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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: laxdaddy27 on January 22, 2018, 08:05:00 AM
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30+ year habit, last 5 more than a can a day. I chewed when ever and where ever I could. I avoided my family, found hiding spots at work, basically i lived for the can not me. Mouth started telling me it was time and i still chewed. You all know how it goes.. ill quit when im out, ill quit tomorrow, next weekend im headed out of town, ill quit after that. Nine beautiful days ago I woke up dumped $100 worth of chew in the toilet and that was that. Everyday is a challenge, im still counting the hours and treating everyone like a victory, im on 201 right now, soon to be 202,203,204 etc... I cant wait until i can view it as days, then weeks then years. I have taken chew "vacations" before but this is the first time I want to be quit. I promised this morning and i keep my word. I quit with you!
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CONGRATULATIONS lax daddy on the best decision you could have possibly made!
You are way f*cking smart to take it in small chunks and celebrate each victory. Hour by hour is a great idea as you get going and embrace that early part of your quit, known around here as "the suck."
I was a 36 year addict (with many failed stop attempts) before I found KTC. I am on day 127 now, and I could not be here without this place!
My advice is to read all that you can and get involved. It can be confusing at first, but jump in with both feet, follow the program and you cannot fail!
Have you found your quit group yet? If not post a message here and I will try to explain that part to you, but getting involved with your group is HUGELY important and will help!
Proud to quit with you today! 4TW
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Gratz on 9 days solo, that is bad ass. Don't worry about the future, just today. And it's important to know we share an addiction, not a habit. It's a mindset that we need to have, that there isn't a cure, but a method of control.
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I keep telling myself this every time i get a craving, "None means none" and "failing is not an option"
Its to the point where I'm saying this out loud and my co workers are asking what the hell I'm talking about.
None means none!!!!
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I keep telling myself this every time i get a craving, "None means none" and "failing is not an option"
Its to the point where I'm saying this out loud and my co workers are asking what the hell I'm talking about.
None means none!!!!
Yes, minute by minute if you have to. Text a quitter if you have numbers, that always helped me.
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I went in "my gas station" this morning, you know the daily stop. i don't actually own it. Picked up a cup of coffee, breakfast sandwich and headed for the counter. Young cutie behind the counter had two cans of Grizzly Long Cut Wintergreen waiting for me. When I told her no thanks I quit, she nearly shit. Told me if I stay quit for 6 months she was taking me out for diner. Man oh man would that be fun, just dont think my wife would agree.
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Friggin hilarious man! Keep up the good work!
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Hey Lax - I know some of your April 2018 quit group sent you PMs with their digits. Did you get these? If you are not sure where they are, you can click on the icon at the top right of your KTC screen. Let me know if you got these?
And let us know how you are doing....hitting double digits tomorrow (10 days) is a big friggin deal...so get in early and post on roll in April 2018...just like you did today!
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Don't understand two things, constipation and all these pains in my mouth. My jaw aches, sometimes it feels like my teeth are killing me etc etc and I cant go to the bathroom to save my life. I know for a fact it has nothing to do with my diet cause im eating plenty.
Hate that I committed so much of myself to anything this bad for me and this hard to get away from. I always knew it was a bad health decision, I knew how stupid i looked doing it. But man was I good at it.
Today for the first time I saw someone else doing it, didn't give me a rush to do anything but let him know Im on day 9 of the rest of my life and that I would be there for him if he decided to quit. 9 almost 10 days ago i would of had a lip full while sitting here typing this, Wife and kids are all in bed, dogs on the floor, wood stove is cranking, what better time to curl up with the mistress Grizzly contemplate the worlds problems.in recent days my can and i would see 1:00, 2:00, 3:00 etc many nights just to fill a bottle and ......
Right know I'm headed upstairs to spoon with the wife and wake up solid on day 10 of the rest of my life. Guys/gals and all others, thanks for the support. It helps being part of a group. I made it through day 9 leaning on you, I hope your strong and willing cause I see myself leaning often.
Pat
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Don't understand two things, constipation and all these pains in my mouth. My jaw aches, sometimes it feels like my teeth are killing me etc etc and I cant go to the bathroom to save my life. I know for a fact it has nothing to do with my diet cause im eating plenty.
Hate that I committed so much of myself to anything this bad for me and this hard to get away from. I always knew it was a bad health decision, I knew how stupid i looked doing it. But man was I good at it.
Today for the first time I saw someone else doing it, didn't give me a rush to do anything but let him know Im on day 9 of the rest of my life and that I would be there for him if he decided to quit. 9 almost 10 days ago i would of had a lip full while sitting here typing this, Wife and kids are all in bed, dogs on the floor, wood stove is cranking, what better time to curl up with the mistress Grizzly contemplate the worlds problems.in recent days my can and i would see 1:00, 2:00, 3:00 etc many nights just to fill a bottle and ......
Right know I'm headed upstairs to spoon with the wife and wake up solid on day 10 of the rest of my life. Guys/gals and all others, thanks for the support. It helps being part of a group. I made it through day 9 leaning on you, I hope your strong and willing cause I see myself leaning often.
Pat
Keep the fight rolling. The journal entries are a great way to keep tabs on yourself. They also serve as a great reminder when that bitch is whispering in your ear. It is motivating for us vets here as well.
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Dude - you sound like a BAQ already. Just take it One Day At A Time and post up early every day. Lots and lots of water helped me tremendously during my first few weeks being quit. Keep going! You are doing awesome!
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Dude - you sound like a BAQ already. Just take it One Day At A Time and post up early every day. Lots and lots of water helped me tremendously during my first few weeks being quit. Keep going! You are doing awesome!
BAQ ????
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BAQ = Bad Ass Quitter (a high compliment)
We use a LOT of acronyms around here, sorry!
To me the most important is, WUPP....that stands for Wake Up Piss Post...which is what we all expect of each other...it means that posting your name on roll for your quit month every day should be just about the first thing you do every day. That is your PROMISE not to use Nic for that day no matter what. Then, once you make that promise you have taken Nic off the table for that day and can focus on getting through that day whatever it takes.
It is what I love about KTC. Very simple, but very powerful. Make a promise not to use Nic in any form for today. Keep your promise. Return tomorrow and repeat.
Others have said all of this much better than I, but hopefully you get the idea. We both know that the Nic B*tch is very crafty, but if you WUPP and if you are a man of your word, you cannot fail!
Did you post roll yet with April 2018 for today?
How are you feeling on day 10?
Congrats on DOUBLE DIGITS. Doing the first 8 days of that sh*t on your own is Bad Ass for sure. Glad you made it here now though...I think it will help!
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I see you did post roll for today - way to go! Two days in a row without f*cking up roll for a newbie is pretty awesome. I jacked up roll for the first five days at least!
You are rocking now buddy, keep it up! Read all you can! Try some posting in April 2018!
Proud to quit with you today!
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Don't understand two things, constipation and all these pains in my mouth.
Nicotine is a mild laxative - thus the constipation
As far as the pains in your mouth - I had the same thing early in my quit, off and on for quite a while. Basically, your mouth is healing. You've been injuring it for years, and treating with an analgesic (nicotine). Remove the drug, and start the pain. It will subside, and get better. Just give it time.
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Day 10 is my biggest bitch yet. Im being an asshole to everyone around me. I misearable as ever. BUT IM NOT AND WILL NOT LET THAT WHORE WIN!
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Day 10 is my biggest bitch yet. Im being an asshole to everyone around me. I misearable as ever. BUT IM NOT AND WILL NOT LET THAT WHORE WIN!
