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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Jlud007 on May 18, 2013, 06:50:00 AM
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Hello to my new KTC family. I plan on becoming an active here as it appears that the site and it's camaraderie have given you all the strength to quit and keep quitting every day. I do feel the loss and anxiety this morning of saying goodbye to my old pal the Kodiak bear but reading the information here I think that I have lost the "fear" that has quite often ended my quits before they even started.
I have been a heavy user since high school, started around 14 yrs old here and there and by 15-16 was using several cans of Kodiak a week. I am now 37 and shocked by how quickly time seems to pass. I truly believed then that dip was a phase of my youth. That phase became a 1-1.5 can dependency. I did "quit" for about a month once, I quote quit because I was using nicotine lozenges. I was in a store one day after about 32-33 days dip free, but I guess because I had not broken the nicotine hold it was very easy to slip right back into my norm.
Well I hope this introduction post isn't too ranty or incoherent. I just need to break myself of my self inflicted socially awkward comfort zone so that I can embrace some new friends here to help me on this journey.
Thank you for this website.
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Welcome aboard. Check your inbox, just sent you a note and contact number. You have made a great decision by joining. Kick the bear to the curb and get ready for quite a ride! There will be ups and there will be downs, but let me tell you, 146 days ago I too said bye to the bear and I feel 20 years younger today than I did then. You are making the best decision of your life and thousands if us are on the sidelines cheering you on. Post roll first thing in the morning and be a man of integrity and keep your word to yourself and all of us. That's it. Follow this plan and you will succeed. And many of us are here to help pull and push you through the rough patches. Proud to quit with you today!
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Hello to my new KTC family. I plan on becoming an active here as it appears that the site and it's camaraderie have given you all the strength to quit and keep quitting every day. I do feel the loss and anxiety this morning of saying goodbye to my old pal the Kodiak bear but reading the information here I think that I have lost the "fear" that has quite often ended my quits before they even started.
I have been a heavy user since high school, started around 14 yrs old here and there and by 15-16 was using several cans of Kodiak a week. I am now 37 and shocked by how quickly time seems to pass. I truly believed then that dip was a phase of my youth. That phase became a 1-1.5 can dependency. I did "quit" for about a month once, I quote quit because I was using nicotine lozenges. I was in a store one day after about 32-33 days dip free, but I guess because I had not broken the nicotine hold it was very easy to slip right back into my norm.
Well I hope this introduction post isn't too ranty or incoherent. I just need to break myself of my self inflicted socially awkward comfort zone so that I can embrace some new friends here to help me on this journey.
Thank you for this website.
Jlud, we are glad to have you. You are making a great decision that you should have made years ago,, like the rest of us idiots. Now, lets start getting the mind right. Getting your mind right is the beginning of success.
You never quit before,, you might have taken a break for month of so,, but you never quit Big difference! This is the one that will be hard for you to get right now. Kodiak was never your pal. All kodiak has done is take your MONEY, HEALTH AND DIGNITY. It has not given you one good thing in return.
Go to the top left and put your mouse right on the welcome center. Read, read, and read. Pay particular attention to posting roll. This is where we make a promise every day not to use. You will be in the August group where there is a bunch of new quitters that will be glad to help you along. Get acclimated to the sight and get involved. Make this quit the most important thing you got going,, because it is.
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I see you posted roll,, you weren't playing were you! That's great man. One day at a time brother and you can have your freedom back.
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I see you posted roll,, you weren't playing were you! That's great man. One day at a time brother and you can have your freedom back.
srans speaks the truth. One day at a time is all it takes. Congrats on quitting and making the best decision you possibly could! Use the resources that are available here and reach out to your quit brothers and sisters, get some numbers and call or text any time you need to. Do whatever it takes to keep that nasty crap outta your lip. If you need anything at all feel free to pm me. I will quit with you any day.
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I see you posted roll,, you weren't playing were you! That's great man. One day at a time brother and you can have your freedom back.
srans speaks the truth. One day at a time is all it takes. Congrats on quitting and making the best decision you possibly could! Use the resources that are available here and reach out to your quit brothers and sisters, get some numbers and call or text any time you need to. Do whatever it takes to keep that nasty crap outta your lip. If you need anything at all feel free to pm me. I will quit with you any day.
Same here Jlud if you need anything buzz me I will be on the road today so if you need any help you gotta reach out...just like this quit has to be for you other factors can be motivators but it has to come from you. I will send my digits to your pm.
Like SRANS stated you weren't quit before you just changed the delivery system of the nicotine...you are going to be quit now...you posted roll that tells us you are nicotine free... right you are not on nicotine gum or patches right now right.
We, like you are addicts here we are addicted to one of the most addicting chemicals on earth. You will always be an addict this is what the vets told me here and it switched my way of thinking... I used to think I was not an addict because it was legal... that's addict mind speaking there. Keep the site close stay away from groups this weekend that dip stay away from booze your quit comes first you are too fragile right now to hang with those temptations.
welcome aboard
Todd
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Hell yea jlud. You are the man. Posting roll that makes you accountable to us as we are to u. I am in ur August group. Sent you a pm with my info. Get in Touch with if you me. The Next week or so is going to be pure unadulterated hell just hang in there buddy and you call me if you need anything at all
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Chilling on the couch with sunflower seeds! Thanks for the warm welcome today, will be sure to reach out when things get tough. Thanks fellas.
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Whatever u gotta do to get thru. It gets better. Just remember you gave us your word not to use nicotine at all today.
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Jlud looks like you are drinking all the cool aid from this site you can. That is very important. Your Quit depends on you. It depends if you post role and then if you are a man of your word. And then ultimately if you want it bad enough. You can do this, it will be bad, if like my quit it will be pure unadulterated immortal hell, but you can do it. I am doing it. You let me know if you need anything. It gets better by the way. I quit today with you.
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Jlud looks like you are drinking all the cool aid from this site you can. That is very important. Your Quit depends on you. It depends if you post role and then if you are a man of your word. And then ultimately if you want it bad enough. You can do this, it will be bad, if like my quit it will be pure unadulterated immortal hell, but you can do it. I am doing it. You let me know if you need anything. It gets better by the way. I quit today with you.
Wise words
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Hello to my new KTC family. I plan on becoming an active here as it appears that the site and it's camaraderie have given you all the strength to quit and keep quitting every day. I do feel the loss and anxiety this morning of saying goodbye to my old pal the Kodiak bear but reading the information here I think that I have lost the "fear" that has quite often ended my quits before they even started.
I have been a heavy user since high school, started around 14 yrs old here and there and by 15-16 was using several cans of Kodiak a week. I am now 37 and shocked by how quickly time seems to pass. I truly believed then that dip was a phase of my youth. That phase became a 1-1.5 can dependency. I did "quit" for about a month once, I quote quit because I was using nicotine lozenges. I was in a store one day after about 32-33 days dip free, but I guess because I had not broken the nicotine hold it was very easy to slip right back into my norm.
Well I hope this introduction post isn't too ranty or incoherent. I just need to break myself of my self inflicted socially awkward comfort zone so that I can embrace some new friends here to help me on this journey.
Thank you for this website.
Welcome aboard buddy. I'm also in your august quit group so just give me a shout if there's anything I can do to help out. Like Erussel said the beginning of this quit is going to be pure hell, but believe me if the thousands that have come before us can fight their way through that hell then we can too buddy! Each time a craving comes you just have to tell yourself it's a damn lie and you don't need to use nicotine to live your life the way you want too. Keep pushing through and posting roll and it'll get a little bit easier with each passing day.
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Hello to my new KTC family. I plan on becoming an active here as it appears that the site and it's camaraderie have given you all the strength to quit and keep quitting every day. I do feel the loss and anxiety this morning of saying goodbye to my old pal the Kodiak bear but reading the information here I think that I have lost the "fear" that has quite often ended my quits before they even started.
I have been a heavy user since high school, started around 14 yrs old here and there and by 15-16 was using several cans of Kodiak a week. I am now 37 and shocked by how quickly time seems to pass. I truly believed then that dip was a phase of my youth. That phase became a 1-1.5 can dependency. I did "quit" for about a month once, I quote quit because I was using nicotine lozenges. I was in a store one day after about 32-33 days dip free, but I guess because I had not broken the nicotine hold it was very easy to slip right back into my norm.
Well I hope this introduction post isn't too ranty or incoherent. I just need to break myself of my self inflicted socially awkward comfort zone so that I can embrace some new friends here to help me on this journey.
Thank you for this website.
Ah yes. The kodiak bear. For 15 years I used to hump that fucking bear. Near the end I was going through 2 cans a day.
Fuck that asshole bear. I don't own a gun and ive never been to Alaska but if I ever end up there I will kill one of those mother fuckers. Gun or no gun. Ill rain blows upon his face and drop kick him in the Dick if he stands up.
He was never a friend of mine...or yours. He fucked with the wiring in your brain, emptied your pocketbook (shits expensive), made you dependent on him, eroded your gums, numbed your tongue, cut open your inner lip so it could it could get its posion in you as quickly as possible and oh yeah...he was trying to kill you. Literally.
Some friend.
I have a deep deep hatred for that asshole bear. He fucked my shit UP. Not only when I was using but when I quit. Fucking asshole still messed with me. God Damn I hate that bear.
My advice, besides post roll, get numbers, read, stay active, etc...is to learn to hate that bear.
Wont be easy at first. But it will help you in the long run.
Think about it...its easier to quit something you hate than something you love. And their are plenty of reasons to hate that bear. You need help finding some, hit me up. Ive been speed bagging that fuckers face for awhile now.
Glad to be quit with you sir.
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Hello to my new KTC family. I plan on becoming an active here as it appears that the site and it's camaraderie have given you all the strength to quit and keep quitting every day. I do feel the loss and anxiety this morning of saying goodbye to my old pal the Kodiak bear but reading the information here I think that I have lost the "fear" that has quite often ended my quits before they even started.
I have been a heavy user since high school, started around 14 yrs old here and there and by 15-16 was using several cans of Kodiak a week. I am now 37 and shocked by how quickly time seems to pass. I truly believed then that dip was a phase of my youth. That phase became a 1-1.5 can dependency. I did "quit" for about a month once, I quote quit because I was using nicotine lozenges. I was in a store one day after about 32-33 days dip free, but I guess because I had not broken the nicotine hold it was very easy to slip right back into my norm.
Well I hope this introduction post isn't too ranty or incoherent. I just need to break myself of my self inflicted socially awkward comfort zone so that I can embrace some new friends here to help me on this journey.
Thank you for this website.
Ah yes. The kodiak bear. For 15 years I used to hump that fucking bear. Near the end I was going through 2 cans a day.
Fuck that asshole bear. I don't own a gun and ive never been to Alaska but if I ever end up there I will kill one of those mother fuckers. Gun or no gun. Ill rain blows upon his face and drop kick him in the Dick if he stands up.
He was never a friend of mine...or yours. He fucked with the wiring in your brain, emptied your pocketbook (shits expensive), made you dependent on him, eroded your gums, numbed your tongue, cut open your inner lip so it could it could get its posion in you as quickly as possible and oh yeah...he was trying to kill you. Literally.
Some friend.
I have a deep deep hatred for that asshole bear. He fucked my shit UP. Not only when I was using but when I quit. Fucking asshole still messed with me. God Damn I hate that bear.
My advice, besides post roll, get numbers, read, stay active, etc...is to learn to hate that bear.
Wont be easy at first. But it will help you in the long run.
Think about it...its easier to quit something you hate than something you love. And their are plenty of reasons to hate that bear. You need help finding some, hit me up. Ive been speed bagging that fuckers face for awhile now.
Glad to be quit with you sir.
Quote from 2mch...
" Iwould fight a bear for you. Not a grizzly or a brown bear or a panda. But maybe like a Care Bear? I'd fight one of those sonsabitches for you"
The point being, stick close and this family of quitters will help you fight the "bear". Post roll everyday and hit chat. Welcome.
Sage
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Thanks to everyone. Day 2 craves and withdrawal suck ass. But not gonna let that run life anymore. You guys are amazing here, messages i'm getting and reading your stoelries are pulling me through these first difficult days. Thank you all for quitting with me today.
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Thanks to everyone. Day 2 craves and withdrawal suck ass. But not gonna let that run life anymore. You guys are amazing here, messages i'm getting and reading your stoelries are pulling me through these first difficult days. Thank you all for quitting with me today.
Now is the time to raise above everything, and keep this quit going. Remember this time so that you may not ever have to go through it again.
Exxercise, water, popcorn, toothpicks, extra gum, sugarfree candy, cranberry juice, ANYTHING BUT PUTTING CRAP in your lip.
BTW - I find it a little interesting with a join date of Jun12. I am just glad you are finally here in May13. So put that head down my friend and I will quit with you today +1.
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Jlud,
Hang in there brother embrace the suck remember all these feelings. Right now you are prolly deep in the suck it will last 3-4 days then the mind fuck starts. you will be ready you are reading and learning putting tools in your tool box you know we are here up to you to use us.
like I said earlier I don't care if you have to fill your mouth with a sack full of assholes do it get thru this day wake up tomorrow post roll and give us your word and repeat.
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Well, I registered on the site back in June 2012 and never did get around to posting up roll. This past Saturday I finally made the decision and posted roll, joined the brotherhood, first time with no nicotine at all in years.
2 days of the suck and in the wee dawning hours of what should have been day 3, I opened the door and let the bitch in. Why? maybe I thought I really was missing something. How? I drove my ass down to the store at 1 am and got me a can of my favorite cancer candy. No excuses.
I want to apologize to some of my newly founded August brothers and supporters, digits have been offered, support given. In my time of need I did not turn to KTC or my quit brothers. I do however intend to right this ship.
I cannot continue to pretend that dip has done anything positive in my life for nearly 23 years. How can I pretend to love something that I try very hard to hide from most people in my life. For crying out loud we used to spend lunch breaks in high school in the bathroom dipping! I was kicked off the wrestling team my junior for dip. I hardly smile because of receding gums and green stained teeth. I really could go on and on....I feel very angry with myself and at that motherflipping bear right now. I will continue to post and stay connected, I will reply to PM's with my own mobile number so that my brothers can text me and hold me accountable. I will post roll when I wake up and quit with you brothers. I hope that you will accept my honesty and quit with me.
J
P.S. I flushed the last half can or so of that shit down the crapper.
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Well, I registered on the site back in June 2012 and never did get around to posting up roll. This past Saturday I finally made the decision and posted roll, joined the brotherhood, first time with no nicotine at all in years.
2 days of the suck and in the wee dawning hours of what should have been day 3, I opened the door and let the bitch in. Why? maybe I thought I really was missing something. How? I drove my ass down to the store at 1 am and got me a can of my favorite cancer candy. No excuses.
I want to apologize to some of my newly founded August brothers and supporters, digits have been offered, support given. In my time of need I did not turn to KTC or my quit brothers. I do however intend to right this ship.
I cannot continue to pretend that dip has done anything positive in my life for nearly 23 years. How can I pretend to love something that I try very hard to hide from most people in my life. For crying out loud we used to spend lunch breaks in high school in the bathroom dipping! I was kicked off the wrestling team my junior for dip. I hardly smile because of receding gums and green stained teeth. I really could go on and on....I feel very angry with myself and at that motherflipping bear right now. I will continue to post and stay connected, I will reply to PM's with my own mobile number so that my brothers can text me and hold me accountable. I will post roll when I wake up and quit with you brothers. I hope that you will accept my honesty and quit with me.
J
P.S. I flushed the last half can or so of that shit down the crapper.
Make sure to post this in the August thread if you have not already. I am too new here myself to feel I can give you a hard time, but expect that to come.
In the mean time, if you really expect to be able to be successful in this get some friends and lean on them. I have seen that you have some major bad ass quitters in the August group, switch some phone numbers with them and when you post roll, keep your promise.
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Well, I registered on the site back in June 2012 and never did get around to posting up roll. This past Saturday I finally made the decision and posted roll, joined the brotherhood, first time with no nicotine at all in years.
2 days of the suck and in the wee dawning hours of what should have been day 3, I opened the door and let the bitch in. Why? maybe I thought I really was missing something. How? I drove my ass down to the store at 1 am and got me a can of my favorite cancer candy. No excuses.
I want to apologize to some of my newly founded August brothers and supporters, digits have been offered, support given. In my time of need I did not turn to KTC or my quit brothers. I do however intend to right this ship.
I cannot continue to pretend that dip has done anything positive in my life for nearly 23 years. How can I pretend to love something that I try very hard to hide from most people in my life. For crying out loud we used to spend lunch breaks in high school in the bathroom dipping! I was kicked off the wrestling team my junior for dip. I hardly smile because of receding gums and green stained teeth. I really could go on and on....I feel very angry with myself and at that motherflipping bear right now. I will continue to post and stay connected, I will reply to PM's with my own mobile number so that my brothers can text me and hold me accountable. I will post roll when I wake up and quit with you brothers. I hope that you will accept my honesty and quit with me.
J
P.S. I flushed the last half can or so of that shit down the crapper.
Make sure to post this in the August thread if you have not already. I am too new here myself to feel I can give you a hard time, but expect that to come.
In the mean time, if you really expect to be able to be successful in this get some friends and lean on them. I have seen that you have some major bad ass quitters in the August group, switch some phone numbers with them and when you post roll, keep your promise.
I agree, you need to post this in your quit group and take your lashes for caving.
Kudos though for coming back and trying again. The Nic bitch is hard to beat. I am finally quit (44 days and counting) after 12+ years of dipping, and probably attempting to quit at least 10 or so times. Every day is a fight but if you truly want to quit, this is the place. Post roll reach out to your fellow quitters. Everything you need to succeed is here, you just gotta have the want to succeed.
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Well, I registered on the site back in June 2012 and never did get around to posting up roll. This past Saturday I finally made the decision and posted roll, joined the brotherhood, first time with no nicotine at all in years.
2 days of the suck and in the wee dawning hours of what should have been day 3, I opened the door and let the bitch in. Why? maybe I thought I really was missing something. How? I drove my ass down to the store at 1 am and got me a can of my favorite cancer candy. No excuses.
I want to apologize to some of my newly founded August brothers and supporters, digits have been offered, support given. In my time of need I did not turn to KTC or my quit brothers. I do however intend to right this ship.
I cannot continue to pretend that dip has done anything positive in my life for nearly 23 years. How can I pretend to love something that I try very hard to hide from most people in my life. For crying out loud we used to spend lunch breaks in high school in the bathroom dipping! I was kicked off the wrestling team my junior for dip. I hardly smile because of receding gums and green stained teeth. I really could go on and on....I feel very angry with myself and at that motherflipping bear right now. I will continue to post and stay connected, I will reply to PM's with my own mobile number so that my brothers can text me and hold me accountable. I will post roll when I wake up and quit with you brothers. I hope that you will accept my honesty and quit with me.
J
P.S. I flushed the last half can or so of that shit down the crapper.
Make sure to post this in the August thread if you have not already. I am too new here myself to feel I can give you a hard time, but expect that to come.
In the mean time, if you really expect to be able to be successful in this get some friends and lean on them. I have seen that you have some major bad ass quitters in the August group, switch some phone numbers with them and when you post roll, keep your promise.
I agree, you need to post this in your quit group and take your lashes for caving.
Kudos though for coming back and trying again. The Nic bitch is hard to beat. I am finally quit (44 days and counting) after 12+ years of dipping, and probably attempting to quit at least 10 or so times. Every day is a fight but if you truly want to quit, this is the place. Post roll reach out to your fellow quitters. Everything you need to succeed is here, you just gotta have the want to succeed.
Hey jlud -
thanks for the words to explain. Now just go look in the morror. Take a good look and say " Not Today Nic Bitch".
There now by telling us here that you have done it, and by telling yourself,, you have given that promise, that bond, to stay clean today.
Now take another look and say "You CAN do this".
Hell if the rest of us can, you can too. As we were all in a very similar situation when we started our quit, and there are alot of us that leaned on the tools of this site (live chat, HOF speeches, words of wisdom, OTHER QUITTERS), that have made us a successful +1.
I quit with you today.
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Take this from someone who caved. Coming back takes balls. I'm glad you did though. This site is my lifeline. Use it. I have a dozen numbers this time around and I have used them in my short 3 days. Its been easier this time because I am more active and involved. I don't have the holier then thou attitude I had before because I know that caving is easy. What's hard is keeping your word and staying clean! But the worth of that is much greater. It allows you to wake up each day and look in the mirror with pride. We are all here together. We all battle the same demon. 40000 have come before us. If they did it, so can we. Answer the three questions if you haven't yet and move on.
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I will be using the site like my life depends on it (and it does!). Seriously, yesterday while using I could not hardly look at myself in the mirror. I really felt like I let the folks here down and of course myself. Feels good to be quit today brother.
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Well, I registered on the site back in June 2012 and never did get around to posting up roll. This past Saturday I finally made the decision and posted roll, joined the brotherhood, first time with no nicotine at all in years.
2 days of the suck and in the wee dawning hours of what should have been day 3, I opened the door and let the bitch in. Why? maybe I thought I really was missing something. How? I drove my ass down to the store at 1 am and got me a can of my favorite cancer candy. No excuses.
I want to apologize to some of my newly founded August brothers and supporters, digits have been offered, support given. In my time of need I did not turn to KTC or my quit brothers. I do however intend to right this ship.
I cannot continue to pretend that dip has done anything positive in my life for nearly 23 years. How can I pretend to love something that I try very hard to hide from most people in my life. For crying out loud we used to spend lunch breaks in high school in the bathroom dipping! I was kicked off the wrestling team my junior for dip. I hardly smile because of receding gums and green stained teeth. I really could go on and on....I feel very angry with myself and at that motherflipping bear right now. I will continue to post and stay connected, I will reply to PM's with my own mobile number so that my brothers can text me and hold me accountable. I will post roll when I wake up and quit with you brothers. I hope that you will accept my honesty and quit with me.
J
P.S. I flushed the last half can or so of that shit down the crapper.
Make sure to post this in the August thread if you have not already. I am too new here myself to feel I can give you a hard time, but expect that to come.
In the mean time, if you really expect to be able to be successful in this get some friends and lean on them. I have seen that you have some major bad ass quitters in the August group, switch some phone numbers with them and when you post roll, keep your promise.
I agree, you need to post this in your quit group and take your lashes for caving.
Kudos though for coming back and trying again. The Nic bitch is hard to beat. I am finally quit (44 days and counting) after 12+ years of dipping, and probably attempting to quit at least 10 or so times. Every day is a fight but if you truly want to quit, this is the place. Post roll reach out to your fellow quitters. Everything you need to succeed is here, you just gotta have the want to succeed.
Hey jlud -
thanks for the words to explain. Now just go look in the morror. Take a good look and say " Not Today Nic Bitch".
There now by telling us here that you have done it, and by telling yourself,, you have given that promise, that bond, to stay clean today.
Now take another look and say "You CAN do this".
Hell if the rest of us can, you can too. As we were all in a very similar situation when we started our quit, and there are alot of us that leaned on the tools of this site (live chat, HOF speeches, words of wisdom, OTHER QUITTERS), that have made us a successful +1.
I quit with you today.
J this should be posted in August as well some new guys may not find it, I didn't for a long time. You post seems honest and heart felt but it lacks the most important part.....What are you going to do different next time. Think very hard and be brutally honest with yourself. You will crave and crave bad at times, what will stop you from doing this again? I suggest you listen to SirDerek and read and read and then read some more. Buy in to the system
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I am embracing the suck as it really starts to set in now after lunch. I'm sure tomorrow will be more fun, but the suck is way better than cancer, face falling off, family crying, son being raised by someone else. Anyhow.....I will embrace it this time and remember I only have to go through it once more.....never again if I chose to quit daily with you guys. Glad to be at work staying busy this round though.
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http://youtu.be/9ALOI63X_CESober (http://youtu.be/9ALOI63X_CESober)
Totally stole that from Kana but its awesome!
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Congrats on day two bro! Your entering the gates of hell. Just keep going, don't look back, face that fire, you might just get out before the devil even knows your there! Man I am glad to be a quitter with you today. Post that ass in roll agian tomorrow.
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I am returning after caving and pretty much disappearing since I last posted. I know that I owe the site, former and current quit groups some answers to the 3 questions. I will get to that sometime today, I just could not ignore the truth after lurking around the site while still using this past few weeks. Tomorrow will never come if I keep trying to "plan" things and the sooner I posted roll and poked my head out, the better. So, light me up, chew me out, call me an asshole....whatever, I welcome the accountability. Work is the next order of business today. Later.
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I am returning after caving and pretty much disappearing since I last posted. I know that I owe the site, former and current quit groups some answers to the 3 questions. I will get to that sometime today, I just could not ignore the truth after lurking around the site while still using this past few weeks. Tomorrow will never come if I keep trying to "plan" things and the sooner I posted roll and poked my head out, the better. So, light me up, chew me out, call me an asshole....whatever, I welcome the accountability. Work is the next order of business today. Later.
Not gonna call you anything, other than an addict. Of a plant in a can that causes cancer and costs a fuckton of money. I'm an addict too.
First order of business - answer the three questions. And think long and hard about them.
Second order of business... you need to look deep and answer one other very important question. This is the difference between a winner, and a loser - not just in the fight against this addiction - but life in general... are you a man of integrity?
Really think about that question. When you give your word, do you keep it? If you make a deal with a handshake, is that deal done, or do you sometimes back out? If you aren't a man of integrity, if you don't honor your word, then you need to go back to the drawing board. This method, and more than likely any other, won't work for you. It is easy to cave. It is easy to chew. It is easy to give your word. It takes a man of integrity to keep it.
You've got my contact info - I reached out to you on day 1 last time. We are all glad that you are back - now you owe it to yourself and us to use the tools of this site to help get you through the rough times. I've had to reach out several times. Others have as well. You are no different - you owe it to yourself and those of us that have invested time in your quit to let us help you out. This time is different man - lets get this quit underway! This time, when the craves come (and they will) call me. Reach out to others. We have a common goal - to beat this monster. It can be done - if a weak numbers guy like me can do this - a bad ass like you can. Use this site - keep your word. A man of integrity will win every day.
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I am returning after caving and pretty much disappearing since I last posted. I know that I owe the site, former and current quit groups some answers to the 3 questions. I will get to that sometime today, I just could not ignore the truth after lurking around the site while still using this past few weeks. Tomorrow will never come if I keep trying to "plan" things and the sooner I posted roll and poked my head out, the better. So, light me up, chew me out, call me an asshole....whatever, I welcome the accountability. Work is the next order of business today. Later.
Not gonna call you anything, other than an addict. Of a plant in a can that causes cancer and costs a fuckton of money. I'm an addict too.
First order of business - answer the three questions. And think long and hard about them.
Second order of business... you need to look deep and answer one other very important question. This is the difference between a winner, and a loser - not just in the fight against this addiction - but life in general... are you a man of integrity?
Really think about that question. When you give your word, do you keep it? If you make a deal with a handshake, is that deal done, or do you sometimes back out? If you aren't a man of integrity, if you don't honor your word, then you need to go back to the drawing board. This method, and more than likely any other, won't work for you. It is easy to cave. It is easy to chew. It is easy to give your word. It takes a man of integrity to keep it.
You've got my contact info - I reached out to you on day 1 last time. We are all glad that you are back - now you owe it to yourself and us to use the tools of this site to help get you through the rough times. I've had to reach out several times. Others have as well. You are no different - you owe it to yourself and those of us that have invested time in your quit to let us help you out. This time is different man - lets get this quit underway! This time, when the craves come (and they will) call me. Reach out to others. We have a common goal - to beat this monster. It can be done - if a weak numbers guy like me can do this - a bad ass like you can. Use this site - keep your word. A man of integrity will win every day.
Your a previous member of my group... Bad Ass August quitters! I want to see the 3 questions answered here, In my group roll call, And your new group, October! You caved early in your quit and Worktowin said it already, If you are not a man of integrity, You will fail again! TODAY is the best time to quit! We are all here fighting for our lives and we need strong men in our ranks! Are you strong? If so, Join the ranks and get your quit on! Do not be a pussy this time! Pussies die a slow painful death! Usually with half a face and there family in tears!
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Ehhh. Go back to page 1 and re read what I wrote the first time your pussy ass came through here, claiming you were ready to quit.
Seriously brah. Grow a pair.
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I am returning after caving and pretty much disappearing since I last posted. I know that I owe the site, former and current quit groups some answers to the 3 questions. I will get to that sometime today, I just could not ignore the truth after lurking around the site while still using this past few weeks. Tomorrow will never come if I keep trying to "plan" things and the sooner I posted roll and poked my head out, the better. So, light me up, chew me out, call me an asshole....whatever, I welcome the accountability. Work is the next order of business today. Later.
Not gonna call you anything, other than an addict. Of a plant in a can that causes cancer and costs a fuckton of money. I'm an addict too.
First order of business - answer the three questions. And think long and hard about them.
Second order of business... you need to look deep and answer one other very important question. This is the difference between a winner, and a loser - not just in the fight against this addiction - but life in general... are you a man of integrity?
Really think about that question. When you give your word, do you keep it? If you make a deal with a handshake, is that deal done, or do you sometimes back out? If you aren't a man of integrity, if you don't honor your word, then you need to go back to the drawing board. This method, and more than likely any other, won't work for you. It is easy to cave. It is easy to chew. It is easy to give your word. It takes a man of integrity to keep it.
You've got my contact info - I reached out to you on day 1 last time. We are all glad that you are back - now you owe it to yourself and us to use the tools of this site to help get you through the rough times. I've had to reach out several times. Others have as well. You are no different - you owe it to yourself and those of us that have invested time in your quit to let us help you out. This time is different man - lets get this quit underway! This time, when the craves come (and they will) call me. Reach out to others. We have a common goal - to beat this monster. It can be done - if a weak numbers guy like me can do this - a bad ass like you can. Use this site - keep your word. A man of integrity will win every day.
Your a previous member of my group... Bad Ass August quitters! I want to see the 3 questions answered here, In my group roll call, And your new group, October! You caved early in your quit and Worktowin said it already, If you are not a man of integrity, You will fail again! TODAY is the best time to quit! We are all here fighting for our lives and we need strong men in our ranks! Are you strong? If so, Join the ranks and get your quit on! Do not be a pussy this time! Pussies die a slow painful death! Usually with half a face and there family in tears!
Thanks Jake, your trials truly are one of the things that inspired my return. I waited way too long to man up and return. Thanks for your words Worktowin, also Erussell, Evilwon, papabear, phil16.....anyone who has sent me PM's since I joined. Jake and Scottmacek from my previous August group who had fallen and returned thanks. This is just me rambling and trying to show my appreciation for this site. Make no mistake I will post my 3 questions, I just haven't had time today yet to really make truly heartfelt post on that yet. Number one is keep my word today...and I will, two is to just throw myself out there with you guys and rack up that accountability, because truly that is where I have failed in the past.
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Ehhh. Go back to page 1 and re read what I wrote the first time your pussy ass came through here, claiming you were ready to quit.
Seriously brah. Grow a pair.
I'll be tea bagging the nic bitch and the bear with my big huge pair of quit balls.......seriously though, thanks Diesel. It's all just words until I put up some +1 's and keep my word after caving last time. So I expect some to be skeptical until I show I can stick to my quit.
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The quit train doesn't slow down to pick up passengers. And we don't give a shit about all the bad-ass things you're about to do. We care about one thing...being quit. The rest is bullshit.
You make the choice and we've got your back. But don't come on here trying to impress a bunch of bad-ass quitters with all the things you're about to do. We're addicts, too. We're fluent in addict-speak. And we can smell bullshit a mile away.
Come back when you've done something worth talking about.
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The quit train doesn't slow down to pick up passengers. And we don't give a shit about all the bad-ass things you're about to do. We care about one thing...being quit. The rest is bullshit.Â
You make the choice and we've got your back. But don't come on here trying to impress a bunch of bad-ass quitters with all the things you're about to do. We're addicts, too. We're fluent in addict-speak. And we can smell bullshit a mile away.
Come back when you've done something worth talking about.
Show don't tell. Love is given, respect is earned.
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The quit train doesn't slow down to pick up passengers. And we don't give a shit about all the bad-ass things you're about to do. We care about one thing...being quit. The rest is bullshit.
You make the choice and we've got your back. But don't come on here trying to impress a bunch of bad-ass quitters with all the things you're about to do. We're addicts, too. We're fluent in addict-speak. And we can smell bullshit a mile away.
Come back when you've done something worth talking about.
Really? Just go piss in someone else's thread. I don't think you read my post. The last line is here:
"It's all just words until I put up some +1 's and keep my word after caving last time. So I expect some to be skeptical until I show I can stick to my quit."
I wasn't trying to impress anyone.
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So after some thought here are my answers to the 3 questions:
What happened: I caved, twice.....on day 2.
Why it happened: I have always had trouble asking for help, I am also not very social. I don't know if its an inferiority complex or lack of self esteem, I haven't had many close friends since I was in school. Some of the shit that goes on here can be intimidating to someone who would rather keep their head in the sand away from others. That's just some of my mental junk anyway.
What am I going to do different: What to say to this one, well obviously my quit will not go very far if I do not reach out and talk to someone when the going gets tough, that much is clear to me. Beyond that I think very much like my earlier post, talk is cheap until I hang around and put some days and roll calls together
I hope this suffices, if not....well too bad. I'll just keep coming back.
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I do not think your answers will pass muster with alot of the vets on here, but that is not my problem. I am sending you my telephone number by PM and I expect you to use it the next time you feel like sneaking in a dip...and I expect that feeling to rear its ugly head damned near every day. From this point on, you are not allowed to use nicotine without first obtaining my permission. Deal? Good. Now open your pm and give me a call. We need to figure out a game plan and get this party started.
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I hope this suffices, if not....well too bad. I'll just keep coming back.
Let's not get nasty, okay 007?
Your answers miss the mark because you're putting all the blame on being antisocial. Getting support is awesome and reaching out in times of need is important, but your connection to the KTC community is secondary. Step 1 is WANTING to quit, like really really wanting it. You ended up here, so obviously you know you SHOULD quit, but that isn't going to do it.
Please think more about the why question, and acknowledge that you haven't caved simply because you don't like asking for help.
Dude I'm sooooo ready to quit with you. Please PM me if you need anything, and shoot me your number if you'd like me to hound you through the beginning stages.
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Answering "The Questions" is important. Helps you understand the how and why you failed. If you only half-ass it through those answers, you'll fail again...which we HATE more than shitty answers.
But, having said that, I have never been a huge stickler for The Questions. You know you fucked up. Nobody can change that. SO DON'T FUCKING DO IT AGAIN!!!
You really can control your addiction. You just don't believe you can...which may be why you failed. Understand what you are doing...quitting ONE day at a time. You can't change the past, so fuck it. You don't know the future, so fuck it. But you sure as shit can control what shit your fingers stuff in your own face right now...and that is all we are asking that you do.
So, get back to quitting. Post your word, and start being accountable. YOU REALLY CAN DO THIS, BROTHER!!!
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Being antisocial has nothing to do with why you decided to stuff that shit in your face!!!
Why did you really do it?
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Being antisocial has nothing to do with why you decided to stuff that shit in your face!!!
Why did you really do it?
I made the choice to listen to the nic bitch instead of picking up the phone, getting online to chat or any other option that included talking to a KTC contact and fighting through the crave rather folding under and finger banging a can again.
I suppose this is more of what I meant.
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Answering "The Questions" is important. Helps you understand the how and why you failed. If you only half-ass it through those answers, you'll fail again...which we HATE more than shitty answers.
But, having said that, I have never been a huge stickler for The Questions. You know you fucked up. Nobody can change that. SO DON'T FUCKING DO IT AGAIN!!!
You really can control your addiction. You just don't believe you can...which may be why you failed. Understand what you are doing...quitting ONE day at a time. You can't change the past, so fuck it. You don't know the future, so fuck it. But you sure as shit can control what shit your fingers stuff in your own face right now...and that is all we are asking that you do.Â
So, get back to quitting. Post your word, and start being accountable. YOU REALLY CAN DO THIS, BROTHER!!!
My issue is words on a page can be interpreted too many ways by a reader, that's what makes book so much fun to read (I admit its been awhile since I got lost in a book though). That's why I just quoted Bean - I chose to use, didn't call anyone when I wanted to use, thus didn't give my quit its proper potential. All I am saying is that I cannot properly formulate the answers everyone wants to hear in my current state of suckage.....but does it really matter anyway. I made the effort, taking my lumps today and in the end it will really only come down to one sequence of events daily......
Wake up, post roll, keep my word.
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Being antisocial has nothing to do with why you decided to stuff that shit in your face!!!
Why did you really do it?
I made the choice to listen to the nic bitch instead of picking up the phone, getting online to chat or any other option that included talking to a KTC contact and fighting through the crave rather folding under and finger banging a can again.
I suppose this is more of what I meant.
What really pushed your buttons to the point that you thought a dip whould make the situation better? What was that bad, what made you look in the mirror and say I just don't care about my quit and everything I have accomplished up to that point? This is the true "why" we seek.
It is the true "why" you should be seeking as well...
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So after some thought here are my answers to the 3 questions:
What happened: I caved, twice.....on day 2.
Why it happened: I have always had trouble asking for help, I am also not very social. I don't know if its an inferiority complex or lack of self esteem, I haven't had many close friends since I was in school. Some of the shit that goes on here can be intimidating to someone who would rather keep their head in the sand away from others. That's just some of my mental junk anyway.
