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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Bokie on October 27, 2016, 11:05:00 AM
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Hello All, Today marks a day where I have decided to quit chewing tobacco. My story is pretty much repeated throughout the blogs on this site, so I will spare you all the details you know I will say. Bottom line, the difference between the last time I quit, and this time, is this web site and community. I need a tool and if I can help someone in the process, bonus! I look forward to roll calling, and preaching my commitment to quit every morning!
Thanks for the support.
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Welcome.
Looking forward to following your progress.
You are a member of the Feb '17 group, which can be found here. (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/30053935/8/)
Hit me up via PM if you need anything.
Oh, and don't worry if you screw up roll the first few days - the only way to screw up roll is by not being on roll. You'll figure it out soon enough, we all have.
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man you did step 1 whats dissidin to quit. and step 2 gettin a intro up. and evin step 3 whats postin roll.
now heres why this intro is importint. the next cuppel a days will suck. may be reel bad. rite that shit down here so if you ever think bout forgetin it you can come back and reed it agin. dont let this be your last post in this thred.
next get to swappin digits. any buddy in roll call - eether in the groop or supports shood be willin to dish out digits man. get um. you will be glad you did.
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Welcome.
Looking forward to following your progress.
You are a member of the Feb '17 group, which can be found here. (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/30053935/8/)
Hit me up via PM if you need anything.
Oh, and don't worry if you screw up roll the first few days - the only way to screw up roll is by not being on roll. You'll figure it out soon enough, we all have.
Thank you for the welcome.
Can someone confirm the roll call I made and make sure I followed the instructions. I understand the procedures, just not sure if I did it right on day 1.
Much appreciated!
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Welcome.
Looking forward to following your progress.
You are a member of the Feb '17 group, which can be found here. (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/30053935/8/)
Hit me up via PM if you need anything.
Oh, and don't worry if you screw up roll the first few days - the only way to screw up roll is by not being on roll. You'll figure it out soon enough, we all have.
Thank you for the welcome.
Can someone confirm the roll call I made and make sure I followed the instructions. I understand the procedures, just not sure if I did it right on day 1.
Much appreciated!
You did well only placed your name in the wrong place. But as usual Drone fixed it !?
Proud to be quit with you Brother !
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man you did step 1 whats dissidin to quit. and step 2 gettin a intro up. and evin step 3 whats postin roll.
now heres why this intro is importint. the next cuppel a days will suck. may be reel bad. rite that shit down here so if you ever think bout forgetin it you can come back and reed it agin. dont let this be your last post in this thred.
next get to swappin digits. any buddy in roll call - eether in the groop or supports shood be willin to dish out digits man. get um. you will be glad you did.
^^^ can't say much more than this-- really, great tips from accomplished quitter who just has a unique persona. Glad you're getting good advice and trying hard- give it all you got, this is the chance to do something many never can!
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Day 2 - Little sleep last night, although not too bad. Thanks to that NFL, anyone watching that game would fall asleep. Today, I have the headache and fogginess everyone talks about in this forum. That is fine. Looking forward to the day when I don't twitch every time I do something because I don't have my tin/bottle ready to go! Yesterday I could not believe how lost I was without that can! I tell you, that feeling is enough to drive me to succeed. I'm so sick and tired of being a slave to that stuff. On to the next 24 hours, as I posted my roll call, and now look forward to another day of being nic free! Cheers!
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I am proud to quit with someone who gets how quitting works. Hang tough for the next few days, and stay close to the website.
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hey bokie,
Congrats on succeeding in your first 24 hours and launching into Day 2.
the best advice that I can give you is to drink tons of water today and through the weekend. for me days 3-5 were the roughest physically I had the sweats and worst headache in the world on days 3-4 day 5 was like a hang over from it all.
The next few days your body is going to be kicking out all of the nicotine from your system drinking water will help that process a ton so will exercising if that is your thing. (mine was locking myself in my room with a case of water bottles and 3 books )
The second best advice is to get active in your group and keep KTC in plain sight all day! I book marked the page on my phone so the icon is always there everytime I turn my phone on.
Stay Strong and Stay Quit
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hey bokie,
Congrats on succeeding in your first 24 hours and launching into Day 2.
the best advice that I can give you is to drink tons of water today and through the weekend. for me days 3-5 were the roughest physically I had the sweats and worst headache in the world on days 3-4 day 5 was like a hang over from it all.
The next few days your body is going to be kicking out all of the nicotine from your system drinking water will help that process a ton so will exercising if that is your thing. (mine was locking myself in my room with a case of water bottles and 3 books )
The second best advice is to get active in your group and keep KTC in plain sight all day! I book marked the page on my phone so the icon is always there everytime I turn my phone on.
Stay Strong and Stay Quit
^^^^^^ Great advice right there!!
Make sure you post roll early every day. Wake Up Piss Post (WUPP). It is your promise to not use NIC that day and we quit one day at a time (ODAT). Posting late in the day is pretty much just a status update of what you've done that day, so we can't emphasize enough the importance of early roll call.
Trade digits (phone numbers) with as many as you can in your group. One day one or more of your fellow quitters will save your life! I would be glad to share my digits with you as well. Send me a message through the inbox (top right corner) with your number and I'll send you mine.
Be a quitter!! I Quit With You Today (IQWYT)!!!
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Hello All, Today marks a day where I have decided to quit chewing tobacco. My story is pretty much repeated throughout the blogs on this site, so I will spare you all the details you know I will say. Bottom line, the difference between the last time I quit, and this time, is this web site and community. I need a tool and if I can help someone in the process, bonus! I look forward to roll calling, and preaching my commitment to quit every morning!
Thanks for the support.
Bokie,
Congrats on one of the best decisions you'll ever make!!! Please indulge me for a minute --- you called KTC a tool, and while I agree it is that, it is SO MUCH MORE. Invest in this place, get to know the quit group that will form February 2017. Over time they will become your brothers (and maybe even sisters) in this fight against your nicotine addiction. Weird, but true....my Sultans are very much family to me.
Quitting with you today.... stay strong, and always remember even though it might not seem like it in the middle of the craves that will come, nicotine withdrawal has never actually killed anyone!! 'no'
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Hello All, Today marks a day where I have decided to quit chewing tobacco. My story is pretty much repeated throughout the blogs on this site, so I will spare you all the details you know I will say. Bottom line, the difference between the last time I quit, and this time, is this web site and community. I need a tool and if I can help someone in the process, bonus! I look forward to roll calling, and preaching my commitment to quit every morning!
Thanks for the support.
Bokie,
Congrats on one of the best decisions you'll ever make!!! Please indulge me for a minute --- you called KTC a tool, and while I agree it is that, it is SO MUCH MORE. Invest in this place, get to know the quit group that will form February 2017. Over time they will become your brothers (and maybe even sisters) in this fight against your nicotine addiction. Weird, but true....my Sultans are very much family to me.
Quitting with you today.... stay strong, and always remember even though it might not seem like it in the middle of the craves that will come, nicotine withdrawal has never actually killed anyone!! 'no'
Hey CaveMan,
I agree. Tool may not be the best word to use, but if you were to ask a carpenter or tradesman, what is his favorite tool, he would point it out, then say, I couldn't live without it. So, to all of KTC, I meant tool in the most sincere way.
Last night was a rough one. I'm on day 5, and the weekend over all was not bad. Mentally, I'm almost relieved that I don't have to constantly be tracking that tin, and knowing exactly when to have the next pinch, or making arrangements to leave my family to have that next pinch. Physically, my body was really starting to reject the dip, but I was so weak and addicted I thought "cutting down" was the solution. Who remembers "cutting down" and making a tin last a day and half, then patting yourself on the back, only to go through 2 tins that very next day? I did it to myself all the time! So sad! Today, I've gone 4 days, and I promise to get through day 5. With KTC, I'm sure to succeed.
Peace out!
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Hello All, Today marks a day where I have decided to quit chewing tobacco. My story is pretty much repeated throughout the blogs on this site, so I will spare you all the details you know I will say. Bottom line, the difference between the last time I quit, and this time, is this web site and community. I need a tool and if I can help someone in the process, bonus! I look forward to roll calling, and preaching my commitment to quit every morning!
Thanks for the support.
Bokie,
Congrats on one of the best decisions you'll ever make!!! Please indulge me for a minute --- you called KTC a tool, and while I agree it is that, it is SO MUCH MORE. Invest in this place, get to know the quit group that will form February 2017. Over time they will become your brothers (and maybe even sisters) in this fight against your nicotine addiction. Weird, but true....my Sultans are very much family to me.
