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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: FuFuTheSnu on April 09, 2013, 06:15:00 PM
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I’m on day 9. If I’m lucky I’ve got 18,000+ left. Then again, luck may have nothing to do with it. I’ve been posting roll since day 3, and I’ve been reading the site for 2-3 hours a day ever since. At some point I’ll have to cut back on that I’m sure. But so far, this site has been extremely helpful to me. Reading through the personal testimonies, I am realizing that, if there are degrees of addiction (there may not be - I’m not sure how addiction theory works – something I’ll learn soon I’m sure), I “don’t have it as bad” as some on this site. I started when I was 15 (I’m 35, male, wife and two boys, Minneapolis, hihowareya) and only stopped once (for 6 weeks) randomly a couple of years ago. My cancer catalyst of choice was Skoal Wintergreen EXTRA (so much cheaper! And full of EXTRAness!). I never chewed right away in the morning. I never really hid it from my wife. I never “ninja dipped” at work. For me, my Monday thru Friday fix was strictly 1) while driving to work, 2) lunch break, 3) driving home from work, and occasionally 4) late night watching TV. But I noticed over the last two years that I was taking larger and larger chews, to the point where I was going through just a shade under a can a day (spread across just 3-4 chews!). So, yeah, giant chews. It’s a good look that women find irresistible. And then on weekends, I’d throw down a few Coors Lights and that’s when the floodgates really opened up. On a given Friday or Saturday night, I’d be going through 2 cans easily. My mouth felt like 1945 Dresden every morning. Pretty ridiculous. But actually kind of tame, based on what I’m seeing in the writings of some others around this site. And that’s what I’m getting out of KTC right now, and why it is such a help to me: I am realizing that I am not alone in this. I mean, I always knew I could probably go find some sort of quit group somewhere if I really wanted to, but the folks on this site (15 f’ing THOUSAND of them) are exactly the kind of the “support group” I need. A bunch of individuals that lay it out very simply – post roll every day, become involved, and keep your damn word. It’s seems pretty simple. Accountability and pride. I’m at the point now where I’m supposedly past the physical addiction. This hasn’t been too tough for me so far. I’ve made minor lifestyle adjustments here and there and it has gone well. But I haven’t really stared temptation in the eye yet. I haven’t been out on the first tee (it’s still snowing here in MN), I haven’t hung around my chewing buddies, I haven’t done any yard work (the damn snow), I haven’t gone to the pub to play a round of darts yet, etc. I keep oscillating between being very confident in my quit (as Notdeadyet says, “I am not capable of caving because I have eliminated the option of dipping from my life”), and being scared shitless that this is all a house of cards and it’s going to come crashing down at any moment because I am not prepared to deal with the unknown “crave” or “trigger” or “cave opportunity” that lurks right around the corner. So I guess I’ll do it one day at a time, keeping my guard up at all times? At all times? Is that really how it works? I have to be “on guard” 24 hours a day for the next 18,000? I guess I can accept that. Whatever it takes. I’m done with chew for today; that much I know. And I don’t know what I don’t know, so every situation is a potential threat until proven otherwise, right? Let’s do this. Sorry for the serpentine rambling. Thanks for reading. I just wanted to introduce myself to you all, so you could begin to hold me accountable (or help me to hold myself accountable). I will be here daily.
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I’m on day 9. If I’m lucky I’ve got 18,000+ left. Then again, luck may have nothing to do with it. I’ve been posting roll since day 3, and I’ve been reading the site for 2-3 hours a day ever since. At some point I’ll have to cut back on that I’m sure. But so far, this site has been extremely helpful to me. Reading through the personal testimonies, I am realizing that, if there are degrees of addiction (there may not be - I’m not sure how addiction theory works – something I’ll learn soon I’m sure), I “don’t have it as bad” as some on this site. I started when I was 15 (I’m 35, male, wife and two boys, Minneapolis, hihowareya) and only stopped once (for 6 weeks) randomly a couple of years ago. My cancer catalyst of choice was Skoal Wintergreen EXTRA (so much cheaper! And full of EXTRAness!). I never chewed right away in the morning. I never really hid it from my wife. I never “ninja dipped” at work. For me, my Monday thru Friday fix was strictly 1) while driving to work, 2) lunch break, 3) driving home from work, and occasionally 4) late night watching TV. But I noticed over the last two years that I was taking larger and larger chews, to the point where I was going through just a shade under a can a day (spread across just 3-4 chews!). So, yeah, giant chews. It’s a good look that women find irresistible. And then on weekends, I’d throw down a few Coors Lights and that’s when the floodgates really opened up. On a given Friday or Saturday night, I’d be going through 2 cans easily. My mouth felt like 1945 Dresden every morning. Pretty ridiculous. But actually kind of tame, based on what I’m seeing in the writings of some others around this site. And that’s what I’m getting out of KTC right now, and why it is such a help to me: I am realizing that I am not alone in this. I mean, I always knew I could probably go find some sort of quit group somewhere if I really wanted to, but the folks on this site (15 f’ing THOUSAND of them) are exactly the kind of the “support group” I need. A bunch of individuals that lay it out very simply – post roll every day, become involved, and keep your damn word. It’s seems pretty simple. Accountability and pride. I’m at the point now where I’m supposedly past the physical addiction. This hasn’t been too tough for me so far. I’ve made minor lifestyle adjustments here and there and it has gone well. But I haven’t really stared temptation in the eye yet. I haven’t been out on the first tee (it’s still snowing here in MN), I haven’t hung around my chewing buddies, I haven’t done any yard work (the damn snow), I haven’t gone to the pub to play a round of darts yet, etc. I keep oscillating between being very confident in my quit (as Notdeadyet says, “I am not capable of caving because I have eliminated the option of dipping from my life”), and being scared shitless that this is all a house of cards and it’s going to come crashing down at any moment because I am not prepared to deal with the unknown “crave” or “trigger” or “cave opportunity” that lurks right around the corner. So I guess I’ll do it one day at a time, keeping my guard up at all times? At all times? Is that really how it works? I have to be “on guard” 24 hours a day for the next 18,000? I guess I can accept that. Whatever it takes. I’m done with chew for today; that much I know. And I don’t know what I don’t know, so every situation is a potential threat until proven otherwise, right? Let’s do this. Sorry for the serpentine rambling. Thanks for reading. I just wanted to introduce myself to you all, so you could begin to hold me accountable (or help me to hold myself accountable). I will be here daily.
good read fu fu. Glad to be quit with you....
