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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: dipquitter on October 06, 2009, 08:48:00 PM
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hello all. I'm Jason. I'm 27 and as of today I have dipped for the past 11 years. I have never tried to quit before. I did kind of quit once when i got a cold, but that ended after 2 weeks when i met a friend at a bar and another one of his buddies were there dipping while drinking a cold bud light watching the Bama-LSU game last year....that was the most tempted i have ever been for anything in my entire life.
I am tired of it. I am tired of feeling like I have to dip. I am tired of seeing how my friends who i used to dip with have dropped the habit and moved on with their lives while i am still doing it after all of these years. I hate feeling like i am being controlled by something that has no business being in control over me. It makes me feel weak, and that has to stop.
I just cleaned my house, and i couldnt even count the dip bottles i had here. I took them, and my cans and threw them away in the trash. I am going to be dip free.
I know everyone here has been where i am now, but god dam this is going to be hard. Im gonna need some kind of hobby or something to get me through this. Everything i do reminds me of dip. working on my truck, being at work, studying for school, eating, driving, fishing, everything. Its gonna be hard but i can do it.
So, tomorrow I will go to the January 2010 quit group and post day one of roll call. If i can get the shit out of my system, I can do it. I have been through it once before, and i know what it is like. The only thing missing last time was a support group just like this site. If I had support back then, I am sure I would never had taken that dip that got me hooked again. I look forward to meeting a lot of you. What I have read so far has been very inspiring.
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Hey Jason, glad to see you are making a choice to better your life. It is going to be hard, but it will get better. Everyone here has had to go through what you have, so they can relate to you. I am only on day 35 and I feel great. I was like you though, thought about dip all the time during the first part of my quit. It goes away. If you ever need anything or anyone to talk to hop in the live chat. The people at this site are great. Just make sure you post roll everyday you can!
Best of luck,
Matt
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There are a few "ifs" and "tries" in your message that make me skeptical. Convince me that I am a cynical SOB. Do you have what it takes or are you just another fly by?
Smokeyg - 505 one day at a time.
And that ain't luck....
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There are a few "ifs" and "tries" in your message that make me skeptical. Convince me that I am a cynical SOB. Do you have what it takes or are you just another fly by?
Smokeyg - 505 one day at a time.
And that ain't luck....
On a site like this I think you should be a cynical SOB. I have read some of the ass rapings you guys have dished out and I completely agree with the ones I saw. Being here is a promise to everyone else here, and it is a promise I will keep.
Tomorrow I will post day one. There is nothing I can say to make you not be skeptical. All I can do is show you. I do have what it takes.
I agree about the "ifs" in my message. That was a poor choice of words, and was not the right words to voice my intent.
I will not dip again. That is all I can say. Talk is cheap, though. Let me show you I have what it takes.
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There are a few "ifs" and "tries" in your message that make me skeptical. Convince me that I am a cynical SOB. Do you have what it takes or are you just another fly by?
Smokeyg - 505 one day at a time.
And that ain't luck....
On a site like this I think you should be a cynical SOB. I have read some of the ass rapings you guys have dished out and I completely agree with the ones I saw. Being here is a promise to everyone else here, and it is a promise I will keep.
Tomorrow I will post day one. There is nothing I can say to make you not be skeptical. All I can do is show you. I do have what it takes.
I agree about the "ifs" in my message. That was a poor choice of words, and was not the right words to voice my intent.
I will not dip again. That is all I can say. Talk is cheap, though. Let me show you I have what it takes.
Make sure you read this: http://killthecan.org/yourquit/what.asp (http://killthecan.org/yourquit/what.asp)
and have a plan. If you know what to expect, and you devise some way to overcome the inevitable cravings then you are well on your way.
Next, post roll everyday...get to know some of your quit brothers and STAY ACCOUNTABLE.
Roll is a before you shit/shower/shave in the morning ritual. It is your promise to yourself and your quit brothers that no matter what else happens that day, you will keep that dog shit out of your face.
