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Title: Day One
Post by: Leave_notrace on November 03, 2015, 12:31:00 PM
I Have made the decision to quite yet again. I have been hooked on Copenhagen for nearly 10 years. Yesterday my wife found my spitter that I had accidentally left in her car. She was unaware that I was back on the chew and it hurt her deeply that I would hide this from her. It really struck home then that my filthy habit affects more than just me. I have a 1-1/2 year old son that I want to be around for, and I don't want to have to explain to him why I am spitting in a bottle or why I am always sticking this nasty smelling crap in my mouth. I have tried to quit before with limited success. The longest I have gone is a few months but usually I can only make it a week or two. I am sick and tired of being dependent on nicotine. Its amazing how it can start to rule your life. I am open to suggestions and tips for quitting. I know I am going to have to substitute something to replace the oral fixation. I have ordered some Jakes Mint Chew. Does anyone have experience with that product or other products? I am not looking forward to the mood swings from the nicotine withdrawal but I am preparing myself mentally for it. So here it goes, day one of the rest of my life.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Gunner72 on November 03, 2015, 12:42:00 PM
Go to the February 2016 quit group, post roll - your promise to yourself and everyone here to not use nicotine for 24 hours. Post again every day when you wake up.

this is number 1 on your list every day when you wake up make a promise to quit that day and post roll this should be first thing every morning

pm people for support anyone here will be glad to help I quit with you today and EDD
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: SirDerek on November 03, 2015, 12:51:00 PM
A great decision for one.

For two now comes the time to jump in. Now comes the time to look yourself in the mirror each and every day and just say No for 24 hours. Then come on here, and give your oath and promise to your group and new friends. That is right, new friends. You will find that by having others in your corner and by your side to help, that you will make it a success. You will grow to learn what your word means and the power it has for yourself and for the others.

You will find that we will be here when you need, when you are feeling your lowest. You will also find that when you are strong, that you will be here to help others the same.

So leave the past in the past, move forward each and every day to learn about the poison you used, to learn about yourself and how to handle the daily stress. And to learn how you can and will live life without the crutch, to make yourself healthier and happier with that wife and little one.

Be good, be strong, and you will do it.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Thumblewort on November 03, 2015, 01:27:00 PM
My tips are 1. Post Roll 2. learn that this is an addiction we share and not a habit 3. Learn to HATE dipping, nicotine, and everything associated with it 4. Drink water and exercise 5. Do it again tomorrow.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Gunner72 on November 03, 2015, 01:30:00 PM
Quote from: SirDerek
A great decision for one.

For two now comes the time to jump in. Now comes the time to look yourself in the mirror each and every day and just say No for 24 hours. Then come on here, and give your oath and promise to your group and new friends. That is right, new friends. You will find that by having others in your corner and by your side to help, that you will make it a success. You will grow to learn what your word means and the power it has for yourself and for the others.

You will find that we will be here when you need, when you are feeling your lowest. You will also find that when you are strong, that you will be here to help others the same.

So leave the past in the past, move forward each and every day to learn about the poison you used, to learn about yourself and how to handle the daily stress. And to learn how you can and will live life without the crutch, to make yourself healthier and happier with that wife and little one.

Be good, be strong, and you will do it.
yeah what you said lol you said that a lot better than me thanks man
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Leave_notrace on November 03, 2015, 05:33:00 PM
Thanks for your posts. I posted roll today! Day two and going strong. In the past I have usually caved at around a week to two weeks. I am dead set on being free for the long haul this time. Thanks everyone for your support. Looking forward to loosing this crutch.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: KingNothing on November 03, 2015, 05:46:00 PM
Quote from: Leave_notrace
Thanks for your posts. I posted roll today! Day two and going strong. In the past I have usually caved at around a week to two weeks. I am dead set on being free for the long haul this time. Thanks everyone for your support. Looking forward to loosing this crutch.
All you have to do is post your promise first thing in the morning, be a man of your word for the day, wake up and repeat. You will BLOW past two weeks if you follow that recipe 100% of the time. You've got this dude, stick with it.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: SirDerek on November 03, 2015, 07:09:00 PM
Quote from: KingNothing
Quote from: Leave_notrace
Thanks for your posts. I posted roll today! Day two and going strong. In the past I have usually caved at around a week to two weeks. I am dead set on being free for the long haul this time. Thanks everyone for your support. Looking forward to loosing this crutch.
All you have to do is post your promise first thing in the morning, be a man of your word for the day, wake up and repeat. You will BLOW past two weeks if you follow that recipe 100% of the time. You've got this dude, stick with it.
KingN is right....

but for now, just think about today. Get through today now that you have given your promise. When you wake, make that promise again and just worry for the day.

Just one day at a time, each and every day
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Brad in LA on November 03, 2015, 07:13:00 PM
I'm in the same boat, LNT. We have the same quit day. Let's keep it that way.

Ping me if I can be of support.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: pab1964 on November 03, 2015, 09:49:00 PM
See all the support already. Never alone and that is huge. You're an addict and so are we. So we know what you're going through and what you will go through. We care about your quit! Quit on!
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Copper12 on November 04, 2015, 08:39:00 AM
Hey brother, WELCOME! I chewed Cope Snuff, and a can a day for nearly 20 years! Today, I'm 35 days quit, and it feels damn good! The first week is a bitch, and sucks, but you have to get through it; and most importantly remember what you went through, so you don't go back to day 1 again! One Day At A Time (ODAAT) is all we do here man, and it's a lot easier to quit today, rather than quitting down the road! Lean on this website, lean on you February 2016 brothers and sisters, and remember the true reason why you wanted to quit! Quit for you and nobody else! It's time to say fuck you nic! I quit with you today!!
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Leave_notrace on November 04, 2015, 12:03:00 PM
Thanks Everyone. Day 3! I'm feeling the pressure now. I snapped at my wife this morning over something stupid, feeling agitated and a bit foggy, but I'm pushing through it. 'bang head' I'm excited to get through this nicotine detox shit and never have to experience it again. Thanks for all the support. For so long that lipper felt like my little buddy. it went from being a companion to a needy little SOB, and started to control so much of my life. I am excited kick it to the curb. After I get through this fog I can devote the energy that I used to spend on thinking about the next chew, and hiding my addiction from my wife, on more important things like my marriage and my son. This part sucks though!
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: KingNothing on November 04, 2015, 12:32:00 PM
Quote from: Leave_notrace
Thanks Everyone. Day 3! I'm feeling the pressure now. I snapped at my wife this morning over something stupid, feeling agitated and a bit foggy, but I'm pushing through it. 'bang head' I'm excited to get through this nicotine detox shit and never have to experience it again. Thanks for all the support. For so long that lipper felt like my little buddy. it went from being a companion to a needy little SOB, and started to control so much of my life. I am excited kick it to the curb. After I get through this fog I can devote the energy that I used to spend on thinking about the next chew, and hiding my addiction from my wife, on more important things like my marriage and my son. This part sucks though!
Stick with the One Day At A Time (ODAAT) philosophy and you'll get there. It may take awhile, but never lose sight of why you came here in the first place.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: SirDerek on November 04, 2015, 01:09:00 PM
Quote from: KingNothing
Quote from: Leave_notrace
Thanks Everyone. Day 3! I'm feeling the pressure now. I snapped at my wife this morning over something stupid, feeling agitated and a bit foggy, but I'm pushing through it. 'bang head' I'm excited to get through this nicotine detox shit and never have to experience it again. Thanks for all the support. For so long that lipper felt like my little buddy. it went from being a companion to a needy little SOB, and started to control so much of my life. I am excited kick it to the curb. After I get through this fog I can devote the energy that I used to spend on thinking about the next chew, and hiding my addiction from my wife, on more important things like my marriage and my son. This part sucks though!
Stick with the One Day At A Time (ODAAT) philosophy and you'll get there. It may take awhile, but never lose sight of why you came here in the first place.
Here's a tip since you mentioned that you snapped at your wife.......

