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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Murph8804 on April 15, 2013, 09:34:00 PM
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I'm 24 years old, been dipping for 7 years and average a can and a half a day. Not sure why I decided to quit just woke up the other morning and decided enough is enough. I've taken the advice of not boozing for the first little while. Now I'm trying to find anything and I mean anything to get the scent and taste of my favorite grizzly wintergreen out of my head. My muscles ache, feet hurt, and in a huge fog. If anybody has any ideas on what to throw in my mouth to calm these urges ill try anything.
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I'm 24 years old, been dipping for 7 years and average a can and a half a day. Not sure why I decided to quit just woke up the other morning and decided enough is enough. I've taken the advice of not boozing for the first little while. Now I'm trying to find anything and I mean anything to get the scent and taste of my favorite grizzly wintergreen out of my head. My muscles ache, feet hurt, and in a huge fog. If anybody has any ideas on what to throw in my mouth to calm these urges ill try anything.
hold your horses there boss, watch what you ask around these guys when it comes to things to stuff in any orfice. You might try: gum, seeds, tea, coffee grounds, fake dip (smokey mountain, hooch, mint - pouches or cut) or junk food. Anything you pick will be better than tobacco. Once you find something to shove in your mouth check out the welcome center - the pink link up top left. read it all then follow the directions. Welcome.
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I'm 24 years old, been dipping for 7 years and average a can and a half a day. Not sure why I decided to quit just woke up the other morning and decided enough is enough. I've taken the advice of not boozing for the first little while. Now I'm trying to find anything and I mean anything to get the scent and taste of my favorite grizzly wintergreen out of my head. My muscles ache, feet hurt, and in a huge fog. If anybody has any ideas on what to throw in my mouth to calm these urges ill try anything.
hold your horses there boss, watch what you ask around these guys when it comes to things to stuff in any orfice. You might try: gum, seeds, tea, coffee grounds, fake dip (smokey mountain, hooch, mint - pouches or cut) or junk food. Anything you pick will be better than tobacco. Once you find something to shove in your mouth check out the welcome center - the pink link up top left. read it all then follow the directions. Welcome.
Mich couldn't have said it any better, any of the things he mentioned will help with the craving. you could also try tooth picks or hard candy as well. Me myself, I went with junk food :D . Of course I gained about 20 pounds as well but it was so worth it. I would take those 20 pounds over killing myself with dip any day!!! Exercise will help with the cravings as well as it keeps you busy and keeps the ole heart pumping and of course its good for you. If you need anything at all feel free to pm me.
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I'm 24 years old, been dipping for 7 years and average a can and a half a day. Not sure why I decided to quit just woke up the other morning and decided enough is enough. I've taken the advice of not boozing for the first little while. Now I'm trying to find anything and I mean anything to get the scent and taste of my favorite grizzly wintergreen out of my head. My muscles ache, feet hurt, and in a huge fog. If anybody has any ideas on what to throw in my mouth to calm these urges ill try anything.
hold your horses there boss, watch what you ask around these guys when it comes to things to stuff in any orfice. You might try: gum, seeds, tea, coffee grounds, fake dip (smokey mountain, hooch, mint - pouches or cut) or junk food. Anything you pick will be better than tobacco. Once you find something to shove in your mouth check out the welcome center - the pink link up top left. read it all then follow the directions. Welcome.
Mich couldn't have said it any better, any of the things he mentioned will help with the craving. you could also try tooth picks or hard candy as well. Me myself, I went with junk food :D . Of course I gained about 20 pounds as well but it was so worth it. I would take those 20 pounds over killing myself with dip any day!!! Exercise will help with the cravings as well as it keeps you busy and keeps the ole heart pumping and of course its good for you. If you need anything at all feel free to pm me.
You might consider pming Gmann I'm sure he would oblige to offer something to put in your mouth to satisfy your oral fixation.
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I'm 24 years old, been dipping for 7 years and average a can and a half a day. Not sure why I decided to quit just woke up the other morning and decided enough is enough. I've taken the advice of not boozing for the first little while. Now I'm trying to find anything and I mean anything to get the scent and taste of my favorite grizzly wintergreen out of my head. My muscles ache, feet hurt, and in a huge fog. If anybody has any ideas on what to throw in my mouth to calm these urges ill try anything.
hold your horses there boss, watch what you ask around these guys when it comes to things to stuff in any orfice. You might try: gum, seeds, tea, coffee grounds, fake dip (smokey mountain, hooch, mint - pouches or cut) or junk food. Anything you pick will be better than tobacco. Once you find something to shove in your mouth check out the welcome center - the pink link up top left. read it all then follow the directions. Welcome.
