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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: hadams999 on May 01, 2014, 02:14:00 AM
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I just threw my half full grizzly can into the toilet for maybe the 4th time in the past year. I am only 19 so I have not been dipping very long. I just recently made it 26 days without a dip and then once again I started back up... I am starting today and this time it is forever.
I know that dip is more powerful than I am and I cannot risk having one more pinch or else it will destroy my life.
I have thought all these things before and once again I am sitting here at night disappointed and feeling defeated by the dip. Hopefully this website and community will be enough to put me over the edge this time. I could really use some support.
Thanks guys
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If you are serious about quitting, this is the place. I'm not gonna get all wrapped up in the whole age thing but let me ask you,why do you want to quit? This is an extreme quit site and bull shitting is not allowed. I will say I admire you for quitting at such a young age but there must be a reason for it.
Posting Roll is the center of what we do here. It is a daily promise to not use nicotine for the day. That's it. We don't think about tomorrow or forever, we just quit for today, it's that simple. If you are truly quit, post roll in August 2014, that's your group. Do it daily and be a man of your word.
BTW we don't try, hope, attempt here. We Quit Like Fuck every damn day. I'm on day 63 of freedom and LOVE it. Don't be a "dip"shit and be a slave to the can any longer.
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I want to quit for my health, my sport, my future family, my bank account, and to finally be able to sleep at night not feeling guilty. I completely understand what you are saying. It is just hard man, freaking hard. I will post roll call in my group once I figure out how to do that. I appreciate the tough love.
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I want to quit for my health, my sport, my future family, my bank account, and to finally be able to sleep at night not feeling guilty. I completely understand what you are saying. It is just hard man, freaking hard. I will post roll call in my group once I figure out how to do that. I appreciate the tough love.
That's the kind you will get here. Check out the welcome center. Posting roll is easy but be sure you get to the bottom of the last page. Once your in there you will see what I mean. I know you are 19 but how long did you dip?
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I want to quit for my health, my sport, my future family, my bank account, and to finally be able to sleep at night not feeling guilty. I completely understand what you are saying. It is just hard man, freaking hard. I will post roll call in my group once I figure out how to do that. I appreciate the tough love.
That's the kind you will get here. Check out the welcome center. Posting roll is easy but be sure you get to the bottom of the last page. Once your in there you will see what I mean. I know you are 19 but how long did you dip?
Yo also gotta understand this is 100% non nicotine. No Nic use allowed in any form (smokes, patch, vapor, etc)
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I want to quit for my health, my sport, my future family, my bank account, and to finally be able to sleep at night not feeling guilty. I completely understand what you are saying. It is just hard man, freaking hard. I will post roll call in my group once I figure out how to do that. I appreciate the tough love.
That's the kind you will get here. Check out the welcome center. Posting roll is easy but be sure you get to the bottom of the last page. Once your in there you will see what I mean. I know you are 19 but how long did you dip?
Yo also gotta understand this is 100% non nicotine. No Nic use allowed in any form (smokes, patch, vapor, etc)
Quitting at age 49 is hard. I dipped for longer than you have been alive. The first 3 days suck but then the nicotine will be gone from your systems the next couple weeks will suck more but you gotta have balls of steel to get through it. Drink a ton of water and get setup with seeds, gum, fake chew, whatever. Just no nicotine.
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I want to quit for my health, my sport, my future family, my bank account, and to finally be able to sleep at night not feeling guilty. I completely understand what you are saying. It is just hard man, freaking hard. I will post roll call in my group once I figure out how to do that. I appreciate the tough love.
That's the kind you will get here. Check out the welcome center. Posting roll is easy but be sure you get to the bottom of the last page. Once your in there you will see what I mean. I know you are 19 but how long did you dip?
I have been dipping three years. Started with a couple friends in highschool when we would go fishing. That is also an issue. When I go home and see them once I finish college they will be expecting to head to the river and throw one in just like old times. I enjoyed the good times with them, but I hate that I am an addict. I hate to let them down and make my friends feel like I am one-upping them or I am suddenly a better person because I have quit and they are still addicts. I will quit this time.
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You will hear words of wisdom from all kinds of people in here. Listen to them. Read, read, and read some more. Quit today. No reason to risk loss of life, jaw, cheek, tongue, or whatever over some worm dirt
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I want to quit for my health, my sport, my future family, my bank account, and to finally be able to sleep at night not feeling guilty. I completely understand what you are saying. It is just hard man, freaking hard. I will post roll call in my group once I figure out how to do that. I appreciate the tough love.
