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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Fort on August 16, 2010, 02:21:00 PM
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day 1 - Ready for the ride. Let the fun begin.
Fort
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day 1 - Ready for the ride. Let the fun begin.
Fort
Fort - tells us a bit about you. Why you started, why you want to quit, how long, how much, what's your plan.
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day 1 - Ready for the ride. Let the fun begin.
Fort
Fort - tells us a bit about you. Why you started, why you want to quit, how long, how much, what's your plan.
I betcha he likes Star Wars.
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I started when I was 18 cause it was the better thing to do than smoke. I have been at it since then and never thought I would quit cause it was my decision. Now i have to make decisions for my daughter and son. I realized that life is not about me anymore and my actions influence them.
So, 17 years later I am giving it up. When I reach 100 days it will be on my 35th birthday. A celebration for life and living the rest of it.
yoda was the only pic i could find on the work PC, still cool though.
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I started when I was 18 cause it was the better thing to do than smoke. I have been at it since then and never thought I would quit cause it was my decision. Now i have to make decisions for my daughter and son. I realized that life is not about me anymore and my actions influence them.
So, 17 years later I am giving it up. When I reach 100 days it will be on my 35th birthday. A celebration for life and living the rest of it.
yoda was the only pic i could find on the work PC, still cool though.
Great decision to quit and joining this site is an even better one cause it will help you stay quit. However, you need to be willing to do the work and use the resources this site has to offer. You need to read everything on this site. It's obvious that you haven't done so otherwise you would have come across the fact that you cannot quit for anyone else but you - it will work no other way. I know that not just becasue I read it on KTC, but because I've lived it. The first time the person you're quiting for pisses you off you will run, not crawl, back to the nic bitch just to spite them. I'm on day 51 thanks in large part to this site and that I've finally accepted the quiting for me as fact. Before it was because my wife and baby daughter need me. Now it's because I need to be there to experience all the great milestones awaiting my daughter (first day of school, graduations, marriage, kids, etc.) and awaiting my wife and I as a couple (daughter growing up, another kid, retirement, growing old together, etc.). You need to do this for you and we're here to help. Use the site and all of it's great resources. The best resource on this piece are the men and woman who are the recovering addicts that make it run and effective.
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Captn, please let me begin by saluting a higher ranking brother and congrats on your 51 days. I will be there soon.
I did not word my reason for quitting well and I apologize. It is for me and like you i want to be there to enjoy all the things my life has. I have never been the type to put me first, it is always the others in my life. Perhaps I worded it the wrong way.
Make no mistake, i am here for myself first. it is my addiction and only i can beat it. This will be done with my family at home and here. I may not post all the time, but i am here all day long reading and re-reading to make it stick.
Thanks again for your words, i know i will need them in the coming days and weeks.
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Captn, please let me begin by saluting a higher ranking brother and congrats on your 51 days. I will be there soon.
I did not word my reason for quitting well and I apologize. It is for me and like you i want to be there to enjoy all the things my life has. I have never been the type to put me first, it is always the others in my life. Perhaps I worded it the wrong way.
Make no mistake, i am here for myself first. it is my addiction and only i can beat it. This will be done with my family at home and here. I may not post all the time, but i am here all day long reading and re-reading to make it stick.
Thanks again for your words, i know i will need them in the coming days and weeks.
Great to hear and totally understand. Please do not hesitate to reach out if you need anything.
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Captn, please let me begin by saluting a higher ranking brother and congrats on your 51 days. I will be there soon.
I did not word my reason for quitting well and I apologize. It is for me and like you i want to be there to enjoy all the things my life has. I have never been the type to put me first, it is always the others in my life. Perhaps I worded it the wrong way.
Make no mistake, i am here for myself first. it is my addiction and only i can beat it. This will be done with my family at home and here. I may not post all the time, but i am here all day long reading and re-reading to make it stick.
Thanks again for your words, i know i will need them in the coming days and weeks.
Great to hear and totally understand. Please do not hesitate to reach out if you need anything.
Congrats on your decision to quit. When you commence reading and re-reading topics in this forum, you will notice a common point that is driven into our pea-sized, fog-ridden brains: Posting early and posting often (minimum everyday) is the key to success in these here hallowed grounds.
