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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: pete333 on August 07, 2015, 01:47:00 PM
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I have been "quitting" for some time. My wife thinks I quit somewhere around 12 years ago, and I did off and on throughout the years since but basically no one knows. I was addicted to gum for a good two years straight somewhere in there, but I have come to realization that cold turkey is the only way to go. I gave it a trial run and survived 9 days but once again something came up two cans ago and I thought dang it. I just tossed the remainder and am now going for broke. I cannot keep letting the next "chew" dictate my next meal, or impact my travel plans any longer. I have played hide the can/ gum for way too long. Wish me luck!!!
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I have been "quitting" for some time. My wife thinks I quit somewhere around 12 years ago, and I did off and on throughout the years since but basically no one knows. I was addicted to gum for a good two years straight somewhere in there, but I have come to realization that cold turkey is the only way to go. I gave it a trial run and survived 9 days but once again something came up two cans ago and I thought dang it. I just tossed the remainder and am now going for broke. I cannot keep letting the next "chew" dictate my next meal, or impact my travel plans any longer. I have played hide the can/ gum for way too long. Wish me luck!!!
Pete welcome. My friend we don't quit with luck, use that in horseshoes and marbles. Here we quit ,luck has nothing do with it! We man up ,grab our sac, post roll and get it done! Post roll let's get you some badass quit going! I quit with you today!
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I have been "quitting" for some time. My wife thinks I quit somewhere around 12 years ago, and I did off and on throughout the years since but basically no one knows. I was addicted to gum for a good two years straight somewhere in there, but I have come to realization that cold turkey is the only way to go. I gave it a trial run and survived 9 days but once again something came up two cans ago and I thought dang it. I just tossed the remainder and am now going for broke. I cannot keep letting the next "chew" dictate my next meal, or impact my travel plans any longer. I have played hide the can/ gum for way too long. Wish me luck!!!
Pete welcome. My friend we don't quit with luck, use that in horseshoes and marbles. Here we quit ,luck has nothing do with it! We man up ,grab our sac, post roll and get it done! Post roll let's get you some badass quit going! I quit with you today!
I need that confidence. I just realized that my techs will suffer the most this first week, I am currently writing their mid-year appraisals! Thanks again.
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I have been "quitting" for some time. My wife thinks I quit somewhere around 12 years ago, and I did off and on throughout the years since but basically no one knows. I was addicted to gum for a good two years straight somewhere in there, but I have come to realization that cold turkey is the only way to go. I gave it a trial run and survived 9 days but once again something came up two cans ago and I thought dang it. I just tossed the remainder and am now going for broke. I cannot keep letting the next "chew" dictate my next meal, or impact my travel plans any longer. I have played hide the can/ gum for way too long. Wish me luck!!!
Pete welcome. My friend we don't quit with luck, use that in horseshoes and marbles. Here we quit ,luck has nothing do with it! We man up ,grab our sac, post roll and get it done! Post roll let's get you some badass quit going! I quit with you today!
I need that confidence. I just realized that my techs will suffer the most this first week, I am currently writing their mid-year appraisals! Thanks again.
Make sure you bring that angst here, and not on your employees. I know you were joking, but the quit rage is real, so pretend I'm a tech and I stuck a french fry in disc drive or something. Oh yeah, chat with your fellow November guys and get some numbers to text with.
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I was addicted to gum for a good two years straight somewhere in there, but I have come to realization that cold turkey is the only way to go.
I gave it a trial run and survived 9 days but once again something came up
You are addicted to nicotine, one of the most addictive substances known to man (and woman). If they made shoes with nicotine, people would be licking their shoes all day long. Gum, dip, shoes, anything with nicotine, you need to stay away from all of it.
If you are waiting until finally something doesn't come up, you will be dead. Stay quit, and ignore it when something comes up.
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Thank you, that is why I am here. I am done with the partial-quit and half - assing it. I'm quit and that's it!
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Thank you, that is why I am here. I am done with the partial-quit and half - assing it. I'm quit and that's it!
Pete be the man, you will get hard love but remember it's worth every damn second, drink the kool-aid and ride this shit out but remember there's nothing easy about quitting! I'm living proof it can be done! QUIT on!
