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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: chitownsnus on April 14, 2012, 03:33:00 PM
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Well the first day wasn't so bad. The second day was pretty tough, but today is really tough for some reason.
I have been drinking water. I worked out this morning. I have been on the mint snuff as well. Just not sure how to keep from running out to the store and buying me some snus. I guess if I really want to quit then I won't.
Any words of encouragement are appreciated!
..Joe
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Stay strong man. Its gonna be tough. But worth it.
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Yes, I know it is going to be hard. My craving is now over, so I feel strong, but for that second I wasn't so sure. I had already planned on driving to the smoke shop and picking up my fresh can of general. That new can smell and the rush of that dip is something that is just heavenly.
That's what sucks about tobacco. It can control my life or I can control it. Right now I am in control and I hope to stay that way.
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Yes, I know it is going to be hard. My craving is now over, so I feel strong, but for that second I wasn't so sure. I had already planned on driving to the smoke shop and picking up my fresh can of general. That new can smell and the rush of that dip is something that is just heavenly.
That's what sucks about tobacco. It can control my life or I can control it. Right now I am in control and I hope to stay that way.
I know what you can do.
Go here (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=6205) and promise yourself that you won't use nicotine at all today. By doing that, it alerts us that we need to look out for you. There's a few guys that are going through the exact same hell you are right now. You'll find kindred spirits that know how fucking difficult this is.
You can do it. Take it one day at a time. If that doesn't work, take it one minute at a time.
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Well the first day wasn't so bad. The second day was pretty tough, but today is really tough for some reason.
I have been drinking water. I worked out this morning. I have been on the mint snuff as well. Just not sure how to keep from running out to the store and buying me some snus. I guess if I really want to quit then I won't.
Any words of encouragement are appreciated!
..Joe
The first part of the quit sucks!! here are some things that might help
upper right hand corner- you should use the same user name but will need a different password -
read the Hall of Fame Speeches and Words of Wisdom -
if you haven't posted role -
Where to post roll call: PRE JULY HOF 2012 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=6205)
How to post roll (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
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Yes, I know it is going to be hard. My craving is now over, so I feel strong, but for that second I wasn't so sure. I had already planned on driving to the smoke shop and picking up my fresh can of general. That new can smell and the rush of that dip is something that is just heavenly.
That's what sucks about tobacco. It can control my life or I can control it. Right now I am in control and I hope to stay that way.
I know what you can do.
Go here (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=6205) and promise yourself that you won't use nicotine at all today. By doing that, it alerts us that we need to look out for you. There's a few guys that are going through the exact same hell you are right now. You'll find kindred spirits that know how fucking difficult this is.
You can do it. Take it one day at a time. If that doesn't work, take it one minute at a time.
He is right on. Post roll. I promise you I will not use. You promise me. Together we can win...1 day at a time friend.
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Yes, I know it is going to be hard. My craving is now over, so I feel strong, but for that second I wasn't so sure. I had already planned on driving to the smoke shop and picking up my fresh can of general. That new can smell and the rush of that dip is something that is just heavenly.
That's what sucks about tobacco. It can control my life or I can control it. Right now I am in control and I hope to stay that way.
I know what you can do.
Go here (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=6205) and promise yourself that you won't use nicotine at all today. By doing that, it alerts us that we need to look out for you. There's a few guys that are going through the exact same hell you are right now. You'll find kindred spirits that know how fucking difficult this is.
You can do it. Take it one day at a time. If that doesn't work, take it one minute at a time.
He is right on. Post roll. I promise you I will not use. You promise me. Together we can win...1 day at a time friend.
Best advice i can give you, besides telling you to read everything here and post, is to stop and think. take a moment to really think about what dip/snus/whatever nicotine vehicle has done for you. there is no answer other than nothing of value. The other way to look at it is that the all you have to do is NOT dip. You don't have to actually do or create anything. All you have to do is not use nicotine for the next 24 hrs. A fucking monkey can do that. be the monkey....
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Thanks everyone. I think the real struggle is going to be longterm. I have quit numerous times in the past for 60-90 days at a time always to return. I want this time to be different and that is why I have come here for support. I am starting to get my bearings here and hope that I can use the information provided to make that little difference that I need.
