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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: shoogie on May 27, 2012, 05:34:00 PM
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Just decided today that enough was enough. I'm tired of this addiction controlling what I do on a day to day basis. My decision making process usually started with" am I going to be able to get a dip in during (whatever event was going on)" I have 5 yr old twin boys and a 3 yr old daughter that I would very much like to see grow up, they are the biggest inspiration that I am pulling from, but I'm also doing this for myself as I deserve better. I know this is going to be hard, but I can do it!
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Just decided today that enough was enough. I'm tired of this addiction controlling what I do on a day to day basis. My decision making process usually started with" am I going to be able to get a dip in during (whatever event was going on)" I have 5 yr old twin boys and a 3 yr old daughter that I would very much like to see grow up, they are the biggest inspiration that I am pulling from, but I'm also doing this for myself as I deserve better. I know this is going to be hard, but I can do it!
It's not easy Greg, but it's very simple
Get up...Post Roll...Keep your word
Decide right now if you are a man of your word or are you a lieing douchebag. We all know you have lied to your friends, family, and yourself. But you have an oppurtunity to have 100% integrity with hundreds on this site starting today. See you tomorrow! You CAN do this! I know because I did it.
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Just decided today that enough was enough. I'm tired of this addiction controlling what I do on a day to day basis. My decision making process usually started with" am I going to be able to get a dip in during (whatever event was going on)" I have 5 yr old twin boys and a 3 yr old daughter that I would very much like to see grow up, they are the biggest inspiration that I am pulling from, but I'm also doing this for myself as I deserve better. I know this is going to be hard, but I can do it!
This needs to be for yourself only!!!!
Let those around you benefit from your decision but dont use them as your reason/excuse to cave later down the way!
Quit for you today and post your promise to the group, then repeat tomorrow!
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Just decided today that enough was enough. I'm tired of this addiction controlling what I do on a day to day basis. My decision making process usually started with" am I going to be able to get a dip in during (whatever event was going on)" I have 5 yr old twin boys and a 3 yr old daughter that I would very much like to see grow up, they are the biggest inspiration that I am pulling from, but I'm also doing this for myself as I deserve better. I know this is going to be hard, but I can do it!
This needs to be for yourself only!!!!
Let those around you benefit from your decision but dont use them as your reason/excuse to cave later down the way!
Quit for you today and post your promise to the group, then repeat tomorrow!
KAPOW....
Great decision....I didn't plan to quit - I just knew I wasn't happy or healthy and knew I was an addict - then stumbled on this site and went cold turkey and followed to plan. Day 55.
You can do it.
Don't be a pussy. The next 4 days are going to be hell. But are worth it.
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Just decided today that enough was enough. I'm tired of this addiction controlling what I do on a day to day basis. My decision making process usually started with" am I going to be able to get a dip in during (whatever event was going on)" I have 5 yr old twin boys and a 3 yr old daughter that I would very much like to see grow up, they are the biggest inspiration that I am pulling from, but I'm also doing this for myself as I deserve better. I know this is going to be hard, but I can do it!
This needs to be for yourself only!!!!
Let those around you benefit from your decision but dont use them as your reason/excuse to cave later down the way!
Quit for you today and post your promise to the group, then repeat tomorrow!
KAPOW...
Great decision....I didn't plan to quit - I just knew I wasn't happy or healthy and knew I was an addict - then stumbled on this site and went cold turkey and followed to plan. Day 55.
You can do it.
Don't be a pussy. The next 4 days are going to be hell. But are worth it.
Gear up for the fun! Nothing like embracing the suck! (what the hell does that mean) that's what I wondered when I dumped my shit and joined the quit. Well to me embracing the sucks is second in importance behind early daily roll posting. The suck--oh you are about to discover it, remember what it's like gain a stronger hatred for tabacco increase your hatred for what it has robbed from you. Man-up to the challenge ahead, your balls are bound to double in size this coming week. Work on making contact to fall back on when days suck, and you will be for them when their day feel like shit. Pm me anytime, I'd be glad to share #'s
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Thanks guys. I already now it's going to suck, hell it already does. All of my kids are in bed and my wife too. This is prime dipping and video game time for me, but not tonight. tonight it's sun flower seeds and wrigley gum! I dumped out 4 cans at work today so I dont even have any even if I wanted it.
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Thanks guys. I already now it's going to suck, hell it already does. All of my kids are in bed and my wife too. This is prime dipping and video game time for me, but not tonight. tonight it's sun flower seeds and wrigley gum! I dumped out 4 cans at work today so I dont even have any even if I wanted it.
Nice work brother burn that life boat and stay the course!
Drink alot of water and really do what you can to stay busy and kick you own ass that tends to make life a bit more bearable!
QUIT LIKE FUCK is a mind set and atittude brother and you have taken the first step and won tomorrow is another day post roll make your promise and win again!
PM me if you need some digits or any help, I am proud to be quit with you today!
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I was a 22 year dipper and quit 66 days ago. It can be done. The first week will suck badly, but don't take it out on the family. Come here and rant at us. Embrace that suck and fog and it will be much better in a few days.
PM me with your number if you want.
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So far today I have had zero major cravings, but son of a bitch if I am not sitting here burning up. Maybe my office turned the air off due to the holiday and I am the only one in here.
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Just realized that Wrigley's Big Red Gum was not the smartest decision to make after just complaining about burning up in this oven of an office. :(
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Just realized that Wrigley's Big Red Gum was not the smartest decision to make after just complaining about burning up in this oven of an office. :(
Drink as much water as you can!!!!
Stay cool and get your mind on something else!!!!
Goto an intro page by a guy named SWJ read his stories and I am positive your mind will be in a better place!
Stay strong brother!
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About to wrap up a 10 hour work day, stuck in this hot as hell office, dip free for the 1st time since ever! I must say, I feel like shit and I feel great at the same time. Now I just need to make it through the hour long drive home.
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So yesterday was kinda rough. Hot flashes on and off all day, had the shakes a few times and a fierce headache last night. The wife and kids went to bed around 9 which in the past meant it was dip and video game time, but not last night, I went to bed as well. Unfortunaltely I was on call from my job and my phone rang several times throughout the night, but if not for that I would have slept like a baby.
I'm feeling pretty good so far today. Watching cartoons on the couch with my kids. I'm on day 3, but day 1 started half way through Sunday so I am going to hit the 48hr mark today around 430. I'm looking forward to the 72hr mark, I want this shit out of my body for good.
Today I am QLF!
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So yesterday was kinda rough. Hot flashes on and off all day, had the shakes a few times and a fierce headache last night. The wife and kids went to bed around 9 which in the past meant it was dip and video game time, but not last night, I went to bed as well. Unfortunaltely I was on call from my job and my phone rang several times throughout the night, but if not for that I would have slept like a baby.
I'm feeling pretty good so far today. Watching cartoons on the couch with my kids. I'm on day 3, but day 1 started half way through Sunday so I am going to hit the 48hr mark today around 430. I'm looking forward to the 72hr mark, I want this shit out of my body for good.
Today I am QLF!
