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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: ballplayer76 on March 11, 2012, 12:02:00 AM
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Hello everyone. Yesterday I had a biopsy done on a tiny lump in my cheek. The ENT seemed pretty confident it was nothing. And honestly, didn't seem to want to do the biopsy. But I insisted. It was so small, that I could only feel it with my tongue. My fingers couldn't feel it. But, never the less, I'm scared to death. So here I am for day one of the rest of my life. I've dipped since I was 15. Started my freshman year while playing baseball. Now I'm 35, with 3 kids, that now I'm just hoping to be able to watch grow up. Timberwolf is in the trash. I'm ready to do this. I see a lot of people talking about posting roll. Could someone explain how to do that? I'm an idiot on computers. Thanks.
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Hello everyone. Yesterday I had a biopsy done on a tiny lump in my cheek. The ENT seemed pretty confident it was nothing. And honestly, didn't seem to want to do the biopsy. But I insisted. It was so small, that I could only feel it with my tongue. My fingers couldn't feel it. But, never the less, I'm scared to death. So here I am for day one of the rest of my life. I've dipped since I was 15. Started my freshman year while playing baseball. Now I'm 35, with 3 kids, that now I'm just hoping to be able to watch grow up. Timberwolf is in the trash. I'm ready to do this. I see a lot of people talking about posting roll. Could someone explain how to do that? I'm an idiot on computers. Thanks.
Hey BallPlayer,
Congratulations on the best decision of your life. You are about to man up and take your life back. You should click on the salmony-pink "welcome center" at the top of this page. Read everything there at least twice. Important things to remember:
1. All nicotine is out. No snuff, snus, gerts, cigars, patches, gum, lozenges, douches, etc ....... If your can of cancerwolf is reachable, you should flush that and all other stashed cans down the toilet. You wouldn't be the first to dig through the honeycombs and coffee grouds in the trash to retrieve your can on a Sunday morning.
2. We are accountable to each other by posting roll first thing every day. By posting roll we give our promise to our brothers and sisters that we will not use nicotine that day. That promise is the glue that bonds us together.
3. We Quit for ourselves one day at a time. Multiple days are hard for us newbies to comprehend, but we can all commit to one day. Then we get up the next day and repeat.
Post Roll, Quit, Repeat. Simple, but not easy, but very worth it.
So, BP, if you are finally ready to sever that Bitch from your life after 2 decades of slavery (I also gave 2 decades to her. DeadSeal and CancerWolf were the syringes i used to deliver the drug my addict brain desired, started at 15 during baseball), then welcome. You should post roll as day 1 in June 2012 (if you are quit). Don't worry about messing anything up, we'll be along to fix it later. You worry about quitting. Stay on this site all day.
This is a top secret file that might help you.
Secret Video (http://api.viglink.com/api/click?format=go&drKey=1081&loc=http%3A%2F%2Fforum.killthecan.org%2Findex.php%3Fshowtopic%3D6115&v=1&libid=1331268660451&out=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.killthecan.org%2Froll&ref=http%3A%2F%2Fforum.killthecan.org%2Findex.php%3Fshowforum%3D25&title=KillTheCan.org%20Online%20Community%20-%3E%20Quit%20dipping&txt=How%20to%20post%20roll&jsonp=vglnk_jsonp_13312686885641)
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Welcome brother, I agree with ER. If that stuff aint flushed down the toilet do it now. Many of times i've dumped it and scraped together a pinch from the bottom of the trash bag. Get on this site everyday to post roll(this is a must) and promise me and the rest of yer quit brothers you are quit for today. I'm glad the tobacco company lost another customer today. Buck
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Hello everyone. Yesterday I had a biopsy done on a tiny lump in my cheek. The ENT seemed pretty confident it was nothing. And honestly, didn't seem to want to do the biopsy. But I insisted. It was so small, that I could only feel it with my tongue. My fingers couldn't feel it. But, never the less, I'm scared to death. So here I am for day one of the rest of my life. I've dipped since I was 15. Started my freshman year while playing baseball. Now I'm 35, with 3 kids, that now I'm just hoping to be able to watch grow up. Timberwolf is in the trash. I'm ready to do this. I see a lot of people talking about posting roll. Could someone explain how to do that? I'm an idiot on computers. Thanks.
Fantastic decision to quit!
I had a biopsy done a few years ago and everything came back negative still didnt help that it scared the shit outta me then i went back to the grizzly bitch! I was not proud then and now i am 34 days quit and quite proud!
Make sure you post roll and read the information on this site it is extremly helpful and useful.
If you need some numbers to trade PM me
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welcome to the quit ball player. best decision you ever made. your gonna need some friends. and some gum, seeds, and a little patience. welcome man, if you need anything IM me and we will talk.
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Congratulations BallPlayer!
These guys know what they're talking about - and it makes a world of difference. I'm just on Day 4 myself, but without this site I think I would have lost my shit.
I'm proud to quit with you today, brother.
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Thanks for the advice guys. Just woke up from a sleep marathon...woke up at regular time, then realized I couldn't have my morning dip and decided it wasn't worth getting out of bed. Feels like I'm having an out of body experience or something. Like I'm not really here, or dreaming or something. Could someone tell me how to post roll? I'm really clueless on computers. It took me 30 minutes to type this!! Not to mention I can't concentrate worth a shit...
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Never mind about telling me how to post roll. Just watched the video that ER included. Sorry, like I said, my brain isn't working too well at the moment. Will post roll soon. Think I'm going back to bed for now. Feel like shit...
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Never mind about telling me how to post roll. Just watched the video that ER included. Sorry, like I said, my brain isn't working too well at the moment. Will post roll soon. Think I'm going back to bed for now. Feel like shit...
Yo ballplayer, you have made an amazing choice coming to KTC to quit this stupid nicotine addiction. It is going to suck, but it gets better.
I quit with you today, PM me if you need anything.
Keep it going bro.
aredoubleyou
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Never mind about telling me how to post roll. Just watched the video that ER included. Sorry, like I said, my brain isn't working too well at the moment. Will post roll soon. Think I'm going back to bed for now. Feel like shit...
ha ha welcome to the fog man. dont worry it cleers up after a few days.
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ha ha welcome to the fog man. dont worry it cleers up after a few days.
Syndrome-your spelling is improving. Only one misspelled word, have you been taking some sort of grammar course?
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Wow, does this suck!!! Like-102 degree fever, crazy dream having, laying in bed and sweating it out like a crackhead-kind of suck!!!! Can't wait for this part to be over!!!
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Wow, does this suck!!! Like-102 degree fever, crazy dream having, laying in bed and sweating it out like a crackhead-kind of suck!!!! Can't wait for this part to be over!!!
Hey ballplayer. It sucks and there isn't anything you can do to avoid it. A couple things helped me though. Drink lots of water and exercise. Maybe not a lot at first but do something to get your blood moving. Good luck. It gets better real soon. PM (that's private message) if you need anything.
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Wow, does this suck!!! Like-102 degree fever, crazy dream having, laying in bed and sweating it out like a crackhead-kind of suck!!!! Can't wait for this part to be over!!!
