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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Bulldog0311 on December 02, 2013, 08:18:00 PM
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Started dipping in 1990 on Guam while in the military. Loved it. Still do. Hate it at the same time and want to be done with it. Have tried in the past but I let excuses bring me back and Can't wait to get stressed out so I have the excuse to go back to it.
I'm addicted to it and that pisses me off.
Day one started 5 hours ago when I threw my stash in the toilet.
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Started dipping in 1990 on Guam while in the military. Loved it. Still do. Hate it at the same time and want to be done with it. Have tried in the past but I let excuses bring me back and Can't wait to get stressed out so I have the excuse to go back to it.
I'm addicted to it and that pisses me off.
Day one started 5 hours ago when I threw my stash in the toilet.
Well brother way to bulldog your quit right into the shitter, from me military man to another welcome in and let me say that site can and will save your life, one day at a time, but you need to buy in, invest a little bit of time and do this daily as a new habit o replace your addiction caused habits.
Read the welcome center at the pink/salmon link above at the top.
PM me if you want to exchange phone numbers so I can help you more at anytime.
Pinched
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Started dipping in 1990 on Guam while in the military. Loved it. Still do. Hate it at the same time and want to be done with it. Have tried in the past but I let excuses bring me back and Can't wait to get stressed out so I have the excuse to go back to it.
I'm addicted to it and that pisses me off.
Day one started 5 hours ago when I threw my stash in the toilet.
Well brother way to bulldog your quit right into the shitter, from me military man to another welcome in and let me say that site can and will save your life, one day at a time, but you need to buy in, invest a little bit of time and do this daily as a new habit o replace your addiction caused habits.
Read the welcome center at the pink/salmon link above at the top.
PM me if you want to exchange phone numbers so I can help you more at anytime.
Pinched
Best way to do it, flushing that poison. Read read read. learn all about our enemy so you can win. PM me if you need a #. Gonna be tough for a while, but if you can fight through, then there is a better place in your near future.
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Started dipping in 1990 on Guam while in the military.  Loved it. Still do. Hate it at the same time and want to be done with it. Have tried in the past but I let excuses bring me back and Can't wait to get stressed out so I have the excuse to go back to it.
I'm addicted to it and that pisses me off.
Day one started 5 hours ago when I threw my stash in the toilet.
Well brother way to bulldog your quit right into the shitter, from me military man to another welcome in and let me say that site can and will save your life, one day at a time, but you need to buy in, invest a little bit of time and do this daily as a new habit o replace your addiction caused habits.
Read the welcome center at the pink/salmon link above at the top.
PM me if you want to exchange phone numbers so I can help you more at anytime.
Pinched
Best way to do it, flushing that poison. Read read read. learn all about our enemy so you can win. PM me if you need a #. Gonna be tough for a while, but if you can fight through, then there is a better place in your near future.
I'm on your side bulldog. You will succeed. The control is in your hands now.
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Started dipping in 1990 on Guam while in the military.  Loved it. Still do. Hate it at the same time and want to be done with it. Have tried in the past but I let excuses bring me back and Can't wait to get stressed out so I have the excuse to go back to it.
I'm addicted to it and that pisses me off.
Day one started 5 hours ago when I threw my stash in the toilet.
Well brother way to bulldog your quit right into the shitter, from me military man to another welcome in and let me say that site can and will save your life, one day at a time, but you need to buy in, invest a little bit of time and do this daily as a new habit o replace your addiction caused habits.
Read the welcome center at the pink/salmon link above at the top.
PM me if you want to exchange phone numbers so I can help you more at anytime.
Pinched
Best way to do it, flushing that poison. Read read read. learn all about our enemy so you can win. PM me if you need a #. Gonna be tough for a while, but if you can fight through, then there is a better place in your near future.
I'm on your side bulldog. You will succeed. The control is in your hands now.
Started dipping in 1990 on Guam while in the military.  Loved it. Still do. Hate it at the same time and want to be done with it. Have tried in the past but I let excuses bring me back and Can't wait to get stressed out so I have the excuse to go back to it.
I'm addicted to it and that pisses me off.
Day one started 5 hours ago when I threw my stash in the toilet.
Well brother way to bulldog your quit right into the shitter, from me military man to another welcome in and let me say that site can and will save your life, one day at a time, but you need to buy in, invest a little bit of time and do this daily as a new habit o replace your addiction caused habits.
Read the welcome center at the pink/salmon link above at the top.
PM me if you want to exchange phone numbers so I can help you more at anytime.
Pinched
Best way to do it, flushing that poison. Read read read. learn all about our enemy so you can win. PM me if you need a #. Gonna be tough for a while, but if you can fight through, then there is a better place in your near future.
I'm on your side bulldog. You will succeed. The control is in your hands now.
Man, six hours in and I'm itching for a chew like a motherfucker. I'm taking some tylenol Pm and knocking my ass out. I'll have my ipad at work tomorrow and will check in, probably quite often.
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Tylenol pm worked great. No sweats no dreams no nothin.
Woke up craving. Ate the ass out of some jolly ranchers.
Tried to find smokey mountain at three places this morning no luck. Ordered a sample pack from their website. Paid extra for two day shipping. Lol.
Day two is starting off tough and getting tougher but the jolly ranchers are helping. Gonna go get some other munchies at lunch.
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Tylenol pm worked great. No sweats no dreams no nothin.
Woke up craving. Ate the ass out of some jolly ranchers.
Tried to find smokey mountain at three places this morning no luck. Ordered a sample pack from their website. Paid extra for two day shipping. Lol.
Day two is starting off tough and getting tougher but the jolly ranchers are helping. Gonna go get some other munchies at lunch.
One thing that i did and don't know if you have ability to based on your work.
Take a lap around your office or workplace even if its for like 5 minutes. just stay active.
Cant emphasis the chat strong enough if you are having serious cravings usually always 1 or 2 people there that can talk with you and get your mind off that craving.
If nothing else get a bank of phone numbers and text the hell out of them. Your brothers here will always answer with advice or just some BS talk to get you through the crave.
PM me Ill be happy to quit with you.
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Tylenol pm worked great. No sweats no dreams no nothin.
Woke up craving. Ate the ass out of some jolly ranchers.
Tried to find smokey mountain at three places this morning no luck. Ordered a sample pack from their website. Paid extra for two day shipping. Lol.
Day two is starting off tough and getting tougher but the jolly ranchers are helping. Gonna go get some other munchies at lunch.
One thing that i did and don't know if you have ability to based on your work.
Take a lap around your office or workplace even if its for like 5 minutes. just stay active.
Cant emphasis the chat strong enough if you are having serious cravings usually always 1 or 2 people there that can talk with you and get your mind off that craving.
If nothing else get a bank of phone numbers and text the hell out of them. Your brothers here will always answer with advice or just some BS talk to get you through the crave.
PM me Ill be happy to quit with you.
Exercise helps tremendously, drinks lots of water too. You should not be able to pass a bathroom without having to pee. You might even start to dance around like a 5 year old at an amusement park at times.
Check Wal Mart for Smokey mountain. I also recommend cinnamon candies red hots, hot tamales, cinnamon disks, etc. I also use Dubble Bubble gum, however that fucking flavor is gone well before I am done chewing on it like a new curd.
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Tylenol pm worked great. No sweats no dreams no nothin.
Woke up craving. Ate the ass out of some jolly ranchers.
Tried to find smokey mountain at three places this morning no luck. Ordered a sample pack from their website. Paid extra for two day shipping. Lol.
Day two is starting off tough and getting tougher but the jolly ranchers are helping. Gonna go get some other munchies at lunch.
One thing that i did and don't know if you have ability to based on your work.
Take a lap around your office or workplace even if its for like 5 minutes. just stay active.
Cant emphasis the chat strong enough if you are having serious cravings usually always 1 or 2 people there that can talk with you and get your mind off that craving.
If nothing else get a bank of phone numbers and text the hell out of them. Your brothers here will always answer with advice or just some BS talk to get you through the crave.
PM me Ill be happy to quit with you.
Exercise helps tremendously, drinks lots of water too. You should not be able to pass a bathroom without having to pee. You might even start to dance around like a 5 year old at an amusement park at times.
Check Wal Mart for Smokey mountain. I also recommend cinnamon candies red hots, hot tamales, cinnamon disks, etc. I also use Dubble Bubble gum, however that fucking flavor is gone well before I am done chewing on it like a new curd.
Before you run out to Wal-mart, call ahead. No need to stand in line looking at all that chew, to be told oh, we don't have Smokey Mountain.
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Tylenol pm worked great. No sweats no dreams no nothin.
Woke up craving. Ate the ass out of some jolly ranchers.
Tried to find smokey mountain at three places this morning no luck. Ordered a sample pack from their website. Paid extra for two day shipping. Lol.
Day two is starting off tough and getting tougher but the jolly ranchers are helping. Gonna go get some other munchies at lunch.
One thing that i did and don't know if you have ability to based on your work.
Take a lap around your office or workplace even if its for like 5 minutes. just stay active.
Cant emphasis the chat strong enough if you are having serious cravings usually always 1 or 2 people there that can talk with you and get your mind off that craving.
If nothing else get a bank of phone numbers and text the hell out of them. Your brothers here will always answer with advice or just some BS talk to get you through the crave.
PM me Ill be happy to quit with you.
Exercise helps tremendously, drinks lots of water too. You should not be able to pass a bathroom without having to pee. You might even start to dance around like a 5 year old at an amusement park at times.
Check Wal Mart for Smokey mountain. I also recommend cinnamon candies red hots, hot tamales, cinnamon disks, etc. I also use Dubble Bubble gum, however that fucking flavor is gone well before I am done chewing on it like a new curd.
Before you run out to Wal-mart, call ahead. No need to stand in line looking at all that chew, to be told oh, we don't have Smokey Mountain.
exercise will reduce number and frequency of cravings
keep your blood sugar STEADY, a crash will lead to a crave
most craves last less than 7 minutes. Just acknowledge your having one, take a deep breath and remind yourself your done with that shit and move on. Your free, go live your life.
sM
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And....... Get pissed off, get pissed off that some monkey fucker out there sold you that shit because he knew you would be back. He is feeding his family with your money and at the same time he is killing you and your dreams. That pisses me off. It's a war, don't let him and his nic bitch win. Me or them, and it damn sure ain't going to be me.
Mogul
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And....... Get pissed off, get pissed off that some monkey fucker out there sold you that shit because he knew you would be back. He is feeding his family with your money and at the same time he is killing you and your dreams. That pisses me off. It's a war, don't let him and his nic bitch win. Me or them, and it damn sure ain't going to be me.
Mogul
Hell yeah!!!!! LOVE THIS POST.
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And....... Get pissed off, get pissed off that some monkey fucker out there sold you that shit because he knew you would be back. He is feeding his family with your money and at the same time he is killing you and your dreams. That pisses me off. It's a war, don't let him and his nic bitch win. Me or them, and it damn sure ain't going to be me.Â
Mogul
Hell yeah!!!!! LOVE THIS POST.
Hate will fuel your quit. Its not cheap. It costs days of quit per gallon, but i recommend you fill up.
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So I was starting to get a bit anxious. I ran out to a walmart and picked up some smokey mountain. Holy crap.
Smells like wintergreen.
Looks a tad funny.
Tastes amazing.
In the lip.
Aaaaaahhhh
2 min pass.
Hot.
Sweaty
Dizzy.
Holy shit I pulled a fast one on the nic bitch and boy is she pissed. Trying to make me pay for tricking her ass.
Felt better after a bit. I think smokey and I are going to be fast friends.
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So I was starting to get a bit anxious. I ran out to a walmart and picked up some smokey mountain. Holy crap.
Smells like wintergreen.
Looks a tad funny.
Tastes amazing.
In the lip.
Aaaaaahhhh
2 min pass.
Hot.
Sweaty
Dizzy.
Holy shit I pulled a fast one on the nic bitch and boy is she pissed. Trying to make me pay for tricking her ass.
Felt better after a bit. I think smokey and I are going to be fast friends.
I am glad that you found an alternative. It is amazing that the product is not a 100% perfect replacement but it fucking works.
Some will get on a soap box and tell you that you are not quitting the hard way. I say fuck that because you are QUIT and that is all that matters.
I don't believe in prescription quitting but I do feel positive that anything that can keep me from a cave at the eighth hour is worth having in my pocket.
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So I was starting to get a bit anxious. I ran out to a walmart and picked up some smokey mountain. Holy crap.
Smells like wintergreen.
Looks a tad funny.
Tastes amazing.
In the lip.
Aaaaaahhhh
2 min pass.
Hot.
Sweaty
Dizzy.
Holy shit I pulled a fast one on the nic bitch and boy is she pissed. Trying to make me pay for tricking her ass.
Felt better after a bit. I think smokey and I are going to be fast friends.
I am glad that you found an alternative. It is amazing that the product is not a 100% perfect replacement but it fucking works.
Some will get on a soap box and tell you that you are not quitting the hard way. I say fuck that because you are QUIT and that is all that matters.
I don't believe in prescription quitting but I do feel positive that anything that can keep me from a cave at the eighth hour is worth having in my pocket.
Anything other than the poison and you are quit, Period.
Quit today. worry about the oral fixation later.
Cheers.
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It's day three now. Get through this and that's the first time in 23 years I've not had the poison in my system. I'm wondering what that's going to be like.
Why the fuck do my teeth feel swollen? That's just fucked up.
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It's day three now. Get through this and that's the first time in 23 years I've not had the poison in my system. I'm wondering what that's going to be like.
Why the fuck do my teeth feel swollen? That's just fucked up.
The pH in your mouth is going to change, your brain will begin to rewire to adapt to life without nicotine. A whole lot of things are going to change in your body. Your body is adapting to life without poison. Let it fix itself. Don't worry. Focus on quitting in the now.
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It's day three now. Get through this and that's the first time in 23 years I've not had the poison in my system. I'm wondering what that's going to be like.
Why the fuck do my teeth feel swollen? That's just fucked up.
The pH in your mouth is going to change, your brain will begin to rewire to adapt to life without nicotine. A whole lot of things are going to change in your body. Your body is adapting to life without poison. Let it fix itself. Don't worry. Focus on quitting in the now.
You will do this one day at at a time. You screwed your self up mentally and physically for years,, I say again YEARS!! I'll let you add the days up on your own. You'll probably need a calculator. I say that to say this,,, a few days quit that you can add up on one hand is just the beginning. I didn't begin feeling better until about 40 days in. Maybe you will be different though,, you never no. In time you will start to feel better and begin feeling somewhat normal. What is normal exactly!?!? Your guess is as good as mine.
There is a door you need to get to. This door is hard to get to and open. Sharpen your tools, settle in and make your way to the door. I can't tell you how far the door is or how long it will be before you get to this door. You WILL get there one day at a time. I make you one promise and you can take it to the bank. You stay the course, and live by this rule (nafar) you will love where this quit takes you. Life is so much better without the poison. Glad to be quit with you.
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It's day three now. Get through this and that's the first time in 23 years I've not had the poison in my system. I'm wondering what that's going to be like.
Why the fuck do my teeth feel swollen? That's just fucked up.
The pH in your mouth is going to change, your brain will begin to rewire to adapt to life without nicotine. A whole lot of things are going to change in your body. Your body is adapting to life without poison. Let it fix itself. Don't worry. Focus on quitting in the now.
Have you noticed that you haven't pooped in a while too? Symptoms are the same and they pass. Pun intended.
Read this....
