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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Cornholio on January 01, 2012, 10:14:00 AM
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Quit date 11/21/11
Wished I had started this earlier. But, like quitting, it's never too late!
Username: Cornholio
Name: Mike
Age: 45
Where: Ohio in body, Maine in heart
Married: To somebody who is way more patient than I am. Two boys 9 and 11 that somehow still look up to me.
Addiction Details: Smoking started in 8th grade ('81), turned dipper in '02. Quit the cigs for a year, then started again on anniversary. Yes..on my quit date anniversary. That time, I fell for the "It's been a year, I can handle one smoke". Quit chew last year for 1 year and started again in May. NEVER, NEVER, NEVER will I doubt my addiction again. I'm here to post every day for as long as I can.
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My first roll call...uneventful, other than the fact that half of these guys are gone now :(
Today is Monday, November 21st, 2011,
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hay man you guys are a loud to post the happy birthday ktc to ya no.
February HOF Quitters:
padiddle- been away from a computer. no nic today
DasHewz50 - 8, feeling good ... real good
Slomo15-another fine quit day with February and Steve Grogan...if you focus...this becomes easier...
Bennythekid - day 6 - I will not nic today.
Tommy Dog - Lucky 13 - NDT bitches. BTW heard from TinTin - he's still quit
nbond02 - 19 - One day at a time
syn,drome - yesterday +1
marc quit day 21....thats 3 weeks
Grosstr99 - 17 - dip dream about drinking my spitter and having to reset. Yummy!
DW3-Day16
RiverRunner -21- quit with you all
themightyrenegade - Day 17 - Heading to DC today - Staying quit on Capitol Hill
Mr Nice Guy- 26- Time to bust into freak mode
Eilthase - Day 21 - Stay quit!
skifreak727 - Day 7 one week baby
phone man- Day 23 still craving
ChewbaccaZ - Day 21
Bearnomore - day 28
Imaquiter day 22
pberg11- day 19 makin it count
Buddy Mac- DAY 13 Man weekend was tough... Still going strong though
Mcarmo44 - 19 - I quit with Jimwot, Wastepanel, and all of Feb today
Stubeans - Day 7, one week since I got my head out of my ass and realized "you can't do this on your own so quit trying".
Gold Lid - day 15
Tintin11 - day 25 - via PM
BSD - day 26. Quit is strong.
Tex0322 - Day 8
pduvall - Day 16 (I think) - text from the road..
Keddy - 392 - Quit with duvall and all of Feb. . . .
rlbeaty11 Day 15, One day at a time!
sentechgroup - 18 Days
Sadjr -377- With yall today
JKW-day 1
meares78 - day 7 - first week down
KobeJr8038 - Day 23 - Quiting with February
Remember, on the home page at the bottom you can enter your quit date and it will track your Quit Days plus the saving you have saved!!
FRelite - day 8.... Bring on week 2 f'in A.
Chris231 - Day 24 Still quit like a mo fo! (bump fix)
Bigsky - 28 - Quitting through the pain.
baybarkballer - day 8
Timetoquit92- day 7- mobile posting sorry guys!
lobes - day 12 quit with everyone
Country270 -day 16 - staying quit no matter what happens
KYLES- 21
LD-13
Mediamst- Day 13
Olympian- Day 8 No more chew chew train!
Cornholio - Day 1
Stuck1nTheGrip - Day 1 - again. Last time I say this.
iQUIT85 - Day 6
nickbesa day 13
DanEz007 - 2 weeks, rgr
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11/21 - Quit date
Mcarmo...the first person to reach out and give ME his number! I just had to give him my number in return. That was another step closer to closing the door for me. No turning back now!
"Hey, Welcome. My name is Mike. I dipped 18 yrs a can a day for most of it. I am now 19 days in. My number is xxxxxxxxx. Send me your number and use mine if you need it. We are all quitting together.
Good Luck.
Mike "
Thank you Mike! I am forever grateful
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11/22/11
Cornholio - Day 2. Started off well, now I'm looking for a face to punch.
My first experience wiith a SLOMO blow up. So much passion...
STAY QUIT BUDDY!
Slomo15-late post and still quit with George foster
Slohomo,
This is the fourth day in a row (I didn't go back further) that you haven't posted a day count. I am calling shenanigans and telling you to post your fucking (true) day count every time you post roll. For all we know you could have failed the past four days.
Get with the program here and observe the norm until you've earned the right to do different. Else you will fail for the umpteenth time, douchebag.
'bang head'
bumping this, I want an explanation
1. And you are who again?
2. Very good, you noticed it started with double digits so you not a complete moron.
3. Now stop looking up porn and research the names...you will notice they coincide with jersey numbers. You may become more intelligent...
4. Who gives a fuck how I post as long as I do?
5. I was told to apologize....umm, for what? Having a little fun, while quitting something I have been doing for 12+ years? Not going to happen. Only apology I have is even doing it...
6. I work in a creative business....I will be creative with posting...if its more than your simpleton brain can handle, well that's not my issue.
7. You seem to be the only one with an issue....must not of liked the guys I picked....
8. See #1
9. if I wanted to hear from a cunt, I would have contacted my ex-wife...
10. Ummmm....haven't failed
11. See #9
12. See #4
13. See #8
14. GO BLUE!!!!
15. Oh lookie.....the number of days I have been quit!
Ah...the dickhead lurks. You have a proven track record of failure. That's not my problem, but yours. Take it out on yourself.
#1....I am someone who has 295 days quit.
#2....Opinions vary
#3....I see you're good at memorizing worthless information
#4....Evidently I do asshole, and I'm not the only one
#5....Reread the post, who asked you to apologize? Who's the moron now?
#6....Simpleton brain? I have an MBA asshole. What's your education level? Crayola?
#7....I doubt it
#8....You will never make it to the number in my #1
#9....I can see why you have an ex
#10...Yes...you have....twice if memory serves. Just wait until you stub your little toe or have some other stressful moment.
#11...still see why
#12...still not the only one, see Sadjr bump
#13...still don't think you will make it
#14...whatever
#15...let's hope you make 16
Jerseys don't go up that high as you days quit..would you like a medal? Good job..
MBA? Then why do you communicate like a 12 year old?
Creativity isn't your strong point but at least you can count.
I don't care who bumps me
I'll keep posting how I would like.
Worthless info??? I agree with that..
You want to make it personal about my x...we will have problem...that I will promise you.
We will have problem? What are you a Russian gangster?
How about you put the glib aside and quit for a while, then try to show your humor once you have some trust built. I for one would like to congratulate you at some point without having to do a fucking internet search to figure out what I'm congratulating you on. That is, if you have the nuts to stick around and stay quit. Prove me wrong.
Not to pick sides, but Slomo had a rough start but has been consistent every since. He posts early and he posts every day. I happen to know what he does for living so I see where he's coming from on his posts and it didn't bother me and no one else seemed to have a problem with it. Asking him to post what day he's on in actual numbers wouldn't be that big of a deal. No need to go all postal on him.
Let's all just chill the fuck out. Slomo, for the sake of not confusing people before any of us have even hit a month yet, why not just post your number? Save this kind of drama from cropping up here.
Odaat, chill out. No need to pick a fight with a guy who's posting every day. Yes, Slomo fucked up with two caves in as many days, but that was a while ago. He obviously wasn't ready to jump in. But he got his shit together and has been posting every day for more than two weeks. He's shown that he's drinking the Kool-Aid and participating. Let's cut him some slack, eh?
Just for personal reference, and so the rest of your fine quit brothers might know:
Post your Fucking Day.
That is all.
P.S. Thank You.
This is awesome....getting bitch slapped for not posting....getting bitch slapped for posting...
I am getting old and can't remember what day everyone is on. It helps me know when to say hey great job on accomplishing day?.
Once again without bitch slapping you.
Post your day as it is considerate to your fellow quitters.
That's fair. Just post the day and we'll move on. Thanks Slomo.
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11/23/11
Cornholio - Made day 2 without punching somebody. Nothing like waking up in middle of the night sweating! Praying for Patience to accept the urges for what they are (a desperate fit by the addict w/i me), Strength to change how I respond to the cravings, and knowledge to understand why I feel the way I do. HAVE A GREAT DAY EVERYONE!
Oh boy...I was shitting in my pants scared that morning.
But by the time I got home, my fear turned into anger. I was ready for the fight of my life. Only took a couple days of poking around the website to realize the potential.
Been down this road many times. Started smoking in '81 (8th grade), started chew as a dumb ass approach to quitting smoking in '02. I "Stopped" chew for 1year then picked up again in May. I had quit smoking before for a full year too (went out drinking on anniversary and smoked to "prove" I was not longer a "smoker" and could do it only when I drink...like one of my friends could do. LOL. No more. Not this time. FUCK YOU Addict! You think you're so fucking smart? Well you just wait till I starve your ass to death. I'm ready for your desperate attempts to save yourself. You can forget it. Nothing you can do will last more than a short moment. NONE your pathetic childish attempts to trick me into getting what you want will work this time. Now I'm smarter, wiser, stronger. And not only do I have support from my family, I have the support of KILLTHECAN. You might be stronger than me, but there's NO WAY you're stronger than my TEAM. So FUCK YOU bitch!
I got quit wood...
That's just pornography, Cornholio. Thanks for sharing.
Schwing!!
That is the mashed potatoes and gravy right there. Some good good shit
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11/24/11 - Turkey Day!
Today I'm thankful for:
- Realizing there's a power greater than me that can help me through my troubles if I allow.
- Having an incredibly supportive wife.
- My loving children. It's amazing they still look up to me!
- Eating a thanksgiving meal w/o looking for the first opportunity to leave my family for a dip in the shop.
- More time with those who care for me
- A brighter outlook than normal...the best days are AHEAD of me, not behind.
- For all the opportunities I've been given to QUIT FOR GOOD
- Good health
- not worrying about when I can sneak away for a dip
- Quit brothers from KILLTHECAN.
- All the information that's on this website which will keep me focused on the new path I have taken.
- THAT MY ADDICT IS A CHEAP, WORTHLESS, PATHETIC, WHORE!
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11/25/11
Timpy - Day 4 - Drugs are gone, its all mind games now
Cornholio - Day 4! I'm with Timpy....It's all in the head now! Turkey Day was easier than I thought it would be. Was nice to hang with family the entire day instead of breaking away every opportunity I got to dip. THANK YOU TEAM FEB AND SUPPORT MEMBERS!!
Timpy was the first person I reached out to. Feels good to share numbers!
Later that day, things got a little rough..
Fighting through a long urge. I think I ate too much sugar. Had a Pepsi for first time earlier since I quit too. Moving to water. Gonna drink a shit load and try to flush the urge out. A little reading and a quick post here helps in a HUGE way too! I already feel the urge cut in half. I WILL MAKE THIS DAY!!! Just one day, that's all I need to worry about. NO PROBLEM. There...all gone. Thanks for hearing me out
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11/26/11
By golly, I think I'm getting it!
I think this bears repeating since this holiday weekend has featured some missing or lazy posters. Including myself.
1) Look down at that roll. Find your name. See the guy above and below you? PM them and get their e-mail addresses and cell numbers. For me that's going to be the newbies apull and timpy.
2) If you don't see those those two guys next to you post roll tomorrow, then you e-mail, text or call them. If they don't respond, you enlist some quit buddies to help. We mass e-mail, text, call until we know where they are and know why the fuck they haven't posted roll. That's the accountability that this site demands.
3) If you can't get to a computer for some reason, you have a list of names and numbers for quit buddies you can reach out to who can post roll for you. No excuses.
This "I was out in the sticks" or "I had a brain fart" shit is unacceptable.
I was really disappointed that when I finally was able to check my cell phone I didn't have a single message on Thursday or Friday. On Thursday it was nearly 5 p.m. or later by the time I was able to send out a mass text to my quit brothers asking them to post roll for me. On Friday it was around 1:30.
Yet NO ONE bothered to check on me. None of the people who had my number bothered to send me a text to see what's up. There wasn't even a post, as far as I know, in Feb group asking if anyone had heard from me.
That's not supposed to happen.
Just because the vets aren't babysitting us anymore doesn't mean we get to slip into some selfish, lazy bullshit behavior. This isn't just about posting a number to brag on every day. it's about the group. It's about the accountability. It's about the brotherhood. Looking out for each other. Not leaving a man behind.
I sure as shit want to know that if I'm drowning, that one of you will reach out a hand. I'm doing my best to be that person for you guys. Be that person for the guy next to you. And the guy after that.
Otherwise, we're all just wasting our time and we're all doomed to cave.
bump
I think this is a great idea. I'll be contacting Grosstr99 and Mcarmo44.
I agree 100%. The better the group does, the better I'll do. We're all brothers fighting the same battle. We need each other. It's extremely uplifting to have the helping hand from somebody who understands perfectly what you're going through.
MCARMO44 was the first to reach out and give his cell # to me. Very thoughtful. I couldn't ignore that, I HAD to give him my cell. You know what...he's already helped me. Sometimes just a quick text on how it's going, and chats at times when I'm having a hard time. A true quit buddy. Thanks MC..
TGAFISH gave me advise after reading my day 2 post. He understood where I was coming from, and felt genuinely sure i could quit. Makes me feel like I can!
LOOT reached out day 3...that's a tough day too. He wanted to make sure I read and posted frequently. This is now the first advise I share with newbies! There's so much information here. Posting is therapeutic!
