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Title: Glad to be here
Post by: jonfbolton on January 17, 2010, 09:38:00 AM
I found this group on day 16 of my quit, wish I would of found it on day 1. The things I read on this site are very helpful.

I started dipping like alot of you at about 12, got serious about 15. For the last 20 years I have never gone very long without a dip. I never even wanted to quit, much less tried.

I promised my wife before we got married that I would make a real effort to quit, and never even thought of trying until she finally called me on it. I love my wife more than Skoal Original, and about 2 days after she finally mentioned it I took the last dip I will ever take.

I coach baseball and am getting ready to go face my biggest trigger, we open preseason practice today. I will get through it, but I am nervous at the moment. Thanks to all the guys who have already shown their support for me.

Skoal has seen the last $ they will get from me.


Jon
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: CaseyG on January 17, 2010, 10:05:00 AM
Quote from: jonfbolton
I found this group on day 16 of my quit, wish I would of found it on day 1. The things I read on this site are very helpful.

I started dipping like alot of you at about 12, got serious about 15. For the last 20 years I have never gone very long without a dip. I never even wanted to quit, much less tried.

I promised my wife before we got married that I would make a real effort to quit, and never even thought of trying until she finally called me on it. I love my wife more than Skoal Original, and about 2 days after she finally mentioned it I took the last dip I will ever take.

I coach baseball and am getting ready to go face my biggest trigger, we open preseason practice today. I will get through it, but I am nervous at the moment. Thanks to all the guys who have already shown their support for me.

Skoal has seen the last $ they will get from me.


Jon
Congratulations. This is one of, if not the best decision you, like us, have ever made. Welcome, take a look around. Head over to April 2010 and say hello. You can PM me direcly using the PM link below.

Triggers are everywhere. I am also facing the same baseball trigger you are. This will be my first season without chew. I am lookng forward to it.

Welcome, CaseyG
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: CaseyG on January 17, 2010, 10:23:00 AM
Quote from: CaseyG
Quote from: jonfbolton
I found this group on day 16 of my quit, wish I would of found it on day 1.  The things I read on this site are very helpful.

I started dipping like alot of you at about 12, got serious about 15.  For the last 20 years I have never gone very long without a dip.  I never even wanted to quit, much less tried.

I promised my wife before we got married that I would make a real effort to quit, and never even thought of trying until she finally called me on it.  I love my wife more than Skoal Original, and about 2 days after she finally mentioned it I took the last dip I will ever take.

I coach baseball and am getting ready to go face my biggest trigger, we open preseason practice today.  I will get through it, but I am nervous at the moment.  Thanks to all the guys who have already shown their support for me.

Skoal has seen the last $ they will get from me.


Jon
Congratulations. This is one of, if not the best decision you, like us, have ever made. Welcome, take a look around. Head over to April 2010 and say hello. You can PM me direcly using the PM link below.

Triggers are everywhere. I am also facing the same baseball trigger you are. This will be my first season without chew. I am lookng forward to it.

Welcome, CaseyG
That quit date puts you in the April 2010 quit group, here:
index.php?showtopic=2920 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=2920)

Read everything on this page, and then go post roll in Apr 2010:
http://www.killthecan.org/community/welcome.asp, Welcome (http://www.killthecan.org/community/welcome.asp)

HOW TO POST ROLL CALL
FOR Newbies!!!

Step 1 - Find the last Roll Call
Step 2 - Hit the "Quote" button in the upper right hand corner.
Step 3 - Click your mouse ANYWHERE in The bottom Box
Step 4 - Hit Ctrl and "A" at the Same time so it looks like THIS
Step 5 - Hit Ctrl and "X" at the same time so there is NOTHING in Either Box
Step 6 - Click your mouse in the TOP BOX
Step 7 - Hit Ctrl and "V" at the same time to Past the info into the top box AND ADD YOUR info to the bottom of the list
Step 8 - Hit ADD REPLY below the bottom box
Step 9 - Go back to the 1st unread post, pat yourself on the back, and have a beer cause you will not be dipping today.

