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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: TheRealChrisHoffm on September 04, 2010, 08:47:00 PM
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This is Chanilla, the high schooler from Oregon trying to quit. Some may remember the puss who betrayed (2?) quit groups a year or two back. I just flat out quit posting, quit answering texts, just ignoring everything after I caved and went back to the life of addiction. I know I'm going to get sh*t for it, and I'm ready for it. I will read every word that anyone has to say to me, and I know I deserve it. Taking the easy way out is something I hate doing, but apparently I thought it was "ok" "just that once" which is clearly dishonorable, even inconsiderate, considering I was part of a group of individuals all working to help each other and make their lives better. I feel bad about that, and am sorry.
That being said, I am at a point in my life where the decision to quit is coming from myself, so to speak. I am not quitting now because I am afraid my parents will find out. I am not quitting because I don't want the doctor to ask if I chew tobacco while my parents are in the room. I am not quitting because I'm the only one who does it at my school. I can dip all I want, not worry about parents, and I don't care who knows I dip. I'm not quitting for girls, I'm not quitting because my mouth hurts. I'm quitting because this is something that needs to be done. I want to be the best that I can be, and I can't do that with tobacco. I spend way to much money on it, and will keep on spending money until I am dead. I hate being a slave to a product. I need to free myself from this, and this is the only way to do it.
I don't deserve to come slinking back in here and quit again. I still will, but I want to apologize for doing so. I quit tomorrow and will be posting day 1.
My Quit Plan:
-First and foremost, post in roll call. Doing that first thing I wake up every morning.
-When the craves come, I'm embracing whatever they through at me. I'm turning it all to rage and anger, and at the end of the day, when its time for the gym, I'm gonna just blow it up in there.
- Remember that its awful chewing. Switching the sides everyday just so my cheek doesnt fall apart isnt fun. Waking up with white gunk on either side of my mouth, scraping the dead skin off my cheek, etc. is not fun.
-I'm getting a line up of people I can talk to in real life. This site will be great, but I am going to get a different person I can talk to every day of the week to tell that I am quitting for that day.
- When I am ready to settle down and get married, I want to give that girl the best I can and give her the best that I can be. The only way tobacco is going to be a part of that is its absence and how the journey of quitting made me better for her.
-No matter how hard something may be at the time, it will eventually get easier and I will emerge a better person.
Chris
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This is Chanilla, the high schooler from Oregon trying to quit. Some may remember the puss who betrayed (2?) quit groups a year or two back. I just flat out quit posting, quit answering texts, just ignoring everything after I caved and went back to the life of addiction. I know I'm going to get sh*t for it, and I'm ready for it. I will read every word that anyone has to say to me, and I know I deserve it. Taking the easy way out is something I hate doing, but apparently I thought it was "ok" "just that once" which is clearly dishonorable, even inconsiderate, considering I was part of a group of individuals all working to help each other and make their lives better. I feel bad about that, and am sorry.
That being said, I am at a point in my life where the decision to quit is coming from myself, so to speak. I am not quitting now because I am afraid my parents will find out. I am not quitting because I don't want the doctor to ask if I chew tobacco while my parents are in the room. I am not quitting because I'm the only one who does it at my school. I can dip all I want, not worry about parents, and I don't care who knows I dip. I'm not quitting for girls, I'm not quitting because my mouth hurts. I'm quitting because this is something that needs to be done. I want to be the best that I can be, and I can't do that with tobacco. I spend way to much money on it, and will keep on spending money until I am dead. I hate being a slave to a product. I need to free myself from this, and this is the only way to do it.
I don't deserve to come slinking back in here and quit again. I still will, but I want to apologize for doing so. I quit tomorrow and will be posting day 1.
My Quit Plan:
-First and foremost, post in roll call. Doing that first thing I wake up every morning.
-When the craves come, I'm embracing whatever they through at me. I'm turning it all to rage and anger, and at the end of the day, when its time for the gym, I'm gonna just blow it up in there.
- Remember that its awful chewing. Switching the sides everyday just so my cheek doesnt fall apart isnt fun. Waking up with white gunk on either side of my mouth, scraping the dead skin off my cheek, etc. is not fun.
-I'm getting a line up of people I can talk to in real life. This site will be great, but I am going to get a different person I can talk to every day of the week to tell that I am quitting for that day.
- When I am ready to settle down and get married, I want to give that girl the best I can and give her the best that I can be. The only way tobacco is going to be a part of that is its absence and how the journey of quitting made me better for her.
-No matter how hard something may be at the time, it will eventually get easier and I will emerge a better person.
Chris
You're still not ready...you say "i'm going to quit tomorrow and will post day 1." What the fuck is that about, you pussy? Why not today? I'll tell you why: you're a pussy. Go fuck yourself you caving fuck. I get fucking pissed because I'm day 135 and there is not a day I don't battle my addiction. Then I have to come on here, listen to your sob story, and then say "tomorrow I will quit." Fuck you.
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Chanilla
you were ahead of me and actually helped me a bit.....right up to the part where you caved. I looked for you on the other site even e-mailed you once or twice. lemme tell you a few things.
Your cave actually did effect others, more than you will know.
Dont bother posting a day one here unless your going to commit .
Your killing yourself....stop or don't but dont come dragging ass back here with any half assed attempts.
Skoal Monster
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This is Chanilla, the high schooler from Oregon trying to quit. Some may remember the puss who betrayed (2?) quit groups a year or two back. I just flat out quit posting, quit answering texts, just ignoring everything after I caved and went back to the life of addiction. I know I'm going to get sh*t for it, and I'm ready for it. I will read every word that anyone has to say to me, and I know I deserve it. Taking the easy way out is something I hate doing, but apparently I thought it was "ok" "just that once" which is clearly dishonorable, even inconsiderate, considering I was part of a group of individuals all working to help each other and make their lives better. I feel bad about that, and am sorry.