What am I going to do different: What to say to this one, well obviously my quit will not go very far if I do not reach out and talk to someone when the going gets tough, that much is clear to me. Beyond that I think very much like my earlier post, talk is cheap until I hang around and put some days and roll calls together
I hope this suffices, if not....well too bad. I'll just keep coming back.
Nice to talk to you tonight, and glad to hear you reached out to others. Looks now like a plan is in action. From your words tonight, it is clear that the poison is eating at you. The next few days, as you said, are gonna be tough. Not as tough as Sean Marsee's last days. Read that story, then read it again. Or the Kerns. Those stories tell the real story of kodiak. Check out the pictures. That, my friend, is what the bear brings to our lives. Not one good thing comes out of using nicotine. Not a single one.
I know today was tough. Reaching out to strangers isn't easy. It takes integrity to admit your mistakes. To send me a text after being gone for months. And to own up to your failures. This, Jeff, sounds like the real deal. This time is THE time. And I'm glad to be on your team.
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So after some thought here are my answers to the 3 questions:
What happened: I caved, twice.....on day 2.Â
Why it happened: I have always had trouble asking for help, I am also not very social. I don't know if its an inferiority complex or lack of self esteem, I haven't had many close friends since I was in school. Some of the shit that goes on here can be intimidating to someone who would rather keep their head in the sand away from others. That's just some of my mental junk anyway.
What am I going to do different: What to say to this one, well obviously my quit will not go very far if I do not reach out and talk to someone when the going gets tough, that much is clear to me. Beyond that I think very much like my earlier post, talk is cheap until I hang around and put some days and roll calls together
I hope this suffices, if not....well too bad. I'll just keep coming back.
Nice to talk to you tonight, and glad to hear you reached out to others. Looks now like a plan is in action. From your words tonight, it is clear that the poison is eating at you. The next few days, as you said, are gonna be tough. Not as tough as Sean Marsee's last days. Read that story, then read it again. Or the Kerns. Those stories tell the real story of kodiak. Check out the pictures. That, my friend, is what the bear brings to our lives. Not one good thing comes out of using nicotine. Not a single one.
I know today was tough. Reaching out to strangers isn't easy. It takes integrity to admit your mistakes. To send me a text after being gone for months. And to own up to your failures. This, Jeff, sounds like the real deal. This time is THE time. And I'm glad to be on your team.
Feeling strong on Day 2, I have been here before. This time there is something different though, something I have never felt when quit, I can feel the freedom on the other side a little bit. I don't have any nostalgic feelings for the bear right now, only anger and regret. Diesel said it to me the first go round, get mad at the f##king bear. He took time from family from me, money, and plenty of health problems. So, yeah I'm mad at the bear and the nic bitch today. Proud to be a quitter here today. Sorry if I ramble, just putting my trash out on the street for pickup.
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So after some thought here are my answers to the 3 questions:
What happened: I caved, twice.....on day 2.Â
Why it happened: I have always had trouble asking for help, I am also not very social. I don't know if its an inferiority complex or lack of self esteem, I haven't had many close friends since I was in school. Some of the shit that goes on here can be intimidating to someone who would rather keep their head in the sand away from others. That's just some of my mental junk anyway.
What am I going to do different: What to say to this one, well obviously my quit will not go very far if I do not reach out and talk to someone when the going gets tough, that much is clear to me. Beyond that I think very much like my earlier post, talk is cheap until I hang around and put some days and roll calls together
I hope this suffices, if not....well too bad. I'll just keep coming back.
Nice to talk to you tonight, and glad to hear you reached out to others. Looks now like a plan is in action. From your words tonight, it is clear that the poison is eating at you. The next few days, as you said, are gonna be tough. Not as tough as Sean Marsee's last days. Read that story, then read it again. Or the Kerns. Those stories tell the real story of kodiak. Check out the pictures. That, my friend, is what the bear brings to our lives. Not one good thing comes out of using nicotine. Not a single one.
I know today was tough. Reaching out to strangers isn't easy. It takes integrity to admit your mistakes. To send me a text after being gone for months. And to own up to your failures. This, Jeff, sounds like the real deal. This time is THE time. And I'm glad to be on your team.
Feeling strong on Day 2, I have been here before. This time there is something different though, something I have never felt when quit, I can feel the freedom on the other side a little bit. I don't have any nostalgic feelings for the bear right now, only anger and regret. Diesel said it to me the first go round, get mad at the f##king bear. He took time from family from me, money, and plenty of health problems. So, yeah I'm mad at the bear and the nic bitch today. Proud to be a quitter here today. Sorry if I ramble, just putting my trash out on the street for pickup.
Besides the awesome support on here, there has been one thing that really helps my quit. Posting roll and keeping my word every damn day. INTEGRITY bro. That's what this shit is all about. Be a man of your word every day. You post roll and you keep your word. That's what badasses do. Show us you are a badass.
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Couple of coworkers just stepped out to smoke....I used to step out and have a dip while they were burning one. Not today...today I am free of nicotine. Day 3 is going ok, less foggy today than yesterday. The goal is clearer to me than ever.....freedom, freedom is the ultimate goal. It feels very liberating to just give in to the quit, I feel very good today. Carry on KTC!
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Couple of coworkers just stepped out to smoke....I used to step out and have a dip while they were burning one. Not today...today I am free of nicotine. Day 3 is going ok, less foggy today than yesterday. The goal is clearer to me than ever.....freedom, freedom is the ultimate goal. It feels very liberating to just give in to the quit, I feel very good today. Carry on KTC!
Two thumbs way, way up, jlud!!
Keep pressing forward, you have just begun to experience the freedom!
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Couple of coworkers just stepped out to smoke....I used to step out and have a dip while they were burning one. Not today...today I am free of nicotine. Day 3 is going ok, less foggy today than yesterday. The goal is clearer to me than ever.....freedom, freedom is the ultimate goal. It feels very liberating to just give in to the quit, I feel very good today. Carry on KTC!
Two thumbs way, way up, jlud!!
Keep pressing forward, you have just begun to experience the freedom!
Freedom is so damn cool! Nice job man. Each day... Another day stronger. Quit on...
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Couple of coworkers just stepped out to smoke....I used to step out and have a dip while they were burning one. Not today...today I am free of nicotine. Day 3 is going ok, less foggy today than yesterday. The goal is clearer to me than ever.....freedom, freedom is the ultimate goal. It feels very liberating to just give in to the quit, I feel very good today. Carry on KTC!
Two thumbs way, way up, jlud!!
Keep pressing forward, you have just begun to experience the freedom!
Freedom is so damn cool! Nice job man. Each day... Another day stronger. Quit on...
Those poor guys/gals. I sure hope that isn't the puff of nicotine that ends up giving them cancer. Was this too direct, Jlud? These are the sorts of thoughts that I used in the early days to get through any craves.
I've got a 45-year-old cousin with a wife and 2 kids that is probably going to die in the next couple of days from aggressive brain cancer - he never smoked or chewed in his life. And he was vegan. Ever heard of a vegan in Kansas? That's jacked man! (I got off subject there for a minute.) The last few days I've been thinking about him a lot. How on earth could I disrespect this man by going back to my bad ways? There but by the grace of God go I...
Lots on my mind this morning. Most of them bad thoughts about my addiction. Screw nicotine!
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Couple of coworkers just stepped out to smoke....I used to step out and have a dip while they were burning one. Not today...today I am free of nicotine. Day 3 is going ok, less foggy today than yesterday. The goal is clearer to me than ever.....freedom, freedom is the ultimate goal. It feels very liberating to just give in to the quit, I feel very good today. Carry on KTC!
Two thumbs way, way up, jlud!!
Keep pressing forward, you have just begun to experience the freedom!
Freedom is so damn cool! Nice job man. Each day... Another day stronger. Quit on...
Those poor guys/gals. I sure hope that isn't the puff of nicotine that ends up giving them cancer. Was this too direct, Jlud? These are the sorts of thoughts that I used in the early days to get through any craves.
I've got a 45-year-old cousin with a wife and 2 kids that is probably going to die in the next couple of days from aggressive brain cancer - he never smoked or chewed in his life. And he was vegan. Ever heard of a vegan in Kansas? That's jacked man! (I got off subject there for a minute.) The last few days I've been thinking about him a lot. How on earth could I disrespect this man by going back to my bad ways? There but by the grace of God go I...
Lots on my mind this morning. Most of them bad thoughts about my addiction. Screw nicotine!
I Hate the poison. I hated it this morning. I'm hating it right now, middle of the day. Pretty sure I'm going to hate it for the remainder of today.
Stole my Mother in law. Stole one of my friends. In the process of taking another friend.
Probably going to take my mother and father. Dad has already several health issues and continues taking days off his life.
Your co workers can have it. Me and you are done. Screw the poison.
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Couple of coworkers just stepped out to smoke....I used to step out and have a dip while they were burning one. Not today...today I am free of nicotine. Day 3 is going ok, less foggy today than yesterday. The goal is clearer to me than ever.....freedom, freedom is the ultimate goal. It feels very liberating to just give in to the quit, I feel very good today. Carry on KTC!
Two thumbs way, way up, jlud!!
Keep pressing forward, you have just begun to experience the freedom!
Freedom is so damn cool! Nice job man. Each day... Another day stronger. Quit on...
Those poor guys/gals. I sure hope that isn't the puff of nicotine that ends up giving them cancer. Was this too direct, Jlud? These are the sorts of thoughts that I used in the early days to get through any craves.
I've got a 45-year-old cousin with a wife and 2 kids that is probably going to die in the next couple of days from aggressive brain cancer - he never smoked or chewed in his life. And he was vegan. Ever heard of a vegan in Kansas? That's jacked man! (I got off subject there for a minute.) The last few days I've been thinking about him a lot. How on earth could I disrespect this man by going back to my bad ways? There but by the grace of God go I...
Lots on my mind this morning. Most of them bad thoughts about my addiction. Screw nicotine!
Great job. It is those early victories that start to add up and give you the strength to beat the more difficult Times. You are on your way buddy.
Quit with you.
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So, I leave work today. I need to hit the ATM and quickie mart for some seeds for the evening. Immediately my brain says head down to my usual spot for a Diet Coke and some Sunflower Seeds. Addiction works in funny ways....
I thought of the usual guy at the counter and how he always asks if I need one or two cans today. I paused and thought better than to go the usual place. However even the busier corporate gas station quickie mart I usually avoid was still a shaky affair. I didn't even realize what a close call I had until I got home. I had felt pretty good today (day 3), not that I felt cured or anything but I was confident in today. I did not break my promise today, I kept my daily oath to all of you, but I was reminded that my addiction will continue to test me when I am not expecting it. Thank goodness I have kept KTC close all day, reading all of your struggles and stories keeps that promise fresh in the mind. A dip and a problem equals 2 problems. I am rambling now but I wanted to share my experience today.
...and the best part was when I did get home and sat down with a cheek full of seeds, my 9 year old son told be how proud he was of me that I stopped using "that stinky Kodiak stuff".....just beautiful this thing called quit.
Damn proud to be quit with all of you today.
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So, I leave work today. I need to hit the ATM and quickie mart for some seeds for the evening. Immediately my brain says head down to my usual spot for a Diet Coke and some Sunflower Seeds. Addiction works in funny ways....
I thought of the usual guy at the counter and how he always asks if I need one or two cans today. I paused and thought better than to go the usual place. However even the busier corporate gas station quickie mart I usually avoid was still a shaky affair. I didn't even realize what a close call I had until I got home. I had felt pretty good today (day 3), not that I felt cured or anything but I was confident in today. I did not break my promise today, I kept my daily oath to all of you, but I was reminded that my addiction will continue to test me when I am not expecting it. Thank goodness I have kept KTC close all day, reading all of your struggles and stories keeps that promise fresh in the mind. A dip and a problem equals 2 problems. I am rambling now but I wanted to share my experience today.
...and the best part was when I did get home and sat down with a cheek full of seeds, my 9 year old son told be how proud he was of me that I stopped using "that stinky Kodiak stuff".....just beautiful this thing called quit.
Damn proud to be quit with all of you today.
Good stuff. Don't hesitate to contact me in this situation. Call me up, I can sit idle on your phone while you go in and out of the store. Sounds dumb, but do whatever is necessary to guard your quit.
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I was just contemplating my evening yesterday and how glad I am to be quit this morning. Yesterday was day 3 and during work the fog felt a little thinner, the suck was sucking a bit less. I had no illusions that I had this "beat" or "cured" by any means but I was feeling strong. Last night was a different story, hour by hour it was a struggle. I stayed close to the site, got in to chat with some great Vets (thanks Cdaniels, Philster and everyone else that was hanging in there last night).
So, I woke up multiple times during the night, haven't been sleeping great anyway. Every time I woke up, dip, popped into my brain. It was just a reminder to my quit self that the mindgames are just getting going, not to let my guard down and protect my infant quit with the truth. Nic has taken more from me than I ever received. I don't know how much sense I make but I want to be sure to record my journey here for future reference. I never want to forget the suck the first few days and all my early struggles.
Quit on brothers!
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I was just contemplating my evening yesterday and how glad I am to be quit this morning. Yesterday was day 3 and during work the fog felt a little thinner, the suck was sucking a bit less. I had no illusions that I had this "beat" or "cured" by any means but I was feeling strong. Last night was a different story, hour by hour it was a struggle. I stayed close to the site, got in to chat with some great Vets (thanks Cdaniels, Philster and everyone else that was hanging in there last night).
So, I woke up multiple times during the night, haven't been sleeping great anyway. Every time I woke up, dip, popped into my brain. It was just a reminder to my quit self that the mindgames are just getting going, not to let my guard down and protect my infant quit with the truth. Nic has taken more from me than I ever received. I don't know how much sense I make but I want to be sure to record my journey here for future reference. I never want to forget the suck the first few days and all my early struggles.
Quit on brothers!
Bro... It won't always be a fight! That's the good news. Right now, though, it's gonna be. No way around it. We messed up our mind, body, and soul with this awful shit. Healing is gonna take awhile. You know your tools... Use 'em like you did last night. Fight this good fight correctly right now in your quit. Every moment of hell is something that makes you stronger. Never. Again! Quit on bro! I'm sending you a pm with my number...
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I was just contemplating my evening yesterday and how glad I am to be quit this morning. Yesterday was day 3 and during work the fog felt a little thinner, the suck was sucking a bit less. I had no illusions that I had this "beat" or "cured" by any means but I was feeling strong. Last night was a different story, hour by hour it was a struggle. I stayed close to the site, got in to chat with some great Vets (thanks Cdaniels, Philster and everyone else that was hanging in there last night).
So, I woke up multiple times during the night, haven't been sleeping great anyway. Every time I woke up, dip, popped into my brain. It was just a reminder to my quit self that the mindgames are just getting going, not to let my guard down and protect my infant quit with the truth. Nic has taken more from me than I ever received. I don't know how much sense I make but I want to be sure to record my journey here for future reference. I never want to forget the suck the first few days and all my early struggles.
Quit on brothers!
Bro... It won't always be a fight! That's the good news. Right now, though, it's gonna be. No way around it. We messed up our mind, body, and soul with this awful shit. Healing is gonna take awhile. You know your tools... Use 'em like you did last night. Fight this good fight correctly right now in your quit. Every moment of hell is something that makes you stronger. Never. Again! Quit on bro! I'm sending you a pm with my number...
You are doing it! Gonna suck for a while, but you just keep fighting. It will get better. The first 3 days were the worst for me, and by week 2 I caught a breather. Just stay close to KTC and read as much as you can. Best way to fight the nic bitch mind games is with knowledge. I will PM you with my # too. Never Again For Any Reason!
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Saturday morning. Day 5 I think. And last night you went to the races, right - something you used to really enjoy - one long date with a can of poison and some fast cars.
Look forward to hearing what it was like without nicotine. What did your eyes see, what did your brain think? Did anything seem different?
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Saturday morning. Day 5 I think. And last night you went to the races, right - something you used to really enjoy - one long date with a can of poison and some fast cars.
Look forward to hearing what it was like without nicotine. What did your eyes see, what did your brain think? Did anything seem different?
Morning to all! Hey work, yeah it was trip last night. I sit in the same spot most of the time in the grandstands near a couple older guys, they both smoke but that was never much of an issue for me. Funny thing though, some guy I've never seen sitting in "our area" was there last night. So, I see him fondling an empty Pepsi bottle and I know what's coming.....wasn't long and he was finger bangin' that can of Skoal Wintergreen all night. I have to say that while my cravings were nagging at me some, that guy next to me made my quit stronger last night. Had he offered the can to me, I had my phone and my quit support close but I never felt my quit waver. He was probably a few years older than me, early forties, and he looked miserable in the heat and humid North Carolina summer night.
I love your questions worktowin, because my senses were assaulted by so many new things that it almost distracted by the racing action on the track! I cannot tell you how many people I noticed smoking and dipping with bottles of brown poison ooze toting around with them. I feel incredibly blessed by some power greater than myself. I feel like Neo in the Matrix a little, watching these people poisoning themselves, its like the truth has been revealed.
Then my computer took a giant dump this morning and I did not have time to take it apart and try to fix it this morning. Flipping electronic gadget rage.....would have been a prime time for a lipper that's for sure. So, I posted roll when I got here to work and I'm proud to be quit with all of you today!
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I am also dealing with all of the usual symptoms listed in the KTC What to expect when quitting section for days 4-20.
But whatever, this too shall pass..... ODAAT EDD
Hey Nicotine! 'Finger'
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Well day 7 now and have not been posting much this weekend. I was having some rough moments and felt like posting some of what I felt might be harmful to other newer quitters. Well a friend from herer pointed me to another an intro thread that helped me a lot.
It has been suggesfed to keep posting my thoughts so i will. I did not anticipate the mental battle that the nic puts up after that first few days. I have had some crappy moments the last few days but my resolve to stay quit is stronger than ever. 20+ years of poisoning myself cannot be "cured" in a week.
I had moments the last few days where I craved so bad I was almost in tears. My quit brothers have taught me 2 valuable tools though
1. Simple, keep that roll promise. ODAAT
2. Remember that nicotine is the "cause" of all of this crap, so going back will only set me back to the beginning. Day 1 sucked, not going back. Not gonna call my supporters and tell them I'm not stong enough to quit today with them and keep my word.
The nic bitch is my enemy, she is the reason I must go through all of this. I choose not to listen to her lies and empty promises today......today......I am quit!
ODAAT, NAFAR
I am so very thankful for all of you today, I could not be quit without you!
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Well day 7 now and have not been posting much this weekend. I was having some rough moments and felt like posting some of what I felt might be harmful to other newer quitters. Well a friend from herer pointed me to another an intro thread that helped me a lot.
It has been suggesfed to keep posting my thoughts so i will. I did not anticipate the mental battle that the nic puts up after that first few days. I have had some crappy moments the last few days but my resolve to stay quit is stronger than ever. 20+ years of poisoning myself cannot be "cured" in a week.
I had moments the last few days where I craved so bad I was almost in tears. My quit brothers have taught me 2 valuable tools though
1. Simple, keep that roll promise. ODAAT
2. Remember that nicotine is the "cause" of all of this crap, so going back will only set me back to the beginning. Day 1 sucked, not going back. Not gonna call my supporters and tell them I'm not stong enough to quit today with them and keep my word.
The nic bitch is my enemy, she is the reason I must go through all of this. I choose not to listen to her lies and empty promises today......today......I am quit!
ODAAT, NAFAR
I am so very thankful for all of you today, I could not be quit without you!
Remember that you are posting to your intro thread to chronicle your battle to kick this poison to the curb. You want to post the bad times so you can look back and see how difficult the battle was and why you don't want to do it again. Other quitters read your stuff and know they aren't the only ones going thru issues. I can tell you that I read my entire intro thread the other day ... I just posted day 30 this morning ... There is no way I want to go thru the first week again. I was miserable, but i feel better and better EDD. Stay quit bro - ODAAT!
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Well day 7 now and have not been posting much this weekend. I was having some rough moments and felt like posting some of what I felt might be harmful to other newer quitters. Well a friend from herer pointed me to another an intro thread that helped me a lot.
It has been suggesfed to keep posting my thoughts so i will. I did not anticipate the mental battle that the nic puts up after that first few days. I have had some crappy moments the last few days but my resolve to stay quit is stronger than ever. 20+ years of poisoning myself cannot be "cured" in a week.
I had moments the last few days where I craved so bad I was almost in tears. My quit brothers have taught me 2 valuable tools though
1. Simple, keep that roll promise. ODAAT
2. Remember that nicotine is the "cause" of all of this crap, so going back will only set me back to the beginning. Day 1 sucked, not going back. Not gonna call my supporters and tell them I'm not stong enough to quit today with them and keep my word.
The nic bitch is my enemy, she is the reason I must go through all of this. I choose not to listen to her lies and empty promises today......today......I am quit!
ODAAT, NAFAR
I am so very thankful for all of you today, I could not be quit without you!
Remember that you are posting to your intro thread to chronicle your battle to kick this poison to the curb. You want to post the bad times so you can look back and see how difficult the battle was and why you don't want to do it again. Other quitters read your stuff and know they aren't the only ones going thru issues. I can tell you that I read my entire intro thread the other day ... I just posted day 30 this morning ... There is no way I want to go thru the first week again. I was miserable, but i feel better and better EDD. Stay quit bro - ODAAT!
Nice job. Every victory over a day like that is armor to wear into the next battle. Awesome job. When it gets tough, get on here. For me, just reading about other's similar struggles, or writing about my own, sets them apart from the real me, and they can be more easily seen as what they are... the nicbitch clawing at the door you locked her behind.
Glad to be quit with you.
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Well jolly damn Tuesday quitters!
Day 8 today and my attitude has not been very good these last few days. What I can glean from others that have quit before me is that I am right where I should expect to be right now.
Craves are tough but I continue to use the tools set before me, talking to people from here and keeping my roll call promise. My crazy addict mind really worked me over thru the weekend though.
My computer died on Saturday which really pissed me off and kept me from being on the site as much as I had wanted to be this weekend. Trying to read and navigate to much on my phone just annoyed me further and gave me a head ache....the addict brain was trying to wiggle in there.
I got bumped from roll call THREE TIMES on Monday! On top of trying to post it on my phone. Really damn annoyed....and the nic bitch whispers.
I stayed quit though and that's the biggest thing! I had no idea what a fight this would be early on. Don't get me wrong I had no illusions that once the poison was out of my body that things would magically get better, but this shit really keeps working on you. Like I said my attitude has not been very positive the last few days but I stay quit and put my faith in my quit brothers that have gone before me that if I continue on this difficult journey that things will get better....much better.....and I believe them. So for that I keep moving forward, faith in the road ahead and the memory that for every shitty day I have, staying quit no matter what ensures that I don't have to repeat them.
Thanks for listening, proud to be quit with all of you today!
Hey Nicotine! 'Finger'
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Well jolly damn Tuesday quitters!
Day 8 today and my attitude has not been very good these last few days. What I can glean from others that have quit before me is that I am right where I should expect to be right now.
Craves are tough but I continue to use the tools set before me, talking to people from here and keeping my roll call promise. My crazy addict mind really worked me over thru the weekend though.
My computer died on Saturday which really pissed me off and kept me from being on the site as much as I had wanted to be this weekend. Trying to read and navigate to much on my phone just annoyed me further and gave me a head ache....the addict brain was trying to wiggle in there.
I got bumped from roll call THREE TIMES on Monday! On top of trying to post it on my phone. Really damn annoyed....and the nic bitch whispers.
I stayed quit though and that's the biggest thing! I had no idea what a fight this would be early on. Don't get me wrong I had no illusions that once the poison was out of my body that things would magically get better, but this shit really keeps working on you. Like I said my attitude has not been very positive the last few days but I stay quit and put my faith in my quit brothers that have gone before me that if I continue on this difficult journey that things will get better....much better.....and I believe them. So for that I keep moving forward, faith in the road ahead and the memory that for every shitty day I have, staying quit no matter what ensures that I don't have to repeat them.
Thanks for listening, proud to be quit with all of you today!
Hey Nicotine! 'Finger'
Awesome 007. It takes balls to get through that first week. Thrilled to be quit with you.
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Well jolly damn Tuesday quitters!
Day 8 today and my attitude has not been very good these last few days. What I can glean from others that have quit before me is that I am right where I should expect to be right now.
Craves are tough but I continue to use the tools set before me, talking to people from here and keeping my roll call promise. My crazy addict mind really worked me over thru the weekend though.Â
My computer died on Saturday which really pissed me off and kept me from being on the site as much as I had wanted to be this weekend. Trying to read and navigate to much on my phone just annoyed me further and gave me a head ache....the addict brain was trying to wiggle in there.
I got bumped from roll call THREE TIMES on Monday! On top of trying to post it on my phone. Really damn annoyed....and the nic bitch whispers.Â
I stayed quit though and that's the biggest thing! I had no idea what a fight this would be early on. Don't get me wrong I had no illusions that once the poison was out of my body that things would magically get better, but this shit really keeps working on you. Like I said my attitude has not been very positive the last few days but I stay quit and put my faith in my quit brothers that have gone before me that if I continue on this difficult journey that things will get better....much better.....and I believe them. So for that I keep moving forward, faith in the road ahead and the memory that for every shitty day I have, staying quit no matter what ensures that I don't have to repeat them.
Thanks for listening, proud to be quit with all of you today!
Hey Nicotine! 'Finger'
Awesome 007. It takes balls to get through that first week. Thrilled to be quit with you.
Getting bumped = some kind of hazing ritual it seems on this site. In any event, glad you are doing well. Hang in there - there are some bumps ahead, but nothing like the Niagara Falls cliff you were on last week!
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Well jolly damn Tuesday quitters!
Day 8 today and my attitude has not been very good these last few days. What I can glean from others that have quit before me is that I am right where I should expect to be right now.
Craves are tough but I continue to use the tools set before me, talking to people from here and keeping my roll call promise. My crazy addict mind really worked me over thru the weekend though.Â
My computer died on Saturday which really pissed me off and kept me from being on the site as much as I had wanted to be this weekend. Trying to read and navigate to much on my phone just annoyed me further and gave me a head ache....the addict brain was trying to wiggle in there.
I got bumped from roll call THREE TIMES on Monday! On top of trying to post it on my phone. Really damn annoyed....and the nic bitch whispers.Â
I stayed quit though and that's the biggest thing! I had no idea what a fight this would be early on. Don't get me wrong I had no illusions that once the poison was out of my body that things would magically get better, but this shit really keeps working on you. Like I said my attitude has not been very positive the last few days but I stay quit and put my faith in my quit brothers that have gone before me that if I continue on this difficult journey that things will get better....much better.....and I believe them. So for that I keep moving forward, faith in the road ahead and the memory that for every shitty day I have, staying quit no matter what ensures that I don't have to repeat them.
Thanks for listening, proud to be quit with all of you today!
Hey Nicotine!  'Finger'
Awesome 007. It takes balls to get through that first week. Thrilled to be quit with you.
Getting bumped = some kind of hazing ritual it seems on this site. In any event, glad you are doing well. Hang in there - there are some bumps ahead, but nothing like the Niagara Falls cliff you were on last week!
Day 10... How is it going? Lets have an update jlud!
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Day 10... How is it going? Lets have an update jlud!
Hey quitters!
Day 11 and have been laying low a bit this week. Still have no computer at home so have not been posting much outside of roll call. Hoping to resolve that situation soon. My quit is becoming part of my routine now. I wake up thinking about posting roll and less about stuffing my lip full of poison in morning. Craves still come and come hard at times but I am starting to have longer periods of time without thinking about it, an hour here, couple hours there....starts to add up and feels really good.
I am damn proud to be quit with all of you bad ass quitters here today!
Quit on brothers!
Hey Nic Bitch.... 'Finger'
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What's up quitters! Damn proud to be quit with all of you today and if your not quit yet and reading this.......wtf are you waiting for....dump that poison in the nearest crapper and jump in the quit is on like donkey kong up in here!!!!!
Seriously though today is day 18 completely free of nicotine and feeling very good because of my experience on day 17 which I just wanted to share today.
Yesterday was a pretty normal day, since my quit started anyway. I got to work, posted roll, texting some with some of my quit brothers, busy day at work but was feeling very good. My mother in law called me around 1:30 PM to tell me that she had picked up Mrs. 007 and taken her to the emergency room for abdominal pain. I finished my work day while they checked her out and I could feel the nic bitch sneaking in already....challenging me almost.
"What you gonna do now big boy? Even with your fancy quitter website you can't manage a stressful situation like this without me"
Well, I texted my KTC buddies and showed her that she wasn't gonna make me a slave again today, I was gonna wake up and post my +1 tomorrow. So Mrs. 007 is ok for now, she needs to make an appointment with a specialist to check out the abdominal pain she is having sporadically and I stayed up all night with her in the ER. I also made it work, albeit late, and managed to stay quit as well. All in all it has been a pretty good 24 hours and feels very good to still be quit, I can't imagine the guilt of breaking my word and shame of caving in to the poison would feel as good......I know how that feels.....feels like hiding, feels weak.
So any new fellas or gals...get some numbers you'll need them. Its not just accountability and integrity that makes this work, its the connection to another addict that understands how you feel. Someone that can reassure you that falling back into the clutches of nicotine is not the answer to whatever problem your facing.
Two quotes from vets here at the site stick with me always:
"Caving is not an option, do something else."
"A dip and a problem, equals two problems."
Forgive me I can't remember who I picked those up from at them moment.
Quit on quitters! Hey Nic Bitch! 'Finger'
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What's up quitters! Damn proud to be quit with all of you today and if your not quit yet and reading this.......wtf are you waiting for....dump that poison in the nearest crapper and jump in the quit is on like donkey kong up in here!!!!!
Seriously though today is day 18 completely free of nicotine and feeling very good because of my experience on day 17 which I just wanted to share today.
Yesterday was a pretty normal day, since my quit started anyway. I got to work, posted roll, texting some with some of my quit brothers, busy day at work but was feeling very good. My mother in law called me around 1:30 PM to tell me that she had picked up Mrs. 007 and taken her to the emergency room for abdominal pain. I finished my work day while they checked her out and I could feel the nic bitch sneaking in already....challenging me almost.
"What you gonna do now big boy? Even with your fancy quitter website you can't manage a stressful situation like this without me"
Well, I texted my KTC buddies and showed her that she wasn't gonna make me a slave again today, I was gonna wake up and post my +1 tomorrow. So Mrs. 007 is ok for now, she needs to make an appointment with a specialist to check out the abdominal pain she is having sporadically and I stayed up all night with her in the ER. I also made it work, albeit late, and managed to stay quit as well. All in all it has been a pretty good 24 hours and feels very good to still be quit, I can't imagine the guilt of breaking my word and shame of caving in to the poison would feel as good......I know how that feels.....feels like hiding, feels weak.
So any new fellas or gals...get some numbers you'll need them. Its not just accountability and integrity that makes this work, its the connection to another addict that understands how you feel. Someone that can reassure you that falling back into the clutches of nicotine is not the answer to whatever problem your facing.
Two quotes from vets here at the site stick with me always:
"Caving is not an option, do something else."
"A dip and a problem, equals two problems."
Forgive me I can't remember who I picked those up from at them moment.
Quit on quitters! Hey Nic Bitch! 'Finger'
I love it. Smart. Simply sending a text, even if you don't get a quick reply, can transform a situation immediately. It brings you back to earth, back to the moment rather than allowing yourself to be swept away by her lies.
Stay strong 007. You're killing it.
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Happy Sunday Quitters!
Day 20 here and glad to be quit today.
The last few days of my life really tested my quit for the first time, you can read back for details. Which is funny because yesterday was going pretty well until a craving hit me like ton of bricks while out shopping with my wife and son.
Cruising Walmart with the family, that was prime time not so long ago. This craving snuck up on me, felt like day 1 or 2 all over again. The worst part was in the middle of it my brain was actually telling me I DID NOT need to call someone, I was fine......lies, that was the nic bitch talking.
Well, I made a text and a call...no answer yet. Got a response just as I was looking down the list to call a couple guys I don't talk to as much, I was ready to keep calling KTC numbers until I got somebody. Saved my ass yesterday reaching out to another quitter. I made through a physically debilitating crave, I was almost in tears and shaking like a leaf.
The nic bitch will make you feel like your weaker now, that dip made you stronger, faster, smarter, funnier.....whatever worked. We are not weak, we will not be slaves anymore, we are quit today and we need to lean on one another to stay strong and keep the nic bitch beat back today!
Proud to be quit another day with all of you!
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Happy Sunday Quitters!
Day 20 here and glad to be quit today.
The last few days of my life really tested my quit for the first time, you can read back for details. Which is funny because yesterday was going pretty well until a craving hit me like ton of bricks while out shopping with my wife and son.
Cruising Walmart with the family, that was prime time not so long ago. This craving snuck up on me, felt like day 1 or 2 all over again. The worst part was in the middle of it my brain was actually telling me I DID NOT need to call someone, I was fine......lies, that was the nic bitch talking.
Well, I made a text and a call...no answer yet. Got a response just as I was looking down the list to call a couple guys I don't talk to as much, I was ready to keep calling KTC numbers until I got somebody. Saved my ass yesterday reaching out to another quitter. I made through a physically debilitating crave, I was almost in tears and shaking like a leaf.
The nic bitch will make you feel like your weaker now, that dip made you stronger, faster, smarter, funnier.....whatever worked. We are not weak, we will not be slaves anymore, we are quit today and we need to lean on one another to stay strong and keep the nic bitch beat back today!
Proud to be quit another day with all of you!
NOW THATS HOW WE USE OUR TOOLS PEOPLE... AWESOME JOB 007. PROUD TO BE QUIT WITH YOU TODAY
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Happy Sunday Quitters!
Day 20 here and glad to be quit today.
The last few days of my life really tested my quit for the first time, you can read back for details. Which is funny because yesterday was going pretty well until a craving hit me like ton of bricks while out shopping with my wife and son.
Cruising Walmart with the family, that was prime time not so long ago. This craving snuck up on me, felt like day 1 or 2 all over again. The worst part was in the middle of it my brain was actually telling me I DID NOT need to call someone, I was fine......lies, that was the nic bitch talking.
Well, I made a text and a call...no answer yet. Got a response just as I was looking down the list to call a couple guys I don't talk to as much, I was ready to keep calling KTC numbers until I got somebody. Saved my ass yesterday reaching out to another quitter. I made through a physically debilitating crave, I was almost in tears and shaking like a leaf.
The nic bitch will make you feel like your weaker now, that dip made you stronger, faster, smarter, funnier.....whatever worked. We are not weak, we will not be slaves anymore, we are quit today and we need to lean on one another to stay strong and keep the nic bitch beat back today!
Proud to be quit another day with all of you!
NOW THATS HOW WE USE OUR TOOLS PEOPLE... AWESOME JOB 007. PROUD TO BE QUIT WITH YOU TODAY
What CD said! Pay attention newbs... That's how it's done. Well done J...
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Happy Sunday Quitters!
Day 20 here and glad to be quit today.
The last few days of my life really tested my quit for the first time, you can read back for details. Which is funny because yesterday was going pretty well until a craving hit me like ton of bricks while out shopping with my wife and son.
Cruising Walmart with the family, that was prime time not so long ago. This craving snuck up on me, felt like day 1 or 2 all over again. The worst part was in the middle of it my brain was actually telling me I DID NOT need to call someone, I was fine......lies, that was the nic bitch talking.
Well, I made a text and a call...no answer yet. Got a response just as I was looking down the list to call a couple guys I don't talk to as much, I was ready to keep calling KTC numbers until I got somebody. Saved my ass yesterday reaching out to another quitter. I made through a physically debilitating crave, I was almost in tears and shaking like a leaf.
The nic bitch will make you feel like your weaker now, that dip made you stronger, faster, smarter, funnier.....whatever worked. We are not weak, we will not be slaves anymore, we are quit today and we need to lean on one another to stay strong and keep the nic bitch beat back today!
Proud to be quit another day with all of you!
NOW THATS HOW WE USE OUR TOOLS PEOPLE... AWESOME JOB 007. PROUD TO BE QUIT WITH YOU TODAY
What CD said! Pay attention newbs... That's how it's done. Well done J...
Another test, another victory. Build on that 007. I'm proud of your quit right now, and grateful to have you in my corner. You know I'm in yours.
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I just needed to post and vent this morning. First of all congrats to Traumagnet, Erussell, papabear and my August '13 brothers who have reached or are approaching the HOF..... I am sad that I stumbled and could not stand with you.
However, I am grateful that I sacked up and drug my ass back here to see you guys reach that first milestone and that just strengthens my quit.
So....to vent. Day 24 and I guess I am just a little bit in my first funk. I have read some guys have a 20's funk so no doubt this to shall pass, but I'm sure some of you have just had those days where your just pissed at work, pissed at the world, pissed at the guys in your group missing roll and caving..etc.
It is important for me to just air this crap.When I do it loses any influence on my quit that it could have and helps me keep my anger focused where it belongs, on that damn poison in a can that enslaved me for so many years.
Thanks for reading, listening commenting....whatever.
Damn proud to quit with all of you bad asses today!
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I just needed to post and vent this morning. First of all congrats to Traumagnet, Erussell, papabear and my August '13 brothers who have reached or are approaching the HOF..... I am sad that I stumbled and could not stand with you.
However, I am grateful that I sacked up and drug my ass back here to see you guys reach that first milestone and that just strengthens my quit.
So....to vent. Day 24 and I guess I am just a little bit in my first funk. I have read some guys have a 20's funk so no doubt this to shall pass, but I'm sure some of you have just had those days where your just pissed at work, pissed at the world, pissed at the guys in your group missing roll and caving..etc.