'hurry' Syptoms of Quitting (http://www.killthecan.org/your-quit/what-to-expect-when-you-quit-dipping/)
It is amazing how we all experience the same symptoms. The treatment is the same too.
Post roll every "today" keep your word and never think about being quit tomorrow. repeat this every time you wake and its today.
If you are experiencing these symptoms...You are embracing the suck and winning.
Stay on course!!!!! You want to quit and this is the price to free yourself from vice. It is difficult but when you look back, you will think it was and is a small price to pay.
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So I was feeling pretty cocky yesterday. No major craves. Smokey mountain working like a charm.
Feeling good. I got this. Day three in the books. Staying up to midnight so I can post roll first... Excited to be on day 4 nic free. I got this.
Holy fuck. I got punched in the teeth this morning.
Taking my son to school. Get home find two cans in the car. Brand new. Still in packaging.
I think oh shit I thought I threw it all away. Fuck.
Pick it up... I gotta throw this away...literally twirling it in my fingers. Goddamn I didn't expect this. I really am a fucking addict.
I plug my nose cause I don't want to smell it... Open and into the toilet it goes.
I watch it go and I'm like staring at it. Missing it. Wanting it.
Fuck you bitch. You almost got me but you forgot....I quit.
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So I was feeling pretty cocky yesterday. No major craves. Smokey mountain working like a charm.
Feeling good. I got this. Day three in the books. Staying up to midnight so I can post roll first... Excited to be on day 4 nic free. I got this.
Holy fuck. I got punched in the teeth this morning.
Taking my son to school. Get home find two cans in the car. Brand new. Still in packaging.
I think oh shit I thought I threw it all away. Fuck.
Pick it up... I gotta throw this away...literally twirling it in my fingers. Goddamn I didn't expect this. I really am a fucking addict.
I plug my nose cause I don't want to smell it... Open and into the toilet it goes.
I watch it go and I'm like staring at it. Missing it. Wanting it.
Fuck you bitch. You almost got me but you forgot....I quit.
Hell yes WINNING!!
'tough'
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So I was feeling pretty cocky yesterday. No major craves. Smokey mountain working like a charm.
Feeling good. I got this. Day three in the books. Staying up to midnight so I can post roll first... Excited to be on day 4 nic free. I got this.
Holy fuck. I got punched in the teeth this morning.
Taking my son to school. Get home find two cans in the car. Brand new. Still in packaging.
I think oh shit I thought I threw it all away. Fuck.
Pick it up... I gotta throw this away...literally twirling it in my fingers. Goddamn I didn't expect this. I really am a fucking addict.
I plug my nose cause I don't want to smell it... Open and into the toilet it goes.
I watch it go and I'm like staring at it. Missing it. Wanting it.
Fuck you bitch. You almost got me but you forgot....I quit.
Hell yes WINNING!!
'tough'
Awesome: 1st trigger out of nowhere. Way to knock the nic bitch out, cut her neck and walk away as she bleeds out!
This is a war. Its not a game and wars are only fought to win. You won this battle. You have allies and support too.
Keep it up but doesn't the victory feel incredible?
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So I was feeling pretty cocky yesterday. No major craves. Smokey mountain working like a charm.
Feeling good. I got this. Day three in the books. Staying up to midnight so I can post roll first... Excited to be on day 4 nic free. I got this.
Holy fuck. I got punched in the teeth this morning.
Taking my son to school. Get home find two cans in the car. Brand new. Still in packaging.
I think oh shit I thought I threw it all away. Fuck.
Pick it up... I gotta throw this away...literally twirling it in my fingers. Goddamn I didn't expect this. I really am a fucking addict.
I plug my nose cause I don't want to smell it... Open and into the toilet it goes.
I watch it go and I'm like staring at it. Missing it. Wanting it.
Fuck you bitch. You almost got me but you forgot....I quit.
Hell yes WINNING!!
'tough'
Awesome: 1st trigger out of nowhere. Way to knock the nic bitch out, cut her neck and walk away as she bleeds out!
This is a war. Its not a game and wars are only fought to win. You won this battle. You have allies and support too.
Keep it up but doesn't the victory feel incredible?
Kill that nic bitch, devil. We're all proud of you, many would have given up in that situation!
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So I was feeling pretty cocky yesterday. No major craves. Smokey mountain working like a charm.
Feeling good. I got this. Day three in the books. Staying up to midnight so I can post roll first... Excited to be on day 4 nic free. I got this.
Holy fuck. I got punched in the teeth this morning.
Taking my son to school. Get home find two cans in the car. Brand new. Still in packaging.
I think oh shit I thought I threw it all away. Fuck.
Pick it up... I gotta throw this away...literally twirling it in my fingers. Goddamn I didn't expect this. I really am a fucking addict.
I plug my nose cause I don't want to smell it... Open and into the toilet it goes.
I watch it go and I'm like staring at it. Missing it. Wanting it.
Fuck you bitch. You almost got me but you forgot....I quit.
Hell yes WINNING!!
'tough'
Awesome: 1st trigger out of nowhere. Way to knock the nic bitch out, cut her neck and walk away as she bleeds out!
This is a war. Its not a game and wars are only fought to win. You won this battle. You have allies and support too.
Keep it up but doesn't the victory feel incredible?
Kill that nic bitch, devil. We're all proud of you, many would have given up in that situation!
That's a heck of a victory- way to stare that bitch down and chase her sorry ass out of your life! You have a quit going that I'm proud to be supporting! Keep it up! Proud to quit with you Bulldog! PM me if you need another number, I'll be glad to help you any way i can!
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Bulldog, What a win. Great job.
I decided to quit on October 30 the this year. Threw the last can in the trash. Next day I crawled in my truck and there in hiding was 3 unopened cans. I had a big ole dip and loved it but at the same time I hated to still be hooked. I probably had 3 to 5 dips that day. The next day, Halloween., I mixed the last two cans with some good tequila and over a period of 20 minutes I swallowed all that shit. I puked for two days. I will never forget that pain. I puked while eating it, puked afterwards, and still want to puke thinking about it.
What I'm trying to say is you are way tougher than me. You had unopened cans and you tossed it. Awesome, that's a Will power I didn't have. Keep it up.
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So I was feeling pretty cocky yesterday. No major craves. Smokey mountain working like a charm.
Feeling good. I got this. Day three in the books. Staying up to midnight so I can post roll first... Excited to be on day 4 nic free. I got this.
Holy fuck. I got punched in the teeth this morning.
Taking my son to school. Get home find two cans in the car. Brand new. Still in packaging.
I think oh shit I thought I threw it all away. Fuck.
Pick it up... I gotta throw this away...literally twirling it in my fingers. Goddamn I didn't expect this. I really am a fucking addict.
I plug my nose cause I don't want to smell it... Open and into the toilet it goes.
I watch it go and I'm like staring at it. Missing it. Wanting it.
Fuck you bitch. You almost got me but you forgot....I quit.
Hell yes WINNING!!
'tough'
Awesome: 1st trigger out of nowhere. Way to knock the nic bitch out, cut her neck and walk away as she bleeds out!
This is a war. Its not a game and wars are only fought to win. You won this battle. You have allies and support too.
Keep it up but doesn't the victory feel incredible?
Kill that nic bitch, devil. We're all proud of you, many would have given up in that situation!
That's a heck of a victory- way to stare that bitch down and chase her sorry ass out of your life! You have a quit going that I'm proud to be supporting! Keep it up! Proud to quit with you Bulldog! PM me if you need another number, I'll be glad to help you any way i can!
Last time I will use this story. A couple of weeks into the old quit, I was riding my bike one day and there it was a can of skoal fine cut(my poison) in the road. I rode out about 8 miles and yeah, thought about that damn can the whole way. Came back, passed it again, picked it up, shaked it to see if there was any in it, there was. Dropped it on the street and came back around and killed it with the front tire.... DAMN!!! Rode off laughing at myself... Killer resolve man! I'd say he's got this mogul!
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I agree. He has this by the ball. Sometimes you just know when a quit is a quit. To all of you reading and wondering what it takes, it takes whatever it is to change YOUR mind into not dipping. We all are different but at the same time we all have to make the decision.
Some days I'm pissed at the man who sells it, some days I celebrate the fact that my wife is proud of me, some days I just like to stand in the 7/11 and tell that nice Indian dude, fuck no, I don't want a can. It just depends.
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I agree. He has this by the ball. Sometimes you just know when a quit is a quit. To all of you reading and wondering what it takes, it takes whatever it is to change YOUR mind into not dipping. We all are different but at the same time we all have to make the decision.
Some days I'm pissed at the man who sells it, some days I celebrate the fact that my wife is proud of me, some days I just like to stand in the 7/11 and tell that nice Indian dude, fuck no, I don't want a can. It just depends.
Mogul dude you're a fucking riot. I'm reading your comment:
"Some days I'm pissed at the man who sells it, some days I celebrate the fact that my wife is proud of me, some days I just like to stand in the 7/11 and tell that nice Indian dude, fuck no, I don't want a can. It just depends."
at work and I bust out laughing. Everyone's looking at me like I have a second screw loose... Cause I kinda already had one loose. Now they might be getting a tad bit worried. Ah well fuck it that was funny shit man.
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Hey Bulldog. Congrats on day 7. That is huge! Proud to be quit with you today. Let's conquer this thing together, one day at a time.
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The fog has apparently set in hard today. I drove off to church today and left my ipad on the roof of the car. Still missing.
Fuck.
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The fog has apparently set in hard today. I drove off to church today and left my ipad on the roof of the car. Still missing.
Fuck.
Damn, I remember those days. Absentmindedness, cant string 2 rational thoughts together, how the hell am I gonna get thru it kind of days. I remember that well. You will do it. It will be worth it. Congrats on winning today. Missing I-pad and all. You will laugh at this someday, I promise.
Ryan
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The fog has apparently set in hard today. I drove off to church today and left my ipad on the roof of the car. Still missing.
Fuck.
Damn, I remember those days. Absentmindedness, cant string 2 rational thoughts together, how the hell am I gonna get thru it kind of days. I remember that well. You will do it. It will be worth it. Congrats on winning today. Missing I-pad and all. You will laugh at this someday, I promise.
Ryan
You can replace a lost Ipad, but it is very hard to replace a lower jaw or part of your esophagus...
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The fog has apparently set in hard today. I drove off to church today and left my ipad on the roof of the car. Still missing.
Fuck.
Damn, I remember those days. Absentmindedness, cant string 2 rational thoughts together, how the hell am I gonna get thru it kind of days. I remember that well. You will do it. It will be worth it. Congrats on winning today. Missing I-pad and all. You will laugh at this someday, I promise.
Ryan
You can replace a lost Ipad, but it is very hard to replace a lower jaw or part of your esophagus...
Just venting b-lo. Not threatening to run back to the nice bitch. I just can't believe I was absentminded enough to drive off with the iPad on the roof.
I love that thing man.
It must be the fog cause I babied that thing.
I'm still pissed.
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The fog has apparently set in hard today. I drove off to church today and left my ipad on the roof of the car. Still missing.
Fuck.
Damn, I remember those days. Absentmindedness, cant string 2 rational thoughts together, how the hell am I gonna get thru it kind of days. I remember that well. You will do it. It will be worth it. Congrats on winning today. Missing I-pad and all. You will laugh at this someday, I promise.
Ryan
You can replace a lost Ipad, but it is very hard to replace a lower jaw or part of your esophagus...
Just venting b-lo. Not threatening to run back to the nice bitch. I just can't believe I was absentminded enough to drive off with the iPad on the roof.
I love that thing man.
It must be the fog cause I babied that thing.
I'm still pissed.
8 days is some good quittin. Nice attitude bulldog. Sucks you lost the iPad. I lost my iPhone about a year ago and I know that sucked. Key is you are staying locked on ur quit. Keep at it bro! Quit with you all day long.
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So lethargic and tired today. I can't tell you what I've done. I know I took a nap. Can't concentrate. Can't focus. Weird tho zero cravings. Just tired.
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So lethargic and tired today. I can't tell you what I've done. I know I took a nap. Can't concentrate. Can't focus. Weird tho zero cravings. Just tired.
Turn your foglights on, keep your guard up and be prepared for the Nic Bitch to sneak up on you...then kick her in the throat and release some frustration.
I know you have heard the phrase "it is going to suck until it doesn't", well my friend you are still in that early stage where some days are OF and some just plain suck.
At least you can smile knowing that you are winning.
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So lethargic and tired today. I can't tell you what I've done. I know I took a nap. Can't concentrate. Can't focus. Weird tho zero cravings. Just tired.
Turn your foglights on, keep your guard up and be prepared for the Nic Bitch to sneak up on you...then kick her in the throat and release some frustration.
I know you have heard the phrase "it is going to suck until it doesn't", well my friend you are still in that early stage where some days are OF and some just plain suck.
At least you can smile knowing that you are winning.
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Bulldog, If you can at all, embrace the suck and the fog. Remember that movie, OH SHit, what was the name, OH YEAH, YOUNG GUNS when they were high on the Peyote, and one saw the size of that damn cock a doodle doo? well, that is what the fog is like. Just remember they can't kill you because your invisible. OK, are we on the same page now??
Embrace it, laugh at it, tell everyone else you would come out and play if they didn't mind your soiled underwear. They will leave you alone after that. You get sleepy, sleep. You get horny, rub one out. you get hungry, eat. you get the point. This is your time to quit. Everybody else can wait. You will be soooo much better to them than you ever were if they will be patient and support you.
I got your back. Mogul
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Today is day 17 for me. What a day. Best friend lives a few states away. He and I have known one another since 1990 when I got stationed on Guam in the Marines. I knew he put a lip in every once in while. Usually bummed one off me. Maybe once a week. Once every two weeks.
I didn't know it was still going on.
I told him I was quitting. I told him about the site. He's been checking in on me every few days. Offered to buy me smokey mountain on day 2 and overnight it to me when I was panicking a little. He's just. One of the good guys.
This morning he called me and told me he was chewing. About 1 can every three days. Now that Might not sound like much but if it's regular he's addicted. Quantity doesn't matter if she has her hooks in you.
My heart dropped. I couldn't believe it. My best friends life was in danger.
He asked for the website address and I gave it to him.
He texted me later. He dumped his half a can and registered for the site.
He's day one.
Hot damn!!!
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Today is day 17 for me. What a day. Best friend lives a few states away. He and I have known one another since 1990 when I got stationed on Guam in the Marines. I knew he put a lip in every once in while. Usually bummed one off me. Maybe once a week. Once every two weeks.
I didn't know it was still going on.
I told him I was quitting. I told him about the site. He's been checking in on me every few days. Offered to buy me smokey mountain on day 2 and overnight it to me when I was panicking a little. He's just. One of the good guys.
This morning he called me and told me he was chewing. About 1 can every three days. Now that Might not sound like much but if it's regular he's addicted. Quantity doesn't matter if she has her hooks in you.
My heart dropped. I couldn't believe it. My best friends life was in danger.
He asked for the website address and I gave it to him.
He texted me later. He dumped his half a can and registered for the site.
He's day one.
Hot damn!!!
That's great bulldog. About your friend and your 17 days of quit. Some people come to pretend. Some people come to act. Some people come to just plain quit. Glad to be quit with you.
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Just kind of an update for me to look back on someday. Today is day 29. I am super stoked to post roll tomorrow. Tomorrow is officially one month free of nicotine. I didnt believe it was possible based on my past experience.
The last few days have been rough. Christmas. Busy time at work. Boss visits. Been crazy. We are building a house and moving in in just 6 weeks now. Just crazy.