Quitting with you today.... stay strong, and always remember even though it might not seem like it in the middle of the craves that will come, nicotine withdrawal has never actually killed anyone!! 'no'
Hey CaveMan,
I agree. Tool may not be the best word to use, but if you were to ask a carpenter or tradesman, what is his favorite tool, he would point it out, then say, I couldn't live without it. So, to all of KTC, I meant tool in the most sincere way.
Last night was a rough one. I'm on day 5, and the weekend over all was not bad. Mentally, I'm almost relieved that I don't have to constantly be tracking that tin, and knowing exactly when to have the next pinch, or making arrangements to leave my family to have that next pinch. Physically, my body was really starting to reject the dip, but I was so weak and addicted I thought "cutting down" was the solution. Who remembers "cutting down" and making a tin last a day and half, then patting yourself on the back, only to go through 2 tins that very next day? I did it to myself all the time! So sad! Today, I've gone 4 days, and I promise to get through day 5. With KTC, I'm sure to succeed.
Peace out!
Bokie,
Great job on day 5! The intro section is a great place to keep up your status. Some of the things you are posting here would be great to post within your Feb group. I know the group is just starting off, but the things you are posting is what you will all have in common and that's what helps make the month bond together. Keep up the quit and knock em dead. Sleep was my biggest issue. it took me 6-8 weeks to finally get a solid nights sleep. It sucked monkey ballz.
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Bokie I'm damn proud of you. You are wanting this freedom and you are after it. I will gladly support you. If I can do anything let me know. Day 450 and I remember the fog just like it was yesterday I promise I do. Hang tough like you have so far. The worst part is behind you. If you need to use fake dip, sunflower seeds, gum, hard candy whatever it may be, use it.
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Bokie I'm damn proud of you. You are wanting this freedom and you are after it. I will gladly support you. If I can do anything let me know. Day 450 and I remember the fog just like it was yesterday I promise I do. Hang tough like you have so far. The worst part is behind you. If you need to use fake dip, sunflower seeds, gum, hard candy whatever it may be, use it.
It only gets better from here!
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Hello All, Today marks a day where I have decided to quit chewing tobacco. My story is pretty much repeated throughout the blogs on this site, so I will spare you all the details you know I will say. Bottom line, the difference between the last time I quit, and this time, is this web site and community. I need a tool and if I can help someone in the process, bonus! I look forward to roll calling, and preaching my commitment to quit every morning!
Thanks for the support.
Bokie,
Congrats on one of the best decisions you'll ever make!!! Please indulge me for a minute --- you called KTC a tool, and while I agree it is that, it is SO MUCH MORE. Invest in this place, get to know the quit group that will form February 2017. Over time they will become your brothers (and maybe even sisters) in this fight against your nicotine addiction. Weird, but true....my Sultans are very much family to me.
Quitting with you today.... stay strong, and always remember even though it might not seem like it in the middle of the craves that will come, nicotine withdrawal has never actually killed anyone!! 'no'
Hey CaveMan,
I agree. Tool may not be the best word to use, but if you were to ask a carpenter or tradesman, what is his favorite tool, he would point it out, then say, I couldn't live without it. So, to all of KTC, I meant tool in the most sincere way.
Last night was a rough one. I'm on day 5, and the weekend over all was not bad. Mentally, I'm almost relieved that I don't have to constantly be tracking that tin, and knowing exactly when to have the next pinch, or making arrangements to leave my family to have that next pinch. Physically, my body was really starting to reject the dip, but I was so weak and addicted I thought "cutting down" was the solution. Who remembers "cutting down" and making a tin last a day and half, then patting yourself on the back, only to go through 2 tins that very next day? I did it to myself all the time! So sad! Today, I've gone 4 days, and I promise to get through day 5. With KTC, I'm sure to succeed.
Peace out!
You're doing great Bokie, keep it up! It's great to have your progress here in the intros, because it lets us all see where you are and how we can help. And, it helps later, when other quitters see some of their own quit in what you've been through. Keep it up, and keep making connections here-- the people you connect with will make a huge difference in the long run. For both Support and Accountability.
Quit hard today! Use any smooth times to recharge you for any tough times that might come later.
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Bokie I just went and posted roll with you and I noticed you have some kickass support in there.
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Bokie I just went and posted roll with you and I noticed you have some kickass support in there.
I could not agree more Eye! Those names and numbers are both intimidating and inspiring! I appreciate the support and look forward to learning more about the KTC community.
Question to anyone who has an answer: It has been suggested I place my experience in my intro blog, so I build a log to look back at down the road. It was also suggested I start placing some of the info I place in my Intro blog, in my February Roll Call, for inspiration to others in my group. I only see us taking roll call in that blog, so I was not sure if I was supposed to reply or only quote per the instructions. Anyone who has some suggestions, I would appreciate the guidance. Thanks!
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Bokie I just went and posted roll with you and I noticed you have some kickass support in there.
I could not agree more Eye! Those names and numbers are both intimidating and inspiring! I appreciate the support and look forward to learning more about the KTC community.
Question to anyone who has an answer: It has been suggested I place my experience in my intro blog, so I build a log to look back at down the road. It was also suggested I start placing some of the info I place in my Intro blog, in my February Roll Call, for inspiration to others in my group. I only see us taking roll call in that blog, so I was not sure if I was supposed to reply or only quote per the instructions. Anyone who has some suggestions, I would appreciate the guidance. Thanks!
Write as much as you want anywhere you want! I used my intro a lot the first few months.
Never be intimidated about someone's number, if it didn't offend people all I'd post is a +1 for roll because I am an addict and will never be cured. That's my take on it, my digits are just a number to me, all I care about is being quit and free.
No offense intended to anyone.
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Day 1 - for the 2nd time.
Last time was almost 10 yrs ago - had quit for 1+ yr (the 'old' quitsmokeless.org site), then relapsed and haven't seriously quit since.
Until today.
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Day 1 - for the 2nd time.
Last time was almost 10 yrs ago - had quit for 1+ yr (the 'old' quitsmokeless.org site), then relapsed and haven't seriously quit since.
Until today.
You need to make your own intro dude.
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Bokie I just went and posted roll with you and I noticed you have some kickass support in there.
I could not agree more Eye! Those names and numbers are both intimidating and inspiring! I appreciate the support and look forward to learning more about the KTC community.
Question to anyone who has an answer: It has been suggested I place my experience in my intro blog, so I build a log to look back at down the road. It was also suggested I start placing some of the info I place in my Intro blog, in my February Roll Call, for inspiration to others in my group. I only see us taking roll call in that blog, so I was not sure if I was supposed to reply or only quote per the instructions. Anyone who has some suggestions, I would appreciate the guidance. Thanks!
Write as much as you want anywhere you want! I used my intro a lot the first few months.
Never be intimidated about someone's number, if it didn't offend people all I'd post is a +1 for roll because I am an addict and will never be cured. That's my take on it, my digits are just a number to me, all I care about is being quit and free.
No offense intended to anyone.
hay man there are lots a reasons i post up top in feb groops. first off it reinviggerates my quit. seckind it shood be a exampel of what you can do. if a moron like me can make 2900 days quit so can you. if you stick with the program that is. third is to give some avice where i can cuz i think im gettin pritty good at quitin. and forth is to keep you guys in line a bit so the nuckel draggers round here dont get all pissy in the groop thred and chase some peepel off.
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Bokie just jump on in the Feb '17 thread and post away. Won't hurt nothing.
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Question to anyone who has an answer: It has been suggested I place my experience in my intro blog, so I build a log to look back at down the road. It was also suggested I start placing some of the info I place in my Intro blog, in my February Roll Call, for inspiration to others in my group. I only see us taking roll call in that blog, so I was not sure if I was supposed to reply or only quote per the instructions. Anyone who has some suggestions, I would appreciate the guidance. Thanks!
I would steer you away from posting solely in your quit group. Not all of us want to wade through page after page and post after post trying to offer advice. It gets to be a mess and a headache. Here, in your intro, you actually have MORE community exposure and it's easier and quicker to access. You might also get more advice from old timers/vets who still peruse this part of our forum regularly. Quite a few of us hold to the opinion that this site lost a lot of damn good interaction when the bulk of the conversation was steered to quit groups. Anyway... just my 2 bits. Keep on rockin', man. This is all good stuff!
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Question to anyone who has an answer: It has been suggested I place my experience in my intro blog, so I build a log to look back at down the road. It was also suggested I start placing some of the info I place in my Intro blog, in my February Roll Call, for inspiration to others in my group. I only see us taking roll call in that blog, so I was not sure if I was supposed to reply or only quote per the instructions. Anyone who has some suggestions, I would appreciate the guidance. Thanks!