For a graphical representation of these instructions, please visit http://www.killthecan.org/roll/ (http://www.killthecan.org/roll/)

Welcome aboard. You can do this.
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: jonfbolton on January 17, 2010, 07:47:00 PM
Made it through the first day of practice. Wasn't easy with all the dip around me, but it did help to think about what I have read here. Screw the dip for having this much control over me even if I am not having any.
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: MikeA on January 17, 2010, 08:11:00 PM
where do you coach baseball?
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: jonfbolton on January 17, 2010, 08:52:00 PM
Southern University in Baton Rouge
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: Phat Pauly on January 17, 2010, 08:53:00 PM
Nice work Jon.

That'll be a toughie for me too.... they've always gone hand in hand... dip and baseball. That's how I started.

Congrats on making it through the day!
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: jonfbolton on January 18, 2010, 05:56:00 PM
Found an old can in my desk today and thanks to good people here got through it. Thank you can't begin to describe what ya'll deserve.
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: chewie on January 18, 2010, 06:02:00 PM
Quote from: jonfbolton
Found an old can in my desk today and thanks to good people here got through it. Thank you can't begin to describe what ya'll deserve.
That right there is awesome - well done!
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: Skoal Monster on January 18, 2010, 11:28:00 PM
Quote from: iuchewie
Quote from: jonfbolton
Found an old can in my desk today and thanks to good people here got through it.  Thank you can't begin to describe what ya'll deserve.
That right there is awesome - well done!
Nice, I hate finding the old cans. well done indeed. .......But I CAN describe it.

I deserve a private Island full of bikinni models and a butler and a Lamborgini and a suite in Vegas and a bank account with at least 7 commas , and a private jet, and a...................

sM
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: ChoosingIntegrity on January 19, 2010, 12:37:00 AM
Quote from: Skoal
Quote from: iuchewie
Quote from: jonfbolton
Found an old can in my desk today and thanks to good people here got through it.  Thank you can't begin to describe what ya'll deserve.
That right there is awesome - well done!
Nice, I hate finding the old cans. well done indeed. .......But I CAN describe it.

I deserve a private Island full of bikinni models and a butler and a Lamborgini and a suite in Vegas and a bank account with at least 7 commas , and a private jet, and a...................

sM
Awww sheeeeeeit... I'm all over that!!!
I think I deserve to visit sM's island, but... since his won't be all private-like if I do, I think you'll have to fix one up for me, too!
Jon, you rock, Bruth'a!
Looking forward to my first class flight to French Polynesiaaaaaahhhhhhhhh..........
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: Rook on January 19, 2010, 08:03:00 AM
Quote from: jonfbolton
Southern University in Baton Rouge
Ha Ha! No $hit??!!

Played baseball at GSU. Former Tiger. What's up Jag?
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: jonfbolton on January 19, 2010, 08:15:00 AM
Quote from: jonfbolton
Southern University in Baton Rouge
Ha Ha! No $hit??!!

Played baseball at GSU. Former Tiger. What's up Jag?

