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Title: I Quit 8/17/12. Proud but hurting
Post by: jonruns on August 21, 2012, 05:23:00 PM
Hey all, I quit at the end of a camping trip with my brother on 8/17/12. Threw the shit in the fire and swore I was done with it. Been using it on and off since being a teenager and am now in my early 40's. I hate it and love it at the same time. Right now I am proud of myself for making 4 days, but hear a voice in the back of my head that says maybe I can do it again someday. I need to beat it. I hate being dishonest. I have two sons I need to role-model for. I love life. I came clean to my wife and asked her to support me on this (she's been telling me for years to quit after catching me, which only caused me to hide it more). I've been eating non-stop and not sleeping well.
All your words inspire me. I'm proud of you too. What is my next step in this community after posting this introduction?
Title: Re: I Quit 8/17/12. Proud but hurting
Post by: kstampfly on August 21, 2012, 05:44:00 PM
Quote from: jonruns
Hey all, I quit at the end of a camping trip with my brother on 8/17/12. Threw the shit in the fire and swore I was done with it. Been using it on and off since being a teenager and am now in my early 40's. I hate it and love it at the same time. Right now I am proud of myself for making 4 days, but hear a voice in the back of my head that says maybe I can do it again someday. I need to beat it. I hate being dishonest. I have two sons I need to role-model for. I love life. I came clean to my wife and asked her to support me on this (she's been telling me for years to quit after catching me, which only caused me to hide it more). I've been eating non-stop and not sleeping well.
All your words inspire me. I'm proud of you too. What is my next step in this community after posting this introduction?
Hey man glad to have you here. The next step that you need to do is post roll every morning and give us your word to stay quit one day at a time. Look for the pink welcome center link at the top of the screen and it has all the information you need to get started.

What you are embarking on is not going to be an easy journey but you can do it. Stay close to this site, post daily, get on the live chat and talk to others, get phone numbers from people and at all costs just stay QUIT. Its that simple but YOU need to be 100% committed to stay quit or else you will fall back in the trenches of tobacco. I'll PM you with my contact info. I will quit with you each day....
Title: Re: I Quit 8/17/12. Proud but hurting
Post by: zam on August 21, 2012, 06:14:00 PM
Quote from: jonruns
Hey all, I quit at the end of a camping trip with my brother on 8/17/12. Threw the shit in the fire and swore I was done with it. Been using it on and off since being a teenager and am now in my early 40's. I hate it and love it at the same time. Right now I am proud of myself for making 4 days, but hear a voice in the back of my head that says maybe I can do it again someday. I need to beat it. I hate being dishonest. I have two sons I need to role-model for. I love life. I came clean to my wife and asked her to support me on this (she's been telling me for years to quit after catching me, which only caused me to hide it more). I've been eating non-stop and not sleeping well.
All your words inspire me. I'm proud of you too. What is my next step in this community after posting this introduction?
Just like k-fly said: Read the stuff in the welcome center. When you have an urge , start reading the WORD OF WISDOM, then the HOF speeches, then everything else. You will have a lot of urges, so you will do a lot of reading. Also, use this thread to rant and rage, stay involved in your quit group.

Know that things DO get better, IF you suck it up.

Check your (1) Inbox.
Title: Re: I Quit 8/17/12. Proud but hurting
Post by: 30isEnuff on August 22, 2012, 09:02:00 AM
Welcome to getting YOUR life back jonruns! This may well be the hardest thing you do in this life. But, YOU can do this.
There are many VETS of QUIT who have paved the way and have given us the tools and experience to beat this addiction...ONE day at a TIME. YOU can do anything for ONE day, right???
I advise you to read and re-read everything you can on this site. Gather up your tools to fight the mind game that awaits every quitter of nicotine. We all crave, but we don't cave! Get into the chat room to vent, get help. Get phone numbers of fellow quitters. stay active on this site.
Don't miss one DAY of posting roll, no matter what LAME ASS excuse you may be thinking that day.
Give your word each morning early (earlier the better),
keep your word all day (use seeds, candy, water, exercise whatever it takes),
get to bed, wake up REPEAT!!!!
Proud to be QUIT with YOU!! 'bang head'
Title: Re: I Quit 8/17/12. Proud but hurting
Post by: kana on August 22, 2012, 10:29:00 AM
Quote from: Zam
Quote from: jonruns
Hey all, I quit at the end of a camping trip with my brother on 8/17/12. Threw the shit in the fire and swore I was done with it.  Been using it on and off since being a teenager and am now in my early 40's.  I hate it and love it at the same time.  Right now I am proud of myself for making 4 days, but hear a voice in the back of my head that says maybe I can do it again someday. I need to beat it. I hate being dishonest. I have two sons I need to role-model for. I love life.  I came clean to my wife and asked her to support me on this (she's been telling me for years to quit after catching me, which only caused me to hide it more).  I've been eating non-stop and not sleeping well.
All your words inspire me.  I'm proud of you too.  What is my next step in this community after posting this introduction?
Just like k-fly said: Read the stuff in the welcome center. When you have an urge , start reading the WORD OF WISDOM, then the HOF speeches, then everything else. You will have a lot of urges, so you will do a lot of reading. Also, use this thread to rant and rage, stay involved in your quit group.

Know that things DO get better, IF you suck it up.

Check your (1) Inbox.
jonruns - our book reads the same, love it hate, age, role model, etc... I'm on day 18 and love the way I feel, love it's out of my life. you'll feel a little better everyday. pm me if you need anything.. we're all going through the same thing. one day at a time, quit with you.
Title: Re: I Quit 8/17/12. Proud but hurting
Post by: jonruns on August 22, 2012, 06:56:00 PM
Quote from: kana
jonruns - our book reads the same, love it hate, age, role model, etc... I'm on day 18 and love the way I feel, love it's out of my life. you'll feel a little better everyday. pm me if you need anything.. we're all going through the same thing. one day at a time, quit with you.
Thanks Man. Today was the first day I had the feeling of FREEDOM people mention. That's some big medicine.
Title: Re: I Quit 8/17/12. Proud but hurting
Post by: Bigdave on August 22, 2012, 11:22:00 PM
Quote from: jonruns
Quote from: kana
jonruns - our book reads the same, love it hate, age, role model, etc... I'm on day 18 and love the way I feel, love it's out of my life. you'll feel a little better everyday. pm  me if you need anything.. we're all going through the same thing. one day at a time, quit with you.
Thanks Man. Today was the first day I had the feeling of FREEDOM people mention. That's some big medicine.
bro..it gets better each day..there's struggles, temptations, snares everywhere--all the time. Be strong and know you have a shit ton of support here and people doing and feeling the same way you feel.