Congrats on double digits!!!
Remember, these good folks around you didn't force that camel shit into your lip. You put it there yourself.
Don't take it out on them. Take a deep breath, a large sip of water, a short pause, whatever it takes to NOT snap back at them.
Bring it here. Rage in the forums. We've all been through it or are going through it. We can take it.
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Woke up to a beautiful day 11, when chew had control I would wake up on purpose an hour or so before everyone and run downstairs to the coffee and the can. This morning i lounged in bed well after the wife got up and when she was in the shower she asked if I would wash her back. so much better than spitting in a bottle. Today is a great day to be quit!
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Naked wife vs. can full of carcinogenic weed? Nice benefit to quitting for sure!
Keep going brother...you got this. Posting roll early is a great way to be!
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Woke up to a beautiful day 11, when chew had control I would wake up on purpose an hour or so before everyone and run downstairs to the coffee and the can. This morning i lounged in bed well after the wife got up and when she was in the shower she asked if I would wash her back. so much better than spitting in a bottle. Today is a great day to be quit!
I wanna hear more about the shower!
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Woke up to a beautiful day 11, when chew had control I would wake up on purpose an hour or so before everyone and run downstairs to the coffee and the can. This morning i lounged in bed well after the wife got up and when she was in the shower she asked if I would wash her back. so much better than spitting in a bottle. Today is a great day to be quit!
I wanna hear more about the shower!
I dont kiss and tell, well at least not in detail.
I will say today has been going pretty smooth. Ive eaten about 50 mints but I'm still quit. Ive been quit almost 255 hours, but whos counting, oh yeah me.
starting Feb 1st im gonna concentrate on days not hours. right now there are two day numbers im keeping track of 11 and 3639. 11 days quit, 3639 days left in the worry of "oh shit can i still get cancer from chew" 10 years is a long time.
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Woke up to a beautiful day 11, when chew had control I would wake up on purpose an hour or so before everyone and run downstairs to the coffee and the can. This morning i lounged in bed well after the wife got up and when she was in the shower she asked if I would wash her back. so much better than spitting in a bottle. Today is a great day to be quit!
I wanna hear more about the shower!
I dont kiss and tell, well at least not in detail.
I will say today has been going pretty smooth. Ive eaten about 50 mints but I'm still quit. Ive been quit almost 255 hours, but whos counting, oh yeah me.
starting Feb 1st im gonna concentrate on days not hours. right now there are two day numbers im keeping track of 11 and 3639. 11 days quit, 3639 days left in the worry of "oh shit can i still get cancer from chew" 10 years is a long time.
Keep piling up the wins; minutes, hours, work shifts, etc. It's all about winning each day from here on.
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Im excited about my quit. Today is day 12, I feel great. I know today is in the bag and its only 8:04am. reason i'm so excited. As you guys call the dip time outs, I've done many for various reasons, cruise, family vacations, surgeries etc. Dip was usually replaced with nicorete lozenges or gum and the longest time i can remember a time out being was 11 days. Today Im on day 12 , the bitch has not entered my body in any form in 12 days and i feel like im winning.
Other thing - life is easier when you dont dip. I dont have to lie, sneak or worry that i left something out. I go to bed earlier, sleep later and ....................
I know I have a long way to go but today I feel good, tomorrow may be another story but today im 'dance'
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Im excited about my quit. Today is day 12, I feel great. I know today is in the bag and its only 8:04am. reason i'm so excited. As you guys call the dip time outs, I've done many for various reasons, cruise, family vacations, surgeries etc. Dip was usually replaced with nicorete lozenges or gum and the longest time i can remember a time out being was 11 days. Today Im on day 12 , the bitch has not entered my body in any form in 12 days and i feel like im winning.
Other thing - life is easier when you dont dip. I dont have to lie, sneak or worry that i left something out. I go to bed earlier, sleep later and ....................
I know I have a long way to go but today I feel good, tomorrow may be another story but today im 'dance'
Wait until vacations, that is my favorite part about my quit, not lugging rolls of dip around.
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Day 13 - and still feeling great about this quit. Passed out digits and connected with to from May, Cjasti HDKman26 - I sincerely appreciate the texting yesterday. Keeping this quit real and knowing that we are days apart in it help. To all you legends of quit, I appreciate you as well but chatting with people walking in my shoes today helps.
Rock on and stay quit my friends. 1 day at a time, every hour is a victory.
NONE MEANS NONE!
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Absolutely outstanding that you are connecting with other April quitters! Great work and keep it up! Remeber alcohol is a VERY bad idea at this stage in your quit and weekends can be tough so have a plan for how you will handle things as they come up! Proud to quit with you today!
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It took 13 nights for the dreams to creep i, last night I dreamed I had just one, I knew it was wrong, I thought about lying in roll, i though its a huge mistake etc wtc wtc
I woke up so fucking mad at myself. It took me about 5 minutes of being awake to realize it was a dream.
Im quit all day - Promise
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It took 13 nights for the dreams to creep i, last night I dreamed I had just one, I knew it was wrong, I thought about lying in roll, i though its a huge mistake etc wtc wtc
I woke up so fucking mad at myself. It took me about 5 minutes of being awake to realize it was a dream.
Im quit all day - Promise
See how desperate the nic bitch is? She no longer occupies your conscious mind so she has to try to convince you she still has value in your life by sneaking into your subconscious. Ever been in a relationship with a clingy, needy, can't stand on their own type? Well, guess what, that is exactly what nicotine is. Without you, she is nothing more than shreds of a cancer confined to a can. Leave the bitch in her own misery.
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Ive been in here doing a ton of reading, scary conclusion is the nicotine bitch has a hold on us. I 've read a bunch on people with solid 6th, 7th, 8th and above floor quits that failed cause there mind told them they are no longer addicts and they can have that "just one" My best friend quit for 4 years and right now has a 1.5 can per day cope habit. He knows Ive quit and has told me straight up he doesnt even want to try again. When he quit and I didnt years ago he always said he would start up again when they come up with the magic cancer killing pill. They havent and yet hes still chewing.
Quiting is hard, staying quit is even harder. Thats why I so dam proud of myself and all of you.
'Finger' US Tobacco. You will never get another penny of my money! One day at a time, NONE MEANS NONE!
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Quiting is hard, staying quit is even harder. Thats why I so dam proud of myself and all of you.
Soon... I really can’t tell you when because everyone is different but... quitting becomes something you stop “doing” and just becomes something you “are”.
At that point... Quit is easy. It really is. Putting in the time and effort and owning this nets you a strength and freedom that you would never guess at. Keep rockinÂ’ it man.
And... to be nitpicky for a sec... you keep using the word habit. Stop.
That word needs to disappear from your vocabulary when talking about nicotine. Addicts with an addiction... that is what we all are. Give it the weight it deserves because it makes your Quit matter more. Habits are nothing... to beat an addiction is badass. Own it.
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Quiting is hard, staying quit is even harder. Thats why I so dam proud of myself and all of you.
Soon... I really can’t tell you when because everyone is different but... quitting becomes something you stop “doing” and just becomes something you “are”.
At that point... Quit is easy. It really is. Putting in the time and effort and owning this nets you a strength and freedom that you would never guess at. Keep rockinÂ’ it man.
And... to be nitpicky for a sec... you keep using the word habit. Stop.
That word needs to disappear from your vocabulary when talking about nicotine. Addicts with an addiction... that is what we all are. Give it the weight it deserves because it makes your Quit matter more. Habits are nothing... to beat an addiction is badass. Own it.
habit is gone... Believe me I know Im addicted, hell quiting has made me "A-DICk"
"quitting becomes something you stop “doing” and just becomes something you “are”. - I've never heard this, but reading it is eye opening. Right now I am definitely "Doing" Cant wait for the later.
