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Title: A little encuragement please...
Post by: divinedichotomy on June 26, 2012, 01:02:00 AM
Hi...so, I guess this is where we are supposed to post our Introductions. I have been to the Chat room a couple times, and while I admit, I got my ass handed to me, I am still glad I came.

Let me tell you my story....

I am a 31 y/o white female. I have been dipping for probably about 8 years now, about a can of Skoal Mint Longcut a day. I fucking love that shit. I fucking hate it too. I started dipping as a way to stop smoking. I only smoked about 5 cigarettes a day, and now I am worse off. I am very happily married and trying to have a baby, and dipping just is NOT in line with my vision of bearing a child!

My husband has never dipped, never smoked, and is an all-around awesome guy. He does not understand what I am going through as a dipper. He thinks I should just be able to quit and there is nothing to it.

The problem is that I come from a family of ADDICTS. We are ALL addicted to something. It's so fucked up that I am actually proud of myself for only being addicted to dip! My brother is working out a drug-related felony and just got off methadone for narcotic addiction. I have lost an Uncle to alcoholism and have 2 other Uncles on their way. The rest of my family is either majorly OCD (I believe it's a different expression of the same gene) or addicted to food, gambling, or some other bullshit. Let me tell you again- with my dip addiction, I am like the family pride. The thing is, no one in my family knows about my dip addiction, NO ONE. I have been so embarrassed and ashamed, no one knows.

Let me tell you WHY. I am a fucking REGISTERED NURSE. YEP. I am incredibly intelligent. My family relies on me as the "family nurse". I make a shit ton of money. I have been a Director, and am currently an Auditor for Uncle Sam. I KNOW BETTER. I can manage an organization of healthcare providers, but I can't manage my own silly little addiction.

The last week has been a real eye-opener for me. I want to quit dipping. I am ready. I WILL QUIT. BUT- I know myself well enough to know that if I quit before I am ready, it won't stick. I have tried and failed before. That has been my problem in the Chat room. I came there b/c I knew I was ready to quit, and I needed to reach out for some encouragement as I mentally prepare myself this week, but I have gotten my ass chewed instead. It's ok. I get it. You all see us "non-quitters" as fakes, as jokes, as an insult to what you have achieved. But I am going to quit 6/30, I fucking swear it! 6/30 is a monumental day for me- my grandmother's birthday (who died of lung cancer), my Aunt's birthday, and my dear friend's birthday (who died of complications of a BIRTH CONTROL PILL @ 27 y/o!) I have never had ANY support but I know now, with this site, and with all of YOU, that I will finally be able to quit!!!

There is a lot more to my story, as I am sure there is to yours. I just ask that you give me the benefit of the doubt, because I know that before you know it, I will be here cheering everyone else on! We will get to know each other more soon. In the mean time, BE NICE to me...and the rest of us that are just beginning our journey!!!

Namaste,
Divinedichotomy
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: No Retreat on June 26, 2012, 01:33:00 AM
Quote from: divinedichotomy
Hi...so, I guess this is where we are supposed to post our Introductions. I have been to the Chat room a couple times, and while I admit, I got my ass handed to me, I am still glad I came.

Let me tell you my story....

I am a 31 y/o white female. I have been dipping for probably about 8 years now, about a can of Skoal Mint Longcut a day. I fucking love that shit. I fucking hate it too. I started dipping as a way to stop smoking. I only smoked about 5 cigarettes a day, and now I am worse off. I am very happily married and trying to have a baby, and dipping just is NOT in line with my vision of bearing a child!

My husband has never dipped, never smoked, and is an all-around awesome guy. He does not understand what I am going through as a dipper. He thinks I should just be able to quit and there is nothing to it.

The problem is that I come from a family of ADDICTS. We are ALL addicted to something. It's so fucked up that I am actually proud of myself for only being addicted to dip! My brother is working out a drug-related felony and just got off methadone for narcotic addiction. I have lost an Uncle to alcoholism and have 2 other Uncles on their way. The rest of my family is either majorly OCD (I believe it's a different expression of the same gene) or addicted to food, gambling, or some other bullshit. Let me tell you again- with my dip addiction, I am like the family pride. The thing is, no one in my family knows about my dip addiction, NO ONE. I have been so embarrassed and ashamed, no one knows.

Let me tell you WHY. I am a fucking REGISTERED NURSE. YEP. I am incredibly intelligent. My family relies on me as the "family nurse". I make a shit ton of money. I have been a Director, and am currently an Auditor for Uncle Sam. I KNOW BETTER. I can manage an organization of healthcare providers, but I can't manage my own silly little addiction.

The last week has been a real eye-opener for me. I want to quit dipping. I am ready. I WILL QUIT. BUT- I know myself well enough to know that if I quit before I am ready, it won't stick. I have tried and failed before. That has been my problem in the Chat room. I came there b/c I knew I was ready to quit, and I needed to reach out for some encouragement as I mentally prepare myself this week, but I have gotten my ass chewed instead. It's ok. I get it. You all see us "non-quitters" as fakes, as jokes, as an insult to what you have achieved. But I am going to quit 6/30, I fucking swear it! 6/30 is a monumental day for me- my grandmother's birthday (who died of lung cancer), my Aunt's birthday, and my dear friend's birthday (who died of complications of a BIRTH CONTROL PILL @ 27 y/o!) I have never had ANY support but I know now, with this site, and with all of YOU, that I will finally be able to quit!!!