Pwer through this!!!! Its worth every bit of pain you are going through right now to get that SHIT out of your life for Good!!!! The good thing here is that you will NEVER have to go through this again if you stay quit!!! 30+ year dipper here. If I can do this SO can you!!! Congrats on the BEST decision you will ever make!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Shoo you are doing great! 72 hr, and getting it out of your system will be great but don't be fooled the bitch will want back in and your addicted mind will want to give her another chance. Remember who put the poison in your mouth, when the rage hits you get away from the family. I'm on day 59 and had to send the family away Saturday. This was my 2nd bad rage, my 1st was day 6 7. Life without nicotine is awesome.
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Shoo you are doing great! 72 hr, and getting it out of your system will be great but don't be fooled the bitch will want back in and your addicted mind will want to give her another chance. Remember who put the poison in your mouth, when the rage hits you get away from the family. I'm on day 59 and had to send the family away Saturday. This was my 2nd bad rage, my 1st was day 6 7.  Life without nicotine is awesome.
Yeah, I have no illusions of the struggle being over after the 72hrs, it's just going to be nice to know that that shit is no longer flowing through my body.
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Shoo you are doing great! 72 hr, and getting it out of your system will be great but don't be fooled the bitch will want back in and your addicted mind will want to give her another chance. Remember who put the poison in your mouth, when the rage hits you get away from the family. I'm on day 59 and had to send the family away Saturday. This was my 2nd bad rage, my 1st was day 6 7.  Life without nicotine is awesome.
Yeah, I have no illusions of the struggle being over after the 72hrs, it's just going to be nice to know that that shit is no longer flowing through my body.
Good job, bro! It's a struggle those first few days, but when you realize your mouth isn't as torn up anymore, it's a phenomenal feeling. I've been buying bags of sunflower seeds, and my car's center console has more gum than I care to admit. Whatever you need to shut that nic-bitch out, do it!
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Yesterday, day 3, wasnt so bad. Had a few bouts of some intense hot flashes, but that was about it. I tried to stay busy for the most part to keep my mind from thinking about it, and it worked pretty well. I was worried about night time though. Wasnt sure about going to bed, was nervous about getting some sleep. So I took some seeds and a book up to bed with me and read a few chapters until my eyes started going all buggy and then went to bed and slept like a freaking baby!
Today I am having a hard time waking up. I got a good nights sleep and feel rested, just cant seem to wake up. My eyes are having a hard time focusing and I cant seem to concentrate very well. Just out of it at the moment. Hopefully after a big breakfest it will pass.
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Shoogie, you're the man! First 3 days are really pure hell...but you're doing it. I am day 6 in my quit. You can do this, I PROMISE you! One day at a time. Water, lots of water helps with the crave. Board, read the boards. I am proud to quit with you. Sleep, will get better with time. Reading yourself to sleep is what I do too! Works pretty good for you and me. YOU ROCK!
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Yesterday, day 3, wasnt so bad. Had a few bouts of some intense hot flashes, but that was about it. I tried to stay busy for the most part to keep my mind from thinking about it, and it worked pretty well. I was worried about night time though. Wasnt sure about going to bed, was nervous about getting some sleep. So I took some seeds and a book up to bed with me and read a few chapters until my eyes started going all buggy and then went to bed and slept like a freaking baby!
Today I am having a hard time waking up. I got a good nights sleep and feel rested, just cant seem to wake up. My eyes are having a hard time focusing and I cant seem to concentrate very well. Just out of it at the moment. Hopefully after a big breakfest it will pass.
Welcome to day 4! Day 4 was my worst day, I think I just stared into space or at my computer monitor all day.
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So far, day 4 is not bad at all. No hot flashes, no cravings either. I'm about to hit the 72 hr mark. I dropped my sons off at preschool, I stopped at a couple of stores on the way home looking for some fake dip just to try it out, but couldnt find any. Anybody have any experience with that stuff? I was reading some of the reviews on this site and looked online, but some of that shit is $5 a can. I dont want to spend that if the shit is horrible.
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So far, day 4 is not bad at all. No hot flashes, no cravings either. I'm about to hit the 72 hr mark. I dropped my sons off at preschool, I stopped at a couple of stores on the way home looking for some fake dip just to try it out, but couldnt find any. Anybody have any experience with that stuff? I was reading some of the reviews on this site and looked online, but some of that shit is $5 a can. I dont want to spend that if the shit is horrible.
I use Smokey Mountain Wintergreen you can usually buy it at a Wal-Mart near you!
Alot of guys on here swear by Hooch chew but I havent tried that as of yet, I only occasionally use the fake stuff and really doubt I will buy the Hooch but thats all I got!
QUIT on QUITER!!!
Your getting that shitty drug out of your system and the re-wiring process will be starting, stay strong and focused brother!
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You're doing it Shoogie! You can do it all the way! Don't dip "anything", it isn't worth it. To me, For me, dipping any fake stuff is just way to close to the real thing? I actually bought 7 cans from the internet (baccoff) it arrive on day 2 of my quit. I opened a can, smelled it (wintergreen) and said, you know Mike (that's me) you really don't have to do this. Okay, lets try "not" doing this and quitting without help of the fake stuff. Anyway I still have the 7 cans, unused, 1 opened and full.
I am in love with "Burn your bridges MEN! Don't leave anything for the nic Bitch to rebuild with!" Day 6 and Proud to quit with you SHOOGIE!
So far, day 4 is not bad at all. No hot flashes, no cravings either. I'm about to hit the 72 hr mark. I dropped my sons off at preschool, I stopped at a couple of stores on the way home looking for some fake dip just to try it out, but couldnt find any. Anybody have any experience with that stuff? I was reading some of the reviews on this site and looked online, but some of that shit is $5 a can. I dont want to spend that if the shit is horrible.
I use Smokey Mountain Wintergreen you can usually buy it at a Wal-Mart near you!
Alot of guys on here swear by Hooch chew but I havent tried that as of yet, I only occasionally use the fake stuff and really doubt I will buy the Hooch but thats all I got!
QUIT on QUITER!!!
Your getting that shitty drug out of your system and the re-wiring process will be starting, stay strong and focused brother!
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So I tried the fake shit and meh. I think I was more curious then anything. Will keep it for an emergency, but dont think I will be using it anymore. My gum tastes much better.
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When you played video games did you always have a dip in then?
I was told by the veterans of this site to use water, I'm following their advice. Drinking a gallon of water between wake up and lunch. Helps with the craves so I don't cave.
What I am doing:
lots of water, talking alot, reading this site, exercising way more, I have a regular toothpick in my mouth, I don't chew it, it just rests there. I move it from side to side, and it helps. When I get a bad crave, I run to drink the cold water and drink a whole glass. The toothpick helps me not do gum (which i know would make my jaw sore) cause I am an addict and know that I would chew the hell out of the gum like a maniac.
day 7 here and it is very much worth it.
proud to be quit with YOU.