Thanks for reaching out
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You are tracking very well Lax. Keep reading all you can about this awful addiction. Knowledge is power over the Nic Bitch. Don't be afraid to place yourself and your quit first over these hours and days. And keep coming here with and let it all out. You are right, as addicts we can never, ever "have just one." That you realize we are all addicts, is a great sign. I can tell you that it is 100% worth it to be quit, and looking back now I cannot believe that I let a poisonous dead weed have so much power over my life. Quit on and be excellent!
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Total stole my current avatar but I had too, Reasons:
1) she makes me want to log in constantly
2) she bounces so nice
3) and most important - Im saving all my chew money to buy her someday! roflmao
Quitting is good!
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Dreaming about chewing tobacco is so fucked up! And mornings are still awful, I reach for the can every morning and have to remind myself I quit! Days are getting easier but I know I canÂ’t let my guard down for a second. That bitch is cunning. Day 16 today and dam proud to be quit with you all. 'Finger' US TOBACCO!
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Doesn't she bounce so nice.
Last night I had a knock down drag out fight with my son, he started, I was calm through 90%. He was diagnosed bi polar and his other side is very violent. Not fun!
Bottom line is after about an hour he settled in then I had to deal with my wife and of course that was not fun either.
in the past I would have stayed up all night and chewed a full tin. Last night i didnt, and the best part is other than a few craves I didn't want too.
Im proud of my quit, 1st i don't want to let myself down, and 2nd - I dont want to let you crazy friggin quitters down by posting day 1 - 17 ever again!
Quit is good, I will be all day with you!
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I just hit 400 hours in my quit! Yup Im still keeping track by the hour and Im fucking proud as hell!
'Finger' US Tobacco!
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I just hit 400 hours in my quit! Yup Im still keeping track by the hour and Im fucking proud as hell!
'Finger' US Tobacco!
It's all about piling up the wins. Keep the positive mojo going. Being able to navigate situations that involved dip in the past are great confidence boosters to your quit. An old sage on here once told us all something to this effect:
A problem in and of itself is enough, why add another problem to the mix?
A problem plus nicotine = 2 problems
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Day 19 - Cant believe its almost three weeks. Funny part is the awake hours are manageable, don't get me wrong the craves are real and intense but they pass faster and come less frequently. The DREAMS are killing me. I've woke up every morning for a week thinking I had to spit out a chew. Ashamed that i have to tell you guys I was weak and failed. Its amazing how mad yet relieved I am ever time I figure out it was a dream. NICOTINE is a whore, desperate for attention, wanting nothing more than to ruin something awesome. 19 days is awesome, 20 will be better. Its so cool knowing everyday is one more day.
Ive quit for 10 days with you guys, 9 on my own. thanks for the support. KTC is doing more for me than the tin ever did. Quit on brothers!
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L-D - CONGRATS on hitting 20 days. You are f*cking rocking it man!
Those dip dreams are something else, right?! Here I am at 137 and last night I woke up in a cold sweat thinking I had shoved a cat turd in my lip....and feeling ashamed and down right pissed that I was going to have to come here and tell you all how bad I suck...all over a freaking dream. But I am with you. In the end I feel relieved. Once I am awake these dreams remind me of how f*cking great it is to finally be free from the Nic Bitch. She must know she has no power over me in the real world, so her last trick is to try to invade my dreams. I f*cking hate her more than words can say.
You keep on quitting hard just like you have been. Take it ODAAT. There are going to be some good days and some bad days ahead, but I can't tell you how much better it is for me to be quit. Best damn thing I have done in years, maybe decades. Proud to quit with you today and way to go on 20 days!
Quit on and be excellent!
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L-D - CONGRATS on hitting 20 days. You are f*cking rocking it man!
Those dip dreams are something else, right?! Here I am at 137 and last night I woke up in a cold sweat thinking I had shoved a cat turd in my lip....and feeling ashamed and down right pissed that I was going to have to come here and tell you all how bad I suck...all over a freaking dream. But I am with you. In the end I feel relieved. Once I am awake these dreams remind me of how f*cking great it is to finally be free from the Nic Bitch. She must know she has no power over me in the real world, so her last trick is to try to invade my dreams. I f*cking hate her more than words can say.
You keep on quitting hard just like you have been. Take it ODAAT. There are going to be some good days and some bad days ahead, but I can't tell you how much better it is for me to be quit. Best damn thing I have done in years, maybe decades. Proud to quit with you today and way to go on 20 days!
Quit on and be excellent!
3 weeks in, now being quit is your new addiction!
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L-D - CONGRATS on hitting 20 days. You are f*cking rocking it man!
Those dip dreams are something else, right?! Here I am at 137 and last night I woke up in a cold sweat thinking I had shoved a cat turd in my lip....and feeling ashamed and down right pissed that I was going to have to come here and tell you all how bad I suck...all over a freaking dream. But I am with you. In the end I feel relieved. Once I am awake these dreams remind me of how f*cking great it is to finally be free from the Nic Bitch. She must know she has no power over me in the real world, so her last trick is to try to invade my dreams. I f*cking hate her more than words can say.
You keep on quitting hard just like you have been. Take it ODAAT. There are going to be some good days and some bad days ahead, but I can't tell you how much better it is for me to be quit. Best damn thing I have done in years, maybe decades. Proud to quit with you today and way to go on 20 days!
Quit on and be excellent!
3 weeks in, now being quit is your new addiction!
Yeah it is, so excited. 21 days isnt alot but when its your number its huge. Proud to be quit today, cant wait to be quit tomorrow. Rinse and repeat. Thank you Al Gore for inventing the internet. Without him I wouldn't hve found KTC! 'clap'
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Dude - you crack me up...
Yep, thanks to Al Gore!
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Yesterday was the worst day of my quit hands down. I was mere seconds away from ruining 22 days quit. I reached out to skolviking in April and he pulled me off a fucking cliff. He reminded me I was a man, a man that promised not to chew yesterday. We texted back and forth for a bit and after that I remembered all the reasons im quit. KTC and the contacts I have made saved me from disaster.
KTC has laid out a path, my brothers of quit gave me contacts, i used them and Im sitting here on day 23 not 1.
USE YOUR FUCKING CONTACTS!
Im quit all day with all of you!
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Yesterday was the worst day of my quit hands down. I was mere seconds away from ruining 22 days quit. I reached out to skolviking in April and he pulled me off a fucking cliff. He reminded me I was a man, a man that promised not to chew yesterday. We texted back and forth for a bit and after that I remembered all the reasons im quit. KTC and the contacts I have made saved me from disaster.
KTC has laid out a path, my brothers of quit gave me contacts, i used them and Im sitting here on day 23 not 1.
USE YOUR FUCKING CONTACTS!
Im quit all day with all of you!
Sir, that is one helluva win right there ^^^!!! Well Done!
Way to follow the play book, be a man of integrity, use your tools and grind it out!
I am all fired up now! Proud to quit with you today!
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Yesterday was the worst day of my quit hands down. I was mere seconds away from ruining 22 days quit. I reached out to skolviking in April and he pulled me off a fucking cliff. He reminded me I was a man, a man that promised not to chew yesterday. We texted back and forth for a bit and after that I remembered all the reasons im quit. KTC and the contacts I have made saved me from disaster.
KTC has laid out a path, my brothers of quit gave me contacts, i used them and Im sitting here on day 23 not 1.