I would steer you away from posting solely in your quit group. Not all of us want to wade through page after page and post after post trying to offer advice. It gets to be a mess and a headache. Here, in your intro, you actually have MORE community exposure and it's easier and quicker to access. You might also get more advice from old timers/vets who still peruse this part of our forum regularly. Quite a few of us hold to the opinion that this site lost a lot of damn good interaction when the bulk of the conversation was steered to quit groups. Anyway... just my 2 bits. Keep on rockin', man. This is all good stuff!
I don't know why everyone is not more involved in the intros. This is where it used to happen.
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Ok, so I'm on Day 8. Last night was a real challenge I found myself doing many things around the house that I typically would only do to get outside and get a dip on. I too was a hider. My family didn't know I was on the sauce. They thought I quit a long time ago. I've lived a lie for way too long. Last night I also did not sleep. One reason was because of that damn baseball game. Sadly I'm not a fan of either team, but come on, that was a great game I could not turn off even with a 20 minute rain delay. After the game, I stared at the ceiling waiting for the sand man, but he didn't show, and the alarm went off. Both of them! I'm actually pretty proud of my mindset right now. I'm a little edgy, but getting on just fine during the day. Triumph is helping, but I'm not loving the fake stuff! Any how, this is my log entry for today. On Day 8, still quit, still waiting for the clouds to leave my brain. Thanks to all who have reached out, appreciate it. All those in the Feb 2017 Quit Group, PLEASE let me know if I can be of any assistance to your quit in any way. Just send me a message. Cheers!
I quit with you all today!
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still waiting for the clouds to leave my brain.
They will Bokie. Just wait for it. Its coming soon. And when the fog lifts its freaking awesome. You have a lot of milestones and realizations still ahead. Enjoy this journey bro. You are on your way to being who you really are. Not the nicotine fiend we all were!
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Ok, so I'm on Day 8. Last night was a real challenge I found myself doing many things around the house that I typically would only do to get outside and get a dip on. I too was a hider. My family didn't know I was on the sauce. They thought I quit a long time ago. I've lived a lie for way too long. Last night I also did not sleep. One reason was because of that damn baseball game. Sadly I'm not a fan of either team, but come on, that was a great game I could not turn off even with a 20 minute rain delay. After the game, I stared at the ceiling waiting for the sand man, but he didn't show, and the alarm went off. Both of them! I'm actually pretty proud of my mindset right now. I'm a little edgy, but getting on just fine during the day. Triumph is helping, but I'm not loving the fake stuff! Any how, this is my log entry for today. On Day 8, still quit, still waiting for the clouds to leave my brain. Thanks to all who have reached out, appreciate it. All those in the Feb 2017 Quit Group, PLEASE let me know if I can be of any assistance to your quit in any way. Just send me a message. Cheers!
I quit with you all today!
Hey Bokie,
I'm in your Feb 17 quit group. I am going through a lot of the same things you are going through. You are not alone. I am hating these feelings and mind games right with you. At the same time, in many ways, I feel better than I have in a long, long time. I have more energy in spite of the fact it is being spent in a fog and reading KTC stories, all after four hours of sleep. How about you?
It was an awesome ball game last night. Baseball is always toughest for me. I've coached and played baseball my whole life, was introduced to chewing tobacco through my baseball playing days, I'm still around baseball all the time, so I completely get the harshness of having to face the triggers like you did last night. Awesome that you made it through, bro.
I also hid it like you did. I was way too ashamed to let any of the 15-18 yr. old kids I have coached know that I was chewing right in front of their face. They look at me as a role model. I was far too ashamed to ever let any of them know, and even more, I hope none of them ever chewed because of me.
Anyway, no hiding it any more for either of us. We are going to be honest with ourselves and our loved ones. That feeling of dishonesty just sucks. Way to push through all that last night.
Stay quit. Feb 17 group quits dipping. We don't quit on each other.
-Viking
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You can't sleep now but, before long you will be sleeping more than you have. It's one thing that I'm amazed about. I used to be like many others, going to bed at 1130, 1200, 1230 and so on. All to get that nic. I needed that last taste before I laid down. Some times laid down with it, nasty spitter next to me. I couldn't swallow it. My point is I'm amazed at how much rest my body calls for now. I'm guessing it's still catching up from all that lost sleep. I'm in the bed nowadays by 9-930. Weekends, I can actually sleep in until 800AM which is amazing. Going back down memory lane, going to bed at 1130, 1200, 1230 at night, I was up bright and early to get that fix. Thank God I no longer need that nasty nic.
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Thanks Viking! Thanks Eye!
I used to go to bed at 9:30. My family thought I was just getting old, and could not handle staying up late, as I get up at 5am for work. The reality is, I would slap in a dip, play games on my cell phone for 2 hours and then go to sleep. As for a spitter, I always had a bottle near bye, with a tin of fake chew (probably 3 years old) next to it. My tin of Cope, my preference, was hidden away. While I could swallow, and did often, I preferred to pack half a tin in before bed, to get that last fix. The next morning, I would hit the same gas station, place my order and I was off on my hour and half drive to work. No big deal when you have a dip. Today's commute is no more difficult or more stressful, without the dip.
You guys are correct, I have more energy during the day, and at night. My next challenge is to go fishing without a dip. That is a challenge I will be ready for next Spring. Bass fishing is pretty much over here in MA.
Cheers!
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Thanks Viking! Thanks Eye!
I used to go to bed at 9:30. My family thought I was just getting old, and could not handle staying up late, as I get up at 5am for work. The reality is, I would slap in a dip, play games on my cell phone for 2 hours and then go to sleep. As for a spitter, I always had a bottle near bye, with a tin of fake chew (probably 3 years old) next to it. My tin of Cope, my preference, was hidden away. While I could swallow, and did often, I preferred to pack half a tin in before bed, to get that last fix. The next morning, I would hit the same gas station, place my order and I was off on my hour and half drive to work. No big deal when you have a dip. Today's commute is no more difficult or more stressful, without the dip.
You guys are correct, I have more energy during the day, and at night. My next challenge is to go fishing without a dip. That is a challenge I will be ready for next Spring. Bass fishing is pretty much over here in MA.
Cheers!
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Thanks Viking! Thanks Eye!
I used to go to bed at 9:30. My family thought I was just getting old, and could not handle staying up late, as I get up at 5am for work. The reality is, I would slap in a dip, play games on my cell phone for 2 hours and then go to sleep. As for a spitter, I always had a bottle near bye, with a tin of fake chew (probably 3 years old) next to it. My tin of Cope, my preference, was hidden away. While I could swallow, and did often, I preferred to pack half a tin in before bed, to get that last fix. The next morning, I would hit the same gas station, place my order and I was off on my hour and half drive to work. No big deal when you have a dip. Today's commute is no more difficult or more stressful, without the dip.
You guys are correct, I have more energy during the day, and at night. My next challenge is to go fishing without a dip. That is a challenge I will be ready for next Spring. Bass fishing is pretty much over here in MA.
Cheers!
Hey bokie love to fish. Been several times since my quit. The first few I used fake chew. Now, no biggie and if I can say that after 38 years of dipping, then my friend you can do it also. Quit on!
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Thanks Viking! Thanks Eye!
I used to go to bed at 9:30. My family thought I was just getting old, and could not handle staying up late, as I get up at 5am for work. The reality is, I would slap in a dip, play games on my cell phone for 2 hours and then go to sleep. As for a spitter, I always had a bottle near bye, with a tin of fake chew (probably 3 years old) next to it. My tin of Cope, my preference, was hidden away. While I could swallow, and did often, I preferred to pack half a tin in before bed, to get that last fix. The next morning, I would hit the same gas station, place my order and I was off on my hour and half drive to work. No big deal when you have a dip. Today's commute is no more difficult or more stressful, without the dip.
You guys are correct, I have more energy during the day, and at night. My next challenge is to go fishing without a dip. That is a challenge I will be ready for next Spring. Bass fishing is pretty much over here in MA.
Cheers!
Hey bokie love to fish. Been several times since my quit. The first few I used fake chew. Now, no biggie and if I can say that after 38 years of dipping, then my friend you can do it also. Quit on!
Hey I like to fish too. Usually use flies. But know what I really don't miss? Trying to figure out how to keep a clean thumb and finger for sipping, when bait fishing or when I caught anything. Haha! Keep quitting hard Bokie! Stay active for the weekend!
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Today (day 10) started off rough, nasty headache, not in a good mood, and way too much to do in a very short period of time. But, then things just worked out. I stayed true to my promise, and got a bunch done. I did have a couple panic attacks when I realized I didn't have a chew for my 3 hour drive today, but then I realized, its been over a week, relax, you do not need a chew! I can not believe how hard my heart beats when thinking of that stuff. My mind and body are basically telling me, nothing and I mean nothing is good about that stuff. For all those who are thinking of jumping, you will only feel worse if you have a dip. You will feel awful for buying it, you will feel awful for liping it, and you will feel awful for breaking your promise, which is why you need to make that promise everyday. My body has been rejecting chew for a long time, but my mind has embraced it (definition of addiction to the letter). Today I quit and tomorrow I look forward to making my promise once again!
