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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: GrizzlySlave on July 23, 2017, 09:14:00 PM
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Okay, so here I am. Been a dipper/chewer for...oh...almost 30 years now. I've only quit once in those three decades. That lasted almost a year until I fell into my old ways.
I'm currently vacationing in Puerto Rico and spent last night driving around at 8 pm my first night in looking for anywhere that sells any brand that could be found. Nothing. Nowhere. nada. Zilch.
By the time I had gone 5 hours without a wad in my lip, I was about to bite the head off of an iguana.
I'm determined to drop the habit altogether. If it hasn't killed me already, it certainly is draining my budget. I will spend $10-15/day...(every day)...on the stuff.
At this stage (28 hours without a chew), I'm struggling. Last night, I started hitting the rum pretty hard in order to cope with the craves, and made an ass of myself in front of my wife and son. Not good.
Ill survive, but this ain't no fun. Thanks for reading. My family wouldn't understand, but I know you all do.
Peace and all that.
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Welcome Grizzy - glad you found us. The good news is that folks here know exactly what you're going through and there's a system here that will actually keep you quit.
As I'm sure you're aware, the next few days will not be easy. Your body is going to go through some severe withdrawal and it's just going to be plain unpleasant. What most people don't realize and you probably can't fully appreciate is that the real work begins after the physical withdrawal is over.
Your earlier stoppage (not a quit) went around a year, but you fell in to "old habits." There is a reason why that failure is an extremely common story. Maybe you forgot how hard it was, didn't accept that you were an addict, didn't have any support/ accountability, wanted "just one," or simply never really wanted to quit. Regardless of the reason you failed before, at KTC we've got a system that will help you overcome any craving or pressure.
It's simple, but it won't be easy. You make a promise every single day, as soon as you wake up, that you won't use any nicotine product for the day. It's called Posting Roll and is the backbone of this site, as well as price of admission for using the resources here. Your group will be October 2017 Quit Group. Go find that page, read a bit and you'll find Roll instructions. Don't worry if you screw up the post, just get your day count and promise up there, keep the promise and do it again tomorrow.
The only way to quit is one day at a time. Don't think too far ahead, just win today. You already did one day, you can do one more. You can do this, your quit brothers will help you and the community here will help you. Go find your group and get on roll. Reach out to others and learn how to navigate the site. Make KTC your new best friend.
Also, I'd really recommend laying off the booze for a few weeks. Alcohol is a quit killer. Drink lots of water and not much caffeine.
Welcome again and reach out if I can help.
Pky1520 day 448
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Thank you kindly for your response.
I'm really not in the mind frame to quit "one day at a time" yet. I AM focused on quitting one hour at a time at this point, however. (almost 30 hours into this)
I hear what you're saying re: the booze. Thanks for pointing this out...it makes sense.
I do believe I could bludgeon a sack full of cute fuzzy creatures with a ball peen hammer right about now.
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Thank you kindly for your response.
I'm really not in the mind frame to quit "one day at a time" yet. I AM focused on quitting one hour at a time at this point, however. (almost 30 hours into this)
I hear what you're saying re: the booze. Thanks for pointing this out...it makes sense.
I do believe I could bludgeon a sack full of cute fuzzy creatures with a ball peen hammer right about now.
But if you did that, you'd have at least eight separate problems that I note all BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!! You'll see on this forum sometimes that 1 problem + Nicotine = 2 problems. Well, you have more than that!! Here's what I got. More can probably be added. (And yes, you're just like us. We could make the same lists about ourselves. I'm just getting yours started for you.)
1. You're in Puerto Rico and unable to enjoy it BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
2. You made an ass of yourself in front of your family BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
3. Your withdrawal right now sucks, and as you learn more about this disease of addiction, you could suffer the rewiring attached to quitting for as long as 18 months BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
4. If you kill a bag of small creatures, you could be charged with animal cruelty BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
5. You can't drink for a while BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
6. Biting a head off an iguana won't solve a freaking thing, its bones and teeth could actually damage your entire face as you bite through it, but right now you think it is somehow better than the alternative of going another hour without dip BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
7. You called yourself a slave BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
8. You spend between $3,650 and $5, 475 a year on something in which you will throw away 100% of BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
You let a plant infused with chemicals control your entire life. We did, too. Stop doing that. I'm 57 days clean and part of every day still sucks a little bit. Some days still suck from start to finish. But listen to EVERY SINGLE person on this forum that has made it 6 months, a year, 2 years, whatever. Not one will tell you they regret quitting. Not one. They all had to go through what you're going through now, and I'm not going to sugar coat it and tell you it's a ton easier after a month or two because it's not, but I know this much. Even if I'm depressed some days, I actually LIKE myself for the first time in my adult life. Stop letting this thing control you. You have a TON of support here to help you out. Join us.
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Thank you kindly for your response.
I'm really not in the mind frame to quit "one day at a time" yet. I AM focused on quitting one hour at a time at this point, however. (almost 30 hours into this)
I hear what you're saying re: the booze. Thanks for pointing this out...it makes sense.
I do believe I could bludgeon a sack full of cute fuzzy creatures with a ball peen hammer right about now.
But if you did that, you'd have at least eight separate problems that I note all BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!! You'll see on this forum sometimes that 1 problem + Nicotine = 2 problems. Well, you have more than that!! Here's what I got. More can probably be added. (And yes, you're just like us. We could make the same lists about ourselves. I'm just getting yours started for you.)
1. You're in Puerto Rico and unable to enjoy it BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
2. You made an ass of yourself in front of your family BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
3. Your withdrawal right now sucks, and as you learn more about this disease of addiction, you could suffer the rewiring attached to quitting for as long as 18 months BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
4. If you kill a bag of small creatures, you could be charged with animal cruelty BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
5. You can't drink for a while BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
6. Biting a head off an iguana won't solve a freaking thing, its bones and teeth could actually damage your entire face as you bite through it, but right now you think it is somehow better than the alternative of going another hour without dip BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
7. You called yourself a slave BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
8. You spend between $3,650 and $5, 475 a year on something in which you will throw away 100% of BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
You let a plant infused with chemicals control your entire life. We did, too. Stop doing that. I'm 57 days clean and part of every day still sucks a little bit. Some days still suck from start to finish. But listen to EVERY SINGLE person on this forum that has made it 6 months, a year, 2 years, whatever. Not one will tell you they regret quitting. Not one. They all had to go through what you're going through now, and I'm not going to sugar coat it and tell you it's a ton easier after a month or two because it's not, but I know this much. Even if I'm depressed some days, I actually LIKE myself for the first time in my adult life. Stop letting this thing control you. You have a TON of support here to help you out. Join us.
Hombre, I hear you and I'm getting off of this addictive crapola.
Thanks for your response. It's 11:58 pm here. I am going to get up and dip some tea leaves now. My gums are screaming for attention.
31 hours now...
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Thank you kindly for your response.
I'm really not in the mind frame to quit "one day at a time" yet. I AM focused on quitting one hour at a time at this point, however. (almost 30 hours into this)
I hear what you're saying re: the booze. Thanks for pointing this out...it makes sense.
I do believe I could bludgeon a sack full of cute fuzzy creatures with a ball peen hammer right about now.
But if you did that, you'd have at least eight separate problems that I note all BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!! You'll see on this forum sometimes that 1 problem + Nicotine = 2 problems. Well, you have more than that!! Here's what I got. More can probably be added. (And yes, you're just like us. We could make the same lists about ourselves. I'm just getting yours started for you.)