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Thanks everyone. I think the real struggle is going to be longterm. I have quit numerous times in the past for 60-90 days at a time always to return. I want this time to be different and that is why I have come here for support. I am starting to get my bearings here and hope that I can use the information provided to make that little difference that I need.
Don't think more than one day at a time you can do that, hell I have stayed away from the shit for 2-3 years in the past but I was still a frickn addict I was also a pussy little boy for 54 yrs and now I've become a man for 15 days. I decided to be a man again today it feels good to own control of my life. Be a man face life one day at a time with the rest of us and post roll daily!!!!!
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Thanks everyone. I think the real struggle is going to be longterm. I have quit numerous times in the past for 60-90 days at a time always to return. I want this time to be different and that is why I have come here for support. I am starting to get my bearings here and hope that I can use the information provided to make that little difference that I need.
Chi- It is indeed a long term struggle. We are all nicotine addicts. But we can be free by quitting one day at a time. Re-assess your efforts in the past, I'd suggest you merely were stopping tobacco for a while, not building a serious quit. It is up to you. It is not easy, it takes cajones, but the freedom from the can is defnitely worth it. This site and its members will help you, but you have to own your quit.
Glad to be quit with you!
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Thanks everyone! I think like mentioned I just need to take it one day at a time. Today has been good so far. I went for a run this morning and have upped my water intake. Day 4 is off to a good start!
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Well lots of symptoms that others have experienced. Had a nasty sore on my gums that has gone down some now. I am also hungry as shit, which is going to result in my getting fatter than I already am. I had better up my gym time to compensate. I am not really getting the physical urges now as much as I am getting habitual urges. I am home free from the most uncomfortable withdrawals for the time being. I hope I can keep from being too unpleasant to others. :D
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Well lots of symptoms that others have experienced. Had a nasty sore on my gums that has gone down some now. I am also hungry as shit, which is going to result in my getting fatter than I already am. I had better up my gym time to compensate. I am not really getting the physical urges now as much as I am getting habitual urges. I am home free from the most uncomfortable withdrawals for the time being. I hope I can keep from being too unpleasant to others. :D
Great job. Freedom is worth it.
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Well lots of symptoms that others have experienced. Had a nasty sore on my gums that has gone down some now. I am also hungry as shit, which is going to result in my getting fatter than I already am. I had better up my gym time to compensate. I am not really getting the physical urges now as much as I am getting habitual urges. I am home free from the most uncomfortable withdrawals for the time being. I hope I can keep from being too unpleasant to others. :D
Don't worry about being a asshole just come here to do it, we understand and can take it.
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Damn this fucking addiction! I can't figure this shit out. First off I am hungry as hell so I am eating like a mother fucker. Then once I am done eating I want to dip more than ever. Mother fucker fucking shit, this is fucking pissing me off more than anything.
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Damn this fucking addiction! I can't figure this shit out. First off I am hungry as hell so I am eating like a mother fucker. Then once I am done eating I want to dip more than ever. Mother fucker fucking shit, this is fucking pissing me off more than anything.
yeah it fucking sucks. Don't you love it? I'll make you a promise. Just post roll and quit for 24 hours at a time. Drink a glass of water before you eat and after you eat something.
I am not very many days ahead of you. Today is my 33rd day. It sucked for a month. Guess what. I absolutely love being quit. I gained 12 pounds in that 30 days. If I gained it that fast, fuck I can and will lose it just as fast. But I have been quit and my mind is working nic free!
What I am saying is you are in hell. Just fucking stick to quit. You will love it in the future. For now, love the hate. You will be stronger and committed to this.
I have had three days in a row where the nic bitch has no power, no influence.
It makes me sick to think about the whore and deception of tobacco.
You are an addict for life. Control your addiction only for today. Worry about tomorrow when it comes. Addicted minds can only worry about the day at hand.
Stay strong. I love the fucking pain and hell you are experiencing. Reminds me never, ever, to cave. You can get through it because I and others have. I also did this alcohol free. I'm not bragging, just recommending.
Look in the mirror when you are weak and repeat after me...."No nic, you prick!"
You're in hell....Keep going don't stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You're not alone. We get it, we can relate. Rant and bitch here. Go out of your way to be nice to everyone you live with. Bitch us out and complain here. We can take it and give it back.
Don't be a bitch. Become an SM guy and enjoy the pain....it won't last if you stay quit. Keep your word just stay quit today. Post roll tomorrow if it comes.