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Today (day 11) was really good. I got a ton of winterizing done, and my triumph mint helped me handle the brisk weather and keep my concentration where it needed to be. Sad to put the bass boat away, but we will be seeing snow soon, so it was time. Any how, hope to get a good night sleep tonight, so I can make my pledge in the morning.
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Keep up the good Quit!!! You are doing well.
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Day 15 is looking good. I feel fine, I'm thinking straight and I'm nervous as hell. I have an extremely tough week coming up, and I need to find strength to get through it. I will be spending the next 2 days in the hospital with my daughter. She has JDM (curejm.org) and will be undergoing her 8th treatment. On Sunday I fly out to the UK for a week. There I will be hit with the temptation of smoking cigars and pipes. Now smoking is not my thing, but I usually have a couple cigars among friends when I'm over there. No biggy as the nic bitch is typically running through my body already. This time its different. I have expelled the bitch, and now I'm clean. So I think I will pass on the cigars and pipes so not to put my quit in jeopardy. Posting from the UK will also be a challenge, but I will just have to take the beatings for posting late. In this case, better late than never actually applies.
Cheers!
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So I think I will pass on the cigars and pipes so not to put my quit in jeopardy. Posting from the UK will also be a challenge, but I will just have to take the beatings for posting late. In this case, better late than never actually applies.
Cheers!
1. You don't have a choice regarding the pipe and cigars dude, ANY nicotine equals a cave and Day 1. This is a 100% nicotine free site.
2. DO you have other quitters phone numbers? Text someone first thing in the morning to post roll for you. Do you want my digits, I'll do that as long as you text me that you are quit.
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So I think I will pass on the cigars and pipes so not to put my quit in jeopardy. Posting from the UK will also be a challenge, but I will just have to take the beatings for posting late. In this case, better late than never actually applies.
Cheers!
1. You don't have a choice regarding the pipe and cigars dude, ANY nicotine equals a cave and Day 1. This is a 100% nicotine free site.
2. DO you have other quitters phone numbers? Text someone first thing in the morning to post roll for you. Do you want my digits, I'll do that as long as you text me that you are quit.
I want to drive home what Thumble said in his first statement... ANY nicotine is a cave. From gum to a cigar. Not trying to slam you or anything but it actually sounds like you had to think about that one before typing it out.
This is for the rest of your life... no cigs or stogies with buddies. Ever. You're clean... you're free. That's a beautiful thing.
Keep it that way.
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So I think I will pass on the cigars and pipes so not to put my quit in jeopardy. Posting from the UK will also be a challenge, but I will just have to take the beatings for posting late. In this case, better late than never actually applies.
Cheers!
1. You don't have a choice regarding the pipe and cigars dude, ANY nicotine equals a cave and Day 1. This is a 100% nicotine free site.
2. DO you have other quitters phone numbers? Text someone first thing in the morning to post roll for you. Do you want my digits, I'll do that as long as you text me that you are quit.
I want to drive home what Thumble said in his first statement... ANY nicotine is a cave. From gum to a cigar. Not trying to slam you or anything but it actually sounds like you had to think about that one before typing it out.
This is for the rest of your life... no cigs or stogies with buddies. Ever. You're clean... you're free. That's a beautiful thing.
Keep it that way.
All righty then! No cigs. No nic. Simple! I'll stay true to my word, and will make every effort to find a wifi spot to post my roll. My cell will not work over there, so this site will be my crutch.
Thanks Thumblewort and Applejack. Appreciate the responses.
Cheers!
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So I think I will pass on the cigars and pipes so not to put my quit in jeopardy. Posting from the UK will also be a challenge, but I will just have to take the beatings for posting late. In this case, better late than never actually applies.
Cheers!
1. You don't have a choice regarding the pipe and cigars dude, ANY nicotine equals a cave and Day 1. This is a 100% nicotine free site.
2. DO you have other quitters phone numbers? Text someone first thing in the morning to post roll for you. Do you want my digits, I'll do that as long as you text me that you are quit.
I want to drive home what Thumble said in his first statement... ANY nicotine is a cave. From gum to a cigar. Not trying to slam you or anything but it actually sounds like you had to think about that one before typing it out.
This is for the rest of your life... no cigs or stogies with buddies. Ever. You're clean... you're free. That's a beautiful thing.
Keep it that way.
All righty then! No cigs. No nic. Simple! I'll stay true to my word, and will make every effort to find a wifi spot to post my roll. My cell will not work over there, so this site will be my crutch.
Thanks Thumblewort and Applejack. Appreciate the responses.
Cheers!
See!?! That's what I'm talkin' 'bout!!
No whining. No bitching. No moaning.
Just gettin' it DONE!
Good on ya bro! Quit with you today!
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So I think I will pass on the cigars and pipes so not to put my quit in jeopardy. Posting from the UK will also be a challenge, but I will just have to take the beatings for posting late. In this case, better late than never actually applies.
Cheers!
1. You don't have a choice regarding the pipe and cigars dude, ANY nicotine equals a cave and Day 1. This is a 100% nicotine free site.
2. DO you have other quitters phone numbers? Text someone first thing in the morning to post roll for you. Do you want my digits, I'll do that as long as you text me that you are quit.
I want to drive home what Thumble said in his first statement... ANY nicotine is a cave. From gum to a cigar. Not trying to slam you or anything but it actually sounds like you had to think about that one before typing it out.
This is for the rest of your life... no cigs or stogies with buddies. Ever. You're clean... you're free. That's a beautiful thing.
Keep it that way.
All righty then! No cigs. No nic. Simple! I'll stay true to my word, and will make every effort to find a wifi spot to post my roll. My cell will not work over there, so this site will be my crutch.
Thanks Thumblewort and Applejack. Appreciate the responses.
Cheers!
See!?! That's what I'm talkin' 'bout!!
No whining. No bitching. No moaning.
Just gettin' it DONE!
Good on ya bro! Quit with you today!
I agree with AJ. Glad you posted that first post, caving because of goof is not good!
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So I think I will pass on the cigars and pipes so not to put my quit in jeopardy. Posting from the UK will also be a challenge, but I will just have to take the beatings for posting late. In this case, better late than never actually applies.
Cheers!
1. You don't have a choice regarding the pipe and cigars dude, ANY nicotine equals a cave and Day 1. This is a 100% nicotine free site.
2. DO you have other quitters phone numbers? Text someone first thing in the morning to post roll for you. Do you want my digits, I'll do that as long as you text me that you are quit.
I want to drive home what Thumble said in his first statement... ANY nicotine is a cave. From gum to a cigar. Not trying to slam you or anything but it actually sounds like you had to think about that one before typing it out.
This is for the rest of your life... no cigs or stogies with buddies. Ever. You're clean... you're free. That's a beautiful thing.
Keep it that way.
All righty then! No cigs. No nic. Simple! I'll stay true to my word, and will make every effort to find a wifi spot to post my roll. My cell will not work over there, so this site will be my crutch.
Thanks Thumblewort and Applejack. Appreciate the responses.
Cheers!
See!?! That's what I'm talkin' 'bout!!
No whining. No bitching. No moaning.
Just gettin' it DONE!
Good on ya bro! Quit with you today!
I agree with AJ. Glad you posted that first post, caving because of goof is not good!
Looky here. A guy COMUNICATES, listens and learns, and is accountable to his word. :wood
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So I think I will pass on the cigars and pipes so not to put my quit in jeopardy. Posting from the UK will also be a challenge, but I will just have to take the beatings for posting late. In this case, better late than never actually applies.
Cheers!
1. You don't have a choice regarding the pipe and cigars dude, ANY nicotine equals a cave and Day 1. This is a 100% nicotine free site.
2. DO you have other quitters phone numbers? Text someone first thing in the morning to post roll for you. Do you want my digits, I'll do that as long as you text me that you are quit.
I want to drive home what Thumble said in his first statement... ANY nicotine is a cave. From gum to a cigar. Not trying to slam you or anything but it actually sounds like you had to think about that one before typing it out.
This is for the rest of your life... no cigs or stogies with buddies. Ever. You're clean... you're free. That's a beautiful thing.
Keep it that way.
All righty then! No cigs. No nic. Simple! I'll stay true to my word, and will make every effort to find a wifi spot to post my roll. My cell will not work over there, so this site will be my crutch.
Thanks Thumblewort and Applejack. Appreciate the responses.
Cheers!
See!?! That's what I'm talkin' 'bout!!
No whining. No bitching. No moaning.
Just gettin' it DONE!
Good on ya bro! Quit with you today!