There is a lot more to my story, as I am sure there is to yours. I just ask that you give me the benefit of the doubt, because I know that before you know it, I will be here cheering everyone else on! We will get to know each other more soon. In the mean time, BE NICE to me...and the rest of us that are just beginning our journey!!!

Namaste,
Divinedichotomy
When you're quit, THEN you can post up. But you're just a pathetic dipper right now.

I doubt I will see you on the 30th. I hope I do.. but I aint holding my breath.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: redtrain14 on June 26, 2012, 06:43:00 AM
DD

Please use some of your incredible intelligence to tell me why quitting on the 30th will be easier than today.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: mikegooch on June 26, 2012, 07:13:00 AM
please check your email.. i sent you a msg.. Gooch
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Buddy Mac on June 26, 2012, 07:59:00 AM
Quote from: divinedichotomy
Hi...so, I guess this is where we are supposed to post our Introductions.  I have been to the Chat room a couple times, and while I admit, I got my ass handed to me, I am still glad I came.

Let me tell you my story....

I am a 31 y/o white female. I have been dipping for probably about 8 years now, about a can of Skoal Mint Longcut a day. I fucking love that shit. I fucking hate it too. I started dipping as a way to stop smoking. I only smoked about 5 cigarettes a day, and now I am worse off. I am very happily married and trying to have a baby, and dipping just is NOT in line with my vision of bearing a child!

My husband has never dipped, never smoked, and is an all-around awesome guy. He does not understand what I am going through as a dipper. He thinks I should just be able to quit and there is nothing to it.

The problem is that I come from a family of ADDICTS. We are ALL addicted to something. It's so fucked up that I am actually proud of myself for only being addicted to dip! My brother is working out a drug-related felony and just got off methadone for narcotic addiction. I have lost an Uncle to alcoholism and have 2 other Uncles on their way. The rest of my family is either majorly OCD (I believe it's a different expression of the same gene) or addicted to food, gambling, or some other bullshit. Let me tell you again- with my dip addiction, I am like the family pride. The thing is, no one in my family knows about my dip addiction, NO ONE. I have been so embarrassed and ashamed, no one knows.

Let me tell you WHY. I am a fucking REGISTERED NURSE. YEP. I am incredibly intelligent. My family relies on me as the "family nurse". I make a shit ton of money. I have been a Director, and am currently an Auditor for Uncle Sam. I KNOW BETTER. I  can manage an organization of healthcare providers, but I can't manage my own silly little addiction.

The last week has been a real eye-opener for me. I want to quit dipping. I am ready. I WILL QUIT. BUT- I know myself well enough to know that if I quit before I am ready, it won't stick. I have tried and failed before. That has been my problem in the Chat room. I came there b/c I knew I was ready to quit, and I needed to reach out for some encouragement as I mentally prepare myself this week, but I have gotten my ass chewed instead. It's ok. I get it. You all see us "non-quitters" as fakes, as jokes, as an insult to what you have achieved. But I am going to quit 6/30, I fucking swear it! 6/30 is a monumental day for me- my grandmother's birthday (who died of lung cancer), my Aunt's birthday, and my dear friend's birthday (who died of complications of a BIRTH CONTROL PILL @ 27 y/o!) I have never had ANY support but I know now, with this site, and with all of YOU, that I will finally be able to quit!!!

There is a lot more to my story, as I am sure there is to yours. I just ask that you give me the benefit of the doubt, because I know that before you know it, I will be here cheering everyone else on! We will get to know each other more soon. In the mean time, BE NICE to me...and the rest of us that are just beginning our journey!!!

Namaste,
Divinedichotomy
When you're quit, THEN you can post up. But you're just a pathetic dipper right now.

I doubt I will see you on the 30th. I hope I do.. but I aint holding my breath.


Got to say I agree. I will be surprised to see her post roll on 30th. I don't know what is wrong with today myself.

Buddy Mac
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Nolaq on June 26, 2012, 08:10:00 AM
Quote from: divinedichotomy
Hi...so, I guess this is where we are supposed to post our Introductions. I have been to the Chat room a couple times, and while I admit, I got my ass handed to me, I am still glad I came.

Let me tell you my story....

I am a 31 y/o white female. I have been dipping for probably about 8 years now, about a can of Skoal Mint Longcut a day. I fucking love that shit. I fucking hate it too. I started dipping as a way to stop smoking. I only smoked about 5 cigarettes a day, and now I am worse off. I am very happily married and trying to have a baby, and dipping just is NOT in line with my vision of bearing a child!

My husband has never dipped, never smoked, and is an all-around awesome guy. He does not understand what I am going through as a dipper. He thinks I should just be able to quit and there is nothing to it.

The problem is that I come from a family of ADDICTS. We are ALL addicted to something. It's so fucked up that I am actually proud of myself for only being addicted to dip! My brother is working out a drug-related felony and just got off methadone for narcotic addiction. I have lost an Uncle to alcoholism and have 2 other Uncles on their way. The rest of my family is either majorly OCD (I believe it's a different expression of the same gene) or addicted to food, gambling, or some other bullshit. Let me tell you again- with my dip addiction, I am like the family pride. The thing is, no one in my family knows about my dip addiction, NO ONE. I have been so embarrassed and ashamed, no one knows.

