 35 and proud to be quit. My thoughts aren't about caving or wanting to cave- but I do think how my situation would be different if I hadn't quit. Since I quit I think I have gained about 15 pounds. I'm so upset about that. All I did was get rid of one addiction to feed another. I've always had issues with weight... but saying that is a cop out isn't it?? "issues" no... an addiction. I have an addictive personality and food is the next one. I graduated from college 4 years ago and finished an internship about 7 months ago. Still job searching... I have gone on interviews but no bites yet. I interviewed for an amazing job last week and have to wait til the middle of next week to find out if I get a call for the second interview. I am so stressed and lonely (bc son is gone and hubs working a lot of overtime to try and make ends meet) that the only thing I feel I can control is food. Yes feeding emotions doesn't help but I will NOT start cancer shit again. How do I push down these addictions?? Why has quitting been "easy" (not exactly but has been such a focus that not being quit isn't even an option anymore...) and yet I find myself eating my stress and boredom?? Find something else to do... okay like what? Go for a walk.... okay heat index has been over a 100 for a few days. Read a book... I have a 3 year old... kind of hard. I tried the fake stuff... its ok but not what I'm looking for. I get what I'm doing... I'm coming up with "answers" for everything which doesn't help address the issue.
I'm not expecting anyone to make sense of this turmoil- like I said I just needed to vent. I don't know how to take action in a world where everything is out of my control. Quitting was a goal and was something I controlled. But this is so different... I can't control money or jobs or food.
Is this normal? I know I am stressed but these overwhelming feelings are swallowing me. Is there some 35 day fog or hump I have hit and tomorrow I will wake with a better metabolism? haha! We need a forum like this for eating... lol Has anyone else had an eating issue after quitting? What have you done to combat it?????
First and foremost sorry about your job situation, the good man take care of that. As far as eating situation hasn't really been a problem for me, do some exercise in the house, situps, pushups, jog in place, etc. I know that's not what you want to hear, sorry but it will help. So, yes you are going through a funk and there will be more, put on your big girl panties and Deal with them. Read what you wrote back to yourself a couple times. Addict speak. She's nawing at you, getting you while you're down, come on just one dip and you will feel so much better and you know that's bullshit! You have came way to far to come back through this shit again! I have read several stories where men and women will literally sit down and cry. Now how powerful is this addiction?! It's tough girlfriend, after 204 day's of freedom I still battle this bitch daily. You Can Do This! You are not alone! Damn proud to be quit with you today my sister!
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The house is quiet... my oldest has been at my sister's house for 2 weeks (6 more days- oh how I miss him!!!) and the hubs and little guy are sleeping. I'm alone with my thoughts and find myself so stressed and frustrated. I figured I can just shoot my thoughts out on here even if no one ever reads it!
I'm on day 35 and proud to be quit. My thoughts aren't about caving or wanting to cave- but I do think how my situation would be different if I hadn't quit. Since I quit I think I have gained about 15 pounds. I'm so upset about that. All I did was get rid of one addiction to feed another. I've always had issues with weight... but saying that is a cop out isn't it?? "issues" no... an addiction. I have an addictive personality and food is the next one. I graduated from college 4 years ago and finished an internship about 7 months ago. Still job searching... I have gone on interviews but no bites yet. I interviewed for an amazing job last week and have to wait til the middle of next week to find out if I get a call for the second interview. I am so stressed and lonely (bc son is gone and hubs working a lot of overtime to try and make ends meet) that the only thing I feel I can control is food. Yes feeding emotions doesn't help but I will NOT start cancer shit again. How do I push down these addictions?? Why has quitting been "easy" (not exactly but has been such a focus that not being quit isn't even an option anymore...) and yet I find myself eating my stress and boredom?? Find something else to do... okay like what? Go for a walk.... okay heat index has been over a 100 for a few days. Read a book... I have a 3 year old... kind of hard. I tried the fake stuff... its ok but not what I'm looking for. I get what I'm doing... I'm coming up with "answers" for everything which doesn't help address the issue.
