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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: AJK on September 22, 2014, 02:35:00 PM
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Hello all. Yes, I am a woman who chews. No one but my husband and kids know (that I know of). And now you. I've chewed for around 20 years now, and hate to be able to say that. My husband and I have both set a quit date for this Friday. I am already stressing about it. I am and have been treated for depression and anxiety, and that has been my reason for not wanting to quit. Why add more stress right? Well, it's a lie and an excuse. I am done being a slave to the tin can. I am scared, but determined. Thanks for reading. Thanks for not judging. :-)
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Hello all. Yes, I am a woman who chews. No one but my husband and kids know (that I know of). And now you. I've chewed for around 20 years now, and hate to be able to say that. My husband and I have both set a quit date for this Friday. I am already stressing about it. I am and have been treated for depression and anxiety, and that has been my reason for not wanting to quit. Why add more stress right? Well, it's a lie and an excuse. I am done being a slave to the tin can. I am scared, but determined. Thanks for reading. Thanks for not judging. :-)
Why wait? Nothing says 'Quitter' like right now.
Dump your stash, flush it all and let's get going. Surprise your husband, and lead by example. If you're done, then you are done. There is nothins specail about Friday, I promise.
Quit now.
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Hi Amy. We don't judge because we are all nicotine addicts as well. What we do is give advise to fellow addicts, since we have all had a day 1 as well.
With that said, why are you waiting until Friday? If you dump your cans now, you'll be over the physical withdrawal by Friday, and can enjoy the weekend nicotine free. What if one of the dips you have today is the one that causes your cells to mutate?
There are some bad ass female quitters here, quit today and I'll help you get in contact with them if they don't beat me to it.
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Hello all. Yes, I am a woman who chews. No one but my husband and kids know (that I know of). And now you. I've chewed for around 20 years now, and hate to be able to say that. My husband and I have both set a quit date for this Friday. I am already stressing about it. I am and have been treated for depression and anxiety, and that has been my reason for not wanting to quit. Why add more stress right? Well, it's a lie and an excuse. I am done being a slave to the tin can. I am scared, but determined. Thanks for reading. Thanks for not judging. :-)
Amy, we have two bad-ass quitters in our October Group that are women. I understand being a ninja also... I was one as well. Whats stopping your from prolonging quitting. I think December group closes today! Dump da can and post day one for us, you got this and there isn't a need to wait until the 26th. Today can be the first day of freedom, and you will have the nicotine out of your system by your quit day! Come on quit with me Amy, join the ranks of the bad ass quitters here!
Elton
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Amyjokeene,
Welcome to KTC. Congratulations on your decision to quit but instead of Friday, quit today you will have 5 days under your belt by then!
Read everything on this site and prepare for the nicotine to mess with your minds. Arm yourself with candy, seeds and fake chew.
Don't pass this addiction to your kids and don't leave them without a mom (and dad).
This site is the nectar to your quit, read, post, live chat, exchange phone numbers!
PM for digits, you can do this!
Charles
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OK, so where do I get fake chew? And what is the best? Grizzly Wintergreen is my poison. Today? Can I do this? What about Nicorette gum or lozenges? I know this is a no nicotine site, so don't yell at me. I wanna be a bad ass quitter, and want to be successful. I have tried to quit so many times cold turkey. My heart rate is already increasing just thinking about this. Loving the support though.
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OK, so where do I get fake chew? And what is the best? Grizzly Wintergreen is my poison. Today? Can I do this? What about Nicorette gum or lozenges? I know this is a no nicotine site, so don't yell at me. I wanna be a bad ass quitter, and want to be successful. I have tried to quit so many times cold turkey. My heart rate is already increasing just thinking about this. Loving the support though.
Walmart has fake chew. Below has reviews and listing for various types:
http://www.killthecan.org/your-quit/smo ... ernatives/ (http://www.killthecan.org/your-quit/smokeless-alternatives/)
No nicotine patches or gum, it is just going to prolong your addition and enable you to relapse.
Drink tons of water and exercise.
Charles
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OK, so where do I get fake chew? And what is the best? Grizzly Wintergreen is my poison. Today? Can I do this? What about Nicorette gum or lozenges? I know this is a no nicotine site, so don't yell at me. I wanna be a bad ass quitter, and want to be successful. I have tried to quit so many times cold turkey. My heart rate is already increasing just thinking about this. Loving the support though.
Bad Ass = Cold Turkey.
No patches, lozinges, gum. No nicotine means just that. None.
Walmart sometimes carry Smokey Mountain. But get seeds, sugar free gum, toothpicks, straws, beef jerkey, jaw breakers, ANYTHING that doesn't have nicotine.
It's going to suck, but you have to do it. If I can, you can.
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I've never done any of the fake stuff so I can't lead you there.
As for nicotine replacement... You answered your own question. This is a no nicotine site... Period. I know it's scary. Damn... We ALL know because we've all been through it or are going through it now. We did it... So can you. You are bigger than the drug you're addicted to. Time to take a step up, believe it, and act like it. Freedom is here for the taking.
You.
Can.
Do.
This!
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OK, so where do I get fake chew? And what is the best? Grizzly Wintergreen is my poison. Today? Can I do this? What about Nicorette gum or lozenges? I know this is a no nicotine site, so don't yell at me. I wanna be a bad ass quitter, and want to be successful. I have tried to quit so many times cold turkey. My heart rate is already increasing just thinking about this. Loving the support though.
you can get the fake chew at walmart, or online. look up smokey mountain. walmart carries that brand. Oregon mint snuff company has some fake chew you can get at meijer stores if you have any close to you. But the one advice I can give, and these guys are the ones who showed me the way, it to quit today and start posting roll. Dive into KTC and make it a daily part of your life. Get numbers, post roll, read intros, etc. One day at a time. Post roll first thing and be accountable to yourself and all of us here at KTC. Don't wait. It is not worth it. Bottom line. No better day than today to quit.
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OK, so where do I get fake chew? And what is the best? Grizzly Wintergreen is my poison. Today? Can I do this? What about Nicorette gum or lozenges? I know this is a no nicotine site, so don't yell at me. I wanna be a bad ass quitter, and want to be successful. I have tried to quit so many times cold turkey. My heart rate is already increasing just thinking about this. Loving the support though.
Bad Ass = Cold Turkey.
No patches, lozinges, gum. No nicotine means just that. None.
Walmart sometimes carry Smokey Mountain. But get seeds, sugar free gum, toothpicks, straws, beef jerkey, jaw breakers, ANYTHING that doesn't have nicotine.
It's going to suck, but you have to do it. If I can, you can.
Not worth the wait Amy. cold turkey! Get some fake and some seeds. It is all that you need!
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It won't be any easier Friday, in fact, you'll be dreading Friday. Be 5 days into your quit by Friday instead.
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It won't be any easier Friday, in fact, you'll be dreading Friday. Be 5 days into your quit by Friday instead.
Im with you TW, why mess up your weekend. pull the band aid off now and get to healing..
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Amy,
As has been pointed out above, make it today. Tell your husband that you and he are quit right now, and dump out any existing cans. As far as alternatives Smokey Mountain is available at Casey's General Stores as well as WalMart among other retailers. You may also find that Lifesavers mints, Redhots, Hot Tamales, Cinnamon discs and sunflower seeds are a great alternative. Also, drink lots of water, if you can pass a restroom without the urge to cross your legs and feel as though you are about to piss on everything then you are not drinking enough water. This may sound fucked up but it does work, I myself didn't use fake until about week 2 or so.
Also, postponing your quit date can often cause a "planned" cave date. No ways out, no retreat,; just do it now. The first week is the worst, so why louse up a weekend with making that part of it?
I quit with you and I urge you and your husband to dump your cans in the toilet, piss on them then flush...it is quite liberating.
Pinched
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It won't be any easier Friday, in fact, you'll be dreading Friday. Be 5 days into your quit by Friday instead.
Im with you TW, why mess up your weekend. pull the band aid off now and get to healing..
Amy, you need to understand that over the past month, we have seen this play twice. In both cases we got an intro, a planned quit date, the assorted, "No time like today" from all the vets and when the delayed date came.....POOF.
Do us all a favor and do it now because you don't want your intro to become the following:
topic/10477849/1/ (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/10477849/1/)
topic/10524163/1/ (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/10524163/1/)
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OK. Going to detox yoga class in 40 minutes - then off to Walmart/Meijers to buy one each of a can of un-nicotine everything. You guys are ruthless. No time like today. Will check in later and most likely hourly in the coming weeks and months. Really? Someone will talk to me if I need it? Like on the phone?
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OK. Going to detox yoga class in 40 minutes - then off to Walmart/Meijers to buy one each of a can of un-nicotine everything. You guys are ruthless. No time like today. Will check in later and most likely hourly in the coming weeks and months. Really? Someone will talk to me if I need it? Like on the phone?
My number is in your pm box. Collect and use as many numbers as you can here. Welcome!
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OK. Going to detox yoga class in 40 minutes - then off to Walmart/Meijers to buy one each of a can of un-nicotine everything. You guys are ruthless. No time like today. Will check in later and most likely hourly in the coming weeks and months. Really? Someone will talk to me if I need it? Like on the phone?
like on the phone is correct. you will find my # in your pm as well. text or call whatever, by whatever means to put a check in the Quit Nic column.
evan~
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OK. Going to detox yoga class in 40 minutes - then off to Walmart/Meijers to buy one each of a can of un-nicotine everything. You guys are ruthless. No time like today. Will check in later and most likely hourly in the coming weeks and months. Really? Someone will talk to me if I need it? Like on the phone?
My number is in your pm box. Collect and use as many numbers as you can here. Welcome!
Atta girl, you will be the youngest child in December since this is the last day to join their group. The youngest always gets spoiled.
There is live chat as well as sharing your phone number (digits is the slang here) with other quitters so you can call or simply text each other for support. Only give digits out in PMs, never on an open forum like we are on now.
Now change your quit date in your profile, get over to December and post roll!!(You will figure out what roll is as soon as you head over there, instructions are there). It is a good thing to be the last in a quit group almost everyone in your quit group has suffered thru the first 72 hours and will be there to support you.
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OK. Going to detox yoga class in 40 minutes - then off to Walmart/Meijers to buy one each of a can of un-nicotine everything. You guys are ruthless. No time like today. Will check in later and most likely hourly in the coming weeks and months. Really? Someone will talk to me if I need it? Like on the phone?
My number is in your pm box. Collect and use as many numbers as you can here. Welcome!
Atta girl, you will be the youngest child in December since this is the last day to join their group. The youngest always gets spoiled.
There is live chat as well as sharing your phone number (digits is the slang here) with other quitters so you can call or simply text each other for support. Only give digits out in PMs, never on an open forum like we are on now.
my digits are waiting. grab as many as you can. great choice. start now. weekend will be so much better.
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Make sure you invite E C to the yoga class, he has awesome leg warmers.
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Talk about support. You've only been online for couple hours and you're already on your second page in your intro. That is awesome.
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Amy ,
Congrats on your quit. You have a lot of Badass quitters in your corner. Post roll evryday and watch that corner grow. We are all here for you and to help you. Proud to quit with you today.