GET HER IN YOUR CORNER.....

she better know that you are quitting and that your moods will go up and down for awhile (and that it is not just you being a pr*ck). tell her everything, make her your top supporter. If you hid it come clean, if she knew then really let her know that you are serious this time and make sure you involve her in everything. Tell her the stories that we have here, heck let her read some...A wife can be the biggest help as even if she cannot, she can say "get your as* online".

you will do this, I have no doubt.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: syndrome on November 04, 2015, 02:56:00 PM
Quote from: SirDerek
Quote from: KingNothing
Quote from: Leave_notrace
Thanks Everyone. Day 3! I'm feeling the pressure now. I snapped at my wife this morning over something stupid, feeling agitated and a bit foggy, but I'm pushing through it. 'bang head' I'm excited to get through this nicotine detox shit and never have to experience it again. Thanks for all the support. For so long that lipper felt like my little buddy. it went from being a companion to a needy little SOB, and started to control so much of my life. I am excited kick it to the curb. After I get through this fog I can devote the energy that I used to spend on thinking about the next chew, and hiding my addiction from my wife, on more important things like my marriage and my son. This part sucks though!
Stick with the One Day At A Time (ODAAT) philosophy and you'll get there. It may take awhile, but never lose sight of why you came here in the first place.
Here's a tip since you mentioned that you snapped at your wife.......

GET HER IN YOUR CORNER.....

she better know that you are quitting and that your moods will go up and down for awhile (and that it is not just you being a pr*ck). tell her everything, make her your top supporter. If you hid it come clean, if she knew then really let her know that you are serious this time and make sure you involve her in everything. Tell her the stories that we have here, heck let her read some...A wife can be the biggest help as even if she cannot, she can say "get your as* online".

you will do this, I have no doubt.
hell man we got a hole seckshun on spousal support somewares round here. get her readin it. let her chanel her dissapointmint in to the support you need. it will also let her no you arent gonna be a dick hole for ever. well any more then you were afore any ways.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Leave_notrace on November 04, 2015, 04:06:00 PM
Thanks guys. My wife is totally in my corner! She is pretty hurt that I hid this from her for so long, but I have come clean and plan to be honest with her from here on out. She is excited for me, and pushing for me to succeed. I sent her a link to the spousal support page. Day 3 is almost done. I even survived a trip to the dreaded gas station...
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Leave_notrace on November 05, 2015, 10:14:00 AM
Well, I'm on day 4. I'm not sure why I'm writing on this forum other than the fact that it feels good to vent, and it acts as somewhat of a journal for my quit journey. Thank you all for the support. Mentally, I am feeling much better than I have in the past when I tried to quit. I think it helps that I have let my wife know what I am going through this time, and that I post roll every day to remind myself to kill the can for one more day. I have been feeling achy and my mouth hurts a bit, but other than that the cravings haven't been as bad as I have experienced in the past. This weekend is Deer opener up here in Minnesota. It will be a real test to spend a weekend in deer camp and not chew. Luckily, non of the guys that I will be hunting with chew. I will just have to get past the association that I have built between hunting and chewing. I know I can do it though. Taking it a day at a time. I can't wait till I can say that I have made it to the 100 day mark. It's good to have a goal.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Nomore1959 on November 05, 2015, 10:45:00 AM
Using your intro as a quit journal is an excellent idea. Too soon it will be difficult to remember how bad the early days really are, and your journal immunizes you against nicotine whispering in your ear.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Leave_notrace on November 05, 2015, 07:27:00 PM
Well, I got my jakes mint chew in the mail today, and it couldn't have come sooner. I ordered the variety pack, and opened the cinimon first. It is very good. Gives a nice little tingle in the lip, and satisfies the oral craving. It is a bit loose when pinching but packs well in the lip. It feels like putting a dip in that has already been in the lip for a while. Does the trick though. I have 10 cans right now and am hoping that that will take me through the major cravings over the next few weeks or so. After I get further along in my quit, I would like to cut out th oral stuff as well. For now this is helping out a lot. I am so happy that I found this community.
Since I am using this intro post as a journal, I thought I would talk about how I started chewing. The first time I put a dip in was about 9 years ago. A buddy and I were out setting up our deer stands for the year. He offered me a pinch, and I obliged. I put the first lipper in and got a buzz that I will never forget, dizzy to the moon. I bought my first tin on the way home, and the rest is history. I chose Copenhagen because my father was a Copenhagen chewrer when I was a kid. The smell of Copenhagen brought back pleasant childhood memories. He quit the chew when I was young, but it is amazing how those childhood memories stick with you. This is one of the biggest reasons that I want to quit. I don't want my son to associate me with the smell of chew. This should be a reminder to all those whoe have kids. What we do around our children sticks with them for the rest of their lives. I am 30 now and still associate the smell of Copenhagen with my father.
I was about a tin a week adict for many years. Over the past few months that addiction turned into a tin every two to three days. I was hiding it from my wife and at work. The addiction kept growing and it ceased to be fun many years ago. I tried to quit many times but always sucame to the whispering voices in my head and went back on the shit every time. This time feels different. I am dedicated to posting roll. I want people to keep me accountable, and I have shared everything with my wife. I am so sick of feeling dependant on that shit. I am deep in the fog right now. I can't concentrate on work, and have a constant nagging feeling like I am forgetting something. I can't wait to get through the fog and continue with life. I appreciate and respect all those who have gone before me in the quitting process.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Stranger999 on November 05, 2015, 08:45:00 PM
I am an advocate of using the introduction thread as a quit journal. That is what I did here. I never wanted to forget what the first few weeks of my quit were like.

Lay it all out here as honestly as you can. Anytime you remember something that was stupid about using Copenhagen or anytime you have a victory over nicotine post about it here. If you have an awful crave or a dip dream post about it here.

