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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Stonemac on June 28, 2016, 11:19:00 PM
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I recently joined this website less than a month ago and became aware that there are other people going through what I'm going through. I'm not the only one and I'm not the only one suffering this terrible addiction. When i joined I posted an intro and tossed the remnants of my tin. I was excited and I posted roll on day 1 and day 2. By the morning of day 2 after sleeping through my first whole day I caved instantly on day 2. Since then I've been obsessed with how bad life sucks being controlled by nicotine. I've throughly been reading up on here gathering information and reading everyone's stories. I know I failed because I did not use this site properly and thought I didnt need the support. I few people reached out to me but I did nothing with it. Again I tossed my remnants down the toilet, tossed all my empties, and washed out all my spittle cups. I'm ready to do whatever I need to do to get this behind me and start a new life.
Probably won't do it right , but I look forward to posting roll tomorrow. Good night.
Thanks
Stonemac
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I recently joined this website less than a month ago and became aware that there are other people going through what I'm going through. I'm not the only one and I'm not the only one suffering this terrible addiction. When i joined I posted an intro and tossed the remnants of my tin. I was excited and I posted roll on day 1 and day 2. By the morning of day 2 after sleeping through my first whole day I caved instantly on day 2. Since then I've been obsessed with how bad life sucks being controlled by nicotine. I've throughly been reading up on here gathering information and reading everyone's stories. I know I failed because I did not use this site properly and thought I didnt need the support. I few people reached out to me but I did nothing with it. Again I tossed my remnants down the toilet, tossed all my empties, and washed out all my spittle cups. I'm ready to do whatever I need to do to get this behind me and start a new life.
Probably won't do it right , but I look forward to posting roll tomorrow. Good night.
Thanks
Stonemac
If you have what it takes, I will quit with you everyday. Trust blindly, openly and follow the path. Ask questions and involve yourself.
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I recently joined this website less than a month ago and became aware that there are other people going through what I'm going through. I'm not the only one and I'm not the only one suffering this terrible addiction. When i joined I posted an intro and tossed the remnants of my tin. I was excited and I posted roll on day 1 and day 2. By the morning of day 2 after sleeping through my first whole day I caved instantly on day 2. Since then I've been obsessed with how bad life sucks being controlled by nicotine. I've throughly been reading up on here gathering information and reading everyone's stories. I know I failed because I did not use this site properly and thought I didnt need the support. I few people reached out to me but I did nothing with it. Again I tossed my remnants down the toilet, tossed all my empties, and washed out all my spittle cups. I'm ready to do whatever I need to do to get this behind me and start a new life.
Probably won't do it right , but I look forward to posting roll tomorrow. Good night.
Thanks
Stonemac
If you have what it takes, I will quit with you everyday. Trust blindly, openly and follow the path. Ask questions and involve yourself.
If your names on that roll, I'll be quitting with you!
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My wife made me watch a movie tonight. Bout a golfer going through a tough time and an old guy guiding him on the right track, not just with golf but with his life and his spiritual life. About half way through the old guy taught the golfer a saying that I immediately liked. See, Feel, Trust. SO let's put that into play here at KTC. See the process (brotherhood, accountability, posting roll), Feel that you can commit to that process, and Trust in the process. Join your group (October). Get digits, give people yours. Post roll EVERY DAMN DAY. Make that promise to yourself and your group. So are you going to wake up tomorrow and cave again or you going to wake up tomorrow and See, Feel and Trust? It's on you.
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If you are really ready to quit this will be a life changing event for you. No one here can make you be ready. You need to come to that point yourself.
On the other side there is you and freedom from nicotine. Complete freedom.
I'm at day 298 today and I quit with you today!
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Every person posted above me is a winner, a top 10% kind of quitter. Every one of them struggled, badly, at the beginning. At least 1 tried hard to convince themselves that a patch or some gum would help wean the addiction, but in the end, that winner listened to logic and what works.
They are not struggling anymore. Every one of them will tell you how great freedom is, because life as an addict is not a life of freedom. You have taken your life back. There will be tough days. There are gonna be some times when you'll be angry, scared, depressed... And I hope all of those piss you the hell off. A plant in a little can did this to us, and we let it. Well fuck that. Life is yours again. It will get better - everyone above me will confirm.
