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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: LionHeartedGirl on May 26, 2013, 11:32:00 PM
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This is the intro I posted in Whack The Pack.... The only thing I'm changing is the day... when I wrote this it was Day 1.
Hi folks,
I've been a smoker on and off for 24 years. There have been years of quit for me and the past 10 years I've really been on again, off again. My latest on again I can credit to my impending divorce. I hate being a smoker. Absolutely hate it. Love to smoke... But hate the smoking. Hate the weight in my chest, the tickle in my throat, the smell, the threat of a raspy voice and wrinkles. I thought last time I quit was it. But once again, my arrogance got the best of me. "Oh I won't start again! Just give me one!"
Never again. I am an addict. I'll never be an ex addict. That means five years from now I can't have one any more than I can have one today.
Today is Day 4! I posted in roll call.
Thanks for the support.
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Welcome to KTC! Quite a few ex smokers and ladies here. We can be a bit gruff and crude at times, but we are 100% committed to staying guit. Glad to have you!
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This is the intro I posted in Whack The Pack.... The only thing I'm changing is the day... when I wrote this it was Day 1.
Hi folks,
I've been a smoker on and off for 24 years. There have been years of quit for me and the past 10 years I've really been on again, off again. My latest on again I can credit to my impending divorce. I hate being a smoker. Absolutely hate it. Love to smoke... But hate the smoking. Hate the weight in my chest, the tickle in my throat, the smell, the threat of a raspy voice and wrinkles. I thought last time I quit was it. But once again, my arrogance got the best of me. "Oh I won't start again! Just give me one!"
Never again. I am an addict. I'll never be an ex addict. That means five years from now I can't have one any more than I can have one today.
Today is Day 4! I posted in roll call.
Thanks for the support.
So glad to have you quitting with us LHG...see PM for my number. Had fun in chat tonight.
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Hey LionHeartedGirl,
Congratulations for making one of the best decisions of your life and getting off of the nicotine..
Just a couple of administrative questions/notes:
Are you going to "join a group" here and post roll here also besides from WTP?
If so, based on your quit date you would be posting with September '13... If posting in August, post in the support section..
Also, please remember to post your quit day..
Embrace the "suck".. It means your brain is healing from all of the nicotine poison..
You can do this. Stay close to the site, get into chat, PM your "Quit Sisters" a lot..
You will find that even though "They don't know you and you don't know them" you and they will become very close friends..
Take care,
Romandog - 771
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Welcome to a fellow newbie
You can do this and you've come to the right place for support with that. I've whined, moaned, groaned but never failed to get a pat on the back for some encouragement from a handful of caring guys and gals. Just when I think I'm quit for good (like on day 6, 7, 8) I'll have the brilliant thought I can go back for just one more. If you get these thoughts call, PM, read a hall of fame post, just log in and vegetate.
Don't forget daily exercise, maybe the best defense against using N.
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My quit date is May 23rd. I'm posting at WTP and am fine just posting roll there... They have my back! It's exhausting posting roll here from my iPhone! :) Ill definitely hang out in chat sometimes though.
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My quit date is May 23rd. I'm posting at WTP and am fine just posting roll there... They have my back! It's exhausting posting roll here from my iPhone! :) Ill definitely hang out in chat sometimes though.
If you come back and see this, post on both. Double the accountability can't be a bad thing. While I've never gone to WTP, I bet (another addiction) that we are more fun. Oh, have a great Memorial Day and thanks for your service in the USAF. 'usflag'
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We can help you with the posting LHG. glad to be QUIT with you. I see you posted on up and joined the fight. Thank you for your service.
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I will post EVERY DAMN DAY with my group over at WTP. When I can get to my computer, I will post roll here as well just to stand with you guys. However, if that makes people jumpy I certainly don't want 14,000 addicts down my throat and will quietly go back to my quiet little home (WTP) where I have 8 people cheering on my quit. :lol:
Day 6!
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welcome aboard sounds to me like peeps here are ok with it based on the info I have read in the thread...you can never bee too accountable when it comes to this battle. I hear you were in the AF or are in the AF what was/is your AFSC well thats what they used to call it.
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welcome aboard sounds to me like peeps here are ok with it based on the info I have read in the thread...you can never bee too accountable when it comes to this battle. I hear you were in the AF or are in the AF what was/is your AFSC well thats what they used to call it.
Thanks traumagnet! I was a broadcaster so I worked for AFRTS... Spent five years in Panama working for the Southern Command Network (SCN) where I produced, directed, reported, edited and anchored the evening news. Was a fun gig and met a lot of great people.
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Day 6 kinda sucked hard.
Here's how it ended...
One of my closest friends wanted to go out with me tonight but I don't want to drink right now. I've given my promise so I knew I wouldn't smoke but I didn't want to make it even harder on myself. So I told her no drinking and then she kept making it later and later and I have to work tomorrow. And I'm not really feeling like my super peppy normal self right now. She knows I quit smoking and has been bugging me to do it but now it's all basically "you not smoking is ruining my fun!" So she starts sending text after fucking guilt trip text about how she never gets to go out and why won't I go out with her. I'm in bed and SHE COMES TO MY FUCKING HOUSE!!
So I go out there and she's hostile. "You don't want to be with me. I don't need your charity."
Fuck woman. I'm here now!
So we're trying to talk but its not exactly easy at this point. She's texting other people trying to make plans because I'm refusing to go to a bar with her... So I start telling her about this site and you guys. She starts going OFF about how stupid it is and why do I need anyone to quit? That accountability is lame and if I need someone to help me then maybe I'm not very strong. I should just quit for me and it's really dumb and wrong that I'd use anyone as a crutch.
What. The. Fuck.
I got out of the car and left. She's all... Did I make you mad??
Maybe... Just maybe.... I need to be HERE because my actual friends fucking SUCK!
Fuck day 6. I'm going to sleep.
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Day 6 kinda sucked hard.
Here's how it ended...
One of my closest friends wanted to go out with me tonight but I don't want to drink right now. I've given my promise so I knew I wouldn't smoke but I didn't want to make it even harder on myself. So I told her no drinking and then she kept making it later and later and I have to work tomorrow. And I'm not really feeling like my super peppy normal self right now. She knows I quit smoking and has been bugging me to do it but now it's all basically "you not smoking is ruining my fun!" So she starts sending text after fucking guilt trip text about how she never gets to go out and why won't I go out with her. I'm in bed and SHE COMES TO MY FUCKING HOUSE!!
So I go out there and she's hostile. "You don't want to be with me. I don't need your charity."
Fuck woman. I'm here now!
So we're trying to talk but its not exactly easy at this point. She's texting other people trying to make plans because I'm refusing to go to a bar with her... So I start telling her about this site and you guys. She starts going OFF about how stupid it is and why do I need anyone to quit? That accountability is lame and if I need someone to help me then maybe I'm not very strong. I should just quit for me and it's really dumb and wrong that I'd use anyone as a crutch.
What. The. Fuck.
I got out of the car and left. She's all... Did I make you mad??
Maybe... Just maybe.... I need to be HERE because my actual friends fucking SUCK!
Fuck day 6. I'm going to sleep.
A bump in the quit road. If she's truly your friend she will come around and support you.
You need to be selfish right now. And I'm not talking about chosing "us" over "them".
I'm talking soley about doing what is best for YOU.
Your friends aren't going anywhere, bars are not going extinct, nothing says you will NEVER go out for drinks again...just not right now. This is too important. Why tempt fate for the sake of others, when it's YOU who is trying to better YOUR life.
Fact of the matter is that for 24 years you chose to be a slave to cigarettes. That's a long ass time.
You're gonna need some time to deal with this. This is a big change in your life and not one where you can run in all the same circles you once did.
Their are certain tools you need to acquire to learn how to avoid certaing triggers and pitfalls. Until then the best way to avoid them is to eliminate them. Not forever, but just until YOU are comfortable and confident. And you sure as hell don't need anyone laying a guilt trip on you while your going through the process, because you are ruining THEIR fun.
Think of it like this...it might suck right now, and your friend might be pissed at you and you may be stressing over that and other things going on in your life.
But it won't be like this forever.
This is just a small snapshot of suckiness in your life. A snapshot that over time will develope into one of the most beautiful pictures of your life. Because you will have rid yourself of one of the most disgusting, life threatening addictions known to man (or woman).
If one night your girlfriend gets all hella pissed and starts big drama, so what.
You need to keep your eye on the prize and dont let anything get in your way. Because in the end , you are doing the right thing.
You know it, we know it, and even your pissy friend knows it.
Keep up the good work. Need anything. Pm me anytime.
You got this, shiznit!!!!
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Sometimes it scares friends when they see change...it upsets their balance. Another thing is sometimes people use the term friend loosly...a friend would be backing you to do whatever it was to keep you on the planet longer so they could hang with you...a friend would be in it for you they wouldnt want to see you on the ledge...cause caving is on the ledge...you need to protect your quit...never again for any reason is what I play in my head all day long...going through the suck the fog the pain isnt worth it to me someone goating me into a dangerous situation with my quit. Hang in there evaluate whats really going on she wanted to go you didnt want to she got mad and then it became her mission to get you out there... I quit with you today go post roll
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Nicely done lhgirl! That's exactly how it's done: winey friend, winey night? F' it, you're quit. Struggle after damn struggle? F' it, you're quit. Not sure how to make it through? F' it, YOU'RE QUIT! Next time, give her my phone number or just call me and hand the phone to her. I'd love to chat. Accountability is lame? That's a great topic of conversation, we might be a while.
Glad you made it through that. Today, you wake up stronger because of it - every struggle and trial that ends in VICTORY makes you a little stronger. Congratulations of multiple victories last night! Nice 7 days, you're killing it.
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At The Centerline
Brian Blade
give me serenity to accept the things
i cannot change
courage to change the things i can
and the wisdom to know the difference
we won't be forsaken
mercy holds us when we fall
so leave the past behind us
let the moment bring another chance
'cause in my heart, i love you
and only love can make a way
while the war is raging,
can our peace be still
at the centerline,
we will find our balance
a sister's heart and a brother's hand
at the centerline
we will meet the challenge
tear it down and start again
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I like what I'm seeing out of you. Supportive of other quitters, and not afraid to call somebody's bullshit.
Keep it up. You're doing awesome.
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LHG, go on with your bad self. Now there are three badass chick quitters I have a crunch on...
Sage
2mch
Lionheartedgirl
Hey, when's the wet T-shirt contest? I think I wanna enter now!!!
'fireman'
Hose me down and call me "Philisha"
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LHG, go on with your bad self. Now there are three badass chick quitters I have a crunch on...
Sage
2mch
Lionheartedgirl
Hey, when's the wet T-shirt contest? I think I wanna enter now!!!
'fireman'
Hose me down and call me "Philisha"
um did you forget racetrackcowgirl?
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LHG, go on with your bad self. Now there are three badass chick quitters I have a crunch on...
Sage
2mch
Lionheartedgirl
Hey, when's the wet T-shirt contest? I think I wanna enter now!!!
'fireman'
Hose me down and call me "Philisha"
um did you forget racetrackcowgirl?
Take all your hormones and fantasies to your own thread boys! Lol
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LHG, go on with your bad self. Now there are three badass chick quitters I have a crunch on...
Sage
2mch
Lionheartedgirl
Hey, when's the wet T-shirt contest? I think I wanna enter now!!!
'fireman'
Hose me down and call me "Philisha"
We are lucky to have such awesome badass female quitters here. Don't foget about racetrackcowgirl.
I wouldnt mess with anyone of them. You'd be icing your sack for a week.
Quit on!!!!
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LHG, go on with your bad self. Now there are three badass chick quitters I have a crunch on...
Sage
2mch
Lionheartedgirl
Hey, when's the wet T-shirt contest? I think I wanna enter now!!!
'fireman'
Hose me down and call me "Philisha"
um did you forget racetrackcowgirl?
Well no, I didn't forget her. I just haven't had the opportunity to know her like I do the other three but NOT in the biblical sense of "know", that's reserved for my man crush on the one known as Loot...
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LHG, go on with your bad self. Now there are three badass chick quitters I have a crunch on...
Sage
2mch
Lionheartedgirl
Hey, when's the wet T-shirt contest? I think I wanna enter now!!!
'fireman'
Hose me down and call me "Philisha"
um did you forget racetrackcowgirl?
Well no, I didn't forget her. I just haven't had the opportunity to know her like I do the other three but NOT in the biblical sense of "know", that's reserved for my man crush on the one known as Loot...
Read her intro and what she did to beat a crave one time.
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LHG, go on with your bad self. Now there are three badass chick quitters I have a crunch on...
Sage
2mch
Lionheartedgirl
Hey, when's the wet T-shirt contest? I think I wanna enter now!!!
'fireman'
Hose me down and call me "Philisha"
um did you forget racetrackcowgirl?
Well no, I didn't forget her. I just haven't had the opportunity to know her like I do the other three but NOT in the biblical sense of "know", that's reserved for my man crush on the one known as Loot...
Read her intro and what she did to beat a crave one time.
second that one dies...my favorite post maybe ever
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LHG, go on with your bad self. Now there are three badass chick quitters I have a crunch on...
Sage
2mch
Lionheartedgirl
Hey, when's the wet T-shirt contest? I think I wanna enter now!!!
'fireman'
Hose me down and call me "Philisha"
um did you forget racetrackcowgirl?
Well no, I didn't forget her. I just haven't had the opportunity to know her like I do the other three but NOT in the biblical sense of "know", that's reserved for my man crush on the one known as Loot...
Read her intro and what she did to beat a crave one time.
second that one dies...my favorite post maybe ever
Holy SHIT-TAKY Mushroom. She is badass.
Yeah, she is on the list. DAAAAAAAMN.......
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LHG, go on with your bad self. Now there are three badass chick quitters I have a crunch on...
Sage
2mch
Lionheartedgirl
Hey, when's the wet T-shirt contest? I think I wanna enter now!!!
'fireman'
Hose me down and call me "Philisha"
um did you forget racetrackcowgirl?
Take all your hormones and fantasies to your own thread boys! Lol
Appears that Phil thinks KTC is eharmony.com....Hope all is going well LHG
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LHG, go on with your bad self. Now there are three badass chick quitters I have a crunch on...
Sage
2mch
Lionheartedgirl
Hey, when's the wet T-shirt contest? I think I wanna enter now!!!
'fireman'
Hose me down and call me "Philisha"
um did you forget racetrackcowgirl?
Take all your hormones and fantasies to your own thread boys! Lol
Appears that Phil thinks KTC is eharmony.com....Hope all is going well LHG
Wait? This ain't a pick up site???? Dammit, then who have I been giving my number to? That would explain all the naked pics of Loots junk I've been getting. Between him and Waste...... I just don't know. I'm sorry BigWhite.
I'll go back to the Wildcards for hook ups....
:D
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LHG, go on with your bad self. Now there are three badass chick quitters I have a crunch on...
Sage
2mch
Lionheartedgirl
Hey, when's the wet T-shirt contest? I think I wanna enter now!!!
'fireman'
Hose me down and call me "Philisha"
um did you forget racetrackcowgirl?
Take all your hormones and fantasies to your own thread boys! Lol
Appears that Phil thinks KTC is eharmony.com....Hope all is going well LHG
THANK YOU! Finally someone comes in and defends the honor of my thread!
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LHG, go on with your bad self. Now there are three badass chick quitters I have a crunch on...
Sage
2mch
Lionheartedgirl
Hey, when's the wet T-shirt contest? I think I wanna enter now!!!
'fireman'
Hose me down and call me "Philisha"
um did you forget racetrackcowgirl?
Take all your hormones and fantasies to your own thread boys! Lol
Appears that Phil thinks KTC is eharmony.com....Hope all is going well LHG
THANK YOU! Finally someone comes in and defends the honor of my thread!
OH MY GAWD, Gurl I KNOW you didn't jus go der! (snaps fingers, rolls eyes, AND twists neck).....
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LHG, go on with your bad self. Now there are three badass chick quitters I have a crunch on...
Sage
2mch
Lionheartedgirl
Hey, when's the wet T-shirt contest? I think I wanna enter now!!!
'fireman'
Hose me down and call me "Philisha"
um did you forget racetrackcowgirl?
Take all your hormones and fantasies to your own thread boys! Lol
Appears that Phil thinks KTC is eharmony.com....Hope all is going well LHG
THANK YOU! Finally someone comes in and defends the honor of my thread!
OH MY GAWD, Gurl I KNOW you didn't jus go der! (snaps fingers, rolls eyes, AND twists neck).....
LHG is too classy to whore around on her thread boys... This is a nicotine quitting site and the women here (well, most of us) are here to QLF not flaunt our sexy asses 'arse' I would hate for my quit brothers to get in trouble with their wives because a female quitter requires a little extra attention so acts slutty to get it. You should all respect that and keep the fantasies off the intros... They are open to everyone not just members.
My .02
:wub: you LHG... Keep rocking the bad ass quit!!!
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LHG, go on with your bad self. Now there are three badass chick quitters I have a crunch on...
Sage
2mch
Lionheartedgirl
Hey, when's the wet T-shirt contest? I think I wanna enter now!!!
'fireman'
Hose me down and call me "Philisha"
um did you forget racetrackcowgirl?
Take all your hormones and fantasies to your own thread boys! Lol
Appears that Phil thinks KTC is eharmony.com....Hope all is going well LHG
THANK YOU! Finally someone comes in and defends the honor of my thread!
OH MY GAWD, Gurl I KNOW you didn't jus go der! (snaps fingers, rolls eyes, AND twists neck).....
LHG is too classy to whore around on her thread boys... This is a nicotine quitting site and the women here (well, most of us) are here to QLF not flaunt our sexy asses 'arse' I would hate for my quit brothers to get in trouble with their wives because a female quitter requires a little extra attention so acts slutty to get it. You should all respect that and keep the fantasies off the intros... They are open to everyone not just members.
My .02
:wub: you LHG... Keep rocking the bad ass quit!!!
I adore this GORGEOUS and SEXY woman!
"Hate" THAT.
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LHG, go on with your bad self. Now there are three badass chick quitters I have a crunch on...
Sage
2mch
Lionheartedgirl
Hey, when's the wet T-shirt contest? I think I wanna enter now!!!
'fireman'
Hose me down and call me "Philisha"
um did you forget racetrackcowgirl?
Take all your hormones and fantasies to your own thread boys! Lol
Appears that Phil thinks KTC is eharmony.com....Hope all is going well LHG
THANK YOU! Finally someone comes in and defends the honor of my thread!
OH MY GAWD, Gurl I KNOW you didn't jus go der! (snaps fingers, rolls eyes, AND twists neck).....
LHG is too classy to whore around on her thread boys... This is a nicotine quitting site and the women here (well, most of us) are here to QLF not flaunt our sexy asses 'arse' I would hate for my quit brothers to get in trouble with their wives because a female quitter requires a little extra attention so acts slutty to get it. You should all respect that and keep the fantasies off the intros... They are open to everyone not just members.
My .02
:wub: you LHG... Keep rocking the bad ass quit!!!
I adore this GORGEOUS and SEXY woman!
"Hate" THAT.
Geez, a guy trys to have a little fun to keep his weak mind focused on staying quit, and he gets shot down.... I'm crushed.....
Fine, I'll go back to the Wildcard room. At least LOOT and GMANN show some skin from time to time there.
:rolleyes:
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I just have to put this out there...
You, my friend, are amazing! We've been talking since the first few days of your quit and your integrity amazes me. You're a thoughtful, honest, loving woman with a great sense of humor and a big heart. My quit is stronger because of you.
I just wanted to say thank you. It's so great to have a few gals to 'hang out with'. Seriously loving you, Sage and Mrs. Cdaniels. Keep rocking it!!
:wub:
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19 days... Barely into my quit. This one is so different though. It's not difficult in the sense that I'm not fighting temptation. I gave my word. I'm keeping it. That's simple. So the cravings are annoyances but nothing against my web of support. I feel a little like I've built Fort Knox for a petty criminal but then I remember how many times I THOUGHT I had "finally quit for good this time" and I realize how cunning and destructive this adversary has actually been. So Fort Knox it is.
19 days in and I now understand "guard your quit". I'm guarding it with my life.
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LHG, go on with your bad self. Now there are three badass chick quitters I have a crunch on...
Sage
2mch
Lionheartedgirl
Hey, when's the wet T-shirt contest? I think I wanna enter now!!!
'fireman'
Hose me down and call me "Philisha"
um did you forget racetrackcowgirl?
Take all your hormones and fantasies to your own thread boys! Lol
Appears that Phil thinks KTC is eharmony.com....Hope all is going well LHG
THANK YOU! Finally someone comes in and defends the honor of my thread!
OH MY GAWD, Gurl I KNOW you didn't jus go der! (snaps fingers, rolls eyes, AND twists neck).....
LHG is too classy to whore around on her thread boys... This is a nicotine quitting site and the women here (well, most of us) are here to QLF not flaunt our sexy asses 'arse' I would hate for my quit brothers to get in trouble with their wives because a female quitter requires a little extra attention so acts slutty to get it. You should all respect that and keep the fantasies off the intros... They are open to everyone not just members.
My .02
:wub: you LHG... Keep rocking the bad ass quit!!!
I adore this GORGEOUS and SEXY woman!
"Hate" THAT.
Geez, a guy trys to have a little fun to keep his weak mind focused on staying quit, and he gets shot down.... I'm crushed.....
Fine, I'll go back to the Wildcard room. At least LOOT and GMANN show some skin from time to time there.
:rolleyes:
LooT's a total slut. He's not even in the same league as me.
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19 days... Barely into my quit. This one is so different though. It's not difficult in the sense that I'm not fighting temptation. I gave my word. I'm keeping it. That's simple. So the cravings are annoyances but nothing against my web of support. I feel a little like I've built Fort Knox for a petty criminal but then I remember how many times I THOUGHT I had "finally quit for good this time" and I realize how cunning and destructive this adversary has actually been. So Fort Knox it is.
19 days in and I now understand "guard your quit". I'm guarding it with my life.
That's how it's done, LHG! You and only you are in control of your own quit. Shit happens and we move on, or at least for the sake of our quit we all should. You're a great support to many quitters and have a good heart. Don't let anyone tell you differently. When you forget why you're here is when you cave... I'm here to QLF and happen to meet some if the greatest people in the process. We support each other and have each others backs. So many people come and go from this place, mostly ones that weren't here to quit to begin with. Don't let them or their small group of admirers get in the way of why you are here.
I quit with you, D... Every damn day ODAAT!
'clap'
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19 days... Barely into my quit. This one is so different though. It's not difficult in the sense that I'm not fighting temptation. I gave my word. I'm keeping it. That's simple. So the cravings are annoyances but nothing against my web of support. I feel a little like I've built Fort Knox for a petty criminal but then I remember how many times I THOUGHT I had "finally quit for good this time" and I realize how cunning and destructive this adversary has actually been. So Fort Knox it is.
19 days in and I now understand "guard your quit". I'm guarding it with my life.
That's how it's done, LHG! You and only you are in control of your own quit. Shit happens and we move on, or at least for the sake of our quit we all should. You're a great support to many quitters and have a good heart. Don't let anyone tell you differently. When you forget why you're here is when you cave... I'm here to QLF and happen to meet some if the greatest people in the process. We support each other and have each others backs. So many people come and go from this place, mostly ones that weren't here to quit to begin with. Don't let them or their small group of admirers get in the way of why you are here.
I quit with you, D... Every damn day ODAAT!
'clap'
Happy to quit with you every damn day LHG!!!
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19 days... Barely into my quit. This one is so different though. It's not difficult in the sense that I'm not fighting temptation. I gave my word. I'm keeping it. That's simple. So the cravings are annoyances but nothing against my web of support. I feel a little like I've built Fort Knox for a petty criminal but then I remember how many times I THOUGHT I had "finally quit for good this time" and I realize how cunning and destructive this adversary has actually been. So Fort Knox it is.
19 days in and I now understand "guard your quit". I'm guarding it with my life.
That's how it's done, LHG! You and only you are in control of your own quit. Shit happens and we move on, or at least for the sake of our quit we all should. You're a great support to many quitters and have a good heart. Don't let anyone tell you differently. When you forget why you're here is when you cave... I'm here to QLF and happen to meet some if the greatest people in the process. We support each other and have each others backs. So many people come and go from this place, mostly ones that weren't here to quit to begin with. Don't let them or their small group of admirers get in the way of why you are here.
I quit with you, D... Every damn day ODAAT!
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Happy to quit with you every damn day LHG!!!
Great attitude LHG, I know exactly what your saying. Just don't start thinking about forever just yet. Focus on today. I quit with you today, I am getting the impression that you are not messing around. You should guard it with your life, it is your very life that depends upon it. Remind me to tell you a story next time I see you in chat.
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19 days... Barely into my quit. This one is so different though. It's not difficult in the sense that I'm not fighting temptation. I gave my word. I'm keeping it. That's simple. So the cravings are annoyances but nothing against my web of support. I feel a little like I've built Fort Knox for a petty criminal but then I remember how many times I THOUGHT I had "finally quit for good this time" and I realize how cunning and destructive this adversary has actually been. So Fort Knox it is.
19 days in and I now understand "guard your quit". I'm guarding it with my life.
That's how it's done, LHG! You and only you are in control of your own quit. Shit happens and we move on, or at least for the sake of our quit we all should. You're a great support to many quitters and have a good heart. Don't let anyone tell you differently. When you forget why you're here is when you cave... I'm here to QLF and happen to meet some if the greatest people in the process. We support each other and have each others backs. So many people come and go from this place, mostly ones that weren't here to quit to begin with. Don't let them or their small group of admirers get in the way of why you are here.
I quit with you, D... Every damn day ODAAT!
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Happy to quit with you every damn day LHG!!!
Great attitude LHG, I know exactly what your saying. Just don't start thinking about forever just yet. Focus on today. I quit with you today, I am getting the impression that you are not messing around. You should guard it with your life, it is your very life that depends upon it. Remind me to tell you a story next time I see you in chat.
Nicely said, LHG. Fort Knox - I dig that. Outstanding attitude.
There's always talk about burning boats, bridges, and pilings. Pretty sure I smell smoke in here.
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19 days... Barely into my quit. This one is so different though. It's not difficult in the sense that I'm not fighting temptation. I gave my word. I'm keeping it. That's simple. So the cravings are annoyances but nothing against my web of support. I feel a little like I've built Fort Knox for a petty criminal but then I remember how many times I THOUGHT I had "finally quit for good this time" and I realize how cunning and destructive this adversary has actually been. So Fort Knox it is.
19 days in and I now understand "guard your quit". I'm guarding it with my life.
That's how it's done, LHG! You and only you are in control of your own quit. Shit happens and we move on, or at least for the sake of our quit we all should. You're a great support to many quitters and have a good heart. Don't let anyone tell you differently. When you forget why you're here is when you cave... I'm here to QLF and happen to meet some if the greatest people in the process. We support each other and have each others backs. So many people come and go from this place, mostly ones that weren't here to quit to begin with. Don't let them or their small group of admirers get in the way of why you are here.
I quit with you, D... Every damn day ODAAT!
'clap'
Happy to quit with you every damn day LHG!!!
Great attitude LHG, I know exactly what your saying. Just don't start thinking about forever just yet. Focus on today. I quit with you today, I am getting the impression that you are not messing around. You should guard it with your life, it is your very life that depends upon it. Remind me to tell you a story next time I see you in chat.
Nicely said, LHG. Fort Knox - I dig that. Outstanding attitude.
There's always talk about burning boats, bridges, and pilings. Pretty sure I smell smoke in here.
I quit with u today girl keep up the quit i got ur back!!!
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19 days... Barely into my quit. This one is so different though. It's not difficult in the sense that I'm not fighting temptation. I gave my word. I'm keeping it. That's simple. So the cravings are annoyances but nothing against my web of support. I feel a little like I've built Fort Knox for a petty criminal but then I remember how many times I THOUGHT I had "finally quit for good this time" and I realize how cunning and destructive this adversary has actually been. So Fort Knox it is.
19 days in and I now understand "guard your quit". I'm guarding it with my life.
That's how it's done, LHG! You and only you are in control of your own quit. Shit happens and we move on, or at least for the sake of our quit we all should. You're a great support to many quitters and have a good heart. Don't let anyone tell you differently. When you forget why you're here is when you cave... I'm here to QLF and happen to meet some if the greatest people in the process. We support each other and have each others backs. So many people come and go from this place, mostly ones that weren't here to quit to begin with. Don't let them or their small group of admirers get in the way of why you are here.
I quit with you, D... Every damn day ODAAT!
'clap'
Happy to quit with you every damn day LHG!!!
Great attitude LHG, I know exactly what your saying. Just don't start thinking about forever just yet. Focus on today. I quit with you today, I am getting the impression that you are not messing around. You should guard it with your life, it is your very life that depends upon it. Remind me to tell you a story next time I see you in chat.
Nicely said, LHG. Fort Knox - I dig that. Outstanding attitude.
There's always talk about burning boats, bridges, and pilings. Pretty sure I smell smoke in here.
I quit with u today girl keep up the quit i got ur back!!!
digging the "quit sisterhood"! Showing us gents a thing or two about support!