1. You're in Puerto Rico and unable to enjoy it BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
2. You made an ass of yourself in front of your family BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
3. Your withdrawal right now sucks, and as you learn more about this disease of addiction, you could suffer the rewiring attached to quitting for as long as 18 months BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
4. If you kill a bag of small creatures, you could be charged with animal cruelty BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
5. You can't drink for a while BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
6. Biting a head off an iguana won't solve a freaking thing, its bones and teeth could actually damage your entire face as you bite through it, but right now you think it is somehow better than the alternative of going another hour without dip BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
7. You called yourself a slave BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
8. You spend between $3,650 and $5, 475 a year on something in which you will throw away 100% of BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
You let a plant infused with chemicals control your entire life. We did, too. Stop doing that. I'm 57 days clean and part of every day still sucks a little bit. Some days still suck from start to finish. But listen to EVERY SINGLE person on this forum that has made it 6 months, a year, 2 years, whatever. Not one will tell you they regret quitting. Not one. They all had to go through what you're going through now, and I'm not going to sugar coat it and tell you it's a ton easier after a month or two because it's not, but I know this much. Even if I'm depressed some days, I actually LIKE myself for the first time in my adult life. Stop letting this thing control you. You have a TON of support here to help you out. Join us.
Hombre, I hear you and I'm getting off of this addictive crapola.
Thanks for your response. It's 11:58 pm here. I am going to get up and dip some tea leaves now. My gums are screaming for attention.
31 hours now...
Sent you a PM. Look in the upper right corner of the screen at your Inbox. Click on it.
And if you need to count every hour right now, by all means, count them in different languages if it helps. It's like anything else once you get enough distance from it. Right now you're counting hours. In a couple of weeks, you'll be counting days. Soon after that, you're counting weeks.
In addition, get on this forum and GET INVOLVED. If you're here, you're not dipping. If you're here, you're reading some wisdom from some badass quitters who actually WANT to help you because it helps them stay quit. Congrats in advance on 40 hours when you wake up. Go out there and enjoy Puerto Rico with your family.
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Thank you kindly for your response.
I'm really not in the mind frame to quit "one day at a time" yet. I AM focused on quitting one hour at a time at this point, however. (almost 30 hours into this)
I hear what you're saying re: the booze. Thanks for pointing this out...it makes sense.
I do believe I could bludgeon a sack full of cute fuzzy creatures with a ball peen hammer right about now.
But if you did that, you'd have at least eight separate problems that I note all BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!! You'll see on this forum sometimes that 1 problem + Nicotine = 2 problems. Well, you have more than that!! Here's what I got. More can probably be added. (And yes, you're just like us. We could make the same lists about ourselves. I'm just getting yours started for you.)
1. You're in Puerto Rico and unable to enjoy it BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
2. You made an ass of yourself in front of your family BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
3. Your withdrawal right now sucks, and as you learn more about this disease of addiction, you could suffer the rewiring attached to quitting for as long as 18 months BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
4. If you kill a bag of small creatures, you could be charged with animal cruelty BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
5. You can't drink for a while BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
6. Biting a head off an iguana won't solve a freaking thing, its bones and teeth could actually damage your entire face as you bite through it, but right now you think it is somehow better than the alternative of going another hour without dip BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
7. You called yourself a slave BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
8. You spend between $3,650 and $5, 475 a year on something in which you will throw away 100% of BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
You let a plant infused with chemicals control your entire life. We did, too. Stop doing that. I'm 57 days clean and part of every day still sucks a little bit. Some days still suck from start to finish. But listen to EVERY SINGLE person on this forum that has made it 6 months, a year, 2 years, whatever. Not one will tell you they regret quitting. Not one. They all had to go through what you're going through now, and I'm not going to sugar coat it and tell you it's a ton easier after a month or two because it's not, but I know this much. Even if I'm depressed some days, I actually LIKE myself for the first time in my adult life. Stop letting this thing control you. You have a TON of support here to help you out. Join us.
Hombre, I hear you and I'm getting off of this addictive crapola.
Thanks for your response. It's 11:58 pm here. I am going to get up and dip some tea leaves now. My gums are screaming for attention.
31 hours now...
Sent you a PM. Look in the upper right corner of the screen at your Inbox. Click on it.
And if you need to count every hour right now, by all means, count them in different languages if it helps. It's like anything else once you get enough distance from it. Right now you're counting hours. In a couple of weeks, you'll be counting days. Soon after that, you're counting weeks.
In addition, get on this forum and GET INVOLVED. If you're here, you're not dipping. If you're here, you're reading some wisdom from some badass quitters who actually WANT to help you because it helps them stay quit. Congrats in advance on 40 hours when you wake up. Go out there and enjoy Puerto Rico with your family.
Thank you!
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Thank you kindly for your response.
I'm really not in the mind frame to quit "one day at a time" yet. I AM focused on quitting one hour at a time at this point, however. (almost 30 hours into this)
I hear what you're saying re: the booze. Thanks for pointing this out...it makes sense.
I do believe I could bludgeon a sack full of cute fuzzy creatures with a ball peen hammer right about now.
But if you did that, you'd have at least eight separate problems that I note all BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!! You'll see on this forum sometimes that 1 problem + Nicotine = 2 problems. Well, you have more than that!! Here's what I got. More can probably be added. (And yes, you're just like us. We could make the same lists about ourselves. I'm just getting yours started for you.)
1. You're in Puerto Rico and unable to enjoy it BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
2. You made an ass of yourself in front of your family BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
3. Your withdrawal right now sucks, and as you learn more about this disease of addiction, you could suffer the rewiring attached to quitting for as long as 18 months BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
4. If you kill a bag of small creatures, you could be charged with animal cruelty BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
5. You can't drink for a while BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
6. Biting a head off an iguana won't solve a freaking thing, its bones and teeth could actually damage your entire face as you bite through it, but right now you think it is somehow better than the alternative of going another hour without dip BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
7. You called yourself a slave BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
8. You spend between $3,650 and $5, 475 a year on something in which you will throw away 100% of BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
You let a plant infused with chemicals control your entire life. We did, too. Stop doing that. I'm 57 days clean and part of every day still sucks a little bit. Some days still suck from start to finish. But listen to EVERY SINGLE person on this forum that has made it 6 months, a year, 2 years, whatever. Not one will tell you they regret quitting. Not one. They all had to go through what you're going through now, and I'm not going to sugar coat it and tell you it's a ton easier after a month or two because it's not, but I know this much. Even if I'm depressed some days, I actually LIKE myself for the first time in my adult life. Stop letting this thing control you. You have a TON of support here to help you out. Join us.
Hombre, I hear you and I'm getting off of this addictive crapola.
Thanks for your response. It's 11:58 pm here. I am going to get up and dip some tea leaves now. My gums are screaming for attention.
31 hours now...
Sent you a PM. Look in the upper right corner of the screen at your Inbox. Click on it.
And if you need to count every hour right now, by all means, count them in different languages if it helps. It's like anything else once you get enough distance from it. Right now you're counting hours. In a couple of weeks, you'll be counting days. Soon after that, you're counting weeks.
