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Title: FNG Day 1
Post by: Arfy on August 17, 2012, 08:54:00 PM
20 hours since my quit. It's been a nightmare! But everyone around me is still alive, so I guess I haven't gone too crazy yet. How do I think about other stuff? Cuz I'm really strugglin! Any good alternatives to chewing? Tried that Rocky Mountain stuff-Disgusting! I'd rather drink a bottle of corn syrup. Right now chewing on cardboard is working best for me.
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: SirDerek on August 17, 2012, 09:03:00 PM
Quote from: Arfy
20 hours since my quit. It's been a nightmare! But everyone around me is still alive, so I guess I haven't gone too crazy yet. How do I think about other stuff? Cuz I'm really strugglin! Any good alternatives to chewing? Tried that Rocky Mountain stuff-Disgusting! I'd rather drink a bottle of corn syrup. Right now chewing on cardboard is working best for me.
Hey, it is tough but you need to be strong. Depending on the type you dipped the alternatives could vary (cope fine cut is like the Hooch), long cut is more like the smokey mountain, others like the Oregon Mint.

Or just use sunflower seeds, gum, candy, jerky.

Have heard of people using coffee grinds.

1 day is awesome. just need 2 more days to get rid of physical withdrawal symptoms, then just attack the mind games it will play.
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Morgan1 on August 17, 2012, 10:07:00 PM
Quote from: SirDerek
Quote from: Arfy
20 hours since my quit. It's been a nightmare!  But everyone around me is still alive, so I guess I haven't gone too crazy yet.  How do I think about other stuff?  Cuz I'm really strugglin!  Any good alternatives to chewing?    Tried that Rocky Mountain stuff-Disgusting!  I'd rather drink a bottle of corn syrup.  Right now chewing on cardboard is working best for me.
Hey, it is tough but you need to be strong. Depending on the type you dipped the alternatives could vary (cope fine cut is like the Hooch), long cut is more like the smokey mountain, others like the Oregon Mint.

Or just use sunflower seeds, gum, candy, jerky.

Have heard of people using coffee grinds.

1 day is awesome. just need 2 more days to get rid of physical withdrawal symptoms, then just attack the mind games it will play.
"Right now chewing on cardboard is working best for me." HHAHAH --- That's awesome man - first time I've heard that one. The first few days are rough no doubt. Excercise and do things to occupy your time and your mind. Welcome aboard. I'm sure there will be some guys behind me with more detailed strategies so watch for em....
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Wt57 on August 17, 2012, 10:49:00 PM
Quote from: Morgan1
Quote from: SirDerek
Quote from: Arfy
20 hours since my quit. It's been a nightmare!  But everyone around me is still alive, so I guess I haven't gone too crazy yet.  How do I think about other stuff?  Cuz I'm really strugglin!  Any good alternatives to chewing?    Tried that Rocky Mountain stuff-Disgusting!  I'd rather drink a bottle of corn syrup.  Right now chewing on cardboard is working best for me.
Hey, it is tough but you need to be strong. Depending on the type you dipped the alternatives could vary (cope fine cut is like the Hooch), long cut is more like the smokey mountain, others like the Oregon Mint.

Or just use sunflower seeds, gum, candy, jerky.

Have heard of people using coffee grinds.

1 day is awesome. just need 2 more days to get rid of physical withdrawal symptoms, then just attack the mind games it will play.
"Right now chewing on cardboard is working best for me." HHAHAH --- That's awesome man - first time I've heard that one. The first few days are rough no doubt. Excercise and do things to occupy your time and your mind. Welcome aboard. I'm sure there will be some guys behind me with more detailed strategies so watch for em....
Listen to these guys! Post roll now! Read all you can and excersise and drink water lots of water! It will get better set back and enjoy your balls growing. Check your inbox.?
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: mikegooch on August 17, 2012, 10:51:00 PM
Arfy.. I use coffee/ ground espresso/hot pepper (depending on how much bite you want/honey  a lot of salt.. just mess with it until you get it like you want it.. the salt gives you a ton of spit.. Hang in there Pal... Sometimes the one thing that keeps me from caving is the fact that I never want to go through the "suck" again! 2 more days and most of the fog will lift.. I ain't gonna lie - a few hard days are ahead.. I know you can do it though.. cuz we all have.. 68 days today almost 69! Gooch
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: skeener41 on August 17, 2012, 10:57:00 PM
Quote from: Wt57
Quote from: Morgan1
Quote from: SirDerek
Quote from: Arfy
20 hours since my quit. It's been a nightmare!  But everyone around me is still alive, so I guess I haven't gone too crazy yet.  How do I think about other stuff?  Cuz I'm really strugglin!  Any good alternatives to chewing?    Tried that Rocky Mountain stuff-Disgusting!  I'd rather drink a bottle of corn syrup.  Right now chewing on cardboard is working best for me.
Hey, it is tough but you need to be strong. Depending on the type you dipped the alternatives could vary (cope fine cut is like the Hooch), long cut is more like the smokey mountain, others like the Oregon Mint.