LHG, that attitude will carry you far, keep up the good work. Proud of you.
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Said it earlier in chat... gonna say it here too.
You, my friend, rock. Proud of you... proud to quit with you!
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Said it earlier in chat... gonna say it here too.
You, my friend, rock. Proud of you... proud to quit with you!
This quit is special. You know why. Because your worth it. Your worth never letting a filthy disgusting piece of paper with poison in it come close to you again lhg. No more will poison steal years from your life. Your family, friends (ktc included) like having you around. Nafar lhg because your worth it. I quit with you today.
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Said it earlier in chat... gonna say it here too.
You, my friend, rock. Proud of you... proud to quit with you!
This quit is special. You know why. Because your worth it. Your worth never letting a filthy disgusting piece of paper with poison in it come close to you again lhg. No more will poison steal years from your life. Your family, friends (ktc included) like having you around. Nafar lhg because your worth it. I quit with you today.
I have the extreme pleasure and honor of knowing LHG in real life. I can personally attest to her incredible spirit and compassion. She has touched my heart beyond belief.
Thank you LHG...
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Said it earlier in chat... gonna say it here too.
You, my friend, rock. Proud of you... proud to quit with you!
BAM!!!
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Said it earlier in chat... gonna say it here too.
You, my friend, rock. Proud of you... proud to quit with you!
This quit is special. You know why. Because your worth it. Your worth never letting a filthy disgusting piece of paper with poison in it come close to you again lhg. No more will poison steal years from your life. Your family, friends (ktc included) like having you around. Nafar lhg because your worth it. I quit with you today.
I have the extreme pleasure and honor of knowing LHG in real life. I can personally attest to her incredible spirit and compassion. She has touched my heart beyond belief.
Thank you LHG...
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If you've been in chat you know I've been pursuing KTC history lessons from the vets. (If you haven't been to chat, what are you waiting for?). I'm fascinated by the culture of this site, the Original Seven, how it is currently run, past epic dramas and caves and retreads.
The vets particularly fascinate me and how they choose to mentor, cajole, herd, call out and ass chew the newbies. My quit group polices it's own pretty well but that's because some vets came in and mentored up leaders. But still the vets are here, posting support, welcoming Day 1's and popping into chat. It's a beautiful system that works amazingly well.
Tonight I visited the intros and saw four or five of them bumped up to the top. Per had found out who missed roll, found their threads and pulled out their own words to try to remind them to come back. Don't give up. Save your life. He was hard but compassionate. I was impressed and shot him a PM to tell him so. He seemed surprised by my reaction and when I explained that I would hope to post that kind of support one day he said that he fell from grace once, knows what it's like and wants to give back. Well, now I'm curious. So I read his story. After over 400 days.... He caved. And then he came back and posted day 1. But not before he broke hearts, angered people, destroyed trust and completely humbled himself. It was tragic and beautiful and cautionary and hopeful. And I'm so glad it's part of the KTC story.
Per reflected on his cave and subsequent retread a lot. You can read part of his story here:
index.php?showtopic=4667st=0 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=4667&st=0)
At one point he seemingly despaired that he would always be an addict and his day 10,000 would not be stronger against his day 1 in the face of "just one". There was definite fear in that. I know I'm just a 21 day newbie but I have a different perspective. See, before I found this site I was afraid. Before I accepted the fact that I'm an addict I wondered when I would be able to get back my "social smoker" status. How long would I have to wait before I could have "just one"? I had "quit" and restarted more times than I can count. I wondered if I'd ever break the cycle. Coming here, I realized the answer to those questions is NEVER.
Never.
I QUIT for TODAY. But there is tremendous freedom in knowing I will never have to try to find the balance. I will never have to manage my "habit". For me it is simple. "Just one" is a cave. "Just one" is too much. I'm quit for today, yes. I don't have to think about being quit forever but knowing that I will never have to deal with HOPING I can "handle it this time" has brought sweet relief. Not fear.
Per, I don't know if you still feel gripping fear. I don't know if you still feel shame. I sincerely hope not. You live every day free and you have something so many don't: full understanding of what "just one" means. Guard it. And enjoy your freedom. God knows you've paid your dues.
I quit with you today
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Danielle,
You said, " don't know if you still feel gripping fear. I don't know if you still feel shame. I sincerely hope not."
I am a noob but I don't want to lose track of fear and shame. If I remember them, then it will fuel my desire to be a different person now, the quitter I have become.
There is no "shame" in the past. It was just a series of daily poor choices that, for me, lasted 16+ years. I can't change the past but I can choose to not repeat those actions today.
:)
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Excellent post, LHG. It all comes down to this: NAFAR.
That's the reason those words are under my avatar. Means a lot more than "floozie", or whatever auto-populate term would be there.
Evil_Won makes a great point:.....fear and shame. If I remember them, then it will fuel my desire to be a different person now, the quitter I have become.
For me, those are value-adders for what we're accomplishing here. We know how damn hard this is, and that drives me to protect it at all costs. That's why I'm still here.
Do I need to be here? Could my quit survive if I left KTC and moved on? I don't know for sure, and I'm not willing to find out. So, today I posted another +1.
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Danielle,
You said, " don't know if you still feel gripping fear. I don't know if you still feel shame. I sincerely hope not."
I am a noob but I don't want to lose track of fear and shame. If I remember them, then it will fuel my desire to be a different person now, the quitter I have become.
There is no "shame" in the past. It was just a series of daily poor choices that, for me, lasted 16+ years. I can't change the past but I can choose to not repeat those actions today.
:)
I agree the past should never be forgetten but that is different than living in constant fear because of the past. That is what I'm talking about. I don't want to lose track. I want to remember. But I also want to enjoy my freedom without shame and guilt.
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Danielle,
You said, " don't know if you still feel gripping fear. I don't know if you still feel shame. I sincerely hope not."
I am a noob but I don't want to lose track of fear and shame. If I remember them, then it will fuel my desire to be a different person now, the quitter I have become.
There is no "shame" in the past. It was just a series of daily poor choices that, for me, lasted 16+ years. I can't change the past but I can choose to not repeat those actions today.
:)
I agree the past should never be forgetten but that is different than living in constant fear because of the past. That is what I'm talking about. I don't want to lose track. I want to remember. But I also want to enjoy my freedom without shame and guilt.
Keep the fear and shame in a bottle for emergencies only and remember Character and Integrity on a daily basis!!!!
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Danielle,
You said, " don't know if you still feel gripping fear. I don't know if you still feel shame. I sincerely hope not."
I am a noob but I don't want to lose track of fear and shame. If I remember them, then it will fuel my desire to be a different person now, the quitter I have become.
There is no "shame" in the past. It was just a series of daily poor choices that, for me, lasted 16+ years. I can't change the past but I can choose to not repeat those actions today.
:)
I agree the past should never be forgetten but that is different than living in constant fear because of the past. That is what I'm talking about. I don't want to lose track. I want to remember. But I also want to enjoy my freedom without shame and guilt.
Keep the fear and shame in a bottle for emergencies only and remember Character and Integrity on a daily basis!!!!
Love that! So many useful applications too - not just quitting.
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Danielle,
You said, " don't know if you still feel gripping fear. I don't know if you still feel shame. I sincerely hope not."
I am a noob but I don't want to lose track of fear and shame. If I remember them, then it will fuel my desire to be a different person now, the quitter I have become.
There is no "shame" in the past. It was just a series of daily poor choices that, for me, lasted 16+ years. I can't change the past but I can choose to not repeat those actions today.
:)
I agree the past should never be forgetten but that is different than living in constant fear because of the past. That is what I'm talking about. I don't want to lose track. I want to remember. But I also want to enjoy my freedom without shame and guilt.
Keep the fear and shame in a bottle for emergencies only and remember Character and Integrity on a daily basis!!!!
fear and shame fade
Hold onto the memory of how badly you wanted to quit.
Remember all the broken promises, all the failed attempts, all the prayers and gimmicks and lies. Remember all the false starts all the resolutions. Remember the hundreds and thousands of "tomorrows" .
Congratulate yourself on every victory but be patient.
Hold onto your freedom. Enjoy not being tethered to a can.
Savor the absence of nagging fear.
Celebrate longer life, better health, stronger relationships.
Let go of your expectations around quitting. Just Quit
Accept all the craves, the mood swings, the anxiety, the withdrawls.
Like waves they will crash in then recede back to calm.
Life will still be harsh.Expect that. Addiction only compounds the problem.
No reason is good enough to sell your soul, the climbs too hard to throw away.
Quitting is as simple as you choose to make it. It is the imaginary constructs of your mind that makes it seem difficult.
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Well played skoal monster, well played.
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Danielle,
You said, " don't know if you still feel gripping fear. I don't know if you still feel shame. I sincerely hope not."
I am a noob but I don't want to lose track of fear and shame. If I remember them, then it will fuel my desire to be a different person now, the quitter I have become.
There is no "shame" in the past. It was just a series of daily poor choices that, for me, lasted 16+ years. I can't change the past but I can choose to not repeat those actions today.
:)
I agree the past should never be forgetten but that is different than living in constant fear because of the past. That is what I'm talking about. I don't want to lose track. I want to remember. But I also want to enjoy my freedom without shame and guilt.
Keep the fear and shame in a bottle for emergencies only and remember Character and Integrity on a daily basis!!!!
fear and shame fade
Hold onto the memory of how badly you wanted to quit.
Remember all the broken promises, all the failed attempts, all the prayers and gimmicks and lies. Remember all the false starts all the resolutions. Remember the hundreds and thousands of "tomorrows" .
Congratulate yourself on every victory but be patient.
Hold onto your freedom. Enjoy not being tethered to a can.
Savor the absence of nagging fear.
Celebrate longer life, better health, stronger relationships.
Let go of your expectations around quitting. Just Quit
Accept all the craves, the mood swings, the anxiety, the withdrawls.
Like waves they will crash in then recede back to calm.
Life will still be harsh.Expect that. Addiction only compounds the problem.
No reason is good enough to sell your soul, the climbs too hard to throw away.
Quitting is as simple as you choose to make it. It is the imaginary constructs of your mind that makes it seem difficult.
Damn SM, I miss that shit. LHG, when SM steps out of the woodwork to help a quitter you better listen up. He sees some value and potential in your quit. Hold these words close to your heart.
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Danielle,
You said, " don't know if you still feel gripping fear. I don't know if you still feel shame. I sincerely hope not."
I am a noob but I don't want to lose track of fear and shame. If I remember them, then it will fuel my desire to be a different person now, the quitter I have become.
There is no "shame" in the past. It was just a series of daily poor choices that, for me, lasted 16+ years. I can't change the past but I can choose to not repeat those actions today.
:)
I agree the past should never be forgetten but that is different than living in constant fear because of the past. That is what I'm talking about. I don't want to lose track. I want to remember. But I also want to enjoy my freedom without shame and guilt.
Keep the fear and shame in a bottle for emergencies only and remember Character and Integrity on a daily basis!!!!
fear and shame fade
Hold onto the memory of how badly you wanted to quit.
Remember all the broken promises, all the failed attempts, all the prayers and gimmicks and lies. Remember all the false starts all the resolutions. Remember the hundreds and thousands of "tomorrows" .
Congratulate yourself on every victory but be patient.
Hold onto your freedom. Enjoy not being tethered to a can.
Savor the absence of nagging fear.
Celebrate longer life, better health, stronger relationships.
Let go of your expectations around quitting. Just Quit
Accept all the craves, the mood swings, the anxiety, the withdrawls.
Like waves they will crash in then recede back to calm.
Life will still be harsh.Expect that. Addiction only compounds the problem.
No reason is good enough to sell your soul, the climbs too hard to throw away.
Quitting is as simple as you choose to make it. It is the imaginary constructs of your mind that makes it seem difficult.
Damn SM, I miss that shit. LHG, when SM steps out of the woodwork to help a quitter you better listen up. He sees some value and potential in your quit. Hold these words close to your heart.
Ditto, I'm stealing this for me and my quit. SM comments can't be wasted.
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SM, thank you. I am genuinely honored you posted that in my thread. I LOVE what you wrote and have read it several times.
Tonight I hosted a baby shower. It was a nighttime coed baby shower so the punch had the option to be spiked... Which I did. Now, I have turned down most opportunities to drink this early in my quit but I'm not a drink to excess girl and the environment was very safe. I thought.
I really hit it off with one of the guests whom I did not know. We chatted away and then she announced she's a smoker and went outside. A few drinks... Social smoking.... Tough day... In my former life this would have kicked my addict brain into high "justify mode" and I would have been buying a pack tomorrow.
But there was zero temptation. There was a definite awareness of a crave but not for one second did I consider it. I can thank KTC for that... And the fact that I truly understand that I'm an addict.
I accept the craves., the mood swings, the anxiety and the withdrawals.
I will let them crash like waves and recede into the calm.
The wall they are crashing against is Fort Knox. I had a fleeting thought.... Too many people have my number to even THINK about it. Thank you all for having my back. Just knowing you're there is enough for tonight.
Bring on tomorrow.
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SM, thank you. I am genuinely honored you posted that in my thread. I LOVE what you wrote and have read it several times.
Tonight I hosted a baby shower. It was a nighttime coed baby shower so the punch had the option to be spiked... Which I did. Now, I have turned down most opportunities to drink this early in my quit but I'm not a drink to excess girl and the environment was very safe. I thought.
I really hit it off with one of the guests whom I did not know. We chatted away and then she announced she's a smoker and went outside. A few drinks... Social smoking.... Tough day... In my former life this would have kicked my addict brain into high "justify mode" and I would have been buying a pack tomorrow.
But there was zero temptation. There was a definite awareness of a crave but not for one second did I consider it. I can thank KTC for that... And the fact that I truly understand that I'm an addict.
I accept the craves., the mood swings, the anxiety and the withdrawals.
I will let them crash like waves and recede into the calm.
The wall they are crashing against is Fort Knox. I had a fleeting thought.... Too many people have my number to even THINK about it. Thank you all for having my back. Just knowing you're there is enough for tonight.
Bring on tomorrow.
Nice LHG, It's great to know that, when you think hhhmm, maybe just one, you will have to fess up to all of these people you don't know. The accountability makes all the difference in the world. I quit with you today.
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Never mind.
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Never mind.
Very enlightening lhg. I like it. I might have to use that one day.
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Never mind.
Very enlightening lhg. I like it. I might have to use that one day.
I do what I can. :D
I decided not to air our dirty laundry for posterity. You can see what I wrote in August.
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Day 33 Letter To My Quit Group:
Hey Brothers...
My heart is heavy tonight. Do y'all read the intros? If not, seriously... Start reading the intros! Every one of us should HAVE one and update it every so often.
In intros right now there's another retread. Guy coming in begging forgiveness and talking about how dumb he was and how much he needs this place. After 120 days quit he didn't think it was that important anymore to post roll. Figured he had it beat. And he caved. He had been active too. Was a "bad ass quitter" at one point. Except he wasn't. He was arrogant and complacent. And not in a horrible way... In a "it was a busy weekend and I'm still quit even though I didn't post roll!" kinda way. My heart is heavy because we range from just 31-59 days and already I see the complacency. I see the post and run. I see that we're gonna lose some. I can guess which ones will go first.
And it makes me so sad. Guys... Some if you were "stoppers". You stopped, you started, you stopped, you started... For others... You took your first dip and never looked back until you quit. No matter what category you fall into we share something. We are addicts. And the minute we lose sight of that. The minute we start to think... "I've got this! It feels great! It's easy!" we have opened the door a crack to let her back in. Is posting roll at KTC the only way possible to quit nicotine? No. But it's the best way. I've looked at the stats. They aren't good. This place is insurance. Don't think of it as keeping dip at the forefront of your mind... It's keeping QUIT at the forefront. We can enjoy our freedom and our good days but GUARD YOUR QUIT. It takes... At the very most, a few minutes to post roll or text someone to do it for you if you don't have wireless somewhere. If you do that for the rest of your life... How much time have you invested in your quit? I'll tell you the answer. The exact right amount of time.
For those of you in the leper colony telling us all what a great weekend you had and how great it is to be quit... Please read the intros today. Look at the guys coming back after making HOF. Look at wastepanel's story. And think of the hundreds... Maybe thousands... Who didn't come back but are slowly committing suicide as we speak. Guard your quit men. I like you guys and I'm sure you all have relatively nice faces.
Commit to posting 100%.
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Day 33 Letter To My Quit Group:
Hey Brothers...
My heart is heavy tonight. Do y'all read the intros? If not, seriously... Start reading the intros! Every one of us should HAVE one and update it every so often.
In intros right now there's another retread. Guy coming in begging forgiveness and talking about how dumb he was and how much he needs this place. After 120 days quit he didn't think it was that important anymore to post roll. Figured he had it beat. And he caved. He had been active too. Was a "bad ass quitter" at one point. Except he wasn't. He was arrogant and complacent. And not in a horrible way... In a "it was a busy weekend and I'm still quit even though I didn't post roll!" kinda way. My heart is heavy because we range from just 31-59 days and already I see the complacency. I see the post and run. I see that we're gonna lose some. I can guess which ones will go first.
And it makes me so sad. Guys... Some if you were "stoppers". You stopped, you started, you stopped, you started... For others... You took your first dip and never looked back until you quit. No matter what category you fall into we share something. We are addicts. And the minute we lose sight of that. The minute we start to think... "I've got this! It feels great! It's easy!" we have opened the door a crack to let her back in. Is posting roll at KTC the only way possible to quit nicotine? No. But it's the best way. I've looked at the stats. They aren't good. This place is insurance. Don't think of it as keeping dip at the forefront of your mind... It's keeping QUIT at the forefront. We can enjoy our freedom and our good days but GUARD YOUR QUIT. It takes... At the very most, a few minutes to post roll or text someone to do it for you if you don't have wireless somewhere. If you do that for the rest of your life... How much time have you invested in your quit? I'll tell you the answer. The exact right amount of time.
For those of you in the leper colony telling us all what a great weekend you had and how great it is to be quit... Please read the intros today. Look at the guys coming back after making HOF. Look at wastepanel's story. And think of the hundreds... Maybe thousands... Who didn't come back but are slowly committing suicide as we speak. Guard your quit men. I like you guys and I'm sure you all have relatively nice faces.
Commit to posting 100%.
Nicotine is a drug, and your senses are drugged. Your taste buds, your feelings in your gums and lips, your sense of smell if you smoked. I think people forget just how powerful a drug it really is.
The worst part of continuing to chew isn't the fear of what it can do to your health or the hit it will put on your wallet. It's the warping of your mind. You will search for any plausable EXCUSE to keep on using.
I honestly believe that's why so many cave after they leave here.
Alone, your mind can talk you into using again. The devil in one ear eventually overpowers the angel on the other.
Post roll and stay on KTC, and you don't have such a mismatch. You not only keep yourself accountable but you have support from a ton of little angels that will be in your ear far more than the devil.
Read the story of the cavers who are coming back. They are basically saying the same thing.
Stick around boys and girls.
Everyone is in such a damn hurry to grow up. They end up leaving home, fall flat on their face and if they're smart they come crawling back. Its a tough and disheartening watch sometimes.
Slow your roll, quitting ain't easy.
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Day 33 Letter To My Quit Group:
Hey Brothers...
My heart is heavy tonight. Do y'all read the intros? If not, seriously... Start reading the intros! Every one of us should HAVE one and update it every so often.
In intros right now there's another retread. Guy coming in begging forgiveness and talking about how dumb he was and how much he needs this place. After 120 days quit he didn't think it was that important anymore to post roll. Figured he had it beat. And he caved. He had been active too. Was a "bad ass quitter" at one point. Except he wasn't. He was arrogant and complacent. And not in a horrible way... In a "it was a busy weekend and I'm still quit even though I didn't post roll!" kinda way. My heart is heavy because we range from just 31-59 days and already I see the complacency. I see the post and run. I see that we're gonna lose some. I can guess which ones will go first.
And it makes me so sad. Guys... Some if you were "stoppers". You stopped, you started, you stopped, you started... For others... You took your first dip and never looked back until you quit. No matter what category you fall into we share something. We are addicts. And the minute we lose sight of that. The minute we start to think... "I've got this! It feels great! It's easy!" we have opened the door a crack to let her back in. Is posting roll at KTC the only way possible to quit nicotine? No. But it's the best way. I've looked at the stats. They aren't good. This place is insurance. Don't think of it as keeping dip at the forefront of your mind... It's keeping QUIT at the forefront. We can enjoy our freedom and our good days but GUARD YOUR QUIT. It takes... At the very most, a few minutes to post roll or text someone to do it for you if you don't have wireless somewhere. If you do that for the rest of your life... How much time have you invested in your quit? I'll tell you the answer. The exact right amount of time.
For those of you in the leper colony telling us all what a great weekend you had and how great it is to be quit... Please read the intros today. Look at the guys coming back after making HOF. Look at wastepanel's story. And think of the hundreds... Maybe thousands... Who didn't come back but are slowly committing suicide as we speak. Guard your quit men. I like you guys and I'm sure you all have relatively nice faces.
Commit to posting 100%.
Nicotine is a drug, and your senses are drugged. Your taste buds, your feelings in your gums and lips, your sense of smell if you smoked. I think people forget just how powerful a drug it really is.
The worst part of continuing to chew isn't the fear of what it can do to your health or the hit it will put on your wallet. It's the warping of your mind. You will search for any plausable EXCUSE to keep on using.
I honestly believe that's why so many cave after they leave here.
Alone, your mind can talk you into using again. The devil in one ear eventually overpowers the angel on the other.
Post roll and stay on KTC, and you don't have such a mismatch. You not only keep yourself accountable but you have support from a ton of little angels that will be in your ear far more than the devil.
Read the story of the cavers who are coming back. They are basically saying the same thing.
Stick around boys and girls.
Everyone is in such a damn hurry to grow up. They end up leaving home, fall flat on their face and if they're smart they come crawling back. Its a tough and disheartening watch sometimes.
Slow your roll, quitting ain't easy.
LHG and Diesel, I want to grow up to be you someday..more like LHG since I don't want a penis but I like Diesels fire...now I am confused. But not about quitting.
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Day 33 Letter To My Quit Group:
Hey Brothers...
My heart is heavy tonight. Do y'all read the intros? If not, seriously... Start reading the intros! Every one of us should HAVE one and update it every so often.
In intros right now there's another retread. Guy coming in begging forgiveness and talking about how dumb he was and how much he needs this place. After 120 days quit he didn't think it was that important anymore to post roll. Figured he had it beat. And he caved. He had been active too. Was a "bad ass quitter" at one point. Except he wasn't. He was arrogant and complacent. And not in a horrible way... In a "it was a busy weekend and I'm still quit even though I didn't post roll!" kinda way. My heart is heavy because we range from just 31-59 days and already I see the complacency. I see the post and run. I see that we're gonna lose some. I can guess which ones will go first.
And it makes me so sad. Guys... Some if you were "stoppers". You stopped, you started, you stopped, you started... For others... You took your first dip and never looked back until you quit. No matter what category you fall into we share something. We are addicts. And the minute we lose sight of that. The minute we start to think... "I've got this! It feels great! It's easy!" we have opened the door a crack to let her back in. Is posting roll at KTC the only way possible to quit nicotine? No. But it's the best way. I've looked at the stats. They aren't good. This place is insurance. Don't think of it as keeping dip at the forefront of your mind... It's keeping QUIT at the forefront. We can enjoy our freedom and our good days but GUARD YOUR QUIT. It takes... At the very most, a few minutes to post roll or text someone to do it for you if you don't have wireless somewhere. If you do that for the rest of your life... How much time have you invested in your quit? I'll tell you the answer. The exact right amount of time.
For those of you in the leper colony telling us all what a great weekend you had and how great it is to be quit... Please read the intros today. Look at the guys coming back after making HOF. Look at wastepanel's story. And think of the hundreds... Maybe thousands... Who didn't come back but are slowly committing suicide as we speak. Guard your quit men. I like you guys and I'm sure you all have relatively nice faces.
Commit to posting 100%.
Nicotine is a drug, and your senses are drugged. Your taste buds, your feelings in your gums and lips, your sense of smell if you smoked. I think people forget just how powerful a drug it really is.
The worst part of continuing to chew isn't the fear of what it can do to your health or the hit it will put on your wallet. It's the warping of your mind. You will search for any plausable EXCUSE to keep on using.
I honestly believe that's why so many cave after they leave here.
Alone, your mind can talk you into using again. The devil in one ear eventually overpowers the angel on the other.
Post roll and stay on KTC, and you don't have such a mismatch. You not only keep yourself accountable but you have support from a ton of little angels that will be in your ear far more than the devil.
Read the story of the cavers who are coming back. They are basically saying the same thing.
Stick around boys and girls.
Everyone is in such a damn hurry to grow up. They end up leaving home, fall flat on their face and if they're smart they come crawling back. Its a tough and disheartening watch sometimes.
Slow your roll, quitting ain't easy.
LHG and Diesel, I want to grow up to be you someday..more like LHG since I don't want a penis but I like Diesels fire...now I am confused. But not about quitting.
Good call. LHG is smarter than me, plus it ain't easy walking around with this thing.
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Day 33 Letter To My Quit Group:
Hey Brothers...
My heart is heavy tonight. Do y'all read the intros? If not, seriously... Start reading the intros! Every one of us should HAVE one and update it every so often.
In intros right now there's another retread. Guy coming in begging forgiveness and talking about how dumb he was and how much he needs this place. After 120 days quit he didn't think it was that important anymore to post roll. Figured he had it beat. And he caved. He had been active too. Was a "bad ass quitter" at one point. Except he wasn't. He was arrogant and complacent. And not in a horrible way... In a "it was a busy weekend and I'm still quit even though I didn't post roll!" kinda way. My heart is heavy because we range from just 31-59 days and already I see the complacency. I see the post and run. I see that we're gonna lose some. I can guess which ones will go first.
And it makes me so sad. Guys... Some if you were "stoppers". You stopped, you started, you stopped, you started... For others... You took your first dip and never looked back until you quit. No matter what category you fall into we share something. We are addicts. And the minute we lose sight of that. The minute we start to think... "I've got this! It feels great! It's easy!" we have opened the door a crack to let her back in. Is posting roll at KTC the only way possible to quit nicotine? No. But it's the best way. I've looked at the stats. They aren't good. This place is insurance. Don't think of it as keeping dip at the forefront of your mind... It's keeping QUIT at the forefront. We can enjoy our freedom and our good days but GUARD YOUR QUIT. It takes... At the very most, a few minutes to post roll or text someone to do it for you if you don't have wireless somewhere. If you do that for the rest of your life... How much time have you invested in your quit? I'll tell you the answer. The exact right amount of time.
For those of you in the leper colony telling us all what a great weekend you had and how great it is to be quit... Please read the intros today. Look at the guys coming back after making HOF. Look at wastepanel's story. And think of the hundreds... Maybe thousands... Who didn't come back but are slowly committing suicide as we speak. Guard your quit men. I like you guys and I'm sure you all have relatively nice faces.
Commit to posting 100%.
Thank you for this excellent post LHG. Post roll every damn day people. No excuses.
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Day 33 Letter To My Quit Group:
Hey Brothers...
My heart is heavy tonight. Do y'all read the intros? If not, seriously... Start reading the intros! Every one of us should HAVE one and update it every so often.
In intros right now there's another retread. Guy coming in begging forgiveness and talking about how dumb he was and how much he needs this place. After 120 days quit he didn't think it was that important anymore to post roll. Figured he had it beat. And he caved. He had been active too. Was a "bad ass quitter" at one point. Except he wasn't. He was arrogant and complacent. And not in a horrible way... In a "it was a busy weekend and I'm still quit even though I didn't post roll!" kinda way. My heart is heavy because we range from just 31-59 days and already I see the complacency. I see the post and run. I see that we're gonna lose some. I can guess which ones will go first.
And it makes me so sad. Guys... Some if you were "stoppers". You stopped, you started, you stopped, you started... For others... You took your first dip and never looked back until you quit. No matter what category you fall into we share something. We are addicts. And the minute we lose sight of that. The minute we start to think... "I've got this! It feels great! It's easy!" we have opened the door a crack to let her back in. Is posting roll at KTC the only way possible to quit nicotine? No. But it's the best way. I've looked at the stats. They aren't good. This place is insurance. Don't think of it as keeping dip at the forefront of your mind... It's keeping QUIT at the forefront. We can enjoy our freedom and our good days but GUARD YOUR QUIT. It takes... At the very most, a few minutes to post roll or text someone to do it for you if you don't have wireless somewhere. If you do that for the rest of your life... How much time have you invested in your quit? I'll tell you the answer. The exact right amount of time.
For those of you in the leper colony telling us all what a great weekend you had and how great it is to be quit... Please read the intros today. Look at the guys coming back after making HOF. Look at wastepanel's story. And think of the hundreds... Maybe thousands... Who didn't come back but are slowly committing suicide as we speak. Guard your quit men. I like you guys and I'm sure you all have relatively nice faces.
Commit to posting 100%.