In addition, get on this forum and GET INVOLVED. If you're here, you're not dipping. If you're here, you're reading some wisdom from some badass quitters who actually WANT to help you because it helps them stay quit. Congrats in advance on 40 hours when you wake up. Go out there and enjoy Puerto Rico with your family.
Thank you!
Grizzlyslave, I spent my first 5 days in bed sleeping. All I did was get out of bed, eat, piss then sleep again.
Pay attention to your meals and make sure you get three square meals. The craves get much harder when you are hungry so do not let yourself get hungry.
Drink plenty of OJ. When you dip, your brain releases sugars. No more dip. No more sugars. Replace the missing sugars with OJ or some other fruit drink high in sugar. It helps. It helped me.
When you really want a dip, change your minds focus and think about anything else. Engage in an activilty like push ups, running, etc. Something to take your mind off of what you are missing.
Start exercising regularly......
You have made it this far, keep it going. It is so wonderful to take trips and visit family wihout hiding every hour or so to do a dip. Great to eat dinner without spoiling it with a dip afterwards. Great to be able to kiss your wife anytime you want instead of telling her to wait until you spit out your wad and brush your teeth. Great to drive a car without a spit bottom rolling around the floor of your car spilling and stinking everything up. The list goes on and on.
I was like you, but it took me 40 years before I quit.
I quit with you today.
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Thank you kindly for your response.
I'm really not in the mind frame to quit "one day at a time" yet. I AM focused on quitting one hour at a time at this point, however. (almost 30 hours into this)
I hear what you're saying re: the booze. Thanks for pointing this out...it makes sense.
I do believe I could bludgeon a sack full of cute fuzzy creatures with a ball peen hammer right about now.
But if you did that, you'd have at least eight separate problems that I note all BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!! You'll see on this forum sometimes that 1 problem + Nicotine = 2 problems. Well, you have more than that!! Here's what I got. More can probably be added. (And yes, you're just like us. We could make the same lists about ourselves. I'm just getting yours started for you.)
1. You're in Puerto Rico and unable to enjoy it BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
2. You made an ass of yourself in front of your family BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
3. Your withdrawal right now sucks, and as you learn more about this disease of addiction, you could suffer the rewiring attached to quitting for as long as 18 months BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
4. If you kill a bag of small creatures, you could be charged with animal cruelty BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
5. You can't drink for a while BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
6. Biting a head off an iguana won't solve a freaking thing, its bones and teeth could actually damage your entire face as you bite through it, but right now you think it is somehow better than the alternative of going another hour without dip BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
7. You called yourself a slave BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
8. You spend between $3,650 and $5, 475 a year on something in which you will throw away 100% of BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
You let a plant infused with chemicals control your entire life. We did, too. Stop doing that. I'm 57 days clean and part of every day still sucks a little bit. Some days still suck from start to finish. But listen to EVERY SINGLE person on this forum that has made it 6 months, a year, 2 years, whatever. Not one will tell you they regret quitting. Not one. They all had to go through what you're going through now, and I'm not going to sugar coat it and tell you it's a ton easier after a month or two because it's not, but I know this much. Even if I'm depressed some days, I actually LIKE myself for the first time in my adult life. Stop letting this thing control you. You have a TON of support here to help you out. Join us.
Hombre, I hear you and I'm getting off of this addictive crapola.
Thanks for your response. It's 11:58 pm here. I am going to get up and dip some tea leaves now. My gums are screaming for attention.
31 hours now...
Sent you a PM. Look in the upper right corner of the screen at your Inbox. Click on it.
And if you need to count every hour right now, by all means, count them in different languages if it helps. It's like anything else once you get enough distance from it. Right now you're counting hours. In a couple of weeks, you'll be counting days. Soon after that, you're counting weeks.
In addition, get on this forum and GET INVOLVED. If you're here, you're not dipping. If you're here, you're reading some wisdom from some badass quitters who actually WANT to help you because it helps them stay quit. Congrats in advance on 40 hours when you wake up. Go out there and enjoy Puerto Rico with your family.
Thank you!
Grizzlyslave, I spent my first 5 days in bed sleeping. All I did was get out of bed, eat, piss then sleep again.
Pay attention to your meals and make sure you get three square meals. The craves get much harder when you are hungry so do not let yourself get hungry.
Drink plenty of OJ. When you dip, your brain releases sugars. No more dip. No more sugars. Replace the missing sugars with OJ or some other fruit drink high in sugar. It helps. It helped me.
When you really want a dip, change your minds focus and think about anything else. Engage in an activilty like push ups, running, etc. Something to take your mind off of what you are missing.
Start exercising regularly......
You have made it this far, keep it going. It is so wonderful to take trips and visit family wihout hiding every hour or so to do a dip. Great to eat dinner without spoiling it with a dip afterwards. Great to be able to kiss your wife anytime you want instead of telling her to wait until you spit out your wad and brush your teeth. Great to drive a car without a spit bottom rolling around the floor of your car spilling and stinking everything up. The list goes on and on.
I was like you, but it took me 40 years before I quit.
I quit with you today.
And I quit with you today as well. I appreciate your supportive words and advice.
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Thank you kindly for your response.
I'm really not in the mind frame to quit "one day at a time" yet. I AM focused on quitting one hour at a time at this point, however. (almost 30 hours into this)
I hear what you're saying re: the booze. Thanks for pointing this out...it makes sense.
I do believe I could bludgeon a sack full of cute fuzzy creatures with a ball peen hammer right about now.
But if you did that, you'd have at least eight separate problems that I note all BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!! You'll see on this forum sometimes that 1 problem + Nicotine = 2 problems. Well, you have more than that!! Here's what I got. More can probably be added. (And yes, you're just like us. We could make the same lists about ourselves. I'm just getting yours started for you.)
1. You're in Puerto Rico and unable to enjoy it BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
2. You made an ass of yourself in front of your family BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
3. Your withdrawal right now sucks, and as you learn more about this disease of addiction, you could suffer the rewiring attached to quitting for as long as 18 months BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
4. If you kill a bag of small creatures, you could be charged with animal cruelty BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
5. You can't drink for a while BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
6. Biting a head off an iguana won't solve a freaking thing, its bones and teeth could actually damage your entire face as you bite through it, but right now you think it is somehow better than the alternative of going another hour without dip BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
7. You called yourself a slave BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
8. You spend between $3,650 and $5, 475 a year on something in which you will throw away 100% of BECAUSE OF NICOTINE!!
You let a plant infused with chemicals control your entire life. We did, too. Stop doing that. I'm 57 days clean and part of every day still sucks a little bit. Some days still suck from start to finish. But listen to EVERY SINGLE person on this forum that has made it 6 months, a year, 2 years, whatever. Not one will tell you they regret quitting. Not one. They all had to go through what you're going through now, and I'm not going to sugar coat it and tell you it's a ton easier after a month or two because it's not, but I know this much. Even if I'm depressed some days, I actually LIKE myself for the first time in my adult life. Stop letting this thing control you. You have a TON of support here to help you out. Join us.
Hombre, I hear you and I'm getting off of this addictive crapola.
Thanks for your response. It's 11:58 pm here. I am going to get up and dip some tea leaves now. My gums are screaming for attention.
31 hours now...
Sent you a PM. Look in the upper right corner of the screen at your Inbox. Click on it.
And if you need to count every hour right now, by all means, count them in different languages if it helps. It's like anything else once you get enough distance from it. Right now you're counting hours. In a couple of weeks, you'll be counting days. Soon after that, you're counting weeks.