TIMPY quit the same day I did. Every time he posts, I relate 100% with his comment. He has my cell, I have his.
I also like giving a shout out to the March2012 group. I'm only 6days in, so they are closer in age to me than most in this group. It feel good to see people jump the same hurdles I had to jump. The more support I give, the more strength I get.
WE CAN DO THIS AS A TEAM. That's the whole idea!
The more you reach out, the more you'll be accepted, and the more you'll feel accountable.
We're not accountable to our bosses, our wives, children, parents, hell...we're not accountable to ourselves! But when it comes to a fellow addict, that's a bit different, don't you think?
GMANN - Ladies, no need to go to www.mensbuttsdrivemenuts.com (http://www.mensbuttsdrivemenuts.com). All the porn you need is in this thread. Goo stuff. Glad to be quit with you fine men today. Yell if you need anything.
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11/27/11
Cornholio - day 7 - I rarely wear underwear and when I do it's usually something special
LOL...I asked the group to post for me as I was on the road. Tommy Dog was kind enough to make the post.
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February Skullfuck the Quit
Today is Monday, November 28th, 2011,
And the name changes begin.....
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February Occupy the Quit
Today is Tuesday, November 29th, 2011,
New day...new name
February HOF Quitters:
Cornholio - Today for the 9th day, I promise no dip. Head games tried pulling the 'ol "hey, it's been a week. You think one dip will stop the quit?". NO DIP, NOT ONE, NO EXCEPTION. Not this time BITCH!
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February Suck It Easy Nic Bitch
Today is Wednesday, November 30th, 2011,
ONE DAY...TWO NAMES
February Can Conquerors
Today is Wednesday, November 30th, 2011,
10days in, and the Nic Bitch woke up with me today. You'd think staying quit on day 10 would be easier than day 2. I guess it is easier...maybe I'm just getting tired of keeping my gaurds up. It's a hard fight, but I'm not willing to lose this one.
JIMWOT--Day 10 is huge... It took me about 20+ days to get good sleep in with out waking up and looking for my can at 2am. then 3am and 5am. You can do it. we will help. Hang in there. get up get in chat or read some HoFs that got me threw.
3:15pm outlook was getting better!
Man...I sure am lucky to be part of FEB2012! Keep the focus! There's times when each of us may be weak, or lazy, or maybe we perceive other things as more important. We can't forget, however, that making a promise to yourself and to the rest of us is a daily committment. I also believe in posting first thing as well. Setting the alarm 5min early is not too much of a price to pay to ensure I have the strength to make the day without nicotine. I'm not here to post day 11 tomorrow, or day 100 in Feb......I'm here to post day 1000 on August 16, 2014.
With a brotherhood like this, it's easier to succeed. Just have to be willing to jump in....head first. Read, post, read, post. Learn, teach, learn, teach.
If everyone spent a few minutes helping themselves, then helping another, would we lose any members from our group? I've been very lucky to have people reach out to me and give cell numbers...right from day 1! That's good stuff right there.
It's up to ME to quit, all I need to do is use the support you guys are giving me.
TODAY I promise not to use nicotine for the 10th day. In Feb, I'm looking forward to seeing everyone celebrate 100days. WE CAN DO THIS ONE DAY AT A TIME.
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LOL...New Name courtesy of SLOMO.
Holy Fuck it's just after midnight on Thursday December 1, 2011 for the February drama queens of America and their tampon wearing supporters who start the drama and then leave!!!!! What the fuck...where is everyone?!?!?!?!?!
Oh wait...there are 24 (also my quit day) hours in a day....so to the rest of my quit queens, whether you post at midnight or at 23:59...I'm still quitting with ya!
This is my roll call for Thursday December 1....if you don't like....tough shit!
DRAMA QUEENS OF QUIT
TAMPON SUPPORT
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Another day, Another name....My personal favorite.
It's Friday, December 2, 2011 for the The February, United Can-Killing Underground
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This name has stayed up to today's post!
It's Saturday, December 3, 2011 for the February Underground
the spreadsheet (https://docs.google.com/spreadsheet/ccc?key=0AjTRL_NmCSmtdEF2Q3pmTVdDT3hLdlVkU3lvd084dWc#gid=0)
QUITTERS:
Cornholio - 13th promise. no nic today. FU NIC BITCH!!
Started telling the nic bitch to fuck off. Became a daily habit, felt good to start the day kicking the bitch in her teeth
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It's Tuesday, December 6, 2011 for the February Underground
the spreadsheet (https://docs.google.com/spreadsheet/ccc?key=0AjTRL_NmCSmtdEF2Q3pmTVdDT3hLdlVkU3lvd084dWc#gid=0)
QUITTERS:
iQUIT85- 20
Mr Nice Guy-41- Quit, it'll make ur sack drop a full 3 inches
tintin11-day 40- yeah what nice guy said ^ 'crackup'
T-Dog - 28 days.
Dogbreath- day 25 quit with bruce 317 and we are not looking back
DW3 - Day 31 -Awesome Dogbreath! Now please learn how to post.
CB-Man Day 15 I have homosexual feelings about Bruce today
Cornholio - 16. I'm watching you die Nic bitch. FU.
LOL...Mr. Nice guy...that's awesome.
Tintin, DW3, CBMan....sure helps to see humor.
By this time, I realize I am getting the upper hand over my addict.
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Ooops...there was another name for a couple days..
It's Friday, December 9 2011 for the February Underground of Corksoaking Kwitters
the spreadsheet (https://docs.google.com/spreadsheet/ccc?key=0AjTRL_NmCSmtdEF2Q3pmTVdDT3hLdlVkU3lvd084dWc#gid=0)
QUITTERS:
Cornholio - Day 19 already? Shouting out a loud FUCKU to the Nic Bitch with
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It's Monday, December 12 2011 for the February CAN EXTERMINATORS
Was fun logging in just to see what the name of the day was going to be..
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And there it lands...DW3 made the change
It's Thursday, December 15 2011 for the February Underground
the spreadsheet (https://docs.google.com/spreadsheet/ccc?key=0AjTRL_NmCSmtdEF2Q3pmTVdDT3hLdlVkU3lvd084dWc#gid=0)
QUITTERS:
Bearnomore day 52
Cornholio day 25. What happened to "Feb Underground" name anyway? Shouting out a big FU to the nic bitch for the group.
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NEVER forget the bitch will attack when least expected. Posting every day reminds me I am taking control of my life.
I remember Mcarmo telling me the "funks" were fewer, but more intense for him in the 20's. Well, I now know what he means. I sailed into the weekend, but today Felt like day 2. Seemed like I couldn't think of anything but dip.Â
I woke up fighting urges right away. My hardest days seems to be when I wake up that way. I wonder if it's something I took last night, or a dream I had (but don't recall). I got plenty of sleep. Sometimes it gets tiring fighting my addict. I think the whore rested all week and tried a surprize attack.
I kept busy working on kitchen remodel. Normally fun, but today was all about sanding drywall mud. Not much for the mind to focus on. I can think about the mess I was making, or all the spots I need to go over again, or how I was feeling.Â
It's all over now though. Feeling good. I won the battle and the whore addict took off liking her wounds. I'm here to win this war. This is the LAST TIME I'm putting myself through this.
Naaaa....you will put yourself thru it more than you know. I drove back tonight, 3 1/2 hours, I wanted to chew so bad...mouth watering, I needed gas...tank close to empty....I didn't call anyone on this site, nor did i stop for gas...I called my son...without realizing it, he helped me....I put gas in the rental from a 5 gallon gas can I had at my house...just when I thought it was getting easy...it gets harder! At least for today...STAY QUIT!
thats good shit right there. Do whatever it takes to keep the shit out of your mouth. Well done gents
Great job guys. It is funny the little things that send you into a trigger. I haven't been to the gym in months because I have been running outside. The other was cold and rainy so I went to run inside, when I finished I started towards the showers and this incredible joy came over me that a dip was only moments away, because I always threw in the second I left the gym. It only last a few seconds but it was intense.
Thanks guys. Slomo....that's awesome. Those drives can be tough. Last night was Chinese takeout for dinner (kitchen was a mess..lol). I asked the wife to take the 3min drive with me because the gas station is right accross the street. All it would take is ONE minute for me to stop, purchase, and load a wedge. Not worth the risk.
We talked about renting a movie last night, but Mrs Cornholio didn't want to leave the house. I said I can't go alone today, and we agreed to read instead.
The way I see it, I have three choices:
- Cave and die an early painful death
- Cave then quit later, only to go through the same feelings but stronger.
- Be a man and stick to my promise for the day by fighting the nic bitch in hand to hand combat.
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Rage setting in. This turned into one of the biggest battles for the group.
I really don't like how some in our group are excusing this decision by some to only post when it is convenient for them. Perhaps it's just because the have missed days too so it's okay. The foundation here is accountability to each other and ourselves. If we can't commit to quitting and taking 30 seconds out of our day to post roll, then what the fuck good is this place?
Call them out, Who are they?
You appear to be sitting here encouraging iQuit85's actions, like it is okay to just take 4 or 5 days off from posting.
Don't shake your tits at me and say that.
No Seriously, I just think we should be civil to one another. I believe we all should post every day. iQuit85 you hear that.?Look man post every day or just leave end of story. We would really like you to stay but you must commit.
See you at roll tomorrow.
See, about 10 of us had a conversation with iQuit today in the chat room. iQuit stated that he is only going to post when it is convenient for him and that will not be everyday. He is far too busy of an individual to take the 30 seconds required out of his day to make his promise every morning. He doesn't feel like he is accountable to anyone here. I wish you would have been in there, because I think you would get a better feel for where I am coming from on this.
There are other quit groups/programs/sites out there where iQuit would fit in with this type of attitude. It isn't here though unless he changes his attitude on the subject.
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NEVER forget the bitch will attack when least expected. Posting every day reminds me I am taking control of my life.
I remember Mcarmo telling me the "funks" were fewer, but more intense for him in the 20's. Well, I now know what he means. I sailed into the weekend, but today Felt like day 2. Seemed like I couldn't think of anything but dip.Â
I woke up fighting urges right away. My hardest days seems to be when I wake up that way. I wonder if it's something I took last night, or a dream I had (but don't recall). I got plenty of sleep. Sometimes it gets tiring fighting my addict. I think the whore rested all week and tried a surprize attack.
I kept busy working on kitchen remodel. Normally fun, but today was all about sanding drywall mud. Not much for the mind to focus on. I can think about the mess I was making, or all the spots I need to go over again, or how I was feeling.Â
It's all over now though. Feeling good. I won the battle and the whore addict took off liking her wounds. I'm here to win this war. This is the LAST TIME I'm putting myself through this.
Naaaa....you will put yourself thru it more than you know. I drove back tonight, 3 1/2 hours, I wanted to chew so bad...mouth watering, I needed gas...tank close to empty....I didn't call anyone on this site, nor did i stop for gas...I called my son...without realizing it, he helped me....I put gas in the rental from a 5 gallon gas can I had at my house...just when I thought it was getting easy...it gets harder! At least for today...STAY QUIT!
thats good shit right there. Do whatever it takes to keep the shit out of your mouth. Well done gents
Great job guys. It is funny the little things that send you into a trigger. I haven't been to the gym in months because I have been running outside. The other was cold and rainy so I went to run inside, when I finished I started towards the showers and this incredible joy came over me that a dip was only moments away, because I always threw in the second I left the gym. It only last a few seconds but it was intense.
Thanks guys. Slomo....that's awesome. Those drives can be tough. Last night was Chinese takeout for dinner (kitchen was a mess..lol). I asked the wife to take the 3min drive with me because the gas station is right accross the street. All it would take is ONE minute for me to stop, purchase, and load a wedge. Not worth the risk.
We talked about renting a movie last night, but Mrs Cornholio didn't want to leave the house. I said I can't go alone today, and we agreed to read instead.
The way I see it, I have three choices:
- Cave and die an early painful death
- Cave then quit later, only to go through the same feelings but stronger.
- Be a man and stick to my promise for the day by fighting the nic bitch in hand to hand combat.
I like your quit corn. Just keep working it. 1 day at a time.
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It's Tuesday, December 6, 2011 for the February Underground
the spreadsheet (https://docs.google.com/spreadsheet/ccc?key=0AjTRL_NmCSmtdEF2Q3pmTVdDT3hLdlVkU3lvd084dWc#gid=0)
QUITTERS:
iQUIT85- 20
Mr Nice Guy-41- Quit, it'll make ur sack drop a full 3 inches
tintin11-day 40- yeah what nice guy said ^ 'crackup'
T-Dog - 28 days.
Dogbreath- day 25 quit with bruce 317 and we are not looking back
DW3 - Day 31 -Awesome Dogbreath! Now please learn how to post.
CB-Man Day 15 I have homosexual feelings about Bruce today
Cornholio - 16. I'm watching you die Nic bitch. FU.
LOL...Mr. Nice guy...that's awesome.
Tintin, DW3, CBMan....sure helps to see humor.
By this time, I realize I am getting the upper hand over my addict.
Hahahaha, i remember this one, i kept tryin to fuck with CB and finally got him on the boards...good times in quitting
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The fight continues
You boys enjoy your 3 man shitfest on the Feb group.
For the rest of Feb, don't let these two fuck up your quits.
It's called pack mentality. Like the shit iQuit went through the other night with your punk ass chiming in Feels nice huh? How about helping a brother rather than joining in on the lynching?
Help a brother to:
Post roll
Stay quit
Repeat
Oh you are under the impression that this bothers me?