Yesterday I wanted a dip so bad. I dont have dip dreams. I dont have sweats. I use smokey mountain to help me. Well yesterday it tasted like poop. I wanted a real chew bad. I didnt. I handled it but man. To be this far a long and still wanting it was frustrating. Why cant I just put it away? Oh yeah cause I am an addict. I wish i could go back to 20 year old me and kick the fuck outta him. I really do.
23 year dipper and now one month free. unreal.
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Just kind of an update for me to look back on someday. Today is day 29. I am super stoked to post roll tomorrow. Tomorrow is officially one month free of nicotine. I didnt believe it was possible based on my past experience.
The last few days have been rough. Christmas. Busy time at work. Boss visits. Been crazy. We are building a house and moving in in just 6 weeks now. Just crazy.
Yesterday I wanted a dip so bad. I dont have dip dreams. I dont have sweats. I use smokey mountain to help me. Well yesterday it tasted like poop. I wanted a real chew bad. I didnt. I handled it but man. To be this far a long and still wanting it was frustrating. Why cant I just put it away? Oh yeah cause I am an addict. I wish i could go back to 20 year old me and kick the fuck outta him. I really do.
23 year dipper and now one month free. unreal.
Nice job Bulldog. Keep quittin bro.
One recommendation.... Don't worry about the past and why you started... don't matter one bit. That was a difficult thing for me during my first 30 days... both thinking about the past worries about staying quit the future. We don't control either. Once I got that thru my thick skull my views began to really change.
ODAAT. Only worry about today. We quit for 1 day for a reason -- we control our actions today. We control whether we stuff our face with the evil weed. We control our actions in this moment.
Proud to be quit with you today!
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I've really taken this whole process seriously. I'm on day 36 today. I've just in the last few days really begun thinking about paying it back.
The folks on this website are saving lives every day. I posted on my Facebook account yesterday about the fact that I quit chewing and how big a part KTC has been in that. Didn't really expect anything to come of it.
Today at work out if the blue a co worker comes up to me. He says, "I wanted to thank you for telling me that you were quitting chew. I really listened to what you had to say and I threw my cigarettes away that night. I'm 6 days quit. ".
My flippin jaw hit the floor. I am trying to make sure I have a network to hold me accountable but even that is helping to get people off this poison.
Really impacted me that he chose to quit. I think everyone knows this shit is bad news. They just don't have faith in their own strength to get them free. KTC and the network of support help bring that strength out in the most remarkable ways.
To all the veteran members out there who stay online and support us new quitters...thank you. I found out today why you hang around. It's a heck of thing to help support someone else quit.
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I've really taken this whole process seriously. I'm on day 36 today. I've just in the last few days really begun thinking about paying it back.
The folks on this website are saving lives every day. I posted on my Facebook account yesterday about the fact that I quit chewing and how big a part KTC has been in that. Didn't really expect anything to come of it.
Today at work out if the blue a co worker comes up to me. He says, "I wanted to thank you for telling me that you were quitting chew. I really listened to what you had to say and I threw my cigarettes away that night. I'm 6 days quit. ".
My flippin jaw hit the floor. I am trying to make sure I have a network to hold me accountable but even that is helping to get people off this poison.
Really impacted me that he chose to quit. I think everyone knows this shit is bad news. They just don't have faith in their own strength to get them free. KTC and the network of support help bring that strength out in the most remarkable ways.
To all the veteran members out there who stay online and support us new quitters...thank you. I found out today why you hang around. It's a heck of thing to help support someone else quit.
Right on Bulldog! You are killing this. I don't know but maybe a vet could chime in on this but couldn't Bulldogs friend join KTC? Or is it only for quitting dip? I think I remember reading something somewhere where all Nic quitters were welcome. If so, get him in here Bulldog! Good job man.
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Kind of a journal entry for me here. Big day. 60 days. There was a time I couldn't even wrap my brain around this number. One day at a time.
The last two weeks have been shitty. Work. Wife. Mortgage loan. Wells Fargo. Moving. House inspections. Shit we didn't order getting down to the house. Mom going down with kidney stones. Dad diagnosed with prostrate cancer. Shit. My left eye is literally twitching.
On top of that I quit chewing. The biggest surprise isn't that I've been strong enough to deal with it. It's been how much I've had to relearn about coping with stress. I didn't realize what a sneaky crutch that poison was. It has you convinced you can't do anything without it. And I believed it.
So happy I'm done. So happy for the people here who I know have my back.
I've been so out of it. I saw the string on neon panther yesterday. Man what a kick in the nads. To be honest I'm glad I didn't see it last week.
Big shout out to my texting group. You guys flippin rock.
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Kind of a journal entry for me here. Big day. 60 days. There was a time I couldn't even wrap my brain around this number. One day at a time.
The last two weeks have been shitty. Work. Wife. Mortgage loan. Wells Fargo. Moving. House inspections. Shit we didn't order getting down to the house. Mom going down with kidney stones. Dad diagnosed with prostrate cancer. Shit. My left eye is literally twitching.
On top of that I quit chewing. The biggest surprise isn't that I've been strong enough to deal with it. It's been how much I've had to relearn about coping with stress. I didn't realize what a sneaky crutch that poison was. It has you convinced you can't do anything without it. And I believed it.
So happy I'm done. So happy for the people here who I know have my back.
I've been so out of it. I saw the string on neon panther yesterday. Man what a kick in the nads. To be honest I'm glad I didn't see it last week.
Big shout out to my texting group. You guys flippin rock.
Great post Bulldog. You have a lot of shit going on and are keeping strong. That says a lot about your quit and a lot about you. If you need another phone number send me a private message and I will give you mine. To anybody reading this, please go read the new guys intro. His name is CMoney. That should tell you how crazy nicotine messes with your ability to think logically and it's one goal is to keep you wanting more all the way to the grave.
You, Bulldog, (and all you other quitters here) are winners over nicotine. That by itself is a high hurdle to clear. Throw in LIFE and all the shit going on, your hands are full. You people are fucking amazing to be able to handle all of that. When you look in the mirror, be proud, be strong and know you are staring back at a WINNER.
MOGUL
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Kind of a journal entry for me here. Big day. 60 days. There was a time I couldn't even wrap my brain around this number. One day at a time.
The last two weeks have been shitty. Work. Wife. Mortgage loan. Wells Fargo. Moving. House inspections. Shit we didn't order getting down to the house. Mom going down with kidney stones. Dad diagnosed with prostrate cancer. Shit. My left eye is literally twitching.
On top of that I quit chewing. The biggest surprise isn't that I've been strong enough to deal with it. It's been how much I've had to relearn about coping with stress. I didn't realize what a sneaky crutch that poison was. It has you convinced you can't do anything without it. And I believed it.
So happy I'm done. So happy for the people here who I know have my back.
I've been so out of it. I saw the string on neon panther yesterday. Man what a kick in the nads. To be honest I'm glad I didn't see it last week.
Big shout out to my texting group. You guys flippin rock.
Great post Bulldog. You have a lot of shit going on and are keeping strong. That says a lot about your quit and a lot about you. If you need another phone number send me a private message and I will give you mine. To anybody reading this, please go read the new guys intro. His name is CMoney. That should tell you how crazy nicotine messes with your ability to think logically and it's one goal is to keep you wanting more all the way to the grave.
You, Bulldog, (and all you other quitters here) are winners over nicotine. That by itself is a high hurdle to clear. Throw in LIFE and all the shit going on, your hands are full. You people are fucking amazing to be able to handle all of that. When you look in the mirror, be proud, be strong and know you are staring back at a WINNER.
MOGUL
This is the kind of shit I love reading here. 2 balls to the walls quitters not whineing and moaning becuase of life stuff.(and Bulldog seems to have a really full plate now) Just getting it done. Still praying for your Dad Bulldog.
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Kind of a journal entry for me here. Big day. 60 days. There was a time I couldn't even wrap my brain around this number. One day at a time.
The last two weeks have been shitty. Work. Wife. Mortgage loan. Wells Fargo. Moving. House inspections. Shit we didn't order getting down to the house. Mom going down with kidney stones. Dad diagnosed with prostrate cancer. Shit. My left eye is literally twitching.
On top of that I quit chewing. The biggest surprise isn't that I've been strong enough to deal with it. It's been how much I've had to relearn about coping with stress. I didn't realize what a sneaky crutch that poison was. It has you convinced you can't do anything without it. And I believed it.
So happy I'm done. So happy for the people here who I know have my back.
I've been so out of it. I saw the string on neon panther yesterday. Man what a kick in the nads. To be honest I'm glad I didn't see it last week.
Big shout out to my texting group. You guys flippin rock.
Great post Bulldog. You have a lot of shit going on and are keeping strong. That says a lot about your quit and a lot about you. If you need another phone number send me a private message and I will give you mine. To anybody reading this, please go read the new guys intro. His name is CMoney. That should tell you how crazy nicotine messes with your ability to think logically and it's one goal is to keep you wanting more all the way to the grave.
You, Bulldog, (and all you other quitters here) are winners over nicotine. That by itself is a high hurdle to clear. Throw in LIFE and all the shit going on, your hands are full. You people are fucking amazing to be able to handle all of that. When you look in the mirror, be proud, be strong and know you are staring back at a WINNER.
MOGUL
This is the kind of shit I love reading here. 2 balls to the walls quitters not whineing and moaning becuase of life stuff.(and Bulldog seems to have a really full plate now) Just getting it done. Still praying for your Dad Bulldog.
I love this kind of shit "losers are always talking about winning, while the winners are at home fucking the prom queen.
Bulldog you got this man, 60 days alone is something to be proud of. As you embody, life will happen around your quit, yet your drive and determination or fight will keep your quit while life happens.
Keep on quitting on!
P
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Kind of a journal entry for me here. Big day. 60 days. There was a time I couldn't even wrap my brain around this number. One day at a time.
The last two weeks have been shitty. Work. Wife. Mortgage loan. Wells Fargo. Moving. House inspections. Shit we didn't order getting down to the house. Mom going down with kidney stones. Dad diagnosed with prostrate cancer. Shit. My left eye is literally twitching.
On top of that I quit chewing. The biggest surprise isn't that I've been strong enough to deal with it. It's been how much I've had to relearn about coping with stress. I didn't realize what a sneaky crutch that poison was. It has you convinced you can't do anything without it. And I believed it.
So happy I'm done. So happy for the people here who I know have my back.
I've been so out of it. I saw the string on neon panther yesterday. Man what a kick in the nads. To be honest I'm glad I didn't see it last week.
Big shout out to my texting group. You guys flippin rock.
Great post Bulldog. You have a lot of shit going on and are keeping strong. That says a lot about your quit and a lot about you. If you need another phone number send me a private message and I will give you mine. To anybody reading this, please go read the new guys intro. His name is CMoney. That should tell you how crazy nicotine messes with your ability to think logically and it's one goal is to keep you wanting more all the way to the grave.
You, Bulldog, (and all you other quitters here) are winners over nicotine. That by itself is a high hurdle to clear. Throw in LIFE and all the shit going on, your hands are full. You people are fucking amazing to be able to handle all of that. When you look in the mirror, be proud, be strong and know you are staring back at a WINNER.
MOGUL
This is the kind of shit I love reading here. 2 balls to the walls quitters not whineing and moaning becuase of life stuff.(and Bulldog seems to have a really full plate now) Just getting it done. Still praying for your Dad Bulldog.
I love this kind of shit "losers are always talking about winning, while the winners are at home fucking the prom queen.
Bulldog you got this man, 60 days alone is something to be proud of. As you embody, life will happen around your quit, yet your drive and determination or fight will keep your quit while life happens.
Keep on quitting on!
P
Proud of you bulldog. 60 days of quit is no joke. Keep doing what your doing. It gets better and better. Quit with you today.
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Kind of a journal entry for me here. Big day. 60 days. There was a time I couldn't even wrap my brain around this number. One day at a time.
The last two weeks have been shitty. Work. Wife. Mortgage loan. Wells Fargo. Moving. House inspections. Shit we didn't order getting down to the house. Mom going down with kidney stones. Dad diagnosed with prostrate cancer. Shit. My left eye is literally twitching.
On top of that I quit chewing. The biggest surprise isn't that I've been strong enough to deal with it. It's been how much I've had to relearn about coping with stress. I didn't realize what a sneaky crutch that poison was. It has you convinced you can't do anything without it. And I believed it.
So happy I'm done. So happy for the people here who I know have my back.
I've been so out of it. I saw the string on neon panther yesterday. Man what a kick in the nads. To be honest I'm glad I didn't see it last week.
Big shout out to my texting group. You guys flippin rock.
Great post Bulldog. You have a lot of shit going on and are keeping strong. That says a lot about your quit and a lot about you. If you need another phone number send me a private message and I will give you mine. To anybody reading this, please go read the new guys intro. His name is CMoney. That should tell you how crazy nicotine messes with your ability to think logically and it's one goal is to keep you wanting more all the way to the grave.
You, Bulldog, (and all you other quitters here) are winners over nicotine. That by itself is a high hurdle to clear. Throw in LIFE and all the shit going on, your hands are full. You people are fucking amazing to be able to handle all of that. When you look in the mirror, be proud, be strong and know you are staring back at a WINNER.
MOGUL
This is the kind of shit I love reading here. 2 balls to the walls quitters not whineing and moaning becuase of life stuff.(and Bulldog seems to have a really full plate now) Just getting it done. Still praying for your Dad Bulldog.
I love this kind of shit "losers are always talking about winning, while the winners are at home fucking the prom queen.
Bulldog you got this man, 60 days alone is something to be proud of. As you embody, life will happen around your quit, yet your drive and determination or fight will keep your quit while life happens.
Keep on quitting on!
P
Proud of you bulldog. 60 days of quit is no joke. Keep doing what your doing. It gets better and better. Quit with you today.
Congrats on 60 Bulldog!
Life will not stop happening as we quit and sh#t will always happen. You don't need the poison to get thru it. You are winning this battle today!
Well done! Quit on!
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Kind of a journal entry for me here. Big day. 60 days. There was a time I couldn't even wrap my brain around this number. One day at a time.
The last two weeks have been shitty. Work. Wife. Mortgage loan. Wells Fargo. Moving. House inspections. Shit we didn't order getting down to the house. Mom going down with kidney stones. Dad diagnosed with prostrate cancer. Shit. My left eye is literally twitching.
On top of that I quit chewing. The biggest surprise isn't that I've been strong enough to deal with it. It's been how much I've had to relearn about coping with stress. I didn't realize what a sneaky crutch that poison was. It has you convinced you can't do anything without it. And I believed it.
So happy I'm done. So happy for the people here who I know have my back.
I've been so out of it. I saw the string on neon panther yesterday. Man what a kick in the nads. To be honest I'm glad I didn't see it last week.
Big shout out to my texting group. You guys flippin rock.
Great post Bulldog. You have a lot of shit going on and are keeping strong. That says a lot about your quit and a lot about you. If you need another phone number send me a private message and I will give you mine. To anybody reading this, please go read the new guys intro. His name is CMoney. That should tell you how crazy nicotine messes with your ability to think logically and it's one goal is to keep you wanting more all the way to the grave.
You, Bulldog, (and all you other quitters here) are winners over nicotine. That by itself is a high hurdle to clear. Throw in LIFE and all the shit going on, your hands are full. You people are fucking amazing to be able to handle all of that. When you look in the mirror, be proud, be strong and know you are staring back at a WINNER.
MOGUL
This is the kind of shit I love reading here. 2 balls to the walls quitters not whineing and moaning becuase of life stuff.(and Bulldog seems to have a really full plate now) Just getting it done. Still praying for your Dad Bulldog.