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I love the crazy thoughts that are creeping in
-sneak to the store
- make excuse to stop by office to "borrow " from a Co workers can on his desk.
Irrationality at its best haha. I'm gonna mow the fucking lawn instead!
Nice try nic!
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I love the crazy thoughts that are creeping in
-sneak to the store
- make excuse to stop by office to "borrow " from a Co workers can on his desk.
Irrationality at its best haha. I'm gonna mow the fucking lawn instead!
Nice try nic!
That's the addict in you, learn to defeat it,be the man kick the bitch to the curb! Good job on the win! Get fake if you have to, you can lay it down later. Quit on!
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I love the crazy thoughts that are creeping in
-sneak to the store
- make excuse to stop by office to "borrow " from a Co workers can on his desk.
Irrationality at its best haha. I'm gonna mow the fucking lawn instead!
Nice try nic!
That's the addict in you, learn to defeat it,be the man kick the bitch to the curb! Good job on the win! Get fake if you have to, you can lay it down later. Quit on!
Hi Pete. Here's my favorite one. "I can have one. Shit, I quit for XXX days. One won't hurt" Remember this: One is too many and one thousand is never enough. You are an addict. Today, for 24 hours, you will not use. You got this!
How did the lawn turn out? I bet you have your very own Fenway Park out there!
~Lady G
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Haha, never got around to the lawn. Saved that distraction for my tomorrow quit. Overall, I just stayed busy today and tried not to dwell. Having my reward beer right now, and it isn't lost on me, that it tastes different....
I'm starting to compare the days and dread some of those ahead. The irony is that it is getting late, and I owned my quit today. Looking back it wasn't overly difficult, although there were a couple moments that I got a bit lost in my thoughts. I know I will own tomorrow, so for now that is all I need.
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Haha, never got around to the lawn. Saved that distraction for my tomorrow quit. Overall, I just stayed busy today and tried not to dwell. Having my reward beer right now, and it isn't lost on me, that it tastes different....
I'm starting to compare the days and dread some of those ahead. The irony is that it is getting late, and I owned my quit today. Looking back it wasn't overly difficult, although there were a couple moments that I got a bit lost in my thoughts. I know I will own tomorrow, so for now that is all I need.
Good for you Pete. This is a great start. Keep going ODAAT. You have the right mindset, and it seems to me like you're ready to own this thing. Proud of you dude, keep it up. Quit with you today.
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Grrr, today's been a bitch. Fuck nic, I'm gonna kick your ass again.... 'bang head'
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I agree Pete today is a rough one stay strong we will pass this.
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Today has been rough, but even through the density of the fog, I see glimpses of the freedom. Going to dinner with my family and not searching for the restroom to throw in a chew before we left was quite nice. It is also great to see the little voices in my head are wrong and I didn't die without a pinch.
My wife knows something is up, she says I'm grumpy and copping an attitude. Fortunately she and my girls have given me great cover : they spent a fuck-ton of $$$ this weekend. Rental house in Hawaii for a week in Dec, plus airfare, then a rental saxophone for my youngest, then dinner.... Shit yeah I'm grumpy! Little do they know, I'm also rocking the quit!!!
Tonight's reward : Patron on the rocks, small one though. Got a big challenge coming up: tomorrow's quit will be tough at work. But then again I survived today, I guess we will cross that bridge in the morning.
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Grrr, My 4th quit is a bear. I hope this is a peak of sorts, as I am really struggling today. My lack of focus is really impacting my work and I can see that my anxiety level is through the roof. really having a fucked up type of day...The good news is I am nearly 50% done with todays quit.
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Cmon you got this shit! Grab your sac and man up! It's tough but not impossible! We're here! Quit on and soon you'll enjoy the freedom!
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Grrr, My 4th quit is a bear. I hope this is a peak of sorts, as I am really struggling today. My lack of focus is really impacting my work and I can see that my anxiety level is through the roof. really having a fucked up type of day...The good news is I am nearly 50% done with todays quit.