As far as my plan? I stocked up on gum and sunflower seeds and told everyone around me what I was doing. Craves can be intense, but most pass within a short time...especially as you get more days under your belt...just have something to re-direct your attention until the crave passes.
See you on the boards!
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will do jaydisco. I read that link earlier tonight. I've been thinking about my plan. I've kind of gotten in a funk lately with my diet and workout and it is really pissing me off. On top of being ready to kill the can, i really want to get back to the gym. I love exercise, and i cant really think of anything else better to curb wanting a dip than hitting the gym more like i need and want to do anyway. I'm just gonn have to make time for it, and not make excuses. I'm probably gonna go pick up a can of smokey mountain from walmart to get by the next day or so, but I may order some of that hooch stuff for the future. Im not too big on seeds. those things rip the shit out of my mouth and i dont really want all that salt.
I am gonna use this forum a lot. I do not have TV so i am on the internet all the time anyway.
I work late nights so shit/show/shave for me isnt until around noon, but ill be posting roll everyday.
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will do jaydisco. I read that link earlier tonight. I've been thinking about my plan. I've kind of gotten in a funk lately with my diet and workout and it is really pissing me off. On top of being ready to kill the can, i really want to get back to the gym. I love exercise, and i cant really think of anything else better to curb wanting a dip than hitting the gym more like i need and want to do anyway. I'm just gonn have to make time for it, and not make excuses. I'm probably gonna go pick up a can of smokey mountain from walmart to get by the next day or so, but I may order some of that hooch stuff for the future. Im not too big on seeds. those things rip the shit out of my mouth and i dont really want all that salt.Â
I am gonna use this forum a lot. I do not have TV so i am on the internet all the time anyway.
I work late nights so shit/show/shave for me isnt until around noon, but ill be posting roll everyday.
Good morning, DQ, and welcome. A few thoughts I want to add...
First, good that you want to get your health and physique back, a lot of us have put the two together here, quitting and training. I had gotten really skinny before I quit, and have put on about 15 quality pounds in a little over a month. Some of the people who have been examples for me are Ironman and Maddipper.
Second, b0yer said "post roll every day you can". I think that's bullshit and I've told him so. Jay had it right. It's POST EVERY DAY.
You're in the eye of the storm for the next few weeks, but you'll be an addict forever, you just won't be using. So keep your head down and your game face on and hang tough. No excuses.
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DQ.....listen to these guys. Like Smokeyg told you, "if", "try", "I hope", and "maybe" doesn't get this shit done. You've gotta "DO", and that's the bottom line.
Posting roll EVERY DAY is sacred here. Get a few phone numbers from guys here. If you can't post roll, text a quit brother to post for you. But no matter what, make that promise to your group every day.
Post your day 1 today, and hold on to your ass, the first 3-4 days are gonna suck. But you are a "DO'er", right? Good! Then get this done DQ.
Welcome aboard!
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There are a few "ifs" and "tries" in your message that make me skeptical. Convince me that I am a cynical SOB. Do you have what it takes or are you just another fly by?
Smokeyg - 505 one day at a time.
And that ain't luck....
On a site like this I think you should be a cynical SOB. I have read some of the ass rapings you guys have dished out and I completely agree with the ones I saw. Being here is a promise to everyone else here, and it is a promise I will keep.
Tomorrow I will post day one. There is nothing I can say to make you not be skeptical. All I can do is show you. I do have what it takes.
I agree about the "ifs" in my message. That was a poor choice of words, and was not the right words to voice my intent.
I will not dip again. That is all I can say. Talk is cheap, though. Let me show you I have what it takes.
You got what it takes, get involved and stick with it.
Besides, I hear an ass raping by smokey is something you don't want.
Congrats on the choice and welcome to the site!
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There are a few "ifs" and "tries" in your message that make me skeptical. Convince me that I am a cynical SOB. Do you have what it takes or are you just another fly by?