Sir Nope
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Hi Amy, fellow female quitter here. Glad you've decided to drop the idea of a future quit date. If you're going to get it done, might as well do it now. You've got this and if you need anything, let me know!
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OK. Going to detox yoga class in 40 minutes - then off to Walmart/Meijers to buy one each of a can of un-nicotine everything. You guys are ruthless. No time like today. Will check in later and most likely hourly in the coming weeks and months. Really? Someone will talk to me if I need it? Like on the phone?
My number is in your pm box. Collect and use as many numbers as you can here. Welcome!
Atta girl, you will be the youngest child in December since this is the last day to join their group. The youngest always gets spoiled.
There is live chat as well as sharing your phone number (digits is the slang here) with other quitters so you can call or simply text each other for support. Only give digits out in PMs, never on an open forum like we are on now.
Now change your quit date in your profile, get over to December and post roll!!(You will figure out what roll is as soon as you head over there, instructions are there). It is a good thing to be the last in a quit group almost everyone in your quit group has suffered thru the first 72 hours and will be there to support you.
Live Chat (http://chat.killthecan.org/) is a great idea if you want to share experiences or need help working through a tough time, so is having numbers.
Congrats on making the best decision of your life.
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Ok. Feeling the love here. Changed my quit date to today and I'm done. Now how do I find this December group?
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Ok. Feeling the love here. Changed my quit date to today and I'm done. Now how do I find this December group?
Amy Jo Keene I hope you look back on this intro in a few months and realize what a tremendous decision you just made. One day at a time from here on out. I also sent you my digits via pm. Call when you need the a hand.
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Hi Amy, fellow female quitter here. Glad you've decided to drop the idea of a future quit date. If you're going to get it done, might as well do it now. You've got this and if you need anything, let me know!
I am also a female quitter. You can do this. Check your inbox for my digits. So proud of you for taking the first step and you will find it is
SO worth it!
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Hi Amy, fellow female quitter here. Glad you've decided to drop the idea of a future quit date. If you're going to get it done, might as well do it now. You've got this and if you need anything, let me know!
I am also a female quitter. You can do this. Check your inbox for my digits. So proud of you for taking the first step and you will find it is
SO worth it!
Question: Is your husband quitting as well?
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amy,
im part of your quit group. hows it going? Im on day 3 and doin alright
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Hi Amy, fellow female quitter here. Glad you've decided to drop the idea of a future quit date. If you're going to get it done, might as well do it now. You've got this and if you need anything, let me know!
I am also a female quitter. You can do this. Check your inbox for my digits. So proud of you for taking the first step and you will find it is
SO worth it!
Question: Is your husband quitting as well?
He is. Not yet he says. It won't be long I bet.
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Hi Amy, fellow female quitter here. Glad you've decided to drop the idea of a future quit date. If you're going to get it done, might as well do it now. You've got this and if you need anything, let me know!
I am also a female quitter. You can do this. Check your inbox for my digits. So proud of you for taking the first step and you will find it is
SO worth it!
Question: Is your husband quitting as well?
He is. Not yet he says. It won't be long I bet.
You should tell him to nut up or find the testicular fortitude to quit like his bad ass of a wife has!
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Hi Amy, fellow female quitter here. Glad you've decided to drop the idea of a future quit date. If you're going to get it done, might as well do it now. You've got this and if you need anything, let me know!
I am also a female quitter. You can do this. Check your inbox for my digits. So proud of you for taking the first step and you will find it is
SO worth it!
Question: Is your husband quitting as well?
He is. Not yet he says. It won't be long I bet.
You should tell him to nut up or find the testicular fortitude to quit like his bad ass of a wife has!
Haha - I do have him calling me bad ass right now. I think he hates it and wants to be bad ass too. Won't be long and I will let ya'll know when it happens. Will try to get him on here but he's not much of a computer guy.
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Hi Amy, fellow female quitter here. Glad you've decided to drop the idea of a future quit date. If you're going to get it done, might as well do it now. You've got this and if you need anything, let me know!
I am also a female quitter. You can do this. Check your inbox for my digits. So proud of you for taking the first step and you will find it is
SO worth it!
Question: Is your husband quitting as well?
He is. Not yet he says. It won't be long I bet.
You should tell him to nut up or find the testicular fortitude to quit like his bad ass of a wife has!
Haha - I do have him calling me bad ass right now. I think he hates it and wants to be bad ass too. Won't be long and I will let ya'll know when it happens. Will try to get him on here but he's not much of a computer guy.
Yeah like we're all Bill Gates types here.
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Day three and hanging in there. Today is just as sucky as yesterday, and looking forward to the day that does not suck. Having some intestinal problems, I think from the herbal chew? Either that or all the gum I am chewing. Slept like crap last night, kept waking up drenched in sweat. Other than that, I am pissy to most everyone which is not my nature. No one at work knows I chewed, so I can't blame it on the quit. They must think I'm having a particularly bad time of month. Lol. Bring on day 4 with December and all the other quitters. Love all your messages in my inbox, support has been instrumental in this quit.
God bless you all!
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Hi Amy, fellow female quitter here. Glad you've decided to drop the idea of a future quit date. If you're going to get it done, might as well do it now. You've got this and if you need anything, let me know!
I am also a female quitter. You can do this. Check your inbox for my digits. So proud of you for taking the first step and you will find it is
SO worth it!
Question: Is your husband quitting as well?
He is. Not yet he says. It won't be long I bet.
You should tell him to nut up or find the testicular fortitude to quit like his bad ass of a wife has!
Haha - I do have him calling me bad ass right now. I think he hates it and wants to be bad ass too. Won't be long and I will let ya'll know when it happens. Will try to get him on here but he's not much of a computer guy.
Yeah like we're all Bill Gates types here.
I mean to say that the only thing he ever uses the computer for is to look for motorcycle parts. I have to get on him to check his email every few weeks. Haha
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Day three and hanging in there. Today is just as sucky as yesterday, and looking forward to the day that does not suck. Having some intestinal problems, I think from the herbal chew? Either that or all the gum I am chewing. Slept like crap last night, kept waking up drenched in sweat. Other than that, I am pissy to most everyone which is not my nature. No one at work knows I chewed, so I can't blame it on the quit. They must think I'm having a particularly bad time of month. Lol. Bring on day 4 with December and all the other quitters. Love all your messages in my inbox, support has been instrumental in this quit.
God bless you all!
It's going to suck for a while.
And then one day, it won't.
Stay strong.
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Day three and hanging in there. Today is just as sucky as yesterday, and looking forward to the day that does not suck. Having some intestinal problems, I think from the herbal chew? Either that or all the gum I am chewing. Slept like crap last night, kept waking up drenched in sweat. Other than that, I am pissy to most everyone which is not my nature. No one at work knows I chewed, so I can't blame it on the quit. They must think I'm having a particularly bad time of month. Lol. Bring on day 4 with December and all the other quitters. Love all your messages in my inbox, support has been instrumental in this quit.
God bless you all!
It's going to suck for a while.
And then one day, it won't.
Stay strong.
No other option. Thanks Nolaq.
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Day three and hanging in there. Today is just as sucky as yesterday, and looking forward to the day that does not suck. Having some intestinal problems, I think from the herbal chew? Either that or all the gum I am chewing. Slept like crap last night, kept waking up drenched in sweat. Other than that, I am pissy to most everyone which is not my nature. No one at work knows I chewed, so I can't blame it on the quit. They must think I'm having a particularly bad time of month. Lol. Bring on day 4 with December and all the other quitters. Love all your messages in my inbox, support has been instrumental in this quit.
God bless you all!
It's going to suck for a while.
And then one day, it won't.
Stay strong.
No other option. Thanks Nolaq.
Maybe I missed it. Is your husband a KTC quitter too? You are going to have times where you need to vent, rage, or talk to someone because your craving will take away reasonable thinking.
Put the digits in your phone, when its tough, the tough make a call to a fellow quitter. Make the call and ask for permission to cave before you ever act on a crave, trigger, impulse. Just talk to someone.
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Day three and hanging in there. Today is just as sucky as yesterday, and looking forward to the day that does not suck. Having some intestinal problems, I think from the herbal chew? Either that or all the gum I am chewing. Slept like crap last night, kept waking up drenched in sweat. Other than that, I am pissy to most everyone which is not my nature. No one at work knows I chewed, so I can't blame it on the quit. They must think I'm having a particularly bad time of month. Lol. Bring on day 4 with December and all the other quitters. Love all your messages in my inbox, support has been instrumental in this quit.
God bless you all!
It's going to suck for a while.
And then one day, it won't.
Stay strong.
No other option. Thanks Nolaq.
Maybe I missed it. Is your husband a KTC quitter too? You are going to have times where you need to vent, rage, or talk to someone because your craving will take away reasonable thinking.
Put the digits in your phone, when its tough, the tough make a call to a fellow quitter. Make the call and ask for permission to cave before you ever act on a crave, trigger, impulse. Just talk to someone.
He has not quit yet. Soon I hope he makes the decision. I know my husband and it won't be long. Thanks, have lots of digits for support. It's awesome here.
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Day three and hanging in there. Today is just as sucky as yesterday, and looking forward to the day that does not suck. Having some intestinal problems, I think from the herbal chew? Either that or all the gum I am chewing. Slept like crap last night, kept waking up drenched in sweat. Other than that, I am pissy to most everyone which is not my nature. No one at work knows I chewed, so I can't blame it on the quit. They must think I'm having a particularly bad time of month. Lol. Bring on day 4 with December and all the other quitters. Love all your messages in my inbox, support has been instrumental in this quit.
God bless you all!
It's going to suck for a while.
And then one day, it won't.
Stay strong.
No other option. Thanks Nolaq.
Maybe I missed it. Is your husband a KTC quitter too? You are going to have times where you need to vent, rage, or talk to someone because your craving will take away reasonable thinking.
Put the digits in your phone, when its tough, the tough make a call to a fellow quitter. Make the call and ask for permission to cave before you ever act on a crave, trigger, impulse. Just talk to someone.
He has not quit yet. Soon I hope he makes the decision. I know my husband and it won't be long. Thanks, have lots of digits for support. It's awesome here.
Sooner the better. Regardless though - YOU STAY QUIT.
Makes it a LOT more motivating when he kicks it. Also gives us something to hang over his head :)
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Welcome to the site MJK. It is great to have you here. Stay the course. I remember being right where you are. Night sweats, irritability, all that. I found the site on day 4 and learned that the symptoms of quitting were all normal AND TEMPORARY. It gets better, I promise. Give it some time, your system has a lot of healing to do.
All the support in the world is there for the asking. Use it.
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Hello
Female Ninja Dipper here....well I was. I'm quit. 270 days quit to be exact. My husband chews....daily....often....in front of me. You should have been there when he asked me to go to the store and get him a can of Copenhagen. HAHA....almost his last day on earth.
Anyway, put your thick skin on girl. Quitting is hard but you can do this......I guarantee it. It's easy.
Post roll. Keep your promise. Repeat. Simply - keep that shit out of your mouth :)
Let me know what you need help with.....I'm here to help.
Until I hear back, I'll just be here quitting like a girl.