When were you there?
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: Rook on January 19, 2010, 10:48:00 AM
93-97
B.B.A.
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: jonfbolton on January 19, 2010, 04:00:00 PM
Quote from: Rook
93-97
B.B.A.
You played for Randle and Rey?
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: jonfbolton on January 19, 2010, 05:53:00 PM
Quote from: jonfbolton
Quote from: Rook
93-97
B.B.A.
You played for Randle and Rey?
Sorry lost a decade you played for Ellis
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: Rook on January 19, 2010, 07:56:00 PM
Quote from: jonfbolton
Quote from: jonfbolton
Quote from: Rook
93-97
B.B.A.
You played for Randle and Rey?
Sorry lost a decade you played for Ellis
Wilbert Ellis Dat's right! Keep up the good work with the quit jon. This site works wonders and I love it here! Good luck this season. GSU and LA are a long ways behind me but it's good to see someone from the SWAC in here.
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: jonfbolton on January 22, 2010, 09:02:00 AM
I think I am losing my mind. I have started dreaming of taking dips. That is getting pathetic.
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: bman50317 on January 22, 2010, 09:08:00 AM
Quote from: jonfbolton
I think I am losing my mind. I have started dreaming of taking dips. That is getting pathetic.
Nahhhh you are getting better and stronger each day. Dip Dreams are kinda crazy. I had them, scare the shit out me. Thought I really messed up. They are only dreams though and not real. Quitting each day is real though. Hang in there!
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: Skoal Monster on January 23, 2010, 06:11:00 PM
Quote from: bman50317
Quote from: jonfbolton
I think I am losing my mind.  I have started dreaming of taking dips.  That is getting pathetic.
Nahhhh you are getting better and stronger each day. Dip Dreams are kinda crazy. I had them, scare the shit out me. Thought I really messed up. They are only dreams though and not real. Quitting each day is real though. Hang in there!
The best is the double pump fake dip dream.

You dream you are chewing and then wake up all freaked out from it until you realize it wasn't a dream because the empty tin is right there so now your REALLY fucked and THEN you wake up. and realize that ALL of it was a dream. When you have one of those MOFO's then you can whine
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: jonfbolton on January 23, 2010, 07:10:00 PM
Quote from: Skoal
Quote from: bman50317
Quote from: jonfbolton
I think I am losing my mind.  I have started dreaming of taking dips.  That is getting pathetic.
Nahhhh you are getting better and stronger each day. Dip Dreams are kinda crazy. I had them, scare the shit out me. Thought I really messed up. They are only dreams though and not real. Quitting each day is real though. Hang in there!
The best is the double pump fake dip dream.

You dream you are chewing and then wake up all freaked out from it until you realize it wasn't a dream because the empty tin is right there so now your REALLY fucked and THEN you wake up. and realize that ALL of it was a dream. When you have one of those MOFO's then you can whine
Sounds good I'll shut up till then
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: jonfbolton on January 31, 2010, 10:18:00 AM
I have made it to the day I originally gave myself permission to have a dip on. I will not have it. I am not and will never be the most active poster on this site, but I read something on it just about everyday.

I appreciate the people who spend so much of their time helping others on this site. The site has become a tool as much as my family in helping me quit.

Just wanted to say thanks on day 41 of my quit.

Jon
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: jonfbolton on February 03, 2010, 10:03:00 AM
I have nearly stopped at two stores this morning. I had to get to the computer to sign role. I am not happy with myself for being this weak.

I will make it through this.

Just venting a little typing since I can't yell out loud right now.
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: vh5150 on February 03, 2010, 11:11:00 AM
Quote from: jonfbolton
I have nearly stopped at two stores this morning. I had to get to the computer to sign role. I am not happy with myself for being this weak.

I will make it through this.

Just venting a little typing since I can't yell out loud right now.
I've been there. You done the right thing. Sometimes posting roll is the only thing that saves my quit.
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: greg40 on February 03, 2010, 11:29:00 AM
Quote from: vh5150
Quote from: jonfbolton
I have nearly stopped at two stores this morning.  I had to get to the computer to sign role.  I am not happy with myself for being this weak. 

I will make it through this. 

Just venting a little typing since I can't yell out loud right now.
I've been there. You done the right thing. Sometimes posting roll is the only thing that saves my quit.
Dude, you should be very happy with yourself. This is outstanding!! You are not being weak...You have the nasty bitch in a choke hold!!! You got this!! Great fucking work! :D
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: jonfbolton on February 11, 2010, 02:54:00 PM
So I couldn't sleep last night, and grabbed the laptop from beside the bed, I logged on to tthis site. Well it was about 4 a.m. so I decided I would go ahead and post roll for the day. Just before I did that I reached over to the nightstand and grabbed a can of Skoal and put a dip in. I woke up soon after that ready to throw stuff out the window. It was a very vivd dream, and I am not sure I didn't spit in my water glass.