Nicotine is a drug, and your senses are drugged. Your taste buds, your feelings in your gums and lips, your sense of smell if you smoked. I think people forget just how powerful a drug it really is.
The worst part of continuing to chew isn't the fear of what it can do to your health or the hit it will put on your wallet. It's the warping of your mind. You will search for any plausable EXCUSE to keep on using.
I honestly believe that's why so many cave after they leave here.
Alone, your mind can talk you into using again. The devil in one ear eventually overpowers the angel on the other.
Post roll and stay on KTC, and you don't have such a mismatch. You not only keep yourself accountable but you have support from a ton of little angels that will be in your ear far more than the devil.
Read the story of the cavers who are coming back. They are basically saying the same thing.
Stick around boys and girls.
Everyone is in such a damn hurry to grow up. They end up leaving home, fall flat on their face and if they're smart they come crawling back. Its a tough and disheartening watch sometimes.
Slow your roll, quitting ain't easy.
LHG and Diesel, I want to grow up to be you someday..more like LHG since I don't want a penis but I like Diesels fire...now I am confused. But not about quitting.
Good call. LHG is smarter than me, plus it ain't easy walking around with this thing.
First sage you are hilarious my dear. Second I agree with LHG. Post post post then post in other groups. I post all over the place sometimes randomly lol. But if I post and I am of my word then my quit has a blanket of protection over it. And my quit is important to me. Thanks for the reminder LHG, you are a bad ass and I am glad to call you a sister! I quit with you!
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Day 33 Letter To My Quit Group:
Hey Brothers...
My heart is heavy tonight. Do y'all read the intros? If not, seriously... Start reading the intros! Every one of us should HAVE one and update it every so often.
In intros right now there's another retread. Guy coming in begging forgiveness and talking about how dumb he was and how much he needs this place. After 120 days quit he didn't think it was that important anymore to post roll. Figured he had it beat. And he caved. He had been active too. Was a "bad ass quitter" at one point. Except he wasn't. He was arrogant and complacent. And not in a horrible way... In a "it was a busy weekend and I'm still quit even though I didn't post roll!" kinda way. My heart is heavy because we range from just 31-59 days and already I see the complacency. I see the post and run. I see that we're gonna lose some. I can guess which ones will go first.
And it makes me so sad. Guys... Some if you were "stoppers". You stopped, you started, you stopped, you started... For others... You took your first dip and never looked back until you quit. No matter what category you fall into we share something. We are addicts. And the minute we lose sight of that. The minute we start to think... "I've got this! It feels great! It's easy!" we have opened the door a crack to let her back in. Is posting roll at KTC the only way possible to quit nicotine? No. But it's the best way. I've looked at the stats. They aren't good. This place is insurance. Don't think of it as keeping dip at the forefront of your mind... It's keeping QUIT at the forefront. We can enjoy our freedom and our good days but GUARD YOUR QUIT. It takes... At the very most, a few minutes to post roll or text someone to do it for you if you don't have wireless somewhere. If you do that for the rest of your life... How much time have you invested in your quit? I'll tell you the answer. The exact right amount of time.
For those of you in the leper colony telling us all what a great weekend you had and how great it is to be quit... Please read the intros today. Look at the guys coming back after making HOF. Look at wastepanel's story. And think of the hundreds... Maybe thousands... Who didn't come back but are slowly committing suicide as we speak. Guard your quit men. I like you guys and I'm sure you all have relatively nice faces.
Commit to posting 100%.
Nicotine is a drug, and your senses are drugged. Your taste buds, your feelings in your gums and lips, your sense of smell if you smoked. I think people forget just how powerful a drug it really is.
The worst part of continuing to chew isn't the fear of what it can do to your health or the hit it will put on your wallet. It's the warping of your mind. You will search for any plausable EXCUSE to keep on using.
I honestly believe that's why so many cave after they leave here.
Alone, your mind can talk you into using again. The devil in one ear eventually overpowers the angel on the other.
Post roll and stay on KTC, and you don't have such a mismatch. You not only keep yourself accountable but you have support from a ton of little angels that will be in your ear far more than the devil.
Read the story of the cavers who are coming back. They are basically saying the same thing.
Stick around boys and girls.
Everyone is in such a damn hurry to grow up. They end up leaving home, fall flat on their face and if they're smart they come crawling back. Its a tough and disheartening watch sometimes.
Slow your roll, quitting ain't easy.
LHG and Diesel, I want to grow up to be you someday..more like LHG since I don't want a penis but I like Diesels fire...now I am confused. But not about quitting.
Good call. LHG is smarter than me, plus it ain't easy walking around with this thing.
First sage you are hilarious my dear. Second I agree with LHG. Post post post then post in other groups. I post all over the place sometimes randomly lol. But if I post and I am of my word then my quit has a blanket of protection over it. And my quit is important to me. Thanks for the reminder LHG, you are a bad ass and I am glad to call you a sister! I quit with you!
I am not a unique and special butterfly. I am a drug addict.
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Day 33 Letter To My Quit Group:
Hey Brothers...
My heart is heavy tonight. Do y'all read the intros? If not, seriously... Start reading the intros! Every one of us should HAVE one and update it every so often.
In intros right now there's another retread. Guy coming in begging forgiveness and talking about how dumb he was and how much he needs this place. After 120 days quit he didn't think it was that important anymore to post roll. Figured he had it beat. And he caved. He had been active too. Was a "bad ass quitter" at one point. Except he wasn't. He was arrogant and complacent. And not in a horrible way... In a "it was a busy weekend and I'm still quit even though I didn't post roll!" kinda way. My heart is heavy because we range from just 31-59 days and already I see the complacency. I see the post and run. I see that we're gonna lose some. I can guess which ones will go first.
And it makes me so sad. Guys... Some if you were "stoppers". You stopped, you started, you stopped, you started... For others... You took your first dip and never looked back until you quit. No matter what category you fall into we share something. We are addicts. And the minute we lose sight of that. The minute we start to think... "I've got this! It feels great! It's easy!" we have opened the door a crack to let her back in. Is posting roll at KTC the only way possible to quit nicotine? No. But it's the best way. I've looked at the stats. They aren't good. This place is insurance. Don't think of it as keeping dip at the forefront of your mind... It's keeping QUIT at the forefront. We can enjoy our freedom and our good days but GUARD YOUR QUIT. It takes... At the very most, a few minutes to post roll or text someone to do it for you if you don't have wireless somewhere. If you do that for the rest of your life... How much time have you invested in your quit? I'll tell you the answer. The exact right amount of time.
For those of you in the leper colony telling us all what a great weekend you had and how great it is to be quit... Please read the intros today. Look at the guys coming back after making HOF. Look at wastepanel's story. And think of the hundreds... Maybe thousands... Who didn't come back but are slowly committing suicide as we speak. Guard your quit men. I like you guys and I'm sure you all have relatively nice faces.
Commit to posting 100%.
Nicotine is a drug, and your senses are drugged. Your taste buds, your feelings in your gums and lips, your sense of smell if you smoked. I think people forget just how powerful a drug it really is.
The worst part of continuing to chew isn't the fear of what it can do to your health or the hit it will put on your wallet. It's the warping of your mind. You will search for any plausable EXCUSE to keep on using.
I honestly believe that's why so many cave after they leave here.
Alone, your mind can talk you into using again. The devil in one ear eventually overpowers the angel on the other.
Post roll and stay on KTC, and you don't have such a mismatch. You not only keep yourself accountable but you have support from a ton of little angels that will be in your ear far more than the devil.
Read the story of the cavers who are coming back. They are basically saying the same thing.
Stick around boys and girls.
Everyone is in such a damn hurry to grow up. They end up leaving home, fall flat on their face and if they're smart they come crawling back. Its a tough and disheartening watch sometimes.
Slow your roll, quitting ain't easy.
LHG and Diesel, I want to grow up to be you someday..more like LHG since I don't want a penis but I like Diesels fire...now I am confused. But not about quitting.
Good call. LHG is smarter than me, plus it ain't easy walking around with this thing.
First sage you are hilarious my dear. Second I agree with LHG. Post post post then post in other groups. I post all over the place sometimes randomly lol. But if I post and I am of my word then my quit has a blanket of protection over it. And my quit is important to me. Thanks for the reminder LHG, you are a bad ass and I am glad to call you a sister! I quit with you!
I am not a unique and special butterfly. I am a drug addict.
Great HOF Scott. Read it for the second time today.
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That's an excellent letter LHG. Even at day 18 when I don't have fog I can feel complacency. A lot of the time I don't even think about chew at all except for a quick thought here or there. I know I've got some fog and cravings ahead, we all do. And if you start to forget that and forget that you're an addict, you won't be prepared when they come. Each and every day I need to remember that I'm one dip away from being a 1+, $5+ dipper and falling right back into the chains of nicotine addiction.
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That's an excellent letter LHG. Even at day 18 when I don't have fog I can feel complacency. A lot of the time I don't even think about chew at all except for a quick thought here or there. I know I've got some fog and cravings ahead, we all do. And if you start to forget that and forget that you're an addict, you won't be prepared when they come. Each and every day I need to remember that I'm one dip away from being a 1+, $5+ dipper and falling right back into the chains of nicotine addiction.
A quitter texted me this morning to ask me how my quit day was going... This was my response:
It's great... I totally understand why people think they don't need KTC and that "they've got it". It's smooth sailing right now. But what I understand that I think many don't is that those moments of "I can handle just one" WILL come. It might be 5 years from now and every day before that might be the easiest quit day ever... But I prepare every single day now for that ONE moment of "I could handle just one."
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That's an excellent letter LHG. Even at day 18 when I don't have fog I can feel complacency. A lot of the time I don't even think about chew at all except for a quick thought here or there. I know I've got some fog and cravings ahead, we all do. And if you start to forget that and forget that you're an addict, you won't be prepared when they come. Each and every day I need to remember that I'm one dip away from being a 1+, $5+ dipper and falling right back into the chains of nicotine addiction.
A quitter texted me this morning to ask me how my quit day was going... This was my response:
It's great... I totally understand why people think they don't need KTC and that "they've got it". It's smooth sailing right now. But what I understand that I think many don't is that those moments of "I can handle just one" WILL come. It might be 5 years from now and every day before that might be the easiest quit day ever... But I prepare every single day now for that ONE moment of "I could handle just one."
I always have a problem of getting my feelings across when writing, obviously a problem you do not have.
That being said, you noted that perfectly. I am to the point where overall my quit is easy, the day to day has become my norm. But, I have the tools in place for the time, when my quit is not. I do believe having the tools, alone, keeps her at bay.
I'll quit with you today.
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That's an excellent letter LHG. Even at day 18 when I don't have fog I can feel complacency. A lot of the time I don't even think about chew at all except for a quick thought here or there. I know I've got some fog and cravings ahead, we all do. And if you start to forget that and forget that you're an addict, you won't be prepared when they come. Each and every day I need to remember that I'm one dip away from being a 1+, $5+ dipper and falling right back into the chains of nicotine addiction.
A quitter texted me this morning to ask me how my quit day was going... This was my response:
It's great... I totally understand why people think they don't need KTC and that "they've got it". It's smooth sailing right now. But what I understand that I think many don't is that those moments of "I can handle just one" WILL come. It might be 5 years from now and every day before that might be the easiest quit day ever... But I prepare every single day now for that ONE moment of "I could handle just one."
I always have a problem of getting my feelings across when writing, obviously a problem you do not have.
That being said, you noted that perfectly. I am to the point where overall my quit is easy, the day to day has become my norm. But, I have the tools in place for the time, when my quit is not. I do believe having the tools, alone, keeps her at bay.
I'll quit with you today.
You said, Tool. (Beavis and Butthead laugh). Huhhhhahha.
Seriously. Good stuff up in here.
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Day 36..
If I didn't know I was an addict I would have "just one" today. I would "quit" next week. Or month. Whatever. It was just one of those days.
But 34 days ago... After posting roll halfheartedly for two days, I decided to read everything. And I figured it out.
I am an addict.
So today, I embrace the truth. Never again... For ANY reason.
Today, KTC saved my life.
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Day 36..
If I didn't know I was an addict I would have "just one" today. I would "quit" next week. Or month. Whatever. It was just one of those days.
But 34 days ago... After posting roll halfheartedly for two days, I decided to read everything. And I figured it out.
I am an addict.
So today, I embrace the truth. Never again... For ANY reason.
Today, KTC saved my life.
Good thing about today being ass juice...there's tomorrow and it can be 180° different and beautiful.
Not always easy, but always worth it.
P.s. That just one wouldn't have made your day any better.
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Day 36..
If I didn't know I was an addict I would have "just one" today. I would "quit" next week. Or month. Whatever. It was just one of those days.
But 34 days ago... After posting roll halfheartedly for two days, I decided to read everything. And I figured it out.
I am an addict.
So today, I embrace the truth. Never again... For ANY reason.
Today, KTC saved my life.
You got it!! I am so proud of you. I remember when that reality sank in for me also. It was like a light switch. Hope your day gets better, but I love that you realize nicotine couldnt and wouldnt do anything to improve it. That was just "THE BIG LIE". We all bought into it for many many years, but no more. Quit with you today.
Ryan
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Day 36..
If I didn't know I was an addict I would have "just one" today. I would "quit" next week. Or month. Whatever. It was just one of those days.
But 34 days ago... After posting roll halfheartedly for two days, I decided to read everything. And I figured it out.
I am an addict.
So today, I embrace the truth. Never again... For ANY reason.
Today, KTC saved my life.
You got it!! I am so proud of you. I remember when that reality sank in for me also. It was like a light switch. Hope your day gets better, but I love that you realize nicotine couldnt and wouldnt do anything to improve it. That was just "THE BIG LIE". We all bought into it for many many years, but no more. Quit with you today.
Ryan
Your worth not ever touching that poison again lhg. Nafar with you........
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Day 36..
If I didn't know I was an addict I would have "just one" today. I would "quit" next week. Or month. Whatever. It was just one of those days.
But 34 days ago... After posting roll halfheartedly for two days, I decided to read everything. And I figured it out.
I am an addict.
So today, I embrace the truth. Never again... For ANY reason.
Today, KTC saved my life.
You got it!! I am so proud of you. I remember when that reality sank in for me also. It was like a light switch. Hope your day gets better, but I love that you realize nicotine couldnt and wouldnt do anything to improve it. That was just "THE BIG LIE". We all bought into it for many many years, but no more. Quit with you today.
Ryan
Your worth not ever touching that poison again lhg. Nafar with you........
:Winner:
You make quitting cool! B)
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Day 36..
If I didn't know I was an addict I would have "just one" today. I would "quit" next week. Or month. Whatever. It was just one of those days.
But 34 days ago... After posting roll halfheartedly for two days, I decided to read everything. And I figured it out.
I am an addict.
So today, I embrace the truth. Never again... For ANY reason.
Today, KTC saved my life.
You got it!! I am so proud of you. I remember when that reality sank in for me also. It was like a light switch. Hope your day gets better, but I love that you realize nicotine couldnt and wouldnt do anything to improve it. That was just "THE BIG LIE". We all bought into it for many many years, but no more. Quit with you today.
Ryan
Your worth not ever touching that poison again lhg. Nafar with you........
:Winner:
You make quitting cool! B)
:wub:
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Had a dream last night. I was drinking with some old friends and one of them went out for a smoke. I thought to myself, "There is no reason not to. No one will know." I bummed one, put it to my lips and struck the lighter when it hit me. "I can't do this!! I posted roll. I have people counting on me and there's no way I can lie!" I gave the unlit cig back and told the girl, "Never mind. I'm quit."
If y'all know anything about me, you know I was a serial stopper. I've had plenty of smoking dreams in the past. Fully expected to have them this time. I have NEVER turned a smoke down in my dreams. Until I QUIT.
Turns out, once I actually quit, my dream persona DOES actually have balls like me. I need a new sig. :)
Edited to add: how interesting that I'm at 37 days today too.
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Had a dream last night. I was drinking with some old friends and one of them went out for a smoke. I thought to myself, "There is no reason not to. No one will know." I bummed one, put it to my lips and struck the lighter when it hit me. "I can't do this!! I posted roll. I have people counting on me and there's no way I can lie!" I gave the unlit cig back and told the girl, "Never mind. I'm quit."
If y'all know anything about me, you know I was a serial stopper. I've had plenty of smoking dreams in the past. Fully expected to have them this time. I have NEVER turned a smoke down in my dreams. Until I QUIT.
Turns out, once I actually quit, my dream persona DOES actually have balls like me. I need a new sig. :)
Edited to add: how interesting that I'm at 37 days today too.
Proud to be quit with you today LHG. I can't help but make an analogy to heaven. If you ever read "The Great Divorce" by CS Lewis (probably a select few), he talks about how, once a soul chooses salvation, their past is transformed and seen from the light of heaven, so that everything in their past has a touch of heaven's light to it. Even the worst moments are seen as precursors to the heaven that awaited the soul.
In the same way once we choose to be quit our whole lives are transformed, and even our dreams are seen in the light of quit. The character that we build by daily fighting the fight spills over into other areas of our lives, both conscious and subconscious. So now that LHG is a tough, self-disciplined quitter that persona is projected into your dreams too.
Probably a little philosophical and too cocky, as their will be rough days ahead. But today in this moment I'm quit with you.
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Had a dream last night. I was drinking with some old friends and one of them went out for a smoke. I thought to myself, "There is no reason not to. No one will know." I bummed one, put it to my lips and struck the lighter when it hit me. "I can't do this!! I posted roll. I have people counting on me and there's no way I can lie!" I gave the unlit cig back and told the girl, "Never mind. I'm quit."
If y'all know anything about me, you know I was a serial stopper. I've had plenty of smoking dreams in the past. Fully expected to have them this time. I have NEVER turned a smoke down in my dreams. Until I QUIT.
Turns out, once I actually quit, my dream persona DOES actually have balls like me. I need a new sig. :)
Edited to add: how interesting that I'm at 37 days today too.
Proud to be quit with you today LHG. I can't help but make an analogy to heaven. If you ever read "The Great Divorce" by CS Lewis (probably a select few), he talks about how, once a soul chooses salvation, their past is transformed and seen from the light of heaven, so that everything in their past has a touch of heaven's light to it. Even the worst moments are seen as precursors to the heaven that awaited the soul.
In the same way once we choose to be quit our whole lives are transformed, and even our dreams are seen in the light of quit. The character that we build by daily fighting the fight spills over into other areas of our lives, both conscious and subconscious. So now that LHG is a tough, self-disciplined quitter that persona is projected into your dreams too.
Probably a little philosophical and too cocky, as their will be rough days ahead. But today in this moment I'm quit with you.
Once, again descriptive, and perfectly stated. Kind of bad ass huh? Ill quit with you all day.
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Had a dream last night. I was drinking with some old friends and one of them went out for a smoke. I thought to myself, "There is no reason not to. No one will know." I bummed one, put it to my lips and struck the lighter when it hit me. "I can't do this!! I posted roll. I have people counting on me and there's no way I can lie!" I gave the unlit cig back and told the girl, "Never mind. I'm quit."
If y'all know anything about me, you know I was a serial stopper. I've had plenty of smoking dreams in the past. Fully expected to have them this time. I have NEVER turned a smoke down in my dreams. Until I QUIT.
Turns out, once I actually quit, my dream persona DOES actually have balls like me. I need a new sig. :)
Edited to add: how interesting that I'm at 37 days today too.
Proud to be quit with you today LHG. I can't help but make an analogy to heaven. If you ever read "The Great Divorce" by CS Lewis (probably a select few), he talks about how, once a soul chooses salvation, their past is transformed and seen from the light of heaven, so that everything in their past has a touch of heaven's light to it. Even the worst moments are seen as precursors to the heaven that awaited the soul.
In the same way once we choose to be quit our whole lives are transformed, and even our dreams are seen in the light of quit. The character that we build by daily fighting the fight spills over into other areas of our lives, both conscious and subconscious. So now that LHG is a tough, self-disciplined quitter that persona is projected into your dreams too.
Probably a little philosophical and too cocky, as their will be rough days ahead. But today in this moment I'm quit with you.
Once, again descriptive, and perfectly stated. Kind of bad ass huh? Ill quit with you all day.
I vote for Lion Hearted Hermaphrodite
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Had a dream last night. I was drinking with some old friends and one of them went out for a smoke. I thought to myself, "There is no reason not to. No one will know." I bummed one, put it to my lips and struck the lighter when it hit me. "I can't do this!! I posted roll. I have people counting on me and there's no way I can lie!" I gave the unlit cig back and told the girl, "Never mind. I'm quit."
If y'all know anything about me, you know I was a serial stopper. I've had plenty of smoking dreams in the past. Fully expected to have them this time. I have NEVER turned a smoke down in my dreams. Until I QUIT.
Turns out, once I actually quit, my dream persona DOES actually have balls like me. I need a new sig. :)
Edited to add: how interesting that I'm at 37 days today too.
Proud to be quit with you today LHG. I can't help but make an analogy to heaven. If you ever read "The Great Divorce" by CS Lewis (probably a select few), he talks about how, once a soul chooses salvation, their past is transformed and seen from the light of heaven, so that everything in their past has a touch of heaven's light to it. Even the worst moments are seen as precursors to the heaven that awaited the soul.
In the same way once we choose to be quit our whole lives are transformed, and even our dreams are seen in the light of quit. The character that we build by daily fighting the fight spills over into other areas of our lives, both conscious and subconscious. So now that LHG is a tough, self-disciplined quitter that persona is projected into your dreams too.
Probably a little philosophical and too cocky, as their will be rough days ahead. But today in this moment I'm quit with you.
Once, again descriptive, and perfectly stated. Kind of bad ass huh? Ill quit with you all day.
I vote for Lion Hearted Hermaphrodite
I'm determined to become an honorary 3-baller! Gotta start with one!
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Had a dream last night. I was drinking with some old friends and one of them went out for a smoke. I thought to myself, "There is no reason not to. No one will know." I bummed one, put it to my lips and struck the lighter when it hit me. "I can't do this!! I posted roll. I have people counting on me and there's no way I can lie!" I gave the unlit cig back and told the girl, "Never mind. I'm quit."
If y'all know anything about me, you know I was a serial stopper. I've had plenty of smoking dreams in the past. Fully expected to have them this time. I have NEVER turned a smoke down in my dreams. Until I QUIT.
Turns out, once I actually quit, my dream persona DOES actually have balls like me. I need a new sig. :)
Edited to add: how interesting that I'm at 37 days today too.
Proud to be quit with you today LHG. I can't help but make an analogy to heaven. If you ever read "The Great Divorce" by CS Lewis (probably a select few), he talks about how, once a soul chooses salvation, their past is transformed and seen from the light of heaven, so that everything in their past has a touch of heaven's light to it. Even the worst moments are seen as precursors to the heaven that awaited the soul.
In the same way once we choose to be quit our whole lives are transformed, and even our dreams are seen in the light of quit. The character that we build by daily fighting the fight spills over into other areas of our lives, both conscious and subconscious. So now that LHG is a tough, self-disciplined quitter that persona is projected into your dreams too.
Probably a little philosophical and too cocky, as their will be rough days ahead. But today in this moment I'm quit with you.
Once, again descriptive, and perfectly stated. Kind of bad ass huh? Ill quit with you all day.
I vote for Lion Hearted Hermaphrodite
I'm determined to become an honorary 3-baller! Gotta start with one!
We all have our epiphany moment that you realize I am quit and I will win this fight.
You have had yours.
I still remember mine.
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Had a dream last night. I was drinking with some old friends and one of them went out for a smoke. I thought to myself, "There is no reason not to. No one will know." I bummed one, put it to my lips and struck the lighter when it hit me. "I can't do this!! I posted roll. I have people counting on me and there's no way I can lie!" I gave the unlit cig back and told the girl, "Never mind. I'm quit."
If y'all know anything about me, you know I was a serial stopper. I've had plenty of smoking dreams in the past. Fully expected to have them this time. I have NEVER turned a smoke down in my dreams. Until I QUIT.
Turns out, once I actually quit, my dream persona DOES actually have balls like me. I need a new sig. :)
Edited to add: how interesting that I'm at 37 days today too.
Proud to be quit with you today LHG. I can't help but make an analogy to heaven. If you ever read "The Great Divorce" by CS Lewis (probably a select few), he talks about how, once a soul chooses salvation, their past is transformed and seen from the light of heaven, so that everything in their past has a touch of heaven's light to it. Even the worst moments are seen as precursors to the heaven that awaited the soul.
In the same way once we choose to be quit our whole lives are transformed, and even our dreams are seen in the light of quit. The character that we build by daily fighting the fight spills over into other areas of our lives, both conscious and subconscious. So now that LHG is a tough, self-disciplined quitter that persona is projected into your dreams too.
Probably a little philosophical and too cocky, as their will be rough days ahead. But today in this moment I'm quit with you.
Once, again descriptive, and perfectly stated. Kind of bad ass huh? Ill quit with you all day.
I vote for Lion Hearted Hermaphrodite
I'm determined to become an honorary 3-baller! Gotta start with one!
We all have our epiphany moment that you realize I am quit and I will win this fight.
You have had yours.
I still remember mine.
Damn LHG, I remembered your sig when I had my only (so far) dip dream and stayed quit through it. I am glad to hear your dream persona is as tough as you are in RL! Jriz you are not allowed to cave 'cause you are one of my quit heroes.
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Had a dream last night. I was drinking with some old friends and one of them went out for a smoke. I thought to myself, "There is no reason not to. No one will know." I bummed one, put it to my lips and struck the lighter when it hit me. "I can't do this!! I posted roll. I have people counting on me and there's no way I can lie!" I gave the unlit cig back and told the girl, "Never mind. I'm quit."
If y'all know anything about me, you know I was a serial stopper. I've had plenty of smoking dreams in the past. Fully expected to have them this time. I have NEVER turned a smoke down in my dreams. Until I QUIT.
Turns out, once I actually quit, my dream persona DOES actually have balls like me. I need a new sig. :)
Edited to add: how interesting that I'm at 37 days today too.
Proud to be quit with you today LHG. I can't help but make an analogy to heaven. If you ever read "The Great Divorce" by CS Lewis (probably a select few), he talks about how, once a soul chooses salvation, their past is transformed and seen from the light of heaven, so that everything in their past has a touch of heaven's light to it. Even the worst moments are seen as precursors to the heaven that awaited the soul.
In the same way once we choose to be quit our whole lives are transformed, and even our dreams are seen in the light of quit. The character that we build by daily fighting the fight spills over into other areas of our lives, both conscious and subconscious. So now that LHG is a tough, self-disciplined quitter that persona is projected into your dreams too.
Probably a little philosophical and too cocky, as their will be rough days ahead. But today in this moment I'm quit with you.
Once, again descriptive, and perfectly stated. Kind of bad ass huh? Ill quit with you all day.
I vote for Lion Hearted Hermaphrodite
I'm determined to become an honorary 3-baller! Gotta start with one!
We all have our epiphany moment that you realize I am quit and I will win this fight.
You have had yours.
I still remember mine.
Damn LHG, I remembered your sig when I had my only (so far) dip dream and stayed quit through it. I am glad to hear your dream persona is as tough as you are in RL! Jriz you are not allowed to cave 'cause you are one of my quit heroes.
You are one bad ass quitter...so glad to have you on the female posse. Love the dream girl to be quit, also. Love you, LHG
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Had a dream last night. I was drinking with some old friends and one of them went out for a smoke. I thought to myself, "There is no reason not to. No one will know." I bummed one, put it to my lips and struck the lighter when it hit me. "I can't do this!! I posted roll. I have people counting on me and there's no way I can lie!" I gave the unlit cig back and told the girl, "Never mind. I'm quit."
If y'all know anything about me, you know I was a serial stopper. I've had plenty of smoking dreams in the past. Fully expected to have them this time. I have NEVER turned a smoke down in my dreams. Until I QUIT.
Turns out, once I actually quit, my dream persona DOES actually have balls like me. I need a new sig. :)
Edited to add: how interesting that I'm at 37 days today too.
Proud to be quit with you today LHG. I can't help but make an analogy to heaven. If you ever read "The Great Divorce" by CS Lewis (probably a select few), he talks about how, once a soul chooses salvation, their past is transformed and seen from the light of heaven, so that everything in their past has a touch of heaven's light to it. Even the worst moments are seen as precursors to the heaven that awaited the soul.
In the same way once we choose to be quit our whole lives are transformed, and even our dreams are seen in the light of quit. The character that we build by daily fighting the fight spills over into other areas of our lives, both conscious and subconscious. So now that LHG is a tough, self-disciplined quitter that persona is projected into your dreams too.
Probably a little philosophical and too cocky, as their will be rough days ahead. But today in this moment I'm quit with you.
Once, again descriptive, and perfectly stated. Kind of bad ass huh? Ill quit with you all day.
I vote for Lion Hearted Hermaphrodite
I'm determined to become an honorary 3-baller! Gotta start with one!
We all have our epiphany moment that you realize I am quit and I will win this fight.
You have had yours.
I still remember mine.
Damn LHG, I remembered your sig when I had my only (so far) dip dream and stayed quit through it. I am glad to hear your dream persona is as tough as you are in RL! Jriz you are not allowed to cave 'cause you are one of my quit heroes.