Let me tell you WHY. I am a fucking REGISTERED NURSE. YEP. I am incredibly intelligent. My family relies on me as the "family nurse". I make a shit ton of money. I have been a Director, and am currently an Auditor for Uncle Sam. I KNOW BETTER. I can manage an organization of healthcare providers, but I can't manage my own silly little addiction.

The last week has been a real eye-opener for me. I want to quit dipping. I am ready. I WILL QUIT. BUT- I know myself well enough to know that if I quit before I am ready, it won't stick. I have tried and failed before. That has been my problem in the Chat room. I came there b/c I knew I was ready to quit, and I needed to reach out for some encouragement as I mentally prepare myself this week, but I have gotten my ass chewed instead. It's ok. I get it. You all see us "non-quitters" as fakes, as jokes, as an insult to what you have achieved. But I am going to quit 6/30, I fucking swear it! 6/30 is a monumental day for me- my grandmother's birthday (who died of lung cancer), my Aunt's birthday, and my dear friend's birthday (who died of complications of a BIRTH CONTROL PILL @ 27 y/o!) I have never had ANY support but I know now, with this site, and with all of YOU, that I will finally be able to quit!!!

There is a lot more to my story, as I am sure there is to yours. I just ask that you give me the benefit of the doubt, because I know that before you know it, I will be here cheering everyone else on! We will get to know each other more soon. In the mean time, BE NICE to me...and the rest of us that are just beginning our journey!!!

Namaste,
Divinedichotomy
Another butterfly that needs attention.

The only thing we plan around here is how NOT to use nicotine TODAY!

Waiting until the weekend (or any date for that matter) is just dumb. You say you're so intelligent? Then why don't you give us that college educated answer as to WHY the 30th is better than being free TODAY?

Ten bucks we don't see another post.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Notdeadyet on June 26, 2012, 08:37:00 AM
Quote from: divinedichotomy
Hi...so, I guess this is where we are supposed to post our Introductions.  I have been to the Chat room a couple times, and while I admit, I got my ass handed to me, I am still glad I came.

Let me tell you my story....

I am a 31 y/o white female. I have been dipping for probably about 8 years now, about a can of Skoal Mint Longcut a day. I fucking love that shit. I fucking hate it too. I started dipping as a way to stop smoking. I only smoked about 5 cigarettes a day, and now I am worse off. I am very happily married and trying to have a baby, and dipping just is NOT in line with my vision of bearing a child!

My husband has never dipped, never smoked, and is an all-around awesome guy. He does not understand what I am going through as a dipper. He thinks I should just be able to quit and there is nothing to it.

The problem is that I come from a family of ADDICTS. We are ALL addicted to something. It's so fucked up that I am actually proud of myself for only being addicted to dip! My brother is working out a drug-related felony and just got off methadone for narcotic addiction. I have lost an Uncle to alcoholism and have 2 other Uncles on their way. The rest of my family is either majorly OCD (I believe it's a different expression of the same gene) or addicted to food, gambling, or some other bullshit. Let me tell you again- with my dip addiction, I am like the family pride. The thing is, no one in my family knows about my dip addiction, NO ONE. I have been so embarrassed and ashamed, no one knows.

Let me tell you WHY. I am a fucking REGISTERED NURSE. YEP. I am incredibly intelligent. My family relies on me as the "family nurse". I make a shit ton of money. I have been a Director, and am currently an Auditor for Uncle Sam. I KNOW BETTER. I  can manage an organization of healthcare providers, but I can't manage my own silly little addiction.

The last week has been a real eye-opener for me. I want to quit dipping. I am ready. I WILL QUIT. BUT- I know myself well enough to know that if I quit before I am ready, it won't stick. I have tried and failed before. That has been my problem in the Chat room. I came there b/c I knew I was ready to quit, and I needed to reach out for some encouragement as I mentally prepare myself this week, but I have gotten my ass chewed instead. It's ok. I get it. You all see us "non-quitters" as fakes, as jokes, as an insult to what you have achieved. But I am going to quit 6/30, I fucking swear it! 6/30 is a monumental day for me- my grandmother's birthday (who died of lung cancer), my Aunt's birthday, and my dear friend's birthday (who died of complications of a BIRTH CONTROL PILL @ 27 y/o!) I have never had ANY support but I know now, with this site, and with all of YOU, that I will finally be able to quit!!!

There is a lot more to my story, as I am sure there is to yours. I just ask that you give me the benefit of the doubt, because I know that before you know it, I will be here cheering everyone else on! We will get to know each other more soon. In the mean time, BE NICE to me...and the rest of us that are just beginning our journey!!!

Namaste,
Divinedichotomy
You are ashamed, yet you are sucking on that cat turd right now? You are smart, but you will continue to poison yourself for 4 more days? Read your own bullshit and open your eyes.

The only way to beat your drug addiction is to stop putting nicotine in your body in any form right now. Make a promise to your October 2012 HOF group that you will not use any nicotine today by posting roll call. Keep your promise, keep your integrity, and hold your head high. Wake up and repeat tomorrow.

I get to enjoy today without any nicotine withdrawal. Bet you wish you could say the same. You can too real soon, but you have to make quitting the number one priority in your life right now!
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: T-Cell on June 26, 2012, 09:08:00 AM
Quote from: divinedichotomy
Hi...so, I guess this is where we are supposed to post our Introductions. I have been to the Chat room a couple times, and while I admit, I got my ass handed to me, I am still glad I came.