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I’m on day 9. If I’m lucky I’ve got 18,000+ left. Then again, luck may have nothing to do with it. I’ve been posting roll since day 3, and I’ve been reading the site for 2-3 hours a day ever since. At some point I’ll have to cut back on that I’m sure. But so far, this site has been extremely helpful to me. Reading through the personal testimonies, I am realizing that, if there are degrees of addiction (there may not be - I’m not sure how addiction theory works – something I’ll learn soon I’m sure), I “don’t have it as bad” as some on this site. I started when I was 15 (I’m 35, male, wife and two boys, Minneapolis, hihowareya) and only stopped once (for 6 weeks) randomly a couple of years ago. My cancer catalyst of choice was Skoal Wintergreen EXTRA (so much cheaper! And full of EXTRAness!). I never chewed right away in the morning. I never really hid it from my wife. I never “ninja dipped” at work. For me, my Monday thru Friday fix was strictly 1) while driving to work, 2) lunch break, 3) driving home from work, and occasionally 4) late night watching TV. But I noticed over the last two years that I was taking larger and larger chews, to the point where I was going through just a shade under a can a day (spread across just 3-4 chews!). So, yeah, giant chews. It’s a good look that women find irresistible. And then on weekends, I’d throw down a few Coors Lights and that’s when the floodgates really opened up. On a given Friday or Saturday night, I’d be going through 2 cans easily. My mouth felt like 1945 Dresden every morning. Pretty ridiculous. But actually kind of tame, based on what I’m seeing in the writings of some others around this site. And that’s what I’m getting out of KTC right now, and why it is such a help to me: I am realizing that I am not alone in this. I mean, I always knew I could probably go find some sort of quit group somewhere if I really wanted to, but the folks on this site (15 f’ing THOUSAND of them) are exactly the kind of the “support group” I need. A bunch of individuals that lay it out very simply – post roll every day, become involved, and keep your damn word. It’s seems pretty simple. Accountability and pride. I’m at the point now where I’m supposedly past the physical addiction. This hasn’t been too tough for me so far. I’ve made minor lifestyle adjustments here and there and it has gone well. But I haven’t really stared temptation in the eye yet. I haven’t been out on the first tee (it’s still snowing here in MN), I haven’t hung around my chewing buddies, I haven’t done any yard work (the damn snow), I haven’t gone to the pub to play a round of darts yet, etc. I keep oscillating between being very confident in my quit (as Notdeadyet says, “I am not capable of caving because I have eliminated the option of dipping from my life”), and being scared shitless that this is all a house of cards and it’s going to come crashing down at any moment because I am not prepared to deal with the unknown “crave” or “trigger” or “cave opportunity” that lurks right around the corner. So I guess I’ll do it one day at a time, keeping my guard up at all times? At all times? Is that really how it works? I have to be “on guard” 24 hours a day for the next 18,000? I guess I can accept that. Whatever it takes. I’m done with chew for today; that much I know. And I don’t know what I don’t know, so every situation is a potential threat until proven otherwise, right? Let’s do this. Sorry for the serpentine rambling. Thanks for reading. I just wanted to introduce myself to you all, so you could begin to hold me accountable (or help me to hold myself accountable). I will be here daily.
good read fu fu. Glad to be quit with you....
FuFutheSnu - there's gotta be a great back story to this one. Me, Smokeyg is my middle school gang name. Smackaho.
I'm coming up 1,800 days quit soon - 1/10 of your remaining life expectancy. I'm still on guard 24 hours a day, but I'm more like the Norwegian Guards in front of the palace in Oslo. Usually, no worries, but once in a blue moon some crazy racist fucker tries to blow up my city and execute a bunch of kids on a remote island. It's then I fall back on my training and daily roll post.
