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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Swink on February 09, 2016, 08:10:00 AM
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On day 9. I'm 39 -- Dipped 1-2 cans a day for about two years. I was introduced to it when 8 or 9 by sneaking my uncles chew during summer family trips to the farm. Dipped maybe 10 cans over the years that spanned high school, college (so like a random can a year) and the following years up to the past two. It snuck up on me as I just gradually did more and more over that past two years.
I quit by tossing it all and not taking any with me on a trip overseas to a destination where they don't sell dip - at all. I was miserable. I had quit for a few days over the previous months and knew I was going to be a pissed off piece of shit. That's why I previously fell off the wagon - I was bein a real asshole to my wife and anyone else that would listen. Being in a professional situation made me squash the asshole down.
I was getting bold - thinking I'm nine days in and clean so "I'm free" - but thought better of it and realized I'm big enough to know I may need some help from here on out.
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Swink, the help you seek is here at KTC if you are ready to accept it. Day 9 on your own is great, the nic is out of your system and now the mental games kick in. Get over to May 16 and post your promise not to use nicotine for 24 hours. we only quit here one day at a time, don't worry about tomorrow just fight like hell to stay quit for today. Get on here and vent all of your nic rage, we can take it we are going through it or have gone through it. Make connections with your fellow quitters in May 16 as they will be your lifeline when the shit gets deep. I'll be looking for your roll post in May 16. You can do this Swink, it will not be easy but ending the slavery to nicotine will be worth every minute of hell you will go through for the next 10, 100, and 1000 days.
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Wait come back...I am very happy to see that you found our little slice of heaven / website but please note that you are not really done yet.
All of us quitters that have been successful so far in this have made a conscious decision to come here and post roll with our group every day. The original goal is to get to 100 days quit or your HOF (Hall Of Fame), but in all honesty that is a milestone not a goal. The goal is to quit addiction once and for all, the milestones just break the elephant of quit down into smaller more manageable chunks, so the impossible is attainable.
I strongly suggest that you do the same, however you are a grown man and obviously capable of making your own decisions. I only ask that you humor me for a few minutes as I provide you with some links that I feel will help you see the path that we have chosen here and that is clearly marked out for others to follow. All of the following underlined and bold words are links to help you find things on this at times clunky forum:
1 - find your quit group and post roll with them daily Pre HOF May 2016 Quit Group (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/11505241/205/)
2 - Here is How to Post Roll (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/1003072/1/#new)
3 - This is Why We Post Roll (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/10391308/1/#new)
4 - get to know your fellow quitters and perhaps exchange phone numbers with them, it makes shit real when someone in real life can get a hold of you, this is not just a cyber world this is real
5 - read stories of others Words of Wisdom (http://forum.killthecan.org/forum/55572/) my Read the Tom Jenny Kern story, the Sean Marsee story and Randy's story
6 - now dry your eyes and share with others in your life that you are quitting and note that you need to quit for you
7 - quit being an ASSHOLE, unless your uncle forced you to dip from his can he is not the cause of your addiction, neither are other people; YOU ARE. So the next time you want to rage about how much of a jackass addict you are, look in the mirror and yell at that mother fucker
8 - do this daily, if possible the first thing in the morning
This is not easy it is really fucking hard, but sometimes the easy path leads to a life of bad choices while the hard path leads to an easier life.
The ball is in your court...
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Thanks - I'm not going anywhere and I will roll call.
My biggest scare right now is after 4 or so days of having quit I'm dealing with seems to be (I hope to be) a throat infection. It's got me nervously scared as others have had scares. I sit. A grown man, here shaking as I type this.
Also I don't blame my uncle. I am definitely the fucker.
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Thanks - I'm not going anywhere and I will roll call.
My biggest scare right now is after 4 or so days of having quit I'm dealing with seems to be (I hope to be) a throat infection. It's got me nervously scared as others have had scares. I sit. A grown man, here shaking as I type this.
Also I don't blame my uncle. I am definitely the fucker.
Atta boy. This shit is scary and I can say I am still scared of something surfacing. Your health is important and like I said this shit is not easy, but just remember that you are a quitter, and it is OK to be scared.
The best advice I ever read here is that One Problem + nicotine = 2 problems. Go see an ENT Dr or your physician for a consult and culture. Though scary any diagnosis is a diagnosis and knowing is always better than worrying.
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Thanks - I'm not going anywhere and I will roll call.
My biggest scare right now is after 4 or so days of having quit I'm dealing with seems to be (I hope to be) a throat infection. It's got me nervously scared as others have had scares. I sit. A grown man, here shaking as I type this.
Also I don't blame my uncle. I am definitely the fucker.
Atta boy. This shit is scary and I can say I am still scared of something surfacing. Your health is important and like I said this shit is not easy, but just remember that you are a quitter, and it is OK to be scared.
The best advice I ever read here is that One Problem + nicotine = 2 problems. Go see an ENT Dr or your physician for a consult and culture. Though scary any diagnosis is a diagnosis and knowing is always better than worrying.
^^^ that is some great stuff, quit on brothers