I agree with AJ. Glad you posted that first post, caving because of goof is not good!
Looky here. A guy COMUNICATES, listens and learns, and is accountable to his word. :wood
Damn bokie you got some badass guy's supporting you! Don't lose them they will help you make it to quit heaven, it's like no place here you've seen in years! Damn proud of you and proud to be quit with you! Quit on
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Day 20 - I find myself on the road for work. I'm in the UK, where smoking and drinking is the ultimate past time. I do neither, so dipping used to be my out. Today, I no longer dip. I've kept the nic bitch at bay (its only day 2), but she is persistent! Tapping me on the shoulder, reminding me that I will not sleep well tonight, and I could prevent feeling out of place, if I was able to pinch a dip. Reality hits, and I know that addiction will constantly be knocking on my door, but I will not answer that door. I will remind myself that the dependency to nic is awful. I will remind myself that I have not had a headache in a week, which is something I could not say prior to last week, for the past several years!! I will remind myself that I can hold a conversation without spitting on the ground 30 times, and the person I'm talking to, will probably appreciate it. I will hold my non-alco drink high, and not let my addiction degrade me. And after a long night of socializing with folks I really do not know, I will retire to my hotel room and access the KTC community for continued support and be proud that my quit continues and will see another day.
Peace out!
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Day 20 - I find myself on the road for work. I'm in the UK, where smoking and drinking is the ultimate past time. I do neither, so dipping used to be my out. Today, I no longer dip. I've kept the nic bitch at bay (its only day 2), but she is persistent! Tapping me on the shoulder, reminding me that I will not sleep well tonight, and I could prevent feeling out of place, if I was able to pinch a dip. Reality hits, and I know that addiction will constantly be knocking on my door, but I will not answer that door. I will remind myself that the dependency to nic is awful. I will remind myself that I have not had a headache in a week, which is something I could not say prior to last week, for the past several years!! I will remind myself that I can hold a conversation without spitting on the ground 30 times, and the person I'm talking to, will probably appreciate it. I will hold my non-alco drink high, and not let my addiction degrade me. And after a long night of socializing with folks I really do not know, I will retire to my hotel room and access the KTC community for continued support and be proud that my quit continues and will see another day.
Peace out!
Nice resolve! keep building it strong! each craving you beat is a real victory- they are attempts to get you to use again, and you teach the addiction that that tactic won't work. Each situation you conquer is a new neural pathway. Friggin infrastructure building of a clean life man! way to go, cheerio chap and all that!
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Day 20 - I find myself on the road for work. I'm in the UK, where smoking and drinking is the ultimate past time. I do neither, so dipping used to be my out. Today, I no longer dip. I've kept the nic bitch at bay (its only day 2), but she is persistent! Tapping me on the shoulder, reminding me that I will not sleep well tonight, and I could prevent feeling out of place, if I was able to pinch a dip. Reality hits, and I know that addiction will constantly be knocking on my door, but I will not answer that door. I will remind myself that the dependency to nic is awful. I will remind myself that I have not had a headache in a week, which is something I could not say prior to last week, for the past several years!! I will remind myself that I can hold a conversation without spitting on the ground 30 times, and the person I'm talking to, will probably appreciate it. I will hold my non-alco drink high, and not let my addiction degrade me. And after a long night of socializing with folks I really do not know, I will retire to my hotel room and access the KTC community for continued support and be proud that my quit continues and will see another day.
Peace out!
Nice resolve! keep building it strong! each craving you beat is a real victory- they are attempts to get you to use again, and you teach the addiction that that tactic won't work. Each situation you conquer is a new neural pathway. Friggin infrastructure building of a clean life man! way to go, cheerio chap and all that!
Gettin' 'er done! Most excellent!
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You're doing great, Bokie. Keep this great quit of yours going. Keep pushing through. One day very soon this all gets much easier.
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Day 20 - I find myself on the road for work. I'm in the UK, where smoking and drinking is the ultimate past time. I do neither, so dipping used to be my out. Today, I no longer dip. I've kept the nic bitch at bay (its only day 2), but she is persistent! Tapping me on the shoulder, reminding me that I will not sleep well tonight, and I could prevent feeling out of place, if I was able to pinch a dip. Reality hits, and I know that addiction will constantly be knocking on my door, but I will not answer that door. I will remind myself that the dependency to nic is awful. I will remind myself that I have not had a headache in a week, which is something I could not say prior to last week, for the past several years!! I will remind myself that I can hold a conversation without spitting on the ground 30 times, and the person I'm talking to, will probably appreciate it. I will hold my non-alco drink high, and not let my addiction degrade me. And after a long night of socializing with folks I really do not know, I will retire to my hotel room and access the KTC community for continued support and be proud that my quit continues and will see another day.
Peace out!
You are a dude, sir. Super proud to quit with you. Day 20 kicks so much ass. We've got your back.
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Day 24 started off in typical fashion, until I realized I forgot to post when I first woke up. And I know why. You see day 23 was the worst of all the days. I had not slept good for days, there were temptations all around and the nic bitch was strong and tapping on my shoulder. After all, why I wouldn't I want to sit on patio, nice cigar in one hand, and drink in another? Oh I know, cause it was 30 degrees out and raining! And I don't like cigars!!! But the nic bitch just wanted an in. When this has happened in the past, within the next few days I would be buying a can. Not this time. No nic meant no nic! Yesterday was tough, despite my victory over the nic bitch all week while on a business trip. I endured 12 hours of flying, 5 hours of driving and dip in the brain. Still, I got home, and felt great about my accomplishment. I kept my promise. I quit! This morning though, I got lazy. 'bang head' When I realized I had not posted, it hit me like a load of bricks. Perhaps maybe in the past, I would have thought, I don't need this posting stuff anymore, but I know that that posting stuff kept me strong throughout my trip and keeps me strong today. This posting stuff keeps me honest with my brothers and sisters of the quit and will continue to keep me honest. So any of you looking at any amount of time and thinking the posting is not worth it, that just may be the nic bitch knocking, and so you may want to keep posting. After all, the results are much better with those who continue to practice the ways of the KTC community, than those who don't.
Thank you to all of the KTC community who have reached out to me with support. Keep it coming.
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Proud to see you get the point Bokie. Much respect. Proud to quit with you.
Eyehatecope
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Day 36 - So I'm sleeping better these days, once I actually fall to sleep. My energy level is good. I do get tired driving home from work, but the gum works fine to keep me awake on the 1.5 hour drive. No nic in my blood is great. I feel good. I'm thinking straight. And a lot of the bad things like tinted fingers and thumb, and yellow teeth are clearing up. So why do I still grab for a tin every morning? Why do I think about it every time I get in my truck? Every time I get in my office? Every time I need to go do yard work? Every time I'm alone? Every time just before I go up to bed? Every time I pass that gas station? Every time I get my coffee? 'bang head' When will these memories go away? I hope soon.
I have absolutely no desire to chew or even entertain the thought of stopping and buying a tin. Yet, it weighs on my mind all the time. This was the number one thing I hated about addiction, always thinking about the next dip, even when I had one in. Slapping that 4th pinch into my mouth, spitting that first spit, and feeling that rush through my lungs, that feeling ruled my life for 28 years! So didn't that massive headaches I would get jf I did too much, and the consistent thought of cancer that pulsed through my brain. Today on Day 36, I'm done with that stuff. I will not let the nic bitch rule my life any longer. I take my pledge to the KTC community very seriously, every morning! I will succeed. I look forward to day 37 and beyond.
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Day 36 - So I'm sleeping better these days, once I actually fall to sleep. My energy level is good. I do get tired driving home from work, but the gum works fine to keep me awake on the 1.5 hour drive. No nic in my blood is great. I feel good. I'm thinking straight. And a lot of the bad things like tinted fingers and thumb, and yellow teeth are clearing up. So why do I still grab for a tin every morning? Why do I think about it every time I get in my truck? Every time I get in my office? Every time I need to go do yard work? Every time I'm alone? Every time just before I go up to bed? Every time I pass that gas station? Every time I get my coffee? 'bang head' When will these memories go away? I hope soon.
I have absolutely no desire to chew or even entertain the thought of stopping and buying a tin. Yet, it weighs on my mind all the time. This was the number one thing I hated about addiction, always thinking about the next dip, even when I had one in. Slapping that 4th pinch into my mouth, spitting that first spit, and feeling that rush through my lungs, that feeling ruled my life for 28 years! So didn't that massive headaches I would get jf I did too much, and the consistent thought of cancer that pulsed through my brain. Today on Day 36, I'm done with that stuff. I will not let the nic bitch rule my life any longer. I take my pledge to the KTC community very seriously, every morning! I will succeed. I look forward to day 37 and beyond.