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I’m on day 9. If I’m lucky I’ve got 18,000+ left. Then again, luck may have nothing to do with it. I’ve been posting roll since day 3, and I’ve been reading the site for 2-3 hours a day ever since. At some point I’ll have to cut back on that I’m sure. But so far, this site has been extremely helpful to me. Reading through the personal testimonies, I am realizing that, if there are degrees of addiction (there may not be - I’m not sure how addiction theory works – something I’ll learn soon I’m sure), I “don’t have it as bad” as some on this site. I started when I was 15 (I’m 35, male, wife and two boys, Minneapolis, hihowareya) and only stopped once (for 6 weeks) randomly a couple of years ago. My cancer catalyst of choice was Skoal Wintergreen EXTRA (so much cheaper! And full of EXTRAness!). I never chewed right away in the morning. I never really hid it from my wife. I never “ninja dipped” at work. For me, my Monday thru Friday fix was strictly 1) while driving to work, 2) lunch break, 3) driving home from work, and occasionally 4) late night watching TV. But I noticed over the last two years that I was taking larger and larger chews, to the point where I was going through just a shade under a can a day (spread across just 3-4 chews!). So, yeah, giant chews. It’s a good look that women find irresistible. And then on weekends, I’d throw down a few Coors Lights and that’s when the floodgates really opened up. On a given Friday or Saturday night, I’d be going through 2 cans easily. My mouth felt like 1945 Dresden every morning. Pretty ridiculous. But actually kind of tame, based on what I’m seeing in the writings of some others around this site. And that’s what I’m getting out of KTC right now, and why it is such a help to me: I am realizing that I am not alone in this. I mean, I always knew I could probably go find some sort of quit group somewhere if I really wanted to, but the folks on this site (15 f’ing THOUSAND of them) are exactly the kind of the “support group” I need. A bunch of individuals that lay it out very simply – post roll every day, become involved, and keep your damn word. It’s seems pretty simple. Accountability and pride. I’m at the point now where I’m supposedly past the physical addiction. This hasn’t been too tough for me so far. I’ve made minor lifestyle adjustments here and there and it has gone well. But I haven’t really stared temptation in the eye yet. I haven’t been out on the first tee (it’s still snowing here in MN), I haven’t hung around my chewing buddies, I haven’t done any yard work (the damn snow), I haven’t gone to the pub to play a round of darts yet, etc. I keep oscillating between being very confident in my quit (as Notdeadyet says, “I am not capable of caving because I have eliminated the option of dipping from my life”), and being scared shitless that this is all a house of cards and it’s going to come crashing down at any moment because I am not prepared to deal with the unknown “crave” or “trigger” or “cave opportunity” that lurks right around the corner. So I guess I’ll do it one day at a time, keeping my guard up at all times? At all times? Is that really how it works? I have to be “on guard” 24 hours a day for the next 18,000? I guess I can accept that. Whatever it takes. I’m done with chew for today; that much I know. And I don’t know what I don’t know, so every situation is a potential threat until proven otherwise, right? Let’s do this. Sorry for the serpentine rambling. Thanks for reading. I just wanted to introduce myself to you all, so you could begin to hold me accountable (or help me to hold myself accountable). I will be here daily.
good read fu fu. Glad to be quit with you....
FuFutheSnu - there's gotta be a great back story to this one. Me, Smokeyg is my middle school gang name. Smackaho.
I'm coming up 1,800 days quit soon - 1/10 of your remaining life expectancy. I'm still on guard 24 hours a day, but I'm more like the Norwegian Guards in front of the palace in Oslo. Usually, no worries, but once in a blue moon some crazy racist fucker tries to blow up my city and execute a bunch of kids on a remote island. It's then I fall back on my training and daily roll post.
No fufu luck, just commitment to your daily promise. Im Day 374 quit 14,500+ days an addict. The only luck is finding a bunch of bad ass quitters here at KTC. Pm me if you need anything.
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Welcome, sir. That was an excellent intro. You have learned a lot here, but admittedly have more to learn. That is key. Never stop adapting.
SmokeyG made a good analogy about the guards. He once again exhibited his literary prowess. I'm about half as far as Smokey, day 939 to be exact, and I agree with him. I am still quit before all else, but the quit has shifted to a passive act most of the time. I still post roll just in case, but the real craves are rare. I still have one now and then, but they're much easier to brush off. But, even with that said, I am still just one moment of weakness away from the situation I was in back on September 14, 2010. There is no such thing as just one, so I've made my promise today.
I've seen guys wander away from KTC and cave after hundreds of days. It scares me. Could I suffer that same fate? Possibly, so I've made my promise today.
Regardless what happens in the next 24 hours, I've made my promise today.
You are on the right path. Don't look ahead of you at 18000 days. We have made our promise today.
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Welcome, sir. That was an excellent intro. You have learned a lot here, but admittedly have more to learn. That is key. Never stop adapting.
SmokeyG made a good analogy about the guards. He once again exhibited his literary prowess. I'm about half as far as Smokey, day 939 to be exact, and I agree with him. I am still quit before all else, but the quit has shifted to a passive act most of the time. I still post roll just in case, but the real craves are rare. I still have one now and then, but they're much easier to brush off. But, even with that said, I am still just one moment of weakness away from the situation I was in back on September 14, 2010. There is no such thing as just one, so I've made my promise today.
I've seen guys wander away from KTC and cave after hundreds of days. It scares me. Could I suffer that same fate? Possibly, so I've made my promise today.
Regardless what happens in the next 24 hours, I've made my promise today.
You are on the right path. Don't look ahead of you at 18000 days. We have made our promise today.
Post roll, make your promise for just today. It's the only way to "be" quit.
Welcome to real freedom, it's worth fighting for! 'bang head'
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Thanks for the welcome guys. I appreciate the responses 30isEnuff, Radman, Wt57, SmokeyG (Smackaho), and srans. Anders Breivik references aside, I think that at this point and for the foreseeable future, my defenses will be at a “Navy Seal Holy Shit North Korea Just Nuked Seattle” level of alertness. Over time and with practice, I’ll hopefully be able to dial it down to “Beat Cop in South Central Los Angeles”. From there it’s “Sheriff of Mayberry”, and finally on to “Martha’s Vineyard Pet Detective”.
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FuFu,
CONGRATS!!! Loved the intro. You're toe to toe with the Nic Bitch right now. Keep fighting. Like Churchill said, "If you're going through Hell, keep going."
The good news is that you'll be one of those security guards without a weapon standing around in the concession stand area of a mega-plex movie theatre in the suburbs somewhere before you know it. Remember to wear comfortable shoes.
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Congrats on the quit. I'm on day 8 heading to day 9. Posting roll and meaning the promise you will stay quit has definitley been a help. Look at it as if you go against that promise you are lying to yourself. You are doing this for you. We should treat ourselves way better than we have in the past. And one great piece of advice given to me today was to help and show support to others. Yours is the first thread I've posted on and it's weird how it seems to help me and hopefully help you.
Stay Quit!!!