In addition, get on this forum and GET INVOLVED. If you're here, you're not dipping. If you're here, you're reading some wisdom from some badass quitters who actually WANT to help you because it helps them stay quit. Congrats in advance on 40 hours when you wake up. Go out there and enjoy Puerto Rico with your family.
Thank you!
Grizzlyslave, I spent my first 5 days in bed sleeping. All I did was get out of bed, eat, piss then sleep again.
Pay attention to your meals and make sure you get three square meals. The craves get much harder when you are hungry so do not let yourself get hungry.
Drink plenty of OJ. When you dip, your brain releases sugars. No more dip. No more sugars. Replace the missing sugars with OJ or some other fruit drink high in sugar. It helps. It helped me.
When you really want a dip, change your minds focus and think about anything else. Engage in an activilty like push ups, running, etc. Something to take your mind off of what you are missing.
Start exercising regularly......
You have made it this far, keep it going. It is so wonderful to take trips and visit family wihout hiding every hour or so to do a dip. Great to eat dinner without spoiling it with a dip afterwards. Great to be able to kiss your wife anytime you want instead of telling her to wait until you spit out your wad and brush your teeth. Great to drive a car without a spit bottom rolling around the floor of your car spilling and stinking everything up. The list goes on and on.
I was like you, but it took me 40 years before I quit.
I quit with you today.
And I quit with you today as well. I appreciate your supportive words and advice.
Hey got ur PM grizz, check your inbox, share them digits brother! Go to the store and look in the herbs section, grab some mint leaves, when a craving hits chew on a few mint leaves, it worked for me. Talk to a few of these crusty old vets, they will help you. There are lots of tools to use from this site, dont forget your not alone in this fight, that bitch called nic will not get the best of me today! I quit with you today!
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Quitting ain't easy but it is so worth it. Know that you have an army of quitters behind you.
I quit over 1200 days ago and still make my promise daily.
Keep up the good work.
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Thank you all for the advice and rah rah. I never fell asleep last night; however, its a pretty common occurrence for me to be awake for 3-4 days in a row.
I'm quickly approaching 48 hours without nicotine and I'm beginning to feel that this IS possible. Yes, I'm fully aware there are challenges ahead, but I'm having moments this afternoon that aren't bad. I'm going to enjoy them as they come and then wallow through the shitty parts.
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Hey!
49 hours!
:P
(I gotta quit posting so much)
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This is YOUR forum, Grizz, use it as you please.
You have received a lot of good advice so far, so I will just say to read everything you can about this addiction. This site has so much good info, read it all, understand the enemy. I found once I understood what nicotine addiction was all about, what it had done to me, I could look at the quit process a little more objectively. And that helped me immeasurably.
You are almost through the worst of the physical withdrawals. Just plow through the next couple of days and I promise things will ease up. Stay on KTC, get on live chat, exercise, do anything to keep your mind off things. Everytime you plow through a crave and refuse the body nicotine, you destroy triggers. Everytime you say "no" you are bit by bit destroying the demon.
You are doing great. Proud to be quit with you today.
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This is YOUR forum, Grizz, use it as you please.
You have received a lot of good advice so far, so I will just say to read everything you can about this addiction. This site has so much good info, read it all, understand the enemy. I found once I understood what nicotine addiction was all about, what it had done to me, I could look at the quit process a little more objectively. And that helped me immeasurably.
You are almost through the worst of the physical withdrawals. Just plow through the next couple of days and I promise things will ease up. Stay on KTC, get on live chat, exercise, do anything to keep your mind off things. Everytime you plow through a crave and refuse the body nicotine, you destroy triggers. Everytime you say "no" you are bit by bit destroying the demon.
You are doing great. Proud to be quit with you today.
Thank you so much.
(This sucks!)
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Hit 72 hours earlier today. By most calculations, my body is now free of nicotine. Although I feel pretty damn good right now, I wouldn't be surprised if my mind starts shrieking for the nic. Ain't gonna get any today.
(Sorry, brain, you just going to have to suffer. If you make too much noise, I'll stab you with a toothpick!)
Went hiking in the rainforest yesterday and snorkeled for hours today. My body and mind seem to crave stimulating exercise. That's good!
I'm so grateful I have this rare opportunity to go through the detox. I'm privy to the fact there will be challenges when I am immersed back into work and reality...but that's not today. Today, I am enjoying being nicotine free.
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GrizzlySlave,
Congrats. The physical withdrawal is over. THAT WAS THE EASY PART. You see, the MENTAL mind games nicotine addiction will continue to play with you are far more sinister than mere physical withdrawals. I will attempt to explain, but before I do, I want to ensure you know what is meant by the phrase "Embrace the SUCK". You need to NEVER forget what you went through in the past few days, and what likely you will continue to go through..... The day you forget what it's like to have to go through withdrawals, you'll lose this battle. I don't want you to lose....Okay, back to the mental withdrawals.....
During the time you were an active user, ingesting enough poison on a daily basis to kill a small laboratory animal on a daily basis, you brain built MILLIONS of additional dopamine receptors in your brain housing group. Now that you've stopped the nicotine drip, they are VERY SLOWLY dying off. I like to think of them as crazed little nicotine beastie addicts jumping up and down inside your brain housing group, hence the rage, the irritability, the fog, the dizziness, etc.... Rest assured, they WILL eventually settle down. It WILL take some time. NEVER forget how much of a pain in the ass it was to get over this....There is a saying on this forum...."never forget Day 1. The day you forget Day 1, you lose." Don't Lose.
One final thought. I have searched the webs repeatedly for a few years now, trying to find ANY shred of evidence that nicotine withdrawal has actually KILLED someone. I never did. So keep the faith.....even during your WORST craves, you won't die. Check your PM. My digits are there if you need to talk.
I quit on 10 June, 2014 after nearly four damn DECADES of Copenhagen abuse. If I can do this, you can too!
With you today!
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GrizzlySlave,
Congrats. The physical withdrawal is over. THAT WAS THE EASY PART. You see, the MENTAL mind games nicotine addiction will continue to play with you are far more sinister than mere physical withdrawals. I will attempt to explain, but before I do, I want to ensure you know what is meant by the phrase "Embrace the SUCK". You need to NEVER forget what you went through in the past few days, and what likely you will continue to go through..... The day you forget what it's like to have to go through withdrawals, you'll lose this battle. I don't want you to lose....Okay, back to the mental withdrawals.....
During the time you were an active user, ingesting enough poison on a daily basis to kill a small laboratory animal on a daily basis, you brain built MILLIONS of additional dopamine receptors in your brain housing group. Now that you've stopped the nicotine drip, they are VERY SLOWLY dying off. I like to think of them as crazed little nicotine beastie addicts jumping up and down inside your brain housing group, hence the rage, the irritability, the fog, the dizziness, etc.... Rest assured, they WILL eventually settle down. It WILL take some time. NEVER forget how much of a pain in the ass it was to get over this....There is a saying on this forum...."never forget Day 1. The day you forget Day 1, you lose." Don't Lose.
One final thought. I have searched the webs repeatedly for a few years now, trying to find ANY shred of evidence that nicotine withdrawal has actually KILLED someone. I never did. So keep the faith.....even during your WORST craves, you won't die. Check your PM. My digits are there if you need to talk.