Learn to hate the bitch! We're all addicts and that is that. We always will be but life is so much better without that bitch! You're doing great, keep on venting here, we're listening. Damn proud to be quit with you today!
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Day 36 - So I'm sleeping better these days, once I actually fall to sleep. My energy level is good. I do get tired driving home from work, but the gum works fine to keep me awake on the 1.5 hour drive. No nic in my blood is great. I feel good. I'm thinking straight. And a lot of the bad things like tinted fingers and thumb, and yellow teeth are clearing up. So why do I still grab for a tin every morning? Why do I think about it every time I get in my truck? Every time I get in my office? Every time I need to go do yard work? Every time I'm alone? Every time just before I go up to bed? Every time I pass that gas station? Every time I get my coffee? 'bang head' When will these memories go away? I hope soon.
I have absolutely no desire to chew or even entertain the thought of stopping and buying a tin. Yet, it weighs on my mind all the time. This was the number one thing I hated about addiction, always thinking about the next dip, even when I had one in. Slapping that 4th pinch into my mouth, spitting that first spit, and feeling that rush through my lungs, that feeling ruled my life for 28 years! So didn't that massive headaches I would get jf I did too much, and the consistent thought of cancer that pulsed through my brain. Today on Day 36, I'm done with that stuff. I will not let the nic bitch rule my life any longer. I take my pledge to the KTC community very seriously, every morning! I will succeed. I look forward to day 37 and beyond.
Learn to hate the bitch! We're all addicts and that is that. We always will be but life is so much better without that bitch! You're doing great, keep on venting here, we're listening. Damn proud to be quit with you today!
For at least two months I saw a can of Copenhagen long cut on the top shelf of my refrigerator for a split second every time I opened the door. It wasn't there - it was just my addict brain wishing it was there. I don't see that can anymore but I still post roll here every damn day.
I quit with you today! Day 455
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Day 50 - I wish I could say to all the new comers that it gets easier at day 50. But, that would make me a liar. At least for me, while my struggles may be different today versus the suck, however, I still struggle with constant cravings, I still have anxiety whenever I think I'm going to be alone, or have a long drive, or when I need to go outside to do something. These were the best times for me to dip. I would always come up with an excuse to get away from the family, to have a dip. Today, I just think about it, but I don't miss the addiction. Sure the fake stuff has helped, but its not the same thing. My anger level is high, stress level a little higher, and my energy level is also higher. I've read that all gets better as time goes by. I suspect these guys and gals know what they are talking about. This site has not proven me wrong yet.
Still, I'm extremely proud I have not caved. I went to a NFL game and did not cave. Although I thought about dipping before, during and after the game. I noted every dipper in the general area. I actually wanted to give them all a KTC token, but I did not want a dip. I also shoveled my driveway without a dip. First time ever!! I actually had plenty of energy afterwards.
Any how, so 50 days is where I sit today. Tomorrow I quit again! Can't wait to see another day under my belt. Half way to HOF!
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Day 50 - I wish I could say to all the new comers that it gets easier at day 50. But, that would make me a liar. At least for me, while my struggles may be different today versus the suck, however, I still struggle with constant cravings, I still have anxiety whenever I think I'm going to be alone, or have a long drive, or when I need to go outside to do something. These were the best times for me to dip. I would always come up with an excuse to get away from the family, to have a dip. Today, I just think about it, but I don't miss the addiction. Sure the fake stuff has helped, but its not the same thing. My anger level is high, stress level a little higher, and my energy level is also higher. I've read that all gets better as time goes by. I suspect these guys and gals know what they are talking about. This site has not proven me wrong yet.
Still, I'm extremely proud I have not caved. I went to a NFL game and did not cave. Although I thought about dipping before, during and after the game. I noted every dipper in the general area. I actually wanted to give them all a KTC token, but I did not want a dip. I also shoveled my driveway without a dip. First time ever!! I actually had plenty of energy afterwards.
Any how, so 50 days is where I sit today. Tomorrow I quit again! Can't wait to see another day under my belt. Half way to HOF!
Well done! It does get better but you need to stay quit to experience it. I'm at day 468 and I still crave every now and then but it is like a distant tug. Keep your tools at the ready and congratulations on 50 days! 50 days is bad ass! B)B
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Day 50 - I wish I could say to all the new comers that it gets easier at day 50. But, that would make me a liar. At least for me, while my struggles may be different today versus the suck, however, I still struggle with constant cravings, I still have anxiety whenever I think I'm going to be alone, or have a long drive, or when I need to go outside to do something. These were the best times for me to dip. I would always come up with an excuse to get away from the family, to have a dip. Today, I just think about it, but I don't miss the addiction. Sure the fake stuff has helped, but its not the same thing. My anger level is high, stress level a little higher, and my energy level is also higher. I've read that all gets better as time goes by. I suspect these guys and gals know what they are talking about. This site has not proven me wrong yet.
Still, I'm extremely proud I have not caved. I went to a NFL game and did not cave. Although I thought about dipping before, during and after the game. I noted every dipper in the general area. I actually wanted to give them all a KTC token, but I did not want a dip. I also shoveled my driveway without a dip. First time ever!! I actually had plenty of energy afterwards.
Any how, so 50 days is where I sit today. Tomorrow I quit again! Can't wait to see another day under my belt. Half way to HOF!
Congrats on your half HOF Bokie! I am at day 43 and I have all the same struggles you do. The last days I've been trapped in a 35 ft trailer for work with 4 guys who all dip. Similar to your football experience I'm hyper sensitive to what they are all doing with the dip. Finger banging their can, throwin in a lipper etc. The weird thing is I don't necessarily crave it, I'm just aware of their every move. I'm definitely utilizing some Smokey Mtn. but I found that telling them about my quit and KTC has really helped me out. I think one of them may even sign up for KTC soon. Anyhow hang in there bud us Feb guys have got your back. QUIT ON! ODAAT! Proud to quit with you.
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Day 78 - For weeks I've been hearing about the windows of concern. The 50's, 70's and the 100's. Well, I felt the 50's in the form of depression. I'm feeling the 70's in the form of anxiety. Last night I got on a plane to come home from Iowa. On the plane, I got my window seat and my own row. Everything was going great, so why did my heart feel like it wanted out of my body? And why was I ready to snap off at anyone who talked to me? Once I got to the airport, I needed to walk a long way to my truck. However, half way to the truck, my upper back felt like someone lit a fire on the inside of my rib cage. My breath was shallow. I was not out of breath, or tired, but felt all this anguish inside. When I got to the garage, my head was all over the place. It took me about 30 minutes to find where I had parked my truck. Once I was in the truck, I all of sudden relaxed. I do love my truck, and thankfully the attack was over as I had an hour and a half ride home. I threw in a lip of fake dip, just in case the head games started as I passed the convenience stores, and started the drive. I ran into traffic, and detours, but stayed calm the entire way home.
The fact I made a promise to my quit group that morning, helped me get through this attack. And at the same time, pissed me off, as it would have been so easy to get over that attack if I had a tin. Of course, this is where I remind myself that the nic bitch is still waiting for that cave, and odds are in her favor. I will change those odds, but I need to do it one day at a time. As folks around me hit the 100, people I look up to in my quit, I appreciate knowing what is going to happen, but it does not make it any easier when it does happen.
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Day 78 - For weeks I've been hearing about the windows of concern. The 50's, 70's and the 100's. Well, I felt the 50's in the form of depression. I'm feeling the 70's in the form of anxiety. Last night I got on a plane to come home from Iowa. On the plane, I got my window seat and my own row. Everything was going great, so why did my heart feel like it wanted out of my body? And why was I ready to snap off at anyone who talked to me? Once I got to the airport, I needed to walk a long way to my truck. However, half way to the truck, my upper back felt like someone lit a fire on the inside of my rib cage. My breath was shallow. I was not out of breath, or tired, but felt all this anguish inside. When I got to the garage, my head was all over the place. It took me about 30 minutes to find where I had parked my truck. Once I was in the truck, I all of sudden relaxed. I do love my truck, and thankfully the attack was over as I had an hour and a half ride home. I threw in a lip of fake dip, just in case the head games started as I passed the convenience stores, and started the drive. I ran into traffic, and detours, but stayed calm the entire way home.
The fact I made a promise to my quit group that morning, helped me get through this attack. And at the same time, pissed me off, as it would have been so easy to get over that attack if I had a tin. Of course, this is where I remind myself that the nic bitch is still waiting for that cave, and odds are in her favor. I will change those odds, but I need to do it one day at a time. As folks around me hit the 100, people I look up to in my quit, I appreciate knowing what is going to happen, but it does not make it any easier when it does happen.