Does this stuff ever end?
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: RAZD611 on February 11, 2010, 02:57:00 PM
Quote from: jonfbolton
So I couldn't sleep last night, and grabbed the laptop from beside the bed, I logged on to tthis site. Well it was about 4 a.m. so I decided I would go ahead and post roll for the day. Just before I did that I reached over to the nightstand and grabbed a can of Skoal and put a dip in. I woke up soon after that ready to throw stuff out the window. It was a very vivd dream, and I am not sure I didn't spit in my water glass.


Does this stuff ever end?
Cant promise it will ever end, but I can promise you it will get better. SO MUCH BETTER!
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: Skoal Monster on February 11, 2010, 03:09:00 PM
Quote from: razd611
Quote from: jonfbolton
So I couldn't sleep last night, and grabbed the laptop from beside the bed, I logged on to tthis site.  Well it was about 4 a.m. so I decided I would go ahead and post roll for the day.  Just before I did that I reached over to the nightstand and grabbed a can of Skoal and put a dip in.  I woke up soon after that ready to throw stuff out the window.  It was a very vivd dream, and I am not sure I didn't spit in my water glass. 


Does this stuff ever end?
Cant promise it will ever end, but I can promise you it will get better. SO MUCH BETTER!
Gets easier and easier until the biggest risk to your quit is forgetting how shitty it was in the beginning. Just keep taking it bit by bit, you got this
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: CHUGG on February 11, 2010, 03:22:00 PM
Quote from: Skoal
Quote from: iuchewie
Quote from: jonfbolton
Found an old can in my desk today and thanks to good people here got through it.  Thank you can't begin to describe what ya'll deserve.
That right there is awesome - well done!
Nice, I hate finding the old cans. well done indeed. .......But I CAN describe it.

I deserve a private Island full of bikinni models and a butler and a Lamborgini and a suite in Vegas and a bank account with at least 7 commas , and a private jet, and a...................

sM
'crackup'
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: GlennFtheKodiak on February 11, 2010, 03:51:00 PM
Quote from: Skoal
Quote from: razd611
Quote from: jonfbolton
So I couldn't sleep last night, and grabbed the laptop from beside the bed, I logged on to tthis site.  Well it was about 4 a.m. so I decided I would go ahead and post roll for the day.  Just before I did that I reached over to the nightstand and grabbed a can of Skoal and put a dip in.  I woke up soon after that ready to throw stuff out the window.  It was a very vivd dream, and I am not sure I didn't spit in my water glass. 


Does this stuff ever end?
Cant promise it will ever end, but I can promise you it will get better. SO MUCH BETTER!
Gets easier and easier until the biggest risk to your quit is forgetting how shitty it was in the beginning. Just keep taking it bit by bit, you got this
you scared me for a second, I thought you caved.

those dreams do suck, but as far as I know they never end. haven't had one in a few months, so i'm hoping maybe i am wrong.

as scary as it is to wake up thinking you fucked up, isn't it equally as good, or even better to know you are still quit? i love that...
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: jRock on February 11, 2010, 03:54:00 PM
Quote from: FtheKodiak
Quote from: Skoal
Quote from: razd611
Quote from: jonfbolton
So I couldn't sleep last night, and grabbed the laptop from beside the bed, I logged on to tthis site.  Well it was about 4 a.m. so I decided I would go ahead and post roll for the day.  Just before I did that I reached over to the nightstand and grabbed a can of Skoal and put a dip in.  I woke up soon after that ready to throw stuff out the window.  It was a very vivd dream, and I am not sure I didn't spit in my water glass. 