Mich couldn't have said it any better, any of the things he mentioned will help with the craving. you could also try tooth picks or hard candy as well. Me myself, I went with junk food :D . Of course I gained about 20 pounds as well but it was so worth it. I would take those 20 pounds over killing myself with dip any day!!! Exercise will help with the cravings as well as it keeps you busy and keeps the ole heart pumping and of course its good for you. If you need anything at all feel free to pm me.
You might consider pming Gmann I'm sure he would oblige to offer something to put in your mouth to satisfy your oral fixation.
'loot01'
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'crackup'
Try jolly rancher cinnamon fire and sunflower seeds. I found some ginger candies that are awesome called gin gins
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'crackup'
Try jolly rancher cinnamon fire and sunflower seeds. I found some ginger candies that are awesome called gin gins
'Popcorn' I'm not going to say what I'm thinking. I'm probably thinking the same thing scotm is laughing about... Toothpicks and gum does me just fine. Glad to have you aboard. I quit with you my friend.
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I'm 24 years old, been dipping for 7 years and average a can and a half a day. Not sure why I decided to quit just woke up the other morning and decided enough is enough. I've taken the advice of not boozing for the first little while. Now I'm trying to find anything and I mean anything to get the scent and taste of my favorite grizzly wintergreen out of my head. My muscles ache, feet hurt, and in a huge fog. If anybody has any ideas on what to throw in my mouth to calm these urges ill try anything.
I bought a 500 pack of toothpicks which really helped me out. I hear they even make bacon flavored toothpicks...mmmm bacon
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I'm 24 years old, been dipping for 7 years and average a can and a half a day. Not sure why I decided to quit just woke up the other morning and decided enough is enough. I've taken the advice of not boozing for the first little while. Now I'm trying to find anything and I mean anything to get the scent and taste of my favorite grizzly wintergreen out of my head. My muscles ache, feet hurt, and in a huge fog. If anybody has any ideas on what to throw in my mouth to calm these urges ill try anything.
Welcome to KTC Murph! As you have discovered you have to be careful in what you say around here, as no matter where you are in your quit, we have a lot of ghey, fellers in here that will take advantage of your new quit and "oral fixations"
Anyhow, look around get comfy, and settle in for a few shit day. Lots of water, I never did the food thing, I just went and destroyed the gym. However you do it, remember you are quit. I quit with you today.
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Murph, I see you only have one post.
Why don't you head to the upper left salmon colored WELCOME CENTER (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=13) And see what we do around here.
We post roll in our quit groups each day which is our promise to not use nicotine today.
If you want to use this site to its fullest, head on over to the July '13 quit group and post on up.
It's worth it.
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I can see everybody on the site is friendly.... Didn't mean to get a few of your hopes up. Loved the welcome, makes me feel like I'm back in a locker room. Not sure where to sign in for the roll call, or how to find the July 2013 group.
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I can see everybody on the site is friendly.... Didn't mean to get a few of your hopes up. Loved the welcome, makes me feel like I'm back in a locker room. Not sure where to sign in for the roll call, or how to find the July 2013 group.
Murph, go to the welcome center read on how to post roll. Then go to quit groups from the main screen and post up roll.
July Quit group (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=8025)
do it every day, its your promise, to not use for 24 hours, wash rinse and repeat.
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Thanks, I figured it out, screwed it up a bit, but the effort was there. I'm not the best with computers.
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Good for you man, the next few days push water hard, read up and reach out on the site, make a few friends, it'll save your quit one day.
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Thanks, I figured it out, screwed it up a bit, but the effort was there. I'm not the best with computers.
Yea you got close but it's fixed now! Quit on
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Thanks, I figured it out, screwed it up a bit, but the effort was there. I'm not the best with computers.
Yea you got close but it's fixed now! Quit on
Welcome Murph8804, Whatever it takes for you "not" to put the poison in your mouth today is okay.
Do this one day at a time and your daze will stack up faster than a L.A. Boob job on 59th st.
Quit on brother... 'zombie'
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I found some ginger candies that are awesome called gin gins
Heh heh...everybody likes a little ginger candy... :D
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Packing on the pounds... Anyone else having this problem? It's getting a bit ridiculous, even though its better to be plump then give in and start dipping again! Would love to slow down the pound a day I am gaining!