Hey ballplayer. It sucks and there isn't anything you can do to avoid it. A couple things helped me though. Drink lots of water and exercise. Maybe not a lot at first but do something to get your blood moving. Good luck. It gets better real soon. PM (that's private message) if you need anything.
Yes it does suck. But it still beats chewing. Hang in, you will get through this.
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Welcome Ballplayer. Something that helped me a lot is coffee grounds. It looks and acts the same, and I'm pretty sure it helped me alot with the fatigue. I've been scared that I'll be addicted to coffee dipping for the rest of my life over the past 2 weeks, but I already have stretches (like 30min) where I don't even think about it, so I'm confident that it will fade out in the near future.
Just come and read whenever the cravings get too bad. Just reading all the bitching and fighting on some of these threads is enough to take your mind off it.
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Since I joined ktc, I've been contacted by pm, text, and in the forums by many other very supportive members. All have given excellent advice and support on quitting. Yesterday I failed to utilize the resources I have here, and gave in to my addiction. One of the members pm'd me, just to check in on me. I was honest with him, and told him I had caved and was starting over from day one. He pointed out the fact, that not only have I failed myself, but I disrespected my quit group and what this site stands for. Those were not my intentions, and I apologize for it. I know I'm gonna take some shit for caving. And I deserve it. So let the beatings begin. But I will quit this time. I will use every resource possible when the craving hits. And I will not cave again. Ballplayer 76 posting roll-day one.
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Hey ballplayer, that sucks bro. Shit happens, dust off and post and IM and Phonecall whatever you gotta do. The only way to win back that trust is to be above reproach from this point on in you quit. You can do it man. When I first joined this group of badass quitters, I set a quit day. I caught hell for it, and in hindsight I deserved it cuz I was a scared little mouse, with pretty pink panties. Souliman rode me hard as did wastepanel and a few others. They also dusted me off and showed me the love. Dude I would friggin kill for DennyX, the point is that you gotta latch on 110% like a friggin tick. This has to be your addiction, you can do it. IM me if you wanna chat, trade phone numbers whatever. Welcome to your first day, you can hack it. Be a badass. Drink the KOOL-AID.
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Since I joined ktc, I've been contacted by pm, text, and in the forums by many other very supportive members. All have given excellent advice and support on quitting. Yesterday I failed to utilize the resources I have here, and gave in to my addiction. One of the members pm'd me, just to check in on me. I was honest with him, and told him I had caved and was starting over from day one. He pointed out the fact, that not only have I failed myself, but I disrespected my quit group and what this site stands for. Those were not my intentions, and I apologize for it. I know I'm gonna take some shit for caving. And I deserve it. So let the beatings begin. But I will quit this time. I will use every resource possible when the craving hits. And I will not cave again. Ballplayer 76 posting roll-day one.
If you haven't already, you need to go talk to your brothers in June and explain this to them.
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Thanks nv. I'm all over the Kool-aid from this point on.
Jon-I definitely will post it to my group. Not trying to hide it. I fucked up and I admit it.
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I think you need to post this on June's page, I only saw that you posted day one. You need to tell your quit brethren what your doing different this time. Stay strong, use the tools. If you need me I am here.
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Since I joined ktc, I've been contacted by pm, text, and in the forums by many other very supportive members. All have given excellent advice and support on quitting. Yesterday I failed to utilize the resources I have here, and gave in to my addiction. One of the members pm'd me, just to check in on me. I was honest with him, and told him I had caved and was starting over from day one. He pointed out the fact, that not only have I failed myself, but I disrespected my quit group and what this site stands for. Those were not my intentions, and I apologize for it. I know I'm gonna take some shit for caving. And I deserve it. So let the beatings begin. But I will quit this time. I will use every resource possible when the craving hits. And I will not cave again. Ballplayer 76 posting roll-day one.
Yes, you screwed up and you failed. We all can understand that.
The question is how is this instance going to be different from the first. What is going to keep you from caving again? Do you have a written, comprehensive Quit Plan in place to help you deal with the craves that are definitely going to come? Do you have some numbers to call and will you use them?
Are you going to be a man of your word this time and keep your promise to post roll early every day and not succumb to the nicBitch?
You will get some beatings. Take your hits and keep posting roll. It's up to you to see that you do not post yet another Day 1.
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I did post it on June's page about an hour ago. My plan at the start basically was just to quit. I am seeing now that I need to be prepared at all times for the cravings. Bottle of water in the car, gum and seeds on me at all times. I won't be caught off guard again.
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Keddy hit the nail on the head...what is going to be different this time? You can't change the past. And nobody knows what the future holds. But you can sure as shit quit jerking our chains about quitting when you're not committed.
If you are serious and committed, then failure is impossible. Your problem is that you weren't. Did you exhaust every possibility? Did you PM anyone? Did you tell your quit bros that you were about to cave? You chose to cave because your word wasn't any good. Think about that. Nobody made you cave. You just weren't strong enough to keep your word.
You either need to post up and keep your fucking word this time, or quit wasting our time. Tell all of your loved ones that would rather torture them with your loss than give up nicotine. Tell them how fun your funeral is going to be...maybe get a buy a round coffin so they can all have a good laugh at your funeral.
Look, what's done is done. What are you going to do about? That's what we want to know. And if you ever think of caving again...don't come back.
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You're absolutely right Bean. I was not committed. I was not quitting because I truly wanted to. I was quitting out of fear due to a lump in my cheek that I had biopsied last week. I was looking for a reason to cave. Something to blame it on. I think what I finally settled on was something like- fuck it, I probably already have cancer. So why not?- Got the call this morning. Biopsy was negative. Now I quit for me. Now I stay prepared. Now I stop making excuses and sack up and do it. Now I make use of this site and the all the good people in it. I have phone numbers from several quitters. Now, I win.
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I did post it on June's page about an hour ago. My plan at the start basically was just to quit. I am seeing now that I need to be prepared at all times for the cravings. Bottle of water in the car, gum and seeds on me at all times. I won't be caught off guard again.
Its not just about being prepped that way its a determination to quit!!!
I dont want to doubt your dtermination but you seem way to wishy-washy and that never wins! Determination commitment and conviction are what will make your quit happen.
You need to be determined to NOT buy or use nic!
YOU need to make the commitment to yourself and your group that YOU are quit!
YOU need to make these promises and commitment with conviction to stay quit!
IF Quiting is what you WANT, you will NOT fail!
IF Your thinking about quiting cause it might could should be a good idea then you WILL Fail again!!!
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All I can say grizzly, is I'm not here to waste anybody's time. And I will prove you wrong about my determination. Please don't give up on me yet.
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All I can say grizzly, is I'm not here to waste anybody's time. And I will prove you wrong about my determination. Please don't give up on me yet.
I will give up on nobody!!
I just want to see you quit and be determined to quit!
Dont underestimate this, I have learned a ton so far in my short quit.
I dont underestimate what we are doing here I take it very seriously and so should you.