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I had a dip in when I did anything, video games were no different. I dont play them much anymore though as I used to only play when the wife went to bed, which I considered "my time". But since I'm quit, I'm going to bed earlier then her now, which I think is a big reason for me being able to handle this pretty good. If I was staying up late I would be tired and cranky the next morning which would just add to the stress of the quit, but I'm getting a good nights sleep and feeling awake and refreshed the next morning which is helping my with the early morning crave. I'm day 5 and I am QLF and proud of it!
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I had a dip in when I did anything, video games were no different. I dont play them much anymore though as I used to only play when the wife went to bed, which I considered "my time". But since I'm quit, I'm going to bed earlier then her now, which I think is a big reason for me being able to handle this pretty good. If I was staying up late I would be tired and cranky the next morning which would just add to the stress of the quit, but I'm getting a good nights sleep and feeling awake and refreshed the next morning which is helping my with the early morning crave. I'm day 5 and I am QLF and proud of it!
Good stuff brother!
You will soon enough re-wire your mind to enjoy those activities without using nicotene but for now you do whatever you have to to stay quit!!!!
The toughest days are almost done, and soon you will be enjoying your video games again.
PM me if you need any numbers or help!
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So I tried the fake shit and meh. I think I was more curious then anything. Will keep it for an emergency, but dont think I will be using it anymore. My gum tastes much better.
I tried the fake stuff too. I hated it, plus I am a believer that putting anything similar in my lip is a bad idea. That is just my opinion though. Stay Quit
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So I tried the fake shit and meh. I think I was more curious then anything. Will keep it for an emergency, but dont think I will be using it anymore. My gum tastes much better.
I tried the fake stuff too. I hated it, plus I am a believer that putting anything similar in my lip is a bad idea. That is just my opinion though. Stay Quit
I agree with Buddy. I did everything to cut it out. However there was a period of time that I tried seeds. (Hated it, I felt like a damn bird with no beak) I did get some Australian licorice. It was soft with Apple flavor. It was good to chew and suck on for about a week.
Today, I chew gum occasionally but the oral fixation isn't what it used to be.
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So I tried the fake shit and meh. I think I was more curious then anything. Will keep it for an emergency, but dont think I will be using it anymore. My gum tastes much better.
I tried the fake stuff too. I hated it, plus I am a believer that putting anything similar in my lip is a bad idea. That is just my opinion though. Stay Quit
I agree with Buddy. I did everything to cut it out. However there was a period of time that I tried seeds. (Hated it, I felt like a damn bird with no beak) I did get some Australian licorice. It was soft with Apple flavor. It was good to chew and suck on for about a week.
Today, I chew gum occasionally but the oral fixation isn't what it used to be.
Shoo I've been using fake dip since about 3 days before I actually quit. I have hung onto it but don't use it nearly as often now. I do like having it around for when the bad craves come. I think I convinced myself early on that I needed it so I did need it. I truly admire those who don't use the fake but on the other hand being nic free is the goal.
Just a side note i met Mthomas he looks kinda like a bird without a beak. I can't get the picture of Him setting on the bird feeder pecking at the seeds with his little pecker beak out of my head!
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Yeah, I'm not worried about it being too close to the real shit. I've used it a couple of times now in the past couple of days. It actuallt doesnt taste too bad, it's the feeling of it that I dont care for, it's very sticky. Maybe I will try the Hooch.
Day 5 has had some rough patches. I was outside doing some yard work and got really dizzy and got the shakes something awful. Had to come in and eat something and sit on the couch for a little bit. Feeling better now.
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Yeah, I'm not worried about it being too close to the real shit. I've used it a couple of times now in the past couple of days. It actuallt doesnt taste too bad, it's the feeling of it that I dont care for, it's very sticky. Maybe I will try the Hooch.
Day 5 has had some rough patches. I was outside doing some yard work and got really dizzy and got the shakes something awful. Had to come in and eat something and sit on the couch for a little bit. Feeling better now.
Yeah man the dizziness for me was really really bad. I couldn't frickin see, everything was all blurry, it sucked. Good thing is , it passed and so will yours. Hang in there..
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Yeah, I'm not worried about it being too close to the real shit. I've used it a couple of times now in the past couple of days. It actuallt doesnt taste too bad, it's the feeling of it that I dont care for, it's very sticky. Maybe I will try the Hooch.
Day 5 has had some rough patches. I was outside doing some yard work and got really dizzy and got the shakes something awful. Had to come in and eat something and sit on the couch for a little bit. Feeling better now.
Yeah man the dizziness for me was really really bad. I couldn't frickin see, everything was all blurry, it sucked. Good thing is , it passed and so will yours. Hang in there..
Shoog,
Like BM said, it passes, but I remember that I could actually feel my eyes "boggle" in my head. I think I read somewhere that it has something to do with low blood sugar. Cranberry juice and complex carbs/protein/healthy fats helped me. Also, don't discount dehydration/heat sickness. It has been hot as hell this week, and none of us are used to it yet. Sounds like you almost blacked out to me. Keep up the good work.
Vadge
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So other then the dizzy spell, yesterday wasnt too bad. No strong cravings. I think the dizziness was a combination of the heat, hunger and the quit that made it so severe. Just have to tell my wife that whenever it is hot outside she has to do the yardwork :lol:
Today is going to be a great day. My quit is strong, its national doughut day and I'm about to go get the family some breakfest, and then later today my boys graduate from preschool! Before my quit I would have been dreading today as I would not have been able to get my fix for several hours, how fucking pathetic is that?
I'm day 6 QLF today
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You the Man Shoogie! Congrats on day 6, I am proud to be quit with you.
You remember how pathetic it was? I do too. To plan everything around a stupid dip. It is kinda funny right now, but so sad for us then. What the hell were we thinking?
I really never thought this was doable until I came upon this site and talked with some of the veterans.
MikeA called me, they can sense when a brother is hurting (it seems like). He told me the rules, straight up and I could tell this guy is for real.
Made me feel good that I wasn't alone. Believe me brother, you can do this. Quit Like Fucking Hell!
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So other then the dizzy spell, yesterday wasnt too bad. No strong cravings. I think the dizziness was a combination of the heat, hunger and the quit that made it so severe. Just have to tell my wife that whenever it is hot outside she has to do the yardwork :lol:
Today is going to be a great day. My quit is strong, its national doughut day and I'm about to go get the family some breakfest, and then later today my boys graduate from preschool! Before my quit I would have been dreading today as I would not have been able to get my fix for several hours, how fucking pathetic is that?
I'm day 6 QLF today
Congrats on 6 days brother. Have a plan this weekend. Stay strong
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Had my first strong crave today. I had to run some errands while my wife and kids were swimming at the YMCA after my boys preschool graduation party. All I had to do was run to the bank before they closed and come back, but as soon as I got going down the street, the crave kicked in, and boy was it a strong one. I was actually reaching for my phone to get some numbers from a couple of guys on here to talk my way through it, but realized I left it at home :angry: I basically just gave myself tunell vision. I focused on getting to the bank and then getting back and once I was back I was ok as I was able to get my trunks on and hop in the water to play with the family and after that all was ok.
Day 6 is almost in the books, it was rough for about 30 minutes, but after defeating that crave I feel even stronger in my quit. I told my wife about my crave and she said " getting craves is nothing to be ashamed of, pushing through the crave is something to be proud of" God I love that woman!