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Packing on the pounds... Anyone else having this problem? It's getting a bit ridiculous, even though its better to be plump then give in and start dipping again! Would love to slow down the pound a day I am gaining!
Fat alive is a better combo than skinny dead. Exercise was something that really helped me. But early on (where you are now), you need to do whatever it takes to stay nic free.
You could try switching to tooth picks...those cinnamon flavored tooth picks worked best for me. Driving was a huge trigger. So I had a few of those tucked in the headliner of me truck. Anything to stay quit, brother. You can do this!
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Packing on the pounds... Anyone else having this problem? It's getting a bit ridiculous, even though its better to be plump then give in and start dipping again! Would love to slow down the pound a day I am gaining!
Fat alive is a better combo than skinny dead. Exercise was something that really helped me. But early on (where you are now), you need to do whatever it takes to stay nic free.
You could try switching to tooth picks...those cinnamon flavored tooth picks worked best for me. Driving was a huge trigger. So I had a few of those tucked in the headliner of me truck. Anything to stay quit, brother. You can do this!
Bean mentioned toothpicks and that's what i like. I went to gnc and got mint oil. Made some mint toothpicks. They are great. I also got cinnamon oil and made cinnamon. I like the mint ones the best. Cinnamon ones are a little hot.
Quit on and I'll quit right along with you.
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Packing on the pounds... Anyone else having this problem? It's getting a bit ridiculous, even though its better to be plump then give in and start dipping again! Would love to slow down the pound a day I am gaining!
Fat alive is a better combo than skinny dead. Exercise was something that really helped me. But early on (where you are now), you need to do whatever it takes to stay nic free.
You could try switching to tooth picks...those cinnamon flavored tooth picks worked best for me. Driving was a huge trigger. So I had a few of those tucked in the headliner of me truck. Anything to stay quit, brother. You can do this!
Bean mentioned toothpicks and that's what i like. I went to gnc and got mint oil. Made some mint toothpicks. They are great. I also got cinnamon oil and made cinnamon. I like the mint ones the best. Cinnamon ones are a little hot.
Quit on and I'll quit right along with you.
You can do it Murph.
You're body is adjusting to "not" having a fake adrenalin spurt caused by nic.
You're body is adjusting to digesting and everything else without the nic.
I gained 22 pounds initially and I actually ate less...go figure...I believe it is the body readjusting what it does, but now without the nicotine and all the poisons that go with it.
Nicotine helps nothing! We have to realize this through and through.
Try not to be so hard on yourself regarding the weight gain...you can focus on exercise and weight loss when you are ready...one day at a time.
You're doing super duper great!!!
Quit on Mister!!! 'bang head'
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Day 45... Walked into my local bar for the first time since my quit... I was met with a spitter and a coors light. Never felt better knowing I wouldn't need the spitter and just enjoy my night. Always fun to see the expression in people's faces wondering how in the hell your able to do it. For all you on your first few days always remember to post roll and quit one day at a time. Forever is way to hard, but everybody is able to quit for 24 hours if you put your mind to it. Love all of you that have helped so far, for these last 45 days of freedom and then + 1 tomorrow.
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Day 45... Walked into my local bar for the first time since my quit... I was met with a spitter and a coors light. Never felt better knowing I wouldn't need the spitter and just enjoy my night. Always fun to see the expression in people's faces wondering how in the hell your able to do it. For all you on your first few days always remember to post roll and quit one day at a time. Forever is way to hard, but everybody is able to quit for 24 hours if you put your mind to it. Love all of you that have helped so far, for these last 45 days of freedom and then + 1 tomorrow.
Bad. Ass. Proud to be Junk Free in July with you man!
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Day 45... Walked into my local bar for the first time since my quit... I was met with a spitter and a coors light. Never felt better knowing I wouldn't need the spitter and just enjoy my night. Always fun to see the expression in people's faces wondering how in the hell your able to do it. For all you on your first few days always remember to post roll and quit one day at a time. Forever is way to hard, but everybody is able to quit for 24 hours if you put your mind to it. Love all of you that have helped so far, for these last 45 days of freedom and then + 1 tomorrow.
Bad. Ass. Proud to be Junk Free in July with you man!
So far so good ..... Stay Strong !
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Day 45... Walked into my local bar for the first time since my quit... I was met with a spitter and a coors light. Never felt better knowing I wouldn't need the spitter and just enjoy my night. Always fun to see the expression in people's faces wondering how in the hell your able to do it. For all you on your first few days always remember to post roll and quit one day at a time. Forever is way to hard, but everybody is able to quit for 24 hours if you put your mind to it. Love all of you that have helped so far, for these last 45 days of freedom and then + 1 tomorrow.
