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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Alston on June 20, 2016, 06:58:00 PM
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Hello,
I am currently wrapping up my day 4. The last few days were brutal and I was surprised just how well I handled it and more importantly how my family handled me. I am 30 years old, married and have a 6 year old son. I have been dipping for about 6 years. It was something that most of my peers were doing while we were in the field and it helped keep me awake on those long shifts late at night.
I had tried to quit a few times, but I just don't think I was quite ready to give it up. I enjoyed the rush I would get from that first morning dip and continued to chase it for several years even after the effect had long since worn off. I realized I had a problem about a year ago when I started having blood pressure issues. I was classified as hypertensive and prescribed blood pressure meds. I am in excellent physical condition. I run 7:30 miles for miles, I work out regularly in the gym and I eat pretty well. I guess what I am getting at is that I was convinced that my addiction was not the problem for so long that I let it go unchecked. I was dipping more than a can a day.
I spent the next year trying to slowly lower my intake as I was receiving foot surgery and the doctor was worried that I would not heal well had I continued with how much I was using. By the start of this new year I was ready to quit and began making preparations and eventually found this website. I finally made the leap on Friday. I had woken up in the morning sat in my computer chair, began to pack my can of cope, and then was hit with a moment of clarity. I took that can, threw it away and opened my box of smokey mountain and began the long road of detoxing.
So here I am, hating life and slugging through the days. I won't go back to being a slave of tobacco and I have no desire to be so dependent on a substance ever again. I am happy to have found such a strong support group and look forward to updating my progress as I drive on to that magical day 100.
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Hello,
I am currently wrapping up my day 4. The last few days were brutal and I was surprised just how well I handled it and more importantly how my family handled me. I am 30 years old, married and have a 6 year old son. I have been dipping for about 6 years. It was something that most of my peers were doing while we were in the field and it helped keep me awake on those long shifts late at night.
I had tried to quit a few times, but I just don't think I was quite ready to give it up. I enjoyed the rush I would get from that first morning dip and continued to chase it for several years even after the effect had long since worn off. I realized I had a problem about a year ago when I started having blood pressure issues. I was classified as hypertensive and prescribed blood pressure meds. I am in excellent physical condition. I run 7:30 miles for miles, I work out regularly in the gym and I eat pretty well. I guess what I am getting at is that I was convinced that my addiction was not the problem for so long that I let it go unchecked. I was dipping more than a can a day.
I spent the next year trying to slowly lower my intake as I was receiving foot surgery and the doctor was worried that I would not heal well had I continued with how much I was using. By the start of this new year I was ready to quit and began making preparations and eventually found this website. I finally made the leap on Friday. I had woken up in the morning sat in my computer chair, began to pack my can of cope, and then was hit with a moment of clarity. I took that can, threw it away and opened my box of smokey mountain and began the long road of detoxing.
So here I am, hating life and slugging through the days. I won't go back to being a slave of tobacco and I have no desire to be so dependent on a substance ever again. I am happy to have found such a strong support group and look forward to updating my progress as I drive on to that magical day 100.
Welcome and congrats on your decision.
The backbone of the site is posting roll. Your group is Sept 2016 (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/11649440/125/#new)
There is tons of information and support here to help, you can do this.
Piss, post roll, quit all day, repeat...
Idaho Spuds 673 days free
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Hello,
I am currently wrapping up my day 4. The last few days were brutal and I was surprised just how well I handled it and more importantly how my family handled me. I am 30 years old, married and have a 6 year old son. I have been dipping for about 6 years. It was something that most of my peers were doing while we were in the field and it helped keep me awake on those long shifts late at night.
I had tried to quit a few times, but I just don't think I was quite ready to give it up. I enjoyed the rush I would get from that first morning dip and continued to chase it for several years even after the effect had long since worn off. I realized I had a problem about a year ago when I started having blood pressure issues. I was classified as hypertensive and prescribed blood pressure meds. I am in excellent physical condition. I run 7:30 miles for miles, I work out regularly in the gym and I eat pretty well. I guess what I am getting at is that I was convinced that my addiction was not the problem for so long that I let it go unchecked. I was dipping more than a can a day.
I spent the next year trying to slowly lower my intake as I was receiving foot surgery and the doctor was worried that I would not heal well had I continued with how much I was using. By the start of this new year I was ready to quit and began making preparations and eventually found this website. I finally made the leap on Friday. I had woken up in the morning sat in my computer chair, began to pack my can of cope, and then was hit with a moment of clarity. I took that can, threw it away and opened my box of smokey mountain and began the long road of detoxing.