Let me tell you my story....

I am a 31 y/o white female. I have been dipping for probably about 8 years now, about a can of Skoal Mint Longcut a day. I fucking love that shit. I fucking hate it too. I started dipping as a way to stop smoking. I only smoked about 5 cigarettes a day, and now I am worse off. I am very happily married and trying to have a baby, and dipping just is NOT in line with my vision of bearing a child!

My husband has never dipped, never smoked, and is an all-around awesome guy. He does not understand what I am going through as a dipper. He thinks I should just be able to quit and there is nothing to it.

The problem is that I come from a family of ADDICTS. We are ALL addicted to something. It's so fucked up that I am actually proud of myself for only being addicted to dip! My brother is working out a drug-related felony and just got off methadone for narcotic addiction. I have lost an Uncle to alcoholism and have 2 other Uncles on their way. The rest of my family is either majorly OCD (I believe it's a different expression of the same gene) or addicted to food, gambling, or some other bullshit. Let me tell you again- with my dip addiction, I am like the family pride. The thing is, no one in my family knows about my dip addiction, NO ONE. I have been so embarrassed and ashamed, no one knows.

Let me tell you WHY. I am a fucking REGISTERED NURSE. YEP. I am incredibly intelligent. My family relies on me as the "family nurse". I make a shit ton of money. I have been a Director, and am currently an Auditor for Uncle Sam. I KNOW BETTER. I can manage an organization of healthcare providers, but I can't manage my own silly little addiction.

The last week has been a real eye-opener for me. I want to quit dipping. I am ready. I WILL QUIT. BUT- I know myself well enough to know that if I quit before I am ready, it won't stick. I have tried and failed before. That has been my problem in the Chat room. I came there b/c I knew I was ready to quit, and I needed to reach out for some encouragement as I mentally prepare myself this week, but I have gotten my ass chewed instead. It's ok. I get it. You all see us "non-quitters" as fakes, as jokes, as an insult to what you have achieved. But I am going to quit 6/30, I fucking swear it! 6/30 is a monumental day for me- my grandmother's birthday (who died of lung cancer), my Aunt's birthday, and my dear friend's birthday (who died of complications of a BIRTH CONTROL PILL @ 27 y/o!) I have never had ANY support but I know now, with this site, and with all of YOU, that I will finally be able to quit!!!

There is a lot more to my story, as I am sure there is to yours. I just ask that you give me the benefit of the doubt, because I know that before you know it, I will be here cheering everyone else on! We will get to know each other more soon. In the mean time, BE NICE to me...and the rest of us that are just beginning our journey!!!

Namaste,
Divinedichotomy
DD- You are special, just like everyone else here at KTC. We are all addicts, thats why we are here.
Do you really think you are the only one here with addictive personality traits? Do you really think you are the only super smart person with addictive personality traits? Or that many of us don't have the same familial issues or worse (believe me, some are way worse than what you describe). And do you really think we would be telling you to quit NOW if we didn't have more collective knowledge and wisdom about managing our addictions?
Get over yourself and face the true facts. You admit the addiction part, which is great because a lot of people think they just have a bad habit. But you seem willing to blame genes rather than yourself for continuing despite your high intelligence. Quit doing that. You can manage your addiction and be nicotine free. But you have to grow up and own your quit.
It isn't easy, but it is simple. If you decide to go all in and quit, send me a PM and I'll help you. It is that simple.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: No Retreat on June 26, 2012, 09:14:00 AM
Quote from: TonySelle
Quote from: divinedichotomy
Hi...so, I guess this is where we are supposed to post our Introductions.  I have been to the Chat room a couple times, and while I admit, I got my ass handed to me, I am still glad I came.

Let me tell you my story....

I am a 31 y/o white female. I have been dipping for probably about 8 years now, about a can of Skoal Mint Longcut a day. I fucking love that shit. I fucking hate it too. I started dipping as a way to stop smoking. I only smoked about 5 cigarettes a day, and now I am worse off. I am very happily married and trying to have a baby, and dipping just is NOT in line with my vision of bearing a child!

My husband has never dipped, never smoked, and is an all-around awesome guy. He does not understand what I am going through as a dipper. He thinks I should just be able to quit and there is nothing to it.

The problem is that I come from a family of ADDICTS. We are ALL addicted to something. It's so fucked up that I am actually proud of myself for only being addicted to dip! My brother is working out a drug-related felony and just got off methadone for narcotic addiction. I have lost an Uncle to alcoholism and have 2 other Uncles on their way. The rest of my family is either majorly OCD (I believe it's a different expression of the same gene) or addicted to food, gambling, or some other bullshit. Let me tell you again- with my dip addiction, I am like the family pride. The thing is, no one in my family knows about my dip addiction, NO ONE. I have been so embarrassed and ashamed, no one knows.

Let me tell you WHY. I am a fucking REGISTERED NURSE. YEP. I am incredibly intelligent. My family relies on me as the "family nurse". I make a shit ton of money. I have been a Director, and am currently an Auditor for Uncle Sam. I KNOW BETTER. I  can manage an organization of healthcare providers, but I can't manage my own silly little addiction.