PM me if you need any numbers or help remember we are all in this together!
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no one is giving up, but you gotta pay the piper brother. what is your plan? who helps you execute? are you TRYING to quit, or are you QUITTING? stay focused, read the thread about the cavers, will suprise you. I'm here if you need me.
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My plan is to quit and not cave again. How do I get there? Not completely sure, but I think it goes something like this: Post roll first thing every morning. Stay true to my word to not use nic that day. Inform friends, family, and co-workers of what I'm doing so that they can hold me accountable also. Tell co-workers that dip to keep that shit away from me!!!!! Use every resource necessary when the cravings hit...ktc site, phone numbers of quit brothers, family/friends. That's my plan. I'm done fucking around. You guys have every right to doubt me right now. But in 99 and a half days, I promise, you will be reading my hall of fame speech.
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Nobody is giving up on you. It is just that we've all heard "addict speak" before. In fact, we're fluent...we're addicts too.
I quit at least 10 times over 20 years before finding this site. When I finally decided to quit, the ONLY thing I did differently was to use this site.
Reading other folks stories just reminds me of my own. We are all almost word for word the same..started in high school, playing baseball, father/grandfather did it, knew it was bad, friends did it, could quit anytime I wanted, etc, etc.... It is amazing how similar we all are. And, our quits are even more similar. There is only one sure way out...cold turkey determination and mutual accountability.
Addicts are natural excuse-makers. I had a million of them. Even when I got serious, I still needed help. I found this site on Day 9 at about 4 AM. Nobody asked me for money. They just said, "welcome, post roll and keep your word." And I have. I take it pretty goddam serious, too. My life depends on it.
I would have caved if not for the support from the folks on this site. I know, because I always did before. This site is the difference. I owe my freedom to it. I'm telling you all of this so that you can grasp how important it is to keep your word. It is life and death. Your word is all you've got...and, as an addict, it isn't very good starting out.
But you can improve it. Quit talking about what you're gonna do, and do it. You can post roll, encourage others, read everything, keep your word. But I was serious about not coming back it you cave again. There are probably plenty of internet sites...go make asses out of them. Or, better yet, just stay right here, post roll, and be a fellow quit brother of ours.
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BP
1. Plan to quit today. Today only. DbD. 99.3 days is a long time and allows "fuck it" moments to creep in your addict head.
2. Be fucking sure of your plan. I would add #1. I will call and speak/text to every KTC brother's number that I have. I will not be a pussy addict and get the balls to call them. ***Note to you BP - you need to get numbers*** I guarantee you call PCP, cope, rammin, patton, or my brother NV - you will not cave.
3. I am doubting your resolve and true desire to quit. This makes me sad and angry. Sad, because we are the same age, have 4 kids, and used for over 2 decades. I also am 60 days ahead of you, and I have glimpsed the land of milk and honey. It is awesome. Im angry because I Hate the Bitch. She knows everything to tempt you, to reel you back in between her legs.
BP: Post Roll, Promise to Quit that day, Keep your promise. Repeat daily.
Vadge
Pm me anytime, u want my # just ask.
Addendum:
You need to post your plan in your group.
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but I think it goes something like this: Post roll first thing every morning. Stay true to my word to not use nic that day. Inform friends, family, and co-workers of what I'm doing so that they can hold me accountable also. Tell co-workers that dip to keep that shit away from me!!!!! Use every resource necessary when the cravings hit...ktc site, phone numbers of quit brothers, family/friends. That's my plan. I'm done fucking around. You guys have every right to doubt me right now. But in 99 and a half days, I promise, you will be reading my hall of fame speech.
How do I get there? Not completely sure,
Better figure it the fuk out real quick.
I hope you enjoyed every second of it. I hope it was better than the best piece of ass you have ever had. I hope every second of it was like an orgasm in your mouth.
Why do you ask Razd, I knew it was wrong when I did it.
Simply because that it is dip I have resisted for 912 days. The one I know I can never have. It is the one that every individual here resists and knows that they can't have.
What makes you special. NOTHING.
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BP - I am on day 9 working on today. Here is my take.
You have asked for your beating, you have gotten it (some of it anyways), now remember how much it sucks balls and get on with your QUIT.
You have support from every one of us who are all addicts to the same bitch.
Your cave ended when your quit started today. This is not going to be easy. People are going to chew around you. People are going to offer you chews.
This is not a quit because you THINK you should. You can't enter a perfect world where everyone respects and understands your addiction.
This needs to be a matter of PRINCIPLE for you. Your WORD is more important than that CAN of CANCER. Your idiot friends who still want to chew around you are assholes, but you still have to MAN UP and do the right thing.
USE THE SHIT OUT OF THESE FORUMS AND PHONE NUMBERS.
I will PM you with mine. Put it in your phone and get me yours. Let's do this thing man.
I am proud to quit with you today.
aredoubleyou
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Razd- No. It was the same crappy dip I've had tens of thousands of times. Same funky mouth the next morning, same sore gums and feeling of fear and regret that I've had every morning for 20 years.
Bean and ER- I will not disrespect the brotherhood like that again. I have nothing but respect for this place and everyone in it. When I first joined, I had tons of welcoming and supportive messages from a lot of people on here. I think it is absolutely awesome how everyone is genuinely interested in helping other people that they never met. Especially the vets who have been quit for a long time, yet still donate their time and energy to helping new guys. I appreciate everyone's words of wisdom. And I even appreciate all the shit I'm getting for caving. It only makes me want to prove everyone wrong that much more.
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Comback Kid-Wake the Dead (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QfXBqEP6CpU&feature=related)
This is our city of the dead
Another life holds its weary head
We hope, we try, we live, survive
Counting days, trying to get by
Waiting for the calling
Anticipation in the air
We hope and dream of difference
City sleeping, unaware
Break the silence, WAKE THE DEAD
Running through these streets alone
I'll kick and scream, let's break this hold
Cuz I swear, and this won't render useless
I promise you, we've come this far
And I'm not stopping, I'm not stopping now
I'm not hiding in shadows
Wake up
Send out this message, it's clear
2x
You said, you said, you said
this time was gonna be different
WAKE UP THE DEAD
Coming alive
Something stirs inside
This isn't over yet
Shake off the dirt
Swallow regret
Stop living under the weight
Living under the weight of regret
Your regrets
DON'T LOSE HOPE
Your regrets
DON'T LOSE HOPE
Don't let it happen to you
DON'T LOSE HOPE
Which side are you gonna choose?
Cuz I believe, I believe it's in you.
RISE!
4x
We said, we said, we said
This time was gonna be different
WAKE UP THE DEAD
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I saw Day 2 posted...great job. That's how it's done...one day at a time. PM me if you need anything. Stay strong and stay quit, brother!!!
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Hey BP, day 2 posted. Proud of you. Have you gotten any phone numbers yet? You need to do that...TODAY. Stay strong in your quit.
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Glad to be quit with you on Day 2 BP!
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Lets get that day 3 posted, you can do it. I will stay quit with you.
