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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: ajax on April 04, 2009, 09:58:00 PM
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First of all thanks for the site, I am getting a lot out of it.
I started around 20 years ago. Along the way I have been able to go days and sometimes weeks. Once I lived in Japan for about a year and they do not sell chew in Japan. This gave me great confidence that I was in control. Nope I am not the nic was. The end of last year I made it 4 months, just trying by myself - that sucks and did not work. I am certain I am an addict and will not be able to touch the stuff again or I could keep in denial skipping around thinking that I can control this stuff or I could die. The only road left is to quit one day at time.
I think with support from you, I will have a much better chance breaking free from slavery. I truly hate the stuff and I feel very sad that some substance has actually taken over such that I have to actively min by min say NO.
ajax
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I feel very sad that some substance has actually taken over such that I have to actively min by min say NO.
Me too. Sad. Seriously, and I have decided to do something about it. Like you have. I quit. And I like how it feels. Happy. Not anxious about quitting. not sad about knowing it will kill me. Just 'good.' Feels good.
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I was actually a bit depressed in losing my can of Cope. And SAD that I was depressed about losing it...9 days later and I'm strengthening my resolve to quit. I don't want to go through those first few days again...I'm like you Ajax, I can't mess with the stuff at all, not even a little. A day at a time!
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First of all thanks for the site, I am getting a lot out of it.
I started around 20 years ago. Along the way I have been able to go days and sometimes weeks. Once I lived in Japan for about a year and they do not sell chew in Japan. This gave me great confidence that I was in control. Nope I am not the nic was. The end of last year I made it 4 months, just trying by myself - that sucks and did not work. I am certain I am an addict and will not be able to touch the stuff again or I could keep in denial skipping around thinking that I can control this stuff or I could die. The only road left is to quit one day at time.
I think with support from you, I will have a much better chance breaking free from slavery. I truly hate the stuff and I feel very sad that some substance has actually taken over such that I have to actively min by min say NO.
ajax
You can do this.
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I was actually a bit depressed in losing my can of Cope. And SAD that I was depressed about losing it...9 days later and I'm strengthening my resolve to quit. I don't want to go through those first few days again...I'm like you Ajax, I can't mess with the stuff at all, not even a little. A day at a time!
Im with you Husky, it depressed me to say goodbye, and depressed me that I was depressed.
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I was actually a bit depressed in losing my can of Cope. And SAD that I was depressed about losing it...9 days later and I'm strengthening my resolve to quit. I don't want to go through those first few days again...I'm like you Ajax, I can't mess with the stuff at all, not even a little. A day at a time!
Im with you Husky, it depressed me to say goodbye, and depressed me that I was depressed.
Everytime I used to quit I'd get depressed like I was loosing my best friend. Not this time though. Sick of that cunt.
Let's stay strong fellas, we don't need friends like that.
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I was actually a bit depressed in losing my can of Cope. And SAD that I was depressed about losing it...9 days later and I'm strengthening my resolve to quit. I don't want to go through those first few days again...I'm like you Ajax, I can't mess with the stuff at all, not even a little. A day at a time!
Im with you Husky, it depressed me to say goodbye, and depressed me that I was depressed.
Everytime I used to quit I'd get depressed like I was loosing my best friend. Not this time though. Sick of that cunt.
Let's stay strong fellas, we don't need friends like that.
Amen to that FtheKodiak - stay strong!
Lady Nic fooled us for a long time by pretending to be our friend, then when we realized what she's been doing to us all this time, we kicked her ass to the curb. Friends don't do what she did to us.
Way to realize the truth ajax, you've made a wise decision. Congrats. to you - Stay Quit!
MF
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Very good to see I'm not alone in my obsession with Copenhagen....we all "get it" here...understand the craves, the feel of a fresh out of the fridge can, the initial "hit" of a fatty.....BUT we all understand that shit is gonna kill us, take away years from our lives, rob of us time with our kids. I used to love Cope, I really did, a few days around you guys, and some serious thought, has got me to thinking what an expensive, sick, thief of life and money that shit is...I HATE COPENHAGEN! I am not caving! I'm thankful you guys are joining me on my last QUIT!