Bad. Ass. Proud to be Junk Free in July with you man!
So far so good ..... Stay Strong !
Its always fun going back to "that" store and when she asked how many cans telling them none and they scratch their head lol
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Day 55,
Walked into a cluster at work, total chaos, understaffed(bad employees), and total lack of communication overall. I spent the first hour and a half, fixing everything that our general manager screws up daily. It truly is incredible he still has a job, with the amount of poor business decisions, customer service skills, and overall introvertive personality. Through all of this I have some how managed to stay sort of calm, and not even consider bumming a pinch off of one the donkeys I call employees.
I honestly could not stand work for the last two years, but if i didn't work here I would not have been able to continue my passion of coaching. They told me either I work at the rink or find employment else were coaching wise. Not sure if it was boarder line depression, or just pure anger in general, I got pretty low in overall self esteem. I was drinking to much, chewing way more then usual, and packed on the pounds. My friends and family couldn't stand being around me, I was in a bad place, and didn't even realize it.
April 15th I found this site a Day after I stopped dipping, this place has been a true life saver ever since. Its given me so much more then just being nicotine free, I've started to take control of my life again. I've re-enrolled in school, slowed the drinking almost to a halt, I'm slowly getting back into shape, dieting, and most importantly staying true to my promise everyday. As stupid as it sounds, I am actually happy with my life.
I really have no idea why I decide to ramble on this afternoon. Mostly, I would just like to thank everyone here, for being so supportive, and wanting to help everybody fight through their addiction to nicotine. This is not the end for me, that promise to not use nicotine for 24 hours, has changed my way of life for the better.I quit with everyone today!
Murph
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As stupid as it sounds, I am actually happy with my life.
Not stupid at all. I'm with you, man. Quitting chewing has been a lot more rewarding than I thought it would be. There are definitely benefits above and beyond just not having face cancer. I found that being forced to deal with the real world without the nicotine crutch was pretty jarring at first. But after my brain rewired a bit (still a work in process I assume), I found that my quit sort of forced me to develop the regular coping mechanisms that most humans have enjoyed for centuries. And they work well. Keep on quittin', glad to be quit with you every FUCKING day.
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As stupid as it sounds, I am actually happy with my life.
Not stupid at all. I'm with you, man. Quitting chewing has been a lot more rewarding than I thought it would be. There are definitely benefits above and beyond just not having face cancer. I found that being forced to deal with the real world without the nicotine crutch was pretty jarring at first. But after my brain rewired a bit (still a work in process I assume), I found that my quit sort of forced me to develop the regular coping mechanisms that most humans have enjoyed for centuries. And they work well. Keep on quittin', glad to be quit with you every FUCKING day.
July! Showin' some quit stamina! If we could only come up with a decent name...
Proud to quit with you guys.
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Stupid iPhone.
Nothing to see here.
Move along...
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As stupid as it sounds, I am actually happy with my life.
Not stupid at all. I'm with you, man. Quitting chewing has been a lot more rewarding than I thought it would be. There are definitely benefits above and beyond just not having face cancer. I found that being forced to deal with the real world without the nicotine crutch was pretty jarring at first. But after my brain rewired a bit (still a work in process I assume), I found that my quit sort of forced me to develop the regular coping mechanisms that most humans have enjoyed for centuries. And they work well. Keep on quittin', glad to be quit with you every FUCKING day.
July! Showin' some quit stamina! If we could only come up with a decent name...
Proud to quit with you guys.
Agreed - "Junk Free" isn't doing it for me... but there is NOTHING better. See:
Julyfetime 2013
The Julynebackers
The Julyvestock
The Julyghtweights
The Julykeables
Julycense and Registration
Angry July Of The Immoral Evolution
The Bears
All terrible. I apologize in advance to anyone who reads this.
Mr. Madison, what you've just said is one of the most insanely idiotic things I have ever heard. At no point in your rambling, incoherent response were you even close to anything that could be considered a rational thought. Everyone in this room is now dumber for having listened to it. I award you no points, and may God have mercy on your soul.
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As stupid as it sounds, I am actually happy with my life.
Not stupid at all. I'm with you, man. Quitting chewing has been a lot more rewarding than I thought it would be. There are definitely benefits above and beyond just not having face cancer. I found that being forced to deal with the real world without the nicotine crutch was pretty jarring at first. But after my brain rewired a bit (still a work in process I assume), I found that my quit sort of forced me to develop the regular coping mechanisms that most humans have enjoyed for centuries. And they work well. Keep on quittin', glad to be quit with you every FUCKING day.
