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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Falcon67 on September 13, 2017, 11:42:00 AM
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So day 16 -- feeling A LOT better than this time 2 weeks ago.
Cravings are still whispering in the background but not yelling like they were last week -- which was an improvement over the screaming the first week.
I read a lot of the site -- thanks for the advise. Since I WAS (I am no longer engaging in this behavior) a snus user there is not a lot of support for that. I have been looking specifically for nicotine free products to help with the behaviors and mouth feels. I found a lot of suggestions on this however they miss the mark for a Snus user. I bought and am using the Jakes Mint pouches -- however they are really large and not very comfortable for upper lip use. The other probelm is I was a mini portion Snus user this LARGE pouch is really out of my comfort zone. I am making it work -- and the taste is terrific -- just large and clunky. I would appreciate ANY suggestions from Ex-Snusers out on the forum.
Missing the energy kick and alertness boost before meetings -- that was a HUGE part of my use of snus. Again any suggestions on this would be greatly appreciated.
I never believed I was an addict while I used snus -- but that was becoming more and more apparent as I would panic and loose my mind when I could not order my snus (Swedish brand Northerner dry mini wintermint) because it was on back order. I would panic and get crazy -- stretching out what I still had and checking the website every 3 hours to see when they got it back in. This happened many times over the past year when I refilled -- and I had to admit to myself that I was a slave to this stuff. I started to let myself get really low -- intending to quit -- then chicken out when I got too low and order. The panic REALLY set in when they were on back order -- I was down to next to nothing and sometimes ordered other Swedish Snus to "get me by" until mine was back in stock.
So Monday August 28th I used my last snus late at night. I honestly had no plans on quitting the next day -- something just snapped the next morning when I went to pop my first snus for the day. I just said -- NO. I put the case in my pocket and went to work. I bought a pack of strong gum (Dentine ICE) and popped them. The day was LONG and DRAGGED and I grabbed at the tin in my pocket all day. So after going through 2 packs of gum I congratulated myself on making it through work with no snus. The next day I left the tin in the house -- this would have made me PANIC in the past -- but I did it.
So here I am a few weeks later -- tin is still in my dresser drawer -- I see it every morning -- I even open it to sniff some mornings -- but I leave it there and it still has 11 pieces -- same as was there that Monday night.
Thanks for this website -- really has helped. VERY informational
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Welcome Falcon. Oregon Mint has pouches that are rather small, so that may be more comparable in size to the snus.
I would advise pitching the "trophy tin" you have there... you have been able to reject it so far, but what happens in 2 weeks (or whenever) when you have a really bad day?
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Thank you for the tip on the Oregon Mint -- just ordered a few cans -- lets see how well they work.
I will ditch the trophy can soon -- I am in the process of ditching all of the unopened cans that I have.
I locked them in a container at work -- so I could not grab any at night / mornings or on weekends. The nicotine is still controlling the part of my brain that reminds me how much money I spent on them -- what a waste. I have trashed all of the "get me by" brands that I bought in the past -- now down to my favorite mainstay snus. I have a dozen unopened cans of that. That nicotine riddled brain wave is yelling at me that I should have planned the quit out better and finishing these last ones up will not do anything. I know better and just have to dump them. One step at a time I guess.
The really crazy part is that the tins themselves were such a big part of me. They are very unique looking -- nothing like dip cans. I never left home without one in my pocket for years. In some ways throwing them all out is like throwing out a part of my identity. I know really crazy talk -- I guess I just have to get this out in writing to see that. That is a great reason for this forum.
Thanks again -- will keep you posted on my progress.
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by keeping them you are setting yourself up for a certain cave...ditch the snus tins and keep the quit open. flush them down the toilet now.
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The Smokey Mountain Snuff Wintergreen pouches were terribly small compared to my old favorite Grizzly pouches, but not as small as the snus I had sampled years ago when they hit the market hard here in the states. Its just another option for you to check out. I highly recommend ditching everything you have on hand: get it gone, dump it, flush it, whatever you have to do. As was stated, having an available supply that you are essentially "trying not to use" can only cause problems for your quit. I was quite unhappy the other day at about day 35 to find an old dead can of those grizzly pouches under my bed, next to the bedside garbage can (that was only really ever there for empty cans.) I think I am on the path to hating nicotine, and I want this site to be my only reminder of what I used to do to myself all day every damn day.