I quit on 10 June, 2014 after nearly four damn DECADES of Copenhagen abuse. If I can do this, you can too!
With you today!
Much obliged.
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Hey Griz, ya know what? 3 days is hardcore man! Is it gonna be tough when you get back to work? Yep. Are you gonna crave like day 1? Probably. But you already know you can make it through 24 hours. You've already done it three, nearly four times now!
Get a notebook and list the hours of the day in it. Take it to work. X off each hour as you make it through them. Do this for two weeks. I guarantee by mid second week you will be forgetting to X off hours cause your brain will start getting trained to go longer and longer without that stuff.
After the second or third week, or whenever you feel comfortable doing it, switch the hours to days and start marking those babies off. It works. Besides my word and accountability on this site, it's the only thing that kept me quit. There is something about seeing it written down in front of you that really works.
Great to have you here with us. Remember that every single one of us on this site has gone through exactly what you are experiencing. We know full well what you are going through and we stand with you. It gets better, much better, I promise.
Stay strong brother!
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Hey Griz, ya know what? 3 days is hardcore man! Is it gonna be tough when you get back to work? Yep. Are you gonna crave like day 1? Probably. But you already know you can make it through 24 hours. You've already done it three, nearly four times now!
Get a notebook and list the hours of the day in it. Take it to work. X off each hour as you make it through them. Do this for two weeks. I guarantee by mid second week you will be forgetting to X off hours cause your brain will start getting trained to go longer and longer without that stuff.
After the second or third week, or whenever you feel comfortable doing it, switch the hours to days and start marking those babies off. It works. Besides my word and accountability on this site, it's the only thing that kept me quit. There is something about seeing it written down in front of you that really works.
Great to have you here with us. Remember that every single one of us on this site has gone through exactly what you are experiencing. We know full well what you are going through and we stand with you. It gets better, much better, I promise.
Stay strong brother!
This is awesome because this is EXACTLY what I've been doing. I was going one hour at a time and driving my wife and son nuts by saying "31 hours without a chew".
That's how hard I was feening: I had to go hourly and I was actually checking the time perpetually. Today, I didn't check off the last 10 hours until it dawned on me I was well past 72 hours.
Progress is progress.
All I know is this: Today was better than yesterday and yesterday was better than the day before. I'll take that...and I'll be diligent tomorrow as well.
Thank you, tabrow! Know you're appreciated.
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Hey Griz, ya know what? 3 days is hardcore man! Is it gonna be tough when you get back to work? Yep. Are you gonna crave like day 1? Probably. But you already know you can make it through 24 hours. You've already done it three, nearly four times now!
Get a notebook and list the hours of the day in it. Take it to work. X off each hour as you make it through them. Do this for two weeks. I guarantee by mid second week you will be forgetting to X off hours cause your brain will start getting trained to go longer and longer without that stuff.
After the second or third week, or whenever you feel comfortable doing it, switch the hours to days and start marking those babies off. It works. Besides my word and accountability on this site, it's the only thing that kept me quit. There is something about seeing it written down in front of you that really works.
Great to have you here with us. Remember that every single one of us on this site has gone through exactly what you are experiencing. We know full well what you are going through and we stand with you. It gets better, much better, I promise.
Stay strong brother!
This is awesome because this is EXACTLY what I've been doing. I was going one hour at a time and driving my wife and son nuts by saying "31 hours without a chew".
That's how hard I was feening: I had to go hourly and I was actually checking the time perpetually. Today, I didn't check off the last 10 hours until it dawned on me I was well past 72 hours.
Progress is progress.
All I know is this: Today was better than yesterday and yesterday was better than the day before. I'll take that...and I'll be diligent tomorrow as well.
Thank you, tabrow! Know you're appreciated.
Reading your intro is an absolute blast. I'm sorry you're going through the shit right now, but I'm glad that you're documenting it for posterity. One day soon you'll read back through this and get a kick out of how you let some damn chemical put you through this. The great thing is, you'll never have to experience this again.
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Hey Griz, ya know what? 3 days is hardcore man! Is it gonna be tough when you get back to work? Yep. Are you gonna crave like day 1? Probably. But you already know you can make it through 24 hours. You've already done it three, nearly four times now!
Get a notebook and list the hours of the day in it. Take it to work. X off each hour as you make it through them. Do this for two weeks. I guarantee by mid second week you will be forgetting to X off hours cause your brain will start getting trained to go longer and longer without that stuff.
After the second or third week, or whenever you feel comfortable doing it, switch the hours to days and start marking those babies off. It works. Besides my word and accountability on this site, it's the only thing that kept me quit. There is something about seeing it written down in front of you that really works.
Great to have you here with us. Remember that every single one of us on this site has gone through exactly what you are experiencing. We know full well what you are going through and we stand with you. It gets better, much better, I promise.
Stay strong brother!
This is awesome because this is EXACTLY what I've been doing. I was going one hour at a time and driving my wife and son nuts by saying "31 hours without a chew".
That's how hard I was feening: I had to go hourly and I was actually checking the time perpetually. Today, I didn't check off the last 10 hours until it dawned on me I was well past 72 hours.
Progress is progress.
All I know is this: Today was better than yesterday and yesterday was better than the day before. I'll take that...and I'll be diligent tomorrow as well.
Thank you, tabrow! Know you're appreciated.
Reading your intro is an absolute blast. I'm sorry you're going through the shit right now, but I'm glad that you're documenting it for posterity. One day soon you'll read back through this and get a kick out of how you let some damn chemical put you through this. The great thing is, you'll never have to experience this again.
LOL, I'm glad you're having fun with it!
As of now, I am logging my 98th hour and trekking into day #5.
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Hey Griz, ya know what? 3 days is hardcore man! Is it gonna be tough when you get back to work? Yep. Are you gonna crave like day 1? Probably. But you already know you can make it through 24 hours. You've already done it three, nearly four times now!
Get a notebook and list the hours of the day in it. Take it to work. X off each hour as you make it through them. Do this for two weeks. I guarantee by mid second week you will be forgetting to X off hours cause your brain will start getting trained to go longer and longer without that stuff.
After the second or third week, or whenever you feel comfortable doing it, switch the hours to days and start marking those babies off. It works. Besides my word and accountability on this site, it's the only thing that kept me quit. There is something about seeing it written down in front of you that really works.
Great to have you here with us. Remember that every single one of us on this site has gone through exactly what you are experiencing. We know full well what you are going through and we stand with you. It gets better, much better, I promise.
Stay strong brother!
This is awesome because this is EXACTLY what I've been doing. I was going one hour at a time and driving my wife and son nuts by saying "31 hours without a chew".
That's how hard I was feening: I had to go hourly and I was actually checking the time perpetually. Today, I didn't check off the last 10 hours until it dawned on me I was well past 72 hours.
Progress is progress.
All I know is this: Today was better than yesterday and yesterday was better than the day before. I'll take that...and I'll be diligent tomorrow as well.
Thank you, tabrow! Know you're appreciated.
Reading your intro is an absolute blast. I'm sorry you're going through the shit right now, but I'm glad that you're documenting it for posterity. One day soon you'll read back through this and get a kick out of how you let some damn chemical put you through this. The great thing is, you'll never have to experience this again.
LOL, I'm glad you're having fun with it!
As of now, I am logging my 98th hour and trekking into day #5.