That's the kind you will get here. Check out the welcome center. Posting roll is easy but be sure you get to the bottom of the last page. Once your in there you will see what I mean. I know you are 19 but how long did you dip?
I have been dipping three years. Started with a couple friends in highschool when we would go fishing. That is also an issue. When I go home and see them once I finish college they will be expecting to head to the river and throw one in just like old times. I enjoyed the good times with them, but I hate that I am an addict. I hate to let them down and make my friends feel like I am one-upping them or I am suddenly a better person because I have quit and they are still addicts. I will quit this time.
Get some fake chew. It has really helped me. Tell your buddies you quit and that's it. If they offer,tell them no, if they offer again, take it, dump it out, and piss on it. Bet they won't offer again. The fake stuff will help when you are in those situations.
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Just so you know, less than 3% of young quitters stay quit. Are you gonna be one of the 3%? There is only one reason to cave and that's because you are weak. You have to have the right attitude. If you have that down, I will quit with ya. Either way, I am quit for today. How about you?
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Ok I will. Thank you. Will the symptoms after quitting hurt my fitness level for a few days? I have NCAA's coming up next weekend and I don't want quitting to ruin my week of training before the tournament.
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Ok I will. Thank you. Will the symptoms after quitting hurt my fitness level for a few days? I have NCAA's coming up next weekend and I don't want quitting to ruin my week of training before the tournament.
Can't tell you the answer to that. What sport?
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Ok I will. Thank you. Will the symptoms after quitting hurt my fitness level for a few days? I have NCAA's coming up next weekend and I don't want quitting to ruin my week of training before the tournament.
Can't tell you the answer to that. What sport?
FYI most of this shit is mental. Just gotta struggle through it.
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I play tennis.
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Ok I will. Thank you. Will the symptoms after quitting hurt my fitness level for a few days? I have NCAA's coming up next weekend and I don't want quitting to ruin my week of training before the tournament.
Can't tell you the answer to that. What sport?
FYI most of this shit is mental. Just gotta struggle through it.
I am hitting the rack. Stay quit and stay strong. It's only hard is you let it be. 100% mental.
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Just edit out where you play. Think about the fact that you won't have to worry about spitting while playing. Good luck with the Tennis stuff. Keep posting in this thread. I will be checking in on ya.
Tim
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You still quit? I see you out there
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You still quit? I see you out there
Let today be your first day of freedom in 3 years. Say NO to the Nic bitch.
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You still quit? I see you out there
Let today be your first day of freedom in 3 years. Say NO to the Nic bitch.
Tap, tap, tap. Hello, is this thing on?
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I see ya Raider, where is Hadams? Come on Hadams, show me a tennis player has huge balls and quit today.
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I am here! No dip for me today so far. Finished practice and got in a fight with my coaches, but it ended up fine. I am just super on edge and feel like anything can set me off.
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Thanks for the support!
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Hadams
Listen to the great advise that Raider is giving you. I had been hooked on the nic bitch for 36 years - also starting in my teens. Don't cave to the peer pressure. This quit is for you, not your buddies. First couple of days are hell - and you are on the edge, but each day gets better and better. Lean on your support group and keep your commitment.
It will be the best decision you will ever make. BTW - the fake chew did help me in the early days to get through the tough times. Smokey Mtn is available at WalMart.
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Man I'm a lot like you. I'm also a "young" quitter, as I'm only 24. I chewed for just under 10 years, TEN FREAKING YEARS! I spent thousands of dollars on the shit. I stained my bottom teeth piss yellow. I wasted time with friends, family, and myself just to sneak in a quick dip. I damaged my gums and cheeks but luckily am cancer free. I too had many "tries" at "stopping" chew. I made it 3 days, 3 months, all the way up to 6 months dip free. Then I caved on a whim. Dipped another year, "stopped" for another 6 months. Then I started up full force again. 1-1.5 cans per day. I had enough. I found this site and forum and on a whim joined because I was ready to quit this shit and I was ready for war. I've been quit for 68 days today. I owe a lot of that to so many of these members and Vets on here. They will guide you. You have to listen, and you have to WANT IT to be successful! Posting Roll is the single most important part of your quit right now. Make friends with other quitters in your group. Hold them accountable. Trade numbers, emails etc. Do whatever it takes to stay quit, it's life or death! I'm quit w/you today bro!