It is important for me to just air this crap.When I do it loses any influence on my quit that it could have and helps me keep my anger focused where it belongs, on that damn poison in a can that enslaved me for so many years.
Thanks for reading, listening commenting....whatever.
Damn proud to quit with all of you bad asses today!
Whoa, the lights are shining bright here!!! It is important place where you are at...you recognize that this is happening and that no matter what is thrown at you YOU know that nicotine aint gonna get you shit but trouble. That's what this thread is for landmarking your quit use it. You got this Jlud quit on bro quit with you today.
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I just needed to post and vent this morning. First of all congrats to Traumagnet, Erussell, papabear and my August '13 brothers who have reached or are approaching the HOF..... I am sad that I stumbled and could not stand with you.
However, I am grateful that I sacked up and drug my ass back here to see you guys reach that first milestone and that just strengthens my quit.
So....to vent. Day 24 and I guess I am just a little bit in my first funk. I have read some guys have a 20's funk so no doubt this to shall pass, but I'm sure some of you have just had those days where your just pissed at work, pissed at the world, pissed at the guys in your group missing roll and caving..etc.
It is important for me to just air this crap.When I do it loses any influence on my quit that it could have and helps me keep my anger focused where it belongs, on that damn poison in a can that enslaved me for so many years.
Thanks for reading, listening commenting....whatever.
Damn proud to quit with all of you bad asses today!
great way to be open with all jlud!
I quit with you brother!
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So, Day 32....wow a whole month with no dip. There was a point where I really never thought that would be possible, a point where I couldn't even make a day or two without it. Convinced myself that I was just stuck with that choice I made at 14 years old to take that first pinch.
Another weekend is upon us, weekends are still a little rough for me, but not nearly as rough as waking up Monday having to post Day 1 again. One day at a time....that's how we roll here, but I plan on being here quit on Monday none the less.
Quit with all you today brothers!
..and if you feel like caving, like just one more day dancing with the nic bitch will make it all better, I recommend reading this......
Words of Wisdom (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=8639)
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So, Day 32....wow a whole month with no dip. There was a point where I really never thought that would be possible, a point where I couldn't even make a day or two without it. Convinced myself that I was just stuck with that choice I made at 14 years old to take that first pinch.
Another weekend is upon us, weekends are still a little rough for me, but not nearly as rough as waking up Monday having to post Day 1 again. One day at a time....that's how we roll here, but I plan on being here quit on Monday none the less.
Quit with all you today brothers!
..and if you feel like caving, like just one more day dancing with the nic bitch will make it all better, I recommend reading this......
Words of Wisdom (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=8639)
One month bro. Don't look now you are doing it. The 30's can be rough. You are going to be fine though. I can see determination in your posts. I see someone that sees what he wants and goes to get it.
You've come to far now,, might as well see where this ride takes you. I can tell you I like where i've been so far. I got some more traveling on this roller coaster to do and i'm not getting off or nothing. How about you stay on board with me brutha.
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So, Day 32....wow a whole month with no dip. There was a point where I really never thought that would be possible, a point where I couldn't even make a day or two without it. Convinced myself that I was just stuck with that choice I made at 14 years old to take that first pinch.
Another weekend is upon us, weekends are still a little rough for me, but not nearly as rough as waking up Monday having to post Day 1 again. One day at a time....that's how we roll here, but I plan on being here quit on Monday none the less.
Quit with all you today brothers!
..and if you feel like caving, like just one more day dancing with the nic bitch will make it all better, I recommend reading this......
Words of Wisdom (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=8639)
One month bro. Don't look now you are doing it. The 30's can be rough. You are going to be fine though. I can see determination in your posts. I see someone that sees what he wants and goes to get it.
You've come to far now,, might as well see where this ride takes you. I can tell you I like where i've been so far. I got some more traveling on this roller coaster to do and i'm not getting off or nothing. How about you stay on board with me brutha.
A month of quittin is pretty damn impressive. Keep up the great attitude and stay on this thing. Eye on the prize. The prize is staying quit today. ODAAT brother!!! I'm gonna quit with u today.
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So, Day 32....wow a whole month with no dip. There was a point where I really never thought that would be possible, a point where I couldn't even make a day or two without it. Convinced myself that I was just stuck with that choice I made at 14 years old to take that first pinch.
Another weekend is upon us, weekends are still a little rough for me, but not nearly as rough as waking up Monday having to post Day 1 again. One day at a time....that's how we roll here, but I plan on being here quit on Monday none the less.
Quit with all you today brothers!
..and if you feel like caving, like just one more day dancing with the nic bitch will make it all better, I recommend reading this......
Words of Wisdom (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=8639)
One month bro. Don't look now you are doing it. The 30's can be rough. You are going to be fine though. I can see determination in your posts. I see someone that sees what he wants and goes to get it.
You've come to far now,, might as well see where this ride takes you. I can tell you I like where i've been so far. I got some more traveling on this roller coaster to do and i'm not getting off or nothing. How about you stay on board with me brutha.
A month of quittin is pretty damn impressive. Keep up the great attitude and stay on this thing. Eye on the prize. The prize is staying quit today. ODAAT brother!!! I'm gonna quit with u today.
Well done Duck! I am proud to quit with you every day damnit (days are no longer Damned when you are quit).
It feels great to be that first month Plus one doesn't it? Enjoy it, bask in it and use that elation to kick tomorrow's ass!
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Day 42 , I suppose I'm due for an update. Honestly I am kind of wandering through my quit right now. Posting roll and minimal contact with quit brothers, nothing crazy just don't feel like talking, texting, chatting very much right now. I can't tell if I am in some kind of danger zone or just working through yet another funk. My quit is as important to me as ever, but just haven't felt enthusiasm for it lately. Honestly if I was going to let down my brothers it would have been today. My attitude was not very good and on the way back to work after lunch I stopped in my favorite convenience store to pick up some gum and seeds for my stockpile. The guy working the counter tosses my favorite can of poison on the counter, I have told him I quit but he apparently forgot. I about had a heart attack, there it was, right there, who would know? I would, I would also have explain my actions to guys that have stood shoulder to shoulder with me for 42 days, I would no longer be an October Duck Fipper. I chuckled and told him just the seeds thanks, reminded him I quit and moved on with my day....still quit. I've watched guys fall away from our group, watched new guys flash in and out, watched guys that failed and returned with all manner of time behind them in my 42 days quit. Today and God willing when I wake up tomorrow, I choose to stay quit with the rest of you quitters.
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Day 42 , I suppose I'm due for an update. Honestly I am kind of wandering through my quit right now. Posting roll and minimal contact with quit brothers, nothing crazy just don't feel like talking, texting, chatting very much right now. I can't tell if I am in some kind of danger zone or just working through yet another funk. My quit is as important to me as ever, but just haven't felt enthusiasm for it lately. Honestly if I was going to let down my brothers it would have been today. My attitude was not very good and on the way back to work after lunch I stopped in my favorite convenience store to pick up some gum and seeds for my stockpile. The guy working the counter tosses my favorite can of poison on the counter, I have told him I quit but he apparently forgot. I about had a heart attack, there it was, right there, who would know? I would, I would also have explain my actions to guys that have stood shoulder to shoulder with me for 42 days, I would no longer be an October Duck Fipper. I chuckled and told him just the seeds thanks, reminded him I quit and moved on with my day....still quit. I've watched guys fall away from our group, watched new guys flash in and out, watched guys that failed and returned with all manner of time behind them in my 42 days quit. Today and God willing when I wake up tomorrow, I choose to stay quit with the rest of you quitters.
007... I looked up your roll posts and you are 42/42. 100%. That is great and shows your dedication to your quit! Awesome job batting away the potential cave scenario at the c-store today. That is how you do it. Your quit looks strong to me. Don't doubt yourself.
If you feel you need to get more active, then do it. The brotherhood is what makes this place strong. I do think all quits ebb/flow. You can't do everything all the time. You will burn out. The main thing you need to do is post roll stay quit today. No exceptions to those 2. You do those 2 things during the day your quit is a success.
Hang in there bro, you are doing it! ODAAT! Stay quit!
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Day 42 , I suppose I'm due for an update. Honestly I am kind of wandering through my quit right now. Posting roll and minimal contact with quit brothers, nothing crazy just don't feel like talking, texting, chatting very much right now. I can't tell if I am in some kind of danger zone or just working through yet another funk. My quit is as important to me as ever, but just haven't felt enthusiasm for it lately. Honestly if I was going to let down my brothers it would have been today. My attitude was not very good and on the way back to work after lunch I stopped in my favorite convenience store to pick up some gum and seeds for my stockpile. The guy working the counter tosses my favorite can of poison on the counter, I have told him I quit but he apparently forgot. I about had a heart attack, there it was, right there, who would know? I would, I would also have explain my actions to guys that have stood shoulder to shoulder with me for 42 days, I would no longer be an October Duck Fipper. I chuckled and told him just the seeds thanks, reminded him I quit and moved on with my day....still quit. I've watched guys fall away from our group, watched new guys flash in and out, watched guys that failed and returned with all manner of time behind them in my 42 days quit. Today and God willing when I wake up tomorrow, I choose to stay quit with the rest of you quitters.
007... I looked up your roll posts and you are 42/42. 100%. That is great and shows your dedication to your quit! Awesome job batting away the potential cave scenario at the c-store today. That is how you do it. Your quit looks strong to me. Don't doubt yourself.
If you feel you need to get more active, then do it. The brotherhood is what makes this place strong. I do think all quits ebb/flow. You can't do everything all the time. You will burn out. The main thing you need to do is post roll stay quit today. No exceptions to those 2. You do those 2 things during the day your quit is a success.
Hang in there bro, you are doing it! ODAAT! Stay quit!
What you had was a choice life or death you 007 chose life you made a conscience decision to not cave you chose to live you defended what you have worked for 42/42. We defend our +1's daily by giving our word to ourselves and all our brothers and sisters on this site. Strong work you battled back the bitch even though you were not at your strongest. keep quit Jlud quit with you today
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Day 42 , I suppose I'm due for an update. Honestly I am kind of wandering through my quit right now. Posting roll and minimal contact with quit brothers, nothing crazy just don't feel like talking, texting, chatting very much right now. I can't tell if I am in some kind of danger zone or just working through yet another funk. My quit is as important to me as ever, but just haven't felt enthusiasm for it lately. Honestly if I was going to let down my brothers it would have been today. My attitude was not very good and on the way back to work after lunch I stopped in my favorite convenience store to pick up some gum and seeds for my stockpile. The guy working the counter tosses my favorite can of poison on the counter, I have told him I quit but he apparently forgot. I about had a heart attack, there it was, right there, who would know? I would, I would also have explain my actions to guys that have stood shoulder to shoulder with me for 42 days, I would no longer be an October Duck Fipper. I chuckled and told him just the seeds thanks, reminded him I quit and moved on with my day....still quit. I've watched guys fall away from our group, watched new guys flash in and out, watched guys that failed and returned with all manner of time behind them in my 42 days quit. Today and God willing when I wake up tomorrow, I choose to stay quit with the rest of you quitters.
007... I looked up your roll posts and you are 42/42. 100%. That is great and shows your dedication to your quit! Awesome job batting away the potential cave scenario at the c-store today. That is how you do it. Your quit looks strong to me. Don't doubt yourself.
If you feel you need to get more active, then do it. The brotherhood is what makes this place strong. I do think all quits ebb/flow. You can't do everything all the time. You will burn out. The main thing you need to do is post roll stay quit today. No exceptions to those 2. You do those 2 things during the day your quit is a success.
Hang in there bro, you are doing it! ODAAT! Stay quit!
What you had was a choice life or death you 007 chose life you made a conscience decision to not cave you chose to live you defended what you have worked for 42/42. We defend our +1's daily by giving our word to ourselves and all our brothers and sisters on this site. Strong work you battled back the bitch even though you were not at your strongest. keep quit Jlud quit with you today
007 I hear you and I think I'm in a similar place. You're 6 weeks quit, so the excitement and constant need for quit talk are fading. This doesn't mean you're weakening or losing focus, I just think you've found a more comfortable place in your quit. When I hit this stage I mistakenly took it for mild depression, but the reality is that my foundation was built and I didn't need to remain so singularly focused on my quit. It's still top priority, but the urgency and enthusiasm have faded because we've gotten used to winning. We can't let our guard down, but neither can we expect to maintain peak-level intensity.
We've gone through some crazy changes over the past few months. From addiction to nicotine to addiction to this website and back down. We're tired. We're out of whack. But now we are rebuilding. Still strong, still connected, still quit.
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What's up quitters!
Day 52 today and I figured I was due to update the old intro thread.
I am so proud after all my struggles with this crud all these years, I never believed it was possible to truly be quit like this.
Quit is starting to feel like my default state now and it feels so damn good, nothing is perfect and I still have moments and cravings but the freedom is really starting to soak in. I was chatting with a quit group mate the other day and it has become clear that it's time to work on some other healthy changes and find some healthy addictions to fill the void now, because I don't need that constant focus to keep quit now. I just can't express how much I appreciate all of you here, because whether we have shared a chat, text or PM or not, practically all of you that post here on a regular basis are my constant support and inspiration.
Thanks fellas!
.....oh and ladies too!
'oh yeah'
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What's up quitters!
Day 52 today and I figured I was due to update the old intro thread.
I am so proud after all my struggles with this crud all these years, I never believed it was possible to truly be quit like this.
Quit is starting to feel like my default state now and it feels so damn good, nothing is perfect and I still have moments and cravings but the freedom is really starting to soak in. I was chatting with a quit group mate the other day and it has become clear that it's time to work on some other healthy changes and find some healthy addictions to fill the void now, because I don't need that constant focus to keep quit now. I just can't express how much I appreciate all of you here, because whether we have shared a chat, text or PM or not, practically all of you that post here on a regular basis are my constant support and inspiration.
Thanks fellas!
.....oh and ladies too!
'oh yeah'
^^^^^That's one kick ass DUCK!
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What's up quitters!
Day 52 today and I figured I was due to update the old intro thread.
I am so proud after all my struggles with this crud all these years, I never believed it was possible to truly be quit like this.
Quit is starting to feel like my default state now and it feels so damn good, nothing is perfect and I still have moments and cravings but the freedom is really starting to soak in. I was chatting with a quit group mate the other day and it has become clear that it's time to work on some other healthy changes and find some healthy addictions to fill the void now, because I don't need that constant focus to keep quit now. I just can't express how much I appreciate all of you here, because whether we have shared a chat, text or PM or not, practically all of you that post here on a regular basis are my constant support and inspiration.
Thanks fellas!
.....oh and ladies too!
'oh yeah'
^^^^^That's one kick ass DUCK!
Nice update
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What's up quitters!
Day 52 today and I figured I was due to update the old intro thread.
I am so proud after all my struggles with this crud all these years, I never believed it was possible to truly be quit like this.
Quit is starting to feel like my default state now and it feels so damn good, nothing is perfect and I still have moments and cravings but the freedom is really starting to soak in. I was chatting with a quit group mate the other day and it has become clear that it's time to work on some other healthy changes and find some healthy addictions to fill the void now, because I don't need that constant focus to keep quit now. I just can't express how much I appreciate all of you here, because whether we have shared a chat, text or PM or not, practically all of you that post here on a regular basis are my constant support and inspiration.
Thanks fellas!
.....oh and ladies too!
'oh yeah'
^^^^^That's one kick ass DUCK!
Nice update
Sounds like a quitter lives here. :)
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What's up quitters!
Day 52 today and I figured I was due to update the old intro thread.
I am so proud after all my struggles with this crud all these years, I never believed it was possible to truly be quit like this.
Quit is starting to feel like my default state now and it feels so damn good, nothing is perfect and I still have moments and cravings but the freedom is really starting to soak in. I was chatting with a quit group mate the other day and it has become clear that it's time to work on some other healthy changes and find some healthy addictions to fill the void now, because I don't need that constant focus to keep quit now. I just can't express how much I appreciate all of you here, because whether we have shared a chat, text or PM or not, practically all of you that post here on a regular basis are my constant support and inspiration.
Thanks fellas!
.....oh and ladies too!
'oh yeah'
^^^^^That's one kick ass DUCK!
Nice update
Sounds like a quitter lives here. :)
Nice 007! I am glad you are believing in this quit because you are killing this quit. I know what you are saying about the "constant" focus on the quit... make sure you don't get off track get sideways by getting lazy. Still early on we need to keep this quit tight. Too much earned freedom to take for granted lose sight of the prize. The prize is being quit today. QLF with you all day bro!
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What's up quitters!
Day 52 today and I figured I was due to update the old intro thread.
I am so proud after all my struggles with this crud all these years, I never believed it was possible to truly be quit like this.
Quit is starting to feel like my default state now and it feels so damn good, nothing is perfect and I still have moments and cravings but the freedom is really starting to soak in. I was chatting with a quit group mate the other day and it has become clear that it's time to work on some other healthy changes and find some healthy addictions to fill the void now, because I don't need that constant focus to keep quit now. I just can't express how much I appreciate all of you here, because whether we have shared a chat, text or PM or not, practically all of you that post here on a regular basis are my constant support and inspiration.
Thanks fellas!
.....oh and ladies too!
'oh yeah'
^^^^^That's one kick ass DUCK!
Nice update
Sounds like a quitter lives here. :)
Nice 007! I am glad you are believing in this quit because you are killing this quit. I know what you are saying about the "constant" focus on the quit... make sure you don't get off track get sideways by getting lazy. Still early on we need to keep this quit tight. Too much earned freedom to take for granted lose sight of the prize. The prize is being quit today. QLF with you all day bro!
Hey Derk, don't worry there's no lazy in my quit today. More like I realized that I have spent the last 7 weeks or so demolishing the old me and it's time to start rebuilding this new quit me. What will that look like? I don't know but I plan on quitting again tomorrow and finding out!
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Hello to my new KTC family. I plan on becoming an active here as it appears that the site and it's camaraderie have given you all the strength to quit and keep quitting every day. I do feel the loss and anxiety this morning of saying goodbye to my old pal the Kodiak bear but reading the information here I think that I have lost the "fear" that has quite often ended my quits before they even started.
I have been a heavy user since high school, started around 14 yrs old here and there and by 15-16 was using several cans of Kodiak a week. I am now 37 and shocked by how quickly time seems to pass. I truly believed then that dip was a phase of my youth. That phase became a 1-1.5 can dependency. I did "quit" for about a month once, I quote quit because I was using nicotine lozenges. I was in a store one day after about 32-33 days dip free, but I guess because I had not broken the nicotine hold it was very easy to slip right back into my norm.
Well I hope this introduction post isn't too ranty or incoherent. I just need to break myself of my self inflicted socially awkward comfort zone so that I can embrace some new friends here to help me on this journey.
Thank you for this website.
If you have time, go back to may or July in your thread. You think you feel good now? Look at how far you've come. You got a kid that is proud of you, your dad is proud of you, your wife is proud of you, a website full of addicts shares your pride.... Man, this is a feeling I think you could get used to!
Keep your guard up. Keep your contacts handy. This site, posting roll, being accountable, staying active... These are long term activities which will keep you quit. You've come so far - I look forward to the next chapter!
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What's up quitters!
Day 52 today and I figured I was due to update the old intro thread.
I am so proud after all my struggles with this crud all these years, I never believed it was possible to truly be quit like this.
Quit is starting to feel like my default state now and it feels so damn good, nothing is perfect and I still have moments and cravings but the freedom is really starting to soak in. I was chatting with a quit group mate the other day and it has become clear that it's time to work on some other healthy changes and find some healthy addictions to fill the void now, because I don't need that constant focus to keep quit now. I just can't express how much I appreciate all of you here, because whether we have shared a chat, text or PM or not, practically all of you that post here on a regular basis are my constant support and inspiration.
Thanks fellas!
.....oh and ladies too!
'oh yeah'
^^^^^That's one kick ass DUCK!
Nice update
Sounds like a quitter lives here. :)
Nice 007! I am glad you are believing in this quit because you are killing this quit. I know what you are saying about the "constant" focus on the quit... make sure you don't get off track get sideways by getting lazy. Still early on we need to keep this quit tight. Too much earned freedom to take for granted lose sight of the prize. The prize is being quit today. QLF with you all day bro!
Hey Derk, don't worry there's no lazy in my quit today. More like I realized that I have spent the last 7 weeks or so demolishing the old me and it's time to start rebuilding this new quit me. What will that look like? I don't know but I plan on quitting again tomorrow and finding out!
Good stuff bro! Getting rid of something that did nothing but take from us has now put us in a great position. We are free men! Free to enjoy the day quit and explore new opportunities! I think I will quit with you tomorrow also!
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Hello to my new KTC family. I plan on becoming an active here as it appears that the site and it's camaraderie have given you all the strength to quit and keep quitting every day. I do feel the loss and anxiety this morning of saying goodbye to my old pal the Kodiak bear but reading the information here I think that I have lost the "fear" that has quite often ended my quits before they even started.
I have been a heavy user since high school, started around 14 yrs old here and there and by 15-16 was using several cans of Kodiak a week. I am now 37 and shocked by how quickly time seems to pass. I truly believed then that dip was a phase of my youth. That phase became a 1-1.5 can dependency. I did "quit" for about a month once, I quote quit because I was using nicotine lozenges. I was in a store one day after about 32-33 days dip free, but I guess because I had not broken the nicotine hold it was very easy to slip right back into my norm.
Well I hope this introduction post isn't too ranty or incoherent. I just need to break myself of my self inflicted socially awkward comfort zone so that I can embrace some new friends here to help me on this journey.
Thank you for this website.
If you have time, go back to may or July in your thread. You think you feel good now? Look at how far you've come. You got a kid that is proud of you, your dad is proud of you, your wife is proud of you, a website full of addicts shares your pride.... Man, this is a feeling I think you could get used to!
Keep your guard up. Keep your contacts handy. This site, posting roll, being accountable, staying active... These are long term activities which will keep you quit. You've come so far - I look forward to the next chapter!
What I really find interesting and I hope someone reads this and saves themselves the extra time.
If you look at my avatar.....I joined KTC in June 2012, never got around to the quit and roll call....just one more......
The post you bumped w2w....that was the day of my first roll post. A little over 11 months of....just one more
Then caved, gave in before I really even got started.....two more months of just one more......
July 16, 2013 is my quit date and I am proud of how far I have come. It is even more important to me to remember those extra 13 months I let slip away because I wanted "one" more or I would quit "tomorrow" Today I'll take "one more" sip from the KTC punch bowl and stay quit!
One of my favorite inspirational reads on the site is linked below. I can only hope that someone new may catch this thread and click that link before they go and have "just one more"
Stay quit brothers!
Words of Wisdom (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=8639)
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Well today I have been free from the can for 77 days and it was a hell of a day so I figured it was time for an update.
So, for starters today work sucked and has been by far the worst day of cravings I have had in quite some time. I felt like I was right back in my first week again at times. I did take a short walk outside and text a brother at the worst point and things got better on that front, but damn that bitch had her vile poison tongue in my ear today.
I know this is some kind of funk, another bump in the road of quit, but I hate it when I feel the desire to use again. I hate when I go watch the local stock car races and the dip is all around me, I watched some guy this Saturday shove so much in his lip he couldn't hardly hold it in and was dribbling brown spit down his chin and on his shirt....fucking digusting........but still a small part of me missed it for a minute. There in lies the frustration, it was always easy to use, to stay blinded to the fact that I was a slave to nicotine.
Quitting is hard and when you start to think it's easy that shit will sneak into your mind and start whispering that old familiar lie again. Trying to convince you that a..b...or c was better when you were dipping.
One thing is for sure, today I am quit and will remain that way.
(QFQQ.....Ducks start waddling on the HOF train tomorrow!)
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Well today I have been free from the can for 77 days and it was a hell of a day so I figured it was time for an update.
So, for starters today work sucked and has been by far the worst day of cravings I have had in quite some time. I felt like I was right back in my first week again at times. I did take a short walk outside and text a brother at the worst point and things got better on that front, but damn that bitch had her vile poison tongue in my ear today.
I know this is some kind of funk, another bump in the road of quit, but I hate it when I feel the desire to use again. I hate when I go watch the local stock car races and the dip is all around me, I watched some guy this Saturday shove so much in his lip he couldn't hardly hold it in and was dribbling brown spit down his chin and on his shirt....fucking digusting........but still a small part of me missed it for a minute. There in lies the frustration, it was always easy to use, to stay blinded to the fact that I was a slave to nicotine.
Quitting is hard and when you start to think it's easy that shit will sneak into your mind and start whispering that old familiar lie again. Trying to convince you that a..b...or c was better when you were dipping.
One thing is for sure, today I am quit and will remain that way.
(QFQQ.....Ducks start waddling on the HOF train tomorrow!)
And that is why you have kicked ass for 77 days. One day at a time you gave your word, beat the bitch, kept your word and start all over again the next day.
A little fog in the 70s aint gonna stop you.
Quit with you today.
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Well today I have been free from the can for 77 days and it was a hell of a day so I figured it was time for an update.
So, for starters today work sucked and has been by far the worst day of cravings I have had in quite some time. I felt like I was right back in my first week again at times. I did take a short walk outside and text a brother at the worst point and things got better on that front, but damn that bitch had her vile poison tongue in my ear today.
I know this is some kind of funk, another bump in the road of quit, but I hate it when I feel the desire to use again. I hate when I go watch the local stock car races and the dip is all around me, I watched some guy this Saturday shove so much in his lip he couldn't hardly hold it in and was dribbling brown spit down his chin and on his shirt....fucking digusting........but still a small part of me missed it for a minute. There in lies the frustration, it was always easy to use, to stay blinded to the fact that I was a slave to nicotine.
Quitting is hard and when you start to think it's easy that shit will sneak into your mind and start whispering that old familiar lie again. Trying to convince you that a..b...or c was better when you were dipping.Â
One thing is for sure, today I am quit and will remain that way.
(QFQQ.....Ducks start waddling on the HOF train tomorrow!)
And that is why you have kicked ass for 77 days. One day at a time you gave your word, beat the bitch, kept your word and start all over again the next day.
A little fog in the 70s aint gonna stop you.
Quit with you today.
You'll push through this and be stronger for it. Good thing you always post early, because bo matter the temptation, you'll keep your word. Stay strong - the fight is very worth it.
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Well today I have been free from the can for 77 days and it was a hell of a day so I figured it was time for an update.
So, for starters today work sucked and has been by far the worst day of cravings I have had in quite some time. I felt like I was right back in my first week again at times. I did take a short walk outside and text a brother at the worst point and things got better on that front, but damn that bitch had her vile poison tongue in my ear today.
I know this is some kind of funk, another bump in the road of quit, but I hate it when I feel the desire to use again. I hate when I go watch the local stock car races and the dip is all around me, I watched some guy this Saturday shove so much in his lip he couldn't hardly hold it in and was dribbling brown spit down his chin and on his shirt....fucking digusting........but still a small part of me missed it for a minute. There in lies the frustration, it was always easy to use, to stay blinded to the fact that I was a slave to nicotine.
Quitting is hard and when you start to think it's easy that shit will sneak into your mind and start whispering that old familiar lie again. Trying to convince you that a..b...or c was better when you were dipping.Â
One thing is for sure, today I am quit and will remain that way.
(QFQQ.....Ducks start waddling on the HOF train tomorrow!)
And that is why you have kicked ass for 77 days. One day at a time you gave your word, beat the bitch, kept your word and start all over again the next day.
A little fog in the 70s aint gonna stop you.
Quit with you today.
You'll push through this and be stronger for it. Good thing you always post early, because bo matter the temptation, you'll keep your word. Stay strong - the fight is very worth it.
Scoreboard nic bitch scoreboard. Jlud 77 nic bitch 0. One day at a time.
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Well today I have been free from the can for 77 days and it was a hell of a day so I figured it was time for an update.
So, for starters today work sucked and has been by far the worst day of cravings I have had in quite some time. I felt like I was right back in my first week again at times. I did take a short walk outside and text a brother at the worst point and things got better on that front, but damn that bitch had her vile poison tongue in my ear today.
I know this is some kind of funk, another bump in the road of quit, but I hate it when I feel the desire to use again. I hate when I go watch the local stock car races and the dip is all around me, I watched some guy this Saturday shove so much in his lip he couldn't hardly hold it in and was dribbling brown spit down his chin and on his shirt....fucking digusting........but still a small part of me missed it for a minute. There in lies the frustration, it was always easy to use, to stay blinded to the fact that I was a slave to nicotine.
Quitting is hard and when you start to think it's easy that shit will sneak into your mind and start whispering that old familiar lie again. Trying to convince you that a..b...or c was better when you were dipping.Â
One thing is for sure, today I am quit and will remain that way.
(QFQQ.....Ducks start waddling on the HOF train tomorrow!)
And that is why you have kicked ass for 77 days. One day at a time you gave your word, beat the bitch, kept your word and start all over again the next day.
A little fog in the 70s aint gonna stop you.
Quit with you today.
You'll push through this and be stronger for it. Good thing you always post early, because bo matter the temptation, you'll keep your word. Stay strong - the fight is very worth it.
Scoreboard nic bitch scoreboard. Jlud 77 nic bitch 0. One day at a time.
Jlud you are rocking this quit. One thing about the black puss and that is it screws up your brain by poisoning it. I can look in the mirror and one side of lower jaw has a receding gum line the other side does not. So the nic bitch is telling me go ahead and start back, just put it in on the other side this time. I think that is a great idea now both sides will have receding gums. The nic bitch is just that....freaking disgusting and I wake up hating her and stay that way all day.
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Well today I have been free from the can for 77 days and it was a hell of a day so I figured it was time for an update.
So, for starters today work sucked and has been by far the worst day of cravings I have had in quite some time. I felt like I was right back in my first week again at times. I did take a short walk outside and text a brother at the worst point and things got better on that front, but damn that bitch had her vile poison tongue in my ear today.
I know this is some kind of funk, another bump in the road of quit, but I hate it when I feel the desire to use again. I hate when I go watch the local stock car races and the dip is all around me, I watched some guy this Saturday shove so much in his lip he couldn't hardly hold it in and was dribbling brown spit down his chin and on his shirt....fucking digusting........but still a small part of me missed it for a minute. There in lies the frustration, it was always easy to use, to stay blinded to the fact that I was a slave to nicotine.
Quitting is hard and when you start to think it's easy that shit will sneak into your mind and start whispering that old familiar lie again. Trying to convince you that a..b...or c was better when you were dipping.Â
One thing is for sure, today I am quit and will remain that way.
(QFQQ.....Ducks start waddling on the HOF train tomorrow!)
And that is why you have kicked ass for 77 days. One day at a time you gave your word, beat the bitch, kept your word and start all over again the next day.
A little fog in the 70s aint gonna stop you.
Quit with you today.
You'll push through this and be stronger for it. Good thing you always post early, because bo matter the temptation, you'll keep your word. Stay strong - the fight is very worth it.
Scoreboard nic bitch scoreboard. Jlud 77 nic bitch 0. One day at a time.
Jlud you are rocking this quit. One thing about the black puss and that is it screws up your brain by poisoning it. I can look in the mirror and one side of lower jaw has a receding gum line the other side does not. So the nic bitch is telling me go ahead and start back, just put it in on the other side this time. I think that is a great idea now both sides will have receding gums. The nic bitch is just that....freaking disgusting and I wake up hating her and stay that way all day.
78 days today! Stay on plan today bro. Plan is to stay quit today!
You are going to have good and bad days.... it is just life. You are dealing with life without the poison. This is the new improved 007! You are still learning to deal with life now and staying quit. And I will say... you are doing a damn fine job with it!
Question... What do you really miss about that nasty addiction? You miss looking like a loser at the race with your face stuffed with poison brown crap? You miss drooling all over yourself as you miss your spitter you jack up a clean shirt?
Better yet... Tell me one thing that dip did for you that warrants you missing it?
All I can see that it did was increase your chances of losing your face, half your jaw, killing you prematurely, taking all your money, taking away your dignity and for the most part OWNING you!
When you really think about it... I bet you don't miss it at all. Remember day 1 and why you are here. You were a disaster like me now you are quit. That is pretty damn good! I am proud to be quit with you today bro!
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Well today I have been free from the can for 77 days and it was a hell of a day so I figured it was time for an update.
So, for starters today work sucked and has been by far the worst day of cravings I have had in quite some time. I felt like I was right back in my first week again at times. I did take a short walk outside and text a brother at the worst point and things got better on that front, but damn that bitch had her vile poison tongue in my ear today.
I know this is some kind of funk, another bump in the road of quit, but I hate it when I feel the desire to use again. I hate when I go watch the local stock car races and the dip is all around me, I watched some guy this Saturday shove so much in his lip he couldn't hardly hold it in and was dribbling brown spit down his chin and on his shirt....fucking digusting........but still a small part of me missed it for a minute. There in lies the frustration, it was always easy to use, to stay blinded to the fact that I was a slave to nicotine.
Quitting is hard and when you start to think it's easy that shit will sneak into your mind and start whispering that old familiar lie again. Trying to convince you that a..b...or c was better when you were dipping.Â
One thing is for sure, today I am quit and will remain that way.
(QFQQ.....Ducks start waddling on the HOF train tomorrow!)
And that is why you have kicked ass for 77 days. One day at a time you gave your word, beat the bitch, kept your word and start all over again the next day.
A little fog in the 70s aint gonna stop you.
Quit with you today.
You'll push through this and be stronger for it. Good thing you always post early, because bo matter the temptation, you'll keep your word. Stay strong - the fight is very worth it.
Scoreboard nic bitch scoreboard. Jlud 77 nic bitch 0. One day at a time.
Jlud you are rocking this quit. One thing about the black puss and that is it screws up your brain by poisoning it. I can look in the mirror and one side of lower jaw has a receding gum line the other side does not. So the nic bitch is telling me go ahead and start back, just put it in on the other side this time. I think that is a great idea now both sides will have receding gums. The nic bitch is just that....freaking disgusting and I wake up hating her and stay that way all day.
78 days today! Stay on plan today bro. Plan is to stay quit today!
You are going to have good and bad days.... it is just life. You are dealing with life without the poison. This is the new improved 007! You are still learning to deal with life now and staying quit. And I will say... you are doing a damn fine job with it!
Question... What do you really miss about that nasty addiction? You miss looking like a loser at the race with your face stuffed with poison brown crap? You miss drooling all over yourself as you miss your spitter you jack up a clean shirt?
Better yet... Tell me one thing that dip did for you that warrants you missing it?
All I can see that it did was increase your chances of losing your face, half your jaw, killing you prematurely, taking all your money, taking away your dignity and for the most part OWNING you!
When you really think about it... I bet you don't miss it at all. Remember day 1 and why you are here. You were a disaster like me now you are quit. That is pretty damn good! I am proud to be quit with you today bro!
Proud to join up with a group of supportive quitters! 77 days is great! keep quitting one day at a time!
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Well today I have been free from the can for 77 days and it was a hell of a day so I figured it was time for an update.
So, for starters today work sucked and has been by far the worst day of cravings I have had in quite some time. I felt like I was right back in my first week again at times. I did take a short walk outside and text a brother at the worst point and things got better on that front, but damn that bitch had her vile poison tongue in my ear today.
I know this is some kind of funk, another bump in the road of quit, but I hate it when I feel the desire to use again. I hate when I go watch the local stock car races and the dip is all around me, I watched some guy this Saturday shove so much in his lip he couldn't hardly hold it in and was dribbling brown spit down his chin and on his shirt....fucking digusting........but still a small part of me missed it for a minute. There in lies the frustration, it was always easy to use, to stay blinded to the fact that I was a slave to nicotine.
Quitting is hard and when you start to think it's easy that shit will sneak into your mind and start whispering that old familiar lie again. Trying to convince you that a..b...or c was better when you were dipping.Â
One thing is for sure, today I am quit and will remain that way.
(QFQQ.....Ducks start waddling on the HOF train tomorrow!)
And that is why you have kicked ass for 77 days. One day at a time you gave your word, beat the bitch, kept your word and start all over again the next day.
A little fog in the 70s aint gonna stop you.
Quit with you today.
You'll push through this and be stronger for it. Good thing you always post early, because bo matter the temptation, you'll keep your word. Stay strong - the fight is very worth it.
Scoreboard nic bitch scoreboard. Jlud 77 nic bitch 0. One day at a time.
Jlud you are rocking this quit. One thing about the black puss and that is it screws up your brain by poisoning it. I can look in the mirror and one side of lower jaw has a receding gum line the other side does not. So the nic bitch is telling me go ahead and start back, just put it in on the other side this time. I think that is a great idea now both sides will have receding gums. The nic bitch is just that....freaking disgusting and I wake up hating her and stay that way all day.
78 days today! Stay on plan today bro. Plan is to stay quit today!
You are going to have good and bad days.... it is just life. You are dealing with life without the poison. This is the new improved 007! You are still learning to deal with life now and staying quit. And I will say... you are doing a damn fine job with it!
Question... What do you really miss about that nasty addiction? You miss looking like a loser at the race with your face stuffed with poison brown crap? You miss drooling all over yourself as you miss your spitter you jack up a clean shirt?
Better yet... Tell me one thing that dip did for you that warrants you missing it?
All I can see that it did was increase your chances of losing your face, half your jaw, killing you prematurely, taking all your money, taking away your dignity and for the most part OWNING you!
When you really think about it... I bet you don't miss it at all. Remember day 1 and why you are here. You were a disaster like me now you are quit. That is pretty damn good! I am proud to be quit with you today bro!