Trust me, three geeks (if I can steal iQuits term) online aren't causing me to lose sleep.
Are you kidding me, Never thought this would bother you. Just want to expose you to all of February. They need to know not to count on your ragged ass to have their back should they need it.
They can count on you leading the lynch mob with child like name calling and fucked up PM's. Hiding behind your keys of steel.
Bear, I'm not privy to the whole history here, but what exactly is tex guilty of here?
Dip rage? Sure.
Immaturity? Probably.
The whole 'Keys of Steel' thing is weak.
I see Tex actually giving a shit about the GROUP. I see iQuit, slomo and you picking a fight with him.
Shit, iDouche doesn't even respond to me, he just goes after Tex.
February, you need to weigh in here. Its not choosing sides. We are all big boys here, but what's it gonna be?
Is Feb going to hold its bretheren accountable to each other? Or is this going to be the one quit group on KTC that says 'whatev'?
He would leave a brother behind. He wouldn't lift a finger to save a member.
He's a bully when he has a crowd. I hate bullies.
He's childish - look at the PM he sent.
His tough guy mob mentality makes my blood boil.
His actions are cowardly. Calls people out but won't name them.
Wouldn't be in a fox hole counting on this fucker to have my back.
I appreciate your passion.
But you can't save everyone.
Sorry bear, but slomo and iQuit are not in a good space. They are poison to this group. That's why the drama. Its not cuz a tex.
I hear you about all your gripe, but you two have more in common they dfferences.
Not in good space? I would deflect that back on you. After all that's my game.
I have apologized to TEX, offered to try and work it out. All i wanted was for him to apologize, and he wouldn't, he's above me and my quit, 3 days. I think? Who cares, it doesn't matter who's what when class is never used even from first contact.
I wanted him to apologize for calling me a pussy and bullshit before he ever asked me to explain my situation. That's how i know he's young. Most men would would be able to humble themselves to do that. I did. Even threw out a acknowledgement in one of my venomous posts that even though i didn't like him i was still a fan of his quit.
You won't even hear another mans opinion, that's why i'm about 1% invested in what u have to say. Slomo and i are in bad space? Atleast there are open minds in here willing to look, before they make judgment.
When u dropped that Bill comment on me, i was floored. I'm not getting into that cause u wouldn't even know.
The keys of steel things is actually "Tommy Tough Type Keys of Steel"....and it's really quite funny. Do u have any humor.
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Late that night...
Hey Feb Fuckwads and vets...hatchet is buried..there is a cease-fire...now lets do whats right right an quit together.
Agreed.
Oh man. I'm seriously on the verge of crying. Just like family.
Detante and cooler heads prevailed and I will quit with iQuit, slomo and tex every day of the week.
Nice job men.
The February Missile Crisis is over.
'Remshot'
No idea what happened after I left, but I like it!
This is going in my "spank bank"!
Well luby, lemme give you the short version. I sufficiently pissed off slomo and iQuit, and while I'd like to say that was the grand plan...it wasn't. But it refocused a lot of the talk. Then, after we all had a few moments to chill, we had dialogue and conversation without threats, f bombs or attacks. Know what we discovered? We didn't actually hate each other after all. We are all just poor schmucks who many years ago made a bad decision to start dipping, and are now trying to dig out of that hole on a daily basis.
As for tex...he discovered that klark isn't as big a prick as he first thought. You'll have to ask him about that one.
In the end, we are all just quitters. Different ages, different walks of live. Same goal. I'll quit with this messed up group every single day and post with you guys too.
Nice goddamn work! I won't lie that is what I was hoping to accomplish, I just didnt have the ability to get it done. I am just happy we got quitters working together, to get this shit done. My new goal is to put executives of US tobacco on the street, whatever it takes to do that, sign me up!
my goal is to have you do something on dec 30th!
I like this recent turn of events... but I had no doubt that it was going to happen.
When quitters are that passionate about something, disagreements will happen, but eventually everyone realizes that they are passionate about the same thing in the end.
Nice work fellas.
As we discussed in chat yesterday, it will work out and it did, Great job men, i will quit with you everyday
The words of the Grinch were never more fitting:
"I'm all toasty inside......"
Christmas with loved ones and no nicotine is wonderful. Gald to see y'all got this worked out. We are quit.
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I found the more involved I was, the stronger my quit became. Modifying the roll call page each night was therapeutic.
The February Underground
Today is Tuesday, 27 December, 2011
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Tell a little about yourself at the February HOF Intro page (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5566)
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See how you're doing on The Spreadsheet (https://docs.google.com/spreadsheet/ccc?key=0AjTRL_NmCSmtdEF2Q3pmTVdDT3hLdlVkU3lvd084dWc#gid=0=0)
PM Cornholio (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showuser=13128) or Tex (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showuser=13087) with updates!
Brothers missing in action:
NAME / LAST POST DATE
DasHewz50 - Going on his own. Will drop below the line. Stay quit brother!
LD
Phone Man
Stubeans - No Roll since Tuesday 20th
Kcah
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Post Roll First Thing Every Day!
Quitters:
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Had fun making this page. Maybe I'm spending too much time?
The February Underground
Today is Hump Day, 28 December, 2011
'do it'
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Tell a little about yourself at the February HOF Intro page (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5566)
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See how you're doing on The Spreadsheet (https://docs.google.com/spreadsheet/ccc?key=0AjTRL_NmCSmtdEF2Q3pmTVdDT3hLdlVkU3lvd084dWc#gid=0=0)
PM Cornholio (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showuser=13128) or Tex (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showuser=13087) with updates!
'Bengals' 'Bengals'
Set yourself free!!!
Close the door for good!
Spend more time thinking about what you CAN do, instead of can't!
You'll be training yourself a better way of life.
Thank You Tex for being all over the spreadsheet!
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Post Roll First Thing Every Day!
Quitters:
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Sad day for Feb. Slomo..you have the biggest balls I know...you're going to kick this once and for all in April...I can feel it!!
Boys....I have caved. I could give you the reasons why this has happened but there really is no reason good enough. But I do feel I owe an explanation. My personal shit got the best of me, it was a brutal start to Xmas with my ex hitting my son and ended with my ex introducing my kids to her boyfriend that started a huge fight between my kids and ex.
Then there was the 3 hr drive home from work. I had seeds, I had even talked to Luby. Then it was the silent driving....in the middle of the night, the flashing signs.....DONE!
Yes I know the pain of losing my jaw or life is much worse than what has happened in the last 5 days.Â
Miles and ODAAT, you are right...I am a pussy.
To the February Underground, I am sorry and I say that with a heavy heart. This website humbles you.
Like I said, there is no explanation.
Slomo
Really, really dissapointing Slomo. You had more people invested in you than maybe anyone in our group and you caved. You suck for that.
Ouch, this hurts man. I'm sorry for you. Thanks for posting and owning up. Not much left to say. You do realize you will have to quit this shit some day or it will kill or greatly disfigure you. Good Luck man. Love your wit and sense of humor.
For those I battled with on behalf of Slomo you were right. I will pick my battles more carefully. I so want to believe in people. I guess you can't save everyone.
Two recent events will burn in my mind as I head toward the HOF milestone. CDFORECHECK caving after 870 days and Slom.o my quit brother and the guy I jumped into a fox hole with caving on his day 50.
Events like this strenghthen my resolve that I will never chew again and I will do it one day at a time.
If you need an emergency number Send me a PM I will be available to you 24 /7.
Are you going to post a day one in april or are you having a little fling with her?
Time to pull your panties up and get your ass over in April......you still need to save your life
Are you going to funger fuck the can until it's empty, then quit? I bet that will be tomorrow in the afternoon where you might as well buy another can since that day is screwed. New Years is a good time to quit. Shit, I've quit a shitload of times as a new years resolution. Just fucking stop RIGHT NOW!
And I'm supposing this is why you didn't answer my text last night? Couldn't admit it to me? How about your friend luby? I personally know how much luby has invested in you throughout your quit. I have never seen a guy as relatively new as luby go so far out on a limb as luby has with you.
You see where this is going? Your cave doesn't just impact you. It hits me, it hits luby. Probably hits iQuit. Believe it or not, it even hits tex. And the rest of this group. That said, you made one fatal mistake yesterday...you didn't start the day posting roll.
People wonder why we vets get our panties in a wad about posting roll. Here's why. Slomo, even though the day was rough, if you had posted roll, that would have been one more obstacle for you to ignore before driving to wherever, buying a can, and tossing one in. Didn't have the defense in place.
A lot of your quit brothers are pretty forgiving here actually. I'm going to push your feet to the fire...are you coming back on April? Are you quit again? If so, how about sharing this with them and telling April and Feb. what your new quit plan is. The old one apparently sucked.
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interesting facts. I wonder how many will be here for 100days/
The February Underground
Today is Thursday, 29 December, 2011
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Tell a little about yourself at the February HOF Intro page (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5566)
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See how you're doing on The Spreadsheet (https://docs.google.com/spreadsheet/ccc?key=0AjTRL_NmCSmtdEF2Q3pmTVdDT3hLdlVkU3lvd084dWc#gid=0=0)
PM Cornholio (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showuser=13128) or Tex (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showuser=13087) with updates!
'Bengals' 'Bengals'
Set yourself free!!!
Close the door for good!
The sun is rising on a new day, don't waste your time looking into the dark!
Mr Nice Guy ran the numbers from the spreadsheet (by the way, CORNHOLE AND TEX ARE BADASSES, great job.)
-98 members at least posted a day one in the Underground
-55 are either MIA or confirmed caved/"did it their own way"
-43 are active to this day(Wednesday night)
43.8% of us are still alive from the get-go. Lets keep that same number til the last one of us hits HOF. I'll see you guys tomorrow.
'Cheers' 'Cheers' 'Cheers'
Tommy Dog, Buddy Mack, and LD are over the hill today!
Thank You Tex for being all over the spreadsheet!
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THIS WAS THE LAST ROLL CALL FOR 2011!!!!
Will be interesting to see who here for the last roll call of 2012
The February Underground
Today is Saturday, 31 December, 2011
FINAL DAY OF 2011!! LIVE IT UP...DIP FREE!
'band' 'dance'
MILESTONES ON SATURDAY
DogBreath and GSP-20 Hittin the BIG 5-0!
'party2'
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Tell a little about yourself at the February HOF Intro page (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5566)
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WE ARE MAKING A DIFFERENCE ONE DAY AT A TIME
We have a rough total of 2,460days quit going into the 31th.
So far, as a group, we've saved $7,000!!
MISSING FROM FRIDAY's ROLL CALL
If you have numbers to anyone on the list, check to see if they are quit today.
Benny
Frelite - 3rd day. Is it possible he has NO buddies? Anyone have info?
See how you're doing on The Spreadsheet (https://docs.google.com/spreadsheet/ccc?key=0AjTRL_NmCSmtdEF2Q3pmTVdDT3hLdlVkU3lvd084dWc#gid=0=0)
PM Cornholio (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showuser=13128) or Tex (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showuser=13087) with updates!
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'Sing and Drink' 'Cheers'
PROTECT YOUR QUIT THIS WEEKEND!!
Take it easy on the booze...it feeds the addict and puts common sense to sleep.
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The Last Roll of the year, let FILL BOARD TODAY!
Quitters:
Bearnomore day 68 Quitting a day at a time.
kcah day 56 and 57, im on the west coast so its still early here!
iQUIT85 - 45 -
tintin11-day 65
Mr Nice Guy-66- IS Obama still suckin down fags? Better see that motherfucker post up in April REAL soon
theweatherman - 48
Keddy - 432 - Quit with duvall and Gold Lip . . . .
Tommydogg - day 53
Tex0322 - day 48
Duvall~day 56
DW3 - day 56
nbond02 - 59 - one day at a time
Cornholio - 41 - Protect the quit this weeked. No need to ruin a good ting! 'bang head' '12'
skifreak -day47- I quit today ( mobile post )
Marc quit day 61
meares78 - day 47
pberg11 59 finishing 2011 with a quit
Mcarcmo44- Day 59 Cornholio thanks for do all the work on the roll looks great I quit with you
zandrew day 48
phone man- day63
Grosstr99 - 57
Bruce317- day 40- Over the hill with my boy CB, stay ghey Tex
Eilthase - day 61 - staying quit one day at a time
RiverRunner -61- Yee
ChewbaccaZ - day 61 bitches.
Buddy Mac_DAY 53
CB-Man Day 39 I Quit with Bruce and Dogbreath happy new year fellas
LD-53
Benny the kid Day 46 via text
Chris231 - Day 64 Can't believe the year is over, and that I'm dip free!
BSD - is it 65 or 66? - either way, not dipping today!
FRelite - Day 48
themightyrenegade - Day 57
Bigsky -68 me and this nasty hangover quit with all you guys. Happy New Year you quittin' motherfuckers you!! Proud to finish out 2011 quittin' with you guys.
dogbreath 50 quit with cb and gold lid
Gold Lid - 55
jimmydan-46
Olympian - Day 46 Happy New Year!
time2quit-45- via phone
Country270- Day 55 - drinkin a cold beer for all of ya that stay quit and here's one for me
Support:
Wastepanel-day 186-first one to sign and give Cornholio mad props for setting up the roll.for the upcoming day. Bitches.
Tsmith17 - Day 144 - Quit with RiverRunner and the CB-Man. Happy New Year!