Bookmark this thread and read your own words back to yourself whenever you are having a tough day, or when you want to remind yourself about the freedom that you have attained.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: worktowin on November 05, 2015, 10:48:00 PM
Omg yes!

I was zombie for a while but one of my quit bros kept his journal. Dude I love reading it. What nicotine did to us is such bs. You won't believe how much better life is without having that very very expensive and carcinogic ball and chain strapped to you.

This place works. The method works, and buying in to posting roll and keeping your word will improve your life on many levels. If I can help let me know. This is one of the best decisions of your life. Maybe the best.

W2W
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Leave_notrace on November 06, 2015, 06:30:00 AM
Well, last night was an utter failure. I didn't use nicotine, but I drank 6 beers. (Strong beers) I got drunk, and my wife is incredibly pissed at me since I was taking care of my one and a half year old son when I was drinking. She has every right to be pissed at me. I'm pissed at me! I thought I was doing so well yesterday, and all week. Only to have my dumb ass nic brain tell me to get a buzz a different way. I seriously never drink like that. Alcohol is something that I know is increadibly dangerous and I have done my best to treat it with respect. I am scared that my dumb ass adict brain is going to switch from one addiction to another. I'm so increadibly pissed off at myself right now. I feel like a failure as a father and a husband.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: KennyZ on November 06, 2015, 10:58:00 AM
Quote from: Leave_notrace
Well, last night was an utter failure. I didn't use nicotine, but I drank 6 beers. (Strong beers) I got drunk, and my wife is incredibly pissed at me since I was taking care of my one and a half year old son when I was drinking. She has every right to be pissed at me. I'm pissed at me! I thought I was doing so well yesterday, and all week. Only to have my dumb ass nic brain tell me to get a buzz a different way. I seriously never drink like that. Alcohol is something that I know is increadibly dangerous and I have done my best to treat it with respect. I am scared that my dumb ass adict brain is going to switch from one addiction to another. I'm so increadibly pissed off at myself right now. I feel like a failure as a father and a husband.
At least you see the issue and you can do something about it. There are many posts about people switching addictions or intensifying remaining addictions when quitting.

You've validated your wife's concern and now you need to work on ensuring you see the triggers moving forward. If you haven't swapped numbers with a quit brother/sister, you should. You can always reach out and have someone pull you back.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: KingNothing on November 06, 2015, 11:49:00 AM
Quote from: KennyZ
Quote from: Leave_notrace
Well, last night was an utter failure. I didn't use nicotine, but I drank 6 beers. (Strong beers) I got drunk, and my wife is incredibly pissed at me since I was taking care of my one and a half year old son when I was drinking. She has every right to be pissed at me. I'm pissed at me! I thought I was doing so well yesterday, and all week. Only to have my dumb ass nic brain tell me to get a buzz a different way. I seriously never drink like that. Alcohol is something that I know is increadibly dangerous and I have done my best to treat it with respect. I am scared that my dumb ass adict brain is going to switch from one addiction to another. I'm so increadibly pissed off at myself right now. I feel like a failure as a father and a husband.
At least you see the issue and you can do something about it. There are many posts about people switching addictions or intensifying remaining addictions when quitting.

You've validated your wife's concern and now you need to work on ensuring you see the triggers moving forward. If you haven't swapped numbers with a quit brother/sister, you should. You can always reach out and have someone pull you back.
Swap those digits. Your brain is searching for any way to get that buzz right now, but just like with nic, you choose what and how much goes into your system. There is an Alcohol Slow Down (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/1004305/1002/#new) group here on KTC, and there is some really good material in there about moderate drinking. Plans to follow, limits, etc. This may be a good place for you to start to see if it's something you want to pursue.

Your reaction is a normal reaction. Your mind and body are desperately trying to recreate that buzz because it's what you've trained it to expect. I promise this will get better. You can tell your wife that. If you need to slow down or quit the alcohol for awhile, it's a small sacrifice to make to repair the damage that you've done not only to your body and psyche, but also to your relationship with Mrs. Trace.

I have been in your shoes. Read my intro at about day 49 when my wife encouraged me to resume dipping because she wanted the KingNothing that she had grown accustomed to for many years (even if it was based on lies and deception). How messed up is that? I owned it. I owned my mistake and I owned my quit that night. I'm not quitting for her. I'm quitting for me and to make me a better person. I'm still working on that, but it's a lot easier now than it was on day 5.

Stick with the program here. Drop or slow down on alcohol at least temporarily if you need to, but most importantly, be proud of yourself for every day that you do not put that crap back in your face. Even if that's the only thing you accomplish today, that's a +1.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: worktowin on November 06, 2015, 03:36:00 PM
Quote from: KingNothing
Quote from: KennyZ
Quote from: Leave_notrace
Well, last night was an utter failure. I didn't use nicotine, but I drank 6 beers. (Strong beers) I got drunk, and my wife is incredibly pissed at me since I was taking care of my one and a half year old son when I was drinking. She has every right to be pissed at me. I'm pissed at me! I thought I was doing so well yesterday, and all week. Only to have my dumb ass nic brain tell me to get a buzz a different way. I seriously never drink like that. Alcohol is something that I know is increadibly dangerous and I have done my best to treat it with respect. I am scared that my dumb ass adict brain is going to switch from one addiction to another. I'm so increadibly pissed off at myself right now. I feel like a failure as a father and a husband.
At least you see the issue and you can do something about it. There are many posts about people switching addictions or intensifying remaining addictions when quitting.

You've validated your wife's concern and now you need to work on ensuring you see the triggers moving forward. If you haven't swapped numbers with a quit brother/sister, you should. You can always reach out and have someone pull you back.
Swap those digits. Your brain is searching for any way to get that buzz right now, but just like with nic, you choose what and how much goes into your system. There is an Alcohol Slow Down (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/1004305/1002/#new) group here on KTC, and there is some really good material in there about moderate drinking. Plans to follow, limits, etc. This may be a good place for you to start to see if it's something you want to pursue.

Your reaction is a normal reaction. Your mind and body are desperately trying to recreate that buzz because it's what you've trained it to expect. I promise this will get better. You can tell your wife that. If you need to slow down or quit the alcohol for awhile, it's a small sacrifice to make to repair the damage that you've done not only to your body and psyche, but also to your relationship with Mrs. Trace.

I have been in your shoes. Read my intro at about day 49 when my wife encouraged me to resume dipping because she wanted the KingNothing that she had grown accustomed to for many years (even if it was based on lies and deception). How messed up is that? I owned it. I owned my mistake and I owned my quit that night. I'm not quitting for her. I'm quitting for me and to make me a better person. I'm still working on that, but it's a lot easier now than it was on day 5.