Or just use sunflower seeds, gum, candy, jerky.

Have heard of people using coffee grinds.

1 day is awesome. just need 2 more days to get rid of physical withdrawal symptoms, then just attack the mind games it will play.
"Right now chewing on cardboard is working best for me." HHAHAH --- That's awesome man - first time I've heard that one. The first few days are rough no doubt. Excercise and do things to occupy your time and your mind. Welcome aboard. I'm sure there will be some guys behind me with more detailed strategies so watch for em....
Listen to these guys! Post roll now! Read all you can and excersise and drink water lots of water! It will get better set back and enjoy your balls growing. Check your inbox.?

you can do it arfy, buckle in and ride this thing out. demonize the nic and tobacco, picture yourself surrounded by your family dying, now rewind and stay quit.
you can do it arfy, buckle in and ride this thing out. demonize the nic and tobacco, picture yourself surrounded by your family dying, now rewind and stay quit.
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: T-Cell on August 23, 2012, 11:57:00 AM
Quote from: skeener41
Quote from: Wt57
Quote from: Morgan1
Quote from: SirDerek
Quote from: Arfy
20 hours since my quit. It's been a nightmare!  But everyone around me is still alive, so I guess I haven't gone too crazy yet.  How do I think about other stuff?  Cuz I'm really strugglin!  Any good alternatives to chewing?    Tried that Rocky Mountain stuff-Disgusting!  I'd rather drink a bottle of corn syrup.  Right now chewing on cardboard is working best for me.
Hey, it is tough but you need to be strong. Depending on the type you dipped the alternatives could vary (cope fine cut is like the Hooch), long cut is more like the smokey mountain, others like the Oregon Mint.

Or just use sunflower seeds, gum, candy, jerky.

Have heard of people using coffee grinds.

1 day is awesome. just need 2 more days to get rid of physical withdrawal symptoms, then just attack the mind games it will play.
"Right now chewing on cardboard is working best for me." HHAHAH --- That's awesome man - first time I've heard that one. The first few days are rough no doubt. Excercise and do things to occupy your time and your mind. Welcome aboard. I'm sure there will be some guys behind me with more detailed strategies so watch for em....
Listen to these guys! Post roll now! Read all you can and excersise and drink water lots of water! It will get better set back and enjoy your balls growing. Check your inbox.#55357;#56883;

you can do it arfy, buckle in and ride this thing out. demonize the nic and tobacco, picture yourself surrounded by your family dying, now rewind and stay quit.
you can do it arfy, buckle in and ride this thing out. demonize the nic and tobacco, picture yourself surrounded by your family dying, now rewind and stay quit.
Use whatever you need to use to keep nic out of you piehole.
I didn't ever use the fake, but I certainly used gum, candy, altoids. Piled
on 20 extra pound in a couple months. Have since gotten rid of most of that.
You can do this! You are doing this!
Stay quit today.
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Arfy on September 04, 2012, 04:54:00 PM
Today(Day 19), I found two partial cans of Husky Wintergreen in my center console of my car. It felt great to flush it without even considering anything else! Happy to be quit!
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Wt57 on September 04, 2012, 05:31:00 PM
Quote from: Arfy
Today(Day 19), I found two partial cans of Husky Wintergreen in my center console of my car. It felt great to flush it without even considering anything else! Happy to be quit!
Another victory!!
'clap'
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Coach Steve on September 04, 2012, 05:32:00 PM
Quote from: Arfy
Today(Day 19), I found two partial cans of Husky Wintergreen in my center console of my car. It felt great to flush it without even considering anything else! Happy to be quit!
KTC membership = Free

Posting Roll = Free

Looking the nic bitch square in the eye and telling her to get fucked = Priceless

Big time accomplishment sir!
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Bean on September 04, 2012, 05:33:00 PM
Quote from: Arfy
Today(Day 19), I found two partial cans of Husky Wintergreen in my center console of my car. It felt great to flush it without even considering anything else! Happy to be quit!
Freedom feels good like that. Well done, sir!
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Arfy on September 20, 2012, 06:48:00 PM
Took my first nic free road trip. It was only 4 hours each way, but still something that hasn't happened in 20+ years.