I'm not expecting anyone to make sense of this turmoil- like I said I just needed to vent. I don't know how to take action in a world where everything is out of my control. Quitting was a goal and was something I controlled. But this is so different... I can't control money or jobs or food.
Is this normal? I know I am stressed but these overwhelming feelings are swallowing me. Is there some 35 day fog or hump I have hit and tomorrow I will wake with a better metabolism? haha! We need a forum like this for eating... lol Has anyone else had an eating issue after quitting? What have you done to combat it?????
First and foremost sorry about your job situation, the good man take care of that. As far as eating situation hasn't really been a problem for me, do some exercise in the house, situps, pushups, jog in place, etc. I know that's not what you want to hear, sorry but it will help. So, yes you are going through a funk and there will be more, put on your big girl panties and Deal with them. Read what you wrote back to yourself a couple times. Addict speak. She's nawing at you, getting you while you're down, come on just one dip and you will feel so much better and you know that's bullshit! You have came way to far to come back through this shit again! I have read several stories where men and women will literally sit down and cry. Now how powerful is this addiction?! It's tough girlfriend, after 204 day's of freedom I still battle this bitch daily. You Can Do This! You are not alone! Damn proud to be quit with you today my sister!
Dea, hey girl I hear ya, first off, so very therapeutic to journal your thoughts out! Whether someone reads them or not other than yourself makes no difference.
This form or reaching out in here will save your life. Lots of people in your same "boat".
You are rewiring your brain. You are quit, with no question to dip again, ever. That is apparent.
You are in the business of making healthy choices now. Do so in all aspects of your life.
If you don't like the fake dip, use tea bags, or jerky or fresh mint. Try to keep healthy, low cal snacks in the house /veggies/fruit instead of the normal "easy" ones which tend to have lots of calories.
It's a roller-coaster and I went through a super tough time at 24, 25 days and then again later. But you can do this Dea. I'm here for you if you need to talk.
Under the "WILDCARD" section / scroll down on the main KTC page, there is a "overeating/undereating " thread, "exercise" thread, "weight loss" thread. Those would be good for you to go check out and talk with some there too! Talk it out, ask questions. Get involved with some other quitters who share the same frustrations as you.
Love ya girl.
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The house is quiet... my oldest has been at my sister's house for 2 weeks (6 more days- oh how I miss him!!!) and the hubs and little guy are sleeping. I'm alone with my thoughts and find myself so stressed and frustrated. I figured I can just shoot my thoughts out on here even if no one ever reads it!
I'm on day 35 and proud to be quit. My thoughts aren't about caving or wanting to cave- but I do think how my situation would be different if I hadn't quit. Since I quit I think I have gained about 15 pounds. I'm so upset about that. All I did was get rid of one addiction to feed another. I've always had issues with weight... but saying that is a cop out isn't it?? "issues" no... an addiction. I have an addictive personality and food is the next one. I graduated from college 4 years ago and finished an internship about 7 months ago. Still job searching... I have gone on interviews but no bites yet. I interviewed for an amazing job last week and have to wait til the middle of next week to find out if I get a call for the second interview. I am so stressed and lonely (bc son is gone and hubs working a lot of overtime to try and make ends meet) that the only thing I feel I can control is food. Yes feeding emotions doesn't help but I will NOT start cancer shit again. How do I push down these addictions?? Why has quitting been "easy" (not exactly but has been such a focus that not being quit isn't even an option anymore...) and yet I find myself eating my stress and boredom?? Find something else to do... okay like what? Go for a walk.... okay heat index has been over a 100 for a few days. Read a book... I have a 3 year old... kind of hard. I tried the fake stuff... its ok but not what I'm looking for. I get what I'm doing... I'm coming up with "answers" for everything which doesn't help address the issue.