I am so pumped right now. If I was at your house I would be waterbaording you!
You have a whole site that is cheering you on but it really is your fight and your victory. Have honor and win this.....
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Damn this fucking addiction! I can't figure this shit out. First off I am hungry as hell so I am eating like a mother fucker. Then once I am done eating I want to dip more than ever. Mother fucker fucking shit, this is fucking pissing me off more than anything.
yeah it fucking sucks. Don't you love it? I'll make you a promise. Just post roll and quit for 24 hours at a time. Drink a glass of water before you eat and after you eat something.
I am not very many days ahead of you. Today is my 33rd day. It sucked for a month. Guess what. I absolutely love being quit. I gained 12 pounds in that 30 days. If I gained it that fast, fuck I can and will lose it just as fast. But I have been quit and my mind is working nic free!
What I am saying is you are in hell. Just fucking stick to quit. You will love it in the future. For now, love the hate. You will be stronger and committed to this.
I have had three days in a row where the nic bitch has no power, no influence.
It makes me sick to think about the whore and deception of tobacco.
You are an addict for life. Control your addiction only for today. Worry about tomorrow when it comes. Addicted minds can only worry about the day at hand.
Stay strong. I love the fucking pain and hell you are experiencing. Reminds me never, ever, to cave. You can get through it because I and others have. I also did this alcohol free. I'm not bragging, just recommending.
Look in the mirror when you are weak and repeat after me...."No nic, you prick!"
You're in hell....Keep going don't stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You're not alone. We get it, we can relate. Rant and bitch here. Go out of your way to be nice to everyone you live with. Bitch us out and complain here. We can take it and give it back.
Don't be a bitch. Become an SM guy and enjoy the pain....it won't last if you stay quit. Keep your word just stay quit today. Post roll tomorrow if it comes.
I am so pumped right now. If I was at your house I would be waterbaording you!
You have a whole site that is cheering you on but it really is your fight and your victory. Have honor and win this.....
Damn I like that, lets water board everyone of us stupid addicted pricks till we never crave again!
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Damn this fucking addiction! I can't figure this shit out. First off I am hungry as hell so I am eating like a mother fucker. Then once I am done eating I want to dip more than ever. Mother fucker fucking shit, this is fucking pissing me off more than anything.
yeah it fucking sucks. Don't you love it? I'll make you a promise. Just post roll and quit for 24 hours at a time. Drink a glass of water before you eat and after you eat something.
I am not very many days ahead of you. Today is my 33rd day. It sucked for a month. Guess what. I absolutely love being quit. I gained 12 pounds in that 30 days. If I gained it that fast, fuck I can and will lose it just as fast. But I have been quit and my mind is working nic free!
What I am saying is you are in hell. Just fucking stick to quit. You will love it in the future. For now, love the hate. You will be stronger and committed to this.
I have had three days in a row where the nic bitch has no power, no influence.
It makes me sick to think about the whore and deception of tobacco.
You are an addict for life. Control your addiction only for today. Worry about tomorrow when it comes. Addicted minds can only worry about the day at hand.
Stay strong. I love the fucking pain and hell you are experiencing. Reminds me never, ever, to cave. You can get through it because I and others have. I also did this alcohol free. I'm not bragging, just recommending.
Look in the mirror when you are weak and repeat after me...."No nic, you prick!"
You're in hell....Keep going don't stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You're not alone. We get it, we can relate. Rant and bitch here. Go out of your way to be nice to everyone you live with. Bitch us out and complain here. We can take it and give it back.
Don't be a bitch. Become an SM guy and enjoy the pain....it won't last if you stay quit. Keep your word just stay quit today. Post roll tomorrow if it comes.
I am so pumped right now. If I was at your house I would be waterbaording you!
You have a whole site that is cheering you on but it really is your fight and your victory. Have honor and win this.....
Looking forward to being waterboarded! :D
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Damn this fucking addiction! I can't figure this shit out. First off I am hungry as hell so I am eating like a mother fucker. Then once I am done eating I want to dip more than ever. Mother fucker fucking shit, this is fucking pissing me off more than anything.
yeah it fucking sucks. Don't you love it? I'll make you a promise. Just post roll and quit for 24 hours at a time. Drink a glass of water before you eat and after you eat something.