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Thanks for the tip on the Smokey Mountain pouches -- ordered a few cans to try.
Thanks for all of the pushing -- all of the new cans are gone -- trashed -- dumped them into a trash can on the opposite side of the building from where I work. That is a really busy area and the trash bins will be filled and dumped within the next hour. I feel that shaky panic feeling but am posting this to show my resolve and have a 2 hour meeting coming up to keep my mind off of running back over there.
I will dump the open can tonight when I get home. Take it out of the dresser -- walk outside and down to the dumpster and toss.
No going back now -- looking forward to trying some of these substitute items as soon as they come.
Thanks for all of the good advice and support.
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Update - last can from dresser thrown out.
First time in over 12 plus years I will go to sleep without one in the house.
Thanks again - going to kick this for good.
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Received both Oregon Mint and Smokey Mountain pouches today. Thank you so much for the tip - they are both really good as substitutes for portion snus. I would place them as white portions - almost mini size. The Oregon were smaller and dryer - both are great. Easy to placenta in upper lip and flavor is great.
Only drawback is the can - doesn't not have an empty spot for used pouches. That is sooooo handy to stay discreet - most Swedish Snus cans have them. I can handle discarding them in a napkin.
These really hit the mark on the physical habit and of lipping a pouch. Another day down thanks to the help from this group.
Thanks again!
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Received both Oregon Mint and Smokey Mountain pouches today. Thank you so much for the tip - they are both really good as substitutes for portion snus. I would place them as white portions - almost mini size. The Oregon were smaller and dryer - both are great. Easy to placenta in upper lip and flavor is great.
Only drawback is the can - doesn't not have an empty spot for used pouches. That is sooooo handy to stay discreet - most Swedish Snus cans have them. I can handle discarding them in a napkin.
These really hit the mark on the physical habit and of lipping a pouch. Another day down thanks to the help from this group.
Thanks again!
Nice turn of events. I read your initial posts and thought... oh boy... here we go again... but you've listened and learned. Keep doing what you are doing. It gets easier... how you feel now isn't your new normal.
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Family party today at a nice restaurant - drinking, dancing, great food. Snus would have played a huge part today. Brought my Oregon Mint and stayed the course. Even kept the drinking down to one beer.
It was a really nice steak house that boasted primo cigars in a smoking room - geez let's really pile the temptations on. Stayed away from it despite people asking why I was not jumping on it. Kept you the Mint packs in my lip - drank lots of seltzer and made it through the event.
Another day down - I see now this will be a day at a time, event at a time approach.
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Tough day at work -- lots of long boring meetings -- this would have been prime SNUS time for me to keep alert. They were conference calls so I just stood up at my desk everytime I started to loose focus. Oregon Mint in my upper lip keeping me satisfied. Posting to my group every day reminds me I would be letting a lot of people down if I caved -- Not to mention going back on my promise. Thanks for the support.
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Falcon, you are doing great. I kept my last unopened tin of Kodiak for almost two weeks before I scrapped it. It was really hard for me too after 17 years of the Wintergreen Bear. I am not sure why I held on to it for so long. I never opened it or anything, but every once in a while I would open my glove box and just look at it. It is an odd feeling to get rid of something that you spent almost half of your life with. Just remember that every craving will pass. Every crazy thought that is trying to convince you to buy more is just the nicotine addiciton kicking in. Remember how you have felt the last few weeks, and remember, that even one SNUS will cause you to have to go through all of it again. Stay strong, and congrats on your quit.
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Thanks Montovon -- You as well -- We will share our 100 days in December together!
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OK Tough few days at work -- think I saw every minute click by on the clock today.
My brain still has the foggy feeling and I have to shake myself now and then to get my head back in the game. The people that sit near me are really curious since I have been popping up and down like a pogo stick lately. I walk around my 3x3 foot cube and stretch during long ass conference calls to keep my mind from drifting away.