I'm not expecting anyone to make sense of this turmoil- like I said I just needed to vent. I don't know how to take action in a world where everything is out of my control. Quitting was a goal and was something I controlled. But this is so different... I can't control money or jobs or food.
Is this normal? I know I am stressed but these overwhelming feelings are swallowing me. Is there some 35 day fog or hump I have hit and tomorrow I will wake with a better metabolism? haha! We need a forum like this for eating... lol Has anyone else had an eating issue after quitting? What have you done to combat it?????
First and foremost sorry about your job situation, the good man take care of that. As far as eating situation hasn't really been a problem for me, do some exercise in the house, situps, pushups, jog in place, etc. I know that's not what you want to hear, sorry but it will help. So, yes you are going through a funk and there will be more, put on your big girl panties and Deal with them. Read what you wrote back to yourself a couple times. Addict speak. She's nawing at you, getting you while you're down, come on just one dip and you will feel so much better and you know that's bullshit! You have came way to far to come back through this shit again! I have read several stories where men and women will literally sit down and cry. Now how powerful is this addiction?! It's tough girlfriend, after 204 day's of freedom I still battle this bitch daily. You Can Do This! You are not alone! Damn proud to be quit with you today my sister!
Dea, hey girl I hear ya, first off, so very therapeutic to journal your thoughts out! Whether someone reads them or not other than yourself makes no difference.
This form or reaching out in here will save your life. Lots of people in your same "boat".
You are rewiring your brain. You are quit, with no question to dip again, ever. That is apparent.
You are in the business of making healthy choices now. Do so in all aspects of your life.
If you don't like the fake dip, use tea bags, or jerky or fresh mint. Try to keep healthy, low cal snacks in the house /veggies/fruit instead of the normal "easy" ones which tend to have lots of calories.
It's a roller-coaster and I went through a super tough time at 24, 25 days and then again later. But you can do this Dea. I'm here for you if you need to talk.
Under the "WILDCARD" section / scroll down on the main KTC page, there is a "overeating/undereating " thread, "exercise" thread, "weight loss" thread. Those would be good for you to go check out and talk with some there too! Talk it out, ask questions. Get involved with some other quitters who share the same frustrations as you.
Love ya girl.
Thank you both for the thoughts and advice. You are right though- I have to find my 'big girl panties' and just do it. So today that's just what I did. I decided to try an attitude like my quit- where its not an option. I have been eating better today and already did my daily workout plus going on a bike ride later today. So many things in my life seem out of my control. And its no secret I can be a control freak... so not being able to control the outcome of certain things throws me for a loop. But I can't allow myself to wallow in those things. I need to stop blaming others or circumstances and like the serenity prayer says - to have the courage to change the things I can. My life is not horrible by any means- God has blessed me immensely. So- wallowing is done. Action starts today. That's the example I want to set for my children. Thanks again for the 'ear' (should I say eyeball? lol). And yes- writing it out did help immensely!!
The day isn't done yet!! :D
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The house is quiet... my oldest has been at my sister's house for 2 weeks (6 more days- oh how I miss him!!!) and the hubs and little guy are sleeping. I'm alone with my thoughts and find myself so stressed and frustrated. I figured I can just shoot my thoughts out on here even if no one ever reads it!