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Had my first strong crave today. I had to run some errands while my wife and kids were swimming at the YMCA after my boys preschool graduation party. All I had to do was run to the bank before they closed and come back, but as soon as I got going down the street, the crave kicked in, and boy was it a strong one. I was actually reaching for my phone to get some numbers from a couple of guys on here to talk my way through it, but realized I left it at home :angry: I basically just gave myself tunell vision. I focused on getting to the bank and then getting back and once I was back I was ok as I was able to get my trunks on and hop in the water to play with the family and after that all was ok.
Day 6 is almost in the books, it was rough for about 30 minutes, but after defeating that crave I feel even stronger in my quit. I told my wife about my crave and she said " getting craves is nothing to be ashamed of, pushing through the crave is something to be proud of" God I love that woman!
Hey Shoogie,
Anyone with a Chris Farley avatar is a cool mofo in my book! If you made it to day 6, you can make it to day 60, buddy -- the hardest part is up front. Hang in there, it gets better bro. PM me if you need a number, I'm proud to quit with you today.
Stay strong.
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Had my first strong crave today. I had to run some errands while my wife and kids were swimming at the YMCA after my boys preschool graduation party. All I had to do was run to the bank before they closed and come back, but as soon as I got going down the street, the crave kicked in, and boy was it a strong one. I was actually reaching for my phone to get some numbers from a couple of guys on here to talk my way through it, but realized I left it at home :angry: I basically just gave myself tunell vision. I focused on getting to the bank and then getting back and once I was back I was ok as I was able to get my trunks on and hop in the water to play with the family and after that all was ok.
Day 6 is almost in the books, it was rough for about 30 minutes, but after defeating that crave I feel even stronger in my quit. I told my wife about my crave and she said " getting craves is nothing to be ashamed of, pushing through the crave is something to be proud of" God I love that woman!
That is a great victory right there. Great job. Stay strong and continue to stay close to this site. Get those numbers and use them - they have bailed me out many times now. Plus, gaining some damn good friends. Pm me if you need more numbers.
Thanks for sharing the victory - your wife is right, you will have to fight your ass off but the feeling of defeating those craves and kicking the nic bitch to the curb is amazing. Keep on fighting.
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Day 10 of my quit and I feel great. No craves since a couple of days ago.
These past 10 days have been amazing. I have spent so much more time with my family now that I dont need to get away every couple of hours to get a fix. I used to stay up late so that I could get in that last dip, but now that I am going to bed with the wife and my breath doesnt smell like a rotten skunks ass, well lets just say things are good B)
Proud to be quit with all of you!
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So I had my first dip dream last night and son of a bitch if it wasn't a realistic piece of shit. I never remember my dreams, but I remember this one. I was at a gas station and bought 4 cans, 2 of which the girl clerk gave me were the wrong kind. She gave me grizzly and a skoal apple, when I clearly told her that I wanted skoal extra wintergreen and this set me off. I went off on a rampage on her, which ended with me putting a big fatty in and spitting on the counter :blink: It was so real that I woke up and felt very guilty for caving and breaking my quit promise. Once I realized it was a dream I laughed a little bit as I realized that the nic bitch was very desperate now and was trying everything to get me back, to which I say bring it on bitch.
Day 12, I am QLF today.
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So I had my first dip dream last night and son of a bitch if it wasn't a realistic piece of shit. I never remember my dreams, but I remember this one. I was at a gas station and bought 4 cans, 2 of which the girl clerk gave me were the wrong kind. She gave me grizzly and a skoal apple, when I clearly told her that I wanted skoal extra wintergreen and this set me off. I went off on a rampage on her, which ended with me putting a big fatty in and spitting on the counter :blink: It was so real that I woke up and felt very guilty for caving and breaking my quit promise. Once I realized it was a dream I laughed a little bit as I realized that the nic bitch was very desperate now and was trying everything to get me back, to which I say bring it on bitch.
Day 12, I am QLF today.
Takes me back to my first dream. Isn't it amazing how real it is? I was guilty for a couple days. Fortunately I had some good brothers that went through it as well.
You attitude is excellent after that. I wish I had that ability at your stage in the game.
You will be going into some funks and fogs.
Be prepared and ready. It may come on in an instant. Just recognize it as a phase and your brain is learning how to function with clean fuel and no poison. Just post roll, keep your word, repeat and trust me when I say it is only one of many phases but each one that passes, you quit and freedom become more enjoyable.
Day 86 for me and I am on fire. I love being quit. I have only had two dip dreams. The second one was a piece of cake. In fact is was a joke of a dream.
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Just weighed my self...HOLY SHIT...I have packed on 15lbs in a little over 2 weeks! I'm like a goat, I'm eating everything in sight! This next week I will be busy getting ready for my son's 5th birthday party, but the week after I am getting my ass to the gym.
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Just weighed my self...HOLY SHIT...I have packed on 15lbs in a little over 2 weeks! I'm like a goat, I'm eating everything in sight! This next week I will be busy getting ready for my son's 5th birthday party, but the week after I am getting my ass to the gym.
I learned early in my quit what to eat as often as I want without gaining a pound.
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Just weighed my self...HOLY SHIT...I have packed on 15lbs in a little over 2 weeks! I'm like a goat, I'm eating everything in sight! This next week I will be busy getting ready for my son's 5th birthday party, but the week after I am getting my ass to the gym.
30+ lbs here in 79 days! But I've been working out and watching the diet a bit for past month now since the cravings aren't as bad these days. I decided trying to watch my diet and quit and work out all at the same time were just going to be too much for a wh ile after I quit. Losing weight is easy.
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Just weighed my self...HOLY SHIT...I have packed on 15lbs in a little over 2 weeks! I'm like a goat, I'm eating everything in sight! This next week I will be busy getting ready for my son's 5th birthday party, but the week after I am getting my ass to the gym.
Put on 20 pounds myself. Hit the gym though it will come off..
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Had my 2nd dip dream last night and it was F'ed up. All it involved was me lying on the ground and opening can after can and just smelling them :wacko: I never put a dip in or even thought about it, just smelled it. Woke up thinking what the fuck just happened???
I am Day 18 quit and loving life.
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Had my 2nd dip dream last night and it was F'ed up. All it involved was me lying on the ground and opening can after can and just smelling them :wacko: I never put a dip in or even thought about it, just smelled it. Woke up thinking what the fuck just happened???
I am Day 18 quit and loving life.
fairway phil here,just joined the site. looking for comrades and support
so when i take the command and quit.question i have fir you. do you use any like non tobacco chew like hooch ? thinking i might need a kittle something to help with the process.
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fairway phil here,just joined the site. looking for comrades and support
so when i take the command and quit.question i have fir you. do you use any like non tobacco chew like hooch ? thinking i might need a kittle something to help with the process.
Phil,
You should start your intro thread, I don't want to hijack Shoogies page.
But when do you plan to "take the command and quit".
(cheat sheet- The answer is right now!)