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Welcome to the site MJK. It is great to have you here. Stay the course. I remember being right where you are. Night sweats, irritability, all that. I found the site on day 4 and learned that the symptoms of quitting were all normal AND TEMPORARY. It gets better, I promise. Give it some time, your system has a lot of healing to do.
All the support in the world is there for the asking. Use it.
Thanks much!
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Hello
Female Ninja Dipper here....well I was. I'm quit. 270 days quit to be exact. My husband chews....daily....often....in front of me. You should have been there when he asked me to go to the store and get him a can of Copenhagen. HAHA....almost his last day on earth.
Anyway, put your thick skin on girl. Quitting is hard but you can do this......I guarantee it. It's easy.
Post roll. Keep your promise. Repeat. Simply - keep that shit out of your mouth :)
Let me know what you need help with.....I'm here to help.
Until I hear back, I'll just be here quitting like a girl.
Great to hear from you! It's kinda nice not to feel alone as I honestly didn't think there were any other women that chewed. Kinda helps, if you know what I mean? Thank you for reaching out and the offer.
And lol on the requested chew run for hubby.
Thick skin on. :-)
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Day three and hanging in there. Today is just as sucky as yesterday, and looking forward to the day that does not suck. Having some intestinal problems, I think from the herbal chew? Either that or all the gum I am chewing. Slept like crap last night, kept waking up drenched in sweat. Other than that, I am pissy to most everyone which is not my nature. No one at work knows I chewed, so I can't blame it on the quit. They must think I'm having a particularly bad time of month. Lol. Bring on day 4 with December and all the other quitters. Love all your messages in my inbox, support has been instrumental in this quit.
God bless you all!
It's going to suck for a while.
And then one day, it won't.
Stay strong.
No other option. Thanks Nolaq.
Maybe I missed it. Is your husband a KTC quitter too? You are going to have times where you need to vent, rage, or talk to someone because your craving will take away reasonable thinking.
Put the digits in your phone, when its tough, the tough make a call to a fellow quitter. Make the call and ask for permission to cave before you ever act on a crave, trigger, impulse. Just talk to someone.
He has not quit yet. Soon I hope he makes the decision. I know my husband and it won't be long. Thanks, have lots of digits for support. It's awesome here.
Sooner the better. Regardless though - YOU STAY QUIT.
Makes it a LOT more motivating when he kicks it. Also gives us something to hang over his head :)
Amy Jo, all of those symptoms are unfortunately typical of nicotine withdrawal. My coworkers knew that I chewed and tolerated my pissiness on multiple previous stoppages. The intestinal changes are also typical and the fake chew and/or gum may or may not have anything to do with them. Your body and brain have many changes to make as they heal over the next 100 days. The American diet is notorious for being fiber deficient, so don't be afraid to take a fiber supplement like Metamucil. Lots of water has already been recommended, and eating healthy is always good. Revel in how much better this weekend is going to be for you than if you waited until tomorrow to quit!
P.S. I don't know how much reading you have done so far, but you may find this helpful
What to expect when you quit (http://www.killthecan.org/your-quit/what-to-expect-when-you-quit-dipping/)
Symptoms of nicotine withdrawal (http://www.killthecan.org/your-quit/symptoms-of-quitting-dip-chew/)
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Day three and hanging in there. Today is just as sucky as yesterday, and looking forward to the day that does not suck. Having some intestinal problems, I think from the herbal chew? Either that or all the gum I am chewing. Slept like crap last night, kept waking up drenched in sweat. Other than that, I am pissy to most everyone which is not my nature. No one at work knows I chewed, so I can't blame it on the quit. They must think I'm having a particularly bad time of month. Lol. Bring on day 4 with December and all the other quitters. Love all your messages in my inbox, support has been instrumental in this quit.
God bless you all!
It's going to suck for a while.
And then one day, it won't.
Stay strong.
No other option. Thanks Nolaq.
Maybe I missed it. Is your husband a KTC quitter too? You are going to have times where you need to vent, rage, or talk to someone because your craving will take away reasonable thinking.
Put the digits in your phone, when its tough, the tough make a call to a fellow quitter. Make the call and ask for permission to cave before you ever act on a crave, trigger, impulse. Just talk to someone.
He has not quit yet. Soon I hope he makes the decision. I know my husband and it won't be long. Thanks, have lots of digits for support. It's awesome here.
Sooner the better. Regardless though - YOU STAY QUIT.
Makes it a LOT more motivating when he kicks it. Also gives us something to hang over his head :)
Amy Jo, all of those symptoms are unfortunately typical of nicotine withdrawal. My coworkers knew that I chewed and tolerated my pissiness on multiple previous stoppages. The intestinal changes are also typical and the fake chew and/or gum may or may not have anything to do with them. Your body and brain have many changes to make as they heal over the next 100 days. The American diet is notorious for being fiber deficient, so don't be afraid to take a fiber supplement like Metamucil. Lots of water has already been recommended, and eating healthy is always good. Revel in how much better this weekend is going to be for you than if you waited until tomorrow to quit!
P.S. I don't know how much reading you have done so far, but you may find this helpful
What to expect when you quit (http://www.killthecan.org/your-quit/what-to-expect-when-you-quit-dipping/)
Symptoms of nicotine withdrawal (http://www.killthecan.org/your-quit/symptoms-of-quitting-dip-chew/)
Ma'am, I respect your decision to quit. It takes courage, I especially understand the depression and anxiety connection. I invite you to read my HOF linked below. Also come to the wildcard "anxiety depression" thread. You are not alone with those issues in this group either. The freedom of being nicotine free is so very much worth the withdrawal that seems unbearable. I put off quitting for over 40 years, what a fool I WAS. I'm 900+ days free and hold my quit as one of my most guarded things. Pm me if I can help.
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Day four. Bad.
Started out that way and kept on rolling. Mid morning I had a major panic attack that brought me to my knees. Couldn't breathe and my chest hurt like hell. If I had never suffered from a panic attack before, I would swear that I was having a heart attack. Well like I knew it would, it passed. Some great convo on pre-HOF December with some bad ass quitters, with some good advice and some more digits to add to my growing collection. Man, you guys know what you're talking about. I have yet to come up with something that someone does not have an answer for. I am leaning heavily on my heavenly Father, with whom I can do all things.
My heart is touched by all who are genuine here - telling me funny stories when I need them and scary stories when I need that too. It's tough love, and I know I've only been here a few days but I feel like I have made some friends for life. Some pretty amazing people in here.
I am quit with all of you bad assers today and everyday! I vow in front of you all that my days will be forever without the nic bastard! I AM DONE WITH IT! I will need help and I will ask when I need it. BUT I will not fail myself, my family or my friends.
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Amy
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You are doing great. You Can and will do this!!!
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Day 5 is starting out pretty good! My biggest complaint this morning is a sore mouth. Like everything in it. Gums, tongue, roof of mouth, throat. It pretty much hurts to talk. Well, maybe I will be less likely to shove stuff in it, as I have been eating like there's no tomorrow. Good thing I exercise - I've only gained .5# all week. Keeping a close eye on that in addition to being a quitter.
My mood seems more level today than in the past 5 days. That makes me happy too, cause I was all over the place. Crying sad, crying happy. Sometimes I didn't know if I was sad or happy.... I think my fog has lifted, for the moment anyway.
Thankful for the encouragement to stop the day I came on here, today was to be my quit date and I am that much further ahead. Husband not quit yet but I don't see it around - been calling him Ninja haha. Thinking about telling him he can go get his new 2014 Road Glide if he quits now. Talk about incentive huh? I'm such a good little wifey. :-)
It's a great day to be alive and nic free.
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You are doing great. You Can and will do this!!!
Thank you razd!
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Thanks for keeping us up to date! You'll read your intro in a couple of months and be proud of the journey! Quit all day with you.
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You are in the thick of it AJK. Enjoy the good moments and days. Use them to keep your tools sharp. When cravings and temptations come, BE READY. The nic bitch does NOT go away that easily, she will come a whispering. You can bet on it. 5 days is wicked awesome and should be celebrated BUT, do not get complacent. Avoid alcohol for a while. This will keep you in the driver seat.
Keep it up.
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You are in the thick of it AJK. Enjoy the good moments and days. Use them to keep your tools sharp. When cravings and temptations come, BE READY. The nic bitch does NOT go away that easily, she will come a whispering. You can bet on it. 5 days is wicked awesome and should be celebrated BUT, do not get complacent. Avoid alcohol for a while. This will keep you in the driver seat.
Keep it up.
What ^^^said AmyJo.
Press on sister. ODAAT...you got this.
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6th day. Again not so bad. Mouth and throat still sore, but getting better. I notice that food tastes really dull. Like hardly any flavor.
Something I thought was interesting: after yoga class I always grab a dove chocolate on my way out the door. Dudes prolly don't know this, but every one is wrapped separately with a message inside. My message was "think of something that makes you smile", and the first thing I thought of was being nic free.
Heading in the right direction, and even made some new friends in may mayhem 2014. If you are reading this and are new, don't be afraid to check out more seasoned quitters.
Here's to another day closer to hof!
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6th day. Again not so bad. Mouth and throat still sore, but getting better. I notice that food tastes really dull. Like hardly any flavor.
Something I thought was interesting: after yoga class I always grab a dove chocolate on my way out the door. Dudes prolly don't know this, but every one is wrapped separately with a message inside. My message was "think of something that makes you smile", and the first thing I thought of was being nic free.
Heading in the right direction, and even made some new friends in may mayhem 2014. If you are reading this and are new, don't be afraid to check out more seasoned quitters.
Here's to another day closer to hof!
Saw your day 7 post. You're killing it Amy. Sometimes bad things happen for a reason. Never forget the pain of your day 4. You're past that now. Quit one day at a time.
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Day 7! Man its been a long mfing week. As long as the days don't get as bad as day 4, I can do this! Today still craving but there are longer periods of time between. Keeping myself busy with walking/hiking/yoga and starting a knitting project this afternoon. I've gained 5 lbs this week and not thrilled about it. Going to be munching on carrot sticks and not hot tamales this week. Upping the proteins and veggies. Water is my beverage choice for years anyway, but drinking more now than usual.
I am already looking back on this journal with fondness. Think I'll keep it up for awhile.
:-)
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You can do this. You cannot imagine how good it is going to get...
I wrote these single/?p=1101493t=1006646 (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=1101493&t=1006646) single/?p=1102558t=1006646 (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=1102558&t=1006646) early on in my quit.
I agree with using the intro as your journal... It is not only helpful now, but an invaluable look back when you become "mature" in quit.
When you have bad days remember it is going to get FAR better. Freedom is truly awesome.
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Amy,
Keep drinking the water and the koolaid here on KTC. Bottom line it will suck till it doesn't but with KTC as your guide you can and will quit. If my dumb ass can quit then I know anyone can. Just keep repeating to yourself....ODAAT or One minute if need be.
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... I always grab a dove chocolate on my way out the door. Dudes prolly don't know this, but every one is wrapped separately with a message inside...
Hilarious! Funny that we dudes don't know it and funny you know we don't.
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... I always grab a dove chocolate on my way out the door. Dudes prolly don't know this, but every one is wrapped separately with a message inside...
Hilarious! Funny that we dudes don't know it and funny you know we don't.