USE YOUR FUCKING CONTACTS!
Im quit all day with all of you!
Sir, that is one helluva win right there ^^^!!! Well Done!
Way to follow the play book, be a man of integrity, use your tools and grind it out!
I am all fired up now! Proud to quit with you today!
Proud to quit with you brotha... reach out anytime!
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Yesterday was the worst day of my quit hands down. I was mere seconds away from ruining 22 days quit. I reached out to skolviking in April and he pulled me off a fucking cliff. He reminded me I was a man, a man that promised not to chew yesterday. We texted back and forth for a bit and after that I remembered all the reasons im quit. KTC and the contacts I have made saved me from disaster.
KTC has laid out a path, my brothers of quit gave me contacts, i used them and Im sitting here on day 23 not 1.
USE YOUR FUCKING CONTACTS!
Im quit all day with all of you!
Sir, that is one helluva win right there ^^^!!! Well Done!
Way to follow the play book, be a man of integrity, use your tools and grind it out!
I am all fired up now! Proud to quit with you today!
Proud to quit with you brotha... reach out anytime!
Hey Lax.. 'oh yeah' that is a huge win.. Congrats. You are getting stronger each day.
BTW.. just love your avatar 'boob' . She attracted me to your post, but reading your entries helps man.
I am 66 days quit. Once you get over the 'Hell Day'. It gets easier.
We are all here to help each other.
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Gotta tell you bad ass quitters there is shit more important than chew, FAMILY - Only thing worse than sitting next to the women you love while shes laid out in an ambulance is doing it two days in a row!
Wife had a very allergic reaction to a steroid she was prescribed. Fell (passed out) and hit her head and suffered a major concussion, which wasn't discovered until after trip two to the hospital. Nicotine can kiss my ass, sitting in the hospital I didn't think of her once. Wife said to me this morning " you quit didn't you?" i asked how she knew cause I never chewed in front of her and the kids, she simple said you never left my side for a chew! Seeing the tears in her eyes as she said that will haunt me for ever. To think she ever thought she came second. Problem is I know how many times i avoided her for a lip full. Nicotine made us do some stupid shit! Day 29 is clear - i made my promise - i'm a man of my word.
i will rinse and repeat in the morning.
Skol again thanks for posting my roll, and to the rest of you thanks for reaching out. Being held accountable is awesome.
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Hang in there daddy, being out of the cage means learning to live free from nicotine. Prayers for your wife. Sounds like she loves you quite a bit. ThatÂ’s something you canÂ’t buy.
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Gotta tell you bad ass quitters there is shit more important than chew, FAMILY - Only thing worse than sitting next to the women you love while shes laid out in an ambulance is doing it two days in a row!
Wife had a very allergic reaction to a steroid she was prescribed. Fell (passed out) and hit her head and suffered a major concussion, which wasn't discovered until after trip two to the hospital. Nicotine can kiss my ass, sitting in the hospital I didn't think of her once. Wife said to me this morning " you quit didn't you?" i asked how she knew cause I never chewed in front of her and the kids, she simple said you never left my side for a chew! Seeing the tears in her eyes as she said that will haunt me for ever. To think she ever thought she came second. Problem is I know how many times i avoided her for a lip full. Nicotine made us do some stupid shit! Day 29 is clear - i made my promise - i'm a man of my word.
i will rinse and repeat in the morning.
Skol again thanks for posting my roll, and to the rest of you thanks for reaching out. Being held accountable is awesome.
Hope your wife is feeling much, much better by the time you see this. Way to stay strong, brother. You are rocking this quit, and those comments you made about what your wife said were truly inspiring. Sometimes we forget that our wives know us, perhaps better then we even know ourselves. Perhaps you should take some of that dip money savings and buy her something nice for Valentine's Day! Proud to quit with you today!
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31 days is a full f*cking month no matter how you slice it!
Way to go Lax! You are killing it brother!
'Remshot' cowboy 'chain' 'biggun' 'Bond'
Proud to quit with you today!
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31 days in a full f*cking month no matter how you slice it!
Way to go Lax! You are killing it brother!
'Remshot' cowboy 'chain' 'biggun' 'Bond'
Proud to quit with you today!
Hell yeah, this shit still gives an old crusty vet like me some quit wood! Never look back, win every day brother! Well wishes to your wife, never leave her side.
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31 days in a full f*cking month no matter how you slice it!
Way to go Lax! You are killing it brother!
'Remshot' cowboy 'chain' 'biggun' 'Bond'
Proud to quit with you today!
Hell yeah, this shit still gives an old crusty vet like me some quit wood! Never look back, win every day brother! Well wishes to your wife, never leave her side.
Quit day 33, 33 fucking days of not hiding from the family, no 30 minute shits, no taking the long way home, no staying up late. FUCKING LOVE IT.
Tomorrow Im going the the bar with friends, i have a plan, buddy is picking me up and dropping me off. He knows im solid in my quit and will pouch me square in the nuts if I even joke about chew.
Wife promised to give me what I give the pillow if I come home without. God its great that she supports my quit now. 'Finger' You dirty nicotine WHORE!
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31 days in a full f*cking month no matter how you slice it!
Way to go Lax! You are killing it brother!
'Remshot' cowboy 'chain' 'biggun' 'Bond'
Proud to quit with you today!
Hell yeah, this shit still gives an old crusty vet like me some quit wood! Never look back, win every day brother! Well wishes to your wife, never leave her side.
Quit day 33, 33 fucking days of not hiding from the family, no 30 minute shits, no taking the long way home, no staying up late. FUCKING LOVE IT.
Tomorrow Im going the the bar with friends, i have a plan, buddy is picking me up and dropping me off. He knows im solid in my quit and will pouch me square in the nuts if I even joke about chew.
Wife promised to give me what I give the pillow if I come home without. God its great that she supports my quit now. 'Finger' You dirty nicotine WHORE!
Hey, what's wring with 30 minute shits pal?
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Today is my 38th day quit. Its also the first time in 25 years that I've been with the women that i choose (she choose me) to live life with, that im nicotine free on her Birthday. I bought her presents, kids made her cards, we hung streamers and balloons. Last night we destroyed the kitchen making her cake, tonight we will celebrate.
1st thing she said this morning was this was her best Birthday ever cause im not filling my face with death.
Why we addicts risked our lives for so long is unbelievably stupid. I am an addict. I will be everyday im on this earth. The nicotine bitch is real and is having an affair with some part of my brain that doesn't want to let her go. That part of my brain is getting smaller every day. It will never shrink completely but with you BAQ's and a place called KTC, I can win! One day at a time, I post here, I have made my one promise calendar that I keep with me. Its reads this and I read it everyday:
1) My promise is, I want to live, I want to be a better husband and father, a happier, healthier supporter of all that we do!
2) My promise is to end all the lies associated with chewing tobacco.
3) My promise is, I want to grow old watching you develop and become everything you are meant to be.
4) My promise is, I love you more than the false satisfaction i get from chewing tobacco.
NONE MEANS NONE, ONE AND I FAIL. FAILURE IS A CHOICE
IM NOT ON VACATION, IM QUIT FOR LIFE
We do what we need to to stay quit. This helps me, seeing a calendar with 38 highlighted days in a row helps
But nothing is as powerful as posting roll here, getting and sending daily text with BAQ's from here, reaching out and talking with people walking the same shit trail that one day will be paved in gold.
Bottom line is if you want to quit and stay quit KTC can be your strongest supporter. Key is you have to want it.