Days will vary. Tomorrow you may wake up and actually feel pretty good. We will worry about tomorrow when it comes though. You should feel pretty good. The actual physical effects of nicotine are now behind you. What you will be dealing with now are called triggers. Every time you complete a new task you will train your body how to do it without nicotine....like day 2 at the office.
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...and when the vending machine took my $1.50...there was almost a mushroom cloud in the Northwest.... Being at work blows because there are cans everywhere. Several of my techs use, and a peer or two. just makes it a bit trickier to distract myself.
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Thanks guys, I needed the back up today. I nearly caved. A coworker, was teasing and offered a bandit (he had no idea I have been hooked for years) and I shrugged and took it. My twisted addict mind told me, hey, you got to be Polite. He laughed as I had it in my hand and said thanks as I walked off. Currently the office is being remodeled so I went outside to the honey bucket (Porta pot). I kinda surprised myself and instead of popping that bitch in I dropped it in the nasty blue bowl where it belongs.
Needless to say, I really struggled with my quit today. I did go bs with the coworker a bit later and told him I had quit today. He laughed, as he thought I was just getting started. If he only freakin knew....
Ultimately, today was a bitch, and I have some demons to beat the snot out of, but I'm happy with the outcome. I am also very grateful to everyone who quit with me today and a couple of y'all who were letting me vent for a bit this afternoon. I needed it, thanks again.
I look forward to quitting with y'all tomorrow.
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Thanks guys, I needed the back up today. I nearly caved. A coworker, was teasing and offered a bandit (he had no idea I have been hooked for years) and I shrugged and took it. My twisted addict mind told me, hey, you got to be Polite. He laughed as I had it in my hand and said thanks as I walked off. Currently the office is being remodeled so I went outside to the honey bucket (Porta pot). I kinda surprised myself and instead of popping that bitch in I dropped it in the nasty blue bowl where it belongs.
Needless to say, I really struggled with my quit today. I did go bs with the coworker a bit later and told him I had quit today. He laughed, as he thought I was just getting started. If he only freakin knew....
Ultimately, today was a bitch, and I have some demons to beat the snot out of, but I'm happy with the outcome. I am also very grateful to everyone who quit with me today and a couple of y'all who were letting me vent for a bit this afternoon. I needed it, thanks again.
I look forward to quitting with y'all tomorrow.
Keep it up Pete. Keep adding the +1's. The first few weeks can be brutal, but eventually it's always going to pay off. Just keep going. Every day you post a +1 is a win, and every win is a taste of freedom. Stay strong through the beginning, it gets a lot better.
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I had a rough day as well Pete but we both made it through +1 hey everyone do the craving go away I am on day 18 please tell me they do? Keep it up pete
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Next time that asshole offers a dip, take the whole can and pour it in the nearest trash can. He won't F with you again.
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Yesterday I found to be strange. Craving was minimal, really didn't dwell on it too much. Unfortunately it was replaced with rage. Not anger or grumpiness, but straight up bridge-burning, stay the fuck out of my way rage. I am not going to dwell to much on the details as I have previously been passive with regards to some family disagreements. Yesterday was a tipping point and I decided to express some opinions regardless of the outcome. The kicker is that yesterday was also my daughter's birthday. While I don't think the kids totally caught on the the background drama as it was via phone/ text not in person screaming, I think they knew Dad was in a bad mood about something again.
Who knows, perhaps it was a long time coming, or maybe I should not have upset the status quo. I am certain my rage and anger was mostly due in part to my old friend nic.
Right now I am on a mission. I really don't care about collateral damage. I figure I will pick up the pieces once I get over the hump. I do worry that there are going to be a lot of pieces....
I quit today regardless.
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Yesterday I found to be strange. Craving was minimal, really didn't dwell on it too much. Unfortunately it was replaced with rage. Not anger or grumpiness, but straight up bridge-burning, stay the fuck out of my way rage. I am not going to dwell to much on the details as I have previously been passive with regards to some family disagreements. Yesterday was a tipping point and I decided to express some opinions regardless of the outcome. The kicker is that yesterday was also my daughter's birthday. While I don't think the kids totally caught on the the background drama as it was via phone/ text not in person screaming, I think they knew Dad was in a bad mood about something again.