So here I am, hating life and slugging through the days. I won't go back to being a slave of tobacco and I have no desire to be so dependent on a substance ever again. I am happy to have found such a strong support group and look forward to updating my progress as I drive on to that magical day 100.
Welcome and congrats on your decision.
The backbone of the site is posting roll. Your group is Sept 2016 (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/11649440/125/#new)
There is tons of information and support here to help, you can do this.
Piss, post roll, quit all day, repeat...
Idaho Spuds 673 days free
I spent the next year trying to slowly lower my intake
I bet that worked as well for you as it did for me. Which is to say: cutting back doesn't work.
Glad you found religion. On Day 4 all by yourself? Hardcore. I came here groveling on Day 1 and I needed this place desperately. Get involved. Post roll daily. Get the help you need. Help others.
As Idaho Spuds said the foundation is posting roll. Do it early every day.
Welcome!
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Why didn't you post roll yesterday, you were on the site?
This system works, you need to trust it. It seems weird at first, but it will save your life.
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Hello Alston,
I hope you are still with us! I just hit day 101 and am feeling pretty solid, after 17 years of the shit. I can gladly say that my blood pressure has returned to normal levels - you do not really understand how much nicotine was coursing through your veins every day for so long, until it's gone. It will take time for your brain to rewire itself to not crave, but it is worth it.
let us know how you're doing
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I am still here! I have tried to post on roll every day I didn't think I missed a day. I will be sure to pay more attention to that. I am more active than I had planned on and I can't wait to get to know the people on this site. I truly believe that a strong support group is going to be key to my quit. There is a lot testing my patience today!!!!!
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I am still here! I have tried to post on roll every day I didn't think I missed a day. I will be sure to pay more attention to that. I am more active than I had planned on and I can't wait to get to know the people on this site. I truly believe that a strong support group is going to be key to my quit. There is a lot testing my patience today!!!!!
there is no try, do or do not! 'winker' the only way to mess up roll is to not be on it.
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Alston, way to push through and make it to HOF! Let's continue this mission EDD!!
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Hello all,
So this would be my second time using this site and committing to my quit. I was in the HOF for September of last year and continued to stay clean until February of this year. Long story short, came home from Iraq, wife was packed and leaving, so I just went into fuck it mode and started using again. I am finally in a place where I no longer want to be dependent on this substance and I am looking to start a new chapter in my life. I took my last chew on Sunday and threw the rest in the trash.
This time around has been significantly easier in regards to the first three days. The last time I was miserable. This time around I am just breezing through everything. I look forward to sharing the pain with all of you as we finish this journey together!
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Hello all,
So this would be my second time using this site and committing to my quit. I was in the HOF for September of last year and continued to stay clean until February of this year. Long story short, came home from Iraq, wife was packed and leaving, so I just went into fuck it mode and started using again. I am finally in a place where I no longer want to be dependent on this substance and I am looking to start a new chapter in my life. I took my last chew on Sunday and threw the rest in the trash.
This time around has been significantly easier in regards to the first three days. The last time I was miserable. This time around I am just breezing through everything. I look forward to sharing the pain with all of you as we finish this journey together!
Welcome back Alston. I'm sure you know the drill so take a while to soul search, dig deep and answer these three questions both in your old September 2016 group as well as your new January 2018 group.
1. What happened?
2. Why did it happen?
3. What are you going to do differently this time?
I want to remind you that we will be addicts to nicotine for the rest of our lives. But that thought can cause anxiety and make us doubt our ability to overcome such an obstacle. That is why posting early EDD here is so critical. We only have to worry about today! And our brains can handle that much. So while there will never be a finish to this journey as you mention, we can fight alongside each other every single day battling this addiction in manageable chunks of time.
I'm sure you heard this all before but I wanted to throw it out as a reminder. Share you digits and reconnect with your previous September group. They may be hesitant to trust you but I think that is perfect opportunity to prove to them that you are serious and have what it takes to be QUIT.
1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems. There is nothing in life that is enhanced by nicotine. Thank you for your service to this wonderful country and I am sorry to hear about your situation at home. There are folks on here who have experienced exactly what you described; find them and reach out to them for support. Proud to be quit with you today!
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what MNx said plus change your quit date and dive into the site with two feet. My digits are a PM away so don't hesitate
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As a fellow "retread" I didn't want to be the first to post but now thatMNxEngineer314 has asked the key questions, I'll chime in. I did this back in 2008 thanks to this site and more importantly the people on it. I have my own excuses why I caved but I'm back as of yesterday (Day 1) to get my quit on. You have plenty of folks here still successful you can lean on but if you need to chat with someone in a very similar place feel free to reach out to me.
Thanks
Jack