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Had my 2nd dip dream last night and it was F'ed up. All it involved was me lying on the ground and opening can after can and just smelling them :wacko: I never put a dip in or even thought about it, just smelled it. Woke up thinking what the fuck just happened???
I am Day 18 quit and loving life.
fairway phil here,just joined the site. looking for comrades and support
so when i take the command and quit.question i have fir you. do you use any like non tobacco chew like hooch ? thinking i might need a kittle something to help with the process.
Phil,
As Steve said the time to quit is NOW. There are absolutely no reasons to wait. And yes, I keep some Smokey Mountain Herbal Chew laying around for the heavier craves, seems to help.
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Yesterday was my twin boys 5th birthday. We spent about an hour in the toy store letting them spend their gift cards that they got at their party, and then we met their nana for lunch. It was a very good day, had I still been using, it would have been a horrible day as I would not have gotten a fix for several hours.
Also, I had my 3rd dip dream last night, only this time I put a big fatty of Smokey Mountain Herbal chew in. My quit is so strong that I am now kicking the nic bitch in the cunt in my dreams.
I am quit- day 26
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Yesterday was my twin boys 5th birthday. We spent about an hour in the toy store letting them spend their gift cards that they got at their party, and then we met their nana for lunch. It was a very good day, had I still been using, it would have been a horrible day as I would not have gotten a fix for several hours.
Also, I had my 3rd dip dream last night, only this time I put a big fatty of Smokey Mountain Herbal chew in. My quit is so strong that I am now kicking the nic bitch in the cunt in my dreams.
I am quit- day 26
That is fan fucking tastic!!!!
It is a true enjoyment to be quit with badasses! Way to stay strong and feel the freedom of quit!!!!
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Yesterday was my twin boys 5th birthday. We spent about an hour in the toy store letting them spend their gift cards that they got at their party, and then we met their nana for lunch. It was a very good day, had I still been using, it would have been a horrible day as I would not have gotten a fix for several hours.
Also, I had my 3rd dip dream last night, only this time I put a big fatty of Smokey Mountain Herbal chew in. My quit is so strong that I am now kicking the nic bitch in the cunt in my dreams.
I am quit- day 26
That is fan fucking tastic!!!!
It is a true enjoyment to be quit with badasses! Way to stay strong and feel the freedom of quit!!!!
Also, I had my 3rd dip dream last night, only this time I put a big fatty of Smokey Mountain Herbal chew in. My quit is so strong that I am now kicking the nic bitch in the cunt in my dreams.
BOOYAH Kick that bitch
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Yesterday was my twin boys 5th birthday. We spent about an hour in the toy store letting them spend their gift cards that they got at their party, and then we met their nana for lunch. It was a very good day, had I still been using, it would have been a horrible day as I would not have gotten a fix for several hours.
Also, I had my 3rd dip dream last night, only this time I put a big fatty of Smokey Mountain Herbal chew in. My quit is so strong that I am now kicking the nic bitch in the cunt in my dreams.
I am quit- day 26
That is fan fucking tastic!!!!
It is a true enjoyment to be quit with badasses! Way to stay strong and feel the freedom of quit!!!!
Also, I had my 3rd dip dream last night, only this time I put a big fatty of Smokey Mountain Herbal chew in. My quit is so strong that I am now kicking the nic bitch in the cunt in my dreams.
BOOYAH Kick that bitch
Freedom is an amazing thing. Enjoy your life without chains....
Nicely done.
Greg
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Yesterday was my twin boys 5th birthday. We spent about an hour in the toy store letting them spend their gift cards that they got at their party, and then we met their nana for lunch. It was a very good day, had I still been using, it would have been a horrible day as I would not have gotten a fix for several hours.
Also, I had my 3rd dip dream last night, only this time I put a big fatty of Smokey Mountain Herbal chew in. My quit is so strong that I am now kicking the nic bitch in the cunt in my dreams.
I am quit- day 26
That is fan fucking tastic!!!!
It is a true enjoyment to be quit with badasses! Way to stay strong and feel the freedom of quit!!!!
Also, I had my 3rd dip dream last night, only this time I put a big fatty of Smokey Mountain Herbal chew in. My quit is so strong that I am now kicking the nic bitch in the cunt in my dreams.
BOOYAH Kick that bitch
Freedom is an amazing thing. Enjoy your life without chains....
Nicely done.
Greg
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Way to go Shoogie Tinman!
I quit with you both today!
One day at a time.
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Lot of strong quitin going on here. Good to see!!!!
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day 30- Believe it or not, yard work can be done without a dip!! I've been outside all day pulling weeds, mowing and tending to my little garden and not once did I crave a cancer turd.
I was laughing at myself while I was out there becuase I was thinking how I used to do yard work. I would always put just enough dip in to where it was not very noticeable, you know in case my kids would happen to look out the window, and then the whole time I was out there I would make sure that my face was always turned away from the windows- FUCKING PATHETIC
And this is going to sound corny as fuck, but I dont care, while I was tending my little garden box, I noticed that my watermelons were starting to sprout, little melons no more the size of a grape, but there they were, and it got me thinking that my garden is a lot like my quit. It needs special attention EVERY day, there is no "I'm too busy to get out there and water it and pull the weeds" because you know what happens to a garden that is deprived of attention- it dies and all the hard work that I put into it was for nothing. My quit is like that, if I dont acknowledge it EVERY day (post roll), then I am neglecting my quit and am putting it in jeopardy, however, if I am diligent in my quit like I am my garden, then it too will flourish.
I am quit.
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day 30- Believe it or not, yard work can be done without a dip!! I've been outside all day pulling weeds, mowing and tending to my little garden and not once did I crave a cancer turd.
I was laughing at myself while I was out there becuase I was thinking how I used to do yard work. I would always put just enough dip in to where it was not very noticeable, you know in case my kids would happen to look out the window, and then the whole time I was out there I would make sure that my face was always turned away from the windows- FUCKING PATHETIC
And this is going to sound corny as fuck, but I dont care, while I was tending my little garden box, I noticed that my watermelons were starting to sprout, little melons no more the size of a grape, but there they were, and it got me thinking that my garden is a lot like my quit. It needs special attention EVERY day, there is no "I'm too busy to get out there and water it and pull the weeds" because you know what happens to a garden that is deprived of attention- it dies and all the hard work that I put into it was for nothing. My quit is like that, if I dont acknowledge it EVERY day (post roll), then I am neglecting my quit and am putting it in jeopardy, however, if I am diligent in my quit like I am my garden, then it too will flourish.
I am quit.
That's pretty cool.
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I love the analogy to the garden, I have a larger garden that I try to take care of (1500 acres) but the principle is exactly the same. The time that you put into caring for your garden or quit is directly proportional to the outcome you can expect. But we also have got to be alert to outside influences, for my farm it is weather, bugs, weeds and unlimited other things. For our quit there are craves, triggers, hell just walking into the convience store. The TOOLS that we pick up here on KTC will help to eliminate or deal with those outside influences.
Shoogie I'm still learning things that I can do without a dip. This week it is baling alfalfa. (still looking for something to keep me awake) I've found that our crutch NICOTINE was more like a bubble that kept us from dealing with real life rather than a crutch to help us through life. It isolated me from life and controlled my every action.