Who knows, perhaps it was a long time coming, or maybe I should not have upset the status quo. I am certain my rage and anger was mostly due in part to my old friend nic.
Right now I am on a mission. I really don't care about collateral damage. I figure I will pick up the pieces once I get over the hump. I do worry that there are going to be a lot of pieces....
I quit today regardless.
Pete this is all normal stuff my man. Come on here and rage away. I've never been on Live Chat (yet), but I've seen many a quitter note that they were talked off the rage ledge by the quitters in there.
Just remember that whether you knew it or not at the time, you were using nicotine to "chill" your emotions and bury them beneath your addiction. This self-medicating behavior suppressed many emotions over the years. It is going to take time to teach your mind and body how to react "normally" to your emotions again. You literally will have to create new pathways in your brain for dealing with emotions instead of drowning them in your poison.
Don't take this out on your family. They didn't do this to you, you did it to yourself. Don't use that as a reason to wallow in self-pity, use it as a reason to stand up to this poison once and for all. Vent your emotions on here, go for a run, do some pushups, be the front man in a grunge metal band, whatever it takes, but don't punish your family.
You've got this man, keep it up. It will get better and everyday you're teaching your body what it's like to be free from the poison. Let it heal.
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I hear you. I'm sure I'll figure it out. Unfortunately I spent my day trying to reign it in at work, that when some family members started bickering about something fairly trivial, I jumped in and picked a side (in glorious f-bomb fashion I might add!) Hopefully I didn't just blow the deposit on a Dec. Hawaii family trip!!!
I appreciate the support here, I gotta get my shit together and not let the fallout from the quit make forget why I'm doing it. Y'all have been great at keeping me pointed in the right direction.
ODAAT
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You've got this Pete. It won't always be easy, but the shittiest day of quitting is better than your best day of dipping. If that hasn't sunken all the way in yet, don't worry, it will. If you keep pursuing your quit, you will never fail.
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Hey Pete be the bigger man look and walk away! Go out for a walk, do pushups, run over turtles but just don't do shit that can ruin family ties on count of you raging mad because you're not stuffing that shit in your mouth anymore! This shits hard, if it were easy we wouldn't be having this conversation. Takes a much bigger man to walk away. I quit with you! Pm me get my number and call and cuss ass out if you need to, I'm a big boy I can handle it!
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Grrr my day 8 hangover is far worse than the craves. In fact, I was surprised when I posted my early am roll, I really hadn't even thought of that nic bitch all evening. I was out at the bar, putting down the beers and having a dip never even crossed my mind. It wasn't until I got home and had a few glasses of water that it came sneaking into my mind. Figured fuck that bitch, it is technically after midnight, I'm posting roll now.
Anyhow, I'll take any milestone I can get, the little taste of freedom was great!!!
Let's get our quit on today!!
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Great win pete! Get it done! Quitting with you, you badass quitter!
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Great win pete! Get it done! Quitting with you, you badass quitter!
Well I am on day 23 for the last 4 days I have been lightheaded ness going on has any one went through this and if so how long will it last.
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I'm on day 59 but around three weeks in I had some dizziness and fatigue. I had it for about a week and I was back to normal. Just take it one day at a time and it will pass.
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Well shit, just finished my third weekend nicotine free, and it feels great. I'm 17 days in and the worst was definitely around day 5. I'm not feeling the intense craves anymore, but when I see a can, it is hard to look away. I don't want it, and don't miss it, but it still gets my attention.
As for the craving, it is nearly gone at least in the obsessive, intense, borderline insane form. Now that has been replaced with a feeling that something is just missing. Seeds and gum are great, but overall snacking helps the most. It is completely bearable, except that I have been gradually gaining weight. (wtf???)
Overall, I am still finding a new equilibrium and balance in life, and eventually the perceived "hole" will wash out as if the tide came in. Anyhow, figured I'd throw an update out
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Well shit, just finished my third weekend nicotine free, and it feels great. I'm 17 days in and the worst was definitely around day 5. I'm not feeling the intense craves anymore, but when I see a can, it is hard to look away. I don't want it, and don't miss it, but it still gets my attention.
