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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: bransc on June 05, 2009, 12:15:00 PM
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So this is it. Day 4 of my quit, and I found this site. I've spent the last hour or so trying to take in the wealth of information available here. I'm impressed and thankful to have stumbled upon this community. All I can say thus far is WOW!
As for me, I'm 30 years old and been addicted to Skoal Mint 1-2 cans a day, since I turned 18. It's amazing how stupid we can be when we're younger and how even stupider we can be as we become adults and slave ourselves out to this addiction.
I guess I kind of had one of those enough is enough, or it's just time, moments Monday night and haven't touched it since. Friends and family have been telling me for years that I needed to quit, but quite honestly I knew the only person who could make that decision was myself. I've done it all, lied, hide, sneak. Just to get my pinch. I mean Christ, I'd even sit on the toilet at home and dip in the bathroom just so my mother wouldn't find out. I couldn't stand the thought of breaking her heart, but couldn't find the strength to stop for myself. Thinking back it's just ridiculous the grip I'd allowed this addiction to take in my life. Even as I type this the mere thought of dip is making my mouth water. I sincerely hope this gets easier.
Last night was especially difficult as I found an almost full can in a pair of shorts I was getting ready to throw in the laundry. Thankfully, I was on the phone with one my biggest supporters and with their help flushed it. I know I'm not out of the woods by any means. Far from it. I've tried quitting before, but I'd just miss the "calm" I'd get from a nice dip.
However, my resolve is different this time. So that's me, I'm bound and determined to kick this thing. Hopefully, in the process of doing so and with the help of this site, who knows, I might make a few friends in the process.
I will not dip today.
Bran
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Welcome to the Wagon Bran.
Sounds like we're on the same day.
I'm going through this myself and not only need to be accountable to myself but to others as well.
So, if I can help, I will try. Just let me know.
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Thanks Chad. I appreciate your offer of help. It goes both ways, so please feel free to reach out.
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Welcome, you're in good company. You can do it!!! Be strong and post up roll call. Read, make love to your wife (if you have one), music, exercise, whatever it takes. I have you in my prayers.
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Welcome, you're in good company. You can do it!!! Be strong and post up roll call. Read, make love to your wife (if you have one), music, exercise, whatever it takes. I have you in my prayers.
Hell yeah, make love to your wife and then to yourself a few times too. Twice a day at least.
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You guys are off to a great start bonding up togather. Get contact info from each other hold each other acountable your all in the same group so get-r-done.
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Seriously, the mouth watering... someone tell me it gets better.
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Seriously, the mouth watering... someone tell me it gets better.
i promise...
come on over to chat... we'll get you through.
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Seriously, the mouth watering... someone tell me it gets better.
We really messed our bodies up with that crap, didn't we, Bran?
I had a very difficult time with the mouth watering. For me, that was my body's way of telling me it needed something. As a fiendish nicotine addict, that impulse would map to "put a fatty in now, stupid". After quitting, I was still receiving that impulse, but was fighting the meaning of it for a time. Reprogramming. I found that carrying around a big jug of ice water helped bigtime. Get the mouth watering, I would drink from my jug. After about 2 months, I was able to lose the jug. However, I also started chewing gum. I went through a 15-piece pack or two of gum a day for the first 3-4 months. I'm still a gum chewer, but it's down to 1 or two packs a week instead. I'm at 244 days now - I still a few mouth watering events....over a nice juicy steak, frothy beer, and every now and then, a mini crave.
It does get better...we just need to reprogram all the damage we did with our former habit.
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Roger that. Thanks for the tips. I think having gum on hand at all times has become clutch. I'll have to try the ice water thing.
What's remarkable is I went out Friday night with a girl I've been seeing. It's a relatively new relationship, but it's the first time that I've gone out in a looong time where I haven't felt like I had to time myself, sneak off, or worry about how long we would be out until I could get my next fatty. It's even better not having to run a room by room search and destroy every time the ladies want to come by the house.
That's motivation and reward enough to keep me going.
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When you said, "fatty" were you talking about a dip or the girl your were out with? 'crackup'
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hah I quit fatty girls a long time ago. Surprisingly that was a lot easier.
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hah I quit fatty girls a long time ago. Surprisingly that was a lot easier.
So you're saying it's possible.......... :unsure:
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Damnit... I don't even want to respond now because I'm just going to dig deeper. hah you all are ruthless.