That being said, I am at a point in my life where the decision to quit is coming from myself, so to speak. I am not quitting now because I am afraid my parents will find out. I am not quitting because I don't want the doctor to ask if I chew tobacco while my parents are in the room. I am not quitting because I'm the only one who does it at my school. I can dip all I want, not worry about parents, and I don't care who knows I dip. I'm not quitting for girls, I'm not quitting because my mouth hurts. I'm quitting because this is something that needs to be done. I want to be the best that I can be, and I can't do that with tobacco. I spend way to much money on it, and will keep on spending money until I am dead. I hate being a slave to a product. I need to free myself from this, and this is the only way to do it.
I don't deserve to come slinking back in here and quit again. I still will, but I want to apologize for doing so. I quit tomorrow and will be posting day 1.
My Quit Plan:
-First and foremost, post in roll call. Doing that first thing I wake up every morning.
-When the craves come, I'm embracing whatever they through at me. I'm turning it all to rage and anger, and at the end of the day, when its time for the gym, I'm gonna just blow it up in there.
- Remember that its awful chewing. Switching the sides everyday just so my cheek doesnt fall apart isnt fun. Waking up with white gunk on either side of my mouth, scraping the dead skin off my cheek, etc. is not fun.
-I'm getting a line up of people I can talk to in real life. This site will be great, but I am going to get a different person I can talk to every day of the week to tell that I am quitting for that day.
- When I am ready to settle down and get married, I want to give that girl the best I can and give her the best that I can be. The only way tobacco is going to be a part of that is its absence and how the journey of quitting made me better for her.
-No matter how hard something may be at the time, it will eventually get easier and I will emerge a better person.
Chris
You're still not ready...you say "i'm going to quit tomorrow and will post day 1." What the fuck is that about, you pussy? Why not today? I'll tell you why: you're a pussy. Go fuck yourself you caving fuck. I get fucking pissed because I'm day 135 and there is not a day I don't battle my addiction. Then I have to come on here, listen to your sob story, and then say "tomorrow I will quit." Fuck you.
I couldn't have said it better myself. This limp dick caver wants to fingerbang the can one more time before he "tries" to quit. This is another cave in the making.
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Looks like tomorrow never came.
IF YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT QUITTING AND YOU ARE READING THIS...TAKE NOTE!
YOU CAN NEVER QUIT TOMORROW...QUIT RIGHT NOW!
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Looks like tomorrow never came.
IF YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT QUITTING AND YOU ARE READING THIS...TAKE NOTE!
YOU CAN NEVER QUIT TOMORROW...QUIT RIGHT NOW!
Yep...Having been through this before you are exactly right. Tomorrow never comes. If you are thinking of quitting, quit now. And the truth is, you wouldn't be reading this and you wouldn't be at this site if you weren't thinking about quitting...so all you really can do is QUIT NOW. Just do it. Don't be a pussy.
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Looks like tomorrow never came.
IF YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT QUITTING AND YOU ARE READING THIS...TAKE NOTE!
YOU CAN NEVER QUIT TOMORROW...QUIT RIGHT NOW!
Yep...Having been through this before you are exactly right. Tomorrow never comes. If you are thinking of quitting, quit now. And the truth is, you wouldn't be reading this and you wouldn't be at this site if you weren't thinking about quitting...so all you really can do is QUIT NOW. Just do it. Don't be a pussy.
As much as I'd love to slam this guy, we can't. He is posting roll as "Chanilla," and he posted roll on day-2 for yesterday in December's group. Let's hope he can stay on it. Why do guys post roll as a name different from their screen name? It doesn't make sense. Oh well, just as long as he is quit, I guess.....
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Looks like tomorrow never came.
IF YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT QUITTING AND YOU ARE READING THIS...TAKE NOTE!
YOU CAN NEVER QUIT TOMORROW...QUIT RIGHT NOW!
Yep...Having been through this before you are exactly right. Tomorrow never comes. If you are thinking of quitting, quit now. And the truth is, you wouldn't be reading this and you wouldn't be at this site if you weren't thinking about quitting...so all you really can do is QUIT NOW. Just do it. Don't be a pussy.
As much as I'd love to slam this guy, we can't. He is posting roll as "Chanilla," and he posted roll on day-2 for yesterday in December's group. Let's hope he can stay on it. Why do guys post roll as a name different from their screen name? It doesn't make sense. Oh well, just as long as he is quit, I guess.....
Just for the record, changing your username is verboten around here. He caved as Chanilla, and he should stand up and dust himself off as Chanilla too. Looks like he's doing that.
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Looks like tomorrow never came.
IF YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT QUITTING AND YOU ARE READING THIS...TAKE NOTE!
YOU CAN NEVER QUIT TOMORROW...QUIT RIGHT NOW!
Yep...Having been through this before you are exactly right. Tomorrow never comes. If you are thinking of quitting, quit now. And the truth is, you wouldn't be reading this and you wouldn't be at this site if you weren't thinking about quitting...so all you really can do is QUIT NOW. Just do it. Don't be a pussy.
As much as I'd love to slam this guy, we can't. He is posting roll as "Chanilla," and he posted roll on day-2 for yesterday in December's group. Let's hope he can stay on it. Why do guys post roll as a name different from their screen name? It doesn't make sense. Oh well, just as long as he is quit, I guess.....
Just for the record, changing your username is verboten around here. He caved as Chanilla, and he should stand up and dust himself off as Chanilla too. Looks like he's doing that.
I stand corrected. A little confused, but corrected. Keep up the Quit!