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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Exgrizzly on August 31, 2010, 12:12:00 AM
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Hey there, I am 18, and a current student at Auburn University. I've been dipping for almost three years, but I would say I've only had an addiction for the past year. I usually put in 2 grizzly pouches 4 or 5 times a day(about half a can a day). So I went over to the gas station tonight and was turned down due to the fact that I am 18 and not 19. I was not aware that you must be 19 in AL to buy tobacco. So I figured if I am going to tease myself by getting a can every now and then by getting lucky and not getting asked for my ID, then I might as well quit. I have gone a few days at a time during the past year and it has been aweful. I am an ass, I can't concentrate, and I get extremely bad headaches. But the worst part of all is not having that medicine to use whenever I am stressed or angry. It's been about 7 hours so far and i'm already thinking about it.
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Hey exgrizzly,
I'm only 3 days in on my quit. I'm 40 years old and dipped since I was 13.
Your an 18 year old who is smart enough to realize that the shit you put in your mouth is gonna fuck you up. If your getting those types of effects from not doing it then you know it's wrong.
Your gonna here from people with a shitload of experience on this site....listen to them.
Brian
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man i'm gonna tell you rite now this aint the attatude of a quitterer. this is a path a leest resistince. you don't wanna quit. it's just eezyer rite now.
So I figured if I am going to tease myself by getting a can every now and then by getting lucky and not getting asked for my ID, then I might as well quit.
this tells me you dont reely wanna quit. it tells me as soon as you got a buddy whose willin to by the shit for you until your 19 you'd be just as happy to pack that shit in your face as you were last month. and more happy than bein quit.But the worst part of all is not having that medicine to use whenever I am stressed or angry.
and this says your willin to use that cruch as a excuse when ever you can.
prove me rong. i bet you cant.
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I've been dipping for almost three years, but I would say I've only had an addiction for the past year. I usually put in 2 grizzly pouches 4 or 5 times a day(about half a can a day).
First off it sounds like you are in denial about your addiction despite the fact you admitted to dipping for 3 years. You were hooked after that first dip because you kept coming back to it. Like Syndrome suggested you need to get your mind right before you can have a successful quit, otherwise you be another limp dick caver.
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I've been dipping for almost three years, but I would say I've only had an addiction for the past year. I usually put in 2 grizzly pouches 4 or 5 times a day(about half a can a day).
First off it sounds like you are in denial about your addiction despite the fact you admitted to dipping for 3 years. You were hooked after that first dip because you kept coming back to it. Like Syndrome suggested you need to get your mind right before you can have a successful quit, otherwise you be another limp dick caver.
I would suggest some more time reading about this addiction and our choice of drugs. You are an addict my friend and the sooner you admit that the sooner you can begin recovering.
There are many articles on this site about Nicotine and what it can do to your body. Read up and see if that gives you a different outlook. You have to WANT to quit this shit, its not going to happen on its own.
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Sorry, I may have sent the wrong message in my OP. I am definately addicted, no doubt about it. Just during the first two years I could stop whenever I wanted and didn't feel dependent on it. And yes, it would be extremely easy for me to get someone to buy it for me, I realize how pathetic that would be and made me realize how dependent I have become on this stuff. So I would like to go back to be able to handling everyday situations without needing the nic to help me along.
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Sorry, I may have sent the wrong message in my OP. I am definately addicted, no doubt about it. Just during the first two years I could stop whenever I wanted and didn't feel dependent on it. And yes, it would be extremely easy for me to get someone to buy it for me, I realize how pathetic that would be and made me realize how dependent I have become on this stuff. So I would like to go back to be able to handling everyday situations without needing the nic to help me along.
Go back and read what you just wrote. You could stop whenver you wanted? If that is true then why are you dipping today? Fact is you never quit. Your body liked it from day one and you have been a user ever since. You are just progressing in your feeding cycles.
If you want to quit dump the shit, post roll and lets get this done. I dipped for 23+ years. Others on here dipped longer. IF you truely want to quit you can.
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Sorry, I may have sent the wrong message in my OP. I am definately addicted, no doubt about it. Just during the first two years I could stop whenever I wanted and didn't feel dependent on it. And yes, it would be extremely easy for me to get someone to buy it for me, I realize how pathetic that would be and made me realize how dependent I have become on this stuff. So I would like to go back to be able to handling everyday situations without needing the nic to help me along.
Go back and read what you just wrote. You could stop whenver you wanted? If that is true then why are you dipping today? Fact is you never quit. Your body liked it from day one and you have been a user ever since. You are just progressing in your feeding cycles.
If you want to quit dump the shit, post roll and lets get this done. I dipped for 23+ years. Others on here dipped longer. IF you truely want to quit you can.
ExGrizzly - I started dipping when I was 16. I thought I could control it too. As you said, I was always able to stop when I wanted to. The part that sucked was I wasn't able to prevent the next "start". I was always able to take that shit out of my mouth and say done. Wait a few hours, days, sometimes only minutes before the next "reload". Then I set end dates. When I'm 18, when I'm 21, when I'm married, when my first kid is born, when my next kid was born, when I turned 30, when I turned 40..... because I always knew, I could stop anytime I wanted. 30 years later, what a dumbass I was... I'm an addict, I needed help, I couldn't do it on my own. Don't be a dumbass long term dipper. Stop, post and accept that you can't ever have another dip again. You will be glad you made that decision.