Stick with the program here. Drop or slow down on alcohol at least temporarily if you need to, but most importantly, be proud of yourself for every day that you do not put that crap back in your face. Even if that's the only thing you accomplish today, that's a +1.
Addiction is really an interesting thing. It is really a personality trait. Some people can smoke a cigarette or drink a beer once a week. Others take one puff or one sip and it is on to the races - a pack turns into a carton, a bottle turns into a keg... These same people are usually the hardest workers, the most successful careers, the most fun people to be around, the best parents/spouses - I guess I'm saying... we are all in with whatever we do. Unfortunately, as we have learned, that means we have to be VERY careful with what we are all in on.

This is a good trait to have. You are either a big big winner, or a big big loser. You know what it takes to win. The choice is yours. Dude - I lost for 25 years. Now I choose to win. 1,048 days in a row. Make this a big life change for you - you'll never regret it.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Its_Got2Happen on November 06, 2015, 04:37:00 PM
Hey no trace. Welcome aboard. Your intro caught my eye. "Quitting for good" I used to throw away a tin almost every Sunday and "quit for good" no shit, I would swear it off with firm resolve, dump a can. only to be back at it by Tuesday or Wednesday. This site taught me to quit for today. Forever was just too damn big to get head around. The site also taught me how to accept help and support. Pretty soon the today's added up to something.

You can do this. It gets easier. Get your Jakes mint, jump in chat, and get some phone numbers. Texting is a HUGE help.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: worktowin on November 07, 2015, 08:59:00 PM
Dude where are you?

This is no game. Your name has to show up on roll every day. We can help you, but you have got to want to help yourself first.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: KennyZ on November 07, 2015, 10:20:00 PM
Quote from: worktowin
Dude where are you?

This is no game. Your name has to show up on roll every day. We can help you, but you have got to want to help yourself first.
He texted his roll call to me. The post was bumped.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: worktowin on November 08, 2015, 06:16:00 AM
Quote from: KennyZ
Quote from: worktowin
Dude where are you?

This is no game. Your name has to show up on roll every day. We can help you, but you have got to want to help yourself first.
He texted his roll call to me. The post was bumped.
Thanks. Sorry for the call out.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Leave_notrace on November 09, 2015, 10:28:00 AM
Sorry guys. I was up north deer hunting with bad cell and internet Access. KennyZ texted me and got me on roll. Thanks for the support. No luck hunting Just saw a couple does all weekend. It was good to sit in the woods nic free though.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: KennyZ on November 09, 2015, 11:04:00 AM
Quote from: Leave_notrace
Sorry guys. I was up north deer hunting with bad cell and internet Access. KennyZ texted me and got me on roll. Thanks for the support. No luck hunting Just saw a couple does all weekend. It was good to sit in the woods nic free though.
No problem; anytime. You can always find someone to help get you on roll as long as you plan ahead and make some contacts. Glad to see you still posting +1s.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: syndrome on November 10, 2015, 08:16:00 AM
Quote from: Leave_notrace
Sorry guys. I was up north deer hunting with bad cell and internet Access. KennyZ texted me and got me on roll. Thanks for the support. No luck hunting Just saw a couple does all weekend. It was good to sit in the woods nic free though.
man up north sounds like mishigin talk. and i no its bow seeson. hell man i think haff a the peepel in mishigin think they will melt if they go south.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: lwildma2 on November 10, 2015, 11:43:00 AM
Leave,

Read your intro and it brought back memories of my quit. Keep posting entries. They are great to look back at when the dark times come. Always a good reminder of why you never want to post day 1 again.