I like me some Amy. Keep the foot on the quit accelerator and post +1s.
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Day 8. Pretty good!
I was a bit worried going into my first weekend without, but had a plan of keeping busy - not doing regular things that would cause a trigger. It worked, and the weekend was fine. On top of that, I fasted/prayed most of the day yesterday. Only water. It was amazing as I totally got peace for the first time in a week. Busy week this week - work is crazy hectic, lots of yoga classes scheduled and traveling near the end of the week to visit my Mom and Son downstate. Taking ODAAT!
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Your doing great lady! Im here if you need me :)
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As you know this is my first day, I saw you said you are being treated for anxiety, well I am, too. That was part of the reason I have been putting off quitting. I got to thinking about it though and I think that after a while having quit will actually help with my anxiety. I used it as a crutch and and was held captive by it. I am trying to look at it as one LESS thing to worry about
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This poem by Wendell Berry illustrates the healing process beautifully.
I go among trees and sit still.
All my stirring becomes quiet
around me like circles on water.
My tasks lie in their places
Where I left them, asleep like cattleÂ…
Then what I am afraid of comes,
I live for a while in its sight.
What I fear in it leaves it,
And the fear of it leaves me.
It sings, and I hear its song.
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Day 9. I have a confession to make.
I didn't throw away all my chew when I quit. I saved an unopened can, and placed it in my bag for when the crisis situation arose. I really thought that there would be a time in the first few days that I would cave. I thought about that can many times over the first few days of my quit. If it wasn't for the daily promise I was posting, and all the bad ass quitters in my corner - hands down I would have caved.
I can't remember what day I forgot thinking about it, still in a bit of a fog, but I know this today. I am quit. I will succeed with this program because I know I am not alone. I did not cave even with the can near me all those days when I thought I would have killed for some.
I flushed it a few minutes ago and watched it spiral. I said goodbye forever, along with a prayer that it wasn't already too late.
Kill the Can, I thank you and all who make this happen. For all you who reach out to me and support me - so grateful.
You have all saved my life.
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Go you!!
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Day 9. I have a confession to make.
I didn't throw away all my chew when I quit. I saved an unopened can, and placed it in my bag for when the crisis situation arose. I really thought that there would be a time in the first few days that I would cave. I thought about that can many times over the first few days of my quit. If it wasn't for the daily promise I was posting, and all the bad ass quitters in my corner - hands down I would have caved.
I can't remember what day I forgot thinking about it, still in a bit of a fog, but I know this today. I am quit. I will succeed with this program because I know I am not alone. I did not cave even with the can near me all those days when I thought I would have killed for some.
I flushed it a few minutes ago and watched it spiral. I said goodbye forever, along with a prayer that it wasn't already too late.
Kill the Can, I thank you and all who make this happen. For all you who reach out to me and support me - so grateful.
You have all saved my life.
I don't think I've formally welcomed you to the fold, so welcome! Glad you've found us and found success in your battle against this terrible addiction.
9 days ago your addict brain convinced you to get and keep a stash can for emergencies or for "just in case." Now that you've put 9 days worth of daylight between you and the nicotine, plus a lot of interaction here on KTC, you realized what a hugely, massively, monumentally bad idea that was. Keeping an emergency stash can is like carrying around a bullet in your pocket "just in case" you need to shoot yourself. When we quit, we quit for good. You know that now.
I kind of wish you had taken some photos or even a video of the water burial. Watching people dump their tins in the shitter has turned into a bit of a fetish for me as of late.
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Day 9. I have a confession to make.
I didn't throw away all my chew when I quit. I saved an unopened can, and placed it in my bag for when the crisis situation arose. I really thought that there would be a time in the first few days that I would cave. I thought about that can many times over the first few days of my quit. If it wasn't for the daily promise I was posting, and all the bad ass quitters in my corner - hands down I would have caved.
I can't remember what day I forgot thinking about it, still in a bit of a fog, but I know this today. I am quit. I will succeed with this program because I know I am not alone. I did not cave even with the can near me all those days when I thought I would have killed for some.
I flushed it a few minutes ago and watched it spiral. I said goodbye forever, along with a prayer that it wasn't already too late.
Kill the Can, I thank you and all who make this happen. For all you who reach out to me and support me - so grateful.
You have all saved my life.
I don't think I've formally welcomed you to the fold, so welcome! Glad you've found us and found success in your battle against this terrible addiction.
9 days ago your addict brain convinced you to get and keep a stash can for emergencies or for "just in case." Now that you've put 9 days worth of daylight between you and the nicotine, plus a lot of interaction here on KTC, you realized what a hugely, massively, monumentally bad idea that was. Keeping an emergency stash can is like carrying around a bullet in your pocket "just in case" you need to shoot yourself. When we quit, we quit for good. You know that now.
I kind of wish you had taken some photos or even a video of the water burial. Watching people dump their tins in the shitter has turned into a bit of a fetish for me as of late.
Thanks Tuco, I really feel liberated! I've been a slave to that crap for so long! FREEDOM IS MINE! What an amazing feeling it is. Yes sir.
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Day 9. I have a confession to make.
I didn't throw away all my chew when I quit. I saved an unopened can, and placed it in my bag for when the crisis situation arose. I really thought that there would be a time in the first few days that I would cave. I thought about that can many times over the first few days of my quit. If it wasn't for the daily promise I was posting, and all the bad ass quitters in my corner - hands down I would have caved.
I can't remember what day I forgot thinking about it, still in a bit of a fog, but I know this today. I am quit. I will succeed with this program because I know I am not alone. I did not cave even with the can near me all those days when I thought I would have killed for some.
I flushed it a few minutes ago and watched it spiral. I said goodbye forever, along with a prayer that it wasn't already too late.
Kill the Can, I thank you and all who make this happen. For all you who reach out to me and support me - so grateful.
You have all saved my life.
I don't think I've formally welcomed you to the fold, so welcome! Glad you've found us and found success in your battle against this terrible addiction.
9 days ago your addict brain convinced you to get and keep a stash can for emergencies or for "just in case." Now that you've put 9 days worth of daylight between you and the nicotine, plus a lot of interaction here on KTC, you realized what a hugely, massively, monumentally bad idea that was. Keeping an emergency stash can is like carrying around a bullet in your pocket "just in case" you need to shoot yourself. When we quit, we quit for good. You know that now.
I kind of wish you had taken some photos or even a video of the water burial. Watching people dump their tins in the shitter has turned into a bit of a fetish for me as of late.
Thanks Tuco, I really feel liberated! I've been a slave to that crap for so long! FREEDOM IS MINE! What an amazing feeling it is. Yes sir.
Amy - These are referred to as trophy cans. I had one as well. Not too sure what day I dumped it but you should do the same. Video it and post a link for Tuco so he can rub one out.
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Day 9. I have a confession to make.
I didn't throw away all my chew when I quit. I saved an unopened can, and placed it in my bag for when the crisis situation arose. I really thought that there would be a time in the first few days that I would cave. I thought about that can many times over the first few days of my quit. If it wasn't for the daily promise I was posting, and all the bad ass quitters in my corner - hands down I would have caved.
I can't remember what day I forgot thinking about it, still in a bit of a fog, but I know this today. I am quit. I will succeed with this program because I know I am not alone. I did not cave even with the can near me all those days when I thought I would have killed for some.
I flushed it a few minutes ago and watched it spiral. I said goodbye forever, along with a prayer that it wasn't already too late.
Kill the Can, I thank you and all who make this happen. For all you who reach out to me and support me - so grateful.
You have all saved my life.
I don't think I've formally welcomed you to the fold, so welcome! Glad you've found us and found success in your battle against this terrible addiction.
9 days ago your addict brain convinced you to get and keep a stash can for emergencies or for "just in case." Now that you've put 9 days worth of daylight between you and the nicotine, plus a lot of interaction here on KTC, you realized what a hugely, massively, monumentally bad idea that was. Keeping an emergency stash can is like carrying around a bullet in your pocket "just in case" you need to shoot yourself. When we quit, we quit for good. You know that now.
I kind of wish you had taken some photos or even a video of the water burial. Watching people dump their tins in the shitter has turned into a bit of a fetish for me as of late.
Thanks Tuco, I really feel liberated! I've been a slave to that crap for so long! FREEDOM IS MINE! What an amazing feeling it is. Yes sir.
Amy - These are referred to as trophy cans. I had one as well. Not too sure what day I dumped it but you should do the same. Video it and post a link for Tuco so he can rub one out.
AJK,
Nice job on flushing the "trophy can". As imperative as the support is to everyone's quit...you are the one quitting. Keep doing what you are and you will continue to be successful in your quit. We all hope it is not too late, but we cannot control that. That ship has sailed. All we can control is today so let's focus on that. You have a great start to your quit just stay diligent. PM me if you need some more digits.
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This poem by Wendell Berry illustrates the healing process beautifully.
I go among trees and sit still.
All my stirring becomes quiet
around me like circles on water.
My tasks lie in their places
Where I left them, asleep like cattleÂ…
Then what I am afraid of comes,
I live for a while in its sight.
What I fear in it leaves it,
And the fear of it leaves me.
It sings, and I hear its song.
This was great- thanks for posting. Keep up the good quit- you are doing it. Enjoy how the freedom feels!!
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Hey girl. Just checking in with you. Congrats on stellar job thus far. Check your in box.
Quitting like a girl with you...
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It's my 10th day quit! Other than still having a short fuse, I am doing well. Making lots of great connections and again really amazed at this community. Trying to cut back on the fake, with more gnawing on Tea Tree chewing sticks. If you need an oral fixation, they work great. You can order them online or find them in your local healthy food co-op.
Thanks to my quit friend ladies! You are all incredibly strong, intelligent, beautiful and amazing women. Proud to quit with you all.
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It's my 10th day quit! Other than still having a short fuse, I am doing well. Making lots of great connections and again really amazed at this community. Trying to cut back on the fake, with more gnawing on Tea Tree chewing sticks. If you need an oral fixation, they work great. You can order them online or find them in your local healthy food co-op.
Thanks to my quit friend ladies! You are all incredibly strong, intelligent, beautiful and amazing women. Proud to quit with you all.
Wouldn't be Edson Farms, would it?
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LOL, Amy works across the street from me.
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LOL, Amy works across the street from me.
Meeting a fellow quitter face to face is an awesome experience, it makes everything that much more real. The paths have already crossed, now just cross the street and meet a quitter!
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It's my 10th day quit! Other than still having a short fuse, I am doing well. Making lots of great connections and again really amazed at this community. Trying to cut back on the fake, with more gnawing on Tea Tree chewing sticks. If you need an oral fixation, they work great. You can order them online or find them in your local healthy food co-op.
Thanks to my quit friend ladies! You are all incredibly strong, intelligent, beautiful and amazing women. Proud to quit with you all.
Wouldn't be Edson Farms, would it?
Haha - No, Oryana! I still can't get over the fact that we are almost neighbors and we work a block from each other.
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Going to look for chew sticks online later.. :D
Sounds fantastic
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Going to look for chew sticks online later.. :D
Sounds fantastic
I liked them Cindy, I chewed through several boxes early on.
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Is that an axe you are holding in your FB pic?
