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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: TAG on November 19, 2014, 10:37:00 PM
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Cheers to the last first quit day I'll ever have...cause there have been more than I care to try to count.
FML - cause I know it's going to suck and cause I know damage has already been done.
I've quit cold turkey for days, weeks, months and years before. This time I'm counting on Kill The Can being the X factor, the variable that's been missing for all of those previous attempts.
I don't want to be a dipper anymore. I never want to say the words "Skoal Straight" again, unless I'm talking about the most moronic thing I've ever done. I know I'll miss it - I'll miss the alone time, the stress relief, the habit that seems like a natural fit with watching sports, and even the spitting into that little round hold.
What I won't miss are the feelings of embarrassment and shame I get when I think about what I'm doing to my family. How I may be taking years off my life. How old will my kids be when I die because of such a fucking selfish and meaningless habit. I won't miss worrying about how long it'll be until I have to have surgery to remove or repair my part of my face. I won't miss feeling like an asshole for single-handedly sabotaging my family's finances.
It's been a long time that I have wanted to quit. Just been too stupid to do it. Not this time.
I'm 37 years old, been dipping off and on since 19. Before writing this, I took my last dip out of my mouth, then flushed half a can down the toilet. I have a 10 month old daughter, 3 year old son, 14 year old step-son, and a wife that for some reason puts up with me. I got serious about quitting this time when I heard some recent stories about Curt Schilling, and the shit he's going through. They say people don't make major changes until they go through enough pain. Well, I'm going to use his pain as my own cause it hits home enough.
I'm hoping that I can be a solid, contributing member to this group. Can't wait til February, but I'll start with worrying about when I wake up tomorrow morning.
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I like the intro, but hear me out - forget about February until it is 11:59:59 PM on January 31st, 2015. 100 days is a great goal and a milestone, but it is also a +1 day in a lifetime of quit. Do this today, wake up and post roll again tomorrow. PM me for a number if you'd like, you aren't doing this alone.
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I like the intro, but hear me out - forget about February until it is 11:59:59 PM on January 31st, 2015. 100 days is a great goal and a milestone, but it is also a +1 day in a lifetime of quit. Do this today, wake up and post roll again tomorrow. PM me for a number if you'd like, you aren't doing this alone.
T-Wort is right TAG. You most certainly are not alone in this fight. Post roll, make friends , keep your daily promise, enjoy your freedom! Welcome!
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I like the intro, but hear me out - forget about February until it is 11:59:59 PM on January 31st, 2015. 100 days is a great goal and a milestone, but it is also a +1 day in a lifetime of quit. Do this today, wake up and post roll again tomorrow. PM me for a number if you'd like, you aren't doing this alone.
T-Wort is right TAG. You most certainly are not alone in this fight. Post roll, make friends , keep your daily promise, enjoy your freedom! Welcome!
One day at a time TAG, one day at a time....buckle down and focus on today, focus on each hour if you need to. Keep it to chuncks of time you can manage to quit. Sound like you have the correct attitude, and drive, desire, and WANT in ya to quit. Other than your Hope statement at the end...no hoping man. Buckle down, post roll early and everyday, and make this quit stick...
PM me if you need a number, you are not alone....
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Amazing what a few replies to a post does for the motivation and accountability.
Thanks for checking in w/ the advice. It has been noted and is appreciated, and I will certainly reach out as needed.
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Amazing what a few replies to a post does for the motivation and accountability.
Thanks for checking in w/ the advice. It has been noted and is appreciated, and I will certainly reach out as needed.
Tag - I like the intro as well except for romanticizing dip as your old friend but I get it. Soon you'll realize that is all bullshit but I get it. I'm 38 and started when I was 16 and I have 2 young kids under 5. My initial advice is to dig in and stay close to this site the first few days. The fog will be intense but the more you read you will realize that we are all the same - addicts who stole time away from our family to go feed an addiction that was slowly killing us.
