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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: DippingHurtsGains on September 29, 2014, 01:22:00 AM
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Hello there, as my name might indicate, I am a bit of a gym rat. In fact, that is what got me started. I went to college and began lifting with a group that swore dipping improves athletic ability. I am well aware now that that fact just simply is not true, but dipping got me in with the guys. Hell, it felt good too. This was about six years ago.
Fast forward to today, my first 24 hours nicotine free are nearly under my belt. I have been exercising the cravings away, but have still gotten a bit pissy with friends. They know what's going on, and said it went better than expected. Regardless, I am really just pissed off at me. Putting myself in this shitty situation by making choices I knew better than to make. No power over the past, though.
I decided to quit because quitting is better than dying. I had a routine oral surgery (wisdom tooth removal) that took much longer than average to fully heal, and involved getting a pretty severe infection. For awhile, I chalked it up to bad luck. Anybody can have problems after surgery. Isn't it interesting how we can lie to ourselves so easily when addicted?
Yesterday was the last straw with the nicotine bitch. I was talking with my trainer about being healthy again, ready to get back to the grind. I shared some of the specifics with him that I just shared with you. His response: "I had a friend in his college days who swore dipping helped him too. I started believing him for awhile, because his progress was so much better than everyone else. In the long run though, he didn't get too far. When he died of throat cancer at 25, he couldn't have been much more than 100lbs."
I am 24. I am not immortal. I am quitting.
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Hello there, as my name might indicate, I am a bit of a gym rat. In fact, that is what got me started. I went to college and began lifting with a group that swore dipping improves athletic ability. I am well aware now that that fact just simply is not true, but dipping got me in with the guys. Hell, it felt good too. This was about six years ago.
Fast forward to today, my first 24 hours nicotine free are nearly under my belt. I have been exercising the cravings away, but have still gotten a bit pissy with friends. They know what's going on, and said it went better than expected. Regardless, I am really just pissed off at me. Putting myself in this shitty situation by making choices I knew better than to make. No power over the past, though.
I decided to quit because quitting is better than dying. I had a routine oral surgery (wisdom tooth removal) that took much longer than average to fully heal, and involved getting a pretty severe infection. For awhile, I chalked it up to bad luck. Anybody can have problems after surgery. Isn't it interesting how we can lie to ourselves so easily when addicted?
Yesterday was the last straw with the nicotine bitch. I was talking with my trainer about being healthy again, ready to get back to the grind. I shared some of the specifics with him that I just shared with you. His response: "I had a friend in his college days who swore dipping helped him too. I started believing him for awhile, because his progress was so much better than everyone else. In the long run though, he didn't get too far. When he died of throat cancer at 25, he couldn't have been much more than 100lbs."
I am 24. I am not immortal. I am quitting.
Welcome aboard. Read the welcome center and post roll daily.
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Posted roll for the first time. It's 11:10PM here so kind of awkward promising not to do anything idiotic for the next 50 minutes. But it is the close of day one, so maybe that was not such a bad idea :)
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Good call quitting. Tobacco/nicotine is pure poison and there are zero positive effects. Fight it one day at a time. Win each day and you will heal.
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Start getting some digits from other quitters here. There are times a text or a call gets you through that crave. Hang tough, the worst is almost over.
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I went to college and began lifting with a group that swore dipping improves athletic ability.
Broscience!
Glad you debunked that one, and good for you for posting up a day 1. It won't take long for you to see that dip was actually hurting you at the gym, rather than helping you. Even at 24, your blood pressure was getting elevated from dipping, and that was almost certainly impacting your overall endurance and performance.
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Yeah Tuco, nothing like a little bro science to put you in an early grave, am I right? Some of those same individuals later told me that juicing was only bad if you overdid it, and if it was properly managed, was more or less harmless. Thank goodness I didn't buy into that one. I can give myself a little credit, but these day 2 cravings still make me want to go back in time and kick my own ass.
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I have been encouraged to use this as a kind of journal to make sure future self doesn't fuck up. So here goes.
Last night was the end of the 72 hour period where the nicotine is still leaving your system, the nic bitch decided not to leave peacefully. Stomach was jacked, up all night to the latrine. Today I got rested up and feel significantly better. So let's go ahead and not do that again, future self.
P.S. - You better not be skipping leg day.
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I have been encouraged to use this as a kind of journal to make sure future self doesn't fuck up. So here goes.
Last night was the end of the 72 hour period where the nicotine is still leaving your system, the nic bitch decided not to leave peacefully. Stomach was jacked, up all night to the latrine. Today I got rested up and feel significantly better. So let's go ahead and not do that again, future self.
P.S. - You better not be skipping leg day.
Know this: You should remember these days and how much they suck so you will never want to return to them. Part two - As long as you keep your promise each day, you will never have to do these days over again. Final note: keep it about today only. Looking ahead is just too overwhelming. I can quit for 24 hours. I know you can too. Let's worry about tomorrow when it gets here.