I am not very many days ahead of you. Today is my 33rd day. It sucked for a month. Guess what. I absolutely love being quit. I gained 12 pounds in that 30 days. If I gained it that fast, fuck I can and will lose it just as fast. But I have been quit and my mind is working nic free!
What I am saying is you are in hell. Just fucking stick to quit. You will love it in the future. For now, love the hate. You will be stronger and committed to this.
I have had three days in a row where the nic bitch has no power, no influence.
It makes me sick to think about the whore and deception of tobacco.
You are an addict for life. Control your addiction only for today. Worry about tomorrow when it comes. Addicted minds can only worry about the day at hand.
Stay strong. I love the fucking pain and hell you are experiencing. Reminds me never, ever, to cave. You can get through it because I and others have. I also did this alcohol free. I'm not bragging, just recommending.
Look in the mirror when you are weak and repeat after me...."No nic, you prick!"
You're in hell....Keep going don't stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You're not alone. We get it, we can relate. Rant and bitch here. Go out of your way to be nice to everyone you live with. Bitch us out and complain here. We can take it and give it back.
Don't be a bitch. Become an SM guy and enjoy the pain....it won't last if you stay quit. Keep your word just stay quit today. Post roll tomorrow if it comes.
I am so pumped right now. If I was at your house I would be waterbaording you!
You have a whole site that is cheering you on but it really is your fight and your victory. Have honor and win this.....
Looking forward to being waterboarded! :D
Yea you can probable incorporate that into some "Super Tuesday" activity ( that's for MT)
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Help! I want a dip so bad right now for some reason. Even went by the store and took a look, but didn't buy anything. What the hell is wrong with me?
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Help! I want a dip so bad right now for some reason. Even went by the store and took a look, but didn't buy anything. What the hell is wrong with me?
Sac up there Chitown!
Go take a look these pictures and tell me you want to continue.
Cancer Pictures (http://www.killthecan.org/pics/)
or read this story
Jenny Tom (http://www.killthecan.org/facts/jennykern.asp)
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Help! I want a dip so bad right now for some reason. Even went by the store and took a look, but didn't buy anything. What the hell is wrong with me?
Sac up there Chitown!
Go take a look these pictures and tell me you want to continue.
Cancer Pictures (http://www.killthecan.org/pics/)
or read this story
Jenny Tom (http://www.killthecan.org/facts/jennykern.asp)
Thanks for that. I don't think I am going to be hungry anytime soon. :D
Mint snuff to the rescue! Maybe it's just the thought of having something in my lip. Wow, that was probably one of the worst cravings I have had since I started last week. I remember things being worse in the beginning, but not this far along. Maybe that is the reason I have never been able to stay quit before.
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Help! I want a dip so bad right now for some reason. Even went by the store and took a look, but didn't buy anything. What the hell is wrong with me?
Sac up there Chitown!
Go take a look these pictures and tell me you want to continue.
Cancer Pictures (http://www.killthecan.org/pics/)
or read this story
Jenny Tom (http://www.killthecan.org/facts/jennykern.asp)
Thanks for that. I don't think I am going to be hungry anytime soon. :D
Mint snuff to the rescue! Maybe it's just the thought of having something in my lip. Wow, that was probably one of the worst cravings I have had since I started last week. I remember things being worse in the beginning, but not this far along. Maybe that is the reason I have never been able to stay quit before.
Just pmed you my # call it can really help to just talk!
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Thanks for talking me off a ledge guys! Sorry to cause drama, but I was really feeling vulnerable. I think I better get me some more mint snuff or something else so that I am better prepared for future cravings.
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Thanks for talking me off a ledge guys! Sorry to cause drama, but I was really feeling vulnerable. I think I better get me some more mint snuff or something else so that I am better prepared for future cravings.
Keep some candy or something around man.
Once you post roll, you can't go get a dip so post roll first thing.
These craves get better over time.
Have a plan and some phone numbers.
YOU CAN DO THIS!
YOU ARE DOING IT!!
BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!!!
This 'zombie' -shit don't last forever brother....HANG TOUGH!
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Well it's day 8 now and for all intents and purposes it could be day 1000. Unfortunately I am an addict and I will always have to live with that fact. I am feeling pretty good about the control I have over my addiction today, but as always I need to be cautious about my decision making.