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Sorry, I may have sent the wrong message in my OP. I am definately addicted, no doubt about it. Just during the first two years I could stop whenever I wanted and didn't feel dependent on it. And yes, it would be extremely easy for me to get someone to buy it for me, I realize how pathetic that would be and made me realize how dependent I have become on this stuff. So I would like to go back to be able to handling everyday situations without needing the nic to help me along.
Go back and read what you just wrote. You could stop whenver you wanted? If that is true then why are you dipping today? Fact is you never quit. Your body liked it from day one and you have been a user ever since. You are just progressing in your feeding cycles.
If you want to quit dump the shit, post roll and lets get this done. I dipped for 23+ years. Others on here dipped longer. IF you truely want to quit you can.
ExGrizzly - I started dipping when I was 16. I thought I could control it too. As you said, I was always able to stop when I wanted to. The part that sucked was I wasn't able to prevent the next "start". I was always able to take that shit out of my mouth and say done. Wait a few hours, days, sometimes only minutes before the next "reload". Then I set end dates. When I'm 18, when I'm 21, when I'm married, when my first kid is born, when my next kid was born, when I turned 30, when I turned 40..... because I always knew, I could stop anytime I wanted. 30 years later, what a dumbass I was... I'm an addict, I needed help, I couldn't do it on my own. Don't be a dumbass long term dipper. Stop, post and accept that you can't ever have another dip again. You will be glad you made that decision.
Thats exactly how I felt the first couple years.. there was no specific amount i did it. Sometimes daily, sometimes weekly, there were even times with months inbetween. It wasn't really a big deal because I always thought I could stop whenever. Right now i've made it over 48 hours and have been chewing a ton of seeds and been chomping on some gum.
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dipped for 26 years...over half my life inside a freaking can of dirt...my own kids would see me dip...thought i could control at 18 when i went off to college, just like you...but somehow kept it around...my friend, the little round can was always there. probably around 25 years old i KNEW i couldn't quit...hell i'd try and fail then try and fail...finally had enough at age 40 and knew that i'd never make it alone and found this place...get this into your head...i wasted THOUSANDS of dollars, 22 years, and the shame of hiding dip in professional and personal relationships before i got the old head out of my ass and did it
lots of beginner quitters here and lots of multiple floors here...one thing we all have in common...we each quit for today only because we know we never have this addiction handled, everyone of us, from 18 to 50s+ hang on and keep the promise not to use with each roll we post, the choice is yours, keep a 24 hour promise, rinse and repeat tomorrow..or continue feeding the addiction until the years become decades
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Sorry, I may have sent the wrong message in my OP. I am definately addicted, no doubt about it. Just during the first two years I could stop whenever I wanted and didn't feel dependent on it. And yes, it would be extremely easy for me to get someone to buy it for me, I realize how pathetic that would be and made me realize how dependent I have become on this stuff. So I would like to go back to be able to handling everyday situations without needing the nic to help me along.
Go back and read what you just wrote. You could stop whenver you wanted? If that is true then why are you dipping today? Fact is you never quit. Your body liked it from day one and you have been a user ever since. You are just progressing in your feeding cycles.
If you want to quit dump the shit, post roll and lets get this done. I dipped for 23+ years. Others on here dipped longer. IF you truely want to quit you can.
ExGrizzly - I started dipping when I was 16. I thought I could control it too. As you said, I was always able to stop when I wanted to. The part that sucked was I wasn't able to prevent the next "start". I was always able to take that shit out of my mouth and say done. Wait a few hours, days, sometimes only minutes before the next "reload". Then I set end dates. When I'm 18, when I'm 21, when I'm married, when my first kid is born, when my next kid was born, when I turned 30, when I turned 40..... because I always knew, I could stop anytime I wanted. 30 years later, what a dumbass I was... I'm an addict, I needed help, I couldn't do it on my own. Don't be a dumbass long term dipper. Stop, post and accept that you can't ever have another dip again. You will be glad you made that decision.
Wow RMW.... That's me in a nutshell...setting those quit dates that all came and went. How dissapointing it WAS, but here we are.
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you wanna be a quitterer? get your ass over to roll call in dec '10.
How to Post ROLL CALL - Roll Call Instructions
Step 1 - Find the last Roll Call
Step 2 - Hit the "Quote" button in the upper right hand corner.
Step 3 - Click your mouse ANYWHERE in The bottom Box
Step 4 - Hit Ctrl and "A" at the Same time so like evrything is hilited
Step 5 - Hit Ctrl and "X" at the same time so there is NOTHING in Either Box
Step 6 - Click your mouse in the TOP BOX
Step 7 - Hit Ctrl and "V" at the same time to Paste the info into the top box AND ADD YOUR info to the bottom of the list- ackshully at the bottum of the first set a names cause there in your quit groop
Step 8 - Hit ADD REPLY below the bottom box
Step 9 - Go back to the 1st unread post, pat yourself on the back, and have a beer cause you will not be dipping today.
man this is your promise you aint gonna dip. man up.
