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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: futurebanker413 on August 01, 2015, 01:46:00 AM
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I am putting down the can tomorrow. I've been dipping since i was 16 and i'm now 20. I've also been a "healthy kid" but lately have started to see that my health is deteriorating. My gums on each side have a visible indent from where i would put my dinger. Does this ever heal? I've started noticing sensitivity of teeth, bad breath, shortness of breath and started getting headaches without a dip. My gums bleed everytime i go to the dentist. Its gonna be tough to quit, dipping is a part of my life, i do it before the gym, packing lips with the bros and when i drink the crave is unreal. I use to save all my tins and spell my college letters on the wall with them. I use to constantly use to study with a lip in. How naive i was. I've lately realized however that this thing i loved and thought was awesome will lead to my death and decline.
I truly feel trapped by the can, every time i walk into a gas station its a struggle. My girlfriend hates it and my parents beg me to put down the can. My younger brother also dips and we feed our addiction together. The toughest thing will be seeing him dip and not having a dipshesh with him. I just know deep down that i need to put the can down and move on with life dip free. Its going to be the hardest thing i've ever done but i need to quit. For a long time i never admitted i was addicted and ironically during this time i would go a couple days without dipping but once i realized i was trapped it almost made it harder. The stress would set in and then make me dip. I'm gunna take it one day at a time and tommorow is day one. I've browsed this forum before and i hope it will help me quit through stories of others success.
Any advice is very welcome! I really hope one day my picture is on this site with the amount of years i've been without dip. I don't want to be trapped anymore, i don't want to be petrified of the dentist. I want to have the chains of grizzly off of my ankles. I know its time to quit.
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Welcome future! That was a great intro and NOW is the time to quit. No more tomorrows. I had hundreds of I'll quit tomorrows
I get the sense that you know that you are an addict, which is a great step. Keep reading here on this site to really understand what that means. Your brain has been re-wired by this drug, and you are going to fight like hell to break free and bring your healthy self back. Find your quit group in November. Make your promise first thing each day and know you have support of people here to help.
And also know deep down that you never really "loved" to dip. It was your addict brain demanding that you take more of the drug to relieve the withdrawal symptoms, and granting you the reward for doing so. Hate this drug. Hate the "Nic B*tch" who will twist your logic and test your resolve with lies.
One day at a time brother.
CJ
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I am putting down the can tomorrow. I've been dipping since i was 16 and i'm now 20. I've also been a "healthy kid" but lately have started to see that my health is deteriorating. My gums on each side have a visible indent from where i would put my dinger. Does this ever heal? I've started noticing sensitivity of teeth, bad breath, shortness of breath and started getting headaches without a dip. My gums bleed everytime i go to the dentist. Its gonna be tough to quit, dipping is a part of my life, i do it before the gym, packing lips with the bros and when i drink the crave is unreal. I use to save all my tins and spell my college letters on the wall with them. I use to constantly use to study with a lip in. How naive i was. I've lately realized however that this thing i loved and thought was awesome will lead to my death and decline.
I truly feel trapped by the can, every time i walk into a gas station its a struggle. My girlfriend hates it and my parents beg me to put down the can. My younger brother also dips and we feed our addiction together. The toughest thing will be seeing him dip and not having a dipshesh with him. I just know deep down that i need to put the can down and move on with life dip free. Its going to be the hardest thing i've ever done but i need to quit. For a long time i never admitted i was addicted and ironically during this time i would go a couple days without dipping but once i realized i was trapped it almost made it harder. The stress would set in and then make me dip. I'm gunna take it one day at a time and tommorow is day one. I've browsed this forum before and i hope it will help me quit through stories of others success.
Any advice is very welcome! I really hope one day my picture is on this site with the amount of years i've been without dip. I don't want to be trapped anymore, i don't want to be petrified of the dentist. I want to have the chains of grizzly off of my ankles. I know its time to quit.
I want your name on roll today, Saturday August 1. It is time. Be an example to your brother.
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I am putting down the can tomorrow. I've been dipping since i was 16 and i'm now 20. I've also been a "healthy kid" but lately have started to see that my health is deteriorating. My gums on each side have a visible indent from where i would put my dinger. Does this ever heal? I've started noticing sensitivity of teeth, bad breath, shortness of breath and started getting headaches without a dip. My gums bleed everytime i go to the dentist. Its gonna be tough to quit, dipping is a part of my life, i do it before the gym, packing lips with the bros and when i drink the crave is unreal. I use to save all my tins and spell my college letters on the wall with them. I use to constantly use to study with a lip in. How naive i was. I've lately realized however that this thing i loved and thought was awesome will lead to my death and decline.
