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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Griffin on September 03, 2014, 04:31:00 PM
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I started this stupid crap 35 years ago. Rode my 12 year old ass to the 7-11 to buy my dad a pack of Camel's and a comic book for me. Somebody had left a can of Skoal Wintergreen on the counter so I stole it on my way out. Shit made me sick but I fought through it and soon found myself buying it on a regular basis. It was cool, spitting on the carpet in Middle School. The girls were impressed, I could tell. OK, they thought it was stupid. But I thought it was cool.
Started College in '85. Had a summer job working asphalt. Chewed all day everyday that summer. Started my Freshman year and didn't have a dip all year. Didn't have any money. First day back on the job-bought a can. This went on for 4 years until I graduated. Went two years without a dip. Started Law School. Bought a can, didn't like it. Bought another, same thing. Went all three years without a dip. Got married, started studying for the Bar Exam and boom, bought a can and haven't stopped for 19 years.
Found this site this morning. Enjoyed reading the posts, tips etc. Lurked around for about 2 hours WITH A FU*ING DIP IN! Thought to myself "that,s not very cool, time to quit." Dumped a perfectly good can down the drain and got back on the site and continued to read inspiring (and terrifying) stories of people fighting the fight. Went out to the can and pulled a half can out of the golf bag-dumped. Found a half can and a full can in my fishing bag. Gone. Need to look through the garage-usually have a can or two stashed somewhere.
Looks like this site is a great resource and I hope to get the support that can help me beat this bastard!
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I started this stupid crap 35 years ago. Rode my 12 year old ass to the 7-11 to buy my dad a pack of Camel's and a comic book for me. Somebody had left a can of Skoal Wintergreen on the counter so I stole it on my way out. Shit made me sick but I fought through it and soon found myself buying it on a regular basis. It was cool, spitting on the carpet in Middle School. The girls were impressed, I could tell. OK, they thought it was stupid. But I thought it was cool.
Started College in '85. Had a summer job working asphalt. Chewed all day everyday that summer. Started my Freshman year and didn't have a dip all year. Didn't have any money. First day back on the job-bought a can. This went on for 4 years until I graduated. Went two years without a dip. Started Law School. Bought a can, didn't like it. Bought another, same thing. Went all three years without a dip. Got married, started studying for the Bar Exam and boom, bought a can and haven't stopped for 19 years.
Found this site this morning. Enjoyed reading the posts, tips etc. Lurked around for about 2 hours WITH A FU*ING DIP IN! Thought to myself "that,s not very cool, time to quit." Dumped a perfectly good can down the drain and got back on the site and continued to read inspiring (and terrifying) stories of people fighting the fight. Went out to the can and pulled a half can out of the golf bag-dumped. Found a half can and a full can in my fishing bag. Gone. Need to look through the garage-usually have a can or two stashed somewhere.
Looks like this site is a great resource and I hope to get the support that can help me beat this bastard!
Welcome.
The best place to "get quit" and "be quit".
We do this ODAAT = One day at a time.
This site has the tools and knowledge to fight the nic bitch and WIN!
Stick around and your quit will stick.
There is a chat room...usually some badass in there to help you with anything.
It's always good to see another slave taking back his Freedom.
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Welcome and congrats on the dump.
Since you have already done a good bit of reading you know how central posting roll daily is to KTC's philosophy... It's that daily promise on roll to not use for the next 24 hrs that binds us all.
Now get over to Dec 2014 and post your day 1 Roll. Link below outlines how to post.
topic/1003072/1/ (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/1003072/1/)
As far as support goes on this site... Every last damn one of us wants you to quit. You have our support. Hell, you now have my phone number as well. Check your PM's. If your quit is going to shit and the cravings are getting to be too much... give me a call or a text. Now I won't cup your balls while
stroking your hair and singing lullabies to you, but I will listen, offer advice for what helped me, and tell you a few jokes that would make Andrew Dice Clay blush. Unless you prefer a good Lawyer joke.
Welcome to your first day of Freedom. First 3 day suck. Oh Yeah! (http://youtu.be/fSbFgt0wp_4)
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Good job on the dump. Keep up the good work
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Welcome aboard. You'll find that there's a lot of people here similar to you. Stick to the program and you will succeed.
I quit with you today.
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Griffin-
Welcome. The next few days are going to suck. I recommend using this intro to document how you are feeling, what you are going through each day so you'll remember it. Drink lots of water. Drink so much water that you have to piss every time you walk by a bathroom. Arm yourself with seeds, gum, beef jerky (anything but nicotine) and KTC knowledge- read, read and read some more. Post roll early and every damn day. If you do that and are a man of your word you can stay quit. Quit one day at a time. You can do anything for 24 hours right?