I am entering hour number 26,451 there were days that it was minute by minute and there were days when it and KTC were the furthest thing from my mind. I have always posted as close to first thing every day as I could. In all those hours and minutes the one constant has been my daily promise. I don't let my addict mind get the better of me and talk me out of it.
Keep clawing your way to freedom.
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Hey Griz, ya know what? 3 days is hardcore man! Is it gonna be tough when you get back to work? Yep. Are you gonna crave like day 1? Probably. But you already know you can make it through 24 hours. You've already done it three, nearly four times now!
Get a notebook and list the hours of the day in it. Take it to work. X off each hour as you make it through them. Do this for two weeks. I guarantee by mid second week you will be forgetting to X off hours cause your brain will start getting trained to go longer and longer without that stuff.
After the second or third week, or whenever you feel comfortable doing it, switch the hours to days and start marking those babies off. It works. Besides my word and accountability on this site, it's the only thing that kept me quit. There is something about seeing it written down in front of you that really works.
Great to have you here with us. Remember that every single one of us on this site has gone through exactly what you are experiencing. We know full well what you are going through and we stand with you. It gets better, much better, I promise.
Stay strong brother!
This is awesome because this is EXACTLY what I've been doing. I was going one hour at a time and driving my wife and son nuts by saying "31 hours without a chew".
That's how hard I was feening: I had to go hourly and I was actually checking the time perpetually. Today, I didn't check off the last 10 hours until it dawned on me I was well past 72 hours.
Progress is progress.
All I know is this: Today was better than yesterday and yesterday was better than the day before. I'll take that...and I'll be diligent tomorrow as well.
Thank you, tabrow! Know you're appreciated.
Reading your intro is an absolute blast. I'm sorry you're going through the shit right now, but I'm glad that you're documenting it for posterity. One day soon you'll read back through this and get a kick out of how you let some damn chemical put you through this. The great thing is, you'll never have to experience this again.
LOL, I'm glad you're having fun with it!
As of now, I am logging my 98th hour and trekking into day #5.
I am entering hour number 26,451 there were days that it was minute by minute and there were days when it and KTC were the furthest thing from my mind. I have always posted as close to first thing every day as I could. In all those hours and minutes the one constant has been my daily promise. I don't let my addict mind get the better of me and talk me out of it.
Keep clawing your way to freedom.
5 days / 6 hours....
Thanks guys, for all the input.
Today was hellish
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Hey Griz, ya know what? 3 days is hardcore man! Is it gonna be tough when you get back to work? Yep. Are you gonna crave like day 1? Probably. But you already know you can make it through 24 hours. You've already done it three, nearly four times now!
Get a notebook and list the hours of the day in it. Take it to work. X off each hour as you make it through them. Do this for two weeks. I guarantee by mid second week you will be forgetting to X off hours cause your brain will start getting trained to go longer and longer without that stuff.
After the second or third week, or whenever you feel comfortable doing it, switch the hours to days and start marking those babies off. It works. Besides my word and accountability on this site, it's the only thing that kept me quit. There is something about seeing it written down in front of you that really works.
Great to have you here with us. Remember that every single one of us on this site has gone through exactly what you are experiencing. We know full well what you are going through and we stand with you. It gets better, much better, I promise.
Stay strong brother!
This is awesome because this is EXACTLY what I've been doing. I was going one hour at a time and driving my wife and son nuts by saying "31 hours without a chew".
That's how hard I was feening: I had to go hourly and I was actually checking the time perpetually. Today, I didn't check off the last 10 hours until it dawned on me I was well past 72 hours.
Progress is progress.
All I know is this: Today was better than yesterday and yesterday was better than the day before. I'll take that...and I'll be diligent tomorrow as well.
Thank you, tabrow! Know you're appreciated.
Reading your intro is an absolute blast. I'm sorry you're going through the shit right now, but I'm glad that you're documenting it for posterity. One day soon you'll read back through this and get a kick out of how you let some damn chemical put you through this. The great thing is, you'll never have to experience this again.
LOL, I'm glad you're having fun with it!
As of now, I am logging my 98th hour and trekking into day #5.
I am entering hour number 26,451 there were days that it was minute by minute and there were days when it and KTC were the furthest thing from my mind. I have always posted as close to first thing every day as I could. In all those hours and minutes the one constant has been my daily promise. I don't let my addict mind get the better of me and talk me out of it.
Keep clawing your way to freedom.
5 days / 6 hours....
Thanks guys, for all the input.
Today was hellish
Today is done! You made it. Stand a little bit taller because you have stayed quit. Tomorrow will be what ever you make it. I have faith that you will be strong enough to make it through. I know this because I am stong enough to help you bear what ever cross you need to.
I don't know if your reglious or not. I don't want to be preachy or pushy, but this is the way I see the help at KTC. A good friend and quitter helped me understand this....
Even Jesus, the son of God, needed help to bear the cross. He did not ask for it, God sent it through those tasked with killing him. Our job is recognize the help He sends and accept it.
You got this.
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Hey Griz, ya know what? 3 days is hardcore man! Is it gonna be tough when you get back to work? Yep. Are you gonna crave like day 1? Probably. But you already know you can make it through 24 hours. You've already done it three, nearly four times now!
Get a notebook and list the hours of the day in it. Take it to work. X off each hour as you make it through them. Do this for two weeks. I guarantee by mid second week you will be forgetting to X off hours cause your brain will start getting trained to go longer and longer without that stuff.
After the second or third week, or whenever you feel comfortable doing it, switch the hours to days and start marking those babies off. It works. Besides my word and accountability on this site, it's the only thing that kept me quit. There is something about seeing it written down in front of you that really works.
Great to have you here with us. Remember that every single one of us on this site has gone through exactly what you are experiencing. We know full well what you are going through and we stand with you. It gets better, much better, I promise.
Stay strong brother!
This is awesome because this is EXACTLY what I've been doing. I was going one hour at a time and driving my wife and son nuts by saying "31 hours without a chew".
That's how hard I was feening: I had to go hourly and I was actually checking the time perpetually. Today, I didn't check off the last 10 hours until it dawned on me I was well past 72 hours.
Progress is progress.
All I know is this: Today was better than yesterday and yesterday was better than the day before. I'll take that...and I'll be diligent tomorrow as well.
Thank you, tabrow! Know you're appreciated.
Reading your intro is an absolute blast. I'm sorry you're going through the shit right now, but I'm glad that you're documenting it for posterity. One day soon you'll read back through this and get a kick out of how you let some damn chemical put you through this. The great thing is, you'll never have to experience this again.
LOL, I'm glad you're having fun with it!
As of now, I am logging my 98th hour and trekking into day #5.
I am entering hour number 26,451 there were days that it was minute by minute and there were days when it and KTC were the furthest thing from my mind. I have always posted as close to first thing every day as I could. In all those hours and minutes the one constant has been my daily promise. I don't let my addict mind get the better of me and talk me out of it.
Keep clawing your way to freedom.
5 days / 6 hours....
Thanks guys, for all the input.
Today was hellish
Today is done! You made it. Stand a little bit taller because you have stayed quit. Tomorrow will be what ever you make it. I have faith that you will be strong enough to make it through. I know this because I am stong enough to help you bear what ever cross you need to.
I don't know if your reglious or not. I don't want to be preachy or pushy, but this is the way I see the help at KTC. A good friend and quitter helped me understand this....