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Well it's day 8 now and for all intents and purposes it could be day 1000. Unfortunately I am an addict and I will always have to live with that fact. I am feeling pretty good about the control I have over my addiction today, but as always I need to be cautious about my decision making.
Right on 'Joe' keep it up bro, one day at a time. It is extremely important to remember you are, and will always be an ADDICT . Keep your head on straight and towards the goal and you'll be fine! Remember to reach out to other members of July and exchange numbers, more is better!! PM me if you want mine, keep up the good work
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Well it's day 8 now and for all intents and purposes it could be day 1000. Unfortunately I am an addict and I will always have to live with that fact. I am feeling pretty good about the control I have over my addiction today, but as always I need to be cautious about my decision making.
You get it! Great job. I am day 280 and post roll every day. do I sometimes want to be "cured"? Hell yes, but like you I am an addict there is no cure. But today we chose to be free, and I will spend the rest of today celebrating that freedom.
I quit with you today.
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For some reason today has been hard. I am not going to cave, but thought that I should share that today was hard for no apparent reason.
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For some reason today has been hard. I am not going to cave, but thought that I should share that today was hard for no apparent reason.
It doesn't matter why, the only thing that matters is that you had posted roll and you have new gained integrity. However, The reason is that you are a fricking addict just like the rest of us! And the bich doesn't want to lose you.
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For some reason today has been hard. I am not going to cave, but thought that I should share that today was hard for no apparent reason.
It doesn't matter why, the only thing that matters is that you had posted roll and you have new gained integrity. However, The reason is that you are a fricking addict just like the rest of us! And the bich doesn't want to lose you.
I wish I had cime college bitches wanting me as much! :lol:
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Day 41
It will be six weeks tomorrow since I have given up chewing tobacco. I don't know if I am better person for it, but I do know that I am stronger and know myself a little better than I did before I started. I am also battling my other addiction of alcohol these days as well. Booze is more difficult for me to quit than anything I have attempted before. I'm not sure why but it is and there isn't anything I can do about it. I am an addict and always will be.
My nic quit is going well with little to no cravings these days. I do have my triggers but they are manageable since I want to be quit. If I didn't want to be quit then there are lots of opportunities to cave and plenty of excuses! Oh the excuses, there are so many that I could fill this page with just a portion and still not even come close to listing them all.
My alcohol quit is still a little shaky at this point. Someone from this site told me to put as much effort into not drinking as I did into drinking. This put things into perspective and has helped me, but I am still having a hard time imagining not ever having a drink again. It just feels so good and is so enjoyable!
Anyhow, just wanted to write this shit down since I am not going to be in this state of mind (or so I hope) for the rest of my life.
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Pumped right now, I am going to order my 100 day razor soon (45 or so days). Probably not as meaningful as a coin, but hey that's how I get down!
(http://www.shavingshop.com/products/DSC05107.JPG)
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Pumped right now, I am going to order my 100 day razor soon (45 or so days). Probably not as meaningful as a coin, but hey that's how I get down!
(http://www.shavingshop.com/products/DSC05107.JPG)
'Sing and Drink' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
I celebrate with you! Way to kick the nic bitch's ass!
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Pumped right now, I am going to order my 100 day razor soon (45 or so days). Probably not as meaningful as a coin, but hey that's how I get down!
(http://www.shavingshop.com/products/DSC05107.JPG)
Well hello there fellow straight razor shaver. I've actually been very lazy since I grew a beard this winter so no shaving for me :)
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Pumped right now, I am going to order my 100 day razor soon (45 or so days). Probably not as meaningful as a coin, but hey that's how I get down!
(http://www.shavingshop.com/products/DSC05107.JPG)
Well hello there fellow straight razor shaver. I've actually been very lazy since I grew a beard this winter so no shaving for me :)
Pretty smooth shave on your ass though, Kub.
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Pumped right now, I am going to order my 100 day razor soon (45 or so days). Probably not as meaningful as a coin, but hey that's how I get down!
(http://www.shavingshop.com/products/DSC05107.JPG)
Well hello there fellow straight razor shaver. I've actually been very lazy since I grew a beard this winter so no shaving for me :)
Pretty smooth shave on your ass though, Kub.
OH, Thats not your ass! My mistake
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Pumped right now, I am going to order my 100 day razor soon (45 or so days). Probably not as meaningful as a coin, but hey that's how I get down!