Feed your quit like you fed your addiction and you can beat it. No matter what you go through physically or mentally with your quit it pales in comparison to what you'll go through if you have oral cancer.
You'll never regret quitting and staying quit. Own your quit every damn day.
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Griffin,
Thanks for the support, I'm going to need it. Looking forward to posting another 98 roll calls with you.
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Griffin,
Thanks for the support, I'm going to need it. Looking forward to posting another 98 roll calls with you.
98? That's just the beginning. This addiction doesn't go away and if your wise you won't either (from this site that is).
Welcome and congratulations. There are a lot of tools, literally and figuratively, on this site. Your number one weapon is knowledge about your enemy...the nic whore. So arm yourself and prepare to fight.
When it gets tough, slow down, breath deep and focus...the crave will pass with or without nicotine. But, if you use...they will never get better.
PM me if you need anything.
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Keep it going minute by minute Griff. You should be in the suck pretty bad about now, but it's going to get better soon. I'm quit with you today.
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Saw the name of this thread "Here I go again" and couldn't help but hum the Whitesnake song...
The difference here is the next line... "on my own. Going down the only road I've ever known."
You sir are not alone. Together we're going to take you down a road you've never known. The path to freedom.
Welcome aboard sir.
chewie
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Saw the name of this thread "Here I go again" and couldn't help but hum the Whitesnake song...
The difference here is the next line... "on my own. Going down the only road I've ever known."
You sir are not alone. Together we're going to take you down a road you've never known. The path to freedom.
Welcome aboard sir.
chewie
That ^^^ is an awesome 80's hairband reference.
Chews, you get extra credit points. You can now have recess.
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I like the attitude Griffin, you seem to get it already, with the dumping of the cans and such. Stay strong through this Day 3, and soon the fog will lift, and sleep will get better. I quit with you today!
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Sitting in Court at 3:45 waiting for the fucking idiot DDA to make my idiot client a crappy offer that I'll reject and set this stupid case for trial. A trial I likely won't get paid for. Pretty flappy afternoon in Greeley Colorado.
Don't misinterpret this rant as a result of late day 3 withdrawal. I'm pretty much an asshole either way and everything I said above is true.
I'm pissed because the hour drive home from this courthouse on a Friday afternoon is one of the few highlights of my job. Get a sixer, perhaps a shooter or two and a new can, just in case.
I won't be doing any of those things today and I'm almost shaking.
Send some strong Quit force my way. I look forward to posting my successful arrival home.
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The commute home w/o dip is strange at first. In the near future I would recommend purchasing some gum, jolly ranchers or another alternative to your suiting that doesn't have nicotine. The first couple weeks SUCK... And then it won't. I quit w/ you today.
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The commute home w/o dip is strange at first. In the near future I would recommend purchasing some gum, jolly ranchers or another alternative to your suiting that doesn't have nicotine. The first couple weeks SUCK... And then it won't. I quit w/ you today.
Stay strong and get through the first few days and it starts getting better. Hope you are tough and stick it out. I've seen a couple folks from Greeley. A guy in Sept that hit 100 days either today or yday and MCO. You should hook up with MCO. He has nice pics he's willing to share.
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The commute home w/o dip is strange at first. In the near future I would recommend purchasing some gum, jolly ranchers or another alternative to your suiting that doesn't have nicotine. The first couple weeks SUCK... And then it won't. I quit w/ you today.
Stay strong and get through the first few days and it starts getting better. Hope you are tough and stick it out. I've seen a couple folks from Greeley. A guy in Sept that hit 100 days either today or yday and MCO. You should hook up with MCO. He has nice pics he's willing to share.
Yeah - I almost look forward to sunflower seeds on my shitty commute home in Atlanta traffic. It's the only time I eat sunflower seeds. It's tough to break these "routine" things but I dipped on the way home from work everyday for 15+ years. Now I just eat seeds and it's no big deal. As we say all the time, it sucks for a little while and then it doesn't. We were all nicotine fiends - if I can do it then you can too.
Lighty
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Welcome to KTC....
Embrace the suck it will come and go, don't give up. Reach out to everyone that you can, share your cell number, get in the live chat, make contacts. They will help you, but more importantly it will be reciprocated at some point. They will need support and you will be there. I quit with you today.
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Recommend you spend a lot of time on this site over the next few months learning about nicotine addiction and how the KTC method and tools will set you free. I chewed for about 20 years. I'm 374 days quit now. If I can do it. Trust me. I know you can. Read Read Read. Be active in your quit group. Make some friends. They just might save your life.
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Seven long days ago I sat at this desk, in front of this same computer and I had no freaking idea what I was getting myself into. I was hungover. Well, I haven't really been hungover in a decade, mostly because I haven't gone a day without at least a half dozen drinks. That's a different addiction and I'll be back to that later.