Bokie as shitty as your night was, this was super inspiring. Thanks for that. This is an awesome victory to share with us. Hope you are feeling better. Those attacks like that suck ass
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Day 78 - For weeks I've been hearing about the windows of concern. The 50's, 70's and the 100's. Well, I felt the 50's in the form of depression. I'm feeling the 70's in the form of anxiety. Last night I got on a plane to come home from Iowa. On the plane, I got my window seat and my own row. Everything was going great, so why did my heart feel like it wanted out of my body? And why was I ready to snap off at anyone who talked to me? Once I got to the airport, I needed to walk a long way to my truck. However, half way to the truck, my upper back felt like someone lit a fire on the inside of my rib cage. My breath was shallow. I was not out of breath, or tired, but felt all this anguish inside. When I got to the garage, my head was all over the place. It took me about 30 minutes to find where I had parked my truck. Once I was in the truck, I all of sudden relaxed. I do love my truck, and thankfully the attack was over as I had an hour and a half ride home. I threw in a lip of fake dip, just in case the head games started as I passed the convenience stores, and started the drive. I ran into traffic, and detours, but stayed calm the entire way home.
The fact I made a promise to my quit group that morning, helped me get through this attack. And at the same time, pissed me off, as it would have been so easy to get over that attack if I had a tin. Of course, this is where I remind myself that the nic bitch is still waiting for that cave, and odds are in her favor. I will change those odds, but I need to do it one day at a time. As folks around me hit the 100, people I look up to in my quit, I appreciate knowing what is going to happen, but it does not make it any easier when it does happen.
Great victory bokie!!! Proud to quit with you
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Bokie- congrats on the HOF my brother! It has been an honor serving with you for the first 100 days and I look forward to many more. Thanks for dedicating so much to our group and continuing to give back to other quitters!
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Congratulations on HOF buddy!! Proud to quit with you in our group EDD! You are an inspiration to many and I look forward to quitting with you everyday in the future
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Congratulations on HOF buddy!! Proud to quit with you in our group EDD! You are an inspiration to many and I look forward to quitting with you everyday in the future
Bokie, congrats on your HOF day!
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Congratulations on HOF buddy!! Proud to quit with you in our group EDD! You are an inspiration to many and I look forward to quitting with you everyday in the future
Bokie, congrats on your HOF day!
Congrats on HOF Bokie!!
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Couple days late, but gratz on 100, Bokie. I also wanted to say that you wrote a great HOF speech!
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I hit 109 days today, and looked hard into the rear mirror, as I've been having trouble seeing out the front window. I looked forward to reaching that HOF mile stone while I was in my 70's and 80's day quit. Then 90 hit. Since that time, and through my HOF induction, I've been in a funk. I thought the experience of the HOF train, and the added attention to my quit would kick me out of the funk. But it didn't. So I wrote my HOF speech, and figured that if I wrote my story down, it would help. It didn't. Sure I got some flattering remarks and comments as a result of the speech, and it made me feel good that others could relate to my story, yet the funk I'm in grows stronger. I'm so proud of my quit brothers, as they board the train. So why does this funk remain? I'm also proud of my own quit. But I feel a big glass box has been placed around me and I'm in the middle of the public square. People can see me, but they do not hear me. People notice me and I appear ok as I sit in this box with a smile, but when I speak, they do not hear what I'm saying. So I yell, and they hear me finally, but they do not speak my language, so they smile, give a thumbs up and walk away. Self worth is starting to come into question again. I've been here before. I know it is the mind of the addict to look for quick fixes while feeling low. It comes in forms of sickness, mental thoughts and physical cravings. A lot of people have written that the first 100 days was for them, and the days after 100 are for those who come after them. Perhaps this pressure of what I'm supposed to do and suppose to feel, is killing my quit. I do not think I'm ready for that responsibility as I still have work to do on my own quit.
More questions, then answers right now.
So I move to the next day, where I will post roll in the morning, and continue to look for ways to get out of this funk. There are many more obstacles I need to overcome in my quit, but I do hope I can continue to rely on this site to provide me with a way out of this glass box. We shall see.
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I hit 109 days today, and looked hard into the rear mirror, as I've been having trouble seeing out the front window. I looked forward to reaching that HOF mile stone while I was in my 70's and 80's day quit. Then 90 hit. Since that time, and through my HOF induction, I've been in a funk. I thought the experience of the HOF train, and the added attention to my quit would kick me out of the funk. But it didn't. So I wrote my HOF speech, and figured that if I wrote my story down, it would help. It didn't. Sure I got some flattering remarks and comments as a result of the speech, and it made me feel good that others could relate to my story, yet the funk I'm in grows stronger. I'm so proud of my quit brothers, as they board the train. So why does this funk remain? I'm also proud of my own quit. But I feel a big glass box has been placed around me and I'm in the middle of the public square. People can see me, but they do not hear me. People notice me and I appear ok as I sit in this box with a smile, but when I speak, they do not hear what I'm saying. So I yell, and they hear me finally, but they do not speak my language, so they smile, give a thumbs up and walk away. Self worth is starting to come into question again. I've been here before. I know it is the mind of the addict to look for quick fixes while feeling low. It comes in forms of sickness, mental thoughts and physical cravings. A lot of people have written that the first 100 days was for them, and the days after 100 are for those who come after them. Perhaps this pressure of what I'm supposed to do and suppose to feel, is killing my quit. I do not think I'm ready for that responsibility as I still have work to do on my own quit.
More questions, then answers right now.
So I move to the next day, where I will post roll in the morning, and continue to look for ways to get out of this funk. There are many more obstacles I need to overcome in my quit, but I do hope I can continue to rely on this site to provide me with a way out of this glass box. We shall see.
Stay Strong, periodic funks ahead. They will pass. Keep drinking water etc and it will get better.
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I hit 109 days today, and looked hard into the rear mirror, as I've been having trouble seeing out the front window. I looked forward to reaching that HOF mile stone while I was in my 70's and 80's day quit. Then 90 hit. Since that time, and through my HOF induction, I've been in a funk. I thought the experience of the HOF train, and the added attention to my quit would kick me out of the funk. But it didn't. So I wrote my HOF speech, and figured that if I wrote my story down, it would help. It didn't. Sure I got some flattering remarks and comments as a result of the speech, and it made me feel good that others could relate to my story, yet the funk I'm in grows stronger. I'm so proud of my quit brothers, as they board the train. So why does this funk remain? I'm also proud of my own quit. But I feel a big glass box has been placed around me and I'm in the middle of the public square. People can see me, but they do not hear me. People notice me and I appear ok as I sit in this box with a smile, but when I speak, they do not hear what I'm saying. So I yell, and they hear me finally, but they do not speak my language, so they smile, give a thumbs up and walk away. Self worth is starting to come into question again. I've been here before. I know it is the mind of the addict to look for quick fixes while feeling low. It comes in forms of sickness, mental thoughts and physical cravings. A lot of people have written that the first 100 days was for them, and the days after 100 are for those who come after them. Perhaps this pressure of what I'm supposed to do and suppose to feel, is killing my quit. I do not think I'm ready for that responsibility as I still have work to do on my own quit.
More questions, then answers right now.
So I move to the next day, where I will post roll in the morning, and continue to look for ways to get out of this funk. There are many more obstacles I need to overcome in my quit, but I do hope I can continue to rely on this site to provide me with a way out of this glass box. We shall see.
Stay Strong, periodic funks ahead. They will pass. Keep drinking water etc and it will get better.
This is not an uncommon occurrence. I know that doesn't help you out of the funk, but know that it WILL get better. ODAAT EDD! Just like when you started this. It was a stark reality when I realized this fight is never over. I try to remember how bad that first month was. I was keenly aware that I was quitting 24/7. Every day the battle becomes easier to win. 200 is better than 100. 300 is better than 200 etc.
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Congrats on the big 300 Bokie!
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Congrats on the big 300 Bokie!
Congrats on 300!
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On October 26, 2016, I was sitting in my office with a fat lip and spitter ready to get that day going. I had half a can of Cope sitting next to me and I was feeling good about holding off on my first dip of the day until then, despite an hour and half commute. 10 minutes later, I was starting to feel tired, sluggish and had a splitting headache coming on. This was nothing new, as I had been feeling this way for a while now every time I put a dip in. The nauseous feeling would go away about 30 minutes after I spit it out, but the craving for another dip would come back in about an hour. So, I would repeat this scenario about every 3 hours. I tried to slow down, one dip in the am and one in the pm, but then life would kick in and I would end up polishing off a can in no time, ready to buy 2 more that same day. If I could only dip in safety without the addiction, life would be good. So I launched into an investigation to see if they made fake chew. After all, they have fake beer which I tried when I first tried to quit drinking. I wanted something I could use instead of Cope, but tasted like Cope, smelled like Cope and satisfied like Cope. The addict in me was not ready to let go, although my body was starting to reject the chemicals, additives and nicotine I saturated it with for 26 years. I had successfully quit drinking 13 years prior, and since then dipping was my treat to myself.
