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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: goldenbeagle on February 09, 2011, 02:59:00 PM
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Where do I begin?
I have been chewing since I was about ummm 17. I am now 32, with a wife and 3 kids. I think I am finally ready to do this for real. I quit chewing back in the 90Â’s once or twiceÂ…but it never lasted. I am done with running to the store, done with freaking out when I canÂ’t find my can in the house, done with not sleeping at night, done feeling depressed, done with worrying myself sick about cancer, done with being dehydrated, done with hiding spit bottles on a plane ride, etc, etc, etc.
In my mind right now It is like a race trackÂ…thoughts of quitting and thoughts of not quitting, thoughts of failing, thoughts, thoughts, thoughtsÂ….man I feel like a junky on drugs. In fact I am spitting in a coffee cup at my desk at work and it smells horribleÂ….done with that too. I am sitting here typing and just trying to fire myself up enough to ditch this can at midnight tonight and never look back. I donÂ’t want this crutch in my life anymore.
Ok – I am done rambling like an idiot. Thanks for reading folks. I am actually a very normal person …this addiction is just f-ing with my head and I want it gone. I think I am going to drop the can tonight at midnight.
Any suggestions, words of wisdom folks?
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Where do I begin?
I have been chewing since I was about ummm 17. I am now 32, with a wife and 3 kids. I think I am finally ready to do this for real. I quit chewing back in the 90Â’s once or twiceÂ…but it never lasted. I am done with running to the store, done with freaking out when I canÂ’t find my can in the house, done with not sleeping at night, done feeling depressed, done with worrying myself sick about cancer, done with being dehydrated, done with hiding spit bottles on a plane ride, etc, etc, etc.
In my mind right now It is like a race trackÂ…thoughts of quitting and thoughts of not quitting, thoughts of failing, thoughts, thoughts, thoughtsÂ….man I feel like a junky on drugs. In fact I am spitting in a coffee cup at my desk at work and it smells horribleÂ….done with that too. I am sitting here typing and just trying to fire myself up enough to ditch this can at midnight tonight and never look back. I donÂ’t want this crutch in my life anymore.
Ok – I am done rambling like an idiot. Thanks for reading folks. I am actually a very normal person …this addiction is just f-ing with my head and I want it gone. I think I am going to drop the can tonight at midnight.
Any suggestions, words of wisdom folks?
Ahhh, the good ol' deadline.
Dont kid yourself man, how many times have you said "I'll quit at xxxxx"?
Ditch the can now, thats twelve less hours you will be under the bitches thumb. Itll suck jsut as much in 12 hours as it will right now.
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Where do I begin?
I have been chewing since I was about ummm 17. I am now 32, with a wife and 3 kids. I think I am finally ready to do this for real. I quit chewing back in the 90Â’s once or twiceÂ…but it never lasted. I am done with running to the store, done with freaking out when I canÂ’t find my can in the house, done with not sleeping at night, done feeling depressed, done with worrying myself sick about cancer, done with being dehydrated, done with hiding spit bottles on a plane ride, etc, etc, etc.
In my mind right now It is like a race trackÂ…thoughts of quitting and thoughts of not quitting, thoughts of failing, thoughts, thoughts, thoughtsÂ….man I feel like a junky on drugs. In fact I am spitting in a coffee cup at my desk at work and it smells horribleÂ….done with that too. I am sitting here typing and just trying to fire myself up enough to ditch this can at midnight tonight and never look back. I donÂ’t want this crutch in my life anymore.
Ok – I am done rambling like an idiot. Thanks for reading folks. I am actually a very normal person …this addiction is just f-ing with my head and I want it gone. I think I am going to drop the can tonight at midnight.
Any suggestions, words of wisdom folks?
GB,
Your Quit is your own, first you need to lose the (I think I'm ready) your never going to be ready to Quit. But if you want to Quit and truely change your life your in the right place.
Don't wait until midnight you'll talk yourself out of it 50 times by then. Take the can dump it in the toilet and flush.
Go over to May 2011 Quit group and post day 1.
I'll help you along the way as everyone else here will but the first step is yours, are you in? The ball is in your court.
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Welcome.
Check your (Inbox 1) upper right corner of your screen.
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You'll quit when you want to. Only you know if the date has arrived. I'll say this, there is nothing more important that you can do today than reading as much of this site as you can. Go to live chat as well.
If you're ready to quit, you need to flush the can down the toilet and get busy quitting. You're not going to enjoy some magical last dip that will satisfy you for eternity.
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Well worth it! Call it day one, hour one....1 minute 23 seconds into a better healthier life...
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That was supposed to show a picture of the fresh can I just dumped in the bowl...but whatever...its done. Signing in for roll call...