As for the craving, it is nearly gone at least in the obsessive, intense, borderline insane form. Now that has been replaced with a feeling that something is just missing. Seeds and gum are great, but overall snacking helps the most. It is completely bearable, except that I have been gradually gaining weight. (wtf???)
Overall, I am still finding a new equilibrium and balance in life, and eventually the perceived "hole" will wash out as if the tide came in. Anyhow, figured I'd throw an update out
Doing great pete! See you being active on the boards, that's what it takes my friend. Congrats and don't change a thing. If it works leave it be! Quit on! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
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Well shit, just finished my third weekend nicotine free, and it feels great. I'm 17 days in and the worst was definitely around day 5. I'm not feeling the intense craves anymore, but when I see a can, it is hard to look away. I don't want it, and don't miss it, but it still gets my attention.
As for the craving, it is nearly gone at least in the obsessive, intense, borderline insane form. Now that has been replaced with a feeling that something is just missing. Seeds and gum are great, but overall snacking helps the most. It is completely bearable, except that I have been gradually gaining weight. (wtf???)
Overall, I am still finding a new equilibrium and balance in life, and eventually the perceived "hole" will wash out as if the tide came in. Anyhow, figured I'd throw an update out
Doing great pete! See you being active on the boards, that's what it takes my friend. Congrats and don't change a thing. If it works leave it be! Quit on! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
Pete, I hit the exact same thing around day 26. Didn't crave in the KTC conventional sense of the word, but it still felt like I was missing out on something. You will get through this and the further you get away from those sentiments you will realize just how strong the hold was. I am not too far out in front of you, but I will tell you in the last couple weeks, I can already feel the grip lessening. I haven't had that "missing" yearning in weeks now. It isn't worth it. Not today and not tomorrow.
I like what you're doing in November. Keep it up Pete, even better times ahead.
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No one said this quit would be easy. I am in my fourth weekend, and finding that I'm extremely restless still, and can't stop eating. I am not motivated to do anything, but I feel like I need to be doing something. I have been pacing, eating, pacing, eating. The good news is that my craves are very light.
I need to start exercising more, which once the kids go back to school I will get back into my routine. We are also getting a new puppy in a couple weeks, so with walks and bathroom breaks, it ought to be perfect timing for the distraction.
Anyhow, I know it is in my head, I am working through it.
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No one said this quit would be easy. I am in my fourth weekend, and finding that I'm extremely restless still, and can't stop eating. I am not motivated to do anything, but I feel like I need to be doing something. I have been pacing, eating, pacing, eating. The good news is that my craves are very light.
I need to start exercising more, which once the kids go back to school I will get back into my routine. We are also getting a new puppy in a couple weeks, so with walks and bathroom breaks, it ought to be perfect timing for the distraction.
Anyhow, I know it is in my head, I am working through it.
Keep it going Pete. You're completely retraining your body and mind to function without nicotine. It'll take awhile, but think about all the work you've dumped into already. Just keep your head low and marching forward, you'll get there.
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I came across your post looking for my own introduction as I am coming up on my one year mark and was going to update some info on it. Just keep up the good work one day at a time adding +1. While the addiction will always be there, each day gets a little easier to resist nicotine.
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Pete my friend we choose what to do with our lives. Yes eating can become an addiction just like nic. You can slow down on it,I truly believe if you can quit nic you can do anything. Get your ass up off that recliner grab a kid go walking, you're not doing yourself or family no good just laying around. Like I always say grab your sac be the man you are and take control of your life. Remember your only excuse is you! Damn proud to be quit with you my brother!
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Freaking crazy to be nearly 9 weeks in. During the first week, around day 4or 5 I never would have believed the craves would subside this much. They are not completely gone and will likely never completely dissipate, however, They are becoming less familiar and almost unrecognizable. It is knda like running into a kid we once knew in Kindergarten, 25 years later. It takes a while to nail down exactly who it is. My craves are becoming that way.