(http://www.shavingshop.com/products/DSC05107.JPG)
Well hello there fellow straight razor shaver. I've actually been very lazy since I grew a beard this winter so no shaving for me :)
It is a blast for sure. Really takes you back to your roots. What kind of razors do you have? I have a couple of full hollows that I picked up online. One is from 1867, so that is pretty cool.
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It is a blast for sure. Really takes you back to your roots. What kind of razors do you have? I have a couple of full hollows that I picked up online. One is from 1867, so that is pretty cool.
I've got about 10-15. So much for saving money right? 'bang head'
I prefer full hollows, my favorite is one from either the 1800's or early 1900's that is from a full week set of razors. I have Tuesday and it's a smooth shaver.
I use the wedge when I have more than a few days of growth since it mows through like nobody's business.
Guess it's almost time to go baby face for the summer so I can start shaving again. I got pretty busy for a while and only saved the straight razor shaves for the weekends and just used a double edge safety razor.
I even have $200 in hones and stones to keep them all sharp. Talk about an addiction 'crackup'
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Going to keep some notes here about my quit. Feel free to interject and offer opinions or support!
Day 1-3: Brutal but tollerable for me. Fog was pretty hellish.
Day 4-11: Cravings are still there, but not as harsh. Fog is gone
Triggers:
- After every meal
- Upon waking up
- When I get bored
- Stressful situations
Coping techniques:
- Exercise
- Mint snuff
- Posting here
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Great to see you talking it out. It sure helps me. You got this. It only gets better, BUT (always a but) as it gets better when the nic crave strikes its more harsh and vivid, comes out of no where. You are right on with exercise and keep moving, distractions I know it helps me.
Keep on blogging here for your own good. Those of us that stop by benefit from your perspective of your quit. PM me if you want to trade digits.
Olcpo
Kevin
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Day 12 - Lots of cravings today for some reason, can't seem to pinpoint anything in particular. Just need to stay strong and ask for help.
One thing I should have noticed my first time around was the amount of people coming through not for the first time. I think I would have appreciated my quit more knowing what a struggle it really is. Anyhow, random thought of the day.
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Thanks for talking through what you are going through. I can relate to the Day 1-3 fog...as it's day two for me. I have some extended moments of being just fine, but then... the fog. Anyway... joined you yesterday in March 2020 PreHOF. Thank you for your daily checkin and activity in the forum. Chaotique
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Day 21: Hard to believe it's been 3 weeks since kicking the nic bitch to the curb, but here I am. Christmas was good. Nice to not have to worry about getting in a dip before any activity anymore. After reading some stories from here and lots of posts it has become clear that I am going to be an addict forever, however I am not going to let that define me as a person.
Side note: Hoping to get in my first, late December motorcycle ride today. Can't believe it's goign to be 60 degrees in Chicago on December 26th.
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Day 21: Hard to believe it's been 3 weeks since kicking the nic bitch to the curb, but here I am. Christmas was good. Nice to not have to worry about getting in a dip before any activity anymore. After reading some stories from here and lots of posts it has become clear that I am going to be an addict forever, however I am not going to let that define me as a person.
Side note: Hoping to get in my first, late December motorcycle ride today. Can't believe it's goign to be 60 degrees in Chicago on December 26th.
You Go! Ride a mile for me, Please. My bike is all put to bed, battery out, oil changed up on blocks and we are iced in. A good mile to get to pavement. Have a good run. Yup we are addicts. I think its kind of like being right or left handed, or having a bad knee. It's part of us, but as you say, It doesn't define us. Just can't forget it or get complacent with it or it will bite you hard. Enjoy the 60. Olcpo
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Day 25
Some random thoughts:
- I have realized that I am not focusing one day at a time, but rather long term. Going to be quitting ODAAT instead going forward to reduce stress
- some days it feels like the walls are closing in
- anxiety is pretty bad lately
- feeling stong as far as being quit, lots of support from march and my family
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Day 25
Some random thoughts:
- I have realized that I am not focusing one day at a time, but rather long term. Going to be quitting ODAAT instead going forward to reduce stress
- some days it feels like the walls are closing in
- anxiety is pretty bad lately
- feeling stong as far as being quit, lots of support from march and my family
There is no reason to focus on tomorrow when all we have is today. ODAAT is so important. It's the reason that I'm still quit. Keep it up!
