KillTheCan.org Accountability Forum
Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Bull on December 22, 2008, 11:26:00 AM
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Hey, today is day 4 with no tobacco. I started chewing when I was 20. I quit (actually as it turns out, I just took a break) when I was 32. I was working out in the field and decided that one pinch wouldn't hurt. HAHAHAHAHA..... that was a year ago. Kind of ticks me off that I through away 4 years so easily. I got caught by my wife and she was pissed. So I did what any good man would do, I hid it. I got caught a few months later by my wife and she was disappointed, so out of respect for her, I hid it better. Two weeks ago I had a hernia repair surgery. My wife stated that it would be easier to quit while I was recovering from surgery, mostly because I was out of chew and I was recovering from a double mesh hernia repair. I told her how wise she was and then when she left for work I hobbled out to the car and drove to the store. Nine days went by and i was so proud of how well I was able to hide it. She thought I quit so I didn't have to worry so much about her watching me like a hawk. Then 4 days ago I was going to the movies with my brother, I don't know about you guys but I LOVE a good chew in the movies. I was getting out of the car with a big ole pinch in my gum and a brand new can in my pocket and my cell phone rang. It was the wife, she just wanted to know how I was doing. She ended the conversation with "doesn't it feel good to have quit chewing? I am so proud of you." I told her yes, it felt great and I hung up the phone. I had found out that morning that a friend of mine from work had surgery because they found cancer in his esophagus. Wow, I felt like an ass. Right then and there I decided that I DO want to quit. I threw the pinch in my mouth out and I threw away the full can. I told my wife about the whole thing yesterday, she just leaned back, smiled and said "I thought that would work." I can't believe she got me but I am glad she did. I am even happier that I got her. Today is better than yesterday and I know tomorrow will be better than today. Merry Christmas to me.
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Great introduction Bull. Welcome to the site. Lots of ninja dippers here. Myself included. I was also an expert at hiding from my family while enjoying it with others in movies and other activities. I had to come clean with my wife and she is also proud of me. I am 111 days quit and thought no way in the beginning. This site DOES work if you stay close. PM if you need anything or some encouragement. Enjoy the ride
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Welcome to the sight Bull. Love the Aviatar, I sit and watch it over and over. I am easily entertained though.
Rule 1. Wife is smarter than we think we are. My wife suspected but did not realize the magnitude of my habit.
Rule 2. Post daily at your sight, the earlier the better, gets you in the quit mode for the day.
Rule 3. Enjoy the ride, it sucks sometimes and then somewhere in the middle of it all you begin to respect yourself and be proud of who you are again.
Welcome to the sight.
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bull its good to have you in march...thats an awesome avatar btw, thats how i felt on the first few days...anyway if you need anything this site has really helped me. let us know how we can help you
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I got caught by my wife and she was pissed. So I did what any good man would do, I hid it. I got caught a few months later by my wife and she was disappointed, so out of respect for her, I hid it better.
This passage from your story is excellent insight into the mind of an addict. I think exactly like that. It helps me to see the similarities between us especially when we stay quit.
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Thanks guys... I went to the movies with my wife tonight... tobacco free. Afterwards I told her that normally I would go to the bathroom to put in a dip for the movie, it was weird to actually got to the bathroom to piss.
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Thanks guys... I went to the movies with my wife tonight... tobacco free. Afterwards I told her that normally I would go to the bathroom to put in a dip for the movie, it was weird to actually got to the bathroom to piss.
i bet it was more strange to go to the movies with a chick instead of a dude.
keep up the good work.
We are really open minded here you dont have to refer to your life partner as your "wife"
really its ok.
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Going to Tahoe for the week.... I will find a way to post roll call every day. Here's to a week in the mountains with no dip.