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Still here guys. Day 3 is hitting me pretty hard. So I called off of work and slept in. Still quit.
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hey man whatever it takes, proud to be quit with you brother. you have my phone number so if you need to rage give me a yell.
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Day 3 is huge...well done. Stay strong, bro.
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This place has been full of caves lately. Some long-term caving and some newbie caves. Ballplayer, I tip my hat to you bro. You've stepped up and engaged the critics, LISTENED, and not hidden from the weakness we all share.
Keep up the strong work. There is no easy way out.
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Get through today BP. Check your inbox. Today is the worst. You can do this.
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Thanks everyone. Today was rough...some pretty hard cravings. Slept through a lot of the day though, so that helped. Don't think my body knows how to function without nic, so it just sleeps. Lol. It's midnight, and I just woke up all sweaty as if sweating out a fever or something. But I actually feel ok for the first time since I quit. I think "the fog" might be over. I freaking hope so. Now if I could just stop thinking about it every second...gonna try going back to sleep.
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bp - you might want to stay away from this intro section for a while. rhetoric will only get you excuses. one day at a time. +1. no excuses. no justifications. no shit.
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Wow. Everyone else says to come in here for support and stay on as much as possible to keep yourself from caving. Now, your telling me to stay off?! This might be my nic-deprived anger talking. But with all due respect Smokey, I'm gonna come on here whenever I want.
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As long as your quit, I don't care if you're in GMann's Hotrods of the Day thread...
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hey BP, congrats on your post this morning. another day, you badass. stay quit bro, find something to do today. you have my number if you need to, call me. I am going riding but will return all messages. stay strong. I think smokey is saying action not words, do whatever works for ya brother, read HOF speechs that helps me out.
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Just a recommendation for interested quitters. Tried quite a few of the fake dips out there. None of them did much for me. Tried bacc-off wintergreen-too dry and fine cut for me. Tried Smokey mountain wintergreen and classic-too sweet, like candy. Saw Smokey mountain straight at wal-Mart and bought a can. Yep, they nailed it on that one. Really gets you through the tough cravings. I know a lot of guys aren't fans of the fake stuff. And I know that eventually I'll have to get off the whole oral fixation thing. But for now, i'm digging it. Wish I would have had it on day 1...
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thats what I use to keep my sanity, alot of differed opinions on fake snuff, I say do what works, it ain't tobacco or the nic bitch. glad to hear your doing well and staying strong. good job.
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So here I sit at day 15. Some days have been ok, but most have sucked ridiculous amounts of donkey dick!! I read quite a bit on this site. There's a lot of repetitively used phrases...drink the Kool-aid...quit for you...one day at a time..etc. I completely understand all of them except one..."embrace the suck"...until today. Normally, when a crave hits, I will do some push-ups, or something else that I've read about other people doing. But inside my head, I am not fighting the crave. I am feeling sorry for myself, wondering why I have to go through this, and other pussyish thoughts. Today I watched as my co-worker stuff a fatty in his lip. Watched him tongue it into place, throw a napkin in a paper cup and let out that first brown spit. Man, it is crazy how something that is sooooo disgusting to normal people, looks fucking delicious to an addict. BAM!!! The crave hit me so hard, I think I was drooling. I thought about asking him to spare one for a few seconds. Changed my mind, and walked away. As the self-pitying thoughts were flowing into my head, something changed. I got fucking pissed!!!! I was so sick of suffering and feeling sorry for myself day after day after day, that I got more pissed off than I can remember being in a very long time. I tried going to the men's restroom to splash some water on my face and cool down. Upon discovering the door was locked, I unleashed about 3 or 4 full force punches on the door. After hearing my boss scream like a 3 year old girl, I decided to take a brisk walk to the other side of the plant...and then it hit me...embrace the suck...it sucks so bad so that I won't forget it, and won't be stupid enough to put myself through it again. How simple? Why did it take me this long to figure out? Gentlemen, I have welcomed craves since that moment this morning. In a sick way, enjoying them even. I have been given TONS of excellent advice from you guys. But I definitely have a favorite piece now.
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Ballplayer. Day 15 for me too. Thanks for the post. Today is a bitch for me. There is wisdom in what you said and great timing. I have been feeling sorry for myself. Sorry that I'm free by quitting???? You said what I needed to hear. Thanks for slapping me across the face and telling me to quit being a little bitch.
I embrace the suck too!
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My pleasure mt. Glad I could help. Learning a lot about myself lately.
1: I can live the rest of my life without that poison!!
2: I am a lot more twisted than I thought learning how to enjoy pain!!
3: I might try some SM with the wife tonight, and see how far this fetish of mine runs!!!...LOL
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dude good for you, you fought the nic bitch and won....am proud of you bro. one day at a time.
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Outstanding!!!!!
Quit on Quiter!!!!
Winning these battles are what will make your quit stronger and your resolve unbeatable!
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Thanks nv and grizzly. Feels like I kinda turned a corner today. Won't get too cocky about it, but feel confident in my quit for the first time.
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I quit with you today
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Great job!!! Stay strong, stay quit! You can do this, brother.
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So here I sit at day 15. Some days have been ok, but most have sucked ridiculous amounts of donkey dick!! I read quite a bit on this site. There's a lot of repetitively used phrases...drink the Kool-aid...quit for you...one day at a time..etc. I completely understand all of them except one..."embrace the suck"...until today. Normally, when a crave hits, I will do some push-ups, or something else that I've read about other people doing. But inside my head, I am not fighting the crave. I am feeling sorry for myself, wondering why I have to go through this, and other pussyish thoughts. Today I watched as my co-worker stuff a fatty in his lip. Watched him tongue it into place, throw a napkin in a paper cup and let out that first brown spit. Man, it is crazy how something that is sooooo disgusting to normal people, looks fucking delicious to an addict. BAM!!! The crave hit me so hard, I think I was drooling. I thought about asking him to spare one for a few seconds. Changed my mind, and walked away. As the self-pitying thoughts were flowing into my head, something changed. I got fucking pissed!!!! I was so sick of suffering and feeling sorry for myself day after day after day, that I got more pissed off than I can remember being in a very long time. I tried going to the men's restroom to splash some water on my face and cool down. Upon discovering the door was locked, I unleashed about 3 or 4 full force punches on the door. After hearing my boss scream like a 3 year old girl, I decided to take a brisk walk to the other side of the plant...and then it hit me...embrace the suck...it sucks so bad so that I won't forget it, and won't be stupid enough to put myself through it again. How simple? Why did it take me this long to figure out? Gentlemen, I have welcomed craves since that moment this morning. In a sick way, enjoying them even. I have been given TONS of excellent advice from you guys. But I definitely have a favorite piece now.
Good Stuff Ball:
Continue day by day. Recognizing your triggers and learning how to deal with all the emotions we used to cram back inside our souls, solidifies your quit. I am proud of you. Keep your quit vigilant and don't hesitate to reach out.
Vadge
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Thanks nv and grizzly. Feels like I kinda turned a corner today. Won't get too cocky about it, but feel confident in my quit for the first time.