Sounds like you have the right mindset starting out. Post roll every day when you get up and make the promise not to put that shit in your mouth today. It's the same promise I am making every dam day. Be a man of your word and you won't regret taking your life back.
Lighty
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Amazing what a few replies to a post does for the motivation and accountability.
Thanks for checking in w/ the advice. It has been noted and is appreciated, and I will certainly reach out as needed.
Tag - I like the intro as well except for romanticizing dip as your old friend but I get it. Soon you'll realize that is all bullshit but I get it. I'm 38 and started when I was 16 and I have 2 young kids under 5. My initial advice is to dig in and stay close to this site the first few days. The fog will be intense but the more you read you will realize that we are all the same - addicts who stole time away from our family to go feed an addiction that was slowly killing us.
Sounds like you have the right mindset starting out. Post roll every day when you get up and make the promise not to put that shit in your mouth today. It's the same promise I am making every dam day. Be a man of your word and you won't regret taking your life back.
Lighty
Do not reach out "as needed"! Reach out immediately and lean on the bada$$ quitters on this site. Do not wait one more minute!
You need to be all in today. That is the only way.
Worry about today only.... The past, tomorrow, a week from now, a month from now, a year from now mean nothing. You control your actions TODAY ONLY. Focus on living this day and being clean today. You can do this.
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Amazing what a few replies to a post does for the motivation and accountability.
Thanks for checking in w/ the advice. It has been noted and is appreciated, and I will certainly reach out as needed.
Tag - I like the intro as well except for romanticizing dip as your old friend but I get it. Soon you'll realize that is all bullshit but I get it. I'm 38 and started when I was 16 and I have 2 young kids under 5. My initial advice is to dig in and stay close to this site the first few days. The fog will be intense but the more you read you will realize that we are all the same - addicts who stole time away from our family to go feed an addiction that was slowly killing us.
Sounds like you have the right mindset starting out. Post roll every day when you get up and make the promise not to put that shit in your mouth today. It's the same promise I am making every dam day. Be a man of your word and you won't regret taking your life back.
Lighty
Lighty - great reply. Sounds like something I'd say to myself if that makes any sense.
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Amazing what a few replies to a post does for the motivation and accountability.
Thanks for checking in w/ the advice. It has been noted and is appreciated, and I will certainly reach out as needed.
Tag - I like the intro as well except for romanticizing dip as your old friend but I get it. Soon you'll realize that is all bullshit but I get it. I'm 38 and started when I was 16 and I have 2 young kids under 5. My initial advice is to dig in and stay close to this site the first few days. The fog will be intense but the more you read you will realize that we are all the same - addicts who stole time away from our family to go feed an addiction that was slowly killing us.
Sounds like you have the right mindset starting out. Post roll every day when you get up and make the promise not to put that shit in your mouth today. It's the same promise I am making every dam day. Be a man of your word and you won't regret taking your life back.
Lighty
Do not reach out "as needed"! Reach out immediately and lean on the bada$$ quitters on this site. Do not wait one more minute!
You need to be all in today. That is the only way.
Worry about today only.... The past, tomorrow, a week from now, a month from now, a year from now mean nothing. You control your actions TODAY ONLY. Focus on living this day and being clean today. You can do this.
I agree with this 100%. Your are going into Day 3, which can be the worst of the 3. Make connections now and be prepared.
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Amazing what a few replies to a post does for the motivation and accountability.
Thanks for checking in w/ the advice. It has been noted and is appreciated, and I will certainly reach out as needed.
Tag - I like the intro as well except for romanticizing dip as your old friend but I get it. Soon you'll realize that is all bullshit but I get it. I'm 38 and started when I was 16 and I have 2 young kids under 5. My initial advice is to dig in and stay close to this site the first few days. The fog will be intense but the more you read you will realize that we are all the same - addicts who stole time away from our family to go feed an addiction that was slowly killing us.