The last week has been a real eye-opener for me. I want to quit dipping. I am ready. I WILL QUIT. BUT- I know myself well enough to know that if I quit before I am ready, it won't stick. I have tried and failed before. That has been my problem in the Chat room. I came there b/c I knew I was ready to quit, and I needed to reach out for some encouragement as I mentally prepare myself this week, but I have gotten my ass chewed instead. It's ok. I get it. You all see us "non-quitters" as fakes, as jokes, as an insult to what you have achieved. But I am going to quit 6/30, I fucking swear it! 6/30 is a monumental day for me- my grandmother's birthday (who died of lung cancer), my Aunt's birthday, and my dear friend's birthday (who died of complications of a BIRTH CONTROL PILL @ 27 y/o!) I have never had ANY support but I know now, with this site, and with all of YOU, that I will finally be able to quit!!!

There is a lot more to my story, as I am sure there is to yours. I just ask that you give me the benefit of the doubt, because I know that before you know it, I will be here cheering everyone else on! We will get to know each other more soon. In the mean time, BE NICE to me...and the rest of us that are just beginning our journey!!!

Namaste,
Divinedichotomy
DD- You are special, just like everyone else here at KTC. We are all addicts, thats why we are here.
Do you really think you are the only one here with addictive personality traits? Do you really think you are the only super smart person with addictive personality traits? Or that many of us don't have the same familial issues or worse (believe me, some are way worse than what you describe). And do you really think we would be telling you to quit NOW if we didn't have more collective knowledge and wisdom about managing our addictions?
Get over yourself and face the true facts. You admit the addiction part, which is great because a lot of people think they just have a bad habit. But you seem willing to blame genes rather than yourself for continuing despite your high intelligence. Quit doing that. You can manage your addiction and be nicotine free. But you have to grow up and own your quit.
It isn't easy, but it is simple. If you decide to go all in and quit, send me a PM and I'll help you. It is that simple.
:wub:
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: raiderx on June 26, 2012, 09:31:00 AM
DD

This shit is easy yet it is the hardest thing you will ever do.
Most of us on this site knew better than to stick that shit in our lips.
First thing to do is recognize you are an addict and it seems you have done that. You are half way there. Further ahead than when I started.
Next, there is no quick fix, this is going to suck but you need to learn to love the suck.
Finally, make sure you are quitting for you and you alone. Be selfish

But the great thing is all that you need to do to quit is this

1. Post Roll
2. Quit fot Today
3. Repeat tomorrow

You see DD the thing most people do is quit forever or quit for someone else. You see that does not work. Forever is a long time and if you quit for someone else you will soon resent that person for taking away your little filthy friend.

PROMISE YOURSELF YOU WILL QUIT FOR TODAY
LET TOMORROW WAIT.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Wt57 on June 26, 2012, 09:54:00 AM
Quote from: divinedichotomy
Hi...so, I guess this is where we are supposed to post our Introductions.  I have been to the Chat room a couple times, and while I admit, I got my ass handed to me, I am still glad I came.

Let me tell you my story....

I am a 31 y/o white female. I have been dipping for probably about 8 years now, about a can of Skoal Mint Longcut a day. I fucking love that shit. I fucking hate it too. I started dipping as a way to stop smoking. I only smoked about 5 cigarettes a day, and now I am worse off. I am very happily married and trying to have a baby, and dipping just is NOT in line with my vision of bearing a child!

My husband has never dipped, never smoked, and is an all-around awesome guy. He does not understand what I am going through as a dipper. He thinks I should just be able to quit and there is nothing to it.

The problem is that I come from a family of ADDICTS. We are ALL addicted to something. It's so fucked up that I am actually proud of myself for only being addicted to dip! My brother is working out a drug-related felony and just got off methadone for narcotic addiction. I have lost an Uncle to alcoholism and have 2 other Uncles on their way. The rest of my family is either majorly OCD (I believe it's a different expression of the same gene) or addicted to food, gambling, or some other bullshit. Let me tell you again- with my dip addiction, I am like the family pride. The thing is, no one in my family knows about my dip addiction, NO ONE. I have been so embarrassed and ashamed, no one knows.

Let me tell you WHY. I am a fucking REGISTERED NURSE. YEP. I am incredibly intelligent. My family relies on me as the "family nurse". I make a shit ton of money. I have been a Director, and am currently an Auditor for Uncle Sam. I KNOW BETTER. I  can manage an organization of healthcare providers, but I can't manage my own silly little addiction.

The last week has been a real eye-opener for me. I want to quit dipping. I am ready. I WILL QUIT. BUT- I know myself well enough to know that if I quit before I am ready, it won't stick. I have tried and failed before. That has been my problem in the Chat room. I came there b/c I knew I was ready to quit, and I needed to reach out for some encouragement as I mentally prepare myself this week, but I have gotten my ass chewed instead. It's ok. I get it. You all see us "non-quitters" as fakes, as jokes, as an insult to what you have achieved. But I am going to quit 6/30, I fucking swear it! 6/30 is a monumental day for me- my grandmother's birthday (who died of lung cancer), my Aunt's birthday, and my dear friend's birthday (who died of complications of a BIRTH CONTROL PILL @ 27 y/o!) I have never had ANY support but I know now, with this site, and with all of YOU, that I will finally be able to quit!!!

There is a lot more to my story, as I am sure there is to yours. I just ask that you give me the benefit of the doubt, because I know that before you know it, I will be here cheering everyone else on! We will get to know each other more soon. In the mean time, BE NICE to me...and the rest of us that are just beginning our journey!!!