Feels Damn Good when it finally hits you.
This is the second thing about your quit you never need to forget.
1. The discomfort and the pain of the beginning.
2. The epiphiny
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So here I sit at day 15. Some days have been ok, but most have sucked ridiculous amounts of donkey dick!! I read quite a bit on this site. There's a lot of repetitively used phrases...drink the Kool-aid...quit for you...one day at a time..etc. I completely understand all of them except one..."embrace the suck"...until today. Normally, when a crave hits, I will do some push-ups, or something else that I've read about other people doing. But inside my head, I am not fighting the crave. I am feeling sorry for myself, wondering why I have to go through this, and other pussyish thoughts. Today I watched as my co-worker stuff a fatty in his lip. Watched him tongue it into place, throw a napkin in a paper cup and let out that first brown spit. Man, it is crazy how something that is sooooo disgusting to normal people, looks fucking delicious to an addict. BAM!!! The crave hit me so hard, I think I was drooling. I thought about asking him to spare one for a few seconds. Changed my mind, and walked away. As the self-pitying thoughts were flowing into my head, something changed. I got fucking pissed!!!! I was so sick of suffering and feeling sorry for myself day after day after day, that I got more pissed off than I can remember being in a very long time. I tried going to the men's restroom to splash some water on my face and cool down. Upon discovering the door was locked, I unleashed about 3 or 4 full force punches on the door. After hearing my boss scream like a 3 year old girl, I decided to take a brisk walk to the other side of the plant...and then it hit me...embrace the suck...it sucks so bad so that I won't forget it, and won't be stupid enough to put myself through it again. How simple? Why did it take me this long to figure out? Gentlemen, I have welcomed craves since that moment this morning. In a sick way, enjoying them even. I have been given TONS of excellent advice from you guys. But I definitely have a favorite piece now.
Good Stuff Ball:
Continue day by day. Recognizing your triggers and learning how to deal with all the emotions we used to cram back inside our souls, solidifies your quit. I am proud of you. Keep your quit vigilant and don't hesitate to reach out.
Vadge
Where do you work? Any chance you can ask this coworker that you're trying to unass the cancer dirt and to at least show some respect by stepping out to shovel that crap into his mouth? I honestly don't think that's too big of an imposition. If you feel skittish about that, don't. WTF is he doing dipping at work anyways. If he gives you shit about it, throw his can out the window and tell him to fuck off.
You're a beast. I'm lucky I don't have assholes around me loading their lips, that would make it rougher for sure. Screw those pricks.
I'm glad to see you getting pissed off about this stuff. I feel like Emperor Palpatine -- "I can FEEL your anger". It really helps you maintain focus against the addictive thought justifications that randomly come. Come over to the dark side, bro. Fuck tobacco, and fuck those assholes at work. This guy at work is an obstacle between you and your quit, regardless of how "cool" he is.
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Great post. I remember when I had the same thing hit me. I was running from craves the first couple days trying to trick my mind into thinking it wasn't that bad. Then on the fourth or fifth day after not being able to sleep, having crippling craves, funk, fog, etc, it hit me. How in THE FUCK did I allow myself to use something for 20+ years that would make me feel this miserable if I didn't have it for a couple days? I was livid. I was furious at big tobacco. I was furious at myself for being such an idiot for so long. At that point I wrapped myself up in that anger quilt and stewed in it. Healthy anger can go a long way when things get rough. DO embrace the suck and don't ever forget.
It does get better, but hold onto that anger. It got me through a lot early on.
And nice work sharing this stuff. It helps you and everyone else here.
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So here I sit at day 15. Some days have been ok, but most have sucked ridiculous amounts of donkey dick!! I read quite a bit on this site. There's a lot of repetitively used phrases...drink the Kool-aid...quit for you...one day at a time..etc. I completely understand all of them except one..."embrace the suck"...until today. Normally, when a crave hits, I will do some push-ups, or something else that I've read about other people doing. But inside my head, I am not fighting the crave. I am feeling sorry for myself, wondering why I have to go through this, and other pussyish thoughts. Today I watched as my co-worker stuff a fatty in his lip. Watched him tongue it into place, throw a napkin in a paper cup and let out that first brown spit. Man, it is crazy how something that is sooooo disgusting to normal people, looks fucking delicious to an addict. BAM!!! The crave hit me so hard, I think I was drooling. I thought about asking him to spare one for a few seconds. Changed my mind, and walked away. As the self-pitying thoughts were flowing into my head, something changed. I got fucking pissed!!!! I was so sick of suffering and feeling sorry for myself day after day after day, that I got more pissed off than I can remember being in a very long time. I tried going to the men's restroom to splash some water on my face and cool down. Upon discovering the door was locked, I unleashed about 3 or 4 full force punches on the door. After hearing my boss scream like a 3 year old girl, I decided to take a brisk walk to the other side of the plant...and then it hit me...embrace the suck...it sucks so bad so that I won't forget it, and won't be stupid enough to put myself through it again. How simple? Why did it take me this long to figure out? Gentlemen, I have welcomed craves since that moment this morning. In a sick way, enjoying them even. I have been given TONS of excellent advice from you guys. But I definitely have a favorite piece now.
Good Stuff Ball:
Continue day by day. Recognizing your triggers and learning how to deal with all the emotions we used to cram back inside our souls, solidifies your quit. I am proud of you. Keep your quit vigilant and don't hesitate to reach out.
Vadge
Where do you work? Any chance you can ask this coworker that you're trying to unass the cancer dirt and to at least show some respect by stepping out to shovel that crap into his mouth? I honestly don't think that's too big of an imposition. If you feel skittish about that, don't. WTF is he doing dipping at work anyways. If he gives you shit about it, throw his can out the window and tell him to fuck off.
You're a beast. I'm lucky I don't have assholes around me loading their lips, that would make it rougher for sure. Screw those pricks.
I'm glad to see you getting pissed off about this stuff. I feel like Emperor Palpatine -- "I can FEEL your anger". It really helps you maintain focus against the addictive thought justifications that randomly come. Come over to the dark side, bro. Fuck tobacco, and fuck those assholes at work. This guy at work is an obstacle between you and your quit, regardless of how "cool" he is.