I'm proud to be quit with you! No more hiding our face from the kids or others. Look them straight in the face and smile. LOOK NO MORE DIP!
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I have a larger garden that I try to take care of (1500 acres)
My garden consists of a 4'x8' box that I built :lol:
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So yesterday I receive a pamphlet in the mail from my insurance provider stating that they are offering a $150 incentive to anyone that quits tobacco, all you have to do is sign up for a quit program at webcoach.net, which is run by the American cancer society. So I do that and one of the requirements is that I participate in 5 calls from my quit coach. About 20 minutes after I sign up my phone rings and it is my quit coach and she wants to get some information, the usual- how long have I used, when the was the last time etc, etc. She tells me that they can help with the payment of nic gum and prescrip meds and I tell her that I do not want any of that, that I am doing this cold turkey. She then asks what my strategy was, and I told her that, among other things, I signed up on an online forum and that the only thing I do is give my word that I will not use today, everyday. Her response was "that website wouldnt happen to be killthecan would it? to which I obviously reply yes, and she said that they recommend this site to everyone that calls in trying to quit and that I was the 1st person she has talked to that actually used it. So to the wonderful addicts that created this site, well done, the ACS even believes in this method!
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So yesterday I receive a pamphlet in the mail from my insurance provider stating that they are offering a $150 incentive to anyone that quits tobacco, all you have to do is sign up for a quit program at webcoach.net, which is run by the American cancer society. So I do that and one of the requirements is that I participate in 5 calls from my quit coach. About 20 minutes after I sign up my phone rings and it is my quit coach and she wants to get some information, the usual- how long have I used, when the was the last time etc, etc. She tells me that they can help with the payment of nic gum and prescrip meds and I tell her that I do not want any of that, that I am doing this cold turkey. She then asks what my strategy was, and I told her that, among other things, I signed up on an online forum and that the only thing I do is give my word that I will not use today, everyday. Her response was "that website wouldnt happen to be killthecan would it? to which I obviously reply yes, and she said that they recommend this site to everyone that calls in trying to quit and that I was the 1st person she has talked to that actually used it. So to the wonderful addicts that created this site, well done, the ACS even believes in this method!
That's fuckin awesome
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So yesterday I receive a pamphlet in the mail from my insurance provider stating that they are offering a $150 incentive to anyone that quits tobacco, all you have to do is sign up for a quit program at webcoach.net, which is run by the American cancer society. So I do that and one of the requirements is that I participate in 5 calls from my quit coach. About 20 minutes after I sign up my phone rings and it is my quit coach and she wants to get some information, the usual- how long have I used, when the was the last time etc, etc. She tells me that they can help with the payment of nic gum and prescrip meds and I tell her that I do not want any of that, that I am doing this cold turkey. She then asks what my strategy was, and I told her that, among other things, I signed up on an online forum and that the only thing I do is give my word that I will not use today, everyday. Her response was "that website wouldnt happen to be killthecan would it? to which I obviously reply yes, and she said that they recommend this site to everyone that calls in trying to quit and that I was the 1st person she has talked to that actually used it. So to the wonderful addicts that created this site, well done, the ACS even believes in this method!
That's fuckin awesome
That is awesome. Building honor and quit 1 day at a time.
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50 days! 50 days without her. I never thought it was possible. I never thought I wanted it to be possible. I realize now that those thoughts were coming from her and not me. She's tried everything- sleepless nights, rage, cold sweats, hot flashes, hardcore craves, mild craves, dip dreams, anxiety, the little annoying fucking voice in the back of my mind telling me that 1 more for old times sake, yes, she has tried it all. But she fucked up, she fucked up in letting me get a taste of the freedom that I have now without her, and nothing and I truly mean NOTHING she can and will do will ever make me give that up.
I am quit
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50 days! 50 days without her. I never thought it was possible. I never thought I wanted it to be possible. I realize now that those thoughts were coming from her and not me. She's tried everything- sleepless nights, rage, cold sweats, hot flashes, hardcore craves, mild craves, dip dreams, anxiety, the little annoying fucking voice in the back of my mind telling me that 1 more for old times sake, yes, she has tried it all. But she fucked up, she fucked up in letting me get a taste of the freedom that I have now without her, and nothing and I truly mean NOTHING she can and will do will ever make me give that up.
I am quit
'clap'
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50 days! 50 days without her. I never thought it was possible. I never thought I wanted it to be possible. I realize now that those thoughts were coming from her and not me. She's tried everything- sleepless nights, rage, cold sweats, hot flashes, hardcore craves, mild craves, dip dreams, anxiety, the little annoying fucking voice in the back of my mind telling me that 1 more for old times sake, yes, she has tried it all. But she fucked up, she fucked up in letting me get a taste of the freedom that I have now without her, and nothing and I truly mean NOTHING she can and will do will ever make me give that up.
I am quit
'clap'
Good stuff shoogie, I'm gonna plagiarize the shit out of that someday. Bravo,
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50 days! 50 days without her. I never thought it was possible. I never thought I wanted it to be possible. I realize now that those thoughts were coming from her and not me. She's tried everything- sleepless nights, rage, cold sweats, hot flashes, hardcore craves, mild craves, dip dreams, anxiety, the little annoying fucking voice in the back of my mind telling me that 1 more for old times sake, yes, she has tried it all. But she fucked up, she fucked up in letting me get a taste of the freedom that I have now without her, and nothing and I truly mean NOTHING she can and will do will ever make me give that up.
I am quit
'clap'
Good stuff, shoog. Just the tip of the iceberg. It gets better everyday.....
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50 days! 50 days without her. I never thought it was possible. I never thought I wanted it to be possible. I realize now that those thoughts were coming from her and not me. She's tried everything- sleepless nights, rage, cold sweats, hot flashes, hardcore craves, mild craves, dip dreams, anxiety, the little annoying fucking voice in the back of my mind telling me that 1 more for old times sake, yes, she has tried it all. But she fucked up, she fucked up in letting me get a taste of the freedom that I have now without her, and nothing and I truly mean NOTHING she can and will do will ever make me give that up.
I am quit
'clap'
Good stuff, shoog. Just the tip of the iceberg. It gets better everyday.....
Shoogie,
you are an awesome quitter and this site is much better for having you. Hope you stick around for 5000 days.
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I realized the other day that the nic bitch will sneak up on you with no warning.
I was driving around town doing some errands when I passed this old lady, probably late 70's, puffing away on a cancer stick, and for a brief moment I thought to myself that if she can make it that long without dying of cancer then why couldnt I? Maybe, just maybe, I could enjoy dipping again for the next 40 years and make it into the 70's without dying.
Then poof, that thought vanished. She stopped by just long enough to drop that little message into my head. Trying to crack my resolve, but that's not what happened. What actually happened was the more I thought about it, the more I realized that dying of cancer was not the main reason for me not dipping anymore. Living the next 30, 40, 50 years ninja dipping and hiding from my family and missing out on watching my kids grow up are the main reasons for quitting. For the past 85 days I have been able to enjoy my family like I never could while dipping. No more hiding from kids trying to get my fix, no more mood swings from not getting my fix in time...etc. All of that was just BS and completely unfair to my family.