You are one bad ass quitter...so glad to have you on the female posse. Love the dream girl to be quit, also. Love you, LHG
LHG, you are the definition of quit! And yes you have more of the metaphoric balls than do most men! I quit with you and glad your in August with us!
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43 days of freedom on this lovely 4th of July.
Today I'm getting on an airplane and going to visit family. The family I'm visiting is my ex husband's. We're traveling together. Seemed like a good idea four months ago when we booked the trip. Today it seems utterly absurd. But I'm going and I'm gonna fake it until I make it.
The worst day to be a smoker is the day you have to fly. I remember rushing to find an exit and then stressing as I made my way through security AGAIN just so I could suck down a smoke. Anyone who says smoking relieves stress has clearly never thought about all the additional stress one willingly subjects themselves to in order to obtain some false sense of relief. It's laughable and ridiculous now that I think about how we lied to ourselves.
The aforementioned ex? He's a smoker. I'm watching him chew Nicorette furiously and trying not to be cranky. It's a good day to be quit y'all!
Have an awesome day!
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43 days of freedom on this lovely 4th of July.
Today I'm getting on an airplane and going to visit family. The family I'm visiting is my ex husband's. We're traveling together. Seemed like a good idea four months ago when we booked the trip. Today it seems utterly absurd. But I'm going and I'm gonna fake it until I make it.
The worst day to be a smoker is the day you have to fly. I remember rushing to find an exit and then stressing as I made my way through security AGAIN just so I could suck down a smoke. Anyone who says smoking relieves stress has clearly never thought about all the additional stress one willingly subjects themselves to in order to obtain some false sense of relief. It's laughable and ridiculous now that I think about how we lied to ourselves.
The aforementioned ex? He's a smoker. I'm watching him chew Nicorette furiously and trying not to be cranky. It's a good day to be quit y'all!
Have an awesome day!
I like that story.
Ever read "The Easy Way to Quit Smoking" by Alan Carr? Skoal Monster recommended it to me back close to a year ago. I'm still thankful for that.
It debunks a lot of myths and explains how nicotine really works, specifically to the point you mentioned about it NOT relieving stress, but in fact adding to it.
If you havent read it, I hight suggest it. It's a quick and easy read that gave me a lot of "ah ha" moments.
I still read passages in it from time to time.
Anyway, thats all I have.
"Enjoy" your trip.
Toodles.
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43 days of freedom on this lovely 4th of July.
Today I'm getting on an airplane and going to visit family. The family I'm visiting is my ex husband's. We're traveling together. Seemed like a good idea four months ago when we booked the trip. Today it seems utterly absurd. But I'm going and I'm gonna fake it until I make it.
The worst day to be a smoker is the day you have to fly. I remember rushing to find an exit and then stressing as I made my way through security AGAIN just so I could suck down a smoke. Anyone who says smoking relieves stress has clearly never thought about all the additional stress one willingly subjects themselves to in order to obtain some false sense of relief. It's laughable and ridiculous now that I think about how we lied to ourselves.
The aforementioned ex? He's a smoker. I'm watching him chew Nicorette furiously and trying not to be cranky. It's a good day to be quit y'all!
Have an awesome day!
I like that story.
Ever read "The Easy Way to Quit Smoking" by Alan Carr? Skoal Monster recommended it to me back close to a year ago. I'm still thankful for that.
It debunks a lot of myths and explains how nicotine really works, specifically to the point you mentioned about it NOT relieving stress, but in fact adding to it.
If you havent read it, I hight suggest it. It's a quick and easy read that gave me a lot of "ah ha" moments.
I still read passages in it from time to time.
Anyway, thats all I have.
"Enjoy" your trip.
Toodles.
ItsGot2Happen gave it to me! With all the craziness I forgot to finish it. Thanks for the reminder... I'm halfway though. Yes. I can tell those who have read it in the language they use regarding nicotine and how the addiction works.
I'll be finishing it on the plane.
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43 days of freedom on this lovely 4th of July.
Today I'm getting on an airplane and going to visit family. The family I'm visiting is my ex husband's. We're traveling together. Seemed like a good idea four months ago when we booked the trip. Today it seems utterly absurd. But I'm going and I'm gonna fake it until I make it.
The worst day to be a smoker is the day you have to fly. I remember rushing to find an exit and then stressing as I made my way through security AGAIN just so I could suck down a smoke. Anyone who says smoking relieves stress has clearly never thought about all the additional stress one willingly subjects themselves to in order to obtain some false sense of relief. It's laughable and ridiculous now that I think about how we lied to ourselves.
The aforementioned ex? He's a smoker. I'm watching him chew Nicorette furiously and trying not to be cranky. It's a good day to be quit y'all!
Have an awesome day!
I like that story.
Ever read "The Easy Way to Quit Smoking" by Alan Carr? Skoal Monster recommended it to me back close to a year ago. I'm still thankful for that.
It debunks a lot of myths and explains how nicotine really works, specifically to the point you mentioned about it NOT relieving stress, but in fact adding to it.
If you havent read it, I hight suggest it. It's a quick and easy read that gave me a lot of "ah ha" moments.
I still read passages in it from time to time.
Anyway, thats all I have.
"Enjoy" your trip.
Toodles.
ItsGot2Happen gave it to me! With all the craziness I forgot to finish it. Thanks for the reminder... I'm halfway though. Yes. I can tell those who have read it in the language they use regarding nicotine and how the addiction works.
I'll be finishing it on the plane.
I like that story too Lionheart. Any chance that you and your husband could reconcile on the strip? It is always my secret hope for couples who are struggling.
I knew diesel read that book. And I am glad that he did. He used that knowledge and his witty personality to assist me in my quit.
I have read that book cover to cover three times. And I learn something new from each time. Wants someone to acquire that kind of knowledge it would be pretty damn hard to return to using nicotine.
Have a great trip LHG, and a great 4th of July.
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43 days of freedom on this lovely 4th of July.
Today I'm getting on an airplane and going to visit family. The family I'm visiting is my ex husband's. We're traveling together. Seemed like a good idea four months ago when we booked the trip. Today it seems utterly absurd. But I'm going and I'm gonna fake it until I make it.
The worst day to be a smoker is the day you have to fly. I remember rushing to find an exit and then stressing as I made my way through security AGAIN just so I could suck down a smoke. Anyone who says smoking relieves stress has clearly never thought about all the additional stress one willingly subjects themselves to in order to obtain some false sense of relief. It's laughable and ridiculous now that I think about how we lied to ourselves.
The aforementioned ex? He's a smoker. I'm watching him chew Nicorette furiously and trying not to be cranky. It's a good day to be quit y'all!
Have an awesome day!
I like that story.
Ever read "The Easy Way to Quit Smoking" by Alan Carr? Skoal Monster recommended it to me back close to a year ago. I'm still thankful for that.
It debunks a lot of myths and explains how nicotine really works, specifically to the point you mentioned about it NOT relieving stress, but in fact adding to it.
If you havent read it, I hight suggest it. It's a quick and easy read that gave me a lot of "ah ha" moments.
I still read passages in it from time to time.
Anyway, thats all I have.
"Enjoy" your trip.
Toodles.
ItsGot2Happen gave it to me! With all the craziness I forgot to finish it. Thanks for the reminder... I'm halfway though. Yes. I can tell those who have read it in the language they use regarding nicotine and how the addiction works.
I'll be finishing it on the plane.
I like that story too Lionheart. Any chance that you and your husband could reconcile on the strip? It is always my secret hope for couples who are struggling.
I knew diesel read that book. And I am glad that he did. He used that knowledge and his witty personality to assist me in my quit.
I have read that book cover to cover three times. And I learn something new from each time. Wants someone to acquire that kind of knowledge it would be pretty damn hard to return to using nicotine.
Have a great trip LHG, and a great 4th of July.
Not a chance.
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43 days of freedom on this lovely 4th of July.
Today I'm getting on an airplane and going to visit family. The family I'm visiting is my ex husband's. We're traveling together. Seemed like a good idea four months ago when we booked the trip. Today it seems utterly absurd. But I'm going and I'm gonna fake it until I make it.
The worst day to be a smoker is the day you have to fly. I remember rushing to find an exit and then stressing as I made my way through security AGAIN just so I could suck down a smoke. Anyone who says smoking relieves stress has clearly never thought about all the additional stress one willingly subjects themselves to in order to obtain some false sense of relief. It's laughable and ridiculous now that I think about how we lied to ourselves.
The aforementioned ex? He's a smoker. I'm watching him chew Nicorette furiously and trying not to be cranky. It's a good day to be quit y'all!
Have an awesome day!
I like that story.
Ever read "The Easy Way to Quit Smoking" by Alan Carr? Skoal Monster recommended it to me back close to a year ago. I'm still thankful for that.
It debunks a lot of myths and explains how nicotine really works, specifically to the point you mentioned about it NOT relieving stress, but in fact adding to it.
If you havent read it, I hight suggest it. It's a quick and easy read that gave me a lot of "ah ha" moments.
I still read passages in it from time to time.
Anyway, thats all I have.
"Enjoy" your trip.
Toodles.
ItsGot2Happen gave it to me! With all the craziness I forgot to finish it. Thanks for the reminder... I'm halfway though. Yes. I can tell those who have read it in the language they use regarding nicotine and how the addiction works.
I'll be finishing it on the plane.
I like that story too Lionheart. Any chance that you and your husband could reconcile on the strip? It is always my secret hope for couples who are struggling.
I knew diesel read that book. And I am glad that he did. He used that knowledge and his witty personality to assist me in my quit.
I have read that book cover to cover three times. And I learn something new from each time. Wants someone to acquire that kind of knowledge it would be pretty damn hard to return to using nicotine.
Have a great trip LHG, and a great 4th of July.
Not a chance.
Twas sM who started the ball rollin in regards to the book.
Happy 4th all!!!
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43 days of freedom on this lovely 4th of July.
Today I'm getting on an airplane and going to visit family. The family I'm visiting is my ex husband's. We're traveling together. Seemed like a good idea four months ago when we booked the trip. Today it seems utterly absurd. But I'm going and I'm gonna fake it until I make it.
The worst day to be a smoker is the day you have to fly. I remember rushing to find an exit and then stressing as I made my way through security AGAIN just so I could suck down a smoke. Anyone who says smoking relieves stress has clearly never thought about all the additional stress one willingly subjects themselves to in order to obtain some false sense of relief. It's laughable and ridiculous now that I think about how we lied to ourselves.
The aforementioned ex? He's a smoker. I'm watching him chew Nicorette furiously and trying not to be cranky. It's a good day to be quit y'all!
Have an awesome day!
I like that story.
Ever read "The Easy Way to Quit Smoking" by Alan Carr? Skoal Monster recommended it to me back close to a year ago. I'm still thankful for that.
It debunks a lot of myths and explains how nicotine really works, specifically to the point you mentioned about it NOT relieving stress, but in fact adding to it.
If you havent read it, I hight suggest it. It's a quick and easy read that gave me a lot of "ah ha" moments.
I still read passages in it from time to time.
Anyway, thats all I have.
"Enjoy" your trip.
Toodles.
ItsGot2Happen gave it to me! With all the craziness I forgot to finish it. Thanks for the reminder... I'm halfway though. Yes. I can tell those who have read it in the language they use regarding nicotine and how the addiction works.
I'll be finishing it on the plane.
I like that story too Lionheart. Any chance that you and your husband could reconcile on the strip? It is always my secret hope for couples who are struggling.
I knew diesel read that book. And I am glad that he did. He used that knowledge and his witty personality to assist me in my quit.
I have read that book cover to cover three times. And I learn something new from each time. Wants someone to acquire that kind of knowledge it would be pretty damn hard to return to using nicotine.
Have a great trip LHG, and a great 4th of July.
Not a chance.
Twas sM who started the ball rollin in regards to the book.
Happy 4th all!!!
LHG....I knew you were just a little crazy but this story has confirmed it. I am just kidding...a little. Anyway, text or call if the trip goes sideways. Otherwise, will be praying for a good trip.
I read that book, too. I thought it was interesting also but still couldn't quit nicotine for more than 2weeks. Thank goodness for finding my brothers and sisters here!
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43 days of freedom on this lovely 4th of July.
Today I'm getting on an airplane and going to visit family. The family I'm visiting is my ex husband's. We're traveling together. Seemed like a good idea four months ago when we booked the trip. Today it seems utterly absurd. But I'm going and I'm gonna fake it until I make it.
The worst day to be a smoker is the day you have to fly. I remember rushing to find an exit and then stressing as I made my way through security AGAIN just so I could suck down a smoke. Anyone who says smoking relieves stress has clearly never thought about all the additional stress one willingly subjects themselves to in order to obtain some false sense of relief. It's laughable and ridiculous now that I think about how we lied to ourselves.
The aforementioned ex? He's a smoker. I'm watching him chew Nicorette furiously and trying not to be cranky. It's a good day to be quit y'all!
Have an awesome day!
I like that story.
Ever read "The Easy Way to Quit Smoking" by Alan Carr? Skoal Monster recommended it to me back close to a year ago. I'm still thankful for that.
It debunks a lot of myths and explains how nicotine really works, specifically to the point you mentioned about it NOT relieving stress, but in fact adding to it.
If you havent read it, I hight suggest it. It's a quick and easy read that gave me a lot of "ah ha" moments.
I still read passages in it from time to time.
Anyway, thats all I have.
"Enjoy" your trip.
Toodles.
ItsGot2Happen gave it to me! With all the craziness I forgot to finish it. Thanks for the reminder... I'm halfway though. Yes. I can tell those who have read it in the language they use regarding nicotine and how the addiction works.
I'll be finishing it on the plane.
I like that story too Lionheart. Any chance that you and your husband could reconcile on the strip? It is always my secret hope for couples who are struggling.
I knew diesel read that book. And I am glad that he did. He used that knowledge and his witty personality to assist me in my quit.
I have read that book cover to cover three times. And I learn something new from each time. Wants someone to acquire that kind of knowledge it would be pretty damn hard to return to using nicotine.
Have a great trip LHG, and a great 4th of July.
Not a chance.
Twas sM who started the ball rollin in regards to the book.
Happy 4th all!!!
LHG....I knew you were just a little crazy but this story has confirmed it. I am just kidding...a little. Anyway, text or call if the trip goes sideways. Otherwise, will be praying for a good trip.
I read that book, too. I thought it was interesting also but still couldn't quit nicotine for more than 2weeks. Thank goodness for finding my brothers and sisters here!
LHG. Your a bad ass lady!!!! That foes sou d like a tough day lol but your hell of a quitter so I'm sure you made it thru! You got this!!! I quit with you!!!
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43 days of freedom on this lovely 4th of July.
Today I'm getting on an airplane and going to visit family. The family I'm visiting is my ex husband's. We're traveling together. Seemed like a good idea four months ago when we booked the trip. Today it seems utterly absurd. But I'm going and I'm gonna fake it until I make it.
The worst day to be a smoker is the day you have to fly. I remember rushing to find an exit and then stressing as I made my way through security AGAIN just so I could suck down a smoke. Anyone who says smoking relieves stress has clearly never thought about all the additional stress one willingly subjects themselves to in order to obtain some false sense of relief. It's laughable and ridiculous now that I think about how we lied to ourselves.
The aforementioned ex? He's a smoker. I'm watching him chew Nicorette furiously and trying not to be cranky. It's a good day to be quit y'all!
Have an awesome day!
I like that story.
Ever read "The Easy Way to Quit Smoking" by Alan Carr? Skoal Monster recommended it to me back close to a year ago. I'm still thankful for that.
It debunks a lot of myths and explains how nicotine really works, specifically to the point you mentioned about it NOT relieving stress, but in fact adding to it.
If you havent read it, I hight suggest it. It's a quick and easy read that gave me a lot of "ah ha" moments.
I still read passages in it from time to time.
Anyway, thats all I have.
"Enjoy" your trip.
Toodles.
ItsGot2Happen gave it to me! With all the craziness I forgot to finish it. Thanks for the reminder... I'm halfway though. Yes. I can tell those who have read it in the language they use regarding nicotine and how the addiction works.
I'll be finishing it on the plane.
I like that story too Lionheart. Any chance that you and your husband could reconcile on the strip? It is always my secret hope for couples who are struggling.
I knew diesel read that book. And I am glad that he did. He used that knowledge and his witty personality to assist me in my quit.
I have read that book cover to cover three times. And I learn something new from each time. Wants someone to acquire that kind of knowledge it would be pretty damn hard to return to using nicotine.
Have a great trip LHG, and a great 4th of July.
Not a chance.
Twas sM who started the ball rollin in regards to the book.
Happy 4th all!!!
LHG....I knew you were just a little crazy but this story has confirmed it. I am just kidding...a little. Anyway, text or call if the trip goes sideways. Otherwise, will be praying for a good trip.
I read that book, too. I thought it was interesting also but still couldn't quit nicotine for more than 2weeks. Thank goodness for finding my brothers and sisters here!
LHG. Your a bad ass lady!!!! That foes sou d like a tough day lol but your hell of a quitter so I'm sure you made it thru! You got this!!! I quit with you!!!
Realize that no matter how rough the situation gets, nicotine will not make it better. Lean on the people here if you need to, you got this !!
STAY QUIT
Greg
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43 days of freedom on this lovely 4th of July.
Today I'm getting on an airplane and going to visit family. The family I'm visiting is my ex husband's. We're traveling together. Seemed like a good idea four months ago when we booked the trip. Today it seems utterly absurd. But I'm going and I'm gonna fake it until I make it.
The worst day to be a smoker is the day you have to fly. I remember rushing to find an exit and then stressing as I made my way through security AGAIN just so I could suck down a smoke. Anyone who says smoking relieves stress has clearly never thought about all the additional stress one willingly subjects themselves to in order to obtain some false sense of relief. It's laughable and ridiculous now that I think about how we lied to ourselves.
The aforementioned ex? He's a smoker. I'm watching him chew Nicorette furiously and trying not to be cranky. It's a good day to be quit y'all!
Have an awesome day!
I like that story.
Ever read "The Easy Way to Quit Smoking" by Alan Carr? Skoal Monster recommended it to me back close to a year ago. I'm still thankful for that.
It debunks a lot of myths and explains how nicotine really works, specifically to the point you mentioned about it NOT relieving stress, but in fact adding to it.
If you havent read it, I hight suggest it. It's a quick and easy read that gave me a lot of "ah ha" moments.
I still read passages in it from time to time.
Anyway, thats all I have.
"Enjoy" your trip.
Toodles.
ItsGot2Happen gave it to me! With all the craziness I forgot to finish it. Thanks for the reminder... I'm halfway though. Yes. I can tell those who have read it in the language they use regarding nicotine and how the addiction works.
I'll be finishing it on the plane.
I like that story too Lionheart. Any chance that you and your husband could reconcile on the strip? It is always my secret hope for couples who are struggling.
I knew diesel read that book. And I am glad that he did. He used that knowledge and his witty personality to assist me in my quit.
I have read that book cover to cover three times. And I learn something new from each time. Wants someone to acquire that kind of knowledge it would be pretty damn hard to return to using nicotine.
Have a great trip LHG, and a great 4th of July.
Not a chance.
Twas sM who started the ball rollin in regards to the book.
Happy 4th all!!!
LHG....I knew you were just a little crazy but this story has confirmed it. I am just kidding...a little. Anyway, text or call if the trip goes sideways. Otherwise, will be praying for a good trip.
I read that book, too. I thought it was interesting also but still couldn't quit nicotine for more than 2weeks. Thank goodness for finding my brothers and sisters here!
LHG. Your a bad ass lady!!!! That foes sou d like a tough day lol but your hell of a quitter so I'm sure you made it thru! You got this!!! I quit with you!!!
Realize that no matter how rough the situation gets, nicotine will not make it better. Lean on the people here if you need to, you got this !!
STAY QUIT
Greg
Great job girl! Greg is spot on.
1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems
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43 days of freedom on this lovely 4th of July.
Today I'm getting on an airplane and going to visit family. The family I'm visiting is my ex husband's. We're traveling together. Seemed like a good idea four months ago when we booked the trip. Today it seems utterly absurd. But I'm going and I'm gonna fake it until I make it.
The worst day to be a smoker is the day you have to fly. I remember rushing to find an exit and then stressing as I made my way through security AGAIN just so I could suck down a smoke. Anyone who says smoking relieves stress has clearly never thought about all the additional stress one willingly subjects themselves to in order to obtain some false sense of relief. It's laughable and ridiculous now that I think about how we lied to ourselves.
The aforementioned ex? He's a smoker. I'm watching him chew Nicorette furiously and trying not to be cranky. It's a good day to be quit y'all!
Have an awesome day!
I like that story.
Ever read "The Easy Way to Quit Smoking" by Alan Carr? Skoal Monster recommended it to me back close to a year ago. I'm still thankful for that.
It debunks a lot of myths and explains how nicotine really works, specifically to the point you mentioned about it NOT relieving stress, but in fact adding to it.
If you havent read it, I hight suggest it. It's a quick and easy read that gave me a lot of "ah ha" moments.
I still read passages in it from time to time.
Anyway, thats all I have.
"Enjoy" your trip.
Toodles.
ItsGot2Happen gave it to me! With all the craziness I forgot to finish it. Thanks for the reminder... I'm halfway though. Yes. I can tell those who have read it in the language they use regarding nicotine and how the addiction works.
I'll be finishing it on the plane.
I like that story too Lionheart. Any chance that you and your husband could reconcile on the strip? It is always my secret hope for couples who are struggling.
I knew diesel read that book. And I am glad that he did. He used that knowledge and his witty personality to assist me in my quit.
I have read that book cover to cover three times. And I learn something new from each time. Wants someone to acquire that kind of knowledge it would be pretty damn hard to return to using nicotine.
Have a great trip LHG, and a great 4th of July.
Not a chance.
Twas sM who started the ball rollin in regards to the book.
Happy 4th all!!!
LHG....I knew you were just a little crazy but this story has confirmed it. I am just kidding...a little. Anyway, text or call if the trip goes sideways. Otherwise, will be praying for a good trip.
I read that book, too. I thought it was interesting also but still couldn't quit nicotine for more than 2weeks. Thank goodness for finding my brothers and sisters here!
LHG. Your a bad ass lady!!!! That foes sou d like a tough day lol but your hell of a quitter so I'm sure you made it thru! You got this!!! I quit with you!!!
Realize that no matter how rough the situation gets, nicotine will not make it better. Lean on the people here if you need to, you got this !!
STAY QUIT
Greg
Great job girl! Greg is spot on.
1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems
Stay quit lhg future reference always get trip insurance lol you will be pushed but u will b fine u r a bad ass.
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43 days of freedom on this lovely 4th of July.
Today I'm getting on an airplane and going to visit family. The family I'm visiting is my ex husband's. We're traveling together. Seemed like a good idea four months ago when we booked the trip. Today it seems utterly absurd. But I'm going and I'm gonna fake it until I make it.
The worst day to be a smoker is the day you have to fly. I remember rushing to find an exit and then stressing as I made my way through security AGAIN just so I could suck down a smoke. Anyone who says smoking relieves stress has clearly never thought about all the additional stress one willingly subjects themselves to in order to obtain some false sense of relief. It's laughable and ridiculous now that I think about how we lied to ourselves.
The aforementioned ex? He's a smoker. I'm watching him chew Nicorette furiously and trying not to be cranky. It's a good day to be quit y'all!
Have an awesome day!
I like that story.
Ever read "The Easy Way to Quit Smoking" by Alan Carr? Skoal Monster recommended it to me back close to a year ago. I'm still thankful for that.
It debunks a lot of myths and explains how nicotine really works, specifically to the point you mentioned about it NOT relieving stress, but in fact adding to it.
If you havent read it, I hight suggest it. It's a quick and easy read that gave me a lot of "ah ha" moments.
I still read passages in it from time to time.
Anyway, thats all I have.
"Enjoy" your trip.
Toodles.
ItsGot2Happen gave it to me! With all the craziness I forgot to finish it. Thanks for the reminder... I'm halfway though. Yes. I can tell those who have read it in the language they use regarding nicotine and how the addiction works.
I'll be finishing it on the plane.
I like that story too Lionheart. Any chance that you and your husband could reconcile on the strip? It is always my secret hope for couples who are struggling.
I knew diesel read that book. And I am glad that he did. He used that knowledge and his witty personality to assist me in my quit.
I have read that book cover to cover three times. And I learn something new from each time. Wants someone to acquire that kind of knowledge it would be pretty damn hard to return to using nicotine.
Have a great trip LHG, and a great 4th of July.
Not a chance.
Twas sM who started the ball rollin in regards to the book.
Happy 4th all!!!
LHG....I knew you were just a little crazy but this story has confirmed it. I am just kidding...a little. Anyway, text or call if the trip goes sideways. Otherwise, will be praying for a good trip.
I read that book, too. I thought it was interesting also but still couldn't quit nicotine for more than 2weeks. Thank goodness for finding my brothers and sisters here!
LHG. Your a bad ass lady!!!! That foes sou d like a tough day lol but your hell of a quitter so I'm sure you made it thru! You got this!!! I quit with you!!!
Realize that no matter how rough the situation gets, nicotine will not make it better. Lean on the people here if you need to, you got this !!
STAY QUIT
Greg
Great job girl! Greg is spot on.
1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems
Stay quit lhg future reference always get trip insurance lol you will be pushed but u will b fine u r a bad ass.
What he ^^^^ said. LHG proud of you
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Day 45 (technically 46 but I haven't gone to bed yet)...This was a tough day. It was one of those days that my former self would have taken as THE PERFECT EXCUSE to start again. Was my strongest crave by far but I was never in a danger zone. Simply isn't an option for many reasons.
From day 3 and on, my quit has been "easy". I was emotional and had bouts of anger and had trouble maintaining objectivity in the beginning. I have occassional strong craves. But the moment I understood I am an addict and was freed from ever having to find the balance between "smoking socially" and "becoming addicted", my quit has been pretty effortless. Never again... For any reason. Nothing simpler, if not always easy. What I am left with is an awareness of moments I WOULD have likely caved. Those times more than any remind me why I post roll every damn day. The good days are nice to soak in and come often enough but I know they are the ones that are most dangerous because they have the potential to make me think I don't need to do this one day at a time. And I do. We all do. I've finally accepted that.
I believe that daily promise is essential. I believe making connections is essential. They are hand in hand in my opinion. What's the point of posting roll if you don't give a shit about the person you are promising? But I don't think involvement looks the same for everyone. Some of us need to be on every intro, posting in 32 quit groups and hanging out in chat daily. Some of us just need to post an encouraging word or two. Others need to satisfy our inner ids by describing nic in the foulest terms and using language we would die before we'd let their mother see (I'm looking at you Diesel). Others have a quieter presence.
I quit almost everyday with my friend Boomdrum. He has an intro which he updates occasionally. He's 68 days quit and he's a 100% poster. But chats not really for him (too many conversations at once) and he's very busy with a lot going on so investing in intros or wild card or new quit groups isn't something he has a lot of time for right now. But he has made a few connections here and he has real life accountability in me. He is quit like fuck. No doubt. I'll quit with him every single day and know he has my back.
I bring him up, not to single him out. I hope he doesn't mind I've done this. I bring it up because I think there are a lot of men (and probably some women) who are like him and might feel defensive about their level of commitment. I want to encourage those people. I'm about to enter a phase in my life that requires me to scale back my time here a great deal. I won't feel guilty and my quit remains strong because I am committed to posting 100% and I have folks like 2mch and Boomdrum and others who care about me and will hold me accountable. This phase won't be permanent and I'm sure I'll have times of more involvement again but we all know life has its ebbs and flows.
I encourage you all to post 100% and if you have not yet made at least one connection, reach out today. Surely you've been pm'd at least one number. Take the time to send out a quick text. All you have to say is, "Hope your quit is great today." You could be saving THEIR life one day. Think I'm kidding? I sent a text like that out to a vet a couple weeks ago. Yesterday he was on the ledge and ready to cave with cope right in front of him. Because he'd changed phones mine was one of the three numbers he had in his phone because I'd sent that text. I don't know if he would have caved without my help but I know he DIDN'T cave partly because I was there.
Reach out a little. Not everyone is as lucky as I am to have a real life connection with an amazing quitter but we all have someone to whom we can reach out. Have you found your someone? That one person who would notice if you didn't show up tomorrow?
Guard your quit and find them.
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Day 45 (technically 46 but I haven't gone to bed yet)...This was a tough day. It was one of those days that my former self would have taken as THE PERFECT EXCUSE to start again. Was my strongest crave by far but I was never in a danger zone. Simply isn't an option for many reasons.
From day 3 and on, my quit has been "easy". I was emotional and had bouts of anger and had trouble maintaining objectivity in the beginning. I have occassional strong craves. But the moment I understood I am an addict and was freed from ever having to find the balance between "smoking socially" and "becoming addicted", my quit has been pretty effortless. Never again... For any reason. Nothing simpler, if not always easy. What I am left with is an awareness of moments I WOULD have likely caved. Those times more than any remind me why I post roll every damn day. The good days are nice to soak in and come often enough but I know they are the ones that are most dangerous because they have the potential to make me think I don't need to do this one day at a time. And I do. We all do. I've finally accepted that.