July! Showin' some quit stamina! If we could only come up with a decent name...
Proud to quit with you guys.
Agreed - "Junk Free" isn't doing it for me... but there is NOTHING better. See:
Julyfetime 2013
The Julynebackers
The Julyvestock
The Julyghtweights
The Julykeables
Julycense and Registration
Angry July Of The Immoral Evolution
The Bears
All terrible. I apologize in advance to anyone who reads this.
Mr. Madison, what you've just said is one of the most insanely idiotic things I have ever heard. At no point in your rambling, incoherent response were you even close to anything that could be considered a rational thought. Everyone in this room is now dumber for having listened to it. I award you no points, and may God have mercy on your soul.
Dude... Even if we award you no points for the 'ahem' well thought out list of names... You get a BIG one for using a dumbass Adam Sandler movie quote to good effect 'crackup'
How 'bout, July've Free or Die... or The Bears. I'm easy.
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As stupid as it sounds, I am actually happy with my life.
Not stupid at all. I'm with you, man. Quitting chewing has been a lot more rewarding than I thought it would be. There are definitely benefits above and beyond just not having face cancer. I found that being forced to deal with the real world without the nicotine crutch was pretty jarring at first. But after my brain rewired a bit (still a work in process I assume), I found that my quit sort of forced me to develop the regular coping mechanisms that most humans have enjoyed for centuries. And they work well. Keep on quittin', glad to be quit with you every FUCKING day.
July! Showin' some quit stamina! If we could only come up with a decent name...
Proud to quit with you guys.
Agreed - "Junk Free" isn't doing it for me... but there is NOTHING better. See:
Julyfetime 2013
The Julynebackers
The Julyvestock
The Julyghtweights
The Julykeables
Julycense and Registration
Angry July Of The Immoral Evolution
The Bears
All terrible. I apologize in advance to anyone who reads this.
Mr. Madison, what you've just said is one of the most insanely idiotic things I have ever heard. At no point in your rambling, incoherent response were you even close to anything that could be considered a rational thought. Everyone in this room is now dumber for having listened to it. I award you no points, and may God have mercy on your soul.
Dude... Even if we award you no points for the 'ahem' well thought out list of names... You get a BIG one for using a dumbass Adam Sandler movie quote to good effect 'crackup'
How 'bout, July've Free or Die... or The Bears. I'm easy.
Da Bears.. can't just be The Bears
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Yesterday, was by far the worst day I've had in this fight. Driving home, around 1105 and that bitch starting swinging for the fences. I started sweating and shaking a little bit, it was nuts and all the bitch kept saying is just have one and throw it away. Phone was dead, nobody was in the car was with me, I thought it was over, by some divine intervention, every gas station on my way back home from work had there lights off, and were closed. If that wasn't a sign that I was meant to be quit, not sure what else is. I was so happy to post Day 64 this morning, it was unbelievable. I hope that never happens again. It was truly crazy how much of a hold she had on me at the point even if it was only for 20 minutes. I bought a car charger this morning so the phone trouble will never happen again. Happy Fathers Day, stay vigilant, the bitch can bite you at any time.
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Yesterday, was by far the worst day I've had in this fight. Driving home, around 1105 and that bitch starting swinging for the fences. I started sweating and shaking a little bit, it was nuts and all the bitch kept saying is just have one and throw it away. Phone was dead, nobody was in the car was with me, I thought it was over, by some divine intervention, every gas station on my way back home from work had there lights off, and were closed. If that wasn't a sign that I was meant to be quit, not sure what else is. I was so happy to post Day 64 this morning, it was unbelievable. I hope that never happens again. It was truly crazy how much of a hold she had on me at the point even if it was only for 20 minutes. I bought a car charger this morning so the phone trouble will never happen again. Happy Fathers Day, stay vigilant, the bitch can bite you at any time.
I love these stories of how you amazing guys DON'T cave! I know there have been a rash of caves lately and to hear how yes, it can be very tough but you can feel so great the next day that you DIDN'T cave, evaluate what happened, correct it and give us all encouragement that no matter how tough it is... You do not have to put nicotine in your mouth!
Thank you for sharing what happened.