Namaste,
Divinedichotomy
DD you want everyone to be kind and treat you special your in the wrong place! You earn respect here and if you treat your quit serious you get respect! You half ass approach your quit and find excuses for everything your gonna get your smart ass handed to you on a exam table. You quit now you might make it you wait you might make it. You whine before you even start, you will cave!

You want to see some real quiters in October look at Sambo and Vin they jumped right in and Quit!
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: wastepanel on June 26, 2012, 10:03:00 AM
Quitting is ugly. It can get mean and nasty, and it can leave you curled up in the fetal position looking for mercy.

If you can't take simple truths about yourself at face value, then you will never quit.

We don't give excuses here. We simply quit and support each other. We have a process that is simple, but sometimes it's not easy. We post roll. We keep our word. We repeat.

If you are pulling bullshit tactics that will lead to your failure, we will call you out. This is a support group, and we've heard it many times.

If you quit today, the poison would be out of your system by the 30th.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: p23 on June 26, 2012, 10:57:00 AM
Strange, you got the same response here as you did in the chat room. Go figure.

"I can't quit yet, I have a test."
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: ktharp307 on June 26, 2012, 11:02:00 AM
The 30th has great significants for you but how great would it be to tell those you have lost that you have been quit for four days your body is starting to recover from the fog and you are going to beat the shit out of this addiction. I am not an expert but I have quit and would like you to quit with october and the rest of use on this site.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: No Retreat on June 26, 2012, 11:34:00 AM
Quote from: p23
Strange, you got the same response here as you did in the chat room. Go figure.

"I can't quit yet, I have a test."
LMAO... Took me a second to realize what your Avatar was doing.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Scowick65 on June 26, 2012, 12:56:00 PM
You are not a unique and special butterfly, you are a drug addict. We should know. We are too. Spare us the drug addict talk. It works most everywhere but not in a den of addicts.

Whether nicotine dependency was established and/or maintained by being chewed, smoked, drank, snuffed, sprayed, swallowed, sucked, licked or patched, in the end there is only one way out - no nicotine today.

Post up girlfriend and you will not believe the support you will receive.

Scodaddy.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: syndrome on June 26, 2012, 01:22:00 PM
Quote from: redtrain14
DD

Please use some of your incredible intelligence to tell me why quitting on the 30th will be easier than today.
in deed. you say you are smart. you say you no better. then you chooze to spin the silinder and put that pistel to your head for just a few more days. just be glad it aint clip loaded.

we can list tons a bad shit what cood happin in 4 days. i aint seen a list a good shit what cood happin if you keep dippin those 4 days.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Scowick65 on June 26, 2012, 01:48:00 PM
Quote from: Scowick65
You are not a unique and special butterfly, you are a drug addict. We should know. We are too. Spare us the drug addict talk. It works most everywhere but not in a den of addicts.

Whether nicotine dependency was established and/or maintained by being chewed, smoked, drank, snuffed, sprayed, swallowed, sucked, licked or patched, in the end there is only one way out - no nicotine today.

Post up girlfriend and you will not believe the support you will receive.

Scodaddy.
The best thing about this thread is Kermy the frog. Why wait til tomorrow when you can do it now says the frog.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Kubrick on June 26, 2012, 09:04:00 PM
Shit, should I hold my breath until the 30th?????

Nah, I'm guessing DD will keep humping that can.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Timeless117 on June 26, 2012, 09:10:00 PM
She's got a test that she needs to study for. Claims that her attention will be better if she's dipping. She's hung out on chat a few times and each time I told her to quit or leave. I highly doubt that were going to be seeing her. She is so intelligent yet she lets a plant make her a complete idiot.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Kubrick on June 26, 2012, 10:32:00 PM
Quote from: Timeless117
She's got a test that she needs to study for. Claims that her attention will be better if she's dipping. She's hung out on chat a few times and each time I told her to quit or leave. I highly doubt that were going to be seeing her. She is so intelligent yet she lets a plant make her a complete idiot.
To be fair, I know how an addict's mind works since I am one. I even created an account and lurked around on this site 3 months before I worked up the balls to quit. I didn't post anything until I did quit though.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Bruce on June 26, 2012, 10:53:00 PM
Divine, I told you what it would take for me to believe you. You didn't do it, not even once!! How am I suppose to believe you're gonna quit on the 30th if you can't send one simple text?
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: klark on June 27, 2012, 03:23:00 PM
I am curious to why you are lurking on the site yet not quitting? Here is something to think about, if you had spent the effort of fighting about a quit date into actually quitting, your body would be nicotine free tomorrow morning. You could have been that much farther away from nicotine, two days of freedom thrown away to bang a can. What if today's the day the dip decided to give you cancer? Will it have been worth it? If you quit today, you would still be nicotine free your quit date. It won't get any easier on the 30th.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Seth on June 27, 2012, 04:20:00 PM
Quote from: klark
I am curious to why you are lurking on the site yet not quitting? Here is something to think about, if you had spent the effort of fighting about a quit date into actually quitting, your body would be nicotine free tomorrow morning. You could have been that much farther away from nicotine, two days of freedom thrown away to bang a can. What if today's the day the dip decided to give you cancer? Will it have been worth it? If you quit today, you would still be nicotine free your quit date. It won't get any easier on the 30th.
I wonder why you guys accept the "I'm so smart argument."

Clearly she isn't. A smart person wouldn't continue to increase their chance of having their face cut off.