Even Jesus, the son of God, needed help to bear the cross. He did not ask for it, God sent it through those tasked with killing him. Our job is recognize the help He sends and accept it.
You got this.
I don't see that as being "preachy or pushy"; instead, I see your words as definitely worthy of contemplation and deliberation. Thank you for sharing them.
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Grizz,
Gotta tell you how much I enjoy reading your posts..... You are one funny quitter!! Keep racking up the hours, one at a time. It DOES get better, but it also takes some time! With you all the way bubba!
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Grizz,
Gotta tell you how much I enjoy reading your posts..... You are one funny quitter!! Keep racking up the hours, one at a time. It DOES get better, but it also takes some time! With you all the way bubba!
Hey, I genuinely appreciate that.
This place is full of people that understand...That's hard to find. My spouse doesn't, my teen son doesn't. They're supportive, of course, but have no frame of reference to have legit empathy.
Thanks, CavMan, for making my quit day in week 1 just bit better.
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Twenty two minutes ago, I hit a full 7 days without a dip. One week almost exactly nicotine free.
Today, I'm really feeling the "fog" as I've read so much about. If I didn't know better, I'd swear someone slipped in last night and gave me a partial lobotomy. Mind is so slow, confused. Feels as if I'm wading through jello as I walk around.
I guess I'd rather have the fog than the shrieking nic-a-fits the first few days produced.
I'm an addict for life, but I'm quit for today. I'd sure like to hear this is all worth it at this point!
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Twenty two minutes ago, I hit a full 7 days without a dip. One week almost exactly nicotine free.
Today, I'm really feeling the "fog" as I've read so much about. If I didn't know better, I'd swear someone slipped in last night and gave me a partial lobotomy. Mind is so slow, confused. Feels as if I'm wading through jello as I walk around.
I guess I'd rather have the fog than the shrieking nic-a-fits the first few days produced.
I'm an addict for life, but I'm quit for today. I'd sure like to hear this is all worth it at this point!
Scars are both mental and physical. They are reminders that we are strong that what tried to hurt us. The fog is a reminder of the damage we did to our bodies.
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I'm an addict for life, but I'm quit for today. I'd sure like to hear this is all worth it at this point!
I'll tell ya... I felt and hoped the exact same thing at your stage.
Today... I'm at 1,565 days Quit and I can tell you with complete honesty... it's worth it. Everything shitty you're going through fades away and the freedom is sweeter every day. I don't think about it and I can't even remember the last legit crave I had.
Rock on, m'man...
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I'm an addict for life, but I'm quit for today. I'd sure like to hear this is all worth it at this point!
I'll tell ya... I felt and hoped the exact same thing at your stage.
Today... I'm at 1,565 days Quit and I can tell you with complete honesty... it's worth it. Everything shitty you're going through fades away and the freedom is sweeter every day. I don't think about it and I can't even remember the last legit crave I had.
Rock on, m'man...
It's worth it. It's so freaking worth it.
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I'm an addict for life, but I'm quit for today. I'd sure like to hear this is all worth it at this point!
I'll tell ya... I felt and hoped the exact same thing at your stage.
Today... I'm at 1,565 days Quit and I can tell you with complete honesty... it's worth it. Everything shitty you're going through fades away and the freedom is sweeter every day. I don't think about it and I can't even remember the last legit crave I had.
Rock on, m'man...
AppleJack, I appreciate you making an appearance here. If I'm not mistaken, your introduction thread was the first thing I read at KTC and it made enough of an impression for me to explore the site further.
Thank you for your encouraging words, they mean a lot.
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I'm an addict for life, but I'm quit for today. I'd sure like to hear this is all worth it at this point!
I'll tell ya... I felt and hoped the exact same thing at your stage.
Today... I'm at 1,565 days Quit and I can tell you with complete honesty... it's worth it. Everything shitty you're going through fades away and the freedom is sweeter every day. I don't think about it and I can't even remember the last legit crave I had.
Rock on, m'man...
AppleJack, I appreciate you making an appearance here. If I'm not mistaken, your introduction thread was the first thing I read at KTC and it made enough of an impression for me to explore the site further.
Thank you for your encouraging words, they mean a lot.
Oh, dude... when I was at the day count you are right now, I thought dudes with 600, 1,000 days, etc... were Quit gods. I could not even fathom a beat down of my addiction that equaled that amount of time. Riding the first stages of Quit where day to day, sometimes minute to minute, work was a huuuuuge effort, took all my energy.
And... that's a good thing.
Building your foundation is fucking painful and it needs to be. You learn, and own, that you never... NEVER... want to go through that shit again. The only difference between you and me?... I just started earlier. That's all. I did exactly what you're doing... I went through the same pain... the same ups... the same downs... the same daily victories... the same realizations of what life without nicotine can be...
I remember.
All of it.
On purpose.
Because... I can look at my freedom now and know that it wasn't handed to me... I earned every damn bit of it.
Own it bro...
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I'm an addict for life, but I'm quit for today. I'd sure like to hear this is all worth it at this point!
I'll tell ya... I felt and hoped the exact same thing at your stage.
Today... I'm at 1,565 days Quit and I can tell you with complete honesty... it's worth it. Everything shitty you're going through fades away and the freedom is sweeter every day. I don't think about it and I can't even remember the last legit crave I had.
Rock on, m'man...
AppleJack, I appreciate you making an appearance here. If I'm not mistaken, your introduction thread was the first thing I read at KTC and it made enough of an impression for me to explore the site further.
Thank you for your encouraging words, they mean a lot.
Oh, dude... when I was at the day count you are right now, I thought dudes with 600, 1,000 days, etc... were Quit gods. I could not even fathom a beat down of my addiction that equaled that amount of time. Riding the first stages of Quit where day to day, sometimes minute to minute, work was a huuuuuge effort, took all my energy.
And... that's a good thing.
Building your foundation is fucking painful and it needs to be. You learn, and own, that you never... NEVER... want to go through that shit again. The only difference between you and me?... I just started earlier. That's all. I did exactly what you're doing... I went through the same pain... the same ups... the same downs... the same daily victories... the same realizations of what life without nicotine can be...
I remember.
All of it.
On purpose.
Because... I can look at my freedom now and know that it wasn't handed to me... I earned every damn bit of it.
Own it bro...
AJ. You are a quit god?
GrizzSlave ..stick with it. It IS worth everything you go through to stay quit. Gets better day by day.
You are GrizzFree.
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Thanks again to all the vets who have shared words of wisdom and encouragement.
It REALLY helps!
I woke up today and didn't even think about tobacco for almost 45 minutes. At all.
When I did, I started to jones a bit, but I smiled widely.
This is HUGE for me...I enjoyed it.
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So, this is what freedom feels like.
Yeah, I guess the guys who signed the Declaration and fought the Revolution, then went home to find their houses and farms had been looted and burned while they were away, they too had days of freedom which felt like this.
Keep on quitting, I'm quitting with you.
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I am guessing your title "Ursa nicotinus" and your name GrizzlySlave indicates which brand of crap you were addicted to?
As mine was Timber Wolf and just realizing it's an editable field I have made mine "Canis nicotinus" in your honor.
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I am guessing your title "Ursa nicotinus" and your name GrizzlySlave indicates which brand of crap you were addicted to?
As mine was Timber Wolf and just realizing it's an editable field I have made mine "Canis nicotinus" in your honor.