85-0 bitch 'Finger'
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I realized the other day that the nic bitch will sneak up on you with no warning.
I was driving around town doing some errands when I passed this old lady, probably late 70's, puffing away on a cancer stick, and for a brief moment I thought to myself that if she can make it that long without dying of cancer then why couldnt I? Maybe, just maybe, I could enjoy dipping again for the next 40 years and make it into the 70's without dying.
Then poof, that thought vanished. She stopped by just long enough to drop that little message into my head. Trying to crack my resolve, but that's not what happened. What actually happened was the more I thought about it, the more I realized that dying of cancer was not the main reason for me not dipping anymore. Living the next 30, 40, 50 years ninja dipping and hiding from my family and missing out on watching my kids grow up are the main reasons for quitting. For the past 85 days I have been able to enjoy my family like I never could while dipping. No more hiding from kids trying to get my fix, no more mood swings from not getting my fix in time...etc. All of that was just BS and completely unfair to my family.
85-0 bitch 'Finger'
Good shit. Sometimes ill see people parrying/having a good time as they smoke or dip and I get jealous for some reason like they have "fun enhancers" and I don't. Pisses me off. But then I realize that shit isn't enhancing their fun, its shortening their lives and they just THINK it adds to their fun and then I actually feel bad for them. There's no law that says you cant have fun without nicotine, hell people do it everyday. Fucked up how my addicted mind works!!!!
Ive also thought the same about the 80 yr old smokers. I think "damn I could live to be 80 and chew too". But then I think about my 56 yr old uncle who died last year from small cell cancer from smoking and think, fuck that could be me too. Then like you I really start to think the reason I quit really wasn't fear of cancer. It was one of the reasons but like you I was a ninja. I lied to my wife and kids face so many times it still makes me sick. Nicotine controlled my life, 100% no doubt about it. As a man that hurts to admit but it did.
Now I'm quit for me and me only. Still have rough spots, still wrongly glamorize it from time to time, still wrongly think it could ease the stress of certain situations...but it cant. Its just posionous weeds in a can. Sadly it controlled my life for 15 years but not much I can do about that now. Only thing I can do now is continue to take me life back and quit worry about people ive never met and what the fuck they're doing. This shits hard but I know its worth it. No "man" should have his life controlled by ANYTHING, let alone a can of shit that can kill you.
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I realized the other day that the nic bitch will sneak up on you with no warning.
I was driving around town doing some errands when I passed this old lady, probably late 70's, puffing away on a cancer stick, and for a brief moment I thought to myself that if she can make it that long without dying of cancer then why couldnt I? Maybe, just maybe, I could enjoy dipping again for the next 40 years and make it into the 70's without dying.
Then poof, that thought vanished. She stopped by just long enough to drop that little message into my head. Trying to crack my resolve, but that's not what happened. What actually happened was the more I thought about it, the more I realized that dying of cancer was not the main reason for me not dipping anymore. Living the next 30, 40, 50 years ninja dipping and hiding from my family and missing out on watching my kids grow up are the main reasons for quitting. For the past 85 days I have been able to enjoy my family like I never could while dipping. No more hiding from kids trying to get my fix, no more mood swings from not getting my fix in time...etc. All of that was just BS and completely unfair to my family.
85-0 bitch 'Finger'
Good shit. Sometimes ill see people parrying/having a good time as they smoke or dip and I get jealous for some reason like they have "fun enhancers" and I don't. Pisses me off. But then I realize that shit isn't enhancing their fun, its shortening their lives and they just THINK it adds to their fun and then I actually feel bad for them. There's no law that says you cant have fun without nicotine, hell people do it everyday. Fucked up how my addicted mind works!!!!
Ive also thought the same about the 80 yr old smokers. I think "damn I could live to be 80 and chew too". But then I think about my 56 yr old uncle who died last year from small cell cancer from smoking and think, fuck that could be me too. Then like you I really start to think the reason I quit really wasn't fear of cancer. It was one of the reasons but like you I was a ninja. I lied to my wife and kids face so many times it still makes me sick. Nicotine controlled my life, 100% no doubt about it. As a man that hurts to admit but it did.
Now I'm quit for me and me only. Still have rough spots, still wrongly glamorize it from time to time, still wrongly think it could ease the stress of certain situations...but it cant. Its just posionous weeds in a can. Sadly it controlled my life for 15 years but not much I can do about that now. Only thing I can do now is continue to take me life back and quit worry about people ive never met and what the fuck they're doing. This shits hard but I know its worth it. No "man" should have his life controlled by ANYTHING, let alone a can of shit that can kill you.
These thoughts are exactly why I love KTC. I can go from feeling sorry for myself to reading others success stories and can be lifted to the top of quit heaven! How great it is to have friends that understand exactly what you are going through and can lean on each other for support.
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I realized the other day that the nic bitch will sneak up on you with no warning.
I was driving around town doing some errands when I passed this old lady, probably late 70's, puffing away on a cancer stick, and for a brief moment I thought to myself that if she can make it that long without dying of cancer then why couldnt I? Maybe, just maybe, I could enjoy dipping again for the next 40 years and make it into the 70's without dying.
Then poof, that thought vanished. She stopped by just long enough to drop that little message into my head. Trying to crack my resolve, but that's not what happened. What actually happened was the more I thought about it, the more I realized that dying of cancer was not the main reason for me not dipping anymore. Living the next 30, 40, 50 years ninja dipping and hiding from my family and missing out on watching my kids grow up are the main reasons for quitting. For the past 85 days I have been able to enjoy my family like I never could while dipping. No more hiding from kids trying to get my fix, no more mood swings from not getting my fix in time...etc. All of that was just BS and completely unfair to my family.
85-0 bitch 'Finger'
Good shit. Sometimes ill see people parrying/having a good time as they smoke or dip and I get jealous for some reason like they have "fun enhancers" and I don't. Pisses me off. But then I realize that shit isn't enhancing their fun, its shortening their lives and they just THINK it adds to their fun and then I actually feel bad for them. There's no law that says you cant have fun without nicotine, hell people do it everyday. Fucked up how my addicted mind works!!!!
Ive also thought the same about the 80 yr old smokers. I think "damn I could live to be 80 and chew too". But then I think about my 56 yr old uncle who died last year from small cell cancer from smoking and think, fuck that could be me too. Then like you I really start to think the reason I quit really wasn't fear of cancer. It was one of the reasons but like you I was a ninja. I lied to my wife and kids face so many times it still makes me sick. Nicotine controlled my life, 100% no doubt about it. As a man that hurts to admit but it did.
Now I'm quit for me and me only. Still have rough spots, still wrongly glamorize it from time to time, still wrongly think it could ease the stress of certain situations...but it cant. Its just posionous weeds in a can. Sadly it controlled my life for 15 years but not much I can do about that now. Only thing I can do now is continue to take me life back and quit worry about people ive never met and what the fuck they're doing. This shits hard but I know its worth it. No "man" should have his life controlled by ANYTHING, let alone a can of shit that can kill you.