I do have to keep lists as I have been forgetting things and not as "on the ball" as usual. Despite all of this I am determined to beat this and not let it beat me. I remind myself how far I have come and how much better I feel now as compared to last week, and so much better than the week before that.
I can not say thank you enough for this site. I have been reading posts / information and other stories and that is really making the difference.
Biggest is posting roll with my December Brothers and Sisters -- I will not let myself or them down. That simple act is so powerful and is making the difference this time.
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OK Tough few days at work -- think I saw every minute click by on the clock today.
My brain still has the foggy feeling and I have to shake myself now and then to get my head back in the game. The people that sit near me are really curious since I have been popping up and down like a pogo stick lately. I walk around my 3x3 foot cube and stretch during long ass conference calls to keep my mind from drifting away.
I do have to keep lists as I have been forgetting things and not as "on the ball" as usual. Despite all of this I am determined to beat this and not let it beat me. I remind myself how far I have come and how much better I feel now as compared to last week, and so much better than the week before that.
I can not say thank you enough for this site. I have been reading posts / information and other stories and that is really making the difference.
Biggest is posting roll with my December Brothers and Sisters -- I will not let myself or them down. That simple act is so powerful and is making the difference this time.
Keep doing exactly what you are doing. Better days are ahead. Remember, you were an active addict for a long time... it is going to take some time to heal. But you will heal.
I'm quit with you today, sir.
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OK Tough few days at work -- think I saw every minute click by on the clock today.
My brain still has the foggy feeling and I have to shake myself now and then to get my head back in the game. The people that sit near me are really curious since I have been popping up and down like a pogo stick lately. I walk around my 3x3 foot cube and stretch during long ass conference calls to keep my mind from drifting away.
I do have to keep lists as I have been forgetting things and not as "on the ball" as usual. Despite all of this I am determined to beat this and not let it beat me. I remind myself how far I have come and how much better I feel now as compared to last week, and so much better than the week before that.
I can not say thank you enough for this site. I have been reading posts / information and other stories and that is really making the difference.
Biggest is posting roll with my December Brothers and Sisters -- I will not let myself or them down. That simple act is so powerful and is making the difference this time.
Keep doing exactly what you are doing. Better days are ahead. Remember, you were an active addict for a long time... it is going to take some time to heal. But you will heal.
I'm quit with you today, sir.
Falcon,
You keep doing what you're doing, but also remember just how bad the first few days were. A long-time quitter once said, "never forget day one. The day you forget day one, you lose." Don't lose. You've got too much invested to go backwards from here! Quit with you today.
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OK Tough few days at work -- think I saw every minute click by on the clock today.
My brain still has the foggy feeling and I have to shake myself now and then to get my head back in the game. The people that sit near me are really curious since I have been popping up and down like a pogo stick lately. I walk around my 3x3 foot cube and stretch during long ass conference calls to keep my mind from drifting away.
I do have to keep lists as I have been forgetting things and not as "on the ball" as usual. Despite all of this I am determined to beat this and not let it beat me. I remind myself how far I have come and how much better I feel now as compared to last week, and so much better than the week before that.
I can not say thank you enough for this site. I have been reading posts / information and other stories and that is really making the difference.
Biggest is posting roll with my December Brothers and Sisters -- I will not let myself or them down. That simple act is so powerful and is making the difference this time.
Keep doing exactly what you are doing. Better days are ahead. Remember, you were an active addict for a long time... it is going to take some time to heal. But you will heal.
I'm quit with you today, sir.
Falcon,
You keep doing what you're doing, but also remember just how bad the first few days were. A long-time quitter once said, "never forget day one. The day you forget day one, you lose." Don't lose. You've got too much invested to go backwards from here! Quit with you today.
keep it up.
Great seeing you actively supporting others here and knowing the power of posting roll daily.
quit hard!
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OK Tough few days at work -- think I saw every minute click by on the clock today.