Take on some fellow quit brother phone numbers, text/call these fine quitters when in dire straits (or just to shoot the shit). If you need anything that I can help you with, PM me and I will give you my number.
Stay here and stay quit. Advice to live by.............
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Any help on how i can get through my first weekend on the Quit. I will be at day 6 and 7 and i am looking for suggestions to help me through those times when i would chew on the long days with no work.
Post here or shoot me a message. Thanks.
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Any help on how i can get through my first weekend on the Quit. I will be at day 6 and 7 and i am looking for suggestions to help me through those times when i would chew on the long days with no work.
Post here or shoot me a message. Thanks.
Stay close to the site. Stock up on supplies (gum, mint snuff, etc.), don't drink, jack off a lot so it'll feel better.
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Any help on how i can get through my first weekend on the Quit. I will be at day 6 and 7 and i am looking for suggestions to help me through those times when i would chew on the long days with no work.
Post here or shoot me a message. Thanks.
Stay close to the site. Stock up on supplies (gum, mint snuff, etc.), don't drink, jack off a lot so it'll feel better.
Jack off. Gread advice.
I can finally get my wife to help support me in my Quit.
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Any help on how i can get through my first weekend on the Quit. I will be at day 6 and 7 and i am looking for suggestions to help me through those times when i would chew on the long days with no work.
Post here or shoot me a message. Thanks.
Stay close to the site. Stock up on supplies (gum, mint snuff, etc.), don't drink, jack off a lot so it'll feel better.
Dave pretty much hit the nail on the head. Can't emphasize enough how much I recommend not drinking for a while. I found that hanging out in the chat room helped me quite a bit the first couple weeks. Drop on in over the weekend.
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Any help on how i can get through my first weekend on the Quit. I will be at day 6 and 7 and i am looking for suggestions to help me through those times when i would chew on the long days with no work.
Post here or shoot me a message. Thanks.
Stay close to the site. Stock up on supplies (gum, mint snuff, etc.), don't drink, jack off a lot so it'll feel better.
Dave pretty much hit the nail on the head. Can't emphasize enough how much I recommend not drinking for a while. I found that hanging out in the chat room helped me quite a bit the first couple weeks. Drop on in over the weekend.
Stay home, don't drink, stay away from dipping buddies.
Give us a rundown of your plans and we will critique them.
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Weekend plans are full of nothing. Normally i am busy all week but weekends are down-time and that was dippin' time. I have yard work, fix-it projects to do, same as everyone else but it was always done with a dip in before.
I plan to be on the site as much as I can. Every morning for roll call no porblem.
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Weekend plans are full of nothing. Normally i am busy all week but weekends are down-time and that was dippin' time. I have yard work, fix-it projects to do, same as everyone else but it was always done with a dip in before.
I plan to be on the site as much as I can. Every morning for roll call no porblem.
The first time you mow the lawn without a dip your mind will tell you that you can't do it. You'll reach into your backpocket to find your tin is not there. You will be amazed at the other things that will trigger cravings that you never even remembered dipping. I climb a fucking ladder, like what, once a fuckin year to clean my gutters? I remember getting a ball off the roof or soemthing--soon as i hit that ladder I got a craving.
The thing to do is stay busy. And yes, stay near the site as much as you can for support. you can fight the cravings. everyday gets easier.
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Weekend plans are full of nothing. Normally i am busy all week but weekends are down-time and that was dippin' time. I have yard work, fix-it projects to do, same as everyone else but it was always done with a dip in before.Â
I plan to be on the site as much as I can. Every morning for roll call no porblem.
The first time you mow the lawn without a dip your mind will tell you that you can't do it. You'll reach into your backpocket to find your tin is not there. You will be amazed at the other things that will trigger cravings that you never even remembered dipping. I climb a fucking ladder, like what, once a fuckin year to clean my gutters? I remember getting a ball off the roof or soemthing--soon as i hit that ladder I got a craving.
The thing to do is stay busy. And yes, stay near the site as much as you can for support. you can fight the cravings. everyday gets easier.
I keep thinking of all the things I used to do with a dip in. It is crazy. Taking a shit was the hardest thing to do without one but i think i got over that now.