30 322 Quit with you all
Davec -304- quit
Flashman - 928
dchogs 230- happy new years, feb
AtomicDiesel-71- HNY! Dawg,ski,bigsky,lobes, and Tex Keep it quit fellers!
griz- 103- this guy ^^^ is a crazy badass quitter,, so ill quit with him and pberg and texaco
tarpon-466 bergstein and tex sitting in a tree
nicofiend -241- quit with nbond02 on this new years eve!!! bump fix
Banner- 798 Damn that roll looks good! This was the best day of my quit in 2009...I finally turned the corner and ther was no looking back! You guys got this!
Taz - 193 - Quit with Bearnomore... 'archer'
DennyX 206 quit with feb!
RTicko-1159 This Feb group is Fabuloso. Happy new year!
Greg5280 - 793 - Quit today
Romandog - 258 - Quit with you all.
Jimwot-103- I quit with feb
J2b - 342
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So, Corn, may i ask why you post the roll call in here too?
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So, Corn, may i ask why you post the roll call in here too?
Sure thing buddy. I saw a few guys were posting notes as they go along. Wished I had done the same, so I fired it up. Pulled up key points from my previous 41days. Couple roll calls at the end: My first creation, One I had fun with, and the last roll call for 2011. Will be interesting to see who is here at the last roll call for 2012.
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So, Corn, may i ask why you post the roll call in here too?
Sure thing buddy. I saw a few guys were posting notes as they go along. Wished I had done the same, so I fired it up. Pulled up key points from my previous 41days. Couple roll calls at the end: My first creation, One I had fun with, and the last roll call for 2011. Will be interesting to see who is here at the last roll call for 2012.
Oh, that's a good idea. You know my ass will be right here still posting everyday!
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So, Corn, may i ask why you post the roll call in here too?
Sure thing buddy. I saw a few guys were posting notes as they go along. Wished I had done the same, so I fired it up. Pulled up key points from my previous 41days. Couple roll calls at the end: My first creation, One I had fun with, and the last roll call for 2011. Will be interesting to see who is here at the last roll call for 2012.
Oh, that's a good idea. You know my ass will be right here still posting everyday!
COOL BEANS!! If I'm not there, I'll be killing myself with cancer goo. As long as I post, I'll be quit. I'm here for the loooong haul. Can't wait to see who else is going to take this long walk. See you next year!!
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For the first time, FEB2011 had 100% of it's members post roll call! That's 44 members strong. The ENTIRE family showed up for dinner. That's just awesome.
Strong week over all. One short Monday, one short Tuesday, 100% Wednesday!
FEB is kicking ass!
I am so glad I quit when I did. Got a good thing going over here.
THANK YOU BROTHERS!
Cornholio - 45
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Corn you rock dude.
Your intro page is somewhat of a february scrapbook lol. All of our most precious memories........
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Corn you rock dude.
Your intro page is somewhat of a february scrapbook lol. All of our most precious memories........
You wanna know how I know you're ghey?
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Corn you rock dude.
Your intro page is somewhat of a february scrapbook lol. All of our most precious memories........
You wanna know how I know you're ghey?
Bruce, I could smash the hottest peice of (female)ass at Colorado State University, film it, send it first class to your doorstep, and you would still call me gay. I don't appreciate that shit. You must have read that ghey thread I posted in the intro section and now you wanna pull my strings. fine thats cool man.
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Corn you rock dude.
Your intro page is somewhat of a february scrapbook lol. All of our most precious memories........
You wanna know how I know you're ghey?
Bruce, I could smash the hottest peice of (female)ass at Colorado State University, film it, send it first class to your doorstep, and you would still call me gay. I don't appreciate that shit. You must have read that ghey thread I posted in the intro section and now you wanna pull my strings. fine thats cool man.
Haha, no, I just did though. You never really said, hey i really don't like being called gay or ghey, you just asked what's up with it. If you have a serious problem with it, I'll stop. I was just giving you a hard time. But! If you wanna send me film of the hottest girl at col st, I would not be opposed
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Corn you rock dude.
Your intro page is somewhat of a february scrapbook lol. All of our most precious memories........
You wanna know how I know you're ghey?
Bruce, I could smash the hottest peice of (female)ass at Colorado State University, film it, send it first class to your doorstep, and you would still call me gay. I don't appreciate that shit. You must have read that ghey thread I posted in the intro section and now you wanna pull my strings. fine thats cool man.
Haha, no, I just did though. You never really said, hey i really don't like being called gay or ghey, you just asked what's up with it. If you have a serious problem with it, I'll stop. I was just giving you a hard time. But! If you wanna send me film of the hottest girl at col st, I would not be opposed
Why don't you guys just fuck and get it over with already?
This sexual tension is driving me insane!
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Corn you rock dude.
Your intro page is somewhat of a february scrapbook lol. All of our most precious memories........
You wanna know how I know you're ghey?
Bruce, I could smash the hottest peice of (female)ass at Colorado State University, film it, send it first class to your doorstep, and you would still call me gay. I don't appreciate that shit. You must have read that ghey thread I posted in the intro section and now you wanna pull my strings. fine thats cool man.
Haha, no, I just did though. You never really said, hey i really don't like being called gay or ghey, you just asked what's up with it. If you have a serious problem with it, I'll stop. I was just giving you a hard time. But! If you wanna send me film of the hottest girl at col st, I would not be opposed
Why don't you guys just fuck and get it over with already?
This sexual tension is driving me insane!
I tried to, even suggested just the tip...but he keeps rejecting me
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Corn you rock dude.
Your intro page is somewhat of a february scrapbook lol. All of our most precious memories........
You wanna know how I know you're ghey?
Bruce, I could smash the hottest peice of (female)ass at Colorado State University, film it, send it first class to your doorstep, and you would still call me gay. I don't appreciate that shit. You must have read that ghey thread I posted in the intro section and now you wanna pull my strings. fine thats cool man.
Haha, no, I just did though. You never really said, hey i really don't like being called gay or ghey, you just asked what's up with it. If you have a serious problem with it, I'll stop. I was just giving you a hard time. But! If you wanna send me film of the hottest girl at col st, I would not be opposed
Why don't you guys just fuck and get it over with already?
This sexual tension is driving me insane!
I tried to, even suggested just the tip...but he keeps rejecting me
Fags - The whole lot of ya.
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Corn you rock dude.
Your intro page is somewhat of a february scrapbook lol. All of our most precious memories........
You wanna know how I know you're ghey?
Bruce, I could smash the hottest peice of (female)ass at Colorado State University, film it, send it first class to your doorstep, and you would still call me gay. I don't appreciate that shit. You must have read that ghey thread I posted in the intro section and now you wanna pull my strings. fine thats cool man.
Haha, no, I just did though. You never really said, hey i really don't like being called gay or ghey, you just asked what's up with it. If you have a serious problem with it, I'll stop. I was just giving you a hard time. But! If you wanna send me film of the hottest girl at col st, I would not be opposed
Why don't you guys just fuck and get it over with already?
This sexual tension is driving me insane!
I tried to, even suggested just the tip...but he keeps rejecting me
Fags - The whole lot of ya.
Bruce, give me your address.
Im not gonna say that human feces will show up, but im also not going to not say that human feces will show up
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Corn you rock dude.
Your intro page is somewhat of a february scrapbook lol. All of our most precious memories........
You wanna know how I know you're ghey?
Bruce, I could smash the hottest peice of (female)ass at Colorado State University, film it, send it first class to your doorstep, and you would still call me gay. I don't appreciate that shit. You must have read that ghey thread I posted in the intro section and now you wanna pull my strings. fine thats cool man.
Haha, no, I just did though. You never really said, hey i really don't like being called gay or ghey, you just asked what's up with it. If you have a serious problem with it, I'll stop. I was just giving you a hard time. But! If you wanna send me film of the hottest girl at col st, I would not be opposed
Why don't you guys just fuck and get it over with already?
This sexual tension is driving me insane!
I tried to, even suggested just the tip...but he keeps rejecting me
Fags - The whole lot of ya.
Bruce, give me your address.
Im not gonna say that human feces will show up, but im also not going to not say that human feces will show up
This truly is a magical place
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Corn you rock dude.
Your intro page is somewhat of a february scrapbook lol. All of our most precious memories........
You wanna know how I know you're ghey?
Bruce, I could smash the hottest peice of (female)ass at Colorado State University, film it, send it first class to your doorstep, and you would still call me gay. I don't appreciate that shit. You must have read that ghey thread I posted in the intro section and now you wanna pull my strings. fine thats cool man.
Haha, no, I just did though. You never really said, hey i really don't like being called gay or ghey, you just asked what's up with it. If you have a serious problem with it, I'll stop. I was just giving you a hard time. But! If you wanna send me film of the hottest girl at col st, I would not be opposed
Why don't you guys just fuck and get it over with already?
This sexual tension is driving me insane!
I tried to, even suggested just the tip...but he keeps rejecting me
Fags - The whole lot of ya.
Bruce, give me your address.
Im not gonna say that human feces will show up, but im also not going to not say that human feces will show up
This truly is a magical place
A magical poop sending place.
My sister once had to mail a card with a sample of feces on it for some tests. We spent the next 6 months making poopsmere jokes.
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Corn you rock dude.
Your intro page is somewhat of a february scrapbook lol. All of our most precious memories........
You wanna know how I know you're ghey?
Bruce, I could smash the hottest peice of (female)ass at Colorado State University, film it, send it first class to your doorstep, and you would still call me gay. I don't appreciate that shit. You must have read that ghey thread I posted in the intro section and now you wanna pull my strings. fine thats cool man.
Haha, no, I just did though. You never really said, hey i really don't like being called gay or ghey, you just asked what's up with it. If you have a serious problem with it, I'll stop. I was just giving you a hard time. But! If you wanna send me film of the hottest girl at col st, I would not be opposed
Why don't you guys just fuck and get it over with already?
This sexual tension is driving me insane!
I tried to, even suggested just the tip...but he keeps rejecting me
Fags - The whole lot of ya.
Bruce, give me your address.
Im not gonna say that human feces will show up, but im also not going to not say that human feces will show up
This truly is a magical place
A magical poop sending place.
My sister once had to mail a card with a sample of feces on it for some tests. We spent the next 6 months making poopsmere jokes.
Bwahahaha - the possibilities
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Corn you rock dude.
Your intro page is somewhat of a february scrapbook lol. All of our most precious memories........
You wanna know how I know you're ghey?
Bruce, I could smash the hottest peice of (female)ass at Colorado State University, film it, send it first class to your doorstep, and you would still call me gay. I don't appreciate that shit. You must have read that ghey thread I posted in the intro section and now you wanna pull my strings. fine thats cool man.
Haha, no, I just did though. You never really said, hey i really don't like being called gay or ghey, you just asked what's up with it. If you have a serious problem with it, I'll stop. I was just giving you a hard time. But! If you wanna send me film of the hottest girl at col st, I would not be opposed
Why don't you guys just fuck and get it over with already?
This sexual tension is driving me insane!
I tried to, even suggested just the tip...but he keeps rejecting me
Fags - The whole lot of ya.
Bruce, give me your address.
Im not gonna say that human feces will show up, but im also not going to not say that human feces will show up
This truly is a magical place
A magical poop sending place.
My sister once had to mail a card with a sample of feces on it for some tests. We spent the next 6 months making poopsmere jokes.
Bwahahaha - the possibilities
Waste, I cant get over that word you said in april 2012 last night....scrogging(in reference to manatees). lmao. what is that pirate slang?
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Corn you rock dude.
Your intro page is somewhat of a february scrapbook lol. All of our most precious memories........
You wanna know how I know you're ghey?
Bruce, I could smash the hottest peice of (female)ass at Colorado State University, film it, send it first class to your doorstep, and you would still call me gay. I don't appreciate that shit. You must have read that ghey thread I posted in the intro section and now you wanna pull my strings. fine thats cool man.
Haha, no, I just did though. You never really said, hey i really don't like being called gay or ghey, you just asked what's up with it. If you have a serious problem with it, I'll stop. I was just giving you a hard time. But! If you wanna send me film of the hottest girl at col st, I would not be opposed
Why don't you guys just fuck and get it over with already?
This sexual tension is driving me insane!
I tried to, even suggested just the tip...but he keeps rejecting me
Fags - The whole lot of ya.
Bruce, give me your address.
Im not gonna say that human feces will show up, but im also not going to not say that human feces will show up
This truly is a magical place
A magical poop sending place.
My sister once had to mail a card with a sample of feces on it for some tests. We spent the next 6 months making poopsmere jokes.
Bwahahaha - the possibilities
Waste, I cant get over that word you said in april 2012 last night....scrogging(in reference to manatees). lmao. what is that pirate slang?
Just looked up scrogging on urban dictionary....look what came out
"scrogging 35 up, 34 down
An act solely linked to aquatic mammals, like the whale or dolphin and any other sea creature with a blowhole. A popular pastime in Australia, especially on the East Coast. It involves beating off whilst riding atop the swimming beast and then inserting the penis into the blowhole of the creature at the point of climax, ejaculating into the animal.
Rupert: Hey! Wheres my wet suit? And my dolphin?!?
Lawrence: Yeah sorry mate, went scrogging last night, got a bit messy."
LMFAO
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Corn you rock dude.
Your intro page is somewhat of a february scrapbook lol. All of our most precious memories........
You wanna know how I know you're ghey?