I truly feel trapped by the can, every time i walk into a gas station its a struggle. My girlfriend hates it and my parents beg me to put down the can. My younger brother also dips and we feed our addiction together. The toughest thing will be seeing him dip and not having a dipshesh with him. I just know deep down that i need to put the can down and move on with life dip free. Its going to be the hardest thing i've ever done but i need to quit. For a long time i never admitted i was addicted and ironically during this time i would go a couple days without dipping but once i realized i was trapped it almost made it harder. The stress would set in and then make me dip. I'm gunna take it one day at a time and tommorow is day one. I've browsed this forum before and i hope it will help me quit through stories of others success.
Any advice is very welcome! I really hope one day my picture is on this site with the amount of years i've been without dip. I don't want to be trapped anymore, i don't want to be petrified of the dentist. I want to have the chains of grizzly off of my ankles. I know its time to quit.
I want your name on roll today, Saturday August 1. It is time. Be an example to your brother.
Probably wouldn't be to good a banker without a lip or jaw. Post roll and let's do this together! I quit with you today!
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I am putting down the can tomorrow. I've been dipping since i was 16 and i'm now 20. I've also been a "healthy kid" but lately have started to see that my health is deteriorating. My gums on each side have a visible indent from where i would put my dinger. Does this ever heal? I've started noticing sensitivity of teeth, bad breath, shortness of breath and started getting headaches without a dip. My gums bleed everytime i go to the dentist. Its gonna be tough to quit, dipping is a part of my life, i do it before the gym, packing lips with the bros and when i drink the crave is unreal. I use to save all my tins and spell my college letters on the wall with them. I use to constantly use to study with a lip in. How naive i was. I've lately realized however that this thing i loved and thought was awesome will lead to my death and decline.
I truly feel trapped by the can, every time i walk into a gas station its a struggle. My girlfriend hates it and my parents beg me to put down the can. My younger brother also dips and we feed our addiction together. The toughest thing will be seeing him dip and not having a dipshesh with him. I just know deep down that i need to put the can down and move on with life dip free. Its going to be the hardest thing i've ever done but i need to quit. For a long time i never admitted i was addicted and ironically during this time i would go a couple days without dipping but once i realized i was trapped it almost made it harder. The stress would set in and then make me dip. I'm gunna take it one day at a time and tommorow is day one. I've browsed this forum before and i hope it will help me quit through stories of others success.
Any advice is very welcome! I really hope one day my picture is on this site with the amount of years i've been without dip. I don't want to be trapped anymore, i don't want to be petrified of the dentist. I want to have the chains of grizzly off of my ankles. I know its time to quit.
I want your name on roll today, Saturday August 1. It is time. Be an example to your brother.
Probably wouldn't be to good a banker without a lip or jaw. Post roll and let's do this together! I quit with you today!
Was today the day?
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i am an addict and i want too quit. I poured my tin into the trash last night and haven't packed a lip today and am determined not too. I dont understand how to post roll. I looked at the info on it but where do i find the roll? everytime i go to november quit group i just find instructions on how to join.
Thanks for the support guys I definitely wouldn't make a good banker without a jaw.
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i am an addict and i want too quit. I poured my tin into the trash last night and haven't packed a lip today and am determined not too. I dont understand how to post roll. I looked at the info on it but where do i find the roll? everytime i go to november quit group i just find instructions on how to join.
Thanks for the support guys I definitely wouldn't make a good banker without a jaw.
Make sure you go to last posted page and follow instructions or just start talking in there. Great decision, let's get this done! I quit with you today!
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i just posted roll pab1964. Today i quit.
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i just posted roll pab1964. Today i quit.
Hell yeah! Proud of you my friend! It's gonna be tough, we're all here for you. Need make sure you get some numbers, better to have them not need than need them not have them! Pm me if you want mine! Remember it want kill you, just make you think it is! Quitting with you today my friend!
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He'll ya. Way to post up future.
Quit with you EDD.
CJ.
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He'll ya. Way to post up future.
Quit with you EDD.
CJ.
We quit today CJ.
We dont need a can a dirt.
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He'll ya. Way to post up future.
Quit with you EDD.
CJ.
We quit today CJ.
We dont need a can a dirt.
One day at a time money man. It gets a lot better, and you'll never have to relive the past few days!
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I've also been a "healthy kid" but lately have started to see that my health is deteriorating. My gums on each side have a visible indent from where i would put my dinger. Does this ever heal? I've started noticing sensitivity of teeth, bad breath, shortness of breath and started getting headaches without a dip. My gums bleed everytime i go to the dentist. Its gonna be tough to quit, dipping is a part of my life, i do it before the gym, packing lips with the bros and when i drink the crave is unreal.