Proud to join up with a group of supportive quitters! 77 days is great! keep quitting one day at a time!
Well looky there... That makes 79. That's how it's done!!!!! Feeling a little bad, the day is not going so well, your just out of sorts. Add a couple more days and things are different. I bet you feel better today, but if you don't, keep adding them 1's. Your about to break down that hof door bro.
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Day 79 is in the books, I made my promise this morning. I will wake up and post Day 80 in the morning. Thanks to all my brothers that post in my intro or share texts on a regular basis, you guys all rock and when I go through a funk like I did for few days it is the support and accountability to all of you that keeps me going.
Every time I break through a funk I feel like my quit and my life is headed for another level.....can't wait to share the next step in this journey with you guys!
QFQQ
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Well what a couple weeks, have had a bad case of the 70-90ish funks. I had a big blow out at work Tuesday and had some of the worst cravings I've had in quite awhile. However life will continue to happen and with the toolbox I've built here and the strength from my brothers I stay quit.
I stand today, 94 days of freedom and I think I've earned just a little bit excitement looking ahead to joining the train next week. Pinched and Evil hooked up for a brewski yesterday, so jealous.....nudge to Derk and anyone near Central NC and Southern VA.......lets get a quitter meet going soon!
I also was disappointed that we lost a quit brother from our group, just days from the HOF... just a reminder that we will always be $5 and a bad decision away from being right back where we started. Realize that life will continue to happen. You must CHOOSE to stay free today, you can bullshit yourself all you want, in the end when you cave, you made the choice to listen to the lies that the nic bitch tell us all. You must wake up and choose to face life without a wad of shit in your mouth, you must choose to call, text send a smoke signal, morse code...whatever to a quit brother before you put that shit in your mouth. Not only is it a choice, as far as I am concerned you f'king owe it to your brothers to reach out before you cave. Your quit is not just yours, even if you don't text or have regular contact with every single guy in your group. We walk together, we see your name in roll everyday and we help remind each other that we can do this thing.
I will CHOOSE to stay quit today with all of you.
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Well what a couple weeks, have had a bad case of the 70-90ish funks. I had a big blow out at work Tuesday and had some of the worst cravings I've had in quite awhile. However life will continue to happen and with the toolbox I've built here and the strength from my brothers I stay quit.
I stand today, 94 days of freedom and I think I've earned just a little bit excitement looking ahead to joining the train next week. Pinched and Evil hooked up for a brewski yesterday, so jealous.....nudge to Derk and anyone near Central NC and Southern VA.......lets get a quitter meet going soon!
I also was disappointed that we lost a quit brother from our group, just days from the HOF... just a reminder that we will always be $5 and a bad decision away from being right back where we started. Realize that life will continue to happen. You must CHOOSE to stay free today, you can bullshit yourself all you want, in the end when you cave, you made the choice to listen to the lies that the nic bitch tell us all. You must wake up and choose to face life without a wad of shit in your mouth, you must choose to call, text send a smoke signal, morse code...whatever to a quit brother before you put that shit in your mouth. Not only is it a choice, as far as I am concerned you f'king owe it to your brothers to reach out before you cave. Your quit is not just yours, even if you don't text or have regular contact with every single guy in your group. We walk together, we see your name in roll everyday and we help remind each other that we can do this thing.
I will CHOOSE to stay quit today with all of you.
:wub:
Well said brother. If you cannot get a get together scheduled let me know I will work on setting up another work trip to NC to have a beer with you.
Pinched
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Well what a couple weeks, have had a bad case of the 70-90ish funks. I had a big blow out at work Tuesday and had some of the worst cravings I've had in quite awhile. However life will continue to happen and with the toolbox I've built here and the strength from my brothers I stay quit.
I stand today, 94 days of freedom and I think I've earned just a little bit excitement looking ahead to joining the train next week. Pinched and Evil hooked up for a brewski yesterday, so jealous.....nudge to Derk and anyone near Central NC and Southern VA.......lets get a quitter meet going soon!
I also was disappointed that we lost a quit brother from our group, just days from the HOF... just a reminder that we will always be $5 and a bad decision away from being right back where we started. Realize that life will continue to happen. You must CHOOSE to stay free today, you can bullshit yourself all you want, in the end when you cave, you made the choice to listen to the lies that the nic bitch tell us all. You must wake up and choose to face life without a wad of shit in your mouth, you must choose to call, text send a smoke signal, morse code...whatever to a quit brother before you put that shit in your mouth. Not only is it a choice, as far as I am concerned you f'king owe it to your brothers to reach out before you cave. Your quit is not just yours, even if you don't text or have regular contact with every single guy in your group. We walk together, we see your name in roll everyday and we help remind each other that we can do this thing.
I will CHOOSE to stay quit today with all of you.
:wub:
Well said brother. If you cannot get a get together scheduled let me know I will work on setting up another work trip to NC to have a beer with you.
Pinched
The two of you have been strong quitters in a group that has seen its ups and downs. In the end, the failure today of Matt will strengthen both of you, though initially it pisses everyone off and is complete BS. You can't save those that don't want to be saved.
I'm proud to quit with both of you bad asses today, and look forward to seeing both of you on that train next week. Congratulations on making it past another test this week.
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Well what a couple weeks, have had a bad case of the 70-90ish funks. I had a big blow out at work Tuesday and had some of the worst cravings I've had in quite awhile. However life will continue to happen and with the toolbox I've built here and the strength from my brothers I stay quit.
I stand today, 94 days of freedom and I think I've earned just a little bit excitement looking ahead to joining the train next week. Pinched and Evil hooked up for a brewski yesterday, so jealous.....nudge to Derk and anyone near Central NC and Southern VA.......lets get a quitter meet going soon!
I also was disappointed that we lost a quit brother from our group, just days from the HOF... just a reminder that we will always be $5 and a bad decision away from being right back where we started. Realize that life will continue to happen. You must CHOOSE to stay free today, you can bullshit yourself all you want, in the end when you cave, you made the choice to listen to the lies that the nic bitch tell us all. You must wake up and choose to face life without a wad of shit in your mouth, you must choose to call, text send a smoke signal, morse code...whatever to a quit brother before you put that shit in your mouth. Not only is it a choice, as far as I am concerned you f'king owe it to your brothers to reach out before you cave. Your quit is not just yours, even if you don't text or have regular contact with every single guy in your group. We walk together, we see your name in roll everyday and we help remind each other that we can do this thing.
I will CHOOSE to stay quit today with all of you.
:wub:
Well said brother. If you cannot get a get together scheduled let me know I will work on setting up another work trip to NC to have a beer with you.
Pinched
The two of you have been strong quitters in a group that has seen its ups and downs. In the end, the failure today of Matt will strengthen both of you, though initially it pisses everyone off and is complete BS. You can't save those that don't want to be saved.
I'm proud to quit with both of you bad asses today, and look forward to seeing both of you on that train next week. Congratulations on making it past another test this week.
QLF
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Day 95 - Bump myself because I feel awesome today!
You quitters rock and I thank god everyday that I found you! I feel like my quit is turned up to 11 today!
I hope someone new reads my intro and sees what dumbass I was coming in and doesn't waste another day with that shit in their mouth.
Have a good weekend quitters!
'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah'
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100 days of badass quit is just around the corner!
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100 days of badass quit is just around the corner!
Jlud, I believe if I read between the lines here JW is saying that you need to wipe better because he smells some badass.
'arse' 'fart'
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Day 95 - Bump myself because I feel awesome today!
You quitters rock and I thank god everyday that I found you! I feel like my quit is turned up to 11 today!
I hope someone new reads my intro and sees what dumbass I was coming in and doesn't waste another day with that shit in their mouth.
Have a good weekend quitters!
'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah'
Thanks you have a good weekend too! Great to look forward to next week when in just a few more days of +1's your hard work will hit 100 days! Awesome work!
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I know I'm a couple of hours early, but congratulations on a well deserved Hall of Fame!! You've fought hard, and you've won 100 days in a row. Keep going and you'll soon save enough for that new motorcycle! You have been a great inspiration to me and a lot of others on this site. Tonight I'll raise a glass in your honor, Jeff. It has been an honor to be on your team for 100 days, and I look forward to many more milestones ahead!!! Cheers-
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100 days of badass quit is just around the corner!
Jlud, I believe if I read between the lines here JW is saying that you need to wipe better because he smells some badass.
'arse' 'fart'
Bump. Congrats, J!! Get some extra ply and lay off the chunky peanut butter.
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Congrats on 100 days of Freedom brother! Enjoy today. Remember this is a milestone and not the destination. ODAAT. I am proud to be quit with you all day long!
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Now I wake up and have jlud at hof,, wtflip.
Time flies when your having fun. Great job jeff. Enjoy the day my friend. I hope to see you stick around on these intros. You do a great job and make a huge impact on many lives. Damn proud to be quit with you.
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WOW Jlud,
You did it came back from adversity pinned your ears down and really closed the door burnt the bridge and the piers proud of you. Much has already been included in your thread but this is just a water station there is not finish line. Enjoy your day.
QLF w u Trauma
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Jeff,
Well brother you did it, you fucking did it! I know that you like me suffered in the last 20 days of our quits not because we were complacent but because we both watched Ducks crossing the finish line, some stayed some left after doing so, we also were on troll duty for the last couple weeks as well.
None the less we both kept one another sane. Either by showing support on here, our daily texts or being in chat together. I am damn proud of your October quit brother. Yes you caved and got your ass chewed on by many, and frankly as you should. None the less, you nutted up, continued to sit at the KTC bar and drank up the kool aide. I hope that all the quitters from August 13 notice that the new Jlud is back in town and is not only hitting his HOF today but also has become a quit contributor on here. You continuously help and add your comments in the Introductions, always ready to help a new quitter or talk a veteran quitter away from the cave ledge.
Enjoy today, bask in every bit of it's glory, but know that I have your phone number and I fully expect to see you posting up day 101 tomorrow and every plus on there after.
You worked hard and you deserve today. I look forward to seeing that Jolly Roger flag every damn day though.
QUACK FOOKING QUACK QUITTER,
Pinched
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Congrats JLud! 100 days quit, the rest of our days left. Proud to be quit with you.
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Your mom couldn't be any prouder of you than I am today. Well done, and keep up the good fight brother.
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CONGRATS BRO! 100 DAYS IS SOMETHING FEW CAN BRAG ABOUT! GUARD YOUR QUIT! THE BITCH STILL TRIES US ALL AND WE HAVE TO STAY VIGILANT!
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Congrats on the HOF. Another soldier has made it to our quit army. Hell yes. Great job man.
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Congrats! Stay focused and continue to post roll for at least another 29,930 days, that will ensure you remain quit for life if you are at least 18 that will put you at 100 days lol.
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Day 107
Can I just say thanks to everyone for the kind words, posts, text messages and the slap on the back the last week!
I had a funky day or so but man my quit feels so good I almost cannot put it into words. I just wanted to share with all you bad asses that today.
Click here for my happy quit song for today! (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rHojIjC0JXw&feature=c4-overview&list=UU_fN8QapvzsTxrddAN3w9tw)
QFQQ
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Day 107
Can I just say thanks to everyone for the kind words, posts, text messages and the slap on the back the last week!
I had a funky day or so but man my quit feels so good I almost cannot put it into words. I just wanted to share with all you bad asses that today.
Click here for my happy quit song for today! (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rHojIjC0JXw&feature=c4-overview&list=UU_fN8QapvzsTxrddAN3w9tw)
QFQQ
Nice song. Nicer quit. You've been a terrific resource and inspiration on this site. At 107 things feel pretty good. Trust me... They get better. Lots. I'll quit with you again today, and look forward to a lot more happy quit songs being posted in this thread.
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Day 107
Can I just say thanks to everyone for the kind words, posts, text messages and the slap on the back the last week!
I had a funky day or so but man my quit feels so good I almost cannot put it into words. I just wanted to share with all you bad asses that today.
Click here for my happy quit song for today! (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rHojIjC0JXw&feature=c4-overview&list=UU_fN8QapvzsTxrddAN3w9tw)
QFQQ
Nice song. Nicer quit. You've been a terrific resource and inspiration on this site. At 107 things feel pretty good. Trust me... They get better. Lots. I'll quit with you again today, and look forward to a lot more happy quit songs being posted in this thread.
Never ever ever...Surrender to the nic bitch. You will have moments of doubt. Doubt your doubts more than your faith in the quit.
You are free but it isn't easy to stay free. Just never start again. No matter the pain, doubt or boredom, give yourself enough respect never to be impulsive on breaking your pledge to quit this garbage.
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Day 107
Can I just say thanks to everyone for the kind words, posts, text messages and the slap on the back the last week!
I had a funky day or so but man my quit feels so good I almost cannot put it into words. I just wanted to share with all you bad asses that today.
Click here for my happy quit song for today! (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rHojIjC0JXw&feature=c4-overview&list=UU_fN8QapvzsTxrddAN3w9tw)
QFQQ
Nice song. Nicer quit. You've been a terrific resource and inspiration on this site. At 107 things feel pretty good. Trust me... They get better. Lots. I'll quit with you again today, and look forward to a lot more happy quit songs being posted in this thread.
Never ever ever...Surrender to the nic bitch. You will have moments of doubt. Doubt your doubts more than your faith in the quit.
You are free but it isn't easy to stay free. Just never start again. No matter the pain, doubt or boredom, give yourself enough respect never to be impulsive on breaking your pledge to quit this garbage.
Great HoF speech!!
You're probably still riding the emotion high from hitting the Hall~ embrace it and remember this as your first of many milestone accomplishments.
That being said, the nic bitch isn't going to turn over and die. She'll lie in wait or amp up her attack so keep your quit on the edge.
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Day 107
Can I just say thanks to everyone for the kind words, posts, text messages and the slap on the back the last week!
I had a funky day or so but man my quit feels so good I almost cannot put it into words. I just wanted to share with all you bad asses that today.
Click here for my happy quit song for today! (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rHojIjC0JXw&feature=c4-overview&list=UU_fN8QapvzsTxrddAN3w9tw)
QFQQ
Nice song. Nicer quit. You've been a terrific resource and inspiration on this site. At 107 things feel pretty good. Trust me... They get better. Lots. I'll quit with you again today, and look forward to a lot more happy quit songs being posted in this thread.
Never ever ever...Surrender to the nic bitch. You will have moments of doubt. Doubt your doubts more than your faith in the quit.
You are free but it isn't easy to stay free. Just never start again. No matter the pain, doubt or boredom, give yourself enough respect never to be impulsive on breaking your pledge to quit this garbage.
Great HoF speech!!
You're probably still riding the emotion high from hitting the Hall~ embrace it and remember this as your first of many milestone accomplishments.
That being said, the nic bitch isn't going to turn over and die. She'll lie in wait or amp up her attack so keep your quit on the edge.
What Cbird and Mthomas said X 1000 = Freedom Today!
Do or Do Not....there is no try.
Posting roll when your feet hit the ground is "do"!
Cheers.
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Day 107
Can I just say thanks to everyone for the kind words, posts, text messages and the slap on the back the last week!
I had a funky day or so but man my quit feels so good I almost cannot put it into words. I just wanted to share with all you bad asses that today.
Click here for my happy quit song for today! (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rHojIjC0JXw&feature=c4-overview&list=UU_fN8QapvzsTxrddAN3w9tw)
QFQQ
Nice song. Nicer quit. You've been a terrific resource and inspiration on this site. At 107 things feel pretty good. Trust me... They get better. Lots. I'll quit with you again today, and look forward to a lot more happy quit songs being posted in this thread.
Never ever ever...Surrender to the nic bitch. You will have moments of doubt. Doubt your doubts more than your faith in the quit.
You are free but it isn't easy to stay free. Just never start again. No matter the pain, doubt or boredom, give yourself enough respect never to be impulsive on breaking your pledge to quit this garbage.
Great HoF speech!!
You're probably still riding the emotion high from hitting the Hall~ embrace it and remember this as your first of many milestone accomplishments.
That being said, the nic bitch isn't going to turn over and die. She'll lie in wait or amp up her attack so keep your quit on the edge.
What Cbird and Mthomas said X 1000 = Freedom Today!
Do or Do Not....there is no try.
Posting roll when your feet hit the ground is "do"!
Cheers.
Jeff,
Well brother you know as well as I do that Nicotine is fucked when it comes to us...if I start to waffle you will be one of the first to reel me back in, if you start to buckle I will be doing the same.
The post HOF Funk sucks, yet both of us are here and we have a train to help run. Neither of us can guarantee what happens tomorrow but today I am quit as are you. So Nicotine I say...
'Finger'
Leave my QUIT alone!
QUACK FOOKING QUACK QUITTER,
Pinched
Now back to work CHUG-A-CHUG-A-CHOO-CHOO!!!!
'hoftrain'
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Day 107
Can I just say thanks to everyone for the kind words, posts, text messages and the slap on the back the last week!
I had a funky day or so but man my quit feels so good I almost cannot put it into words. I just wanted to share with all you bad asses that today.
Click here for my happy quit song for today! (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rHojIjC0JXw&feature=c4-overview&list=UU_fN8QapvzsTxrddAN3w9tw)
QFQQ
Nice song. Nicer quit. You've been a terrific resource and inspiration on this site. At 107 things feel pretty good. Trust me... They get better. Lots. I'll quit with you again today, and look forward to a lot more happy quit songs being posted in this thread.
Never ever ever...Surrender to the nic bitch. You will have moments of doubt. Doubt your doubts more than your faith in the quit.
You are free but it isn't easy to stay free. Just never start again. No matter the pain, doubt or boredom, give yourself enough respect never to be impulsive on breaking your pledge to quit this garbage.
Great HoF speech!!
You're probably still riding the emotion high from hitting the Hall~ embrace it and remember this as your first of many milestone accomplishments.
That being said, the nic bitch isn't going to turn over and die. She'll lie in wait or amp up her attack so keep your quit on the edge.
What Cbird and Mthomas said X 1000 = Freedom Today!
Do or Do Not....there is no try.
Posting roll when your feet hit the ground is "do"!
Cheers.
Jeff,
Well brother you know as well as I do that Nicotine is fucked when it comes to us...if I start to waffle you will be one of the first to reel me back in, if you start to buckle I will be doing the same.
The post HOF Funk sucks, yet both of us are here and we have a train to help run. Neither of us can guarantee what happens tomorrow but today I am quit as are you. So Nicotine I say...
'Finger'
Leave my QUIT alone!
QUACK FOOKING QUACK QUITTER,
Pinched
Now back to work CHUG-A-CHUG-A-CHOO-CHOO!!!!
'hoftrain'
You and pinched driving that train... Gives new meaning to "crazy train !" Huge congrats on the big honor. That is awesome!!!
And agree with the great hof speech comment! You've killed it ever since coming back. You bought in to the pat it forward concept and have really helped a lot if people. Well done, Jeff!
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Day 115 -
I just needed to vent a little I guess and I did not want to do it in another quitters thread. I'm just struggling today, a funk maybe, I don't know. Saw a guy from my group yesterday, pop on here to let everyone know he's still quit. Very close time wise but he disappeared and has not posted roll since.....well quite a while.
This is really fucking with my head today, why did he stop in.... wtf, why stop in update your intro after 2 1/2 months of falling of the face of the earth and not post with your group while your here?. Why am I still hanging around posting roll?, wasting time I should be working some days to read stuff on the site. I am struggling to put it into words but this one guys post really has me spun me out. I'm glad he's quit but it just plants that small seed.....why waste time on the site still, I could be doing other things.
I know that is not an option for me, I need you guys to help me remember that I'm a nicotine addict, not just a guy who used to dip. The nic bitch hasn't forgotten about me, she still tries to tell me that just one more will make it all better sometimes. Anyway, I'll quit again today with all of you and finish this rant.
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Day 115 -
I just needed to vent a little I guess and I did not want to do it in another quitters thread. I'm just struggling today, a funk maybe, I don't know. Saw a guy from my group yesterday, pop on here to let everyone know he's still quit. Very close time wise but he disappeared and has not posted roll since.....well quite a while.
This is really fucking with my head today, why did he stop in.... wtf, why stop in update your intro after 2 1/2 months of falling of the face of the earth and not post with your group while your here?. Why am I still hanging around posting roll?, wasting time I should be working some days to read stuff on the site. I am struggling to put it into words but this one guys post really has me spun me out. I'm glad he's quit but it just plants that small seed.....why waste time on the site still, I could be doing other things.
I know that is not an option for me, I need you guys to help me remember that I'm a nicotine addict, not just a guy who used to dip. The nic bitch hasn't forgotten about me, she still tries to tell me that just one more will make it all better sometimes. Anyway, I'll quit again today with all of you and finish this rant.
Answered.....by Chewie
this question comes up quite often and i've never really had a good answer for it... but now i think i DO have an answer.
the bottom line is this. when you're on the site i (and your other brothers) KNOW that you're not dipping. we see that daily promise and there is no doubt in our mind that you're not stuffing your face with shit.
if i don't see your name, then i've got to ASSUME that you've clean. i'm not sure. i don't know. i've been clean now for over 500 days. i'm here nearly every day. my name is on that line every day. it's my daily promise to you, to myself and to every other person on killthecan.org.
i am in the october 2006 group. there was a time when that group was over 30-40 people strong posting roll on a DAILY basis. now we're down to about 3-4 on a regular basis. i KNOW that those 3-4 are quit. i've got to assume about the others.
recently i lost a quit brother that had over 500 days quit. he left the site cause he didn't think about dip anymore. he never even considered it anymore so he didn't see the value in posting roll. now he's on day 9. he threw away over half a comma cause he was stupid. he got complacent and he got cocky. since his cave he's posted every day and i KNOW that he's quit - i no longer have to assume.
do i think about dip more cause i'm here? you bet. and you know what -- i think that's a GOOD thing. i WANT to think about dip on a daily basis.
the nic bitch WANTS us to forget about her. she wants us to forget about all the pain and suffering we went through to get clean. she wants you to only remember the good times that you had together.
sure, maybe roll call is like picking off a scab every day -- never letting the wound totally heal. personally i'd rather pick at it every day for the rest of my life than EVER let it heal and forget about it.
i'm an addict my friend. i always will be. i'm quit today and you KNOW it cause my name is on that list. you're quit today. i KNOW it cause your name is on that list. i'll be on that list tomorrow -- will you?
chewie
One Day At a Time and QLFEDD brother
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Day 115 -
I just needed to vent a little I guess and I did not want to do it in another quitters thread. I'm just struggling today, a funk maybe, I don't know. Saw a guy from my group yesterday, pop on here to let everyone know he's still quit. Very close time wise but he disappeared and has not posted roll since.....well quite a while.
This is really fucking with my head today, why did he stop in.... wtf, why stop in update your intro after 2 1/2 months of falling of the face of the earth and not post with your group while your here?. Why am I still hanging around posting roll?, wasting time I should be working some days to read stuff on the site. I am struggling to put it into words but this one guys post really has me spun me out. I'm glad he's quit but it just plants that small seed.....why waste time on the site still, I could be doing other things.
I know that is not an option for me, I need you guys to help me remember that I'm a nicotine addict, not just a guy who used to dip. The nic bitch hasn't forgotten about me, she still tries to tell me that just one more will make it all better sometimes. Anyway, I'll quit again today with all of you and finish this rant.
I love you man!
:wub:
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Day 115 -
I just needed to vent a little I guess and I did not want to do it in another quitters thread. I'm just struggling today, a funk maybe, I don't know. Saw a guy from my group yesterday, pop on here to let everyone know he's still quit. Very close time wise but he disappeared and has not posted roll since.....well quite a while.
This is really fucking with my head today, why did he stop in.... wtf, why stop in update your intro after 2 1/2 months of falling of the face of the earth and not post with your group while your here?. Why am I still hanging around posting roll?, wasting time I should be working some days to read stuff on the site. I am struggling to put it into words but this one guys post really has me spun me out. I'm glad he's quit but it just plants that small seed.....why waste time on the site still, I could be doing other things.
I know that is not an option for me, I need you guys to help me remember that I'm a nicotine addict, not just a guy who used to dip. The nic bitch hasn't forgotten about me, she still tries to tell me that just one more will make it all better sometimes. Anyway, I'll quit again today with all of you and finish this rant.
Answered.....by Chewie
this question comes up quite often and i've never really had a good answer for it... but now i think i DO have an answer.
the bottom line is this. when you're on the site i (and your other brothers) KNOW that you're not dipping. we see that daily promise and there is no doubt in our mind that you're not stuffing your face with shit.
if i don't see your name, then i've got to ASSUME that you've clean. i'm not sure. i don't know. i've been clean now for over 500 days. i'm here nearly every day. my name is on that line every day. it's my daily promise to you, to myself and to every other person on killthecan.org.
i am in the october 2006 group. there was a time when that group was over 30-40 people strong posting roll on a DAILY basis. now we're down to about 3-4 on a regular basis. i KNOW that those 3-4 are quit. i've got to assume about the others.
recently i lost a quit brother that had over 500 days quit. he left the site cause he didn't think about dip anymore. he never even considered it anymore so he didn't see the value in posting roll. now he's on day 9. he threw away over half a comma cause he was stupid. he got complacent and he got cocky. since his cave he's posted every day and i KNOW that he's quit - i no longer have to assume.
do i think about dip more cause i'm here? you bet. and you know what -- i think that's a GOOD thing. i WANT to think about dip on a daily basis.
the nic bitch WANTS us to forget about her. she wants us to forget about all the pain and suffering we went through to get clean. she wants you to only remember the good times that you had together.
sure, maybe roll call is like picking off a scab every day -- never letting the wound totally heal. personally i'd rather pick at it every day for the rest of my life than EVER let it heal and forget about it.
i'm an addict my friend. i always will be. i'm quit today and you KNOW it cause my name is on that list. you're quit today. i KNOW it cause your name is on that list. i'll be on that list tomorrow -- will you?
chewie
One Day At a Time and QLFEDD brother
Thanks Cbird
If that's not in the words of wisdom section....it should be under a title like "Why hang around after HOF".
Thanks brother I needed that today.
...and Pinched.... I love you too 'Finger'
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Day 115 -
I just needed to vent a little I guess and I did not want to do it in another quitters thread. I'm just struggling today, a funk maybe, I don't know. Saw a guy from my group yesterday, pop on here to let everyone know he's still quit. Very close time wise but he disappeared and has not posted roll since.....well quite a while.
This is really fucking with my head today, why did he stop in.... wtf, why stop in update your intro after 2 1/2 months of falling of the face of the earth and not post with your group while your here?. Why am I still hanging around posting roll?, wasting time I should be working some days to read stuff on the site. I am struggling to put it into words but this one guys post really has me spun me out. I'm glad he's quit but it just plants that small seed.....why waste time on the site still, I could be doing other things.
I know that is not an option for me, I need you guys to help me remember that I'm a nicotine addict, not just a guy who used to dip. The nic bitch hasn't forgotten about me, she still tries to tell me that just one more will make it all better sometimes. Anyway, I'll quit again today with all of you and finish this rant.
Answered.....by Chewie
this question comes up quite often and i've never really had a good answer for it... but now i think i DO have an answer.
the bottom line is this. when you're on the site i (and your other brothers) KNOW that you're not dipping. we see that daily promise and there is no doubt in our mind that you're not stuffing your face with shit.
if i don't see your name, then i've got to ASSUME that you've clean. i'm not sure. i don't know. i've been clean now for over 500 days. i'm here nearly every day. my name is on that line every day. it's my daily promise to you, to myself and to every other person on killthecan.org.
i am in the october 2006 group. there was a time when that group was over 30-40 people strong posting roll on a DAILY basis. now we're down to about 3-4 on a regular basis. i KNOW that those 3-4 are quit. i've got to assume about the others.
recently i lost a quit brother that had over 500 days quit. he left the site cause he didn't think about dip anymore. he never even considered it anymore so he didn't see the value in posting roll. now he's on day 9. he threw away over half a comma cause he was stupid. he got complacent and he got cocky. since his cave he's posted every day and i KNOW that he's quit - i no longer have to assume.
do i think about dip more cause i'm here? you bet. and you know what -- i think that's a GOOD thing. i WANT to think about dip on a daily basis.
the nic bitch WANTS us to forget about her. she wants us to forget about all the pain and suffering we went through to get clean. she wants you to only remember the good times that you had together.
sure, maybe roll call is like picking off a scab every day -- never letting the wound totally heal. personally i'd rather pick at it every day for the rest of my life than EVER let it heal and forget about it.
i'm an addict my friend. i always will be. i'm quit today and you KNOW it cause my name is on that list. you're quit today. i KNOW it cause your name is on that list. i'll be on that list tomorrow -- will you?
chewie
One Day At a Time and QLFEDD brother
Thanks Cbird
If that's not in the words of wisdom section....it should be under a title like "Why hang around after HOF".
Thanks brother I needed that today.
...and Pinched.... I love you too 'Finger'
hey brother,
You dipped for more than 15 years. More than 15 years of putting the poison in your body took a toll on your brain. That's the bad news!
The good news? We can get our brains back from the addiction everyday, one day at a time. I promise. And we are better men because of it!
I come here everyday and post roll because I am an addict for life.
I give my word everyday because I gave my life everyday for 30 yrs to nicotine and all the propaganda that big tobacco uses.
I promise today with You and everyone here TODAY that I will not use nicotine in any form or fashion and I promise I will gather at least one more piece of weaponry to beat the addiction TODAY. Just today.
You're on the right track, at the right website, in the right frame of mind! Quit on Today!
Cheers.
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Today I have been quit for 129 days and I have a bunch of crap bouncing around in my head, so why not lay it down here for my own sanity. Hell, maybe I'll help someone in the process.
First let me just say that being able to post in the site wide birthday roll call yesterday was awesome, posting with all you bad asses of quit felt damn good.
My own personal journey to the HOF and subsequent duties welcoming November 2013 onto the train with Pinched has had me thinking about what it really means to reach that milestone. Particularly guys that fall away after 100 days. I'm sure that I alone will not cure this phenomenon but I do ponder the issue, especially when I receive a message back from a new HOF'er saying, "Oh I'm done after 100".
I used nicotine/smokeless tobacco for 23 years approx., that's 8,395 days. 100 days quit vs. my 8000+ using, how many guys roll back in with a fresh day 1 after reaching the HOF?
Reaching the HOF to me has felt more like the beginning of something, rather than the destination. I wish that everyone could feel that and maybe they could save themselves the trip through the cycle with a cave. That kind of brings me around to my second rambling.
I know many of us understand that we are "nicotine addicts" not just "guys who used to dip smokeless tobacco". Addicts have tendencies towards plenty of other unhealthy behaviors and the idea that at some point we don't need to address those to progress in our "quit" is a fantasy.
I thank those that have fought for the overall integrity of this site. I thank all my bad ass brothers (and sisters!) that choose to stay here at KTC and keep the lights on for the next group of quitters and through them may we stay reminded that we ourselves will always be addicts. That with that daily promise to one another we can continue to stay free of nicotine today, but also continue to grow into better men and women.
Thanks for listening, QFQQ!
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Today I have been quit for 129 days and I have a bunch of crap bouncing around in my head, so why not lay it down here for my own sanity. Hell, maybe I'll help someone in the process.
First let me just say that being able to post in the site wide birthday roll call yesterday was awesome, posting with all you bad asses of quit felt damn good.
My own personal journey to the HOF and subsequent duties welcoming November 2013 onto the train with Pinched has had me thinking about what it really means to reach that milestone. Particularly guys that fall away after 100 days. I'm sure that I alone will not cure this phenomenon but I do ponder the issue, especially when I receive a message back from a new HOF'er saying, "Oh I'm done after 100".
I used nicotine/smokeless tobacco for 23 years approx., that's 8,395 days. 100 days quit vs. my 8000+ using, how many guys roll back in with a fresh day 1 after reaching the HOF?
Reaching the HOF to me has felt more like the beginning of something, rather than the destination. I wish that everyone could feel that and maybe they could save themselves the trip through the cycle with a cave. That kind of brings me around to my second rambling.
I know many of us understand that we are "nicotine addicts" not just "guys who used to dip smokeless tobacco". Addicts have tendencies towards plenty of other unhealthy behaviors and the idea that at some point we don't need to address those to progress in our "quit" is a fantasy.
I thank those that have fought for the overall integrity of this site. I thank all my bad ass brothers (and sisters!) that choose to stay here at KTC and keep the lights on for the next group of quitters and through them may we stay reminded that we ourselves will always be addicts. That with that daily promise to one another we can continue to stay free of nicotine today, but also continue to grow into better men and women.
Thanks for listening, QFQQ!
'clap'
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oops....
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Today I have been quit for 129 days and I have a bunch of crap bouncing around in my head, so why not lay it down here for my own sanity. Hell, maybe I'll help someone in the process.
First let me just say that being able to post in the site wide birthday roll call yesterday was awesome, posting with all you bad asses of quit felt damn good.
My own personal journey to the HOF and subsequent duties welcoming November 2013 onto the train with Pinched has had me thinking about what it really means to reach that milestone. Particularly guys that fall away after 100 days. I'm sure that I alone will not cure this phenomenon but I do ponder the issue, especially when I receive a message back from a new HOF'er saying, "Oh I'm done after 100".
I used nicotine/smokeless tobacco for 23 years approx., that's 8,395 days. 100 days quit vs. my 8000+ using, how many guys roll back in with a fresh day 1 after reaching the HOF?Â
Reaching the HOF to me has felt more like the beginning of something, rather than the destination. I wish that everyone could feel that and maybe they could save themselves the trip through the cycle with a cave. That kind of brings me around to my second rambling.
I know many of us understand that we are "nicotine addicts" not just "guys who used to dip smokeless tobacco". Addicts have tendencies towards plenty of other unhealthy behaviors and the idea that at some point we don't need to address those to progress in our "quit" is a fantasy.
I thank those that have fought for the overall integrity of this site. I thank all my bad ass brothers (and sisters!) that choose to stay here at KTC and keep the lights on for the next group of quitters and through them may we stay reminded that we ourselves will always be addicts. That with that daily promise to one another we can continue to stay free of nicotine today, but also continue to grow into better men and women.
Thanks for listening, QFQQ!
'clap'
Brother I am just glad that we get to work together donning the "monkey" suits and running the train together!
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Happy Birthday Jeff!!
It has been a pleasure getting to know you as a quitter, conductor and a friend!
I am damn proud that today was your first birthday dip free as an adult.
Congrats,
Corey
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Day 166-
Been quite a while since I updated my intro, quite a ride the last couple of months. I struggle sometimes to update my own experiences when I deem them negative or counter-productive. However the fact that through life's ups and downs the last 166 days I have stayed nic free is positive enough.
I think my biggest struggle still is that no matter how much I want to hate the can of poison that dragged me down for so many years, I still want to give in some days. I still think about it several times a day and my ape brain still wants to rationalize "just one more" today. I have seen other quitters that expressed similar feelings so I don't feel alone and I have watched others get complacent, and make the walk of shame to a new quit group and a Day 1 post. I've come too far to make a decision like that today, I know better. I will continue to choose posting roll, keeping my word and reaching out to my brothers.
I dipped for 23 years and it would be foolish to think that the nic monster would give up after a few months. I'm probably due to get a little more active online again, it seems to ebb and flow here. Sometimes we just need to take a step back and breath a bit. Make no mistake, I still post roll with my group every morning and am in contact with a several of my quit brothers frequently.
Anyway I just needed to air some of that shit, I have made it through the holidays quit and will march on to 200, ODAAT. Lots of Avenged Sevenfold and Volbeat heavy rotation on my iTunes. Rock on Quitters!
Awake and Alive (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2aJUnltwsqs)
This is how I feel about my quit, even if it is tough sometimes!
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I hope someone new reads my intro and sees what dumbass I was coming in and doesn't waste another day with that shit in their mouth.
Jlud, I wanted you to know that I as a new quitter have read your entire intro and it has inspired me and strengthened my quit. I am thankful for all you vets that are still around staying quit and are paving this rutted up quit road for us.Thank you!
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Day 166-
Been quite a while since I updated my intro, quite a ride the last couple of months. I struggle sometimes to update my own experiences when I deem them negative or counter-productive. However the fact that through life's ups and downs the last 166 days I have stayed nic free is positive enough.
I think my biggest struggle still is that no matter how much I want to hate the can of poison that dragged me down for so many years, I still want to give in some days. I still think about it several times a day and my ape brain still wants to rationalize "just one more" today. I have seen other quitters that expressed similar feelings so I don't feel alone and I have watched others get complacent, and make the walk of shame to a new quit group and a Day 1 post. I've come too far to make a decision like that today, I know better. I will continue to choose posting roll, keeping my word and reaching out to my brothers.
I dipped for 23 years and it would be foolish to think that the nic monster would give up after a few months. I'm probably due to get a little more active online again, it seems to ebb and flow here. Sometimes we just need to take a step back and breath a bit. Make no mistake, I still post roll with my group every morning and am in contact with a several of my quit brothers frequently.
Anyway I just needed to air some of that shit, I have made it through the holidays quit and will march on to 200, ODAAT. Lots of Avenged Sevenfold and Volbeat heavy rotation on my iTunes. Rock on Quitters!
Awake and Alive (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2aJUnltwsqs)
This is how I feel about my quit, even if it is tough sometimes!
Thanks for sharing your truth. It feels good to know that the little habitual nags I get each day are normal. I also expect to experience them for along time, so it's good to see the example of you dealing with them a full 100 days ahead of me. The little empty flash of feeling/awareness in my guts that tries several times a day to catch me off guard is going to have to end up being my friendly reminder to remain ready to scrap with the bitch at any time.