My body has been on detox and it is driving me crazy. LOL
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Weekend plans are full of nothing. Normally i am busy all week but weekends are down-time and that was dippin' time. I have yard work, fix-it projects to do, same as everyone else but it was always done with a dip in before.Â
I plan to be on the site as much as I can. Every morning for roll call no porblem.
The first time you mow the lawn without a dip your mind will tell you that you can't do it. You'll reach into your backpocket to find your tin is not there. You will be amazed at the other things that will trigger cravings that you never even remembered dipping. I climb a fucking ladder, like what, once a fuckin year to clean my gutters? I remember getting a ball off the roof or soemthing--soon as i hit that ladder I got a craving.
The thing to do is stay busy. And yes, stay near the site as much as you can for support. you can fight the cravings. everyday gets easier.
I keep thinking of all the things I used to do with a dip in. It is crazy. Taking a shit was the hardest thing to do without one but i think i got over that now.
My body has been on detox and it is driving me crazy. LOL
I used to put a dip in first thing in the morning and then head into the shitter lol
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I've done just about everything with a dip in... including having sex. It will get better after the first couple of weeks. I chew gum mostly to fight cravings.
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I've done just about everything with a dip in... including having sex. It will get better after the first couple of weeks. I chew gum mostly to fight cravings.
I remember patting the back pocket everytime I headed for the private bathroom at work here. Did that for a couple of weeks. Taking a shit without a dip was unheard of...dude, everyone has done what you have done. Trust me, trust them, you can do it. I am about to go take a nice mean one, dip free. Can't give up the paper, but don't need a dip.
Dave you should get together with Deano, he liked to fuck and dip too.
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I've done just about everything with a dip in... including having sex. It will get better after the first couple of weeks. I chew gum mostly to fight cravings.
I remember patting the back pocket everytime I headed for the private bathroom at work here. Did that for a couple of weeks. Taking a shit without a dip was unheard of...dude, everyone has done what you have done. Trust me, trust them, you can do it. I am about to go take a nice mean one, dip free. Can't give up the paper, but don't need a dip.
Dave you should get together with Deano, he liked to fuck and dip too.
My wife didn't like it at all but I loved it.
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I've done just about everything with a dip in... including having sex. It will get better after the first couple of weeks. I chew gum mostly to fight cravings.
I remember patting the back pocket everytime I headed for the private bathroom at work here. Did that for a couple of weeks. Taking a shit without a dip was unheard of...dude, everyone has done what you have done. Trust me, trust them, you can do it. I am about to go take a nice mean one, dip free. Can't give up the paper, but don't need a dip.
Dave you should get together with Deano, he liked to fuck and dip too.
My wife didn't like it at all but I loved it.
not when the dip cup is on her ass.
'boob' 'arse'
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Oh that was fine.. I'd have her hold it for me so it wouldn't spill and I could concentrate on my business.
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So here I am at day 38. Feeling good, no cravings that I notice. The nic bitch is in her place and I can get through the day. My probelm is at night when I am at home winding down, I am in a lazy funk. Just not motivated to do anything and even TV doest get me going and then in the morning, I wake up with a depressed feeling.
Any thoughts on when this will pass or how to change this?
I know I should get up and do something, just dont feel like it. LOL :unsure:
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Get some exercise in bro, you'll feel a lot better..I know it's hard but force yourself to do it. Trust me you will see.
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I've battled depression most of my adult life. My trick is to keep my mind occupied with work or personal projects.
Sex, excercise, work, anything physical will help.
-Luke
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Get some exercise in bro, you'll feel a lot better..I know it's hard but force yourself to do it. Trust me you will see.
That is the probelm in the morning, i dont want to get up and go to the gym. LOL
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Its like this Fort ole boy, ( think british accent).
You have been using a stimulant and neuro toxin ( nicotine ) . now your not. Your body is REALLY USED to that and your internal wiring is a mess ( think LA freeway at rush hour) thanks to chewing. Your body isn't back to working normally by a long shot so give it time. Exercise will help jump start your system and kick you out of the funk. But like a fat chick with a crush, the funk will keep coming back.