On this same day I came across a site named Kill The Can. I read the reviews, and liked the way this guy named Chewie rated the different products, comparing them to actual tobacco products. Then I started to read other forums, articles and blogs about how it was time to quit. Sadly, I knew I could not get rid of that half can, so I left the site and went home to finish my Cope in peace. The next day though, I didn't stop to buy my 2 cans, I instead headed to work, tapped on my browser and signed up KTC! I created a user name and declared October 27th as my quit day. I joined the Cult of Quit (February 2017) and started joining the live chat on a daily basis. I didn't say much, but took in a lot of advice. I made it to 100 days and decided I was on the right path to quit. I was asked out of the blue to be a conductor for April 17, which I accepted. I bonded with a lot of great people and established my support system.
One year later, after 365 days of posting roll every day, I ask myself is it time to leave? Why do I ask this question after 365 days of quit? Because I quit for one year and I'm still an addict. My addiction is telling me to walk away from the one way that got me to quit, not just stop using. My addiction wants me to walk away to prove that I'm just a statistic, and nobody will notice. My addiction wants me to slip into the darkness so it can remind me of depression, loneliness, self pity and all those feelings the made me cave in the past. I deserve a dip!! WRONG, I deserve to finally be rid of this addiction. However, this is not ever going to happen, so I accept my victory of having no desire to use. Well this goal was achievable, but the only way i had experienced success in this area is by quitting one day at a time, posting roll and making a promise to my Cult and KTC community that I will not use today! Yes, my addiction tells me often that posting is an inconvenience. Any time I forget to post first thing, I feel this guilty feeling come over me, and my addiction lashes out and says nobody notices, why do you feel you have to do that every day? This is the way I quit. If I change my way, I leave myself open for failure. I'm not saying this is the only way to quit, but it works for me, so I will keep posting, I will keep chatting, I will keep promising and I WILL stay quit.
Thank you KTC for a great year!
Cheers!
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On October 26, 2016, I was sitting in my office with a fat lip and spitter ready to get that day going. I had half a can of Cope sitting next to me and I was feeling good about holding off on my first dip of the day until then, despite an hour and half commute. 10 minutes later, I was starting to feel tired, sluggish and had a splitting headache coming on. This was nothing new, as I had been feeling this way for a while now every time I put a dip in. The nauseous feeling would go away about 30 minutes after I spit it out, but the craving for another dip would come back in about an hour. So, I would repeat this scenario about every 3 hours. I tried to slow down, one dip in the am and one in the pm, but then life would kick in and I would end up polishing off a can in no time, ready to buy 2 more that same day. If I could only dip in safety without the addiction, life would be good. So I launched into an investigation to see if they made fake chew. After all, they have fake beer which I tried when I first tried to quit drinking. I wanted something I could use instead of Cope, but tasted like Cope, smelled like Cope and satisfied like Cope. The addict in me was not ready to let go, although my body was starting to reject the chemicals, additives and nicotine I saturated it with for 26 years. I had successfully quit drinking 13 years prior, and since then dipping was my treat to myself.
On this same day I came across a site named Kill The Can. I read the reviews, and liked the way this guy named Chewie rated the different products, comparing them to actual tobacco products. Then I started to read other forums, articles and blogs about how it was time to quit. Sadly, I knew I could not get rid of that half can, so I left the site and went home to finish my Cope in peace. The next day though, I didn't stop to buy my 2 cans, I instead headed to work, tapped on my browser and signed up KTC! I created a user name and declared October 27th as my quit day. I joined the Cult of Quit (February 2017) and started joining the live chat on a daily basis. I didn't say much, but took in a lot of advice. I made it to 100 days and decided I was on the right path to quit. I was asked out of the blue to be a conductor for April 17, which I accepted. I bonded with a lot of great people and established my support system.
One year later, after 365 days of posting roll every day, I ask myself is it time to leave? Why do I ask this question after 365 days of quit? Because I quit for one year and I'm still an addict. My addiction is telling me to walk away from the one way that got me to quit, not just stop using. My addiction wants me to walk away to prove that I'm just a statistic, and nobody will notice. My addiction wants me to slip into the darkness so it can remind me of depression, loneliness, self pity and all those feelings the made me cave in the past. I deserve a dip!! WRONG, I deserve to finally be rid of this addiction. However, this is not ever going to happen, so I accept my victory of having no desire to use. Well this goal was achievable, but the only way i had experienced success in this area is by quitting one day at a time, posting roll and making a promise to my Cult and KTC community that I will not use today! Yes, my addiction tells me often that posting is an inconvenience. Any time I forget to post first thing, I feel this guilty feeling come over me, and my addiction lashes out and says nobody notices, why do you feel you have to do that every day? This is the way I quit. If I change my way, I leave myself open for failure. I'm not saying this is the only way to quit, but it works for me, so I will keep posting, I will keep chatting, I will keep promising and I WILL stay quit.
Thank you KTC for a great year!
Cheers!
Congrats on your 1 year quit Bokie! outstanding. proud to quit with you today.
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Congrats on 400 Bokie!
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Yesterday, Friday, December 1, 2017, I hit 400 days without nicotine. Some folks took note. Others not so much. But that is ok, because we are all quit. However, 400 days ago, I was in the middle of one of the most stressful times of my life. My youngest daughter was diagnosed with Juvenile Dermatomyositis (JDM). I watched my little girl go from a 3 star athlete, to a person who could not comb her own hair, brush her teeth or walk without help from a wheelchair. In 6 months after diagnosis, I was watching her struggle through school, life and challenges I could not understand. On October 27th, I decided to do something about my habit. You see, my daughter inspired me because she didn't choose to be unhealthy, it happened. Yet I choose to do something very unhealthy, everyday, risking my health and my family's well being. That had to change, had to change now and by the grace of God, with the help of KTC, it did.
Tonight I sit by my daughter who lays in a hospital bed fighting to get her life back. We continue to make progress and our hope is strong. However, if you are reading this and wondering when it would be a good time to quit. Do it now! The time to quit and regain your life is now. The time to get rid of that problem we call nicotine, is now. Register, post and begin your journey to recovery. Take your life back!
ODAAT!
See you at the next floor......peace out!
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Yesterday, Friday, December 1, 2017, I hit 400 days without nicotine. Some folks took note. Others not so much. But that is ok, because we are all quit. However, 400 days ago, I was in the middle of one of the most stressful times of my life. My youngest daughter was diagnosed with Juvenile Dermatomyositis (JDM). I watched my little girl go from a 3 star athlete, to a person who could not comb her own hair, brush her teeth or walk without help from a wheelchair. In 6 months after diagnosis, I was watching her struggle through school, life and challenges I could not understand. On October 27th, I decided to do something about my habit. You see, my daughter inspired me because she didn't choose to be unhealthy, it happened. Yet I choose to do something very unhealthy, everyday, risking my health and my family's well being. That had to change, had to change now and by the grace of God, with the help of KTC, it did.
Tonight I sit by my daughter who lays in a hospital bed fighting to get her life back. We continue to make progress and our hope is strong. However, if you are reading this and wondering when it would be a good time to quit. Do it now! The time to quit and regain your life is now. The time to get rid of that problem we call nicotine, is now. Register, post and begin your journey to recovery. Take your life back!
ODAAT!
See you at the next floor......peace out!
Congrats on 400 Bokie! Prayers for your little girl!
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Yesterday, Friday, December 1, 2017, I hit 400 days without nicotine. Some folks took note. Others not so much. But that is ok, because we are all quit. However, 400 days ago, I was in the middle of one of the most stressful times of my life. My youngest daughter was diagnosed with Juvenile Dermatomyositis (JDM). I watched my little girl go from a 3 star athlete, to a person who could not comb her own hair, brush her teeth or walk without help from a wheelchair. In 6 months after diagnosis, I was watching her struggle through school, life and challenges I could not understand. On October 27th, I decided to do something about my habit. You see, my daughter inspired me because she didn't choose to be unhealthy, it happened. Yet I choose to do something very unhealthy, everyday, risking my health and my family's well being. That had to change, had to change now and by the grace of God, with the help of KTC, it did.
Tonight I sit by my daughter who lays in a hospital bed fighting to get her life back. We continue to make progress and our hope is strong. However, if you are reading this and wondering when it would be a good time to quit. Do it now! The time to quit and regain your life is now. The time to get rid of that problem we call nicotine, is now. Register, post and begin your journey to recovery. Take your life back!
ODAAT!
See you at the next floor......peace out!
Congrats on 400 Bokie! Prayers for your little girl!
Prayers up for your daughter and all of you.â¤
Proud and happy to be quit with you.