Smokeyg - 505 one day at a time.
And that ain't luck....
On a site like this I think you should be a cynical SOB. I have read some of the ass rapings you guys have dished out and I completely agree with the ones I saw. Being here is a promise to everyone else here, and it is a promise I will keep.
Tomorrow I will post day one. There is nothing I can say to make you not be skeptical. All I can do is show you. I do have what it takes.
I agree about the "ifs" in my message. That was a poor choice of words, and was not the right words to voice my intent.
I will not dip again. That is all I can say. Talk is cheap, though. Let me show you I have what it takes.
Dig it. Actions definitely speak louder than words and your actions can only speak one day at a time. Your words convey a strong attitude. But that could just be bullshit.
Keep sharing though. Get involved with the site. Sharing your experiences will not only benefit your own quit, but it will benefit those going through similar situations. The more people that I see remaining quit equals more strength fueling my own quit.
It's all about me in the end.
506 bitches....
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There are a few "ifs" and "tries" in your message that make me skeptical. Convince me that I am a cynical SOB. Do you have what it takes or are you just another fly by?
Smokeyg - 505 one day at a time.
And that ain't luck....
On a site like this I think you should be a cynical SOB. I have read some of the ass rapings you guys have dished out and I completely agree with the ones I saw. Being here is a promise to everyone else here, and it is a promise I will keep.
Tomorrow I will post day one. There is nothing I can say to make you not be skeptical. All I can do is show you. I do have what it takes.
I agree about the "ifs" in my message. That was a poor choice of words, and was not the right words to voice my intent.
I will not dip again. That is all I can say. Talk is cheap, though. Let me show you I have what it takes.
Dig it. Actions definitely speak louder than words and your actions can only speak one day at a time. Your words convey a strong attitude. But that could just be bullshit.
Keep sharing though. Get involved with the site. Sharing your experiences will not only benefit your own quit, but it will benefit those going through similar situations. The more people that I see remaining quit equals more strength fueling my own quit.
It's all about me in the end.
506 bitches....
There are no ifs or tries or fails, either your pregnant or your not . We are all here to quit. Eliminate the words (Try-Think, Maybe, If, Possibly), the is only do from this point forward.
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I suck at this. There are no ifs or tries or fails, either your pregnant or your not . We are all here to quit. Eliminate the words (Try-Think, Maybe, If, Possibly), the is only do from this point forward.
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I suck at this. There are no ifs or tries or fails, either your pregnant or your not . We are all here to quit. Eliminate the words (Try-Think, Maybe, If, Possibly), the is only do from this point forward.
razd, you got it right. Its not easy, but its simple. CHOOSE not to dip. Its your decision.
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well, so far day 1 has been ok. I only thought about dipping a couple dozen times. I did pick up some of the SMC and have been using it today. I think it is helping, but i still got cravings even with it in, but it wasnt anything I couldnt deal with. As long as I zone out on something like reading on the internet or studying for the two mid-terms I have tomorrow I cant even really tell a difference between this and the real stuff. I think tomorrow and the next day are going to be the worst, but ill get through it.
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well, so far day 1 has been ok. I only thought about dipping a couple dozen times. I did pick up some of the SMC and have been using it today. I think it is helping, but i still got cravings even with it in, but it wasnt anything I couldnt deal with. As long as I zone out on something like reading on the internet or studying for the two mid-terms I have tomorrow I cant even really tell a difference between this and the real stuff. I think tomorrow and the next day are going to be the worst, but ill get through it.
Our stories are verry similar. I am also 27, and dipped for 11 years. Today is day 189 for me. You CAN do it.
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well, so far day 1 has been ok. I only thought about dipping a couple dozen times. I did pick up some of the SMC and have been using it today. I think it is helping, but i still got cravings even with it in, but it wasnt anything I couldnt deal with. As long as I zone out on something like reading on the internet or studying for the two mid-terms I have tomorrow I cant even really tell a difference between this and the real stuff. I think tomorrow and the next day are going to be the worst, but ill get through it.