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Today is my 38th day quit. Its also the first time in 25 years that I've been with the women that i choose (she choose me) to live life with, that im nicotine free on her Birthday. I bought her presents, kids made her cards, we hung streamers and balloons. Last night we destroyed the kitchen making her cake, tonight we will celebrate.
1st thing she said this morning was this was her best Birthday ever cause im not filling my face with death.
Why we addicts risked our lives for so long is unbelievably stupid. I am an addict. I will be everyday im on this earth. The nicotine bitch is real and is having an affair with some part of my brain that doesn't want to let her go. That part of my brain is getting smaller every day. It will never shrink completely but with you BAQ's and a place called KTC, I can win! One day at a time, I post here, I have made my one promise calendar that I keep with me. Its reads this and I read it everyday:
1) My promise is, I want to live, I want to be a better husband and father, a happier, healthier supporter of all that we do!
2) My promise is to end all the lies associated with chewing tobacco.
3) My promise is, I want to grow old watching you develop and become everything you are meant to be.
4) My promise is, I love you more than the false satisfaction i get from chewing tobacco.
NONE MEANS NONE, ONE AND I FAIL. FAILURE IS A CHOICE
IM NOT ON VACATION, IM QUIT FOR LIFE
We do what we need to to stay quit. This helps me, seeing a calendar with 38 highlighted days in a row helps
But nothing is as powerful as posting roll here, getting and sending daily text with BAQ's from here, reaching out and talking with people walking the same shit trail that one day will be paved in gold.
Bottom line is if you want to quit and stay quit KTC can be your strongest supporter. Key is you have to want it.
Great stuff right here. Keep on winning!
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Today is my 38th day quit. Its also the first time in 25 years that I've been with the women that i choose (she choose me) to live life with, that im nicotine free on her Birthday. I bought her presents, kids made her cards, we hung streamers and balloons. Last night we destroyed the kitchen making her cake, tonight we will celebrate.
1st thing she said this morning was this was her best Birthday ever cause im not filling my face with death.
Why we addicts risked our lives for so long is unbelievably stupid. I am an addict. I will be everyday im on this earth. The nicotine bitch is real and is having an affair with some part of my brain that doesn't want to let her go. That part of my brain is getting smaller every day. It will never shrink completely but with you BAQ's and a place called KTC, I can win! One day at a time, I post here, I have made my one promise calendar that I keep with me. Its reads this and I read it everyday:
1) My promise is, I want to live, I want to be a better husband and father, a happier, healthier supporter of all that we do!
2) My promise is to end all the lies associated with chewing tobacco.
3) My promise is, I want to grow old watching you develop and become everything you are meant to be.
4) My promise is, I love you more than the false satisfaction i get from chewing tobacco.
NONE MEANS NONE, ONE AND I FAIL. FAILURE IS A CHOICE
IM NOT ON VACATION, IM QUIT FOR LIFE
We do what we need to to stay quit. This helps me, seeing a calendar with 38 highlighted days in a row helps
But nothing is as powerful as posting roll here, getting and sending daily text with BAQ's from here, reaching out and talking with people walking the same shit trail that one day will be paved in gold.
Bottom line is if you want to quit and stay quit KTC can be your strongest supporter. Key is you have to want it.
Great stuff right here. Keep on winning!
I still want it after nearly 4 years because there is no cure.
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Today is my 38th day quit. Its also the first time in 25 years that I've been with the women that i choose (she choose me) to live life with, that im nicotine free on her Birthday. I bought her presents, kids made her cards, we hung streamers and balloons. Last night we destroyed the kitchen making her cake, tonight we will celebrate.
1st thing she said this morning was this was her best Birthday ever cause im not filling my face with death.
Why we addicts risked our lives for so long is unbelievably stupid. I am an addict. I will be everyday im on this earth. The nicotine bitch is real and is having an affair with some part of my brain that doesn't want to let her go. That part of my brain is getting smaller every day. It will never shrink completely but with you BAQ's and a place called KTC, I can win! One day at a time, I post here, I have made my one promise calendar that I keep with me. Its reads this and I read it everyday:
1) My promise is, I want to live, I want to be a better husband and father, a happier, healthier supporter of all that we do!
2) My promise is to end all the lies associated with chewing tobacco.
3) My promise is, I want to grow old watching you develop and become everything you are meant to be.
4) My promise is, I love you more than the false satisfaction i get from chewing tobacco.
NONE MEANS NONE, ONE AND I FAIL. FAILURE IS A CHOICE
IM NOT ON VACATION, IM QUIT FOR LIFE
We do what we need to to stay quit. This helps me, seeing a calendar with 38 highlighted days in a row helps
But nothing is as powerful as posting roll here, getting and sending daily text with BAQ's from here, reaching out and talking with people walking the same shit trail that one day will be paved in gold.
Bottom line is if you want to quit and stay quit KTC can be your strongest supporter. Key is you have to want it.
Great stuff right here. Keep on winning!
I still want it after nearly 4 years because there is no cure.
Fucked up but i had the most real, im chewing dream last night. Right to the point of feeling the buzz, you know the one we haven't felt in years cause our body's were more used to having a dip then they were with out one. I remember it like it was the most real thing in my life. I remember being pissed cause I knew i fucked up a great quit, pissed cause I had to face you BAQ when I had to admit I caved. I literally remember putting it in, and hating myself for doing it. Waking up with out it was a feeling like no other. proud of myself for it all being bullshit, pissed at myself for allowing something so fucking stupid to have that kind of hold on me. My name is LAXDADDY27 AND I AM AN ADDICT!
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Hey man....those f*cking dip dreams are a trip aren't they. When I first read about them here I thought "well that is weird and that ain't gonna happen to me" but sure as shit, the vets were right AGAIN.
Keep crushing it every day. AND CONGRATS ON HITTING 40!!!!
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44 days in and im an irritable FUCK! In the last two days ive picked fights with my kids, wife, and just about every fucking person Ive seen. Best / Worst case situation is I dont even want to chew, havent though about chew. Im proud as fuck of my 44 days - shit that day 50 landing is right around the corner, then its up again to the HOF. Maybe its my Birthday coming up I turn 46 on my day 47 but to be honest age has never affected me.
Maybe I'm just and asshole!
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44 days in and im an irritable FUCK! In the last two days ive picked fights with my kids, wife, and just about every fucking person Ive seen. Best / Worst case situation is I dont even want to chew, havent though about chew. Im proud as fuck of my 44 days - shit that day 50 landing is right around the corner, then its up again to the HOF. Maybe its my Birthday coming up I turn 46 on my day 47 but to be honest age has never affected me.
Maybe I'm just and asshole!
I don't give a shit as long as you keep posting and I can see that bouncing avatar.
I'm surprised at the challenging days I've had this far into it, I mean the lack of sleep, the occasional crave, the irritableness. I spent 35 years wiring my brain for it; I suppose I can't expect to undo it in a few short weeks. The dip dreams are wild though. Had the same consecutive dream twice last night. I packed it in tight, could see the juice coalescing on my fingers as I pinched it out, I could smell it. Then I stopped and dropped it right there and woke up, all startled and shit. Went back to sleep and had the same damn dream.
Why can't it be some college cheerleader or something cool like that?
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44 days in and im an irritable FUCK! In the last two days ive picked fights with my kids, wife, and just about every fucking person Ive seen. Best / Worst case situation is I dont even want to chew, havent though about chew. Im proud as fuck of my 44 days - shit that day 50 landing is right around the corner, then its up again to the HOF. Maybe its my Birthday coming up I turn 46 on my day 47 but to be honest age has never affected me.
Maybe I'm just and asshole!