I love this kind of shit "losers are always talking about winning, while the winners are at home fucking the prom queen.
Bulldog you got this man, 60 days alone is something to be proud of. As you embody, life will happen around your quit, yet your drive and determination or fight will keep your quit while life happens.
Keep on quitting on!
P
Proud of you bulldog. 60 days of quit is no joke. Keep doing what your doing. It gets better and better. Quit with you today.
Congrats on 60 Bulldog!
Life will not stop happening as we quit and sh#t will always happen. You don't need the poison to get thru it. You are winning this battle today!
Well done! Quit on!
Keep it going Bulldog- great job getting to 60, and hang in there through the hard times. Something that has helped me get through some tough times so far has been to realize that each challenge I make it through is one less I'll have to beat in the future as I reprogram my recovering brain. So the more work = more reward. Quitting with you bro.
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Kind of a journal entry for me here. Big day. 60 days. There was a time I couldn't even wrap my brain around this number. One day at a time.
The last two weeks have been shitty. Work. Wife. Mortgage loan. Wells Fargo. Moving. House inspections. Shit we didn't order getting down to the house. Mom going down with kidney stones. Dad diagnosed with prostrate cancer. Shit. My left eye is literally twitching.
On top of that I quit chewing. The biggest surprise isn't that I've been strong enough to deal with it. It's been how much I've had to relearn about coping with stress. I didn't realize what a sneaky crutch that poison was. It has you convinced you can't do anything without it. And I believed it.
So happy I'm done. So happy for the people here who I know have my back.
I've been so out of it. I saw the string on neon panther yesterday. Man what a kick in the nads. To be honest I'm glad I didn't see it last week.
Big shout out to my texting group. You guys flippin rock.
Great post Bulldog. You have a lot of shit going on and are keeping strong. That says a lot about your quit and a lot about you. If you need another phone number send me a private message and I will give you mine. To anybody reading this, please go read the new guys intro. His name is CMoney. That should tell you how crazy nicotine messes with your ability to think logically and it's one goal is to keep you wanting more all the way to the grave.
You, Bulldog, (and all you other quitters here) are winners over nicotine. That by itself is a high hurdle to clear. Throw in LIFE and all the shit going on, your hands are full. You people are fucking amazing to be able to handle all of that. When you look in the mirror, be proud, be strong and know you are staring back at a WINNER.
MOGUL
This is the kind of shit I love reading here. 2 balls to the walls quitters not whineing and moaning becuase of life stuff.(and Bulldog seems to have a really full plate now) Just getting it done. Still praying for your Dad Bulldog.
I love this kind of shit "losers are always talking about winning, while the winners are at home fucking the prom queen.
Bulldog you got this man, 60 days alone is something to be proud of. As you embody, life will happen around your quit, yet your drive and determination or fight will keep your quit while life happens.
Keep on quitting on!
P
Proud of you bulldog. 60 days of quit is no joke. Keep doing what your doing. It gets better and better. Quit with you today.
Congrats on 60 Bulldog!
Life will not stop happening as we quit and sh#t will always happen. You don't need the poison to get thru it. You are winning this battle today!
Well done! Quit on!
Keep it going Bulldog- great job getting to 60, and hang in there through the hard times. Something that has helped me get through some tough times so far has been to realize that each challenge I make it through is one less I'll have to beat in the future as I reprogram my recovering brain. So the more work = more reward. Quitting with you bro.
Congrats in 60 days!! Now you can tackle your problems instead of putting them off with a mind numbing wad of dog doo doo in your mouth. Rock on!
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Bulldog...Saw your message on roll call. That is great news regarding your father. Sounds like he is in good shape. Excellent.
PB
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Just a journal entry so I can't look back on this from the 15th floor or so.
Dads accepted in the program in Loma Linda. We'll see how he responds in 8 months. Long road ahead.
New house is awesome. Fucking boxes everywhere but they're everywhere in MY home. MINE.
I never want to put up another ceiling fan in my life.
I'm two weeks from the hall. I know we rot his one day at a time but I'm fucking proud. I've been looking forward to hitting that for a long time. I didn't think I could do it.
It's really cool seeing guys that came in here after me, guys I spoke to or really spent time reading up on, reaching out to the new guys. It's a formula for success and creates a cycle of accountability. Really cool to see.
I am so glad I found this website.
I am Iron Man. ;Ironman:
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Just a journal entry so I can't look back on this from the 15th floor or so.
Dads accepted in the program in Loma Linda. We'll see how he responds in 8 months. Long road ahead.
New house is awesome. Fucking boxes everywhere but they're everywhere in MY home. MINE.
I never want to put up another ceiling fan in my life.
I'm two weeks from the hall. I know we rot his one day at a time but I'm fucking proud. I've been looking forward to hitting that for a long time. I didn't think I could do it.
It's really cool seeing guys that came in here after me, guys I spoke to or really spent time reading up on, reaching out to the new guys. It's a formula for success and creates a cycle of accountability. Really cool to see.
I am so glad I found this website.
I am Iron Man. ;Ironman:
Keep it going brother. It gets better for sure!
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Just a journal entry so I can't look back on this from the 15th floor or so.
Dads accepted in the program in Loma Linda. We'll see how he responds in 8 months. Long road ahead.
New house is awesome. Fucking boxes everywhere but they're everywhere in MY home. MINE.
I never want to put up another ceiling fan in my life.
I'm two weeks from the hall. I know we rot his one day at a time but I'm fucking proud. I've been looking forward to hitting that for a long time. I didn't think I could do it.
It's really cool seeing guys that came in here after me, guys I spoke to or really spent time reading up on, reaching out to the new guys. It's a formula for success and creates a cycle of accountability. Really cool to see.
I am so glad I found this website.
I am Iron Man. ;Ironman:
Keep it going brother. It gets better for sure!
It's worth it, keep on quitting.
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Just a journal entry so I can't look back on this from the 15th floor or so.
Dads accepted in the program in Loma Linda. We'll see how he responds in 8 months. Long road ahead.
New house is awesome. Fucking boxes everywhere but they're everywhere in MY home. MINE.
I never want to put up another ceiling fan in my life.
I'm two weeks from the hall. I know we rot his one day at a time but I'm fucking proud. I've been looking forward to hitting that for a long time. I didn't think I could do it.
It's really cool seeing guys that came in here after me, guys I spoke to or really spent time reading up on, reaching out to the new guys. It's a formula for success and creates a cycle of accountability. Really cool to see.
I am so glad I found this website.
I am Iron Man. ;Ironman:
Keep it going brother. It gets better for sure!
It's worth it, keep on quitting.
You came here to quit and that's exactly what's happenning. Nice! Glad to be your contemporary, although in different months, were about the same time when you consider a lifetime of quit.
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Congratulations Brother! You finally made the train. I know it's been a wild ride since December but you stayed quit. You were steady the whole way.
Just remember this is just the start of many days ahead that you have your life back. Don't let your guard down as the nic bitch likes to throw a few temptations at us from time to time. There are a few of us standing by that will have your six EDD.
Proud of you and proud to be quit with you today Devil Dawg, congratulations and enjoy your day!
Semper Fi!
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Good work Bulldog. Glad you signed up for more. Congrats!
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Great job on the 100 days!!! Enjoy your day, and keep it up!
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Great job on the 100 days!!! Enjoy your day, and keep it up!
Hey bulldog, here you are brother. 100 days, HOF, I knew you would. You just made my quit stronger today because of this. I got one of those proud, crayon eating grins right now. Way to be brother.
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Nice work Bulldog...see you tomorrow for 101
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Congrats Bulldog! If you ever get up towards Gainesville, let me know!
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Congrats brother. Proud to be in your quit group and proud to quit with you.
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Congrats brother. Proud to be in your quit group and proud to quit with you.
Nice work dog! ;)
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I can't believe it. There were some shitty days for sure but I hit 100 today. Quick thanks to The March Iron Men. You guys helped me more than you know. Proud to be quit with you.
Just got back from bible study. Been sharing this experience with them for the last 100 days.
Tonight they each gave me a gift of 100 things. I got
100 jolly ranchers.
100 atomic fireballs
100 pebbles
100 scripture verses of encouragement. Handwritten I might add. Wow.
100 Reece's pieces.
100 Reece cups.
All things that meant something during my first 100 days. It was pretty cool.
This has been a heck of a ride. I am going to take some time and put my hall of fame speech together after some reflection. I'm really excited about having enough credibility to pay it forward like mogul pinched and sand fleas did for me. Thanks guys.
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I can't believe it. There were some shitty days for sure but I hit 100 today. Quick thanks to The March Iron Men. You guys helped me more than you know. Proud to be quit with you.
Just got back from bible study. Been sharing this experience with them for the last 100 days.
Tonight they each gave me a gift of 100 things. I got
100 jolly ranchers.
100 atomic fireballs
100 pebbles
100 scripture verses of encouragement. Handwritten I might add. Wow.
100 Reece's pieces.
100 Reece cups.
All things that meant something during my first 100 days. It was pretty cool.
This has been a heck of a ride. I am going to take some time and put my hall of fame speech together after some reflection. I'm really excited about having enough credibility to pay it forward like mogul pinched and sand fleas did for me. Thanks guys.
Congrats brother, 100 days is a great accomplishment, but sharing your 100 day experience with other who are more than likely non addicts is powerful shit man.
P
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I can't believe it. There were some shitty days for sure but I hit 100 today. Quick thanks to The March Iron Men. You guys helped me more than you know. Proud to be quit with you.
Just got back from bible study. Been sharing this experience with them for the last 100 days.
Tonight they each gave me a gift of 100 things. I got
100 jolly ranchers.
100 atomic fireballs
100 pebbles
100 scripture verses of encouragement. Handwritten I might add. Wow.
100 Reece's pieces.
100 Reece cups.
All things that meant something during my first 100 days. It was pretty cool.
This has been a heck of a ride. I am going to take some time and put my hall of fame speech together after some reflection. I'm really excited about having enough credibility to pay it forward like mogul pinched and sand fleas did for me. Thanks guys.
Congrats brother, 100 days is a great accomplishment, but sharing your 100 day experience with other who are more than likely non addicts is powerful shit man.
P
Congrats on HOF. Enjoy your day then come back tomorrow and repeat the steps that got you here.
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Im not one to bust your balls, OK, who am I kidding yes I am. but, 101 is better than 100. stay the course bulldog.
If I can do 130 you can do 300. someday I want to buy you a beer and laugh our asses off.
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I can't believe it. There were some shitty days for sure but I hit 100 today. Quick thanks to The March Iron Men. You guys helped me more than you know. Proud to be quit with you.
Just got back from bible study. Been sharing this experience with them for the last 100 days.
Tonight they each gave me a gift of 100 things. I got
100 jolly ranchers.
100 atomic fireballs
100 pebbles
100 scripture verses of encouragement. Handwritten I might add. Wow.
100 Reece's pieces.
100 Reece cups.
All things that meant something during my first 100 days. It was pretty cool.
This has been a heck of a ride. I am going to take some time and put my hall of fame speech together after some reflection. I'm really excited about having enough credibility to pay it forward like mogul pinched and sand fleas did for me. Thanks guys.
Congrats brother, 100 days is a great accomplishment, but sharing your 100 day experience with other who are more than likely non addicts is powerful shit man.
P
Congrats on HOF. Enjoy your day then come back tomorrow and repeat the steps that got you here.
Congrats!!!
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I can't believe it. There were some shitty days for sure but I hit 100 today. Quick thanks to The March Iron Men. You guys helped me more than you know. Proud to be quit with you.
Just got back from bible study. Been sharing this experience with them for the last 100 days.
Tonight they each gave me a gift of 100 things. I got
100 jolly ranchers.
100 atomic fireballs
100 pebbles
100 scripture verses of encouragement. Handwritten I might add. Wow.
100 Reece's pieces.
100 Reece cups.
All things that meant something during my first 100 days. It was pretty cool.
This has been a heck of a ride. I am going to take some time and put my hall of fame speech together after some reflection. I'm really excited about having enough credibility to pay it forward like mogul pinched and sand fleas did for me. Thanks guys.
Congrats brother, 100 days is a great accomplishment, but sharing your 100 day experience with other who are more than likely non addicts is powerful shit man.
P
Congrats on HOF. Enjoy your day then come back tomorrow and repeat the steps that got you here.
Congrats!!!
That is pretty cool Bulldog. You have a lot of supporters. Proud of you Brother!
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Just adding to my intro so I can look back on this journey someday.
I read my first post. Who is that guy? How did I let that shit take such control and turn me into such a fucking mangina. Man.
I read my 100 day post. I was so excited. I couldn't wait to get there. I was chomping at the bit.
It was really cool but some time has passed and I'm beginning to realize that the goal isn't to get to 100 and the hall of fame. That's just the beginning. Yes I've Heard you all say it. But I'm just getting it.
Here I sit at 150 today. Who would have thought it. My first 50 dragged every day. This last 50 flew by. You know why? I was living life. I was trying to beat an addiction those first days. The last 50 I've been living my life like I should have been the whole time.
So proud of my March 14 Iron Men. You fuckers got balls. Proud to be one of you.
If you are thinking about quitting or in those first few days and weeks I know it sucks. You can do it. You just keep making that promise every day. It's all there is to it but it's everything there is.
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Just adding to my intro so I can look back on this journey someday.
I read my first post. Who is that guy? How did I let that shit take such control and turn me into such a fucking mangina. Man.
I read my 100 day post. I was so excited. I couldn't wait to get there. I was chomping at the bit.
It was really cool but some time has passed and I'm beginning to realize that the goal isn't to get to 100 and the hall of fame. That's just the beginning. Yes I've Heard you all say it. But I'm just getting it.
Here I sit at 150 today. Who would have thought it. My first 50 dragged every day. This last 50 flew by. You know why? I was living life. I was trying to beat an addiction those first days. The last 50 I've been living my life like I should have been the whole time.
So proud of my March 14 Iron Men. You fuckers got balls. Proud to be one of you.
If you are thinking about quitting or in those first few days and weeks I know it sucks. You can do it. You just keep making that promise every day. It's all there is to it but it's everything there is.
Hey it's great to see your quit-monster tail on here. Thanks for the update!
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Just adding to my intro so I can look back on this journey someday.
I read my first post. Who is that guy? How did I let that shit take such control and turn me into such a fucking mangina. Man.
I read my 100 day post. I was so excited. I couldn't wait to get there. I was chomping at the bit.
It was really cool but some time has passed and I'm beginning to realize that the goal isn't to get to 100 and the hall of fame. That's just the beginning. Yes I've Heard you all say it. But I'm just getting it.
Here I sit at 150 today. Who would have thought it. My first 50 dragged every day. This last 50 flew by. You know why? I was living life. I was trying to beat an addiction those first days. The last 50 I've been living my life like I should have been the whole time.
So proud of my March 14 Iron Men. You fuckers got balls. Proud to be one of you.
If you are thinking about quitting or in those first few days and weeks I know it sucks. You can do it. You just keep making that promise every day. It's all there is to it but it's everything there is.
Hey it's great to see your quit-monster tail on here. Thanks for the update!
That's a Damn good read bulldog! Living life clean. Beautiful! That's what this is all about. As a fellow iron man I am glad you are here.
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Just adding to my intro so I can look back on this journey someday.
I read my first post. Who is that guy? How did I let that shit take such control and turn me into such a fucking mangina. Man.
I read my 100 day post. I was so excited. I couldn't wait to get there. I was chomping at the bit.