Great post ballplayer. Glad to be quit with you. Keep it up and enjoy the pain, embrace the suck. It will save our lives. Never go back so that never to endure this pain again. Great job
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So here I sit at day 15. Some days have been ok, but most have sucked ridiculous amounts of donkey dick!! I read quite a bit on this site. There's a lot of repetitively used phrases...drink the Kool-aid...quit for you...one day at a time..etc. I completely understand all of them except one..."embrace the suck"...until today. Normally, when a crave hits, I will do some push-ups, or something else that I've read about other people doing. But inside my head, I am not fighting the crave. I am feeling sorry for myself, wondering why I have to go through this, and other pussyish thoughts. Today I watched as my co-worker stuff a fatty in his lip. Watched him tongue it into place, throw a napkin in a paper cup and let out that first brown spit. Man, it is crazy how something that is sooooo disgusting to normal people, looks fucking delicious to an addict. BAM!!! The crave hit me so hard, I think I was drooling. I thought about asking him to spare one for a few seconds. Changed my mind, and walked away. As the self-pitying thoughts were flowing into my head, something changed. I got fucking pissed!!!! I was so sick of suffering and feeling sorry for myself day after day after day, that I got more pissed off than I can remember being in a very long time. I tried going to the men's restroom to splash some water on my face and cool down. Upon discovering the door was locked, I unleashed about 3 or 4 full force punches on the door. After hearing my boss scream like a 3 year old girl, I decided to take a brisk walk to the other side of the plant...and then it hit me...embrace the suck...it sucks so bad so that I won't forget it, and won't be stupid enough to put myself through it again. How simple? Why did it take me this long to figure out? Gentlemen, I have welcomed craves since that moment this morning. In a sick way, enjoying them even. I have been given TONS of excellent advice from you guys. But I definitely have a favorite piece now.
YES!!! Excellent shit!
Enveloping yourself in the most lowly moments of a quit serves two purposes:
1. You will remember how much it sucked, which will help you think twice about going down this road from the start again. This is what you're alluding to.
2. Beating back a massive crave is a trophy. It's a source and emblem of pride. After beating back nine million craves, imagine how proud you're going to be? And how unlikely it will be to squander that pride just to go back to a mouthful of leukoplakia, irregular heartbeats and breath that smells like an ass rim?
Excellent, brother
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So here I sit at day 15. Some days have been ok, but most have sucked ridiculous amounts of donkey dick!! I read quite a bit on this site. There's a lot of repetitively used phrases...drink the Kool-aid...quit for you...one day at a time..etc. I completely understand all of them except one..."embrace the suck"...until today. Normally, when a crave hits, I will do some push-ups, or something else that I've read about other people doing. But inside my head, I am not fighting the crave. I am feeling sorry for myself, wondering why I have to go through this, and other pussyish thoughts. Today I watched as my co-worker stuff a fatty in his lip. Watched him tongue it into place, throw a napkin in a paper cup and let out that first brown spit. Man, it is crazy how something that is sooooo disgusting to normal people, looks fucking delicious to an addict. BAM!!! The crave hit me so hard, I think I was drooling. I thought about asking him to spare one for a few seconds. Changed my mind, and walked away. As the self-pitying thoughts were flowing into my head, something changed. I got fucking pissed!!!! I was so sick of suffering and feeling sorry for myself day after day after day, that I got more pissed off than I can remember being in a very long time. I tried going to the men's restroom to splash some water on my face and cool down. Upon discovering the door was locked, I unleashed about 3 or 4 full force punches on the door. After hearing my boss scream like a 3 year old girl, I decided to take a brisk walk to the other side of the plant...and then it hit me...embrace the suck...it sucks so bad so that I won't forget it, and won't be stupid enough to put myself through it again. How simple? Why did it take me this long to figure out? Gentlemen, I have welcomed craves since that moment this morning. In a sick way, enjoying them even. I have been given TONS of excellent advice from you guys. But I definitely have a favorite piece now.
Really nice post. thanks for sharing that. it makes me realize that i too had a moment where i learned what that meant. didn't realize it until just now, but mine goes like this. It's day 28, massive crave hits and i jump my ass in the car to go get fake dip (I know I should have had it handy and I always do now). Leave my 13 year old daughter at home by herself (no biggie) but we are supposed to be spending time together. I feel pretty shitty about it, but still gotta do what I gotta do to protect the quit so i do it. Fast forward to the next day and I am coming home from work and the full weight of what i did hits me while a particularly enraging song is blasting on the radio (chevelle, "seeing red"). I have let nicotine control my life for 25 years and even now, on day 28 of my quit, it made me do something shitty to my family. I go from calm to ENRAGED in 2 seconds and pound the shit out of my steering wheel screaming I FUCKING HATE YOU I FUCKING HATE YOU with spit flying all over my car and myself. That was my moment to learn "embrace the suck".
I ain't goin back dudes. It ain't happenin.
I am quit today with you and thanks for helping me.
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So here I sit at day 15. Some days have been ok, but most have sucked ridiculous amounts of donkey dick!! I read quite a bit on this site. There's a lot of repetitively used phrases...drink the Kool-aid...quit for you...one day at a time..etc. I completely understand all of them except one..."embrace the suck"...until today. Normally, when a crave hits, I will do some push-ups, or something else that I've read about other people doing. But inside my head, I am not fighting the crave. I am feeling sorry for myself, wondering why I have to go through this, and other pussyish thoughts. Today I watched as my co-worker stuff a fatty in his lip. Watched him tongue it into place, throw a napkin in a paper cup and let out that first brown spit. Man, it is crazy how something that is sooooo disgusting to normal people, looks fucking delicious to an addict. BAM!!! The crave hit me so hard, I think I was drooling. I thought about asking him to spare one for a few seconds. Changed my mind, and walked away. As the self-pitying thoughts were flowing into my head, something changed. I got fucking pissed!!!! I was so sick of suffering and feeling sorry for myself day after day after day, that I got more pissed off than I can remember being in a very long time. I tried going to the men's restroom to splash some water on my face and cool down. Upon discovering the door was locked, I unleashed about 3 or 4 full force punches on the door. After hearing my boss scream like a 3 year old girl, I decided to take a brisk walk to the other side of the plant...and then it hit me...embrace the suck...it sucks so bad so that I won't forget it, and won't be stupid enough to put myself through it again. How simple? Why did it take me this long to figure out? Gentlemen, I have welcomed craves since that moment this morning. In a sick way, enjoying them even. I have been given TONS of excellent advice from you guys. But I definitely have a favorite piece now.
Really nice post. thanks for sharing that. it makes me realize that i too had a moment where i learned what that meant. didn't realize it until just now, but mine goes like this. It's day 28, massive crave hits and i jump my ass in the car to go get fake dip (I know I should have had it handy and I always do now). Leave my 13 year old daughter at home by herself (no biggie) but we are supposed to be spending time together. I feel pretty shitty about it, but still gotta do what I gotta do to protect the quit so i do it. Fast forward to the next day and I am coming home from work and the full weight of what i did hits me while a particularly enraging song is blasting on the radio (chevelle, "seeing red"). I have let nicotine control my life for 25 years and even now, on day 28 of my quit, it made me do something shitty to my family. I go from calm to ENRAGED in 2 seconds and pound the shit out of my steering wheel screaming I FUCKING HATE YOU I FUCKING HATE YOU with spit flying all over my car and myself. That was my moment to learn "embrace the suck".
I ain't goin back dudes. It ain't happenin.
I am quit today with you and thanks for helping me.
Good stuff rangy ballplayer!!
Its times like that that always put everyone who reads your stories perspective back into line!
I thank you for sharing and stay strong brother freedom is never easy but it is always worth it!