My brain still has the foggy feeling and I have to shake myself now and then to get my head back in the game. The people that sit near me are really curious since I have been popping up and down like a pogo stick lately. I walk around my 3x3 foot cube and stretch during long ass conference calls to keep my mind from drifting away.
I do have to keep lists as I have been forgetting things and not as "on the ball" as usual. Despite all of this I am determined to beat this and not let it beat me. I remind myself how far I have come and how much better I feel now as compared to last week, and so much better than the week before that.
I can not say thank you enough for this site. I have been reading posts / information and other stories and that is really making the difference.
Biggest is posting roll with my December Brothers and Sisters -- I will not let myself or them down. That simple act is so powerful and is making the difference this time.
Keep doing exactly what you are doing. Better days are ahead. Remember, you were an active addict for a long time... it is going to take some time to heal. But you will heal.
I'm quit with you today, sir.
Falcon,
You keep doing what you're doing, but also remember just how bad the first few days were. A long-time quitter once said, "never forget day one. The day you forget day one, you lose." Don't lose. You've got too much invested to go backwards from here! Quit with you today.
keep it up.
Great seeing you actively supporting others here and knowing the power of posting roll daily.
quit hard!
Thanks all for your support!!
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Hi Falcon: Your intro is a great read! My palms were sweating until you tossed the last of your snus cans...that was downright terrifying...
But it is amazing to see how far you have progressed in just these first few weeks. You are doing awesome and now you are even out helping newer members (like me) and offering support in our quit.
I feel lucky to have you in my quit group and am proud to quit with you today. It is a GREAT day to quit and keep fighting falcon!
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Thanks 4TheWin - yeah my palms were really sweaty as well making the move to toss those Snus tins. I knew this group would push me to do the right thing so I was shared being totally open and honest. I knew what I had to do but my addict brain made 101 excuses why I should do the wrong thing. That's why this group works - No BS - no excuses - helps get it done.
I am trying to pay that kindness and support forward to other members.
Proud to have you in my quit group - and proud to quit with you today!
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How are you doing Falcon? Hopefully you are rocking it so well that adding to your intro no longer appeals...but if you write it we are inetrested! Quit on and to h*'ll with snus ... You know that autocorrect to anus, right...don't need to put anus in your mouth ever again!!!
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4TheWin I think the autocorrect has it right with anus!! NO I will not be putting any more anus in my mouth.
Thanks for checking in -- rough few days at work. Part of my job is training so this week has been full of classes for me. Used to be the time I looked for the nic hit to keep me rolling and "on" for the all day classes. Stuck with a few extra cups of strong coffee these past days to keep me going.
2 days of classes down -- 1 more to go. I bought a can of Coke today for the afternoon - -usually do not touch the stuff but the sugar and caffeine gave me the hit I needed to plow through. Another check box in things I can do nic free -- I am proud to have that list grow.
Stay strong my December brother!!
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Awesome work Falc!!! You are just killing this quit. Way to go girl!!!
Work stresses can definitely bring the craves....so I hope you have some digits handy if things get too out of hand...I assume you saw deamond's almost cave story today...that was scarey...so let me know if you want my digits.
Also, some bad stuff about IowaFF...
I have been stressing at work a bit too....so hang in there and proud to quit with you today and see you on roll nice and early tomorrow!
Best, Tim
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4TheWin I think the autocorrect has it right with anus!! NO I will not be putting any more anus in my mouth.
Thanks for checking in -- rough few days at work. Part of my job is training so this week has been full of classes for me. Used to be the time I looked for the nic hit to keep me rolling and "on" for the all day classes. Stuck with a few extra cups of strong coffee these past days to keep me going.
2 days of classes down -- 1 more to go. I bought a can of Coke today for the afternoon - -usually do not touch the stuff but the sugar and caffeine gave me the hit I needed to plow through. Another check box in things I can do nic free -- I am proud to have that list grow.
Stay strong my December brother!!
Proud to be quitting with you Falcon! You reached out to me when I first did my Intro and it was much appreciated! If you need anything, just PM me and my digits are yours!
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4TheWin I think the autocorrect has it right with anus!! NO I will not be putting any more anus in my mouth.