One small step for man, one giant leap for Arfkind!
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Notdeadyet on September 20, 2012, 08:25:00 PM
Quote from: Arfy
Took my first nic free road trip. It was only 4 hours each way, but still something that hasn't happened in 20+ years.

One small step for man, one giant leap for Arfkind!
Check it off the list. Killing triggers and retraining your body one trigger at a time. Way to go Arfy!
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Arfy on September 25, 2012, 07:10:00 PM
I forgot this happened last week.

Last week I went and spent a couple of days with my parents. They have both been smokers for I don't know 30 or 40 years. So we're sitting around playing poker and they announce it's time for a cigarette. I didn't even think about it. It has always been a habit that when they go outside to smoke, I go outside and sit with them because the smoke never bothered me and we just BS. So I go out there(not even thinking about it). I last about 30 seconds before I start to catch a whiff of their cigarette. I had to tell them that I can't be around them anymore when they smoke because I could feel the effects of the smoke in only a short amount of time. Anyone else had an experience similar to this? Just curious how much nic if any can be found in second hand smoke.
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: DennyX on September 25, 2012, 10:08:00 PM
Quote from: Arfy
I forgot this happened last week.

Last week I went and spent a couple of days with my parents.  They have both been smokers for I don't know 30 or 40 years.  So we're sitting around playing poker and they announce it's time for a cigarette.  I didn't even think about it.  It has always been a habit that when they go outside to smoke, I go outside and sit with them because the smoke never bothered me and we just BS.  So I go out there(not even thinking about it).  I last about 30 seconds before I start to catch a whiff of their cigarette.    I had to tell them that I can't be around them anymore when they smoke because I could feel the effects of the smoke in only a short amount of time.  Anyone else had an experience similar to this?  Just curious how much nic if any can be found in second hand smoke.
Hey Arfy - I don't know if I can directly answer your question but I'll share my experience. I'd "quit" for family vacations because nobody knew I dipped anyway. Every trip we took, I'd "committ" myself to quitting. One trip in particular was to Disneyland. We'd be walking through the crowds and I would go out of my way to walk behind a smoker or through a smokers smoke and inhale as deeply as possible. I wanted every little bit of nic I could get because I had "quit". I don't think I ever lasted more than four days (which by that time the physical stuff is done!) but every time I would get a little something from secondhand smoke. It was pathetic. Looking back on it I know those seco d hand smoke experiences contributed significantly to cravings - but in the end I was not committed to quitting and I CHOSE to use nicotine again. I guess all that to say job well done. If you are uncomfortable with something, remove yourself from the situation. Immediately. Anything less is flirting with a planned cave. This is life and death, it's no joke. Someday you'll prob be fine around your parents smoking but for now you have to protect yourself. Again, well done. Proud to call you a quit brother today!

Denny

PS. After 475 days of being quit, I avoid second hand smoke like the plague. I understand my addiction well now and I know it wouldn't "make" me cave. It's the principle of it. My body is nicotine free, that counts second hand nic. FREEDOM!!
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Skoal Monster on September 25, 2012, 10:58:00 PM
Quote from: DennyX
Quote from: Arfy
I forgot this happened last week.

Last week I went and spent a couple of days with my parents.  They have both been smokers for I don't know 30 or 40 years.  So we're sitting around playing poker and they announce it's time for a cigarette.  I didn't even think about it.  It has always been a habit that when they go outside to smoke, I go outside and sit with them because the smoke never bothered me and we just BS.  So I go out there(not even thinking about it).  I last about 30 seconds before I start to catch a whiff of their cigarette.    I had to tell them that I can't be around them anymore when they smoke because I could feel the effects of the smoke in only a short amount of time.  Anyone else had an experience similar to this?  Just curious how much nic if any can be found in second hand smoke.
Hey Arfy - I don't know if I can directly answer your question but I'll share my experience. I'd "quit" for family vacations because nobody knew I dipped anyway. Every trip we took, I'd "committ" myself to quitting. One trip in particular was to Disneyland. We'd be walking through the crowds and I would go out of my way to walk behind a smoker or through a smokers smoke and inhale as deeply as possible. I wanted every little bit of nic I could get because I had "quit". I don't think I ever lasted more than four days (which by that time the physical stuff is done!) but every time I would get a little something from secondhand smoke. It was pathetic. Looking back on it I know those seco d hand smoke experiences contributed significantly to cravings - but in the end I was not committed to quitting and I CHOSE to use nicotine again. I guess all that to say job well done. If you are uncomfortable with something, remove yourself from the situation. Immediately. Anything less is flirting with a planned cave. This is life and death, it's no joke. Someday you'll prob be fine around your parents smoking but for now you have to protect yourself. Again, well done. Proud to call you a quit brother today!