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Hey guys. Drinking has killed several of my past quit attempts. I start out thinking I can handle it, but 6 beers later I'm at the gas station buying a can. With the weather warming up, the barbecue grill is calling my name. And we all know what goes hand in hand with barbecue. Just wondering when in your quit, did you guys become able to drink a few without a strong desire to cave?
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I aint no vet but dont let us down get out of a bad situation
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Lots of people advocate that you do not drink at all for at least the first 50-75 days. I think this is a "to each his/her own" practice. I have continued to drink beer during my quit, but I do not go out to bars much anymore since I'm married and my wife is pregnant. I have a rule that once I start drinking I can't drive anywhere so it's never been a problem for me.
As for you, if it has ruined quits in the past, then I would recommend you stop drinking for awhile. If you do want to continue drinking then you need to do it in moderation. My last suggestion is simple, it's called will power. Your brain is treating drinking beer as an excuse because that's what your addiction is telling your mind. Reverse the cycle, be strong. Tell the addiction to fuck off. If you can't do that then you have two options with each having a different result:
Option # 1: Keep drinking and cave
Option # 2: Stop drinking
Sounds like a no-brainer, right?
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Hey guys. Drinking has killed several of my past quit attempts. I start out thinking I can handle it, but 6 beers later I'm at the gas station buying a can. With the weather warming up, the barbecue grill is calling my name. And we all know what goes hand in hand with barbecue. Just wondering when in your quit, did you guys become able to drink a few without a strong desire to cave?
I've heard from vets 40 days some say 70 days and some say 100 it all depends on your personal quit as long as you can handle a beer without the can go for it. But when you drink don't forget the promise you make by posting roll everyday.
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Haven't been drinking. Don't "need" to drink. But do enjoy a few while cooking on the grill or watching the Cubs get their annual ass whoopin. Lol. Just wondering what the general rule of thumb is. I understand everyone is different. I won't put myself in a bad situation.
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Many a quit has been destroyed by lack of resolve following a six pack of schlitz.
Be careful.
Everyone is different, but I wasn't able to catch a beer buzz without jonseing like a true addict until well after 100 days.
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Hey guys. Drinking has killed several of my past quit attempts. I start out thinking I can handle it, but 6 beers later I'm at the gas station buying a can. With the weather warming up, the barbecue grill is calling my name. And we all know what goes hand in hand with barbecue. Just wondering when in your quit, did you guys become able to drink a few without a strong desire to cave?
ballplayer,
I know what you are going through. I know it's tough to, but it does get better.
I am a simple man so I will put this as simply as I can. If you can't say no to a beer, then you need to be in another support group. You are trying to use drinking as an excuse to cave.
I'm not buying what you're selling. Sack up and quit like a man.
NTartick
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Thanks for the advice coach, Mr. V, and dippshit(feels weird calling someone that without being angry with them).
Ntartick-Huh???? Not going through anything. Just looking for some guidance from brothers who are well ahead of me. Yes, I can say no to a beer. But thanks for trying. :huh:
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Hey guys. Drinking has killed several of my past quit attempts. I start out thinking I can handle it, but 6 beers later I'm at the gas station buying a can. With the weather warming up, the barbecue grill is calling my name. And we all know what goes hand in hand with barbecue. Just wondering when in your quit, did you guys become able to drink a few without a strong desire to cave?
Protect your quit at all costs. Period.
Do not take any risks. Do not make yourself vulnerable.
Your quit is your priority.
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Hey guys. Drinking has killed several of my past quit attempts. I start out thinking I can handle it, but 6 beers later I'm at the gas station buying a can. With the weather warming up, the barbecue grill is calling my name. And we all know what goes hand in hand with barbecue. Just wondering when in your quit, did you guys become able to drink a few without a strong desire to cave?
Protect your quit at all costs. Period.
Do not take any risks. Do not make yourself vulnerable.
Your quit is your priority.
You know what goes hand in hand with fishing, hunting, working, driving, showering, shitting.....yep, that's right, dip, and you quit that.
Looks like it is time to quit the alcohol also. It does not have to go hand in hand with something.
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Ok, apparently I said it the wrong way. I'm not AT ALL considering drinking today or anytime in the near future. I will never consider caving. It was a question based out of pure curiosity, about how long it has taken others to be able to handle a few beers without having intense cravings. But I love that a couple of you, can read 3 sentences that I wrote, and label me an alcoholic.
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Ok, apparently I said it the wrong way. I'm not AT ALL considering drinking today or anytime in the near future. I will never consider caving. It was a question based out of pure curiosity, about how long it has taken others to be able to handle a few beers without having intense cravings. But I love that a couple of you, can read 3 sentences that I wrote, and label me an alcoholic.
'crackup'
I picked up on that as well, Ballplayer. I thought I understood your original question and was curious to see what the 'vets' said. Kinda funny how you got pushed into a corner and your beer taken away.
If you want my advice, you sound like a reasonable guy. I'm feeling strong on day 45 here, and I haven't really changed my drinking behavior. I have a beer or two when the situation merits it. Haven't had any crises or been seen running drunk down the street to the convenience store with my hands in the air screaming.
I would recommend having a tin of Smoky Mountain or some other fake stuff on hand in case you get a nasty crave, but other than that, if you're a reasonable guy and don't tend to get ass-stomping drunk whenever you crack open a bottle, and you TRUST yourself, no reason you can't enjoy a brew.
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Ok, apparently I said it the wrong way. I'm not AT ALL considering drinking today or anytime in the near future. I will never consider caving. It was a question based out of pure curiosity, about how long it has taken others to be able to handle a few beers without having intense cravings. But I love that a couple of you, can read 3 sentences that I wrote, and label me an alcoholic.
It took me several months before I was fairly comfortable with putting back more than a couple of beers without being really worried about caving. That was as long as I made sure I stayed away from other dippers and smokers while drinking heavily. I did and STILL keep my guard up and often times carry a can of fake on me it I know I will be drinking with dippers or smokers. I caved many times in the past before KTCi and do not want to make that mistake again. Watch the booze for a while!
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Thanks rgross and kdip. I've had 30+ day "pauses" killed by a six pack before. So I know I'm nowhere near ready to put myself in that situation. Was just wondering what other's experiences were with it. Thanks for sharing.
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Hey guys. Drinking has killed several of my past quit attempts. I start out thinking I can handle it, but 6 beers later I'm at the gas station buying a can. With the weather warming up, the barbecue grill is calling my name. And we all know what goes hand in hand with barbecue. Just wondering when in your quit, did you guys become able to drink a few without a strong desire to cave?
Protect your quit at all costs. Period.
Do not take any risks. Do not make yourself vulnerable.
Your quit is your priority.
You know what goes hand in hand with fishing, hunting, working, driving, showering, shitting.....yep, that's right, dip, and you quit that.
Looks like it is time to quit the alcohol also. It does not have to go hand in hand with something.
It goes good with a nice steak. Just not yet. Give it time. Learn how to kill the craves and how to really handle them first.