I am proud to quit with you today
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Leave_notrace on November 10, 2015, 02:06:00 PM
Hey all. I though I would give a little update as to how the quite is going. The start of week two is feeling a lot better than week one. I feel the fog starting to lift and I am not feeling the physical cravings like I was in week one. I am pounding lifesavers mints, gum, and coffee to keep my oral fixation at bay. I have Jake's mint chew that I am using here and there as well when the desire to actually have that feeling in the lip is overwhelming. I am pleasantly surprised that I am not using the mink chew nearly as much as I thought I would be. I hope to stop using it completely in a few weeks. I want to rid myself of the whole idea of needing a can, of any type, to function. I have also decided that I am going to give up alcohol for the first month of my quit, and ween it back in, in moderation, after that. The other day really scared me, (read my previous post) and I want to be sure that I don't replace one addiction with another. I really appreciate the support that you all are giving me. This is the first time that I have had a feeling of excitement rather than dread associated with quitting. One day at a time I'm going to kill this addiction.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: KingNothing on November 10, 2015, 02:07:00 PM
Quote from: Leave_notrace
Hey all. I though I would give a little update as to how the quite is going. The start of week two is feeling a lot better than week one. I feel the fog starting to lift and I am not feeling the physical cravings like I was in week one. I am pounding lifesavers mints, gum, and coffee to keep my oral fixation at bay. I have Jake's mint chew that I am using here and there as well when the desire to actually have that feeling in the lip is overwhelming. I am pleasantly surprised that I am not using the mink chew nearly as much as I thought I would be. I hope to stop using it completely in a few weeks. I want to rid myself of the whole idea of needing a can, of any type, to function. I have also decided that I am going to give up alcohol for the first month of my quit, and ween it back in, in moderation, after that. The other day really scared me, (read my previous post) and I want to be sure that I don't replace one addiction with another. I really appreciate the support that you all are giving me. This is the first time that I have had a feeling of excitement rather than dread associated with quitting. One day at a time I'm going to kill this addiction.
Keep it up my man, and nicely done on the introspective work. It gets better, ODAAT is the ticket.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Leave_notrace on November 12, 2015, 02:26:00 PM
Well, I am on day 11 and I am having some pretty bad cravings. It is the weirdest thing, I have this antsy feeling. I feel like I am forgetting something, or am missing something. My brain is telling me that I can make myself feel better by just driving to the gas station and buying myself a tin. I HAVE COME TOO FAR ALREADY FOR THAT! I keep telling myself that I never want to go through this again. I need to keep repeating this to myself over and over again. Its amazing how conniving the nicotine brain is, and the lies that it tells. I made a promise to everyone this morning when I posted roll, and I intend to keep that promise. I just need to vent about the shit that my head is going through. Stay strong everyone. I know it will only get better. 'aqua'
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: KingNothing on November 12, 2015, 02:37:00 PM
Quote from: Leave_notrace
Well, I am on day 11 and I am having some pretty bad cravings. It is the weirdest thing, I have this antsy feeling. I feel like I am forgetting something, or am missing something. My brain is telling me that I can make myself feel better by just driving to the gas station and buying myself a tin. I HAVE COME TOO FAR ALREADY FOR THAT! I keep telling myself that I never want to go through this again. I need to keep repeating this to myself over and over again. Its amazing how conniving the nicotine brain is, and the lies that it tells. I made a promise to everyone this morning when I posted roll, and I intend to keep that promise. I just need to vent about the shit that my head is going through. Stay strong everyone. I know it will only get better. 'aqua'
It will get better LNT. What you're describing was just a source of conversation in December the last couple days. Here is the link:
Dec 15 (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=9422529&t=11293904). Don't feel like you can't branch out of your quit group. There is so much good discussion that happens in the pre-HOF groups every day. It should help when you feel like you're going to explode with anxiety or the craves.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Ginet on November 12, 2015, 07:54:00 PM
Quote from: KingNothing
Quote from: Leave_notrace
Well, I am on day 11 and I am having some pretty bad cravings. It is the weirdest thing, I have this antsy feeling. I feel like I am forgetting something, or am missing something. My brain is telling me that I can make myself feel better by just driving to the gas station and buying myself a tin. I HAVE COME TOO FAR ALREADY FOR THAT! I keep telling myself that I never want to go through this again. I need to keep repeating this to myself over and over again. Its amazing how conniving the nicotine brain is, and the lies that it tells. I made a promise to everyone this morning when I posted roll, and I intend to keep that promise. I just need to vent about the shit that my head is going through. Stay strong everyone. I know it will only get better. 'aqua'
It will get better LNT. What you're describing was just a source of conversation in December the last couple days. Here is the link:
Dec 15 (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=9422529&t=11293904). Don't feel like you can't branch out of your quit group. There is so much good discussion that happens in the pre-HOF groups every day. It should help when you feel like you're going to explode with anxiety or the craves.
11 days is Kick Ass! Yes, you have come too far to go back. Nicotine is evil and does not play nicely with others. It definitely will use every trick possible to get you back snapping that can and grabbing a pinch. I promise you this. It does get better. It truly does. There are even days when you don't even think about nicotine or have a single crave! It's true! There isn't a magic number or day count but it DOES happen! Remember this, you cannot ever get to those better days if you cannot finish today. So, like you said, you made your promise, so just carry on. It's tough and actually hard at times, but remaining quit is very simple. Just keep that shit out of your mouth!
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: pab1964 on November 12, 2015, 08:17:00 PM
Quote from: Ginet
Quote from: KingNothing
Quote from: Leave_notrace
Well, I am on day 11 and I am having some pretty bad cravings. It is the weirdest thing, I have this antsy feeling. I feel like I am forgetting something, or am missing something. My brain is telling me that I can make myself feel better by just driving to the gas station and buying myself a tin. I HAVE COME TOO FAR ALREADY FOR THAT! I keep telling myself that I never want to go through this again. I need to keep repeating this to myself over and over again. Its amazing how conniving the nicotine brain is, and the lies that it tells. I made a promise to everyone this morning when I posted roll, and I intend to keep that promise. I just need to vent about the shit that my head is going through. Stay strong everyone. I know it will only get better. 'aqua'
It will get better LNT. What you're describing was just a source of conversation in December the last couple days. Here is the link:
Dec 15 (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=9422529&t=11293904). Don't feel like you can't branch out of your quit group. There is so much good discussion that happens in the pre-HOF groups every day. It should help when you feel like you're going to explode with anxiety or the craves.
11 days is Kick Ass! Yes, you have come too far to go back. Nicotine is evil and does not play nicely with others. It definitely will use every trick possible to get you back snapping that can and grabbing a pinch. I promise you this. It does get better. It truly does. There are even days when you don't even think about nicotine or have a single crave! It's true! There isn't a magic number or day count but it DOES happen! Remember this, you cannot ever get to those better days if you cannot finish today. So, like you said, you made your promise, so just carry on. It's tough and actually hard at times, but remaining quit is very simple. Just keep that shit out of your mouth!
My friend we call that fog. It's some weird, freaky shit. I hated it more than the cravings. Hang in there, like you've heard every since you got here ,it gets so damn much better and it's worth every damn bit of the suck! For 38 year's I wasted so much of my life on that shit and I can promise you right now , had I not found this place I would have died from cancer , heartattack or died dipping. What I'm saying this shit is very addictive and 90 percent of people who try to quit on there own are failures! I hate what it stands for, the people that have been influenced to dip because of me and all the damage it done to my body. So go with whatever it deals you today, just get through it, tomorrow is a new day! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend! Quit on!
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: worktowin on November 12, 2015, 08:27:00 PM
Quote from: pab1964
Quote from: Ginet
Quote from: KingNothing
Quote from: Leave_notrace
Well, I am on day 11 and I am having some pretty bad cravings. It is the weirdest thing, I have this antsy feeling. I feel like I am forgetting something, or am missing something. My brain is telling me that I can make myself feel better by just driving to the gas station and buying myself a tin. I HAVE COME TOO FAR ALREADY FOR THAT! I keep telling myself that I never want to go through this again. I need to keep repeating this to myself over and over again. Its amazing how conniving the nicotine brain is, and the lies that it tells. I made a promise to everyone this morning when I posted roll, and I intend to keep that promise. I just need to vent about the shit that my head is going through. Stay strong everyone. I know it will only get better. 'aqua'
It will get better LNT. What you're describing was just a source of conversation in December the last couple days. Here is the link:
Dec 15 (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=9422529&t=11293904). Don't feel like you can't branch out of your quit group. There is so much good discussion that happens in the pre-HOF groups every day. It should help when you feel like you're going to explode with anxiety or the craves.
11 days is Kick Ass! Yes, you have come too far to go back. Nicotine is evil and does not play nicely with others. It definitely will use every trick possible to get you back snapping that can and grabbing a pinch. I promise you this. It does get better. It truly does. There are even days when you don't even think about nicotine or have a single crave! It's true! There isn't a magic number or day count but it DOES happen! Remember this, you cannot ever get to those better days if you cannot finish today. So, like you said, you made your promise, so just carry on. It's tough and actually hard at times, but remaining quit is very simple. Just keep that shit out of your mouth!
My friend we call that fog. It's some weird, freaky shit. I hated it more than the cravings. Hang in there, like you've heard every since you got here ,it gets so damn much better and it's worth every damn bit of the suck! For 38 year's I wasted so much of my life on that shit and I can promise you right now , had I not found this place I would have died from cancer , heartattack or died dipping. What I'm saying this shit is very addictive and 90 percent of people who try to quit on there own are failures! I hate what it stands for, the people that have been influenced to dip because of me and all the damage it done to my body. So go with whatever it deals you today, just get through it, tomorrow is a new day! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend! Quit on!
When the fog lifts you won't believe how clear the sky is. And it will lift.