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Is that an axe you are holding in your FB pic?
Amy - Be careful, I used to live there too and had to move because of Thumble. 'no'
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Is that an axe you are holding in your FB pic?
Amy - Be careful, I used to live there too and had to move because of Thumble. 'no'
Someone had to take the rap for the dead mule bro, and it wasn't gonna be me..........
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Is that an axe you are holding in your FB pic?
Chainsaw baby! LOL
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Day 11. I got nothing. More of the same, blah.
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Day 11. I got nothing. More of the same, blah.
Stay strong Amy...there are ups and downs....but more ups....and they rock! Use my number if you need to. That is so cool that you across the street from a quitter. Meet!
Girl Power :)
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Day 11. I got nothing. More of the same, blah.
Stay strong Amy...there are ups and downs....but more ups....and they rock! Use my number if you need to. That is so cool that you across the street from a quitter. Meet!
Girl Power :)
It's raining too hard to meet today, I'd melt and get swept into Lake Michigan. Hang tough Amy, I'll buy a pizza for us soon.
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Day 11. I got nothing. More of the same, blah.
The blah means you're winning. Don't let it get you down.
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Day 11. I got nothing. More of the same, blah.
Stay strong Amy...there are ups and downs....but more ups....and they rock! Use my number if you need to. That is so cool that you across the street from a quitter. Meet!
Girl Power :)
It's raining too hard to meet today, I'd melt and get swept into Lake Michigan. Hang tough Amy, I'll buy a pizza for us soon.
Hey have you tried the Pizza at the Filling Station?
Are you in the buildings just south of the library?
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And THANK YOU Ginet! 3
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Day 11. I got nothing. More of the same, blah.
Stay strong Amy...there are ups and downs....but more ups....and they rock! Use my number if you need to. That is so cool that you across the street from a quitter. Meet!
Girl Power :)
It's raining too hard to meet today, I'd melt and get swept into Lake Michigan. Hang tough Amy, I'll buy a pizza for us soon.
Hey have you tried the Pizza at the Filling Station?
Are you in the buildings just south of the library?
Pizza and Quit talk...You guys are lucky!
Quit on!
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Day 11. I got nothing. More of the same, blah.
Stay strong Amy...there are ups and downs....but more ups....and they rock! Use my number if you need to. That is so cool that you across the street from a quitter. Meet!
Girl Power :)
It's raining too hard to meet today, I'd melt and get swept into Lake Michigan. Hang tough Amy, I'll buy a pizza for us soon.
Hey have you tried the Pizza at the Filling Station?
Are you in the buildings just south of the library?
Pizza and Quit talk...You guys are lucky!
Quit on!
Some quit talk, some Human Centipede talk, and my billing rate is $125 an hour. I have not had that pizza, and yes, I can hit a 7 iron to the library from here, and throw a golf ball into Boardman Lake.
Hey, we can watch the homeless dudes deal drugs for lunch, that always makes me smile!
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My thoughts for this Thursday night.
It's been a rough night for me. I will be so grateful for when I am past this very strange stage I'm in right now. I've not been Nicotine free for over 30 years, and i honestly don't know what it's like to not feel under the influence of something or other. I should probably be posting this in my intro, but know I will get more support here, from you all who have welcomed me like a lost puppy dog.
I have been doing much reconnaissance, reading until my eyes won't stay open. Reading the beginnings of all the current months, intros, and histories of many of you. I am gathering information and asking questions. I am comparing my situation and analyzing how I can do things different than those who have gone before me and caved. In reality, I can't compare. I have the same faults and difficulties as everyone who has failed. I honestly wondered how I can possibly succeed at this endeavor, until there was you guys. It's the only thing that right now is keeping me from walking 20 steps and dipping into my husband's stash. You guys scare the crap out of me, and what I would have to endure if I failed. I hope to never fall from your favor, because in this short time I have come to feel a kindred spirit with this group. Thanks for having me here, wish I could hug each and every one of you. Please help me by continuing your support, humoring me, and generally adopting me in your mayhemness which is pure awesomeness.
Xo
Amyjo
day 25
Amyjo,
That is the exact point. That is accountability. That is why we all stay quit. It is a part of the reason we rant and rave at cavers, because it strengthens our quits. Can you imagine the hell that would rain down on Lipi if he ever caved? My god it would be a bloodbath. I'm am fairly certain that just about nobody would talk to him here in May. That is an extra layer of quit right there that is almost as strong to me as honoring my word. Proud to have adopted you AJK.
Matt
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Amy - you are dealing with what I thought was the hardest part of quitting. You are in uncharted waters I'm that you have never been quit this long, you are having foggy days and aren't quite sure what to do with your hands (insert YouTube video of Ricky Bobby). The days get better and easier. In the next 30 days you will suddenly realize that you are really quit. That will scare the shit out of you and please you in a way you never thought possible (that could be a good joke....). This group is a good place to learn a brand of quitting for the hard of hearts. It's hard, but there is no going back. We got to that place by going at it odaat. At some point, the thought of more than today will be doable. Just stick to day by day here and stay quit.
Also, check out my intro. I did a decent job of posting my weekly updated through hof.
Pope 252 (fucking a, over 250 days quit....Thanks guys)
Amy- I don't like to see you hurting, and I know that quitting is hard. I can't believe I did it sometimes.
But looking back now, there is obviously not a single guy in here who regrets going through it.
Just think about that. 100% of the people you have met in Mayhem not only made it through exactly what you are going through, we are all 100% sure that we made the right decision. How do you know that? Because we're still here.
A while ago I made a promise to everyone in Mayhem that if they caved, I would fucking destroy them, and I expect the same towards me. While there are lots of people on KTC that think we should be nice to cavers and hope they going to get it together, its a life worth saving, blah blah fucking blah.... Not on my watch, not in this room. I don't give a fuck if cavers start crying and never come back again. There are lots of places that can help you quit, and this is not a place for liars. That's what a caver is to me. A piece of shit liar.
After gaining an understanding of what it means to be here, and be a part of this group, to understand what a gift this place gives you, and how much energy we have all expended on each other- to throw that away is such an outrageous betrayal, and a show of such disrespect for everyone here, I would find it unforgivable.
I wrote a much longer and gnarlier post for you, but I deleted the second half. I'm not sure if you're ready for that yet. What you are ready for is to hear that you are in the right place, and we support you. So let's just forget about caving. Take that option off the table every morning with a roll post, honor your word, and sit around with us in here laughing, and kicking ass. I am so grateful you are here, because before you showed up, the only flirting was painfully awkward shit between Krusty and Doc.
AJK -
You want to know why this is so difficult? Why it hurts -- physically, psychologically, and emotionally -- to get through a few minutes, much less 24 hours?
Because you're getting clean. Gradually releasing decades of toxic build-up in your body mind. You're healing, and it's going to require determination. Every. Fucking. Day.
The good news -- and there's a lot of it, but let's keep it simple for now -- is that this is not a complicated process. It's totally binary, and it's already second-nature for you: you wake up in the morning, and by posting roll (and, even better, hanging out in here for awhile), you've made your decision for the day to keep your word to all of us, but more importantly, to yourself. This is YOUR quit, and a direct reflection on your self-image and sense of self-worth. If you can trust a bunch of strangers (emphasis on strange) from the world wide interweb to give you advice on beating a nicotine addiction, then you sure as shit can look yourself in the eye each morning and say "I got this."
I generally hate running, because it's easy to fall out of shape pretty quickly, and the full-body stiffness that has to be endured to get back to "neutral" sucks donkey schlong. That being said, once you're in shape and running regularly, the physical misery is nearly non-existent, or at least much more manageable than the first few days.
My advice to you: keep doing what you're doing, and you won't have to suck donkey schlong.
And, for the record, Lipi's right: before you started sauntering into Mayhem on a daily basis, I could religiously expect late-night texts from Lipi, meekly asking for a goodnight story about puppies and dolphins. Now I can snuggle with wifey's mammaries without my phone lighting up from "Mr Liz". For that, I thank you.
Oh little Amy JO... Be careful in your assessment that you have the same faults as everyone who has caved.... because they caved, you did not.
You asked last night some about my join date on KTC... Yes, I am here as a caver, a retread. As we talked about last night, I was about 200 days when I caved back in '08. The difference between that cave and my current quit... 1) Being active on the site and exchanging digits. Its all about building that net of support around you. 2) (atleast for me) I had to completely close the door. In '08 it was always one day at a time and found myself constantly fantasizing about dip. No more. Tobacco will kill you if you continue to use it. I finally got that when my dad was diagnosed last September with Pancreatic cancer (from dipping). I have chosen to keep my addict self alive for my two wonderful boys. I can't stand the thought of me killing myself with worm shit over spending a long life being here for my boys.
That is what works for me... You are in that weird place where you don't really know what will work for you... At this point in quit it is all mental. You can choose to battle daily with the nic bitch in your brain, or just ignore her completely... I have gotten really good at ignoring women selectively.
As far as accountability.... Yes it is hard sometimes but we must demand that people honor their word. At the end of the day that is all we have here. You bet your ass if I ever did consider taking a pinch all my mayhem brothers, yourself, and Smeds would all go thru my mind a keep me honest. I do not want to dishonor my word to any of you guys (gal).
You have to stay quit... This place needs a woman's touch to keep this bunch of sausage in check!
Amy Jo - If I'm you, I would cut/paste this string into your intro. Good quit wisdom throughout! You're in the right place hanging with the right guys. Mayhem is the extreme part of KTC. That's why I identify with them as well. My mom always told me to hang out with peeps you want to be like. Good advice. Don't for a second begin to entertain any notion of you being weak. That person is gone. You are quit. You said that day 1 when you tossed it. You got through yesterday. Now get through today. Eventually you'll see it does get better.
The other thing that keeps me going is regret. You said it as well in your initial post. It would be hard to come back to KTC and post a day 1. But it would be a mother fucker to have to look in the mirror. Stay quit. You got this.
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My thoughts for this Thursday night.
It's been a rough night for me. I will be so grateful for when I am past this very strange stage I'm in right now. I've not been Nicotine free for over 30 years, and i honestly don't know what it's like to not feel under the influence of something or other. I should probably be posting this in my intro, but know I will get more support here, from you all who have welcomed me like a lost puppy dog.
I have been doing much reconnaissance, reading until my eyes won't stay open. Reading the beginnings of all the current months, intros, and histories of many of you. I am gathering information and asking questions. I am comparing my situation and analyzing how I can do things different than those who have gone before me and caved. In reality, I can't compare. I have the same faults and difficulties as everyone who has failed. I honestly wondered how I can possibly succeed at this endeavor, until there was you guys. It's the only thing that right now is keeping me from walking 20 steps and dipping into my husband's stash. You guys scare the crap out of me, and what I would have to endure if I failed. I hope to never fall from your favor, because in this short time I have come to feel a kindred spirit with this group. Thanks for having me here, wish I could hug each and every one of you. Please help me by continuing your support, humoring me, and generally adopting me in your mayhemness which is pure awesomeness.