The toughest thing will be seeing him dip and not having a dipshesh with him.
Great to see a boy turn 20 and decide he is going to face his health like a man.
Dip does lead to gum recession and it is permanent. There is no known way unfortunately to regenerate the gums. If you stay quit, your gums will stop receding further. The bleeding is probably because of gingivitis, inflammation of the gums, caused by inadequate brushing and especially inadequate flossing, and irritation from the dip. Your breath smells like the shit because you've been putting shit in your mouth hours every day, and because of the gingivitis. A grown man shouldn't be afraid of the dentist. Headaches during nicotine withdrawal is common. I don't know why you are short of breath,
Lay off the alcohol for 50 days. Alcohol is a leading instigator in caving. If you can't lay off alcohol for 50 days, you may have another addiction besides nicotine.
Your brother should have the courtesy to avoid dipping around you. Show him how to quit by example, maybe he will follow. You guys really do need to discover a new bonding activity anyways.
I quit with you today amigo.
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Get in here and write something you worthless, pathetic piece of trash...
You think you can come back in to my home after posting and ghosting your first two go around's and just skate by? 'finger point'
I want to hear about it. I want to hear how bad today was. I want to hear you whine and cry and even rejoice at your quit daily! 'bangin'
You want to be considered a Phalanx? You're going to have to do more than just change your password!! Right now your a Phallic!
Get in here fauxbanker!! Start writing! Every day! Show us you really want to be a part of July 2016! 'rem' 'rem'
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Day 3 cowboy Nicotine
Today sucks, get on to find my ass getting roasted on KTC, I'm craving hard. And every bit of the roast was very deserved. I've caved twice, which is some serious pussy shit. I need to get a hold of this problem and it starts each and every morning, one day at a time. I've been thinking about a lip all day, I'm pissed off, not in a good mood at all. This sucks. Can't stop thinking about it, I want a beer...but that'll just make it worse. I'm looking at the cancer pictures on KTC right now. Its on the other tab. FUCK this shit, literallyfuckthishit. I'm about to flip back to the pictures again....fuck. Any fellow brothers that got people battling cancer right now, my prayers go out to you and anyone fighting that. If there's one thing that probably scares the shit out of people its probably cancer, I know its on my mind.
@suthern_gntlman suggested I write here everyday, in his experience "the things you devote mental thought to are the things that mean the most to you", I'm going to take this advice and run with it, he seems wise.
So here will start my first entry in hopefully a long story of my quit, I'll post each day, the posts will range in times of the day, some might accompany roll, some might be late at night, some might be long, some short, but I'm sure you get the idea.
Proud to quit with you all today.
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A good start! I quit with you today!
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Day 4 cowboy Nicotine
Today's been a bitch, my mouth and and neck are sore and I just feel out of it. One more day and I'll have gone 4 days, 96 hours, 5,760 minutes, and 345,000 seconds. It seems like much more of an accomplishment when you look at it from that perspective. I go to college so every time I leave a building I got cigs starring me in the face. I've never been a huge cig smoker but when I'm drunk it's like tobacco becomes critical for my body to function....I've got to watch my drinking...tips are more than welcome.
I was glad to hear that @jayperks made it through the night. Just goes to show how critical the support function can be.
Proud to quit with you all today.
-Future
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Day 4 cowboy Nicotine
Today's been a bitch, my mouth and and neck are sore and I just feel out of it. One more day and I'll have gone 4 days, 96 hours, 5,760 minutes, and 345,000 seconds. It seems like much more of an accomplishment when you look at it from that perspective. I go to college so every time I leave a building I got cigs starring me in the face. I've never been a huge cig smoker but when I'm drunk it's like tobacco becomes critical for my body to function....I've got to watch my drinking...tips are more than welcome.
I was glad to hear that @jayperks made it through the night. Just goes to show how critical the support function can be.
Proud to quit with you all today.
-Future
My tip:
Take a break from alcohol for a little while. A beer here and there probably won't lead to disaster, but actual drinking can be hazardous earl in a quit.
Go easy on the drinking and a major excuse many use for caving is out of the question.
Quit on.
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Day 5 cowboy Nicotine
Quite an interesting day in the July group, Lots of discussion going on. Have to say though that saying you "Don't have enough time" for your quit almost ensures you will cave. Its pretty much a theme I can attribute heavily to my first cave. If you want the quit then you'll make time. And besides posting roll takes 30 seconds, literally, and if you can't post then text a buddy to get your name on the roll call. Hell nowadays you can use your fancy iphone to text your KTC buddy using voice controls through siri saying "throw me on roll", literally you don't even need to type a single thing, I rest my case.