Bruce, I could smash the hottest peice of (female)ass at Colorado State University, film it, send it first class to your doorstep, and you would still call me gay. I don't appreciate that shit. You must have read that ghey thread I posted in the intro section and now you wanna pull my strings. fine thats cool man.
Haha, no, I just did though. You never really said, hey i really don't like being called gay or ghey, you just asked what's up with it. If you have a serious problem with it, I'll stop. I was just giving you a hard time. But! If you wanna send me film of the hottest girl at col st, I would not be opposed
Why don't you guys just fuck and get it over with already?
This sexual tension is driving me insane!
I tried to, even suggested just the tip...but he keeps rejecting me
Fags - The whole lot of ya.
Bruce, give me your address.
Im not gonna say that human feces will show up, but im also not going to not say that human feces will show up
This truly is a magical place
A magical poop sending place.
My sister once had to mail a card with a sample of feces on it for some tests. We spent the next 6 months making poopsmere jokes.
Bwahahaha - the possibilities
Waste, I cant get over that word you said in april 2012 last night....scrogging(in reference to manatees). lmao. what is that pirate slang?
My friend said it one time, and my wife nearly fell over laughing.
We no longer fuck or make love...we scrog.
Her call.
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Corn you rock dude.
Your intro page is somewhat of a february scrapbook lol. All of our most precious memories........
You wanna know how I know you're ghey?
Bruce, I could smash the hottest peice of (female)ass at Colorado State University, film it, send it first class to your doorstep, and you would still call me gay. I don't appreciate that shit. You must have read that ghey thread I posted in the intro section and now you wanna pull my strings. fine thats cool man.
Haha, no, I just did though. You never really said, hey i really don't like being called gay or ghey, you just asked what's up with it. If you have a serious problem with it, I'll stop. I was just giving you a hard time. But! If you wanna send me film of the hottest girl at col st, I would not be opposed
Why don't you guys just fuck and get it over with already?
This sexual tension is driving me insane!
I tried to, even suggested just the tip...but he keeps rejecting me
Fags - The whole lot of ya.
Bruce, give me your address.
Im not gonna say that human feces will show up, but im also not going to not say that human feces will show up
This truly is a magical place
A magical poop sending place.
My sister once had to mail a card with a sample of feces on it for some tests. We spent the next 6 months making poopsmere jokes.
Bwahahaha - the possibilities
Waste, I cant get over that word you said in april 2012 last night....scrogging(in reference to manatees). lmao. what is that pirate slang?
Just looked up scrogging on urban dictionary....look what came out
"scrogging 35 up, 34 down
An act solely linked to aquatic mammals, like the whale or dolphin and any other sea creature with a blowhole. A popular pastime in Australia, especially on the East Coast. It involves beating off whilst riding atop the swimming beast and then inserting the penis into the blowhole of the creature at the point of climax, ejaculating into the animal.
Rupert: Hey! Wheres my wet suit? And my dolphin?!?
Lawrence: Yeah sorry mate, went scrogging last night, got a bit messy."
LMFAO
'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup'
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Corn you rock dude.
Your intro page is somewhat of a february scrapbook lol. All of our most precious memories........
You wanna know how I know you're ghey?
Bruce, I could smash the hottest peice of (female)ass at Colorado State University, film it, send it first class to your doorstep, and you would still call me gay. I don't appreciate that shit. You must have read that ghey thread I posted in the intro section and now you wanna pull my strings. fine thats cool man.
Haha, no, I just did though. You never really said, hey i really don't like being called gay or ghey, you just asked what's up with it. If you have a serious problem with it, I'll stop. I was just giving you a hard time. But! If you wanna send me film of the hottest girl at col st, I would not be opposed
Why don't you guys just fuck and get it over with already?
This sexual tension is driving me insane!
I tried to, even suggested just the tip...but he keeps rejecting me
Fags - The whole lot of ya.
Bruce, give me your address.
Im not gonna say that human feces will show up, but im also not going to not say that human feces will show up
This truly is a magical place
A magical poop sending place.
My sister once had to mail a card with a sample of feces on it for some tests. We spent the next 6 months making poopsmere jokes.
Bwahahaha - the possibilities
Waste, I cant get over that word you said in april 2012 last night....scrogging(in reference to manatees). lmao. what is that pirate slang?
Just looked up scrogging on urban dictionary....look what came out
"scrogging 35 up, 34 down
An act solely linked to aquatic mammals, like the whale or dolphin and any other sea creature with a blowhole. A popular pastime in Australia, especially on the East Coast. It involves beating off whilst riding atop the swimming beast and then inserting the penis into the blowhole of the creature at the point of climax, ejaculating into the animal.
Rupert: Hey! Wheres my wet suit? And my dolphin?!?
Lawrence: Yeah sorry mate, went scrogging last night, got a bit messy."
LMFAO
'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup'
:blink:
I am never too shocked....
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Wow, sorry corn. Sorry this had to happen on your real estate. B)
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Wow, sorry corn. Sorry this had to happen on your real estate. B)
That's ok...once you enter there's no leaving. You're ALL MY BITCHES NOW!
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Wow, sorry corn. Sorry this had to happen on your real estate. B)
That's ok...once you enter there's no leaving. You're ALL MY BITCHES NOW!
ARE YOU THREATENING ME!?
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Wow, sorry corn. Sorry this had to happen on your real estate. B)
That's ok...once you enter there's no leaving. You're ALL MY BITCHES NOW!
There goes your Feb scrapbook. Sigh.
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This shit is hilarious.. disturbing but hilarious anyway....
Sick bithces... 'crackup'
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This shit is hilarious.. disturbing but hilarious anyway....
Sick bithces... 'crackup'
To live in infamy in the classic quitter comedy
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TGAFISH sent this email to me when he saw my day 2 post...45days ago.
I held onto that. Found it useful.
Cornholio - Made day 2 without punching somebody. Nothing like waking up in middle of the night sweating!
TGAFISH-My friend I was in the EXACT same place 180 days ago with the EXACT same symptoms and the EXACT same realization. You are ahead of the game by a long shot!! You are embracing the suck and that is the best way to get through it. You will succeed. I know it because I did.
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PMAC also said something to me about wanting to feel all the pain involved with quitting so he'll never want to go through this again.
I learned that I was spending too much time wishing for the suck to go away, or being mad that I had to feel that, or bitchy, or feeling sorry for myself.
When the "suck" became easy for me was when I welcomed it. Dared it. Like I was Robert Conrad with batteries on my shoulders...Go ahead...knock em off..I dare you.
And if that doesn't help...maybe this will:
This sucks (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JzLQGQY8EhQ&feature=related) .
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Preach on brother. Drive a fucking steam roller over that worthless bitch. Attitude in this BS will get you a long ass way...that and realizing that you're an addict that won't ever be cured. You can dominate the bitch, poke fun at her, laugh at her, etc. - and we all can live a great nicotine free life. But there will always be that addict window. You know what I'm talking about. I'm just happy as shit that I have a place like KTC where I can slam the bitch's fingers in the window sill whenever she tries to sneak in.
Cornholio thanks for texting me this morning. You're a quit monster. Keep beating down those triggers one by one.
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This thread gives me an erection
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Corn I like you bro. Keep up the fight.
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This thread is greatness.
:D
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This thread is greatness.
:D
yes.
"I like this ship. You know, it's exciting!"
i like this ship (http://www.hark.com/clips/shndpprpps-i-like-this-ship-you-know-its-exciting)
bluebonnetman
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I AM NOT A UNIQUE AND SPECIAL BUTTERFLY. I AM AN ADDICT. (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=4515)
Thank you Scowick
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[FUCK YOU ADDICTION! You think you're so fucking smart? You proud of yourself for controlling everything I do for the past 30years? You get a kick out of holding me back from my full potential? You think it's FUNNY that I would lie and hide from my family on your command?
Well you just wait till I starve your ass to death. I'm ready for your desperate attempts to save yourself. You can forget it. Nothing you can do will last more than a short moment. NONE your pathetic childish attempts to trick me into getting what you want will work this time. Now I'm smarter, wiser, stronger. And not only do I have support from my family, I have the support of KILLTHECAN. You might be stronger than me, but there's NO WAY you're stronger than my TEAM. So FUCK OFF! THIS IS MY LIFE, I'M TAKING BACK THE CONTROLS!
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FUCK YOU ADDICTION! You think you're so fucking smart? You proud of yourself for controlling everything I do for the past 30years? You get a kick out of holding me back from my full potential? You think it's FUNNY that I would lie and hide from my family on your command?
Well you just wait till I starve your ass to death. I'm ready for your desperate attempts to save yourself. You can forget it. Nothing you can do will last more than a short moment. NONE your pathetic childish attempts to trick me into getting what you want will work this time. Now I'm smarter, wiser, stronger. And not only do I have support from my family, I have the support of KILLTHECAN. You might be stronger than me, but there's NO WAY you're stronger than my TEAM. So FUCK OFF! THIS IS MY LIFE, I'M TAKING BACK THE CONTROLS!
READY:
You smell that?
That's fucking freedom right there.
grab on to that motherfucker and don't ever let go.
For any reason.
Ever.
WOW...From the master of quit. Thank you sir. I am definately quit today. Thanks!!
I call em like I see em. The quit is strong with you. Use your new found powers for good. Remember the dark side is always lurking.
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Wastepanel's not only good for his looks...
"Always know that not everybody can be saved, but also know that anybody can be saved."
"No Need to strive for failure"
I just heard a bell go off in my head.....
I'm glad your on my side Wastepanel!
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Wastepanel's not only good for his looks...
"Always know that not everybody can be saved, but also know that anybody can be saved."
"No Need to strive for failure"
I just heard a bell go off in my head.....
I'm glad your on my side Wastepanel!
'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave'
'poledancer'
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30yraddict:
"I look at the nic bitch at this point as a lion looking at a herd- she is waiting for someone to lag behind, waiting to pick the next one off, looking for a sign of weakness, looking for someone who is not thinking about the fact that they are still vulnerable. She is patient, In some cases she waits thousands of days to pick one off.
I'm stayin with the herd. "
Thanks 30. I'm staying with the herd today.
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FUCK YOU ADDICTION! You think you're so fucking smart? You proud of yourself for controlling everything I do for the past 30years? You get a kick out of holding me back from my full potential? You think it's FUNNY that I would lie and hide from my family on your command?
Well you just wait till I starve your ass to death. I'm ready for your desperate attempts to save yourself. You can forget it. Nothing you can do will last more than a short moment. NONE your pathetic childish attempts to trick me into getting what you want will work this time. Now I'm smarter, wiser, stronger. And not only do I have support from my family, I have the support of KILLTHECAN. You might be stronger than me, but there's NO WAY you're stronger than my TEAM. So FUCK OFF! THIS IS MY LIFE, I'M TAKING BACK THE CONTROLS!
READY:
You smell that?
That's fucking freedom right there.
grab on to that motherfucker and don't ever let go.
For any reason.
Ever.
WOW...From the master of quit. Thank you sir. I am definately quit today. Thanks!!
I call em like I see em. The quit is strong with you. Use your new found powers for good. Remember the dark side is always lurking.
The day I admitted I was addicted to nicotine was the day I controlled nicotine instead of nicotine controlling me. It does not make quitting easy, it just means I call the shots.
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Thanks for the new signature Jmiah.
Words to live by.
Quitting is not a destination to which we can arrive,
but a journey that doesnÂ’t stop until we are either dead or we cave.
What will you choose today? - Jmiah
The more we think about what we CAN do,
the more replacements we find for almost every situation.
It's a waste of opportunity, never mind energy,
to focus on what we can't do. - My revelation 50days into quit
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Gentleman...I need opinions...I work nights...so technically my day starts around 930 or 10 pm before i go to work...when should i post roll? continue doing so in the morning? or when I wake up?
Quit for today btw! Day 5
My suggestion:
1. Be thankful for another day
2. Open eyes
3. Get out of bed, take a leak, wash hands
4. Post roll call and make a promise not to put cancer shit in your face.
5. Continue with this awesome day that has been given to you
I work nights as well and i have access to a computer so i have been making it a habit to try and post roll right after midnight or as soon as i can. But its up to you i just think it helps break up the day.
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Gentleman...I need opinions...I work nights...so technically my day starts around 930 or 10 pm before i go to work...when should i post roll? continue doing so in the morning? or when I wake up?
Quit for today btw! Day 5
My suggestion:
1. Be thankful for another day
2. Open eyes
3. Get out of bed, take a leak, wash hands
4. Post roll call and make a promise not to put cancer shit in your face.
5. Continue with this awesome day that has been given to you
I work nights as well and i have access to a computer so i have been making it a habit to try and post roll right after midnight or as soon as i can. But its up to you i just think it helps break up the day.
In my opinion, a day is a day, regardless where the hand is on the clock. The most important thing is whatever period of time represents YOUR day, you post roll and remain quit. Then repeat on the next one.
That's all that matters.
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Gentleman...I need opinions...I work nights...so technically my day starts around 930 or 10 pm before i go to work...when should i post roll? continue doing so in the morning? or when I wake up?
Quit for today btw! Day 5
My suggestion:
1. Be thankful for another day
2. Open eyes
3. Get out of bed, take a leak, wash hands
4. Post roll call and make a promise not to put cancer shit in your face.
5. Continue with this awesome day that has been given to you
I work nights as well and i have access to a computer so i have been making it a habit to try and post roll right after midnight or as soon as i can. But its up to you i just think it helps break up the day.