It was really cool but some time has passed and I'm beginning to realize that the goal isn't to get to 100 and the hall of fame. That's just the beginning. Yes I've Heard you all say it. But I'm just getting it.
Here I sit at 150 today. Who would have thought it. My first 50 dragged every day. This last 50 flew by. You know why? I was living life. I was trying to beat an addiction those first days. The last 50 I've been living my life like I should have been the whole time.
So proud of my March 14 Iron Men. You fuckers got balls. Proud to be one of you.
If you are thinking about quitting or in those first few days and weeks I know it sucks. You can do it. You just keep making that promise every day. It's all there is to it but it's everything there is.
Hey it's great to see your quit-monster tail on here. Thanks for the update!
That's a Damn good read bulldog! Living life clean. Beautiful! That's what this is all about. As a fellow iron man I am glad you are here.
that's the good shit I'm talking about!!!! Proud to be quit with you today!!!
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Badass, made it to 200 days stacked up, one at a time! Way to go brother
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Badass, made it to 200 days stacked up, one at a time! Way to go brother
Way to be Bulldog! Congrats on 200. See you tomorrow!
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Badass, made it to 200 days stacked up, one at a time! Way to go brother
Way to be Bulldog! Congrats on 200. See you tomorrow!
Like I told you earlier, the view keeps getting better and better all the time. You drank the Kool-Aid and look what happened. Have continued faith that it will continue to get even better. Proud of you brother!
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Badass, made it to 200 days stacked up, one at a time! Way to go brother
Way to be Bulldog! Congrats on 200. See you tomorrow!
Like I told you earlier, the view keeps getting better and better all the time. You drank the Kool-Aid and look what happened. Have continued faith that it will continue to get even better. Proud of you brother!
Way to be Bulldog!
Glad to quit with you!
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Badass, made it to 200 days stacked up, one at a time! Way to go brother
Way to be Bulldog! Congrats on 200. See you tomorrow!
Like I told you earlier, the view keeps getting better and better all the time. You drank the Kool-Aid and look what happened. Have continued faith that it will continue to get even better. Proud of you brother!
Way to be Bulldog!
Glad to quit with you!
nicely done Bulldog
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So as typical i occasionally use this as a journal of my experience quitting. I'm at day 213 today. There have been ups and downs. Craves and easy days. Yesterday was a bad crave day. I wanted a chew all day long. No reason. No stress. No wife fights. Just a bad crave. I powered through. Interesting reminder today.
I'm sick. Sore throat. Feel tired. Weak.
I remember putting a chew in with a sore throat in the old days. It burned. It was uncomfortable but I did it anyway "because it made me feel better." What a fucking addict.
I'm so happy I don't have to deal with that shit anymore. I can just be sick. I don't have to make my sore throat worse by putting poison in it.
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So as typical i occasionally use this as a journal of my experience quitting. I'm at day 213 today. There have been ups and downs. Craves and easy days. Yesterday was a bad crave day. I wanted a chew all day long. No reason. No stress. No wife fights. Just a bad crave. I powered through. Interesting reminder today.
I'm sick. Sore throat. Feel tired. Weak.
I remember putting a chew in with a sore throat in the old days. It burned. It was uncomfortable but I did it anyway "because it made me feel better." What a fucking addict.
I'm so happy I don't have to deal with that shit anymore. I can just be sick. I don't have to make my sore throat worse by putting poison in it.
I did this so many times as well.... I didn't want a dip and had a terrible sore throat... used to throw one in anyways. Funny to see how dumb our old way of thinking used to be. Way to be quit!
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So as typical i occasionally use this as a journal of my experience quitting. I'm at day 213 today. There have been ups and downs. Craves and easy days. Yesterday was a bad crave day. I wanted a chew all day long. No reason. No stress. No wife fights. Just a bad crave. I powered through. Interesting reminder today.
I'm sick. Sore throat. Feel tired. Weak.
I remember putting a chew in with a sore throat in the old days. It burned. It was uncomfortable but I did it anyway "because it made me feel better." What a fucking addict.
I'm so happy I don't have to deal with that shit anymore. I can just be sick. I don't have to make my sore throat worse by putting poison in it.
I did this so many times as well.... I didn't want a dip and had a terrible sore throat... used to throw one in anyways. Funny to see how dumb our old way of thinking used to be. Way to be quit!
Your quit, like life will have it's up and downs. You've learned how to deal with your craves and you will continue to learn. Lean on your quit brothers hard, they'll understand, they'll be there for you. Good job on day 213, that's some rock solid quit right there boy. Don't forget why you came here in the first place.
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So as typical i occasionally use this as a journal of my experience quitting. I'm at day 213 today. There have been ups and downs. Craves and easy days. Yesterday was a bad crave day. I wanted a chew all day long. No reason. No stress. No wife fights. Just a bad crave. I powered through. Interesting reminder today.
I'm sick. Sore throat. Feel tired. Weak.
I remember putting a chew in with a sore throat in the old days. It burned. It was uncomfortable but I did it anyway "because it made me feel better." What a fucking addict.
I'm so happy I don't have to deal with that shit anymore. I can just be sick. I don't have to make my sore throat worse by putting poison in it.
I did this so many times as well.... I didn't want a dip and had a terrible sore throat... used to throw one in anyways. Funny to see how dumb our old way of thinking used to be. Way to be quit!
Your quit, like life will have it's up and downs. You've learned how to deal with your craves and you will continue to learn. Lean on your quit brothers hard, they'll understand, they'll be there for you. Good job on day 213, that's some rock solid quit right there boy. Don't forget why you came here in the first place.
We did some stupid shit back then Bulldog. My wife was livid when I had the stomach flu and would keep dipping. One of the best things about quitting is hope simple life is now without planning everything around our next fix. Proud to be quit with you man. Feel better!
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So as typical i occasionally use this as a journal of my experience quitting. I'm at day 213 today. There have been ups and downs. Craves and easy days. Yesterday was a bad crave day. I wanted a chew all day long. No reason. No stress. No wife fights. Just a bad crave. I powered through. Interesting reminder today.
I'm sick. Sore throat. Feel tired. Weak.
I remember putting a chew in with a sore throat in the old days. It burned. It was uncomfortable but I did it anyway "because it made me feel better." What a fucking addict.
I'm so happy I don't have to deal with that shit anymore. I can just be sick. I don't have to make my sore throat worse by putting poison in it.
I did this so many times as well.... I didn't want a dip and had a terrible sore throat... used to throw one in anyways. Funny to see how dumb our old way of thinking used to be. Way to be quit!
Your quit, like life will have it's up and downs. You've learned how to deal with your craves and you will continue to learn. Lean on your quit brothers hard, they'll understand, they'll be there for you. Good job on day 213, that's some rock solid quit right there boy. Don't forget why you came here in the first place.
We did some stupid shit back then Bulldog. My wife was livid when I had the stomach flu and would keep dipping. One of the best things about quitting is hope simple life is now without planning everything around our next fix. Proud to be quit with you man. Feel better!
Goo job and thanks for sharing.
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Adding a recent and current experience to the "journal" I'm keeping here. I'm at 220 days today.
I spent the first three days of my quit on Tylenol pm. I used jolly ranchers and atomic fireballs. Then I heard about the fake chew. I latched on to it like a drowning man. I have been unilaterally supportive of using the fake stuff since the beginning.
I'm not so much anymore.
I'm now going on two days without it and I'm finding that there is a severe psychological dependency that isn't broken until you stop putting shit in your lip. I'm anxious. I have chewed my lip raw. I have anxiety. I want that fake chew. I recognize these symptoms. I remember them from the nicotine part of this addiction. I feel like I am not free of this shit. Yes I'm nic free but the psychological hold the "lip" has is still there. I'm fighting it right now. This second. Right as I'm typing this.
It's frustrating. I'm disheartened. I feel like I'm in week one again.
I'm going to buy some seeds today.
I thought I was past this.
Well...I'm going to be. You can bet your ass. I'm not letting this shit, fake or not, control me one second longer.
I'm turning that frustration into anger and I refuse to allow that shit any toehold on my heart mind and soul.
If you are new here, just quitting and holding on to the fake stuff I'm going on record as saying its a bad idea. Don't go through the bullshit all over again. Rip the bandaid off in one shot.
Keep no crutches.
That's really what the fake stuff is. It's a crutch. I regret using it based on what I'm feeling right now.
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Adding a recent and current experience to the "journal" I'm keeping here. I'm at 220 days today.
I spent the first three days of my quit on Tylenol pm. I used jolly ranchers and atomic fireballs. Then I heard about the fake chew. I latched on to it like a drowning man. I have been unilaterally supportive of using the fake stuff since the beginning.
I'm not so much anymore.
I'm now going on two days without it and I'm finding that there is a severe psychological dependency that isn't broken until you stop putting shit in your lip. I'm anxious. I have chewed my lip raw. I have anxiety. I want that fake chew. I recognize these symptoms. I remember them from the nicotine part of this addiction. I feel like I am not free of this shit. Yes I'm nic free but the psychological hold the "lip" has is still there. I'm fighting it right now. This second. Right as I'm typing this.
It's frustrating. I'm disheartened. I feel like I'm in week one again.
I'm going to buy some seeds today.
I thought I was past this.
Well...I'm going to be. You can bet your ass. I'm not letting this shit, fake or not, control me one second longer.
I'm turning that frustration into anger and I refuse to allow that shit any toehold on my heart mind and soul.
If you are new here, just quitting and holding on to the fake stuff I'm going on record as saying its a bad idea. Don't go through the bullshit all over again. Rip the bandaid off in one shot.
Keep no crutches.
That's really what the fake stuff is. It's a crutch. I regret using it based on what I'm feeling right now.
Sorry to hear that you're going through this. But super pumped for 2 reason:
1) You're recognizing what you're going through and not chalking it up to "I want dip". You realize that you want the "act" of dipping which is very different.
2) You're recording it. This is super important too and adds a ton of value here. I personally never had a hard time putting down the fake (at around day 220 or so if I remember correctly) but I know that my experience isn't necessarily that of everyone.
That being said... I do find it ironic that you're having these issues at day 220. I had a REALLY rough stretch right around there as well. Call it a 200+ day funk of sorts. Seems you may be getting hit with a similar situation.
The good news (if there is any) is that if your quit follows the same trajectory as mine, you're in for hundreds and hundreds of days of smooth sailing after a few more days of funk.
Rock on!
chewie
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Adding a recent and current experience to the "journal" I'm keeping here. I'm at 220 days today.
I spent the first three days of my quit on Tylenol pm. I used jolly ranchers and atomic fireballs. Then I heard about the fake chew. I latched on to it like a drowning man. I have been unilaterally supportive of using the fake stuff since the beginning.
I'm not so much anymore.
I'm now going on two days without it and I'm finding that there is a severe psychological dependency that isn't broken until you stop putting shit in your lip. I'm anxious. I have chewed my lip raw. I have anxiety. I want that fake chew. I recognize these symptoms. I remember them from the nicotine part of this addiction. I feel like I am not free of this shit. Yes I'm nic free but the psychological hold the "lip" has is still there. I'm fighting it right now. This second. Right as I'm typing this.
It's frustrating. I'm disheartened. I feel like I'm in week one again.
I'm going to buy some seeds today.
I thought I was past this.
Well...I'm going to be. You can bet your ass. I'm not letting this shit, fake or not, control me one second longer.
I'm turning that frustration into anger and I refuse to allow that shit any toehold on my heart mind and soul.
If you are new here, just quitting and holding on to the fake stuff I'm going on record as saying its a bad idea. Don't go through the bullshit all over again. Rip the bandaid off in one shot.
Keep no crutches.
That's really what the fake stuff is. It's a crutch. I regret using it based on what I'm feeling right now.
Sorry to hear that you're going through this. But super pumped for 2 reason:
1) You're recognizing what you're going through and not chalking it up to "I want dip". You realize that you want the "act" of dipping which is very different.
2) You're recording it. This is super important too and adds a ton of value here. I personally never had a hard time putting down the fake (at around day 220 or so if I remember correctly) but I know that my experience isn't necessarily that of everyone.
That being said... I do find it ironic that you're having these issues at day 220. I had a REALLY rough stretch right around there as well. Call it a 200+ day funk of sorts. Seems you may be getting hit with a similar situation.
The good news (if there is any) is that if your quit follows the same trajectory as mine, you're in for hundreds and hundreds of days of smooth sailing after a few more days of funk.
Rock on!
chewie
Hey Bulldog, Chewie might be onto something . I never used the fake but I am going thru a funky time right now too. I know we will get thru this but it does suck when it sneaks up on you after feeling so good for quite awhile. You got this. We are definitely not alone.
Jerry 229
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Adding a recent and current experience to the "journal" I'm keeping here. I'm at 220 days today.
I spent the first three days of my quit on Tylenol pm. I used jolly ranchers and atomic fireballs. Then I heard about the fake chew. I latched on to it like a drowning man. I have been unilaterally supportive of using the fake stuff since the beginning.
I'm not so much anymore.
I'm now going on two days without it and I'm finding that there is a severe psychological dependency that isn't broken until you stop putting shit in your lip. I'm anxious. I have chewed my lip raw. I have anxiety. I want that fake chew. I recognize these symptoms. I remember them from the nicotine part of this addiction. I feel like I am not free of this shit. Yes I'm nic free but the psychological hold the "lip" has is still there. I'm fighting it right now. This second. Right as I'm typing this.
It's frustrating. I'm disheartened. I feel like I'm in week one again.
I'm going to buy some seeds today.
I thought I was past this.
Well...I'm going to be. You can bet your ass. I'm not letting this shit, fake or not, control me one second longer.
I'm turning that frustration into anger and I refuse to allow that shit any toehold on my heart mind and soul.
If you are new here, just quitting and holding on to the fake stuff I'm going on record as saying its a bad idea. Don't go through the bullshit all over again. Rip the bandaid off in one shot.
Keep no crutches.
That's really what the fake stuff is. It's a crutch. I regret using it based on what I'm feeling right now.
Sorry to hear that you're going through this. But super pumped for 2 reason:
1) You're recognizing what you're going through and not chalking it up to "I want dip". You realize that you want the "act" of dipping which is very different.
2) You're recording it. This is super important too and adds a ton of value here. I personally never had a hard time putting down the fake (at around day 220 or so if I remember correctly) but I know that my experience isn't necessarily that of everyone.
That being said... I do find it ironic that you're having these issues at day 220. I had a REALLY rough stretch right around there as well. Call it a 200+ day funk of sorts. Seems you may be getting hit with a similar situation.
The good news (if there is any) is that if your quit follows the same trajectory as mine, you're in for hundreds and hundreds of days of smooth sailing after a few more days of funk.
Rock on!
chewie
Hey Bulldog, Chewie might be onto something . I never used the fake but I am going thru a funky time right now too. I know we will get thru this but it does suck when it sneaks up on you after feeling so good for quite awhile. You got this. We are definitely not alone.
Jerry 229
You got this man! I was also much in the same boat. I used fake for about the first 100 days or more, then just decided fuck it I was done; I have since used some fake from time to time when a circumstance of life presented itself. I always made it OK because it was better than caving. However, it was a crutch and I was damned if I needed a crutch or a cane. Since then I have found that Hot Tamales work great as my crutch, yet note to self if left in a pants pocket they fuck up a load of laundry.
During the transition I faced several dark days of life (death of a loved one, marital problems, mother's cancer...) it was never easy and it seemed as though life kept throwing me curveballs. Well just like when playing baseball I decided that it was time to swing at a curveball in lieu of staring at it as it passed. The can of Smokey Mountain in my bag is well over 6 months old and is still sealed up tight, yet reading your post just made me open it, dump it and flush it.