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Day 37 for the second day in a row because I can't count for shit for some reason.
Some thoughts:
Anxiety and the feeling of dread is apparent most everyday for some reason. Somtimes I feel like it is going to be too much to handle, but I always make it through.
My appetite is huge as well. I am pretty sure I am getting bigger as a result. Workouts have been decent and my fake dip is keeping the bitch at bay for the time being.
I know I am going to make it this time because I have learned to hate dip and I am not going to stop posting my promise daily.
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Day 37 for the second day in a row because I can't count for shit for some reason.
Some thoughts:
Anxiety and the feeling of dread is apparent most everyday for some reason. Somtimes I feel like it is going to be too much to handle, but I always make it through.
My appetite is huge as well. I am pretty sure I am getting bigger as a result. Workouts have been decent and my fake dip is keeping the bitch at bay for the time being.
I know I am going to make it this time because I have learned to hate dip and I am not going to stop posting my promise daily.
Feeling similar all the way through. More dread than anxiety, unless I have to do something social. Appetite off the chart, I know I'm gaining, but oh well, I have lost it before. I know activity at present level isn't enough to keep it off. I share your distaste for the dip and dedication to the posting/quit. Proud to quit with you Today!
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Day 37 for the second day in a row because I can't count for shit for some reason.
Some thoughts:
Anxiety and the feeling of dread is apparent most everyday for some reason. Somtimes I feel like it is going to be too much to handle, but I always make it through.
My appetite is huge as well. I am pretty sure I am getting bigger as a result. Workouts have been decent and my fake dip is keeping the bitch at bay for the time being.
I know I am going to make it this time because I have learned to hate dip and I am not going to stop posting my promise daily.
Feeling similar all the way through. More dread than anxiety, unless I have to do something social. Appetite off the chart, I know I'm gaining, but oh well, I have lost it before. I know activity at present level isn't enough to keep it off. I share your distaste for the dip and dedication to the posting/quit. Proud to quit with you Today!
Take comfort in knowing I also feel the same way. Find things that make you feel good. Food helps fill that void, and the weight WILL come off. Exercise will help with the mental stuff, but yeah won’t be able to compete with the calories coming in. There’s just so much ;D. At least for me anyway. Glad you are here and quit with us.
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Day 37 for the second day in a row because I can't count for shit for some reason.
Some thoughts:
Anxiety and the feeling of dread is apparent most everyday for some reason. Somtimes I feel like it is going to be too much to handle, but I always make it through.
My appetite is huge as well. I am pretty sure I am getting bigger as a result. Workouts have been decent and my fake dip is keeping the bitch at bay for the time being.
I know I am going to make it this time because I have learned to hate dip and I am not going to stop posting my promise daily.
Feeling similar all the way through. More dread than anxiety, unless I have to do something social. Appetite off the chart, I know I'm gaining, but oh well, I have lost it before. I know activity at present level isn't enough to keep it off. I share your distaste for the dip and dedication to the posting/quit. Proud to quit with you Today!
Take comfort in knowing I also feel the same way. Find things that make you feel good. Food helps fill that void, and the weight WILL come off. Exercise will help with the mental stuff, but yeah won’t be able to compete with the calories coming in. There’s just so much ;D. At least for me anyway. Glad you are here and quit with us.
Thanks for all of the support. It brings a tear to my eye knowing that there are more than just me suffering through this terrible recovery from an even more terrible addiction. Proud to be quit with everyone here
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Day 37 for the second day in a row because I can't count for shit for some reason.
Some thoughts:
Anxiety and the feeling of dread is apparent most everyday for some reason. Somtimes I feel like it is going to be too much to handle, but I always make it through.
My appetite is huge as well. I am pretty sure I am getting bigger as a result. Workouts have been decent and my fake dip is keeping the bitch at bay for the time being.
I know I am going to make it this time because I have learned to hate dip and I am not going to stop posting my promise daily.
Feeling similar all the way through. More dread than anxiety, unless I have to do something social. Appetite off the chart, I know I'm gaining, but oh well, I have lost it before. I know activity at present level isn't enough to keep it off. I share your distaste for the dip and dedication to the posting/quit. Proud to quit with you Today!