In my opinion, a day is a day, regardless where the hand is on the clock. The most important thing is whatever period of time represents YOUR day, you post roll and remain quit. Then repeat on the next one.
That's all that matters.
That there is some solid advice.
Post roll. Stick to your word. Enjoy the fight for freedom.
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Gentleman...I need opinions...I work nights...so technically my day starts around 930 or 10 pm before i go to work...when should i post roll? continue doing so in the morning? or when I wake up?
Quit for today btw! Day 5
My suggestion:
1. Be thankful for another day
2. Open eyes
3. Get out of bed, take a leak, wash hands
4. Post roll call and make a promise not to put cancer shit in your face.
5. Continue with this awesome day that has been given to you
I work nights as well and i have access to a computer so i have been making it a habit to try and post roll right after midnight or as soon as i can. But its up to you i just think it helps break up the day.
In my opinion, a day is a day, regardless where the hand is on the clock. The most important thing is whatever period of time represents YOUR day, you post roll and remain quit. Then repeat on the next one.
That's all that matters.
That there is some solid advice.
Post roll. Stick to your word. Enjoy the fight for freedom.
I work 12 hour shifts both days and nights. I started posting roll just after midnight because I was working nights, last night I posted just after midnight because I was up still. Next week I am on days and you can bet your ass I ain't getting up at midnight and posting but if I wake up at 3 am for a wizz break I'll stop at the computer and post or I'll post when I get up for real.
This is important to me and as long as it's a priority I don't think it matter when!
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I thought someone might want to talk a walk down memory lane...
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I thought someone might want to talk a walk down memory lane...
It's a painful walk...
'bang head'
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I thought someone might want to talk a walk down memory lane...
It's a painful walk...
'bang head'
Corn you helped me feel at home here at KTC and now this......unfuckingbelieveable!
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I thought someone might want to talk a walk down memory lane...
It's a painful walk...
'bang head'
Corn you helped me feel at home here at KTC and now this......unfuckingbelieveable!
I'm speechless. I tried to write something eloquent but I couldn't. Your story put a chink in my quit like fuck armor today. But that's all it is...a chink. Insignificant.
All we addicts have is a belief in each other. Accountability. I'm tired of getting shit upon.
Quit Like Fuck.
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I thought someone might want to talk a walk down memory lane...
It's a painful walk...
'bang head'
Corn you helped me feel at home here at KTC and now this......unfuckingbelieveable!
I'm speechless. I tried to write something eloquent but I couldn't. Your story put a chink in my quit like fuck armor today. But that's all it is...a chink. Insignificant.
All we addicts have is a belief in each other. Accountability. I'm tired of getting shit upon.
Quit Like Fuck.
I know it feels like we've been kicked in the nuts but caves will happen to those who don't burn the bridge. Take this as a painful reminder that you have to eliminate nicotine as an option in your life. If it ain't an option there is no other outcome but quit. No matter what, TODAY you can't dip! You have no other choice. Believe it, preach it, live it. Are you a stopper or are you a quitter?
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I thought someone might want to talk a walk down memory lane...
It's a painful walk...
'bang head'
Corn you helped me feel at home here at KTC and now this......unfuckingbelieveable!
I'm speechless. I tried to write something eloquent but I couldn't. Your story put a chink in my quit like fuck armor today. But that's all it is...a chink. Insignificant.
All we addicts have is a belief in each other. Accountability. I'm tired of getting shit upon.
Quit Like Fuck.
I know it feels like we've been kicked in the nuts but caves will happen to those who don't burn the bridge. Take this as a painful reminder that you have to eliminate nicotine as an option in your life. If it ain't an option there is no other outcome but quit. No matter what, TODAY you can't dip! You have no other choice. Believe it, preach it, live it. Are you a stopper or are you a quitter?
What's the over/under on the number of texts sent and phone calls corn made before stuffing his face with cancer?
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I thought someone might want to talk a walk down memory lane...
It's a painful walk...
'bang head'
Corn you helped me feel at home here at KTC and now this......unfuckingbelieveable!
I'm speechless. I tried to write something eloquent but I couldn't. Your story put a chink in my quit like fuck armor today. But that's all it is...a chink. Insignificant.
All we addicts have is a belief in each other. Accountability. I'm tired of getting shit upon.
Quit Like Fuck.
I know it feels like we've been kicked in the nuts but caves will happen to those who don't burn the bridge. Take this as a painful reminder that you have to eliminate nicotine as an option in your life. If it ain't an option there is no other outcome but quit. No matter what, TODAY you can't dip! You have no other choice. Believe it, preach it, live it. Are you a stopper or are you a quitter?
What's the over/under on the number of texts sent and phone calls corn made before stuffing his face with cancer?
0.0
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I thought someone might want to talk a walk down memory lane...
It's a painful walk...
'bang head'
Corn you helped me feel at home here at KTC and now this......unfuckingbelieveable!
I'm speechless. I tried to write something eloquent but I couldn't. Your story put a chink in my quit like fuck armor today. But that's all it is...a chink. Insignificant.
All we addicts have is a belief in each other. Accountability. I'm tired of getting shit upon.
Quit Like Fuck.
I know it feels like we've been kicked in the nuts but caves will happen to those who don't burn the bridge. Take this as a painful reminder that you have to eliminate nicotine as an option in your life. If it ain't an option there is no other outcome but quit. No matter what, TODAY you can't dip! You have no other choice. Believe it, preach it, live it. Are you a stopper or are you a quitter?
What's the over/under on the number of texts sent and phone calls corn made before stuffing his face with cancer?
0.0
Did we ever find out if he posted roll on the day he caved?
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I thought someone might want to talk a walk down memory lane...
It's a painful walk...
'bang head'
Corn you helped me feel at home here at KTC and now this......unfuckingbelieveable!
I'm speechless. I tried to write something eloquent but I couldn't. Your story put a chink in my quit like fuck armor today. But that's all it is...a chink. Insignificant.
All we addicts have is a belief in each other. Accountability. I'm tired of getting shit upon.
Quit Like Fuck.
I know it feels like we've been kicked in the nuts but caves will happen to those who don't burn the bridge. Take this as a painful reminder that you have to eliminate nicotine as an option in your life. If it ain't an option there is no other outcome but quit. No matter what, TODAY you can't dip! You have no other choice. Believe it, preach it, live it. Are you a stopper or are you a quitter?
What's the over/under on the number of texts sent and phone calls corn made before stuffing his face with cancer?
0.0
Did we ever find out if he posted roll on the day he caved?
He was clear when he posted roll according to his post yesterday in February.
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I thought someone might want to talk a walk down memory lane...
It's a painful walk...
'bang head'
Corn you helped me feel at home here at KTC and now this......unfuckingbelieveable!
I'm speechless. I tried to write something eloquent but I couldn't. Your story put a chink in my quit like fuck armor today. But that's all it is...a chink. Insignificant.
All we addicts have is a belief in each other. Accountability. I'm tired of getting shit upon.
Quit Like Fuck.
I know it feels like we've been kicked in the nuts but caves will happen to those who don't burn the bridge. Take this as a painful reminder that you have to eliminate nicotine as an option in your life. If it ain't an option there is no other outcome but quit. No matter what, TODAY you can't dip! You have no other choice. Believe it, preach it, live it. Are you a stopper or are you a quitter?
What's the over/under on the number of texts sent and phone calls corn made before stuffing his face with cancer?
0.0
Did we ever find out if he posted roll on the day he caved?
He was clear when he posted roll according to his post yesterday in February.
I gave praise at one point with a specific warning...
Remember the dark side is always lurking.
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I thought someone might want to talk a walk down memory lane...
It's a painful walk...
'bang head'
Corn you helped me feel at home here at KTC and now this......unfuckingbelieveable!
I'm speechless. I tried to write something eloquent but I couldn't. Your story put a chink in my quit like fuck armor today. But that's all it is...a chink. Insignificant.
All we addicts have is a belief in each other. Accountability. I'm tired of getting shit upon.
Quit Like Fuck.
I know it feels like we've been kicked in the nuts but caves will happen to those who don't burn the bridge. Take this as a painful reminder that you have to eliminate nicotine as an option in your life. If it ain't an option there is no other outcome but quit. No matter what, TODAY you can't dip! You have no other choice. Believe it, preach it, live it. Are you a stopper or are you a quitter?
What's the over/under on the number of texts sent and phone calls corn made before stuffing his face with cancer?
0.0
Did we ever find out if he posted roll on the day he caved?
He was clear when he posted roll according to his post yesterday in February.
I gave praise at one point with a specific warning...
Remember the dark side is always lurking.
I caved after more than 1000 days. Now I am on day 422. That is how addicted I am. Freedom is so sweet.
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I thought someone might want to talk a walk down memory lane...
It's a painful walk...
'bang head'
Corn you helped me feel at home here at KTC and now this......unfuckingbelieveable!
I'm speechless. I tried to write something eloquent but I couldn't. Your story put a chink in my quit like fuck armor today. But that's all it is...a chink. Insignificant.
All we addicts have is a belief in each other. Accountability. I'm tired of getting shit upon.
Quit Like Fuck.
I know it feels like we've been kicked in the nuts but caves will happen to those who don't burn the bridge. Take this as a painful reminder that you have to eliminate nicotine as an option in your life. If it ain't an option there is no other outcome but quit. No matter what, TODAY you can't dip! You have no other choice. Believe it, preach it, live it. Are you a stopper or are you a quitter?
What's the over/under on the number of texts sent and phone calls corn made before stuffing his face with cancer?
0.0
Did we ever find out if he posted roll on the day he caved?
He was clear when he posted roll according to his post yesterday in February.
I gave praise at one point with a specific warning...
Remember the dark side is always lurking.
I caved after more than 1000 days. Now I am on day 422. That is how addicted I am. Freedom is so sweet.
I was just reading and shaking my head saying why? How? Then I remembered, I caved after 3 1/2 yrs. Of being stopped. I started thinking what brought me down. It was a combination of things: arrogance, I thought I could control my usage. Ignorance, I didn't recognize I was a addict. Curiosity, wanted to see if the rush I remembered was still there. Selfpity, I was feeling sorry for myself and wanted to wallow in my pain with a mouth of shit!
Next time I view a cave I'm going to review my quit and see what I may need to do to update my resolve. Remember always it's the cave that SUCKS not the caver. Corn I feel your pain!
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I thought someone might want to talk a walk down memory lane...
It's a painful walk...
'bang head'
Corn you helped me feel at home here at KTC and now this......unfuckingbelieveable!
I'm speechless. I tried to write something eloquent but I couldn't. Your story put a chink in my quit like fuck armor today. But that's all it is...a chink. Insignificant.
All we addicts have is a belief in each other. Accountability. I'm tired of getting shit upon.
Quit Like Fuck.
I know it feels like we've been kicked in the nuts but caves will happen to those who don't burn the bridge. Take this as a painful reminder that you have to eliminate nicotine as an option in your life. If it ain't an option there is no other outcome but quit. No matter what, TODAY you can't dip! You have no other choice. Believe it, preach it, live it. Are you a stopper or are you a quitter?
What's the over/under on the number of texts sent and phone calls corn made before stuffing his face with cancer?
0.0
Did we ever find out if he posted roll on the day he caved?
He was clear when he posted roll according to his post yesterday in February.
I gave praise at one point with a specific warning...
Remember the dark side is always lurking.
I caved after more than 1000 days. Now I am on day 422. That is how addicted I am. Freedom is so sweet.
I was just reading and shaking my head saying why? How? Then I remembered, I caved after 3 1/2 yrs. Of being stopped. I started thinking what brought me down. It was a combination of things: arrogance, I thought I could control my usage. Ignorance, I didn't recognize I was a addict. Curiosity, wanted to see if the rush I remembered was still there. Selfpity, I was feeling sorry for myself and wanted to wallow in my pain with a mouth of shit!
Next time I view a cave I'm going to review my quit and see what I may need to do to update my resolve. Remember always it's the cave that SUCKS not the caver. Corn I feel your pain!
First - am just getting caught up here....did Corn cave once or twice? either way - nasty....
Second......I quit once.....and I say I did cuz i did.....10 years high school football.....to college....to first job....10 years.....and yes I quit.....I did not stop.....problem is ...... that fucking CUNT is so clever.......so the cigar craze hits........cigar bars, you recall.........i go to some cigar bars....I am 25......and young and dumb and full of cum......the fucking nic bitch loves the guys in theirs 20's.......cuz we are plain fucking stupid........
So - hit the cigars......and BOOM.....back on the nic........
fast forward 15 years......99 days quit.......a little wiser.......a little more worldly.....wont ......
so get this......last week - after the vegas free cubans that I said FUCK YOU too.......a guy on my team goes....."hey, lets go do a hookah bar?"
I go whats that?
he goes - its an egyptian smoke
I go - I don't do nicotine
he goes - there is no nicotine in it (REALLY?????? FUCK YOU YOU DUMB MOTHER FUCKER - i should have fired him for being an idiot)
but here is the bitch......again..........stalking.......taking on a new form....
so - i digress......will throw a few prayers up for Corn and am done with him..... i will not accept him back until he reaches his own personal 100 day HOF - this is his burden to carry......not OCT's.......not ours........
i love you guys.....FUCK THE CUNT
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FUCK YOU ADDICTION! You think you're so fucking smart? You proud of yourself for controlling everything I do for the past 30years? You get a kick out of holding me back from my full potential? You think it's FUNNY that I would lie and hide from my family on your command?