Post each day. Keep your word. Freedom is ahead.

you are doing great.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Leave_notrace on November 13, 2015, 12:45:00 PM
Quote from: pab1964
Quote from: Ginet
Quote from: KingNothing
Quote from: Leave_notrace
Well, I am on day 11 and I am having some pretty bad cravings. It is the weirdest thing, I have this antsy feeling. I feel like I am forgetting something, or am missing something. My brain is telling me that I can make myself feel better by just driving to the gas station and buying myself a tin. I HAVE COME TOO FAR ALREADY FOR THAT! I keep telling myself that I never want to go through this again. I need to keep repeating this to myself over and over again. Its amazing how conniving the nicotine brain is, and the lies that it tells. I made a promise to everyone this morning when I posted roll, and I intend to keep that promise. I just need to vent about the shit that my head is going through. Stay strong everyone. I know it will only get better. 'aqua'
It will get better LNT. What you're describing was just a source of conversation in December the last couple days. Here is the link:
Dec 15 (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=9422529&t=11293904). Don't feel like you can't branch out of your quit group. There is so much good discussion that happens in the pre-HOF groups every day. It should help when you feel like you're going to explode with anxiety or the craves.
11 days is Kick Ass! Yes, you have come too far to go back. Nicotine is evil and does not play nicely with others. It definitely will use every trick possible to get you back snapping that can and grabbing a pinch. I promise you this. It does get better. It truly does. There are even days when you don't even think about nicotine or have a single crave! It's true! There isn't a magic number or day count but it DOES happen! Remember this, you cannot ever get to those better days if you cannot finish today. So, like you said, you made your promise, so just carry on. It's tough and actually hard at times, but remaining quit is very simple. Just keep that shit out of your mouth!
My friend we call that fog. It's some weird, freaky shit. I hated it more than the cravings. Hang in there, like you've heard every since you got here ,it gets so damn much better and it's worth every damn bit of the suck! For 38 year's I wasted so much of my life on that shit and I can promise you right now , had I not found this place I would have died from cancer , heartattack or died dipping. What I'm saying this shit is very addictive and 90 percent of people who try to quit on there own are failures! I hate what it stands for, the people that have been influenced to dip because of me and all the damage it done to my body. So go with whatever it deals you today, just get through it, tomorrow is a new day! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend! Quit on!
When the fog lifts you won't believe how clear the sky is. And it will lift.

Post each day. Keep your word. Freedom is ahead.

you are doing great.

_________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Thanks guys. yesterday was tough but I got through it. It comes in waves. It helps to think about not only getting through each 24 hours, but to think about getting through each specific crave. It's a minute by minute thing. I will go for a few hours without thinking about chewing once. Then all of a sudden I am flooded with the desire to cave, or just the feeling like something is off. The times that I am not riding one of those crave waves are great. I feel more connected to life than I have in years. I was using nicotine a a crutch. It was, and is, preventing me from experiencing life fully. I am also also happy to have given up alcohol completely for the time being. I don't feel any cravings for alcohol, but I can see how I would use it from time to time to medicate myself and buffer myself from stress. After a tough day at work nothing sounded better than a cold beer or 4... I am trying to replace that craving with a good workout, or just a relaxing walk outside. I want to grab life by the balls and take control of my existence, rather than using chemicals as a crutch to get by. Keep up the fight everyone!
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Leave_notrace on November 24, 2015, 01:30:00 PM
Well, I am on day 23 and I feel great! The fog hits me less and less and the cravings are less frequent and weaker. I am amazed how much it helps to post roll and make that promise to myself and to you-all every morning.
I will be seeing my uncle over the Thanksgiving weekend. He has been chewing for around 40 years. He has tried many times, like the rest of us, to give it up. I want to tell him about this site and let him know how it has worked for me so far. Any tips on how to bring it up with him?
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: KingNothing on November 24, 2015, 02:15:00 PM
Quote from: Leave_notrace
Well, I am on day 23 and I feel great! The fog hits me less and less and the cravings are less frequent and weaker. I am amazed how much it helps to post roll and make that promise to myself and to you-all every morning.
I will be seeing my uncle over the Thanksgiving weekend. He has been chewing for around 40 years. He has tried many times, like the rest of us, to give it up. I want to tell him about this site and let him know how it has worked for me so far. Any tips on how to bring it up with him?
Just be honest with him without trying to convince him. By that I mean, tell him why you quit, and the benefits you've seen from it in the first 23 days. You know as well as I do that the last thing a quitter wants to hear is somebody trying to tell them why quitting is the right thing to do. The only way somebody quits instead of stops is if he/she wants it for him/herself. No guilt trips nor logic will work in the long run.