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How's it going FuFu? Popping in to say Stay Quit.
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How's it going FuFu? Popping in to say Stay Quit.
Going pretty well ak, thanks. Stay quit yourself. Yesterday wasn't the easiest, so I tried some smokey mountain last night and it was decent. It's the oral fixation now more than the nicotine. I'm sure that obstacle will be overcome with time as well. I've got some Jakes Mint on the way just in case it takes longer than I'd like. But I honestly can't imagine going back now. With the fake stuff available and the daily commitment here, I just don't see myself messing with tobacco ever again. But tomorrow is a different day, and circumstances will change and my emotional state will fluctuate, etc., so, keeping my guard up for the time being. It's only been 13 days but it seems like months since my last can of Skoal, and I don't miss it a bit. I guess I'm a little foggy maybe, but, jumping on the treadmill usually clears my head. How you feelin? I assume you're staying strong, fighting the good fight, etc.? Let me know if/when you need any help or whatever. Is there a shitload of chew on Kodiak Island? I'm assuming there is :)
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How's it going FuFu? Popping in to say Stay Quit.
Going pretty well ak, thanks. Stay quit yourself. Yesterday wasn't the easiest, so I tried some smokey mountain last night and it was decent. It's the oral fixation now more than the nicotine. I'm sure that obstacle will be overcome with time as well. I've got some Jakes Mint on the way just in case it takes longer than I'd like. But I honestly can't imagine going back now. With the fake stuff available and the daily commitment here, I just don't see myself messing with tobacco ever again. But tomorrow is a different day, and circumstances will change and my emotional state will fluctuate, etc., so, keeping my guard up for the time being. It's only been 13 days but it seems like months since my last can of Skoal, and I don't miss it a bit. I guess I'm a little foggy maybe, but, jumping on the treadmill usually clears my head. How you feelin? I assume you're staying strong, fighting the good fight, etc.? Let me know if/when you need any help or whatever. Is there a shitload of chew on Kodiak Island? I'm assuming there is :)
Good job guys.
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How's it going FuFu? Popping in to say Stay Quit.
Going pretty well ak, thanks. Stay quit yourself. Yesterday wasn't the easiest, so I tried some smokey mountain last night and it was decent. It's the oral fixation now more than the nicotine. I'm sure that obstacle will be overcome with time as well. I've got some Jakes Mint on the way just in case it takes longer than I'd like. But I honestly can't imagine going back now. With the fake stuff available and the daily commitment here, I just don't see myself messing with tobacco ever again. But tomorrow is a different day, and circumstances will change and my emotional state will fluctuate, etc., so, keeping my guard up for the time being. It's only been 13 days but it seems like months since my last can of Skoal, and I don't miss it a bit. I guess I'm a little foggy maybe, but, jumping on the treadmill usually clears my head. How you feelin? I assume you're staying strong, fighting the good fight, etc.? Let me know if/when you need any help or whatever. Is there a shitload of chew on Kodiak Island? I'm assuming there is :)
Good work man.
I'm up in NOrth Pole. Many people chew up here. I just bought some Smokey Mountain myself as that's the only alternative I could find up here. Only used it once. I see it the same as you. I just couldn't see myself goinng back but the guard must stay up.
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Just wanted to follow up on day 25... The last three days have been worse than the preceding 22. Major craves for some reason, but Jakes Mint is pulling me through. I know others have made this claim, but, is it possible that coming to this site every day somehow keeps chew and chewing in the front of my mind and makes the cravings more frequent? Like, if I never came here, would I just stop thinking about chewing and eventually just "forget" I ever liked Skoal? I guess I doubt it. Doesn't seem like that's how addiction works. But the mind games, man, they're sinister. But for every thought I have like that, I probably have three or four thoughts saying things like, "Why would you go back to something so dangerous? Where's the upside? Why did you do it I the first place? What was so great about it, and what, specifically, do you think you're missing out on now?" Those are not thoughts I had during other (failed) quit attempts, and I know it's the KTC connection that is making that happen, and those thoughts are helping to keep me clean. So, I guess I'm sort of answering my own questions here. Anyway, just wanted to get that in writing and off my chest. It'll be nice to read this on day 100, 500, etc and remember what this was like.
Hey by the way, are there any members on this site that don't have a strong opinion on the 2nd amendment? :) I gotta stay outta the politics threads - guns are blazin'.
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Just wanted to follow up on day 25... The last three days have been worse than the preceding 22. Major craves for some reason, but Jakes Mint is pulling me through. I know others have made this claim, but, is it possible that coming to this site every day somehow keeps chew and chewing in the front of my mind and makes the cravings more frequent? Like, if I never came here, would I just stop thinking about chewing and eventually just "forget" I ever liked Skoal? I guess I doubt it. Doesn't seem like that's how addiction works. But the mind games, man, they're sinister. But for every thought I have like that, I probably have three or four thoughts saying things like, "Why would you go back to something so dangerous? Where's the upside? Why did you do it I the first place? What was so great about it, and what, specifically, do you think you're missing out on now?" Those are not thoughts I had during other (failed) quit attempts, and I know it's the KTC connection that is making that happen, and those thoughts are helping to keep me clean. So, I guess I'm sort of answering my own questions here. Anyway, just wanted to get that in writing and off my chest. It'll be nice to read this on day 100, 500, etc and remember what this was like.
Hey by the way, are there any members on this site that don't have a strong opinion on the 2nd amendment? :) I gotta stay outta the politics threads - guns are blazin'.
Fufu I had a fellow quitter that quit posting because he thought the same thing, about a month later he texted me that he caved. Another great quitter texted me that he was done posting and about a week later he was back posting with bad cravings. Do what works. Both of those examples were post HOF. "Why would you go back to something so dangerous?"