Good news is this, the funk is a sure sign your body is trying to get back to normal,your healing!! AND the episodes of the funk become further and further apart. This is all normal. You can't poison yourself for years and expect NOT TO feel shitty and depressed after a month or two of being clean. It takes awhile to heal. Hell, I've had zits that took longer than your 38 days to clear up. Just chill lil buddy its all good, just stay quit today.
sm
p.s. you don't have to go to the gym, just take a walk around the block or couch if your really out of shape, and lay off the pringles there porky.
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Its like this Fort ole boy, ( think british accent).
You have been using a stimulant and neuro toxin ( nicotine ) . now your not. Your body is REALLY USED to that and your internal wiring is a mess ( think LA freeway at rush hour) thanks to chewing. Your body isn't back to working normally by a long shot so give it time. Exercise will help jump start your system and kick you out of the funk. But like a fat chick with a crush, the funk will keep coming back.
Good news is this, the funk is a sure sign your body is trying to get back to normal,your healing!! AND the episodes of the funk become further and further apart. This is all normal. You can't poison yourself for years and expect NOT TO feel shitty and depressed after a month or two of being clean. It takes awhile to heal. Hell, I've had zits that took longer than your 38 days to clear up. Just chill lil buddy its all good, just stay quit today.
sm
p.s. you don't have to go to the gym, just take a walk around the block or couch if your really out of shape, and lay off the pringles there porky.
Thanks for the overall upbeat note, Skoal Monster. It is good to know my body is healing. I know my mouth and gums feel great and my mind is coming to grips with things. I guess i wasnt expecting the Funk Monster too.
BTW, I can take a walk around the block but i have found a new love for ice cream sandwiches. MMMMMMMMMM.......... :wub:
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I'd like to add a "me too". Fuck I feel like burnt toast today. I have excercised. I am just fuckin' bummed and freaked out...again...over the idea that I chewed for almost 30 years. It never gets easier to write that. The shame and guilt and embarrassment verge on overwhelming. Oh well...as SM said how could you feel better in (insert days here - mine is 21) when you spent thousands poisoning yourself? Hanging in but today sucks balls.
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I'd like to add a "me too". Fuck I feel like burnt toast today. I have excercised. I am just fuckin' bummed and freaked out...again...over the idea that I chewed for almost 30 years. It never gets easier to write that. The shame and guilt and embarrassment verge on overwhelming. Oh well...as SM said how could you feel better in (insert days here - mine is 21) when you spent thousands poisoning yourself? Hanging in but today sucks balls.
Maybe it is the change of season, the full moon tomorrow or the fact that we are all kicking the shit out of the NIC bitch.
Either way, i have to thank everyone for posting on this site day in and day out. If it were not for this site and all of you, i would not be at day 38.
ARRRRGGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!
Now that feels good.
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the funk is bad, you can make it. it's nothing unusual but be careful. one of the posters below gave me great advice early in my quit (thanks skoalmonster)...power through and keep focused on the moment, not using. i spend (and still spend) most of my funky times in here, they do get shorter and easier to handle as you move farther away from using...i promise...time killer here and effin' funny
funk therapy (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=2349)
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I thought it would be good to take a look at my first day here on the site as i sit at day 50. Just a quick reflection back on my long road forward.
It is good to see that everything i struggled with in the beginning happens to all of us, old and new. Talk of the funk when i started was nothing compared to the rage of those first few days. When the funk did come, I knew what to do thanks to everyone here.
It is amazing how powerful reading others experiences have been. The ability to prepare and be ready for the tough times makes it easier to get through. No less a struggle but manageable knowing others have been here and have made it through. Why not me, right?
CanÂ’t wait for the Hall and beyond.
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I thought it would be good to take a look at my first day here on the site as i sit at day 50. Just a quick reflection back on my long road forward.
It is good to see that everything i struggled with in the beginning happens to all of us, old and new. Talk of the funk when i started was nothing compared to the rage of those first few days. When the funk did come, I knew what to do thanks to everyone here.
It is amazing how powerful reading others experiences have been. The ability to prepare and be ready for the tough times makes it easier to get through. No less a struggle but manageable knowing others have been here and have made it through. Why not me, right?
CanÂ’t wait for the Hall and beyond.
Never forget what got you to the point you are. It is easy to get relaxed and that is when bad things happen. Great work to this point, keep it up.
STAY CLEAN
Greg