I am with you bud, fuck it neither of us need a crutch.
P
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Adding a recent and current experience to the "journal" I'm keeping here. I'm at 220 days today.
I spent the first three days of my quit on Tylenol pm. I used jolly ranchers and atomic fireballs. Then I heard about the fake chew. I latched on to it like a drowning man. I have been unilaterally supportive of using the fake stuff since the beginning.
I'm not so much anymore.
I'm now going on two days without it and I'm finding that there is a severe psychological dependency that isn't broken until you stop putting shit in your lip. I'm anxious. I have chewed my lip raw. I have anxiety. I want that fake chew. I recognize these symptoms. I remember them from the nicotine part of this addiction. I feel like I am not free of this shit. Yes I'm nic free but the psychological hold the "lip" has is still there. I'm fighting it right now. This second. Right as I'm typing this.
It's frustrating. I'm disheartened. I feel like I'm in week one again.
I'm going to buy some seeds today.
I thought I was past this.
Well...I'm going to be. You can bet your ass. I'm not letting this shit, fake or not, control me one second longer.
I'm turning that frustration into anger and I refuse to allow that shit any toehold on my heart mind and soul.
If you are new here, just quitting and holding on to the fake stuff I'm going on record as saying its a bad idea. Don't go through the bullshit all over again. Rip the bandaid off in one shot.
Keep no crutches.
That's really what the fake stuff is. It's a crutch. I regret using it based on what I'm feeling right now.
Sorry to hear that you're going through this. But super pumped for 2 reason:
1) You're recognizing what you're going through and not chalking it up to "I want dip". You realize that you want the "act" of dipping which is very different.
2) You're recording it. This is super important too and adds a ton of value here. I personally never had a hard time putting down the fake (at around day 220 or so if I remember correctly) but I know that my experience isn't necessarily that of everyone.
That being said... I do find it ironic that you're having these issues at day 220. I had a REALLY rough stretch right around there as well. Call it a 200+ day funk of sorts. Seems you may be getting hit with a similar situation.
The good news (if there is any) is that if your quit follows the same trajectory as mine, you're in for hundreds and hundreds of days of smooth sailing after a few more days of funk.
Rock on!
chewie
Hey Bulldog, Chewie might be onto something . I never used the fake but I am going thru a funky time right now too. I know we will get thru this but it does suck when it sneaks up on you after feeling so good for quite awhile. You got this. We are definitely not alone.
Jerry 229
You got this man! I was also much in the same boat. I used fake for about the first 100 days or more, then just decided fuck it I was done; I have since used some fake from time to time when a circumstance of life presented itself. I always made it OK because it was better than caving. However, it was a crutch and I was damned if I needed a crutch or a cane. Since then I have found that Hot Tamales work great as my crutch, yet note to self if left in a pants pocket they fuck up a load of laundry.
During the transition I faced several dark days of life (death of a loved one, marital problems, mother's cancer...) it was never easy and it seemed as though life kept throwing me curveballs. Well just like when playing baseball I decided that it was time to swing at a curveball in lieu of staring at it as it passed. The can of Smokey Mountain in my bag is well over 6 months old and is still sealed up tight, yet reading your post just made me open it, dump it and flush it.
I am with you bud, fuck it neither of us need a crutch.
P
Couple of things bd. I quit the fake around day 40 and missed it for a couple days, then it subsided little by little each day. 1 week and I felt much better.
Find something to get that mind going in a different direction. Exercise, fishing. Hell i know a guy that likes to crochet. I could see you knitting a doggy sweater or something like that. Maybe a footy. Whatever works brother. Quit with you.
-
Adding a recent and current experience to the "journal" I'm keeping here. I'm at 220 days today.
I spent the first three days of my quit on Tylenol pm. I used jolly ranchers and atomic fireballs. Then I heard about the fake chew. I latched on to it like a drowning man. I have been unilaterally supportive of using the fake stuff since the beginning.
I'm not so much anymore.
I'm now going on two days without it and I'm finding that there is a severe psychological dependency that isn't broken until you stop putting shit in your lip. I'm anxious. I have chewed my lip raw. I have anxiety. I want that fake chew. I recognize these symptoms. I remember them from the nicotine part of this addiction. I feel like I am not free of this shit. Yes I'm nic free but the psychological hold the "lip" has is still there. I'm fighting it right now. This second. Right as I'm typing this.
It's frustrating. I'm disheartened. I feel like I'm in week one again.
I'm going to buy some seeds today.
I thought I was past this.
Well...I'm going to be. You can bet your ass. I'm not letting this shit, fake or not, control me one second longer.
I'm turning that frustration into anger and I refuse to allow that shit any toehold on my heart mind and soul.
If you are new here, just quitting and holding on to the fake stuff I'm going on record as saying its a bad idea. Don't go through the bullshit all over again. Rip the bandaid off in one shot.
Keep no crutches.
That's really what the fake stuff is. It's a crutch. I regret using it based on what I'm feeling right now.
Sorry to hear that you're going through this. But super pumped for 2 reason:
1) You're recognizing what you're going through and not chalking it up to "I want dip". You realize that you want the "act" of dipping which is very different.
2) You're recording it. This is super important too and adds a ton of value here. I personally never had a hard time putting down the fake (at around day 220 or so if I remember correctly) but I know that my experience isn't necessarily that of everyone.
That being said... I do find it ironic that you're having these issues at day 220. I had a REALLY rough stretch right around there as well. Call it a 200+ day funk of sorts. Seems you may be getting hit with a similar situation.
The good news (if there is any) is that if your quit follows the same trajectory as mine, you're in for hundreds and hundreds of days of smooth sailing after a few more days of funk.
Rock on!
chewie
Hey Bulldog, Chewie might be onto something . I never used the fake but I am going thru a funky time right now too. I know we will get thru this but it does suck when it sneaks up on you after feeling so good for quite awhile. You got this. We are definitely not alone.
Jerry 229
You got this man! I was also much in the same boat. I used fake for about the first 100 days or more, then just decided fuck it I was done; I have since used some fake from time to time when a circumstance of life presented itself. I always made it OK because it was better than caving. However, it was a crutch and I was damned if I needed a crutch or a cane. Since then I have found that Hot Tamales work great as my crutch, yet note to self if left in a pants pocket they fuck up a load of laundry.
During the transition I faced several dark days of life (death of a loved one, marital problems, mother's cancer...) it was never easy and it seemed as though life kept throwing me curveballs. Well just like when playing baseball I decided that it was time to swing at a curveball in lieu of staring at it as it passed. The can of Smokey Mountain in my bag is well over 6 months old and is still sealed up tight, yet reading your post just made me open it, dump it and flush it.
I am with you bud, fuck it neither of us need a crutch.
P
Couple of things bd. I quit the fake around day 40 and missed it for a couple days, then it subsided little by little each day. 1 week and I felt much better.
Find something to get that mind going in a different direction. Exercise, fishing. Hell i know a guy that likes to crochet. I could see you knitting a doggy sweater or something like that. Maybe a footy. Whatever works brother. Quit with you.
I don't know about quitting the fake stuff so early. I swore by it getting me by for the first 200 days. Then I finally was able to wean myself off the fake stuff but the oral fixations would come back when doing yard work, fishing, having a beer on Friday night. It got to be a pain in the a$$ having to run to Wal-Mart just to buy it and waiting for Hooch to come in the mail didn't help with the fixations at a given time. So I went to my old standby, coffee grounds, I hate that stuff but it worked at a moments notice.
At day 464 I have not put fake stuff in or coffee grounds in about 100 days. Give it some time, you'll get through this little roller coaster ride. Just wait for it, you'll be glad you did. Trust me on that!
I don't know about the "footy" thing though. 'winker' Proud of you brother!
-
Bulldog, you are one bad ass quitter and let me tell you from my perspective you are quit. We all know we are addicts and we always will be, but I think you are just fighting a habit here. One that you will most certainly win.
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Adding a recent and current experience to the "journal" I'm keeping here. I'm at 220 days today.
I spent the first three days of my quit on Tylenol pm. I used jolly ranchers and atomic fireballs. Then I heard about the fake chew. I latched on to it like a drowning man. I have been unilaterally supportive of using the fake stuff since the beginning.
I'm not so much anymore.
I'm now going on two days without it and I'm finding that there is a severe psychological dependency that isn't broken until you stop putting shit in your lip. I'm anxious. I have chewed my lip raw. I have anxiety. I want that fake chew. I recognize these symptoms. I remember them from the nicotine part of this addiction. I feel like I am not free of this shit. Yes I'm nic free but the psychological hold the "lip" has is still there. I'm fighting it right now. This second. Right as I'm typing this.
It's frustrating. I'm disheartened. I feel like I'm in week one again.
I'm going to buy some seeds today.
I thought I was past this.
Well...I'm going to be. You can bet your ass. I'm not letting this shit, fake or not, control me one second longer.
I'm turning that frustration into anger and I refuse to allow that shit any toehold on my heart mind and soul.
If you are new here, just quitting and holding on to the fake stuff I'm going on record as saying its a bad idea. Don't go through the bullshit all over again. Rip the bandaid off in one shot.
Keep no crutches.
That's really what the fake stuff is. It's a crutch. I regret using it based on what I'm feeling right now.
Sorry to hear that you're going through this. But super pumped for 2 reason:
1) You're recognizing what you're going through and not chalking it up to "I want dip". You realize that you want the "act" of dipping which is very different.
2) You're recording it. This is super important too and adds a ton of value here. I personally never had a hard time putting down the fake (at around day 220 or so if I remember correctly) but I know that my experience isn't necessarily that of everyone.
That being said... I do find it ironic that you're having these issues at day 220. I had a REALLY rough stretch right around there as well. Call it a 200+ day funk of sorts. Seems you may be getting hit with a similar situation.
The good news (if there is any) is that if your quit follows the same trajectory as mine, you're in for hundreds and hundreds of days of smooth sailing after a few more days of funk.
Rock on!
chewie
Hey Bulldog, Chewie might be onto something . I never used the fake but I am going thru a funky time right now too. I know we will get thru this but it does suck when it sneaks up on you after feeling so good for quite awhile. You got this. We are definitely not alone.
Jerry 229
You got this man! I was also much in the same boat. I used fake for about the first 100 days or more, then just decided fuck it I was done; I have since used some fake from time to time when a circumstance of life presented itself. I always made it OK because it was better than caving. However, it was a crutch and I was damned if I needed a crutch or a cane. Since then I have found that Hot Tamales work great as my crutch, yet note to self if left in a pants pocket they fuck up a load of laundry.
During the transition I faced several dark days of life (death of a loved one, marital problems, mother's cancer...) it was never easy and it seemed as though life kept throwing me curveballs. Well just like when playing baseball I decided that it was time to swing at a curveball in lieu of staring at it as it passed. The can of Smokey Mountain in my bag is well over 6 months old and is still sealed up tight, yet reading your post just made me open it, dump it and flush it.
I am with you bud, fuck it neither of us need a crutch.
P
Couple of things bd. I quit the fake around day 40 and missed it for a couple days, then it subsided little by little each day. 1 week and I felt much better.
Find something to get that mind going in a different direction. Exercise, fishing. Hell i know a guy that likes to crochet. I could see you knitting a doggy sweater or something like that. Maybe a footy. Whatever works brother. Quit with you.
I don't know about quitting the fake stuff so early. I swore by it getting me by for the first 200 days. Then I finally was able to wean myself off the fake stuff but the oral fixations would come back when doing yard work, fishing, having a beer on Friday night. It got to be a pain in the a$$ having to run to Wal-Mart just to buy it and waiting for Hooch to come in the mail didn't help with the fixations at a given time. So I went to my old standby, coffee grounds, I hate that stuff but it worked at a moments notice.
At day 464 I have not put fake stuff in or coffee grounds in about 100 days. Give it some time, you'll get through this little roller coaster ride. Just wait for it, you'll be glad you did. Trust me on that!
I don't know about the "footy" thing though. 'winker' Proud of you brother!
I'm sorry you're having a rough time with this part, but it too will pass.
When I gave it up, I had seeds and other supplies on hand. I never skipped a beat, but I preplanned just to be safe. Have an alternative to the alternative ready. I like cherries in the summer. They're tart, and the seeds give you something to do.
-
Adding a recent and current experience to the "journal" I'm keeping here. I'm at 220 days today.
I spent the first three days of my quit on Tylenol pm. I used jolly ranchers and atomic fireballs. Then I heard about the fake chew. I latched on to it like a drowning man. I have been unilaterally supportive of using the fake stuff since the beginning.
I'm not so much anymore.
I'm now going on two days without it and I'm finding that there is a severe psychological dependency that isn't broken until you stop putting shit in your lip. I'm anxious. I have chewed my lip raw. I have anxiety. I want that fake chew. I recognize these symptoms. I remember them from the nicotine part of this addiction. I feel like I am not free of this shit. Yes I'm nic free but the psychological hold the "lip" has is still there. I'm fighting it right now. This second. Right as I'm typing this.
It's frustrating. I'm disheartened. I feel like I'm in week one again.
I'm going to buy some seeds today.
I thought I was past this.
Well...I'm going to be. You can bet your ass. I'm not letting this shit, fake or not, control me one second longer.
I'm turning that frustration into anger and I refuse to allow that shit any toehold on my heart mind and soul.
If you are new here, just quitting and holding on to the fake stuff I'm going on record as saying its a bad idea. Don't go through the bullshit all over again. Rip the bandaid off in one shot.
Keep no crutches.
That's really what the fake stuff is. It's a crutch. I regret using it based on what I'm feeling right now.
Sorry to hear that you're going through this. But super pumped for 2 reason:
1) You're recognizing what you're going through and not chalking it up to "I want dip". You realize that you want the "act" of dipping which is very different.
2) You're recording it. This is super important too and adds a ton of value here. I personally never had a hard time putting down the fake (at around day 220 or so if I remember correctly) but I know that my experience isn't necessarily that of everyone.
That being said... I do find it ironic that you're having these issues at day 220. I had a REALLY rough stretch right around there as well. Call it a 200+ day funk of sorts. Seems you may be getting hit with a similar situation.
The good news (if there is any) is that if your quit follows the same trajectory as mine, you're in for hundreds and hundreds of days of smooth sailing after a few more days of funk.
Rock on!
chewie
Hey Bulldog, Chewie might be onto something . I never used the fake but I am going thru a funky time right now too. I know we will get thru this but it does suck when it sneaks up on you after feeling so good for quite awhile. You got this. We are definitely not alone.
Jerry 229
You got this man! I was also much in the same boat. I used fake for about the first 100 days or more, then just decided fuck it I was done; I have since used some fake from time to time when a circumstance of life presented itself. I always made it OK because it was better than caving. However, it was a crutch and I was damned if I needed a crutch or a cane. Since then I have found that Hot Tamales work great as my crutch, yet note to self if left in a pants pocket they fuck up a load of laundry.
During the transition I faced several dark days of life (death of a loved one, marital problems, mother's cancer...) it was never easy and it seemed as though life kept throwing me curveballs. Well just like when playing baseball I decided that it was time to swing at a curveball in lieu of staring at it as it passed. The can of Smokey Mountain in my bag is well over 6 months old and is still sealed up tight, yet reading your post just made me open it, dump it and flush it.
I am with you bud, fuck it neither of us need a crutch.
P
Couple of things bd. I quit the fake around day 40 and missed it for a couple days, then it subsided little by little each day. 1 week and I felt much better.