Does this stuff ever end?
Cant promise it will ever end, but I can promise you it will get better. SO MUCH BETTER!
Gets easier and easier until the biggest risk to your quit is forgetting how shitty it was in the beginning. Just keep taking it bit by bit, you got this
you scared me for a second, I thought you caved.

those dreams do suck, but as far as I know they never end. haven't had one in a few months, so i'm hoping maybe i am wrong.

as scary as it is to wake up thinking you fucked up, isn't it equally as good, or even better to know you are still quit? i love that...
When I first read that I thought 'oh noooooooooooooo'. Good to know it was just a dream
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: SeattleCJ on February 11, 2010, 04:07:00 PM
Quote from: jRock
Quote from: FtheKodiak
Quote from: Skoal
Quote from: razd611
Quote from: jonfbolton
So I couldn't sleep last night, and grabbed the laptop from beside the bed, I logged on to tthis site.  Well it was about 4 a.m. so I decided I would go ahead and post roll for the day.  Just before I did that I reached over to the nightstand and grabbed a can of Skoal and put a dip in.  I woke up soon after that ready to throw stuff out the window.  It was a very vivd dream, and I am not sure I didn't spit in my water glass. 


Does this stuff ever end?
Cant promise it will ever end, but I can promise you it will get better. SO MUCH BETTER!
Gets easier and easier until the biggest risk to your quit is forgetting how shitty it was in the beginning. Just keep taking it bit by bit, you got this
you scared me for a second, I thought you caved.

those dreams do suck, but as far as I know they never end. haven't had one in a few months, so i'm hoping maybe i am wrong.

as scary as it is to wake up thinking you fucked up, isn't it equally as good, or even better to know you are still quit? i love that...
When I first read that I thought 'oh noooooooooooooo'. Good to know it was just a dream
Those dreams are an amazing thing aren't they? I have had 3 in the past 168 days and I am still amazed by how real they feel when I wake up.

Stay strong! Stay quit!
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: Mij on February 11, 2010, 05:08:00 PM
Quote from: TampaCJ
Quote from: jRock
Quote from: FtheKodiak
Quote from: Skoal
Quote from: razd611
Quote from: jonfbolton
So I couldn't sleep last night, and grabbed the laptop from beside the bed, I logged on to tthis site.  Well it was about 4 a.m. so I decided I would go ahead and post roll for the day.  Just before I did that I reached over to the nightstand and grabbed a can of Skoal and put a dip in.  I woke up soon after that ready to throw stuff out the window.  It was a very vivd dream, and I am not sure I didn't spit in my water glass. 


Does this stuff ever end?
Cant promise it will ever end, but I can promise you it will get better. SO MUCH BETTER!
Gets easier and easier until the biggest risk to your quit is forgetting how shitty it was in the beginning. Just keep taking it bit by bit, you got this
you scared me for a second, I thought you caved.

those dreams do suck, but as far as I know they never end. haven't had one in a few months, so i'm hoping maybe i am wrong.

as scary as it is to wake up thinking you fucked up, isn't it equally as good, or even better to know you are still quit? i love that...
When I first read that I thought 'oh noooooooooooooo'. Good to know it was just a dream
Those dreams are an amazing thing aren't they? I have had 3 in the past 168 days and I am still amazed by how real they feel when I wake up.

Stay strong! Stay quit!
I still have occasional dip dreams at 900 days quit, but there easy to blow off.
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: jonfbolton on February 19, 2010, 09:16:00 AM
Is it still illegal to kill dumbass clients that call you with problems before the start of the business day when you are out of town?
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: jonfbolton on February 25, 2010, 06:05:00 PM
Boss asked me to buy him a can while I was out on the road today. Felt awkward asking for something other than a can of skoal fine cut. Had a slight urge, but fought through it. I don't suggest I do that again.
Title: Re: Glad to be here
Post by: MikeA on February 25, 2010, 06:35:00 PM
Quote from: jonfbolton
Boss asked me to buy him a can while I was out on the road today. Felt awkward asking for something other than a can of skoal fine cut. Had a slight urge, but fought through it. I don't suggest I do that again.
The boss can take a flying leap. I would not jepordize my quit for anyone....ANYONE.