I'm on day 35 and proud to be quit. My thoughts aren't about caving or wanting to cave- but I do think how my situation would be different if I hadn't quit. Since I quit I think I have gained about 15 pounds. I'm so upset about that. All I did was get rid of one addiction to feed another. I've always had issues with weight... but saying that is a cop out isn't it?? "issues" no... an addiction. I have an addictive personality and food is the next one. I graduated from college 4 years ago and finished an internship about 7 months ago. Still job searching... I have gone on interviews but no bites yet. I interviewed for an amazing job last week and have to wait til the middle of next week to find out if I get a call for the second interview. I am so stressed and lonely (bc son is gone and hubs working a lot of overtime to try and make ends meet) that the only thing I feel I can control is food. Yes feeding emotions doesn't help but I will NOT start cancer shit again. How do I push down these addictions?? Why has quitting been "easy" (not exactly but has been such a focus that not being quit isn't even an option anymore...) and yet I find myself eating my stress and boredom?? Find something else to do... okay like what? Go for a walk.... okay heat index has been over a 100 for a few days. Read a book... I have a 3 year old... kind of hard. I tried the fake stuff... its ok but not what I'm looking for. I get what I'm doing... I'm coming up with "answers" for everything which doesn't help address the issue.
I'm not expecting anyone to make sense of this turmoil- like I said I just needed to vent. I don't know how to take action in a world where everything is out of my control. Quitting was a goal and was something I controlled. But this is so different... I can't control money or jobs or food.
Is this normal? I know I am stressed but these overwhelming feelings are swallowing me. Is there some 35 day fog or hump I have hit and tomorrow I will wake with a better metabolism? haha! We need a forum like this for eating... lol Has anyone else had an eating issue after quitting? What have you done to combat it?????
First and foremost sorry about your job situation, the good man take care of that. As far as eating situation hasn't really been a problem for me, do some exercise in the house, situps, pushups, jog in place, etc. I know that's not what you want to hear, sorry but it will help. So, yes you are going through a funk and there will be more, put on your big girl panties and Deal with them. Read what you wrote back to yourself a couple times. Addict speak. She's nawing at you, getting you while you're down, come on just one dip and you will feel so much better and you know that's bullshit! You have came way to far to come back through this shit again! I have read several stories where men and women will literally sit down and cry. Now how powerful is this addiction?! It's tough girlfriend, after 204 day's of freedom I still battle this bitch daily. You Can Do This! You are not alone! Damn proud to be quit with you today my sister!
Dea, hey girl I hear ya, first off, so very therapeutic to journal your thoughts out! Whether someone reads them or not other than yourself makes no difference.
This form or reaching out in here will save your life. Lots of people in your same "boat".
You are rewiring your brain. You are quit, with no question to dip again, ever. That is apparent.
You are in the business of making healthy choices now. Do so in all aspects of your life.
If you don't like the fake dip, use tea bags, or jerky or fresh mint. Try to keep healthy, low cal snacks in the house /veggies/fruit instead of the normal "easy" ones which tend to have lots of calories.
It's a roller-coaster and I went through a super tough time at 24, 25 days and then again later. But you can do this Dea. I'm here for you if you need to talk.
Under the "WILDCARD" section / scroll down on the main KTC page, there is a "overeating/undereating " thread, "exercise" thread, "weight loss" thread. Those would be good for you to go check out and talk with some there too! Talk it out, ask questions. Get involved with some other quitters who share the same frustrations as you.
Love ya girl.
Thank you both for the thoughts and advice. You are right though- I have to find my 'big girl panties' and just do it. So today that's just what I did. I decided to try an attitude like my quit- where its not an option. I have been eating better today and already did my daily workout plus going on a bike ride later today. So many things in my life seem out of my control. And its no secret I can be a control freak... so not being able to control the outcome of certain things throws me for a loop. But I can't allow myself to wallow in those things. I need to stop blaming others or circumstances and like the serenity prayer says - to have the courage to change the things I can. My life is not horrible by any means- God has blessed me immensely. So- wallowing is done. Action starts today. That's the example I want to set for my children. Thanks again for the 'ear' (should I say eyeball? lol). And yes- writing it out did help immensely!!
The day isn't done yet!! :D
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You go girl, what a turn around! Now that made my day! Sometimes we just have to stop and smell the roses or stop ,look around and be thankful for what we have and try to improve on the things we can! Quit on girlfriend you got this by the Ying yang! Thanks for making my quit stronger today! Don't wait till things get out of hand, that's why we're all here!