Find something to get that mind going in a different direction. Exercise, fishing. Hell i know a guy that likes to crochet. I could see you knitting a doggy sweater or something like that. Maybe a footy. Whatever works brother. Quit with you.
I don't know about quitting the fake stuff so early. I swore by it getting me by for the first 200 days. Then I finally was able to wean myself off the fake stuff but the oral fixations would come back when doing yard work, fishing, having a beer on Friday night. It got to be a pain in the a$$ having to run to Wal-Mart just to buy it and waiting for Hooch to come in the mail didn't help with the fixations at a given time. So I went to my old standby, coffee grounds, I hate that stuff but it worked at a moments notice.
At day 464 I have not put fake stuff in or coffee grounds in about 100 days. Give it some time, you'll get through this little roller coaster ride. Just wait for it, you'll be glad you did. Trust me on that!
I don't know about the "footy" thing though. 'winker' Proud of you brother!
I'm sorry you're having a rough time with this part, but it too will pass.
When I gave it up, I had seeds and other supplies on hand. I never skipped a beat, but I preplanned just to be safe. Have an alternative to the alternative ready. I like cherries in the summer. They're tart, and the seeds give you something to do.
I'm finding this convo fascinating.
I never did the fake stuff at all. I... KNEW I needed to break my oral fixation right off the bat. I became an atomic fireball fiend. I can get 'em in bulk so I hoarded them by the freakin' pound. At some point in all this I, like many others, decided to get in better shape physically. At 43 I'm in decent shape but it can always be better y'know. Diet was a step in that process... Sugar in particular. The atomic fireballs had to go. No big deal right? Damned if giving those up didn't cause me a li'l anxiety. Even at 400+ days. Kinda pissed me off really.
Power through man. Your head is in the right place. That's your win right there...
-
Adding a recent and current experience to the "journal" I'm keeping here. I'm at 220 days today.
I spent the first three days of my quit on Tylenol pm. I used jolly ranchers and atomic fireballs. Then I heard about the fake chew. I latched on to it like a drowning man. I have been unilaterally supportive of using the fake stuff since the beginning.
I'm not so much anymore.
I'm now going on two days without it and I'm finding that there is a severe psychological dependency that isn't broken until you stop putting shit in your lip. I'm anxious. I have chewed my lip raw. I have anxiety. I want that fake chew. I recognize these symptoms. I remember them from the nicotine part of this addiction. I feel like I am not free of this shit. Yes I'm nic free but the psychological hold the "lip" has is still there. I'm fighting it right now. This second. Right as I'm typing this.
It's frustrating. I'm disheartened. I feel like I'm in week one again.
I'm going to buy some seeds today.
I thought I was past this.
Well...I'm going to be. You can bet your ass. I'm not letting this shit, fake or not, control me one second longer.
I'm turning that frustration into anger and I refuse to allow that shit any toehold on my heart mind and soul.
If you are new here, just quitting and holding on to the fake stuff I'm going on record as saying its a bad idea. Don't go through the bullshit all over again. Rip the bandaid off in one shot.
Keep no crutches.
That's really what the fake stuff is. It's a crutch. I regret using it based on what I'm feeling right now.
Sorry to hear that you're going through this. But super pumped for 2 reason:
1) You're recognizing what you're going through and not chalking it up to "I want dip". You realize that you want the "act" of dipping which is very different.
2) You're recording it. This is super important too and adds a ton of value here. I personally never had a hard time putting down the fake (at around day 220 or so if I remember correctly) but I know that my experience isn't necessarily that of everyone.
That being said... I do find it ironic that you're having these issues at day 220. I had a REALLY rough stretch right around there as well. Call it a 200+ day funk of sorts. Seems you may be getting hit with a similar situation.
The good news (if there is any) is that if your quit follows the same trajectory as mine, you're in for hundreds and hundreds of days of smooth sailing after a few more days of funk.
Rock on!
chewie
Hey Bulldog, Chewie might be onto something . I never used the fake but I am going thru a funky time right now too. I know we will get thru this but it does suck when it sneaks up on you after feeling so good for quite awhile. You got this. We are definitely not alone.
Jerry 229
You got this man! I was also much in the same boat. I used fake for about the first 100 days or more, then just decided fuck it I was done; I have since used some fake from time to time when a circumstance of life presented itself. I always made it OK because it was better than caving. However, it was a crutch and I was damned if I needed a crutch or a cane. Since then I have found that Hot Tamales work great as my crutch, yet note to self if left in a pants pocket they fuck up a load of laundry.
During the transition I faced several dark days of life (death of a loved one, marital problems, mother's cancer...) it was never easy and it seemed as though life kept throwing me curveballs. Well just like when playing baseball I decided that it was time to swing at a curveball in lieu of staring at it as it passed. The can of Smokey Mountain in my bag is well over 6 months old and is still sealed up tight, yet reading your post just made me open it, dump it and flush it.
I am with you bud, fuck it neither of us need a crutch.
P
Couple of things bd. I quit the fake around day 40 and missed it for a couple days, then it subsided little by little each day. 1 week and I felt much better.
Find something to get that mind going in a different direction. Exercise, fishing. Hell i know a guy that likes to crochet. I could see you knitting a doggy sweater or something like that. Maybe a footy. Whatever works brother. Quit with you.
I don't know about quitting the fake stuff so early. I swore by it getting me by for the first 200 days. Then I finally was able to wean myself off the fake stuff but the oral fixations would come back when doing yard work, fishing, having a beer on Friday night. It got to be a pain in the a$$ having to run to Wal-Mart just to buy it and waiting for Hooch to come in the mail didn't help with the fixations at a given time. So I went to my old standby, coffee grounds, I hate that stuff but it worked at a moments notice.
At day 464 I have not put fake stuff in or coffee grounds in about 100 days. Give it some time, you'll get through this little roller coaster ride. Just wait for it, you'll be glad you did. Trust me on that!
I don't know about the "footy" thing though. 'winker' Proud of you brother!
I'm sorry you're having a rough time with this part, but it too will pass.
When I gave it up, I had seeds and other supplies on hand. I never skipped a beat, but I preplanned just to be safe. Have an alternative to the alternative ready. I like cherries in the summer. They're tart, and the seeds give you something to do.
I'm finding this convo fascinating.
I never did the fake stuff at all. I... KNEW I needed to break my oral fixation right off the bat. I became an atomic fireball fiend. I can get 'em in bulk so I hoarded them by the freakin' pound. At some point in all this I, like many others, decided to get in better shape physically. At 43 I'm in decent shape but it can always be better y'know. Diet was a step in that process... Sugar in particular. The atomic fireballs had to go. No big deal right? Damned if giving those up didn't cause me a li'l anxiety. Even at 400+ days. Kinda pissed me off really.
Power through man. Your head is in the right place. That's your win right there...
Fucking Fireball Addicts...... 'na na'
-
Adding a recent and current experience to the "journal" I'm keeping here. I'm at 220 days today.
I spent the first three days of my quit on Tylenol pm. I used jolly ranchers and atomic fireballs. Then I heard about the fake chew. I latched on to it like a drowning man. I have been unilaterally supportive of using the fake stuff since the beginning.
I'm not so much anymore.
I'm now going on two days without it and I'm finding that there is a severe psychological dependency that isn't broken until you stop putting shit in your lip. I'm anxious. I have chewed my lip raw. I have anxiety. I want that fake chew. I recognize these symptoms. I remember them from the nicotine part of this addiction. I feel like I am not free of this shit. Yes I'm nic free but the psychological hold the "lip" has is still there. I'm fighting it right now. This second. Right as I'm typing this.
It's frustrating. I'm disheartened. I feel like I'm in week one again.
I'm going to buy some seeds today.
I thought I was past this.
Well...I'm going to be. You can bet your ass. I'm not letting this shit, fake or not, control me one second longer.
I'm turning that frustration into anger and I refuse to allow that shit any toehold on my heart mind and soul.
If you are new here, just quitting and holding on to the fake stuff I'm going on record as saying its a bad idea. Don't go through the bullshit all over again. Rip the bandaid off in one shot.
Keep no crutches.
That's really what the fake stuff is. It's a crutch. I regret using it based on what I'm feeling right now.
Sorry to hear that you're going through this. But super pumped for 2 reason:
1) You're recognizing what you're going through and not chalking it up to "I want dip". You realize that you want the "act" of dipping which is very different.
2) You're recording it. This is super important too and adds a ton of value here. I personally never had a hard time putting down the fake (at around day 220 or so if I remember correctly) but I know that my experience isn't necessarily that of everyone.
That being said... I do find it ironic that you're having these issues at day 220. I had a REALLY rough stretch right around there as well. Call it a 200+ day funk of sorts. Seems you may be getting hit with a similar situation.
The good news (if there is any) is that if your quit follows the same trajectory as mine, you're in for hundreds and hundreds of days of smooth sailing after a few more days of funk.
Rock on!
chewie
Hey Bulldog, Chewie might be onto something . I never used the fake but I am going thru a funky time right now too. I know we will get thru this but it does suck when it sneaks up on you after feeling so good for quite awhile. You got this. We are definitely not alone.
Jerry 229
You got this man! I was also much in the same boat. I used fake for about the first 100 days or more, then just decided fuck it I was done; I have since used some fake from time to time when a circumstance of life presented itself. I always made it OK because it was better than caving. However, it was a crutch and I was damned if I needed a crutch or a cane. Since then I have found that Hot Tamales work great as my crutch, yet note to self if left in a pants pocket they fuck up a load of laundry.
During the transition I faced several dark days of life (death of a loved one, marital problems, mother's cancer...) it was never easy and it seemed as though life kept throwing me curveballs. Well just like when playing baseball I decided that it was time to swing at a curveball in lieu of staring at it as it passed. The can of Smokey Mountain in my bag is well over 6 months old and is still sealed up tight, yet reading your post just made me open it, dump it and flush it.
I am with you bud, fuck it neither of us need a crutch.
P
Couple of things bd. I quit the fake around day 40 and missed it for a couple days, then it subsided little by little each day. 1 week and I felt much better.
Find something to get that mind going in a different direction. Exercise, fishing. Hell i know a guy that likes to crochet. I could see you knitting a doggy sweater or something like that. Maybe a footy. Whatever works brother. Quit with you.
I don't know about quitting the fake stuff so early. I swore by it getting me by for the first 200 days. Then I finally was able to wean myself off the fake stuff but the oral fixations would come back when doing yard work, fishing, having a beer on Friday night. It got to be a pain in the a$$ having to run to Wal-Mart just to buy it and waiting for Hooch to come in the mail didn't help with the fixations at a given time. So I went to my old standby, coffee grounds, I hate that stuff but it worked at a moments notice.
At day 464 I have not put fake stuff in or coffee grounds in about 100 days. Give it some time, you'll get through this little roller coaster ride. Just wait for it, you'll be glad you did. Trust me on that!
I don't know about the "footy" thing though. 'winker' Proud of you brother!
I'm sorry you're having a rough time with this part, but it too will pass.
When I gave it up, I had seeds and other supplies on hand. I never skipped a beat, but I preplanned just to be safe. Have an alternative to the alternative ready. I like cherries in the summer. They're tart, and the seeds give you something to do.
I'm finding this convo fascinating.
I never did the fake stuff at all. I... KNEW I needed to break my oral fixation right off the bat. I became an atomic fireball fiend. I can get 'em in bulk so I hoarded them by the freakin' pound. At some point in all this I, like many others, decided to get in better shape physically. At 43 I'm in decent shape but it can always be better y'know. Diet was a step in that process... Sugar in particular. The atomic fireballs had to go. No big deal right? Damned if giving those up didn't cause me a li'l anxiety. Even at 400+ days. Kinda pissed me off really.
Power through man. Your head is in the right place. That's your win right there...
Fucking Fireball Addicts...... 'na na'
I could see a few of youz sucking on a fireball while crosheying a footy. Aj, waste, Rdad, sfge, cmon now fellas. No one will judge.
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Adding a recent and current experience to the "journal" I'm keeping here. I'm at 220 days today.
I spent the first three days of my quit on Tylenol pm. I used jolly ranchers and atomic fireballs. Then I heard about the fake chew. I latched on to it like a drowning man. I have been unilaterally supportive of using the fake stuff since the beginning.
I'm not so much anymore.
I'm now going on two days without it and I'm finding that there is a severe psychological dependency that isn't broken until you stop putting shit in your lip. I'm anxious. I have chewed my lip raw. I have anxiety. I want that fake chew. I recognize these symptoms. I remember them from the nicotine part of this addiction. I feel like I am not free of this shit. Yes I'm nic free but the psychological hold the "lip" has is still there. I'm fighting it right now. This second. Right as I'm typing this.
It's frustrating. I'm disheartened. I feel like I'm in week one again.
I'm going to buy some seeds today.
I thought I was past this.
Well...I'm going to be. You can bet your ass. I'm not letting this shit, fake or not, control me one second longer.
I'm turning that frustration into anger and I refuse to allow that shit any toehold on my heart mind and soul.
If you are new here, just quitting and holding on to the fake stuff I'm going on record as saying its a bad idea. Don't go through the bullshit all over again. Rip the bandaid off in one shot.
Keep no crutches.
That's really what the fake stuff is. It's a crutch. I regret using it based on what I'm feeling right now.
Sorry to hear that you're going through this. But super pumped for 2 reason:
1) You're recognizing what you're going through and not chalking it up to "I want dip". You realize that you want the "act" of dipping which is very different.
2) You're recording it. This is super important too and adds a ton of value here. I personally never had a hard time putting down the fake (at around day 220 or so if I remember correctly) but I know that my experience isn't necessarily that of everyone.
That being said... I do find it ironic that you're having these issues at day 220. I had a REALLY rough stretch right around there as well. Call it a 200+ day funk of sorts. Seems you may be getting hit with a similar situation.
The good news (if there is any) is that if your quit follows the same trajectory as mine, you're in for hundreds and hundreds of days of smooth sailing after a few more days of funk.
Rock on!
chewie
Hey Bulldog, Chewie might be onto something . I never used the fake but I am going thru a funky time right now too. I know we will get thru this but it does suck when it sneaks up on you after feeling so good for quite awhile. You got this. We are definitely not alone.
Jerry 229
You got this man! I was also much in the same boat. I used fake for about the first 100 days or more, then just decided fuck it I was done; I have since used some fake from time to time when a circumstance of life presented itself. I always made it OK because it was better than caving. However, it was a crutch and I was damned if I needed a crutch or a cane. Since then I have found that Hot Tamales work great as my crutch, yet note to self if left in a pants pocket they fuck up a load of laundry.
During the transition I faced several dark days of life (death of a loved one, marital problems, mother's cancer...) it was never easy and it seemed as though life kept throwing me curveballs. Well just like when playing baseball I decided that it was time to swing at a curveball in lieu of staring at it as it passed. The can of Smokey Mountain in my bag is well over 6 months old and is still sealed up tight, yet reading your post just made me open it, dump it and flush it.
I am with you bud, fuck it neither of us need a crutch.
P
Couple of things bd. I quit the fake around day 40 and missed it for a couple days, then it subsided little by little each day. 1 week and I felt much better.
Find something to get that mind going in a different direction. Exercise, fishing. Hell i know a guy that likes to crochet. I could see you knitting a doggy sweater or something like that. Maybe a footy. Whatever works brother. Quit with you.
I don't know about quitting the fake stuff so early. I swore by it getting me by for the first 200 days. Then I finally was able to wean myself off the fake stuff but the oral fixations would come back when doing yard work, fishing, having a beer on Friday night. It got to be a pain in the a$$ having to run to Wal-Mart just to buy it and waiting for Hooch to come in the mail didn't help with the fixations at a given time. So I went to my old standby, coffee grounds, I hate that stuff but it worked at a moments notice.