You are right about the next two days, but think about yourself in the eye of the storm...it only gets easier the further away you get from here towards quit. If you have trouble sleeping and find yourself here...try livechat, or just scroll back through the introductions section and checkout some of the first posts by some of the veterans you see on here. It might make you feel better to know that they REALLY know what you are going through!
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well, so far day 1 has been ok. I only thought about dipping a couple dozen times. I did pick up some of the SMC and have been using it today. I think it is helping, but i still got cravings even with it in, but it wasnt anything I couldnt deal with. As long as I zone out on something like reading on the internet or studying for the two mid-terms I have tomorrow I cant even really tell a difference between this and the real stuff. I think tomorrow and the next day are going to be the worst, but ill get through it.
Our stories are verry similar. I am also 27, and dipped for 11 years. Today is day 189 for me. You CAN do it.
You do have him beat in the avatar dept. though Cubs!! Still my vote for KTC's finest!
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well, so far day 1 has been ok. I only thought about dipping a couple dozen times. I did pick up some of the SMC and have been using it today. I think it is helping, but i still got cravings even with it in, but it wasnt anything I couldnt deal with. As long as I zone out on something like reading on the internet or studying for the two mid-terms I have tomorrow I cant even really tell a difference between this and the real stuff. I think tomorrow and the next day are going to be the worst, but ill get through it.
Our stories are verry similar. I am also 27, and dipped for 11 years. Today is day 189 for me. You CAN do it.
You do have him beat in the avatar dept. though Cubs!! Still my vote for KTC's finest!
Cubby, you avatar has gotten me through many a tough craves.
It's hypnotic. Really.
'worship'
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well, its not sexy or as hypnotic as his, but what about this one? i mean, i cant really do anything to compete with two chicks making out.
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well, its not sexy or as hypnotic as his, but what about this one? i mean, i cant really do anything to compete with two chicks making out.
Ku-Ma-Te! Ku-Ma-Te!
Thats fucking awesome!
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well, its not sexy or as hypnotic as his, but what about this one? i mean, i cant really do anything to compete with two chicks making out.
Ku-Ma-Te! Ku-Ma-Te!
Thats fucking awesome!
OK USA 'usflag'
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duuuude, I hate my fucking job. Nevermind trying to quit dipping, I hate it regardless of that. But my work must be my only source of stress and anxiety in my life because I have been fine without dip since I quit 6 days ago. I get little minor craves, and its gone in a split second. I go to work....and it is like one bug long crave. I didnt have any of the fake shit last night so I was chewing on straws like all get out. I bet some people thought I was a crack head or something. I have approximately 3 more months working where I do and then I am out of there... On to anything else, anything whatsoever. I have been thinking of all the fuck you's that are gonna be handed out when I leave there. I can't wait.
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duuuude, I hate my fucking job. Nevermind trying to quit dipping, I hate it regardless of that. But my work must be my only source of stress and anxiety in my life because I have been fine without dip since I quit 6 days ago. I get little minor craves, and its gone in a split second. I go to work....and it is like one bug long crave. I didnt have any of the fake shit last night so I was chewing on straws like all get out. I bet some people thought I was a crack head or something. I have approximately 3 more months working where I do and then I am out of there... On to anything else, anything whatsoever. I have been thinking of all the fuck you's that are gonna be handed out when I leave there. I can't wait.
mmmmmm...smell the rage....love it
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damn right....the rage gives me wood. B)
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just to get this out there, I am a bartender at a strip club. some people say I work at a "classy" strip club, but seriously, it is not possible to utter a bigger oxymoron. Cheap trailer trash whores taking there clothes off for money will never be classy. ever. The only real joy I get out of my job is the fact that we have a stripper there who's stage name is classy. I smile on the inside every time I see her.