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Lots of people advocate that you do not drink at all for at least the first 50-75 days. I think this is a "to each his/her own" practice. I have continued to drink beer during my quit, but I do not go out to bars much anymore since I'm married and my wife is pregnant. I have a rule that once I start drinking I can't drive anywhere so it's never been a problem for me.
As for you, if it has ruined quits in the past, then I would recommend you stop drinking for awhile. If you do want to continue drinking then you need to do it in moderation. My last suggestion is simple, it's called will power. Your brain is treating drinking beer as an excuse because that's what your addiction is telling your mind. Reverse the cycle, be strong. Tell the addiction to fuck off. If you can't do that then you have two options with each having a different result:
Option # 1: Keep drinking and cave
Option # 2: Stop drinking
Sounds like a no-brainer, right?
I'm not a vet, either. But I'll give you my 2 cents.
I tend to agree with Steve. I went to the Bar on my Day 2 and sat around cigarette smokers and just remembered how much I looked down on them for being addicted (after I had just quit myself, ironically).
I do believe it's a to each his own kind of thing. I continue to drink and haven't been close to caving. When the nic bitch tells me that smoking/dipping will make my night better, I tell her to suck a dick. A lot of my brothers probably don't agree with my putting myself in that situation - but I'm owning my quit and feel that it's okay for ME.
Two things:
1) Smokey Mountain chew helps. I keep a can in my truck just in case I'm shooting darts or playing pool with people who are dipping.
2) There have been countless people who have gotten so fucked up they caved. Like Steve said, moderation is key. And everyone is different.
Anyway, just my opinion. I'm positive I'll be meet with resistance.
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Thanks for the advice coach, Mr. V, and dippshit(feels weird calling someone that without being angry with them).
Ntartick-Huh???? Not going through anything. Just looking for some guidance from brothers who are well ahead of me. Yes, I can say no to a beer. But thanks for trying. :huh:
Sorry, totally misread that. I'll sack up and apologize now. Sorry.
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Hey guys. Drinking has killed several of my past quit attempts. I start out thinking I can handle it, but 6 beers later I'm at the gas station buying a can. With the weather warming up, the barbecue grill is calling my name. And we all know what goes hand in hand with barbecue. Just wondering when in your quit, did you guys become able to drink a few without a strong desire to cave?
Make sure you use the resources available to you here. As it has been said already by others in this conversation. We are here for you as we hope you can be here for us, anytime you need to get something out there post it in July and well talk you through it. The thing that really got me here was embrace the suck, it didn't make sense to me at first but now I realize it does two things for you.
1. It makes you a stronger person, by embracing it you can look nicotine and Big Tobacco in the face and laugh at them.
2. Makes sure this is the last time you go through the suck.
I've only been here for a week but I'm that week these guys have taught me that I have a lot more fight in me than I think.
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Personally, I would back away from the booze, take it from someone who didn't, however....I'm still here.
You are either quit or you are not.
You have either made the decision, or you haven't.
You will post roll and keep your word, or you won't.
No amount of booze can change this mentality if it's in your possesion.
Do you have it?
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Hey ball, dude, I didn't have more than a beer or two for along time. Up until about two weeks ago did I even consider more than a few beers. It's your quit, and your a man...if your honest with yourself and your quit is important you will know what you can do and what you can't do. For me I was paranoid up until the last month.
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Just thought I would share what I've been through the last month or so. Hopefully it eases somebody's anxiety out there. I'm on day 48. About 6 weeks ago, I noticed a dime-sized white spot on my gums with a lump under it. Thought for sure I had quit too late. Waited around a couple weeks, and nothing changed. Went to the ENT for a biopsy. After 5 days of hell, I got the call. Benign. About 2 days after that, I got a sore behind my bottom teeth that hurt like hell. Did some research on the computer, and came to the conclusion that it was a cold sore on my gums. Only thing was cold sores are supposed to be gone in a week or two. 3 weeks of looking at this thing in the mirror, and I finally went to the doc. It was a cold sore accompanied by a secondary infection. Which is why it was lingering. A couple days of antibiotics and it was gone. My point to all this is that during the last 6 weeks, that nic bitch has been screaming in my ear-"You already have cancer. Might as well have a dip!!". I couldn't tell you the number of times I almost caved. Even went as far as driving to the store to get it, stood in line and got a text message. It was one of my ktc brothers. Message said "Quitting is badass. Your badass. Stay quit." Left the store with a bag of sunflower seeds. Seemed like every time I started to cave, I'd get a text or PM from a ktc member. I know I wouldn't be quit without ktc and all the awesome people here. So thank you to all my quit brothers for all your support. Happy to be on day 48 and cancer free!!!
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Just thought I would share what I've been through the last month or so. Hopefully it eases somebody's anxiety out there. I'm on day 48. About 6 weeks ago, I noticed a dime-sized white spot on my gums with a lump under it. Thought for sure I had quit too late. Waited around a couple weeks, and nothing changed. Went to the ENT for a biopsy. After 5 days of hell, I got the call. Benign. About 2 days after that, I got a sore behind my bottom teeth that hurt like hell. Did some research on the computer, and came to the conclusion that it was a cold sore on my gums. Only thing was cold sores are supposed to be gone in a week or two. 3 weeks of looking at this thing in the mirror, and I finally went to the doc. It was a cold sore accompanied by a secondary infection. Which is why it was lingering. A couple days of antibiotics and it was gone. My point to all this is that during the last 6 weeks, that nic bitch has been screaming in my ear-"You already have cancer. Might as well have a dip!!". I couldn't tell you the number of times I almost caved. Even went as far as driving to the store to get it, stood in line and got a text message. It was one of my ktc brothers. Message said "Quitting is badass. Your badass. Stay quit." Left the store with a bag of sunflower seeds. Seemed like every time I started to cave, I'd get a text or PM from a ktc member. I know I wouldn't be quit without ktc and all the awesome people here. So thank you to all my quit brothers for all your support. Happy to be on day 48 and cancer free!!!
Great stuff bro!!!
Thats how and why this place works!
Stay QUIT!!!
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Proud to be quit with you. Next time you drive to the store to buy a can, you need to call every quit brother and get permission to cave first. If you have reached everyone of us and we all give you permission to cave, then you can drive your sorry ass to the store and buy a can.
We Quit Like Fuck and I am proud to be a June quit brother with you. Thanks for sharing - I am pming you my number.
Grind it out!!!
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2 Things:
1) You need to get your ass-load of different introductions merged into ONE introduction thread. It makes it easy on everyone reading them to get a feel for who you are and how you go about quitting. PM a moderator and ask them to do this for you. You can use your introduction thread as an ongoing personal journal. You only need one.
2) When you get done with June, you have some info that will help your new group (August). You should know what is expected: How did it happen, Why did it happen, and What are you doing (and will do) differently now?
JMHO
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Ballplayer
I combined your multiple introductions. Please use this one as your personal blog from this point forward. If you have a random thought, put it here. There is no need to start another thread.
As I was fixing this, I noticed 3 of the threads discussed mouth sores and the fact that to date, everything has been okay. You are one lucky sumbitch.
The other intro was titled "I get it". From what I read, you don't.