At day 464 I have not put fake stuff in or coffee grounds in about 100 days. Give it some time, you'll get through this little roller coaster ride. Just wait for it, you'll be glad you did. Trust me on that!
I don't know about the "footy" thing though. 'winker' Proud of you brother!
I'm sorry you're having a rough time with this part, but it too will pass.
When I gave it up, I had seeds and other supplies on hand. I never skipped a beat, but I preplanned just to be safe. Have an alternative to the alternative ready. I like cherries in the summer. They're tart, and the seeds give you something to do.
I'm finding this convo fascinating.
I never did the fake stuff at all. I... KNEW I needed to break my oral fixation right off the bat. I became an atomic fireball fiend. I can get 'em in bulk so I hoarded them by the freakin' pound. At some point in all this I, like many others, decided to get in better shape physically. At 43 I'm in decent shape but it can always be better y'know. Diet was a step in that process... Sugar in particular. The atomic fireballs had to go. No big deal right? Damned if giving those up didn't cause me a li'l anxiety. Even at 400+ days. Kinda pissed me off really.
Power through man. Your head is in the right place. That's your win right there...
Fucking Fireball Addicts...... 'na na'
I could see a few of youz sucking on a fireball while crosheying a footy. Aj, waste, Rdad, sfge, cmon now fellas. No one will judge.
You guys rock. Thanks for the support. You're like my own personal jock straps. Lol.
I got gum. I got seeds and I flushed the crutch.
Thanks fellas.
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ALL newbies need to read this thread. Great stuff by a lot of vets for us new guys. Great to see guys still posting, still supporting.
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As typical for me I like to jot down some interesting tidbits every few months. I find using this as a journal of my life post nicotine can help me examine who am now without a caustic toxic drug inebriating me every day. Pretty interesting.
Today is day 293. Third floor is a week away. Unreal. Some in my group are already there. I can't really wrap my brain around that.
So things have been tough lately. Finances are in a bad bad place. Working through it but it seems like every time my nose gets above water something else pops up. Financial stress builds up quick. I've found that over the last three months I've really wanted to chew. Badly. I want my crutch. I used it so often to relieve stress and anxiety in the past. It's been a hard few months.
It's not that I expect to stay stress free at all. I just find it fascinating that one of the things we addicts have to learn is how to manage our stress instead of medicate it. We don't even realize at the time we are chewing that we are medicating our stress. Stressed out? Put a chew in. Really sad that for 24 years I was a self medicating addict and refused to see it.
Kids are doing good. My son is almost 12. This nic free journey started because he had the balls and the love in his heart to pull me aside and call me to the mat on it. I didn't quit for him. I tried to initially but I failed. I had to quit for me. He put me on the road though. He just started middle school and is doing so well. Really stepping up to the plate as a youngster. Proud of him.
Daughter is growing up. She is 9 and she is beginnig to show signs of developing into a young lady. I'm trying to determine if I should lock her up now or just shoot the boys who start sniffing around. I'm leaning towards buying some extra ammo.
Why bring them up you ask? Well because I have a role to playin their future now. I'm going to be alive for it. I'm not shoving the cancerous cat turds into my mouth. I have chosen to live nic free and I'm going to enjoy those kids for a long time. They are part of this journey. I get to think about our future together as a family now without any secret hint of "if I don't get cancer."
That means a lot to me. You probably don't remember but about six months ago my dad was diagnosed with prostate cancer. I was really terrified. It was a reminder of what I had been voluntarily doing to myself and what the consequences could be. Well we got news the other day. His treatment worked. He is free of cancer with no side effects. Good news. He went through hell to get that news though. I don't want to put my kids through that by voluntarily putting a cancer causing agent in my mouth. Why would I do that?
If you are on the fence and reading this...yes it's hard. It's a fight every day. Still even today I'm struggling. It gets easier every day. You start winning and start living. Just quit man. Flush it and walk away. Once you get through and start to live your life the way you were supposed to you realize what a shit assed hold that crap had on you and it really pisseses you off. You realize you can be free of it. Free off the leash it has you on. It's hard but so simple. You just have to promise once a day not to touch nicotine then keep that promise. Not easy but it sure is simple.
You will hear a lot of guys say nicotine plus a problem is just two problems. It's not the answer. Its so true. Life has been a challenge the last few months but I wasn't sneaking out to get a can. I wasn't having to think about hiding the chew. I didn't have to check my teeth or my breath. I just dealt with the shit I had to deal with and didn't add to my stress with the chew. Chew doesn't help you relieve the stress. You think it does. In reality it just adds more things to be stressed out about.
Flush it. Post roll. Make a promise. Keep your promise. Repeat daily for maximum results.
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Thank you for that Bulldog. I too had to strengthen my quit in the late 200s. Caught myself getting lazy and the bitch trying to invite herself back in.
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ALL newbies need to read this thread. Great stuff by a lot of vets for us new guys. Great to see guys still posting, still supporting.
This is truly a great read and I think everyone should see what a great quitter we have in Bulldog and proud to have him in my group of March 14 Iron Men!
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Nice job Marine on 300 days! Keep knocking down those walls, it shouldn't be long until you find the door is a lot easier! Congrats my friend! Proud to be quit with you today. Semper Fi!
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So my name is Bulldog0311. I quit on 12/02/13. Life took a nasty turn for me financially, mentally, healthwise and in just about every way you can imagine. Almost lost my house. I was worried about whether I'd be able to feed my kids. Went in for a dentist appointment and he stopped and sent me to the emergency room. I didn't understand why but found out my blood pressure was 204 over 190. I was close to dying or at least stroking out. Ended up at 301 pounds. I'm 5'3". I was as heavy as an offensive lineman in the NFL but a foot shorter. Things just kept spiraling down. My dad was fighting prostrate cancer on top of it all.
I ended up stopping posting roll. There was a bit of drama on here at the time and frankly I just had to much going on. I couldn't manage it all.
Now I'm guessing you're imaging that the nic bitch got her claws in me again but she didn't. I'm still quit. As a matter of fact things got so much better for me I flat out forgot I was an addict. She left me alone. Every once in a while she peeks around the corner like some dirty Atlantic City hooker but she's just too nasty for me to pay attention to.
Two nights ago I saw a viral post on Facebook about a guy who lost his jaw. I saw it and felt bad that I had just walked away from this place, my brothers and my quit group. Yes life took a shit on me but I felt bad for it. I knew looking at those pictures that that would have been me. I wanted to give back. I wanted to help others.
I've gotten my health under control. Or almost. I'm off all blood pressure meds. I'm down almost 100lbs. Need to lose another 30. Dad beat his cancer. Kept the house. New job. Great freaking job. Kids are great. It took some time but things turned around. I don't think that would have happened had I not gotten the skills and strength I learned here.
After seeing that Facebook post I just wanted to hop on and say I'm ok. I made it. Maybe work on posting roll again and earning my way back here and giving back a little of what this place gave me.
Im very thankful.
It was a sure shocking to hop on here and find out I had hit the comma almost a year ago. I really regret not being here to celebrate that. I wish things could have been different but dammit I'm still quit. I'm alive and things are good.
I'll take it.
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So my name is Bulldog0311. I quit on 12/02/13. Life took a nasty turn for me financially, mentally, healthwise and in just about every way you can imagine. Almost lost my house. I was worried about whether I'd be able to feed my kids. Went in for a dentist appointment and he stopped and sent me to the emergency room. I didn't understand why but found out my blood pressure was 204 over 190. I was close to dying or at least stroking out. Ended up at 301 pounds. I'm 5'3". I was as heavy as an offensive lineman in the NFL but a foot shorter. Things just kept spiraling down. My dad was fighting prostrate cancer on top of it all.
I ended up stopping posting roll. There was a bit of drama on here at the time and frankly I just had to much going on. I couldn't manage it all.
Now I'm guessing you're imaging that the nic bitch got her claws in me again but she didn't. I'm still quit. As a matter of fact things got so much better for me I flat out forgot I was an addict. She left me alone. Every once in a while she peeks around the corner like some dirty Atlantic City hooker but she's just too nasty for me to pay attention to.
Two nights ago I saw a viral post on Facebook about a guy who lost his jaw. I saw it and felt bad that I had just walked away from this place, my brothers and my quit group. Yes life took a shit on me but I felt bad for it. I knew looking at those pictures that that would have been me. I wanted to give back. I wanted to help others.
I've gotten my health under control. Or almost. I'm off all blood pressure meds. I'm down almost 100lbs. Need to lose another 30. Dad beat his cancer. Kept the house. New job. Great freaking job. Kids are great. It took some time but things turned around. I don't think that would have happened had I not gotten the skills and strength I learned here.
After seeing that Facebook post I just wanted to hop on and say I'm ok. I made it. Maybe work on posting roll again and earning my way back here and giving back a little of what this place gave me.
Im very thankful.
It was a sure shocking to hop on here and find out I had hit the comma almost a year ago. I really regret not being here to celebrate that. I wish things could have been different but dammit I'm still quit. I'm alive and things are good.
I'll take it.
First off, I'm glad to read that you've rebounded on the health, home, and family front. Secondly, I'm relieved to that hear you're still quit. Thirdly, Tim,...get your ass on that roll call every day. We still give a damn.
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So my name is Bulldog0311. I quit on 12/02/13. Life took a nasty turn for me financially, mentally, healthwise and in just about every way you can imagine. Almost lost my house. I was worried about whether I'd be able to feed my kids. Went in for a dentist appointment and he stopped and sent me to the emergency room. I didn't understand why but found out my blood pressure was 204 over 190. I was close to dying or at least stroking out. Ended up at 301 pounds. I'm 5'3". I was as heavy as an offensive lineman in the NFL but a foot shorter. Things just kept spiraling down. My dad was fighting prostrate cancer on top of it all.
I ended up stopping posting roll. There was a bit of drama on here at the time and frankly I just had to much going on. I couldn't manage it all.
Now I'm guessing you're imaging that the nic bitch got her claws in me again but she didn't. I'm still quit. As a matter of fact things got so much better for me I flat out forgot I was an addict. She left me alone. Every once in a while she peeks around the corner like some dirty Atlantic City hooker but she's just too nasty for me to pay attention to.
Two nights ago I saw a viral post on Facebook about a guy who lost his jaw. I saw it and felt bad that I had just walked away from this place, my brothers and my quit group. Yes life took a shit on me but I felt bad for it. I knew looking at those pictures that that would have been me. I wanted to give back. I wanted to help others.
I've gotten my health under control. Or almost. I'm off all blood pressure meds. I'm down almost 100lbs. Need to lose another 30. Dad beat his cancer. Kept the house. New job. Great freaking job. Kids are great. It took some time but things turned around. I don't think that would have happened had I not gotten the skills and strength I learned here.
After seeing that Facebook post I just wanted to hop on and say I'm ok. I made it. Maybe work on posting roll again and earning my way back here and giving back a little of what this place gave me.
Im very thankful.
It was a sure shocking to hop on here and find out I had hit the comma almost a year ago. I really regret not being here to celebrate that. I wish things could have been different but dammit I'm still quit. I'm alive and things are good.
I'll take it.
First off, I'm glad to read that you've rebounded on the health, home, and family front. Secondly, I'm relieved to that hear you're still quit. Thirdly, Tim,...get your ass on that roll call every day. We still give a damn.
This place is the real deal.
Brotherhood + Accountability = Success
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So my name is Bulldog0311. I quit on 12/02/13. Life took a nasty turn for me financially, mentally, healthwise and in just about every way you can imagine. Almost lost my house. I was worried about whether I'd be able to feed my kids. Went in for a dentist appointment and he stopped and sent me to the emergency room. I didn't understand why but found out my blood pressure was 204 over 190. I was close to dying or at least stroking out. Ended up at 301 pounds. I'm 5'3". I was as heavy as an offensive lineman in the NFL but a foot shorter. Things just kept spiraling down. My dad was fighting prostrate cancer on top of it all.
I ended up stopping posting roll. There was a bit of drama on here at the time and frankly I just had to much going on. I couldn't manage it all.
Now I'm guessing you're imaging that the nic bitch got her claws in me again but she didn't. I'm still quit. As a matter of fact things got so much better for me I flat out forgot I was an addict. She left me alone. Every once in a while she peeks around the corner like some dirty Atlantic City hooker but she's just too nasty for me to pay attention to.
Two nights ago I saw a viral post on Facebook about a guy who lost his jaw. I saw it and felt bad that I had just walked away from this place, my brothers and my quit group. Yes life took a shit on me but I felt bad for it. I knew looking at those pictures that that would have been me. I wanted to give back. I wanted to help others.
I've gotten my health under control. Or almost. I'm off all blood pressure meds. I'm down almost 100lbs. Need to lose another 30. Dad beat his cancer. Kept the house. New job. Great freaking job. Kids are great. It took some time but things turned around. I don't think that would have happened had I not gotten the skills and strength I learned here.
After seeing that Facebook post I just wanted to hop on and say I'm ok. I made it. Maybe work on posting roll again and earning my way back here and giving back a little of what this place gave me.
Im very thankful.
It was a sure shocking to hop on here and find out I had hit the comma almost a year ago. I really regret not being here to celebrate that. I wish things could have been different but dammit I'm still quit. I'm alive and things are good.
I'll take it.
First off, I'm glad to read that you've rebounded on the health, home, and family front. Secondly, I'm relieved to that hear you're still quit. Thirdly, Tim,...get your ass on that roll call every day. We still give a damn.
This place is the real deal.
Brotherhood + Accountability = Success
Sure is good to hear from you Bulldog! I'm glad things are better for you and really glad you are still quit.
I hope your back with the Iron Men for good.
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I'm posting this to the top of the intro board. I have a friend of 30 years asking about quitting. I told him to check out the site and I'd have my intro up top so he could take a gander.
Buzz if you log in and start looking around take your time, read everything and call me with any questions man.
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If you're the praying sort I'd appreciate a word. If you're not or believe otherwise any positive thoughts are welcome.
My nephew is missing. Been gone 36 hours now. Last known was a text to his mom that he was on his way home from school at 515 pm day before yesterday. Yesterday morning his car fast pass registered 2 hours away from home.
Phone is shut off.
No social media.
Never been in trouble.
Never been a problem.
Quiet kid. Kind of nerdy.
Scary stuff man. You just never know when your whole shit is going to get turned upside down.
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If you're the praying sort I'd appreciate a word. If you're not or believe otherwise any positive thoughts are welcome.
My nephew is missing. Been gone 36 hours now. Last known was a text to his mom that he was on his way home from school at 515 pm day before yesterday. Yesterday morning his car fast pass registered 2 hours away from home.
Phone is shut off.
No social media.
Never been in trouble.
Never been a problem.
Quiet kid. Kind of nerdy.
Scary stuff man. You just never know when your whole shit is going to get turned upside down.
Thanks for the update today brother....big sigh of relief. Quitters ...not once did this guy consider nicotine as a solution to this crisis. What did he do during said crisis..
1) he posted roll that day
2) he posted on the intro page
3) he texted 10 of his quit brethren about the situation
The result was an onslaught of support. Guys/Gals...this quitting thing is no joke. There are legitimate friendships and camaraderies that can be developed here if you take this quit and the concept of brotherhood and embrace it to the max. There are no other friends in your life solely dedicated to saving your life every day ...and that is a serious thing. It's another reason why quitting and posting roll is worth everything.