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Yesterday, was by far the worst day I've had in this fight. Driving home, around 1105 and that bitch starting swinging for the fences. I started sweating and shaking a little bit, it was nuts and all the bitch kept saying is just have one and throw it away. Phone was dead, nobody was in the car was with me, I thought it was over, by some divine intervention, every gas station on my way back home from work had there lights off, and were closed. If that wasn't a sign that I was meant to be quit, not sure what else is. I was so happy to post Day 64 this morning, it was unbelievable. I hope that never happens again. It was truly crazy how much of a hold she had on me at the point even if it was only for 20 minutes. I bought a car charger this morning so the phone trouble will never happen again. Happy Fathers Day, stay vigilant, the bitch can bite you at any time.
I love these stories of how you amazing guys DON'T cave! I know there have been a rash of caves lately and to hear how yes, it can be very tough but you can feel so great the next day that you DIDN'T cave, evaluate what happened, correct it and give us all encouragement that no matter how tough it is... You do not have to put nicotine in your mouth!
Thank you for sharing what happened.
Well done bro. Proud to be in July with you!
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Yesterday, was by far the worst day I've had in this fight. Driving home, around 1105 and that bitch starting swinging for the fences. I started sweating and shaking a little bit, it was nuts and all the bitch kept saying is just have one and throw it away. Phone was dead, nobody was in the car was with me, I thought it was over, by some divine intervention, every gas station on my way back home from work had there lights off, and were closed. If that wasn't a sign that I was meant to be quit, not sure what else is. I was so happy to post Day 64 this morning, it was unbelievable. I hope that never happens again. It was truly crazy how much of a hold she had on me at the point even if it was only for 20 minutes. I bought a car charger this morning so the phone trouble will never happen again. Happy Fathers Day, stay vigilant, the bitch can bite you at any time.
I love these stories of how you amazing guys DON'T cave! I know there have been a rash of caves lately and to hear how yes, it can be very tough but you can feel so great the next day that you DIDN'T cave, evaluate what happened, correct it and give us all encouragement that no matter how tough it is... You do not have to put nicotine in your mouth!
Thank you for sharing what happened.
Well done bro. Proud to be in July with you!
Nice job murph. Today you woke up stronger than you were yesterday. today you are a warrior that you weren't a day earlier. You laid a solid brick in the foundation of the rest of your life. That's an inspiration to me tonight as I read this getting ready for bed, thanks for sharing.
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Day 85,
I can see why so many people fail quitting now. The last two weeks have been hell, it is like I am in the first week all over again. Not really sure why, but I have had to beat off the nic bitch with a stick hard. Ive got the funk back, eating like a madman, sleeping a lot, its such bullshit. I hate losing though more then I like winning though, I am going to beat this bitch. I don't care how angry and how many people I piss off I am not giving in. I hope all of you that are new, read this, and stay close to this damn site. Ive posted roll from my phone at 1 in the morning the morning to make sure I didn't cave. That means more to me then anything keeping my work and post roll. Stay strong, dont give in fuckers!
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Day 85,
I can see why so many people fail quitting now. The last two weeks have been hell, it is like I am in the first week all over again. Not really sure why, but I have had to beat off the nic bitch with a stick hard. Ive got the funk back, eating like a madman, sleeping a lot, its such bullshit. I hate losing though more then I like winning though, I am going to beat this bitch. I don't care how angry and how many people I piss off I am not giving in. I hope all of you that are new, read this, and stay close to this damn site. Ive posted roll from my phone at 1 in the morning the morning to make sure I didn't cave. That means more to me then anything keeping my work and post roll. Stay strong, dont give in fuckers!
Keep your head up Murph. I'm right behind you brother and I feel you in this. This has been the hardest mental stretch of quit so far. BUT... you have been a quit monster for 85 days man. Eighty Five Days. One more day? Piece of cake bro. You got this. Quit with you!
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Day 85,
I can see why so many people fail quitting now. The last two weeks have been hell, it is like I am in the first week all over again. Not really sure why, but I have had to beat off the nic bitch with a stick hard. Ive got the funk back, eating like a madman, sleeping a lot, its such bullshit. I hate losing though more then I like winning though, I am going to beat this bitch. I don't care how angry and how many people I piss off I am not giving in. I hope all of you that are new, read this, and stay close to this damn site. Ive posted roll from my phone at 1 in the morning the morning to make sure I didn't cave. That means more to me then anything keeping my work and post roll. Stay strong, dont give in fuckers!
The nic biatch knows you are winning. Its gonna hit you with the kitchen sink, especially knowingyou are so close to the hof.
Stay strong, stay vigilant, and stay close to this site. There's some glorious shit on the other side of this funk. Believe that.