I don't give a shit as long as you keep posting and I can see that bouncing avatar.
I'm surprised at the challenging days I've had this far into it, I mean the lack of sleep, the occasional crave, the irritableness. I spent 35 years wiring my brain for it; I suppose I can't expect to undo it in a few short weeks. The dip dreams are wild though. Had the same consecutive dream twice last night. I packed it in tight, could see the juice coalescing on my fingers as I pinched it out, I could smell it. Then I stopped and dropped it right there and woke up, all startled and shit. Went back to sleep and had the same damn dream.
Why can't it be some college cheerleader or something cool like that?
Yeah - Most of the day I dont think about it, but Im eating Ice Breaker mints by the barrel. Night time is my worst, but pulling in the driveway is awesome cause once im home im safe. Dreams are fucked up, lack of sleep right now (past week) is friggin killing me. I mean theres only so much online porn a guy can watch.
But failing myself, my family and your fuckers is what keeps me going. It will never be cured but someday it will be better.
Proud to be a winning addict with you! and my bouncing Honey!
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44 days in and im an irritable FUCK! In the last two days ive picked fights with my kids, wife, and just about every fucking person Ive seen. Best / Worst case situation is I dont even want to chew, havent though about chew. Im proud as fuck of my 44 days - shit that day 50 landing is right around the corner, then its up again to the HOF. Maybe its my Birthday coming up I turn 46 on my day 47 but to be honest age has never affected me.
Maybe I'm just and asshole!
I don't give a shit as long as you keep posting and I can see that bouncing avatar.
I'm surprised at the challenging days I've had this far into it, I mean the lack of sleep, the occasional crave, the irritableness. I spent 35 years wiring my brain for it; I suppose I can't expect to undo it in a few short weeks. The dip dreams are wild though. Had the same consecutive dream twice last night. I packed it in tight, could see the juice coalescing on my fingers as I pinched it out, I could smell it. Then I stopped and dropped it right there and woke up, all startled and shit. Went back to sleep and had the same damn dream.
Why can't it be some college cheerleader or something cool like that?
You are going to have these days from time to time. Be humble, apologize, thank them for being tolerant and understanding. They will see you are trying and staying quit. That will mean a lot to them. If you're not sorry, then you are an asshole, lol!
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Today is day 46, tomorrow I turn 46. Love being quit. every other nicotine vacation was just that, i always knew it was temporary. how stupid is that, go through the first 5 - 10 days only to put yourself through that again.
Got in an argument (slight) with a co worker yesterday that laughed at my 45 days saying he hasent smoked in 3 years, then he pulled out his vape and took in a few lung fulls of the whore.
Cold turkey, one day at a time, rinse and repeat!
i do this for myself, the wife, kids, and you crazy fuckers.
I was an addict yesterday, I am today and I will be again tomorrow, but for today i will WIN! '40'
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Today is day 46, tomorrow I turn 46. Love being quit. every other nicotine vacation was just that, i always knew it was temporary. how stupid is that, go through the first 5 - 10 days only to put yourself through that again.
Got in an argument (slight) with a co worker yesterday that laughed at my 45 days saying he hasent smoked in 3 years, then he pulled out his vape and took in a few lung fulls of the whore.
Cold turkey, one day at a time, rinse and repeat!
i do this for myself, the wife, kids, and you crazy fuckers.
I was an addict yesterday, I am today and I will be again tomorrow, but for today i will WIN! '40'
Life is full of hypocrites that we can see coming from miles away. Be someone who can be counted on to stand by their word day in, day out, through good times and bad.
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Today is 48 - Do you have any idea how excited I am that Sunday I get to jump up and down on the landing! Half way to the HOF. Rounding the corner. Every day is a climb, everyday there are choices, today I chose to stay quit.
And I hope you guys all feel the same, but IM FUCKING THRILLED TO BE QUIT, PROUD OF MYSELF FOR IT EVERYDAY. I have made some great friends in my quit, I may not have any idea what you guys look like, probably will never meet most of you but your digits and comments have pulled me through many craves. Im here if you need me, anytime day or night!
Lax '40'
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CONGRATULATIONS! HALFWAY TO FAMOUS!!
You are doing great. Plenty of challenges ahead, but think how far you have come already!
The biggest thing is that you have bought into things here, and you realize you are an addict.
Stay humble and don't let your guard down. The nic b*tch is still lurking for sure.
Proud to quit with you today brother!
'party2'
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CONGRATULATIONS! HALFWAY TO FAMOUS!!
You are doing great. Plenty of challenges ahead, but think how far you have come already!
The biggest thing is that you have bought into things here, and you realize you are an addict.
Stay humble and don't let your guard down. The nic b*tch is still lurking for sure.
Proud to quit with you today brother!
'party2'
Half way to nothing, 100 is just a number. Yes I am proud of my 51 days, fucking love them all but they are still only 51 wins. One day at a time, day after day.
1825 is my half way number, 3650 days is how long mouth cancer can incubate without showing its ugly head. As of today I have 3599 days of being scared left. (9 years, 314 days)
On day 3650 is when I can say Im Famous for being an asshole that played roulette for more than 30 years of my life. On day 3650 I will be able to sleep knowing I won!
The saving grace to this quit I have going is im finally scared to death that chewing tobacco will kill me, if I let it! Today I wont!
None means none.
One and I fail
Failure is a choice - (doufus)
Lax '40'
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1825 is my half way number, 3650 days is how long mouth cancer can incubate without showing its ugly head. As of today I have 3599 days of being scared left. (9 years, 314 days)
On day 3650 is when I can say Im Famous for being an asshole that played roulette for more than 30 years of my life. On day 3650 I will be able to sleep knowing I won!
Didn't know that one. 'bang head' thought I was free and clear.
Not really. My father died of non small cell lung cancer ~5 years after he quit (smoking). That was 7 years ago. I watched the cancer and chemo eat him down to an 80 pound skeleton and did nothing about quitting on my own. Staggering.
So very glad to be quit with you!
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CONGRATULATIONS! HALFWAY TO FAMOUS!!
You are doing great. Plenty of challenges ahead, but think how far you have come already!
The biggest thing is that you have bought into things here, and you realize you are an addict.
Stay humble and don't let your guard down. The nic b*tch is still lurking for sure.
Proud to quit with you today brother!
'party2'
Half way to nothing, 100 is just a number. Yes I am proud of my 51 days, fucking love them all but they are still only 51 wins. One day at a time, day after day.
1825 is my half way number, 3650 days is how long mouth cancer can incubate without showing its ugly head. As of today I have 3599 days of being scared left. (9 years, 314 days)
On day 3650 is when I can say Im Famous for being an asshole that played roulette for more than 30 years of my life. On day 3650 I will be able to sleep knowing I won!
The saving grace to this quit I have going is im finally scared to death that chewing tobacco will kill me, if I let it! Today I wont!
None means none.
One and I fail
Failure is a choice - (doufus)
Lax '40'
You are right dude...no more kumbaya around here! Back to quitting hard ODAAT! 'Remshot'
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Small victories, that's what any ADDICT needs to think about. I admit, I've looked ahead but all that does is fuck with my mind. My quit is so much stronger when I think about right now or the next ten minutes. I've been craving hard, don't want to sleep because the dreams are so real Work is busy than shit but the long hours were always dealt with by opening a fresh tin, cranking the tunes and fighting through. I still crank the tunes. Part of my mind is telling me, come on its been long enough, lets have some. Another part is screaming your an asshole, stop thinking, you promised. That part is way fucking stronger..