Xo
Amyjo
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Amyjo,
That is the exact point. That is accountability. That is why we all stay quit. It is a part of the reason we rant and rave at cavers, because it strengthens our quits. Can you imagine the hell that would rain down on Lipi if he ever caved? My god it would be a bloodbath. I'm am fairly certain that just about nobody would talk to him here in May. That is an extra layer of quit right there that is almost as strong to me as honoring my word. Proud to have adopted you AJK.
Matt
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Amy - you are dealing with what I thought was the hardest part of quitting. You are in uncharted waters I'm that you have never been quit this long, you are having foggy days and aren't quite sure what to do with your hands (insert YouTube video of Ricky Bobby). The days get better and easier. In the next 30 days you will suddenly realize that you are really quit. That will scare the shit out of you and please you in a way you never thought possible (that could be a good joke....). This group is a good place to learn a brand of quitting for the hard of hearts. It's hard, but there is no going back. We got to that place by going at it odaat. At some point, the thought of more than today will be doable. Just stick to day by day here and stay quit.
Also, check out my intro. I did a decent job of posting my weekly updated through hof.
Pope 252 (fucking a, over 250 days quit....Thanks guys)
Amy- I don't like to see you hurting, and I know that quitting is hard. I can't believe I did it sometimes.
But looking back now, there is obviously not a single guy in here who regrets going through it.
Just think about that. 100% of the people you have met in Mayhem not only made it through exactly what you are going through, we are all 100% sure that we made the right decision. How do you know that? Because we're still here.
A while ago I made a promise to everyone in Mayhem that if they caved, I would fucking destroy them, and I expect the same towards me. While there are lots of people on KTC that think we should be nice to cavers and hope they going to get it together, its a life worth saving, blah blah fucking blah.... Not on my watch, not in this room. I don't give a fuck if cavers start crying and never come back again. There are lots of places that can help you quit, and this is not a place for liars. That's what a caver is to me. A piece of shit liar.
After gaining an understanding of what it means to be here, and be a part of this group, to understand what a gift this place gives you, and how much energy we have all expended on each other- to throw that away is such an outrageous betrayal, and a show of such disrespect for everyone here, I would find it unforgivable.
I wrote a much longer and gnarlier post for you, but I deleted the second half. I'm not sure if you're ready for that yet. What you are ready for is to hear that you are in the right place, and we support you. So let's just forget about caving. Take that option off the table every morning with a roll post, honor your word, and sit around with us in here laughing, and kicking ass. I am so grateful you are here, because before you showed up, the only flirting was painfully awkward shit between Krusty and Doc.
AJK -
You want to know why this is so difficult? Why it hurts -- physically, psychologically, and emotionally -- to get through a few minutes, much less 24 hours?
Because you're getting clean. Gradually releasing decades of toxic build-up in your body mind. You're healing, and it's going to require determination. Every. Fucking. Day.
The good news -- and there's a lot of it, but let's keep it simple for now -- is that this is not a complicated process. It's totally binary, and it's already second-nature for you: you wake up in the morning, and by posting roll (and, even better, hanging out in here for awhile), you've made your decision for the day to keep your word to all of us, but more importantly, to yourself. This is YOUR quit, and a direct reflection on your self-image and sense of self-worth. If you can trust a bunch of strangers (emphasis on strange) from the world wide interweb to give you advice on beating a nicotine addiction, then you sure as shit can look yourself in the eye each morning and say "I got this."
I generally hate running, because it's easy to fall out of shape pretty quickly, and the full-body stiffness that has to be endured to get back to "neutral" sucks donkey schlong. That being said, once you're in shape and running regularly, the physical misery is nearly non-existent, or at least much more manageable than the first few days.
My advice to you: keep doing what you're doing, and you won't have to suck donkey schlong.
And, for the record, Lipi's right: before you started sauntering into Mayhem on a daily basis, I could religiously expect late-night texts from Lipi, meekly asking for a goodnight story about puppies and dolphins. Now I can snuggle with wifey's mammaries without my phone lighting up from "Mr Liz". For that, I thank you.
Oh little Amy JO... Be careful in your assessment that you have the same faults as everyone who has caved.... because they caved, you did not.
You asked last night some about my join date on KTC... Yes, I am here as a caver, a retread. As we talked about last night, I was about 200 days when I caved back in '08. The difference between that cave and my current quit... 1) Being active on the site and exchanging digits. Its all about building that net of support around you. 2) (atleast for me) I had to completely close the door. In '08 it was always one day at a time and found myself constantly fantasizing about dip. No more. Tobacco will kill you if you continue to use it. I finally got that when my dad was diagnosed last September with Pancreatic cancer (from dipping). I have chosen to keep my addict self alive for my two wonderful boys. I can't stand the thought of me killing myself with worm shit over spending a long life being here for my boys.
That is what works for me... You are in that weird place where you don't really know what will work for you... At this point in quit it is all mental. You can choose to battle daily with the nic bitch in your brain, or just ignore her completely... I have gotten really good at ignoring women selectively.
As far as accountability.... Yes it is hard sometimes but we must demand that people honor their word. At the end of the day that is all we have here. You bet your ass if I ever did consider taking a pinch all my mayhem brothers, yourself, and Smeds would all go thru my mind a keep me honest. I do not want to dishonor my word to any of you guys (gal).
You have to stay quit... This place needs a woman's touch to keep this bunch of sausage in check!
Amy Jo - If I'm you, I would cut/paste this string into your intro. Good quit wisdom throughout! You're in the right place hanging with the right guys. Mayhem is the extreme part of KTC. That's why I identify with them as well. My mom always told me to hang out with peeps you want to be like. Good advice. Don't for a second begin to entertain any notion of you being weak. That person is gone. You are quit. You said that day 1 when you tossed it. You got through yesterday. Now get through today. Eventually you'll see it does get better.
The other thing that keeps me going is regret. You said it as well in your initial post. It would be hard to come back to KTC and post a day 1. But it would be a mother fucker to have to look in the mirror. Stay quit. You got this.
This fucking rocks....and I have nothing of value to add other than to paste MonsterEMT's comment from yesterday in here since for me - it sums shit up perfectly...
Life is hard. Shit happens. I've been through hardship since I've been quit. So has Tyler. So have numerous other people. You know how people got through it? Brotherhood and accountability. Period.
That isn't to imply that currently your "life is hard and shit happens" but you can insert whateverthefuck you want before the question Monster asks and the answer provided remains the same.
You gotta push through these periods of self doubt missy and realize that you are winning and you are in fact, a bad ass quitter who IS getting it done.
AJK - Hang in there. You are in awesome company here and you're doing all the right things. Finding badasses and surrounding yourself with that will have a great and positive impact. It's honestly the only way to get through it. This stuff you are going through - first, it's normal. You'll have more times like that, but just take it one day at a time. That's not just a catchy phrase, it's important. Thinking about quitting forever scares me and will send me right back to the can.
Gheyhem, AJK's post today made me smile greatly thinking that what you guys are doing, is having a positive impact. Your antics will only attract the badasses of quit. Tip of the hat to you.
Back to you AJK - one of the secret weapons in the fight against nicotine is the Mayhem FAP. These guys are the captains of fap, fapping themselves constantly at their rhetorical brilliance, their unsurpassed intelligence, their scientific mastery of gordonian physics, being badasses of quit, sucking at fantasy football and just in general whenever they fell like it. So go rub one out early and often. If there is any doubt, always Fap drop and roll.
WINNING!
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Saw the title of your intro and I thought it was Lipi's. My bad.
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AJK, it's great seeing your involvement here on KTC.
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AMy, proud to still see you quit.
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Saw the title of your intro and I thought it was Lipi's. My bad.
Ha!
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Hey AJK- look at the quote from AppleJack in my signature- that disorientation is freedom! it gets a lot better later. Let go into the good of it--- you deserve it and have earned it. When the quit isn't hard work use that opportunity to rest and recharge. Its gets much better for a long time- so much you don't even konw what it is until you get there because you've been enslaved all this time. But you still have to earn it, and the calm times are good once you let the freedom feel good instead of being wary of it. Keep up the great quit- communication and involvement is key!
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Saw the title of your intro and I thought it was Lipi's. My bad.
Bwahahahahah!!!!!!!!!!
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Amy reporting in on my 29th day. Things are up and down somewhat, but getting easier.
Best news I have had in a very long time - today my husband is QUIT! You most likely won't see him on here, even though I've suggested it.
I'm just so dang happy! I am also proud of the fact that I always knew where the chew was around the house, and was tempted but never caved. Now it's not around AT ALL!
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nice job AmyJo. 29 days of quit is purely KICK ASS!
I remember back in the day, quitting for a week was unfathomable, let alone a month. I bet your hubs has seen you rocking it and it finally soaked in. You can do it if you want to.
well done!
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nice job AmyJo. 29 days of quit is purely KICK ASS!
I remember back in the day, quitting for a week was unfathomable, let alone a month. I bet your hubs has seen you rocking it and it finally soaked in. You can do it if you want to.
well done!
Thank you Tarpon! 31 days now and starting to see a bit of light. Not craving the minute I get up... Feeling like I might actually be able to do this... Husband still quit and so very thankful. Although he is not on here - he is bad ass too. 'oh yeah'
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Wow 29 days! My 28th day was the worst. I only survived by calling and saying that I needed to break my promise and quit. It was only a day or two. I woke up and the air was fresh! My mind was free and I survived my darkest day!
You still have battles but staying quit this long. Keep doing it! It gets easier but triggers are still there. When you are craving, accept it and make the call. Soooo many times I craved and call someone. We didn't even talk about it...most the time. We just talked about life.
Within 30 seconds...craving gone and I would promise to post if I woke up.
Here it the secret. How you feel today about your quit is not how you will feel tomorrow. Just think in terms of 24 hours. Can you make it 24 hours. (You can) when you wake and beat it...It get easier. I personally don't think our addiction gets easier, I think we have trainers that taught us and we became stronger.
954 days. I'm winning my nicotine addiction but still and addict. I am working on other addictions like food and laying on the couch. I have 99 problems but nicotine is fun to fight now. I am undefeated with KTC!
Just follow the plan and you won't fail.
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Wow 29 days! My 28th day was the worst. I only survived by calling and saying that I needed to break my promise and quit. It was only a day or two. I woke up and the air was fresh! My mind was free and I survived my darkest day!
You still have battles but staying quit this long. Keep doing it! It gets easier but triggers are still there. When you are craving, accept it and make the call. Soooo many times I craved and call someone. We didn't even talk about it...most the time. We just talked about life.
Within 30 seconds...craving gone and I would promise to post if I woke up.
Here it the secret. How you feel today about your quit is not how you will feel tomorrow. Just think in terms of 24 hours. Can you make it 24 hours. (You can) when you wake and beat it...It get easier. I personally don't think our addiction gets easier, I think we have trainers that taught us and we became stronger.
954 days. I'm winning my nicotine addiction but still and addict. I am working on other addictions like food and laying on the couch. I have 99 problems but nicotine is fun to fight now. I am undefeated with KTC!
Just follow the plan and you won't fail.
Proud of you, Amy!
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'oh yeah'
Wow 29 days! My 28th day was the worst. I only survived by calling and saying that I needed to break my promise and quit. It was only a day or two. I woke up and the air was fresh! My mind was free and I survived my darkest day!