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That was supposed to show a picture of the fresh can I just dumped in the bowl...but whatever...its done. Signing in for roll call...
Great Choice, Now grab hold of your boots and get ready for the rough ride. But it is so worth it to be free from nicotine once and for all.
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Nice choice golden! You can do this, we have all been exactly where you are right now. Just take it one step at a time, hour by hour and sometimes minute by minute. If you need further help shoot me an email we are all in this together.
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The nicotine just went for a swim. Awesome. See the quit...be the quit.
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Awesome golden :wub: . Hang on for the next 3 days, after that it slowly gets better
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Golden im on day 2 now and im not gunna lie it sucks but if you want it you can do it. I know im only on day 2 but the site is awesome and everytime i get a craving i get on here and read and post and it gets your mind off it. WE CAN DO THIS!
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That was supposed to show a picture of the fresh can I just dumped in the bowl...but whatever...its done. Signing in for roll call...
Drown that nic bitch, way to go golden. No turning back now, it feels great to be a quitter with you.
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Golden,
Nice work on flushing the shit down the shitter! I know you want to quit, because you talk of how sick you are of all the discusting crap that comes with dipping...and you found this site..just as I did, 8 days ago. When you wake up in the morning with the crave, just think aout how your gums wont hurt today. Go look at the Cancer pics and read the Kern story. Those were huge motivators for me. Don't worry about how you'll be doing next week, just focus on quitting tomorrow...cause you signed the dotted line. It's your word. This is your support group. Deal with the suck and quit. Everybody else in here is fighting the suck to, and kicking it's ass....One day at a time!
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Golden im on day 2 now and im not gunna lie it sucks but if you want it you can do it. I know im only on day 2 but the site is awesome and everytime i get a craving i get on here and read and post and it gets your mind off it. WE CAN DO THIS!
here's your brother......
i am exactly 2 days behind Buckfever (who has already posted in this thread) He and i have followed/motivated/quit together for 1135/1137 days.
Buck knows i will sign roll everyday......and quit with him.....and vice versa.....
We are very good friends......i don't screw my friends over......and neither does he.
oh.....we've never met.
you will make some of the best friends you've never met.....and they will save your life......and you will save thiers.
come on in......the quittin is fine.
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Golden im on day 2 now and im not gunna lie it sucks but if you want it you can do it. I know im only on day 2 but the site is awesome and everytime i get a craving i get on here and read and post and it gets your mind off it. WE CAN DO THIS!
here's your brother......
i am exactly 2 days behind Buckfever (who has already posted in this thread) He and i have followed/motivated/quit together for 1135/1137 days.
Buck knows i will sign roll everyday......and quit with him.....and vice versa.....
We are very good friends......i don't screw my friends over......and neither does he.
oh.....we've never met.
you will make some of the best friends you've never met.....and they will save your life......and you will save thiers.
come on in......the quittin is fine.
I think I cried a little Mule....how cute :D
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Golden im on day 2 now and im not gunna lie it sucks but if you want it you can do it. I know im only on day 2 but the site is awesome and everytime i get a craving i get on here and read and post and it gets your mind off it. WE CAN DO THIS!
here's your brother......
i am exactly 2 days behind Buckfever (who has already posted in this thread) He and i have followed/motivated/quit together for 1135/1137 days.
Buck knows i will sign roll everyday......and quit with him.....and vice versa.....
We are very good friends......i don't screw my friends over......and neither does he.
oh.....we've never met.
you will make some of the best friends you've never met.....and they will save your life......and you will save thiers.
come on in......the quittin is fine.
I think I cried a little Mule....how cute :D
Get in here and quit. Mule is right I do not know him or ever talked to him but every time things is rough out of no where there he is keeping me on the straight and narrow. I know I can count on him and others no matter what. So come on in and you will find the same and we can quit this together.
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So i am on day 4 ...I dont think I could even explain what the last 3 days were like. I honestly feel like I have been living on a cloud.....yup a cloud...a giant cloud of this suck's balls, and I am sick of eating candy.
I woke up New Years day and just said " f-it .... I'm done". Figured I would drop this shit and not continue it for another minute in my life. I dont need it, I am 32, healthy, got a wife and kids I am sick of always freaking out when I canÂ’t find the can, or I run out, or when I need something to spit in, etc.....not to mention whole suicide thing, lets touch on that shall weÂ….