If not hungover I was in my usual haze/daze and I had a big fat lipper of Skoal Long Cut Mint. I had been marginally successful as a Ninja dipper but I was slipping, losing my edge. She found a can (must have been hidden some time ago as it was all dry) in the garage in a toolbox. Thankfully not the toolbox with the 1/2 empty (alcoholics tend to see it as half empty) bottle of Hornitos.
Anyway, I went online looking for herbal alternatives or cessation aides. I've tried the patch, the gum, the Chantix (really bad shit- stay away if possible) nothing worked. Somehow found this site, sat down and read for hours. Signed up, tossed the cans I had hidden in the house/car/garage.... I'm sure I missed one or two. Going to laugh my ass off when I find them.
Back to my point. I suffered through days 1-4. Real, physical and psychological pain. Days 5 and 6, nice. More bad habit stuff than Nic withdrawl. Then Boom. Day 7 was bad. Not so much a hard crave as a 24 hour headache. Nothing helped. Actually got some sleep for a change and feel much better today, day 8.
I have to admit that there is no way on earth that I could have made it this far without spending a good deal of time on here with my brothers and sisters in Quit. Posting Roll makes it real. I honest to God find myself thinking how, in maybe a month or two, I can have a dip. I don't think about one today because, well, dammit, I posted Roll and I'm going to honor that.
The other reason I'm still quit, and plan on being so for good, is I haven't had a drop to drink. I know that if I have one I'll have a dozen and somewhere between 3 and 4 I'll sneak out, probably drive drunk (why should today be different right?) and buy a fucking can. Well, I'm not going to buy a can so I don't drink. My Dip Quit is so fucking important to me that I will not drink. Hard for me to believe but there it is. One Day at a Time and Killing two birds with one stone. Fuck Yeah.
Thanks folks, I really couldn't do this without you and I Quit Like Fuck with All Y'all every fucking day!
Griff Day 8
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Seven long days ago I sat at this desk, in front of this same computer and I had no freaking idea what I was getting myself into. I was hungover. Well, I haven't really been hungover in a decade, mostly because I haven't gone a day without at least a half dozen drinks. That's a different addiction and I'll be back to that later.
If not hungover I was in my usual haze/daze and I had a big fat lipper of Skoal Long Cut Mint. I had been marginally successful as a Ninja dipper but I was slipping, losing my edge. She found a can (must have been hidden some time ago as it was all dry) in the garage in a toolbox. Thankfully not the toolbox with the 1/2 empty (alcoholics tend to see it as half empty) bottle of Hornitos.
Anyway, I went online looking for herbal alternatives or cessation aides. I've tried the patch, the gum, the Chantix (really bad shit- stay away if possible) nothing worked. Somehow found this site, sat down and read for hours. Signed up, tossed the cans I had hidden in the house/car/garage.... I'm sure I missed one or two. Going to laugh my ass off when I find them.
Back to my point. I suffered through days 1-4. Real, physical and psychological pain. Days 5 and 6, nice. More bad habit stuff than Nic withdrawl. Then Boom. Day 7 was bad. Not so much a hard crave as a 24 hour headache. Nothing helped. Actually got some sleep for a change and feel much better today, day 8.
I have to admit that there is no way on earth that I could have made it this far without spending a good deal of time on here with my brothers and sisters in Quit. Posting Roll makes it real. I honest to God find myself thinking how, in maybe a month or two, I can have a dip. I don't think about one today because, well, dammit, I posted Roll and I'm going to honor that.
The other reason I'm still quit, and plan on being so for good, is I haven't had a drop to drink. I know that if I have one I'll have a dozen and somewhere between 3 and 4 I'll sneak out, probably drive drunk (why should today be different right?) and buy a fucking can. Well, I'm not going to buy a can so I don't drink. My Dip Quit is so fucking important to me that I will not drink. Hard for me to believe but there it is. One Day at a Time and Killing two birds with one stone. Fuck Yeah.
Thanks folks, I really couldn't do this without you and I Quit Like Fuck with All Y'all every fucking day!
Griff Day 8
That's hardcore shit right there! I need to slow down my drinking as well, but focusing on no nicotine has my attention 100%. Good for you man!
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Griff — Shit. Nice job man. You've had a hell of a week.
Some advice on KTC: by now you've probably read a ton. You're accountable to your brothers and sisters in Quit by posting roll. Crazy to think, but since you've been quit a week now, you're not the newest quitter anymore. Go find some people who just quit — give 'em support, ride their ass if they think they're special, you get the point.
When I started on here at Day 70 I had gone that whole time thinking my quit is only about me. And a big part of it is... But now I know that the more people I support, the more people I'm going to let down if I cave. Honestly I've been here three days and the thought of the reactions of my October brothers if I were to break my promise and cave is enough to make me not do it.
I quit with you today.