I am truly a stupid fucker, so are you. Why did we allow ourselves to get here. Nicotine may be the strongest fucking drug out there, the whore is cunning. BUT I WILL WIN TODAY! Win with me!
Lax
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Small victories, that's what any ADDICT needs to think about. I admit, I've looked ahead but all that does is fuck with my mind. My quit is so much stronger when I think about right now or the next ten minutes. I've been craving hard, don't want to sleep because the dreams are so real Work is busy than shit but the long hours were always dealt with by opening a fresh tin, cranking the tunes and fighting through. I still crank the tunes. Part of my mind is telling me, come on its been long enough, lets have some. Another part is screaming your an asshole, stop thinking, you promised. That part is way fucking stronger..
I am truly a stupid fucker, so are you. Why did we allow ourselves to get here. Nicotine may be the strongest fucking drug out there, the whore is cunning. BUT I WILL WIN TODAY! Win with me!
Lax
Right there with you brother. Love how you express yourself. Motivates me for sure.
I STILL get cravings and triggers every f*cking day. It has just gotten progressively easier to move past them. They are more fleeting thoughts than dangerous impuses nowadays.
And when I need to blast out a ton of work (still a major trigger), I still reach for a pile of seeds.
The Nic B*tch is crafty. We have both had long stopages before, but this is a f*cking quit now. Absolutely no going back. I know my real test may come at any time, and that is why I continue to focus on ODAAT and on strengthening my quit every f*cking day. Addiction is always there, but so are KTC and your brothers!
Way to keep the focus on today and on right now. Quit with you today!
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OK yesterday was going great, around 1:00 pm I get a call from my sons 7th grade school, got to pick him up, fight. Suspended for two days, fought the Modified Lacrosse coaches son, beat his ass! needless to say like many parents I live through my children. Watching then succeed and naked wrestling with the wife are about all I have to look forward to in life. My wife is a dam good wrestler! lol. I love lacrosse and Nathan is good at it, hence my name here. Figured he was done before it started. Was dam near heading from the school to the store and buy my old faithful. you know the one that never lets you down AND THEN I remembered a problem and nicotine is TWO problems and Nicotine never did anything but let me down, Hell Nicotine is no friend, that whore tried to kill me for 30 + years.
KTC and you bad asses have given me the tools to get through these major craves. Why am my having these tough ass craves 54 days in, simple nicotine was a part of my life for over 10,950 days. When people say it gets easier, it does, but you will be tested. We are addicts, addicts have to fight every fucking day. The minute you stop fighting and think you don't need to think about this anymore you have a 99.9 percent chance of failing. Last night I logged on here and read, i read as much as I could to make my hate of the nicotine whore that much stronger. I didn't post anything but read for hours. If you want to be quit, everything you need to stay quit is right here. Day by day, hour by hour, crave by crave. Someone on here has had it worse than you, there stories are gospel, you just have to want it and use the tools given.
Later that night the coach called me to apologize for his son starting the fight and to assure me there were no hard feelings and he looked forward to seeing Nathan at lacrosse in a few weeks. Could you imagine taking that call with a lip full of death.
KTC, my brothers of quit, my promise and desire for a better day got me through. Today I posted 55 days quit, tomorrow is eight weeks in but im not worried about that until tomorrow.
You may not think of your self as being more than what you are, but your the reason many have stayed quit, your the reason many have stayed alive. KTC is an awesome find. I'm thankful today, Im sure I will be again.
Im quit with all you fuckers today!
Lax
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OK yesterday was going great, around 1:00 pm I get a call from my sons 7th grade school, got to pick him up, fight. Suspended for two days, fought the Modified Lacrosse coaches son, beat his ass! needless to say like many parents I live through my children. Watching then succeed and naked wrestling with the wife are about all I have to look forward to in life. My wife is a dam good wrestler! lol. I love lacrosse and Nathan is good at it, hence my name here. Figured he was done before it started. Was dam near heading from the school to the store and buy my old faithful. you know the one that never lets you down AND THEN I remembered a problem and nicotine is TWO problems and Nicotine never did anything but let me down, Hell Nicotine is no friend, that whore tried to kill me for 30 + years.
KTC and you bad asses have given me the tools to get through these major craves. Why am my having these tough ass craves 54 days in, simple nicotine was a part of my life for over 10,950 days. When people say it gets easier, it does, but you will be tested. We are addicts, addicts have to fight every fucking day. The minute you stop fighting and think you don't need to think about this anymore you have a 99.9 percent chance of failing. Last night I logged on here and read, i read as much as I could to make my hate of the nicotine whore that much stronger. I didn't post anything but read for hours. If you want to be quit, everything you need to stay quit is right here. Day by day, hour by hour, crave by crave. Someone on here has had it worse than you, there stories are gospel, you just have to want it and use the tools given.
Later that night the coach called me to apologize for his son starting the fight and to assure me there were no hard feelings and he looked forward to seeing Nathan at lacrosse in a few weeks. Could you imagine taking that call with a lip full of death.
KTC, my brothers of quit, my promise and desire for a better day got me through. Today I posted 55 days quit, tomorrow is eight weeks in but im not worried about that until tomorrow.
You may not think of your self as being more than what you are, but your the reason many have stayed quit, your the reason many have stayed alive. KTC is an awesome find. I'm thankful today, Im sure I will be again.
Im quit with all you fuckers today!
Lax
This guy gets it! Life is a trigger, nicotine is an excuse we use when we aren't man enough to face life.
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OK - Im doing great solid 58 today. Proud as shit of every day.
13 year old son is driving me FUCKING BAT SHIT CRAZY, Suspended from school, pissed off at the world and lazier than shit. I swear his mother must have cheated on me, he and I share very few personality traits. Diagnosed Bi Polar a few months ago and even on meds he is killing me.
YET: 1 problem and Nicotine = 2 problems.
No chew today...
Have a great Monday you QUITTERS!
Lax '40'
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OK - Im doing great solid 58 today. Proud as shit of every day.
13 year old son is driving me FUCKING BAT SHIT CRAZY, Suspended from school, pissed off at the world and lazier than shit. I swear his mother must have cheated on me, he and I share very few personality traits. Diagnosed Bi Polar a few months ago and even on meds he is killing me.
YET: 1 problem and Nicotine = 2 problems.
No chew today...
Have a great Monday you QUITTERS!
Lax '40'
KEEP BOUNCING MY BROTHER!
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ERIC71 said the one truth we all need to understand. We have all had outragiously long addictions to the fucking nic whore. I cant remember a situation or a place I went last year that I didnt chew at. BECAUSE OF THAT:
LIFE IS A TRIGGER! Everything we know, everything we did had Nicotine in it. Not doing the things we love with the people we enjoy most isn't the realistic, we just have to understand that there will be triggers, bad as fucking craves that we can beat as long as we make a plan, stay accountable and forge fucking through. LIFE IS A TRIGGER from the moment we get up until we go to bed. BUT and this is a beautiful BUT, if we stay quit we have a lot better chance of enjoying LIFE.
Lax is fucking deep for 9:30 AM.
Im quit with all you fucking quitters today.
'40' '40' '40' '40'
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ERIC71 said the one truth we all need to understand. We have all had outragiously long addictions to the fucking nic whore. I cant remember a situation or a place I went last year that I didnt chew at. BECAUSE OF THAT:
LIFE IS A TRIGGER! Everything we know, everything we did had Nicotine in it. Not doing the things we love with the people we enjoy most isn't the realistic, we just have to understand that there will be triggers, bad as fucking craves that we can beat as long as we make a plan, stay accountable and forge fucking through. LIFE IS A TRIGGER from the moment we get up until we go to bed. BUT and this is a beautiful BUT, if we stay quit we have a lot better chance of enjoying LIFE.