Okay.....enough of a break.....it's leg day afterall....back at it!
~G~
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DippingHurtsGains: That's great man. Congrats. I dipped for about 6 years as well, im 22. Kept thinkin I could do it for 20 years be okay. decided not to play with fire no more. people get cancer in their 20's. Man I have been so naïve. No more. I quit with you today!
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Great to see another younger quitter who gets the whole mortality thing :)
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P.S. - You better not be skipping leg day.
Squats, bro. Lots and lots of squats.
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Proud to quit with you DHG
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Got bad news today about the health of a family member. I had already been dealing with anxiety from the quit, this turned that dial all the way up to 11. If there was a time to cave, less than a week in and finding out a family member might die is a likely time to do it.
But this isn't a lesson in sometimes life fucks you over. This is a lesson in the value of this program. I didn't go to the store to pick up a can, I went to the chat and the forums to let this community know I was suffering. The response was overwhelming support from the chat and my inbox was blown up with offers to help me get through this. For those of you quitting going through tough times and for my future self, remember that a can of poison makes a shitty listener, and you have so many people here that DO care.
Thank you everyone who reached out. If I were doing this alone, I would like to think that I would have the self-discipline and understanding of the situation to know that running to the nic bitch in a time of need is a stupid solution. Thanks to this community, that was never even a consideration.
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Got bad news today about the health of a family member. I had already been dealing with anxiety from the quit, this turned that dial all the way up to 11. If there was a time to cave, less than a week in and finding out a family member might die is a likely time to do it.
But this isn't a lesson in sometimes life fucks you over. This is a lesson in the value of this program. I didn't go to the store to pick up a can, I went to the chat and the forums to let this community know I was suffering. The response was overwhelming support from the chat and my inbox was blown up with offers to help me get through this. For those of you quitting going through tough times and for my future self, remember that a can of poison makes a shitty listener, and you have so many people here that DO care.
Thank you everyone who reached out. If I were doing this alone, I would like to think that I would have the self-discipline and understanding of the situation to know that running to the nic bitch in a time of need is a stupid solution. Thanks to this community, that was never even a consideration.
I had a bad day too, but we made it! Lets be quit again today
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As you know DHG my grandpa passed away during day 2 of my quit. If I can make it through this tough day I know you can make it through whatever life gives you. This is the man who taught me everything. He was more of a father to me then my real father. I lost a lot 10/4/14. I gained a lot as well. I quit bucking the trends today and posted roll. I stayed strong. The dip wont bring them back or make things better. It will make things worse. MUCH WORSE. Stay strong DHG. You need my number feel free to inbox me. I got your back.
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Thank you for the support GB! Plus, no family member would want their health problems/passing to be an excuse for caving on something so important.
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Exactly, you hit the nail on the head with that one. Stay strong! Be grateful they are still here today. Make sure you go show them how much you care for them just incase. Tomorrow they may just be gone. I quit today with you!
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I appreciate you sharing your story. There is nothing positive in reality, we just make up scenarios why we chew. People that said it helped, we slaves to the nic bitch. I am in the fitness business and I was a symbol of health for many people. As soon as I left them, I put a dirt turd in my mouth. You have seen the light, you will quit and I will support you always.
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Dentist appointment over. 2 small cavities and minor gingivitis is all they found. No cancer, no irreversible damage. Being extra cautious today, I know good news like this can trigger cravings from hell. Good news today is a gift, not a forecast for what will happen if I continued to expose it to poison daily.
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Hey, DHG. Reading your intro, it's like I know you, but you're wisening up much earlier than I did. I know the agony of this drug (and others) I know gains, I know counterintuitive behaviors and counterproductive habits. Shit, i know heavy anxiety during a quit.
I am proud to be quit with you today. You'll see me around. PM me if you need anything.
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Thank you for the support boelker! I see we have a lot in common, even an Eagles fan.
One benefit I am noticing already that is gym related - HIIT when I was chewing was actually hurting my mouth. I am not sure why, but intense cardio would aggravate the irritated gum tissue and cause it to hurt temporarily. Did HIIT today, experienced no mouth pain.
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pony party with boelker.
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The nic bitch is disturbingly crafty. She laid low the past couple days to spring a surprise attack right in conjunction with some other lifetime stresses. When vets say to stay vigilant, they are not fucking joking. Day 18 and 19 I honestly thought I might be getting my ass out of the woods. Day 20 I know I have a long way to go.
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The nic bitch is disturbingly crafty. She laid low the past couple days to spring a surprise attack right in conjunction with some other lifetime stresses. When vets say to stay vigilant, they are not fucking joking. Day 18 and 19 I honestly thought I might be getting my ass out of the woods. Day 20 I know I have a long way to go.
Just keep at it One Day At A Time.