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Hadams
Listen to the great advise that Raider is giving you. I had been hooked on the nic bitch for 36 years - also starting in my teens. Don't cave to the peer pressure. This quit is for you, not your buddies. First couple of days are hell - and you are on the edge, but each day gets better and better. Lean on your support group and keep your commitment.
It will be the best decision you will ever make. BTW - the fake chew did help me in the early days to get through the tough times. Smokey Mtn is available at WalMart.
He has been a huge help. Responded right away last night and has me extremely motivated. I will look into the Smokey Mtn. The hard part is not being able to explain to my coaches and teammates why I acted so bad at practice today. I WAS a closet dipper so no one except a couple close friends know.. I might tell my coaches and teammates. I just don't want that to hurt my reputation and how they view me as a person.
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Man I'm a lot like you. I'm also a "young" quitter, as I'm only 24. I chewed for just under 10 years, TEN FREAKING YEARS! I spent thousands of dollars on the shit. I stained my bottom teeth piss yellow. I wasted time with friends, family, and myself just to sneak in a quick dip. I damaged my gums and cheeks but luckily am cancer free. I too had many "tries" at "stopping" chew. I made it 3 days, 3 months, all the way up to 6 months dip free. Then I caved on a whim. Dipped another year, "stopped" for another 6 months. Then I started up full force again. 1-1.5 cans per day. I had enough. I found this site and forum and on a whim joined because I was ready to quit this shit and I was ready for war. I've been quit for 68 days today. I owe a lot of that to so many of these members and Vets on here. They will guide you. You have to listen, and you have to WANT IT to be successful! Posting Roll is the single most important part of your quit right now. Make friends with other quitters in your group. Hold them accountable. Trade numbers, emails etc. Do whatever it takes to stay quit, it's life or death! I'm quit w/you today bro!
That is exactly how I have been with my quits. Just recently I made it 26 days. Then I got back to the hotel after an away match and next thing I knew it I had walked to the gas station and was hiding out in the stairwell having a dip. Ever since that one dip it was full blown addiction again...
Great to hear advice from another quitter I can relate to. I posted roll today (no idea if I did it right). I will stay quit! Whatever it takes!
Appreciate the support
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I know that dip is more powerful than I am and I cannot risk having one more pinch or else it will destroy my life.
That's a load of shit, everyone on this site is evidence that the nic bitch is not more powerful, she's just a dirty fucking whore who uses her dirt fucking whore mind games to make you think she's more powerful then you, but she's not! Yes one more pinch could easily be the difference between life and death, but you are strong enough to fight that. You need to get mad...fuck that...pissed at nicotine, at dip, at big tobacco, at every motherfucker who you see sucking a cancer stick or finger fucking a can, Nic should be your enemy!
Take it from me; I'm young so I understand what it's like to have that feeling of "i have the rest of my life to quit" hanging over your head. It's a bitch to quit at this age, but if you come in here with the right attitude and drink the Kool-Aid you will quit and stay quit. Jump in with both feet, post roll everyday, head over to the live chat and fuck around in there, post in other people's introductions, do anything you can to stay active and involved in KTC and it will help you quit. Also make sure to actually bond and connect with other quitters, it's much more difficult to cave when you know the quitters you are letting down. Sorry for the novel in your intro.
If you need a contact shoot me a PM, I'm quitting with you today brother!
MCO
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This is the type of support you will see on a daily basis as long as you stay quit.
Didn't check roll yet but I did see your post.
If you gotta bitch at someone, do it here or in chat. We can take it. Non users will never get what you are gong through.
I quit with you today.
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This is the type of support you will see on a daily basis as long as you stay quit.
Didn't check roll yet but I did see your post.
If you gotta bitch at someone, do it here or in chat. We can take it. Non users will never get what you are gong through.
I quit with you today.
Alright awesome thanks. Today was hard. Definitely can't sleep. Extremely difficult to study.
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This is the type of support you will see on a daily basis as long as you stay quit.
Didn't check roll yet but I did see your post.
If you gotta bitch at someone, do it here or in chat. We can take it. Non users will never get what you are gong through.
I quit with you today.
Alright awesome thanks. Today was hard. Definitely can't sleep. Extremely difficult to study.
Zzzquil worked for me. Drink a crapload of water. Keep yourself busy. Keep it up. It sucks but it will get better.