Well you just wait till I starve your ass to death. I'm ready for your desperate attempts to save yourself. You can forget it. Nothing you can do will last more than a short moment. NONE your pathetic childish attempts to trick me into getting what you want will work this time. Now I'm smarter, wiser, stronger. And not only do I have support from my family, I have the support of KILLTHECAN. You might be stronger than me, but there's NO WAY you're stronger than my TEAM. So FUCK OFF! THIS IS MY LIFE, I'M TAKING BACK THE CONTROLS!
READY:
You smell that?
That's fucking freedom right there.
grab on to that motherfucker and don't ever let go.
For any reason.
Ever.
WOW...From the master of quit. Thank you sir. I am definately quit today. Thanks!!
I call em like I see em. The quit is strong with you. Use your new found powers for good. Remember the dark side is always lurking.
The day I admitted I was addicted to nicotine was the day I controlled nicotine instead of nicotine controlling me. It does not make quitting easy, it just means I call the shots.
So this is a powerful reminder to me that A ... my words are etched in stone here and can always return to haunt me later ...
B... Quit is a Choice .. so is Caving.
It got my KTC coin in my Pocket ... when I feel a CRAVE coming on ... I put that coin in my lower lip .... I look stupid but I am reminded!
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FUCK YOU ADDICTION! You think you're so fucking smart? You proud of yourself for controlling everything I do for the past 30years? You get a kick out of holding me back from my full potential? You think it's FUNNY that I would lie and hide from my family on your command?
Well you just wait till I starve your ass to death. I'm ready for your desperate attempts to save yourself. You can forget it. Nothing you can do will last more than a short moment. NONE your pathetic childish attempts to trick me into getting what you want will work this time. Now I'm smarter, wiser, stronger. And not only do I have support from my family, I have the support of KILLTHECAN. You might be stronger than me, but there's NO WAY you're stronger than my TEAM. So FUCK OFF! THIS IS MY LIFE, I'M TAKING BACK THE CONTROLS!
READY:
You smell that?
That's fucking freedom right there.
grab on to that motherfucker and don't ever let go.
For any reason.
Ever.
WOW...From the master of quit. Thank you sir. I am definately quit today. Thanks!!
I call em like I see em. The quit is strong with you. Use your new found powers for good. Remember the dark side is always lurking.
The day I admitted I was addicted to nicotine was the day I controlled nicotine instead of nicotine controlling me. It does not make quitting easy, it just means I call the shots.
So this is a powerful reminder to me that A ... my words are etched in stone here and can always return to haunt me later ...
B... Quit is a Choice .. so is Caving.
It got my KTC coin in my Pocket ... when I feel a CRAVE coming on ... I put that coin in my lower lip .... I look stupid but I am reminded!
And if you carry your coin in your back pocket and you reach for a dip, it will blow your ass off.
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Bump
The nostalgia of this thread is awesome, but another day 1 isn't. We had a lot of fun man and I always thought you would have my back ultimately. You lied to us man.
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Bump
The nostalgia of this thread is awesome, but another day 1 isn't. We had a lot of fun man and I always thought you would have my back ultimately. You lied to us man.
tsk, tsk
I guess for one, you remember that we are here, and that it is a proven place to quit, but only if you continue each and every day to learn......
and then once you learn, apply it.....(as it can be used for so much more than nicotine).
give it and honor your word
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Bump
The nostalgia of this thread is awesome, but another day 1 isn't. We had a lot of fun man and I always thought you would have my back ultimately. You lied to us man.
Déjà vu
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Bump
The nostalgia of this thread is awesome, but another day 1 isn't. We had a lot of fun man and I always thought you would have my back ultimately. You lied to us man.
Déjà vu
Damn - there are names in here that I heard in a while. 3 cavers that I count not including the Great Cornholio. I joined during the SloMo fiasco 4 years ago. I loved you guys in the FU. Bruce, tex, mcarmo, atlas, bigsky, timpy, DW3 (first dude to contact me), CB, you, even MNG. Glad and sad you're back.
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Two times I let KTC brothers down in the past. Feb and Oct 2012. From that failure, came utter self destruction. I got coming to me what God intended to happen if I did not wake up...I found my bottom: Divorce, jobless, and money-less with deep depression, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts.
I never took alcohol out of my life, or at least seriously try to when I made a resolve to quit nicotine in 2012. In fact, I was real ignorant about keeping alcohol in my life during that quit attempt. I had made attempts in the past and stopped drinking during those attempts because the cravings were just too strong. In the past, I would cave on nicotine as soon as I would drink again, whether that was days, weeks, or months later. In 2012, I decided to keep drinking so i could push out of that gate early. That right there was a huge clue there was a problem.
The result was giving a feeding tube to my addiction beast. Alcohol became it's life blood and it silently became stronger and stronger while I became weaker. The issue is addiction. It's not nicotine, it's not alcohol, it's not pain killers, or weed. It's fucking addiction. I lost my family through divorce which opened the flood gates. I allowed the gates to open and used a substance to deal with it. I used something that I was comfortable using, or felt safe using, because it did not cause me harm in the past. I never abused alcohol, I was never physically addicted to it like pain killers or nicotine. I was not emotionally addicted to it...or so I thought. Looking back, I was absolutely psychologically addicted. Obviously I was. Ultimately I was using a drug or chemical to make me feel good, or to deal with stress. I made a mental decision to keep alcohol going during a time when i was trying to dump nicotine. I was basically jumping through hoops to keep a "Feel good" drug in my life.
I was so sure I had a solid plan. One that was adjusted as needed to deal with urges and cravings. I was wrong. Dead wrong. In fact, I did not have a plan to quit at all. My addiction just let me think I did.
I had some major character flaws that I was not dealing with. Like lying and avoidance. Two deadly character flaws that can ruin the best of quit plans. I ended up hiding my drinking just like I hid my smoking or dipping before. I avoided difficult conversations and owning up to things I have done even when confronted...either passively or straight on.
on 4/20/15, I took my first step to being sober and have continued that walk since. I am now 267 days sober. This plan is a lot stronger and involves more people that are around me. I told them of my addiction issues and that I was an alcoholic. I shared with them the lies and apologized for the pain I caused. They had to witness somebody they love completely self destruct. Since then, I have even shared how to identify the early signs and how to deal with them. I have learned the power of meditation, mindfulness, and through that improved my communication with God. I have learned the awesomeness of openness and honesty. I have practices in place today to pay attention to those issues and take a temperature reading on my progress.
I am here for selfish reasons today. This is my quit and I am doing what I need to do to protect it. I am here to close wounds that I have made. The feelings that come from ignoring your brothers reaching hand is brutally painful. I am here to help because that is what helps me.
I am willing to bet...
There's somebody who is going to read this who has addictions beyond nicotine. If you are one of them, PM me.
No pressures...just somebody close by who understands what you're going through. And yeah...I could use your support.
If you are a serious quitter, a quitter of pot, alcohol, pains killers...any of them...all of them...and have the heart to...PM me.
Today, I am quit.
Alcohol: 267 days
Nicotine: 6 days
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Now that's the real freakin deal people. Corn, April 16 is here for you brother. You need anything, or just want to talk, feel free to shoot me a PM. Quit on brother!
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Ok mods lets get these intros combined.
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It is fucked up beyond belief. The ultimate lie was to myself. I for sure thought I was quit forever. I mean...I knew I was always going to be an addict, but I honestly thought I had a grip. It was far from the truth.
I was fighting addiction the whole time and I knew that. I had recently come off an addiction to pain killers when I started here in 2012. I had come off an addiction to bath salts before that and synthetic weed. Never mind the pot itself years before. I say a pattern of abuse and I was looking to take it all away. I saw nicotine as the final nail. I was really naive. Very immature and no where near as prepared for what I really needed to do.
It's fucked up beyond belief. That I did not see alcohol as flammable. I had to. I just can't sit here today and think, "oooh...alcohol is addictive? Who knew?"
What in the holy fuck of fucks. I drank for years and years and years as a "normie" was the problem. I was looking at my addictions as what I was or had abused. I was not looking hard enough at my character flaws or my WHY. I was basically white knuckling through one addiction after another. Use, Abuse, Quit. That was my pattern.
I KNEW when I joined in 2012 that I was using substances to deal with depression. I knew that. I knew it when I quit pain killers. So why wouldn't I remove alcohol? My only answer I can come up with is two fold:
1. I really didn't WANT to quit being a substance abuser.
2. I needed to hit bottom to find that want. There was no "thinking it through" or "making a plan." I had to crash and burn to REALLY want it. To make myself think looong and hard about my character flaws, to seek help for them. To understand it's not about quitting something I am abusing, it's about quit being a fucking fake.
Yesterday I posted about why vets come into rooms and shake the room. In response to somebody questioning the purpose of that. When addiction has a grip on us...a deep grip...we step back into the 2nd or even 3rd chair and let addiction control everything. An addict needs to be shaken until you are talking to the person....not the addict voice being a translator. I needed to be shaken in a big way. That's the bottom line.
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The truth will set you free.
I lied to appear better than I was. To be respected or loved.
What I've learned in the past few months is that I am respected MORE when I am open and honest. It takes guts to do that and people really respect that. I've also learned that those who love me, love me MORE when I am honest. Exposing my weaknesses to people I care about is the ultimate way to show I trust them.
I lied because I was ashamed. The problem is, I became ashamed of lying. The compounding effect was too much to bare. The feeling of worthlessness that results leads to suicidal idealization. All because of lying.
I am who I am. And despite all that I've done to those who are close to me, I am loved and respected. Even more so now that I have changed / changing a very bad character flaw.
The truth will set you free. I've heard that a lot in my life but never gave it much thought. But it's soooo true! It sets you free from rotting emotionally. It sets you free from a caged and dark world.
For those who have hit bottom....it's not about finally coming to believe you're an addict and can't drink one or use once. It's more than a wake up call to address addictive behaviors. It's a wake up call to REALLY look at yourself and your own character. It forces you to be truthful with yourself. THAT's where it all starts.
For those who are/were ninja dippers...BEWARE. Take some time to be truthful with yourself. Are there other areas in your life that is a lie? Don't be that liar. You will be loved and respected. You will not put yourself in a position of self destruction. You will have more confidence and pride. The truth will set you free.
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Withdrawals vs cravings.
After quitting Alcohol just under 9months ago and now nicotine, I've come to appreciate the difference between withdrawals and cravings as well as the relationship.
WITHDRAWALS: The body's reaction when we quit taking an addictive drug. It's a physical reaction, but it can also have an emotional effect because neurotransmitters in the brain are effected when a substance is stopped. Rage, depression, excitability, restlessness, lack of focus are good examples.
CRAVINGS: Simply put, the desire to use. These come from triggers. Could be habit/routine triggers, emotional triggers, external triggers, internal triggers, etc. Cravings can also manifest from Withdrawal symptoms.
TREATMENT
Both cravings and withdrawals can be treated. Maybe not to the point of completely removing them, but a significant improvements can be made. Here's the tricks I've found that works for me...after spending probably 100's of hours researching and trying different things when quitting alcohol...which was more of an in your face, higher intensity WD phase. Shorter than nicotine, but packed a much bigger punch. The same techniques have proven useful for Nicotine!
- Take time for myself to practice mindfulness and/or meditation: Helps cravings, withdrawals, pain / discomfort, and emotions. It's simply the process of honing in on the physical and emotional effects of what ever it is I am feeling. Mindfulness taught me to break down what I was feeling into smaller pieces by focusing on where and how my body was responding. Focusing on each facet for a second or two made the overall experience easier to deal with. When WD's hit, and I have the time to practice mindfulness, it makes the overall experience much easier to deal with by basically taking one huge feeling and breaking it down into sub parts. It helps with withdrawals as well as cravings. When I do this for cravings, I take the time to really identify what is causing the craving. That's important because now I can work on solutions for preventing that particular craving from coming back. Or at least make it less powerful.
- HALT (specific type of mindfulness). Again...this is something I picked up from alcohol recovery, but I find it useful for every day life as well as nicotine recovery. Helps with cravings. It's an acronym for the most common triggers. If you're craving bad (Or even feeling "blue"), take a minute and evaluate yourself to see if any of these issues are at play, then you address it. Are you:
Hungry
Angry
Lonely
Tired - Eating 5 small meals: Helps cravings, irritability, depression, focus, and motivation. Eating fruits, nuts, veggies, and protein 5 times a day keeps my glucose level nice and even throughout the day. This is HUGE for mood issues including depression and irritability. It also helps with focus and removing brain fog. Provides a general good mood for the day with clarity.
- Reduce / eliminate caffeine and sugar: Huge help for mood swings, sleep, brain fog, focus. It's hard not to start pounding coffee after a rough night's sleep or to address brain fog / focus, but I've found them to be counter productive and actually makes them worse. Sure...a cup of coffee or a sugary snack might make a marginal improvement, but it's short lived then followed by a rebound. The crash is worse than how I felt before using coffee or sugar. It's like drinking alcohol. Alcoholics are more in tune with the rebound effect (maybe not early on, but eventually sees what's happening). You drink, you feel good or a couple hours, then you feel like ass with rebound effects on depression and anxiety being the most pronounced, taking you to lower lows than before (Hence the need to drink again, or to keep drinking to avoid those feelings).