Denny

PS. After 475 days of being quit, I avoid second hand smoke like the plague. I understand my addiction well now and I know it wouldn't "make" me cave. It's the principle of it. My body is nicotine free, that counts second hand nic. FREEDOM!!
Your dead on, I had to avoid my buddies smoking cigars because it would kick off craves for a week.
Just wasn't worth it
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Arfy on October 03, 2012, 11:21:00 AM
Things I don't miss about dipping

1)Little bits of chewing tobacco in every crevasse of the car
2)Little bits of chewing tobacco under the couch
3)Little bits of chewing tobacco everywhere I can think of
4)Stained rug spots from where I had accidently knocked over my spit bottle
5)Always a disgusting looking smelly bottle within arms reach of myself.
6)The look on someones face when they see that smelly bottle
7)Spit stain on the side of the car door
8)Trying to talk when I needed to spit
9)Holding a mouth full of spit, because I had no place to spit
10)Sore gums
11)Having to stop everything and run to the store, because I was out of tobacco
12)Forking over $35/week to Big Tobacco
13)Coughing(more like gagging) because I had swallowed some of that tobacco by mistake
14)worrying everyday that I might have mouth cancer
15)Staying up late so I could get that one extra dip in the day.
16)The most important for last, becoming a slave to the nic bitch.

Tobacco has NEVER done ANYTHING to make my life better. The only thing Tobacco does is take take take. Never forget!
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: T-Cell on October 03, 2012, 02:13:00 PM
Quote from: Arfy
Things I don't miss about dipping

1)Little bits of chewing tobacco in every crevasse of the car
2)Little bits of chewing tobacco under the couch
3)Little bits of chewing tobacco everywhere I can think of
4)Stained rug spots from where I had accidently knocked over my spit bottle
5)Always a disgusting looking smelly bottle within arms reach of myself.
6)The look on someones face when they see that smelly bottle
7)Spit stain on the side of the car door
8)Trying to talk when I needed to spit
9)Holding a mouth full of spit, because I had no place to spit
10)Sore gums
11)Having to stop everything and run to the store, because I was out of tobacco
12)Forking over $35/week to Big Tobacco
13)Coughing(more like gagging) because I had swallowed some of that tobacco by mistake
14)worrying everyday that I might have mouth cancer
15)Staying up late so I could get that one extra dip in the day.
16)The most important for last, becoming a slave to the nic bitch.

Tobacco has NEVER done ANYTHING to make my life better. The only thing Tobacco does is take take take. Never forget!
Awesome Arfy! 235+ days quit and I am still finding tobacco bits in odd places. Shook out my keyboard and found almost 1/2 a can!
There are tons of stupid addict behaviors that we all can laugh about now (like the weinie tuck when spitting into a urinal...), but pretty pathetic that we all chose to live that way for years.
Always proud to be quit with you Arfy! Great Job! :D
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: SirDerek on October 03, 2012, 02:28:00 PM
Quote from: T-Cell
Quote from: Arfy
Things I don't miss about dipping

1)Little bits of chewing tobacco in every crevasse of the car
2)Little bits of chewing tobacco under the couch
3)Little bits of chewing tobacco everywhere I can think of
4)Stained rug spots from where I had accidently knocked over my spit bottle
5)Always a disgusting looking smelly bottle within arms reach of myself.
6)The look on someones face when they see that smelly bottle
7)Spit stain on the side of the car door
8)Trying to talk when I needed to spit
9)Holding a mouth full of spit, because I had no place to spit
10)Sore gums
11)Having to stop everything and run to the store, because I was out of tobacco
12)Forking over $35/week to Big Tobacco
13)Coughing(more like gagging) because I had swallowed some of that tobacco by mistake
14)worrying everyday that I might have mouth cancer
15)Staying up late so I could get that one extra dip in the day.
16)The most important for last, becoming a slave to the nic bitch.