Why does a dog eat his puke?
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Just wanted to follow up on day 25... The last three days have been worse than the preceding 22. Major craves for some reason, but Jakes Mint is pulling me through. I know others have made this claim, but, is it possible that coming to this site every day somehow keeps chew and chewing in the front of my mind and makes the cravings more frequent? Like, if I never came here, would I just stop thinking about chewing and eventually just "forget" I ever liked Skoal? I guess I doubt it. Doesn't seem like that's how addiction works. But the mind games, man, they're sinister. But for every thought I have like that, I probably have three or four thoughts saying things like, "Why would you go back to something so dangerous? Where's the upside? Why did you do it I the first place? What was so great about it, and what, specifically, do you think you're missing out on now?" Those are not thoughts I had during other (failed) quit attempts, and I know it's the KTC connection that is making that happen, and those thoughts are helping to keep me clean. So, I guess I'm sort of answering my own questions here. Anyway, just wanted to get that in writing and off my chest. It'll be nice to read this on day 100, 500, etc and remember what this was like.
Hey by the way, are there any members on this site that don't have a strong opinion on the 2nd amendment? :) I gotta stay outta the politics threads - guns are blazin'.
Fufu I had a fellow quitter that quit posting because he thought the same thing, about a month later he texted me that he caved. Another great quitter texted me that he was done posting and about a week later he was back posting with bad cravings. Do what works. Both of those examples were post HOF. "Why would you go back to something so dangerous?"
Why does a dog eat his puke?
"Take what you need and leave the rest."
Those are wise words from the guys that started this place. I'm like you. All that ranting and raging over in those threads damages my calm. There are a few guys here that live for that, apparently. Not me. Even though I have VERY strong opinions about pretty much everything they're discussing, I realize that a virtual screaming match will accomplish nothing other than raise my blood pressure and render me completely unproductive for the day. I steer clear. That's not why I'm here. I am here to QUIT and to help others QUIT. My problem with some of those guys is that it seems like they try to turn EVERY conversation into a political rant. If I see that happening, I stop reading and go elsewhere. There is not battle to be won or lost here. The mods/admins will steer them back on topic if needed.
I don't think I've ever posted my thoughts on that before. Why? Because this place allows a lot of freedom, and I like that. Posting support and lending assistance keeps me quit. For those guys, that ranting and arguing is what draws them back here. With that said, it keeps them quit. KTC offers something for everybody. If somebody says that trash talk ran them off, then I believe they were just searching for an excuse and weren't ready to quit. We addicts are pretty good at excuses, you know.
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If somebody says that trash talk ran them off, then I believe they were just searching for an excuse and weren't ready to quit. We addicts are pretty good at excuses, you know.
Completely agree.Take what you need and leave the rest."
A nice mantra to live by on this site.
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If somebody says that trash talk ran them off, then I believe they were just searching for an excuse and weren't ready to quit. We addicts are pretty good at excuses, you know.
Completely agree.Take what you need and leave the rest."
A nice mantra to live by on this site.
I'll take the quit and leave the nicotine. That's what Ktc offers.
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I'm on Day 71 today. I feel fantastic and haven't really had a crave in quite a while. Fog seems to be gone. That said, lately I've been reading a lot of stuff from folks on this site who "hit a wall" (or something similar) in the 70's. And I've also been reading about the various post-HOF caves that have been taking place lately. I keep telling myself there is no way that's happening to me, but who among us can really be sure?
So, in that spirit, and with that said, I need some numbers. I've swapped numbers with a total of two quitters (Quit and Syndrome), and thankfully I've never had to use them. But if there is some sort of boogeyman waiting around the corner to kneecap me when I least expect it, I want to be ready. What do I need to do to get more? Do I need more? How many is enough? Is this the "easy way" of going about it? Or should I be PM'ing people out of nowhere? I've done that a couple times, and my success rate is low (because I come off as creepy with all the swearing and a Dr Seuss avatar?). Right now, I feel like I'd never need to use the numbers, but who knows? Maybe I'll be a blubbering puddle of weak-kneed vagina sauce by the end of the week. I also want to provide support for others if possible. Get involved, you know. Whatever I can do. Thanks.
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I'm on Day 71 today. I feel fantastic and haven't really had a crave in quite a while. Fog seems to be gone. That said, lately I've been reading a lot of stuff from folks on this site who "hit a wall" (or something similar) in the 70's. And I've also been reading about the various post-HOF caves that have been taking place lately. I keep telling myself there is no way that's happening to me, but who among us can really be sure?
So, in that spirit, and with that said, I need some numbers. I've swapped numbers with a total of two quitters (Quit and Syndrome), and thankfully I've never had to use them. But if there is some sort of boogeyman waiting around the corner to kneecap me when I least expect it, I want to be ready. What do I need to do to get more? Do I need more? How many is enough? Is this the "easy way" of going about it? Or should I be PM'ing people out of nowhere? I've done that a couple times, and my success rate is low (because I come off as creepy with all the swearing and a Dr Seuss avatar?). Right now, I feel like I'd never need to use the numbers, but who knows? Maybe I'll be a blubbering puddle of weak-kneed vagina sauce by the end of the week. I also want to provide support for others if possible. Get involved, you know. Whatever I can do. Thanks.
I just sent you my number in a PM. Use it. 2 Numbers def are not enough. What if both those people are unable to answer a call or text. Get a lot! Glad to see you being proactive!
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I'm on Day 71 today. I feel fantastic and haven't really had a crave in quite a while. Fog seems to be gone. That said, lately I've been reading a lot of stuff from folks on this site who "hit a wall" (or something similar) in the 70's. And I've also been reading about the various post-HOF caves that have been taking place lately. I keep telling myself there is no way that's happening to me, but who among us can really be sure?