This one is full of bullshit. There will always be another test, or some other reason why today isn't the day to quit.

Get to quittin' or get to gettin'.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Nolaq on June 27, 2012, 04:34:00 PM
Quote from: Seth
Quote from: klark
I am curious to why you are lurking on the site yet not quitting?  Here is something to think about, if you had spent the effort of fighting about a quit date into actually quitting, your body would be nicotine free tomorrow morning.  You could have been that much farther away from nicotine, two days of freedom thrown away to bang a can.  What if today's the day the dip decided to give you cancer?  Will it have been worth it?  If you quit today, you would still be nicotine free your quit date.  It won't get any easier on the 30th.
I wonder why you guys accept the "I'm so smart argument."

Clearly she isn't. A smart person wouldn't continue to increase their chance of having their face cut off.

This one is full of bullshit. There will always be another test, or some other reason why today isn't the day to quit.

Get to quittin' or get to gettin'.
Oh C'mon you two, don't you know it's like really REALLY hard to stop dipping?

Lay off a little and show some respect, man, I mean, it's like REALLY hard when you're so smart and busy and everything...

_
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: shoogie on June 27, 2012, 07:05:00 PM
I sure am thankful that I lack the superior intelligence that DD has. If I were as smart as she is I may have decided against starting my quit 32 days ago and just kept piling the cancer turds into my face instead of enjoying the freedom that I have aquired, but hey, what do I know, I'm just a simple creature compared to the genius that is DD.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Wt57 on June 27, 2012, 07:17:00 PM
I see we are still counting days! My bet the 4th of July would be one hell of a day to celebrate, or maybe not!
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Scowick65 on June 27, 2012, 07:44:00 PM
Thus far, you get an F, as in Fail.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Tsmith17 on June 27, 2012, 09:16:00 PM
Quote from: Wt57
I see we are still counting days! My bet the 4th of July would be one hell of a day to celebrate, or maybe not!
Hell maybe it would be better to wait till next year........
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Nolaq on June 28, 2012, 08:57:00 AM
Quote from: tsmith17
Quote from: Wt57
I see we are still counting days!  My bet the 4th of July would be one hell of a day to celebrate, or maybe not!
Hell maybe it would be better to wait till next year........
No no no no you guys...you all just don't get it.

She's DIFFERENT.

You all just aren't smart enough to understand, but I get it DD. We'll see you in two days!

...I just hope one of those millions of cells you are currently destroying doesn't decide to mutate between now and then...

WAIT! You're an RN! YOU can just treat YOURSELF when you get cancer! Way to go!
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: shoogie on June 30, 2012, 08:47:00 AM
Today's the day. Any bets if we see her or not?
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Greg5280 on June 30, 2012, 08:55:00 AM
Quote from: shoogie
Today's the day. Any bets if we see her or not?
My money is on NOT.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Wedge on June 30, 2012, 09:27:00 AM
Quote from: Greg5280
Quote from: shoogie
Today's the day. Any bets if we see her or not?
My money is on NOT.
She posted day 1 yesterday.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Greg5280 on June 30, 2012, 09:41:00 AM
Quote from: Wedgie
Quote from: Greg5280
Quote from: shoogie
Today's the day. Any bets if we see her or not?
My money is on NOT.
She posted day 1 yesterday.
I was talking about today.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Kubrick on June 30, 2012, 10:26:00 AM
Quote from: Greg5280
Quote from: Wedgie
Quote from: Greg5280
Quote from: shoogie
Today's the day. Any bets if we see her or not?
My money is on NOT.
She posted day 1 yesterday.
I was talking about today.
I see a day 2. This lady has got some balls.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: shoogie on June 30, 2012, 10:33:00 AM
Quote from: Kubrick
Quote from: Greg5280
Quote from: Wedgie
Quote from: Greg5280
Quote from: shoogie
Today's the day. Any bets if we see her or not?
My money is on NOT.
She posted day 1 yesterday.
I was talking about today.
I see a day 2. This lady has got some balls.
Color me impressed. Nice job DD, keep it up!
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Greg5280 on June 30, 2012, 10:39:00 AM
Quote from: shoogie
Quote from: Kubrick
Quote from: Greg5280
Quote from: Wedgie
Quote from: Greg5280
Quote from: shoogie
Today's the day. Any bets if we see her or not?
My money is on NOT.
She posted day 1 yesterday.
I was talking about today.
I see a day 2. This lady has got some balls.
Color me impressed. Nice job DD, keep it up!
Excellent ! This is one time I do not mind being wrong...

Nicely done DD !!
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Scowick65 on June 30, 2012, 03:16:00 PM
Quote from: Greg5280
Quote from: shoogie
Quote from: Kubrick
Quote from: Greg5280
Quote from: Wedgie
Quote from: Greg5280
Quote from: shoogie
Today's the day. Any bets if we see her or not?
My money is on NOT.
She posted day 1 yesterday.
I was talking about today.
I see a day 2. This lady has got some balls.
Color me impressed. Nice job DD, keep it up!
Excellent ! This is one time I do not mind being wrong...