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Wow.
I see you lurking right now.
Your last post in our group or on site was September '13 at, like, 146 days.
Today... I'm at 1,272 days.
You?
Still quit?
Coming back with your tail between your legs?
Man up. What gives?
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I see you lurking again.
I see you changed your quit date from 3+ years ago to 8 days ago.
I see that you fell away from posting roll and completely boned what could potentially be almost 1,300 days quit.
You know what to do.
Do. It.
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I see you lurking again.
I see you changed your quit date from 3+ years ago to 8 days ago.
I see that you fell away from posting roll and completely boned what could potentially be almost 1,300 days quit.
You know what to do.
Do. It.
Youd be close to 1,300 days now. The thought of blowing my quit like that and having to go through the beginning hell again makes my stomach turn. I'm pulling for you to make this one last.
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Day 85,
I can see why so many people fail quitting now. The last two weeks have been hell, it is like I am in the first week all over again. Not really sure why, but I have had to beat off the nic bitch with a stick hard. Ive got the funk back, eating like a madman, sleeping a lot, its such bullshit. I hate losing though more then I like winning though, I am going to beat this bitch. I don't care how angry and how many people I piss off I am not giving in. I hope all of you that are new, read this, and stay close to this damn site. Ive posted roll from my phone at 1 in the morning the morning to make sure I didn't cave. That means more to me then anything keeping my work and post roll. Stay strong, dont give in fuckers!
I think you owe us a new intro seems like you were pretty resolved to quit back then and were doing well
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Day 85,
I can see why so many people fail quitting now. The last two weeks have been hell, it is like I am in the first week all over again. Not really sure why, but I have had to beat off the nic bitch with a stick hard. Ive got the funk back, eating like a madman, sleeping a lot, its such bullshit. I hate losing though more then I like winning though, I am going to beat this bitch. I don't care how angry and how many people I piss off I am not giving in. I hope all of you that are new, read this, and stay close to this damn site. Ive posted roll from my phone at 1 in the morning the morning to make sure I didn't cave. That means more to me then anything keeping my work and post roll. Stay strong, dont give in fuckers!
I think you owe us a new intro seems like you were pretty resolved to quit back then and were doing well
Nope.
Hell no.
Come back all sly posting a day 5 and you should be at 1,580... 3 days ahead of me?
Nope.
I'm sick of the pampering I see anymore. This guy knows better... really knows. Check back at posts from October when I saw him lurking about the halls here. Wasn't man enough to pull the trigger... wasn't man enough to explain his "day 5" bullshit to his new group... won't be man enough to count on for any level of integrity.
Everyone deserves to be Quit but some of them don't deserve to be Quit here in these halls. Trying time and again is bullshit. Especially when you ride the bitch for 1,000+ days since you last posted any kind of promise... and that, in my book, is even suspect.
Pathetic.
For good measure... unless I didn't come across clear... read Trauma's intro, our fellow July '13 bro, then... fuck right off.
No excuses.
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Intro part two;
I apologize my mental resolve and intestinal fortitude was not up to your standards. I agree, I left without a trace like a pussy. I have not lied though about being off nicotine, I Knew these questions were coming. That's why I posted there. I didn't come up with a new email, yes, I should have found these questions sooner, rather then just posting roll. I'm 28 years old, I tried and unsuccessfully failed because of not reaching out for support or help when I was about the fall off the wagon. Little did I know, until it was pointed out to me that it had been over years. It didn't feel like that long, time flys. I have tried and failed with the day here half a day here routine, when those that were close to you bust your balls. I did it this time for myself, I have endured all the craziness, my fiancé wants to throw me out, people at work are terrified of me, I should not operate anything with a motor, I cant shit, the smells coming out of me are horrible, I am biting right through my lip, im embracing this , and scrapping by. I apologize again, for not going through this the right way, I understand words do not mean a damn thing actions do. Murph- Day 5. Need all the help I can get. Also, I am a horribly slow typist, my hands are way to big for this keyboard.
1. What happened and for how long did you cave?
To be totally honest, quit my job, moved 900 miles away to a city I have never been to. Been here ever since. I lasted a while, eventually just gave in, everyone chewed, not an excuse but the truth and being 24 years old at the time. I tried a few times on and off to quit again but I did my best by posting in here and being held somewhat accountable.