So, in that spirit, and with that said, I need some numbers. I've swapped numbers with a total of two quitters (Quit and Syndrome), and thankfully I've never had to use them. But if there is some sort of boogeyman waiting around the corner to kneecap me when I least expect it, I want to be ready. What do I need to do to get more? Do I need more? How many is enough? Is this the "easy way" of going about it? Or should I be PM'ing people out of nowhere? I've done that a couple times, and my success rate is low (because I come off as creepy with all the swearing and a Dr Seuss avatar?). Right now, I feel like I'd never need to use the numbers, but who knows? Maybe I'll be a blubbering puddle of weak-kneed vagina sauce by the end of the week. I also want to provide support for others if possible. Get involved, you know. Whatever I can do. Thanks.
My .02 on digit swapping
Start in your room but if all you're wanting to do is fill your phone book - why bother (really) the point of exchanging the numbers is to open lines of communication and deep the bond with the brotherhood here. Kind of like creating an emergency escape plan but never practicing it.
Around the 60s I sent out a pm to every active member in my group - and received about 80%
Live Chat - another good place to exchange numbers in private provided you trust the person you chatting with isn't a troll
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Thanks Jake. Thanks CBird. Yeah I was actually thinking it'd be ideal to get July 2013'ers (not that any one is better than another, but it is my group after all), so you're probably right - PM'ing those bastards is probably a better first move. One way or another, I refuse to be left without options when/if the shit hits the fan. Thanks.
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I'm on Day 71 today. I feel fantastic and haven't really had a crave in quite a while. Fog seems to be gone. That said, lately I've been reading a lot of stuff from folks on this site who "hit a wall" (or something similar) in the 70's. And I've also been reading about the various post-HOF caves that have been taking place lately. I keep telling myself there is no way that's happening to me, but who among us can really be sure?
So, in that spirit, and with that said, I need some numbers. I've swapped numbers with a total of two quitters (Quit and Syndrome), and thankfully I've never had to use them. But if there is some sort of boogeyman waiting around the corner to kneecap me when I least expect it, I want to be ready. What do I need to do to get more? Do I need more? How many is enough? Is this the "easy way" of going about it? Or should I be PM'ing people out of nowhere? I've done that a couple times, and my success rate is low (because I come off as creepy with all the swearing and a Dr Seuss avatar?). Right now, I feel like I'd never need to use the numbers, but who knows? Maybe I'll be a blubbering puddle of weak-kneed vagina sauce by the end of the week. I also want to provide support for others if possible. Get involved, you know. Whatever I can do. Thanks.
My .02 on digit swapping
Start in your room but if all you're wanting to do is fill your phone book - why bother (really) the point of exchanging the numbers is to open lines of communication and deep the bond with the brotherhood here. Kind of like creating an emergency escape plan but never practicing it.
Around the 60s I sent out a pm to every active member in my group - and received about 80%
Live Chat - another good place to exchange numbers in private provided you trust the person you chatting with isn't a troll
another pair of pennies from me.
Quiting looks to be like a biorythm where there will be many ups and downs along your journey.
Yes as you approach the mystic (and fabulous) milestone of 100 days there does seem to be a late 'funk' around the 80 or so. I hit it where it was not that I wanted to dip again, it was I was just tired and was a little apathetic. So it is when you feel like this that you just need to be smart and say that in the group thread and/or on roll so that others will reach out to you.
Another is after the month hits the HOF around the 130s but that is for another time. Keep your head down and putting up the +1s. You are doing great.
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Day 75 and all is (seemingly) well. I now have what science would call a “fuck-ton” of numbers representing fellow quitters on whom I can lean if necessary. Feels good to have that in my back pocket, and it has been great getting to know these guys. I will be celebrating 75 days by grilling dead animals and consuming alcohol. Also about to hit Father’s Day nicotine free – that’s another accomplishment worth celebrating. The world needs to know about KTC. This place is a literal lifesaver. Have a great weekend fellow addicts, geeks, sportos, motorheads, dweebs, dorks, sluts, buttheads and ne’er do wells. I think you’re all righteous dudes.
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You too FUFU get your freak on see if you can bust another lil FUFU out...you are in the PHarma culture they gotta have something you can use...lol.... I am with you Fufu I got my numbers I got my dead animals and booze. I am gonna be watching bull riding this weekend. quit w you today lil mr 3/4ths.
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Day 75 and all is (seemingly) well. I now have what science would call a “fuck-ton” of numbers representing fellow quitters on whom I can lean if necessary. Feels good to have that in my back pocket, and it has been great getting to know these guys. I will be celebrating 75 days by grilling dead animals and consuming alcohol. Also about to hit Father’s Day nicotine free – that’s another accomplishment worth celebrating. The world needs to know about KTC. This place is a literal lifesaver. Have a great weekend fellow addicts, geeks, sportos, motorheads, dweebs, dorks, sluts, buttheads and ne’er do wells. I think you’re all righteous dudes.
:)
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Day 75 and all is (seemingly) well. I now have what science would call a “fuck-ton” of numbers representing fellow quitters on whom I can lean if necessary. Feels good to have that in my back pocket, and it has been great getting to know these guys. I will be celebrating 75 days by grilling dead animals and consuming alcohol. Also about to hit Father’s Day nicotine free – that’s another accomplishment worth celebrating. The world needs to know about KTC. This place is a literal lifesaver. Have a great weekend fellow addicts, geeks, sportos, motorheads, dweebs, dorks, sluts, buttheads and ne’er do wells. I think you’re all righteous dudes.
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Sometimes I think you need 'help'. Good stuff fu fu.