Tobacco has NEVER done ANYTHING to make my life better.  The only thing Tobacco does is take take take.  Never forget!
Awesome Arfy! 235+ days quit and I am still finding tobacco bits in odd places. Shook out my keyboard and found almost 1/2 a can!
There are tons of stupid addict behaviors that we all can laugh about now (like the weinie tuck when spitting into a urinal...), but pretty pathetic that we all chose to live that way for years.
Always proud to be quit with you Arfy! Great Job! :D
Hey - great list but there is something if I may that is huge for me that would fit into a list like this:

And that is that I do not miss:

1) Saying wait a minute as I run to the bathroom to get rid of the crap from my lip, so that I can come back and kiss my wife and kids.

Sorry I saw your list and this hit me hard.
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Arfy on October 22, 2012, 07:10:00 PM
DAY 67-Had an unusual experience the other day. I was looking at some paperwork with a guy I work with that chews. As I am standing next to him I catch a big wiff of his Skoal Mint. It was the most disgusting and most appealing thing I had ever smelled. The smell just made me want to hurdle. I thought to myself, did I really used to put that crap in my mouth? And as appealing as it smellled, I thought to myself, that is just the addict in me. Fuck off Mr. Skoal. Not today! Your jedi mind tricks won't work on me!


'jedisith'
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Arfy on October 25, 2012, 02:20:00 PM
DAY 70- Good news. I get $600 a year back from my Heath Insurance Program because I don't put that crap in my mouth anymore! Saweet!
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: T-Cell on October 27, 2012, 05:06:00 PM
Quote from: Arfy
DAY 70- Good news. I get $600 a year back from my Heath Insurance Program because I don't put that crap in my mouth anymore! Saweet!
Sweet indeed. You health insurance knows they just saved way more than $600/yr in treating the health effects you are now avoiding. These guys are as good as
Vegas odds makers setting the betting/pay line... Nice Arfy!
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Arfy on December 05, 2012, 04:33:00 PM
Day 111

Stopped at the gas station that I always used to buy my chewing tobacco at. Bought a fountain drink. When the clerk asked if there was anything else, I instinctively said, " a roll of husky wintergreen." And then it hit me.....what the fuck was I saying? I don't chew that shit anymore. Just found it humorous that it was such an instant reaction.  Obviously I left the store with no tobacco and still quit.

Moral of the story:

Fuck you Nic Bitch!
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: SirDerek on December 05, 2012, 04:47:00 PM
Quote from: Arfy
Day 111

Stopped at the gas station that I always used to buy my chewing tobacco at. Bought a fountain drink. When the clerk asked if there was anything else, I instinctively said, " a roll of husky wintergreen." And then it hit me.....what the fuck was I saying? I don't chew that shit anymore. Just found it humorous that it was such an instant reaction. Obviously I left the store with no tobacco and still quit.

Moral of the story:

Fuck you Nic Bitch!
Wow, now there is an old habit.....or that would not be called a freudian slip would it....now lets picture Arfy in a slip.... 'Crazy'

Enough said, that would keep me quit too.

Nice victory
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Arfy on December 06, 2012, 02:03:00 AM
Quote from: SirDerek
Quote from: Arfy
Day 111

Stopped at the gas station that I always used to buy my chewing tobacco at.  Bought a fountain drink.  When the clerk asked if there was anything else, I instinctively said, " a roll of husky wintergreen."  And then it hit me.....what the fuck was I saying?  I don't chew that shit anymore.  Just found it humorous that it was such an instant reaction.  Obviously I left the store with no tobacco and still quit.

Moral of the story:

Fuck you Nic Bitch!
Wow, now there is an old habit.....or that would not be called a freudian slip would it....now lets picture Arfy in a slip.... 'Crazy'

Enough said, that would keep me quit too.

Nice victory
Thanks D. I appreciate your comment. Did you know that you were the first person I ever talked to on this site? I remember it and will never forget it. Very proud to be quit with you brother!
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Greg5280 on December 06, 2012, 05:01:00 PM
Quote from: Arfy
Quote from: SirDerek
Quote from: Arfy
Day 111

Stopped at the gas station that I always used to buy my chewing tobacco at.  Bought a fountain drink.  When the clerk asked if there was anything else, I instinctively said, " a roll of husky wintergreen."  And then it hit me.....what the fuck was I saying?   I don't chew that shit anymore.  Just found it humorous that it was such an instant reaction.  Obviously I left the store with no tobacco and still quit.