Thanks for checking in -- rough few days at work. Part of my job is training so this week has been full of classes for me. Used to be the time I looked for the nic hit to keep me rolling and "on" for the all day classes. Stuck with a few extra cups of strong coffee these past days to keep me going.
2 days of classes down -- 1 more to go. I bought a can of Coke today for the afternoon - -usually do not touch the stuff but the sugar and caffeine gave me the hit I needed to plow through. Another check box in things I can do nic free -- I am proud to have that list grow.
Stay strong my December brother!!
Proud to be quitting with you Falcon! You reached out to me when I first did my Intro and it was much appreciated! If you need anything, just PM me and my digits are yours!
Thanks guys! We have all been kicking the Nic Bitch's ass -- lets keep it up!
I appreciate you both for the support. I have to do this without digits (right now) -- not getting the happy helpful support on the homefront. More of "told you not to do that crap" and my own fault for ninja snussing and not making it as obvious as to how much I was using. The postings here and in the group pages have been a tremendous help to me.
Most helpful is my daily pledge to you both and ALL of my December Brothers -- that simple act every moring has been the KEY in me making 33 days so far. Anytime I have a craving or start to allow the addict part of my brain start talking I remind myself of the daily promise I made to myself and all of you. That REALLY REALLY puts things into perspective and give me the strength to stay Nic free.
Thanks for all of your postings! Stay Strong!
Proud to quit with BOTH of you and ALL of the Decemberists today.
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Falc - I am sorry to hear about some lack of support but as you know, this is YOUR problem and YOUR addiction. In the end it is up to you to make this fight...and I know you will and you will win!!!
I understand the no digits thing...if I was you I would do exactly the same thing...but log on to KTC anytime night or day if you need support!
And I 100% agree with you about posting first thing in the morning.
You are doing absolutely fantastic, and I am proud to quit with you today!
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Congrats on your 100 days quit!.
Proud to quit with you today.
It's not 1Hun Dun, stay the course, stay connected, stay strong, Quit Hard!
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Thanks ChickDip! First mountain climbed - working my way up the next one - Day 200 - one day at a time.
Proud to quit with you today!
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Belated congrats on 100, Falcon! Love your spirit that shines through on these boards! Keep up the awesome quit!!!
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Traveling the past few weeks -- Staying strong and feeling good.
Tonight I was searching the extra pockets in my suitcase for an internet cable (I always keep extras on me) as I needed to plug into the hotel internet. I had my hand in one of the deep side pockets and found an old tin of snus. Not just any old snus -- my old favorite -- Northerner Wintergreen mini -- and unopened.
Now at 148 Days Quit you would think I would just toss it no problem. Oh NO -- that nicotine addict brain of mine lit up like a Christmas tree at the sight of the can. DAMN that Nic Bitch!! I could not believe the waves of cravings that rocked me. I was so pissed at myself for allowing a stupid tin to make me feel that way.
In my socks I left the room, tin in hand and tossed it in the garbage pail in the lobby. Lucky for me I had not emptied my pockets and had some money to buy a bottle of soda and my card to get back in my room. I sat in my room for a while drinking my soda and really being mad at myself for having that reaction -- but then calming down and ultimately congratulating myself for tossing the sealed tin as quickly as I did.
I guess I needed a wake-up call and reminder that this addiction is real and does not let go. I do not have the daily reminders or temptations as others on this site as I had to mail order my snus -- it is just not easily available. So I have not seen a tin in over 130 days. I post strong words every day along wiht my pledge -- so it was humbling to get rattled by holding that can tonight.
Once I got my head cleared I went on this site -- read some posts -- and calmed down. I felt the need to share this with my brothers and sisters of quit. To say yes I am an addict -- that reality really smacked me in the head tonight -- but I am still QUIT and stayed strong thanks to all of you!
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Holy sh*t sister! That was close!! Way to go and stay strong! Proud of you but not excited you put yourself in harm's way like that! You need some digits maybe? 'Crazy'
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Traveling the past few weeks -- Staying strong and feeling good.