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Is there a no nic policy on your team? I know this doesn't help, but I told my co-workers and family I quit, and to ride me hard if I became a dick ( it has happened many times in the last 29 days) so they were warned. Not sure what to do if you could get in trouble with your team.
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Is there a no nic policy on your team? I know this doesn't help, but I told my co-workers and family I quit, and to ride me hard if I became a dick ( it has happened many times in the last 29 days) so they were warned. Not sure what to do if you could get in trouble with your team.
Good point Thumble. Letting them know your quit will at least let them know why your being a prick at times. They won't really get it but at least ya warned them. I'm sure they will have a better opinion of you knowing that your quit rather than seeing you attempt to ninja dip.
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Is there a no nic policy on your team? I know this doesn't help, but I told my co-workers and family I quit, and to ride me hard if I became a dick ( it has happened many times in the last 29 days) so they were warned. Not sure what to do if you could get in trouble with your team.
Good point Thumble. Letting them know your quit will at least let them know why your being a prick at times. They won't really get it but at least ya warned them. I'm sure they will have a better opinion of you knowing that your quit rather than seeing you attempt to ninja dip.
I don't think I could get in trouble for it. I mean today I feel sick (sore throat,cough,headache) but I do not feel angry or on edge at all. I am sure I will be able to keep myself under control today without being disrespectful. If something else happens I will tell them. Raider, you are probably right about them having a better opinion of me.
Most importantly I am quit today.
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I think if you tell folks some will respect your quit. Some won't give a shit, but you may be surprised at the ones that do.
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Is there a no nic policy on your team? I know this doesn't help, but I told my co-workers and family I quit, and to ride me hard if I became a dick ( it has happened many times in the last 29 days) so they were warned. Not sure what to do if you could get in trouble with your team.
Good point Thumble. Letting them know your quit will at least let them know why your being a prick at times. They won't really get it but at least ya warned them. I'm sure they will have a better opinion of you knowing that your quit rather than seeing you attempt to ninja dip.
I don't think I could get in trouble for it. I mean today I feel sick (sore throat,cough,headache) but I do not feel angry or on edge at all. I am sure I will be able to keep myself under control today without being disrespectful. If something else happens I will tell them. Raider, you are probably right about them having a better opinion of me.
Most importantly I am quit today.
I'm liking your quit already bro! Keep up that attitude and focus in the coming days, because you will be tested. I'm quit w/you today bro!
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How's the quit feeling today ? Each day will get better but be prepared for some ups and downs. Just remember, if it was easy, everyone would do it. You gotta stand strong.
Glad to be quit with ya today.
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So your intro says this is another attempt.
Do you still view it that way? Or do you view it as your final Quit?
Inquiring minds want to know..........
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Tennis tourney this weekend. I'm assuming that because you are busy you are unable to Post Roll. Well you gotta find a way to post. PM me and I can do it for ya. PM anyone any they will do it for ya. You gotta strive for an A+ in Posting Roll. Big question for ya is, Are you still quit?
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And poof.........I'm guessing he is gone. Prove me wrong hadams.
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And poof.........I'm guessing he is gone. Prove me wrong hadams.
I am still here and I am still quit. Finals week is here and I was studying all weekend. I just completely forgot to post roll honestly. I haven't had any problems the last two days. Not really any craving and my sore throat is completely gone. I haven't been on edge. The only thing that gets me is when I have to take a long drive, because now it is just a long drive. A shower is now just a shower with no dip. A shit is just a shit now. Sitting out on the park bench is just sitting out on the park bench. I used to enjoy a lot of little things more I feel like, but I am sure that is just the nic trying to trick me.
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Also, one of my friends that is usually my fishing buddy has decided to quit also. I told him I was and he immediately said he wanted to do it also. Which was shocking because I never thought he worried or cared about it.
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And poof.........I'm guessing he is gone. Prove me wrong hadams.
I am still here and I am still quit. Finals week is here and I was studying all weekend. I just completely forgot to post roll honestly. I haven't had any problems the last two days. Not really any craving and my sore throat is completely gone. I haven't been on edge. The only thing that gets me is when I have to take a long drive, because now it is just a long drive. A shower is now just a shower with no dip. A shit is just a shit now. Sitting out on the park bench is just sitting out on the park bench. I used to enjoy a lot of little things more I feel like, but I am sure that is just the nic trying to trick me.