I am glad you expect to ramp up activity here soon, as your posts hit home a lot for me and help keep my quit strong.
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Day 166-
Been quite a while since I updated my intro, quite a ride the last couple of months. I struggle sometimes to update my own experiences when I deem them negative or counter-productive. However the fact that through life's ups and downs the last 166 days I have stayed nic free is positive enough.
I think my biggest struggle still is that no matter how much I want to hate the can of poison that dragged me down for so many years, I still want to give in some days. I still think about it several times a day and my ape brain still wants to rationalize "just one more" today. I have seen other quitters that expressed similar feelings so I don't feel alone and I have watched others get complacent, and make the walk of shame to a new quit group and a Day 1 post. I've come too far to make a decision like that today, I know better. I will continue to choose posting roll, keeping my word and reaching out to my brothers.
I dipped for 23 years and it would be foolish to think that the nic monster would give up after a few months. I'm probably due to get a little more active online again, it seems to ebb and flow here. Sometimes we just need to take a step back and breath a bit. Make no mistake, I still post roll with my group every morning and am in contact with a several of my quit brothers frequently.Â
Anyway I just needed to air some of that shit, I have made it through the holidays quit and will march on to 200, ODAAT. Lots of Avenged Sevenfold and Volbeat heavy rotation on my iTunes. Rock on Quitters!
Awake and Alive (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2aJUnltwsqs)
This is how I feel about my quit, even if it is tough sometimes!
Thanks for sharing your truth. It feels good to know that the little habitual nags I get each day are normal. I also expect to experience them for along time, so it's good to see the example of you dealing with them a full 100 days ahead of me. The little empty flash of feeling/awareness in my guts that tries several times a day to catch me off guard is going to have to end up being my friendly reminder to remain ready to scrap with the bitch at any time.
I am glad you expect to ramp up activity here soon, as your posts hit home a lot for me and help keep my quit strong.
Bro...... I don't need to tell you how that nagging bitch in your ear is full of shit! You've been around the block and know it well. From experience I can confirm that it sucks. The fog comes back again in full force and its worse because of the regret. But I'm also not worried about you. See, your a bad ass and you already see the lie for what it is. Never get complacent and never forget. You are doing well. Each day is more distance between you and slavery. Glad to see you have the self awareness to see this and document it in your thread.
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Day 166-
Been quite a while since I updated my intro, quite a ride the last couple of months. I struggle sometimes to update my own experiences when I deem them negative or counter-productive. However the fact that through life's ups and downs the last 166 days I have stayed nic free is positive enough.
I think my biggest struggle still is that no matter how much I want to hate the can of poison that dragged me down for so many years, I still want to give in some days. I still think about it several times a day and my ape brain still wants to rationalize "just one more" today. I have seen other quitters that expressed similar feelings so I don't feel alone and I have watched others get complacent, and make the walk of shame to a new quit group and a Day 1 post. I've come too far to make a decision like that today, I know better. I will continue to choose posting roll, keeping my word and reaching out to my brothers.
I dipped for 23 years and it would be foolish to think that the nic monster would give up after a few months. I'm probably due to get a little more active online again, it seems to ebb and flow here. Sometimes we just need to take a step back and breath a bit. Make no mistake, I still post roll with my group every morning and am in contact with a several of my quit brothers frequently.Â
Anyway I just needed to air some of that shit, I have made it through the holidays quit and will march on to 200, ODAAT. Lots of Avenged Sevenfold and Volbeat heavy rotation on my iTunes. Rock on Quitters!
Awake and Alive (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2aJUnltwsqs)
This is how I feel about my quit, even if it is tough sometimes!
Thanks for sharing your truth. It feels good to know that the little habitual nags I get each day are normal. I also expect to experience them for along time, so it's good to see the example of you dealing with them a full 100 days ahead of me. The little empty flash of feeling/awareness in my guts that tries several times a day to catch me off guard is going to have to end up being my friendly reminder to remain ready to scrap with the bitch at any time.
I am glad you expect to ramp up activity here soon, as your posts hit home a lot for me and help keep my quit strong.
Bro...... I don't need to tell you how that nagging bitch in your ear is full of shit! You've been around the block and know it well. From experience I can confirm that it sucks. The fog comes back again in full force and its worse because of the regret. But I'm also not worried about you. See, your a bad ass and you already see the lie for what it is. Never get complacent and never forget. You are doing well. Each day is more distance between you and slavery. Glad to see you have the self awareness to see this and document it in your thread.
Awesome! Really glad I found your post. Thanks for speaking the truth and sharing.
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Congrats on 200 today Jeff. You are one of the first people I talked to on this site, and I'm proud to be in this fight with you. Keep stacking up the days one at a time. Each milestone ahead will bring you more peace and freedom. Enjoy today - you've earned it!
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Congrats on 200 today Jeff. You are one of the first people I talked to on this site, and I'm proud to be in this fight with you. Keep stacking up the days one at a time. Each milestone ahead will bring you more peace and freedom. Enjoy today - you've earned it!
There are people that you meet that just plain get it. My friend Jeff here is one of those people. Congratulations brother, welcome to the second floor. You are a bad ass quitter now, together we can continue to do this. Failure is not an option.
Corey
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Congrats on 200 today Jeff. You are one of the first people I talked to on this site, and I'm proud to be in this fight with you. Keep stacking up the days one at a time. Each milestone ahead will bring you more peace and freedom. Enjoy today - you've earned it!
There are people that you meet that just plain get it. My friend Jeff here is one of those people. Congratulations brother, welcome to the second floor. You are a bad ass quitter now, together we can continue to do this. Failure is not an option.
Corey
Nice move to the second floor bro! Keep at it. Proud to be quit with you today.
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Congrats on 200 today Jeff. You are one of the first people I talked to on this site, and I'm proud to be in this fight with you. Keep stacking up the days one at a time. Each milestone ahead will bring you more peace and freedom. Enjoy today - you've earned it!
There are people that you meet that just plain get it. My friend Jeff here is one of those people. Congratulations brother, welcome to the second floor. You are a bad ass quitter now, together we can continue to do this. Failure is not an option.
Corey
Nice move to the second floor bro! Keep at it. Proud to be quit with you today.
'oh yeah' great job man awesome possum
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Congrats on 200 today Jeff. You are one of the first people I talked to on this site, and I'm proud to be in this fight with you. Keep stacking up the days one at a time. Each milestone ahead will bring you more peace and freedom. Enjoy today - you've earned it!
There are people that you meet that just plain get it. My friend Jeff here is one of those people. Congratulations brother, welcome to the second floor. You are a bad ass quitter now, together we can continue to do this. Failure is not an option.
Corey
Nice move to the second floor bro! Keep at it. Proud to be quit with you today.
'oh yeah' great job man awesome possum
Great job. It's apparent you came to just quit! Glad your a friend.
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400 days in and the thought of dip still enters my consciousness at least a half dozen times a day. I did this to myself. I chose to start this. I read the warnings that nicotine was addictive and, despite knowing my obscenely addictive personality, I tried it and became an immediate slave, thief, and liar.
I’m tired of being a slave. I am no longer a slave to nicotine but a slave to Quit. I know that I can’t quit quitting. I know that I am far from being able to not post roll for a day and be “ok”. I am accepting that right now I have to choose which one to be a slave to. There is no third option. Go back to nicotine or be quit and deal with it. The constant thoughts are a reminder of addiction and without them I would become complacent; but man, lighten up.
The idea of packing a can, taking a pinch, and working it with my tongue deep into my cheek still seems not only appealing, but ok, fun, and acceptable. IÂ’m sick of that idea. I try to hate it. I try to visualize it as being a slow death, a means to orphan my little girls, a way to widow my wife. Those thoughts are a constant mental battle of power versus power and are emotionally draining. But, I am quit and if I wake tomorrow I will quit again.
I am thankful that I have KTC, the Jackwagins, layers of accountability, a spouse that knows my current struggles to escape my past of epically poor decisions, vets that lead the way, new quitters that bring new energy, and about 130 numbers in my phone for quitters that understand this daily battle.
See you on roll.
Day 232 -
Been quite a while since I posted anything in here so why not today. I thought of this quote I posted from Evil today, because I feel the same quite often and need to remind myself of the daily battle. I post roll everyday with my group but lately I have not done much else. Quietly going about my quit day by day, I've felt alone lately. It falls on my me to get more active again and I'm proud to be quit with all you another day!
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400 days in and the thought of dip still enters my consciousness at least a half dozen times a day. I did this to myself. I chose to start this. I read the warnings that nicotine was addictive and, despite knowing my obscenely addictive personality, I tried it and became an immediate slave, thief, and liar.
I’m tired of being a slave. I am no longer a slave to nicotine but a slave to Quit. I know that I can’t quit quitting. I know that I am far from being able to not post roll for a day and be “ok”. I am accepting that right now I have to choose which one to be a slave to. There is no third option. Go back to nicotine or be quit and deal with it. The constant thoughts are a reminder of addiction and without them I would become complacent; but man, lighten up.
The idea of packing a can, taking a pinch, and working it with my tongue deep into my cheek still seems not only appealing, but ok, fun, and acceptable. IÂ’m sick of that idea. I try to hate it. I try to visualize it as being a slow death, a means to orphan my little girls, a way to widow my wife. Those thoughts are a constant mental battle of power versus power and are emotionally draining. But, I am quit and if I wake tomorrow I will quit again.
I am thankful that I have KTC, the Jackwagins, layers of accountability, a spouse that knows my current struggles to escape my past of epically poor decisions, vets that lead the way, new quitters that bring new energy, and about 130 numbers in my phone for quitters that understand this daily battle.
See you on roll.
Day 232 -
Been quite a while since I posted anything in here so why not today. I thought of this quote I posted from Evil today, because I feel the same quite often and need to remind myself of the daily battle. I post roll everyday with my group but lately I have not done much else. Quietly going about my quit day by day, I've felt alone lately. It falls on my me to get more active again and I'm proud to be quit with all you another day!
Atta boy! You know how this works.
Rock on m'brutha
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400 days in and the thought of dip still enters my consciousness at least a half dozen times a day. I did this to myself. I chose to start this. I read the warnings that nicotine was addictive and, despite knowing my obscenely addictive personality, I tried it and became an immediate slave, thief, and liar.
I’m tired of being a slave. I am no longer a slave to nicotine but a slave to Quit. I know that I can’t quit quitting. I know that I am far from being able to not post roll for a day and be “ok”. I am accepting that right now I have to choose which one to be a slave to. There is no third option. Go back to nicotine or be quit and deal with it. The constant thoughts are a reminder of addiction and without them I would become complacent; but man, lighten up.
The idea of packing a can, taking a pinch, and working it with my tongue deep into my cheek still seems not only appealing, but ok, fun, and acceptable. IÂ’m sick of that idea. I try to hate it. I try to visualize it as being a slow death, a means to orphan my little girls, a way to widow my wife. Those thoughts are a constant mental battle of power versus power and are emotionally draining. But, I am quit and if I wake tomorrow I will quit again.
I am thankful that I have KTC, the Jackwagins, layers of accountability, a spouse that knows my current struggles to escape my past of epically poor decisions, vets that lead the way, new quitters that bring new energy, and about 130 numbers in my phone for quitters that understand this daily battle.
See you on roll.
Day 232 -
Been quite a while since I posted anything in here so why not today. I thought of this quote I posted from Evil today, because I feel the same quite often and need to remind myself of the daily battle. I post roll everyday with my group but lately I have not done much else. Quietly going about my quit day by day, I've felt alone lately. It falls on my me to get more active again and I'm proud to be quit with all you another day!
Atta boy! You know how this works.
Rock on m'brutha
You are posting roll EDD and I know your word is solid. You can always post up with the September Sluts EDD. That way you are doing more than the minimum. I am quit with you all day long bro!
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Day 248 -
What a ride this thing we call quit. I have had two very stressful weeks at work. I am going to see my oldest son graduate High School in late May and visit my brother (who still dips) which I am already dreading... I had a day or two of some of the worst cravings I have had in quite some time.
Then I get on last night and skim the intros, check in on live chat and wow! New cavers, retreads and drama! Then today my first dental appointment in nearly 20 yrs and I'm scared shitless.
When I got to craving, I texted a brother, posted roll for that day.... No excuses, going back is not an option. My trip to the dentist was much better than I had feared, need some fillings and a heavy duty 2 appointment cleaning. But considering 23 years of tobacco use and not seeing the inside of a dentist office for 20 years I feel quite blessed. Some leukoplakia in my cheek, but she was not overly concerned at this time, just made a note to keep an eye on it down the road.
I cannot express enough my gratitude to my brothers that help me stay quit everyday and have no words to describe the life changing journey that being quit is when you really give in to it, fucking beautiful.
Quit on brothers!
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Day 248 -
What a ride this thing we call quit. I have had two very stressful weeks at work. I am going to see my oldest son graduate High School in late May and visit my brother (who still dips) which I am already dreading... I had a day or two of some of the worst cravings I have had in quite some time.
Then I get on last night and skim the intros, check in on live chat and wow! New cavers, retreads and drama! Then today my first dental appointment in nearly 20 yrs and I'm scared shitless.
When I got to craving, I texted a brother, posted roll for that day.... No excuses, going back is not an option. My trip to the dentist was much better than I had feared, need some fillings and a heavy duty 2 appointment cleaning. But considering 23 years of tobacco use and not seeing the inside of a dentist office for 20 years I feel quite blessed. Some leukoplakia in my cheek, but she was not overly concerned at this time, just made a note to keep an eye on it down the road.
I cannot express enough my gratitude to my brothers that help me stay quit everyday and have no words to describe the life changing journey that being quit is when you really give in to it, fucking beautiful.
Quit on brothers!
Awesome bro.
I'll ride the ride with ya...
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Day 248 -
What a ride this thing we call quit. I have had two very stressful weeks at work. I am going to see my oldest son graduate High School in late May and visit my brother (who still dips) which I am already dreading... I had a day or two of some of the worst cravings I have had in quite some time.
Then I get on last night and skim the intros, check in on live chat and wow! New cavers, retreads and drama! Then today my first dental appointment in nearly 20 yrs and I'm scared shitless.Â
When I got to craving, I texted a brother, posted roll for that day.... No excuses, going back is not an option. My trip to the dentist was much better than I had feared, need some fillings and a heavy duty 2 appointment cleaning. But considering 23 years of tobacco use and not seeing the inside of a dentist office for 20 years I feel quite blessed. Some leukoplakia in my cheek, but she was not overly concerned at this time, just made a note to keep an eye on it down the road.
I cannot express enough my gratitude to my brothers that help me stay quit everyday and have no words to describe the life changing journey that being quit is when you really give in to it, fucking beautiful.
Quit on brothers!
Awesome bro.
I'll ride the ride with ya...
Yea 250 was a bitch for me as well. You know what to do. With you today bad ass.
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Day 248 -
What a ride this thing we call quit. I have had two very stressful weeks at work. I am going to see my oldest son graduate High School in late May and visit my brother (who still dips) which I am already dreading... I had a day or two of some of the worst cravings I have had in quite some time.
Then I get on last night and skim the intros, check in on live chat and wow! New cavers, retreads and drama! Then today my first dental appointment in nearly 20 yrs and I'm scared shitless.Â
When I got to craving, I texted a brother, posted roll for that day.... No excuses, going back is not an option. My trip to the dentist was much better than I had feared, need some fillings and a heavy duty 2 appointment cleaning. But considering 23 years of tobacco use and not seeing the inside of a dentist office for 20 years I feel quite blessed. Some leukoplakia in my cheek, but she was not overly concerned at this time, just made a note to keep an eye on it down the road.
I cannot express enough my gratitude to my brothers that help me stay quit everyday and have no words to describe the life changing journey that being quit is when you really give in to it, fucking beautiful.
Quit on brothers!
Awesome bro.
I'll ride the ride with ya...
Yea 250 was a bitch for me as well. You know what to do. With you today bad ass.
mount up strap up I am here too Lud you got this....ODAAT
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300 days! That is a heck of a quit you got going brother. Proud to be quit with you... Let's keep this thing rolling today!
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Congratulations Jeff! Your strength and leadership over the past 300 has strengthened many a quit. The only thing better than 300 is 301!
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Jeff, you have been instrumental in my quit. We went through the fog together, we faced every fucking hurdle together. We served together has conductors, we have talked, texted and been side by side for 300 days. I give you my word daily that I am quit. Today I give you my word that I will always be here by your side in this quit. Life happens and shit will happen too, but you are never alone.
Corey
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Jeff, you have been instrumental in my quit. We went through the fog together, we faced every fucking hurdle together. We served together has conductors, we have talked, texted and been side by side for 300 days. I give you my word daily that I am quit. Today I give you my word that I will always be here by your side in this quit. Life happens and shit will happen too, but you are never alone.
Corey
Niiice work brother.
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Jeff, you have been instrumental in my quit. We went through the fog together, we faced every fucking hurdle together. We served together has conductors, we have talked, texted and been side by side for 300 days. I give you my word daily that I am quit. Today I give you my word that I will always be here by your side in this quit. Life happens and shit will happen too, but you are never alone.
Corey
Niiice work brother.
Keep pushing pulling and dragging others in your quit
'ninja' 'drool'
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Congrats on 300 and thanks to all the vets for supporting new quitters.
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Day 303 and inspired by a very deep and thought provoking post by a close quit brother thought I would post an update.
My quit is stronger than ever and when I stop and realize how much life has happened to me dip free now I am amazed. By no means am I "on a ledge" or anything remotely close to that but I don't have many outlets to bitch and complain freely so I am dumping some shit here.
I have an 18 year old step daughter that graduated high school last summer, went off to college in August, quit and came home in September. Since then she has done pretty much nothing aside from sleep. Some may say I should just put my foot down, but anyone who has been stepparent knows that it can be a difficult and complicated situation. My wife, her mother defends her like a lioness protects her cub if I speak my mind. The excuses being "she's trying" and is "depressed". We have a 10 year old son together so I try to make due for his sake, but it is getting harder and harder to keep my mouth shut. At this point I have to blame my wife as well for enabling her behavior as well. I know this is not directly dip or quit related....right now, but I needed a place to vent some of it because I don't know how long I can continue to just "grin and bear it" and at some point for my own quit sanity there is going to have to be a come to Jesus moment.
Thanks to all of you, I quit with you today.
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Day 303 and inspired by a very deep and thought provoking post by a close quit brother thought I would post an update.
My quit is stronger than ever and when I stop and realize how much life has happened to me dip free now I am amazed. By no means am I "on a ledge" or anything remotely close to that but I don't have many outlets to bitch and complain freely so I am dumping some shit here.
I have an 18 year old step daughter that graduated high school last summer, went off to college in August, quit and came home in September. Since then she has done pretty much nothing aside from sleep. Some may say I should just put my foot down, but anyone who has been stepparent knows that it can be a difficult and complicated situation. My wife, her mother defends her like a lioness protects her cub if I speak my mind. The excuses being "she's trying" and is "depressed". We have a 10 year old son together so I try to make due for his sake, but it is getting harder and harder to keep my mouth shut. At this point I have to blame my wife as well for enabling her behavior as well. I know this is not directly dip or quit related....right now, but I needed a place to vent some of it because I don't know how long I can continue to just "grin and bear it" and at some point for my own quit sanity there is going to have to be a come to Jesus moment.
Thanks to all of you, I quit with you today.
Dude, you always have a place to vent to because you have my phone number. Secondly, great share today. It fucking amazes me how much life happens to real quitters that stay quit yet many give excuses for their caves.
My advice as simple as it may be (keep in mind I am not a licensed therapist but I did stay at a Holiday Inn Express last night) I would reference, that it has been 9 months of trying and I want to set a good example for my son. In other words she needs to try harder, take a meaningless job for now to gain experience and then find herself in the process. Too many youth today get a sense of entitlement due to protective parents. Perhaps a nice evening out with the wife, to let her know calmly what you are thinking or feeling. If you need help with the calmly part I have great meds for that.
P
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Day 303 and inspired by a very deep and thought provoking post by a close quit brother thought I would post an update.
My quit is stronger than ever and when I stop and realize how much life has happened to me dip free now I am amazed. By no means am I "on a ledge" or anything remotely close to that but I don't have many outlets to bitch and complain freely so I am dumping some shit here.
I have an 18 year old step daughter that graduated high school last summer, went off to college in August, quit and came home in September. Since then she has done pretty much nothing aside from sleep. Some may say I should just put my foot down, but anyone who has been stepparent knows that it can be a difficult and complicated situation. My wife, her mother defends her like a lioness protects her cub if I speak my mind. The excuses being "she's trying" and is "depressed". We have a 10 year old son together so I try to make due for his sake, but it is getting harder and harder to keep my mouth shut. At this point I have to blame my wife as well for enabling her behavior as well. I know this is not directly dip or quit related....right now, but I needed a place to vent some of it because I don't know how long I can continue to just "grin and bear it" and at some point for my own quit sanity there is going to have to be a come to Jesus moment.
Thanks to all of you, I quit with you today.
Dude, you always have a place to vent to because you have my phone number. Secondly, great share today. It fucking amazes me how much life happens to real quitters that stay quit yet many give excuses for their caves.
My advice as simple as it may be (keep in mind I am not a licensed therapist but I did stay at a Holiday Inn Express last night) I would reference, that it has been 9 months of trying and I want to set a good example for my son. In other words she needs to try harder, take a meaningless job for now to gain experience and then find herself in the process. Too many youth today get a sense of entitlement due to protective parents. Perhaps a nice evening out with the wife, to let her know calmly what you are thinking or feeling. If you need help with the calmly part I have great meds for that.
P
Jeff - I meant to put this on a couple of days ago... You are a tremendous inspiration. I still remember your call 300+ days ago, when you quit. One of the most memorable conversations of my life.
I feel for you current situation, but I know that in the end you will navigate the waters to come to the best outcome that you can. Because that is the man that you are.
I am now wondering who will be the first to post the bananas banging each other after this post...
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Day 303 and inspired by a very deep and thought provoking post by a close quit brother thought I would post an update.
My quit is stronger than ever and when I stop and realize how much life has happened to me dip free now I am amazed. By no means am I "on a ledge" or anything remotely close to that but I don't have many outlets to bitch and complain freely so I am dumping some shit here.
I have an 18 year old step daughter that graduated high school last summer, went off to college in August, quit and came home in September. Since then she has done pretty much nothing aside from sleep. Some may say I should just put my foot down, but anyone who has been stepparent knows that it can be a difficult and complicated situation. My wife, her mother defends her like a lioness protects her cub if I speak my mind. The excuses being "she's trying" and is "depressed". We have a 10 year old son together so I try to make due for his sake, but it is getting harder and harder to keep my mouth shut. At this point I have to blame my wife as well for enabling her behavior as well. I know this is not directly dip or quit related....right now, but I needed a place to vent some of it because I don't know how long I can continue to just "grin and bear it" and at some point for my own quit sanity there is going to have to be a come to Jesus moment.
Thanks to all of you, I quit with you today.
Dude, you always have a place to vent to because you have my phone number. Secondly, great share today. It fucking amazes me how much life happens to real quitters that stay quit yet many give excuses for their caves.
My advice as simple as it may be (keep in mind I am not a licensed therapist but I did stay at a Holiday Inn Express last night) I would reference, that it has been 9 months of trying and I want to set a good example for my son. In other words she needs to try harder, take a meaningless job for now to gain experience and then find herself in the process. Too many youth today get a sense of entitlement due to protective parents. Perhaps a nice evening out with the wife, to let her know calmly what you are thinking or feeling. If you need help with the calmly part I have great meds for that.
P
Jeff - I meant to put this on a couple of days ago... You are a tremendous inspiration. I still remember your call 300+ days ago, when you quit. One of the most memorable conversations of my life.
I feel for you current situation, but I know that in the end you will navigate the waters to come to the best outcome that you can. Because that is the man that you are.
I am now wondering who will be the first to post the bananas banging each other after this post...
They may be busy looking for the banana three way emoticon.
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Day 303 and inspired by a very deep and thought provoking post by a close quit brother thought I would post an update.
My quit is stronger than ever and when I stop and realize how much life has happened to me dip free now I am amazed. By no means am I "on a ledge" or anything remotely close to that but I don't have many outlets to bitch and complain freely so I am dumping some shit here.
I have an 18 year old step daughter that graduated high school last summer, went off to college in August, quit and came home in September. Since then she has done pretty much nothing aside from sleep. Some may say I should just put my foot down, but anyone who has been stepparent knows that it can be a difficult and complicated situation. My wife, her mother defends her like a lioness protects her cub if I speak my mind. The excuses being "she's trying" and is "depressed". We have a 10 year old son together so I try to make due for his sake, but it is getting harder and harder to keep my mouth shut. At this point I have to blame my wife as well for enabling her behavior as well. I know this is not directly dip or quit related....right now, but I needed a place to vent some of it because I don't know how long I can continue to just "grin and bear it" and at some point for my own quit sanity there is going to have to be a come to Jesus moment.
Thanks to all of you, I quit with you today.
Dude, you always have a place to vent to because you have my phone number. Secondly, great share today. It fucking amazes me how much life happens to real quitters that stay quit yet many give excuses for their caves.
My advice as simple as it may be (keep in mind I am not a licensed therapist but I did stay at a Holiday Inn Express last night) I would reference, that it has been 9 months of trying and I want to set a good example for my son. In other words she needs to try harder, take a meaningless job for now to gain experience and then find herself in the process. Too many youth today get a sense of entitlement due to protective parents. Perhaps a nice evening out with the wife, to let her know calmly what you are thinking or feeling. If you need help with the calmly part I have great meds for that.
P
Jeff - I meant to put this on a couple of days ago... You are a tremendous inspiration. I still remember your call 300+ days ago, when you quit. One of the most memorable conversations of my life.
I feel for you current situation, but I know that in the end you will navigate the waters to come to the best outcome that you can. Because that is the man that you are.
I am now wondering who will be the first to post the bananas banging each other after this post...
They may be busy looking for the banana three way emoticon.
Jlud, thanks for sharing that slice of life with us. I too am not a therapist, but I do play one on TV. No, I don't do that eitherÂ…but your post did remind me of something I read the other day from Mike Rowe (Dirty Jobs). Don't know if you'll find any relevance in this, but thought I would pass a long.
http://www.thefederalistpapers.org/us/m ... dvice-ever (http://www.thefederalistpapers.org/us/mike-rowe-gives-the-best-career-advice-ever)
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Day 303 and inspired by a very deep and thought provoking post by a close quit brother thought I would post an update.
My quit is stronger than ever and when I stop and realize how much life has happened to me dip free now I am amazed. By no means am I "on a ledge" or anything remotely close to that but I don't have many outlets to bitch and complain freely so I am dumping some shit here.
I have an 18 year old step daughter that graduated high school last summer, went off to college in August, quit and came home in September. Since then she has done pretty much nothing aside from sleep. Some may say I should just put my foot down, but anyone who has been stepparent knows that it can be a difficult and complicated situation. My wife, her mother defends her like a lioness protects her cub if I speak my mind. The excuses being "she's trying" and is "depressed". We have a 10 year old son together so I try to make due for his sake, but it is getting harder and harder to keep my mouth shut. At this point I have to blame my wife as well for enabling her behavior as well. I know this is not directly dip or quit related....right now, but I needed a place to vent some of it because I don't know how long I can continue to just "grin and bear it" and at some point for my own quit sanity there is going to have to be a come to Jesus moment.
Thanks to all of you, I quit with you today.
Dude, you always have a place to vent to because you have my phone number. Secondly, great share today. It fucking amazes me how much life happens to real quitters that stay quit yet many give excuses for their caves.
My advice as simple as it may be (keep in mind I am not a licensed therapist but I did stay at a Holiday Inn Express last night) I would reference, that it has been 9 months of trying and I want to set a good example for my son. In other words she needs to try harder, take a meaningless job for now to gain experience and then find herself in the process. Too many youth today get a sense of entitlement due to protective parents. Perhaps a nice evening out with the wife, to let her know calmly what you are thinking or feeling. If you need help with the calmly part I have great meds for that.
P
Jeff - I meant to put this on a couple of days ago... You are a tremendous inspiration. I still remember your call 300+ days ago, when you quit. One of the most memorable conversations of my life.
I feel for you current situation, but I know that in the end you will navigate the waters to come to the best outcome that you can. Because that is the man that you are.
I am now wondering who will be the first to post the bananas banging each other after this post...
They may be busy looking for the banana three way emoticon.
Jlud, thanks for sharing that slice of life with us. I too am not a therapist, but I do play one on TV. No, I don't do that eitherÂ…but your post did remind me of something I read the other day from Mike Rowe (Dirty Jobs). Don't know if you'll find any relevance in this, but thought I would pass a long.
http://www.thefederalistpapers.org/us/m ... dvice-ever (http://www.thefederalistpapers.org/us/mike-rowe-gives-the-best-career-advice-ever)
^^^best advice ever.
I like your quit jlud. As someone who had two worthless Step sisters (and a step mom who was worse) I feel your pain.
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347-
What a crazy few days.
I don't know when it happened but this place became like another family to me. I found a place where my crazy ass fits in, another inmate in the crazy nic addict asylum. I have brothers and sisters on both sides of the recent "drama", but I love this house and will be here to hopefully make it a better place if I can. Such as in politics and government, you cannot affect change by renouncing your citizenship and moving to South America. You have to stay and fight for what you believe in, I hope we can all get back to quitting. I'm ready to grab my jackhammer and help anyone that needs it, if you need a phone number I'm only a PM away.
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347-
What a crazy few days.
I don't know when it happened but this place became like another family to me. I found a place where my crazy ass fits in, another inmate in the crazy nic addict asylum. I have brothers and sisters on both sides of the recent "drama", but I love this house and will be here to hopefully make it a better place if I can. Such as in politics and government, you cannot affect change by renouncing your citizenship and moving to South America. You have to stay and fight for what you believe in, I hope we can all get back to quitting. I'm ready to grab my jackhammer and help anyone that needs it, if you need a phone number I'm only a PM away.
I will support any brother or sister that commits to quitting today. Whether here in the US or in South America!
Proud to be quit with you today my friend!
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347-
What a crazy few days.
I don't know when it happened but this place became like another family to me. I found a place where my crazy ass fits in, another inmate in the crazy nic addict asylum. I have brothers and sisters on both sides of the recent "drama", but I love this house and will be here to hopefully make it a better place if I can. Such as in politics and government, you cannot affect change by renouncing your citizenship and moving to South America. You have to stay and fight for what you believe in, I hope we can all get back to quitting. I'm ready to grab my jackhammer and help anyone that needs it, if you need a phone number I'm only a PM away.
I will support any brother or sister that commits to quitting today. Whether here in the US or in South America!
Proud to be quit with you today my friend!
Rio is my preference. But the Carolina's are nice too. Quit with both of you bad asses.
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347-
What a crazy few days.
I don't know when it happened but this place became like another family to me. I found a place where my crazy ass fits in, another inmate in the crazy nic addict asylum. I have brothers and sisters on both sides of the recent "drama", but I love this house and will be here to hopefully make it a better place if I can. Such as in politics and government, you cannot affect change by renouncing your citizenship and moving to South America. You have to stay and fight for what you believe in, I hope we can all get back to quitting. I'm ready to grab my jackhammer and help anyone that needs it, if you need a phone number I'm only a PM away.
I will support any brother or sister that commits to quitting today. Whether here in the US or in South America!
Proud to be quit with you today my friend!
Rio is my preference. But the Carolina's are nice too. Quit with both of you bad asses.
Quitting from NC but in 3 hours will be able to type quitting from the beach in SC for the next 9 days. Shall we say suck it gents (and ladies)!
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347-
What a crazy few days.
I don't know when it happened but this place became like another family to me. I found a place where my crazy ass fits in, another inmate in the crazy nic addict asylum. I have brothers and sisters on both sides of the recent "drama", but I love this house and will be here to hopefully make it a better place if I can. Such as in politics and government, you cannot affect change by renouncing your citizenship and moving to South America. You have to stay and fight for what you believe in, I hope we can all get back to quitting. I'm ready to grab my jackhammer and help anyone that needs it, if you need a phone number I'm only a PM away.
I will support any brother or sister that commits to quitting today. Whether here in the US or in South America!
Proud to be quit with you today my friend!
Rio is my preference. But the Carolina's are nice too. Quit with both of you bad asses.
Quitting from NC but in 3 hours will be able to type quitting from the beach in SC for the next 9 days. Shall we say suck it gents (and ladies)!
I'm still here jlud... Another NC boy who can get to you pretty quick if you need me...Something tells me you won't. All day today I cringed when I saw a familiar name in intros.... Quit on dude!!!
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347-
What a crazy few days.
I don't know when it happened but this place became like another family to me. I found a place where my crazy ass fits in, another inmate in the crazy nic addict asylum. I have brothers and sisters on both sides of the recent "drama", but I love this house and will be here to hopefully make it a better place if I can. Such as in politics and government, you cannot affect change by renouncing your citizenship and moving to South America. You have to stay and fight for what you believe in, I hope we can all get back to quitting. I'm ready to grab my jackhammer and help anyone that needs it, if you need a phone number I'm only a PM away.
I will support any brother or sister that commits to quitting today. Whether here in the US or in South America!
Proud to be quit with you today my friend!
Rio is my preference. But the Carolina's are nice too. Quit with both of you bad asses.
Quitting from NC but in 3 hours will be able to type quitting from the beach in SC for the next 9 days. Shall we say suck it gents (and ladies)!
I'm still here jlud... Another NC boy who can get to you pretty quick if you need me...Something tells me you won't. All day today I cringed when I saw a familiar name in intros.... Quit on dude!!!
Time for a NC meet!
'BanDog'
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347-
What a crazy few days.
I don't know when it happened but this place became like another family to me. I found a place where my crazy ass fits in, another inmate in the crazy nic addict asylum. I have brothers and sisters on both sides of the recent "drama", but I love this house and will be here to hopefully make it a better place if I can. Such as in politics and government, you cannot affect change by renouncing your citizenship and moving to South America. You have to stay and fight for what you believe in, I hope we can all get back to quitting. I'm ready to grab my jackhammer and help anyone that needs it, if you need a phone number I'm only a PM away.
I will support any brother or sister that commits to quitting today. Whether here in the US or in South America!
Proud to be quit with you today my friend!
Rio is my preference. But the Carolina's are nice too. Quit with both of you bad asses.
Quitting from NC but in 3 hours will be able to type quitting from the beach in SC for the next 9 days. Shall we say suck it gents (and ladies)!
I'm still here jlud... Another NC boy who can get to you pretty quick if you need me...Something tells me you won't. All day today I cringed when I saw a familiar name in intros.... Quit on dude!!!
Time for a NC meet!
'BanDog'
Uplandbird and I were talking about that just last week. I know we have some new NC blood since the outing in February. Lets do it soon...... shocker
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347-
What a crazy few days.
I don't know when it happened but this place became like another family to me. I found a place where my crazy ass fits in, another inmate in the crazy nic addict asylum. I have brothers and sisters on both sides of the recent "drama", but I love this house and will be here to hopefully make it a better place if I can. Such as in politics and government, you cannot affect change by renouncing your citizenship and moving to South America. You have to stay and fight for what you believe in, I hope we can all get back to quitting. I'm ready to grab my jackhammer and help anyone that needs it, if you need a phone number I'm only a PM away.
I will support any brother or sister that commits to quitting today. Whether here in the US or in South America!
Proud to be quit with you today my friend!
Rio is my preference. But the Carolina's are nice too. Quit with both of you bad asses.
Quitting from NC but in 3 hours will be able to type quitting from the beach in SC for the next 9 days. Shall we say suck it gents (and ladies)!
I'm still here jlud... Another NC boy who can get to you pretty quick if you need me...Something tells me you won't. All day today I cringed when I saw a familiar name in intros.... Quit on dude!!!
Time for a NC meet!
'BanDog'
Uplandbird and I were talking about that just last week. I know we have some new NC blood since the outing in February. Lets do it soon...... shocker
I'm in!!! If CS can tell us a bedtime story.... 'na na'
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347-
What a crazy few days.
I don't know when it happened but this place became like another family to me. I found a place where my crazy ass fits in, another inmate in the crazy nic addict asylum. I have brothers and sisters on both sides of the recent "drama", but I love this house and will be here to hopefully make it a better place if I can. Such as in politics and government, you cannot affect change by renouncing your citizenship and moving to South America. You have to stay and fight for what you believe in, I hope we can all get back to quitting. I'm ready to grab my jackhammer and help anyone that needs it, if you need a phone number I'm only a PM away.
I will support any brother or sister that commits to quitting today. Whether here in the US or in South America!
Proud to be quit with you today my friend!
Rio is my preference. But the Carolina's are nice too. Quit with both of you bad asses.
Quitting from NC but in 3 hours will be able to type quitting from the beach in SC for the next 9 days. Shall we say suck it gents (and ladies)!
I'm still here jlud... Another NC boy who can get to you pretty quick if you need me...Something tells me you won't. All day today I cringed when I saw a familiar name in intros.... Quit on dude!!!
Time for a NC meet!
'BanDog'
Uplandbird and I were talking about that just last week. I know we have some new NC blood since the outing in February. Lets do it soon...... shocker
I'm in!!! If CS can tell us a bedtime story.... 'na na'
a bed time story, lets hope it does not involve a banana (or maybe???)
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Day 360 -
I really can't believe it's been a year (almost). I know, one day at a time but sitting here today I can tell you I expect to be here posting roll for 365. It's really been an awesome ride that just keeps getting better and better. Thank you all for helping me achieve what I never could on my own.