Tell him about your motivations, your struggles, and what you hope to gain out of it. Only when he begins to relate to that in his own life will he be able to commit to it. Good luck with that and no matter what, stay quit this weekend LNT.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Leave_notrace on November 25, 2015, 05:11:00 PM
This is to anyone who is creeping around this site wondering if they should bite the bullet and quit. I am on day 24 and feeling better than I have in almost a decade. I tried so many times to quit by myself and failed every time. The nicotine bitch is stronger than you are. You will fail every time if you try to fight this on your own. Post roll and start talking to people on this site. There is an army of people here who know what you are going through,and are pulling for you be rid of the chains of nicotine. Let your family and friends know what you are going through. Get as many people in your corner as you possibly can. Take control of your life, grow a pair and QUIT! You wont regret it. The feeling of freedom is amazing, and I know it's only going to get better the longer I am quit. The first couple of weeks are really tough, but that is what this community is here for. Use this forum as an outlet to vent your frustrations. Post roll everyday and make a promise to the rest of us that you are going to quit for the next 24 hours. Its that easy. Don't worry about tomorrow, next week or next month. Worry about today, and kick its ass.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Rawls on November 27, 2015, 10:35:00 AM
Quote from: Leave_notrace
This is to anyone who is creeping around this site wondering if they should bite the bullet and quit. I am on day 24 and feeling better than I have in almost a decade. I tried so many times to quit by myself and failed every time. The nicotine bitch is stronger than you are. You will fail every time if you try to fight this on your own. Post roll and start talking to people on this site. There is an army of people here who know what you are going through,and are pulling for you be rid of the chains of nicotine. Let your family and friends know what you are going through. Get as many people in your corner as you possibly can. Take control of your life, grow a pair and QUIT! You wont regret it. The feeling of freedom is amazing, and I know it's only going to get better the longer I am quit. The first couple of weeks are really tough, but that is what this community is here for. Use this forum as an outlet to vent your frustrations. Post roll everyday and make a promise to the rest of us that you are going to quit for the next 24 hours. Its that easy. Don't worry about tomorrow, next week or next month. Worry about today, and kick its ass.
Well said.....
Leace_notrace is also at 100% on posting roll.
Well done brother.
Notrace of caving here!
I quit with you.
Rawls 375
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: marine_2002 on November 27, 2015, 02:01:00 PM
Quote from: Rawls
Quote from: Leave_notrace
This is to anyone who is creeping around this site wondering if they should bite the bullet and quit. I am on day 24 and feeling better than I have in almost a decade. I tried so many times to quit by myself and failed every time. The nicotine bitch is stronger than you are. You will fail every time if you try to fight this on your own. Post roll and start talking to people on this site. There is an army of people here who know what you are going through,and are pulling for you be rid of the chains of nicotine. Let your family and friends know what you are going through. Get as many people in your corner as you possibly can. Take control of your life, grow a pair and QUIT! You wont regret it. The feeling of freedom is amazing, and I know it's only going to get better the longer I am quit. The first couple of weeks are really tough, but that is what this community is here for. Use this forum as an outlet to vent your frustrations. Post roll everyday and make a promise to the rest of us that you are going to quit for the next 24 hours. Its that easy. Don't worry about tomorrow, next week or next month. Worry about today, and kick its ass.
Well said.....
Leace_notrace is also at 100% on posting roll.
Well done brother.
Notrace of caving here!
I quit with you.
Rawls 375
Day 24 HELLLL YEA...I've seen up there on our roll call. I'm day 12 and feeling damn good not only that I'm nic free but that I made a promise to myself and kept it. I was packing the can for nearly 12 years and it was a hard habit to kick...but I did it. Stay quit keep kickin nic.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Leave_notrace on November 29, 2015, 08:59:00 AM
I didn't have a chance to talk to my uncle about this site over thanksgiving. There wasn't an opportunity to do it when other family members were not around. I'm bummed. I really want to see home be free of this slave master. I might write him an email. I just hope I can communicate without sounding preachy or judgmental. I guess all I can do is plant the seed
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: AvianO on November 29, 2015, 04:26:00 PM
Planting a seed is better than saying "Hey I can wait til {insert next time here}.
Someone planted this seed for me probably six months ago.
I wasn't quite there now I an on my eighth day 1.
Plant that seed and when he is ready we will all quit with him.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: DWEIRICK on December 02, 2015, 07:57:00 AM
Nice job on that day 30! Keep doing what your doing man it gets easier trust me. Make sure you get some digit's (phone numbers) if you need mine send me a PM. I'll take all the Accountability I can get!!!
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Thumblewort on December 02, 2015, 08:40:00 AM
Quote from: marine_2002
Quote from: Rawls
Quote from: Leave_notrace
This is to anyone who is creeping around this site wondering if they should bite the bullet and quit. I am on day 24 and feeling better than I have in almost a decade. I tried so many times to quit by myself and failed every time. The nicotine bitch is stronger than you are. You will fail every time if you try to fight this on your own. Post roll and start talking to people on this site. There is an army of people here who know what you are going through,and are pulling for you be rid of the chains of nicotine. Let your family and friends know what you are going through. Get as many people in your corner as you possibly can. Take control of your life, grow a pair and QUIT! You wont regret it. The feeling of freedom is amazing, and I know it's only going to get better the longer I am quit. The first couple of weeks are really tough, but that is what this community is here for. Use this forum as an outlet to vent your frustrations. Post roll everyday and make a promise to the rest of us that you are going to quit for the next 24 hours. Its that easy. Don't worry about tomorrow, next week or next month. Worry about today, and kick its ass.
Well said.....
Leace_notrace is also at 100% on posting roll.
Well done brother.
Notrace of caving here!
I quit with you.
Rawls 375
Day 24 HELLLL YEA...I've seen up there on our roll call. I'm day 12 and feeling damn good not only that I'm nic free but that I made a promise to myself and kept it. I was packing the can for nearly 12 years and it was a hard habit to kick...but I did it. Stay quit keep kickin nic.
Well done, I quit with you today!
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: pab1964 on December 02, 2015, 09:15:00 AM
Quote from: Thumblewort
Quote from: marine_2002
Quote from: Rawls
Quote from: Leave_notrace
This is to anyone who is creeping around this site wondering if they should bite the bullet and quit. I am on day 24 and feeling better than I have in almost a decade. I tried so many times to quit by myself and failed every time. The nicotine bitch is stronger than you are. You will fail every time if you try to fight this on your own. Post roll and start talking to people on this site. There is an army of people here who know what you are going through,and are pulling for you be rid of the chains of nicotine. Let your family and friends know what you are going through. Get as many people in your corner as you possibly can. Take control of your life, grow a pair and QUIT! You wont regret it. The feeling of freedom is amazing, and I know it's only going to get better the longer I am quit. The first couple of weeks are really tough, but that is what this community is here for. Use this forum as an outlet to vent your frustrations. Post roll everyday and make a promise to the rest of us that you are going to quit for the next 24 hours. Its that easy. Don't worry about tomorrow, next week or next month. Worry about today, and kick its ass.
Well said.....
Leace_notrace is also at 100% on posting roll.
Well done brother.
Notrace of caving here!
I quit with you.
Rawls 375
Day 24 HELLLL YEA...I've seen up there on our roll call. I'm day 12 and feeling damn good not only that I'm nic free but that I made a promise to myself and kept it. I was packing the can for nearly 12 years and it was a hard habit to kick...but I did it. Stay quit keep kickin nic.
Well done, I quit with you today!
Great job! Odaat! We can do this together! Quit on my friend
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Leave_notrace on December 29, 2015, 10:11:00 AM
Update-

I am on Day 58. I never would have been able to make it this far without this site, and posting roll. The quit has gone in waves so far. The beginning was, as to be expected, very rough. Soon after I got into a rhythm, and it didn't seem so hard. In fact, dip sounded disgusting to me. Up until about day 50 or so. Now the cravings are coming back stronger, and the whispering voice is back in my head. It keeps trying to tell me things like, "you made it this far, why not enjoy yourself just this once. You quit before, you can just do it again. One tin won't hurt. It will feel so good to get that buzz one more time. Don't be such a prude. You only live once, why not enjoy yourself." I know these are all lies and the nicotine is just trying to wrap it talons around me again, and drag me back down to the dark dungeon that it creates. I have made a commitment to my self and to my brothers here at KTC, and I will keep my promise! I thought I had it licked for a while. It turns out that the voice was just waiting for me become complacent. Be ware brothers, just when you think you are in control, the whisper will come out from its hiding and tempt you again. I am worried that once I hit day 100 I will let my guard down. I will have to be vigilant to not let that happen.
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Rawls on December 31, 2015, 12:50:00 AM
Quote from: Leave_notrace
Update-