Moral of the story:

Fuck you Nic Bitch!
Wow, now there is an old habit.....or that would not be called a freudian slip would it....now lets picture Arfy in a slip.... 'Crazy'

Enough said, that would keep me quit too.

Nice victory
Thanks D. I appreciate your comment. Did you know that you were the first person I ever talked to on this site? I remember it and will never forget it. Very proud to be quit with you brother!
I had a similar experience at 220 or so in my quit. I had intentionally stayed out of the place I bought my shit from. I finally got the nuts up to go buy a Coke and the chick had a can waiting on me. I slid it back and said no thanks I do not do that shit anymore.

Nice Victory!!

STAY QUIT
Greg
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Arfy on December 13, 2012, 02:09:00 PM
Day 119

An emotional day. Just learned about two big caves that took place the last couple of days. I was going to leave their names out, but fuck it. I shouldn't hide the truth from myself. Crockett and Kstamp. Very disappointing. Both had a hundred and something days in. I feel bad for these guys and hope they get their shit straight and turned around. But at the same time, it could be a good learning experience for myself. A good reminder that the Nic Bitch is always watching, waiting for that moment of vulnerability. It's all up to me. No one can do it for me.

119 days tobacco free and proud of it!
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: cbird65 on December 13, 2012, 02:17:00 PM
Quote from: Arfy
Day 119

An emotional day. Just learned about two big caves that took place the last couple of days. I was going to leave their names out, but fuck it. I shouldn't hide the truth from myself. Crockett and Kstamp. Very disappointing. Both had a hundred and something days in. I feel bad for these guys and hope they get their shit straight and turned around. But at the same time, it could be a good learning experience for myself. A good reminder that the Nic Bitch is always watching, waiting for that moment of vulnerability. It's all up to me. No one can do it for me.

119 days tobacco free and proud of it!
Protect  own your quit first and foremost!

Help others second.

Don't let cavers bring you down.

ODAAT bro
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: wastepanel on December 13, 2012, 02:24:00 PM
Quote from: CBird65
Quote from: Arfy
Day 119

An emotional day.  Just learned about two big caves that took place the last couple of days.  I was going to leave their names out, but fuck it.  I shouldn't hide the truth from myself.  Crockett and Kstamp.  Very disappointing.  Both had a hundred and something days in.  I feel bad for these guys and hope they get their shit straight and turned around.  But at the same time, it could be a good learning experience for myself.  A good reminder that the Nic Bitch is always watching, waiting for that moment of vulnerability.  It's all up to me.  No one can do it for me.

119 days tobacco free and proud of it!
Protect  own your quit first and foremost!

Help others second.

Don't let cavers bring you down.

ODAAT bro
A dumbass never learns from his mistakes.

A fool learns from his own mistakes.

A wise man learns from others' mistakes.

---Old Proverb or some shit. Ask Coach Steve.

You control your actions, not them. Not history. Not odds. YOU.

And I believe in you. Keep it up.
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: T-Cell on December 17, 2012, 06:17:00 PM
Quote from: wastepanel
Quote from: CBird65
Quote from: Arfy
Day 119

An emotional day.  Just learned about two big caves that took place the last couple of days.  I was going to leave their names out, but fuck it.  I shouldn't hide the truth from myself.  Crockett and Kstamp.  Very disappointing.  Both had a hundred and something days in.  I feel bad for these guys and hope they get their shit straight and turned around.  But at the same time, it could be a good learning experience for myself.  A good reminder that the Nic Bitch is always watching, waiting for that moment of vulnerability.  It's all up to me.  No one can do it for me.

119 days tobacco free and proud of it!
Protect  own your quit first and foremost!

Help others second.

Don't let cavers bring you down.

ODAAT bro
A dumbass never learns from his mistakes.

A fool learns from his own mistakes.

A wise man learns from others' mistakes.

---Old Proverb or some shit. Ask Coach Steve.

You control your actions, not them. Not history. Not odds. YOU.