I believe that daily promise is essential. I believe making connections is essential. They are hand in hand in my opinion. What's the point of posting roll if you don't give a shit about the person you are promising? But I don't think involvement looks the same for everyone. Some of us need to be on every intro, posting in 32 quit groups and hanging out in chat daily. Some of us just need to post an encouraging word or two. Others need to satisfy our inner ids by describing nic in the foulest terms and using language we would die before we'd let their mother see (I'm looking at you Diesel). Others have a quieter presence.
I quit almost everyday with my friend Boomdrum. He has an intro which he updates occasionally. He's 68 days quit and he's a 100% poster. But chats not really for him (too many conversations at once) and he's very busy with a lot going on so investing in intros or wild card or new quit groups isn't something he has a lot of time for right now. But he has made a few connections here and he has real life accountability in me. He is quit like fuck. No doubt. I'll quit with him every single day and know he has my back.
I bring him up, not to single him out. I hope he doesn't mind I've done this. I bring it up because I think there are a lot of men (and probably some women) who are like him and might feel defensive about their level of commitment. I want to encourage those people. I'm about to enter a phase in my life that requires me to scale back my time here a great deal. I won't feel guilty and my quit remains strong because I am committed to posting 100% and I have folks like 2mch and Boomdrum and others who care about me and will hold me accountable. This phase won't be permanent and I'm sure I'll have times of more involvement again but we all know life has its ebbs and flows.
I encourage you all to post 100% and if you have not yet made at least one connection, reach out today. Surely you've been pm'd at least one number. Take the time to send out a quick text. All you have to say is, "Hope your quit is great today." You could be saving THEIR life one day. Think I'm kidding? I sent a text like that out to a vet a couple weeks ago. Yesterday he was on the ledge and ready to cave with cope right in front of him. Because he'd changed phones mine was one of the three numbers he had in his phone because I'd sent that text. I don't know if he would have caved without my help but I know he DIDN'T cave partly because I was there.
Reach out a little. Not everyone is as lucky as I am to have a real life connection with an amazing quitter but we all have someone to whom we can reach out. Have you found your someone? That one person who would notice if you didn't show up tomorrow?
Guard your quit and find them.
LHG.......... Thank you..... You have no Idea how much that ment to me.....
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Day 45 (technically 46 but I haven't gone to bed yet)...This was a tough day. It was one of those days that my former self would have taken as THE PERFECT EXCUSE to start again. Was my strongest crave by far but I was never in a danger zone. Simply isn't an option for many reasons.
From day 3 and on, my quit has been "easy". I was emotional and had bouts of anger and had trouble maintaining objectivity in the beginning. I have occassional strong craves. But the moment I understood I am an addict and was freed from ever having to find the balance between "smoking socially" and "becoming addicted", my quit has been pretty effortless. Never again... For any reason. Nothing simpler, if not always easy. What I am left with is an awareness of moments I WOULD have likely caved. Those times more than any remind me why I post roll every damn day. The good days are nice to soak in and come often enough but I know they are the ones that are most dangerous because they have the potential to make me think I don't need to do this one day at a time. And I do. We all do. I've finally accepted that.
I believe that daily promise is essential. I believe making connections is essential. They are hand in hand in my opinion. What's the point of posting roll if you don't give a shit about the person you are promising? But I don't think involvement looks the same for everyone. Some of us need to be on every intro, posting in 32 quit groups and hanging out in chat daily. Some of us just need to post an encouraging word or two. Others need to satisfy our inner ids by describing nic in the foulest terms and using language we would die before we'd let their mother see (I'm looking at you Diesel). Others have a quieter presence.
I quit almost everyday with my friend Boomdrum. He has an intro which he updates occasionally. He's 68 days quit and he's a 100% poster. But chats not really for him (too many conversations at once) and he's very busy with a lot going on so investing in intros or wild card or new quit groups isn't something he has a lot of time for right now. But he has made a few connections here and he has real life accountability in me. He is quit like fuck. No doubt. I'll quit with him every single day and know he has my back.
I bring him up, not to single him out. I hope he doesn't mind I've done this. I bring it up because I think there are a lot of men (and probably some women) who are like him and might feel defensive about their level of commitment. I want to encourage those people. I'm about to enter a phase in my life that requires me to scale back my time here a great deal. I won't feel guilty and my quit remains strong because I am committed to posting 100% and I have folks like 2mch and Boomdrum and others who care about me and will hold me accountable. This phase won't be permanent and I'm sure I'll have times of more involvement again but we all know life has its ebbs and flows.
I encourage you all to post 100% and if you have not yet made at least one connection, reach out today. Surely you've been pm'd at least one number. Take the time to send out a quick text. All you have to say is, "Hope your quit is great today." You could be saving THEIR life one day. Think I'm kidding? I sent a text like that out to a vet a couple weeks ago. Yesterday he was on the ledge and ready to cave with cope right in front of him. Because he'd changed phones mine was one of the three numbers he had in his phone because I'd sent that text. I don't know if he would have caved without my help but I know he DIDN'T cave partly because I was there.
Reach out a little. Not everyone is as lucky as I am to have a real life connection with an amazing quitter but we all have someone to whom we can reach out. Have you found your someone? That one person who would notice if you didn't show up tomorrow?
Guard your quit and find them.
I don't mind.
Thank you so much, LHG. For everything. You're amazing. You got this...
:wub:
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Day 45 (technically 46 but I haven't gone to bed yet)...This was a tough day. It was one of those days that my former self would have taken as THE PERFECT EXCUSE to start again. Was my strongest crave by far but I was never in a danger zone. Simply isn't an option for many reasons.
From day 3 and on, my quit has been "easy". I was emotional and had bouts of anger and had trouble maintaining objectivity in the beginning. I have occassional strong craves. But the moment I understood I am an addict and was freed from ever having to find the balance between "smoking socially" and "becoming addicted", my quit has been pretty effortless. Never again... For any reason. Nothing simpler, if not always easy. What I am left with is an awareness of moments I WOULD have likely caved. Those times more than any remind me why I post roll every damn day. The good days are nice to soak in and come often enough but I know they are the ones that are most dangerous because they have the potential to make me think I don't need to do this one day at a time. And I do. We all do. I've finally accepted that.
I believe that daily promise is essential. I believe making connections is essential. They are hand in hand in my opinion. What's the point of posting roll if you don't give a shit about the person you are promising? But I don't think involvement looks the same for everyone. Some of us need to be on every intro, posting in 32 quit groups and hanging out in chat daily. Some of us just need to post an encouraging word or two. Others need to satisfy our inner ids by describing nic in the foulest terms and using language we would die before we'd let their mother see (I'm looking at you Diesel). Others have a quieter presence.
I quit almost everyday with my friend Boomdrum. He has an intro which he updates occasionally. He's 68 days quit and he's a 100% poster. But chats not really for him (too many conversations at once) and he's very busy with a lot going on so investing in intros or wild card or new quit groups isn't something he has a lot of time for right now. But he has made a few connections here and he has real life accountability in me. He is quit like fuck. No doubt. I'll quit with him every single day and know he has my back.
I bring him up, not to single him out. I hope he doesn't mind I've done this. I bring it up because I think there are a lot of men (and probably some women) who are like him and might feel defensive about their level of commitment. I want to encourage those people. I'm about to enter a phase in my life that requires me to scale back my time here a great deal. I won't feel guilty and my quit remains strong because I am committed to posting 100% and I have folks like 2mch and Boomdrum and others who care about me and will hold me accountable. This phase won't be permanent and I'm sure I'll have times of more involvement again but we all know life has its ebbs and flows.
I encourage you all to post 100% and if you have not yet made at least one connection, reach out today. Surely you've been pm'd at least one number. Take the time to send out a quick text. All you have to say is, "Hope your quit is great today." You could be saving THEIR life one day. Think I'm kidding? I sent a text like that out to a vet a couple weeks ago. Yesterday he was on the ledge and ready to cave with cope right in front of him. Because he'd changed phones mine was one of the three numbers he had in his phone because I'd sent that text. I don't know if he would have caved without my help but I know he DIDN'T cave partly because I was there.
Reach out a little. Not everyone is as lucky as I am to have a real life connection with an amazing quitter but we all have someone to whom we can reach out. Have you found your someone? That one person who would notice if you didn't show up tomorrow?
Guard your quit and find them.
I don't mind.
Thank you so much, LHG. For everything. You're amazing. You got this...
:wub:
Good stuff here. I like.
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Day 45 (technically 46 but I haven't gone to bed yet)...This was a tough day. It was one of those days that my former self would have taken as THE PERFECT EXCUSE to start again. Was my strongest crave by far but I was never in a danger zone. Simply isn't an option for many reasons.
From day 3 and on, my quit has been "easy". I was emotional and had bouts of anger and had trouble maintaining objectivity in the beginning. I have occassional strong craves. But the moment I understood I am an addict and was freed from ever having to find the balance between "smoking socially" and "becoming addicted", my quit has been pretty effortless. Never again... For any reason. Nothing simpler, if not always easy. What I am left with is an awareness of moments I WOULD have likely caved. Those times more than any remind me why I post roll every damn day. The good days are nice to soak in and come often enough but I know they are the ones that are most dangerous because they have the potential to make me think I don't need to do this one day at a time. And I do. We all do. I've finally accepted that.
I believe that daily promise is essential. I believe making connections is essential. They are hand in hand in my opinion. What's the point of posting roll if you don't give a shit about the person you are promising? But I don't think involvement looks the same for everyone. Some of us need to be on every intro, posting in 32 quit groups and hanging out in chat daily. Some of us just need to post an encouraging word or two. Others need to satisfy our inner ids by describing nic in the foulest terms and using language we would die before we'd let their mother see (I'm looking at you Diesel). Others have a quieter presence.
I quit almost everyday with my friend Boomdrum. He has an intro which he updates occasionally. He's 68 days quit and he's a 100% poster. But chats not really for him (too many conversations at once) and he's very busy with a lot going on so investing in intros or wild card or new quit groups isn't something he has a lot of time for right now. But he has made a few connections here and he has real life accountability in me. He is quit like fuck. No doubt. I'll quit with him every single day and know he has my back.
I bring him up, not to single him out. I hope he doesn't mind I've done this. I bring it up because I think there are a lot of men (and probably some women) who are like him and might feel defensive about their level of commitment. I want to encourage those people. I'm about to enter a phase in my life that requires me to scale back my time here a great deal. I won't feel guilty and my quit remains strong because I am committed to posting 100% and I have folks like 2mch and Boomdrum and others who care about me and will hold me accountable. This phase won't be permanent and I'm sure I'll have times of more involvement again but we all know life has its ebbs and flows.
I encourage you all to post 100% and if you have not yet made at least one connection, reach out today. Surely you've been pm'd at least one number. Take the time to send out a quick text. All you have to say is, "Hope your quit is great today." You could be saving THEIR life one day. Think I'm kidding? I sent a text like that out to a vet a couple weeks ago. Yesterday he was on the ledge and ready to cave with cope right in front of him. Because he'd changed phones mine was one of the three numbers he had in his phone because I'd sent that text. I don't know if he would have caved without my help but I know he DIDN'T cave partly because I was there.
Reach out a little. Not everyone is as lucky as I am to have a real life connection with an amazing quitter but we all have someone to whom we can reach out. Have you found your someone? That one person who would notice if you didn't show up tomorrow?
Guard your quit and find them.
I don't mind.
Thank you so much, LHG. For everything. You're amazing. You got this...
:wub:
Good stuff here. I like.
I understand and doubt not your commitment to your quit or our group!! You are a hell of a quitter young lady, a quitter that I am proud to quit with every damn day!
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Day 45 (technically 46 but I haven't gone to bed yet)...This was a tough day. It was one of those days that my former self would have taken as THE PERFECT EXCUSE to start again. Was my strongest crave by far but I was never in a danger zone. Simply isn't an option for many reasons.
From day 3 and on, my quit has been "easy". I was emotional and had bouts of anger and had trouble maintaining objectivity in the beginning. I have occassional strong craves. But the moment I understood I am an addict and was freed from ever having to find the balance between "smoking socially" and "becoming addicted", my quit has been pretty effortless. Never again... For any reason. Nothing simpler, if not always easy. What I am left with is an awareness of moments I WOULD have likely caved. Those times more than any remind me why I post roll every damn day. The good days are nice to soak in and come often enough but I know they are the ones that are most dangerous because they have the potential to make me think I don't need to do this one day at a time. And I do. We all do. I've finally accepted that.
I believe that daily promise is essential. I believe making connections is essential. They are hand in hand in my opinion. What's the point of posting roll if you don't give a shit about the person you are promising? But I don't think involvement looks the same for everyone. Some of us need to be on every intro, posting in 32 quit groups and hanging out in chat daily. Some of us just need to post an encouraging word or two. Others need to satisfy our inner ids by describing nic in the foulest terms and using language we would die before we'd let their mother see (I'm looking at you Diesel). Others have a quieter presence.
I quit almost everyday with my friend Boomdrum. He has an intro which he updates occasionally. He's 68 days quit and he's a 100% poster. But chats not really for him (too many conversations at once) and he's very busy with a lot going on so investing in intros or wild card or new quit groups isn't something he has a lot of time for right now. But he has made a few connections here and he has real life accountability in me. He is quit like fuck. No doubt. I'll quit with him every single day and know he has my back.
I bring him up, not to single him out. I hope he doesn't mind I've done this. I bring it up because I think there are a lot of men (and probably some women) who are like him and might feel defensive about their level of commitment. I want to encourage those people. I'm about to enter a phase in my life that requires me to scale back my time here a great deal. I won't feel guilty and my quit remains strong because I am committed to posting 100% and I have folks like 2mch and Boomdrum and others who care about me and will hold me accountable. This phase won't be permanent and I'm sure I'll have times of more involvement again but we all know life has its ebbs and flows.
I encourage you all to post 100% and if you have not yet made at least one connection, reach out today. Surely you've been pm'd at least one number. Take the time to send out a quick text. All you have to say is, "Hope your quit is great today." You could be saving THEIR life one day. Think I'm kidding? I sent a text like that out to a vet a couple weeks ago. Yesterday he was on the ledge and ready to cave with cope right in front of him. Because he'd changed phones mine was one of the three numbers he had in his phone because I'd sent that text. I don't know if he would have caved without my help but I know he DIDN'T cave partly because I was there.
Reach out a little. Not everyone is as lucky as I am to have a real life connection with an amazing quitter but we all have someone to whom we can reach out. Have you found your someone? That one person who would notice if you didn't show up tomorrow?
Guard your quit and find them.
I don't mind.
Thank you so much, LHG. For everything. You're amazing. You got this...
:wub:
Good stuff here. I like.
I understand and doubt not your commitment to your quit or our group!! You are a hell of a quitter young lady, a quitter that I am proud to quit with every damn day!
Perfect, D! Just Perfect!!!
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Day 45 (technically 46 but I haven't gone to bed yet)...This was a tough day. It was one of those days that my former self would have taken as THE PERFECT EXCUSE to start again. Was my strongest crave by far but I was never in a danger zone. Simply isn't an option for many reasons.
From day 3 and on, my quit has been "easy". I was emotional and had bouts of anger and had trouble maintaining objectivity in the beginning. I have occassional strong craves. But the moment I understood I am an addict and was freed from ever having to find the balance between "smoking socially" and "becoming addicted", my quit has been pretty effortless. Never again... For any reason. Nothing simpler, if not always easy. What I am left with is an awareness of moments I WOULD have likely caved. Those times more than any remind me why I post roll every damn day. The good days are nice to soak in and come often enough but I know they are the ones that are most dangerous because they have the potential to make me think I don't need to do this one day at a time. And I do. We all do. I've finally accepted that.
I believe that daily promise is essential. I believe making connections is essential. They are hand in hand in my opinion. What's the point of posting roll if you don't give a shit about the person you are promising? But I don't think involvement looks the same for everyone. Some of us need to be on every intro, posting in 32 quit groups and hanging out in chat daily. Some of us just need to post an encouraging word or two. Others need to satisfy our inner ids by describing nic in the foulest terms and using language we would die before we'd let their mother see (I'm looking at you Diesel). Others have a quieter presence.
I quit almost everyday with my friend Boomdrum. He has an intro which he updates occasionally. He's 68 days quit and he's a 100% poster. But chats not really for him (too many conversations at once) and he's very busy with a lot going on so investing in intros or wild card or new quit groups isn't something he has a lot of time for right now. But he has made a few connections here and he has real life accountability in me. He is quit like fuck. No doubt. I'll quit with him every single day and know he has my back.
I bring him up, not to single him out. I hope he doesn't mind I've done this. I bring it up because I think there are a lot of men (and probably some women) who are like him and might feel defensive about their level of commitment. I want to encourage those people. I'm about to enter a phase in my life that requires me to scale back my time here a great deal. I won't feel guilty and my quit remains strong because I am committed to posting 100% and I have folks like 2mch and Boomdrum and others who care about me and will hold me accountable. This phase won't be permanent and I'm sure I'll have times of more involvement again but we all know life has its ebbs and flows.
I encourage you all to post 100% and if you have not yet made at least one connection, reach out today. Surely you've been pm'd at least one number. Take the time to send out a quick text. All you have to say is, "Hope your quit is great today." You could be saving THEIR life one day. Think I'm kidding? I sent a text like that out to a vet a couple weeks ago. Yesterday he was on the ledge and ready to cave with cope right in front of him. Because he'd changed phones mine was one of the three numbers he had in his phone because I'd sent that text. I don't know if he would have caved without my help but I know he DIDN'T cave partly because I was there.
Reach out a little. Not everyone is as lucky as I am to have a real life connection with an amazing quitter but we all have someone to whom we can reach out. Have you found your someone? That one person who would notice if you didn't show up tomorrow?
Guard your quit and find them.
I don't mind.
Thank you so much, LHG. For everything. You're amazing. You got this...
:wub:
Good stuff here. I like.
I understand and doubt not your commitment to your quit or our group!! You are a hell of a quitter young lady, a quitter that I am proud to quit with every damn day!
Perfect, D! Just Perfect!!!
Vey nice, LHG. Proud to be quit with you.
I was at a party last night and I was talking about you and 2mch. There was a girl there, (kind of a date of a mutual friend) and I noticed that she was having a smoke about every 30 minutes or so. She happened to be the only smoker at the party. I could not help myself, so I asked her if she would like to be free of that addiction or if she was content with it. I told her about KTC, WTP, my 188 days and 2 badass female quitters that I know. I told her that they would be happy to help her along if she ever choose to quit. It was a pretty moving converstion and she is giving it some serious thought. I will let you know how it turns out.
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Day 45 (technically 46 but I haven't gone to bed yet)...This was a tough day. It was one of those days that my former self would have taken as THE PERFECT EXCUSE to start again. Was my strongest crave by far but I was never in a danger zone. Simply isn't an option for many reasons.
From day 3 and on, my quit has been "easy". I was emotional and had bouts of anger and had trouble maintaining objectivity in the beginning. I have occassional strong craves. But the moment I understood I am an addict and was freed from ever having to find the balance between "smoking socially" and "becoming addicted", my quit has been pretty effortless. Never again... For any reason. Nothing simpler, if not always easy. What I am left with is an awareness of moments I WOULD have likely caved. Those times more than any remind me why I post roll every damn day. The good days are nice to soak in and come often enough but I know they are the ones that are most dangerous because they have the potential to make me think I don't need to do this one day at a time. And I do. We all do. I've finally accepted that.
I believe that daily promise is essential. I believe making connections is essential. They are hand in hand in my opinion. What's the point of posting roll if you don't give a shit about the person you are promising? But I don't think involvement looks the same for everyone. Some of us need to be on every intro, posting in 32 quit groups and hanging out in chat daily. Some of us just need to post an encouraging word or two. Others need to satisfy our inner ids by describing nic in the foulest terms and using language we would die before we'd let their mother see (I'm looking at you Diesel). Others have a quieter presence.
I quit almost everyday with my friend Boomdrum. He has an intro which he updates occasionally. He's 68 days quit and he's a 100% poster. But chats not really for him (too many conversations at once) and he's very busy with a lot going on so investing in intros or wild card or new quit groups isn't something he has a lot of time for right now. But he has made a few connections here and he has real life accountability in me. He is quit like fuck. No doubt. I'll quit with him every single day and know he has my back.
I bring him up, not to single him out. I hope he doesn't mind I've done this. I bring it up because I think there are a lot of men (and probably some women) who are like him and might feel defensive about their level of commitment. I want to encourage those people. I'm about to enter a phase in my life that requires me to scale back my time here a great deal. I won't feel guilty and my quit remains strong because I am committed to posting 100% and I have folks like 2mch and Boomdrum and others who care about me and will hold me accountable. This phase won't be permanent and I'm sure I'll have times of more involvement again but we all know life has its ebbs and flows.
I encourage you all to post 100% and if you have not yet made at least one connection, reach out today. Surely you've been pm'd at least one number. Take the time to send out a quick text. All you have to say is, "Hope your quit is great today." You could be saving THEIR life one day. Think I'm kidding? I sent a text like that out to a vet a couple weeks ago. Yesterday he was on the ledge and ready to cave with cope right in front of him. Because he'd changed phones mine was one of the three numbers he had in his phone because I'd sent that text. I don't know if he would have caved without my help but I know he DIDN'T cave partly because I was there.
Reach out a little. Not everyone is as lucky as I am to have a real life connection with an amazing quitter but we all have someone to whom we can reach out. Have you found your someone? That one person who would notice if you didn't show up tomorrow?
Guard your quit and find them.
I don't mind.
Thank you so much, LHG. For everything. You're amazing. You got this...
:wub:
Good stuff here. I like.
I understand and doubt not your commitment to your quit or our group!! You are a hell of a quitter young lady, a quitter that I am proud to quit with every damn day!
Perfect, D! Just Perfect!!!
Vey nice, LHG. Proud to be quit with you.
I was at a party last night and I was talking about you and 2mch. There was a girl there, (kind of a date of a mutual friend) and I noticed that she was having a smoke about every 30 minutes or so. She happened to be the only smoker at the party. I could not help myself, so I asked her if she would like to be free of that addiction or if she was content with it. I told her about KTC, WTP, my 188 days and 2 badass female quitters that I know. I told her that they would be happy to help her along if she ever choose to quit. It was a pretty moving converstion and she is giving it some serious thought. I will let you know how it turns out.
Give her my number, Ryan! I always welcome new female quitters. Us gals gotta stick together!
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Day 45 (technically 46 but I haven't gone to bed yet)...This was a tough day. It was one of those days that my former self would have taken as THE PERFECT EXCUSE to start again. Was my strongest crave by far but I was never in a danger zone. Simply isn't an option for many reasons.
From day 3 and on, my quit has been "easy". I was emotional and had bouts of anger and had trouble maintaining objectivity in the beginning. I have occassional strong craves. But the moment I understood I am an addict and was freed from ever having to find the balance between "smoking socially" and "becoming addicted", my quit has been pretty effortless. Never again... For any reason. Nothing simpler, if not always easy. What I am left with is an awareness of moments I WOULD have likely caved. Those times more than any remind me why I post roll every damn day. The good days are nice to soak in and come often enough but I know they are the ones that are most dangerous because they have the potential to make me think I don't need to do this one day at a time. And I do. We all do. I've finally accepted that.
I believe that daily promise is essential. I believe making connections is essential. They are hand in hand in my opinion. What's the point of posting roll if you don't give a shit about the person you are promising? But I don't think involvement looks the same for everyone. Some of us need to be on every intro, posting in 32 quit groups and hanging out in chat daily. Some of us just need to post an encouraging word or two. Others need to satisfy our inner ids by describing nic in the foulest terms and using language we would die before we'd let their mother see (I'm looking at you Diesel). Others have a quieter presence.
I quit almost everyday with my friend Boomdrum. He has an intro which he updates occasionally. He's 68 days quit and he's a 100% poster. But chats not really for him (too many conversations at once) and he's very busy with a lot going on so investing in intros or wild card or new quit groups isn't something he has a lot of time for right now. But he has made a few connections here and he has real life accountability in me. He is quit like fuck. No doubt. I'll quit with him every single day and know he has my back.
I bring him up, not to single him out. I hope he doesn't mind I've done this. I bring it up because I think there are a lot of men (and probably some women) who are like him and might feel defensive about their level of commitment. I want to encourage those people. I'm about to enter a phase in my life that requires me to scale back my time here a great deal. I won't feel guilty and my quit remains strong because I am committed to posting 100% and I have folks like 2mch and Boomdrum and others who care about me and will hold me accountable. This phase won't be permanent and I'm sure I'll have times of more involvement again but we all know life has its ebbs and flows.
I encourage you all to post 100% and if you have not yet made at least one connection, reach out today. Surely you've been pm'd at least one number. Take the time to send out a quick text. All you have to say is, "Hope your quit is great today." You could be saving THEIR life one day. Think I'm kidding? I sent a text like that out to a vet a couple weeks ago. Yesterday he was on the ledge and ready to cave with cope right in front of him. Because he'd changed phones mine was one of the three numbers he had in his phone because I'd sent that text. I don't know if he would have caved without my help but I know he DIDN'T cave partly because I was there.
Reach out a little. Not everyone is as lucky as I am to have a real life connection with an amazing quitter but we all have someone to whom we can reach out. Have you found your someone? That one person who would notice if you didn't show up tomorrow?
Guard your quit and find them.
I don't mind.
Thank you so much, LHG. For everything. You're amazing. You got this...
:wub:
Good stuff here. I like.
I understand and doubt not your commitment to your quit or our group!! You are a hell of a quitter young lady, a quitter that I am proud to quit with every damn day!
Perfect, D! Just Perfect!!!
I remember when you first joined the site. I was still new and as everyone here knows I am not afraid to voice an opinion! I was kinda irritated when you joined. This is a chewing support forum, not a smoking forum. And here you come in and talk about being a new member here and one at LITE. I was thinking that you didn't belong here and if LITE was for smokers then you should go there.... I sat back and did not voice an opinion and watched how you posted on the site. Then I got to meet you in chat. Over the course of the first weeks you were here I found myself very glad I did not speak up against your involvement here. In my time here you have brought a lot of great views to the threads and I personally have gotten a lot of great encouragement from reading your wisdom. You have been a good source of inspiration to everyone here. No matter what life brings and what may make you step back in your involvement here, I am grateful for each day that you are here. I will not question the strength of your quit in any way! You are a rock here and an example to me that everyone can bring something to the table here no matter what form of NIC addiction they come with. You are one of the few examples to me of being glad I was wrong in my first assessment. Ex smoker or ex chewer it doesn't matter! you are a strong quitter who brings a lot to the table every day. I thought today was a good time to tell you that I was wrong in my judgement when you first joined, You just didn't know it! Thank you again. You make my quit stronger!
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Day 45 (technically 46 but I haven't gone to bed yet)...This was a tough day. It was one of those days that my former self would have taken as THE PERFECT EXCUSE to start again. Was my strongest crave by far but I was never in a danger zone. Simply isn't an option for many reasons.
From day 3 and on, my quit has been "easy". I was emotional and had bouts of anger and had trouble maintaining objectivity in the beginning. I have occassional strong craves. But the moment I understood I am an addict and was freed from ever having to find the balance between "smoking socially" and "becoming addicted", my quit has been pretty effortless. Never again... For any reason. Nothing simpler, if not always easy. What I am left with is an awareness of moments I WOULD have likely caved. Those times more than any remind me why I post roll every damn day. The good days are nice to soak in and come often enough but I know they are the ones that are most dangerous because they have the potential to make me think I don't need to do this one day at a time. And I do. We all do. I've finally accepted that.
I believe that daily promise is essential. I believe making connections is essential. They are hand in hand in my opinion. What's the point of posting roll if you don't give a shit about the person you are promising? But I don't think involvement looks the same for everyone. Some of us need to be on every intro, posting in 32 quit groups and hanging out in chat daily. Some of us just need to post an encouraging word or two. Others need to satisfy our inner ids by describing nic in the foulest terms and using language we would die before we'd let their mother see (I'm looking at you Diesel). Others have a quieter presence.
I quit almost everyday with my friend Boomdrum. He has an intro which he updates occasionally. He's 68 days quit and he's a 100% poster. But chats not really for him (too many conversations at once) and he's very busy with a lot going on so investing in intros or wild card or new quit groups isn't something he has a lot of time for right now. But he has made a few connections here and he has real life accountability in me. He is quit like fuck. No doubt. I'll quit with him every single day and know he has my back.
I bring him up, not to single him out. I hope he doesn't mind I've done this. I bring it up because I think there are a lot of men (and probably some women) who are like him and might feel defensive about their level of commitment. I want to encourage those people. I'm about to enter a phase in my life that requires me to scale back my time here a great deal. I won't feel guilty and my quit remains strong because I am committed to posting 100% and I have folks like 2mch and Boomdrum and others who care about me and will hold me accountable. This phase won't be permanent and I'm sure I'll have times of more involvement again but we all know life has its ebbs and flows.