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Right now is the end of my first day. 24 hours down, whatever is left of my life to go. I have to stay quit this time. I have to.
I am happy I found this place. I have no friends to commiserate with. None of them would get it, y'know? If any of them did chew, they quit way back when. I am at almost 30 years total (a couple failed quits account for not being over 30). Wanna talk about kicking yourself? About 20 years ago, I had quit for almost 3 years. Playing baseball with some dudes who were still hooked helped me get dragged back in.
Until yesterday at 5 pm, everything was an excuse to chew. Now everything is a reason NOT to. I am tripping out and reaching in my pocket for a dip over and over. I am trying so hard to be mellow cause I have my kids with me today. I don't want them to see me freaking. I also don't want them to see me die from something I did to myself.
Fuck, man. Oh, well. Here's to the next hour and the hour after that.
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Right now is the end of my first day. 24 hours down, whatever is left of my life to go. I have to stay quit this time. I have to.
I am happy I found this place. I have no friends to commiserate with. None of them would get it, y'know? If any of them did chew, they quit way back when. I am at almost 30 years total (a couple failed quits account for not being over 30). Wanna talk about kicking yourself? About 20 years ago, I had quit for almost 3 years. Playing baseball with some dudes who were still hooked helped me get dragged back in.
Until yesterday at 5 pm, everything was an excuse to chew. Now everything is a reason NOT to. I am tripping out and reaching in my pocket for a dip over and over. I am trying so hard to be mellow cause I have my kids with me today. I don't want them to see me freaking. I also don't want them to see me die from something I did to myself.
Fuck, man. Oh, well. Here's to the next hour and the hour after that.
Your doing the right thing brother!!! Welcome aboard.
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Right now is the end of my first day. 24 hours down, whatever is left of my life to go. I have to stay quit this time. I have to.Â
I am happy I found this place. I have no friends to commiserate with. None of them would get it, y'know? If any of them did chew, they quit way back when. I am at almost 30 years total (a couple failed quits account for not being over 30). Wanna talk about kicking yourself? About 20 years ago, I had quit for almost 3 years. Playing baseball with some dudes who were still hooked helped me get dragged back in.
Until yesterday at 5 pm, everything was an excuse to chew. Now everything is a reason NOT to. I am tripping out and reaching in my pocket for a dip over and over. I am trying so hard to be mellow cause I have my kids with me today. I don't want them to see me freaking. I also don't want them to see me die from something I did to myself.
Fuck, man. Oh, well. Here's to the next hour and the hour after that.
You have to stay strong. Prove to the nic bitch that you are in control of your life now and not her.
I quit with blahblah today.
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Right now is the end of my first day. 24 hours down, whatever is left of my life to go. I have to stay quit this time. I have to.Â
I am happy I found this place. I have no friends to commiserate with. None of them would get it, y'know? If any of them did chew, they quit way back when. I am at almost 30 years total (a couple failed quits account for not being over 30). Wanna talk about kicking yourself? About 20 years ago, I had quit for almost 3 years. Playing baseball with some dudes who were still hooked helped me get dragged back in.
Until yesterday at 5 pm, everything was an excuse to chew. Now everything is a reason NOT to. I am tripping out and reaching in my pocket for a dip over and over. I am trying so hard to be mellow cause I have my kids with me today. I don't want them to see me freaking. I also don't want them to see me die from something I did to myself.
Fuck, man. Oh, well. Here's to the next hour and the hour after that.
You have to stay strong. Prove to the nic bitch that you are in control of your life now and not her.
I quit with blahblah today.
With you all the way BlahBlah. just chalked up hour 33 myself. No doubt this takes a lot of effort, but my face, family, and life are worth so much more.
Screw the NIC BITCH. I am freeeeee!!!!
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Right now is the end of my first day. 24 hours down, whatever is left of my life to go. I have to stay quit this time. I have to.Â
I am happy I found this place. I have no friends to commiserate with. None of them would get it, y'know? If any of them did chew, they quit way back when. I am at almost 30 years total (a couple failed quits account for not being over 30). Wanna talk about kicking yourself? About 20 years ago, I had quit for almost 3 years. Playing baseball with some dudes who were still hooked helped me get dragged back in.
Until yesterday at 5 pm, everything was an excuse to chew. Now everything is a reason NOT to. I am tripping out and reaching in my pocket for a dip over and over. I am trying so hard to be mellow cause I have my kids with me today. I don't want them to see me freaking. I also don't want them to see me die from something I did to myself.
Fuck, man. Oh, well. Here's to the next hour and the hour after that.
You have to stay strong. Prove to the nic bitch that you are in control of your life now and not her.
I quit with blahblah today.
With you all the way BlahBlah. just chalked up hour 33 myself. No doubt this takes a lot of effort, but my face, family, and life are worth so much more.
Screw the NIC BITCH. I am freeeeee!!!!
'boob'
celebrate 24 hours...big step and hang on the next 50-60 hours might be rough, but then they get much better