Right now you are trying to figure out posting roll in October. Get your name on that list first thing and then use this site and its members. If some weak dude like me can do it, I know you can. This is the best decision of your life.
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"...thought I didn't need support..." I love that part, Kyle. I thought the exact same thing. In fact, I actually thought that I didn't need to post roll at all, but I'd just do it at first because that is what is done here.
Luckily, the badass quitters somehow got through to me...which is unbelievable because not only am I stupid, but I'm stubborn too. Quitting is a privilege reserved to those who have the guts to do it. You've got the guts. And I'm pumped about that. Think of that...YOUR quit fired me up?!!
Next step is staying quit. Posting roll makes staying quit possible. See, you don't have to quit forever here. Quitting forever is hard. So hard that nobody is doing that here. All we're concerned about is today. What about tomorrow, next week, next year, etc? I don't know. Nobody knows the future, so don't worry about it. And what's done is done...nobody can change the past. So don't worry about that either. All you can control is right now...today. And anybody can go one day, right?
That's all I'm doing here. I posted roll, gave my word. And I guaran-fuckin-tee you I will keep my word. I also plan on being here tomorrow. But that is tomorrow. We'll deal with tomorrow when it gets here. But nicotine is off the table for us today.
POST ROLL KEEP YOUR WORD. Quitting is done ONE DAY AT A TIME. But it feels like one minute at a time at first, so stay glued to this site.
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This addiction is hard to quit, but it can be done. I wore a patch and was called a pussy for a month here before I manned up and quit. Saved my life, why don't you join us.
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Day one is going slowly but surely. Sunflower. Seeds and fireballs have been helping.
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If you want to build some "Pissed Off Muscle" against this addiction. Think of it like this. That 1 oz can. That item which is about the size of a gas cap. That thing full or carcinogens. Not only did it try to kill you. But, that small thing ruled your life. Think about the things you did to make sure you had snuff nearby. Your hidey holes, that 3 dollars you kept aside just in case it was a tough week. Every time I think about that little thing controlling me, I get pissed. Severely pissed off.
Get yourself several gallons of bottled water. Some fruit juice. Gum, seeds, hard candy, taffy, fake chew, whatever it takes. Get some numbers of fellow quitters. Get involved in this site. I quit with you today.
Just for today, Self.
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Going strong on day one. Feeling like shit , but really good too for making this far. Min by min, hr by hr thanks for the support
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Get several gallons of water. Drink until your teeth float. Get some exercise. The withdrawals wont be as bad. Quit with you today.
Just for today, Self.
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Stone you're gonna feel like shit for awhile. Think about all the toxins in your body. It takes awhile to clean all that poison out. I will say no matter if it takes weeks it's worth every damn second of suffering to feel the freedom I feel after 38 year's of addiction. It's all about ODAAT! Make your promise Early and be a man and honor that promise and before you know it you will have that nic bitch by the throat! Quit on!
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Hang in there Stonemac. It will suck until it doesn't, normally just for a few weeks and then on and off after that. Day one is bad ass! Every day is another step towards FREEDOM!. :)
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You can do this.
You aren't alone. We've all been where you are.
You don't need nicotine to live, I promise. But it will kill you.
3 days and it is out of your system. Then it is just mind games. You are getting thru the physical part.
Post roll
Keep your word.
Honored to quit with you today.
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My wife made me watch a movie tonight. Bout a golfer going through a tough time and an old guy guiding him on the right track, not just with golf but with his life and his spiritual life. About half way through the old guy taught the golfer a saying that I immediately liked. See, Feel, Trust. SO let's put that into play here at KTC. See the process (brotherhood, accountability, posting roll), Feel that you can commit to that process, and Trust in the process. Join your group (October). Get digits, give people yours. Post roll EVERY DAMN DAY. Make that promise to yourself and your group. So are you going to wake up tomorrow and cave again or you going to wake up tomorrow and See, Feel and Trust? It's on you.
I didn't realize Happy Gilmore was so inspirational
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Looking for your day 3 post dude. 3 days and nicotine is all out of your body. Post your promise, keep your word. You can do this...