My main reason for updating my thread today was I had a unique experience last night I just had to share. We've all had dip dreams, wake up in a cold sweat with your heart beating of our chests..... only to catch our breath and realize it was just a dream, we are still quit. Well... I had my first quit dream last night! It was right before I woke up.....
"I'm sitting somewhere outdoors waiting for my car to be serviced or some such thing. There is a guy smoking and other foggy figures nearby, when suddenly right across from me sits down my dip buddy from High School. Kris was a junior when I was a freshman and we hung out, and dipped mostly. I can't tell how many HS lunches we wasted in the men's room dipping. So after the requisite hello, how the hell you been for 20 years he pulls out a can of Kodiak and offers me a pinch. I responded that man I quit that shit a while back now to which he responds "why would you do that?" and "that's kinda stupid I'll never give up the bear". Then some guy comes up like peanut vendor at a ball game with a rack of cans selling dip of all varieties........"
At that point I woke up and thought what the hell was that ?!
I'm no headshrinker, but in my heart I know that deep down the Nic bitch is still with me. She may go quiet for long periods now but she is far from gone and like any good enemy she is always looking for new ways to deceive me. That is how I interpret my dream, subconsciously trying to plant that seed in my head that it's not my enemy, it is some old friend that misses me and wants to catch up. Well... I know that's bullshit and the plan today remains the same, I'll keep posting roll, hanging in chat a few nights and trying to help new quitters.
I'm proud to be quit with all you today!
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Day 360 -
I really can't believe it's been a year (almost). I know, one day at a time but sitting here today I can tell you I expect to be here posting roll for 365. It's really been an awesome ride that just keeps getting better and better. Thank you all for helping me achieve what I never could on my own.
My main reason for updating my thread today was I had a unique experience last night I just had to share. We've all had dip dreams, wake up in a cold sweat with your heart beating of our chests..... only to catch our breath and realize it was just a dream, we are still quit. Well... I had my first quit dream last night! It was right before I woke up.....
"I'm sitting somewhere outdoors waiting for my car to be serviced or some such thing. There is a guy smoking and other foggy figures nearby, when suddenly right across from me sits down my dip buddy from High School. Kris was a junior when I was a freshman and we hung out, and dipped mostly. I can't tell how many HS lunches we wasted in the men's room dipping. So after the requisite hello, how the hell you been for 20 years he pulls out a can of Kodiak and offers me a pinch. I responded that man I quit that shit a while back now to which he responds "why would you do that?" and "that's kinda stupid I'll never give up the bear". Then some guy comes up like peanut vendor at a ball game with a rack of cans selling dip of all varieties........"
At that point I woke up and thought what the hell was that ?!
I'm no headshrinker, but in my heart I know that deep down the Nic bitch is still with me. She may go quiet for long periods now but she is far from gone and like any good enemy she is always looking for new ways to deceive me. That is how I interpret my dream, subconsciously trying to plant that seed in my head that it's not my enemy, it is some old friend that misses me and wants to catch up. Well... I know that's bullshit and the plan today remains the same, I'll keep posting roll, hanging in chat a few nights and trying to help new quitters.
I'm proud to be quit with all you today!
"Cancer, get your cancer here"
Well done Jeff. Beyond being a friend of mine you have been a rock solid quitter for me to lean on as well. I have no doubt that you will be here posting 365 because you know among others I will be on a flight headed East to get answers to the three questions to my face. We are in this battle together and so it shall remain, no one gets left behind.
P.S. I am still thankful that I do not have the ability to dream, that shit is whack.
Corey
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Day 360 -
I really can't believe it's been a year (almost). I know, one day at a time but sitting here today I can tell you I expect to be here posting roll for 365. It's really been an awesome ride that just keeps getting better and better. Thank you all for helping me achieve what I never could on my own.
My main reason for updating my thread today was I had a unique experience last night I just had to share. We've all had dip dreams, wake up in a cold sweat with your heart beating of our chests..... only to catch our breath and realize it was just a dream, we are still quit. Well... I had my first quit dream last night! It was right before I woke up.....
"I'm sitting somewhere outdoors waiting for my car to be serviced or some such thing. There is a guy smoking and other foggy figures nearby, when suddenly right across from me sits down my dip buddy from High School. Kris was a junior when I was a freshman and we hung out, and dipped mostly. I can't tell how many HS lunches we wasted in the men's room dipping. So after the requisite hello, how the hell you been for 20 years he pulls out a can of Kodiak and offers me a pinch. I responded that man I quit that shit a while back now to which he responds "why would you do that?" and "that's kinda stupid I'll never give up the bear". Then some guy comes up like peanut vendor at a ball game with a rack of cans selling dip of all varieties........"
At that point I woke up and thought what the hell was that ?!
I'm no headshrinker, but in my heart I know that deep down the Nic bitch is still with me. She may go quiet for long periods now but she is far from gone and like any good enemy she is always looking for new ways to deceive me. That is how I interpret my dream, subconsciously trying to plant that seed in my head that it's not my enemy, it is some old friend that misses me and wants to catch up. Well... I know that's bullshit and the plan today remains the same, I'll keep posting roll, hanging in chat a few nights and trying to help new quitters.
I'm proud to be quit with all you today!
Holy shit that's fuckin scary. Further proof that this addiction is for life. We have to stay vigilant and fight it every day. If you think your safe cause you hit the hall...nope. You think your safe at 1 year...nope. Scary shit that a year in that shit is still trying to sneak up on you man.
Thanks for sharing. Knowing that could be coming my way keeps me awake and Alert.
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Day 360 -
I really can't believe it's been a year (almost). I know, one day at a time but sitting here today I can tell you I expect to be here posting roll for 365. It's really been an awesome ride that just keeps getting better and better. Thank you all for helping me achieve what I never could on my own.
My main reason for updating my thread today was I had a unique experience last night I just had to share. We've all had dip dreams, wake up in a cold sweat with your heart beating of our chests..... only to catch our breath and realize it was just a dream, we are still quit. Well... I had my first quit dream last night! It was right before I woke up.....
"I'm sitting somewhere outdoors waiting for my car to be serviced or some such thing. There is a guy smoking and other foggy figures nearby, when suddenly right across from me sits down my dip buddy from High School. Kris was a junior when I was a freshman and we hung out, and dipped mostly. I can't tell how many HS lunches we wasted in the men's room dipping. So after the requisite hello, how the hell you been for 20 years he pulls out a can of Kodiak and offers me a pinch. I responded that man I quit that shit a while back now to which he responds "why would you do that?" and "that's kinda stupid I'll never give up the bear". Then some guy comes up like peanut vendor at a ball game with a rack of cans selling dip of all varieties........"
At that point I woke up and thought what the hell was that ?!
I'm no headshrinker, but in my heart I know that deep down the Nic bitch is still with me. She may go quiet for long periods now but she is far from gone and like any good enemy she is always looking for new ways to deceive me. That is how I interpret my dream, subconsciously trying to plant that seed in my head that it's not my enemy, it is some old friend that misses me and wants to catch up. Well... I know that's bullshit and the plan today remains the same, I'll keep posting roll, hanging in chat a few nights and trying to help new quitters.
I'm proud to be quit with all you today!
Holy shit that's fuckin scary. Further proof that this addiction is for life. We have to stay vigilant and fight it every day. If you think your safe cause you hit the hall...nope. You think your safe at 1 year...nope. Scary shit that a year in that shit is still trying to sneak up on you man.
Thanks for sharing. Knowing that could be coming my way keeps me awake and Alert.
Good stuff Jeff.
These events keep us grounded too. They are reminders of where we were. But they are also reminders of where we are. A year ago right now you were a goddamn mess. I remember! Today, you are a new man. Look at the other positive changes! Harnessing these events along with one day at a time posting will get you to a place that you are really gonna like. Srans and I talked about this yesterday. Every 100 is better than the last.
Thanks for the update.
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Day 360 -
I really can't believe it's been a year (almost). I know, one day at a time but sitting here today I can tell you I expect to be here posting roll for 365. It's really been an awesome ride that just keeps getting better and better. Thank you all for helping me achieve what I never could on my own.
My main reason for updating my thread today was I had a unique experience last night I just had to share. We've all had dip dreams, wake up in a cold sweat with your heart beating of our chests..... only to catch our breath and realize it was just a dream, we are still quit. Well... I had my first quit dream last night! It was right before I woke up.....
"I'm sitting somewhere outdoors waiting for my car to be serviced or some such thing. There is a guy smoking and other foggy figures nearby, when suddenly right across from me sits down my dip buddy from High School. Kris was a junior when I was a freshman and we hung out, and dipped mostly. I can't tell how many HS lunches we wasted in the men's room dipping. So after the requisite hello, how the hell you been for 20 years he pulls out a can of Kodiak and offers me a pinch. I responded that man I quit that shit a while back now to which he responds "why would you do that?" and "that's kinda stupid I'll never give up the bear". Then some guy comes up like peanut vendor at a ball game with a rack of cans selling dip of all varieties........"
At that point I woke up and thought what the hell was that ?!
I'm no headshrinker, but in my heart I know that deep down the Nic bitch is still with me. She may go quiet for long periods now but she is far from gone and like any good enemy she is always looking for new ways to deceive me. That is how I interpret my dream, subconsciously trying to plant that seed in my head that it's not my enemy, it is some old friend that misses me and wants to catch up. Well... I know that's bullshit and the plan today remains the same, I'll keep posting roll, hanging in chat a few nights and trying to help new quitters.
I'm proud to be quit with all you today!
Holy shit that's fuckin scary. Further proof that this addiction is for life. We have to stay vigilant and fight it every day. If you think your safe cause you hit the hall...nope. You think your safe at 1 year...nope. Scary shit that a year in that shit is still trying to sneak up on you man.
Thanks for sharing. Knowing that could be coming my way keeps me awake and Alert.
Good stuff Jeff.
These events keep us grounded too. They are reminders of where we were. But they are also reminders of where we are. A year ago right now you were a goddamn mess. I remember! Today, you are a new man. Look at the other positive changes! Harnessing these events along with one day at a time posting will get you to a place that you are really gonna like. Srans and I talked about this yesterday. Every 100 is better than the last.
Thanks for the update.
His name is LUD...J.LUD... I can't wait til I have one of them. I've had several dip dreams the last few weeks in the 290s. Always seems the same. I'm trying to get the crap out of my mouth and it never rinses all the way out.... 'drool' What a joke nicotine is.....
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Day 360 -
I really can't believe it's been a year (almost). I know, one day at a time but sitting here today I can tell you I expect to be here posting roll for 365. It's really been an awesome ride that just keeps getting better and better. Thank you all for helping me achieve what I never could on my own.
My main reason for updating my thread today was I had a unique experience last night I just had to share. We've all had dip dreams, wake up in a cold sweat with your heart beating of our chests..... only to catch our breath and realize it was just a dream, we are still quit. Well... I had my first quit dream last night! It was right before I woke up.....
"I'm sitting somewhere outdoors waiting for my car to be serviced or some such thing. There is a guy smoking and other foggy figures nearby, when suddenly right across from me sits down my dip buddy from High School. Kris was a junior when I was a freshman and we hung out, and dipped mostly. I can't tell how many HS lunches we wasted in the men's room dipping. So after the requisite hello, how the hell you been for 20 years he pulls out a can of Kodiak and offers me a pinch. I responded that man I quit that shit a while back now to which he responds "why would you do that?" and "that's kinda stupid I'll never give up the bear". Then some guy comes up like peanut vendor at a ball game with a rack of cans selling dip of all varieties........"
At that point I woke up and thought what the hell was that ?!
I'm no headshrinker, but in my heart I know that deep down the Nic bitch is still with me. She may go quiet for long periods now but she is far from gone and like any good enemy she is always looking for new ways to deceive me. That is how I interpret my dream, subconsciously trying to plant that seed in my head that it's not my enemy, it is some old friend that misses me and wants to catch up. Well... I know that's bullshit and the plan today remains the same, I'll keep posting roll, hanging in chat a few nights and trying to help new quitters.
I'm proud to be quit with all you today!
"Cancer, get your cancer here"
Well done Jeff. Beyond being a friend of mine you have been a rock solid quitter for me to lean on as well. I have no doubt that you will be here posting 365 because you know among others I will be on a flight headed East to get answers to the three questions to my face. We are in this battle together and so it shall remain, no one gets left behind.
P.S. I am still thankful that I do not have the ability to dream, that shit is whack.
Corey
It's been that long. Damn, time flies when your QLF. Quit with any day bro.
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Day 360 -
I really can't believe it's been a year (almost). I know, one day at a time but sitting here today I can tell you I expect to be here posting roll for 365. It's really been an awesome ride that just keeps getting better and better. Thank you all for helping me achieve what I never could on my own.
My main reason for updating my thread today was I had a unique experience last night I just had to share. We've all had dip dreams, wake up in a cold sweat with your heart beating of our chests..... only to catch our breath and realize it was just a dream, we are still quit. Well... I had my first quit dream last night! It was right before I woke up.....
"I'm sitting somewhere outdoors waiting for my car to be serviced or some such thing. There is a guy smoking and other foggy figures nearby, when suddenly right across from me sits down my dip buddy from High School. Kris was a junior when I was a freshman and we hung out, and dipped mostly. I can't tell how many HS lunches we wasted in the men's room dipping. So after the requisite hello, how the hell you been for 20 years he pulls out a can of Kodiak and offers me a pinch. I responded that man I quit that shit a while back now to which he responds "why would you do that?" and "that's kinda stupid I'll never give up the bear". Then some guy comes up like peanut vendor at a ball game with a rack of cans selling dip of all varieties........"
At that point I woke up and thought what the hell was that ?!
I'm no headshrinker, but in my heart I know that deep down the Nic bitch is still with me. She may go quiet for long periods now but she is far from gone and like any good enemy she is always looking for new ways to deceive me. That is how I interpret my dream, subconsciously trying to plant that seed in my head that it's not my enemy, it is some old friend that misses me and wants to catch up. Well... I know that's bullshit and the plan today remains the same, I'll keep posting roll, hanging in chat a few nights and trying to help new quitters.
I'm proud to be quit with all you today!
"Cancer, get your cancer here"
Well done Jeff. Beyond being a friend of mine you have been a rock solid quitter for me to lean on as well. I have no doubt that you will be here posting 365 because you know among others I will be on a flight headed East to get answers to the three questions to my face. We are in this battle together and so it shall remain, no one gets left behind.
P.S. I am still thankful that I do not have the ability to dream, that shit is whack.
Corey
It's been that long. Damn, time flies when your QLF. Quit with any day bro.
A 'Quit Dream'. I like that. Early congrats on the 365! Really cool seeing guys succeed everyday with their quit and staying active with the newbies which I'm beginning to think is another part of the process of staying quit.
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Day 360 -
I really can't believe it's been a year (almost). I know, one day at a time but sitting here today I can tell you I expect to be here posting roll for 365. It's really been an awesome ride that just keeps getting better and better. Thank you all for helping me achieve what I never could on my own.
My main reason for updating my thread today was I had a unique experience last night I just had to share. We've all had dip dreams, wake up in a cold sweat with your heart beating of our chests..... only to catch our breath and realize it was just a dream, we are still quit. Well... I had my first quit dream last night! It was right before I woke up.....
"I'm sitting somewhere outdoors waiting for my car to be serviced or some such thing. There is a guy smoking and other foggy figures nearby, when suddenly right across from me sits down my dip buddy from High School. Kris was a junior when I was a freshman and we hung out, and dipped mostly. I can't tell how many HS lunches we wasted in the men's room dipping. So after the requisite hello, how the hell you been for 20 years he pulls out a can of Kodiak and offers me a pinch. I responded that man I quit that shit a while back now to which he responds "why would you do that?" and "that's kinda stupid I'll never give up the bear". Then some guy comes up like peanut vendor at a ball game with a rack of cans selling dip of all varieties........"
At that point I woke up and thought what the hell was that ?!
I'm no headshrinker, but in my heart I know that deep down the Nic bitch is still with me. She may go quiet for long periods now but she is far from gone and like any good enemy she is always looking for new ways to deceive me. That is how I interpret my dream, subconsciously trying to plant that seed in my head that it's not my enemy, it is some old friend that misses me and wants to catch up. Well... I know that's bullshit and the plan today remains the same, I'll keep posting roll, hanging in chat a few nights and trying to help new quitters.
I'm proud to be quit with all you today!
"Cancer, get your cancer here"
Well done Jeff. Beyond being a friend of mine you have been a rock solid quitter for me to lean on as well. I have no doubt that you will be here posting 365 because you know among others I will be on a flight headed East to get answers to the three questions to my face. We are in this battle together and so it shall remain, no one gets left behind.
P.S. I am still thankful that I do not have the ability to dream, that shit is whack.
Corey
It's been that long. Damn, time flies when your QLF. Quit with any day bro.
A 'Quit Dream'. I like that. Early congrats on the 365! Really cool seeing guys succeed everyday with their quit and staying active with the newbies which I'm beginning to think is another part of the process of staying quit.
FMBM I would say that behind Roll Call, hanging around and helping guys just starting on the path is the number 2 most important thing for long term success. Ask any guy 200, 300, 400 or 2000 or more days how much taking the time to read or listen in chat to the struggles helps our quit. The new guys remind us that the misery of nicotine is still out there, the guys that hang around and hit the HOF and beyond help all us remember that the KTC way works and the guys that stumble remind us why we continue to stay around.
I am not quoting word for word but I remember reading some words of wisdom from Chewie, one of the guys that started KTC. He talked about how a guy that had said hanging around here kept them thinking about dip and their addiction. To which he responded that was exactly why he still stayed involved, we want to remember all the shit we went though to get to where we are now. Our nicotine addiction is not some "phase" of our lives we can box up and store in some musty storage closet in our minds, we must actively continue to fight the battle everyday to remain victorious. I mean think about how much time we spent with the can when we used, is it really too much to take 5-10 minutes a day to post roll. Is it too much to spend an hour, or two, or more during a week if you can talking to new guys in chat or text, keeping up with a few guys that helped you along. For me it is an easy decision because (and I don't remember who coined this phrase so forgive me if I don't give credit)... we are all $5 and a bad decision away from starting over again at day 1.
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Day 360 -
I really can't believe it's been a year (almost). I know, one day at a time but sitting here today I can tell you I expect to be here posting roll for 365. It's really been an awesome ride that just keeps getting better and better. Thank you all for helping me achieve what I never could on my own.
My main reason for updating my thread today was I had a unique experience last night I just had to share. We've all had dip dreams, wake up in a cold sweat with your heart beating of our chests..... only to catch our breath and realize it was just a dream, we are still quit. Well... I had my first quit dream last night! It was right before I woke up.....
"I'm sitting somewhere outdoors waiting for my car to be serviced or some such thing. There is a guy smoking and other foggy figures nearby, when suddenly right across from me sits down my dip buddy from High School. Kris was a junior when I was a freshman and we hung out, and dipped mostly. I can't tell how many HS lunches we wasted in the men's room dipping. So after the requisite hello, how the hell you been for 20 years he pulls out a can of Kodiak and offers me a pinch. I responded that man I quit that shit a while back now to which he responds "why would you do that?" and "that's kinda stupid I'll never give up the bear". Then some guy comes up like peanut vendor at a ball game with a rack of cans selling dip of all varieties........"
At that point I woke up and thought what the hell was that ?!
I'm no headshrinker, but in my heart I know that deep down the Nic bitch is still with me. She may go quiet for long periods now but she is far from gone and like any good enemy she is always looking for new ways to deceive me. That is how I interpret my dream, subconsciously trying to plant that seed in my head that it's not my enemy, it is some old friend that misses me and wants to catch up. Well... I know that's bullshit and the plan today remains the same, I'll keep posting roll, hanging in chat a few nights and trying to help new quitters.
I'm proud to be quit with all you today!
"Cancer, get your cancer here"
Well done Jeff. Beyond being a friend of mine you have been a rock solid quitter for me to lean on as well. I have no doubt that you will be here posting 365 because you know among others I will be on a flight headed East to get answers to the three questions to my face. We are in this battle together and so it shall remain, no one gets left behind.
P.S. I am still thankful that I do not have the ability to dream, that shit is whack.
Corey
It's been that long. Damn, time flies when your QLF. Quit with any day bro.
A 'Quit Dream'. I like that. Early congrats on the 365! Really cool seeing guys succeed everyday with their quit and staying active with the newbies which I'm beginning to think is another part of the process of staying quit.
FMBM I would say that behind Roll Call, hanging around and helping guys just starting on the path is the number 2 most important thing for long term success. Ask any guy 200, 300, 400 or 2000 or more days how much taking the time to read or listen in chat to the struggles helps our quit. The new guys remind us that the misery of nicotine is still out there, the guys that hang around and hit the HOF and beyond help all us remember that the KTC way works and the guys that stumble remind us why we continue to stay around.
I am not quoting word for word but I remember reading some words of wisdom from Chewie, one of the guys that started KTC. He talked about how a guy that had said hanging around here kept them thinking about dip and their addiction. To which he responded that was exactly why he still stayed involved, we want to remember all the shit we went though to get to where we are now. Our nicotine addiction is not some "phase" of our lives we can box up and store in some musty storage closet in our minds, we must actively continue to fight the battle everyday to remain victorious. I mean think about how much time we spent with the can when we used, is it really too much to take 5-10 minutes a day to post roll. Is it too much to spend an hour, or two, or more during a week if you can talking to new guys in chat or text, keeping up with a few guys that helped you along. For me it is an easy decision because (and I don't remember who coined this phrase so forgive me if I don't give credit)... we are all $5 and a bad decision away from starting over again at day 1.
You keep writing and I'll keep reading jeff. :wub:
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Day 360 -
I really can't believe it's been a year (almost). I know, one day at a time but sitting here today I can tell you I expect to be here posting roll for 365. It's really been an awesome ride that just keeps getting better and better. Thank you all for helping me achieve what I never could on my own.
My main reason for updating my thread today was I had a unique experience last night I just had to share. We've all had dip dreams, wake up in a cold sweat with your heart beating of our chests..... only to catch our breath and realize it was just a dream, we are still quit. Well... I had my first quit dream last night! It was right before I woke up.....
"I'm sitting somewhere outdoors waiting for my car to be serviced or some such thing. There is a guy smoking and other foggy figures nearby, when suddenly right across from me sits down my dip buddy from High School. Kris was a junior when I was a freshman and we hung out, and dipped mostly. I can't tell how many HS lunches we wasted in the men's room dipping. So after the requisite hello, how the hell you been for 20 years he pulls out a can of Kodiak and offers me a pinch. I responded that man I quit that shit a while back now to which he responds "why would you do that?" and "that's kinda stupid I'll never give up the bear". Then some guy comes up like peanut vendor at a ball game with a rack of cans selling dip of all varieties........"
At that point I woke up and thought what the hell was that ?!
I'm no headshrinker, but in my heart I know that deep down the Nic bitch is still with me. She may go quiet for long periods now but she is far from gone and like any good enemy she is always looking for new ways to deceive me. That is how I interpret my dream, subconsciously trying to plant that seed in my head that it's not my enemy, it is some old friend that misses me and wants to catch up. Well... I know that's bullshit and the plan today remains the same, I'll keep posting roll, hanging in chat a few nights and trying to help new quitters.
I'm proud to be quit with all you today!
"Cancer, get your cancer here"
Well done Jeff. Beyond being a friend of mine you have been a rock solid quitter for me to lean on as well. I have no doubt that you will be here posting 365 because you know among others I will be on a flight headed East to get answers to the three questions to my face. We are in this battle together and so it shall remain, no one gets left behind.
P.S. I am still thankful that I do not have the ability to dream, that shit is whack.
Corey
It's been that long. Damn, time flies when your QLF. Quit with any day bro.
A 'Quit Dream'. I like that. Early congrats on the 365! Really cool seeing guys succeed everyday with their quit and staying active with the newbies which I'm beginning to think is another part of the process of staying quit.
FMBM I would say that behind Roll Call, hanging around and helping guys just starting on the path is the number 2 most important thing for long term success. Ask any guy 200, 300, 400 or 2000 or more days how much taking the time to read or listen in chat to the struggles helps our quit. The new guys remind us that the misery of nicotine is still out there, the guys that hang around and hit the HOF and beyond help all us remember that the KTC way works and the guys that stumble remind us why we continue to stay around.
I am not quoting word for word but I remember reading some words of wisdom from Chewie, one of the guys that started KTC. He talked about how a guy that had said hanging around here kept them thinking about dip and their addiction. To which he responded that was exactly why he still stayed involved, we want to remember all the shit we went though to get to where we are now. Our nicotine addiction is not some "phase" of our lives we can box up and store in some musty storage closet in our minds, we must actively continue to fight the battle everyday to remain victorious. I mean think about how much time we spent with the can when we used, is it really too much to take 5-10 minutes a day to post roll. Is it too much to spend an hour, or two, or more during a week if you can talking to new guys in chat or text, keeping up with a few guys that helped you along. For me it is an easy decision because (and I don't remember who coined this phrase so forgive me if I don't give credit)... we are all $5 and a bad decision away from starting over again at day 1.
You keep writing and I'll keep reading jeff. :wub:
Grats on the year, Jlud!
Keep up the good quit!
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Day 360 -
I really can't believe it's been a year (almost). I know, one day at a time but sitting here today I can tell you I expect to be here posting roll for 365. It's really been an awesome ride that just keeps getting better and better. Thank you all for helping me achieve what I never could on my own.
My main reason for updating my thread today was I had a unique experience last night I just had to share. We've all had dip dreams, wake up in a cold sweat with your heart beating of our chests..... only to catch our breath and realize it was just a dream, we are still quit. Well... I had my first quit dream last night! It was right before I woke up.....
"I'm sitting somewhere outdoors waiting for my car to be serviced or some such thing. There is a guy smoking and other foggy figures nearby, when suddenly right across from me sits down my dip buddy from High School. Kris was a junior when I was a freshman and we hung out, and dipped mostly. I can't tell how many HS lunches we wasted in the men's room dipping. So after the requisite hello, how the hell you been for 20 years he pulls out a can of Kodiak and offers me a pinch. I responded that man I quit that shit a while back now to which he responds "why would you do that?" and "that's kinda stupid I'll never give up the bear". Then some guy comes up like peanut vendor at a ball game with a rack of cans selling dip of all varieties........"
At that point I woke up and thought what the hell was that ?!
I'm no headshrinker, but in my heart I know that deep down the Nic bitch is still with me. She may go quiet for long periods now but she is far from gone and like any good enemy she is always looking for new ways to deceive me. That is how I interpret my dream, subconsciously trying to plant that seed in my head that it's not my enemy, it is some old friend that misses me and wants to catch up. Well... I know that's bullshit and the plan today remains the same, I'll keep posting roll, hanging in chat a few nights and trying to help new quitters.
I'm proud to be quit with all you today!
"Cancer, get your cancer here"
Well done Jeff. Beyond being a friend of mine you have been a rock solid quitter for me to lean on as well. I have no doubt that you will be here posting 365 because you know among others I will be on a flight headed East to get answers to the three questions to my face. We are in this battle together and so it shall remain, no one gets left behind.
P.S. I am still thankful that I do not have the ability to dream, that shit is whack.
Corey
It's been that long. Damn, time flies when your QLF. Quit with any day bro.
A 'Quit Dream'. I like that. Early congrats on the 365! Really cool seeing guys succeed everyday with their quit and staying active with the newbies which I'm beginning to think is another part of the process of staying quit.
FMBM I would say that behind Roll Call, hanging around and helping guys just starting on the path is the number 2 most important thing for long term success. Ask any guy 200, 300, 400 or 2000 or more days how much taking the time to read or listen in chat to the struggles helps our quit. The new guys remind us that the misery of nicotine is still out there, the guys that hang around and hit the HOF and beyond help all us remember that the KTC way works and the guys that stumble remind us why we continue to stay around.
I am not quoting word for word but I remember reading some words of wisdom from Chewie, one of the guys that started KTC. He talked about how a guy that had said hanging around here kept them thinking about dip and their addiction. To which he responded that was exactly why he still stayed involved, we want to remember all the shit we went though to get to where we are now. Our nicotine addiction is not some "phase" of our lives we can box up and store in some musty storage closet in our minds, we must actively continue to fight the battle everyday to remain victorious. I mean think about how much time we spent with the can when we used, is it really too much to take 5-10 minutes a day to post roll. Is it too much to spend an hour, or two, or more during a week if you can talking to new guys in chat or text, keeping up with a few guys that helped you along. For me it is an easy decision because (and I don't remember who coined this phrase so forgive me if I don't give credit)... we are all $5 and a bad decision away from starting over again at day 1.
You keep writing and I'll keep reading jeff. :wub:
Grats on the year, Jlud!
Keep up the good quit!
Jeff, early congrats on a year. It is an honor to quit with you. You have fought hard and are now reaping the benefits of being a man of your word every day. Proud to call you brother, and friend. Thanks for bringing me and others along for the ride. Well done, brother!
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Day 360 -
I really can't believe it's been a year (almost). I know, one day at a time but sitting here today I can tell you I expect to be here posting roll for 365. It's really been an awesome ride that just keeps getting better and better. Thank you all for helping me achieve what I never could on my own.
My main reason for updating my thread today was I had a unique experience last night I just had to share. We've all had dip dreams, wake up in a cold sweat with your heart beating of our chests..... only to catch our breath and realize it was just a dream, we are still quit. Well... I had my first quit dream last night! It was right before I woke up.....
"I'm sitting somewhere outdoors waiting for my car to be serviced or some such thing. There is a guy smoking and other foggy figures nearby, when suddenly right across from me sits down my dip buddy from High School. Kris was a junior when I was a freshman and we hung out, and dipped mostly. I can't tell how many HS lunches we wasted in the men's room dipping. So after the requisite hello, how the hell you been for 20 years he pulls out a can of Kodiak and offers me a pinch. I responded that man I quit that shit a while back now to which he responds "why would you do that?" and "that's kinda stupid I'll never give up the bear". Then some guy comes up like peanut vendor at a ball game with a rack of cans selling dip of all varieties........"
At that point I woke up and thought what the hell was that ?!
I'm no headshrinker, but in my heart I know that deep down the Nic bitch is still with me. She may go quiet for long periods now but she is far from gone and like any good enemy she is always looking for new ways to deceive me. That is how I interpret my dream, subconsciously trying to plant that seed in my head that it's not my enemy, it is some old friend that misses me and wants to catch up. Well... I know that's bullshit and the plan today remains the same, I'll keep posting roll, hanging in chat a few nights and trying to help new quitters.
I'm proud to be quit with all you today!
"Cancer, get your cancer here"
Well done Jeff. Beyond being a friend of mine you have been a rock solid quitter for me to lean on as well. I have no doubt that you will be here posting 365 because you know among others I will be on a flight headed East to get answers to the three questions to my face. We are in this battle together and so it shall remain, no one gets left behind.
P.S. I am still thankful that I do not have the ability to dream, that shit is whack.
Corey
It's been that long. Damn, time flies when your QLF. Quit with any day bro.
A 'Quit Dream'. I like that. Early congrats on the 365! Really cool seeing guys succeed everyday with their quit and staying active with the newbies which I'm beginning to think is another part of the process of staying quit.
FMBM I would say that behind Roll Call, hanging around and helping guys just starting on the path is the number 2 most important thing for long term success. Ask any guy 200, 300, 400 or 2000 or more days how much taking the time to read or listen in chat to the struggles helps our quit. The new guys remind us that the misery of nicotine is still out there, the guys that hang around and hit the HOF and beyond help all us remember that the KTC way works and the guys that stumble remind us why we continue to stay around.
I am not quoting word for word but I remember reading some words of wisdom from Chewie, one of the guys that started KTC. He talked about how a guy that had said hanging around here kept them thinking about dip and their addiction. To which he responded that was exactly why he still stayed involved, we want to remember all the shit we went though to get to where we are now. Our nicotine addiction is not some "phase" of our lives we can box up and store in some musty storage closet in our minds, we must actively continue to fight the battle everyday to remain victorious. I mean think about how much time we spent with the can when we used, is it really too much to take 5-10 minutes a day to post roll. Is it too much to spend an hour, or two, or more during a week if you can talking to new guys in chat or text, keeping up with a few guys that helped you along. For me it is an easy decision because (and I don't remember who coined this phrase so forgive me if I don't give credit)... we are all $5 and a bad decision away from starting over again at day 1.
You keep writing and I'll keep reading jeff. :wub:
Grats on the year, Jlud!
Keep up the good quit!
Jeff, early congrats on a year. It is an honor to quit with you. You have fought hard and are now reaping the benefits of being a man of your word every day. Proud to call you brother, and friend. Thanks for bringing me and others along for the ride. Well done, brother!
Love me a dip dream story. I still have dip dreams. Crazy. Reminds me that it ain't over. But also reminds me that the crazy bitch can only get me in my dreams. #imstillwinningbitch
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Day 360 -
I really can't believe it's been a year (almost). I know, one day at a time but sitting here today I can tell you I expect to be here posting roll for 365. It's really been an awesome ride that just keeps getting better and better. Thank you all for helping me achieve what I never could on my own.
My main reason for updating my thread today was I had a unique experience last night I just had to share. We've all had dip dreams, wake up in a cold sweat with your heart beating of our chests..... only to catch our breath and realize it was just a dream, we are still quit. Well... I had my first quit dream last night! It was right before I woke up.....
"I'm sitting somewhere outdoors waiting for my car to be serviced or some such thing. There is a guy smoking and other foggy figures nearby, when suddenly right across from me sits down my dip buddy from High School. Kris was a junior when I was a freshman and we hung out, and dipped mostly. I can't tell how many HS lunches we wasted in the men's room dipping. So after the requisite hello, how the hell you been for 20 years he pulls out a can of Kodiak and offers me a pinch. I responded that man I quit that shit a while back now to which he responds "why would you do that?" and "that's kinda stupid I'll never give up the bear". Then some guy comes up like peanut vendor at a ball game with a rack of cans selling dip of all varieties........"
At that point I woke up and thought what the hell was that ?!
I'm no headshrinker, but in my heart I know that deep down the Nic bitch is still with me. She may go quiet for long periods now but she is far from gone and like any good enemy she is always looking for new ways to deceive me. That is how I interpret my dream, subconsciously trying to plant that seed in my head that it's not my enemy, it is some old friend that misses me and wants to catch up. Well... I know that's bullshit and the plan today remains the same, I'll keep posting roll, hanging in chat a few nights and trying to help new quitters.
I'm proud to be quit with all you today!
"Cancer, get your cancer here"
Well done Jeff. Beyond being a friend of mine you have been a rock solid quitter for me to lean on as well. I have no doubt that you will be here posting 365 because you know among others I will be on a flight headed East to get answers to the three questions to my face. We are in this battle together and so it shall remain, no one gets left behind.
P.S. I am still thankful that I do not have the ability to dream, that shit is whack.
Corey
It's been that long. Damn, time flies when your QLF. Quit with any day bro.
A 'Quit Dream'. I like that. Early congrats on the 365! Really cool seeing guys succeed everyday with their quit and staying active with the newbies which I'm beginning to think is another part of the process of staying quit.
FMBM I would say that behind Roll Call, hanging around and helping guys just starting on the path is the number 2 most important thing for long term success. Ask any guy 200, 300, 400 or 2000 or more days how much taking the time to read or listen in chat to the struggles helps our quit. The new guys remind us that the misery of nicotine is still out there, the guys that hang around and hit the HOF and beyond help all us remember that the KTC way works and the guys that stumble remind us why we continue to stay around.
I am not quoting word for word but I remember reading some words of wisdom from Chewie, one of the guys that started KTC. He talked about how a guy that had said hanging around here kept them thinking about dip and their addiction. To which he responded that was exactly why he still stayed involved, we want to remember all the shit we went though to get to where we are now. Our nicotine addiction is not some "phase" of our lives we can box up and store in some musty storage closet in our minds, we must actively continue to fight the battle everyday to remain victorious. I mean think about how much time we spent with the can when we used, is it really too much to take 5-10 minutes a day to post roll. Is it too much to spend an hour, or two, or more during a week if you can talking to new guys in chat or text, keeping up with a few guys that helped you along. For me it is an easy decision because (and I don't remember who coined this phrase so forgive me if I don't give credit)... we are all $5 and a bad decision away from starting over again at day 1.
You keep writing and I'll keep reading jeff. :wub:
Grats on the year, Jlud!
Keep up the good quit!
Jeff, early congrats on a year. It is an honor to quit with you. You have fought hard and are now reaping the benefits of being a man of your word every day. Proud to call you brother, and friend. Thanks for bringing me and others along for the ride. Well done, brother!
Love me a dip dream story. I still have dip dreams. Crazy. Reminds me that it ain't over. But also reminds me that the crazy bitch can only get me in my dreams. #imstillwinningbitch
Congrats on the milestone. Well done!!!
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Congrats on 1 yr! Well done.
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To one of my great NC quitters, well done Jeff!!!
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Day 360 -
I really can't believe it's been a year (almost). I know, one day at a time but sitting here today I can tell you I expect to be here posting roll for 365. It's really been an awesome ride that just keeps getting better and better. Thank you all for helping me achieve what I never could on my own.
My main reason for updating my thread today was I had a unique experience last night I just had to share. We've all had dip dreams, wake up in a cold sweat with your heart beating of our chests..... only to catch our breath and realize it was just a dream, we are still quit. Well... I had my first quit dream last night! It was right before I woke up.....