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Day 75 and all is (seemingly) well. I now have what science would call a �fuck-ton� of numbers representing fellow quitters on whom I can lean if necessary. Feels good to have that in my back pocket, and it has been great getting to know these guys. I will be celebrating 75 days by grilling dead animals and consuming alcohol. Also about to hit Father�s Day nicotine free � that�s another accomplishment worth celebrating. The world needs to know about KTC. This place is a literal lifesaver. Have a great weekend fellow addicts, geeks, sportos, motorheads, dweebs, dorks, sluts, buttheads and ne�er do wells. I think you�re all righteous dudes.
I heard the verdict is still out on science (Arrested Development).
Can't express how much your support has meant in the 1st week FuFu. You're one tough mofo quitter. Proud to be quit with you this weekend.
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Day 92. At the risk of making grand, sweeping, and ill-advised statements, chewing now is just something I don’t do. It doesn’t really even cross my mind any more. I was at a BBQ on Saturday and one of the things they had set out to eat was this leafy salad - the kind that looks like there are maple leaves and birch leaves and shit in it. It’s just something I don’t eat. Other people were eating it and liking it just fine, but I figure I’m not a fucking koala bear so I don’t eat it. And no one cares and I don’t care, and that’s kind of all there is to it. And that’s a lot like what chewing has become for me. I just don’t do it. I’m not particularly offended by the sight of it, or by seeing people partake in it. It’s just, for me, I really don’t want a chew any more than I want a mouth full of Arbor Day. I’m not cured, and I occasionally have an acute craving, but it’s generally over quicker than a MN Timberwolves playoff run. Not in a million years did I think I would be sitting here on day 92, much less thinking these thoughts and saying these things. I’ve attempted quits before and made it four days, sometimes maybe five days. Once I made it four weeks. But I always caved. And deep down, I always knew I was going to cave. It was just a matter of when. But this time is much different. It’s different because I had a distraction when I needed it (jumping on here and reading shit, or hitting up chat). It’s different because I am being held accountable this time (daily roll works somehow – still don’t really know how – typing in your name and day so a bunch of strangers will spend .001 seconds reading it – but it does). It is different because I’ve seen myself in a lot of what others have written on this site (I’ve been able to relate to a lot of what has been written – the good and the bad – and that helps somehow). It’s different because maybe I actually wanted it this time. Anyway, I’m talking like it’s over. It’s never over. As heartbreaking as that might seem to someone on day 2 or 3, that’s the way it is. It’s never over. In 8 days I’ll hit the HOF, but I’m far from done. This addiction is something I live with daily. That was something I struggled with early on – just the enormity of it. I remember thinking, “I really have to quit forever?”, and struggling with how I was feeling and wondering how I was going to do this day in and day out. Well in the past sixty days or so it’s sort of turned into, “I get to quit today? And tomorrow? And the next day?” Things are much easier now, and like I said I look forward to quitting every day. It’s a hell of an accomplishment that everyone here should be damn proud of, regardless of what day you might be on. Anyway, there’s day 92 for you bitches.
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Day 92. At the risk of making grand, sweeping, and ill-advised statements, chewing now is just something I don’t do. It doesn’t really even cross my mind any more. I was at a BBQ on Saturday and one of the things they had set out to eat was this leafy salad - the kind that looks like there are maple leaves and birch leaves and shit in it. It’s just something I don’t eat. Other people were eating it and liking it just fine, but I figure I’m not a fucking koala bear so I don’t eat it. And no one cares and I don’t care, and that’s kind of all there is to it. And that’s a lot like what chewing has become for me. I just don’t do it. I’m not particularly offended by the sight of it, or by seeing people partake in it. It’s just, for me, I really don’t want a chew any more than I want a mouth full of Arbor Day. I’m not cured, and I occasionally have an acute craving, but it’s generally over quicker than a MN Timberwolves playoff run. Not in a million years did I think I would be sitting here on day 92, much less thinking these thoughts and saying these things. I’ve attempted quits before and made it four days, sometimes maybe five days. Once I made it four weeks. But I always caved. And deep down, I always knew I was going to cave. It was just a matter of when. But this time is much different. It’s different because I had a distraction when I needed it (jumping on here and reading shit, or hitting up chat). It’s different because I am being held accountable this time (daily roll works somehow – still don’t really know how – typing in your name and day so a bunch of strangers will spend .001 seconds reading it – but it does). It is different because I’ve seen myself in a lot of what others have written on this site (I’ve been able to relate to a lot of what has been written – the good and the bad – and that helps somehow). It’s different because maybe I actually wanted it this time. Anyway, I’m talking like it’s over. It’s never over. As heartbreaking as that might seem to someone on day 2 or 3, that’s the way it is. It’s never over. In 8 days I’ll hit the HOF, but I’m far from done. This addiction is something I live with daily. That was something I struggled with early on – just the enormity of it. I remember thinking, “I really have to quit forever?”, and struggling with how I was feeling and wondering how I was going to do this day in and day out. Well in the past sixty days or so it’s sort of turned into, “I get to quit today? And tomorrow? And the next day?” Things are much easier now, and like I said I look forward to quitting every day. It’s a hell of an accomplishment that everyone here should be damn proud of, regardless of what day you might be on. Anyway, there’s day 92 for you bitches.