Take comfort in knowing I also feel the same way. Find things that make you feel good. Food helps fill that void, and the weight WILL come off. Exercise will help with the mental stuff, but yeah won’t be able to compete with the calories coming in. There’s just so much ;D. At least for me anyway. Glad you are here and quit with us.
Thanks for all of the support. It brings a tear to my eye knowing that there are more than just me suffering through this terrible recovery from an even more terrible addiction. Proud to be quit with everyone here
It doesn’t last that long. Basic function does return. What you are describing is normal. Brain is just doing some rewriting as it is learning to work without nicotine impacting it. You guys are doing great.
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Hey @chitownsnus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=3371) . Thanks for recording your experiences. I can relate to much that is in your intro. Anxiety, stress, lack of motivation and focus...all symptoms I never had in my life but now have in spades. Makes me wonder which came first? Did I always harbor these feelings but they were masked by nicotine? Or are these feelings a result of my withdrawals?
The good news is that it is getting marginally better. Hardly better enough for me to notice, but better none the less. Not sure about you but I dipped for a long time and was extremely dependent. It's going to take a long time to recover. Looking forward to walking that road with you and coming out on the other side...perhaps better men. Hold that line!
PTBQWYT my friend.
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Hey @chitownsnus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=3371) . Thanks for recording your experiences. I can relate to much that is in your intro. Anxiety, stress, lack of motivation and focus...all symptoms I never had in my life but now have in spades. Makes me wonder which came first? Did I always harbor these feelings but they were masked by nicotine? Or are these feelings a result of my withdrawals?
The good news is that it is getting marginally better. Hardly better enough for me to notice, but better none the less. Not sure about you but I dipped for a long time and was extremely dependent. It's going to take a long time to recover. Looking forward to walking that road with you and coming out on the other side...perhaps better men. Hold that line!
PTBQWYT my friend.
Thanks for the words of encouragement. Today was a real bad day for me for some reason. Fog has hit hard like week one and anxiety was very extreme almost so much as to not be at all functional. Hoping for a better day tomorrow.
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Hey @chitownsnus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=3371) . Thanks for recording your experiences. I can relate to much that is in your intro. Anxiety, stress, lack of motivation and focus...all symptoms I never had in my life but now have in spades. Makes me wonder which came first? Did I always harbor these feelings but they were masked by nicotine? Or are these feelings a result of my withdrawals?
The good news is that it is getting marginally better. Hardly better enough for me to notice, but better none the less. Not sure about you but I dipped for a long time and was extremely dependent. It's going to take a long time to recover. Looking forward to walking that road with you and coming out on the other side...perhaps better men. Hold that line!
PTBQWYT my friend.
Thanks for the words of encouragement. Today was a real bad day for me for some reason. Fog has hit hard like week one and anxiety was very extreme almost so much as to not be at all functional. Hoping for a better day tomorrow.
Shit dude i feel you, you can read my intro. 94 days today and im feeling much much better, it will also get better for you. Try to keep busy and do new shit. I also took a lot of vitamins, slept a lot and tryed to work out like a maniac. This will pass!
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Hey @chitownsnus (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=3371) . Thanks for recording your experiences. I can relate to much that is in your intro. Anxiety, stress, lack of motivation and focus...all symptoms I never had in my life but now have in spades. Makes me wonder which came first? Did I always harbor these feelings but they were masked by nicotine? Or are these feelings a result of my withdrawals?
The good news is that it is getting marginally better. Hardly better enough for me to notice, but better none the less. Not sure about you but I dipped for a long time and was extremely dependent. It's going to take a long time to recover. Looking forward to walking that road with you and coming out on the other side...perhaps better men. Hold that line!
PTBQWYT my friend.
Thanks for the words of encouragement. Today was a real bad day for me for some reason. Fog has hit hard like week one and anxiety was very extreme almost so much as to not be at all functional. Hoping for a better day tomorrow.
Shit dude i feel you, you can read my intro. 94 days today and im feeling much much better, it will also get better for you. Try to keep busy and do new shit. I also took a lot of vitamins, slept a lot and tryed to work out like a maniac. This will pass!
Hang in there Chi. The day is almost over and you get to forget about it for a couple hours. Reset. Tomorrow will be a better day. Stacking slightly better days eventually adds up to a difference. Hold the line brother.