Lax is fucking deep for 9:30 AM.
Im quit with all you fucking quitters today.
'40' '40' '40' '40'
It's a rewiring of your brain. Prove to yourselves that you don't need a chew to drive the kids to school, that you don't need it to cope with an assbag of a co-worker, that you can enjoy a sporting event or get together much more when you're not sneaking off feeding a weakness, etc. Strategically plan out times and moments where you used to dip and revel in your victory, in that moment, as you stand there, a man of your word, with the nic bitch desperately trying to clutch your leg and asking for forgiveness of what she took from you so many times before. Take 2 steps back, and stomp the bitch's head into the curb and know you're winning.
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ERIC71 said the one truth we all need to understand. We have all had outragiously long addictions to the fucking nic whore. I cant remember a situation or a place I went last year that I didnt chew at. BECAUSE OF THAT:
LIFE IS A TRIGGER! Everything we know, everything we did had Nicotine in it. Not doing the things we love with the people we enjoy most isn't the realistic, we just have to understand that there will be triggers, bad as fucking craves that we can beat as long as we make a plan, stay accountable and forge fucking through. LIFE IS A TRIGGER from the moment we get up until we go to bed. BUT and this is a beautiful BUT, if we stay quit we have a lot better chance of enjoying LIFE.
Lax is fucking deep for 9:30 AM.
Im quit with all you fucking quitters today.
'40' '40' '40' '40'
It's a rewiring of your brain. Prove to yourselves that you don't need a chew to drive the kids to school, that you don't need it to cope with an assbag of a co-worker, that you can enjoy a sporting event or get together much more when you're not sneaking off feeding a weakness, etc. Strategically plan out times and moments where you used to dip and revel in your victory, in that moment, as you stand there, a man of your word, with the nic bitch desperately trying to clutch your leg and asking for forgiveness of what she took from you so many times before. Take 2 steps back, and stomp the bitch's head into the curb and know you're winning.
Ironic to say this but for everyone out there winning today, your doing it cause first you were a QUITTER.
Eric reading your logic has helped me alone.
Quit on you fuckers, Proud to be quit with you.
Lax '40'
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Day 67 Today and the craves are tough. I have though about chew more in the last 2 hours than i have in the last 2 days. Quit is strong, more pissed off at myself for thinking about it.
I hope you guys are strong with your quit, We got this.
Lax '40'
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Don't understand two things, constipation and all these pains in my mouth.
Nicotine is a mild laxative - thus the constipation
As far as the pains in your mouth - I had the same thing early in my quit, off and on for quite a while. Basically, your mouth is healing. You've been injuring it for years, and treating with an analgesic (nicotine). Remove the drug, and start the pain. It will subside, and get better. Just give it time.
Dude, Ive been posting and reaching out....the stories are all the same....My "friends" at convenience stores are all taken back when they have to put the tins away that they just assume I want....I've got a hottie too who I miss flirting with....probably for the better, my wife wouldnt be happy that my addiction also meant flirting with chickens half my age, lol....is it ok to miss the flirtation with hotties part of my addiction? Lol. I don't miss anything about tobacco now....some small triggers here or there....staying frosty for the long haul though....like I've said, not gonna get too cocky. Stay quit, ODAT
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Day 67 Today and the craves are tough. I have though about chew more in the last 2 hours than i have in the last 2 days. Quit is strong, more pissed off at myself for thinking about it.
I hope you guys are strong with your quit, We got this.
Lax '40'
Loving that bounce still!
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Two - thirds of the way to that arbitrary hall of fame deal...which actually makes me pretty f#cking excited even if it is just another day in your book!
You are doing great, you got this and do not get complacent. Having said that I can promise you that the best is yet to come. I don't think I have had a significant crave all week. Never thought I would ever be able to say that! See you tomorrow bud...ODAAT EDD!
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Two - thirds of the way to that arbitrary hall of fame deal...which actually makes me pretty f#cking excited even if it is just another day in your book!
You are doing great, you got this and do not get complacent. Having said that I can promise you that the best is yet to come. I don't think I have had a significant crave all week. Never thought I would ever be able to say that! See you tomorrow bud...ODAAT EDD!
Win every day. Every victory doesn't have to be pretty; some are quite ugly. But at the end of the day, a win is a win. That is the goal, every day.
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Sure would like to see you post roll tomorrow. I have looked forward to you posting roll every day, not just cause the boobies either. You reached out to me in the ambiguous post incident. You weren't going to let me fall without comment.
I love you but I hate that you used. Differentiate between the two. I lauded your sacrifice along to way, used it to explain to other quitters why we don't tolerate using and posting (the saveDanny incident).
I don't want to see you post tomorrow, I NEED TO SEE YOU POST TOMORROW.
You haven't let me or anyone else down unless you walk away.
Don't do it Lax. Don't walk away
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75 days. You guys are still building your support web and rebuilding your thought processes and coping (no pun intended) mechanisms. 75 days seems like a long time. It is a great start, but one day at a time greatness is ahead. Days, weeks, months, years without cravings are ahead. It takes time to get there. You will get there. The day when nicotine doesnÂ’t pop into your head when life crises hit you is ahead. But it is critical to build your network of accountability! To have those numbers in your phone! To see pictures of athan in compromising positions. To see skols kids playing games. Yo see chris making out with a gay Alaskan moose.
It is important to make these personal connections. To build the brotherhood. Each of you guys failed yourself for years, most for decades. You win as a team.
75 days is a long time to be free. But it really isnÂ’t. Come back laxdaddy. Fill your phone with numbers. When life happens, call those contacts. Freedom from nicotine feels too good to throw away. ItÂ’s a new day today. Join us.
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Hang in there, Lax.
You got knocked down, you didn't get knocked out.
Tomorrow is another day.
Family comes first.
Fix what you can today and worry about everything else tomorrow.
You got this!
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Hey there Lax, Im on day 3 this morning and im going through some serious fog right now brother. I am reading your posts and getting inspired, getting stronger,...thank you for your posts man, keep forging ahead, your helping people you don't even know.
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Hey there Lax, Im on day 3 this morning and im going through some serious fog right now brother. I am reading your posts and getting inspired, getting stronger,...thank you for your posts man, keep forging ahead, your helping people you don't even know.
Hey HAAS, read my intro, I'm going to send you a PM with my digits and some new info on my boy LaxDaddy.....he's my brother and his quit brothers are all helping him....that's what KTC is for but he caved, yes, he bought a tin and had a dip....I dont tell you this to hurt Lax, because he gonna re-post a Day 1 and we all gonna help him.....I tell you because he was on Day 77 quit just like me......nicotine is a drug, we are all addicts....addicts use because they choose to....Failure is a choice....1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems.....you hear me bro?.....stay quit, ODAAT
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Lax, I wishing warmest thoughts of strength and healing for you and family. When you ready to Post Day 1 on July Roll, we all will be there waiting for you. Love ya bro, get your quit back
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U gotta be feeling better, Day 86 bro, proud with you
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Thanks for the support bro
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Proud to see you quitting on!
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Day 162
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Double WUPP time for 200, proud to be quit wit u
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222 qlf
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DAY 237
Officially now into unchartered quit waters. Never been quit this long, never felt this strong in my quit. KTC works people, I continue to feel gratitude and honor towards a complete set of strangers who help save my life one day at a time. Thanks KTC
Ps I hope you stay quit whatever your circumstances may be.