I found myself standing out in the rain last night waiting for my puppy to take care of her business and felt like something was missing. Was I hungry? No, that wasn't it. Thirsty, nope beer was in my left hand. Perhaps I needed to take care of business, (that's usually the case with a beer in my hand). 15 minutes later I was back inside watching the Astros game, and it hit me: That was what my craves feel like now. 2 minutes of "something's missing".
Today I was standing in a co-workers office with his can on his desk, which early on in my quit would have had me nearly twitching. Now its gravity has significantly subsided and it goes hardly noticed. In fact, many if not most of my triggers have been overcome, and I can accomplish those things without even thinking of a dip. Washing the car, walking into a convenient store, fishing, flying, drinking, or stressful situations.
Two days ago, my wife's family buried her grandfather. While standing graveside as a pallbearer, listening to Taps being played I thought of my addiction. I thought of the other funerals, weddings, vacations and life events I had attended all while having a fat wad of shit in my mouth. Of course as a closest addict, I had to extensively plan those trips and events. Hidden cans in luggage, zip-lock bags of Nic gum in my carry-on (didn't want the foil backing to trigger anything with TSA, lest they out me in front of my family with a bag search). In fact, I found that an addict can generally think up a million ways to sneak their fix.
Looking back on that sunny Monday afternoon, I had realized that I love being Nic-free. I don't have to stress while travelling, or fake a bathroom break while driving from Vegas to Glendale for the Superbowl just to pop in one more. I don't have to worry about my girls finding a can, or my wife looking through my jacket pockets. I just get to live.
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Freaking crazy to be nearly 9 weeks in. During the first week, around day 4or 5 I never would have believed the craves would subside this much. They are not completely gone and will likely never completely dissipate, however, They are becoming less familiar and almost unrecognizable. It is knda like running into a kid we once knew in Kindergarten, 25 years later. It takes a while to nail down exactly who it is. My craves are becoming that way.
I found myself standing out in the rain last night waiting for my puppy to take care of her business and felt like something was missing. Was I hungry? No, that wasn't it. Thirsty, nope beer was in my left hand. Perhaps I needed to take care of business, (that's usually the case with a beer in my hand). 15 minutes later I was back inside watching the Astros game, and it hit me: That was what my craves feel like now. 2 minutes of "something's missing".
Today I was standing in a co-workers office with his can on his desk, which early on in my quit would have had me nearly twitching. Now its gravity has significantly subsided and it goes hardly noticed. In fact, many if not most of my triggers have been overcome, and I can accomplish those things without even thinking of a dip. Washing the car, walking into a convenient store, fishing, flying, drinking, or stressful situations.
Two days ago, my wife's family buried her grandfather. While standing graveside as a pallbearer, listening to Taps being played I thought of my addiction. I thought of the other funerals, weddings, vacations and life events I had attended all while having a fat wad of shit in my mouth. Of course as a closest addict, I had to extensively plan those trips and events. Hidden cans in luggage, zip-lock bags of Nic gum in my carry-on (didn't want the foil backing to trigger anything with TSA, lest they out me in front of my family with a bag search). In fact, I found that an addict can generally think up a million ways to sneak their fix.
Looking back on that sunny Monday afternoon, I had realized that I love being Nic-free. I don't have to stress while travelling, or fake a bathroom break while driving from Vegas to Glendale for the Superbowl just to pop in one more. I don't have to worry about my girls finding a can, or my wife looking through my jacket pockets. I just get to live.
Really really really good stuff here Pete. I'm glad you're getting it and spreading the word what it feels like to taste freedom after so long. Congrats my man.
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Freaking crazy to be nearly 9 weeks in. During the first week, around day 4or 5 I never would have believed the craves would subside this much. They are not completely gone and will likely never completely dissipate, however, They are becoming less familiar and almost unrecognizable. It is knda like running into a kid we once knew in Kindergarten, 25 years later. It takes a while to nail down exactly who it is. My craves are becoming that way.
I found myself standing out in the rain last night waiting for my puppy to take care of her business and felt like something was missing. Was I hungry? No, that wasn't it. Thirsty, nope beer was in my left hand. Perhaps I needed to take care of business, (that's usually the case with a beer in my hand). 15 minutes later I was back inside watching the Astros game, and it hit me: That was what my craves feel like now. 2 minutes of "something's missing".