You answered yourself a li'l... none of these things was better because you dipped. NONE of them. It is your addict mind trying to get its fix. Trust me bro... I'm almost 400 days quit and all these things are just a normal part of my normal day. It will get better. Be patient and work your quit... own it and be active with it. That's success... that's freedom.
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You answered yourself a li'l... none of these things was better because you dipped. NONE of them. It is your addict mind trying to get its fix. Trust me bro... I'm almost 400 days quit and all these things are just a normal part of my normal day. It will get better. Be patient and work your quit... own it and be active with it. That's success... that's freedom.
Thanks for the reassurance AppleJack. It can only get better each day.
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You answered yourself a li'l... none of these things was better because you dipped. NONE of them. It is your addict mind trying to get its fix. Trust me bro... I'm almost 400 days quit and all these things are just a normal part of my normal day. It will get better. Be patient and work your quit... own it and be active with it. That's success... that's freedom.
Thanks for the reassurance AppleJack. It can only get better each day.
You will need to make quitting a #1 priority to stay quit today. I get that finals is tough and you are studying hard... but you need to post roll every morning committ yourself to staying quit clean today. No excuses on that one. We are all busy. Posting roll takes just a moment each morning, but if you take it seriously it will be the most important moment of your day.
Quit on! Good luck with finals.
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You answered yourself a li'l... none of these things was better because you dipped. NONE of them. It is your addict mind trying to get its fix. Trust me bro... I'm almost 400 days quit and all these things are just a normal part of my normal day. It will get better. Be patient and work your quit... own it and be active with it. That's success... that's freedom.
Thanks for the reassurance AppleJack. It can only get better each day.
You will need to make quitting a #1 priority to stay quit today. I get that finals is tough and you are studying hard... but you need to post roll every morning committ yourself to staying quit clean today. No excuses on that one. We are all busy. Posting roll takes just a moment each morning, but if you take it seriously it will be the most important moment of your day.
Quit on! Good luck with finals.
Posting Roll has become a huge part of my day.
Glad you're still hanging in there. Want to know what I miss about dipping? Not a damn thing. Every day is better because I am Nic free. Keep up the good work but don't forget to post roll.
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You need to start taking the posting of roll a bit more seriously in my opinion. I have seen others come in here with the I'm too busy to post roll attitude, and the I have this under control now attitude after only a few weeks of being here at KTC. Guess what? They disappear, after about 3-4 weeks and become a cave statistic. I know you are busy with school, Tennis etc. but I can tell you that all of us on here are busy in our own way. I work 45-50 hours a week and have 4 kids, so I know what busy is. And yes sometimes I have forgotten or miss a day and it doesn't mean we caved, but please for your sake take posting roll seriously. It can seem a bit strange that posting roll with a bunch of strangers would keep your quit strong, but I will tell you, IT IS WHAT WILL KEEP YOUR QUIT STRONG! Proud to be quit with you today!
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The next thing that may seem strange is when a stranger asks for you to PM him/her with your phone number. WTF? They want my phone number too? I met up with you on day one and have a couple hours invested in you already. Your quit is almost as important as my quit. To me, mine is the most important.
PM me your digits so I can keep up with you. You miss roll, I bug the hell out of you. That's the "Brotherhood" part of this.
I quit with hadams today and EDD.
Raider (aka Tim)
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The next thing that may seem strange is when a stranger asks for you to PM him/her with your phone number. WTF? They want my phone number too? I met up with you on day one and have a couple hours invested in you already. Your quit is almost as important as my quit. To me, mine is the most important.
PM me your digits so I can keep up with you. You miss roll, I bug the hell out of you. That's the "Brotherhood" part of this.
I quit with hadams today and EDD.
Raider (aka Tim)
Ditto. I wish I had someone holding my feet to the fire in school, I'd be freaking rich now just from dip savings.
Finals suck. Good luck, hang in there
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I miss going to class a few hours Tuesday through Thursday, sleeping until 10 or 11, and getting laid on a regular basis, and once or twice every semester they's have these tests that I'd get a 2.0 on. Yeah, college was tough compared to now.
Quit now brother because real life can be sweet, but it ain't easy, and a money and life sucking whore like the NIC bitch makes it that much worse.
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Saw you posted day 6. Great job but don't miss too many days. Your GPA is dropping.
So your being an asshole to everyone. Welcome to the club. We have all been there. It will get better, you gotta trust us.