Proud to quit with you all here at KTC.
-Future
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Hello Future, if im not mistaken you were part of November 2015 quit group? If so please post your answers to the questions 3.
If you already did this, then thanks. Just think, had you hung in there with us you'd be somewhere around 250 days quit.
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Hello Future, if im not mistaken you were part of November 2015 quit group? If so please post your answers to the questions 3.
If you already did this, then thanks. Just think, had you hung in there with us you'd be somewhere around 250 days quit.
I found it Future. Wishing you luck. Stick with it. Stay quit. Whip over to NOV 2015, say hello. I quit with you today.
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Hello Future, if im not mistaken you were part of November 2015 quit group? If so please post your answers to the questions 3.
If you already did this, then thanks. Just think, had you hung in there with us you'd be somewhere around 250 days quit.
I found it Future. Wishing you luck. Stick with it. Stay quit. Whip over to NOV 2015, say hello. I quit with you today.
Future, I PMed you my digits. Wishing you luck on your quit. Please reach out to me anytime
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Day 5 cowboy Nicotine
Quite an interesting day in the July group, Lots of discussion going on. Have to say though that saying you "Don't have enough time" for your quit almost ensures you will cave. Its pretty much a theme I can attribute heavily to my first cave. If you want the quit then you'll make time. And besides posting roll takes 30 seconds, literally, and if you can't post then text a buddy to get your name on the roll call. Hell nowadays you can use your fancy iphone to text your KTC buddy using voice controls through siri saying "throw me on roll", literally you don't even need to type a single thing, I rest my case.
Proud to quit with you all here at KTC.
-Future
This is good stuff Future. Pay it forward. You don't have to be a bully by any stretch, but stress this point that if you don't take it seriously, you won't make it. July needs to hear it, and no better person to hear it from than a guy that knows about it firsthand. Keep it up.
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Day 9 cowboy Nicotine
Hopped over into my old group, November 2015, saw some familiar names, glad to see many of them made it. It is crazy to think about how I'd be around 250+ days quit had I stuck with it. Just gotta channel that emotion towards the quit here and now. I'm still craving, and still just thinking about caving. Not in the sense I want to cave, but in the sense I'm scared shitless of caving. Ultimately its all in my control, but I guess its good to keep my guard up. Make sure that can of dip stays far away and when it's near too just remember how I feel right here right now. Being quit is an amazing feeling, knowing you have made the first steps of overcoming something that many of us before our quits thought of to be impossible. Sure a quit sucks in just about 5 million and a quarter ways, but I'm trying to find every shred of light at the end of the tunnel during this quit, my mouth isn't sore before going to bed, My breath is starting to normalize, all the $$$ I'm saving.
I think I let the negatives take over too much in my last quit, I always thought about what it'd be like having a dip again when instead I need to focus on what it'll be like living a long life free from the nic bitch.
Again proud to quit with you all here at KTC, quit on my brothers.
-Future
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Don't worry about what it's like at 250+ or a long life nic free. Just today. Just for 24 hours. Even close to 300 days I haven't found the secret that lets me pile up any more than ODAAT anyway. If you get ahead of yourself, your addict mind will start to play hardball again with things like "no way you can do this forever". Commit to 24 hours and keep your commitment. Do that and you'll get where you want to be.
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Don't worry about what it's like at 250+ or a long life nic free. Just today. Just for 24 hours. Even close to 300 days I haven't found the secret that lets me pile up any more than ODAAT anyway. If you get ahead of yourself, your addict mind will start to play hardball again with things like "no way you can do this forever". Commit to 24 hours and keep your commitment. Do that and you'll get where you want to be.
Win the small battles baby. The battles by the minute. Then by the hour. Then the day. Sure the first few weeks of quit were tough. Personally my hardest days seemed to be 100-150 or so. ALL FUCKING MENTAL
I dove back into the site and recommitted myself and started to reach out to newbies. And that includes calling BS and crappy reasoning that newbies do when they are trying to justify hints like having to post roll.
At nearly 250 days it is very nice to be clear of the poison. But... Lurking around every corner, around every moment of weakness is you know who...
the first few weeks of the quit I thought I couldn't live without dipping. Now I know I won't live if I go back to dipping.
Fucking stupid addict personality in me.
King and the guys are right. Be a leader, take charge, and before you know it thugs will settle down. Nothing strengthens your own quit by helping and being there for another quitter.
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You're doing good future... Keep digging that quit hole!
I quit with you!