2. Why did it happen?
I never reached out, never really got involved. I was having success and figured I could do it on my own. Why did I not come back and beg for mercy and fill out these questions and start all over again? I wasn't ready, I got my fix back and life was good again. I don't believe I'm the only "Douche Bag" ever, who has caved and not wanted to deal with all the bullshit, which I truly do deserve. I never meant to doupe anybody, or by leaving mentally mind fuck others quits. I just road off into the sunset like a pussy.
3. What are you going to do differently this time to make sure it doesn't happen again?
This was the first time ever, I woke up, and had enough. I didn't finish my last tin, I poured it down the toilet, started chewing gum and staying busy. Ive tried everything under the sun, never really make it past lunch. I actually wanted to quit, not for my fiancé, the life insurance guy, my mother, the kids I coach, I finally grew tired of having to have a dip to function.
I understand that everyone here takes this seriously, I was not trying to sneak in and get away with not having to answer for my "cave/collapse/ghosting". Call me a douche bag all you want, tell me to piss off, I don't mind. If this is your way of protecting your site and the members I understand. I understand that this is all about be accountable and honorable. I took the chicken shit way out by leaving and never coming back. I've never posted while dipping, or lied about roll. I waited this time to make sure I was serious and again knew this was coming. If anybody has any questions I'm more then happy to answer them.
4. Do you really want to quit?
Yes. I don't know how to answer this any other way.
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Intro part two;
I apologize my mental resolve and intestinal fortitude was not up to your standards. I agree, I left without a trace like a pussy. I have not lied though about being off nicotine, I Knew these questions were coming. That's why I posted there. I didn't come up with a new email, yes, I should have found these questions sooner, rather then just posting roll. I'm 28 years old, I tried and unsuccessfully failed because of not reaching out for support or help when I was about the fall off the wagon. Little did I know, until it was pointed out to me that it had been over years. It didn't feel like that long, time flys. I have tried and failed with the day here half a day here routine, when those that were close to you bust your balls. I did it this time for myself, I have endured all the craziness, my fiancé wants to throw me out, people at work are terrified of me, I should not operate anything with a motor, I cant shit, the smells coming out of me are horrible, I am biting right through my lip, im embracing this , and scrapping by. I apologize again, for not going through this the right way, I understand words do not mean a damn thing actions do. Murph- Day 5. Need all the help I can get. Also, I am a horribly slow typist, my hands are way to big for this keyboard.
1. What happened and for how long did you cave?
To be totally honest, quit my job, moved 900 miles away to a city I have never been to. Been here ever since. I lasted a while, eventually just gave in, everyone chewed, not an excuse but the truth and being 24 years old at the time. I tried a few times on and off to quit again but I did my best by posting in here and being held somewhat accountable.
2. Why did it happen?
I never reached out, never really got involved. I was having success and figured I could do it on my own. Why did I not come back and beg for mercy and fill out these questions and start all over again? I wasn't ready, I got my fix back and life was good again. I don't believe I'm the only "Douche Bag" ever, who has caved and not wanted to deal with all the bullshit, which I truly do deserve. I never meant to doupe anybody, or by leaving mentally mind fuck others quits. I just road off into the sunset like a pussy.
3. What are you going to do differently this time to make sure it doesn't happen again?
This was the first time ever, I woke up, and had enough. I didn't finish my last tin, I poured it down the toilet, started chewing gum and staying busy. Ive tried everything under the sun, never really make it past lunch. I actually wanted to quit, not for my fiancé, the life insurance guy, my mother, the kids I coach, I finally grew tired of having to have a dip to function.
I understand that everyone here takes this seriously, I was not trying to sneak in and get away with not having to answer for my "cave/collapse/ghosting". Call me a douche bag all you want, tell me to piss off, I don't mind. If this is your way of protecting your site and the members I understand. I understand that this is all about be accountable and honorable. I took the chicken shit way out by leaving and never coming back. I've never posted while dipping, or lied about roll. I waited this time to make sure I was serious and again knew this was coming. If anybody has any questions I'm more then happy to answer them.
4. Do you really want to quit?
Yes. I don't know how to answer this any other way.
One year ago tomorrow, your July 13 quit brother Todd passed away after a long hard battle with a cancer undoubtedly caused by tobacco. You seem to be a young, bright dude... please don't subject your family to the misery that tobacco causes any further. Cancer is one thing, but the lies, the mood swings, the isolation and deceit... dude your family doesn't deserve that.
Use your big giant hands to build a quit network of accountability and keep your word. Don't EVER quit posting roll. Quit one day at a time, and keep your word. But post daily. This works dude, when nothing else does. Todd posted daily up to the very end. If he could keep his word, we all can.