I encourage you all to post 100% and if you have not yet made at least one connection, reach out today. Surely you've been pm'd at least one number. Take the time to send out a quick text. All you have to say is, "Hope your quit is great today." You could be saving THEIR life one day. Think I'm kidding? I sent a text like that out to a vet a couple weeks ago. Yesterday he was on the ledge and ready to cave with cope right in front of him. Because he'd changed phones mine was one of the three numbers he had in his phone because I'd sent that text. I don't know if he would have caved without my help but I know he DIDN'T cave partly because I was there.
Reach out a little. Not everyone is as lucky as I am to have a real life connection with an amazing quitter but we all have someone to whom we can reach out. Have you found your someone? That one person who would notice if you didn't show up tomorrow?
Guard your quit and find them.
I don't mind.
Thank you so much, LHG. For everything. You're amazing. You got this...
:wub:
Good stuff here. I like.
I understand and doubt not your commitment to your quit or our group!! You are a hell of a quitter young lady, a quitter that I am proud to quit with every damn day!
Perfect, D! Just Perfect!!!
Vey nice, LHG. Proud to be quit with you.
I was at a party last night and I was talking about you and 2mch. There was a girl there, (kind of a date of a mutual friend) and I noticed that she was having a smoke about every 30 minutes or so. She happened to be the only smoker at the party. I could not help myself, so I asked her if she would like to be free of that addiction or if she was content with it. I told her about KTC, WTP, my 188 days and 2 badass female quitters that I know. I told her that they would be happy to help her along if she ever choose to quit. It was a pretty moving converstion and she is giving it some serious thought. I will let you know how it turns out.
Give her my number, Ryan! I always welcome new female quitters. Us gals gotta stick together!
Thanks 2mch, I knew I could count on you :)
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Day 45 (technically 46 but I haven't gone to bed yet)...This was a tough day. It was one of those days that my former self would have taken as THE PERFECT EXCUSE to start again. Was my strongest crave by far but I was never in a danger zone. Simply isn't an option for many reasons.
From day 3 and on, my quit has been "easy". I was emotional and had bouts of anger and had trouble maintaining objectivity in the beginning. I have occassional strong craves. But the moment I understood I am an addict and was freed from ever having to find the balance between "smoking socially" and "becoming addicted", my quit has been pretty effortless. Never again... For any reason. Nothing simpler, if not always easy. What I am left with is an awareness of moments I WOULD have likely caved. Those times more than any remind me why I post roll every damn day. The good days are nice to soak in and come often enough but I know they are the ones that are most dangerous because they have the potential to make me think I don't need to do this one day at a time. And I do. We all do. I've finally accepted that.
I believe that daily promise is essential. I believe making connections is essential. They are hand in hand in my opinion. What's the point of posting roll if you don't give a shit about the person you are promising? But I don't think involvement looks the same for everyone. Some of us need to be on every intro, posting in 32 quit groups and hanging out in chat daily. Some of us just need to post an encouraging word or two. Others need to satisfy our inner ids by describing nic in the foulest terms and using language we would die before we'd let their mother see (I'm looking at you Diesel). Others have a quieter presence.
I quit almost everyday with my friend Boomdrum. He has an intro which he updates occasionally. He's 68 days quit and he's a 100% poster. But chats not really for him (too many conversations at once) and he's very busy with a lot going on so investing in intros or wild card or new quit groups isn't something he has a lot of time for right now. But he has made a few connections here and he has real life accountability in me. He is quit like fuck. No doubt. I'll quit with him every single day and know he has my back.
I bring him up, not to single him out. I hope he doesn't mind I've done this. I bring it up because I think there are a lot of men (and probably some women) who are like him and might feel defensive about their level of commitment. I want to encourage those people. I'm about to enter a phase in my life that requires me to scale back my time here a great deal. I won't feel guilty and my quit remains strong because I am committed to posting 100% and I have folks like 2mch and Boomdrum and others who care about me and will hold me accountable. This phase won't be permanent and I'm sure I'll have times of more involvement again but we all know life has its ebbs and flows.
I encourage you all to post 100% and if you have not yet made at least one connection, reach out today. Surely you've been pm'd at least one number. Take the time to send out a quick text. All you have to say is, "Hope your quit is great today." You could be saving THEIR life one day. Think I'm kidding? I sent a text like that out to a vet a couple weeks ago. Yesterday he was on the ledge and ready to cave with cope right in front of him. Because he'd changed phones mine was one of the three numbers he had in his phone because I'd sent that text. I don't know if he would have caved without my help but I know he DIDN'T cave partly because I was there.
Reach out a little. Not everyone is as lucky as I am to have a real life connection with an amazing quitter but we all have someone to whom we can reach out. Have you found your someone? That one person who would notice if you didn't show up tomorrow?
Guard your quit and find them.
I don't mind.
Thank you so much, LHG. For everything. You're amazing. You got this...
:wub:
Good stuff here. I like.
I understand and doubt not your commitment to your quit or our group!! You are a hell of a quitter young lady, a quitter that I am proud to quit with every damn day!
Perfect, D! Just Perfect!!!
Vey nice, LHG. Proud to be quit with you.
I was at a party last night and I was talking about you and 2mch. There was a girl there, (kind of a date of a mutual friend) and I noticed that she was having a smoke about every 30 minutes or so. She happened to be the only smoker at the party. I could not help myself, so I asked her if she would like to be free of that addiction or if she was content with it. I told her about KTC, WTP, my 188 days and 2 badass female quitters that I know. I told her that they would be happy to help her along if she ever choose to quit. It was a pretty moving converstion and she is giving it some serious thought. I will let you know how it turns out.
Give her my number, Ryan! I always welcome new female quitters. Us gals gotta stick together!
Thanks 2mch, I knew I could count on you :)
I remember when you first joined the site. I was still new and as everyone here knows I am not afraid to voice an opinion! I was kinda irritated when you joined. This is a chewing support forum, not a smoking forum. And here you come in and talk about being a new member here and one at LITE. I was thinking that you didn't belong here and if LITE was for smokers then you should go there.... I sat back and did not voice an opinion and watched how you posted on the site. Then I got to meet you in chat. Over the course of the first weeks you were here I found myself very glad I did not speak up against your involvement here. In my time here you have brought a lot of great views to the threads and I personally have gotten a lot of great encouragement from reading your wisdom. You have been a good source of inspiration to everyone here. No matter what life brings and what may make you step back in your involvement here, I am grateful for each day that you are here. I will not question the strength of your quit in any way! You are a rock here and an example to me that everyone can bring something to the table here no matter what form of NIC addiction they come with. You are one of the few examples to me of being glad I was wrong in my first assessment. Ex smoker or ex chewer it doesn't matter! you are a strong quitter who brings a lot to the table every day. I thought today was a good time to tell you that I was wrong in my judgement when you first joined, You just didn't know it! Thank you again. You make my quit stronger!
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Jake, I'm glad you were wrong too! I love that... Absolutely loved it! What great encouragement and yeah, I've noticed you're a little outspoken. Now that I know I'm on your radar my quit is that much stronger because you are one dude I do NOT want to piss off! Lol
I think it's hilarious you thought of me as LITE! Truth is, I thought of myself as LITE too. Thank God for 2mch and her HOF speech that pointed me to chat and KTC and made me realize there was a place for me here. I was hesitant to come so I'm glad you gave me a chance. I scare easy believe it or not! This place saved my life. It's where I learned I'm an addict.
Ryan, you can absolutely give your friend my number too! And to the rest of you who commented... Y'all are really special to me. Thank you for continuing to be here!
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Jake, I'm glad you were wrong too! I love that... Absolutely loved it! What great encouragement and yeah, I've noticed you're a little outspoken. Now that I know I'm on your radar my quit is that much stronger because you are one dude I do NOT want to piss off! Lol
I think it's hilarious you thought of me as LITE! Truth is, I thought of myself as LITE too. Thank God for 2mch and her HOF speech that pointed me to chat and KTC and made me realize there was a place for me here. I was hesitant to come so I'm glad you gave me a chance. I scare easy believe it or not! This place saved my life. It's where I learned I'm an addict.
Ryan, you can absolutely give your friend my number too! And to the rest of you who commented... Y'all are really special to me. Thank you for continuing to be here!
'crackup'
My HOF speech made you curious about chat!! Hahaha! You can learn a lot from the chatters :wub:
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Jake, I'm glad you were wrong too! I love that... Absolutely loved it! What great encouragement and yeah, I've noticed you're a little outspoken. Now that I know I'm on your radar my quit is that much stronger because you are one dude I do NOT want to piss off! Lol
I think it's hilarious you thought of me as LITE! Truth is, I thought of myself as LITE too. Thank God for 2mch and her HOF speech that pointed me to chat and KTC and made me realize there was a place for me here. I was hesitant to come so I'm glad you gave me a chance. I scare easy believe it or not! This place saved my life. It's where I learned I'm an addict.
Ryan, you can absolutely give your friend my number too! And to the rest of you who commented... Y'all are really special to me. Thank you for continuing to be here!
'crackup'
My HOF speech made you curious about chat!! Hahaha! You can learn a lot from the chatters :wub:
:ph43r:
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Day 80...
Yesterday I became single for the first time in 16 years. I'm moving to a new city with my children and I have the weight of financial responsibility on my shoulders. I have a somewhat hostile ex and a daughter who is struggling with saying goodbye. I'm having trouble forming coherent thoughts and not losing my shit completely.
And I'm quit.
So fuck you if you cave today because of stress.
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Day 80...
Yesterday I became single for the first time in 16 years. I'm moving to a new city with my children and I have the weight of financial responsibility on my shoulders. I have a somewhat hostile ex and a daughter who is struggling with saying goodbye. I'm having trouble forming coherent thoughts and not losing my shit completely.
And I'm quit.
So fuck you if you cave today because of stress.
You're a rock star!! I'm here if you need me. Hang in there.
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Day 80...
Yesterday I became single for the first time in 16 years. I'm moving to a new city with my children and I have the weight of financial responsibility on my shoulders. I have a somewhat hostile ex and a daughter who is struggling with saying goodbye. I'm having trouble forming coherent thoughts and not losing my shit completely.
And I'm quit.
So fuck you if you cave today because of stress.
You're a rock star!! I'm here if you need me. Hang in there.
Wow!!! You just put another bolt lock on the door.. Quit with you ..
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Day 80...
Yesterday I became single for the first time in 16 years. I'm moving to a new city with my children and I have the weight of financial responsibility on my shoulders. I have a somewhat hostile ex and a daughter who is struggling with saying goodbye. I'm having trouble forming coherent thoughts and not losing my shit completely.
And I'm quit.
So fuck you if you cave today because of stress.
You're a rock star!! I'm here if you need me. Hang in there.
Wow!!! You just put another bolt lock on the door.. Quit with you ..
Excellence on many levels LHG. Stay stong.
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Day 80...
Yesterday I became single for the first time in 16 years. I'm moving to a new city with my children and I have the weight of financial responsibility on my shoulders. I have a somewhat hostile ex and a daughter who is struggling with saying goodbye. I'm having trouble forming coherent thoughts and not losing my shit completely.
And I'm quit.
So fuck you if you cave today because of stress.
You're a rock star!! I'm here if you need me. Hang in there.
Wow!!! You just put another bolt lock on the door.. Quit with you ..
Excellence on many levels LHG. Stay stong.
Quit with you, all damn day!
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Day 80...
Yesterday I became single for the first time in 16 years. I'm moving to a new city with my children and I have the weight of financial responsibility on my shoulders. I have a somewhat hostile ex and a daughter who is struggling with saying goodbye. I'm having trouble forming coherent thoughts and not losing my shit completely.
And I'm quit.
So fuck you if you cave today because of stress.
You're a rock star!! I'm here if you need me. Hang in there.
Wow!!! You just put another bolt lock on the door.. Quit with you ..
Excellence on many levels LHG. Stay stong.
Quit with you, all damn day!
You got my support! Hold your head up!
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Day 80...
Yesterday I became single for the first time in 16 years. I'm moving to a new city with my children and I have the weight of financial responsibility on my shoulders. I have a somewhat hostile ex and a daughter who is struggling with saying goodbye. I'm having trouble forming coherent thoughts and not losing my shit completely.
And I'm quit.
So fuck you if you cave today because of stress.
You're a rock star!! I'm here if you need me. Hang in there.
Wow!!! You just put another bolt lock on the door.. Quit with you ..
Excellence on many levels LHG. Stay stong.
Quit with you, all damn day!
You got my support! Hold your head up!
Stay strong LHG! Way to battle! Congrats on 80. Quit with u all day!
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Day 80...
Yesterday I became single for the first time in 16 years. I'm moving to a new city with my children and I have the weight of financial responsibility on my shoulders. I have a somewhat hostile ex and a daughter who is struggling with saying goodbye. I'm having trouble forming coherent thoughts and not losing my shit completely.
And I'm quit.
So fuck you if you cave today because of stress.
You're a rock star!! I'm here if you need me. Hang in there.
Wow!!! You just put another bolt lock on the door.. Quit with you ..
Excellence on many levels LHG. Stay stong.
Quit with you, all damn day!
You got my support! Hold your head up!
Stay strong LHG! Way to battle! Congrats on 80. Quit with u all day!
QUIT WOOD! QUIT WOOD! QUIT WOOD! Soak this lesson up newbies..(that includes me :D)... Impressive!
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Day 80...
Yesterday I became single for the first time in 16 years. I'm moving to a new city with my children and I have the weight of financial responsibility on my shoulders. I have a somewhat hostile ex and a daughter who is struggling with saying goodbye. I'm having trouble forming coherent thoughts and not losing my shit completely.
And I'm quit.
So fuck you if you cave today because of stress.
You're a rock star!! I'm here if you need me. Hang in there.
Wow!!! You just put another bolt lock on the door.. Quit with you ..
Excellence on many levels LHG. Stay stong.
Quit with you, all damn day!
You got my support! Hold your head up!
Stay strong LHG! Way to battle! Congrats on 80. Quit with u all day!
QUIT WOOD! QUIT WOOD! QUIT WOOD! Soak this lesson up newbies..(that includes me :D)... Impressive!
I think I'm in love :wub:
Nice job LHG, you're killing it every day. Stomp nic in the teeth once for me and illdo the same for you. FU nic, I own today.
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Day 80...
Yesterday I became single for the first time in 16 years. I'm moving to a new city with my children and I have the weight of financial responsibility on my shoulders. I have a somewhat hostile ex and a daughter who is struggling with saying goodbye. I'm having trouble forming coherent thoughts and not losing my shit completely.
And I'm quit.
So fuck you if you cave today because of stress.
You're a rock star!! I'm here if you need me. Hang in there.
Wow!!! You just put another bolt lock on the door.. Quit with you ..
Excellence on many levels LHG. Stay stong.
Quit with you, all damn day!
You got my support! Hold your head up!
Stay strong LHG! Way to battle! Congrats on 80. Quit with u all day!
QUIT WOOD! QUIT WOOD! QUIT WOOD! Soak this lesson up newbies..(that includes me :D)... Impressive!
I think I'm in love :wub:
Nice job LHG, you're killing it every day. Stomp nic in the teeth once for me and illdo the same for you. FU nic, I own today.
Consider me quit with you any day, any time, any week or any town. I am hostile about my quit and all KTC family. LHG I got your back if ever you need it covered.
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Day 80...
Yesterday I became single for the first time in 16 years. I'm moving to a new city with my children and I have the weight of financial responsibility on my shoulders. I have a somewhat hostile ex and a daughter who is struggling with saying goodbye. I'm having trouble forming coherent thoughts and not losing my shit completely.
And I'm quit.
So fuck you if you cave today because of stress.
You're a rock star!! I'm here if you need me. Hang in there.
Wow!!! You just put another bolt lock on the door.. Quit with you ..
Excellence on many levels LHG. Stay stong.
Quit with you, all damn day!
You got my support! Hold your head up!
Stay strong LHG! Way to battle! Congrats on 80. Quit with u all day!
QUIT WOOD! QUIT WOOD! QUIT WOOD! Soak this lesson up newbies..(that includes me :D)... Impressive!
I think I'm in love :wub:
Nice job LHG, you're killing it every day. Stomp nic in the teeth once for me and illdo the same for you. FU nic, I own today.
Consider me quit with you any day, any time, any week or any town. I am hostile about my quit and all KTC family. LHG I got your back if ever you need it covered.
Your a bad ass and I am going to say the same thing you said about me awhile back, look at this quitters challenges. You think LHG is gonna cave? He'll no!!!! She is a bad ass. A total fucking bad ass!!!!!! I quit with you today and will see your quitting ass on roll tomorrow.
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Day 80...
Yesterday I became single for the first time in 16 years. I'm moving to a new city with my children and I have the weight of financial responsibility on my shoulders. I have a somewhat hostile ex and a daughter who is struggling with saying goodbye. I'm having trouble forming coherent thoughts and not losing my shit completely.
And I'm quit.
So fuck you if you cave today because of stress.
You're a rock star!! I'm here if you need me. Hang in there.
Wow!!! You just put another bolt lock on the door.. Quit with you ..
Excellence on many levels LHG. Stay stong.
Quit with you, all damn day!
You got my support! Hold your head up!
Stay strong LHG! Way to battle! Congrats on 80. Quit with u all day!
QUIT WOOD! QUIT WOOD! QUIT WOOD! Soak this lesson up newbies..(that includes me :D)... Impressive!
I think I'm in love :wub:
Nice job LHG, you're killing it every day. Stomp nic in the teeth once for me and illdo the same for you. FU nic, I own today.
Consider me quit with you any day, any time, any week or any town. I am hostile about my quit and all KTC family. LHG I got your back if ever you need it covered.
Your a bad ass and I am going to say the same thing you said about me awhile back, look at this quitters challenges. You think LHG is gonna cave? He'll no!!!! She is a bad ass. A total fucking bad ass!!!!!! I quit with you today and will see your quitting ass on roll tomorrow.
LionHeartedGirl, your name is so fitting. Best wishes conquering the challenges ahead. I humbly quit with you.
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Day 80...
Yesterday I became single for the first time in 16 years. I'm moving to a new city with my children and I have the weight of financial responsibility on my shoulders. I have a somewhat hostile ex and a daughter who is struggling with saying goodbye. I'm having trouble forming coherent thoughts and not losing my shit completely.
And I'm quit.
So fuck you if you cave today because of stress.
You're a rock star!! I'm here if you need me. Hang in there.
Wow!!! You just put another bolt lock on the door.. Quit with you ..
Excellence on many levels LHG. Stay stong.
Quit with you, all damn day!
You got my support! Hold your head up!
Stay strong LHG! Way to battle! Congrats on 80. Quit with u all day!
QUIT WOOD! QUIT WOOD! QUIT WOOD! Soak this lesson up newbies..(that includes me :D)... Impressive!
I think I'm in love :wub:
Nice job LHG, you're killing it every day. Stomp nic in the teeth once for me and illdo the same for you. FU nic, I own today.
Consider me quit with you any day, any time, any week or any town. I am hostile about my quit and all KTC family. LHG I got your back if ever you need it covered.
Your a bad ass and I am going to say the same thing you said about me awhile back, look at this quitters challenges. You think LHG is gonna cave? He'll no!!!! She is a bad ass. A total fucking bad ass!!!!!! I quit with you today and will see your quitting ass on roll tomorrow.
LionHeartedGirl, your name is so fitting. Best wishes conquering the challenges ahead. I humbly quit with you.
I'll tell you what. I have known this girl for more than 30 years and let me tell you, she can be mean. I don't mean she sometimes says snarky things about the neighbors, I mean put your little brother face down with his arms crossed under him on the couch and then proceed to sit on him and tickle him while she watches "As The World Turns" kind of mean. If thats what she could do to family, just imagine how devious and vicious she could be once she sets her mind to get revenge on nicotine. "Big Tobaco" needs to watch its back. Once my sister gets setteled in, it wouldn't suprise me if she goes right to the source and finds a creative way to make their lives a living hell.
I read what LHG is saying and Damn, I'm proud to say that I am that little brother. You kick ass.
DaBean22 - Day 9
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Day 80...
Yesterday I became single for the first time in 16 years. I'm moving to a new city with my children and I have the weight of financial responsibility on my shoulders. I have a somewhat hostile ex and a daughter who is struggling with saying goodbye. I'm having trouble forming coherent thoughts and not losing my shit completely.
And I'm quit.
So fuck you if you cave today because of stress.
You're a rock star!! I'm here if you need me. Hang in there.
Wow!!! You just put another bolt lock on the door.. Quit with you ..
Excellence on many levels LHG. Stay stong.
Quit with you, all damn day!
You got my support! Hold your head up!
Stay strong LHG! Way to battle! Congrats on 80. Quit with u all day!
QUIT WOOD! QUIT WOOD! QUIT WOOD! Soak this lesson up newbies..(that includes me :D)... Impressive!
I think I'm in love :wub:
Nice job LHG, you're killing it every day. Stomp nic in the teeth once for me and illdo the same for you. FU nic, I own today.
Consider me quit with you any day, any time, any week or any town. I am hostile about my quit and all KTC family. LHG I got your back if ever you need it covered.
Your a bad ass and I am going to say the same thing you said about me awhile back, look at this quitters challenges. You think LHG is gonna cave? He'll no!!!! She is a bad ass. A total fucking bad ass!!!!!! I quit with you today and will see your quitting ass on roll tomorrow.
LionHeartedGirl, your name is so fitting. Best wishes conquering the challenges ahead. I humbly quit with you.
I'll tell you what. I have known this girl for more than 30 years and let me tell you, she can be mean. I don't mean she sometimes says snarky things about the neighbors, I mean put your little brother face down with his arms crossed under him on the couch and then proceed to sit on him and tickle him while she watches "As The World Turns" kind of mean. If thats what she could do to family, just imagine how devious and vicious she could be once she sets her mind to get revenge on nicotine. "Big Tobaco" needs to watch its back. Once my sister gets setteled in, it wouldn't suprise me if she goes right to the source and finds a creative way to make their lives a living hell.
I read what LHG is saying and Damn, I'm proud to say that I am that little brother. You kick ass.
DaBean22 - Day 9
You absolutely cannot buy this kind of support!! Beautifully done, quitters.
Keep on kicking ass, LHG.
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Day 85...
Thank you to everyone who reached out to me, posted roll for me, commented here, sent a PM or a text or just kept me in your thoughts. This has been the absolute most stressful week of my life but I'm moved (not quite settled yet) and I'm quit.
Love to my KTC (and WTP) family. :wub:
Also... My brother best tread carefully if he's gonna start bringing up stories from the past! :lol:
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Day 85...
Thank you to everyone who reached out to me, posted roll for me, commented here, sent a PM or a text or just kept me in your thoughts. This has been the absolute most stressful week of my life but I'm moved (not quite settled yet) and I'm quit.
Love to my KTC (and WTP) family. :wub:
Also... My brother best tread carefully if he's gonna start bringing up stories from the past! :lol:
:wub:
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Day 85...
Thank you to everyone who reached out to me, posted roll for me, commented here, sent a PM or a text or just kept me in your thoughts. This has been the absolute most stressful week of my life but I'm moved (not quite settled yet) and I'm quit.
Love to my KTC (and WTP) family. :wub:
Also... My brother best tread carefully if he's gonna start bringing up stories from the past! :lol:
:wub:
You are such an inspiration young lady! I can't imagine how tough your week has been but I do know you are quit, because your word is plausible. You have been tried, weighed, and measured, yet you have NOT been found wanting! Your a bad ass that I am greatful is in the August quit Group! Quit with you every damn day, and I am doing it as hard as I can possibly quit! Erussell -108-
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LHG, I solute you! I had some trying times, but you had worse! Yet here you stand,,,, quit. You have been weighed, tried, and measured and found wanting of nothing, your a bad ass! We love you and we are so damn proud you are in our group! I quit with you!
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Well done :D
See you tomorrow for 101!
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Congratulations on hitting the hall. I had a feeling that you meant business when you got started in here. Enjoy the moment as it becomes another one. Very strong start LHG. Now keep the eye on the prize and always keep your guard up.
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Enjoy your day proud of you do u have your coin.
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Excellent! 'dance' Proud of you. This is just the beginning of the rest of your life. Enjoy today and we'll see you back here again tomorrow for 101.
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Great job, LHG!!!
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100 down is only the beginning....proud of you LHgirl well done!
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Congrats with your achievement LHG! Key word"YOUR." Yo did it. Not us but You! 'oh yeah'
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Congrats on 100.
Look forward to many more!
Keep fighting!
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Congratulations !!! A Job Really Well Done .............. :D
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Welcome to a fellow newbie
You can do this and you've come to the right place for support with that. I've whined, moaned, groaned but never failed to get a pat on the back for some encouragement from a handful of caring guys and gals. Just when I think I'm quit for good (like on day 6, 7, 8) I'll have the brilliant thought I can go back for just one more. If you get these thoughts call, PM, read a hall of fame post, just log in and vegetate.
Don't forget daily exercise, maybe the best defense against using N.
Are you a Cardinals Fan ?? I graduated from the University of Louisville '92.
Go Cards !!!
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Thank you all. :)
I'll write more later but I wanted to acknowledge all the wonderful support I've received today. Y'all rock!
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100 days ago you began a new chapter in your life. You had trials way beyond what others have used as excuses to fail but you persevered. You stayed true to your word and stayed strong when others fell. You became a roll model. You inspired and continue to inspire me. Your encouragement and guidance are exactly what I needed to get off my ass and start my own chapter. (Day 27) There is no doubt that if you hadn't steered me in the right direction, I may have never found the path to my quit. In this way, I owe a debt of gratitude that I can never repay. I love you sis. Congratulations on the first of many milestones. I'll see you here tomorrow. ODAAT.
I raise my glass to one bad ass bitch. (She will cut........ you)
Here Here
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Awesome work congrats on 100!!
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Congrats on the HOF!!! Well deserved. Keep it rolling!!
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Congrats on 100 Proud to be quit with you today!
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Welcome to the HOF!!! Great work!!!
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Hey sister i know its past ur 100 day but its been crazy here! I wanted to tell u congrats on 100 u are such a badass and a great roll model for all the newbies u have been through so much and have such an amazing heart for others! I am so proud to be quit with u every damn day i am so proud of u for over coming everything that has happened to u and stayed quit u have shown and taught me and newbies that no matter how stressful or how bad of a day u are having its more than possible to stay quit, and that there is no excuse or reason to EVER cave. To me my quit is one of the most important things to me and without ur help and support and everyone else on this site i wouldnt be quit! Anyways enough rambling i love ya girl and congrats again u badass girl you!
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You know I love you and am very proud of you.
Now, where's your HOF speech? Its like waiting for the next Hunger Games movie to come out!! Hurry! 'impatient'
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So proud of you LHG.
You've been an inspiration since you've arrived. Keep it up, and remember that the quit is always comes first.
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I finally wrote a HOF speech... and then in a grand illusion of grandeur I tried to post in Hall of Legends! Sorry mods... I'm sure you'll figure it out. :) Anyway, I'll put it here in my thread for posterity.
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I needed 150 days to write a Hall of Fame speech. My 100th day fell on August 30thÂ… which would have been my 16th wedding anniversary if I hadnÂ’t left my marriage and moved out two weeks earlier. I wasnÂ’t ready to write a speech 50 days ago.
To say I picked a stressful time to quit using nicotine is an understatement. There were many times I questioned the wisdom of my decision. After all, donÂ’t many people actually START smoking while going through a divorce? The crutch would have been understandable. ExceptÂ… I left my marriage for me. I wanted to be healthier. I wanted to be better. I wanted to live my life fully.
And there was no place for smoking in that.
I started smoking at 16 while I was drinking. I begged a friend for my first cigarette and loved it. I was a ninja smoker until I moved out 4 years later for the Air Force. ItÂ’s not easy hiding the smell of cigarette smoke from ex smoker parents but I managed to do it by wearing an outer layer of clothing when I smoked and gloves. I was sneaky and pathetic. Also, I didnÂ’t smoke that much or everyday. That changed when I moved out and quickly started a pack a day habit. I hated being a smoker and it was years before I would buy a carton and admit to myself that I actually even was a smoker. I convinced myself that if I just bought a pack I could quit whenever I wanted. A carton was a commitment. The cost savings eventually won out.
I stopped several time, once even for five years. The first time I stopped wasn’t easy but after I had it kicked it was smooth sailing so it was easy to justify picking it up again for “just one”. I became a serial stopper. I don’t know how many times I stopped but it was probably around ten.
I’m writing this for anyone who might be like I was. I’m writing this for anyone who is scared and exhausted and isn’t sure it’s worth “trying again”. I’m writing this for the serial stopper who is feeling like if I could “attempt a quit” TEN times then what makes this time any different? And if I could quit for FIVE YEARS and start again, what hope is there for them? There is an answer to this question that I have come to see as tantamount to my quit and I would daresay yours as well. It is a simple fact that I have seen rejected over and over on this website… usually by “serial stoppers” such as myself. You may find yourself bristling at it and thinking “not me”! You might think yourself stronger than me. You might think yourself more resolved or convicted or even more upright than me. You might think yourself different but I can assure you with certainty… you are not different.