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Keep it up D. You have 24000 people at your back on this site. Take it one day at a time and power through, you've got this!
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The house is quiet... my oldest has been at my sister's house for 2 weeks (6 more days- oh how I miss him!!!) and the hubs and little guy are sleeping. I'm alone with my thoughts and find myself so stressed and frustrated. I figured I can just shoot my thoughts out on here even if no one ever reads it!
I'm on day 35 and proud to be quit. My thoughts aren't about caving or wanting to cave- but I do think how my situation would be different if I hadn't quit. Since I quit I think I have gained about 15 pounds. I'm so upset about that. All I did was get rid of one addiction to feed another. I've always had issues with weight... but saying that is a cop out isn't it?? "issues" no... an addiction. I have an addictive personality and food is the next one. I graduated from college 4 years ago and finished an internship about 7 months ago. Still job searching... I have gone on interviews but no bites yet. I interviewed for an amazing job last week and have to wait til the middle of next week to find out if I get a call for the second interview. I am so stressed and lonely (bc son is gone and hubs working a lot of overtime to try and make ends meet) that the only thing I feel I can control is food. Yes feeding emotions doesn't help but I will NOT start cancer shit again. How do I push down these addictions?? Why has quitting been "easy" (not exactly but has been such a focus that not being quit isn't even an option anymore...) and yet I find myself eating my stress and boredom?? Find something else to do... okay like what? Go for a walk.... okay heat index has been over a 100 for a few days. Read a book... I have a 3 year old... kind of hard. I tried the fake stuff... its ok but not what I'm looking for. I get what I'm doing... I'm coming up with "answers" for everything which doesn't help address the issue.
I'm not expecting anyone to make sense of this turmoil- like I said I just needed to vent. I don't know how to take action in a world where everything is out of my control. Quitting was a goal and was something I controlled. But this is so different... I can't control money or jobs or food.
Is this normal? I know I am stressed but these overwhelming feelings are swallowing me. Is there some 35 day fog or hump I have hit and tomorrow I will wake with a better metabolism? haha! We need a forum like this for eating... lol Has anyone else had an eating issue after quitting? What have you done to combat it?????
First and foremost sorry about your job situation, the good man take care of that. As far as eating situation hasn't really been a problem for me, do some exercise in the house, situps, pushups, jog in place, etc. I know that's not what you want to hear, sorry but it will help. So, yes you are going through a funk and there will be more, put on your big girl panties and Deal with them. Read what you wrote back to yourself a couple times. Addict speak. She's nawing at you, getting you while you're down, come on just one dip and you will feel so much better and you know that's bullshit! You have came way to far to come back through this shit again! I have read several stories where men and women will literally sit down and cry. Now how powerful is this addiction?! It's tough girlfriend, after 204 day's of freedom I still battle this bitch daily. You Can Do This! You are not alone! Damn proud to be quit with you today my sister!
Dea, hey girl I hear ya, first off, so very therapeutic to journal your thoughts out! Whether someone reads them or not other than yourself makes no difference.
This form or reaching out in here will save your life. Lots of people in your same "boat".
You are rewiring your brain. You are quit, with no question to dip again, ever. That is apparent.
You are in the business of making healthy choices now. Do so in all aspects of your life.
If you don't like the fake dip, use tea bags, or jerky or fresh mint. Try to keep healthy, low cal snacks in the house /veggies/fruit instead of the normal "easy" ones which tend to have lots of calories.
It's a roller-coaster and I went through a super tough time at 24, 25 days and then again later. But you can do this Dea. I'm here for you if you need to talk.
Under the "WILDCARD" section / scroll down on the main KTC page, there is a "overeating/undereating " thread, "exercise" thread, "weight loss" thread. Those would be good for you to go check out and talk with some there too! Talk it out, ask questions. Get involved with some other quitters who share the same frustrations as you.