Today I was standing in a co-workers office with his can on his desk, which early on in my quit would have had me nearly twitching. Now its gravity has significantly subsided and it goes hardly noticed. In fact, many if not most of my triggers have been overcome, and I can accomplish those things without even thinking of a dip. Washing the car, walking into a convenient store, fishing, flying, drinking, or stressful situations.
Two days ago, my wife's family buried her grandfather. While standing graveside as a pallbearer, listening to Taps being played I thought of my addiction. I thought of the other funerals, weddings, vacations and life events I had attended all while having a fat wad of shit in my mouth. Of course as a closest addict, I had to extensively plan those trips and events. Hidden cans in luggage, zip-lock bags of Nic gum in my carry-on (didn't want the foil backing to trigger anything with TSA, lest they out me in front of my family with a bag search). In fact, I found that an addict can generally think up a million ways to sneak their fix.
Looking back on that sunny Monday afternoon, I had realized that I love being Nic-free. I don't have to stress while travelling, or fake a bathroom break while driving from Vegas to Glendale for the Superbowl just to pop in one more. I don't have to worry about my girls finding a can, or my wife looking through my jacket pockets. I just get to live.
Really really really good stuff here Pete. I'm glad you're getting it and spreading the word what it feels like to taste freedom after so long. Congrats my man.
Agreed! This is a great post.
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Freaking crazy to be nearly 9 weeks in. During the first week, around day 4or 5 I never would have believed the craves would subside this much. They are not completely gone and will likely never completely dissipate, however, They are becoming less familiar and almost unrecognizable. It is knda like running into a kid we once knew in Kindergarten, 25 years later. It takes a while to nail down exactly who it is. My craves are becoming that way.
I found myself standing out in the rain last night waiting for my puppy to take care of her business and felt like something was missing. Was I hungry? No, that wasn't it. Thirsty, nope beer was in my left hand. Perhaps I needed to take care of business, (that's usually the case with a beer in my hand). 15 minutes later I was back inside watching the Astros game, and it hit me: That was what my craves feel like now. 2 minutes of "something's missing".
Today I was standing in a co-workers office with his can on his desk, which early on in my quit would have had me nearly twitching. Now its gravity has significantly subsided and it goes hardly noticed. In fact, many if not most of my triggers have been overcome, and I can accomplish those things without even thinking of a dip. Washing the car, walking into a convenient store, fishing, flying, drinking, or stressful situations.
Two days ago, my wife's family buried her grandfather. While standing graveside as a pallbearer, listening to Taps being played I thought of my addiction. I thought of the other funerals, weddings, vacations and life events I had attended all while having a fat wad of shit in my mouth. Of course as a closest addict, I had to extensively plan those trips and events. Hidden cans in luggage, zip-lock bags of Nic gum in my carry-on (didn't want the foil backing to trigger anything with TSA, lest they out me in front of my family with a bag search). In fact, I found that an addict can generally think up a million ways to sneak their fix.
Looking back on that sunny Monday afternoon, I had realized that I love being Nic-free. I don't have to stress while travelling, or fake a bathroom break while driving from Vegas to Glendale for the Superbowl just to pop in one more. I don't have to worry about my girls finding a can, or my wife looking through my jacket pockets. I just get to live.
Really really really good stuff here Pete. I'm glad you're getting it and spreading the word what it feels like to taste freedom after so long. Congrats my man.
Agreed! This is a great post.
That sounds just like a quitter! Awesome my brother! Keep paying it forward. Continue helping others, it also strengthens ones quit! Damn proud to be quit with you today my brother!
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Congrats on you HoF day!
Celebrate 100 and +1s from her on.
I quit with you.
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Congrats on you HoF day!
Celebrate 100 and +1s from her on.
I quit with you.
Way to go Pete! Like what I'm seeing!
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Pete333 congrats on your 1 year quit!
keep it up!
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Pete333 congrats on your 1 year quit!
keep it up!
Congratulations Pete! Keep on paying it back! Quit on Edd ODAAT! It's what we do