You still have battles but staying quit this long. Keep doing it! It gets easier but triggers are still there. When you are craving, accept it and make the call. Soooo many times I craved and call someone. We didn't even talk about it...most the time. We just talked about life.
Within 30 seconds...craving gone and I would promise to post if I woke up.
Here it the secret. How you feel today about your quit is not how you will feel tomorrow. Just think in terms of 24 hours. Can you make it 24 hours. (You can) when you wake and beat it...It get easier. I personally don't think our addiction gets easier, I think we have trainers that taught us and we became stronger.
954 days. I'm winning my nicotine addiction but still and addict. I am working on other addictions like food and laying on the couch. I have 99 problems but nicotine is fun to fight now. I am undefeated with KTC!
Just follow the plan and you won't fail.
Proud of you, Amy!
Keep rockin' the quit, AmyJo. It is always good to see you in May.
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nice job AmyJo. 29 days of quit is purely KICK ASS!
I remember back in the day, quitting for a week was unfathomable, let alone a month. I bet your hubs has seen you rocking it and it finally soaked in. You can do it if you want to.
well done!
Thank you Tarpon! 31 days now and starting to see a bit of light. Not craving the minute I get up... Feeling like I might actually be able to do this... Husband still quit and so very thankful. Although he is not on here - he is bad ass too. 'oh yeah'
Mine Quit yesterday evening and he hasn't decided to get on here yet either.. I'm glad they are both quitting though!
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nice job AmyJo. 29 days of quit is purely KICK ASS!
I remember back in the day, quitting for a week was unfathomable, let alone a month. I bet your hubs has seen you rocking it and it finally soaked in. You can do it if you want to.
well done!
Thank you Tarpon! 31 days now and starting to see a bit of light. Not craving the minute I get up... Feeling like I might actually be able to do this... Husband still quit and so very thankful. Although he is not on here - he is bad ass too. 'oh yeah'
Mine Quit yesterday evening and he hasn't decided to get on here yet either.. I'm glad they are both quitting though!
We all know you can do this AmyJo. Failure is not an option. That is great that both you and Cindy's hubbies are quit. Now you gals can lay down some quit knowledge to help them along. Keep up the good work.
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nice job AmyJo. 29 days of quit is purely KICK ASS!
I remember back in the day, quitting for a week was unfathomable, let alone a month. I bet your hubs has seen you rocking it and it finally soaked in. You can do it if you want to.
well done!
Thank you Tarpon! 31 days now and starting to see a bit of light. Not craving the minute I get up... Feeling like I might actually be able to do this... Husband still quit and so very thankful. Although he is not on here - he is bad ass too. 'oh yeah'
Mine Quit yesterday evening and he hasn't decided to get on here yet either.. I'm glad they are both quitting though!
We all know you can do this AmyJo. Failure is not an option. That is great that both you and Cindy's hubbies are quit. Now you gals can lay down some quit knowledge to help them along. Keep up the good work.
Agree, this in one of the more impressive things I've seen here in my short time. Lead them down the path ladies. Anoint them in quittitude.
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nice job AmyJo. 29 days of quit is purely KICK ASS!
I remember back in the day, quitting for a week was unfathomable, let alone a month. I bet your hubs has seen you rocking it and it finally soaked in. You can do it if you want to.
well done!
Thank you Tarpon! 31 days now and starting to see a bit of light. Not craving the minute I get up... Feeling like I might actually be able to do this... Husband still quit and so very thankful. Although he is not on here - he is bad ass too. 'oh yeah'
Mine Quit yesterday evening and he hasn't decided to get on here yet either.. I'm glad they are both quitting though!
We all know you can do this AmyJo. Failure is not an option. That is great that both you and Cindy's hubbies are quit. Now you gals can lay down some quit knowledge to help them along. Keep up the good work.
Agree, this in one of the more impressive things I've seen here in my short time. Lead them down the path ladies. Anoint them in quittitude.
Thanks Doc and Done4. It is pretty amazing if you think about it! Girl power Haha.
My guy made it through the first weekend without. His quit is strong, it appears. If he is having any trouble at all, he is hiding it very well. Hell I know he is having trouble, but refuses to rage or complain. Weird huh?
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nice job AmyJo. 29 days of quit is purely KICK ASS!
I remember back in the day, quitting for a week was unfathomable, let alone a month. I bet your hubs has seen you rocking it and it finally soaked in. You can do it if you want to.
well done!
Thank you Tarpon! 31 days now and starting to see a bit of light. Not craving the minute I get up... Feeling like I might actually be able to do this... Husband still quit and so very thankful. Although he is not on here - he is bad ass too. 'oh yeah'
Mine Quit yesterday evening and he hasn't decided to get on here yet either.. I'm glad they are both quitting though!
We all know you can do this AmyJo. Failure is not an option. That is great that both you and Cindy's hubbies are quit. Now you gals can lay down some quit knowledge to help them along. Keep up the good work.
Agree, this in one of the more impressive things I've seen here in my short time. Lead them down the path ladies. Anoint them in quittitude.
Thanks Doc and Done4. It is pretty amazing if you think about it! Girl power Haha.
My guy made it through the first weekend without. His quit is strong, it appears. If he is having any trouble at all, he is hiding it very well. Hell I know he is having trouble, but refuses to rage or complain. Weird huh?
My family and staff were surprised at how "normal" and "nice" I was when I began my quit. I think the quote I remember is, "your not even a prick when your quitting." I know a lot of my ability to cope was because of this site but I didn't join until I was nearly 30 days quit. I think the main reason was I knew I was really quit and loving the freedom. I could quit hiding my addiction and be open about my quit.
Amy, you've got my digits. If your ol' man wants someone to text or talk to, feel free to share them with him.
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nice job AmyJo. 29 days of quit is purely KICK ASS!
I remember back in the day, quitting for a week was unfathomable, let alone a month. I bet your hubs has seen you rocking it and it finally soaked in. You can do it if you want to.
well done!
Thank you Tarpon! 31 days now and starting to see a bit of light. Not craving the minute I get up... Feeling like I might actually be able to do this... Husband still quit and so very thankful. Although he is not on here - he is bad ass too. 'oh yeah'
Mine Quit yesterday evening and he hasn't decided to get on here yet either.. I'm glad they are both quitting though!
We all know you can do this AmyJo. Failure is not an option. That is great that both you and Cindy's hubbies are quit. Now you gals can lay down some quit knowledge to help them along. Keep up the good work.
Agree, this in one of the more impressive things I've seen here in my short time. Lead them down the path ladies. Anoint them in quittitude.
Thanks Doc and Done4. It is pretty amazing if you think about it! Girl power Haha.
My guy made it through the first weekend without. His quit is strong, it appears. If he is having any trouble at all, he is hiding it very well. Hell I know he is having trouble, but refuses to rage or complain. Weird huh?
My family and staff were surprised at how "normal" and "nice" I was when I began my quit. I think the quote I remember is, "your not even a prick when your quitting." I know a lot of my ability to cope was because of this site but I didn't join until I was nearly 30 days quit. I think the main reason was I knew I was really quit and loving the freedom. I could quit hiding my addiction and be open about my quit.
Amy, you've got my digits. If your ol' man wants someone to text or talk to, feel free to share them with him.
Thanks Doc! You rock!
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Day 39, bitches!
Still dealing with some minor craves, especially after dinner and before bed. But, they seem to pass quicker than before. My mouth had a disturbance earlier this week, but I think I figured out that it was the cinnamon gum that I was chewing. I picked it up over the weekend because I wanted change and by Monday afternoon my tongue hurt so much! I couldn't eat and was barely able to talk. Anyway, I stopped and almost back to normal now. An ongoing thing has been that food tastes different. Not better and maybe a bit worse..
Also wanted to document my weight, because I was REALLY concerned about the quitting gain. I've been up and down a bit, but as of right now am 4 lbs over what I weighed when I quit. The timing worked out great. because the month of October was challenge month at the yoga studio I go to. 30 classes in 30 days. Well, I did thirty classes in the first 22 days! So on top of being active, I started taking Herbalife supplements and shakes. I am pretty busy, and love the idea of protein meal replacements. It's been working for me over the past week, at least I don't feel like I want to shove food in my face all the time. And I feel great with tons of energy! All without caffeine.
Thanking my group December RANT for the great support, as well as the Mayhem group for making me an honorary member. Not sure what I bring to the table there, but the smell of quit is so strong in there I can taste it. They help me along every damn day.
Also appreciate your comments on here, your PM's and texts. This truly is an amazing community. Proud to be here and quit with you!
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Congrats on half-a-hundo! You've strung together a helluva quit so far -- keep it up!
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Congrats on half-a-hundo! You've strung together a helluva quit so far -- keep it up!
Right on AJK! Keep up the good quit!
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Way to go AJK... You are very strong woman... Proud to see you killing it!
Congrats on the half hundo... it keeps getting easier now every day thru HOF... But don't let your gaurd down.. he nic bitch will still pop her head up.. I'm sure you read in Mayhem in just the past few weeks Lip and I have both had bad cravings and we were over 280 days quit at the time!
Proud to see you around every day... stay active girl!
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Congrats on half-a-hundo! You've strung together a helluva quit so far -- keep it up!
Right on AJK! Keep up the good quit!
Thanks Bliss and Doc! Oh man, it feels soooo good!
50 days seems like a long time, but it feels like I was just dipping last week! Need lots more distance from the bitch.
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Way to go AJK... You are very strong woman... Proud to see you killing it!
Congrats on the half hundo... it keeps getting easier now every day thru HOF... But don't let your gaurd down.. he nic bitch will still pop her head up.. I'm sure you read in Mayhem in just the past few weeks Lip and I have both had bad cravings and we were over 280 days quit at the time!
Proud to see you around every day... stay active girl!
Thank you Shorty! Yes, at first you guys talking about the bad craves at the point you are at freaked me out. Now, it just reminds me that I need to be especially vigilant at all times - especially during "triggers".
It's weird, I have replaced my first morning (before I got out of bed) dip with coming on here. I wake and post before anything else. My crave for nic has been replaced for a crave to get on here and post up. Yesterday morning I was almost frantic, not being able to get on here for a few hours. I felt off until I could finally post. 'Crazy'
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Way to go AJK... You are very strong woman... Proud to see you killing it!
Congrats on the half hundo... it keeps getting easier now every day thru HOF... But don't let your gaurd down.. he nic bitch will still pop her head up.. I'm sure you read in Mayhem in just the past few weeks Lip and I have both had bad cravings and we were over 280 days quit at the time!
Proud to see you around every day... stay active girl!
Thank you Shorty! Yes, at first you guys talking about the bad craves at the point you are at freaked me out. Now, it just reminds me that I need to be especially vigilant at all times - especially during "triggers".
It's weird, I have replaced my first morning (before I got out of bed) dip with coming on here. I wake and post before anything else. My crave for nic has been replaced for a crave to get on here and post up. Yesterday morning I was almost frantic, not being able to get on here for a few hours. I felt off until I could finally post. 'Crazy'
Congrats in 50 Amy Jo. Keep winning. Cravings never really go away, they just come less often and less strong. My quit days between 50 and 120 were shitty. I knew I was quit but my mind kept the craves going. A real mental game ahead of you that I know you are more than up for.