Sounds like you have the right mindset starting out. Post roll every day when you get up and make the promise not to put that shit in your mouth today. It's the same promise I am making every dam day. Be a man of your word and you won't regret taking your life back.
Lighty
Do not reach out "as needed"! Reach out immediately and lean on the bada$$ quitters on this site. Do not wait one more minute!
You need to be all in today. That is the only way.
Worry about today only.... The past, tomorrow, a week from now, a month from now, a year from now mean nothing. You control your actions TODAY ONLY. Focus on living this day and being clean today. You can do this.
I agree with this 100%. Your are going into Day 3, which can be the worst of the 3. Make connections now and be prepared.
Here is a good rule for you to adopt: if you are going to cave then you first have to get three quit brothers' permission to cave. Not through PM or text either. You must call them and ask permission to cave. Once three KTC bros say okay to you live over the phone. Then feel free to go ahead and cave.
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TAG, dunno if you've seen the quit contract yet. It's on the main page somewhere I think?
Anyways, it's a great idea to print that out. Put it in your wallet. Remember, you have some sanity now. You know you want to be quit, and you want to do whatever it takes. There might be a day where you don't have that sanity, and the nic bitch is whispering — sorry, SCREAMING — in your ear that it's fine to cave. Do the preparation NOW so that when that day comes you don't find yourself thinking, "I wish I had someone to text / call / yell at to get through this cave." My number is in your inbox.
Second piece of advice: Remember, when it comes down to it, at the deepest core of things ... nicotine use is a decision. You're a human fucking being — you can decide to do what you want. Every day you decide not to put that shit in your mouth, you've got our support, because it's tough. But if you ever DECIDE to buy, open, look at, and stuff a lip full of tobacco, I promise you you'll get no sympathy from me.
Quit on, +1 EDD!
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How is the quit TAG?
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Day 6 going strong. Surprisingly, I'm not craving it the way I thought I would...at least not as often. I get the urge, but it's only been now and then. I really thought I'd miss the actual act of dipping more than I have.
Super foggy on day 1 and 2, massive headache yesterday, but other than that nothing.
Thanks for checking in, much appreciated.
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Day 6 going strong. Surprisingly, I'm not craving it the way I thought I would...at least not as often. I get the urge, but it's only been now and then. I really thought I'd miss the actual act of dipping more than I have.
Super foggy on day 1 and 2, massive headache yesterday, but other than that nothing.
Thanks for checking in, much appreciated.
You can do this Tag! Hell, You are doing it! Whatever it takes to "not" put the poison in your mouth brother! Welcome to the best of your life.
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Day 6 going strong. Surprisingly, I'm not craving it the way I thought I would...at least not as often. I get the urge, but it's only been now and then. I really thought I'd miss the actual act of dipping more than I have.
Super foggy on day 1 and 2, massive headache yesterday, but other than that nothing.
Thanks for checking in, much appreciated.
You can do this Tag! Hell, You are doing it! Whatever it takes to "not" put the poison in your mouth brother! Welcome to the best of your life.
Congrats. Glad you're feeling better. Keep it up one day at a time and it'll just get better. Be prepared for life's unexpectes events. Protect your quit. It's all about being strong and smart.
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Day 6 going strong. Surprisingly, I'm not craving it the way I thought I would...at least not as often. I get the urge, but it's only been now and then. I really thought I'd miss the actual act of dipping more than I have.
Super foggy on day 1 and 2, massive headache yesterday, but other than that nothing.
Thanks for checking in, much appreciated.
You can do this Tag! Hell, You are doing it! Whatever it takes to "not" put the poison in your mouth brother! Welcome to the best of your life.
Congrats. Glad you're feeling better. Keep it up one day at a time and it'll just get better. Be prepared for life's unexpectes events. Protect your quit. It's all about being strong and smart.
Keep at it. Days like these are great. Know that ou will experience ups and downs as this unfolds. Stay quit and stay vigilant.