"I'm sitting somewhere outdoors waiting for my car to be serviced or some such thing. There is a guy smoking and other foggy figures nearby, when suddenly right across from me sits down my dip buddy from High School. Kris was a junior when I was a freshman and we hung out, and dipped mostly. I can't tell how many HS lunches we wasted in the men's room dipping. So after the requisite hello, how the hell you been for 20 years he pulls out a can of Kodiak and offers me a pinch. I responded that man I quit that shit a while back now to which he responds "why would you do that?" and "that's kinda stupid I'll never give up the bear". Then some guy comes up like peanut vendor at a ball game with a rack of cans selling dip of all varieties........"
At that point I woke up and thought what the hell was that ?!
I'm no headshrinker, but in my heart I know that deep down the Nic bitch is still with me. She may go quiet for long periods now but she is far from gone and like any good enemy she is always looking for new ways to deceive me. That is how I interpret my dream, subconsciously trying to plant that seed in my head that it's not my enemy, it is some old friend that misses me and wants to catch up. Well... I know that's bullshit and the plan today remains the same, I'll keep posting roll, hanging in chat a few nights and trying to help new quitters.
I'm proud to be quit with all you today!
"Cancer, get your cancer here"
Well done Jeff. Beyond being a friend of mine you have been a rock solid quitter for me to lean on as well. I have no doubt that you will be here posting 365 because you know among others I will be on a flight headed East to get answers to the three questions to my face. We are in this battle together and so it shall remain, no one gets left behind.
P.S. I am still thankful that I do not have the ability to dream, that shit is whack.
Corey
It's been that long. Damn, time flies when your QLF. Quit with any day bro.
A 'Quit Dream'. I like that. Early congrats on the 365! Really cool seeing guys succeed everyday with their quit and staying active with the newbies which I'm beginning to think is another part of the process of staying quit.
FMBM I would say that behind Roll Call, hanging around and helping guys just starting on the path is the number 2 most important thing for long term success. Ask any guy 200, 300, 400 or 2000 or more days how much taking the time to read or listen in chat to the struggles helps our quit. The new guys remind us that the misery of nicotine is still out there, the guys that hang around and hit the HOF and beyond help all us remember that the KTC way works and the guys that stumble remind us why we continue to stay around.
I am not quoting word for word but I remember reading some words of wisdom from Chewie, one of the guys that started KTC. He talked about how a guy that had said hanging around here kept them thinking about dip and their addiction. To which he responded that was exactly why he still stayed involved, we want to remember all the shit we went though to get to where we are now. Our nicotine addiction is not some "phase" of our lives we can box up and store in some musty storage closet in our minds, we must actively continue to fight the battle everyday to remain victorious. I mean think about how much time we spent with the can when we used, is it really too much to take 5-10 minutes a day to post roll. Is it too much to spend an hour, or two, or more during a week if you can talking to new guys in chat or text, keeping up with a few guys that helped you along. For me it is an easy decision because (and I don't remember who coined this phrase so forgive me if I don't give credit)... we are all $5 and a bad decision away from starting over again at day 1.
You keep writing and I'll keep reading jeff. :wub:
Grats on the year, Jlud!
Keep up the good quit!
Jeff, early congrats on a year. It is an honor to quit with you. You have fought hard and are now reaping the benefits of being a man of your word every day. Proud to call you brother, and friend. Thanks for bringing me and others along for the ride. Well done, brother!
Love me a dip dream story. I still have dip dreams. Crazy. Reminds me that it ain't over. But also reminds me that the crazy bitch can only get me in my dreams. #imstillwinningbitch
Congrats on the milestone. Well done!!!
Jeff every day I troll these intros looking where I can add something to help a newcomer as they start their quit, usually when I see the Monkey avatar I know some real wisdom has already been passed along. You are a huge contributor to this site and I'm glad to be in your quit group. Keep on trucking brutha!
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Day 360 -
I really can't believe it's been a year (almost). I know, one day at a time but sitting here today I can tell you I expect to be here posting roll for 365. It's really been an awesome ride that just keeps getting better and better. Thank you all for helping me achieve what I never could on my own.
My main reason for updating my thread today was I had a unique experience last night I just had to share. We've all had dip dreams, wake up in a cold sweat with your heart beating of our chests..... only to catch our breath and realize it was just a dream, we are still quit. Well... I had my first quit dream last night! It was right before I woke up.....
"I'm sitting somewhere outdoors waiting for my car to be serviced or some such thing. There is a guy smoking and other foggy figures nearby, when suddenly right across from me sits down my dip buddy from High School. Kris was a junior when I was a freshman and we hung out, and dipped mostly. I can't tell how many HS lunches we wasted in the men's room dipping. So after the requisite hello, how the hell you been for 20 years he pulls out a can of Kodiak and offers me a pinch. I responded that man I quit that shit a while back now to which he responds "why would you do that?" and "that's kinda stupid I'll never give up the bear". Then some guy comes up like peanut vendor at a ball game with a rack of cans selling dip of all varieties........"
At that point I woke up and thought what the hell was that ?!
I'm no headshrinker, but in my heart I know that deep down the Nic bitch is still with me. She may go quiet for long periods now but she is far from gone and like any good enemy she is always looking for new ways to deceive me. That is how I interpret my dream, subconsciously trying to plant that seed in my head that it's not my enemy, it is some old friend that misses me and wants to catch up. Well... I know that's bullshit and the plan today remains the same, I'll keep posting roll, hanging in chat a few nights and trying to help new quitters.
I'm proud to be quit with all you today!
"Cancer, get your cancer here"
Well done Jeff. Beyond being a friend of mine you have been a rock solid quitter for me to lean on as well. I have no doubt that you will be here posting 365 because you know among others I will be on a flight headed East to get answers to the three questions to my face. We are in this battle together and so it shall remain, no one gets left behind.
P.S. I am still thankful that I do not have the ability to dream, that shit is whack.
Corey
It's been that long. Damn, time flies when your QLF. Quit with any day bro.
A 'Quit Dream'. I like that. Early congrats on the 365! Really cool seeing guys succeed everyday with their quit and staying active with the newbies which I'm beginning to think is another part of the process of staying quit.
FMBM I would say that behind Roll Call, hanging around and helping guys just starting on the path is the number 2 most important thing for long term success. Ask any guy 200, 300, 400 or 2000 or more days how much taking the time to read or listen in chat to the struggles helps our quit. The new guys remind us that the misery of nicotine is still out there, the guys that hang around and hit the HOF and beyond help all us remember that the KTC way works and the guys that stumble remind us why we continue to stay around.
I am not quoting word for word but I remember reading some words of wisdom from Chewie, one of the guys that started KTC. He talked about how a guy that had said hanging around here kept them thinking about dip and their addiction. To which he responded that was exactly why he still stayed involved, we want to remember all the shit we went though to get to where we are now. Our nicotine addiction is not some "phase" of our lives we can box up and store in some musty storage closet in our minds, we must actively continue to fight the battle everyday to remain victorious. I mean think about how much time we spent with the can when we used, is it really too much to take 5-10 minutes a day to post roll. Is it too much to spend an hour, or two, or more during a week if you can talking to new guys in chat or text, keeping up with a few guys that helped you along. For me it is an easy decision because (and I don't remember who coined this phrase so forgive me if I don't give credit)... we are all $5 and a bad decision away from starting over again at day 1.
You keep writing and I'll keep reading jeff. :wub:
Grats on the year, Jlud!
Keep up the good quit!
Jeff, early congrats on a year. It is an honor to quit with you. You have fought hard and are now reaping the benefits of being a man of your word every day. Proud to call you brother, and friend. Thanks for bringing me and others along for the ride. Well done, brother!
Love me a dip dream story. I still have dip dreams. Crazy. Reminds me that it ain't over. But also reminds me that the crazy bitch can only get me in my dreams. #imstillwinningbitch
Congrats on the milestone. Well done!!!
Jeff every day I troll these intros looking where I can add something to help a newcomer as they start their quit, usually when I see the Monkey avatar I know some real wisdom has already been passed along. You are a huge contributor to this site and I'm glad to be in your quit group. Keep on trucking brutha!
One full circle, nicely done ... you sir are an inspiration, and I'll quit with you today!
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Day 360 -
I really can't believe it's been a year (almost). I know, one day at a time but sitting here today I can tell you I expect to be here posting roll for 365. It's really been an awesome ride that just keeps getting better and better. Thank you all for helping me achieve what I never could on my own.
My main reason for updating my thread today was I had a unique experience last night I just had to share. We've all had dip dreams, wake up in a cold sweat with your heart beating of our chests..... only to catch our breath and realize it was just a dream, we are still quit. Well... I had my first quit dream last night! It was right before I woke up.....
"I'm sitting somewhere outdoors waiting for my car to be serviced or some such thing. There is a guy smoking and other foggy figures nearby, when suddenly right across from me sits down my dip buddy from High School. Kris was a junior when I was a freshman and we hung out, and dipped mostly. I can't tell how many HS lunches we wasted in the men's room dipping. So after the requisite hello, how the hell you been for 20 years he pulls out a can of Kodiak and offers me a pinch. I responded that man I quit that shit a while back now to which he responds "why would you do that?" and "that's kinda stupid I'll never give up the bear". Then some guy comes up like peanut vendor at a ball game with a rack of cans selling dip of all varieties........"
At that point I woke up and thought what the hell was that ?!
I'm no headshrinker, but in my heart I know that deep down the Nic bitch is still with me. She may go quiet for long periods now but she is far from gone and like any good enemy she is always looking for new ways to deceive me. That is how I interpret my dream, subconsciously trying to plant that seed in my head that it's not my enemy, it is some old friend that misses me and wants to catch up. Well... I know that's bullshit and the plan today remains the same, I'll keep posting roll, hanging in chat a few nights and trying to help new quitters.
I'm proud to be quit with all you today!
"Cancer, get your cancer here"
Well done Jeff. Beyond being a friend of mine you have been a rock solid quitter for me to lean on as well. I have no doubt that you will be here posting 365 because you know among others I will be on a flight headed East to get answers to the three questions to my face. We are in this battle together and so it shall remain, no one gets left behind.
P.S. I am still thankful that I do not have the ability to dream, that shit is whack.
Corey
It's been that long. Damn, time flies when your QLF. Quit with any day bro.
A 'Quit Dream'. I like that. Early congrats on the 365! Really cool seeing guys succeed everyday with their quit and staying active with the newbies which I'm beginning to think is another part of the process of staying quit.
FMBM I would say that behind Roll Call, hanging around and helping guys just starting on the path is the number 2 most important thing for long term success. Ask any guy 200, 300, 400 or 2000 or more days how much taking the time to read or listen in chat to the struggles helps our quit. The new guys remind us that the misery of nicotine is still out there, the guys that hang around and hit the HOF and beyond help all us remember that the KTC way works and the guys that stumble remind us why we continue to stay around.
I am not quoting word for word but I remember reading some words of wisdom from Chewie, one of the guys that started KTC. He talked about how a guy that had said hanging around here kept them thinking about dip and their addiction. To which he responded that was exactly why he still stayed involved, we want to remember all the shit we went though to get to where we are now. Our nicotine addiction is not some "phase" of our lives we can box up and store in some musty storage closet in our minds, we must actively continue to fight the battle everyday to remain victorious. I mean think about how much time we spent with the can when we used, is it really too much to take 5-10 minutes a day to post roll. Is it too much to spend an hour, or two, or more during a week if you can talking to new guys in chat or text, keeping up with a few guys that helped you along. For me it is an easy decision because (and I don't remember who coined this phrase so forgive me if I don't give credit)... we are all $5 and a bad decision away from starting over again at day 1.
Jlud- CONGRATS ON 365 TODAY! ^^^great advice. There's a lot of truth in those words.
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Day 360 -
I really can't believe it's been a year (almost). I know, one day at a time but sitting here today I can tell you I expect to be here posting roll for 365. It's really been an awesome ride that just keeps getting better and better. Thank you all for helping me achieve what I never could on my own.
My main reason for updating my thread today was I had a unique experience last night I just had to share. We've all had dip dreams, wake up in a cold sweat with your heart beating of our chests..... only to catch our breath and realize it was just a dream, we are still quit. Well... I had my first quit dream last night! It was right before I woke up.....
"I'm sitting somewhere outdoors waiting for my car to be serviced or some such thing. There is a guy smoking and other foggy figures nearby, when suddenly right across from me sits down my dip buddy from High School. Kris was a junior when I was a freshman and we hung out, and dipped mostly. I can't tell how many HS lunches we wasted in the men's room dipping. So after the requisite hello, how the hell you been for 20 years he pulls out a can of Kodiak and offers me a pinch. I responded that man I quit that shit a while back now to which he responds "why would you do that?" and "that's kinda stupid I'll never give up the bear". Then some guy comes up like peanut vendor at a ball game with a rack of cans selling dip of all varieties........"
At that point I woke up and thought what the hell was that ?!
I'm no headshrinker, but in my heart I know that deep down the Nic bitch is still with me. She may go quiet for long periods now but she is far from gone and like any good enemy she is always looking for new ways to deceive me. That is how I interpret my dream, subconsciously trying to plant that seed in my head that it's not my enemy, it is some old friend that misses me and wants to catch up. Well... I know that's bullshit and the plan today remains the same, I'll keep posting roll, hanging in chat a few nights and trying to help new quitters.
I'm proud to be quit with all you today!
"Cancer, get your cancer here"
Well done Jeff. Beyond being a friend of mine you have been a rock solid quitter for me to lean on as well. I have no doubt that you will be here posting 365 because you know among others I will be on a flight headed East to get answers to the three questions to my face. We are in this battle together and so it shall remain, no one gets left behind.
P.S. I am still thankful that I do not have the ability to dream, that shit is whack.
Corey
It's been that long. Damn, time flies when your QLF. Quit with any day bro.
A 'Quit Dream'. I like that. Early congrats on the 365! Really cool seeing guys succeed everyday with their quit and staying active with the newbies which I'm beginning to think is another part of the process of staying quit.
FMBM I would say that behind Roll Call, hanging around and helping guys just starting on the path is the number 2 most important thing for long term success. Ask any guy 200, 300, 400 or 2000 or more days how much taking the time to read or listen in chat to the struggles helps our quit. The new guys remind us that the misery of nicotine is still out there, the guys that hang around and hit the HOF and beyond help all us remember that the KTC way works and the guys that stumble remind us why we continue to stay around.
I am not quoting word for word but I remember reading some words of wisdom from Chewie, one of the guys that started KTC. He talked about how a guy that had said hanging around here kept them thinking about dip and their addiction. To which he responded that was exactly why he still stayed involved, we want to remember all the shit we went though to get to where we are now. Our nicotine addiction is not some "phase" of our lives we can box up and store in some musty storage closet in our minds, we must actively continue to fight the battle everyday to remain victorious. I mean think about how much time we spent with the can when we used, is it really too much to take 5-10 minutes a day to post roll. Is it too much to spend an hour, or two, or more during a week if you can talking to new guys in chat or text, keeping up with a few guys that helped you along. For me it is an easy decision because (and I don't remember who coined this phrase so forgive me if I don't give credit)... we are all $5 and a bad decision away from starting over again at day 1.
Jlud- CONGRATS ON 365 TODAY! ^^^great advice. There's a lot of truth in those words.
Jumping in to give props to JLud for a year. Congrats! Look forward to meeting you and other Raleigh area quitters later this summer.
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Day 360 -
I really can't believe it's been a year (almost). I know, one day at a time but sitting here today I can tell you I expect to be here posting roll for 365. It's really been an awesome ride that just keeps getting better and better. Thank you all for helping me achieve what I never could on my own.
My main reason for updating my thread today was I had a unique experience last night I just had to share. We've all had dip dreams, wake up in a cold sweat with your heart beating of our chests..... only to catch our breath and realize it was just a dream, we are still quit. Well... I had my first quit dream last night! It was right before I woke up.....
"I'm sitting somewhere outdoors waiting for my car to be serviced or some such thing. There is a guy smoking and other foggy figures nearby, when suddenly right across from me sits down my dip buddy from High School. Kris was a junior when I was a freshman and we hung out, and dipped mostly. I can't tell how many HS lunches we wasted in the men's room dipping. So after the requisite hello, how the hell you been for 20 years he pulls out a can of Kodiak and offers me a pinch. I responded that man I quit that shit a while back now to which he responds "why would you do that?" and "that's kinda stupid I'll never give up the bear". Then some guy comes up like peanut vendor at a ball game with a rack of cans selling dip of all varieties........"
At that point I woke up and thought what the hell was that ?!
I'm no headshrinker, but in my heart I know that deep down the Nic bitch is still with me. She may go quiet for long periods now but she is far from gone and like any good enemy she is always looking for new ways to deceive me. That is how I interpret my dream, subconsciously trying to plant that seed in my head that it's not my enemy, it is some old friend that misses me and wants to catch up. Well... I know that's bullshit and the plan today remains the same, I'll keep posting roll, hanging in chat a few nights and trying to help new quitters.
I'm proud to be quit with all you today!
"Cancer, get your cancer here"
Well done Jeff. Beyond being a friend of mine you have been a rock solid quitter for me to lean on as well. I have no doubt that you will be here posting 365 because you know among others I will be on a flight headed East to get answers to the three questions to my face. We are in this battle together and so it shall remain, no one gets left behind.
P.S. I am still thankful that I do not have the ability to dream, that shit is whack.
Corey
It's been that long. Damn, time flies when your QLF. Quit with any day bro.
A 'Quit Dream'. I like that. Early congrats on the 365! Really cool seeing guys succeed everyday with their quit and staying active with the newbies which I'm beginning to think is another part of the process of staying quit.
FMBM I would say that behind Roll Call, hanging around and helping guys just starting on the path is the number 2 most important thing for long term success. Ask any guy 200, 300, 400 or 2000 or more days how much taking the time to read or listen in chat to the struggles helps our quit. The new guys remind us that the misery of nicotine is still out there, the guys that hang around and hit the HOF and beyond help all us remember that the KTC way works and the guys that stumble remind us why we continue to stay around.
I am not quoting word for word but I remember reading some words of wisdom from Chewie, one of the guys that started KTC. He talked about how a guy that had said hanging around here kept them thinking about dip and their addiction. To which he responded that was exactly why he still stayed involved, we want to remember all the shit we went though to get to where we are now. Our nicotine addiction is not some "phase" of our lives we can box up and store in some musty storage closet in our minds, we must actively continue to fight the battle everyday to remain victorious. I mean think about how much time we spent with the can when we used, is it really too much to take 5-10 minutes a day to post roll. Is it too much to spend an hour, or two, or more during a week if you can talking to new guys in chat or text, keeping up with a few guys that helped you along. For me it is an easy decision because (and I don't remember who coined this phrase so forgive me if I don't give credit)... we are all $5 and a bad decision away from starting over again at day 1.
Jlud- CONGRATS ON 365 TODAY! ^^^great advice. There's a lot of truth in those words.
Jumping in to give props to JLud for a year. Congrats! Look forward to meeting you and other Raleigh area quitters later this summer.
Congrats on One. Damn. Year. Outstanding! Thanks for the early guidance support, and here's to another 365...
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Day 360 -
I really can't believe it's been a year (almost). I know, one day at a time but sitting here today I can tell you I expect to be here posting roll for 365. It's really been an awesome ride that just keeps getting better and better. Thank you all for helping me achieve what I never could on my own.
My main reason for updating my thread today was I had a unique experience last night I just had to share. We've all had dip dreams, wake up in a cold sweat with your heart beating of our chests..... only to catch our breath and realize it was just a dream, we are still quit. Well... I had my first quit dream last night! It was right before I woke up.....
"I'm sitting somewhere outdoors waiting for my car to be serviced or some such thing. There is a guy smoking and other foggy figures nearby, when suddenly right across from me sits down my dip buddy from High School. Kris was a junior when I was a freshman and we hung out, and dipped mostly. I can't tell how many HS lunches we wasted in the men's room dipping. So after the requisite hello, how the hell you been for 20 years he pulls out a can of Kodiak and offers me a pinch. I responded that man I quit that shit a while back now to which he responds "why would you do that?" and "that's kinda stupid I'll never give up the bear". Then some guy comes up like peanut vendor at a ball game with a rack of cans selling dip of all varieties........"
At that point I woke up and thought what the hell was that ?!
I'm no headshrinker, but in my heart I know that deep down the Nic bitch is still with me. She may go quiet for long periods now but she is far from gone and like any good enemy she is always looking for new ways to deceive me. That is how I interpret my dream, subconsciously trying to plant that seed in my head that it's not my enemy, it is some old friend that misses me and wants to catch up. Well... I know that's bullshit and the plan today remains the same, I'll keep posting roll, hanging in chat a few nights and trying to help new quitters.
I'm proud to be quit with all you today!
"Cancer, get your cancer here"
Well done Jeff. Beyond being a friend of mine you have been a rock solid quitter for me to lean on as well. I have no doubt that you will be here posting 365 because you know among others I will be on a flight headed East to get answers to the three questions to my face. We are in this battle together and so it shall remain, no one gets left behind.
P.S. I am still thankful that I do not have the ability to dream, that shit is whack.
Corey
It's been that long. Damn, time flies when your QLF. Quit with any day bro.
A 'Quit Dream'. I like that. Early congrats on the 365! Really cool seeing guys succeed everyday with their quit and staying active with the newbies which I'm beginning to think is another part of the process of staying quit.
FMBM I would say that behind Roll Call, hanging around and helping guys just starting on the path is the number 2 most important thing for long term success. Ask any guy 200, 300, 400 or 2000 or more days how much taking the time to read or listen in chat to the struggles helps our quit. The new guys remind us that the misery of nicotine is still out there, the guys that hang around and hit the HOF and beyond help all us remember that the KTC way works and the guys that stumble remind us why we continue to stay around.
I am not quoting word for word but I remember reading some words of wisdom from Chewie, one of the guys that started KTC. He talked about how a guy that had said hanging around here kept them thinking about dip and their addiction. To which he responded that was exactly why he still stayed involved, we want to remember all the shit we went though to get to where we are now. Our nicotine addiction is not some "phase" of our lives we can box up and store in some musty storage closet in our minds, we must actively continue to fight the battle everyday to remain victorious. I mean think about how much time we spent with the can when we used, is it really too much to take 5-10 minutes a day to post roll. Is it too much to spend an hour, or two, or more during a week if you can talking to new guys in chat or text, keeping up with a few guys that helped you along. For me it is an easy decision because (and I don't remember who coined this phrase so forgive me if I don't give credit)... we are all $5 and a bad decision away from starting over again at day 1.
Jlud- CONGRATS ON 365 TODAY! ^^^great advice. There's a lot of truth in those words.
Jumping in to give props to JLud for a year. Congrats! Look forward to meeting you and other Raleigh area quitters later this summer.
Congrats on One. Damn. Year. Outstanding! Thanks for the early guidance support, and here's to another 365...
I'm bumping this up so the WCWIMANASTYBOY thread gets bumped down a notch...... And maybe we'll all see what its like to have a great quitter hanging around here!!!!
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Congratulations on 400 days of bad ass nic bitch beat down! Your intro is a great read Jeff - proof that this plan works! You've built a brotherhood of accountability and you give your word every damn day. Thanks for all that you do here!
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Congratulations on 400 days of bad ass nic bitch beat down! Your intro is a great read Jeff - proof that this plan works! You've built a brotherhood of accountability and you give your word every damn day. Thanks for all that you do here!
Agree with Worktowin, Proud to be quit with you. Keep on Truckin'
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Congratulations on 400 days of bad ass nic bitch beat down! Your intro is a great read Jeff - proof that this plan works! You've built a brotherhood of accountability and you give your word every damn day. Thanks for all that you do here!
Agree with Worktowin, Proud to be quit with you. Keep on Truckin'
4th floor!
Kick. Ass.
Way to go man!
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Jeff,
Damn brother congrats on 400 today, we fucking did it! As we both know and have discussed before not many of the early days were easy, then we were con-conductors together which and that certainly put the "FU" in FUn. However, one thing has remained solid and that is the fact that no matter what life throws at either of us we have created a friendship that has allowed us to talk to one another about any BS we are going through (family matters, work BS, quit BS, baby mamma drama...).
I mean it when I say that it has all been worth it and without a ear like yours to bend about stuff this all would have been that much tougher.
One thing is missing though lately...and I want to see your ass back to being one of the constants in peoples' intros ready to kick ass and call people to the carpet. Get back on that horse and ride these newbies need more people like you.
Your brother,
Corey
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Congratulations on 400 days of bad ass nic bitch beat down! Your intro is a great read Jeff - proof that this plan works! You've built a brotherhood of accountability and you give your word every damn day. Thanks for all that you do here!
Agree with Worktowin, Proud to be quit with you. Keep on Truckin'
4th floor!
Kick. Ass.
Way to go man!
Nice job brother. Congratulations on another milestone!
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Congratulations on 400 days of bad ass nic bitch beat down! Your intro is a great read Jeff - proof that this plan works! You've built a brotherhood of accountability and you give your word every damn day. Thanks for all that you do here!
Agree with Worktowin, Proud to be quit with you. Keep on Truckin'
4th floor!
Kick. Ass.
Way to go man!
Nice job brother. Congratulations on another milestone!
'BanDog' 4 of em nice
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Congratulations on 400 days of bad ass nic bitch beat down! Your intro is a great read Jeff - proof that this plan works! You've built a brotherhood of accountability and you give your word every damn day. Thanks for all that you do here!
Agree with Worktowin, Proud to be quit with you. Keep on Truckin'
4th floor!
Kick. Ass.
Way to go man!
Nice job brother. Congratulations on another milestone!
'BanDog' 4 of em nice
Congrats! 'BanDog'
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Jeff,
Congrats on HOF plus one year, for those who don't know the JLUD that I do let me give you a little glimpse into the quit of this brother of mine. He was once a stopper, caved, got his ass handed to him and then came back. After getting his ass handed to him he was quit but was also quiet. As his final quit progressed he re-discovered his voice and has provided sage advice and called out the BS of many a quitter. He also served with me as a Conductor for the November 2013 group while they hit their HOF. If you do not know that is a commitment and takes a ton of work. However, I am glad to have done that work with Jeff. Not only did we really get to know other great quitters we also really got to know one another. He has been my constant go to when I have quit rage, marital problems, need a ear to bend or anything else. Lately he has faded a bit from the old Jlud but I can trust that he is reading up like a ninja on everything and is laying in the grass like a copperhead ready to strike when provoked. He will also be here when I or anyone else needs him.
Brother I thank you and I know we will continue on this path together.
Corey
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Jeff,
Congrats on HOF plus one year, for those who don't know the JLUD that I do let me give you a little glimpse into the quit of this brother of mine. He was once a stopper, caved, got his ass handed to him and then came back. After getting his ass handed to him he was quit but was also quiet. As his final quit progressed he re-discovered his voice and has provided sage advice and called out the BS of many a quitter. He also served with me as a Conductor for the November 2013 group while they hit their HOF. If you do not know that is a commitment and takes a ton of work. However, I am glad to have done that work with Jeff. Not only did we really get to know other great quitters we also really got to know one another. He has been my constant go to when I have quit rage, marital problems, need a ear to bend or anything else. Lately he has faded a bit from the old Jlud but I can trust that he is reading up like a ninja on everything and is laying in the grass like a copperhead ready to strike when provoked. He will also be here when I or anyone else needs him.
Brother I thank you and I know we will continue on this path together.
Corey
HOFamer? How many days?
I welcome him to post in 2012 HOF group with us. Sounds like we could use his influence.
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Jeff I know you are on 499 days but I wanted to get you a little love from the crew now because I doubt Thanksgiving will be a day where a lot of people are posting. So congrats on 500 days. It's a great accomplishment. Oct 2013 may not have many quitters left, but the ones we have are kick ass. Keep it up.
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Jeff I know you are on 499 days but I wanted to get you a little love from the crew now because I doubt Thanksgiving will be a day where a lot of people are posting. So congrats on 500 days. It's a great accomplishment. Oct 2013 may not have many quitters left, but the ones we have are kick ass. Keep it up.
Dagranger is right. Plus he will be busy shoveling snow while the rest of us are eating tomorrow.
Jeff - no one made a bigger impact on wuitting to me than you did. 499 days ago you were a wreck, but today you are living freedom. Thank you for all that you do and for bringing me along for the ride.
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Jeff I know you are on 499 days but I wanted to get you a little love from the crew now because I doubt Thanksgiving will be a day where a lot of people are posting. So congrats on 500 days. It's a great accomplishment. Oct 2013 may not have many quitters left, but the ones we have are kick ass. Keep it up.
Dagranger is right. Plus he will be busy shoveling snow while the rest of us are eating tomorrow.
Jeff - no one made a bigger impact on wuitting to me than you did. 499 days ago you were a wreck, but today you are living freedom. Thank you for all that you do and for bringing me along for the ride.
Jeff is a badass and I am damn proud to call him my friend. You have been here with me from my day two and I am glad you have been. Thanks brother!
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Jeff I know you are on 499 days but I wanted to get you a little love from the crew now because I doubt Thanksgiving will be a day where a lot of people are posting. So congrats on 500 days. It's a great accomplishment. Oct 2013 may not have many quitters left, but the ones we have are kick ass. Keep it up.
Dagranger is right. Plus he will be busy shoveling snow while the rest of us are eating tomorrow.
Jeff - no one made a bigger impact on wuitting to me than you did. 499 days ago you were a wreck, but today you are living freedom. Thank you for all that you do and for bringing me along for the ride.
Jeff is a badass and I am damn proud to call him my friend. You have been here with me from my day two and I am glad you have been. Thanks brother!
Rock on Lud I will jump on the early train....you have come along way sir enjoy your days.... 'BanDog'
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Jeff I know you are on 499 days but I wanted to get you a little love from the crew now because I doubt Thanksgiving will be a day where a lot of people are posting. So congrats on 500 days. It's a great accomplishment. Oct 2013 may not have many quitters left, but the ones we have are kick ass. Keep it up.
Dagranger is right. Plus he will be busy shoveling snow while the rest of us are eating tomorrow.
Jeff - no one made a bigger impact on wuitting to me than you did. 499 days ago you were a wreck, but today you are living freedom. Thank you for all that you do and for bringing me along for the ride.
Jeff is a badass and I am damn proud to call him my friend. You have been here with me from my day two and I am glad you have been. Thanks brother!
Rock on Lud I will jump on the early train....you have come along way sir enjoy your days.... 'BanDog'
Nice job, Lud!
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Jeff I know you are on 499 days but I wanted to get you a little love from the crew now because I doubt Thanksgiving will be a day where a lot of people are posting. So congrats on 500 days. It's a great accomplishment. Oct 2013 may not have many quitters left, but the ones we have are kick ass. Keep it up.
Dagranger is right. Plus he will be busy shoveling snow while the rest of us are eating tomorrow.
Jeff - no one made a bigger impact on wuitting to me than you did. 499 days ago you were a wreck, but today you are living freedom. Thank you for all that you do and for bringing me along for the ride.
Jeff is a badass and I am damn proud to call him my friend. You have been here with me from my day two and I am glad you have been. Thanks brother!
Rock on Lud I will jump on the early train....you have come along way sir enjoy your days.... 'BanDog'
Nice job, Lud!
Congrats on your eve of 500!
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Jeff I know you are on 499 days but I wanted to get you a little love from the crew now because I doubt Thanksgiving will be a day where a lot of people are posting. So congrats on 500 days. It's a great accomplishment. Oct 2013 may not have many quitters left, but the ones we have are kick ass. Keep it up.
Dagranger is right. Plus he will be busy shoveling snow while the rest of us are eating tomorrow.
Jeff - no one made a bigger impact on wuitting to me than you did. 499 days ago you were a wreck, but today you are living freedom. Thank you for all that you do and for bringing me along for the ride.
Jeff is a badass and I am damn proud to call him my friend. You have been here with me from my day two and I am glad you have been. Thanks brother!
Rock on Lud I will jump on the early train....you have come along way sir enjoy your days.... 'BanDog'
Nice job, Lud!
Congrats on your eve of 500!
yes, congrats on 1/2 of a large quit unit. very nice.
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Jeff I know you are on 499 days but I wanted to get you a little love from the crew now because I doubt Thanksgiving will be a day where a lot of people are posting. So congrats on 500 days. It's a great accomplishment. Oct 2013 may not have many quitters left, but the ones we have are kick ass. Keep it up.
Dagranger is right. Plus he will be busy shoveling snow while the rest of us are eating tomorrow.
Jeff - no one made a bigger impact on wuitting to me than you did. 499 days ago you were a wreck, but today you are living freedom. Thank you for all that you do and for bringing me along for the ride.
Jeff is a badass and I am damn proud to call him my friend. You have been here with me from my day two and I am glad you have been. Thanks brother!
Rock on Lud I will jump on the early train....you have come along way sir enjoy your days.... 'BanDog'
Nice job, Lud!
Congrats on your eve of 500!
yes, congrats on 1/2 of a large quit unit. very nice.
Nice job 007. The fifth floor is pretty sweet!
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Jeff I know you are on 499 days but I wanted to get you a little love from the crew now because I doubt Thanksgiving will be a day where a lot of people are posting. So congrats on 500 days. It's a great accomplishment. Oct 2013 may not have many quitters left, but the ones we have are kick ass. Keep it up.
Dagranger is right. Plus he will be busy shoveling snow while the rest of us are eating tomorrow.
Jeff - no one made a bigger impact on wuitting to me than you did. 499 days ago you were a wreck, but today you are living freedom. Thank you for all that you do and for bringing me along for the ride.
Jeff is a badass and I am damn proud to call him my friend. You have been here with me from my day two and I am glad you have been. Thanks brother!
Rock on Lud I will jump on the early train....you have come along way sir enjoy your days.... 'BanDog'
Nice job, Lud!
Congrats on your eve of 500!
yes, congrats on 1/2 of a large quit unit. very nice.
Nice job 007. The fifth floor is pretty sweet!
Awesome! Lots of milestones today. Congrats!
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Jeff I know you are on 499 days but I wanted to get you a little love from the crew now because I doubt Thanksgiving will be a day where a lot of people are posting. So congrats on 500 days. It's a great accomplishment. Oct 2013 may not have many quitters left, but the ones we have are kick ass. Keep it up.
Dagranger is right. Plus he will be busy shoveling snow while the rest of us are eating tomorrow.
Jeff - no one made a bigger impact on wuitting to me than you did. 499 days ago you were a wreck, but today you are living freedom. Thank you for all that you do and for bringing me along for the ride.
Jeff is a badass and I am damn proud to call him my friend. You have been here with me from my day two and I am glad you have been. Thanks brother!
Rock on Lud I will jump on the early train....you have come along way sir enjoy your days.... 'BanDog'
Nice job, Lud!
Congrats on your eve of 500!
yes, congrats on 1/2 of a large quit unit. very nice.
Nice job 007. The fifth floor is pretty sweet!
Awesome! Lots of milestones today. Congrats!
Congrats Jlud. You and Pinched must be in the same group. A couple guys that really get what quitting is all about. Keep up the great work man.
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Jeff I know you are on 499 days but I wanted to get you a little love from the crew now because I doubt Thanksgiving will be a day where a lot of people are posting. So congrats on 500 days. It's a great accomplishment. Oct 2013 may not have many quitters left, but the ones we have are kick ass. Keep it up.
Dagranger is right. Plus he will be busy shoveling snow while the rest of us are eating tomorrow.
Jeff - no one made a bigger impact on wuitting to me than you did. 499 days ago you were a wreck, but today you are living freedom. Thank you for all that you do and for bringing me along for the ride.
Jeff is a badass and I am damn proud to call him my friend. You have been here with me from my day two and I am glad you have been. Thanks brother!
Rock on Lud I will jump on the early train....you have come along way sir enjoy your days.... 'BanDog'
Nice job, Lud!
Congrats on your eve of 500!
yes, congrats on 1/2 of a large quit unit. very nice.
Nice job 007. The fifth floor is pretty sweet!
Awesome! Lots of milestones today. Congrats!
Congrats Jlud. You and Pinched must be in the same group. A couple guys that really get what quitting is all about. Keep up the great work man.
Enjoy being free today on Thanksgiving!
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Congrats on the 500 days my friend. You are a badass quitter.
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Congrats on the 500 days my friend. You are a badass quitter.
Congrats on that half comma brother! Another step in the right direction. The further you go right the harder it is to go wrong! Keep up the good quit! Carry on!
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Welcome to the 6th floor! Congratulations and thanks for all that you do.
I hope you Fire up your new laptop and get in chat and pull a bunch of newbies in to the team to celebrate! Enjoy this great day!
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Welcome to the 6th floor! Congratulations and thanks for all that you do.
I hope you Fire up your new laptop and get in chat and pull a bunch of newbies in to the team to celebrate! Enjoy this great day!
Congrats on 600 my brother. I am glad to be here along side you. I remember way back like day 28 when you had your Jolly Roger flag...ah what a long way we have traveled.
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Welcome to the 6th floor! Congratulations and thanks for all that you do.
I hope you Fire up your new laptop and get in chat and pull a bunch of newbies in to the team to celebrate! Enjoy this great day!
Congrats on 600 my brother. I am glad to be here along side you. I remember way back like day 28 when you had your Jolly Roger flag...ah what a long way we have traveled.
Congrats Jeff I know this has been a crazy year for you. Thanks for staying with us and staying quit.
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Welcome to the 6th floor! Congratulations and thanks for all that you do.
I hope you Fire up your new laptop and get in chat and pull a bunch of newbies in to the team to celebrate! Enjoy this great day!