And I believe in you. Keep it up.
Every cave still impacts me, majorly pisses me off even after this much time. I still wonder why they chose to cave when so many others choose to fight on every day. Why they threw away their quit and integrity for 1 lousy worm dirt taste...
You did not. You have integrity. You remember why you came here in the first place, to be quit. Remain quit, others weaknesses are not your weakness.
You are a first class quitter, keep it up. Proud to be quit with you today.
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Arfy on January 30, 2013, 01:05:00 AM
Day 165

Always helps to come back and remind myself that I am an addict. Never forget this. You are a strong individual, but the minute you forget this could be too late.
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: 30isEnuff on January 30, 2013, 06:46:00 AM
Quote from: Arfy
Day 165

Always helps to come back and remind myself that I am an addict.  Never forget this.  You are a strong individual, but the minute you forget this could be too late.
hey Arfy, at day 251 I'm still an addict with YOU today! The difference between this a.m. and 252 daze ago is: Nicotine is "not" a part of my life. Remember that, we're always going to be addicts, but the "free" addicts get to live REAL life! Celebrate your freedom and post roll early, chat a lot, help others.
Cheers Arfy.
any day that ends with a "y" is a GREAT DAY to be QUIT.
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Arfy on March 08, 2013, 12:52:00 AM
Day 203

Had my first cave dream today. I want to remember this. I don't remember what caused me to cave but I remember almost immediately spitting it out and thinking about the rest of you guys. I have come so far and it would be so disappointing to let you down. Don't ever lose your way guys!
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Bruce on March 09, 2013, 01:29:00 AM
Quote from: Arfy
Day 203

Had my first cave dream today. I want to remember this. I don't remember what caused me to cave but I remember almost immediately spitting it out and thinking about the rest of you guys. I have come so far and it would be so disappointing to let you down. Don't ever lose your way guys!
I won't quit you shocker
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Kubiak on March 09, 2013, 08:21:00 AM
Quote from: Bruce
Quote from: Arfy
Day 203

Had my first cave dream today.  I want to remember this.  I don't remember what caused me to cave but I remember almost immediately spitting it out and thinking about the rest of you guys.  I have come so far and it would be so disappointing to let you down.  Don't ever lose your way guys!
I won't quit you shocker
I woke up today (duh) and thought about how close we are to being a slave to the can again. All I would take is one.
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Arfy on August 21, 2013, 01:55:00 AM
It's been so long. It took me forever just to find this thread. I came back for my 1 year celebration. I have been hanging out in the forum recently hoping to do do my part. I have discovered(re-discovered) many fellow quitters. Closer to many of them, more than I would think. Stay quit my friend!
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Radman on August 21, 2013, 08:17:00 AM
Quote from: Arfy
It's been so long. It took me forever just to find this thread. I came back for my 1 year celebration. I have been hanging out in the forum recently hoping to do do my part. I have discovered(re-discovered) many fellow quitters. Closer to many of them, more than I would think. Stay quit my friend!
Easy to find. Seach fields at the bottom of intros work well, or you can go to your profile and find a list of all topics you started. For you, there's only one. Easy enough.

Congrats on a year!!
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: T-Cell on August 21, 2013, 10:59:00 AM
Quote from: Arfy
It's been so long. It took me forever just to find this thread. I came back for my 1 year celebration. I have been hanging out in the forum recently hoping to do do my part. I have discovered(re-discovered) many fellow quitters. Closer to many of them, more than I would think. Stay quit my friend!
Congrats on a full year Arfy. Nice job of being a quitter.
Spend some time helping newbies. I've found it keeps me engaged and really helps me remember exactly why I will never do that again.
-Tony
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Arfy on August 21, 2013, 07:11:00 PM
Quote from: Radman
Quote from: Arfy
It's been so long.  It took me forever just to find this thread.  I came back for my 1 year celebration.  I have been hanging out in the forum recently hoping to do do my part.  I have discovered(re-discovered) many fellow quitters.  Closer to many of them, more than I would think.  Stay quit my friend!
Easy to find. Seach fields at the bottom of intros work well, or you can go to your profile and find a list of all topics you started. For you, there's only one. Easy enough.

Congrats on a year!!
You mean I went through every page searching for my name for nothing? Doh!
Title: Re: FNG Day 1
Post by: Arfy on August 21, 2013, 07:14:00 PM
A great link I wanted to tuck away for any hard days in the future:

http://www.killthecan.org/facts-figures ... term-quit/ (http://www.killthecan.org/facts-figures/throwing-away-a-long-term-quit/)