You are not stronger than me.
You do not have more resolve than I had.
You do not have a secret stash of conviction that I lacked.
You are not morally superior to me.
You are not special.
If you do not accept this, as I did, then you will likely fail. It might take five years, but the odds of you achieving a life without nicotine are incredibly low. Here is that simple truth:
You are an addict.
For many on this site, that is such a no-brainer. They KNEW they were addicts… it was obvious to them. But for me… a good mom who cooks healthy food for her family and has normal friends and drives a minivan and is intelligent and strong and self controlled and moral and none of those things that addicts are? The fact that I am an addict totally blew my mind! See, I knew I was addicted when I was smoking. But I thought I could get “unaddicted”. And if I was “unaddicted”, then I could have “just one”. I genuinely believed I could control it.
I thought if I only had a cigarette while I was drinking with friends I could remain unaddicted. This thought always led to me smoking a pack a day within a week.
I thought if I only had a cigarette when my brother was visiting I could remain unaddicted. And then I would be smoking a pack a day within a week.
I thought as long as I wasnÂ’t smoking during times of high stress I could control it. This had me smoking a pack a day within a week. Every time.
I thought if I limited it to a couple cigarettes in the evening after work I would remain unaddicted. Guess what? Within a week I was smoking all day. Every day.
I thought (this one is good) if I just thought of nicotine as butter! Too much butter is bad, right?! Everything in moderation! When I stumbled upon this logic I was so proud of myself. I walked around in this fantasyland for a week when I found myself “moderating” a pack a day addiction again.
I went through ever single mental gymnastic a person could possibly concoct to figure out how to smoke without being addicted. None of them worked. It wasnÂ’t until I started reading on Kill the Can that the light turned on. And it turned on bright and harsh.
148 days ago (after a relatively easy first two days) I sat on this website and said to myself, “Oh my God, Danielle. You are an addict. How did you miss this?” I knew what that meant. Addicts are addicts for life. It’s not about the act of smoking. It is what I am, whether I’m smoking or not. And recognizing this saved my life. And it freed me from the burden of figuring out how to feed my addiction without being its slave that has plagued me for 24 years. No longer did I have to try to figure out how to smoke without becoming a smoker. I could just get off that dizzying and exhausting and deadly merry-go-round of deadly “logic” and say this:
Never again. For ANY reason.
And you my friendÂ… You can do this too. Post roll everyday. Promise yourself, your brothers (and sisters!) that TODAYÂ… you wonÂ’t use nicotine. Keep your guard up.
Remember my failed marriage? After day 100 I was living in an apartment and dealing with stress and worry like I have never experienced before. I am surrounded by smokers and I have a lovely back porch where I can picture myself every single night unwinding slowly while exhaling cigarette smoke. I loved my first cigarette. I loved my last one too. I just happen to hate killing myself more. There are daysÂ… even at 150Â… where that daily promise is the only thing making it easy. There isnÂ’t a decision to make once IÂ’ve made that promise. ItÂ’s done. I know firsthand that in five years, a day may come where I will be thankful I made that promise for that day.
I will always be an addict, but I am no longer a slave. And freedom is so sweet. I invite you to come taste it with me.
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I finally wrote a HOF speech... and then in a grand illusion of grandeur I tried to post in Hall of Legends! Sorry mods... I'm sure you'll figure it out. :) Anyway, I'll put it here in my thread for posterity.
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I needed 150 days to write a Hall of Fame speech. My 100th day fell on August 30thÂ… which would have been my 16th wedding anniversary if I hadnÂ’t left my marriage and moved out two weeks earlier. I wasnÂ’t ready to write a speech 50 days ago.
To say I picked a stressful time to quit using nicotine is an understatement. There were many times I questioned the wisdom of my decision. After all, donÂ’t many people actually START smoking while going through a divorce? The crutch would have been understandable. ExceptÂ… I left my marriage for me. I wanted to be healthier. I wanted to be better. I wanted to live my life fully.
And there was no place for smoking in that.
I started smoking at 16 while I was drinking. I begged a friend for my first cigarette and loved it. I was a ninja smoker until I moved out 4 years later for the Air Force. ItÂ’s not easy hiding the smell of cigarette smoke from ex smoker parents but I managed to do it by wearing an outer layer of clothing when I smoked and gloves. I was sneaky and pathetic. Also, I didnÂ’t smoke that much or everyday. That changed when I moved out and quickly started a pack a day habit. I hated being a smoker and it was years before I would buy a carton and admit to myself that I actually even was a smoker. I convinced myself that if I just bought a pack I could quit whenever I wanted. A carton was a commitment. The cost savings eventually won out.
I stopped several time, once even for five years. The first time I stopped wasn’t easy but after I had it kicked it was smooth sailing so it was easy to justify picking it up again for “just one”. I became a serial stopper. I don’t know how many times I stopped but it was probably around ten.
I’m writing this for anyone who might be like I was. I’m writing this for anyone who is scared and exhausted and isn’t sure it’s worth “trying again”. I’m writing this for the serial stopper who is feeling like if I could “attempt a quit” TEN times then what makes this time any different? And if I could quit for FIVE YEARS and start again, what hope is there for them? There is an answer to this question that I have come to see as tantamount to my quit and I would daresay yours as well. It is a simple fact that I have seen rejected over and over on this website… usually by “serial stoppers” such as myself. You may find yourself bristling at it and thinking “not me”! You might think yourself stronger than me. You might think yourself more resolved or convicted or even more upright than me. You might think yourself different but I can assure you with certainty… you are not different.
You are not stronger than me.
You do not have more resolve than I had.
You do not have a secret stash of conviction that I lacked.
You are not morally superior to me.
You are not special.
If you do not accept this, as I did, then you will likely fail. It might take five years, but the odds of you achieving a life without nicotine are incredibly low. Here is that simple truth:
You are an addict.
For many on this site, that is such a no-brainer. They KNEW they were addicts… it was obvious to them. But for me… a good mom who cooks healthy food for her family and has normal friends and drives a minivan and is intelligent and strong and self controlled and moral and none of those things that addicts are? The fact that I am an addict totally blew my mind! See, I knew I was addicted when I was smoking. But I thought I could get “unaddicted”. And if I was “unaddicted”, then I could have “just one”. I genuinely believed I could control it.
I thought if I only had a cigarette while I was drinking with friends I could remain unaddicted. This thought always led to me smoking a pack a day within a week.
I thought if I only had a cigarette when my brother was visiting I could remain unaddicted. And then I would be smoking a pack a day within a week.
I thought as long as I wasnÂ’t smoking during times of high stress I could control it. This had me smoking a pack a day within a week. Every time.
I thought if I limited it to a couple cigarettes in the evening after work I would remain unaddicted. Guess what? Within a week I was smoking all day. Every day.
I thought (this one is good) if I just thought of nicotine as butter! Too much butter is bad, right?! Everything in moderation! When I stumbled upon this logic I was so proud of myself. I walked around in this fantasyland for a week when I found myself “moderating” a pack a day addiction again.
I went through ever single mental gymnastic a person could possibly concoct to figure out how to smoke without being addicted. None of them worked. It wasnÂ’t until I started reading on Kill the Can that the light turned on. And it turned on bright and harsh.
148 days ago (after a relatively easy first two days) I sat on this website and said to myself, “Oh my God, Danielle. You are an addict. How did you miss this?” I knew what that meant. Addicts are addicts for life. It’s not about the act of smoking. It is what I am, whether I’m smoking or not. And recognizing this saved my life. And it freed me from the burden of figuring out how to feed my addiction without being its slave that has plagued me for 24 years. No longer did I have to try to figure out how to smoke without becoming a smoker. I could just get off that dizzying and exhausting and deadly merry-go-round of deadly “logic” and say this:
Never again. For ANY reason.
And you my friendÂ… You can do this too. Post roll everyday. Promise yourself, your brothers (and sisters!) that TODAYÂ… you wonÂ’t use nicotine. Keep your guard up.
Remember my failed marriage? After day 100 I was living in an apartment and dealing with stress and worry like I have never experienced before. I am surrounded by smokers and I have a lovely back porch where I can picture myself every single night unwinding slowly while exhaling cigarette smoke. I loved my first cigarette. I loved my last one too. I just happen to hate killing myself more. There are daysÂ… even at 150Â… where that daily promise is the only thing making it easy. There isnÂ’t a decision to make once IÂ’ve made that promise. ItÂ’s done. I know firsthand that in five years, a day may come where I will be thankful I made that promise for that day.
I will always be an addict, but I am no longer a slave. And freedom is so sweet. I invite you to come taste it with me.
Well said, my sister. Well said.
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I finally wrote a HOF speech... and then in a grand illusion of grandeur I tried to post in Hall of Legends! Sorry mods... I'm sure you'll figure it out. :) Anyway, I'll put it here in my thread for posterity.
*********************************
I needed 150 days to write a Hall of Fame speech. My 100th day fell on August 30thÂ… which would have been my 16th wedding anniversary if I hadnÂ’t left my marriage and moved out two weeks earlier. I wasnÂ’t ready to write a speech 50 days ago.
To say I picked a stressful time to quit using nicotine is an understatement. There were many times I questioned the wisdom of my decision. After all, donÂ’t many people actually START smoking while going through a divorce? The crutch would have been understandable. ExceptÂ… I left my marriage for me. I wanted to be healthier. I wanted to be better. I wanted to live my life fully.
And there was no place for smoking in that.
I started smoking at 16 while I was drinking. I begged a friend for my first cigarette and loved it. I was a ninja smoker until I moved out 4 years later for the Air Force. ItÂ’s not easy hiding the smell of cigarette smoke from ex smoker parents but I managed to do it by wearing an outer layer of clothing when I smoked and gloves. I was sneaky and pathetic. Also, I didnÂ’t smoke that much or everyday. That changed when I moved out and quickly started a pack a day habit. I hated being a smoker and it was years before I would buy a carton and admit to myself that I actually even was a smoker. I convinced myself that if I just bought a pack I could quit whenever I wanted. A carton was a commitment. The cost savings eventually won out.
I stopped several time, once even for five years. The first time I stopped wasn’t easy but after I had it kicked it was smooth sailing so it was easy to justify picking it up again for “just one”. I became a serial stopper. I don’t know how many times I stopped but it was probably around ten.
I’m writing this for anyone who might be like I was. I’m writing this for anyone who is scared and exhausted and isn’t sure it’s worth “trying again”. I’m writing this for the serial stopper who is feeling like if I could “attempt a quit” TEN times then what makes this time any different? And if I could quit for FIVE YEARS and start again, what hope is there for them? There is an answer to this question that I have come to see as tantamount to my quit and I would daresay yours as well. It is a simple fact that I have seen rejected over and over on this website… usually by “serial stoppers” such as myself. You may find yourself bristling at it and thinking “not me”! You might think yourself stronger than me. You might think yourself more resolved or convicted or even more upright than me. You might think yourself different but I can assure you with certainty… you are not different.
You are not stronger than me.
You do not have more resolve than I had.
You do not have a secret stash of conviction that I lacked.
You are not morally superior to me.
You are not special.
If you do not accept this, as I did, then you will likely fail. It might take five years, but the odds of you achieving a life without nicotine are incredibly low. Here is that simple truth:
You are an addict.
For many on this site, that is such a no-brainer. They KNEW they were addicts… it was obvious to them. But for me… a good mom who cooks healthy food for her family and has normal friends and drives a minivan and is intelligent and strong and self controlled and moral and none of those things that addicts are? The fact that I am an addict totally blew my mind! See, I knew I was addicted when I was smoking. But I thought I could get “unaddicted”. And if I was “unaddicted”, then I could have “just one”. I genuinely believed I could control it.
I thought if I only had a cigarette while I was drinking with friends I could remain unaddicted. This thought always led to me smoking a pack a day within a week.
I thought if I only had a cigarette when my brother was visiting I could remain unaddicted. And then I would be smoking a pack a day within a week.
I thought as long as I wasnÂ’t smoking during times of high stress I could control it. This had me smoking a pack a day within a week. Every time.
I thought if I limited it to a couple cigarettes in the evening after work I would remain unaddicted. Guess what? Within a week I was smoking all day. Every day.
I thought (this one is good) if I just thought of nicotine as butter! Too much butter is bad, right?! Everything in moderation! When I stumbled upon this logic I was so proud of myself. I walked around in this fantasyland for a week when I found myself “moderating” a pack a day addiction again.
I went through ever single mental gymnastic a person could possibly concoct to figure out how to smoke without being addicted. None of them worked. It wasnÂ’t until I started reading on Kill the Can that the light turned on. And it turned on bright and harsh.
148 days ago (after a relatively easy first two days) I sat on this website and said to myself, “Oh my God, Danielle. You are an addict. How did you miss this?” I knew what that meant. Addicts are addicts for life. It’s not about the act of smoking. It is what I am, whether I’m smoking or not. And recognizing this saved my life. And it freed me from the burden of figuring out how to feed my addiction without being its slave that has plagued me for 24 years. No longer did I have to try to figure out how to smoke without becoming a smoker. I could just get off that dizzying and exhausting and deadly merry-go-round of deadly “logic” and say this:
Never again. For ANY reason.
And you my friendÂ… You can do this too. Post roll everyday. Promise yourself, your brothers (and sisters!) that TODAYÂ… you wonÂ’t use nicotine. Keep your guard up.
Remember my failed marriage? After day 100 I was living in an apartment and dealing with stress and worry like I have never experienced before. I am surrounded by smokers and I have a lovely back porch where I can picture myself every single night unwinding slowly while exhaling cigarette smoke. I loved my first cigarette. I loved my last one too. I just happen to hate killing myself more. There are daysÂ… even at 150Â… where that daily promise is the only thing making it easy. There isnÂ’t a decision to make once IÂ’ve made that promise. ItÂ’s done. I know firsthand that in five years, a day may come where I will be thankful I made that promise for that day.
I will always be an addict, but I am no longer a slave. And freedom is so sweet. I invite you to come taste it with me.
Well said, my sister. Well said.
Well done LHG. That was worth the wait. I am happy that you stuck it out. I had a great feeling about you even when you were only a few weeks in.
There is one part about your speech that I am struggling with though.....
It is the word "love". It concerns me because I know there is a falseness in the "love" that you remember. Sometimes the memory of that "love" can become very powerful in a persons life, under certain circumstances. Addiction is powerful. Heroin addicts "love" the rush of a needle in their arm. Crack heads "love" to inhale deeply of their poison. Alcoholics "love" the what that first swallow seems to do to their nervous system. These are fleeting moments of "pleasure".....that come along with a terrible price and horrible consequences. That is nature of addiction. Your addiction mind clings, even subconsciously, to a memory of "love".
There are many pleasures in this world that come without such a high cost. For the past 300 days I have been trying to find those, and "love" them, as much as I thought I "loved" my dip. Sun sets, full moons, children laughter, a good movie, a good book, a good conversation.
You have a great quit going LGH, I am glad to have gotten to know you a bit. I am sorry to pick on just one word, but I just thought I would encourage you to develop some good old fashioned HATE. Hate for a poison that made you a slave for so long. Hate for a poison that has stolen every single one of my grandparents, and countless other family members. I trust that you have lost loved ones too. I am glad that your parents had the wisdom to quit. And now look at you. You have done the same, and you had the courage to bring your brother along with you. Love your new found freedom, hate the poison. Do not romanticize your addiction. Nicotine is so unworthy of your fond memories.
Never again for any reason, LHG. Damn proud to be quit with you. Keep up the great work. Stay active on the site, your words help many.
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LHG, congrats to you all the best going forward here! It took alot of work to get to 150 days you should certainly be proud of your accomplishment today! Thanks for sharing this, the butter analogy was definitely me.
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I finally wrote a HOF speech... and then in a grand illusion of grandeur I tried to post in Hall of Legends! Sorry mods... I'm sure you'll figure it out. :) Anyway, I'll put it here in my thread for posterity.
*********************************
I needed 150 days to write a Hall of Fame speech. My 100th day fell on August 30thÂ… which would have been my 16th wedding anniversary if I hadnÂ’t left my marriage and moved out two weeks earlier. I wasnÂ’t ready to write a speech 50 days ago.
To say I picked a stressful time to quit using nicotine is an understatement. There were many times I questioned the wisdom of my decision. After all, donÂ’t many people actually START smoking while going through a divorce? The crutch would have been understandable. ExceptÂ… I left my marriage for me. I wanted to be healthier. I wanted to be better. I wanted to live my life fully.
And there was no place for smoking in that.
I started smoking at 16 while I was drinking. I begged a friend for my first cigarette and loved it. I was a ninja smoker until I moved out 4 years later for the Air Force. ItÂ’s not easy hiding the smell of cigarette smoke from ex smoker parents but I managed to do it by wearing an outer layer of clothing when I smoked and gloves. I was sneaky and pathetic. Also, I didnÂ’t smoke that much or everyday. That changed when I moved out and quickly started a pack a day habit. I hated being a smoker and it was years before I would buy a carton and admit to myself that I actually even was a smoker. I convinced myself that if I just bought a pack I could quit whenever I wanted. A carton was a commitment. The cost savings eventually won out.
I stopped several time, once even for five years. The first time I stopped wasn’t easy but after I had it kicked it was smooth sailing so it was easy to justify picking it up again for “just one”. I became a serial stopper. I don’t know how many times I stopped but it was probably around ten.
I’m writing this for anyone who might be like I was. I’m writing this for anyone who is scared and exhausted and isn’t sure it’s worth “trying again”. I’m writing this for the serial stopper who is feeling like if I could “attempt a quit” TEN times then what makes this time any different? And if I could quit for FIVE YEARS and start again, what hope is there for them? There is an answer to this question that I have come to see as tantamount to my quit and I would daresay yours as well. It is a simple fact that I have seen rejected over and over on this website… usually by “serial stoppers” such as myself. You may find yourself bristling at it and thinking “not me”! You might think yourself stronger than me. You might think yourself more resolved or convicted or even more upright than me. You might think yourself different but I can assure you with certainty… you are not different.
You are not stronger than me.
You do not have more resolve than I had.
You do not have a secret stash of conviction that I lacked.
You are not morally superior to me.
You are not special.
If you do not accept this, as I did, then you will likely fail. It might take five years, but the odds of you achieving a life without nicotine are incredibly low. Here is that simple truth:
You are an addict.
For many on this site, that is such a no-brainer. They KNEW they were addicts… it was obvious to them. But for me… a good mom who cooks healthy food for her family and has normal friends and drives a minivan and is intelligent and strong and self controlled and moral and none of those things that addicts are? The fact that I am an addict totally blew my mind! See, I knew I was addicted when I was smoking. But I thought I could get “unaddicted”. And if I was “unaddicted”, then I could have “just one”. I genuinely believed I could control it.
I thought if I only had a cigarette while I was drinking with friends I could remain unaddicted. This thought always led to me smoking a pack a day within a week.
I thought if I only had a cigarette when my brother was visiting I could remain unaddicted. And then I would be smoking a pack a day within a week.
I thought as long as I wasnÂ’t smoking during times of high stress I could control it. This had me smoking a pack a day within a week. Every time.
I thought if I limited it to a couple cigarettes in the evening after work I would remain unaddicted. Guess what? Within a week I was smoking all day. Every day.
I thought (this one is good) if I just thought of nicotine as butter! Too much butter is bad, right?! Everything in moderation! When I stumbled upon this logic I was so proud of myself. I walked around in this fantasyland for a week when I found myself “moderating” a pack a day addiction again.
I went through ever single mental gymnastic a person could possibly concoct to figure out how to smoke without being addicted. None of them worked. It wasnÂ’t until I started reading on Kill the Can that the light turned on. And it turned on bright and harsh.
148 days ago (after a relatively easy first two days) I sat on this website and said to myself, “Oh my God, Danielle. You are an addict. How did you miss this?” I knew what that meant. Addicts are addicts for life. It’s not about the act of smoking. It is what I am, whether I’m smoking or not. And recognizing this saved my life. And it freed me from the burden of figuring out how to feed my addiction without being its slave that has plagued me for 24 years. No longer did I have to try to figure out how to smoke without becoming a smoker. I could just get off that dizzying and exhausting and deadly merry-go-round of deadly “logic” and say this:
Never again. For ANY reason.
And you my friendÂ… You can do this too. Post roll everyday. Promise yourself, your brothers (and sisters!) that TODAYÂ… you wonÂ’t use nicotine. Keep your guard up.
Remember my failed marriage? After day 100 I was living in an apartment and dealing with stress and worry like I have never experienced before. I am surrounded by smokers and I have a lovely back porch where I can picture myself every single night unwinding slowly while exhaling cigarette smoke. I loved my first cigarette. I loved my last one too. I just happen to hate killing myself more. There are daysÂ… even at 150Â… where that daily promise is the only thing making it easy. There isnÂ’t a decision to make once IÂ’ve made that promise. ItÂ’s done. I know firsthand that in five years, a day may come where I will be thankful I made that promise for that day.
I will always be an addict, but I am no longer a slave. And freedom is so sweet. I invite you to come taste it with me.
Well said, my sister. Well said.
Well done LHG. That was worth the wait. I am happy that you stuck it out. I had a great feeling about you even when you were only a few weeks in.
There is one part about your speech that I am struggling with though.....
It is the word "love". It concerns me because I know there is a falseness in the "love" that you remember. Sometimes the memory of that "love" can become very powerful in a persons life, under certain circumstances. Addiction is powerful. Heroin addicts "love" the rush of a needle in their arm. Crack heads "love" to inhale deeply of their poison. Alcoholics "love" the what that first swallow seems to do to their nervous system. These are fleeting moments of "pleasure".....that come along with a terrible price and horrible consequences. That is nature of addiction. Your addiction mind clings, even subconsciously, to a memory of "love".
There are many pleasures in this world that come without such a high cost. For the past 300 days I have been trying to find those, and "love" them, as much as I thought I "loved" my dip. Sun sets, full moons, children laughter, a good movie, a good book, a good conversation.
You have a great quit going LGH, I am glad to have gotten to know you a bit. I am sorry to pick on just one word, but I just thought I would encourage you to develop some good old fashioned HATE. Hate for a poison that made you a slave for so long. Hate for a poison that has stolen every single one of my grandparents, and countless other family members. I trust that you have lost loved ones too. I am glad that your parents had the wisdom to quit. And now look at you. You have done the same, and you had the courage to bring your brother along with you. Love your new found freedom, hate the poison. Do not romanticize your addiction. Nicotine is so unworthy of your fond memories.
Never again for any reason, LHG. Damn proud to be quit with you. Keep up the great work. Stay active on the site, your words help many.
Ryan, you are absolutely correct and I thought... "IG2H is gonna call me on that!" when I wrote it.
I absolutely hate nicotine. I do think though that for a serial stopper like me, some people think they will get to a place where they just don't like it anymore. They are waiting for this to happen and think that is when they will finally be able to "control" it. That is why many people (my brother can attest to this one, I know) will even switch to a brand they find distasteful. They think that will help them regulate it. Been there, done that.
My point was not to romanticize nicotine. I don't. But for someone who finds it relatively easy to stop but keeps coming back, I wanted to address those games they play with themselves. And one game is (I've heard it here) is "I hate the taste". Hating the taste doesn't make anyone's quit stronger. The only thing that makes a quit foolproof in my opinion is throwing all the bullshit away and admitting you're an addict and promising daily to not use it.
Anyway, again, I knew that you specifically would call me on it and I appreciate it! I hate it as much as you though. I just didn't quit because I hate the taste or the rush. Can't wait around for that, won't happen. Nicotine will NEVER release you.
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But for meÂ… a good mom who cooks healthy food for her family and has normal friends and drives a minivan and is intelligent and strong and self controlled and moral and none of those things that addicts are? The fact that I am an addict totally blew my mind!
Wow, well said LHG. If I may quote my favorite part of your speech (don't usually get to respond to speeches line by line!) I think this is brilliant. You know how many people think this? How many people think, "I'm a professoinal, not an addict", or "addicts lay in the gutter looking for their next fix", and so on and on. WE are the same as the poor guy or gal laying in the gutter, with sores all over their arms and faces, looking for the next bag of xxxxx, whatever it may be. For better or worse, our drug is legal and sold on almost every corner, and that's one of the reasons I absolutely hate nicotine. I'm proud to be quit right next to you every damn day, LHG, and proud to yell with you from the rooftops that nic has no chance today. Never again for any reason. Because just one and we will be covered with sores, laying in the gutter all over again. And I don't know if I can pull it off again. Way to go, Freedom!
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I finally wrote a HOF speech... and then in a grand illusion of grandeur I tried to post in Hall of Legends! Sorry mods... I'm sure you'll figure it out. :) Anyway, I'll put it here in my thread for posterity.
*********************************
I needed 150 days to write a Hall of Fame speech. My 100th day fell on August 30thÂ… which would have been my 16th wedding anniversary if I hadnÂ’t left my marriage and moved out two weeks earlier. I wasnÂ’t ready to write a speech 50 days ago.
To say I picked a stressful time to quit using nicotine is an understatement. There were many times I questioned the wisdom of my decision. After all, donÂ’t many people actually START smoking while going through a divorce? The crutch would have been understandable. ExceptÂ… I left my marriage for me. I wanted to be healthier. I wanted to be better. I wanted to live my life fully.
And there was no place for smoking in that.
I started smoking at 16 while I was drinking. I begged a friend for my first cigarette and loved it. I was a ninja smoker until I moved out 4 years later for the Air Force. ItÂ’s not easy hiding the smell of cigarette smoke from ex smoker parents but I managed to do it by wearing an outer layer of clothing when I smoked and gloves. I was sneaky and pathetic. Also, I didnÂ’t smoke that much or everyday. That changed when I moved out and quickly started a pack a day habit. I hated being a smoker and it was years before I would buy a carton and admit to myself that I actually even was a smoker. I convinced myself that if I just bought a pack I could quit whenever I wanted. A carton was a commitment. The cost savings eventually won out.
I stopped several time, once even for five years. The first time I stopped wasn’t easy but after I had it kicked it was smooth sailing so it was easy to justify picking it up again for “just one”. I became a serial stopper. I don’t know how many times I stopped but it was probably around ten.
I’m writing this for anyone who might be like I was. I’m writing this for anyone who is scared and exhausted and isn’t sure it’s worth “trying again”. I’m writing this for the serial stopper who is feeling like if I could “attempt a quit” TEN times then what makes this time any different? And if I could quit for FIVE YEARS and start again, what hope is there for them? There is an answer to this question that I have come to see as tantamount to my quit and I would daresay yours as well. It is a simple fact that I have seen rejected over and over on this website… usually by “serial stoppers” such as myself. You may find yourself bristling at it and thinking “not me”! You might think yourself stronger than me. You might think yourself more resolved or convicted or even more upright than me. You might think yourself different but I can assure you with certainty… you are not different.
You are not stronger than me.
You do not have more resolve than I had.
You do not have a secret stash of conviction that I lacked.
You are not morally superior to me.
You are not special.
If you do not accept this, as I did, then you will likely fail. It might take five years, but the odds of you achieving a life without nicotine are incredibly low. Here is that simple truth:
You are an addict.
For many on this site, that is such a no-brainer. They KNEW they were addicts… it was obvious to them. But for me… a good mom who cooks healthy food for her family and has normal friends and drives a minivan and is intelligent and strong and self controlled and moral and none of those things that addicts are? The fact that I am an addict totally blew my mind! See, I knew I was addicted when I was smoking. But I thought I could get “unaddicted”. And if I was “unaddicted”, then I could have “just one”. I genuinely believed I could control it.
I thought if I only had a cigarette while I was drinking with friends I could remain unaddicted. This thought always led to me smoking a pack a day within a week.
I thought if I only had a cigarette when my brother was visiting I could remain unaddicted. And then I would be smoking a pack a day within a week.
I thought as long as I wasnÂ’t smoking during times of high stress I could control it. This had me smoking a pack a day within a week. Every time.
I thought if I limited it to a couple cigarettes in the evening after work I would remain unaddicted. Guess what? Within a week I was smoking all day. Every day.
I thought (this one is good) if I just thought of nicotine as butter! Too much butter is bad, right?! Everything in moderation! When I stumbled upon this logic I was so proud of myself. I walked around in this fantasyland for a week when I found myself “moderating” a pack a day addiction again.
I went through ever single mental gymnastic a person could possibly concoct to figure out how to smoke without being addicted. None of them worked. It wasnÂ’t until I started reading on Kill the Can that the light turned on. And it turned on bright and harsh.
148 days ago (after a relatively easy first two days) I sat on this website and said to myself, “Oh my God, Danielle. You are an addict. How did you miss this?” I knew what that meant. Addicts are addicts for life. It’s not about the act of smoking. It is what I am, whether I’m smoking or not. And recognizing this saved my life. And it freed me from the burden of figuring out how to feed my addiction without being its slave that has plagued me for 24 years. No longer did I have to try to figure out how to smoke without becoming a smoker. I could just get off that dizzying and exhausting and deadly merry-go-round of deadly “logic” and say this:
Never again. For ANY reason.