Tonight I was searching the extra pockets in my suitcase for an internet cable (I always keep extras on me) as I needed to plug into the hotel internet. I had my hand in one of the deep side pockets and found an old tin of snus. Not just any old snus -- my old favorite -- Northerner Wintergreen mini -- and unopened.
Now at 148 Days Quit you would think I would just toss it no problem. Oh NO -- that nicotine addict brain of mine lit up like a Christmas tree at the sight of the can. DAMN that Nic Bitch!! I could not believe the waves of cravings that rocked me. I was so pissed at myself for allowing a stupid tin to make me feel that way.
In my socks I left the room, tin in hand and tossed it in the garbage pail in the lobby. Lucky for me I had not emptied my pockets and had some money to buy a bottle of soda and my card to get back in my room. I sat in my room for a while drinking my soda and really being mad at myself for having that reaction -- but then calming down and ultimately congratulating myself for tossing the sealed tin as quickly as I did.
I guess I needed a wake-up call and reminder that this addiction is real and does not let go. I do not have the daily reminders or temptations as others on this site as I had to mail order my snus -- it is just not easily available. So I have not seen a tin in over 130 days. I post strong words every day along wiht my pledge -- so it was humbling to get rattled by holding that can tonight.
Once I got my head cleared I went on this site -- read some posts -- and calmed down. I felt the need to share this with my brothers and sisters of quit. To say yes I am an addict -- that reality really smacked me in the head tonight -- but I am still QUIT and stayed strong thanks to all of you!
Winning!
I love this!
Remeber, you can never have just one. That's a lie.
Enjoy your victory!
So proud of you!
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Double post!
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Traveling the past few weeks -- Staying strong and feeling good.
Tonight I was searching the extra pockets in my suitcase for an internet cable (I always keep extras on me) as I needed to plug into the hotel internet. I had my hand in one of the deep side pockets and found an old tin of snus. Not just any old snus -- my old favorite -- Northerner Wintergreen mini -- and unopened.
Now at 148 Days Quit you would think I would just toss it no problem. Oh NO -- that nicotine addict brain of mine lit up like a Christmas tree at the sight of the can. DAMN that Nic Bitch!! I could not believe the waves of cravings that rocked me. I was so pissed at myself for allowing a stupid tin to make me feel that way.
In my socks I left the room, tin in hand and tossed it in the garbage pail in the lobby. Lucky for me I had not emptied my pockets and had some money to buy a bottle of soda and my card to get back in my room. I sat in my room for a while drinking my soda and really being mad at myself for having that reaction -- but then calming down and ultimately congratulating myself for tossing the sealed tin as quickly as I did.
I guess I needed a wake-up call and reminder that this addiction is real and does not let go. I do not have the daily reminders or temptations as others on this site as I had to mail order my snus -- it is just not easily available. So I have not seen a tin in over 130 days. I post strong words every day along wiht my pledge -- so it was humbling to get rattled by holding that can tonight.
Once I got my head cleared I went on this site -- read some posts -- and calmed down. I felt the need to share this with my brothers and sisters of quit. To say yes I am an addict -- that reality really smacked me in the head tonight -- but I am still QUIT and stayed strong thanks to all of you!
Winning!
I love this!
Remeber, you can never have just one. That's a lie.
Enjoy your victory!
So proud of you!
Awesome!
Welcome all those thoughts. Good, bad, annoying, whatever....they will remind you to stay aware and to not let your guard down. That's a huge win and strength builder.
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Holy sh*t sister! That was close!! Way to go and stay strong! Proud of you but not excited you put yourself in harm's way like that! You need some digits maybe? 'Crazy'
Thanks Brother -- got your digits and have them loaded!
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Traveling the past few weeks -- Staying strong and feeling good.
Tonight I was searching the extra pockets in my suitcase for an internet cable (I always keep extras on me) as I needed to plug into the hotel internet. I had my hand in one of the deep side pockets and found an old tin of snus. Not just any old snus -- my old favorite -- Northerner Wintergreen mini -- and unopened.