You've got a bunch of supporters that will do anything to help you. This isn't easy, only winners can quit. Looking forward to your post today.
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Stonemac- day 3 - text to CDI @1030 EST
Way to be man. Stick with it brother. Drink the fuck out of some water today and finish flushing that nic out of your self. By today it should be gone then we have to work on the mental aspect of it. Stay with us brother and work the system as it should be worked. We are all here for you if you are here for us!
What do I mean by you being here for us. What can you POSSIBLY do for us at such a young quit? Simple. By you being here you remind me of a very young quit that I went through.... TWICE. The first time I fucked my self and my group. The next group and my current group took me in and here I sit. Your story reminds me to never do it ever again. When you post, you show me that you care enough to show up and be here for everyone as well as your self. By you posting daily you are gaining strength and wisdom and will begin to give words of witt out freely as well like everyone here has done for you thus far. One day my day may fucking suck ass and along I come and read a posts by you and think man I am glad he posted that. So do NOT EVER think your young quit is not important to us as well because it is.
We are all here for you brother! Stick with it until the ... wait .... there is no end ... besides a pine box. I'm with you every step of the way. I quit with you today Stonemac!
Ray - 289
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Stonemac- day 3 - text to CDI @1030 EST
Way to be man. Stick with it brother. Drink the fuck out of some water today and finish flushing that nic out of your self. By today it should be gone then we have to work on the mental aspect of it. Stay with us brother and work the system as it should be worked. We are all here for you if you are here for us!
What do I mean by you being here for us. What can you POSSIBLY do for us at such a young quit? Simple. By you being here you remind me of a very young quit that I went through.... TWICE. The first time I fucked my self and my group. The next group and my current group took me in and here I sit. Your story reminds me to never do it ever again. When you post, you show me that you care enough to show up and be here for everyone as well as your self. By you posting daily you are gaining strength and wisdom and will begin to give words of witt out freely as well like everyone here has done for you thus far. One day my day may fucking suck ass and along I come and read a posts by you and think man I am glad he posted that. So do NOT EVER think your young quit is not important to us as well because it is.
We are all here for you brother! Stick with it until the ... wait .... there is no end ... besides a pine box. I'm with you every step of the way. I quit with you today Stonemac!
Ray - 289
DJ - I think this guy gets it! Awesome to see a new quitter already utilizing texts. Just awesome!
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Stonemac- day 3 - text to CDI @1030 EST
Way to be man. Stick with it brother. Drink the fuck out of some water today and finish flushing that nic out of your self. By today it should be gone then we have to work on the mental aspect of it. Stay with us brother and work the system as it should be worked. We are all here for you if you are here for us!
What do I mean by you being here for us. What can you POSSIBLY do for us at such a young quit? Simple. By you being here you remind me of a very young quit that I went through.... TWICE. The first time I fucked my self and my group. The next group and my current group took me in and here I sit. Your story reminds me to never do it ever again. When you post, you show me that you care enough to show up and be here for everyone as well as your self. By you posting daily you are gaining strength and wisdom and will begin to give words of witt out freely as well like everyone here has done for you thus far. One day my day may fucking suck ass and along I come and read a posts by you and think man I am glad he posted that. So do NOT EVER think your young quit is not important to us as well because it is.
We are all here for you brother! Stick with it until the ... wait .... there is no end ... besides a pine box. I'm with you every step of the way. I quit with you today Stonemac!
Ray - 289
DJ - I think this guy gets it! Awesome to see a new quitter already utilizing texts. Just awesome!
He asked for me to call him on day 1. We talked for about 20 minutes. I hope that he continues on the path and chooses to walk it, with us.
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Thanks so much everybody. I was out with the family today all day. Thanks for reaching out to me today candoit. I feel good and committed to battle the beast.
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When you were with the family, did you just sit there and smile knowing you didn't have to make any excuses to get your fix. See there's victories every day! The amount of time you will share with your family minus nic is priceless! I could never give my family the 32 year's I wasted back. But good Lord willing I will be posting tomorrow to give them 1 more! Quit on and smile, when people ask why your smiling, tell them because im dip free today and damn proud of it!