I am sure most of you already know the deal about strip clubs, but i want to paint a clearer picture for you. Glitter, or whatever other whore you were sitting with that particular night's real name is Darlene. She lives in the trailer park on jackson street with her 7 kids from 7 different fathers with her current boyfriend who is a violent pedophile meth addict. She apparently sees nothing wrong with her life. She makes $500 a night and is somehow broke the next day....figure that one out. That boil on her ass is really a staph infection and no, she really does not like champange that much she would much rather be drinking natural light from a can. More than likely she has been a part of a gang bang.
She is supposed to tip me out at the end of the night because I get her drinks to her in a quickness and I make sure that the guy she is sitting with is in the right frame of mind to be loose with his money. But instead of tipping me out she thinks I actually enjoy working in a disease infested shit hole and make dog shit money in the process. She thinks that i enjoy not making any money and that I feel it is a part of my civic duty to pay for her fucking welfare and food stamp money from my taxes when she is too old for men to want her to take her clothes off for money, or she is too disgusting because she completely trashes her body every night with Xananx, Alcohol, coke, and just about anything else you can think of. In essence, I pay her to be able to wait on her. She really truly does not offer ANYTHING to society.
Alas, i have to stand there and wait on 40 of these bitches and do what they say. Its like having 40 wives all at once driving me fucking crazy. And on top of that i have to do this for absolutely no reward. I graduate in three months, and i am gone. I dont care if i gotta work off shore, be a teacher, be an accountant, get my ASE certs, pick up dog shit, whatever. my next big thing is getting the fuck out of that building. forever.
DISCLAIMER: There are a couple of strippers who are cool. meaning that they are not on drugs and they have the decency to take care of the staff who is helping them make money. I still do not think they are classy, but arent complete and total scum.
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just to get this out there, I am a bartender at a strip club. some people say I work at a "classy" strip club, but seriously, it is not possible to utter a bigger oxymoron. Cheap trailer trash whores taking there clothes off for money will never be classy. ever. The only real joy I get out of my job is the fact that we have a stripper there who's stage name is classy. I smile on the inside every time I see her.
I am sure most of you already know the deal about strip clubs, but i want to paint a clearer picture for you. Glitter, or whatever other whore you were sitting with that particular night's real name is Darlene. She lives in the trailer park on jackson street with her 7 kids from 7 different fathers with her current boyfriend who is a violent pedophile meth addict. She apparently sees nothing wrong with her life. She makes $500 a night and is somehow broke the next day....figure that one out. That boil on her ass is really a staph infection and no, she really does not like champange that much she would much rather be drinking natural light from a can. More than likely she has been a part of a gang bang.
She is supposed to tip me out at the end of the night because I get her drinks to her in a quickness and I make sure that the guy she is sitting with is in the right frame of mind to be loose with his money. But instead of tipping me out she thinks I actually enjoy working in a disease infested shit hole and make dog shit money in the process. She thinks that i enjoy not making any money and that I feel it is a part of my civic duty to pay for her fucking welfare and food stamp money from my taxes when she is too old for men to want her to take her clothes off for money, or she is too disgusting because she completely trashes her body every night with Xananx, Alcohol, coke, and just about anything else you can think of. In essence, I pay her to be able to wait on her. She really truly does not offer ANYTHING to society.
Alas, i have to stand there and wait on 40 of these bitches and do what they say. Its like having 40 wives all at once driving me fucking crazy. And on top of that i have to do this for absolutely no reward. I graduate in three months, and i am gone. I dont care if i gotta work off shore, be a teacher, be an accountant, get my ASE certs, pick up dog shit, whatever. my next big thing is getting the fuck out of that building. forever.
DISCLAIMER: There are a couple of strippers who are cool. meaning that they are not on drugs and they have the decency to take care of the staff who is helping them make money. I still do not think they are classy, but arent complete and total scum.
Wow, man, can't say I blame you. I wouldn't be able to tolerate all the skanks night after night. One of the worst things would have to be all the fake tits. Damn, but I hate fake tits.