- Dark Chocolate: Reduces cravings, improves mood, focus, energy. Read into Dark chocolate for nicotine Dark Chocolate for Nicotine WD's (http://www.belmarrahealth.com/trying-to-quit-smoking-what-actually-works/). I discovered this when quitting alcohol and was floored by how well it works. It helps a crap ton for nicotine too. Find dark chocolate with 70% cocoa or more. The higher the cocoa content, the better it works, but the more it tastes like tree bark. I prefer 90% for it's effectiveness and will chase with something sweet. I found an awesome trail mix at trader joes that has 90% cocoa chocolate in it along with nuts, mM's, and sweet milk chocolate. Love that stuff!
- Exercise: Reduced cravings, improve mood, reduce pains, improve focus and energy. OK...I should disclose these are not in any particular order, because exercise has THE MOST POWERFUL impact on curbing rage, depression, cravings, and most WD symptoms....if not all. The problem is, I hate to exercise. But..when nothing I do works, or I'm in a real bad place, this is my ace in the hole. Jumping jacks, push ups, fast walking or running will change your world. The other day I was pissed off at the world, depressed as shit, and mad at myself for being in this position. I had a HORRIBLE outlook on the world and was hung up on my past which is depressing as fuck if I obsess over what I have done to waste my life. Tried my other tricks with little help. Tied my sneakers on, stretched, then started walking, then faster, then jogged till I couldn't jog any more. It wasn't far...I just quit smoking after all. I was sweating like a stuck pig and thought I was about to have a heart attack. I was a whole new man after that. The rest of the day was a cake walk. If only I would do that every morning :/
- 5-htp. This is an amino acid that's a precursor to serotonin. Helps with anxiety, depression, and sleep. Serotonin is our brains natural anti-depressant. It also turns into melotonin which helps with sleep. You can't use it if your taking an SSRI as it'll have a dangerous compounding effect and can lead to Serotonin Syndrome. So research before using. I find 50mg works great during the day to help with anxiety and irritability, and 100mg at night helps with sleep. Only take as needed. Check this link out: 5-htp for nicotine WD's (http://www.life-enhancement.com/magazine/article/2532-5-htp-offsets-tobacco-withdrawal-symptoms)
- Theanine: Helps with irritability and depression, and reduces cravings. I should have posted this up with coffee because Theanine is in Green Tea. Green Tea is a great replacement for coffee. It provides a cleaner burst of energy without the comedown.
- Vitamins..particularly B complex: Helps with stress, anxiety, energy, focus, overall mood, and sleep. There's a ton of links available that prove the benefits of vitamin B. But I would think taking your vitamins should be common sense. Even though I am not all that religious with taking them. But if I start feeling bad, it's normally my first through..."Did I take my vitamins today?" Going through WD's and fighting cravings is stressful emotionally AND physically. A vitamin B complex helps big time. The TOP vitamins that you can see a TON of proof on their efficacy for curbing WD's AND cravings: Multi Vitamin, B complex, Omega 3.
- Post and read: Helps with rage, depression, cravings. Again...this list is not in any order. Read up on withdrawal symptoms when the occur. Understanding what is going on helps a ton and, along the way, you learn different techniques for handling them. Posting here on KTC keeps my head in the game. I can let my rage scream at it wants...I nice way to get it out. I laugh when I read here. There are some funny as fuck people here. Always good for a well needed smile. I'll forget about my cravings as I read and post. It's a huge help. Reading and posting is a sure fire way to push through just about anything I am feeling. If I had to pick just one trick for fighting WD's and Cravings, I would have to pick KTC. It's the only one that is a "fix all."
If you pull all these things together, you have one kick ass quit plan.
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Withdrawals vs cravings.
After quitting Alcohol just under 9months ago and now nicotine, I've come to appreciate the difference between withdrawals and cravings as well as the relationship.
WITHDRAWALS: The body's reaction when we quit taking an addictive drug. It's a physical reaction, but it can also have an emotional effect because neurotransmitters in the brain are effected when a substance is stopped. Rage, depression, excitability, restlessness, lack of focus are good examples.
CRAVINGS: Simply put, the desire to use. These come from triggers. Could be habit/routine triggers, emotional triggers, external triggers, internal triggers, etc. Cravings can also manifest from Withdrawal symptoms.
TREATMENT
Both cravings and withdrawals can be treated. Maybe not to the point of completely removing them, but a significant improvements can be made. Here's the tricks I've found that works for me...after spending probably 100's of hours researching and trying different things when quitting alcohol...which was more of an in your face, higher intensity WD phase. Shorter than nicotine, but packed a much bigger punch. The same techniques have proven useful for Nicotine!
- Take time for myself to practice mindfulness and/or meditation: Helps cravings, withdrawals, pain / discomfort, and emotions. It's simply the process of honing in on the physical and emotional effects of what ever it is I am feeling. Mindfulness taught me to break down what I was feeling into smaller pieces by focusing on where and how my body was responding. Focusing on each facet for a second or two made the overall experience easier to deal with. When WD's hit, and I have the time to practice mindfulness, it makes the overall experience much easier to deal with by basically taking one huge feeling and breaking it down into sub parts. It helps with withdrawals as well as cravings. When I do this for cravings, I take the time to really identify what is causing the craving. That's important because now I can work on solutions for preventing that particular craving from coming back. Or at least make it less powerful.
- HALT (specific type of mindfulness). Again...this is something I picked up from alcohol recovery, but I find it useful for every day life as well as nicotine recovery. Helps with cravings. It's an acronym for the most common triggers. If you're craving bad (Or even feeling "blue"), take a minute and evaluate yourself to see if any of these issues are at play, then you address it. Are you:
Hungry
Angry
Lonely
Tired - Eating 5 small meals: Helps cravings, irritability, depression, focus, and motivation. Eating fruits, nuts, veggies, and protein 5 times a day keeps my glucose level nice and even throughout the day. This is HUGE for mood issues including depression and irritability. It also helps with focus and removing brain fog. Provides a general good mood for the day with clarity.
- Reduce / eliminate caffeine and sugar: Huge help for mood swings, sleep, brain fog, focus. It's hard not to start pounding coffee after a rough night's sleep or to address brain fog / focus, but I've found them to be counter productive and actually makes them worse. Sure...a cup of coffee or a sugary snack might make a marginal improvement, but it's short lived then followed by a rebound. The crash is worse than how I felt before using coffee or sugar. It's like drinking alcohol. Alcoholics are more in tune with the rebound effect (maybe not early on, but eventually sees what's happening). You drink, you feel good or a couple hours, then you feel like ass with rebound effects on depression and anxiety being the most pronounced, taking you to lower lows than before (Hence the need to drink again, or to keep drinking to avoid those feelings).
- Dark Chocolate: Reduces cravings, improves mood, focus, energy. Read into Dark chocolate for nicotine Dark Chocolate for Nicotine WD's (http://www.belmarrahealth.com/trying-to-quit-smoking-what-actually-works/). I discovered this when quitting alcohol and was floored by how well it works. It helps a crap ton for nicotine too. Find dark chocolate with 70% cocoa or more. The higher the cocoa content, the better it works, but the more it tastes like tree bark. I prefer 90% for it's effectiveness and will chase with something sweet. I found an awesome trail mix at trader joes that has 90% cocoa chocolate in it along with nuts, mM's, and sweet milk chocolate. Love that stuff!
- Exercise: Reduced cravings, improve mood, reduce pains, improve focus and energy. OK...I should disclose these are not in any particular order, because exercise has THE MOST POWERFUL impact on curbing rage, depression, cravings, and most WD symptoms....if not all. The problem is, I hate to exercise. But..when nothing I do works, or I'm in a real bad place, this is my ace in the hole. Jumping jacks, push ups, fast walking or running will change your world. The other day I was pissed off at the world, depressed as shit, and mad at myself for being in this position. I had a HORRIBLE outlook on the world and was hung up on my past which is depressing as fuck if I obsess over what I have done to waste my life. Tried my other tricks with little help. Tied my sneakers on, stretched, then started walking, then faster, then jogged till I couldn't jog any more. It wasn't far...I just quit smoking after all. I was sweating like a stuck pig and thought I was about to have a heart attack. I was a whole new man after that. The rest of the day was a cake walk. If only I would do that every morning :/
- 5-htp. This is an amino acid that's a precursor to serotonin. Helps with anxiety, depression, and sleep. Serotonin is our brains natural anti-depressant. It also turns into melotonin which helps with sleep. You can't use it if your taking an SSRI as it'll have a dangerous compounding effect and can lead to Serotonin Syndrome. So research before using. I find 50mg works great during the day to help with anxiety and irritability, and 100mg at night helps with sleep. Only take as needed. Check this link out: 5-htp for nicotine WD's (http://www.life-enhancement.com/magazine/article/2532-5-htp-offsets-tobacco-withdrawal-symptoms)
- Theanine: Helps with irritability and depression, and reduces cravings. I should have posted this up with coffee because Theanine is in Green Tea. Green Tea is a great replacement for coffee. It provides a cleaner burst of energy without the comedown.
- Vitamins..particularly B complex: Helps with stress, anxiety, energy, focus, overall mood, and sleep. There's a ton of links available that prove the benefits of vitamin B. But I would think taking your vitamins should be common sense. Even though I am not all that religious with taking them. But if I start feeling bad, it's normally my first through..."Did I take my vitamins today?" Going through WD's and fighting cravings is stressful emotionally AND physically. A vitamin B complex helps big time. The TOP vitamins that you can see a TON of proof on their efficacy for curbing WD's AND cravings: Multi Vitamin, B complex, Omega 3.
- Post and read: Helps with rage, depression, cravings. Again...this list is not in any order. Read up on withdrawal symptoms when the occur. Understanding what is going on helps a ton and, along the way, you learn different techniques for handling them. Posting here on KTC keeps my head in the game. I can let my rage scream at it wants...I nice way to get it out. I laugh when I read here. There are some funny as fuck people here. Always good for a well needed smile. I'll forget about my cravings as I read and post. It's a huge help. Reading and posting is a sure fire way to push through just about anything I am feeling. If I had to pick just one trick for fighting WD's and Cravings, I would have to pick KTC. It's the only one that is a "fix all."
If you pull all these things together, you have one kick ass quit plan.
Missing: brotherhood.
Here we quit as a team. We connect. We text. We commit to each other. We keep our word.
I've met quitters from Ktc from all over the US and Canada. In March a bunch of us are meeting in Vegas. The thought of failing and telling these people that I failed is incomprehensible. Don't underestimate this.
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"KTC is a circle the wagons situation and you need to be inside the circle busting ass to keep the circle tight! Anyone running from the circle does so at their own peril..." ~ Jason (JDM)
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Well, today marks the day that my group, April16, enters HOF.
I'm extremely proud of the group. Turned out to be an awesome quit group!!
This will be my third HOF. I'm proud of myself. Not that I survived 100 days nic free, but that I surrounded myself with some awesome supporters. I first found enough courage to post day 1. No lying, no avoiding the bashing. That was huge for me. Then, I worked my ass off to reconcile what I have done by leaving here. I'm proud of myself for exposing myself 100% to my quit group.
April is going to be my new birth month. Not only have I found my permanent home here, but I will be sober for one year on 4/20. This is obviously also huge.
Let me share something with anyone who reads this.
There is NO other forum which offers the level of brotherhood and accountability as KTC does.
Case in point...I am a member of a forum for alcoholism and drug addiction; SoberRecovery.com.
The difference between the two, in regards to brotherhood and accountability is like comparing the U.S. Marines force to the Boy Scouts. I sincerely appreciate KTC. It's become my touchstone. when I hit HOF, I'm going to talk to a few of my brothers. I'm going to step out of my comfort zone. I'm going to tell them that any day I do not post to assume I am caving to addiction. And for me, that means letting addiction eventually destroy me. Again. I'm going to give them advise on how to reach me if I avoid txts. And ideas on what to say. I don't want to put a lot of pressure on them. Which is why I'm going to ask if they are comfortable doing it. In no way am I planning on caving. But I am giving the answers to brothers who will want to be there for me if I need it.
I had that before. I had brothers who did want to help me. But I ignored them. I literally deleted my contacts so I could not see who was texting me. Then I just ignored them. The emails from KTC were redirected to junk mail. Makes me sick just thinking of it.
Here's a fact. If I had accepted a reaching hand the last time, I would have most likely not let addiction take complete control of me. I probably would have avoided losing a 20yr career, I probably would have been able to sell my house instead of foreclose on it, I probably wouldn't be bankrupt. I would have avoided a suicidal phase.
There's a massive character flaw in place that makes somebody do that: Avoidance. The key to my quit is knowing that and continuously working on it. That and lying.
Anyone who caves after being here an extended time, or when they have a bunch of numbers on their phone, needs to dig deep to answer what happened, why, and what will be different. They need to look deeper than the circumstances behind the cave. Much, much deeper. They have to do some serious soul searching and determine what character traits need to change. Then develop a plan to address them. Make a plan to replace those character traits with its opposit. This way they are fixing the root cause. Fighting the fire from its base.
When I caved the first time, I did not dig deep enough. It was only after hitting rock bottom from drugs and alcohol. After I lost everything. In the end, I am thankful for the experience. It's what God intended for me if I didn't figure it out on my own. Now, I am equipped better.
I have broken free from pot, alcohol, pain pills, various drugs available on line and in head shops, and nicotine. But MOST importantly I have broken free from the addiction of lying and avoiding.
I AM FREE!
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Congrats on HOF today Corn!
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Congrats on HOF today Corn!
Hell Yes to Corn! You rock!
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Thank you gents!!
Looking forward to sharing future milestones with you both!