NICE FuFu you koala of pharma...I like what you have written its how you stay quit! I am proud to have you in our herd of Julions...keep it the quit bro
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Day 92. At the risk of making grand, sweeping, and ill-advised statements, chewing now is just something I don’t do. It doesn’t really even cross my mind any more. I was at a BBQ on Saturday and one of the things they had set out to eat was this leafy salad - the kind that looks like there are maple leaves and birch leaves and shit in it. It’s just something I don’t eat. Other people were eating it and liking it just fine, but I figure I’m not a fucking koala bear so I don’t eat it. And no one cares and I don’t care, and that’s kind of all there is to it. And that’s a lot like what chewing has become for me. I just don’t do it. I’m not particularly offended by the sight of it, or by seeing people partake in it. It’s just, for me, I really don’t want a chew any more than I want a mouth full of Arbor Day. I’m not cured, and I occasionally have an acute craving, but it’s generally over quicker than a MN Timberwolves playoff run. Not in a million years did I think I would be sitting here on day 92, much less thinking these thoughts and saying these things. I’ve attempted quits before and made it four days, sometimes maybe five days. Once I made it four weeks. But I always caved. And deep down, I always knew I was going to cave. It was just a matter of when. But this time is much different. It’s different because I had a distraction when I needed it (jumping on here and reading shit, or hitting up chat). It’s different because I am being held accountable this time (daily roll works somehow – still don’t really know how – typing in your name and day so a bunch of strangers will spend .001 seconds reading it – but it does). It is different because I’ve seen myself in a lot of what others have written on this site (I’ve been able to relate to a lot of what has been written – the good and the bad – and that helps somehow). It’s different because maybe I actually wanted it this time. Anyway, I’m talking like it’s over. It’s never over. As heartbreaking as that might seem to someone on day 2 or 3, that’s the way it is. It’s never over. In 8 days I’ll hit the HOF, but I’m far from done. This addiction is something I live with daily. That was something I struggled with early on – just the enormity of it. I remember thinking, “I really have to quit forever?”, and struggling with how I was feeling and wondering how I was going to do this day in and day out. Well in the past sixty days or so it’s sort of turned into, “I get to quit today? And tomorrow? And the next day?” Things are much easier now, and like I said I look forward to quitting every day. It’s a hell of an accomplishment that everyone here should be damn proud of, regardless of what day you might be on. Anyway, there’s day 92 for you bitches.
NICE FuFu you koala of pharma...I like what you have written its how you stay quit! I am proud to have you in our herd of Julions...keep it the quit bro
Proud of you. Keep your guard up and stay on them intros, you do a good job.
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Day 92. At the risk of making grand, sweeping, and ill-advised statements, chewing now is just something I don’t do. It doesn’t really even cross my mind any more. I was at a BBQ on Saturday and one of the things they had set out to eat was this leafy salad - the kind that looks like there are maple leaves and birch leaves and shit in it. It’s just something I don’t eat. Other people were eating it and liking it just fine, but I figure I’m not a fucking koala bear so I don’t eat it. And no one cares and I don’t care, and that’s kind of all there is to it. And that’s a lot like what chewing has become for me. I just don’t do it. I’m not particularly offended by the sight of it, or by seeing people partake in it. It’s just, for me, I really don’t want a chew any more than I want a mouth full of Arbor Day. I’m not cured, and I occasionally have an acute craving, but it’s generally over quicker than a MN Timberwolves playoff run. Not in a million years did I think I would be sitting here on day 92, much less thinking these thoughts and saying these things. I’ve attempted quits before and made it four days, sometimes maybe five days. Once I made it four weeks. But I always caved. And deep down, I always knew I was going to cave. It was just a matter of when. But this time is much different. It’s different because I had a distraction when I needed it (jumping on here and reading shit, or hitting up chat). It’s different because I am being held accountable this time (daily roll works somehow – still don’t really know how – typing in your name and day so a bunch of strangers will spend .001 seconds reading it – but it does). It is different because I’ve seen myself in a lot of what others have written on this site (I’ve been able to relate to a lot of what has been written – the good and the bad – and that helps somehow). It’s different because maybe I actually wanted it this time. Anyway, I’m talking like it’s over. It’s never over. As heartbreaking as that might seem to someone on day 2 or 3, that’s the way it is. It’s never over. In 8 days I’ll hit the HOF, but I’m far from done. This addiction is something I live with daily. That was something I struggled with early on – just the enormity of it. I remember thinking, “I really have to quit forever?”, and struggling with how I was feeling and wondering how I was going to do this day in and day out. Well in the past sixty days or so it’s sort of turned into, “I get to quit today? And tomorrow? And the next day?” Things are much easier now, and like I said I look forward to quitting every day. It’s a hell of an accomplishment that everyone here should be damn proud of, regardless of what day you might be on. Anyway, there’s day 92 for you bitches.
NICE FuFu you koala of pharma...I like what you have written its how you stay quit! I am proud to have you in our herd of Julions...keep it the quit bro
Proud of you. Keep your guard up and stay on them intros, you do a good job.
Love it! Keep the quit going brother!
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Fufu today the train came for you remember this is just the water stop on this run because there is no finish line...next stop 2nd floor odaat racking up the +1's! Keep your sense of humor keeps your thread fresh you fucking Koala bear of Pharma.
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Congratulations Bro! Keep going! Glad to quit with you today!
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HOF...NIIICE. Congrats.
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Congrats to a great quitter! Glad to see you signed up for the second floor! Well done!!
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Thanks ladies and gents. I don't do this by myself, of course. You are all a very large part of this accomplishment - something I literally couldn't imagine 100 days ago. Without you all, I wouldn't be quit today. THIS IS A FACT. Thanks.
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Nicely done!! 'clap'
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Nicely done!! 'clap'
^^^^^^^^^^^ Dito^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
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whoomp FuFu needs a ten gallon hat to go with his country song...and his quit.
mad quit here FuFu is so street.
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Keep up the great work
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whoomp FuFu needs a ten gallon hat to go with his country song...and his quit.
mad quit here FuFu is so street.
First time FuFu and street have been in the same sentence.
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whoomp FuFu needs a ten gallon hat to go with his country song...and his quit.
mad quit here FuFu is so street.
First time FuFu and street have been in the same sentence.
Just like my text said... Congrats and what an accomplishment. See you at 101...
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Damn nice work on 100, see you on roll in the morning.