Congrats on 600 my brother. I am glad to be here along side you. I remember way back like day 28 when you had your Jolly Roger flag...ah what a long way we have traveled.
Congrats Jeff I know this has been a crazy year for you. Thanks for staying with us and staying quit.
Fellow NC dude, congrats on 600! Persistence is awesome especially when it powers you to keep posting +1s, keep it going!
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Welcome to the 6th floor! Congratulations and thanks for all that you do.
I hope you Fire up your new laptop and get in chat and pull a bunch of newbies in to the team to celebrate! Enjoy this great day!
Congrats on 600 my brother. I am glad to be here along side you. I remember way back like day 28 when you had your Jolly Roger flag...ah what a long way we have traveled.
Congrats Jeff I know this has been a crazy year for you. Thanks for staying with us and staying quit.
Fellow NC dude, congrats on 600! Persistence is awesome especially when it powers you to keep posting +1s, keep it going!
Thanks guys, seems like yesterday and at the same time feels like it's been a lifetime since I made the decision to "quit". I continue with the love and support of my brothers here at KTC, with them watching my back and taking things one day at a time... great things are possible. If you're new, or struggling, overconfident, or even afraid, stay the course. Amazing things are ahead but it does not happen overnight, I assure you however that freedom is worth every step you take, every single day.
Later to you all and keep quitting like fuck! 'Finger'
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Welcome to the 6th floor! Congratulations and thanks for all that you do.
I hope you Fire up your new laptop and get in chat and pull a bunch of newbies in to the team to celebrate! Enjoy this great day!
Congrats on 600 my brother. I am glad to be here along side you. I remember way back like day 28 when you had your Jolly Roger flag...ah what a long way we have traveled.
Congrats Jeff I know this has been a crazy year for you. Thanks for staying with us and staying quit.
Fellow NC dude, congrats on 600! Persistence is awesome especially when it powers you to keep posting +1s, keep it going!
Thanks guys, seems like yesterday and at the same time feels like it's been a lifetime since I made the decision to "quit". I continue with the love and support of my brothers here at KTC, with them watching my back and taking things one day at a time... great things are possible. If you're new, or struggling, overconfident, or even afraid, stay the course. Amazing things are ahead but it does not happen overnight, I assure you however that freedom is worth every step you take, every single day.
Later to you all and keep quitting like fuck! 'Finger'
Congrats brother and nice job sticking with it EDD.
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Welcome to the 6th floor! Congratulations and thanks for all that you do.
I hope you Fire up your new laptop and get in chat and pull a bunch of newbies in to the team to celebrate! Enjoy this great day!
Congrats on 600 my brother. I am glad to be here along side you. I remember way back like day 28 when you had your Jolly Roger flag...ah what a long way we have traveled.
Congrats Jeff I know this has been a crazy year for you. Thanks for staying with us and staying quit.
Fellow NC dude, congrats on 600! Persistence is awesome especially when it powers you to keep posting +1s, keep it going!
Thanks guys, seems like yesterday and at the same time feels like it's been a lifetime since I made the decision to "quit". I continue with the love and support of my brothers here at KTC, with them watching my back and taking things one day at a time... great things are possible. If you're new, or struggling, overconfident, or even afraid, stay the course. Amazing things are ahead but it does not happen overnight, I assure you however that freedom is worth every step you take, every single day.
Later to you all and keep quitting like fuck! 'Finger'
Congrats brother and nice job sticking with it EDD.
Nice job brutha!
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I just had to post this link, love this band and this song reminds of KTC. Military guys will dig the theme as well...
Just a band of brothers raising hell, like a murder of crows!
Hellyeah - Band of Brothers (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L-PCQ0MwKLQ)
Quit on quitters!
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I just had to post this link, love this band and this song reminds of KTC. Military guys will dig the theme as well...
Just a band of brothers raising hell, like a murder of crows!
Hellyeah - Band of Brothers (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L-PCQ0MwKLQ)
Quit on quitters!
Nice Jeff, that just got added to my playlist.
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Jeff,
Today you cross the threshold as a two year quitter. You and I have been in this together since my day two and your day one. You have been a real rock in my quit and never left my side. Though we have spoken several times on the phone we have yet to meet but yet you are my brother. You came, you quit and you have shown your support and become a member of this great community of people.
I know today for you may be much like any other day but I urge you to see it. You are fucking quit brother!
Congrats and thank you,
Corey
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Jeff,
Today you cross the threshold as a two year quitter. You and I have been in this together since my day two and your day one. You have been a real rock in my quit and never left my side. Though we have spoken several times on the phone we have yet to meet but yet you are my brother. You came, you quit and you have shown your support and become a member of this great community of people.
I know today for you may be much like any other day but I urge you to see it. You are fucking quit brother!
Congrats and thank you,
Corey
Awesome milestone Jeff! Congratulations on a huge accomplishment!
QLF with you today!
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Jeff,
Today you cross the threshold as a two year quitter. You and I have been in this together since my day two and your day one. You have been a real rock in my quit and never left my side. Though we have spoken several times on the phone we have yet to meet but yet you are my brother. You came, you quit and you have shown your support and become a member of this great community of people.
I know today for you may be much like any other day but I urge you to see it. You are fucking quit brother!
Congrats and thank you,
Corey
Awesome milestone Jeff! Congratulations on a huge accomplishment!
QLF with you today!
Lud congrats. Proud to quit alongside you for the last two years.
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Jeff,
Today you cross the threshold as a two year quitter. You and I have been in this together since my day two and your day one. You have been a real rock in my quit and never left my side. Though we have spoken several times on the phone we have yet to meet but yet you are my brother. You came, you quit and you have shown your support and become a member of this great community of people.
I know today for you may be much like any other day but I urge you to see it. You are fucking quit brother!
Congrats and thank you,
Corey
Awesome milestone Jeff! Congratulations on a huge accomplishment!
QLF with you today!
Lud congrats. Proud to quit alongside you for the last two years.
Congrats Jeff! Nice job at the two year mark. Keep marching forward kicking nic's ass! Quit on!
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Jeff,
Today you cross the threshold as a two year quitter. You and I have been in this together since my day two and your day one. You have been a real rock in my quit and never left my side. Though we have spoken several times on the phone we have yet to meet but yet you are my brother. You came, you quit and you have shown your support and become a member of this great community of people.
I know today for you may be much like any other day but I urge you to see it. You are fucking quit brother!
Congrats and thank you,
Corey
Awesome milestone Jeff! Congratulations on a huge accomplishment!
QLF with you today!
Lud congrats. Proud to quit alongside you for the last two years.
Congrats Jeff! Nice job at the two year mark. Keep marching forward kicking nic's ass! Quit on!
Thanks fellas!
2 years ago on this day I threw myself back into this place determined that I would not fail. I had a couple "false starts" and knew I needed the help that was available here. I also knew that the price of admission was a no bullshit promise everyday and be man of my word. Through that I have earned a freedom from my addiction that I never thought possible and brothers that are only a phone call or text away if I need them. If I had any advice to a new quitter it is post everyday and reach out early and establish those contacts. Don't just be an anonymous name on the screen.
Thank you to everyone here at KTC, keep on quitting like fuck!
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Congrats Brutha!
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Jeff, congrats on day 800. This has been a long strange trip and though you tromped through the quit woods first and caved, you came back with a vengeance...flying your Jolly Roger flag as a Duck Fip from October 2013. You and I have always been one day apart since then and man I got to tell you I could not think of a better dude to walk this walk with. You have become a good friend and brother and I look forward to staying one day ahead of your through all of this. We are still addicts, but each day we win another battle in the war on this addiction.
Let's kicks some ass again brother!
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Jeff, congrats on day 800. This has been a long strange trip and though you tromped through the quit woods first and caved, you came back with a vengeance...flying your Jolly Roger flag as a Duck Fip from October 2013. You and I have always been one day apart since then and man I got to tell you I could not think of a better dude to walk this walk with. You have become a good friend and brother and I look forward to staying one day ahead of your through all of this. We are still addicts, but each day we win another battle in the war on this addiction.
Let's kicks some ass again brother!
I'll echo Corey's praise - I'm glad you came back! Enjoy today - you've earned it!
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Jeff, congrats on day 800. This has been a long strange trip and though you tromped through the quit woods first and caved, you came back with a vengeance...flying your Jolly Roger flag as a Duck Fip from October 2013. You and I have always been one day apart since then and man I got to tell you I could not think of a better dude to walk this walk with. You have become a good friend and brother and I look forward to staying one day ahead of your through all of this. We are still addicts, but each day we win another battle in the war on this addiction.
Let's kicks some ass again brother!
I'll echo Corey's praise - I'm glad you came back! Enjoy today - you've earned it!
Belated congrats Jeff!!! Some of us need that kick in the ass to motivate us to move ahead. Quitting with you EDD!
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Hey quitters!
I felt compelled to post an update here and share today. Today is my 822 day free of the nic bitch and the one thing I have really struggled with holding me back from becoming a stronger version of myself is my health and fitness. I struggled with alcohol and drugs in my 20's, struggled with my nicotine addiction for 23 years and continue to struggle with food as an outlet when I'm depressed, stressed out or as a perceived award for a hard week's work. Since I killed the can in July of 2013 I have come to believe that part of this journey is about becoming better men in all facets of our lives. Part of this journey for me has been tackling my weight and Type 2 diabetes, I have gotten interested in Paleo, Crossfit and even looked at maybe training for a 5k, then I found Spartan racing and I thought wow that looks cool. I have dropped a few pounds but progress has been slow, then I got the idea of saying screw it and registering for the Charlotte Spartan Sprint race this coming April 2016. Then I had the idea of posting it here to find some accountability and maybe some team mates to run through the mud. I wouldn't let you guys down and pack a dip so I figured that is the spark I need to get my ass in gear and achieve this goal.
So I have one for sure already, Pinched from my October 2013 HOF class so I invite anyone else in the area or that manage a trip to Charlotte, NC April 9 or 10, 2016 to join us. If you aren't familar with Spartan Races here is a link: Spartan Race Video (https://youtu.be/M4aM0fpS0IU)
I mean if we can get even 4-6 guys together I think this would be an epic KTC meet, I am assuming we would stay over in a hotel the night before and have a nice dinner, the races start and 8:00 AM and 11:15 AM both Saturday and Sunday so we can figure out details when we have a solid number together. PM me for any details and I can provide a link to register when we get to that point. You can get details at Spartan Race Official Site (http://www.spartan.com) as well.
I will be posting this in a few other spots like the quitter get together, paleo, fitness? Anywhere that I think relates I guess. Everyone feel free to pass the information and PM me for details if you are interested the more the merrier. I will give it a few weeks then hopefully we can decide which day and time we want to register our KTC Spartan Team!
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Hey quitters!
I felt compelled to post an update here and share today. Today is my 822 day free of the nic bitch and the one thing I have really struggled with holding me back from becoming a stronger version of myself is my health and fitness. I struggled with alcohol and drugs in my 20's, struggled with my nicotine addiction for 23 years and continue to struggle with food as an outlet when I'm depressed, stressed out or as a perceived award for a hard week's work. Since I killed the can in July of 2013 I have come to believe that part of this journey is about becoming better men in all facets of our lives. Part of this journey for me has been tackling my weight and Type 2 diabetes, I have gotten interested in Paleo, Crossfit and even looked at maybe training for a 5k, then I found Spartan racing and I thought wow that looks cool. I have dropped a few pounds but progress has been slow, then I got the idea of saying screw it and registering for the Charlotte Spartan Sprint race this coming April 2016. Then I had the idea of posting it here to find some accountability and maybe some team mates to run through the mud. I wouldn't let you guys down and pack a dip so I figured that is the spark I need to get my ass in gear and achieve this goal.
So I have one for sure already, Pinched from my October 2013 HOF class so I invite anyone else in the area or that manage a trip to Charlotte, NC April 9 or 10, 2016 to join us. If you aren't familar with Spartan Races here is a link: Spartan Race Video (https://youtu.be/M4aM0fpS0IU)
I mean if we can get even 4-6 guys together I think this would be an epic KTC meet, I am assuming we would stay over in a hotel the night before and have a nice dinner, the races start and 8:00 AM and 11:15 AM both Saturday and Sunday so we can figure out details when we have a solid number together. PM me for any details and I can provide a link to register when we get to that point. You can get details at Spartan Race Official Site (http://www.spartan.com) as well.
I will be posting this in a few other spots like the quitter get together, paleo, fitness? Anywhere that I think relates I guess. Everyone feel free to pass the information and PM me for details if you are interested the more the merrier. I will give it a few weeks then hopefully we can decide which day and time we want to register our KTC Spartan Team!
BUMP...BUMP...BUMP
Let's do this! Come on all of you quitters that are close to Charlotte get off the couch, put down the potato chips and let's roll. If I am coming from the Midwest to do this race then there is absolutely no reason that you cannot do the same.
Has your quit lead to excessive snacking? Can you not see what color shoes you are wearing? Do you get winded carrying in the groceries? Does your idea of running consist of from the truck to the garage when raining? Do you want to beat one more daemon? Do you need a little motivation?
Well I do believe that Jeff here just laid out a really good plan to help those of you that said yes to any of the above. Will this race be hard? YES. Will you get muddy and sore? YES, but I will supply you with some Vagisil to apply to the sore spots. Will doing this with fellow quitters help you? YES Abso-fucking-lutely!
So...what are you waiting for?
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Hello to my new KTC family. I plan on becoming an active here as it appears that the site and it's camaraderie have given you all the strength to quit and keep quitting every day. I do feel the loss and anxiety this morning of saying goodbye to my old pal the Kodiak bear but reading the information here I think that I have lost the "fear" that has quite often ended my quits before they even started.
I have been a heavy user since high school, started around 14 yrs old here and there and by 15-16 was using several cans of Kodiak a week. I am now 37 and shocked by how quickly time seems to pass. I truly believed then that dip was a phase of my youth. That phase became a 1-1.5 can dependency. I did "quit" for about a month once, I quote quit because I was using nicotine lozenges. I was in a store one day after about 32-33 days dip free, but I guess because I had not broken the nicotine hold it was very easy to slip right back into my norm.
Well I hope this introduction post isn't too ranty or incoherent. I just need to break myself of my self inflicted socially awkward comfort zone so that I can embrace some new friends here to help me on this journey.
Thank you for this website.
Remember this, Jeff? Nicotine had its claws deep in you. At first you struggled - hard. And mostly alone. And you caved. Went quiet for a few months, then you got pissed and decided to quit the KTC way. You came back and posted a new day 1...
You posted a lot. Got numbers. Made connections. You were the first quitter I talked to on the phone, and I still remember your voice shaking a little with both anger and fear. You talking about your son asking you to stop. And kept saying"this is it, this time is different, I'm dick of this, I'm quit!"
Well, Jeff... Today you are earning a number that seemed impossible then. A number that makes you a legend. And that, one day at a time, proves that you are a man of your word. Well done sir! A huge congratulations to you on a monumental achievement!
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Hello to my new KTC family. I plan on becoming an active here as it appears that the site and it's camaraderie have given you all the strength to quit and keep quitting every day. I do feel the loss and anxiety this morning of saying goodbye to my old pal the Kodiak bear but reading the information here I think that I have lost the "fear" that has quite often ended my quits before they even started.
I have been a heavy user since high school, started around 14 yrs old here and there and by 15-16 was using several cans of Kodiak a week. I am now 37 and shocked by how quickly time seems to pass. I truly believed then that dip was a phase of my youth. That phase became a 1-1.5 can dependency. I did "quit" for about a month once, I quote quit because I was using nicotine lozenges. I was in a store one day after about 32-33 days dip free, but I guess because I had not broken the nicotine hold it was very easy to slip right back into my norm.
Well I hope this introduction post isn't too ranty or incoherent. I just need to break myself of my self inflicted socially awkward comfort zone so that I can embrace some new friends here to help me on this journey.
Thank you for this website.
Remember this, Jeff? Nicotine had its claws deep in you. At first you struggled - hard. And mostly alone. And you caved. Went quiet for a few months, then you got pissed and decided to quit the KTC way. You came back and posted a new day 1...
You posted a lot. Got numbers. Made connections. You were the first quitter I talked to on the phone, and I still remember your voice shaking a little with both anger and fear. You talking about your son asking you to stop. And kept saying"this is it, this time is different, I'm dick of this, I'm quit!"
Well, Jeff... Today you are earning a number that seemed impossible then. A number that makes you a legend. And that, one day at a time, proves that you are a man of your word. Well done sir! A huge congratulations to you on a monumental achievement!
Congrats Lud! Always proud to be quit with you brutha!
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Hello to my new KTC family. I plan on becoming an active here as it appears that the site and it's camaraderie have given you all the strength to quit and keep quitting every day. I do feel the loss and anxiety this morning of saying goodbye to my old pal the Kodiak bear but reading the information here I think that I have lost the "fear" that has quite often ended my quits before they even started.
I have been a heavy user since high school, started around 14 yrs old here and there and by 15-16 was using several cans of Kodiak a week. I am now 37 and shocked by how quickly time seems to pass. I truly believed then that dip was a phase of my youth. That phase became a 1-1.5 can dependency. I did "quit" for about a month once, I quote quit because I was using nicotine lozenges. I was in a store one day after about 32-33 days dip free, but I guess because I had not broken the nicotine hold it was very easy to slip right back into my norm.
Well I hope this introduction post isn't too ranty or incoherent. I just need to break myself of my self inflicted socially awkward comfort zone so that I can embrace some new friends here to help me on this journey.
Thank you for this website.
Remember this, Jeff? Nicotine had its claws deep in you. At first you struggled - hard. And mostly alone. And you caved. Went quiet for a few months, then you got pissed and decided to quit the KTC way. You came back and posted a new day 1...
You posted a lot. Got numbers. Made connections. You were the first quitter I talked to on the phone, and I still remember your voice shaking a little with both anger and fear. You talking about your son asking you to stop. And kept saying"this is it, this time is different, I'm dick of this, I'm quit!"
Well, Jeff... Today you are earning a number that seemed impossible then. A number that makes you a legend. And that, one day at a time, proves that you are a man of your word. Well done sir! A huge congratulations to you on a monumental achievement!
Congrats Lud! Always proud to be quit with you brutha!
Congrats Jeff. To be honest, I am glad you caved once before; because had you not come back determined and with a vengeance I can not guarantee that I would have made it. You have been there for me many times and I am so damned glad to have you in my quit. Enjoy today and bask in the glory of a comma, it is quite fun typing that comma daily now.
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Hello to my new KTC family. I plan on becoming an active here as it appears that the site and it's camaraderie have given you all the strength to quit and keep quitting every day. I do feel the loss and anxiety this morning of saying goodbye to my old pal the Kodiak bear but reading the information here I think that I have lost the "fear" that has quite often ended my quits before they even started.
I have been a heavy user since high school, started around 14 yrs old here and there and by 15-16 was using several cans of Kodiak a week. I am now 37 and shocked by how quickly time seems to pass. I truly believed then that dip was a phase of my youth. That phase became a 1-1.5 can dependency. I did "quit" for about a month once, I quote quit because I was using nicotine lozenges. I was in a store one day after about 32-33 days dip free, but I guess because I had not broken the nicotine hold it was very easy to slip right back into my norm.
Well I hope this introduction post isn't too ranty or incoherent. I just need to break myself of my self inflicted socially awkward comfort zone so that I can embrace some new friends here to help me on this journey.
Thank you for this website.
Remember this, Jeff? Nicotine had its claws deep in you. At first you struggled - hard. And mostly alone. And you caved. Went quiet for a few months, then you got pissed and decided to quit the KTC way. You came back and posted a new day 1...
You posted a lot. Got numbers. Made connections. You were the first quitter I talked to on the phone, and I still remember your voice shaking a little with both anger and fear. You talking about your son asking you to stop. And kept saying"this is it, this time is different, I'm dick of this, I'm quit!"
Well, Jeff... Today you are earning a number that seemed impossible then. A number that makes you a legend. And that, one day at a time, proves that you are a man of your word. Well done sir! A huge congratulations to you on a monumental achievement!
Congrats Lud! Always proud to be quit with you brutha!
Congrats Jeff. To be honest, I am glad you caved once before; because had you not come back determined and with a vengeance I can not guarantee that I would have made it. You have been there for me many times and I am so damned glad to have you in my quit. Enjoy today and bask in the glory of a comma, it is quite fun typing that comma daily now.
Hey nice comma!!
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Hello to my new KTC family. I plan on becoming an active here as it appears that the site and it's camaraderie have given you all the strength to quit and keep quitting every day. I do feel the loss and anxiety this morning of saying goodbye to my old pal the Kodiak bear but reading the information here I think that I have lost the "fear" that has quite often ended my quits before they even started.
I have been a heavy user since high school, started around 14 yrs old here and there and by 15-16 was using several cans of Kodiak a week. I am now 37 and shocked by how quickly time seems to pass. I truly believed then that dip was a phase of my youth. That phase became a 1-1.5 can dependency. I did "quit" for about a month once, I quote quit because I was using nicotine lozenges. I was in a store one day after about 32-33 days dip free, but I guess because I had not broken the nicotine hold it was very easy to slip right back into my norm.
Well I hope this introduction post isn't too ranty or incoherent. I just need to break myself of my self inflicted socially awkward comfort zone so that I can embrace some new friends here to help me on this journey.
Thank you for this website.
Remember this, Jeff? Nicotine had its claws deep in you. At first you struggled - hard. And mostly alone. And you caved. Went quiet for a few months, then you got pissed and decided to quit the KTC way. You came back and posted a new day 1...
You posted a lot. Got numbers. Made connections. You were the first quitter I talked to on the phone, and I still remember your voice shaking a little with both anger and fear. You talking about your son asking you to stop. And kept saying"this is it, this time is different, I'm dick of this, I'm quit!"
Well, Jeff... Today you are earning a number that seemed impossible then. A number that makes you a legend. And that, one day at a time, proves that you are a man of your word. Well done sir! A huge congratulations to you on a monumental achievement!
Congrats Lud! Always proud to be quit with you brutha!
Congrats Jeff. To be honest, I am glad you caved once before; because had you not come back determined and with a vengeance I can not guarantee that I would have made it. You have been there for me many times and I am so damned glad to have you in my quit. Enjoy today and bask in the glory of a comma, it is quite fun typing that comma daily now.
Hey nice comma!!
Nice comma J Nude!!!!! Enjoy your day man
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Today I have quit every day for 1,018 days in a row and every one is a victory.
I am writing here today and it has been a long time since I really posted anything here of significance. Today however I find myself needing to vent and air some of my current challenges because lord knows they can be something that gives that sleeping nicotine beast a chance to strike.
I have to take my wife in for a colonoscopy tomorrow because she has had some issues with blood in movements. First they thought it was one of the medications she was taking but after a few days being better off the medicine the problem keeps recurring. Obviously I am concerned about what that might implicate but trying to focus on not jumping to any conclusions before getting more information. As a couple our general health is not great we are both heavy and do not always eat what we should or exercise regularly. I am diabetic, high blood pressure, cholesterol and she the latter of the two. Accepting that I am a addict I have come to understand that problems with alcohol, drugs, and nicotine have all caused havoc in my life. Overcoming those issues at different stages in my life has always resulted in exponential growth as a person and in the blessings in my life. So really I am just exposing what I already know to a little more daylight. I have an unhealthy relationship with food that is going to kill me if I do not take action. Food can be so tricky, I mean nicotine is awful but it's such a black and white proposition, you can't not eat one day at a time. I can however make better choices one meal at a time, then work up to one day at a time. I appreciate all of you guys and thank god I found this place that has helped me so much, thank you if you took the time to read this, thank you for any prayers for Mrs 007, and look forward to working on some accountability in this area as well.
Quit on quitters!
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Today I have quit every day for 1,018 days in a row and every one is a victory.
I am writing here today and it has been a long time since I really posted anything here of significance. Today however I find myself needing to vent and air some of my current challenges because lord knows they can be something that gives that sleeping nicotine beast a chance to strike.
I have to take my wife in for a colonoscopy tomorrow because she has had some issues with blood in movements. First they thought it was one of the medications she was taking but after a few days being better off the medicine the problem keeps recurring. Obviously I am concerned about what that might implicate but trying to focus on not jumping to any conclusions before getting more information. As a couple our general health is not great we are both heavy and do not always eat what we should or exercise regularly. I am diabetic, high blood pressure, cholesterol and she the latter of the two. Accepting that I am a addict I have come to understand that problems with alcohol, drugs, and nicotine have all caused havoc in my life. Overcoming those issues at different stages in my life has always resulted in exponential growth as a person and in the blessings in my life. So really I am just exposing what I already know to a little more daylight. I have an unhealthy relationship with food that is going to kill me if I do not take action. Food can be so tricky, I mean nicotine is awful but it's such a black and white proposition, you can't not eat one day at a time. I can however make better choices one meal at a time, then work up to one day at a time. I appreciate all of you guys and thank god I found this place that has helped me so much, thank you if you took the time to read this, thank you for any prayers for Mrs 007, and look forward to working on some accountability in this area as well.
Quit on quitters!
prayers to the Mrs 007 to you my friend.
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Today I have quit every day for 1,018 days in a row and every one is a victory.
I am writing here today and it has been a long time since I really posted anything here of significance. Today however I find myself needing to vent and air some of my current challenges because lord knows they can be something that gives that sleeping nicotine beast a chance to strike.
I have to take my wife in for a colonoscopy tomorrow because she has had some issues with blood in movements. First they thought it was one of the medications she was taking but after a few days being better off the medicine the problem keeps recurring. Obviously I am concerned about what that might implicate but trying to focus on not jumping to any conclusions before getting more information. As a couple our general health is not great we are both heavy and do not always eat what we should or exercise regularly. I am diabetic, high blood pressure, cholesterol and she the latter of the two. Accepting that I am a addict I have come to understand that problems with alcohol, drugs, and nicotine have all caused havoc in my life. Overcoming those issues at different stages in my life has always resulted in exponential growth as a person and in the blessings in my life. So really I am just exposing what I already know to a little more daylight. I have an unhealthy relationship with food that is going to kill me if I do not take action. Food can be so tricky, I mean nicotine is awful but it's such a black and white proposition, you can't not eat one day at a time. I can however make better choices one meal at a time, then work up to one day at a time. I appreciate all of you guys and thank god I found this place that has helped me so much, thank you if you took the time to read this, thank you for any prayers for Mrs 007, and look forward to working on some accountability in this area as well.
Quit on quitters!
prayers to the Mrs 007 to you my friend.
Ditto jlud. Let me know if I can help out in any way.. I am close by dude!!!
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Today I have quit every day for 1,018 days in a row and every one is a victory.
I am writing here today and it has been a long time since I really posted anything here of significance. Today however I find myself needing to vent and air some of my current challenges because lord knows they can be something that gives that sleeping nicotine beast a chance to strike.
I have to take my wife in for a colonoscopy tomorrow because she has had some issues with blood in movements. First they thought it was one of the medications she was taking but after a few days being better off the medicine the problem keeps recurring. Obviously I am concerned about what that might implicate but trying to focus on not jumping to any conclusions before getting more information. As a couple our general health is not great we are both heavy and do not always eat what we should or exercise regularly. I am diabetic, high blood pressure, cholesterol and she the latter of the two. Accepting that I am a addict I have come to understand that problems with alcohol, drugs, and nicotine have all caused havoc in my life. Overcoming those issues at different stages in my life has always resulted in exponential growth as a person and in the blessings in my life. So really I am just exposing what I already know to a little more daylight. I have an unhealthy relationship with food that is going to kill me if I do not take action. Food can be so tricky, I mean nicotine is awful but it's such a black and white proposition, you can't not eat one day at a time. I can however make better choices one meal at a time, then work up to one day at a time. I appreciate all of you guys and thank god I found this place that has helped me so much, thank you if you took the time to read this, thank you for any prayers for Mrs 007, and look forward to working on some accountability in this area as well.
Quit on quitters!
prayers to the Mrs 007 to you my friend.
Ditto jlud. Let me know if I can help out in any way.. I am close by dude!!!
Lud you can definitely take what you learned here and apply it to a healthy lifestyle. The reason I quit for good was this site taught me that I am not attempting to quit, I am either quit...or I'm not. Same can apply to the rest of your life. You are not dieting, you are either living a healthy life...or you're not. Reaffirm this everyday, and get to it.
In terms of your wife...good luck Jeff, anything greater than a hang nail is scary shit when it comes to my wife. Keep us updated in October.
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Today I have quit every day for 1,018 days in a row and every one is a victory.
I am writing here today and it has been a long time since I really posted anything here of significance. Today however I find myself needing to vent and air some of my current challenges because lord knows they can be something that gives that sleeping nicotine beast a chance to strike.
I have to take my wife in for a colonoscopy tomorrow because she has had some issues with blood in movements. First they thought it was one of the medications she was taking but after a few days being better off the medicine the problem keeps recurring. Obviously I am concerned about what that might implicate but trying to focus on not jumping to any conclusions before getting more information. As a couple our general health is not great we are both heavy and do not always eat what we should or exercise regularly. I am diabetic, high blood pressure, cholesterol and she the latter of the two. Accepting that I am a addict I have come to understand that problems with alcohol, drugs, and nicotine have all caused havoc in my life. Overcoming those issues at different stages in my life has always resulted in exponential growth as a person and in the blessings in my life. So really I am just exposing what I already know to a little more daylight. I have an unhealthy relationship with food that is going to kill me if I do not take action. Food can be so tricky, I mean nicotine is awful but it's such a black and white proposition, you can't not eat one day at a time. I can however make better choices one meal at a time, then work up to one day at a time. I appreciate all of you guys and thank god I found this place that has helped me so much, thank you if you took the time to read this, thank you for any prayers for Mrs 007, and look forward to working on some accountability in this area as well.
Quit on quitters!
prayers to the Mrs 007 to you my friend.
Ditto jlud. Let me know if I can help out in any way.. I am close by dude!!!
Lud you can definitely take what you learned here and apply it to a healthy lifestyle. The reason I quit for good was this site taught me that I am not attempting to quit, I am either quit...or I'm not. Same can apply to the rest of your life. You are not dieting, you are either living a healthy life...or you're not. Reaffirm this everyday, and get to it.
In terms of your wife...good luck Jeff, anything greater than a hang nail is scary shit when it comes to my wife. Keep us updated in October.
Prayers for Mrs 007 brother.
Make a goal. Reset your mind. Beat the living shit out of your goal! You can do it! WIN WIN WIN
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Today I have quit every day for 1,018 days in a row and every one is a victory.
I am writing here today and it has been a long time since I really posted anything here of significance. Today however I find myself needing to vent and air some of my current challenges because lord knows they can be something that gives that sleeping nicotine beast a chance to strike.
I have to take my wife in for a colonoscopy tomorrow because she has had some issues with blood in movements. First they thought it was one of the medications she was taking but after a few days being better off the medicine the problem keeps recurring. Obviously I am concerned about what that might implicate but trying to focus on not jumping to any conclusions before getting more information. As a couple our general health is not great we are both heavy and do not always eat what we should or exercise regularly. I am diabetic, high blood pressure, cholesterol and she the latter of the two. Accepting that I am a addict I have come to understand that problems with alcohol, drugs, and nicotine have all caused havoc in my life. Overcoming those issues at different stages in my life has always resulted in exponential growth as a person and in the blessings in my life. So really I am just exposing what I already know to a little more daylight. I have an unhealthy relationship with food that is going to kill me if I do not take action. Food can be so tricky, I mean nicotine is awful but it's such a black and white proposition, you can't not eat one day at a time. I can however make better choices one meal at a time, then work up to one day at a time. I appreciate all of you guys and thank god I found this place that has helped me so much, thank you if you took the time to read this, thank you for any prayers for Mrs 007, and look forward to working on some accountability in this area as well.
Quit on quitters!
prayers to the Mrs 007 to you my friend.
Ditto jlud. Let me know if I can help out in any way.. I am close by dude!!!
Lud you can definitely take what you learned here and apply it to a healthy lifestyle. The reason I quit for good was this site taught me that I am not attempting to quit, I am either quit...or I'm not. Same can apply to the rest of your life. You are not dieting, you are either living a healthy life...or you're not. Reaffirm this everyday, and get to it.
In terms of your wife...good luck Jeff, anything greater than a hang nail is scary shit when it comes to my wife. Keep us updated in October.
Prayers for Mrs 007 brother.
Make a goal. Reset your mind. Beat the living shit out of your goal! You can do it! WIN WIN WIN
First of all take care of your wife...I pray she will be fine. 2nd stay positive you can work on the other issues together and yes apply your KTC lessons to any unhealthy addictive behaviors. You know the steps you know what to do. U need anything you should know I along w the rest of the quitters are here anytime.
Peace
Trauma 1111
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Today I have quit every day for 1,018 days in a row and every one is a victory.
I am writing here today and it has been a long time since I really posted anything here of significance. Today however I find myself needing to vent and air some of my current challenges because lord knows they can be something that gives that sleeping nicotine beast a chance to strike.
I have to take my wife in for a colonoscopy tomorrow because she has had some issues with blood in movements. First they thought it was one of the medications she was taking but after a few days being better off the medicine the problem keeps recurring. Obviously I am concerned about what that might implicate but trying to focus on not jumping to any conclusions before getting more information. As a couple our general health is not great we are both heavy and do not always eat what we should or exercise regularly. I am diabetic, high blood pressure, cholesterol and she the latter of the two. Accepting that I am a addict I have come to understand that problems with alcohol, drugs, and nicotine have all caused havoc in my life. Overcoming those issues at different stages in my life has always resulted in exponential growth as a person and in the blessings in my life. So really I am just exposing what I already know to a little more daylight. I have an unhealthy relationship with food that is going to kill me if I do not take action. Food can be so tricky, I mean nicotine is awful but it's such a black and white proposition, you can't not eat one day at a time. I can however make better choices one meal at a time, then work up to one day at a time. I appreciate all of you guys and thank god I found this place that has helped me so much, thank you if you took the time to read this, thank you for any prayers for Mrs 007, and look forward to working on some accountability in this area as well.
Quit on quitters!
prayers to the Mrs 007 to you my friend.
Ditto jlud. Let me know if I can help out in any way.. I am close by dude!!!
Lud you can definitely take what you learned here and apply it to a healthy lifestyle. The reason I quit for good was this site taught me that I am not attempting to quit, I am either quit...or I'm not. Same can apply to the rest of your life. You are not dieting, you are either living a healthy life...or you're not. Reaffirm this everyday, and get to it.
In terms of your wife...good luck Jeff, anything greater than a hang nail is scary shit when it comes to my wife. Keep us updated in October.
Prayers for Mrs 007 brother.
Make a goal. Reset your mind. Beat the living shit out of your goal! You can do it! WIN WIN WIN
First of all take care of your wife...I pray she will be fine. 2nd stay positive you can work on the other issues together and yes apply your KTC lessons to any unhealthy addictive behaviors. You know the steps you know what to do. U need anything you should know I along w the rest of the quitters are here anytime.
Peace
Trauma 1111
Oh my brother prayers to you and the misses! God's will be done!
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Today I have quit every day for 1,018 days in a row and every one is a victory.
I am writing here today and it has been a long time since I really posted anything here of significance. Today however I find myself needing to vent and air some of my current challenges because lord knows they can be something that gives that sleeping nicotine beast a chance to strike.
I have to take my wife in for a colonoscopy tomorrow because she has had some issues with blood in movements. First they thought it was one of the medications she was taking but after a few days being better off the medicine the problem keeps recurring. Obviously I am concerned about what that might implicate but trying to focus on not jumping to any conclusions before getting more information. As a couple our general health is not great we are both heavy and do not always eat what we should or exercise regularly. I am diabetic, high blood pressure, cholesterol and she the latter of the two. Accepting that I am a addict I have come to understand that problems with alcohol, drugs, and nicotine have all caused havoc in my life. Overcoming those issues at different stages in my life has always resulted in exponential growth as a person and in the blessings in my life. So really I am just exposing what I already know to a little more daylight. I have an unhealthy relationship with food that is going to kill me if I do not take action. Food can be so tricky, I mean nicotine is awful but it's such a black and white proposition, you can't not eat one day at a time. I can however make better choices one meal at a time, then work up to one day at a time. I appreciate all of you guys and thank god I found this place that has helped me so much, thank you if you took the time to read this, thank you for any prayers for Mrs 007, and look forward to working on some accountability in this area as well.
Quit on quitters!
prayers to the Mrs 007 to you my friend.
Ditto jlud. Let me know if I can help out in any way.. I am close by dude!!!
Lud you can definitely take what you learned here and apply it to a healthy lifestyle. The reason I quit for good was this site taught me that I am not attempting to quit, I am either quit...or I'm not. Same can apply to the rest of your life. You are not dieting, you are either living a healthy life...or you're not. Reaffirm this everyday, and get to it.
In terms of your wife...good luck Jeff, anything greater than a hang nail is scary shit when it comes to my wife. Keep us updated in October.
Prayers for Mrs 007 brother.
Make a goal. Reset your mind. Beat the living shit out of your goal! You can do it! WIN WIN WIN
First of all take care of your wife...I pray she will be fine. 2nd stay positive you can work on the other issues together and yes apply your KTC lessons to any unhealthy addictive behaviors. You know the steps you know what to do. U need anything you should know I along w the rest of the quitters are here anytime.
Peace
Trauma 1111
Oh my brother prayers to you and the misses! God's will be done!
Thanks for all the support guys!
The Mrs is ok the found a couple minor issues but no cancer or polyps.. whatever you call 'em the precancerous shit. Other than that i'm a work in progress, quit on!