So, it was this past Monday I was in Wal-Mart wondering the store trying to keep my mind off of wanting a chew. It was also a chance to step out of my house cause the wife and kids were starting to catch a little attitude from me. So, there I am wondering around the store with a cart. I was reading packages, putting random things in my cart, people watching….all while every 30 seconds a picture of a chew can would flash in my mind. Odd…seriously odd. I decided to head to the checkout counter and see if they have any herbal chew…of course they didn’t. For a second I just stood there f-ing pissed. Really? Not even one can left? I thought for a second, “f – it…let’s just buy a can of grizzly and end this f-ng misery.” But right then and there it hit me…I actually caught eye contact with the price of the can’s I use to buy. I would probably say it had been a good 10 years since the last time I looked at the price of chew. I didn’t f-ing care how much the chew cost…I would have paid 20 a can…..seriously. – Back on topic here – I am staring at the price of the cans of chew…then start looking at all of them…I suddenly became a human calculator. I was a human “death” calculator. I started averaging how much money I had been paying in a sense to help kill myself….not to mention how many other people were doing the same. There is just something really wrong with this. I honestly could not get it out of my head. But after the thought of this wore off...my brain went back to trying to convince me we could handle dipping. I found myself quietly devising a plan within my head on how I could chew...but not every day. ---that went on for about 2 hours.
Yesterday had to be the worst day so far. I came home from work to an empty house. I was exhausted from the lack of sleep the past few days, so I decided I would take advanvtage of the empty house and just take a nap. It took me like 30 seconds to fall asleep....but 20 minutes later I woke up in a panic, had no idea where I was, stood up, fell over my work bag and shoes, twisted my wrist when trying to catch myself...I was a hot mess. I stood yet again in the kitchen with the fridge open....looking at drinks and snacks...but I was in a fog thinking about just going and buying a can of chew and ending this BS.
Then no sleep again last night...when I did fall asleep I had dreams of chew and cigs...I had a dream that I was doing both at the same time...and I woke up pissed at myself....however...when the fog left my brain, I realized I am still holding out strong.
So here I am Â…day 4. Sucks a shit ton this quitting thingÂ…however, after what I have gone through over the past 4 daysÂ….I feel stronger...I know I have control now. I do not want to deal with this BS again. That round can packs an ass kickin no matter how you look at it. I will not let suicide be the way I end my life....no way...f- these tobacco companies and their bullshit.
Me ...Brandon...just spilling my thoughts...thanks for listening and "quit on!!!"
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Welcome brother. After reading your introduction, I believe you will fit in perfectly here, unless you are hetrosexual...and then there might be a problem (inside joke). Congrats on the best decision you have made in a long time. You appear to have the right attitude about quitting, now you need more information. Read everything and then read it again. Get involved. Jump over to live chat and introduce yourself, lean on the guys that have been where you are now. Support those with fewer days quit (and those with more days for that matter). It has been my experience that the guys with the significant physical withdrawl symptoms (lack of sleep etc.). tend to have an easier time after a few weeks. Keep on doing what your doing.
MOA
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Welcome. You probably got another 5-7 days of physical shit. It will be better each day then the mental game starts and will last a long damn time. It is a fight everyday.
Join up with your April quit group and post roll with them every day!!
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Thanks MOA...I am not big on support groups, kinda makes me feel like I am a giant doucher...however, I chewed for almost 20 years so I guess I am a doucher no matter how one would look at it. So...I am in...f-it...call me part of the team. I honestly will do whatever it takes to help others just get to day 4 at the least.
Also, I have been reading this website and all its contents every day sense I quit...also some other quit tobacco sites. It has slowly taken the place of porn... which is simply confusing but a nice break....haha (Joke of course...well kinda)
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Welcome aboard. I can tell you have the right attitude to beat your addiction. You recognize that you are an addict, and you came to the right place for help and support.
The trick to making this work is to drink the Kool-Aid offered on this site. Invest heavily in your quit group. Spend time reading and re-reading everything on this site, and keep it very close. Take a special look at the posts about "cavers," i.e. people who drift away from this site only to return to post Day 1. You don't want that to be you. Commit to this site and it's principles and you will be quit for good.
Most importantly, get phone numbers of some quit brothers in your group. Make it your job to keep an eye on those guys and make sure they post every day. Make sure they have your number too. If you can't get a computer, call or text your promise to stay clean to a quit brother. If a quit brother doesn't post by mid-day or afternoon, text him and find out why he isn't on roll and get him there. Those relationships will strengthen your quit as well. Back yourself into a corner so that caving just isn't an option. The more people you are accountable to, the less likely you are to cave.
You're off to a fantastic start and the worst of the suck is behind you. The nic is out of your system now and today is the first day of you rewiring your brain to learn to live without nicotine. You'll still have shitty days...lots of them...but you only have to get through them one day at a time. Don't worry about tomorrow, just focus on today.
I'm proud to quit with you today.