LOL, be my guest!
Well played, sir.
Now you need to search for a pic of a guy running from a Canis lupus; then again, that would blow your communist / Putin avatar.
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It's more of a "CNN is fake news" meme than anything about Putin really.
But I found a good pic of Canis chasing Human.
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It's more of a "CNN is fake news" meme than anything about Putin really.
But I found a good pic of Canis chasing Human.
Great pic! :)
(I figured I had the Communist vibe covered with the bear)
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Day 15 today was a good one. Did some project things around the home. I didn't Jones or even think about dip much at all. I did reach for the non-existent can in my pocket after 2 meals and got a little exasperated for about 5 seconds, but, in all, a great day.
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Day 15 today was a good one. Did some project things around the home. I didn't Jones or even think about dip much at all. I did reach for the non-existent can in my pocket after 2 meals and got a little exasperated for about 5 seconds, but, in all, a great day.
Doing great man! Staying busy really helped me. Keep on racking those days up
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Day 15 today was a good one. Did some project things around the home. I didn't Jones or even think about dip much at all. I did reach for the non-existent can in my pocket after 2 meals and got a little exasperated for about 5 seconds, but, in all, a great day.
Doing great man! Staying busy really helped me. Keep on racking those days up
You, too! Great job and being quit. Happy for everyone here discovering that this can be done!
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After 40+ years of dipping--I am at 182 days quit--
a drop in my bucket of time.
I am amazed that this KTC thing works as well as it does-
Day 5 or year 5--the same is required of you- Post your promise every day!
Stay quit!!
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After 40+ years of dipping--I am at 182 days quit--
a drop in my bucket of time.
I am amazed that this KTC thing works as well as it does-
Day 5 or year 5--the same is required of you- Post your promise every day!
Stay quit!!
Thank you!
I cherish your support.
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Okay...
Last two days have been rough. For those of you who don't know, I teach high school biology. Starting year 27.
We've been locked in those wretched faculty meetings for a week, which made me want to claw out my eyes, but they gave us yesterday off.
I opted to slip out into the Ozarks and wade fish for the elusive, yet magnificent, smallmouth bass.
Tough trigger! Always used to a big fatty whilst casting among the stones and eddies. The fishing was incredible, but I was feening hard. I passed through 2 rural towns on my drive that were about an hour apart and were only big enough to support.a Wal-Mart. Neither one had any Smokey Mountain chew. Bummer.
Today was the first day of classes. I'm running 182 kids through my biology classes daily again. I'm getting too old for this shit.
Anyway, I've been gnawing on tea bags and snapping at my wonderful spouse and son. Hell, I even think the golden retriever took an ass eating sometime tonight.
No CAVE, but a helluva lot of CRAVE as of late.
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Okay...
Last two days have been rough. For those of you who don't know, I teach high school biology. Starting year 27.
We've been locked in those wretched faculty meetings for a week, which made me want to claw out my eyes, but they gave us yesterday off.
I opted to slip out into the Ozarks and wade fish for the elusive, yet magnificent, smallmouth bass.
Tough trigger! Always used to a big fatty whilst casting among the stones and eddies. The fishing was incredible, but I was feening hard. I passed through 2 rural towns on my drive that were about an hour apart and were only big enough to support.a Wal-Mart. Neither one had any Smokey Mountain chew. Bummer.
Today was the first day of classes. I'm running 182 kids through my biology classes daily again. I'm getting too old for this shit.
Anyway, I've been gnawing on tea bags and snapping at my wonderful spouse and son. Hell, I even think the golden retriever took an ass eating sometime tonight.
No CAVE, but a helluva lot of CRAVE as of late.
Some people avoid triggers, but I applaud the tactic of taking those triggers head on. Every crave you beat helps your brain learn to cope with the next one.
Glad the fishing was good! Smallie bite started a little later here this Summer, but on fire now!
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I love stream fishing for smallies. Especially in small, Crystal-clear creeks that provide solitude and serenity. Streams that are too small to even get a canoe through...
The spot I went to the other day I discovered many years ago when my normal spots were overrun by flooding in the spring. From the two lane HWY bridge, you'd never consider even trying to fish it: too small. Nothing to it. Just a trickle.
But....wade down through the thick for 70 yards and it gets deep. Waterfalls cascading through pink granite shut ins where the fish are voracious.
Damndest thing. Every time I go there, I swear it's the last time (especially alone) because I about kill myself every time due to the hidden stones and deep crevices I have to wade through....but the fishing is always insane and I don't know of any other soul in the world that knows it's there.
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Wow.
How validating this site is. The method is steadfast and effective. I am celebrating one month without dip today. Thus far, I've pocketed about $435 in savings and I'm looking at it online in another window.
Sometimes, I wonder if it's worth it because I feel like I want to chew so badly, but when I look back to my posts, I see how far I've come. While I still have moments that are uncomfortable and trying, I see that even a couple of weeks ago, I was nicotine psychotic.
Progress is progress. I know one day soon, I'll realize I've gone a few days without a crave.
I have friends starting to quit, stating "If you can quit, anyone can!" That's how big of an addict I am...and, thus far, victorious.
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At this point, I am 114 days quit and life is much easier, There are some craves, but they are becoming more and more sporadic, shorter, and lessening in intensity.
Had to share some nice rants from about 110 days ago here, lest they get lost in the shuffle:
"Okay...
3:49 AM. I'm awake and have had about 3 hours of sleep in the past 40 hours.
I'm good. I got this. I'm going to go dip some tea leaves now because THE NIC BITCH IS A FESTERING, PUS-FILLED CARBUNCLE ON THE LEFT BUTT CHEEK OF A THREE LEGGED WOMBAT NAMED "FLASH"!!!!
*pant, pant*
Sorry about that, fellow quitters. Had a moment there. I'm good. I'm calm.
AFTER I HUNT EVERY CEO OF THE TOBACCO INDUSTRY DOWN, SHAVE THEIR PETS, AND PUT GORILLA GLUE IN THEIR PREPARATION H!!!!!!
*pant, pant*
Please disregard. I'm okay, really....I'm good.
No nicotine for me today. Scout's honor. "
And...
"One more thing:
Fuzzy Wuzzy was a bear
Fuzzy Wuzzy had no hair
Fuzzy Wuzzy wasn't fuzzy,
Was he?
I think at 59 hours in, I'm getting dain bramage.
Or something.... "
And...
"Arrrrrrrrrrr!!!!,
59 hours 15 minutes nic free. Woohoo! Here tiger, tiger, tiger!!!!
(gnawing on my kindle fire right now)
'Crazy'
This is the suckiest suck that ever sucked....
Shhhh....(whispering subliminal voice saying): "and this all can end with one sweet, nourishing, orgasmic dip"....
Well, NO, it won't! It ain't gonna happen. NO MORE POISON FOR ME, YE BOTANICAL WHORE OF BABYLON!!!!
Whoa! Hold on, fellow quitters...I see a possum in the dark outside my bedroom window that I can go chase around with a golf club. I'm a-gonna put on my loin cloth and get my pogo stick first, though....
I'll be back....
*Note: The preceding message is an abstract representation of this quitter's state of mental health while going through rancid nicotine deprivation. It is not meant to be taken literally and no animals were harmed in the creation of this bullshit post. "
Yeah...I say I've made some progress. AND SAVED ALMOST $1900!