Nicely done DD !!
Welcome to the quit. I am so glad you joined us.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: divinedichotomy on August 14, 2012, 01:46:00 AM
Wow. I am amazed at how the last (almost) 2 months has evolved. People that were giving me shit are now friends. The people that pushed me the most helped hold me accountable and I will be forever grateful. I have not dipped in 47 days. I can't believe it. It feels amazing (most of the time)! I have had a challenging few days, but never considered caving. I have burned the bridge. I will not fail myself or my quit brothers. I know that if I cave, I will lose myself. And why would I want to go down that road...through this quit, I have discovered liberty and integrity.

I will save the rest for my HOF speech. I just wanted to post something because I feel like a new woman since this thread began. I wish I could have a do-over! ;-)

I love you guys! :wub:
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: eric71 on August 14, 2012, 06:05:00 AM
Quote from: divinedichotomy
Wow. I am amazed at how the last (almost) 2 months has evolved. People that were giving me shit are now friends. The people that pushed me the most helped hold me accountable and I will be forever grateful. I have not dipped in 47 days. I can't believe it. It feels amazing (most of the time)! I have had a challenging few days, but never considered caving. I have burned the bridge. I will not fail myself or my quit brothers. I know that if I cave, I will lose myself. And why would I want to go down that road...through this quit, I have discovered liberty and integrity.

I will save the rest for my HOF speech. I just wanted to post something because I feel like a new woman since this thread began. I wish I could have a do-over! ;-)

I love you guys! :wub:
Been good to be on this journey with you Divine. Plenty of time to prepare the HOF speech. And plenty more days ahead until then. Just continue to do it how we do, one day at a time.

Proud to be QLAFM with you.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Notdeadyet on August 14, 2012, 09:04:00 AM
Quote from: divinedichotomy
Wow. I am amazed at how the last (almost) 2 months has evolved. People that were giving me shit are now friends. The people that pushed me the most helped hold me accountable and I will be forever grateful. I have not dipped in 47 days. I can't believe it. It feels amazing (most of the time)! I have had a challenging few days, but never considered caving. I have burned the bridge. I will not fail myself or my quit brothers. I know that if I cave, I will lose myself. And why would I want to go down that road...through this quit, I have discovered liberty and integrity.

I will save the rest for my HOF speech. I just wanted to post something because I feel like a new woman since this thread began. I wish I could have a do-over! ;-)

I love you guys! :wub:
Proud of you young lady, very proud. The roller coaster will continue to get easier, but never let your guard down.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: SirDerek on August 14, 2012, 09:11:00 AM
Quote from: Notdeadyet
Quote from: divinedichotomy
Wow. I am amazed at how the last (almost) 2 months has evolved. People that were giving me shit are now friends. The people that pushed me the most helped hold me accountable and I will be forever grateful. I have not dipped in 47 days. I can't believe it. It feels amazing (most of the time)! I have had a challenging few days, but never considered caving. I have burned the bridge. I will not fail myself or my quit brothers. I know that if I cave, I will lose myself. And why would I want to go down that road...through this quit, I have discovered liberty and integrity.

I will save the rest for my HOF speech. I just wanted to post something because I feel like a new woman since this thread began. I wish I could have a do-over! ;-)

I love you guys!  :wub:
Proud of you young lady, very proud. The roller coaster will continue to get easier, but never let your guard down.
Keep it going there girl, we can all kick this together, and you know how to get a hold of me if needed.

Stay Strong and on you guard.
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Tsmith17 on August 14, 2012, 08:51:00 PM
Quote from: SirDerek
Quote from: Notdeadyet
Quote from: divinedichotomy
Wow. I am amazed at how the last (almost) 2 months has evolved. People that were giving me shit are now friends. The people that pushed me the most helped hold me accountable and I will be forever grateful. I have not dipped in 47 days. I can't believe it. It feels amazing (most of the time)! I have had a challenging few days, but never considered caving. I have burned the bridge. I will not fail myself or my quit brothers. I know that if I cave, I will lose myself. And why would I want to go down that road...through this quit, I have discovered liberty and integrity.

I will save the rest for my HOF speech. I just wanted to post something because I feel like a new woman since this thread began. I wish I could have a do-over! ;-)

I love you guys!  :wub:
Proud of you young lady, very proud. The roller coaster will continue to get easier, but never let your guard down.
Keep it going there girl, we can all kick this together, and you know how to get a hold of me if needed.

Stay Strong and on you guard.
Proud of you Divine! Keep it up!
Title: Re: A little encuragement please...
Post by: Bruce on August 15, 2012, 02:16:00 AM
Quote from: tsmith17
Quote from: SirDerek
Quote from: Notdeadyet
Quote from: divinedichotomy
Wow. I am amazed at how the last (almost) 2 months has evolved. People that were giving me shit are now friends. The people that pushed me the most helped hold me accountable and I will be forever grateful. I have not dipped in 47 days. I can't believe it. It feels amazing (most of the time)! I have had a challenging few days, but never considered caving. I have burned the bridge. I will not fail myself or my quit brothers. I know that if I cave, I will lose myself. And why would I want to go down that road...through this quit, I have discovered liberty and integrity.

I will save the rest for my HOF speech. I just wanted to post something because I feel like a new woman since this thread began. I wish I could have a do-over! ;-)

I love you guys!  :wub:
Proud of you young lady, very proud. The roller coaster will continue to get easier, but never let your guard down.
Keep it going there girl, we can all kick this together, and you know how to get a hold of me if needed.

Stay Strong and on you guard.
Proud of you Divine! Keep it up!
You've grown into an amazing quitter Divine, keep it up, you're making Papa and me proud lol