I am on Day 58. I never would have been able to make it this far without this site, and posting roll. The quit has gone in waves so far. The beginning was, as to be expected, very rough. Soon after I got into a rhythm, and it didn't seem so hard. In fact, dip sounded disgusting to me. Up until about day 50 or so. Now the cravings are coming back stronger, and the whispering voice is back in my head. It keeps trying to tell me things like, "you made it this far, why not enjoy yourself just this once. You quit before, you can just do it again. One tin won't hurt. It will feel so good to get that buzz one more time. Don't be such a prude. You only live once, why not enjoy yourself." I know these are all lies and the nicotine is just trying to wrap it talons around me again, and drag me back down to the dark dungeon that it creates. I have made a commitment to my self and to my brothers here at KTC, and I will keep my promise! I thought I had it licked for a while. It turns out that the voice was just waiting for me become complacent. Be ware brothers, just when you think you are in control, the whisper will come out from its hiding and tempt you again. I am worried that once I hit day 100 I will let my guard down. I will have to be vigilant to not let that happen.
QUITTING.... leave_notrace is not for most.
Many follow the voices of the flesh.
The flesh has no understanding of what is best.
You have quit so far, because of your mind and wisdom of the truth that burnes inside your soul.
Im not preaching..... BUT
Lets bury our past.... We all started this BS$! Without understanding the effects.
We all did it and didn't like it at first.
We all hate the way it owned us.
It never helped you or me.
It is a lie.
We will never go back.....
Let's find other things to do.
Let's find other things to talk about.
If we talk about nicotine...Let's be helping someone else quit.
You are a BA here and growing stronger everyday.
Over is Over.... Tell the voice to leave!
Your over will be stronger today!
It gets easier every minute, hour, and day.
Dont be scared of the voice.... It will not win! You are quit.
I Quit with you today.
Rawls 409
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Leave_notrace on January 14, 2016, 02:21:00 PM
Over lunch today I decided to read through my my previous posts. Wow! life has changed in the past 74 days! When reading through my previous posts it feels as if I am reading the words of someone else. I can't believe that I let nicotine rule my life for so long. I never want to go through that experience again. I hate the person that nicotine created, and i hate the person that the fog created even more! I am 3/4 of the way to the HOF and I am feeling in control of my life. At this point in my quit the hardest thing to deal with is the whispering voice that creeps into my head for that split second when I pull into the gas station, or get stressed out, or am bored... etc. It's pretty easy to shut it down, but I realize that I need to stay vigilant in shutting the voice up before I start listening to it. The recurring thing that keeps popping into my head is "you can just buy a can and take one pinch, just get that buzz one more time and throw the can away." I know that this is a total lie! This is how and why I would fail at all of my other quit attempts in the past. I would listen to the voice, thinking that I could just get the buzz one more time, and then continue with my quit. NOT TRUE! Every time nicotine would grab me and throw my back into the clutches of addiction. ONE PINCH IS NEVER ONE PINCH! Stay strong brothers! I quit with you today!
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Leave_notrace on February 09, 2016, 02:07:00 PM
Today I hit the 100 day mark. When I started, this day felt so far away, and almost unattainable. This is an amazing community, and I couldn't have made it this far without the accountability and support. I want to thank all the people that helped me get this far. Especially Kenny Z, he was a big help to me at the beginning of my quit. Nate2 has also been there for me, and kept me accountable. I am technically in the HOF today, but I know that I will always be an addict, and I need to keep my guard up at all times. I know that one laps in judgment or slip up will put me all the way back to day 1. I never want to have to go through this shit again! the Fog is real. Evan at 100 days I still get the craving for another dip. It is a lot easier push through cravings these days, but the feeling is still there. Stay strong and quit on brothers!
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Swink on February 09, 2016, 03:44:00 PM
Quote from: Leave_notrace
"you made it this far, why not enjoy yourself just this once. You quit before, you can just do it again. One tin won't hurt. It will feel so good to get that buzz one more time. Don't be such a prude. You only live once, why not enjoy yourself."
Its super interesting to read this. This is the precise reason I joined the roll call today, day 10 quit, because I am not *as* concerned about my resolve now - but what about on day 30 or 40 or 50... I've been down the path before where I would quit for a day or two or seven and think to myself - "hey, I obviously don't need this so you're ok to keep doing it."

So I quit with you.

Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Stranger999 on February 09, 2016, 08:54:00 PM
Quote from: Swink
Quote from: Leave_notrace
"you made it this far, why not enjoy yourself just this once. You quit before, you can just do it again. One tin won't hurt. It will feel so good to get that buzz one more time. Don't be such a prude. You only live once, why not enjoy yourself."
Its super interesting to read this. This is the precise reason I joined the roll call today, day 10 quit, because I am not *as* concerned about my resolve now - but what about on day 30 or 40 or 50... I've been down the path before where I would quit for a day or two or seven and think to myself - "hey, I obviously don't need this so you're ok to keep doing it."

So I quit with you.

Congratulations on reaching the HOF Leave_notrace! B)B

And Swink, keep reading everything that you can on this site. There is a wealth of quit knowledge here. In a way Day 10 is more bad ass than Day 100... :)
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: Rawls on February 10, 2016, 12:59:00 AM
Quote from: Stranger999
Quote from: Swink
Quote from: Leave_notrace
"you made it this far, why not enjoy yourself just this once. You quit before, you can just do it again. One tin won't hurt. It will feel so good to get that buzz one more time. Don't be such a prude. You only live once, why not enjoy yourself."
Its super interesting to read this. This is the precise reason I joined the roll call today, day 10 quit, because I am not *as* concerned about my resolve now - but what about on day 30 or 40 or 50... I've been down the path before where I would quit for a day or two or seven and think to myself - "hey, I obviously don't need this so you're ok to keep doing it."

So I quit with you.

Congratulations on reaching the HOF Leave_notrace! B)B

And Swink, keep reading everything that you can on this site. There is a wealth of quit knowledge here. In a way Day 10 is more bad ass than Day 100... :)
Congrats on 100....LNT
Stay under Kenny's wing.
He is one BA quitter.
And so are you!
ODAAT.
Rawls 449
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: ChickDip on February 10, 2016, 01:40:00 AM
Quote from: Rawls
Quote from: Stranger999
Quote from: Swink
Quote from: Leave_notrace
"you made it this far, why not enjoy yourself just this once. You quit before, you can just do it again. One tin won't hurt. It will feel so good to get that buzz one more time. Don't be such a prude. You only live once, why not enjoy yourself."
Its super interesting to read this. This is the precise reason I joined the roll call today, day 10 quit, because I am not *as* concerned about my resolve now - but what about on day 30 or 40 or 50... I've been down the path before where I would quit for a day or two or seven and think to myself - "hey, I obviously don't need this so you're ok to keep doing it."

So I quit with you.

Congratulations on reaching the HOF Leave_notrace! B)B

And Swink, keep reading everything that you can on this site. There is a wealth of quit knowledge here. In a way Day 10 is more bad ass than Day 100... :)
Congrats on 100....LNT
Stay under Kenny's wing.
He is one BA quitter.
And so are you!
ODAAT.
Rawls 449
Congrats on your 100 days!!
Title: Re: Day One
Post by: KennyZ on February 16, 2016, 09:22:00 AM
Belated congratulations!! You have the tools to stay quit. Some days will be easy and others difficult. Keep executing the plan and you can't go wrong. You got this.