Love ya girl.
Thank you both for the thoughts and advice. You are right though- I have to find my 'big girl panties' and just do it. So today that's just what I did. I decided to try an attitude like my quit- where its not an option. I have been eating better today and already did my daily workout plus going on a bike ride later today. So many things in my life seem out of my control. And its no secret I can be a control freak... so not being able to control the outcome of certain things throws me for a loop. But I can't allow myself to wallow in those things. I need to stop blaming others or circumstances and like the serenity prayer says - to have the courage to change the things I can. My life is not horrible by any means- God has blessed me immensely. So- wallowing is done. Action starts today. That's the example I want to set for my children. Thanks again for the 'ear' (should I say eyeball? lol). And yes- writing it out did help immensely!!
The day isn't done yet!! :D
D
You go girl, what a turn around! Now that made my day! Sometimes we just have to stop and smell the roses or stop ,look around and be thankful for what we have and try to improve on the things we can! Quit on girlfriend you got this by the Ying yang! Thanks for making my quit stronger today! Don't wait till things get out of hand, that's why we're all here!
Bad Ass Quitter Girl!!! I like what I am hearing! That is pure strength through our weaknesses!!!
I quit with you today!
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Okay... so I didn't eat so well today, but not terrible. I was at least conscious of it plus I worked out. Getting there one step at a time!!!
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Okay... so I didn't eat so well today, but not terrible. I was at least conscious of it plus I worked out. Getting there one step at a time!!!
small victories and more important, you didn't beat yourself up about what you didn't do. That's important. Keep active, take action. Taking action frees you to do more of everything.
Proud of you Dea.
I quit with you today.
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Okay... so I didn't eat so well today, but not terrible. I was at least conscious of it plus I worked out. Getting there one step at a time!!!
small victories and more important, you didn't beat yourself up about what you didn't do. That's important. Keep active, take action. Taking action frees you to do more of everything.
Proud of you Dea.
I quit with you today.
Hey Dea life's all about one day at a time! Hell 8m 50 years old. I look back and say I could have, should have, would have done this that but hey I've enjoyed my life the one thing I honestly regret is sticking that nasty ass poison in my mouth. It's funny how this place not only helps with your addiction but also makes you stop and look at your life as a whole. What I'm saying Dea no one's perfect girlfriend. We do the best we can and be happy with what we got! Stop, look around, smell the roses and be thankful, I promise it could be worse! Quitting with you Dea!
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I appreciate the support so much... when I'm having tough days I know this is a place I can go to to vent or listen as need be. Every day gets a little bit easier!
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I appreciate the support so much... when I'm having tough days I know this is a place I can go to to vent or listen as need be. Every day gets a little bit easier!
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How you doing Dea?
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I appreciate the support so much... when I'm having tough days I know this is a place I can go to to vent or listen as need be. Every day gets a little bit easier!
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How you doing Dea?
Hey girl! Doing good. Had some weird late term craves yesterday and today. It was bizarre how it just popped into my head out of nowhere but I read that that can happen late in the game. But I'm strong- I just laughed because I thought it was so weird. Eating not as much which is good- doing better with not late night eating! But still can't sleep for shit!! Poo Poo on that! How are you doing? :D
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I appreciate the support so much... when I'm having tough days I know this is a place I can go to to vent or listen as need be. Every day gets a little bit easier!
D
How you doing Dea?
Hey girl! Doing good. Had some weird late term craves yesterday and today. It was bizarre how it just popped into my head out of nowhere but I read that that can happen late in the game. But I'm strong- I just laughed because I thought it was so weird. Eating not as much which is good- doing better with not late night eating! But still can't sleep for shit!! Poo Poo on that! How are you doing? :D
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222 days later still get craves but 'Finger' nic! You doing great girlfriend just remember it's all about you! You own this! I'm liking the new attitude I'm seeing out of you! Quit on and remember I'm always a pm away!