These thoughts are exactly why I love KTC. I can go from feeling sorry for myself to reading others success stories and can be lifted to the top of quit heaven! How great it is to have friends that understand exactly what you are going through and can lean on each other for support.
All good stuff in this thread! The other day I was at a light and this guy pulled up beside me a motorcycle.. Had a big ole fatty and flung a wad of spit there about 3 ft from my truck door... Prob 90% of the population would think that was incredibly gross... Me I just thought for just a sec.. "you lucky bastard"! Then I like shoogie thought... hell I could still do that.. actually why don't i just start dipping in my top lip all the time.. (5 gum grafts bottom pretty much shot).. then I thought what the hell.. I will just do a total reconstruction in my mouth and be good to go for another 44 years.. then after that I simply wouldn't give a damn.. Sometimes I would rather put up with the surgeries and all the shit that goes along with them... But then I came to my senses!! Fuck that. I don't have to live like that any more and ever again! I am no slave! I can handle a little pussy crave every now and then... because I AM QUIT!! Later - Gooch
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14o+ days in and she still will not give up. Had another dip dream last night, very realistic. Cant remember everything, but I do remember thinking that just one wouldnt hurt, and then while I was doing it I was thinking to myself that I had just caved, but that I would just keep posting roll.
Woke up this morning feeling very guilty and had a pretty substantial crave for a few minutes. Fucking cunt.
As I am typing this I think I realized where the dream came from. The other day it got really cold here so I had to break out my winter coat for the 1st time and I found several Grizzly $1 dollar off coupons in the inside pocket. I'm sure they had expired, didnt really look at them just threw them out, but I'm guessing that was enough of a door opening that the cunt thought she would try and win me back.
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Dear shoogie,
I QUIT with YOU today! You are still that badass quitter! No matter what happens!
I too get the dip dream occasionally...feel guilty when my eyes open, feel weird til the "realness" wears off, feel like shit when I post roll that a.m., feel GREAT when I get to chat that day and some badass quitter (Cbird this week) tells me like it is and I am again thinking clearly and stronger than hercules!!!!
I could not keep quit without this site! Your posts and chat time gives me strength!I am only a "babe" in the life of being QUIT and nicotine addiction.
Please keep posting roll until you have not had a nic dream in 699 daze! If you'll do this, I will too! 'bang head'
Be strong Mr. Shoogie, Be strong. Never surrender, never give up! Make the DECISION every a.m. early! keep your word, REPEAT in the a.m. and I WILL TOO!!!!!!
have a safe weekend, protect your quit, scream and punch at the nic bitch and kick her back into her hole!!! You can, I can, WE can KICK the CAN!!!
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Well I did it. I hit the year mark a few days ago. To that I say, good job me :D
For you new quitters here are some things I have learned along the way:
1.That 1st couple of weeks sucked hardcore ass, but was totally worth it.
2. The pain, fogginess, anger, rage- all of that shit goes away in time. Stay strong and focused and you can make it through all of that.
3. The craves- I'm sure this differs for everyone, but for me, I still get them from time to time. Very minor ones now, that I just brush to the side, but I still get them on occasion. Me personally, I like the fact that I still get them. I dont ever want to forget what my addiction was. The moment I become complacent about my quit is the moment that I could lose it, and that shit aint happening. So if I have to have a small crave every now and then to keep me focused, then so be it.
4. As a ninja dipper for the last several years of my addiction, the shit I would do to get my fix in hiding from my family was truly mind blowing. Now that I am free from all of that crap, the freedom that I have now is truly awesome. Over this past year we have made several trips to the zoo ( I have twin 6 year old boys and a 4 year girl), the science center, museums, all of these trips would have sucked ass in the past, as I would not have gotten my fix in easily, you know, because that was what was important :rolleyes: I was an idiot.
5. POSTING ROLL WORKS!!!- I have never met any of my brothers from Sept '12, never even spoken on the phone with any of them- but I'll be damned if wouldn't beak my heart to disappoint any of them by caving, it's just not an option.
6. Coming clean to your friends and family is a must. My friends knew of my addiction. My family did to an extent. Coming clean to my wife about my ninja dipping was crucial to my early success. By telling her on day 1 that I was quitting, it gave me another person to be accountable to, but also gave me another person that I knew I could count on for support. She knew what to look for when I was struggling. She knew that when I would rage, that it was the detox talking and she would not rage back and make it worse. She knew not to put me in situations that could potentially hurt my quit.
So to all of my quit brothers, I thank you all for the support that you have given me in this journey. To the new quitters- Hang in there, it gets better and the freedom is so worth the early shit you go through and if you need a number for another support contact, feel fee to PM anytime.
So now I have to go get my kids ready to go swimming and have nice day with them- dip free and loving life
Your quit brother,
Greg
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Well I did it. I hit the year mark a few days ago. To that I say, good job me :D
For you new quitters here are some things I have learned along the way:
1.That 1st couple of weeks sucked hardcore ass, but was totally worth it.
2. The pain, fogginess, anger, rage- all of that shit goes away in time. Stay strong and focused and you can make it through all of that.
3. The craves- I'm sure this differs for everyone, but for me, I still get them from time to time. Very minor ones now, that I just brush to the side, but I still get them on occasion. Me personally, I like the fact that I still get them. I dont ever want to forget what my addiction was. The moment I become complacent about my quit is the moment that I could lose it, and that shit aint happening. So if I have to have a small crave every now and then to keep me focused, then so be it.
4. As a ninja dipper for the last several years of my addiction, the shit I would do to get my fix in hiding from my family was truly mind blowing. Now that I am free from all of that crap, the freedom that I have now is truly awesome. Over this past year we have made several trips to the zoo ( I have twin 6 year old boys and a 4 year girl), the science center, museums, all of these trips would have sucked ass in the past, as I would not have gotten my fix in easily, you know, because that was what was important :rolleyes: I was an idiot.
5. POSTING ROLL WORKS!!!- I have never met any of my brothers from Sept '12, never even spoken on the phone with any of them- but I'll be damned if wouldn't beak my heart to disappoint any of them by caving, it's just not an option.
6. Coming clean to your friends and family is a must. My friends knew of my addiction. My family did to an extent. Coming clean to my wife about my ninja dipping was crucial to my early success. By telling her on day 1 that I was quitting, it gave me another person to be accountable to, but also gave me another person that I knew I could count on for support. She knew what to look for when I was struggling. She knew that when I would rage, that it was the detox talking and she would not rage back and make it worse. She knew not to put me in situations that could potentially hurt my quit.
So to all of my quit brothers, I thank you all for the support that you have given me in this journey. To the new quitters- Hang in there, it gets better and the freedom is so worth the early shit you go through and if you need a number for another support contact, feel fee to PM anytime.
So now I have to go get my kids ready to go swimming and have nice day with them- dip free and loving life
Your quit brother,
Greg
Well Done brother Shoog - been and will keep chasing you from a month out....
New guys, take a look at and take to heart what he states below.
And heck, if Shoog can be quit in that van down by the river, well then any of us can (HAHAHA have always loved the avatar).