And you my friendÂ… You can do this too. Post roll everyday. Promise yourself, your brothers (and sisters!) that TODAYÂ… you wonÂ’t use nicotine. Keep your guard up.
Remember my failed marriage? After day 100 I was living in an apartment and dealing with stress and worry like I have never experienced before. I am surrounded by smokers and I have a lovely back porch where I can picture myself every single night unwinding slowly while exhaling cigarette smoke. I loved my first cigarette. I loved my last one too. I just happen to hate killing myself more. There are daysÂ… even at 150Â… where that daily promise is the only thing making it easy. There isnÂ’t a decision to make once IÂ’ve made that promise. ItÂ’s done. I know firsthand that in five years, a day may come where I will be thankful I made that promise for that day.
I will always be an addict, but I am no longer a slave. And freedom is so sweet. I invite you to come taste it with me.
Well said, my sister. Well said.
Well done LHG. That was worth the wait. I am happy that you stuck it out. I had a great feeling about you even when you were only a few weeks in.
There is one part about your speech that I am struggling with though.....
It is the word "love". It concerns me because I know there is a falseness in the "love" that you remember. Sometimes the memory of that "love" can become very powerful in a persons life, under certain circumstances. Addiction is powerful. Heroin addicts "love" the rush of a needle in their arm. Crack heads "love" to inhale deeply of their poison. Alcoholics "love" the what that first swallow seems to do to their nervous system. These are fleeting moments of "pleasure".....that come along with a terrible price and horrible consequences. That is nature of addiction. Your addiction mind clings, even subconsciously, to a memory of "love".
There are many pleasures in this world that come without such a high cost. For the past 300 days I have been trying to find those, and "love" them, as much as I thought I "loved" my dip. Sun sets, full moons, children laughter, a good movie, a good book, a good conversation.
You have a great quit going LGH, I am glad to have gotten to know you a bit. I am sorry to pick on just one word, but I just thought I would encourage you to develop some good old fashioned HATE. Hate for a poison that made you a slave for so long. Hate for a poison that has stolen every single one of my grandparents, and countless other family members. I trust that you have lost loved ones too. I am glad that your parents had the wisdom to quit. And now look at you. You have done the same, and you had the courage to bring your brother along with you. Love your new found freedom, hate the poison. Do not romanticize your addiction. Nicotine is so unworthy of your fond memories.
Never again for any reason, LHG. Damn proud to be quit with you. Keep up the great work. Stay active on the site, your words help many.
Ryan, you are absolutely correct and I thought... "IG2H is gonna call me on that!" when I wrote it.
I absolutely hate nicotine. I do think though that for a serial stopper like me, some people think they will get to a place where they just don't like it anymore. They are waiting for this to happen and think that is when they will finally be able to "control" it. That is why many people (my brother can attest to this one, I know) will even switch to a brand they find distasteful. They think that will help them regulate it. Been there, done that.
My point was not to romanticize nicotine. I don't. But for someone who finds it relatively easy to stop but keeps coming back, I wanted to address those games they play with themselves. And one game is (I've heard it here) is "I hate the taste". Hating the taste doesn't make anyone's quit stronger. The only thing that makes a quit foolproof in my opinion is throwing all the bullshit away and admitting you're an addict and promising daily to not use it.
Anyway, again, I knew that you specifically would call me on it and I appreciate it! I hate it as much as you though. I just didn't quit because I hate the taste or the rush. Can't wait around for that, won't happen. Nicotine will NEVER release you.
Ahh, you know me. Great points LHG. Cant wait around until you hate it. I get it. Awesome speech anyway. Congrats on 150 :)
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I finally wrote a HOF speech... and then in a grand illusion of grandeur I tried to post in Hall of Legends! Sorry mods... I'm sure you'll figure it out. :) Anyway, I'll put it here in my thread for posterity.
*********************************
I needed 150 days to write a Hall of Fame speech. My 100th day fell on August 30thÂ… which would have been my 16th wedding anniversary if I hadnÂ’t left my marriage and moved out two weeks earlier. I wasnÂ’t ready to write a speech 50 days ago.
To say I picked a stressful time to quit using nicotine is an understatement. There were many times I questioned the wisdom of my decision. After all, donÂ’t many people actually START smoking while going through a divorce? The crutch would have been understandable. ExceptÂ… I left my marriage for me. I wanted to be healthier. I wanted to be better. I wanted to live my life fully.
And there was no place for smoking in that.
I started smoking at 16 while I was drinking. I begged a friend for my first cigarette and loved it. I was a ninja smoker until I moved out 4 years later for the Air Force. ItÂ’s not easy hiding the smell of cigarette smoke from ex smoker parents but I managed to do it by wearing an outer layer of clothing when I smoked and gloves. I was sneaky and pathetic. Also, I didnÂ’t smoke that much or everyday. That changed when I moved out and quickly started a pack a day habit. I hated being a smoker and it was years before I would buy a carton and admit to myself that I actually even was a smoker. I convinced myself that if I just bought a pack I could quit whenever I wanted. A carton was a commitment. The cost savings eventually won out.
I stopped several time, once even for five years. The first time I stopped wasn’t easy but after I had it kicked it was smooth sailing so it was easy to justify picking it up again for “just one”. I became a serial stopper. I don’t know how many times I stopped but it was probably around ten.
I’m writing this for anyone who might be like I was. I’m writing this for anyone who is scared and exhausted and isn’t sure it’s worth “trying again”. I’m writing this for the serial stopper who is feeling like if I could “attempt a quit” TEN times then what makes this time any different? And if I could quit for FIVE YEARS and start again, what hope is there for them? There is an answer to this question that I have come to see as tantamount to my quit and I would daresay yours as well. It is a simple fact that I have seen rejected over and over on this website… usually by “serial stoppers” such as myself. You may find yourself bristling at it and thinking “not me”! You might think yourself stronger than me. You might think yourself more resolved or convicted or even more upright than me. You might think yourself different but I can assure you with certainty… you are not different.
You are not stronger than me.
You do not have more resolve than I had.
You do not have a secret stash of conviction that I lacked.
You are not morally superior to me.
You are not special.
If you do not accept this, as I did, then you will likely fail. It might take five years, but the odds of you achieving a life without nicotine are incredibly low. Here is that simple truth:
You are an addict.
For many on this site, that is such a no-brainer. They KNEW they were addicts… it was obvious to them. But for me… a good mom who cooks healthy food for her family and has normal friends and drives a minivan and is intelligent and strong and self controlled and moral and none of those things that addicts are? The fact that I am an addict totally blew my mind! See, I knew I was addicted when I was smoking. But I thought I could get “unaddicted”. And if I was “unaddicted”, then I could have “just one”. I genuinely believed I could control it.
I thought if I only had a cigarette while I was drinking with friends I could remain unaddicted. This thought always led to me smoking a pack a day within a week.
I thought if I only had a cigarette when my brother was visiting I could remain unaddicted. And then I would be smoking a pack a day within a week.
I thought as long as I wasnÂ’t smoking during times of high stress I could control it. This had me smoking a pack a day within a week. Every time.
I thought if I limited it to a couple cigarettes in the evening after work I would remain unaddicted. Guess what? Within a week I was smoking all day. Every day.
I thought (this one is good) if I just thought of nicotine as butter! Too much butter is bad, right?! Everything in moderation! When I stumbled upon this logic I was so proud of myself. I walked around in this fantasyland for a week when I found myself “moderating” a pack a day addiction again.
I went through ever single mental gymnastic a person could possibly concoct to figure out how to smoke without being addicted. None of them worked. It wasnÂ’t until I started reading on Kill the Can that the light turned on. And it turned on bright and harsh.
148 days ago (after a relatively easy first two days) I sat on this website and said to myself, “Oh my God, Danielle. You are an addict. How did you miss this?” I knew what that meant. Addicts are addicts for life. It’s not about the act of smoking. It is what I am, whether I’m smoking or not. And recognizing this saved my life. And it freed me from the burden of figuring out how to feed my addiction without being its slave that has plagued me for 24 years. No longer did I have to try to figure out how to smoke without becoming a smoker. I could just get off that dizzying and exhausting and deadly merry-go-round of deadly “logic” and say this:
Never again. For ANY reason.
And you my friendÂ… You can do this too. Post roll everyday. Promise yourself, your brothers (and sisters!) that TODAYÂ… you wonÂ’t use nicotine. Keep your guard up.
Remember my failed marriage? After day 100 I was living in an apartment and dealing with stress and worry like I have never experienced before. I am surrounded by smokers and I have a lovely back porch where I can picture myself every single night unwinding slowly while exhaling cigarette smoke. I loved my first cigarette. I loved my last one too. I just happen to hate killing myself more. There are daysÂ… even at 150Â… where that daily promise is the only thing making it easy. There isnÂ’t a decision to make once IÂ’ve made that promise. ItÂ’s done. I know firsthand that in five years, a day may come where I will be thankful I made that promise for that day.
I will always be an addict, but I am no longer a slave. And freedom is so sweet. I invite you to come taste it with me.
Well said, my sister. Well said.
Well done LHG. That was worth the wait. I am happy that you stuck it out. I had a great feeling about you even when you were only a few weeks in.
There is one part about your speech that I am struggling with though.....
It is the word "love". It concerns me because I know there is a falseness in the "love" that you remember. Sometimes the memory of that "love" can become very powerful in a persons life, under certain circumstances. Addiction is powerful. Heroin addicts "love" the rush of a needle in their arm. Crack heads "love" to inhale deeply of their poison. Alcoholics "love" the what that first swallow seems to do to their nervous system. These are fleeting moments of "pleasure".....that come along with a terrible price and horrible consequences. That is nature of addiction. Your addiction mind clings, even subconsciously, to a memory of "love".
There are many pleasures in this world that come without such a high cost. For the past 300 days I have been trying to find those, and "love" them, as much as I thought I "loved" my dip. Sun sets, full moons, children laughter, a good movie, a good book, a good conversation.
You have a great quit going LGH, I am glad to have gotten to know you a bit. I am sorry to pick on just one word, but I just thought I would encourage you to develop some good old fashioned HATE. Hate for a poison that made you a slave for so long. Hate for a poison that has stolen every single one of my grandparents, and countless other family members. I trust that you have lost loved ones too. I am glad that your parents had the wisdom to quit. And now look at you. You have done the same, and you had the courage to bring your brother along with you. Love your new found freedom, hate the poison. Do not romanticize your addiction. Nicotine is so unworthy of your fond memories.
Never again for any reason, LHG. Damn proud to be quit with you. Keep up the great work. Stay active on the site, your words help many.
Ryan, you are absolutely correct and I thought... "IG2H is gonna call me on that!" when I wrote it.
I absolutely hate nicotine. I do think though that for a serial stopper like me, some people think they will get to a place where they just don't like it anymore. They are waiting for this to happen and think that is when they will finally be able to "control" it. That is why many people (my brother can attest to this one, I know) will even switch to a brand they find distasteful. They think that will help them regulate it. Been there, done that.
My point was not to romanticize nicotine. I don't. But for someone who finds it relatively easy to stop but keeps coming back, I wanted to address those games they play with themselves. And one game is (I've heard it here) is "I hate the taste". Hating the taste doesn't make anyone's quit stronger. The only thing that makes a quit foolproof in my opinion is throwing all the bullshit away and admitting you're an addict and promising daily to not use it.
Anyway, again, I knew that you specifically would call me on it and I appreciate it! I hate it as much as you though. I just didn't quit because I hate the taste or the rush. Can't wait around for that, won't happen. Nicotine will NEVER release you.
Ahh, you know me. Great points LHG. Cant wait around until you hate it. I get it. Awesome speech anyway. Congrats on 150 :)
I just read your HOF speech,, your a bad ass! I quit with you my Sister!
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But for meÂ… a good mom who cooks healthy food for her family and has normal friends and drives a minivan and is intelligent and strong and self controlled and moral and none of those things that addicts are? The fact that I am an addict totally blew my mind!
Wow, well said LHG. If I may quote my favorite part of your speech (don't usually get to respond to speeches line by line!) I think this is brilliant. You know how many people think this? How many people think, "I'm a professoinal, not an addict", or "addicts lay in the gutter looking for their next fix", and so on and on. WE are the same as the poor guy or gal laying in the gutter, with sores all over their arms and faces, looking for the next bag of xxxxx, whatever it may be. For better or worse, our drug is legal and sold on almost every corner, and that's one of the reasons I absolutely hate nicotine. I'm proud to be quit right next to you every damn day, LHG, and proud to yell with you from the rooftops that nic has no chance today. Never again for any reason. Because just one and we will be covered with sores, laying in the gutter all over again. And I don't know if I can pull it off again. Way to go, Freedom!
Word. I work in a professional setting, and thought I was being the best dad in the world. Teaching the kids to be polite, responsible, charitable, self-sufficient, etc. Turned out, at age 2, the one thing they mimicked was my addiction.
Freaking FAIL!!! So, here I am, still...... many moons later.
NAFAR
Well done LHG.
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Finally got to read you H.OF. speech! It was great! You said it better then I ever could. The day we realize we are ADDICTS is the day we recognize what it takes to be truley free! Well done. You are an inspiration!
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I finally wrote a HOF speech... and then in a grand illusion of grandeur I tried to post in Hall of Legends! Sorry mods... I'm sure you'll figure it out. :) Anyway, I'll put it here in my thread for posterity.
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I needed 150 days to write a Hall of Fame speech. My 100th day fell on August 30thÂ… which would have been my 16th wedding anniversary if I hadnÂ’t left my marriage and moved out two weeks earlier. I wasnÂ’t ready to write a speech 50 days ago.
To say I picked a stressful time to quit using nicotine is an understatement. There were many times I questioned the wisdom of my decision. After all, donÂ’t many people actually START smoking while going through a divorce? The crutch would have been understandable. ExceptÂ… I left my marriage for me. I wanted to be healthier. I wanted to be better. I wanted to live my life fully.
And there was no place for smoking in that.
I started smoking at 16 while I was drinking. I begged a friend for my first cigarette and loved it. I was a ninja smoker until I moved out 4 years later for the Air Force. ItÂ’s not easy hiding the smell of cigarette smoke from ex smoker parents but I managed to do it by wearing an outer layer of clothing when I smoked and gloves. I was sneaky and pathetic. Also, I didnÂ’t smoke that much or everyday. That changed when I moved out and quickly started a pack a day habit. I hated being a smoker and it was years before I would buy a carton and admit to myself that I actually even was a smoker. I convinced myself that if I just bought a pack I could quit whenever I wanted. A carton was a commitment. The cost savings eventually won out.
I stopped several time, once even for five years. The first time I stopped wasn’t easy but after I had it kicked it was smooth sailing so it was easy to justify picking it up again for “just one”. I became a serial stopper. I don’t know how many times I stopped but it was probably around ten.
I’m writing this for anyone who might be like I was. I’m writing this for anyone who is scared and exhausted and isn’t sure it’s worth “trying again”. I’m writing this for the serial stopper who is feeling like if I could “attempt a quit” TEN times then what makes this time any different? And if I could quit for FIVE YEARS and start again, what hope is there for them? There is an answer to this question that I have come to see as tantamount to my quit and I would daresay yours as well. It is a simple fact that I have seen rejected over and over on this website… usually by “serial stoppers” such as myself. You may find yourself bristling at it and thinking “not me”! You might think yourself stronger than me. You might think yourself more resolved or convicted or even more upright than me. You might think yourself different but I can assure you with certainty… you are not different.
You are not stronger than me.
You do not have more resolve than I had.
You do not have a secret stash of conviction that I lacked.
You are not morally superior to me.
You are not special.
If you do not accept this, as I did, then you will likely fail. It might take five years, but the odds of you achieving a life without nicotine are incredibly low. Here is that simple truth:
You are an addict.
For many on this site, that is such a no-brainer. They KNEW they were addicts… it was obvious to them. But for me… a good mom who cooks healthy food for her family and has normal friends and drives a minivan and is intelligent and strong and self controlled and moral and none of those things that addicts are? The fact that I am an addict totally blew my mind! See, I knew I was addicted when I was smoking. But I thought I could get “unaddicted”. And if I was “unaddicted”, then I could have “just one”. I genuinely believed I could control it.
I thought if I only had a cigarette while I was drinking with friends I could remain unaddicted. This thought always led to me smoking a pack a day within a week.
I thought if I only had a cigarette when my brother was visiting I could remain unaddicted. And then I would be smoking a pack a day within a week.
I thought as long as I wasnÂ’t smoking during times of high stress I could control it. This had me smoking a pack a day within a week. Every time.
I thought if I limited it to a couple cigarettes in the evening after work I would remain unaddicted. Guess what? Within a week I was smoking all day. Every day.
I thought (this one is good) if I just thought of nicotine as butter! Too much butter is bad, right?! Everything in moderation! When I stumbled upon this logic I was so proud of myself. I walked around in this fantasyland for a week when I found myself “moderating” a pack a day addiction again.
I went through ever single mental gymnastic a person could possibly concoct to figure out how to smoke without being addicted. None of them worked. It wasnÂ’t until I started reading on Kill the Can that the light turned on. And it turned on bright and harsh.
148 days ago (after a relatively easy first two days) I sat on this website and said to myself, “Oh my God, Danielle. You are an addict. How did you miss this?” I knew what that meant. Addicts are addicts for life. It’s not about the act of smoking. It is what I am, whether I’m smoking or not. And recognizing this saved my life. And it freed me from the burden of figuring out how to feed my addiction without being its slave that has plagued me for 24 years. No longer did I have to try to figure out how to smoke without becoming a smoker. I could just get off that dizzying and exhausting and deadly merry-go-round of deadly “logic” and say this:
Never again. For ANY reason.
And you my friendÂ… You can do this too. Post roll everyday. Promise yourself, your brothers (and sisters!) that TODAYÂ… you wonÂ’t use nicotine. Keep your guard up.
Remember my failed marriage? After day 100 I was living in an apartment and dealing with stress and worry like I have never experienced before. I am surrounded by smokers and I have a lovely back porch where I can picture myself every single night unwinding slowly while exhaling cigarette smoke. I loved my first cigarette. I loved my last one too. I just happen to hate killing myself more. There are daysÂ… even at 150Â… where that daily promise is the only thing making it easy. There isnÂ’t a decision to make once IÂ’ve made that promise. ItÂ’s done. I know firsthand that in five years, a day may come where I will be thankful I made that promise for that day.
I will always be an addict, but I am no longer a slave. And freedom is so sweet. I invite you to come taste it with me.
Well said, my sister. Well said.
Well done LHG. That was worth the wait. I am happy that you stuck it out. I had a great feeling about you even when you were only a few weeks in.
There is one part about your speech that I am struggling with though.....
It is the word "love". It concerns me because I know there is a falseness in the "love" that you remember. Sometimes the memory of that "love" can become very powerful in a persons life, under certain circumstances. Addiction is powerful. Heroin addicts "love" the rush of a needle in their arm. Crack heads "love" to inhale deeply of their poison. Alcoholics "love" the what that first swallow seems to do to their nervous system. These are fleeting moments of "pleasure".....that come along with a terrible price and horrible consequences. That is nature of addiction. Your addiction mind clings, even subconsciously, to a memory of "love".
There are many pleasures in this world that come without such a high cost. For the past 300 days I have been trying to find those, and "love" them, as much as I thought I "loved" my dip. Sun sets, full moons, children laughter, a good movie, a good book, a good conversation.
You have a great quit going LGH, I am glad to have gotten to know you a bit. I am sorry to pick on just one word, but I just thought I would encourage you to develop some good old fashioned HATE. Hate for a poison that made you a slave for so long. Hate for a poison that has stolen every single one of my grandparents, and countless other family members. I trust that you have lost loved ones too. I am glad that your parents had the wisdom to quit. And now look at you. You have done the same, and you had the courage to bring your brother along with you. Love your new found freedom, hate the poison. Do not romanticize your addiction. Nicotine is so unworthy of your fond memories.
Never again for any reason, LHG. Damn proud to be quit with you. Keep up the great work. Stay active on the site, your words help many.
Ryan, you are absolutely correct and I thought... "IG2H is gonna call me on that!" when I wrote it.
I absolutely hate nicotine. I do think though that for a serial stopper like me, some people think they will get to a place where they just don't like it anymore. They are waiting for this to happen and think that is when they will finally be able to "control" it. That is why many people (my brother can attest to this one, I know) will even switch to a brand they find distasteful. They think that will help them regulate it. Been there, done that.
My point was not to romanticize nicotine. I don't. But for someone who finds it relatively easy to stop but keeps coming back, I wanted to address those games they play with themselves. And one game is (I've heard it here) is "I hate the taste". Hating the taste doesn't make anyone's quit stronger. The only thing that makes a quit foolproof in my opinion is throwing all the bullshit away and admitting you're an addict and promising daily to not use it.
Anyway, again, I knew that you specifically would call me on it and I appreciate it! I hate it as much as you though. I just didn't quit because I hate the taste or the rush. Can't wait around for that, won't happen. Nicotine will NEVER release you.
Ahh, you know me. Great points LHG. Cant wait around until you hate it. I get it. Awesome speech anyway. Congrats on 150 :)
I just read your HOF speech,, your a bad ass! I quit with you my Sister!
Yeah that's right sis. If you took much longer to write your speech I was going to beat you to it. That just wouldn't be right. I join you in HOF in 5 days.
Damn sis, you are setting the bar pretty high. I don't think I'll be able to beat it but you know I'm competitive and I'll try.
Thank you for convincing me that NOW is the time to quit and that this place was worth the hassle of figuring out the process of "posting roll".
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Day 206... Why I Stay...
A couple days ago, ERuss texted me and gave me a heads up about Jake. I've been following that unfold and exchanging texts and feeling really deeply moved by the whole thing. It was beautiful and I'm so proud to be part of this group. It has certainly bonded us in a way that hasn't happened in over 200 days posting together.
But that's not why I stay. It's just a bonus.
Last night I went out to watch a band play and hang out with friends. I had several drinks and my guard was definitely down. The group I was with were smokers and at one point in the night, we were in the outdoor part of the club and my friend lit up and I had a split second of temptation and I realized with absolute clarity that if I had not committed to KTC and had not posted roll that morning, I would have bummed a smoke from her. And it might have taken awhile to buy my own pack again, but I would have been on the road to slavery. But I didn't. And it was easy. Because I made a promise to quit for that day and that's what I was gonna do.
So on this already somewhat sappy day, let me say thank you KTC community for continuing to come back and promise every day to be stronger than this addiction. I'm not going anywhere. This place saved my life.
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Day 206... Why I Stay...
A couple days ago, ERuss texted me and gave me a heads up about Jake. I've been following that unfold and exchanging texts and feeling really deeply moved by the whole thing. It was beautiful and I'm so proud to be part of this group. It has certainly bonded us in a way that hasn't happened in over 200 days posting together.
But that's not why I stay. It's just a bonus.
Last night I went out to watch a band play and hang out with friends. I had several drinks and my guard was definitely down. The group I was with were smokers and at one point in the night, we were in the outdoor part of the club and my friend lit up and I had a split second of temptation and I realized with absolute clarity that if I had not committed to KTC and had not posted roll that morning, I would have bummed a smoke from her. And it might have taken awhile to buy my own pack again, but I would have been on the road to slavery. But I didn't. And it was easy. Because I made a promise to quit for that day and that's what I was gonna do.
So on this already somewhat sappy day, let me say thank you KTC community for continuing to come back and promise every day to be stronger than this addiction. I'm not going anywhere. This place saved my life.
In my 500+ days there have also been nights just as you have described. Had it not been for my promise to you and the rest of my quit family, I too would fall back into daily slavery. Thanks for being my sister in quit.
:wub:
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Day 206... Why I Stay...
A couple days ago, ERuss texted me and gave me a heads up about Jake. I've been following that unfold and exchanging texts and feeling really deeply moved by the whole thing. It was beautiful and I'm so proud to be part of this group. It has certainly bonded us in a way that hasn't happened in over 200 days posting together.
But that's not why I stay. It's just a bonus.
Last night I went out to watch a band play and hang out with friends. I had several drinks and my guard was definitely down. The group I was with were smokers and at one point in the night, we were in the outdoor part of the club and my friend lit up and I had a split second of temptation and I realized with absolute clarity that if I had not committed to KTC and had not posted roll that morning, I would have bummed a smoke from her. And it might have taken awhile to buy my own pack again, but I would have been on the road to slavery. But I didn't. And it was easy. Because I made a promise to quit for that day and that's what I was gonna do.
So on this already somewhat sappy day, let me say thank you KTC community for continuing to come back and promise every day to be stronger than this addiction. I'm not going anywhere. This place saved my life.
In my 500+ days there have also been nights just as you have described. Had it not been for my promise to you and the rest of my quit family, I too would fall back into daily slavery. Thanks for being my sister in quit.
:wub:
I love it. Nice win LHG, (and nice pic on the text thread).
I wish that I could get the two of you in a room with my little sister for a couple hours. She is a ninja smoker, or at least she thinks she is. She has been at it since childhood and I have been on her ass since she was 14. Of course until 340 something days ago my words were hypocritical and meaningless.
Keep up the great work girls.
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Day 206... Why I Stay...
A couple days ago, ERuss texted me and gave me a heads up about Jake. I've been following that unfold and exchanging texts and feeling really deeply moved by the whole thing. It was beautiful and I'm so proud to be part of this group. It has certainly bonded us in a way that hasn't happened in over 200 days posting together.
But that's not why I stay. It's just a bonus.
Last night I went out to watch a band play and hang out with friends. I had several drinks and my guard was definitely down. The group I was with were smokers and at one point in the night, we were in the outdoor part of the club and my friend lit up and I had a split second of temptation and I realized with absolute clarity that if I had not committed to KTC and had not posted roll that morning, I would have bummed a smoke from her. And it might have taken awhile to buy my own pack again, but I would have been on the road to slavery. But I didn't. And it was easy. Because I made a promise to quit for that day and that's what I was gonna do.
So on this already somewhat sappy day, let me say thank you KTC community for continuing to come back and promise every day to be stronger than this addiction. I'm not going anywhere. This place saved my life.
In my 500+ days there have also been nights just as you have described. Had it not been for my promise to you and the rest of my quit family, I too would fall back into daily slavery. Thanks for being my sister in quit.
:wub:
I love it. Nice win LHG, (and nice pic on the text thread).
I wish that I could get the two of you in a room with my little sister for a couple hours. She is a ninja smoker, or at least she thinks she is. She has been at it since childhood and I have been on her ass since she was 14. Of course until 340 something days ago my words were hypocritical and meaningless.
Keep up the great work girls.
Thanks for the reminder LHG. Hell, this (KTC) is the cheapest insurance I can think of against returning to years of nicotine slavery. Like you, I have had that day where I KNEW that a promise was the only thing between me and returning to the can. Good stuff. Thanks.
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Day 206... Why I Stay...
A couple days ago, ERuss texted me and gave me a heads up about Jake. I've been following that unfold and exchanging texts and feeling really deeply moved by the whole thing. It was beautiful and I'm so proud to be part of this group. It has certainly bonded us in a way that hasn't happened in over 200 days posting together.
But that's not why I stay. It's just a bonus.
Last night I went out to watch a band play and hang out with friends. I had several drinks and my guard was definitely down. The group I was with were smokers and at one point in the night, we were in the outdoor part of the club and my friend lit up and I had a split second of temptation and I realized with absolute clarity that if I had not committed to KTC and had not posted roll that morning, I would have bummed a smoke from her. And it might have taken awhile to buy my own pack again, but I would have been on the road to slavery. But I didn't. And it was easy. Because I made a promise to quit for that day and that's what I was gonna do.
So on this already somewhat sappy day, let me say thank you KTC community for continuing to come back and promise every day to be stronger than this addiction. I'm not going anywhere. This place saved my life.
I can't speak for all of August. But I am definitely happy you are in our group. I quit with you everyday. Nice job on fighting off that crave.
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Day 206... Why I Stay...
A couple days ago, ERuss texted me and gave me a heads up about Jake. I've been following that unfold and exchanging texts and feeling really deeply moved by the whole thing. It was beautiful and I'm so proud to be part of this group. It has certainly bonded us in a way that hasn't happened in over 200 days posting together.
But that's not why I stay. It's just a bonus.
Last night I went out to watch a band play and hang out with friends. I had several drinks and my guard was definitely down. The group I was with were smokers and at one point in the night, we were in the outdoor part of the club and my friend lit up and I had a split second of temptation and I realized with absolute clarity that if I had not committed to KTC and had not posted roll that morning, I would have bummed a smoke from her. And it might have taken awhile to buy my own pack again, but I would have been on the road to slavery. But I didn't. And it was easy. Because I made a promise to quit for that day and that's what I was gonna do.
So on this already somewhat sappy day, let me say thank you KTC community for continuing to come back and promise every day to be stronger than this addiction. I'm not going anywhere. This place saved my life.
I can't speak for all of August. But I am definitely happy you are in our group. I quit with you everyday. Nice job on fighting off that crave.
Ah very cool..... had a strong crave on the way north this evening. And got on here to distract myself. Needed to see this..... you won. Way to be an example. Ktc needs you here also. Too many of us redneck men around. You bring class.