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Way to go AJK... You are very strong woman... Proud to see you killing it!
Congrats on the half hundo... it keeps getting easier now every day thru HOF... But don't let your gaurd down.. he nic bitch will still pop her head up.. I'm sure you read in Mayhem in just the past few weeks Lip and I have both had bad cravings and we were over 280 days quit at the time!
Proud to see you around every day... stay active girl!
Thank you Shorty! Yes, at first you guys talking about the bad craves at the point you are at freaked me out. Now, it just reminds me that I need to be especially vigilant at all times - especially during "triggers".
It's weird, I have replaced my first morning (before I got out of bed) dip with coming on here. I wake and post before anything else. My crave for nic has been replaced for a crave to get on here and post up. Yesterday morning I was almost frantic, not being able to get on here for a few hours. I felt off until I could finally post. 'Crazy'
Congrats in 50 Amy Jo. Keep winning. Cravings never really go away, they just come less often and less strong. My quit days between 50 and 120 were shitty. I knew I was quit but my mind kept the craves going. A real mental game ahead of you that I know you are more than up for.
Congrats on 50! Keep pushing through; this is one of the best decisions of your life!!!
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Day 51, more than halfway to HOF and although it's still a struggle I can see the light. I have the tools now to stay quit, and I know it's my choice as to whether I use them or not. If I fail, it's on me and not for lack of support. Feeling all the love from new quitters and the pros. I am a competitive sort, and know I am winning now. Every time I fight a crave, I win. Every time I post roll, I win. Every time I encourage a new quitter, I win. Every time I read a pro's intro, I win. Every time I interact with the awesome groups on here, I win. Winning all day long and pray for strength to continue this great path I am on.
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Day 51, more than halfway to HOF and although it's still a struggle I can see the light. I have the tools now to stay quit, and I know it's my choice as to whether I use them or not. If I fail, it's on me and not for lack of support. Feeling all the love from new quitters and the pros. I am a competitive sort, and know I am winning now. Every time I fight a crave, I win. Every time I post roll, I win. Every time I encourage a new quitter, I win. Every time I read a pro's intro, I win. Every time I interact with the awesome groups on here, I win. Winning all day long and pray for strength to continue this great path I am on.
Great work. I love seeing badass quitters, it is even better seeing badass female quitters. Keep at it and watch as the milestones pile up. You still have some hurdles ahead of you but be tenacious and keep running day to day.
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Day 51, more than halfway to HOF and although it's still a struggle I can see the light. I have the tools now to stay quit, and I know it's my choice as to whether I use them or not. If I fail, it's on me and not for lack of support. Feeling all the love from new quitters and the pros. I am a competitive sort, and know I am winning now. Every time I fight a crave, I win. Every time I post roll, I win. Every time I encourage a new quitter, I win. Every time I read a pro's intro, I win. Every time I interact with the awesome groups on here, I win. Winning all day long and pray for strength to continue this great path I am on.
Great work. I love seeing badass quitters, it is even better seeing badass female quitters. Keep at it and watch as the milestones pile up. You still have some hurdles ahead of you but be tenacious and keep running day to day.
Congrats sister!!! Just want to say thank you for reaching out to me and making me a winner too! Next stop... 100 days and the HOF!!!
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Day 51, more than halfway to HOF and although it's still a struggle I can see the light. I have the tools now to stay quit, and I know it's my choice as to whether I use them or not. If I fail, it's on me and not for lack of support. Feeling all the love from new quitters and the pros. I am a competitive sort, and know I am winning now. Every time I fight a crave, I win. Every time I post roll, I win. Every time I encourage a new quitter, I win. Every time I read a pro's intro, I win. Every time I interact with the awesome groups on here, I win. Winning all day long and pray for strength to continue this great path I am on.
Great work. I love seeing badass quitters, it is even better seeing badass female quitters. Keep at it and watch as the milestones pile up. You still have some hurdles ahead of you but be tenacious and keep running day to day.
Congrats sister!!! Just want to say thank you for reaching out to me and making me a winner too! Next stop... 100 days and the HOF!!!
Stay right here, keep walking the path, and know you've got a ton of people here to support you one day at a time, every damn day. Keep up the good quit AJK.
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Day 51, more than halfway to HOF and although it's still a struggle I can see the light. I have the tools now to stay quit, and I know it's my choice as to whether I use them or not. If I fail, it's on me and not for lack of support. Feeling all the love from new quitters and the pros. I am a competitive sort, and know I am winning now. Every time I fight a crave, I win. Every time I post roll, I win. Every time I encourage a new quitter, I win. Every time I read a pro's intro, I win. Every time I interact with the awesome groups on here, I win. Winning all day long and pray for strength to continue this great path I am on.
Great work. I love seeing badass quitters, it is even better seeing badass female quitters. Keep at it and watch as the milestones pile up. You still have some hurdles ahead of you but be tenacious and keep running day to day.
Congrats sister!!! Just want to say thank you for reaching out to me and making me a winner too! Next stop... 100 days and the HOF!!!
Stay right here, keep walking the path, and know you've got a ton of people here to support you one day at a time, every damn day. Keep up the good quit AJK.
Congrats AJK on 50+ days quit!
Hey, here is a recommendation.. Forget about The HOF. That is too far in the future. Try to put it out of your mind and only focus about what is in front of you. Just today. That is it. This is the a huge key to quitting. There is no pot of gold at 100 days... It is just another day in the end. A very nice mile marker in your quit, but that is it.
The real win is getting thru today clean! I'm quit with you today.
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Cinco de Gordon!!!
Attagirl...congrats, and keep doing your thing!
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Congrats on 100 AJK! Don't ever let up, keep your quit throttle WFO wide-frickin' open!!
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AJK you made yourself, the KTC, and our little northern town proud for the last hundred days! See you at 101!
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AJK you made yourself, the KTC, and our little northern town proud for the last hundred days! See you at 101!
Nice job, Amy. Keep up the good work.
Congratulations on the first of many quit milestones!
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Way to go AJK... You are very strong woman... Proud to see you killing it!
Congrats on the half hundo... it keeps getting easier now every day thru HOF... But don't let your gaurd down.. he nic bitch will still pop her head up.. I'm sure you read in Mayhem in just the past few weeks Lip and I have both had bad cravings and we were over 280 days quit at the time!
Proud to see you around every day... stay active girl!
Thank you Shorty! Yes, at first you guys talking about the bad craves at the point you are at freaked me out. Now, it just reminds me that I need to be especially vigilant at all times - especially during "triggers".
It's weird, I have replaced my first morning (before I got out of bed) dip with coming on here. I wake and post before anything else. My crave for nic has been replaced for a crave to get on here and post up. Yesterday morning I was almost frantic, not being able to get on here for a few hours. I felt off until I could finally post. 'Crazy'
Congrats in 50 Amy Jo. Keep winning. Cravings never really go away, they just come less often and less strong. My quit days between 50 and 120 were shitty. I knew I was quit but my mind kept the craves going. A real mental game ahead of you that I know you are more than up for.
AJK,
Speaking of triggers....My first cup of morning coffee is now my "trigger" to post roll. :-)
ZC
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AJK you made yourself, the KTC, and our little northern town proud for the last hundred days! See you at 101!
Nice job, Amy. Keep up the good work.
Congratulations on the first of many quit milestones!
Congrats on hitting 100 AJK!
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AJK you made yourself, the KTC, and our little northern town proud for the last hundred days! See you at 101!
Nice job, Amy. Keep up the good work.
Congratulations on the first of many quit milestones!
Congrats on hitting 100 AJK!
Way to Go AJK. Thank you for 100 days of brightening up our group and being a motivating force in December
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AJK you made yourself, the KTC, and our little northern town proud for the last hundred days! See you at 101!
Nice job, Amy. Keep up the good work.
Congratulations on the first of many quit milestones!
Congrats on hitting 100 AJK!
Way to Go AJK. Thank you for 100 days of brightening up our group and being a motivating force in December
Attagirl!!!! Do it again!! 'oh yeah'
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AJK you made yourself, the KTC, and our little northern town proud for the last hundred days! See you at 101!
Nice job, Amy. Keep up the good work.
Congratulations on the first of many quit milestones!
Congrats on hitting 100 AJK!
Way to Go AJK. Thank you for 100 days of brightening up our group and being a motivating force in December
Attagirl!!!! Do it again!! 'oh yeah'
Congrats! Keep it up, it only gets better.
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AJK you made yourself, the KTC, and our little northern town proud for the last hundred days! See you at 101!
Nice job, Amy. Keep up the good work.
Congratulations on the first of many quit milestones!
Congrats on hitting 100 AJK!
Way to Go AJK. Thank you for 100 days of brightening up our group and being a motivating force in December
Attagirl!!!! Do it again!! 'oh yeah'
Congrats! Keep it up, it only gets better.
Nicely Done!
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AJK you made yourself, the KTC, and our little northern town proud for the last hundred days! See you at 101!
Nice job, Amy. Keep up the good work.
Congratulations on the first of many quit milestones!
Congrats on hitting 100 AJK!
Way to Go AJK. Thank you for 100 days of brightening up our group and being a motivating force in December
Attagirl!!!! Do it again!! 'oh yeah'
Congrats! Keep it up, it only gets better.
Nicely Done!
CONGRATS!
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AJK you made yourself, the KTC, and our little northern town proud for the last hundred days! See you at 101!
Nice job, Amy. Keep up the good work.
Congratulations on the first of many quit milestones!
Congrats on hitting 100 AJK!
Way to Go AJK. Thank you for 100 days of brightening up our group and being a motivating force in December
Attagirl!!!! Do it again!! 'oh yeah'
Congrats! Keep it up, it only gets better.
Nicely Done!
CONGRATS!
Three digits makes your screen name avatar look that much more badass -- congrats!! Enjoy your party, and start setting your sights on the second floor...it'll be here in no time!
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AJK you made yourself, the KTC, and our little northern town proud for the last hundred days! See you at 101!
Nice job, Amy. Keep up the good work.
Congratulations on the first of many quit milestones!
Congrats on hitting 100 AJK!
Way to Go AJK. Thank you for 100 days of brightening up our group and being a motivating force in December
Attagirl!!!! Do it again!! 'oh yeah'
Congrats! Keep it up, it only gets better.
Nicely Done!
CONGRATS!
Three digits makes your screen name avatar look that much more badass -- congrats!! Enjoy your party, and start setting your sights on the second floor...it'll be here in no time!
Congrats on 100!!!!
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AJK you made yourself, the KTC, and our little northern town proud for the last hundred days! See you at 101!
Nice job, Amy. Keep up the good work.
Congratulations on the first of many quit milestones!
Congrats on hitting 100 AJK!
Way to Go AJK. Thank you for 100 days of brightening up our group and being a motivating force in December
Attagirl!!!! Do it again!! 'oh yeah'
Congrats! Keep it up, it only gets better.
Nicely Done!
CONGRATS!
Three digits makes your screen name avatar look that much more badass -- congrats!! Enjoy your party, and start setting your sights on the second floor...it'll be here in no time!
Congrats on 100!!!!
Congrats On 100! Welcome to 101!