Now at 148 Days Quit you would think I would just toss it no problem. Oh NO -- that nicotine addict brain of mine lit up like a Christmas tree at the sight of the can. DAMN that Nic Bitch!! I could not believe the waves of cravings that rocked me. I was so pissed at myself for allowing a stupid tin to make me feel that way.
In my socks I left the room, tin in hand and tossed it in the garbage pail in the lobby. Lucky for me I had not emptied my pockets and had some money to buy a bottle of soda and my card to get back in my room. I sat in my room for a while drinking my soda and really being mad at myself for having that reaction -- but then calming down and ultimately congratulating myself for tossing the sealed tin as quickly as I did.
I guess I needed a wake-up call and reminder that this addiction is real and does not let go. I do not have the daily reminders or temptations as others on this site as I had to mail order my snus -- it is just not easily available. So I have not seen a tin in over 130 days. I post strong words every day along wiht my pledge -- so it was humbling to get rattled by holding that can tonight.
Once I got my head cleared I went on this site -- read some posts -- and calmed down. I felt the need to share this with my brothers and sisters of quit. To say yes I am an addict -- that reality really smacked me in the head tonight -- but I am still QUIT and stayed strong thanks to all of you!
Winning!
I love this!
Remeber, you can never have just one. That's a lie.
Enjoy your victory!
So proud of you!
Awesome!
Welcome all those thoughts. Good, bad, annoying, whatever....they will remind you to stay aware and to not let your guard down. That's a huge win and strength builder.
Thanks to all of my family on this community in keeping me strong! Without all of you, and my daily promise, I think that moment would have gone quite a different way yesterday.
Woke up early today and posted roll immediately with my daily promise.
Humbled addict -- but proud to quit with you all today!
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Thank you for posting this story! It is quit GOLD. Reminds me (20 days behind you) to stay vigilant. Something, somewhere is going to pop into my life (and your life again too) that is going to temp the sh*t out of us. Thinking through how we will deal with the unexpected is VERY helpful IMO. I know this is a ODAAT thing, but we also need to remember that addiction is every day and forever!
An amazing victory from an awesome quitter!!!
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Today as I posted my 365 days I felt the need to dig up my introduction page and pay some well deserved homage to everyone that helped to make this day happen.
My decision one year ago was one of the best decisions of my life. To this day I do not know why I made it on that day or what drove me to make it. All I know is that I did and I thank God everyday since for giving me the strength and wisdom to make it.
This site and the people on it enabled me to keep that pledge and promise to not go back. I know that if I only had made my promise to myself this past year I would not have kept it. I tried that many times in the past and always reverted to my drug of choice, nicotine. Making my daily promise to my amazing group of brothers and the vets that have showered me with support was and is the key to me being nicotine free for a year. That is the fact and it is undisputed!
I am humbled to know and acknowledge that I am and will always be an addict to nicotine. My daily pledge reminds me of that - and that is a good thing. The day i forget is the day I make myself vulnerable to my addiction taking a hold on me.
So I want to thank the KTC site, my December 2017 brothers, the vets and everyone else that has supported and kept me honest in keeping my promise. Please know that you all play a major role in my quit and I am so thankful to have all of you in my life.
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Look who picked up her punctuation today!!!! CONGRATULATIONS @Falcon67 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=484) !!!!!!
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Look who picked up her punctuation today!!!! CONGRATULATIONS @Falcon67 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=484) !!!!!!
'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
'Bow' 'Bow' 'Bow' 'Bow' 'Bow'
Congrats Falcon!! Huge milestone.
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Look who picked up her punctuation today!!!! CONGRATULATIONS @Falcon67 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=484) !!!!!!
'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
'Bow' 'Bow' 'Bow' 'Bow' 'Bow'
Congrats Falcon!! Huge milestone.
Congrats on 1,000 days of awesomeness and freedom
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Look who picked up her punctuation today!!!! CONGRATULATIONS @Falcon67 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=484) !!!!!!
'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
'Bow' 'Bow' 'Bow' 'Bow' 'Bow'
Congrats Falcon!! Huge milestone.
Congrats on 1,000 days of awesomeness and freedom
Congratulations Falcon!!!